Party of Five s06e11 Episode Script

Fear and Loathing

1 Hey.
Claud, thanks for checking Owen's homework.
I thought I'd be home to do it myself but What's with the suitcase? My East Coast college trip, remember? Yale, Columbia, a few others.
I fly out tomorrow morning.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
Tomorrow morning? I thought we were still talking about the date.
Well, yeah.
That was before I called all the schools.
There's a chance I can get into some of them midyear, -but I have to apply right away.
-Hey.
-What's with the suitcase? -Did you know about this? What? Claudia thinks she's going to New York tomorrow morning to check out schools.
What? Without me? I thought we were going together.
We were going to visit Justin at Yale.
-You did? -Yeah.
Because I thought I was going with you.
Look, you guys are busy.
You're busy.
I didn't want you to have to change your schedules.
Claud, we talked about this already.
It's not a problem.
I got a bunch of free time coming up in a couple weeks.
Or I can make time even sooner.
There's no need to worry.
I'm staying in dorms.
I have, like, a million tours booked.
I'll be fine.
Okay.
You're not going alone.
But I already have the ticket.
So you can change your ticket.
But I've made all these appointments, Bailey.
You can change those, too, Claud.
So you're just forbidding me from going? Okay, y-you know what? Easy solution.
I'll just I'll spend all my miles I saved up going to Europe.
I'll go with her.
I'll book it right now.
Okay.
Works for me.
You don't have to, Jul.
I-- Oh, I've got to call Justin, make sure he's in town.
Claud, this is so exciting.
We're taking a trip together.
It's better for everyone this way, Claud.
Really.
Yeah.
Great.
Everybody wants to live Like they wanna live And everybody wants to love Like they wanna love Everybody wants to be Closer to free Closer to free Hey, we're almost caught up on those end tables for Home Central, but we're still behind on those bookshelves.
Yeah, I was thinking, listen.
What if we cut both orders at the same time? We'd save We'd save time resetting the saws, and then we could double up on the finish work.
Yeah, that could work.
Now, on those bookshelves-- Aren't you going to answer that? Oh, right.
Still can't get used to carrying this thing.
Thanks for the fix, Charles.
Yeah.
Yeah! Well, the insurance company finally processed our appeal on the laparoscopic surgery.
Bet I can guess what they said.
Good thing you're not a gambler then.
-You mean they-- -They're going to cover it.
They're going to cover 90% of the operation.
Are you kidding me? Ninety percent? We might even be able to have a baby the old-fashioned way.
You know, like, no more drugs, no more wacky regimens.
We can just live our lives.
And-and keep doing our work stuff, and you know, whatever happens, happens.
-Well, did you call Dr.
Vasquez and schedule the surgery? -Not yet.
I mean, do you think that I should I should have it right away? No time like the present, right? Okay.
I'm going to call.
Do that right now.
Hang up and call him.
Oh, but wait, wait.
Um, you haven't told me yet.
What did What did they say? Are they going to go ahead with your design on the bedroom set? Not yet.
I, uh, still, got a couple of bugs to work out, And I'm totally swamped running the line right now, so But I thought that you had to get that going, you know, in order to make the design expo date.
Kirsten, we'll make it.
What are you doing talking to me? Call Dr.
Vasquez right now.
Okay, I'm calling.
-Okay.
-Okay.
Bye.
Hey.
Prepare for the best after-school snack of your life.
Krispies ala Victor.
I'm not hungry.
Trust me.
They will knock your socks off.
Speaking of which, where are your shoes? Morgan Twombley's got 'em.
You gave some boy your shoes? It was more like, "Give me your shoes or I'll beat your face in.
" Is this the same boy who's been pushing you around at soccer practice? Owen.
But promise you won't tell Bailey, 'cause he'll just call Mrs.
Winer.
That'll just make things worse.
You have to get those shoes back, Owen, to show this Morgan you're not scared of him.
But I am scared of him.
That doesn't matter.
You can still stand your ground.
And I'll bet he'll leave you alone.
But what if he doesn't? Hi, guys.
Where's your shoes, O? You want to tell him? Victor.
Tell me what? Okay, then I will.
-Mud frisbee at recess.
-God.
They're being steam cleaned.
Hey, Rice Krispy Treats.
I'm starving.
Thanks.
So this note says that your roommate had to go home, so you're going to be on your own.
You sure you don't want to stay with me at Justin's apartment? No, I'm sure.
I want to see how the students live here.
-Julia, I'll be fine.
-Okay, so So thanks for the ride, Justin.
-See ya.
-Yeah.
She's trying to lose us.
Old folks are cramping her style.
You call and check in.
Do you have Justin's number? -Did you give her your number? -I have it here and here.
Yeah.
Come on.
If we hurry, we can catch Laura.
I want you to meet her.
What about food? How are you going to eat? You know, you gave me this thing called money.
I think they take American dollars here, right, Justin? Mm-hmm.
She's going to be fine.
When are we going to see you? Oh, I have, like, lots of, you know, interviews and tours set up so Yeah.
Come on.
We have a schedule, too.
Let's go.
I'll see you guys maybe tomorrow night.
Maybe? Not maybe.
You'll see me-- -Come on.
Let's go.
-Call me.
You promise? Promise.
Hello.
Yeah.
No kidding.
That was That was No, I meant hello.
I don't think we actually said that bit.
Right.
Hi.
Hi.
No, wait a second.
I'm dizzy.
Let me just get some blood to my head.
Sorry.
I couldn't help myself.
It's been almost a whole 48 hours.
I know.
Absence certainly makes the heart grow.
How does it make it grow? I don't know, but trust me, it grows.
Mmm.
I was just wondering.
What if we spent less time apart? Who wants to risk it? Yeah, well, I can't help remembering that tomorrow's one of our nights off, And I'm missing you already.
What if we just threw caution to the wind and spent two whole nights together? -Holly-- -What? Listen You know, okay, I know that we are, uh, casual and nonexclusive or whatever, but I can't help it.
I just want to get naked with you, like 24/7.
Yeah, but see, the problem with that is What? This.
You.
Right now.
This whole sexual desperation thing.
Why would I want to lose that? Don't push it.
No, I'm not.
I'm not.
I mean, that's the whole point, really, is that I don't want to push things.
You know? Okay.
So just tonight? I'm all yours.
Mmm.
From now until dawn for whatever you want.
Aha.
You know what I want.
Okay.
Let me just get these groceries.
Bailey Forget the groceries.
Ahem.
Who is it? - It's me.
- Okay.
-Hey.
-Hey.
I'm sorry to come by so late.
Oh, no, it's okay.
I was wiped.
I didn't think you were coming, so I just crashed.
What time is it anyway? Mmm, a little before midnight.
I was working on these designs.
I kind of lost track of time.
Oh, that's okay.
That's fine.
Anyway, I'll just grab Diana so you can go back to bed.
Everything okay, baby? Yeah, Charlie's just picking up the baby, baby.
Hey, Luke.
I'm sorry to wake you up.
I didn't know you were staying over.
Well, actually, um To tell the truth Uh Well um, Luke is He's not really staying over.
Charlie.
-He's not? -No.
Because, well, cause we kinda You know, We sort of moved in together.
Moved in? As in, you two are living together? I really had meant to talk to you and Kirsten.
But you guys, you've both been so busy, you know.
And Pretty trippy, huh? Oh, yeah.
Yeah, it sure is.
Oh, I am so sorry.
My heart monitor's set to go off as soon as I enter the zone.
Hey, Just! Are you almost ready? I'm in the zone! Coming! -So you must be Julia.
-Yeah, and you must be-- Laura.
Exactly.
It is so great to meet you.
Justin talks about you all the time.
I feel like I already know you.
I must say, I think it's amazing that you wrote that book about that horrible relationship you had.
-When's it being published? -Oh, actually, it's kind of not.
Oh.
Well, I guess the most important thing is you wrote it, right? A guy I dated freshman year tried to get tough with me once, too.
Yeah, what'd you do? Oh, I fractured his larynx.
I'm a third degree black belt.
Oh, good for you.
Hey, hey, hey.
I see you guys have met, huh? You are right.
She is really great.
How can you tell? I'm not even conscious yet.
Oh, hey, while you're up, why don't you come with us? We're gonna do a quick eight miles, then grab some green tea.
You're going to run eight miles? Yeah! Laura's got me hooked on this.
It's amazing what you can accomplish when your body's at peak metabolic performance, right? -Mm-hmm.
-Yeah.
Oh, boy! Okay.
I'm in the zone.
You, uh, you want to come? Oh, you know, thanks, but I'm still on California time.
Okay.
Bye-bye.
Okay, listen.
I made reservations at this amazing Mandarin place.
You and I have so much to talk about.
Good.
That sounds totally-- Hmm.
Well, do the best you can with the guys you got, okay? I'll be in soon.
Hey.
How's it going? Well, three guys on the early shift just called in with the flu, so I got to find replacements.
I mean, the designs.
Any progress? Well, I found out a few ways to save some money, but I'm nowhere near figuring out how to produce this stuff with the money we have to spend.
You'll make it work, Charlie.
I guess.
Sure doesn't help I was up half the night stressing about this Daphne thing.
Look, Daphne's a big girl.
If she wants to move in with Luke-- What about Diana? Daphne just met this guy.
He seems great, but what's it been, a few weeks? -Charlie-- -Then I started reading these.
Those risk disclosure things? Those are all worst case scenarios.
It says in here that the surgery can damage your bowel, your bladder.
Well, yeah, that's incredibly rare.
There's also a bigger chance of ectopic pregnancy.
Charlie, we knew that.
That's part of why we went for the IVF.
But after the operation, for as long as we're trying, they're going to check up on me every month.
So please stop worrying.
You can't stop someone from worrying, Kirsten.
Well, try.
Okay? You've got to focus.
This project could launch you, Charlie, If you could just-- Yeah.
Hey, Tommy, thanks for calling back.
Listen, is there any way you can, uh, you can work a double today? Hey! I didn't know you were home.
So how'd it go with Morgan Twombley? Got my shoes back.
Aha, see? Didn't I tell you? All you have to do is stand up for Oh, no.
No, your pants? He said something about the flood being over.
Didn't you take him the Victor Krispies as a peace offering? Guess he wasn't hungry.
Uh, Claudia Salinger? Yes.
Hi.
I'm Peter Carlton, your student host.
We spoke on the phone.
Right.
Right.
Hi.
So a-are you by yourself? Yes.
Well, I mean, technically, no.
My sister came with me, but she's hanging out with her ex-boyfriend.
Ah, you're lucky.
My dad's an alum, right? So he just had to come along when I visited.
I got to hear about every lamppost he kissed some debutante under.
Anyway, these are the places that I really wanted to visit.
I marked them on the map.
Uh, Sterling Library, Linsley-Chit.
Yeah, okay.
I mean, if this is what you want to see.
What do you mean? Those are the recommended places.
Yeah, I-I know.
It's the standard freshman tour.
A bunch of boring buildings.
It's, uh, no, it-it's fine.
It's just it really won't tell you anything.
It won't? Why don't I give you the insider's tour? You know, all the stuff they don't put in the brochures.
At least that way, you'll know what you're getting yourself into.
Okay.
All right, cool.
Let's, uh, let's hit the road.
Owen, what's wrong with your banana split? I changed my mind.
I want banana soup.
You know, you spent the whole afternoon with Owen.
If you want to go see her, I can take him bowling.
Go see who? Holly? Why? Why would you assume-- Oh, maybe because every other word you say these days starts with "H" and ends with Olly.
I mean, why not just go see her? Thursday's our night off.
So make Friday your night off.
-Can't do that.
-Why not? Because-because I know exactly what would happen.
We'd just turn Friday into Saturday, then Sunday we'd come up with some other excuse, and pretty soon, we wouldn't have a night off at all.
And this would be bad because Because we're keeping things casual.
Nonexclusive, no commitment.
You can't get together an extra night or two and still keep things casual? This is our system.
Thursdays off, Fridays on, and Saturdays and Sundays we alternate.
Oh, I see.
Casual.
Makes perfect sense.
Hey, I'm flexible.
I can I can call her whenever I want to call her.
I'm going to call her right now.
Okay, that's it.
Food is not a toy.
Clear your tray, go get cleaned up, or you can kiss the bowling alley good bye.
Whoa.
Sorry.
Hey, what do you think you're doing? Hey, is this your kid? Uh, yeah.
Look, uh, I'm sorry.
Um-- No, I like getting ice cream dumped all over me.
I said I'm sorry.
Look, uh, why don't you let me pay to have that cleaned? Stupid kid.
Somebody should smack him.
He said he was sorry.
So just let it go at that.
You know, maybe I'm wrong.
Maybe somebody needs to smack you.
We apologized.
And I offered to make things right.
Is there anything else you feel you need? No, forget it.
I'm good.
Great.
Come on.
Come on.
Let's get Bailey and go bowling.
Who cares about bowling? I want to learn how to do that wrist thing.
Here he is.
Surprise.
Hey, uh, I need to call you back.
Okay.
-Hey.
-Hi! What are you guys doing here? Well, uh, me and Miss Diana were on our way back from the park, and we thought we'd say hi to Daddy.
Great.
It's just, uh It's kind of crazy around here right now.
Hmm.
Yeah, I knew that actually.
It's always sort of just been the arrangement that, you know, she sleeps over at your guys' place.
But I was thinking, you know, both of you are working your butts off so much that maybe it would make sense, you know, if she were to stay a few nights in the week with me.
You know, what? Uh we're okay with the way it's working.
It's no problem for us.
Yeah, I know.
It just you know, it seems silly to wake her up so that she can go sleep at your place.
Well, I just feel better knowing the kind of environment she's in.
What, uh, what is that supposed to mean? Daph, look, I It's nothing against him.
It isn't, but I mean, how well do you really know Luke? -What? -You like him.
I get that.
I like him, too, but I mean what about Luke and Diana? What about it? Luke is not her father.
He's living with you now.
What happens when you go take a shower or run some errands and she's with him alone? I mean, do you know how he's going to handle a discipline situation? Or-or what if she chokes? I mean, has he taken baby CPR like we have? Charlie, Luke is so great with her.
You have no idea how good he is.
That's exactly my point.
I have no idea.
I mean Look, you're always saying how you want to be this responsible parent, and most of the time you are, but this time, I'm sorry, I just I don't think it's the most responsible move.
But the most amazing thing about Kenya was the people.
I lived with the Masai tribe for six weeks.
I, uh, I helped them build huts made of cow dung.
I watched them sacrifice goats.
Wow, that must've been-- Incredible.
It was.
It was.
I mean, these people They have no mall to shop in.
They are completely self-sufficient! I have to use the restroom, but remind me to show you my photo albums later.
And I have slides, too.
-Hmm, hmm, miss me.
-Yeah.
I tell you she's amazing? You told me.
She's really I know.
She's a force of nature.
I mean, just being around her is like being on a drug.
Mm-hmm.
You know what? I should try Claud again before Laura comes back.
Actually, Julia, I kind of wanted to talk to you about Laura.
You do? What about her? Well, see, the thing is that I mean, she has changed my life.
Really.
And being with her, my GPA has gone up.
I'm finally headed in one direction.
Well, that's great, but give yourself some credit.
I mean, it's not all her.
See, the-the thing that I love most about Laura is she doesn't have one of these five-year plan things.
She has a plan for the rest of her life.
-I believe it.
-And I've seen it, too.
You know what she has penciled in there after graduation? What? -Me.
As in me and her.
-Wow.
I know, so I'm thinking, you know, why wait? Why sit around and talk about something? You just go ahead and you do it.
So you're saying what, that you might propose? I might.
Yeah.
But I wanted to see what you thought first.
I-I wanted to see if I'm crazy.
But you get it, don't you? I mean, you see why I love her so much.
Well, yeah.
I mean, yeah.
I mean, Justin, how-how could I not, - when she's just so - Well, you know.
She's Yeah.
Yeah.
I can't tell you how much it means to me to hear you say that.
Really.
Charlie.
Hey.
Hey.
Must've just dozed off.
I was up all night trying to work these numbers.
Where's Diana? She was just playing on that rug.
Diana? Diana? Sweetie, where are you? There you are, you silly girl.
Okay, you've made quite a mess here, haven't you? I was only asleep for a second.
Well, she's way into toilet paper these days.
Aren't you, boo? Aren't you? Yes.
Okay, wave goodbye to Daddy.
-Look, Daph, uh -Goodbye.
this-this never happens, okay? I've just been so exhausted trying to figure out this problem with work.
Yeah, I know.
Stuff happens.
Even to responsible parents.
So, you all clear on the social landscape? I think so.
Let's see, Durfee's is where the sugar and caffeine addicts hang out.
Check.
And for your salt and fat fiends? Uh Naples? Right? Hey, there's hope for you, Salinger.
So, are you sure it's no hassle if I tag along to your class? Not as long as you promise to take good notes.
Oh, okay, so that's why you give these tours, huh? To find good note-taking slaves? What slave? I just bought you a double-mint latte.
Ooh, we gotta go.
-Oh, okay.
-Here.
Put this on.
No, I'm okay.
Trust me, we gotta walk all the way to Science Hill.
That blazer alone won't cut it.
-Thank you, but-- -Come on, take it.
I get in big trouble if visitors die of pneumonia before they fill out an application.
-It's a long walk, you said? -Yeah.
I should just use the restroom.
Yeah, there's one on the way.
See, it's not about kicking as hard as you can.
It's about foot placement.
Like ballet.
Okay, forget ballet.
You try.
Yeah.
Not bad.
You're gettin' it.
Now, what's rule number one? Only use self-defense to defend yourself.
That's right.
Violence is always the last resort.
You use your words, and you use them again.
And then, and only then-- Can you show me a flying scissor-lock? Excuse me? Will and I saw the Asian assassin do it on The Wrestling Death Match.
Just in case my words don't work.
Whoa, what are you doing in here? Uh, I was waiting for you.
Why? Well, class is an hour and I just couldn't wait to Whoa, wait.
I smile at your jokes and I take your scarf and suddenly I'm your girlfriend? No.
No, C-Claudia, that's not what I-- I mean, why can't a girl just be friendly with a guy without asking him to come after her? Wait, what are you This is a co-ed bathroom.
I came in here to pee.
Oh, man, what is the matter with me? No, it-it's okay.
You know, a lot of girls get freaked out when they see guys in here.
-I have to go.
-Claudia Come on, Claudia.
Hey, you're home early.
Yeah.
Been missing my two best girls lately.
Well, give me a couple of minutes to eat some dinner and then I'll take her so that you can work, okay? Uh, there's no rush.
-I'm not gonna work tonight.
-Really? Does that mean you figured out how to build it? Um No, actually, I didn't, So I, uh, told Gus to put it on hold for a while.
On hold? Till when? Just till, uh, things settle down a little bit.
Well, I don't understand.
You were taking that stuff to the expo.
The expo's next week, right? Yeah.
Well, I tried to find a way to make this thing work without machining the headboards or buying prewelded frames or 100 other shortcuts.
I'm just out of ideas.
So you're just giving up? No, I'm not giving up.
I just, uh, I just don't have the time right now.
I mean, I've already got a full-time job.
And then there's your surgery tomorrow and there's Diana to think about.
But those things can all be worked out, Charlie.
I mean, okay, so it's a challenge.
So what? You can't just drop out the first time it looks like it might not work.
Kirsten, what is your problem? I mean, you've been on my case about this for weeks now.
How long have you been dreaming about this? Years.
Since before your company went to Seattle.
And how many chances have you had since then? Just this one.
Am I right? Look, I'm not trying to tell you how to live your life.
I just I hate to watch you let this opportunity go by.
If you're giving up on this one, I hope it's for a good reason.
What is that supposed to mean? You know what, Charlie? You figure it out.
-Hey.
-Hey.
-Ready to hit the town? -Uh, just about.
Just finishing up here.
Mmm.
So how was your day? Uh, it was good.
I have I have to ask you a question.
Mm-hmm.
What exactly is our policy on dating? Oh, um, as often as possible up to the maximum permitted within a casual, nonexclusive relationship.
Oh, really? It's that open? Oh, yeah.
Open between each other.
Oh, right, yeah.
Of course.
You meant between other people.
No, I didn't.
I didn't.
I just I couldn't remember what we had said.
Do you want to ask someone else out, Bailey? No, not at all.
I don't.
Why, do you? No.
I'm sorry to say that you're the best I've come up with so far.
But if you did If you did want to ask somebody else out, would you tell me? Well, would you want me to? Yeah, I would.
Well, then I will.
Okay.
What? Holly, where were you last night? I tried calling three times.
I was out with a friend from work.
A C T resident, actually.
Why? So you work with him? Who says that he is a him? Holly, I saw him.
Okay.
Hey, I'm not saying that you don't have the right.
It was within our agreement, but you just got finished saying that you would tell me the truth-- -You were spying on me? -No, I wasn't "spying" on you.
I wanted to see you.
And I called and I got your machine, so I figured I would just come by and surprise you.
What, you were lurking around outside my house? -Holly, relax.
-And what? I mean, I kissed a colleague good night on the cheek, and now I get all these weird innuendos.
-Holly, I'm only-- -No.
God, this is This is just fantastic.
I mean, it's so nice to know you have all this deep, invested faith in me.
No.
God, I'm going to leave before I say something I don't regret.
Holly, wait.
Holly.
So I'm sitting there thinking, "No, don't do it.
Please don't propose to her.
" I mean, God, he only just met her.
And Laura, I mean, she's fine.
She's just a little pushy.
But it's like he's obsessed with her or something.
Not that I'm j-jealous.
I'm-I'm not.
I mean, if he's happy, that's great, But the thing is I still feel like I should've been honest with him.
You know? I-I feel like he's rushing into it, because I just sat there and I didn't say anything-- Julia.
I really don't care.
What? I've had a very bad day, and I just I don't even know why I'm here.
Okay, I'm-I'm sorry, what happened? You don't want to hear this.
Well, of course I do.
Well, anyway, I just figured you should know that I'm flying back tomorrow morning.
What? Claudia, tomorrow? What about Columbia? What about NYU? I changed my mind.
I just I want to go back, so you can come or you can stay with Justin, whatever.
Wait.
Hold on.
I don't understand.
What happened? Could we not? Okay, I'm tired and I just want to go back to my room.
Claudia, talk to me.
Tell me what I can do and I'll do it.
Can you travel back in time and stop me from going into that room with Derek? Can you do that, Julia? No, I can't.
Then you can't help me.
-Hey.
-Hey.
Um, Daphne's at the store, but she's going to be right back.
Okay.
Hey, there, lady bug.
- Hi.
- Here.
Hi.
Hi.
So, uh, how's it going? Not bad, you know.
Okay.
No complaints.
What's that? Well, um, I guess I should get going then.
Oh, um, Kirsten left her diaper bag here, so you-you want to come get it? Okay.
It's right Here we are.
This one right here.
Good girl.
Wow.
Did you do all this? Oh, yeah.
I was going to get some of them glow-in-the-dark stickers, but, yeah, it's getting there, huh? This must've taken some time.
Oh, it's no big deal.
Uh, so, listen, if it's easier, I can just drop Diana by your place tonight, you know.
Save you a trip.
Uh You know what? Actually Kirsten could probably use a good night's sleep tonight.
So, uh, would you and Daphne mind taking her overnight? Sure you're okay with that? Yeah.
Yeah, that'd help us out a lot.
Yeah, sure.
Yeah.
Okay.
So if you could just tell Daph, uh Just tell her that I said thanks.
Okay.
She took off for her informational interview.
She going to be all right? How would I know? She won't talk to me.
Well, if you want to go find her, you know, Laura won't mind.
We can have lunch later or we can just meet for dinner.
Yeah, you know what? Maybe I should do that.
-Okay? Yeah.
-Okay.
Oh, Julia.
Um, thank you.
Why? What for? Well, for what you said last night.
Uh, it really helped me make a-a decision.
-It did? -Yeah.
I think I made up my mind.
I'm gonna ask Laura to marry me.
Wow, Justin.
When? Who knows? Maybe at lunch.
No time like the present, huh? Congratulations.
-Hmm.
-Thank you.
I love you.
I love you, too.
-Hey.
-Hey.
You're home early.
That's because I had to pick Owen up from school.
From the principal's office.
Seems he kicked another kid in the chest on the playground today.
Oh.
Um That would be Morgan Twombley.
If there was a problem at school, Victor, why didn't you tell me about it? Well, you've been a little distracted lately, being with Holly or whatever.
Plus which, Owen asked me not to.
He didn't want you calling the school.
Great.
So instead the school calls me.
What were you thinking anyway, teaching him how to fight? I don't know.
It just felt right.
It felt right to tell him that it's okay to solve his problems that way? Yeah, if he's tried everything else, yeah, I think that's okay.
-Well, I don't-- -Look.
I've been there, you know? I mean, I look at a kid like Owen walking around afraid.
I spent too many years that way, scared to look at other kids in the eye, ashamed.
I mean, maybe you don't see it that way, but I think a person should face their fears, no matter what.
It's the only way I made it through.
They told me you canceled your meeting with the dean.
Yeah.
Listen, Claud, last night you left without telling me what happened.
Now, I don't know, maybe Maybe if you explain it to me, then-- I can't.
Why not? 'Cause I can't, so please stop asking me.
Just leave me alone.
No, I won't leave you alone.
I won't let you say nothing.
You have to say something, Claudia.
-Just go away.
-Claudia, will you stop? Just stop for a minute.
Don't you think I want to talk to you? Okay, so talk to me then.
I'm right here.
I can't.
I can't talk to you because I don't know what to say.
I'm a mess and I'm so confused.
Okay, so don't Don't talk.
I don't know what to say.
It's okay.
Hey.
Hi.
How do you feel? Um, kinda tired, but okay.
I spoke to Dr.
Vasquez, and, uh, he said the procedure went really well.
Does he think that I might be able to get pregnant? He didn't make any promises, but, uh, he thinks we've got a real shot.
You know what's weird? For some reason that scares me.
It does? Why? Well the doctors have done their thing.
There's no more excuses.
It's all up to me now.
Kirsten, you shouldn't feel that way.
Like you need excuses.
Come on.
You've done everything you possibly can to make this happen for us.
You've been so brave.
In fact, I could stand to take a lesson from you.
What do you mean? Well last night you were right.
It's been five years since I've had the shot that I have right now.
And somewhere along the line, I started to wonder if I could do it, if the luck I had back then was just luck.
Don't start doubting.
Always having all these huge obligations, this family to take care of, has always been the perfect reason not to try.
But now there's nothing keeping me from this.
I have no more excuses.
You don't need excuses, Charlie.
You just need to do it.
I know that.
What if I can't? Hey.
I'm not spying on you.
Okay? I just came here to talk to you.
Okay? I've been thinking a lot about what happened last night.
Yeah, me, too.
Okay.
Well, let me go first.
Please.
I've been acting like an idiot.
Okay? I know that, but there's the reason that I have.
I've been scared, Holly, that's all.
I've been scared of losing you.
Listen, Bailey-- Which is harder for me than it is for some other people for a lot of reasons, but especially because I mean, let's face it, I'm-I'm just getting over the last relationship that I lost.
Yeah.
I've been aware of that.
Which is why I know now that I want to change all of that.
Okay? Just face that fear.
I want us to be exclusive now.
Holly, I-I don't want us to be casual anymore.
Okay? Because whatever it is that I have been hiding from, hiding from it is not going to fix anything.
Neither is this.
You just said it a second ago.
You're not over her.
I know, but I'm getting there.
Okay? Which is why I want us to do this.
Do what? Have a rebound relationship -to dull the pain? -No.
Holly, wait.
It's okay.
I mean, I have been as naive as you have.
I mean, I honestly believed that if I stuck around long enough, that time would take care of this.
-And it will.
-Yeah, eventually, maybe.
But right now I can't take this.
You know, it's been stopping and starting for the last few weeks.
And it's nobody's fault.
But it's breaking my heart.
-Holly, listen to me-- -No.
Please, don't.
'Cause there's nothing that I want more than to believe whatever it is that you're about to say.
We're breaking up, aren't we? You need time.
So take it.
And when you're ready to fall for someone really ready I just hope I'll still be around.
Hey, what's up? I was just having this, uh this dream, this factory dream, and -And? -Well, I've been trying to find a way to afford this finish that'll make this stuff feel high-end, right? And in my dream, all of a sudden, I just I just saw it.
Frank Gehry left his stuff unfinished all the time as a choice, so why can't I? Hmm.
That's great, Charlie.
Yeah, that's really That's really -Jul? -Yeah? Can I ask you something? Of course.
After Ned did it take you a long time before you felt like you could really trust someone? Yeah, it did.
That's the thing.
I feel like I don't really know anyone.
You know? I think I do, but I can't really trust my feelings.
You know what I mean? I know.
You want to tell me what happened? Yeah.
He was this boy, this very friendly boy, like I thought Derek was.
Anyway, the first day he showed me all the cool stuff that wasn't on the regular tour.
He sounds really nice.

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