First and Last (2018) s01e05 Episode Script

1 I'm a go-getta daddy, a go-getta daddy I be stunting like my daddy while I'm riding in that Caddy If you a go-getta, let me see you put your hands up Down, up, down, up, down, up, down, up On my last day, I'm thinking about starting a new life.
Walking out them front doors.
It's an amazing feeling.
- The best feeling in the world.
- You're just ready to touch the outside.
The day I get out, I am probably going to eat everything in sight.
I buy my own shoes I buy my own cars I'm not a five-star I'm a ten-star You walk out that front door and you put it behind you.
Ah yes, man.
I'm back on the street.
I can't believe this is really happening.
Sun on my skin, let my hair out.
I gotta go.
Walk out of those doors, it's gonna be the best feeling in the world.
- Best feeling in the world.
- Freedom.
I'm ready to go.
I'm ready to hit this motherfuckin' door.
- I'mma hit that bitch running.
- Sure you ready? - Do you leave at, like, 11 or 12? - Are you really ready? - I'm really ready, okay? - I'm talking about up here.
Oh, I'm ready.
My name's Toyea Whittard, I'm 23 years old.
I'm here on VOP for reckless conduct, disorderly, and trespassing.
I've been here for 45 days.
I caught all these charges 'cause I fucked a bitch up 'cause of my kids.
My aunt's friend came over with her children.
The little boy picked my daughter up, and her head hit the bricks under the house.
I was at work.
I got a phone call 'cause my daughter had a concussion.
Went home, and my aunt's friend has this real loud ghetto mouth.
And so when I said something to her she just really started, you know firing and I blacked out and ran up and hit her in her face.
Whoa! So, you know I did that, the police came, I was still in the house, 'cause I knew I was going to jail.
So I got anger problems, I had anger problems since I was little.
My mom said, from kindergarten, I was pretty rough.
At school, I didn't want to listen to authority.
I wanted to do what I wanted to do raised all type of hell in school.
Growing up, I was always in so much trouble.
I really don't know why I was so angry.
And I still am angry.
Nigga was posing and shit.
My mom was like, "This nigga" When I'm angry to that extent, nothing matters.
And nothing can stop me from doing what I wanna do.
It's an adrenaline rush.
I don't know how to control my emotions.
- It be hard - I just be seeing red, fuck that.
- That's just what I'm saying.
- Yeah, red.
I definitely can't do that no more.
I don't like that my kids gotta be with my mama or my boyfriend.
I wanna be there with my kids myself.
It don't take control just on us It's on the kids too.
- And you say you got how many? - Four.
Four kids, married separated, all type of shit.
- Okay? - A long story, long life for a young For a young lady, you know, I've been through it.
You can sell my soul To the Lord above But I'll keep on keeping on What's your last name? - Rice.
- Who's got Rice's things? - [female sheriff.]
You been here before? - Once.
One time? But I'll keep on keeping on Here.
Put it on.
I can put it on? [female sheriff.]
Once you put it on, look into camera box number one for me.
- Number one? - Yes.
You're good.
Is today your birthday? Yeah, today my birthday I made 21, finally, dog.
You all, please don't have me like this on my birthday, for real.
[laughing and slurring.]
For real.
Walk through the metal detector.
I crashed my girl's car, man.
Bullshit.
On my fucking birthday.
- Get inside right here? - Yep, in there.
Yellow footprints.
I been to work, fucking from 8:00 to 1:30.
Come out, went home, drink a little bit, went by my dad's house, drink a little bit, went by Walmart, come back, hit the pole.
Mm-hm.
That's what happen when you try to get lit on your birthday.
Yeah.
Shit got crazy.
One minute you're having fun, next minute sitting in a cell.
Dang.
I told myself I ain't never coming back to jail.
Look what the fuck I did.
I hit the goddamn pole, man.
They is not going to let me out, bro.
I'm finna sit in here and gonna rot.
They might not let me out because I already on house arrest.
The last time I been here they were trying to blame me for a series of armed robberies and stuff, but it wasn't me.
I wonder if they gonna take this shit off before I go upstairs.
Everybody make sure to tell you when you leave, they tell you, "Hey, don't come back.
" You gonna always find your way back.
There ain't no place like home.
Jail is home for a black man, man.
Really.
All right.
Line up! Well, I'll die that day Oh, darling I'll die that day Ham sandwich? I don't know what that is.
Not happening.
I'll die that day Shit has no juice.
They treat us like shit in here, man.
Well, look at my juice.
[indistinct speech.]
I'm just trying to get out of here.
We all are.
We all have children.
We all have families.
We all have jobs.
We all got grass to cut, you know? None of us want to be in here for this.
I got here Friday at around six o'clock.
But it feels like forever.
For a silly reason, you know, a silly mistake.
I've been on probation for possession of marijuana.
I completed it, paid my fines.
But, probation, that's something you have to stay on check.
What you get arrested for? - Right now? - Yeah.
- Shoplifting.
- What? - Shoplifting.
- Oh, okay, okay, I got you.
I was with some friends.
We went to Walmart.
My friends, they were grabbing stuff.
[inaudible.]
They got caught, but I was with them.
When the police came, the officer told me to turn around.
And I'm just like, "What? What's going on?" And he just said, "Yeah, you have a warrant for your arrest.
" He said, "Violation of probation.
" I had a bond for the shoplifting charges, but they told me I couldn't bond out.
I just don't know what's going to happen with me.
If I'mma stay locked up or get out of here.
It sucks.
- I miss my girl, man.
I miss my old lady.
- Me too, man.
I'm telling you, I was supposed to get married tomorrow, man.
God damn! - Come on, dude.
- It's bullshit.
I already had it all planned out.
I already have the rings waiting at home.
My fiancée, she's had her dress all ready.
I'm just really hoping I get outta here Hmm Hello? Hey, baby.
Hey, babe.
What's up? I'm stressed out.
Hopefully I'll be able to get outta here.
That's what I want.
Just, I really need to get that warrant cleared.
I just wanna know what's gonna happen.
Remember, no matter what happens, just know I'm always gonna be here.
Today's my birthday.
[indistinct.]
Mm-hm.
I make veintiuno.
Me, I make veintiuno today.
Yeah, man.
I've been waiting for this day for a minute, bro.
But I'm still kind of drunk right now, too.
Rice? Bring my stuff? Yep, grab your paperwork.
I'm vexed, dog.
Upset, dog.
Stand right here in this yellow square for me.
Hands down by your side.
The only times I got locked up been up here in Atlanta.
I never been arrested at home.
Where were you born? Atlanta, Georgia.
I was born up here, but I was raised down in the Virgin Islands.
Came up here when I was 19, ain't had no record.
No, nothing.
Came up here.
[makes neck cutting sound.]
Your height and weight? I probably like 5' 11".
My weight is like you know, skinny.
Okay, I don't have skinny.
How about 140, is that roughly right? - Yeah.
- How many tattoos? I look skinny, right? I only got two tattoos.
All right, sir.
You have three citations.
Unsafe lane change, no driver's license and driving too fast for conditions.
$953 is your total bond.
In order to post bond, you can pay cash.
That would be the entire amount.
So I can go, for real? Are you listening to me? Yeah, I listening.
That's all I hear, I could get out.
You can get out.
If you can't bond out, you'll go to court Monday morning at eight.
Today is Saturday, oh God! I just wanna go to sleep.
Hopefully I get out in a few hours, you know? I wait for this day so long, you know? I'm blessed to see 21.
Set your paperwork right here.
My brother got killed when he was 19 years old, my older brother.
I was 15.
My brother was 19.
That's why I got the tattoo.
You know what I'm saying.
It's my brother that got killed, that's why I have the RIP over this one.
So even if I'm in prison, in jail I'm still blessed, I don't even care right now.
Hey! All wake up, brother.
Wake up! Y'all stink.
Home, sweet home.
Home, sweet home, shit! I don't live with no niggas, dog.
Man, I can't even get a little seat here.
It's fucking crowded, dog.
I don't even wanna sleep, no nothing right now with the goddamn I'm just waiting to get the fuck out of here.
What you going to do when you get out there? Uh, I don't know, probably hit up my girlfriend.
- You know what I'm saying? What she on.
- Well, yeah.
First, first.
[laughter.]
I'm talking about getting out, about to eat some real food.
Sit with your family, you know what I mean? The first week here felt like just regular jail, then the second week felt like prison.
It's hard.
It's very, very hard.
I'm just happy it's over, almost.
Tell him the story.
- Of what? - About the beer.
I get two, you know what I'm saying, Budweisers Appreciate it.
I just got two, you know, cases of Budweiser, put it in a cart, in a buggy.
I go straight to the register.
Me and the lady catch eye contact like in the nastiest way.
She got like scared, like tempted.
And so she get on the little radio, blah blah I'm like, "Man, F this cart" So I just went straight out, you know, straight out to the parking lot.
So you was outside but the beer was inside? Yeah, I ain't taken nothing out of the store, bro.
I see the cop pulling in, do a swing, you know.
[screeching noise.]
Turn around, "Hey you, stop!" So, I'm like, "Man" Before the beer incident, you was already on probation.
But the probation officer's basically been saying, "Look, you violated by having a run-in with the police.
We gonna set your black ass in here and you gonna do your time that way.
" I'm 26.
I'm charged with theft by shoplifting.
And that was good because You know what I'm saying? My PO, she was telling the judge, you know what I'm saying, "He gotta look after his grandma," you know, - which is true.
- Right, right.
He gotta take pills for bipolar, which is true.
I have bipolar uh, depression, and, uh, bipolar schizophrenia.
Even at five years old, I knew something was different but I didn't really know you know what I'm saying, what it was.
The first time he came, he was asleep, and all we hear was [high-pitched giggling.]
- Who, me? - Yeah, you! The first night was, "Oh, okay, maybe he just in here, you know, having a dream.
" Then the next night he did that shit again.
Going to sleep at night, sometimes I hear voices.
Sometimes they're like very, very strong.
And they're really vulgar and they say inappropriate things.
He said he had a condition.
I said, "Why don't you try to go get some medicine?" - You know, pill call? - I actually told the nurse downstairs what pills I needed, you know what I'm saying? She said, "Yeah, we gonna give you some pills, whatever.
" I been here 20 days, ain't took no pills.
Didn't take nothing.
I told him, "When you get out, you gotta take that medicine.
" - Yeah.
- Know what I mean? Yeah.
Mm-hm.
[male sheriff.]
You step over here.
You get your pill.
Some individuals come in with their own mental health medications.
Then you have those on medication that's been prescribed here, through the medical department.
Our goal here is to make sure that everybody is taken care of.
But there are those individuals that we find that slip through the cracks, and we go back and try to get those issues resolved.
You said your brother would come get you? Yeah, my brother's gonna come get me, my oldest brother.
- Gonna do it up.
- That's cool, yeah.
- Yeah - And you gotta have that plan and you got to execute.
Make sure you get your medicine and stay focused, you know what I mean? - [woman.]
Don't get me goddamn started.
- [Toyea.]
I got no time for that.
Ooh Ching! That jack just walked like a motherfucker, hold up! - Oh, no she didn't.
- I'll take our kings.
I met some great women in here, but it's a lot of females and different attitudes, so my 45 days have been hell on wheels, um You know, I went through my ups and downs.
I've got into a fight since I've been here.
I've been to the hole they call IMAX.
.
I went up there for six days.
[women's voices and laughter.]
There's like a handful of motherfuckers in here and it's loud as hell.
[Toyea.]
Ssshhhh! Don't turn up.
- Relax - Just relax, okay? Don't do it, I don't want you going to IMAX.
I do have anger issues.
Since I was 20, I've been on probation.
I still have three and a half more years to go.
And so the judge reprimanded me to go do anger management classes.
I'm going to try to take these classes, because if I don't get it under control, I'll be right back here.
[woman.]
We been getting some dirty looks, but I ain't gonna say nothing though.
[Toyea.]
I know I been gettin' dirty looks, but guess what? These ho's hating 'cause I'm going home.
I'm so ready.
My mama gonna take me to Waffle House when I get out.
I'mma go get me a, um a double hash brown with everything in it.
I need some coffee.
'Cause I don't plan on sleeping tonight.
[PA system blaring.]
- Coffee? - [Toyea.]
You got coffee? [woman.]
Bye! Don't come back.
Good luck, honey.
Bye, honey.
She's leaving tonight.
I am.
- Okay, be good.
- Be good.
Bye.
- Bye, honey.
- Bye, honey.
[sheriff shouting orders.]
Being here and away from my children, I realized I need to, you know, wise up and be a woman that has four children and stop acting on impulse.
Try to channel my bad experiences as a lesson for my kids so they won't follow through with the same mistakes that I made.
Is it over? [woman.]
Hey baby.
What's up? They're about to send me upstairs.
I just wanted to let you know.
We normally keep them down there for 48 hours.
Just to give them the opportunity if they're gonna make bond or not.
At that point, if they're not bonded, they're then showered, and their personal property's inventoried, and then they're headed upstairs to the classification unit.
I just wanna make you my wife.
I was supposed to get married tomorrow.
I guess that's getting canceled.
I wish I could go back in time and change everything.
I wouldn't be in this mess.
Stop thinking about it.
You're gonna beat yourself up.
Sometimes, I guess, we have to go through stuff to learn what life's really about.
I'll call your name, start lining up.
Ortega.
Sagrero.
I was actually going on a good path in life.
Went to school.
Had a job.
Had my own car.
The American dream.
My mom, that's why she brought me here to the US.
To get me and my brother a better life.
I wasn't born here, you know? I came here when I was very young illegally.
All right, so you're about to watch a couple videos.
They're both really important.
No talking, got it? I arrived here back in 2003.
I was four years old.
Yeah, we crossed over here through Arizona.
I just remember a lot of walking.
A lot of having to hide, actually, from immigration.
Having to stay low-key and not get caught.
My mom having to carry me a lot.
She said she carried me most of the way It's harder to live life here not being a citizen.
At any point, immigration can go to your house and just for no reason, you know they can have your whole family back sent to Mexico.
It happened to my step-dad.
He got in a car accident.
And because he didn't have a license he [giggling.]
They deported him.
I'm just like, "Wow, really?" Just for not having a license? It just really sucks.
I'm really tired, to be honest.
Haven't been sleeping.
Can't get no sleep.
Hopefully immigration doesn't show up.
[man.]
You ain't going nowhere.
you've been here all your life, you're going nowhere.
Hopefully, man.
I just really want to leave and get outta here already, I mean, before immigration comes.
[Christopher yawning.]
I wrecked my girl's car, bruh.
I told her I got in an accident, but I ain't told her I totaled her shit though.
You totaled it? Bruh, she gonna kill me! [Christopher laughing.]
She gonna kill me, bruh.
I really come up here to finish school, but I had to do work 'cause I got two kids.
Three.
Almost three, 'cause my girl, Von, pregnant right now.
[automated voice.]
You may start the conversation now.
Baby.
What? I'm in fucking jail, man.
I know where you at.
I got bail, you know? I got bond, you know? I know how much your bond is already.
Well, you gonna pay it? I'm not finna coddle your ass.
You think I got extra money to be throwing out in the trash? I know, baby.
Your daddy is trying to figure a way to get you out tonight.
Big thanks.
How am I gonna get back and forth to fucking work? I specifically asked you not to drive my car like that, right? I'm so sorry, mama.
You think sorry gonna change anything? You think sorry gonna make anything different, make anything better? You hit a fucking non-moving object.
You're right.
Don't stress, okay? That's easy for you to fucking say.
It's not easy, I just trying to keep you on the positive side.
It's easy for you to fucking say! Man, you ain't gonna keep me on no positive side, 'cause ain't nothing fucking positive.
I'm pissed the fuck off.
I don't like a woman that'll trip, but she do a lot for me.
More than any girl ever do for me.
That's a girl that I will always love, dog.
I love you.
What's love got to do with it? What, not even "I love you" back? Love ain't gonna do shit for me.
Fuck me over, that's what love do.
Fuck me over.
Ain't gonna lie.
I been fucking up.
Like, I been slipping.
I really just been taking chances today, man.
This is a fucking hell right now.
[inaudible.]
The first week here, it was kind of like, you know somebody had my mind, like, at a grip.
Not taking my medication, it was really like hell, almost.
Really like being in a cage, almost.
When you feel that way, you push yourself away from conversation.
It's dangerous almost for someone with mental issues.
Because they don't know where they're at.
[inaudible.]
It feels like other people around you are watching something totally different than what you're watching.
[inaudible.]
I'm dealing with the world while I'm dealing with a whole different world.
It's energy draining, trying to listen to people and listen to what's going on in your head.
- [man.]
That way.
- [man.]
That way.
[indistinct men's voices.]
[basketball bouncing.]
When I'm angry, lonely basketball gives me reason in life.
You know, walk on to the court and it wakes me up.
Y'all ready for this? Okay.
[shouting.]
Makes me smile.
It's on right now.
It makes me feel sane.
Almost.
Let's go! [men.]
Ooohhh! [inaudible.]
[PA system.]
Break time is ending at this time.
I need everybody to pick it up.
[cellmate.]
I would kill for a cigarette, dude.
Not literally.
That was figuratively.
It's just I haven't had one in five days, and I would love to have a cigarette.
[Yoshua.]
Yeah.
[automated voice.]
This is a prepaid collect call from [inaudible.]
Bueno.
What's up? Hey.
Can you check what's my status? It says "Hold for immigration.
" This is bullshit.
Got a hold for immigration.
Can't be bonded out from that.
Scary situation, not knowing what's going to happen next.
They're really trying to send me back to a place I've never been for shoplifting.
You only have Trump to thank.
I feel so bad my mom's going through this again.
We need to get married ASAP.
Stay calm, okay? So I could be calm.
[Yoshua.]
I love you, baby.
I love you, too.
803B, Eichelberger.
You're going out sir.
[Sgt.
Thomas.]
The biggest challenge when being released from Gwinnett County is not having the people in place or the support in place to assist them with staying on track, meaning making sure they have shelter, and just providing for them.
They say you come to Gwinnett, uh, on vacation, you leave on probation.
Gonna hit this door, see my babies.
Right side of the hallway.
When I walk outside, it's a big world and I guess, being a grown man now I accept the fact that I can't handle it by myself.
I do need help.
So I think, taking my medication and I'll start feeling like my normal self.
I haven't been myself for a long time.
[Toyea.]
What'll definitely stay on my mind is trying to stay outta trouble with my children.
You know, I've missed so much, so it definitely hurts.
I just have to let them know I won't leave no more.
[sheriff.]
Proceed on your left.
Get dressed in the stall and I'll give you the rest of your property then.
[Toyea.]
Goodbye, Gwinnett County Jail.
Bye, take care.
You, too.
Oh, you'll never see me again.
I hope not.
[laughing.]
Shower shoes go in the trash.
Or you wanna keep 'em? - Nah.
[laughing.]
- You sure? - Yeah, I'm good.
- All right.
- I'm ready.
I'm ready to see trees! - To see trees! We're going under trees! Like, I wanna see real cement.
I've been waiting on this night To come I'm free! Feels good, doesn't it? It does feel good.
Having bipolar, everything is like a puzzle sometimes.
I have a lot to conquer.
The human mind, body, and soul.
I feel like I can.
I keep searching I keep searching What's up with you? Good, good, good.
[inaudible.]
I keep searching [man.]
Yoshua! Um, not too long ago, an immigration officer came and he talked to me.
He just said "You're actually being held for immigration because you're here illegally.
" [Sgt.
Thomas.]
Based on immigration laws, we place holds on subjects who are foreign-born and have committed a crime.
It's the initial phase of getting them before an immigration judge the determining factor on whether that particular individual will be deported.
[Yoshua.]
There's no bond for that, after 30 days, you know.
Immigration is going to go and pick you up.
And send you back to Mexico.
Our local agencies have gotten together to assist ICE with, uh detaining and helping with removing people here that are illegal that violate laws.
I mean, I really didn't expect for this to happen to me.
I don't consider myself an American citizen, but this is where I belong.
You know, here with my family, people I know.
Good night, my dear Be still, your worried heart They're trying to send me to a place I've never been.
Take heed, sweet love You'll never be alone I wish I could go back in time and make things different, but but what happened happened, and I can't change it.
So I guess sometimes you have to deal with the consequences.
I'm ready to go home, man.
I wanna go home.
Dog, if I could've bailed myself out, I'd bail myself out right now.
My wallet, everything, they got all of that.
Let me call my father and see what's taking him so fucking long to get to me.
They getting you ready? They getting me ready? I thought you were Yeah, I'm sitting outside right now, you know? Oh yeah? You done pay my bond already? Yeah! [laughing.]
Yeah, me so Hey glad to hear Hey glad to hear.
Because I got to take a shit.
[laughing.]
For real? We sitting outside.
We be outside.
- Okay, all right.
- All right.
Yes, sir.
Yeah.
Dog God is so good! He just know.
See? There's the woman with my paperwork right there.
Come on with it.
Come on with it Come on with it - Come on with it - Rice! First and last time in Gwinnett County Hotel.
[laughing.]
Oh Oh Bitch! - I'm free! - [woman.]
'Bout damn time.
Fuck you mean, bitch? Please, faster.
I'm very excited to see my mom and my kids.
I love my babies to death.
Uh, we're looking for you guys.
Where are you located in the parking lot? What? Oh, I see Daddy with his orange on.
We can't miss him.
He orange.
- [Kolandriana.]
Oh, I see him.
- Is that my son running by him? [Toyea.]
Hey, Mommy! I've been through a lot in my life.
I learned that everything happens for a reason.
You're so pretty! I need to stop and think about my actions.
I lost weight, look at my pants.
[laughing.]
Hey, Jayden.
Ooh I don't know what my life would be like if I didn't have my kids.
- Mommy loves you.
- I love you, too.
I missed you.
Did you miss Mommy? Gimme sugar.
To see them, it reminded me of what I can lose if I come back to jail.
Did you miss Mommy? - Mommy misses you.
- [Kolandriana.]
Girl I love you, too.
Hey, Daddy! [sobbing.]
I've gotten appointments for my anger management classes already.
And so, I'm moving in the right direction.
So I'm very excited about that.
It's nothing that's impossible.
I'm free at last.
Is that a pork chop? [Mother.]
Yes.
Oh, Jesus Christ Nobody's getting none of this.
I get so paranoid Thinking about all the things you do Thinking about you Jail ain't a place for me, man.
I became too spoiled, dog.
Feels good.
Freaking going home, take a shit drink some water, go to work.
I ain't even taking a shower!,,,, Oh, my soul, spinning out of control Don't let me down gently Don't make a sound when we fall down that hole Damn.
Beautiful day.
Back at home.
 I just got to be careful, you know what I'm saying? But, uh, it's going to be what it is.
It's either we get out, you know what I'm saying, and get healthy, or we keep backing off, backing off into, like, a hole, almost.
[man.]
Come on, Ced! Gimme straight points! Oh, my soul, spinning out of control Don't let me down gently Don't make a sound when we fall down that hole I'm going to sign my voluntary departure.
Because if they deport you, that's ten years that I can't come back to the US.
And if I sign voluntarily, it'll just be three years.
I'm just now waiting for immigration to take me on that plane and ready to go to Mexico, I guess! Yeah.
Oh, my soul, spinning out of control Don't let me down gently Don't make a sound when we fall down that hole Oh, my mind, it ain't easy to find Don't let me down easy You're never gonna see me falling behind Real gangsters, man, they got some real shit to talk about.
- What happened to your arm? - Got shot.
Bullet went in my arm right here, and the bullet's still in the back of my arm.
This shit come back and hurt you.
I turned evil, man.
At the age of 13, I had me kill somebody.
I killed my first person.
And it felt good.
I'm a go-getta daddy, a go-getta daddy I be stunting like my daddy While I'm riding in that Caddy I'm a go-getta daddy, a go-getta daddy I be stunting like my daddy While I"m riding in that Caddy If you a go-getta, let me see you Put your hands up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down If you a go-getta, let me see you Put your hands up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down