A Hot Summer Night (2023) Movie Script
1
(mellow music)
(mellow music)
(drawer scrapes)
(computer whirs)
(keyboard clicks)
(keyboard clicks)
(keyboard clicks)
- Hi.
I'm Summer.
(mellow music)
(car engine rumbles)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(footsteps thudding)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(somber music)
(neon buzzes)
(neon buzzes)
(somber music)
(wine clinks)
(wine clinks)
(somber music)
Hey, Mom.
I know,
I know, I know, I know.
Soon as this is over, I
promise I will come visit you.
I promise.
I'm sorry. Really?
It's blue skies here.
In fact, I'm staring
at a seagull right now.
(laughs)
See, you need to come visit me.
Yeah?
(gasps)
They called you?
Oh my God. That's amazing.
That's amazing, Mom.
That's great.
No.
Of course we're
getting you in the trial.
What are you talking-
(sighs) Mom.
Okay, hold on.
How much?
By, by when?
Uh, no, we can.
Yeah, Mom,
we'll-
I will do it.
I will get it done.
I will get the money,
I promise you.
(laughs)
No.
Don't you worry how.
Mom, don't talk like that.
I want you around
for a very long time.
I love you too. I love you too.
And don't you worry
about it, I promise you.
I promise you I will do, yes.
Okay. Okay.
I love you too.
Okay, bye.
(lips smack)
(sniffs)
(car engine rumbles)
(sighs)
(sighs)
(sniffs)
(exhales sharply)
Hey, Frankie, it's me.
I'm sorry, I know I haven't
talked to you since Christmas,
but Mom just got
into a clinical trial.
(tense music)
This is amazing.
Please call me as
soon as you can.
Thanks. Bye.
Hey, Lori.
Oh my God. Thanks
for picking up.
No, no, I haven't taken a drink.
Yeah. Just passed my 60 days.
I promise you.
Not a drop.
Okay. I won't even
sniff it. (laughs)
I promise I will check in
midnight or around there,
you know, in between clients.
Oh, yeah. I'm
working my ass off.
Over and out.
Thanks, Lori.
Me too. Bye.
(tense music)
(sighs)
(tense music)
(car engines rumbling)
(car engines rumbling)
(horn honks)
- [Meditation
Speaker] Just for today,
I will be kind to myself.
Just for today,
(shower splashing)
I will not judge other people.
(shower splashing)
Just for today,
(water splashing)
I choose to be happy.
(water splashing)
Just for today,
(water splashing)
I accept and love myself.
(water splashing)
- Oh my god.
- Girl!
- Didi!
- Oh my God.
- Holy, oh, hug, hug.
Checking on my old girls.
Checking on my old girls.
All my girls, my all girls.
You can't, I can't
even freaking speak.
I'm so tired from just.
- Oh my God. I, I, I
was thinking of you.
How can you handle that
whole homeschooling thing?
Excuse me. I'm
gonna grab my tea.
- Okay. Well, frankly,
I can't. (laughs)
I mean, I can,
it's just, you know,
they're acting
like little assholes
because they have to sit in
front of a screen all day,
which I, I don't, I
don't blame 'em.
It's like they're little
old men with their shoulders
hunched over.
And then my ex-husband's
constantly calling me now
because, you know,
he can't get laid.
Cause it's freaking COVID.
He thinks he is gonna like,
I'm like, no,
you're gonna come
and get the kids
and give me some freaking peace.
I wanna talk to my girls.
(Summer laughs)
So, how are you?
- Things are a little,
little crazy on my end.
I actually have a bunch
of clients lined up that,
hence my beautiful face,
and I'm basically-
- Workin' it, workin' it.
- Dancing for them online.
- That's great. I've been
really worried about you guys.
Like, you know-
- Well.
- Trying to figure out
how to make ends meet
and everything.
- I have a deadline,
tomorrow morning,
I need, I need $4000
for my mom, so.
- Wait, wait, wait, back
up, for your mom, why?
- For my mom.
- What's wrong with your mom?
- Did you not know?
She's, you know what?
I probably, I probably
didn't tell you.
She has cancer,
so we've been trying to
get her into this
experimental trial.
- Wait, how long, how
long has this been,
has she had this whole time
that you've been working,
you just didn't really?
- I just didn't say anything.
- No, why do you keep
all that stuff inside?
This is horrible.
- Thanks, honey.
I didn't wanna, I didn't,
"Hey," we're supposed to-
- I mean she's your family,
you should have told me that.
- I'm sorry.
- Hold on, what's that, you
need four grand for tomorrow.
For, for what?
For?
- Well, so basically these
trials, they're free,
but you need to be
housed in the same city
within a particular radius.
And then I also need
to fly her down there.
So it's, and oh,
and here's the thing.
So we,
we had no idea when
she was gonna get in
and it's like when,
someone dropped out.
So it's like, you need
to jump in like that.
Otherwise someone else-
- [Didi] There's only
like so many people that-
- That they take at
once, yeah, exactly.
I know, I know it's a little-
- You make my problems
seem like nothing. (laughs)
(Summer laughs)
- Oh, don't, no, hey I want you-
- How have you been
holding it together, I?
- Well, I looked
at people like you.
Hello, you hold it together.
You always would
keep us in line.
- Yeah.
- And keep our spirits up.
Run that club,
and raise two kids.
- Well.
- Get like no sleep but
still look fabulous.
- Well believe me like, plenty
times go in the bathroom
and go (screams) when
you guys don't know it.
- (laughs) Oh my god.
Oh my God, babe, you know what?
I, speaking of clients,
I need to get going
because my first ones come-
- Okay, you go girl, you go
girl, make your mom's money.
We'll talk soon.
Okay, lemme know, lemme
know how it goes, okay?
I'm thinking of you.
- I will.
- I miss you.
- I love you, bye.
- [Didi] Bye.
(sheets rustle)
(tense music)
(Summer exhales sharply)
(phone ringing)
(clock ticks)
(phone ringing)
(clock ticks)
(clock ticks)
(clock ticks)
(phone ringing)
- [Nico] Hey, it's Nico.
Leave a message.
I'll call you back.
(voicemail beeps)
- Hey Nico, it's me.
I, ah, can't wait to see
you tomorrow night. (laughs)
But, before that,
remember that $1000
that I loaned you.
Um, yeah, I really,
really need it.
My mom, um, got
a spot in the trial
and money's due tomorrow,
so please call me back
as soon as you can, okay?
Thank you baby, bye.
(clock ticking)
(Summer sighs)
(clock ticking)
Hey, honey.
- It is so good to
see you, Summer.
- What, it's been a
couple weeks, since
you were my very first customer.
- I tell ya, it has
been about that.
And I've missed ya, I mean,
it's like therapy to me, just-
(Summer laughs)
You are, you just
brighten my day
and all my worries,
with my businesses here,
just go away.
- Thank you,
well do you like the little
touches that I added?
I did the whole
disco ball thing,
I thought I, I thought I'd
up my game for you guys.
- It definitely will suffice
during these hard times.
- I'm glad, I'm glad.
So you're still at work?
- We've got a few things
we've got to take care of,
we've got, some of my
tenants haven't paid, so,
I'm trying to figure out how
to take care of all that.
- Oh my gosh it, it's gotta
be a headache, you know?
- (laughs) We'll
see where it goes,
this should be over soon
is what I'm hearing.
- Well you know, you
must've gotten the memo
because we match.
I'm like looking at
our ties. (laughs)
- [Marty] Definitely. (laughs)
- You got the, the uniform memo.
- We, we linked our minds.
- I like that.
Well, speaking of linking,
how would you like a
little bit of a dance?
- I would love a lot of dance.
(upbeat music)
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
(upbeat rock music)
(tip chimes)
(upbeat rock music)
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah
(tip chimes)
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
(upbeat rock music)
(juice swishes)
(Summer glugs)
(Summer exhales sharply)
- I gotta tell you, the
hardest thing has been, ah,
you just feel invisible.
You know, when you don't
have people around you.
And ah, you know, I just wanted,
I just wanted
someone to see me, so.
I needed this, you know what?
I don't care if people out
there say it's pathetic
or whatever,
I don't care if I
have to pay for it.
I need someone to see me.
Let me know I'm still, I'm
still a part of this thing.
And, you know, it just,
it's silly, I know, but-
- No, it's not silly, Cesar.
It's not silly at all.
We all feel invisible sometimes.
- I don't know. I just, I
get a little sentimental.
I just miss our
time at the club.
- I know.
- You know, I just,
and just, and just, just,
it was always so glamorous.
(Summer laughs)
And, and, and then
there's this, you know?
- Well,
you're talking about glamorous.
Maybe I can bring that,
a little of that,
to you right now.
- (sighs) That would be amazing.
(upbeat lively music)
(tip chimes)
(upbeat lively music)
You know, I think I'm
about to cry. (laughs)
I mean, that was...
(Summer laughs)
I haven't, you are the
first person I have seen
that wasn't someone on
a social media page.
(Summer laughs)
That was amazing.
Thank you.
(somber music)
(Summer exhales sharply)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(somber music)
- [Summer] So how are
you keeping your sanity?
- I kind of got into the
depression for a second,
and then I woke up and, and,
and, and caught the light,
so to speak.
And, you know, I stayed home,
saved money on a lot of food
that I don't buy anymore.
(laughs) You know?
(Summer laughs)
Being that I'm not
working as much.
All my camera gigs are,
are, are done with.
So yeah, I just, you know, I,
I went on YouTube and
studied all the water fasting
and stuff like that.
Lost 45 pounds in 30 days.
I don't wanna just work,
I want to, you know,
I got dreams and I, and,
and being that everything
is on hold right now,
my object is to come
back 100% better
when everybody sees me.
So I'm, see, I'm, I'm,
I'm actually reverse.
I'm looking for a couple
more days of lockdown.
(Summer laughs)
So I can get,
so I can actually get better
before people see me again.
So that's, that's my
incentive right now.
So, you know, 45 pounds in
30 days has been, has been,
you know, the first goal.
Um, I'm reading.
I'm actually learning
Spanish. I'm learn-
I mean, I'm just trying to get,
so by the time that at
the end of this thing,
when I come back and people
actually see me next time,
that I'm gonna
be 10 times better
than what you saw me before.
- (speaks in Spanish)
Since, in Spanish. (laughs)
- Yeah. Yeah. (speaks
in Spanish) (laughs)
- Wow. (speaks in
Spanish) (laughs)
(both laughing)
Wow, oh my gosh, that's amazing.
45 pounds in 30
days. My mind is blown.
- My gathering
after what I've done,
is this has been,
it's like going to
rehab, you know?
And, and, and I got a
whole new look on food now
because like food,
if you put food in your
body, you act a certain way,
you feel better, you feel
worse, you, whatever the case.
So to me, food is a drug.
- Yeah.
- [Tony] Now that, that's
the way I look at it.
So, and it's the
same way with rehab.
It's just, you know,
when you go through rehab
and you get all that
stuff outta your system,
you go through detox,
you go, you know,
you get the headaches,
you get the nausea,
you get a, so I went to sleep.
- Well I gotta ask
you this though.
Are there times when
you can't fall asleep?
That's...
- Oh, yeah. Yeah.
I, I mean, yeah.
And, and, and it's
funny because, you know,
that's, that's when, you
know, you turn on the TV
and you know,
or, or, or you know,
go back on the YouTube
and do some more research.
- Or you call me.
(upbeat music)
(tip chimes)
(upbeat music)
(tip chimes)
(tip chimes)
(upbeat music)
(inhales deeply)
(exhales sharply)
Let me see now.
Okay.
Jerry.
Hey.
- Hi.
- How are you?
- I'm, I'm good.
I'm good. Hang,
hanging in there.
I really missed you. (laughs)
- [Summer] (laughs) Well,
I've missed you too.
I'm glad.
- Oh.
- [Summer] I'm glad to
see you on here at least.
- Yeah. This is ah, seems
to be my only contact with,
with anybody right now.
- Hey, your, your kitty was
sick when we last cammed.
What, how's he doing?
- Um.
Yeah, he passed away.
Had to be put down.
- Oh, Jerry, I'm so sorry.
- No, it's, it's,
(sniffs) it's, it's fine.
Thank you. Thank you. (sniffs)
My best friend.
But you know what? Looking
and seeing you Summer.
Its makes me feel a lot better.
- I am,
I'm so, so
sorry.
I wish I could give you a hug.
Just know I'm
doing that right now.
- I was gonna go home
and see my parents
before this whole
thing came down.
But I canceled that.
And they're getting
older, so um,
I hope they're gonna be,
they're, they'll be
okay, they'll be fine.
They'll be fine.
What, what about you?
How, how, how are
you, how are you doing?
- I am hanging in there,
you know, one, one foot
in front of the other.
I sometimes do these
mantras and I don't know, I,
I'm just trying anything now.
What do you do?
- I meditate. It makes me
feel a little bit better.
- Yeah? Yeah?
- Yeah.
- Look,
what do you do?
Do you do it for like
five minutes, 10 minutes?
I don't know. I feel like I'd
go crazy after two minutes.
- It's, well, you know, my
place is really quiet now, so,
except for my
neighbors, they, I don't,
they play their TV at
all hours of the night.
But I try to do it for
like, oh, you know,
like 20 minutes or so.
- Maybe I'll attempt
it. I don't know.
I think it might make me
climb the walls more. (laughs)
- Yeah. (laughs) Yeah.
Can I see your feet?
- Ah, sh, of course. (laughs)
- [Jerry] Oh, yeah.
(breathes heavily)
Those are pretty shoes.
(breathes heavily)
Oh God. They're so nice.
Yeah.
(breathes heavily)
Oh, you've such pretty feet.
Oh yes.
(breathes heavily)
Oh, yeah.
Oh, your shoes are
so beautiful. (grunts)
I love your feet, I love them
so much. (breathes heavily)
Oh yeah.
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
- Hey. Yeah, Frankie, sorry.
Yeah, I'm sorry it's late.
I know.
Yeah. So you got my message?
Well, oh my God.
Frankie, don't,
don't be an asshole.
She's your mother.
I can't believe you're
still holding onto that.
You can be...
Okay. Look, I apologize for-
No, this is not for alcohol.
Yeah.
I'll have you know, I've
been clean for over 60 days.
Oh, don't, fuck
you, don't mock me.
(sighs)
Oh my God.
Are you serious, so you're not
gonna, you're not gonna help?
Your own mother.
Fuck you.
You know what?
(laughs)
You're just like Dad,
you are just like Dad.
(cloth scratches)
Yeah.
Fuck you too.
Son of a bitch.
(cloth scratches)
(sighs)
Jeez.
(footsteps padding)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
Hi baby.
It's me, Summer.
Call me for some cam action.
I miss you.
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(exhales sharply)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
Mommy, don't worry.
Yeah, seriously.
I, don't worry.
I'll have it.
I will, I will have
it by tomorrow.
Tomorrow morning, yes.
No, no, no.
I heard you the first time.
Don't worry about church, okay.
You, you'll,
you'll be able to do what,
those online mass things,
you know?
Yeah.
Yes, I will do that.
I'll get your plane
ticket. You'll be all set.
Hm, okay, do not worry, please.
I love you too.
And get some rest, my gosh.
It's so late there.
Okay. Love you.
(lips smacking)
Sleep. Sleep.
Take deep breaths.
You, you took your meds? Good.
I don't want you
to forget again.
Okay. Love you.
Bye.
Bye Mommy.
(lips smacking)
Bye.
Hey Laura, Jeff!
- Hey!
- [Jeff] Oh my god.
- It's so great to see you guys.
- [Laura] It's amazing
to see you again.
It's been too, too long.
- We have talked about you
every day since this all began.
You're like a
breath of fresh air.
- Yes.
Isn't, we miss our
weekends with you.
- Doesn't that feel
like years ago, I?
- Yes.
- It does.
And as, as this drags on,
it feels like more years
are being added on as we go.
- (laughs) Yes.
- How have you guys been
doing? Tell me, talk to me.
- I'm essential.
So I'm, I'm one of
the lucky essentials
that have to still
go to and from work
and, and it's just weird
being out there anymore.
- Yeah.
He, he has to wear a mask.
Like I get, like,
if you're sick,
you wear a mask 'cause you
don't wanna get another,
anybody else sick,
I don't get,
when you're not sick
you have to wear a mask.
I, and so we get
into this debate,
'cause I tell him he is
and he has to do it cause
you know, it's his job.
- No, but I've come home
still wearing a mask
'cause I'm starting
to get used to it,
and she, you know-
- And I get on him.
'Cause I'm like, why are
you breathing your CO2?
You know, you're not getting
paid to breathe in that crap.
So then we get our
little bits of fights,
but then we make up later.
- We do make up later.
- The makeup part is fun, right?
- [Laura] It is. It
really is. (laughs)
(Summer laughs)
- [Jeff] That's the
whole point of it.
- So let me see what
I can do for you guys.
I am going to switch,
right about there.
I think that looks good.
And let me find some music.
I come from the town
that never shuts down
Rocks all night and day
You better watch out
these women out here
Will take your money away
Shorty talk to 'em
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Make your booty talk
Make your booty talk
All these ladies
making that money
Time to turn it up
I got them bands
to make 'em dance
Turn around
and shake yo butt
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
(tip chimes)
Make your booty talk
Make your booty talk
Even when you're walking
I see your booty talking
Now that's a conversation I
would like to get involved in
Oh you're insta famous
all because your anus
Is it real is fake I don't
care what you're claiming
Ha oh you're a model
you do commercials
(keyboard clicks)
- Oh, man.
Just a little summin summin
for you two. (laughs)
- We want more.
- (laughs) That was awesome.
- Good. I can
always give you more.
- [Laura] Especially on the bed.
(Summer laughs)
- You know, I, I want
you guys to know
that you are a breath of
fresh air in, in my life.
Really.
'Cause I like knowing that
there are some couples out there
that actually work. (laughs)
- Thank you.
- That make it work.
- [Laura] Well you do
help a lot. Thank you.
(Summer exhales sharply)
(somber music)
(Summer exhales sharply)
(somber music)
- Thank you, baby.
Now I can pay JJ.
As soon as Flaco gets
me my money back,
I promise I'll pay
you back, okay?
Love you.
Thank you.
Bye.
(somber music)
Just stop nagging me, all right?
I don't have the money.
(somber music)
All you do is take
pills, drink, and sleep
until you go shake that
ass in the club again.
(somber music)
(Summer laughs)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(somber music)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(phone vibrating)
(phone vibrating)
(phone clicks)
- Nico.
(exhales sharply)
Yeah, babe.
You kinda disappeared on me.
Of course, course. No, I get it.
I get it. These things run long.
Are you still coming
over tomorrow?
(sighs)
Okay. Okay.
Before you get into that,
you got my message right?
About the money?
Babe, it's been six months.
We're talking about my mom.
This is for her treatment.
Oh my god.
What the?
(inhales deeply)
(exhales sharply)
Don't gimme that.
(scoffs)
No.
(door slams)
Babe.
Babe. Babe.
You know, we've
tried everything.
You know, you can
be a selfish person.
Oh, you're gonna tell me that?
What about you?
You pulled up
with every fucking.
No, you knew what I did.
You really knew, you
really knew what I do.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
You are the, you
are the asshole.
(door clatters)
(Summer sighs)
(footsteps thudding)
(footsteps thudding)
(trash clatters)
(trash clatters)
(trash clatters)
(Summer sighs)
(clock ticks)
(trash clatters)
(clock ticks)
(trash clatters)
(clock ticks)
(trash clatters)
(clock ticks)
(trash clatters)
(clock ticks)
(trash clatters)
(clock ticks)
(footsteps thud)
(footsteps thud)
(glass clinks)
(glass clinks)
(clock ticking)
(Summer sighs)
(Summer exhales sharply)
(phone vibrating)
(phone vibrating)
(phone vibrating)
- Hey.
Hi, sweetheart. How are you?
Well, of course I can,
um, can you give
me five minutes?
Okay. I look forward to it.
Yes, you can pay
me through that.
Okay. Buh-bye.
(tense music)
(Summer exhales)
(water running)
(bottle clatters)
(water running)
(mellow music)
(clock ticking)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(clock ticking)
- Divorce.
DUI.
Lost my job.
Lost my friends.
Hurt my family.
(somber music)
(clock ticking)
Divorce.
DUI.
Lost my job.
Lost my friends.
(somber music)
(clock ticking)
(somber music)
(clock ticking)
(somber music)
(clock ticking)
Hey Omar,
great to see you.
- Hey, great seeing you too.
- (giggles) How have you been?
- Ah. Okay.
- Yeah.
- Been okay.
- I'm glad we're able
to hook up tonight.
- Me too, me too.
Finally I got some
time, time for myself.
- Yeah, how, how, how
have things been going,
on your end?
- Stuck at home.
There's no work, you know,
there's no construction
going on right now.
Everything stopped.
And my wife, my
and my, my little girl,
at home 24/7, driving
me fucking crazy,
paying two mortgages.
My mother-in-law, she
fell and broke her hip.
Poor thing.
But I'm paying her mortgage.
(inhales deeply)
- Wow.
- And I have no work.
So, you know,
and good luck
reaching unemployment.
And you guys, you guys,
I mean this club, it's,
will you ever open?
Think about it.
I mean, well, well,
clubs ever open?
I, I I don't know how, as
long as this should exist,
what you, what you gonna
be strippers wearing masks
and behind plexiglass
or something like that?
- I, I don't know.
I don't know what's
gonna happen.
Um, but in the meantime,
we have this at least,
online, you know,
'cause face to face is, is
really important I think.
- (inhales deeply) Yeah.
Yeah.
- Well maybe I can bring a
little of the club to you.
Yeah? Lift your
spirits a little bit.
- I'd love that.
- (laughs) Awesome.
Let me see.
(upbeat music)
I can be a girl
in a man's world
(tip chimes)
Love the way it feels
Walking into a crowded room
(tip chimes)
No hiding in these heels
I can be a fighter
in the lion's den
Watch 'em circle round
They'll never see me coming
(tip chimes)
They'll never hear a sound
Boys, I'm not just
one of the boys
I've come to take their toys
Don't be fooled
This girl's not
another brother
Boys, I'm not just
one of the boys
I'm the one hurting boys
Don't be fooled
This girl's not
another brother
I can be a girl
in a man's game
A diamond in the dirt
I'm pretty bad if
you're in my way
Might get you 'til you hurt
'Cause I can work
I can curse with
the best of them
I can run you down
like the rest of 'em
Legs, blush, taking names,
moving fast everyday
To the beat of my own drum
Boys, I'm not just
one of the boys
I've come to take their toys
Don't be fooled, this
girl's not another brother
- Wow.
(sniffs)
That was hot.
- Thank you, Omar. (giggles)
- You're so fucking hot.
- I'm glad you think so.
- Can I ask you something?
You know, I've always
wanted to ask you something.
- Ah, sure. (laughs)
- Yeah. I mean, you're a
pretty girl, we all know that.
But you are obviously smart
and I always wondered what,
why don't you do something else?
Why, why strip for a
bunch of fuckin' guys?
Why not get a, you
know, get a decent job
and, and, and do something else?
- So you don't
think this is decent?
- I mean, you can't put on
your resume "I'm a stripper,"
if you apply for
something else, so.
- I like dancing.
Let's just keep it at that.
Okay?
But thank you very much, Omar.
Make sure to text me whenever
you get that itch. Okay?
- I will.
- Thank you. Buh-bye.
(sighs)
(sighs)
(body thuds)
(exhales sharply)
Hey honey, it's Summer.
(upbeat music)
Yeah
- Call me.
Let's have some fun on cam.
Yeah
Yeah
God always
Mykael V
I done wasted
enough of my time
I'm gonna need that back
Time after time with the
I've been wrong, out of line
Like I don't read the signs
I'm so done with the lies
That's why
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
- So, you know, I do the family
law thing and everything,
I'm worried about
the people that
report the child abuse
are babysitters,
teachers, counselors.
So if there's, and people are
drinking like crazy, you know,
they didn't shut
off the alcohol.
So they're stuck in their
houses with their kids.
They're not used to that.
So I can only imagine
the number of cases
that's gonna go
through the roof, and I-
- You know, I got sick in March.
- I can't take it with people
making all these snide remarks
and jokes like kung
flu and Wuhan virus.
I hide through the place
they picking the tissues
They think and they
cry and they laugh
And they ain't
finna miss you
I been up like all night
Working on the craft 'cause
the suckers don't ball right
Dude he 'bout to swing
'cause we ain't about to fall
I'm living on my knees
'cause I know I ain't all, I
Oh my God
Never gon' stop
I think I'm finna
Change my legal name to Pops
(tip chimes)
Y'all a bunch of birds,
I ain't even gotta fly
Looking for the beef
- It's scary. It's scary.
You don't know
what's gonna happen.
We don't know how long
this is gonna go on.
We don't know.
Like.
- Yeah.
- It's terrifying.
- I spray everything
with alcohol,
like, I pretty much want to
shower in alcohol after that.
- It's just, you know, rude
glares and comments right now.
But like, god forbid,
one day people
start becoming violent
over this kind of stuff.
- I'm taking care of
my parents, my dad,
he cannot even do anything
by himself anymore.
He cannot drive.
So I have to go and do
the groceries for them.
I have to,
I have to sometimes tell
my mom take a shower.
I mean a bath.
And it's like having
two kids. (laughs)
But, I mean, I like it
and I love them, but oh,
they drive me crazy
sometimes, you know?
They don't know about
me and my private life.
So it's so hard for me to
act me in front of them.
If you doing this
for dollar signs
You are out of line
Yeah, pay attention
to the product line
People that is modified
Yeah, eyes up
on the bottom line
Before you are out of time
Yeah, out of body,
moving me so out of mind
I can see through
all that jealousy
Can't compare
to all the pedigree
They saying it's something
- To me, you're an
essential worker.
I'm lost. But I know we all are.
But this connection to
me is just as valuable
as having to see a
doctor in some ways.
You know, keeps me going.
- I just want things
to go back to normal.
- It's really
affecting the team.
We don't know if we play,
I don't even know if I
want to play this season.
- Nobody really knows
what the COVID is.
- Honestly. I just feel tired.
I ain't got no time
- I just feel drained.
- Who knows what's gonna happen?
- Are you get,
are you getting enough
people to be able to see
and talk to and?
- Well, somewhat.
But I gotta say, Billy,
if you wanna send some referrals
my way, I am so open to it.
(laughs)
- I don't wanna share
you with anybody.
(Summer laughs)
- Well, you can't keep me
on retainer for 24/7 now.
- No, you could
quarantine at my place.
(Summer laughs)
- Yes. We love our parents.
- Yeah.
- They are who they are, right?
- You are amazing in terms
of just being like an,
like an almost like a therapist,
like a dancer turned
therapist on screen.
I was like, oh man,
I really feel like I
could say, you know,
I could really talk about
my frustrations right now.
(laughs)
I'm living on my knees
'cause I know I ain't all
I, oh my God
Never gon' stop
I think I'm finna change
my legal name to Pops
Y'all a bunch of birds,
I ain't even gotta fly
Looking for the beef,
find a light up in God
See it at the top,
praise be to Jah
I ain't need a
job, glory to God
Milly with the rock,
Jordan with the hop
Catch me at the boat
10:30 on the dot boy ah
Yeah time after
time with the
I've been wrong out of line,
Like I don't read the signs
I'm so done with the lies
That's why I
ain't got no time
- Whoa.
(Summer laughs)
(client laughs)
I ain't got no time
- You know, why are
people blame, like,
trying to blame me or my
mom for, for this disease?
- It's better to be rich
and sick than poor and sick.
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no
Yeah time after
time with the
I've been wrong out of line
Like I don't read the signs
I'm so done with the lies
That's why
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no
- If this goes on
another couple of months,
I'm not gonna have enough
in reserve to keep my staff.
I mean, I, I tried to
pay 'em, you know,
I put 'em on unemployment.
Well, not everybody's
doing that.
A lot of people just
fired their whole staff.
Like, I don't even know
what, but I'm doing my best.
But I, I got maybe
three more months
and then I'll be one of the,
the business victims I guess.
- So my parents finally,
they got out of the house and
I was like, oh, thank God.
(laughs)
But they don't wanna
wear a mask. They, no.
(speaks in foreign language)
Oh my god.
Done with the
lies that's why
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I can see through
all that jealousy
Can't compare
to all the pedigree
They saying it's something
but I'm seeing is jokes
They never wanting the smoke
They feeling
it in their throat
Only a matter of time we
gonna see them all choke
Unravel, the sun battles
The intimate folk
Oh no, oh no we know
they slaying their soul
They internet trolls,
the intimate note
They feeling is go, yeah
Yeah time after
time with the
I've been wrong out of line
Like I don't read the signs
I'm so done with the lies
That's why
I ain't got no time
I'mma need every minute
y'all took from me
I ain't got no time
It's my time now
I ain't got no time
God always
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no
We in here
(mellow music)
(Summer sighs)
- Hey Lori.
It's me checking
in like I said I would
and guess what?
I'm still sober.
Yay.
But it's been so fucking rough.
Okay, I'll check in
tomorrow morning.
Yeah, thanks.
Bye.
(exhales sharply)
(exhales sharply)
(coffee pot clatters)
Just for today, I
will not drink alcohol.
Just for today, I
will not drink alcohol.
(exhales sharply)
(mellow music)
(hands scraping)
(key clicks)
(halting piano music)
(halting piano music)
(halting piano music)
(halting piano music)
(somber music)
(Summer sighs)
(somber music)
(piano lid clatters)
- Hi.
- Hi.
- Yeah.
- I still-(laughs)
- It's been a while, yeah.
- (laughs) It's been a while.
I mean, I I hadn't seen you at
the club for a while either,
so it's-
- Yeah, it got kind
of, I don't know,
it just kind of got
a little weird for me.
Nothing you did or anything.
It just,
I just kind of had to
stop for a little bit
and then COVID, of course
and everything else.
So, but anyway.
Yeah, you look great.
- Thank you. As do you.
I mean, you know, your
handsome face is obscured, but.
(laughs)
- Yeah,
I can't get to the
barber with COVID
and this beard is like
devouring my face.
But yeah, I kind
of, I've, it's weird.
I, I don't know how this works,
but it's kind of like
the club in there
and I was kind of hoping
that it wouldn't be, um-
- Oh, really?
- Well, I wanted to, I
I need to talk to you.
Um.
- Oh my gosh. Oh yeah.
Okay. I can turn the lights off.
- Can you like do that?
- Yeah, of course I can.
Totally, totally, totally.
Uh, yeah. Cool.
Just bear with me for a second.
- Okay.
(inhales deeply)
Okay.
- I I was, do you
want me to dance?
- Yeah, can you, yeah, can you?
- Of course, of course.
- I'm sorry. You're beautiful.
I love to look at
you, of course.
But-
- Thank you.
- I just, you know, it's,
I'm, I'm, how are you?
Are you okay? Like doing good?
Are you doing all right?
- Hold on for a second.
You are the first person
to ask me that. (laughs)
Really ask me that, you know?
Thank you. Thank you.
Ah,
it's rough.
- Yeah.
- It's rough.
Well, not getting into the club.
And actually my,
my mom, I, gosh,
you probably don't know-
- [Rick] Well no, I
want to hear, that's,
I need to hear something
personal actually. Um.
- Yeah, well my mom actually,
you don't know this,
but she's been battling
cancer for a while and she-
- [Rick] Oh, shit.
- She, yeah.
And then with COVID, so,
but an opening in a clinical
trial just opened up.
So we're really excited.
I just need to get the
cash to get her down there
to house her to-
- Yeah.
- So that's, that's
weighing on my mind.
- And that's, I,
I, I That's rough.
I know that. That's how my,
my wife passed from that.
- Really?
- Yeah. Four years ago.
I, I think I told you
she, she's gone, but-
- Yeah.
I didn't know the
story behind it though.
- Yeah, no.
So that's, it's, it's,
I need to talk to you.
I'm hoping. I just, I
know this is strange.
This is probably weird to ask,
but I, I feel like, you know,
in the club, you, you
kind of role play, right?
You kind of be whatever we,
you think we want you to be.
And, and you're
practiced at that.
You're very good at that.
And so I, I, I just, I want
to ask you something and I,
I hope that you
can do this for me,
but um, I need you to,
to talk to me like my wife
Today is the
anniversary of her death.
And you know,
it's been four years and,
and usually at this time,
I, I go back, you know,
I, I transferred out here
from Florida and I go back
and I, I visit her grave
and I bring her um, irises,
um, her favorite flower.
And I talk to her
and she kind of,
I feel like she
kind of talks to me
and I, I, I get some clarity.
And I mean, she
was fantastic, Sharon.
She, she was a writer and,
and also like a photographer.
She saw, everything was
black and white to her.
It was very clear.
And, and I needed that.
And with COVID, I can't go back.
So I'm here and I've
just been lying in bed
and just drinking and trying
to kind of conjure her.
And she's not coming.
And there's something I
need to ask her tonight.
And, and um,
it is just hard because
(sighs)
we had a really great marriage.
And
when you love
somebody like that,
they don't die.
I mean, they're
gone, but they...
Your heart doesn't
stop, you know?
It just keeps going.
And that's, that's
the hard part.
I, I, I haven't
been able to let go.
I mean, I haven't
taken this ring off
and I, I need to,
you know, I need to like move
on and fucking live again.
And so that was what I was
gonna talk to her about.
And I need her, you,
to tell me it's okay.
Okay? So that's
what we're gonna do.
Hi, honey.
- Hey, honey.
I miss you.
- Ah, I miss you too.
I, I wanted to talk to you
about something tonight.
It's, you know, it's, I've
been having a hard time.
I hate LA, I, I don't know
why I transferred out here.
The, I don't have any friends.
I just, my coworkers, you know,
and so I've been,
I've been drinking
a lot and I've been,
I've been going
to this strip club,
but it's not sexual.
I, I, I talked to this woman,
this wonderful woman
named Summer.
And um, she doesn't know it,
but she's really
helped me a lot.
She's helped me see that I,
I do want intimacy in my
life and I want to move on.
And I can't.
And I, I, I haven't
taken our, our ring off.
And I need to,
I need you to tell
me that it's okay
and that I can move on.
That I, I need to live again.
I think I'm ready.
So can, can you
tell me that?
- Rick.
You know
I love you
so, so, so.
You were and are my life.
And because of that, I
want you to be happy.
- [Rick] Okay.
- You've got to move on.
You've got to move on.
- I know, I know. I'm-
- It's lonely.
- Yeah.
Um,
so it's okay?
(sniffs)
- It's more than okay.
- It's not that, it's not
that I don't love you.
I will love you forever.
Okay? (sobs)
Okay.
I'm sorry. It's just, yeah.
Here we go.
Bite the bullet. (laughs)
(Summer laughs)
One, two, three.
I can't even get it off.
(Summer laughs)
Oh, fuck.
Oh.
(sobs)
- Oh, baby.
- Oh my god.
(Rick sniffs)
(Rick gulps)
Thank you. (sniffs)
- You're so welcome.
- Oh my God, (sniffs)
Jesus, um-
- You're welcome.
(Rick sniffs)
- Ah.
(Summer chuckles)
- And I meant what I said,
you've, you've helped me a lot.
I, I do kind of
consider you a friend
and so I hope this
wasn't too weird and...
Okay.
- Rick. Not weird at all.
At all.
- Okay.
(Summer sighs)
(Summer sobs)
(pen scratches)
(pad thuds)
(somber music)
(plastic bag rustles)
(plastic bag rustles)
(plastic bag rustles)
(somber music)
(plastic bag rustles)
(plastic bag rustles)
(somber music)
(plastic bag rustles)
(plastic bag rustles)
(somber music)
(plastic bag rustles)
(plastic bag rustles)
(plastic bag rustles)
(bag thuds)
(somber music)
- Hey Nico, it's me.
Your stuff's out on my sidewalk.
Pick it up whenever you want
and get some help.
(somber music)
(message beeps)
(door slams)
- Hey, hey, what?
Oh my God, what-
- I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I know, I know, I
know it's late, but I-
- Are you okay?
- Yeah, I'm okay.
It's more about you being okay
and why I'm calling
you so late because,
talking to you so
late, because I have,
I could not let slide
what you told me
earlier about your mom.
I just could not go
to sleep about that.
And you know me, I'm a fixer.
I had to do something
about it, so. (laughs)
Um, I, I took the night
and I called the girls.
We came up with $1,500 for you.
(Summer laughs)
I know it's not the
full amount. I know it.
I know, but that's
gotta help some, right?
I mean.
- Oh my God. What?
- Yeah. Not a
single one of them.
Not a single one said no,
not a single one said no.
And you should have-
- God.
- Told me earlier so
we could help you.
'Cause we're family.
- Oh my God, Didi, you real-
- Don't get all, like,
don't get all sad.
- (laughs) You made
me, speechless.
I can't believe it. I.
(Didi laughs)
- You know, just happy.
I wish it was the whole
amount, but you know.
- Well, I did dance my
ass off tonight, so.
- (laughs) That is my girl.
(Summer laughs)
That's my girl.
So I'm gonna get that money
to you by the morning.
- I'll send you a link. Yeah.
Oh my god.
And I love you. Thank you.
- You're welcome.
And just-
- I don't deserve-
- Don't be such an
island all the time.
Let us in a little bit,
don't be so like do everything
on your own all the time.
So, love ya.
(hands clap)
And sorry, it's
three in the morning.
I gotta get my ass in bed
'cause I gotta teach
math tomorrow.
(Summer laughs)
(Didi laughs)
Good luck with that.
- Monsters, help me, ah.
- Mwa.
- Okay, love you.
- I love you, okay.
Good night. Bye.
(mellow music)
(exhales sharply)
(mellow music)
- [Meditation
Speaker] Just for today,
I will be kind to myself.
Just for today,
I will not judge others.
Just for today, I
choose to be happy.
Just for today,
I accept and love myself.
Just for today, I
focus on the good.
Just for today, I
avoid negativity.
Just for today, I let go
of the past and the future.
Just for today, I
will be present.
(light clicks)
(mellow music)
(mellow music continues)
(mellow music continues)
(mellow music)
(mellow music)
(drawer scrapes)
(computer whirs)
(keyboard clicks)
(keyboard clicks)
(keyboard clicks)
- Hi.
I'm Summer.
(mellow music)
(car engine rumbles)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(footsteps thudding)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(somber music)
(neon buzzes)
(neon buzzes)
(somber music)
(wine clinks)
(wine clinks)
(somber music)
Hey, Mom.
I know,
I know, I know, I know.
Soon as this is over, I
promise I will come visit you.
I promise.
I'm sorry. Really?
It's blue skies here.
In fact, I'm staring
at a seagull right now.
(laughs)
See, you need to come visit me.
Yeah?
(gasps)
They called you?
Oh my God. That's amazing.
That's amazing, Mom.
That's great.
No.
Of course we're
getting you in the trial.
What are you talking-
(sighs) Mom.
Okay, hold on.
How much?
By, by when?
Uh, no, we can.
Yeah, Mom,
we'll-
I will do it.
I will get it done.
I will get the money,
I promise you.
(laughs)
No.
Don't you worry how.
Mom, don't talk like that.
I want you around
for a very long time.
I love you too. I love you too.
And don't you worry
about it, I promise you.
I promise you I will do, yes.
Okay. Okay.
I love you too.
Okay, bye.
(lips smack)
(sniffs)
(car engine rumbles)
(sighs)
(sighs)
(sniffs)
(exhales sharply)
Hey, Frankie, it's me.
I'm sorry, I know I haven't
talked to you since Christmas,
but Mom just got
into a clinical trial.
(tense music)
This is amazing.
Please call me as
soon as you can.
Thanks. Bye.
Hey, Lori.
Oh my God. Thanks
for picking up.
No, no, I haven't taken a drink.
Yeah. Just passed my 60 days.
I promise you.
Not a drop.
Okay. I won't even
sniff it. (laughs)
I promise I will check in
midnight or around there,
you know, in between clients.
Oh, yeah. I'm
working my ass off.
Over and out.
Thanks, Lori.
Me too. Bye.
(tense music)
(sighs)
(tense music)
(car engines rumbling)
(car engines rumbling)
(horn honks)
- [Meditation
Speaker] Just for today,
I will be kind to myself.
Just for today,
(shower splashing)
I will not judge other people.
(shower splashing)
Just for today,
(water splashing)
I choose to be happy.
(water splashing)
Just for today,
(water splashing)
I accept and love myself.
(water splashing)
- Oh my god.
- Girl!
- Didi!
- Oh my God.
- Holy, oh, hug, hug.
Checking on my old girls.
Checking on my old girls.
All my girls, my all girls.
You can't, I can't
even freaking speak.
I'm so tired from just.
- Oh my God. I, I, I
was thinking of you.
How can you handle that
whole homeschooling thing?
Excuse me. I'm
gonna grab my tea.
- Okay. Well, frankly,
I can't. (laughs)
I mean, I can,
it's just, you know,
they're acting
like little assholes
because they have to sit in
front of a screen all day,
which I, I don't, I
don't blame 'em.
It's like they're little
old men with their shoulders
hunched over.
And then my ex-husband's
constantly calling me now
because, you know,
he can't get laid.
Cause it's freaking COVID.
He thinks he is gonna like,
I'm like, no,
you're gonna come
and get the kids
and give me some freaking peace.
I wanna talk to my girls.
(Summer laughs)
So, how are you?
- Things are a little,
little crazy on my end.
I actually have a bunch
of clients lined up that,
hence my beautiful face,
and I'm basically-
- Workin' it, workin' it.
- Dancing for them online.
- That's great. I've been
really worried about you guys.
Like, you know-
- Well.
- Trying to figure out
how to make ends meet
and everything.
- I have a deadline,
tomorrow morning,
I need, I need $4000
for my mom, so.
- Wait, wait, wait, back
up, for your mom, why?
- For my mom.
- What's wrong with your mom?
- Did you not know?
She's, you know what?
I probably, I probably
didn't tell you.
She has cancer,
so we've been trying to
get her into this
experimental trial.
- Wait, how long, how
long has this been,
has she had this whole time
that you've been working,
you just didn't really?
- I just didn't say anything.
- No, why do you keep
all that stuff inside?
This is horrible.
- Thanks, honey.
I didn't wanna, I didn't,
"Hey," we're supposed to-
- I mean she's your family,
you should have told me that.
- I'm sorry.
- Hold on, what's that, you
need four grand for tomorrow.
For, for what?
For?
- Well, so basically these
trials, they're free,
but you need to be
housed in the same city
within a particular radius.
And then I also need
to fly her down there.
So it's, and oh,
and here's the thing.
So we,
we had no idea when
she was gonna get in
and it's like when,
someone dropped out.
So it's like, you need
to jump in like that.
Otherwise someone else-
- [Didi] There's only
like so many people that-
- That they take at
once, yeah, exactly.
I know, I know it's a little-
- You make my problems
seem like nothing. (laughs)
(Summer laughs)
- Oh, don't, no, hey I want you-
- How have you been
holding it together, I?
- Well, I looked
at people like you.
Hello, you hold it together.
You always would
keep us in line.
- Yeah.
- And keep our spirits up.
Run that club,
and raise two kids.
- Well.
- Get like no sleep but
still look fabulous.
- Well believe me like, plenty
times go in the bathroom
and go (screams) when
you guys don't know it.
- (laughs) Oh my god.
Oh my God, babe, you know what?
I, speaking of clients,
I need to get going
because my first ones come-
- Okay, you go girl, you go
girl, make your mom's money.
We'll talk soon.
Okay, lemme know, lemme
know how it goes, okay?
I'm thinking of you.
- I will.
- I miss you.
- I love you, bye.
- [Didi] Bye.
(sheets rustle)
(tense music)
(Summer exhales sharply)
(phone ringing)
(clock ticks)
(phone ringing)
(clock ticks)
(clock ticks)
(clock ticks)
(phone ringing)
- [Nico] Hey, it's Nico.
Leave a message.
I'll call you back.
(voicemail beeps)
- Hey Nico, it's me.
I, ah, can't wait to see
you tomorrow night. (laughs)
But, before that,
remember that $1000
that I loaned you.
Um, yeah, I really,
really need it.
My mom, um, got
a spot in the trial
and money's due tomorrow,
so please call me back
as soon as you can, okay?
Thank you baby, bye.
(clock ticking)
(Summer sighs)
(clock ticking)
Hey, honey.
- It is so good to
see you, Summer.
- What, it's been a
couple weeks, since
you were my very first customer.
- I tell ya, it has
been about that.
And I've missed ya, I mean,
it's like therapy to me, just-
(Summer laughs)
You are, you just
brighten my day
and all my worries,
with my businesses here,
just go away.
- Thank you,
well do you like the little
touches that I added?
I did the whole
disco ball thing,
I thought I, I thought I'd
up my game for you guys.
- It definitely will suffice
during these hard times.
- I'm glad, I'm glad.
So you're still at work?
- We've got a few things
we've got to take care of,
we've got, some of my
tenants haven't paid, so,
I'm trying to figure out how
to take care of all that.
- Oh my gosh it, it's gotta
be a headache, you know?
- (laughs) We'll
see where it goes,
this should be over soon
is what I'm hearing.
- Well you know, you
must've gotten the memo
because we match.
I'm like looking at
our ties. (laughs)
- [Marty] Definitely. (laughs)
- You got the, the uniform memo.
- We, we linked our minds.
- I like that.
Well, speaking of linking,
how would you like a
little bit of a dance?
- I would love a lot of dance.
(upbeat music)
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
(upbeat rock music)
(tip chimes)
(upbeat rock music)
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah
(tip chimes)
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
(upbeat rock music)
(juice swishes)
(Summer glugs)
(Summer exhales sharply)
- I gotta tell you, the
hardest thing has been, ah,
you just feel invisible.
You know, when you don't
have people around you.
And ah, you know, I just wanted,
I just wanted
someone to see me, so.
I needed this, you know what?
I don't care if people out
there say it's pathetic
or whatever,
I don't care if I
have to pay for it.
I need someone to see me.
Let me know I'm still, I'm
still a part of this thing.
And, you know, it just,
it's silly, I know, but-
- No, it's not silly, Cesar.
It's not silly at all.
We all feel invisible sometimes.
- I don't know. I just, I
get a little sentimental.
I just miss our
time at the club.
- I know.
- You know, I just,
and just, and just, just,
it was always so glamorous.
(Summer laughs)
And, and, and then
there's this, you know?
- Well,
you're talking about glamorous.
Maybe I can bring that,
a little of that,
to you right now.
- (sighs) That would be amazing.
(upbeat lively music)
(tip chimes)
(upbeat lively music)
You know, I think I'm
about to cry. (laughs)
I mean, that was...
(Summer laughs)
I haven't, you are the
first person I have seen
that wasn't someone on
a social media page.
(Summer laughs)
That was amazing.
Thank you.
(somber music)
(Summer exhales sharply)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(somber music)
- [Summer] So how are
you keeping your sanity?
- I kind of got into the
depression for a second,
and then I woke up and, and,
and, and caught the light,
so to speak.
And, you know, I stayed home,
saved money on a lot of food
that I don't buy anymore.
(laughs) You know?
(Summer laughs)
Being that I'm not
working as much.
All my camera gigs are,
are, are done with.
So yeah, I just, you know, I,
I went on YouTube and
studied all the water fasting
and stuff like that.
Lost 45 pounds in 30 days.
I don't wanna just work,
I want to, you know,
I got dreams and I, and,
and being that everything
is on hold right now,
my object is to come
back 100% better
when everybody sees me.
So I'm, see, I'm, I'm,
I'm actually reverse.
I'm looking for a couple
more days of lockdown.
(Summer laughs)
So I can get,
so I can actually get better
before people see me again.
So that's, that's my
incentive right now.
So, you know, 45 pounds in
30 days has been, has been,
you know, the first goal.
Um, I'm reading.
I'm actually learning
Spanish. I'm learn-
I mean, I'm just trying to get,
so by the time that at
the end of this thing,
when I come back and people
actually see me next time,
that I'm gonna
be 10 times better
than what you saw me before.
- (speaks in Spanish)
Since, in Spanish. (laughs)
- Yeah. Yeah. (speaks
in Spanish) (laughs)
- Wow. (speaks in
Spanish) (laughs)
(both laughing)
Wow, oh my gosh, that's amazing.
45 pounds in 30
days. My mind is blown.
- My gathering
after what I've done,
is this has been,
it's like going to
rehab, you know?
And, and, and I got a
whole new look on food now
because like food,
if you put food in your
body, you act a certain way,
you feel better, you feel
worse, you, whatever the case.
So to me, food is a drug.
- Yeah.
- [Tony] Now that, that's
the way I look at it.
So, and it's the
same way with rehab.
It's just, you know,
when you go through rehab
and you get all that
stuff outta your system,
you go through detox,
you go, you know,
you get the headaches,
you get the nausea,
you get a, so I went to sleep.
- Well I gotta ask
you this though.
Are there times when
you can't fall asleep?
That's...
- Oh, yeah. Yeah.
I, I mean, yeah.
And, and, and it's
funny because, you know,
that's, that's when, you
know, you turn on the TV
and you know,
or, or, or you know,
go back on the YouTube
and do some more research.
- Or you call me.
(upbeat music)
(tip chimes)
(upbeat music)
(tip chimes)
(tip chimes)
(upbeat music)
(inhales deeply)
(exhales sharply)
Let me see now.
Okay.
Jerry.
Hey.
- Hi.
- How are you?
- I'm, I'm good.
I'm good. Hang,
hanging in there.
I really missed you. (laughs)
- [Summer] (laughs) Well,
I've missed you too.
I'm glad.
- Oh.
- [Summer] I'm glad to
see you on here at least.
- Yeah. This is ah, seems
to be my only contact with,
with anybody right now.
- Hey, your, your kitty was
sick when we last cammed.
What, how's he doing?
- Um.
Yeah, he passed away.
Had to be put down.
- Oh, Jerry, I'm so sorry.
- No, it's, it's,
(sniffs) it's, it's fine.
Thank you. Thank you. (sniffs)
My best friend.
But you know what? Looking
and seeing you Summer.
Its makes me feel a lot better.
- I am,
I'm so, so
sorry.
I wish I could give you a hug.
Just know I'm
doing that right now.
- I was gonna go home
and see my parents
before this whole
thing came down.
But I canceled that.
And they're getting
older, so um,
I hope they're gonna be,
they're, they'll be
okay, they'll be fine.
They'll be fine.
What, what about you?
How, how, how are
you, how are you doing?
- I am hanging in there,
you know, one, one foot
in front of the other.
I sometimes do these
mantras and I don't know, I,
I'm just trying anything now.
What do you do?
- I meditate. It makes me
feel a little bit better.
- Yeah? Yeah?
- Yeah.
- Look,
what do you do?
Do you do it for like
five minutes, 10 minutes?
I don't know. I feel like I'd
go crazy after two minutes.
- It's, well, you know, my
place is really quiet now, so,
except for my
neighbors, they, I don't,
they play their TV at
all hours of the night.
But I try to do it for
like, oh, you know,
like 20 minutes or so.
- Maybe I'll attempt
it. I don't know.
I think it might make me
climb the walls more. (laughs)
- Yeah. (laughs) Yeah.
Can I see your feet?
- Ah, sh, of course. (laughs)
- [Jerry] Oh, yeah.
(breathes heavily)
Those are pretty shoes.
(breathes heavily)
Oh God. They're so nice.
Yeah.
(breathes heavily)
Oh, you've such pretty feet.
Oh yes.
(breathes heavily)
Oh, yeah.
Oh, your shoes are
so beautiful. (grunts)
I love your feet, I love them
so much. (breathes heavily)
Oh yeah.
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
- Hey. Yeah, Frankie, sorry.
Yeah, I'm sorry it's late.
I know.
Yeah. So you got my message?
Well, oh my God.
Frankie, don't,
don't be an asshole.
She's your mother.
I can't believe you're
still holding onto that.
You can be...
Okay. Look, I apologize for-
No, this is not for alcohol.
Yeah.
I'll have you know, I've
been clean for over 60 days.
Oh, don't, fuck
you, don't mock me.
(sighs)
Oh my God.
Are you serious, so you're not
gonna, you're not gonna help?
Your own mother.
Fuck you.
You know what?
(laughs)
You're just like Dad,
you are just like Dad.
(cloth scratches)
Yeah.
Fuck you too.
Son of a bitch.
(cloth scratches)
(sighs)
Jeez.
(footsteps padding)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
Hi baby.
It's me, Summer.
Call me for some cam action.
I miss you.
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(exhales sharply)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
(clock ticking)
Mommy, don't worry.
Yeah, seriously.
I, don't worry.
I'll have it.
I will, I will have
it by tomorrow.
Tomorrow morning, yes.
No, no, no.
I heard you the first time.
Don't worry about church, okay.
You, you'll,
you'll be able to do what,
those online mass things,
you know?
Yeah.
Yes, I will do that.
I'll get your plane
ticket. You'll be all set.
Hm, okay, do not worry, please.
I love you too.
And get some rest, my gosh.
It's so late there.
Okay. Love you.
(lips smacking)
Sleep. Sleep.
Take deep breaths.
You, you took your meds? Good.
I don't want you
to forget again.
Okay. Love you.
Bye.
Bye Mommy.
(lips smacking)
Bye.
Hey Laura, Jeff!
- Hey!
- [Jeff] Oh my god.
- It's so great to see you guys.
- [Laura] It's amazing
to see you again.
It's been too, too long.
- We have talked about you
every day since this all began.
You're like a
breath of fresh air.
- Yes.
Isn't, we miss our
weekends with you.
- Doesn't that feel
like years ago, I?
- Yes.
- It does.
And as, as this drags on,
it feels like more years
are being added on as we go.
- (laughs) Yes.
- How have you guys been
doing? Tell me, talk to me.
- I'm essential.
So I'm, I'm one of
the lucky essentials
that have to still
go to and from work
and, and it's just weird
being out there anymore.
- Yeah.
He, he has to wear a mask.
Like I get, like,
if you're sick,
you wear a mask 'cause you
don't wanna get another,
anybody else sick,
I don't get,
when you're not sick
you have to wear a mask.
I, and so we get
into this debate,
'cause I tell him he is
and he has to do it cause
you know, it's his job.
- No, but I've come home
still wearing a mask
'cause I'm starting
to get used to it,
and she, you know-
- And I get on him.
'Cause I'm like, why are
you breathing your CO2?
You know, you're not getting
paid to breathe in that crap.
So then we get our
little bits of fights,
but then we make up later.
- We do make up later.
- The makeup part is fun, right?
- [Laura] It is. It
really is. (laughs)
(Summer laughs)
- [Jeff] That's the
whole point of it.
- So let me see what
I can do for you guys.
I am going to switch,
right about there.
I think that looks good.
And let me find some music.
I come from the town
that never shuts down
Rocks all night and day
You better watch out
these women out here
Will take your money away
Shorty talk to 'em
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Make your booty talk
Make your booty talk
All these ladies
making that money
Time to turn it up
I got them bands
to make 'em dance
Turn around
and shake yo butt
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
Hey hey hey hey
Make your booty talk
(tip chimes)
Make your booty talk
Make your booty talk
Even when you're walking
I see your booty talking
Now that's a conversation I
would like to get involved in
Oh you're insta famous
all because your anus
Is it real is fake I don't
care what you're claiming
Ha oh you're a model
you do commercials
(keyboard clicks)
- Oh, man.
Just a little summin summin
for you two. (laughs)
- We want more.
- (laughs) That was awesome.
- Good. I can
always give you more.
- [Laura] Especially on the bed.
(Summer laughs)
- You know, I, I want
you guys to know
that you are a breath of
fresh air in, in my life.
Really.
'Cause I like knowing that
there are some couples out there
that actually work. (laughs)
- Thank you.
- That make it work.
- [Laura] Well you do
help a lot. Thank you.
(Summer exhales sharply)
(somber music)
(Summer exhales sharply)
(somber music)
- Thank you, baby.
Now I can pay JJ.
As soon as Flaco gets
me my money back,
I promise I'll pay
you back, okay?
Love you.
Thank you.
Bye.
(somber music)
Just stop nagging me, all right?
I don't have the money.
(somber music)
All you do is take
pills, drink, and sleep
until you go shake that
ass in the club again.
(somber music)
(Summer laughs)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(somber music)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(phone vibrating)
(phone vibrating)
(phone clicks)
- Nico.
(exhales sharply)
Yeah, babe.
You kinda disappeared on me.
Of course, course. No, I get it.
I get it. These things run long.
Are you still coming
over tomorrow?
(sighs)
Okay. Okay.
Before you get into that,
you got my message right?
About the money?
Babe, it's been six months.
We're talking about my mom.
This is for her treatment.
Oh my god.
What the?
(inhales deeply)
(exhales sharply)
Don't gimme that.
(scoffs)
No.
(door slams)
Babe.
Babe. Babe.
You know, we've
tried everything.
You know, you can
be a selfish person.
Oh, you're gonna tell me that?
What about you?
You pulled up
with every fucking.
No, you knew what I did.
You really knew, you
really knew what I do.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
You are the, you
are the asshole.
(door clatters)
(Summer sighs)
(footsteps thudding)
(footsteps thudding)
(trash clatters)
(trash clatters)
(trash clatters)
(Summer sighs)
(clock ticks)
(trash clatters)
(clock ticks)
(trash clatters)
(clock ticks)
(trash clatters)
(clock ticks)
(trash clatters)
(clock ticks)
(trash clatters)
(clock ticks)
(footsteps thud)
(footsteps thud)
(glass clinks)
(glass clinks)
(clock ticking)
(Summer sighs)
(Summer exhales sharply)
(phone vibrating)
(phone vibrating)
(phone vibrating)
- Hey.
Hi, sweetheart. How are you?
Well, of course I can,
um, can you give
me five minutes?
Okay. I look forward to it.
Yes, you can pay
me through that.
Okay. Buh-bye.
(tense music)
(Summer exhales)
(water running)
(bottle clatters)
(water running)
(mellow music)
(clock ticking)
(Summer breathes heavily)
(clock ticking)
- Divorce.
DUI.
Lost my job.
Lost my friends.
Hurt my family.
(somber music)
(clock ticking)
Divorce.
DUI.
Lost my job.
Lost my friends.
(somber music)
(clock ticking)
(somber music)
(clock ticking)
(somber music)
(clock ticking)
Hey Omar,
great to see you.
- Hey, great seeing you too.
- (giggles) How have you been?
- Ah. Okay.
- Yeah.
- Been okay.
- I'm glad we're able
to hook up tonight.
- Me too, me too.
Finally I got some
time, time for myself.
- Yeah, how, how, how
have things been going,
on your end?
- Stuck at home.
There's no work, you know,
there's no construction
going on right now.
Everything stopped.
And my wife, my
and my, my little girl,
at home 24/7, driving
me fucking crazy,
paying two mortgages.
My mother-in-law, she
fell and broke her hip.
Poor thing.
But I'm paying her mortgage.
(inhales deeply)
- Wow.
- And I have no work.
So, you know,
and good luck
reaching unemployment.
And you guys, you guys,
I mean this club, it's,
will you ever open?
Think about it.
I mean, well, well,
clubs ever open?
I, I I don't know how, as
long as this should exist,
what you, what you gonna
be strippers wearing masks
and behind plexiglass
or something like that?
- I, I don't know.
I don't know what's
gonna happen.
Um, but in the meantime,
we have this at least,
online, you know,
'cause face to face is, is
really important I think.
- (inhales deeply) Yeah.
Yeah.
- Well maybe I can bring a
little of the club to you.
Yeah? Lift your
spirits a little bit.
- I'd love that.
- (laughs) Awesome.
Let me see.
(upbeat music)
I can be a girl
in a man's world
(tip chimes)
Love the way it feels
Walking into a crowded room
(tip chimes)
No hiding in these heels
I can be a fighter
in the lion's den
Watch 'em circle round
They'll never see me coming
(tip chimes)
They'll never hear a sound
Boys, I'm not just
one of the boys
I've come to take their toys
Don't be fooled
This girl's not
another brother
Boys, I'm not just
one of the boys
I'm the one hurting boys
Don't be fooled
This girl's not
another brother
I can be a girl
in a man's game
A diamond in the dirt
I'm pretty bad if
you're in my way
Might get you 'til you hurt
'Cause I can work
I can curse with
the best of them
I can run you down
like the rest of 'em
Legs, blush, taking names,
moving fast everyday
To the beat of my own drum
Boys, I'm not just
one of the boys
I've come to take their toys
Don't be fooled, this
girl's not another brother
- Wow.
(sniffs)
That was hot.
- Thank you, Omar. (giggles)
- You're so fucking hot.
- I'm glad you think so.
- Can I ask you something?
You know, I've always
wanted to ask you something.
- Ah, sure. (laughs)
- Yeah. I mean, you're a
pretty girl, we all know that.
But you are obviously smart
and I always wondered what,
why don't you do something else?
Why, why strip for a
bunch of fuckin' guys?
Why not get a, you
know, get a decent job
and, and, and do something else?
- So you don't
think this is decent?
- I mean, you can't put on
your resume "I'm a stripper,"
if you apply for
something else, so.
- I like dancing.
Let's just keep it at that.
Okay?
But thank you very much, Omar.
Make sure to text me whenever
you get that itch. Okay?
- I will.
- Thank you. Buh-bye.
(sighs)
(sighs)
(body thuds)
(exhales sharply)
Hey honey, it's Summer.
(upbeat music)
Yeah
- Call me.
Let's have some fun on cam.
Yeah
Yeah
God always
Mykael V
I done wasted
enough of my time
I'm gonna need that back
Time after time with the
I've been wrong, out of line
Like I don't read the signs
I'm so done with the lies
That's why
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
- So, you know, I do the family
law thing and everything,
I'm worried about
the people that
report the child abuse
are babysitters,
teachers, counselors.
So if there's, and people are
drinking like crazy, you know,
they didn't shut
off the alcohol.
So they're stuck in their
houses with their kids.
They're not used to that.
So I can only imagine
the number of cases
that's gonna go
through the roof, and I-
- You know, I got sick in March.
- I can't take it with people
making all these snide remarks
and jokes like kung
flu and Wuhan virus.
I hide through the place
they picking the tissues
They think and they
cry and they laugh
And they ain't
finna miss you
I been up like all night
Working on the craft 'cause
the suckers don't ball right
Dude he 'bout to swing
'cause we ain't about to fall
I'm living on my knees
'cause I know I ain't all, I
Oh my God
Never gon' stop
I think I'm finna
Change my legal name to Pops
(tip chimes)
Y'all a bunch of birds,
I ain't even gotta fly
Looking for the beef
- It's scary. It's scary.
You don't know
what's gonna happen.
We don't know how long
this is gonna go on.
We don't know.
Like.
- Yeah.
- It's terrifying.
- I spray everything
with alcohol,
like, I pretty much want to
shower in alcohol after that.
- It's just, you know, rude
glares and comments right now.
But like, god forbid,
one day people
start becoming violent
over this kind of stuff.
- I'm taking care of
my parents, my dad,
he cannot even do anything
by himself anymore.
He cannot drive.
So I have to go and do
the groceries for them.
I have to,
I have to sometimes tell
my mom take a shower.
I mean a bath.
And it's like having
two kids. (laughs)
But, I mean, I like it
and I love them, but oh,
they drive me crazy
sometimes, you know?
They don't know about
me and my private life.
So it's so hard for me to
act me in front of them.
If you doing this
for dollar signs
You are out of line
Yeah, pay attention
to the product line
People that is modified
Yeah, eyes up
on the bottom line
Before you are out of time
Yeah, out of body,
moving me so out of mind
I can see through
all that jealousy
Can't compare
to all the pedigree
They saying it's something
- To me, you're an
essential worker.
I'm lost. But I know we all are.
But this connection to
me is just as valuable
as having to see a
doctor in some ways.
You know, keeps me going.
- I just want things
to go back to normal.
- It's really
affecting the team.
We don't know if we play,
I don't even know if I
want to play this season.
- Nobody really knows
what the COVID is.
- Honestly. I just feel tired.
I ain't got no time
- I just feel drained.
- Who knows what's gonna happen?
- Are you get,
are you getting enough
people to be able to see
and talk to and?
- Well, somewhat.
But I gotta say, Billy,
if you wanna send some referrals
my way, I am so open to it.
(laughs)
- I don't wanna share
you with anybody.
(Summer laughs)
- Well, you can't keep me
on retainer for 24/7 now.
- No, you could
quarantine at my place.
(Summer laughs)
- Yes. We love our parents.
- Yeah.
- They are who they are, right?
- You are amazing in terms
of just being like an,
like an almost like a therapist,
like a dancer turned
therapist on screen.
I was like, oh man,
I really feel like I
could say, you know,
I could really talk about
my frustrations right now.
(laughs)
I'm living on my knees
'cause I know I ain't all
I, oh my God
Never gon' stop
I think I'm finna change
my legal name to Pops
Y'all a bunch of birds,
I ain't even gotta fly
Looking for the beef,
find a light up in God
See it at the top,
praise be to Jah
I ain't need a
job, glory to God
Milly with the rock,
Jordan with the hop
Catch me at the boat
10:30 on the dot boy ah
Yeah time after
time with the
I've been wrong out of line,
Like I don't read the signs
I'm so done with the lies
That's why I
ain't got no time
- Whoa.
(Summer laughs)
(client laughs)
I ain't got no time
- You know, why are
people blame, like,
trying to blame me or my
mom for, for this disease?
- It's better to be rich
and sick than poor and sick.
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no
Yeah time after
time with the
I've been wrong out of line
Like I don't read the signs
I'm so done with the lies
That's why
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no
- If this goes on
another couple of months,
I'm not gonna have enough
in reserve to keep my staff.
I mean, I, I tried to
pay 'em, you know,
I put 'em on unemployment.
Well, not everybody's
doing that.
A lot of people just
fired their whole staff.
Like, I don't even know
what, but I'm doing my best.
But I, I got maybe
three more months
and then I'll be one of the,
the business victims I guess.
- So my parents finally,
they got out of the house and
I was like, oh, thank God.
(laughs)
But they don't wanna
wear a mask. They, no.
(speaks in foreign language)
Oh my god.
Done with the
lies that's why
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no time
I can see through
all that jealousy
Can't compare
to all the pedigree
They saying it's something
but I'm seeing is jokes
They never wanting the smoke
They feeling
it in their throat
Only a matter of time we
gonna see them all choke
Unravel, the sun battles
The intimate folk
Oh no, oh no we know
they slaying their soul
They internet trolls,
the intimate note
They feeling is go, yeah
Yeah time after
time with the
I've been wrong out of line
Like I don't read the signs
I'm so done with the lies
That's why
I ain't got no time
I'mma need every minute
y'all took from me
I ain't got no time
It's my time now
I ain't got no time
God always
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no
We in here
(mellow music)
(Summer sighs)
- Hey Lori.
It's me checking
in like I said I would
and guess what?
I'm still sober.
Yay.
But it's been so fucking rough.
Okay, I'll check in
tomorrow morning.
Yeah, thanks.
Bye.
(exhales sharply)
(exhales sharply)
(coffee pot clatters)
Just for today, I
will not drink alcohol.
Just for today, I
will not drink alcohol.
(exhales sharply)
(mellow music)
(hands scraping)
(key clicks)
(halting piano music)
(halting piano music)
(halting piano music)
(halting piano music)
(somber music)
(Summer sighs)
(somber music)
(piano lid clatters)
- Hi.
- Hi.
- Yeah.
- I still-(laughs)
- It's been a while, yeah.
- (laughs) It's been a while.
I mean, I I hadn't seen you at
the club for a while either,
so it's-
- Yeah, it got kind
of, I don't know,
it just kind of got
a little weird for me.
Nothing you did or anything.
It just,
I just kind of had to
stop for a little bit
and then COVID, of course
and everything else.
So, but anyway.
Yeah, you look great.
- Thank you. As do you.
I mean, you know, your
handsome face is obscured, but.
(laughs)
- Yeah,
I can't get to the
barber with COVID
and this beard is like
devouring my face.
But yeah, I kind
of, I've, it's weird.
I, I don't know how this works,
but it's kind of like
the club in there
and I was kind of hoping
that it wouldn't be, um-
- Oh, really?
- Well, I wanted to, I
I need to talk to you.
Um.
- Oh my gosh. Oh yeah.
Okay. I can turn the lights off.
- Can you like do that?
- Yeah, of course I can.
Totally, totally, totally.
Uh, yeah. Cool.
Just bear with me for a second.
- Okay.
(inhales deeply)
Okay.
- I I was, do you
want me to dance?
- Yeah, can you, yeah, can you?
- Of course, of course.
- I'm sorry. You're beautiful.
I love to look at
you, of course.
But-
- Thank you.
- I just, you know, it's,
I'm, I'm, how are you?
Are you okay? Like doing good?
Are you doing all right?
- Hold on for a second.
You are the first person
to ask me that. (laughs)
Really ask me that, you know?
Thank you. Thank you.
Ah,
it's rough.
- Yeah.
- It's rough.
Well, not getting into the club.
And actually my,
my mom, I, gosh,
you probably don't know-
- [Rick] Well no, I
want to hear, that's,
I need to hear something
personal actually. Um.
- Yeah, well my mom actually,
you don't know this,
but she's been battling
cancer for a while and she-
- [Rick] Oh, shit.
- She, yeah.
And then with COVID, so,
but an opening in a clinical
trial just opened up.
So we're really excited.
I just need to get the
cash to get her down there
to house her to-
- Yeah.
- So that's, that's
weighing on my mind.
- And that's, I,
I, I That's rough.
I know that. That's how my,
my wife passed from that.
- Really?
- Yeah. Four years ago.
I, I think I told you
she, she's gone, but-
- Yeah.
I didn't know the
story behind it though.
- Yeah, no.
So that's, it's, it's,
I need to talk to you.
I'm hoping. I just, I
know this is strange.
This is probably weird to ask,
but I, I feel like, you know,
in the club, you, you
kind of role play, right?
You kind of be whatever we,
you think we want you to be.
And, and you're
practiced at that.
You're very good at that.
And so I, I, I just, I want
to ask you something and I,
I hope that you
can do this for me,
but um, I need you to,
to talk to me like my wife
Today is the
anniversary of her death.
And you know,
it's been four years and,
and usually at this time,
I, I go back, you know,
I, I transferred out here
from Florida and I go back
and I, I visit her grave
and I bring her um, irises,
um, her favorite flower.
And I talk to her
and she kind of,
I feel like she
kind of talks to me
and I, I, I get some clarity.
And I mean, she
was fantastic, Sharon.
She, she was a writer and,
and also like a photographer.
She saw, everything was
black and white to her.
It was very clear.
And, and I needed that.
And with COVID, I can't go back.
So I'm here and I've
just been lying in bed
and just drinking and trying
to kind of conjure her.
And she's not coming.
And there's something I
need to ask her tonight.
And, and um,
it is just hard because
(sighs)
we had a really great marriage.
And
when you love
somebody like that,
they don't die.
I mean, they're
gone, but they...
Your heart doesn't
stop, you know?
It just keeps going.
And that's, that's
the hard part.
I, I, I haven't
been able to let go.
I mean, I haven't
taken this ring off
and I, I need to,
you know, I need to like move
on and fucking live again.
And so that was what I was
gonna talk to her about.
And I need her, you,
to tell me it's okay.
Okay? So that's
what we're gonna do.
Hi, honey.
- Hey, honey.
I miss you.
- Ah, I miss you too.
I, I wanted to talk to you
about something tonight.
It's, you know, it's, I've
been having a hard time.
I hate LA, I, I don't know
why I transferred out here.
The, I don't have any friends.
I just, my coworkers, you know,
and so I've been,
I've been drinking
a lot and I've been,
I've been going
to this strip club,
but it's not sexual.
I, I, I talked to this woman,
this wonderful woman
named Summer.
And um, she doesn't know it,
but she's really
helped me a lot.
She's helped me see that I,
I do want intimacy in my
life and I want to move on.
And I can't.
And I, I, I haven't
taken our, our ring off.
And I need to,
I need you to tell
me that it's okay
and that I can move on.
That I, I need to live again.
I think I'm ready.
So can, can you
tell me that?
- Rick.
You know
I love you
so, so, so.
You were and are my life.
And because of that, I
want you to be happy.
- [Rick] Okay.
- You've got to move on.
You've got to move on.
- I know, I know. I'm-
- It's lonely.
- Yeah.
Um,
so it's okay?
(sniffs)
- It's more than okay.
- It's not that, it's not
that I don't love you.
I will love you forever.
Okay? (sobs)
Okay.
I'm sorry. It's just, yeah.
Here we go.
Bite the bullet. (laughs)
(Summer laughs)
One, two, three.
I can't even get it off.
(Summer laughs)
Oh, fuck.
Oh.
(sobs)
- Oh, baby.
- Oh my god.
(Rick sniffs)
(Rick gulps)
Thank you. (sniffs)
- You're so welcome.
- Oh my God, (sniffs)
Jesus, um-
- You're welcome.
(Rick sniffs)
- Ah.
(Summer chuckles)
- And I meant what I said,
you've, you've helped me a lot.
I, I do kind of
consider you a friend
and so I hope this
wasn't too weird and...
Okay.
- Rick. Not weird at all.
At all.
- Okay.
(Summer sighs)
(Summer sobs)
(pen scratches)
(pad thuds)
(somber music)
(plastic bag rustles)
(plastic bag rustles)
(plastic bag rustles)
(somber music)
(plastic bag rustles)
(plastic bag rustles)
(somber music)
(plastic bag rustles)
(plastic bag rustles)
(somber music)
(plastic bag rustles)
(plastic bag rustles)
(plastic bag rustles)
(bag thuds)
(somber music)
- Hey Nico, it's me.
Your stuff's out on my sidewalk.
Pick it up whenever you want
and get some help.
(somber music)
(message beeps)
(door slams)
- Hey, hey, what?
Oh my God, what-
- I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I know, I know, I
know it's late, but I-
- Are you okay?
- Yeah, I'm okay.
It's more about you being okay
and why I'm calling
you so late because,
talking to you so
late, because I have,
I could not let slide
what you told me
earlier about your mom.
I just could not go
to sleep about that.
And you know me, I'm a fixer.
I had to do something
about it, so. (laughs)
Um, I, I took the night
and I called the girls.
We came up with $1,500 for you.
(Summer laughs)
I know it's not the
full amount. I know it.
I know, but that's
gotta help some, right?
I mean.
- Oh my God. What?
- Yeah. Not a
single one of them.
Not a single one said no,
not a single one said no.
And you should have-
- God.
- Told me earlier so
we could help you.
'Cause we're family.
- Oh my God, Didi, you real-
- Don't get all, like,
don't get all sad.
- (laughs) You made
me, speechless.
I can't believe it. I.
(Didi laughs)
- You know, just happy.
I wish it was the whole
amount, but you know.
- Well, I did dance my
ass off tonight, so.
- (laughs) That is my girl.
(Summer laughs)
That's my girl.
So I'm gonna get that money
to you by the morning.
- I'll send you a link. Yeah.
Oh my god.
And I love you. Thank you.
- You're welcome.
And just-
- I don't deserve-
- Don't be such an
island all the time.
Let us in a little bit,
don't be so like do everything
on your own all the time.
So, love ya.
(hands clap)
And sorry, it's
three in the morning.
I gotta get my ass in bed
'cause I gotta teach
math tomorrow.
(Summer laughs)
(Didi laughs)
Good luck with that.
- Monsters, help me, ah.
- Mwa.
- Okay, love you.
- I love you, okay.
Good night. Bye.
(mellow music)
(exhales sharply)
(mellow music)
- [Meditation
Speaker] Just for today,
I will be kind to myself.
Just for today,
I will not judge others.
Just for today, I
choose to be happy.
Just for today,
I accept and love myself.
Just for today, I
focus on the good.
Just for today, I
avoid negativity.
Just for today, I let go
of the past and the future.
Just for today, I
will be present.
(light clicks)
(mellow music)
(mellow music continues)
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