A Light Through Coloured Glass (2022) Movie Script
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[wind rushing]
[glasses clinking]
[items clanking]
[glass tapping]
[clock ticking]
[tapping]
[phone ringing]
[faint chatter]
[phone chiming]
-William Coulthard?
-Yes.
The doctor's ready
for you now.
[air pumping]
Good.
[Velcro rips]
So how long have you
felt this way?
[sighs]
Since I read it, really.
I'm going to write you
a prescription.
-Yeah.
-You take one a day only.
-Okay.
-If you have any side effects,
come back to me immediately.
Okay.
-Oh, hi.
-Hi, Bill.
It's good to see you back.
-Thank you, Julia.
-Listen, I heard about--
-Yeah.
-It'll be okay.
-Yeah, thanks again.
-Well, I won't keep you.
-If you need anything.
-Yeah, I'll bare it in mind.
See you soon.
[woman]
Sean, is he ready?
[Sean] Yep.
[woman] Excellent.
Bill, can I check your levels?
Yeah, one, one, two.
One, two, three.
-One, one, two.
One, two, three.
-[woman] Yep, that's good.
Thank you.
[sighs]
Hm?
[chuckles]
You hungry?
You hungry?
[laughs]
I vow to thee, my country
All earthly things above
Entire and whole
And silently
Her shining bounds increase
And her ways are ways
Of gentleness
And all her paths
Are peace
Very nice.
But, George,
I am gonna need that note to
last a fraction longer, okay?
And if anyone needs a toilet
break, now would be the time.
William, could I have
a quick word?
Sure, Denise.
How can I help?
Well, I was actually just
wanting to ask how you are.
I'm okay.
I'm okay, thanks for asking.
It's just, I know it's hard.
I've been there before.
If you need someone to talk
to or help at home, I'm here.
Thank you.
But really, I'm doing alright.
These things happen,
and life will be back
to normal in a week.
-Are you sure? I could--
-Denise, again,
thank you for your offer,
but you needn't worry.
Everything will be normal.
[woman] Oh, come on man.
Don't be a twat.
-[man] You do this all the time.
-[woman] What? No, I don't.
-Why are you lying?
-[man] You know it's the truth.
-[woman] Why are you
being such a dick?
-[man] You know what, forget it.
[woman] Look, I promise
I'll come back in 20 minutes
with rest.
[man] No, pay now
or put something back.
[woman] What,
don't you trust us?
I said I'll come straight back.
[man] And I said pay
now or put something back.
[woman] I need the fucking
milk for my baby, now.
[man] You don't need
the cigarettes for your baby,
do you?
Pay for the milk now, come back
for the cigarettes later.
[woman] I need a fucking cig
for the walk home, don't I.
-[man] And I said, no.
-[woman] It's six quid.
Why are you being such a dick
over six fucking quid?
You're being a dick.
You know what?
-Get out, you're barred.
-Oh, fuck off.
-I don't wanna shop
here anyway, you con!
-Excuse me.
-Excuse me.
-[both shout]
Sorry, but how much
is it she owes you?
Six pound, is that it?
She doesn't owe me anything.
She's not buying from me.
Oh, listen.
Okay, I'll pay.
Don't want her baby
going hungry.
Take that, it's all good.
And we can all go about
our day, is that okay?
Fine.
Ta.
Look, I just live round
the corner.
If you've got five minutes,
I'll give you your money back.
No, no.
Consider it a gift.
I don't want no gift.
Please, I wanna give
your money back.
Okay, fine.
[woman] Not far from here.
[Bill] Good.
[woman] Just so you know,
I don't have a kid.
[Bill] What?
What, wait a minute.
You said you needed milk
for your child?
[woman] Well, I fucking lied,
didn't I?
[Bill] You lied?
I don't believe this.
Here, take it.
Take it, you're on your own.
[woman] I lied to that prick,
not you.
[Bill] You took the money
though, didn't you?
And that lie was the only
reason I helped you.
Otherwise I would've left you
to it.
[woman] You're getting your
fucking money back, aren't you?
[Bill] It's not the point,
you lied.
[woman] What's your story?
[Bill]
I don't have a story.
[woman]
Everyone's got a story.
-[Bill] Do they?
-Yep.
[Bill] And what's yours?
[woman] Don't wanna hear mine.
My life's a fucking
horror story.
Too scary for a posh twat
like you.
[Bill]Sorry, excuse me, sorry.
Can you not?
Can you not?
[woman] I meant that
in the nicest way possible.
You got any kids?
[Bill] No.
Unless, like you,
I also count my imaginary
children.
[woman]
Ha, ha, hilarious.
You're married though,
aren't you?
How'd you know that?
Gold band.
Look, when we get to mine,
you better not try anything.
-[laughs]
-I mean it.
Believe me,
I'm not interested.
I just want my money back
and I'm gone.
Good. Because if you do,
I'll cut your balls off.
Understood.
-Do you want a drink?
-No thank you.
I'm making a brew,
how'd you have it?
I'm fine, thank you.
Just have a fucking brew,
will you?
All right, milk, no sugar.
Thanks.
All right.
[door opens]
-Tina?
-[Tina] What?
Why is there a weirdo
sat on our sofa?
I owe him a couple of quid.
You got any money on you?
-Do you know him?
-No.
Mate, he could be
a fucking rapist.
[Tina] He's not a rapist.
[roommate]
He looks like a rapist.
Are you making me one?
God sake.
-So you got six quid on you?
-What for?
I didn't have enough for
me cigs, so he helped me out.
I think I've got about a fiver.
Don't get paid till tomorrow.
Yeah, that'll do.
Take it then.
Put it in my mouth, then?
[spits]
I'll have to owe you a quid.
That's enough.
I'm not chasing you
for one pound.
So what do you do?
Nothing.
Nothing?
You don't work.
I do sometimes
when I feel like it.
You?
I play the church organ.
That's my full-time job,
but I also present a show
with my wife.
What do you mean
you present a show?
It's just a local
television show
on the public access channel,
that's all.
Are you famous?
[laughs] No, I'm not famous.
All right.
What's the show about then?
Um...
God, Jesus.
Things like that.
[groans]
You one of those then,
are you?
One of what, sorry?
One of those die-hard
religious types.
Had a teacher at school.
His name were,
what the fuck was his name?
Oh, whatever,
I can't remember.
But he were just like you.
Always going to church
and pressurizing
the kids in believing
in all that shit.
Well, I don't know if
I would call it that,
but, you know, actually,
I'm quite offended.
Carrow.
Mr. Carrow, his name were.
Do you know him?
No.
He's probably dead now.
He was touching 70
when I were at school.
Drink your tea, it'll go cold.
[slurping]
So what day's
your show on then?
I'll watch it.
No, I don't think it
would be your cup of tea.
so to speak.
Yeah, it probably won't be,
but I'll still watch it.
[sighs]
It's on Wednesday
and Friday nights.
Right, I'll let you know
what I think.
So do you live
with your friend?
Who, Lisa?
-Lisa, right.
-Yeah.
Lived on your own long?
Since I was about 14.
With Lisa?
No, lived with Lisa
for about 10 months now.
Moved in with an old
boyfriend when I was 14.
Fourteen?
That's young.
That's very young.
Yeah, well,
some would say I was
forced to grow up quick.
Is your tea alright?
Yeah, yeah,
fine, thank you.
I'd offer you a biscuit,
but we don't have none.
That's not a problem.
Not a problem.
Do you have any aspirations?
Aspirations?
Yeah, like hopes,
dreams for the future,
things like that.
No, I suppose I did
when I were younger,
but life got in the way.
What did you wanna be
when you were younger?
Wanted to be an actress.
You know, like performing
on a stage, like?
So why didn't you do it?
Because it was a silly
dream for a silly child.
I don't think that's
a silly dream at all.
I think that's a good dream.
Yeah, it were.
I'm million miles away from
ever being that person.
It's too late for me now.
Ah, you think you're too old?
Well, yeah.
Mm.
You know,
they do courses in it.
I don't know much
about it myself,
but a friend of mine,
her daughter,
she studies performing arts.
All right, well,
I haven't got the time
nor the talent.
I just look forward to weekend
so I can get off my face.
Right.
Can I ask you a question?
What?
How do you live like this?
Like what?
This.
Just the whole place is a mess.
You've got rubbish everywhere,
and this.
I know what this is.
It seems a waste.
-Who the fuck are you?
-What?
Who the fuck are you
to judge me, you prick?
Just because you helped me out,
you think it can come
into my home
-and question
the way I live life my life?
-No, no, no.
-It wasn't that, it's just--
-[Tina] Just what?
Well, look at it.
It's just I don't think
this is any way
for a young woman
to live her life. I don't.
Look, I live my life
exactly how I want to live it.
-Okay, then.
-Just because you've got
some shitty TV program
that nobody probably watches
don't mean
that you can look down
on everyone else,
especially me.
-I'm not looking down.
-I've met people
like you before.
I bet your wife's just
the same as well, ain't she?
A cunt.
Now get the fuck out of here.
Thank you for the drink.
Fuck off!
[phone beeping]
Hello, Brenda.
[Brenda]
Hi, this is Brenda.
Sorry I can't get
to the phone right now,
but please leave a message
after the beep.
Hi, Brenda, it's Bill.
Um... just wondering
if you'd give me
a call back if you have
any news.
Or you can give me a call
if you don't.
It would be good to talk.
[sniffles]
I'm on the same number,
so that's good.
Um... yeah, so speak soon.
Bye-bye.
That was awkward.
That was awkward.
[organ playing]
[clapping]
[footsteps approaching]
You shouldn't be here.
I thought everyone
were welcome at church.
It's not what I meant.
It's not open yet.
The door were open actually,
so I just walked in.
-How did you know I was here?
-I didn't.
But seeing as there's only
three churches in the area,
you weren't exactly hard
to find.
Hmm.
Well, I suppose the next
question would be,
what do you want?
Here.
You tracked me down in
order to give me a pound?
I always pay my debts,
even if it is
just a fucking quid.
No, you don't use that
language in here.
You can speak however you
want at home, but not here.
You understand?
Fine.
Look, I just wanna
apologize about
the way I acted the other day.
-Forget it.
-I can't forget it.
You did a really nice thing
for me
and I just went off on one.
I'm really sorry, yeah?
Okay, sorry.
I forgive you.
Now I need to be getting
on with some work, okay?
Let me make it up to you.
There's nothing to make up.
Come on.
You do eat, don't you?
[]
Thank you.
You didn't have to do this.
-But thank you.
-It's fine.
I like it here.
They do a good cooked
breakfast.
-Can't afford it often, though.
-Yeah?
So how did you get to learn
the piano like that?
The church organ, do you mean?
Yeah.
I learned from young age.
You're good.
Thank you.
Do you play any instruments?
[laughs] No.
Why not?
I remember when I were little,
about seven or eight,
I wanted a guitar
for Christmas.
It was pink,
I had my heart set on it.
I thought if I could learn it,
I could become a famous
singer-songwriter.
Sound stupid, don't I?
No, you don't.
Did you get the guitar?
I sent a letter to Santa
and everything,
but he mustn't have got it.
Got a coloring book instead.
You see, my parents
had more important
fucking things to spend
the money on.
Like what?
Like beer, smoke and smack.
-[cutlery clattering]
-[clears throat]
Um...
I'm sorry to hear that.
Like I said, my life's
one big shit show.
[sighs]
It can't be all that bad.
You have friends,
you have a house,
you have your own house.
You just wouldn't know,
would you?
-I suppose not.
-[sighs]
So do you have a boyfriend?
Why? Gonna ask me questions
about my sex life now?
No, I wasn't even gonna
suggest anything like that.
Who I'm fucking,
who I've fucked.
I think I should
get back to work.
Oh, William, sit down.
I'm messing with you.
You need to learn
how to take a joke.
I don't think it's funny
speaking like that.
Well, I think it's funny.
Sex is not some sort
of scary monster
you can't talk about, you know?
-It's normal.
-I'd prefer not
to talk about it.
-Okay?
-[sighs] Fine.
Do I have a boyfriend?
No.
Do I want a boyfriend?
No.
They come with
too much baggage.
You have to make time for them.
You have to give up the things
you like
because they don't enjoy it.
-No, ta.
-Well, I agree,
but sacrifices
have to be made
in order for a relationship
to work.
But the rewards
are 10 times any--
Are you trying to set me up?
What? No.
You sound like you run
a fucking dating agency.
I'm just giving you
some free advice.
Well, I didn't fucking
ask for it did I?
Fine, fine. Fine.
You shouldn't be smoking
in a public place.
[scoffs]
What are you gonna do?
Make a citizen's arrest?
Get the helicopters out,
call the fucking SWAT team?
Amazing, really.
So what are you doing later?
Any plans?
I'll probably have
an early night
after my work's done
in the church.
You're not doing
anything with your wife?
No.
She's, well...
my wife has gone away
for a while,
so it's just me.
Oh, right.
Well, me and Lisa are having
a few friends around later.
Why don't you come?
No, I don't think that's wise.
Why not?
It's just a party.
You'd only be at home bored
by yourself.
Yeah, but...
your kind of party is--
don't do that.
Is it a wine and cheese
kind of party?
Yeah, something like that.
How are we gonna become
better friends
if we don't get to know
each other better?
Is that what we are, friends?
Yeah, why not?
You seem like a decent guy.
Could do with more
decent people in my life.
Oi.
You can't smoke that in here.
-Out now.
-Yep, sorry.
Sorry about that.
Keep your fucking head on,
will you?
[door beeping]
Shh, shh, shh.
[sighs]
[clock ticking]
[traffic noise]
[music playing inside]
[knocking]
Oh, you made it then,
did you?
-You invited me.
-Well, come in then.
-For you.
-Oh, ta.
I didn't know what you like,
but the shopkeeper said
that's a popular brand
at the moment,
-so I thought it's a safe bet.
-All right, fine.
Glass?
Uh, no.
No, I wasn't gonna drink
actually.
But you will.
Just a small one please,
just one.
Seb, this is William.
-Hello.
-Hello.
William's my new friend.
Ooh, we're not robbing off,
are you bitch?
Oh, shut up, bitch.
You know there's enough
of me to share.
You from round here?
Not far.
That's a nice jacket.
Where'd you get it from?
Um, I don't know, sorry.
All right, is that how it is?
Yeah, don't worry about it,
you know?
I don't want people walking
down the street with same
stuff as me.
[laughs]
-Spoke to Dan the man yet?
-No, not yet.
Just about to do it.
Why, what you after?
Three 20s, weekend usual.
Right, well, go in there and ask
if anyone else wants ought.
-Slave driver.
-And hurry the fuck up, yeah?
He'll turn his phone off soon.
That's a strange
relationship you have there.
What do you mean?
Just the way you keep
addressing each other
with the B word.
It's just--
it's just strange.
-The B word?
-Yeah.
-Do you mean bitch?
-Yeah, I'm not gonna say it.
[laughs]
You can say it though.
It's not illegal.
I know it's not a illegal.
I'm not going to say it.
Seb's my best friend.
[]
[no audible dialog]
Right, everyone,
this is William.
Be nice, yeah?
William's a good
friend of mine.
Come and sit down, William.
Oh, thank you,
but I'm okay standing.
Really.
-Go on, sit down.
-No, I'm fine.
-She won't bite.
-I'm fine.
Not unless you fucking
want her to.
Come and sit down.
You?
Yeah, soon.
Uh, no thanks,
I don't smoke.
Got a drink?
Yeah.
So I know we've seen each
other before,
but we haven't properly met.
I'm Lisa.
Yeah, Lisa, we've briefly met.
Well, briefly seen each other.
That's Carly and Tom
over there.
That's Kath, Jen,
Stu, Pippa and Seb.
Oh, yeah, I've met Seb.
So Tina told me
that you're famous?
No, I'm not famous.
Don't be fucking modest.
I'm not being modest.
I'm not famous.
-I'm really not.
-But you're on the telly?
[knocking]
Hi, doll.
All right, Dan the man?
[unzips bag]
Having an all nighter then,
are we?
Yeah, it weren't the plan,
but it looks like it, don't it?
Do you wanna stay for
a bit and have a drink?
No, I can't.
Got a few people I've got to
see before I call it a night.
-You busy?
-As always.
You're lucky I had any left.
Ten, wasn't it, yeah?
-Yeah.
-Cool.
Nice.
There we go.
You got the cash?
If you give us five minutes,
I'll go get it for you.
No, no, no.
I gotta shoot off.
How about I pop round
tomorrow for it, yeah?
No biggie.
Sure you need 10?
I'm not dropping any more off.
Yeah, 10's enough tonight.
All right, you're the boss.
Catch you later, yeah?
Yeah, see you later.
[door closes]
[music continues]
[snorting]
Forty, before I forget.
Ta.
[snorting]
[sighs]
[music contines]
You got a five pound note
on you?
Um, I think so.
Yeah.
Thank you.
Fucking love this song, woo.
[breathing heavily]
[inhales deeply]
[sighing]
[inhales loudly]
[kissing]
Hey. Hey.
[kisses]
Be back soon.
Be back soon.
[coins rattle]
[knocking]
Bill?
I wasn't expecting--
Hi, Brenda.
I was just about to go out.
Can you spare five minutes?
Please?
Yeah, yeah, sure.
Come on.
How are you holding up?
As good as can be expected.
Can I get you anything?
No, no, no, thank you.
We've been watching
your TV show.
-Really?
-It's been good.
At least someone's been
watching.
Oh, nonsense.
I know others
that always tune in.
And we'll be watching
tonight, too.
Thank you.
Don't just stand around,
sit down.
Yeah, yeah.
[sniffles]
[exhales]
You still at the church?
Yes, yeah.
I doubt you'll ever stop
working there.
Hmm.
One day.
When I've had enough of playing.
I can't imagine you not
playing that damn organ.
[chuckles]
I suppose you've come to ask
about Sandra.
And you're going to tell me
you've not heard from her.
No, I have heard from her.
She called me.
She has?
Well, what--
what did she say?
How is she?
Did she say where she was?
She's okay.
But I promised I wouldn't
tell you where she is.
Oh, come on.
Please, you have to tell me.
I'm worried. I'm her husband.
And I'm her sister.
I swore to her
that I wouldn't tell.
[sighs]
I know this must be hard.
You have no idea.
No idea.
[inhales deeply]
Sometimes people grow apart.
Sometimes people just need
a little space, some time away.
If it's meant to be,
she will come back.
Is there another man?
I'm not sure.
She didn't say.
Please.
You don't have to tell
me where she is, fine.
It's fine.
But at least tell me this.
She didn't actually say,
but...
But what?
We don't know.
Maybe?
She sounded different.
She sounded... happy.
[door squeaks]
Lisa?
Lisa?
[sighs]
-All right, Dan?
-Alright?
How did you get in here?
Lisa let me in.
Just gone shop
to get some fags.
All right.
Shouldn't be too long.
You all right, yeah?
Yeah, are you?
Yeah, not bad.
I can't stay long.
People to see, and all that.
-You busy?
-As always.
Eh, what would you say
your favorite animal is?
Animal? I don't know, why?
What's yours?
-Probably a chimp.
-[laughs] Why?
I was watching a video
about them, then.
Smart little bastards.
Vicious.
-They can rip your face off.
-[laughs]
And they're fair as well,
you know?
The chimp takes another
chimp's food it's...
[slaps hands]
So you got the money then?
Oh, no,
I haven't got it yet.
No?
No, the people that owe it
left the party--
[Dan sighing loudly]
I don't like being dicked
about, okay?
-Okay.
-Hmm?
As far as I'm concerned,
you made the order
so you owe the money.
Okay.
Right, so when am I gonna
get my money?
Um...
Honestly?
A few days.
Two days.
-Two days to get me my money.
-Okay.
And when I come back,
I don't want any excuses
about your friends.
-All right?
-Yeah.
Good.
Don't act like a victim.
I don't let anybody
fuck me about.
Not even pretty ones.
See you in two days, yeah?
-[sobbing quietly]
-[knocks]
[dog barking in distance]
[line ringing]
Fuck sake.
[sighs]
-Oi, Lisa!
-What?
Has Carly changed her number?
I've been trying to ring her
all morning.
Not that I know of.
Fuck sake.
[birds chirping]
[banging]
Oi, Carly.
-Tina.
-I knocked, no answer.
Yeah, I didn't hear it.
What are you doing here?
I need that money.
-What fucking money?
-The money from
the other night.
I don't know
what you're talking about.
The fucking money
for the snort. You owe 50.
-I don't fucking owe anything.
-You stupid bitch.
You ordered the bags,
so now you owe the money.
-Oh, fuck off.
-You think you can mess
with me then, do you?
-Fucking slag.
-Get off me!
Carly, you fucking idiot.
No wonder nobody
fucking likes you.
-You fucking cunt.
-Get off me!
Oi, what the fuck's going on?
-You little prick!
-Get the fuck off her.
You're dead to me,
Carly, did you hear that?
Don't fucking come round
to my house ever.
-[Carly] Get the fuck
out of my garden!
-Stupid bitch.
[dog barking]
[banging]
[banging]
Tina? How--
Hey!
Hey, you can't just come
barging into people's homes.
-What is wrong
with you mentally?
-I'm in trouble!
-What kind of trouble?
-Fucking trouble, trouble.
Oh, well, take a seat.
Sit down, we'll talk about it.
No, I'm fine standing up.
Well, you've obviously
come here for help.
Yeah?
Tina, I can't help you unless
I know what's actually happened.
I owe money and I
don't have it, all right?
-Who to? Who to?
-A dealer.
-A drug dealer?
-Yeah.
Then go.
Go.
You can deal with this
on your own.
I'm not--I'm not gonna get
myself mixed up anything.
I didn't fucking
ask you, did I?
Is that why you're here
then, is it?
Hey?
Go, come on.
Leave.
I'm not having any drug
addicts in this house.
I fucking hate my life.
[crying]
Listen.
It can't be that bad.
Everything will be okay.
What's the worst
that can happen?
That's easy for you to say.
You've got your own
fucking home.
You're on the telly.
You've got your shit together.
Everything around me
is just a mess.
I live in a dump,
my friends
aren't really friends,
and I owe money because
of other people.
I don't want to live
like this anymore.
But you?
You're living the dream
compared to me.
No, no, no, no.
You're wrong.
You're wrong.
You think
that just because
I don't have a drug problem
my life's perfect.
It's not.
It's not.
I just hide it better
than you do.
And yeah, I own this house,
but it's hardly a home anymore.
I don't know
where my wife is.
Or who she's with.
And I'm starting
to question my own
beliefs more and more
each day.
So that's lost.
[laughs]
Maybe we're both fucked up
in our own little ways.
Oh, no maybe about it.
Is that her?
Sandra, yeah. Yeah.
If you don't mind me saying,
she's a fucking idiot for
leaving you.
Hmm.
Well, maybe I'm a fucking
idiot for pushing her away.
Oh, I will say "fucking"
when it's called for.
So what will happen
to you if you don't pay?
He'll hurt me.
Hmm.
How much do you owe?
One fifty.
One hundred and fifty pounds?
[laughs]
The way you were talking,
it sounded like thousands.
Well, 150 is a lot of money
to me, all right?
-I'll give you the money.
-No, I don't want you to.
No, I want to.
I want to, but you'll have
to pay me back.
How? I'm not working.
Well... maybe we can help
find you a job.
Pay me back
when you're settled, okay?
-All right.
-Okay?
All right.
Can I go to your loo?
Well?
Of course, it's upstairs.
Ta.
Tina?
What?
Are you serious?
[footsteps approaching]
What about?
Turning your life around.
-It's too fucking late for that.
-No, no, it's not.
You can stay here.
What?
You can have the spare room,
rent free...
till you're back on your feet.
-Really?
-Mm-hmm.
A fresh start.
But no drugs and no alcohol.
You find a job and get your
life back on track, okay?
What you think I am,
a fucking pet project?
Let's fix the broken girl?
Yes, exactly.
[]
-Are you sure you're
doing the right thing?
-No.
Then why are you doing
this then, bitch?
'Cause I'm willing to give
it a shot, bitch.
[both laugh]
You got any books over there?
Yep.
Well, give them here, dickhead.
You do know you're
leaving Lisa in the lurch?
Who fucking cares?
She'll find a new roommate.
You know,
why don't you move in?
Because I love my sleep.
I'd get no sleep living here.
[giggles]
Hey, you got a pad or a piece
of paper over there?
Yeah.
And the pen?
-Pen? That one?
-Yeah.
Look, you don't even
know this guy very well.
For all you know, he could
be some sort of weirdo who
steals your underwear
or keeps you locked
in his sex dungeon.
Look, he's not
a fucking weirdo.
Yeah, he's a little strange,
but he's a nice guy.
How'd you know?
I just do, all right?
Right.
I'll take these to car, yeah?
Yeah.
And, Seb,
thanks for this, yeah?
[sighs]
Do you wanna take those
two to the car?
I'll get other one.
Fine, bitch.
[dog barking in distance]
[TV playing quietly]
You enjoying that?
Yeah.
Good.
You thought about
what you want to do?
What do you mean?
Job wise?
Oh, I don't know.
There's always shop assistant
vacancies posted in the paper.
Mm, I don't like people.
I don't like talking to them.
I'm not cut out for shop work.
[Bill] No?
Yeah.
Sound stupid, don't I?
I just want a job where
I can be on my own,
where don't have to talk
to anyone and be hassled.
Oh.
Yeah, I get that.
I'm the same.
You could start
your own business.
Like what?
Look at me.
I've wasted my life.
I've got no qualifications.
I've got no fucking brains
for shit like that.
You could go to school,
college.
It's not too late.
Course I can't.
Nonsense.
-You're not stupid.
-I know.
Then don't act like you are.
Fine, I'll go see if there's
a nine to five job somewhere.
I just get bored
easy though.
Don't exactly have
a good record
for staying in a job too long.
Maybe try the job center.
I will.
[TV continues playing]
[water running]
[sighs]
[sniffles]
[sniffles]
[knocking]
-[knocks]
-[Bill] Yeah?
Is everything okay?
Don't you want to fuck me?
No.
I thought that's
what you wanted.
That's what men always want.
-No.
-I just wanted to say
thank you.
No, you're--
you're a very pretty
young girl...
[Tina sniffles]
...but I'm a married man.
A married man who can't find
his wife.
[both laughs]
But a married man
none the less.
Look, you've obviously not had
the best of times with men.
But you don't need to
offer yourself like this
just to show me
how grateful you are.
Okay.
-Friends?
-Yeah, friends.
-Okay.
-I'm so embarrassed.
No, no,
I'm actually very flattered.
Is that your wife's jewelry?
Yes.
-She left it here?
-Yeah, but please
don't touch it.
She's very funny about
people touching her jewelry.
All right.
Thank you.
-Good night.
-Good night.
Do you want the door shut?
-Please, yeah.
-Okay.
[knocking]
[knocking]
[Tina] William, you up?
Yeah.
Yeah, you can come in.
-Morning.
-Good morning.
What's that smell?
Have you been cooking?
Yeah, I made us breakfast.
Oh, okay. Thank you.
Are you busy today,
by any chance?
Got to go to church later on,
but not really, no.
Right, well, I thought
we could go on a trip together.
A trip?
A trip where?
Actually no.
No, I'm not in the mood.
Just shut up and get ready,
will you?
You'll see when we get there.
Meet you downstairs.
[engine rumbling]
[waves crashing]
So you don't talk about
your wife much.
-What do you mean?
-Exactly that.
I don't know anything
about her apart from she
likes her jewelry
and you don't know
where she is.
Mmm. What's to tell?
Where did you both meet?
At church.
Course you did.
Go on.
[laughs] No, sorry.
I'm not entirely comfortable
with this.
William, we're friends.
Friends talk.
Yes, yes, they do,
but not about personal
stuff like this, they don't.
-Well, I don't.
-Fine, whatever.
You don't wanna talk about it,
I won't bring it up again.
I was 19.
I was a choir boy in our
local church, St. Luke's.
I'm sure that
doesn't surprise you.
It's not there anymore.
It was deemed not fit
for purpose.
-Demolished.
-Yeah, I know.
All right.
[sighs] Yeah, 19.
At that age, I thought I had
me whole life ahead of me.
And maybe I did.
I dreamed of traveling
the world, getting rich.
You know, usual boyhood stuff.
I wasn't always like this,
you know?
Didn't always
have this much...
fear.
It's funny how life
seemingly...
grabs hold of you
and fast forwards, isn't it?
Soon as you hit 18,
that's it.
Everything zooms by.
Like your whole life's now.
A sprint.
A sprint for the finish line.
Yeah.
It only feels like yesterday
I was back in school.
Yeah.
So I was in the choir,
and the vicar stopped us all
from singing
to introduce a new member.
It was Sandra.
She had her hair tied
in pigtails
and she greeted everyone with
this incredible smile she had.
She was the most beautiful
person I ever laid eyes on.
Anyway, the vicar sits her next
to me and we became friends.
You know, I remember...
[laughs]
I remember wanting
to ask her out on a date,
but I was so nervous,
you see?
I mean, what if she said no?
I would then have to sit
and sing next to after that.
No, no.
No, I wasn't gonna do that.
Finally, after some advice
from my father,
he himself was
a very religious man...
plucked up the courage
and, yeah.
She said yeah.
So where did you take her?
On the date?
We went for a meal.
I remember I saved up
for a fortnight just to
take her out.
I worked on a milk float
back then.
Used to be up and out the house
every morning at 4:30.
It didn't pay much,
but I loved the job,
running around,
delivering to homes
while it felt like
the whole world was asleep.
It was great.
Did that milk round
for absolute years.
Right up until
I started working
at the church
as an organist, actually.
So what happened?
Well...
time went on.
We moved in together,
I proposed.
You know, we were married in
that very church we first met.
Yeah.
All those years ago.
Life was good.
I...
[sighs]
[clears throat]
I was loved.
That's the main thing.
I loved what I did back then,
even though
it was completely different
to my dreams as a boy.
When Sandra had this idea
of spreading
the word of God on television,
we decided we'd set up
this little show,
present it together.
You know?
It doesn't make us any money.
It's completely voluntary.
But it was ours, you know?
It was something
we had created.
It was something
we had together. It was...
So now it's just yours?
No.
No, it's still ours.
Just she needed some space
is all.
Is that what she said?
She left me a letter.
Woke up a couple of months
ago to find she was... gone.
This letter was on
the dining room table.
Just said she needed some space,
and she'd be gone for a while.
Well, if you ask me,
she sounds like a right
inconsiderate bitch.
Hey.
Come on, don't talk
about me wife like that.
I'm just telling you
how I see it.
Well, maybe, but you don't speak
about me wife like that.
Well, you at least deserved
to be told to your face.
Everyone needs space now
and then, don't they?
I bet you do.
But you've not run away,
have you?
You're still stuck at home
by yourself,
doing that show that I actually
don't think you enjoy doing.
And you're taking happy pills.
What?
How--so you're snooping
now as well?
I'm not snooping at all.
I was trying to find a knife
and I saw them in the drawer.
I believe you.
[footsteps approaching]
You sure you wanna wait?
I may be a while.
It's fine, just do
whatever you need to do.
-So where's the piano then?
-Organ.
Do you wanna play?
You know I don't play
any instruments.
Never even touched
a piano before.
-Still an organ.
-Whatever.
Here, give me your hand.
Go on.
[playing note]
There, now you have.
What about the black ones?
Press one.
[plays note]
I like that one.
Do you? Why?
I don't know.
Sounds different.
Weird.
A bit like me.
A bit like you.
You think I'm weird?
Yeah, it's good.
Weird's good.
[]
[knocking]
Fuck sake.
All right?
Look, I don't want
anyone around tonight.
I just wanna relax.
I'm not here to ruin
your night off.
Hey.
Give Tina a shout for us then?
She's gone.
All right, when's she
getting back?
She's gone, gone.
Moved out.
[sniffles]
Moved where?
She moved in
with some older creep.
-The bitch left me to pick up--
-Right.
And where's this
older guy live?
I don't know.
That's not the answer
I'm looking for, is it?
Look, I don't know where.
Seb does though, he helped
her move out he said.
Right.
If you see her,
tell her I said fuck you.
[keyboard clicking]
Can I help you?
Yeah, I've got an interview.
With?
-I don't know the name.
-Name?
I just said I don't know.
Your name.
[laughs] Hi.
It's Tina Shepherd.
You're seeing Mr. Whittaker.
Take a seat, someone
will be with you shortly.
Not exactly outstanding,
is it?
What do you mean?
Well, there are gaps
throughout.
You work for a month or two,
at a few jobs,
and then nothing
for a couple of years.
So?
So this is not like the CV
of a committed
and hardworking individual.
We pride ourselves on
employing the best staff.
Those who are looking
to go above and beyond.
I will go above and beyond.
I just need a fucking
chance to prove myself.
Can you leave now please?
You've only had a quick
look at the piece of paper.
Yeah, and I've seen enough.
You haven't seen anything.
I could do a really
good job here.
You turn up to an interview
with one of the worst Cvs
that I've ever seen,
dressed like that
and using foul language.
Dressed like that?
What?
Don't you like
what I'm wearing?
You think you've got me
all figured out, don't you?
Just because my skirt's
two inches
higher than what
you're used to.
I get it.
You think I'm a slut.
A street skank who
probably lost her virginity
to an older guy
on a park bench.
Someone who's got
nothing to show
for the years on this planet.
Gets money and pisses it up
against a wall on cheap cider
and fags and drugs.
Yeah, can you get security
in here please
to escort a lady
out my office?
Someone who's worthless
and doesn't
deserve to be given
the time of day.
A girl that you'd look at
and probably fuck
if you was horny,
but you won't give
a helping hand to
or a job when she desperately
needs it to start afresh.
[hangs up phone]
I know guys like you,
with your posh suits
and your fancy houses.
I bet you had the perfect
upbringing as well, didn't you?
With mommy and daddy's help?
You knew you weren't
gonna give me the job
as soon as you saw me,
unless I offered to suck
you off under the desk.
[breathing heavily]
You're disgusting.
You can leave now.
Fuck you.
Do you know what?
I don't wanna work for
a cunt like you anyway.
[door slams]
[footsteps approaching]
Oh, hey, how'd it go?
-Don't wanna talk about it.
-That good, eh?
I just said
I don't wanna talk about it.
You gonna watch the show?
[sighs]
You should.
I'll see you late, okay?
[line ringing]
Seb?
[Seb speaking indistinctly]
You all right?
[sighs]
[sighs]
[line ringing]
-Yeah?
-Kev, it's Tina.
-I need money.
-Tina?
You only ring me
when you want money.
Where've you been?
I've been busy.
I need 60, is that all right?
No, it's not okay.
You've let me down loads
of times in the past.
You said you'd be around
to pay me back in a week,
and it took three weeks.
I ain't doing it again, Tina.
I shouldn't have to chase you.
Come on, Kev,
I won't let you down.
I get my benefits next week,
so I can pay you then.
No can do, sorry.
I have other people that need
cash that keep their promises.
-Please, Kev.
-[sighs]
Look, if you can
give me something
worth double the 60 pounds
to hold onto,
and then bring me back 80
in two days.
But if you're fucking late,
after two days, I'll sell
what you've left me,
and you and me are finished.
Right, fine.
I'll get you something, yeah?
I'll see you
in about an hour, yeah?
I'll see you in an hour.
[sighs]
[jewelry rattling]
[knocking]
-Yeah?
-Kev's expecting me.
-Who is it?
-Tina.
One second.
[sighs]
Come through.
[Kev] Tina, make yourself
at home.
I'm just sorting out
some business.
[sighs]
Oh, shit.
Can I turn the TV on?
[TV playing]
[channels flipping]
I'm tired.
I've done this show for
almost three years now.
I've put a lot of time
and effort into it.
I don't get paid for doing it.
I do it because I genuinely
want to make a difference.
I want to help people.
And do it because my wife
wanted to do it.
You see, this whole thing...
was Sandra's idea
and me,
being the supportive
husband I am, came on board.
Now, I'm sure a lot
of our regular viewers,
all 10 of you, are wondering
where Sandra is.
Well, I've been wondering
that myself,
and my darling wife left me
a note to say she needed space.
And then she went off
with another man.
Yes, that's right.
She's having an affair.
I always knew
that it was happening,
but I never wanted
to admit it.
So I blame myself.
Maybe I could have given
her more attention.
Maybe I could have
loved her more.
Or maybe she's just
a heartless, selfish bitch.
Anyway, she's ran off
with this mystery man
and left me here
to finish what she started.
But no more.
I want to announce
that from tonight,
it will be my last show ever.
Apologies.
Some stuff needed
to be dealt with.
-[indistinct]
-Yeah?
You're looking all right.
...potentially take this show
places I couldn't.
What the fuck is this on?
-No, I was just flicking.
-[turns TV off]
So you said you wanted
60 notes?
Well, I'll hold onto your
phone for a couple of days.
You bring me 80 back,
you can have your phone back.
Fuck off, you're not taking
my phone.
Fuck sake.
No deal then.
You told me to bring you
something that were worth
more than 60.
Double.
Fine, double.
Fucking hell.
-Is this real?
-Of course it's fucking real.
[scoffs]
-There's a lot more
than 120 here.
-Mm.
[scoffs]
I've changed my mind.
What?
You can't have it,
it's not mine.
Fuck sake.
Just hold onto my shit.
It's worth a lot more than
60 quid anyway.
[scoffs]
We got a deal?
Fine.
Right.
Dickhead.
Two days, Shepherd.
Fine, whatever.
[]
Haven't seen you for a while.
All right?
-Don't want any trouble
in here tonight.
-[sighs]
You're on your last warning
after the last time you were in.
Fine, whatever.
Get us a vodka, will you?
Seen Seb tonight?
[man] Nope.
Four pound, Tina.
-Watch me drink, Al.
-[knocks]
[knocking]
Seb?
Let me in, dickhead,
before someone comes in.
Boo.
What's going on?
You really thought
you could just fuck off
and I wouldn't find you?
Where's Seb?
What, that little faggot
mate of yours?
He cried like a little bitch
when I took this off him.
And I slapped him about
for extra measure.
-I'm going.
-You're not going anywhere.
Now didn't I tell you if you
didn't pay, I'd find you?
I did pay.
[groans]
Enough of the fucking lies,
right?
-Now there's prices to pay.
-What?
I've always wanted to know
what it'd be like to fuck you.
[Tina grunting]
Not a fucking sound.
Or I'll cut you and leave you
here to bleed.
Understand?
-Come on.
-[Tina crying]
[grunting]
-[sobbing]
-Fuck.
Shut the fuck up.
[grunting]
Fuck!
Fucking sort yourself out,
yeah?
[jewelry clattering]
What's this?
-Please don't, it's not--
-Shut the fuck up.
Always hiding from me?
You sly little fucker.
-It's not mine, please--
-Shut the fuck up, all right?
Yeah.
I think this will settle
your debt.
No, please.
Now, you don't ever
contact me again
and you tell anybody
about this,
I'll find you and you'll go
fucking missing.
Yeah?
[sniffling]
[sobbing]
-You William?
-Yeah, yeah, yeah.
-Is she alright?
-She's not really talking
to me,
but she's saying
she fell in the toilets,
and I don't believe her.
Okay, I'll speak with her.
Thank you.
Hey.
You alright?
I'm sorry.
They wanted to ring someone.
There's only you.
No, no, no,
I'm glad they rang.
Do you want to tell me
what's happened?
Why is it that when
you try to do some good
and want to change your
life now for the better,
something always
drags you back?
I just want to be happy,
you know?
Is that too much to ask?
No, no.
Then why won't people
let me be happy?
Always dealt with a bad hand.
For all my life,
ever since I can remember,
I've been made to struggle
and I'm sick of it.
I know, I know.
I know.
Life... puts these hurdles
in our way,
but we just have
to get over them.
Keep moving, keep going.
It were Dan.
He attacked me tonight.
What do you mean, Dan?
The dealer.
I gave you the money
to pay him back.
Yep.
I left it at Lisa's
on the table,
and he said he never got it.
Right, come on.
We're going police.
No.
The police can fix this.
I just want to go home.
You can't just let him walk?
William, I just want
to go home and forget it.
Please, no police.
[sighs]
Okay, for now.
Finish your drink,
I'll take you home.
I need to tell you
something else.
What?
Dan stole your wife's jewelry.
What? [stammers]
How has this happened? How?
I had it.
I had it and he took it,
I'm so sorry.
Why did you have
Sandra's jewelry?
I don't know.
I was gonna put it back.
No, I can't believe this.
You just took
my wife's jewelry
without even asking?
I swear I was gonna
put it back.
No, no, no, no.
It wasn't yours to touch,
never mind take.
You basically stole something,
and now it's been stolen
from you.
I had you down as a lot
of things when we first met.
I did. I had you down
as this broken,
pathetic, lost little girl.
A fucking loser, but I never
had you down as a thief.
I said I'm sorry.
I'll pay for it,
whatever it costs.
Some of that was sentimental.
Priceless. Do you understand
what that means?
No, of course you don't,
'cause you've never had
anything of value
in your whole little life,
have you?
The only reason I helped
you was to help me.
Okay? I thought helping
you might help me
get a bit of perspective
on my own life okay?
You know where
my head's been at,
but you've never even
thought about that, have you?
'Cause you only ever
thought about yourself.
You know, just get
your belongings
and find somewhere
else to live.
I'm not having a thief
under my roof, okay?
Live where? You know
I've got nowhere to go.
Not my problem.
Me and you are done.
Is that all you care about?
Pieces of rocks and metal
that belongs
to a woman that don't give
a flying fuck about you?
Don't you dare
turn this on me.
I was attacked and nearly
raped an hour ago,
and all you care about
is necklaces and some rings?
-Tina, you tried--
-Fuck you!
[Bill] Tina.
[knocking]
-What do you want?
-Where is she?
What do you mean?
She moved in with you,
didn't she?
She's not here?
No, she's fucking not here.
She run out on you too?
No, I don't know where she is.
Now I'm getting worried.
She'll be fine,
selfish bitch.
Have you tried her mums?
No, no, I don't have
the address.
One sec.
That's the address.
If she tries contacting you--
[knocking]
Yeah?
Hi.
My name's William Coulthard.
I'm sorry for intruding
upon you.
What do you want?
I'm a friend of Tina's.
Tina's?
Yes.
[man] Who is it, Sharon?
Some stuck up prick
asking after our Tina.
Can I come in?
Can you fuck?
Okay, thank you
for your time.
Hey, what'd you want her for?
She seemed upset last night.
I just wanted to speak with her.
Is she here?
I've not seen her
for a couple of years.
Do you have any idea
where she might be?
No.
Gave up on that girl
a long time ago.
Oi, you got any cigs on you?
I don't smoke.
Fuck off then.
[breathing heavily]
[clatters]
[door closes]
[]
All right, girls. Here we are.
This is our final rehearsal,
so let's give this
everything we've got
and make ourselves proud.
Pippa, to the front please?
Great.
Right, let's do this.
[woman] But one day
I couldn't get back.
Will there be a reward
for all these failed jumps?
Will there be a reward
for keeping the fate
in the sunlight?
Will there be a lesser song
for all of us?
When the light is down,
open your windows.
[]
It's been such a long life
Do you have a little time
Just been trying
To remember
But I can't read the words
In my mind
Tell me what I say
Maybe you can mark me
Time to come
I was dying in the dark
Tell me what I said
Tell me you don't look
At my reflex
It has been raining
All the time
When you feel so down
When you don't even know
What to think about it
When you heart
Can sit on the light
Be the spark that helps
Others see
When you feel so down
When you don't even
Want to think about it
When your heart can see
The moonlight
Be the spark in the dark
That helps others
See tonight
[music fades]
[clapping]
You were great.
How'd you find me?
Uh, um...
I looked everywhere for you.
Yeah, well I didn't want
to be found.
Yeah, I understand that.
But...
I wanted to apologize.
I shouldn't have acted
the way I did.
It wasn't your fault.
Thanks.
Now I've got to go.
Are you hungry?
[scoffs]
What, you think
you can buy my forgiveness
with a cheap meal?
No, no, no. I--no.
I don't want to buy
your forgiveness.
I want to earn
your forgiveness.
I know I did you wrong
and I'm sorry.
I just...
I want...
I want to start over again.
Yeah, well I'm busy.
Yeah, yeah.
First show tonight.
It's good.
It's very good.
Still, there's a little caf
around the corner.
I'll be there for the next
hour or so.
You do eat, don't you?
[chuckles]
Yeah.
We could get a bite, talk.
If you don't come...
I understand.
[scoffs]
You were great.
I mean that.
[sighs]
[crying softly]
Thank you.
-[door opens]
-[bell rings]
Hi, there.
What can I get you?
[indistinct]
-Two coffees.
-Two coffees?
-Take a seat and I'll bring
them right up.
-Thank you.
[sighs]
-[door opens]
-[bell rings]
[upbeat music]
[music fades]
[]
[wind rushing]
[glasses clinking]
[items clanking]
[glass tapping]
[clock ticking]
[tapping]
[phone ringing]
[faint chatter]
[phone chiming]
-William Coulthard?
-Yes.
The doctor's ready
for you now.
[air pumping]
Good.
[Velcro rips]
So how long have you
felt this way?
[sighs]
Since I read it, really.
I'm going to write you
a prescription.
-Yeah.
-You take one a day only.
-Okay.
-If you have any side effects,
come back to me immediately.
Okay.
-Oh, hi.
-Hi, Bill.
It's good to see you back.
-Thank you, Julia.
-Listen, I heard about--
-Yeah.
-It'll be okay.
-Yeah, thanks again.
-Well, I won't keep you.
-If you need anything.
-Yeah, I'll bare it in mind.
See you soon.
[woman]
Sean, is he ready?
[Sean] Yep.
[woman] Excellent.
Bill, can I check your levels?
Yeah, one, one, two.
One, two, three.
-One, one, two.
One, two, three.
-[woman] Yep, that's good.
Thank you.
[sighs]
Hm?
[chuckles]
You hungry?
You hungry?
[laughs]
I vow to thee, my country
All earthly things above
Entire and whole
And silently
Her shining bounds increase
And her ways are ways
Of gentleness
And all her paths
Are peace
Very nice.
But, George,
I am gonna need that note to
last a fraction longer, okay?
And if anyone needs a toilet
break, now would be the time.
William, could I have
a quick word?
Sure, Denise.
How can I help?
Well, I was actually just
wanting to ask how you are.
I'm okay.
I'm okay, thanks for asking.
It's just, I know it's hard.
I've been there before.
If you need someone to talk
to or help at home, I'm here.
Thank you.
But really, I'm doing alright.
These things happen,
and life will be back
to normal in a week.
-Are you sure? I could--
-Denise, again,
thank you for your offer,
but you needn't worry.
Everything will be normal.
[woman] Oh, come on man.
Don't be a twat.
-[man] You do this all the time.
-[woman] What? No, I don't.
-Why are you lying?
-[man] You know it's the truth.
-[woman] Why are you
being such a dick?
-[man] You know what, forget it.
[woman] Look, I promise
I'll come back in 20 minutes
with rest.
[man] No, pay now
or put something back.
[woman] What,
don't you trust us?
I said I'll come straight back.
[man] And I said pay
now or put something back.
[woman] I need the fucking
milk for my baby, now.
[man] You don't need
the cigarettes for your baby,
do you?
Pay for the milk now, come back
for the cigarettes later.
[woman] I need a fucking cig
for the walk home, don't I.
-[man] And I said, no.
-[woman] It's six quid.
Why are you being such a dick
over six fucking quid?
You're being a dick.
You know what?
-Get out, you're barred.
-Oh, fuck off.
-I don't wanna shop
here anyway, you con!
-Excuse me.
-Excuse me.
-[both shout]
Sorry, but how much
is it she owes you?
Six pound, is that it?
She doesn't owe me anything.
She's not buying from me.
Oh, listen.
Okay, I'll pay.
Don't want her baby
going hungry.
Take that, it's all good.
And we can all go about
our day, is that okay?
Fine.
Ta.
Look, I just live round
the corner.
If you've got five minutes,
I'll give you your money back.
No, no.
Consider it a gift.
I don't want no gift.
Please, I wanna give
your money back.
Okay, fine.
[woman] Not far from here.
[Bill] Good.
[woman] Just so you know,
I don't have a kid.
[Bill] What?
What, wait a minute.
You said you needed milk
for your child?
[woman] Well, I fucking lied,
didn't I?
[Bill] You lied?
I don't believe this.
Here, take it.
Take it, you're on your own.
[woman] I lied to that prick,
not you.
[Bill] You took the money
though, didn't you?
And that lie was the only
reason I helped you.
Otherwise I would've left you
to it.
[woman] You're getting your
fucking money back, aren't you?
[Bill] It's not the point,
you lied.
[woman] What's your story?
[Bill]
I don't have a story.
[woman]
Everyone's got a story.
-[Bill] Do they?
-Yep.
[Bill] And what's yours?
[woman] Don't wanna hear mine.
My life's a fucking
horror story.
Too scary for a posh twat
like you.
[Bill]Sorry, excuse me, sorry.
Can you not?
Can you not?
[woman] I meant that
in the nicest way possible.
You got any kids?
[Bill] No.
Unless, like you,
I also count my imaginary
children.
[woman]
Ha, ha, hilarious.
You're married though,
aren't you?
How'd you know that?
Gold band.
Look, when we get to mine,
you better not try anything.
-[laughs]
-I mean it.
Believe me,
I'm not interested.
I just want my money back
and I'm gone.
Good. Because if you do,
I'll cut your balls off.
Understood.
-Do you want a drink?
-No thank you.
I'm making a brew,
how'd you have it?
I'm fine, thank you.
Just have a fucking brew,
will you?
All right, milk, no sugar.
Thanks.
All right.
[door opens]
-Tina?
-[Tina] What?
Why is there a weirdo
sat on our sofa?
I owe him a couple of quid.
You got any money on you?
-Do you know him?
-No.
Mate, he could be
a fucking rapist.
[Tina] He's not a rapist.
[roommate]
He looks like a rapist.
Are you making me one?
God sake.
-So you got six quid on you?
-What for?
I didn't have enough for
me cigs, so he helped me out.
I think I've got about a fiver.
Don't get paid till tomorrow.
Yeah, that'll do.
Take it then.
Put it in my mouth, then?
[spits]
I'll have to owe you a quid.
That's enough.
I'm not chasing you
for one pound.
So what do you do?
Nothing.
Nothing?
You don't work.
I do sometimes
when I feel like it.
You?
I play the church organ.
That's my full-time job,
but I also present a show
with my wife.
What do you mean
you present a show?
It's just a local
television show
on the public access channel,
that's all.
Are you famous?
[laughs] No, I'm not famous.
All right.
What's the show about then?
Um...
God, Jesus.
Things like that.
[groans]
You one of those then,
are you?
One of what, sorry?
One of those die-hard
religious types.
Had a teacher at school.
His name were,
what the fuck was his name?
Oh, whatever,
I can't remember.
But he were just like you.
Always going to church
and pressurizing
the kids in believing
in all that shit.
Well, I don't know if
I would call it that,
but, you know, actually,
I'm quite offended.
Carrow.
Mr. Carrow, his name were.
Do you know him?
No.
He's probably dead now.
He was touching 70
when I were at school.
Drink your tea, it'll go cold.
[slurping]
So what day's
your show on then?
I'll watch it.
No, I don't think it
would be your cup of tea.
so to speak.
Yeah, it probably won't be,
but I'll still watch it.
[sighs]
It's on Wednesday
and Friday nights.
Right, I'll let you know
what I think.
So do you live
with your friend?
Who, Lisa?
-Lisa, right.
-Yeah.
Lived on your own long?
Since I was about 14.
With Lisa?
No, lived with Lisa
for about 10 months now.
Moved in with an old
boyfriend when I was 14.
Fourteen?
That's young.
That's very young.
Yeah, well,
some would say I was
forced to grow up quick.
Is your tea alright?
Yeah, yeah,
fine, thank you.
I'd offer you a biscuit,
but we don't have none.
That's not a problem.
Not a problem.
Do you have any aspirations?
Aspirations?
Yeah, like hopes,
dreams for the future,
things like that.
No, I suppose I did
when I were younger,
but life got in the way.
What did you wanna be
when you were younger?
Wanted to be an actress.
You know, like performing
on a stage, like?
So why didn't you do it?
Because it was a silly
dream for a silly child.
I don't think that's
a silly dream at all.
I think that's a good dream.
Yeah, it were.
I'm million miles away from
ever being that person.
It's too late for me now.
Ah, you think you're too old?
Well, yeah.
Mm.
You know,
they do courses in it.
I don't know much
about it myself,
but a friend of mine,
her daughter,
she studies performing arts.
All right, well,
I haven't got the time
nor the talent.
I just look forward to weekend
so I can get off my face.
Right.
Can I ask you a question?
What?
How do you live like this?
Like what?
This.
Just the whole place is a mess.
You've got rubbish everywhere,
and this.
I know what this is.
It seems a waste.
-Who the fuck are you?
-What?
Who the fuck are you
to judge me, you prick?
Just because you helped me out,
you think it can come
into my home
-and question
the way I live life my life?
-No, no, no.
-It wasn't that, it's just--
-[Tina] Just what?
Well, look at it.
It's just I don't think
this is any way
for a young woman
to live her life. I don't.
Look, I live my life
exactly how I want to live it.
-Okay, then.
-Just because you've got
some shitty TV program
that nobody probably watches
don't mean
that you can look down
on everyone else,
especially me.
-I'm not looking down.
-I've met people
like you before.
I bet your wife's just
the same as well, ain't she?
A cunt.
Now get the fuck out of here.
Thank you for the drink.
Fuck off!
[phone beeping]
Hello, Brenda.
[Brenda]
Hi, this is Brenda.
Sorry I can't get
to the phone right now,
but please leave a message
after the beep.
Hi, Brenda, it's Bill.
Um... just wondering
if you'd give me
a call back if you have
any news.
Or you can give me a call
if you don't.
It would be good to talk.
[sniffles]
I'm on the same number,
so that's good.
Um... yeah, so speak soon.
Bye-bye.
That was awkward.
That was awkward.
[organ playing]
[clapping]
[footsteps approaching]
You shouldn't be here.
I thought everyone
were welcome at church.
It's not what I meant.
It's not open yet.
The door were open actually,
so I just walked in.
-How did you know I was here?
-I didn't.
But seeing as there's only
three churches in the area,
you weren't exactly hard
to find.
Hmm.
Well, I suppose the next
question would be,
what do you want?
Here.
You tracked me down in
order to give me a pound?
I always pay my debts,
even if it is
just a fucking quid.
No, you don't use that
language in here.
You can speak however you
want at home, but not here.
You understand?
Fine.
Look, I just wanna
apologize about
the way I acted the other day.
-Forget it.
-I can't forget it.
You did a really nice thing
for me
and I just went off on one.
I'm really sorry, yeah?
Okay, sorry.
I forgive you.
Now I need to be getting
on with some work, okay?
Let me make it up to you.
There's nothing to make up.
Come on.
You do eat, don't you?
[]
Thank you.
You didn't have to do this.
-But thank you.
-It's fine.
I like it here.
They do a good cooked
breakfast.
-Can't afford it often, though.
-Yeah?
So how did you get to learn
the piano like that?
The church organ, do you mean?
Yeah.
I learned from young age.
You're good.
Thank you.
Do you play any instruments?
[laughs] No.
Why not?
I remember when I were little,
about seven or eight,
I wanted a guitar
for Christmas.
It was pink,
I had my heart set on it.
I thought if I could learn it,
I could become a famous
singer-songwriter.
Sound stupid, don't I?
No, you don't.
Did you get the guitar?
I sent a letter to Santa
and everything,
but he mustn't have got it.
Got a coloring book instead.
You see, my parents
had more important
fucking things to spend
the money on.
Like what?
Like beer, smoke and smack.
-[cutlery clattering]
-[clears throat]
Um...
I'm sorry to hear that.
Like I said, my life's
one big shit show.
[sighs]
It can't be all that bad.
You have friends,
you have a house,
you have your own house.
You just wouldn't know,
would you?
-I suppose not.
-[sighs]
So do you have a boyfriend?
Why? Gonna ask me questions
about my sex life now?
No, I wasn't even gonna
suggest anything like that.
Who I'm fucking,
who I've fucked.
I think I should
get back to work.
Oh, William, sit down.
I'm messing with you.
You need to learn
how to take a joke.
I don't think it's funny
speaking like that.
Well, I think it's funny.
Sex is not some sort
of scary monster
you can't talk about, you know?
-It's normal.
-I'd prefer not
to talk about it.
-Okay?
-[sighs] Fine.
Do I have a boyfriend?
No.
Do I want a boyfriend?
No.
They come with
too much baggage.
You have to make time for them.
You have to give up the things
you like
because they don't enjoy it.
-No, ta.
-Well, I agree,
but sacrifices
have to be made
in order for a relationship
to work.
But the rewards
are 10 times any--
Are you trying to set me up?
What? No.
You sound like you run
a fucking dating agency.
I'm just giving you
some free advice.
Well, I didn't fucking
ask for it did I?
Fine, fine. Fine.
You shouldn't be smoking
in a public place.
[scoffs]
What are you gonna do?
Make a citizen's arrest?
Get the helicopters out,
call the fucking SWAT team?
Amazing, really.
So what are you doing later?
Any plans?
I'll probably have
an early night
after my work's done
in the church.
You're not doing
anything with your wife?
No.
She's, well...
my wife has gone away
for a while,
so it's just me.
Oh, right.
Well, me and Lisa are having
a few friends around later.
Why don't you come?
No, I don't think that's wise.
Why not?
It's just a party.
You'd only be at home bored
by yourself.
Yeah, but...
your kind of party is--
don't do that.
Is it a wine and cheese
kind of party?
Yeah, something like that.
How are we gonna become
better friends
if we don't get to know
each other better?
Is that what we are, friends?
Yeah, why not?
You seem like a decent guy.
Could do with more
decent people in my life.
Oi.
You can't smoke that in here.
-Out now.
-Yep, sorry.
Sorry about that.
Keep your fucking head on,
will you?
[door beeping]
Shh, shh, shh.
[sighs]
[clock ticking]
[traffic noise]
[music playing inside]
[knocking]
Oh, you made it then,
did you?
-You invited me.
-Well, come in then.
-For you.
-Oh, ta.
I didn't know what you like,
but the shopkeeper said
that's a popular brand
at the moment,
-so I thought it's a safe bet.
-All right, fine.
Glass?
Uh, no.
No, I wasn't gonna drink
actually.
But you will.
Just a small one please,
just one.
Seb, this is William.
-Hello.
-Hello.
William's my new friend.
Ooh, we're not robbing off,
are you bitch?
Oh, shut up, bitch.
You know there's enough
of me to share.
You from round here?
Not far.
That's a nice jacket.
Where'd you get it from?
Um, I don't know, sorry.
All right, is that how it is?
Yeah, don't worry about it,
you know?
I don't want people walking
down the street with same
stuff as me.
[laughs]
-Spoke to Dan the man yet?
-No, not yet.
Just about to do it.
Why, what you after?
Three 20s, weekend usual.
Right, well, go in there and ask
if anyone else wants ought.
-Slave driver.
-And hurry the fuck up, yeah?
He'll turn his phone off soon.
That's a strange
relationship you have there.
What do you mean?
Just the way you keep
addressing each other
with the B word.
It's just--
it's just strange.
-The B word?
-Yeah.
-Do you mean bitch?
-Yeah, I'm not gonna say it.
[laughs]
You can say it though.
It's not illegal.
I know it's not a illegal.
I'm not going to say it.
Seb's my best friend.
[]
[no audible dialog]
Right, everyone,
this is William.
Be nice, yeah?
William's a good
friend of mine.
Come and sit down, William.
Oh, thank you,
but I'm okay standing.
Really.
-Go on, sit down.
-No, I'm fine.
-She won't bite.
-I'm fine.
Not unless you fucking
want her to.
Come and sit down.
You?
Yeah, soon.
Uh, no thanks,
I don't smoke.
Got a drink?
Yeah.
So I know we've seen each
other before,
but we haven't properly met.
I'm Lisa.
Yeah, Lisa, we've briefly met.
Well, briefly seen each other.
That's Carly and Tom
over there.
That's Kath, Jen,
Stu, Pippa and Seb.
Oh, yeah, I've met Seb.
So Tina told me
that you're famous?
No, I'm not famous.
Don't be fucking modest.
I'm not being modest.
I'm not famous.
-I'm really not.
-But you're on the telly?
[knocking]
Hi, doll.
All right, Dan the man?
[unzips bag]
Having an all nighter then,
are we?
Yeah, it weren't the plan,
but it looks like it, don't it?
Do you wanna stay for
a bit and have a drink?
No, I can't.
Got a few people I've got to
see before I call it a night.
-You busy?
-As always.
You're lucky I had any left.
Ten, wasn't it, yeah?
-Yeah.
-Cool.
Nice.
There we go.
You got the cash?
If you give us five minutes,
I'll go get it for you.
No, no, no.
I gotta shoot off.
How about I pop round
tomorrow for it, yeah?
No biggie.
Sure you need 10?
I'm not dropping any more off.
Yeah, 10's enough tonight.
All right, you're the boss.
Catch you later, yeah?
Yeah, see you later.
[door closes]
[music continues]
[snorting]
Forty, before I forget.
Ta.
[snorting]
[sighs]
[music contines]
You got a five pound note
on you?
Um, I think so.
Yeah.
Thank you.
Fucking love this song, woo.
[breathing heavily]
[inhales deeply]
[sighing]
[inhales loudly]
[kissing]
Hey. Hey.
[kisses]
Be back soon.
Be back soon.
[coins rattle]
[knocking]
Bill?
I wasn't expecting--
Hi, Brenda.
I was just about to go out.
Can you spare five minutes?
Please?
Yeah, yeah, sure.
Come on.
How are you holding up?
As good as can be expected.
Can I get you anything?
No, no, no, thank you.
We've been watching
your TV show.
-Really?
-It's been good.
At least someone's been
watching.
Oh, nonsense.
I know others
that always tune in.
And we'll be watching
tonight, too.
Thank you.
Don't just stand around,
sit down.
Yeah, yeah.
[sniffles]
[exhales]
You still at the church?
Yes, yeah.
I doubt you'll ever stop
working there.
Hmm.
One day.
When I've had enough of playing.
I can't imagine you not
playing that damn organ.
[chuckles]
I suppose you've come to ask
about Sandra.
And you're going to tell me
you've not heard from her.
No, I have heard from her.
She called me.
She has?
Well, what--
what did she say?
How is she?
Did she say where she was?
She's okay.
But I promised I wouldn't
tell you where she is.
Oh, come on.
Please, you have to tell me.
I'm worried. I'm her husband.
And I'm her sister.
I swore to her
that I wouldn't tell.
[sighs]
I know this must be hard.
You have no idea.
No idea.
[inhales deeply]
Sometimes people grow apart.
Sometimes people just need
a little space, some time away.
If it's meant to be,
she will come back.
Is there another man?
I'm not sure.
She didn't say.
Please.
You don't have to tell
me where she is, fine.
It's fine.
But at least tell me this.
She didn't actually say,
but...
But what?
We don't know.
Maybe?
She sounded different.
She sounded... happy.
[door squeaks]
Lisa?
Lisa?
[sighs]
-All right, Dan?
-Alright?
How did you get in here?
Lisa let me in.
Just gone shop
to get some fags.
All right.
Shouldn't be too long.
You all right, yeah?
Yeah, are you?
Yeah, not bad.
I can't stay long.
People to see, and all that.
-You busy?
-As always.
Eh, what would you say
your favorite animal is?
Animal? I don't know, why?
What's yours?
-Probably a chimp.
-[laughs] Why?
I was watching a video
about them, then.
Smart little bastards.
Vicious.
-They can rip your face off.
-[laughs]
And they're fair as well,
you know?
The chimp takes another
chimp's food it's...
[slaps hands]
So you got the money then?
Oh, no,
I haven't got it yet.
No?
No, the people that owe it
left the party--
[Dan sighing loudly]
I don't like being dicked
about, okay?
-Okay.
-Hmm?
As far as I'm concerned,
you made the order
so you owe the money.
Okay.
Right, so when am I gonna
get my money?
Um...
Honestly?
A few days.
Two days.
-Two days to get me my money.
-Okay.
And when I come back,
I don't want any excuses
about your friends.
-All right?
-Yeah.
Good.
Don't act like a victim.
I don't let anybody
fuck me about.
Not even pretty ones.
See you in two days, yeah?
-[sobbing quietly]
-[knocks]
[dog barking in distance]
[line ringing]
Fuck sake.
[sighs]
-Oi, Lisa!
-What?
Has Carly changed her number?
I've been trying to ring her
all morning.
Not that I know of.
Fuck sake.
[birds chirping]
[banging]
Oi, Carly.
-Tina.
-I knocked, no answer.
Yeah, I didn't hear it.
What are you doing here?
I need that money.
-What fucking money?
-The money from
the other night.
I don't know
what you're talking about.
The fucking money
for the snort. You owe 50.
-I don't fucking owe anything.
-You stupid bitch.
You ordered the bags,
so now you owe the money.
-Oh, fuck off.
-You think you can mess
with me then, do you?
-Fucking slag.
-Get off me!
Carly, you fucking idiot.
No wonder nobody
fucking likes you.
-You fucking cunt.
-Get off me!
Oi, what the fuck's going on?
-You little prick!
-Get the fuck off her.
You're dead to me,
Carly, did you hear that?
Don't fucking come round
to my house ever.
-[Carly] Get the fuck
out of my garden!
-Stupid bitch.
[dog barking]
[banging]
[banging]
Tina? How--
Hey!
Hey, you can't just come
barging into people's homes.
-What is wrong
with you mentally?
-I'm in trouble!
-What kind of trouble?
-Fucking trouble, trouble.
Oh, well, take a seat.
Sit down, we'll talk about it.
No, I'm fine standing up.
Well, you've obviously
come here for help.
Yeah?
Tina, I can't help you unless
I know what's actually happened.
I owe money and I
don't have it, all right?
-Who to? Who to?
-A dealer.
-A drug dealer?
-Yeah.
Then go.
Go.
You can deal with this
on your own.
I'm not--I'm not gonna get
myself mixed up anything.
I didn't fucking
ask you, did I?
Is that why you're here
then, is it?
Hey?
Go, come on.
Leave.
I'm not having any drug
addicts in this house.
I fucking hate my life.
[crying]
Listen.
It can't be that bad.
Everything will be okay.
What's the worst
that can happen?
That's easy for you to say.
You've got your own
fucking home.
You're on the telly.
You've got your shit together.
Everything around me
is just a mess.
I live in a dump,
my friends
aren't really friends,
and I owe money because
of other people.
I don't want to live
like this anymore.
But you?
You're living the dream
compared to me.
No, no, no, no.
You're wrong.
You're wrong.
You think
that just because
I don't have a drug problem
my life's perfect.
It's not.
It's not.
I just hide it better
than you do.
And yeah, I own this house,
but it's hardly a home anymore.
I don't know
where my wife is.
Or who she's with.
And I'm starting
to question my own
beliefs more and more
each day.
So that's lost.
[laughs]
Maybe we're both fucked up
in our own little ways.
Oh, no maybe about it.
Is that her?
Sandra, yeah. Yeah.
If you don't mind me saying,
she's a fucking idiot for
leaving you.
Hmm.
Well, maybe I'm a fucking
idiot for pushing her away.
Oh, I will say "fucking"
when it's called for.
So what will happen
to you if you don't pay?
He'll hurt me.
Hmm.
How much do you owe?
One fifty.
One hundred and fifty pounds?
[laughs]
The way you were talking,
it sounded like thousands.
Well, 150 is a lot of money
to me, all right?
-I'll give you the money.
-No, I don't want you to.
No, I want to.
I want to, but you'll have
to pay me back.
How? I'm not working.
Well... maybe we can help
find you a job.
Pay me back
when you're settled, okay?
-All right.
-Okay?
All right.
Can I go to your loo?
Well?
Of course, it's upstairs.
Ta.
Tina?
What?
Are you serious?
[footsteps approaching]
What about?
Turning your life around.
-It's too fucking late for that.
-No, no, it's not.
You can stay here.
What?
You can have the spare room,
rent free...
till you're back on your feet.
-Really?
-Mm-hmm.
A fresh start.
But no drugs and no alcohol.
You find a job and get your
life back on track, okay?
What you think I am,
a fucking pet project?
Let's fix the broken girl?
Yes, exactly.
[]
-Are you sure you're
doing the right thing?
-No.
Then why are you doing
this then, bitch?
'Cause I'm willing to give
it a shot, bitch.
[both laugh]
You got any books over there?
Yep.
Well, give them here, dickhead.
You do know you're
leaving Lisa in the lurch?
Who fucking cares?
She'll find a new roommate.
You know,
why don't you move in?
Because I love my sleep.
I'd get no sleep living here.
[giggles]
Hey, you got a pad or a piece
of paper over there?
Yeah.
And the pen?
-Pen? That one?
-Yeah.
Look, you don't even
know this guy very well.
For all you know, he could
be some sort of weirdo who
steals your underwear
or keeps you locked
in his sex dungeon.
Look, he's not
a fucking weirdo.
Yeah, he's a little strange,
but he's a nice guy.
How'd you know?
I just do, all right?
Right.
I'll take these to car, yeah?
Yeah.
And, Seb,
thanks for this, yeah?
[sighs]
Do you wanna take those
two to the car?
I'll get other one.
Fine, bitch.
[dog barking in distance]
[TV playing quietly]
You enjoying that?
Yeah.
Good.
You thought about
what you want to do?
What do you mean?
Job wise?
Oh, I don't know.
There's always shop assistant
vacancies posted in the paper.
Mm, I don't like people.
I don't like talking to them.
I'm not cut out for shop work.
[Bill] No?
Yeah.
Sound stupid, don't I?
I just want a job where
I can be on my own,
where don't have to talk
to anyone and be hassled.
Oh.
Yeah, I get that.
I'm the same.
You could start
your own business.
Like what?
Look at me.
I've wasted my life.
I've got no qualifications.
I've got no fucking brains
for shit like that.
You could go to school,
college.
It's not too late.
Course I can't.
Nonsense.
-You're not stupid.
-I know.
Then don't act like you are.
Fine, I'll go see if there's
a nine to five job somewhere.
I just get bored
easy though.
Don't exactly have
a good record
for staying in a job too long.
Maybe try the job center.
I will.
[TV continues playing]
[water running]
[sighs]
[sniffles]
[sniffles]
[knocking]
-[knocks]
-[Bill] Yeah?
Is everything okay?
Don't you want to fuck me?
No.
I thought that's
what you wanted.
That's what men always want.
-No.
-I just wanted to say
thank you.
No, you're--
you're a very pretty
young girl...
[Tina sniffles]
...but I'm a married man.
A married man who can't find
his wife.
[both laughs]
But a married man
none the less.
Look, you've obviously not had
the best of times with men.
But you don't need to
offer yourself like this
just to show me
how grateful you are.
Okay.
-Friends?
-Yeah, friends.
-Okay.
-I'm so embarrassed.
No, no,
I'm actually very flattered.
Is that your wife's jewelry?
Yes.
-She left it here?
-Yeah, but please
don't touch it.
She's very funny about
people touching her jewelry.
All right.
Thank you.
-Good night.
-Good night.
Do you want the door shut?
-Please, yeah.
-Okay.
[knocking]
[knocking]
[Tina] William, you up?
Yeah.
Yeah, you can come in.
-Morning.
-Good morning.
What's that smell?
Have you been cooking?
Yeah, I made us breakfast.
Oh, okay. Thank you.
Are you busy today,
by any chance?
Got to go to church later on,
but not really, no.
Right, well, I thought
we could go on a trip together.
A trip?
A trip where?
Actually no.
No, I'm not in the mood.
Just shut up and get ready,
will you?
You'll see when we get there.
Meet you downstairs.
[engine rumbling]
[waves crashing]
So you don't talk about
your wife much.
-What do you mean?
-Exactly that.
I don't know anything
about her apart from she
likes her jewelry
and you don't know
where she is.
Mmm. What's to tell?
Where did you both meet?
At church.
Course you did.
Go on.
[laughs] No, sorry.
I'm not entirely comfortable
with this.
William, we're friends.
Friends talk.
Yes, yes, they do,
but not about personal
stuff like this, they don't.
-Well, I don't.
-Fine, whatever.
You don't wanna talk about it,
I won't bring it up again.
I was 19.
I was a choir boy in our
local church, St. Luke's.
I'm sure that
doesn't surprise you.
It's not there anymore.
It was deemed not fit
for purpose.
-Demolished.
-Yeah, I know.
All right.
[sighs] Yeah, 19.
At that age, I thought I had
me whole life ahead of me.
And maybe I did.
I dreamed of traveling
the world, getting rich.
You know, usual boyhood stuff.
I wasn't always like this,
you know?
Didn't always
have this much...
fear.
It's funny how life
seemingly...
grabs hold of you
and fast forwards, isn't it?
Soon as you hit 18,
that's it.
Everything zooms by.
Like your whole life's now.
A sprint.
A sprint for the finish line.
Yeah.
It only feels like yesterday
I was back in school.
Yeah.
So I was in the choir,
and the vicar stopped us all
from singing
to introduce a new member.
It was Sandra.
She had her hair tied
in pigtails
and she greeted everyone with
this incredible smile she had.
She was the most beautiful
person I ever laid eyes on.
Anyway, the vicar sits her next
to me and we became friends.
You know, I remember...
[laughs]
I remember wanting
to ask her out on a date,
but I was so nervous,
you see?
I mean, what if she said no?
I would then have to sit
and sing next to after that.
No, no.
No, I wasn't gonna do that.
Finally, after some advice
from my father,
he himself was
a very religious man...
plucked up the courage
and, yeah.
She said yeah.
So where did you take her?
On the date?
We went for a meal.
I remember I saved up
for a fortnight just to
take her out.
I worked on a milk float
back then.
Used to be up and out the house
every morning at 4:30.
It didn't pay much,
but I loved the job,
running around,
delivering to homes
while it felt like
the whole world was asleep.
It was great.
Did that milk round
for absolute years.
Right up until
I started working
at the church
as an organist, actually.
So what happened?
Well...
time went on.
We moved in together,
I proposed.
You know, we were married in
that very church we first met.
Yeah.
All those years ago.
Life was good.
I...
[sighs]
[clears throat]
I was loved.
That's the main thing.
I loved what I did back then,
even though
it was completely different
to my dreams as a boy.
When Sandra had this idea
of spreading
the word of God on television,
we decided we'd set up
this little show,
present it together.
You know?
It doesn't make us any money.
It's completely voluntary.
But it was ours, you know?
It was something
we had created.
It was something
we had together. It was...
So now it's just yours?
No.
No, it's still ours.
Just she needed some space
is all.
Is that what she said?
She left me a letter.
Woke up a couple of months
ago to find she was... gone.
This letter was on
the dining room table.
Just said she needed some space,
and she'd be gone for a while.
Well, if you ask me,
she sounds like a right
inconsiderate bitch.
Hey.
Come on, don't talk
about me wife like that.
I'm just telling you
how I see it.
Well, maybe, but you don't speak
about me wife like that.
Well, you at least deserved
to be told to your face.
Everyone needs space now
and then, don't they?
I bet you do.
But you've not run away,
have you?
You're still stuck at home
by yourself,
doing that show that I actually
don't think you enjoy doing.
And you're taking happy pills.
What?
How--so you're snooping
now as well?
I'm not snooping at all.
I was trying to find a knife
and I saw them in the drawer.
I believe you.
[footsteps approaching]
You sure you wanna wait?
I may be a while.
It's fine, just do
whatever you need to do.
-So where's the piano then?
-Organ.
Do you wanna play?
You know I don't play
any instruments.
Never even touched
a piano before.
-Still an organ.
-Whatever.
Here, give me your hand.
Go on.
[playing note]
There, now you have.
What about the black ones?
Press one.
[plays note]
I like that one.
Do you? Why?
I don't know.
Sounds different.
Weird.
A bit like me.
A bit like you.
You think I'm weird?
Yeah, it's good.
Weird's good.
[]
[knocking]
Fuck sake.
All right?
Look, I don't want
anyone around tonight.
I just wanna relax.
I'm not here to ruin
your night off.
Hey.
Give Tina a shout for us then?
She's gone.
All right, when's she
getting back?
She's gone, gone.
Moved out.
[sniffles]
Moved where?
She moved in
with some older creep.
-The bitch left me to pick up--
-Right.
And where's this
older guy live?
I don't know.
That's not the answer
I'm looking for, is it?
Look, I don't know where.
Seb does though, he helped
her move out he said.
Right.
If you see her,
tell her I said fuck you.
[keyboard clicking]
Can I help you?
Yeah, I've got an interview.
With?
-I don't know the name.
-Name?
I just said I don't know.
Your name.
[laughs] Hi.
It's Tina Shepherd.
You're seeing Mr. Whittaker.
Take a seat, someone
will be with you shortly.
Not exactly outstanding,
is it?
What do you mean?
Well, there are gaps
throughout.
You work for a month or two,
at a few jobs,
and then nothing
for a couple of years.
So?
So this is not like the CV
of a committed
and hardworking individual.
We pride ourselves on
employing the best staff.
Those who are looking
to go above and beyond.
I will go above and beyond.
I just need a fucking
chance to prove myself.
Can you leave now please?
You've only had a quick
look at the piece of paper.
Yeah, and I've seen enough.
You haven't seen anything.
I could do a really
good job here.
You turn up to an interview
with one of the worst Cvs
that I've ever seen,
dressed like that
and using foul language.
Dressed like that?
What?
Don't you like
what I'm wearing?
You think you've got me
all figured out, don't you?
Just because my skirt's
two inches
higher than what
you're used to.
I get it.
You think I'm a slut.
A street skank who
probably lost her virginity
to an older guy
on a park bench.
Someone who's got
nothing to show
for the years on this planet.
Gets money and pisses it up
against a wall on cheap cider
and fags and drugs.
Yeah, can you get security
in here please
to escort a lady
out my office?
Someone who's worthless
and doesn't
deserve to be given
the time of day.
A girl that you'd look at
and probably fuck
if you was horny,
but you won't give
a helping hand to
or a job when she desperately
needs it to start afresh.
[hangs up phone]
I know guys like you,
with your posh suits
and your fancy houses.
I bet you had the perfect
upbringing as well, didn't you?
With mommy and daddy's help?
You knew you weren't
gonna give me the job
as soon as you saw me,
unless I offered to suck
you off under the desk.
[breathing heavily]
You're disgusting.
You can leave now.
Fuck you.
Do you know what?
I don't wanna work for
a cunt like you anyway.
[door slams]
[footsteps approaching]
Oh, hey, how'd it go?
-Don't wanna talk about it.
-That good, eh?
I just said
I don't wanna talk about it.
You gonna watch the show?
[sighs]
You should.
I'll see you late, okay?
[line ringing]
Seb?
[Seb speaking indistinctly]
You all right?
[sighs]
[sighs]
[line ringing]
-Yeah?
-Kev, it's Tina.
-I need money.
-Tina?
You only ring me
when you want money.
Where've you been?
I've been busy.
I need 60, is that all right?
No, it's not okay.
You've let me down loads
of times in the past.
You said you'd be around
to pay me back in a week,
and it took three weeks.
I ain't doing it again, Tina.
I shouldn't have to chase you.
Come on, Kev,
I won't let you down.
I get my benefits next week,
so I can pay you then.
No can do, sorry.
I have other people that need
cash that keep their promises.
-Please, Kev.
-[sighs]
Look, if you can
give me something
worth double the 60 pounds
to hold onto,
and then bring me back 80
in two days.
But if you're fucking late,
after two days, I'll sell
what you've left me,
and you and me are finished.
Right, fine.
I'll get you something, yeah?
I'll see you
in about an hour, yeah?
I'll see you in an hour.
[sighs]
[jewelry rattling]
[knocking]
-Yeah?
-Kev's expecting me.
-Who is it?
-Tina.
One second.
[sighs]
Come through.
[Kev] Tina, make yourself
at home.
I'm just sorting out
some business.
[sighs]
Oh, shit.
Can I turn the TV on?
[TV playing]
[channels flipping]
I'm tired.
I've done this show for
almost three years now.
I've put a lot of time
and effort into it.
I don't get paid for doing it.
I do it because I genuinely
want to make a difference.
I want to help people.
And do it because my wife
wanted to do it.
You see, this whole thing...
was Sandra's idea
and me,
being the supportive
husband I am, came on board.
Now, I'm sure a lot
of our regular viewers,
all 10 of you, are wondering
where Sandra is.
Well, I've been wondering
that myself,
and my darling wife left me
a note to say she needed space.
And then she went off
with another man.
Yes, that's right.
She's having an affair.
I always knew
that it was happening,
but I never wanted
to admit it.
So I blame myself.
Maybe I could have given
her more attention.
Maybe I could have
loved her more.
Or maybe she's just
a heartless, selfish bitch.
Anyway, she's ran off
with this mystery man
and left me here
to finish what she started.
But no more.
I want to announce
that from tonight,
it will be my last show ever.
Apologies.
Some stuff needed
to be dealt with.
-[indistinct]
-Yeah?
You're looking all right.
...potentially take this show
places I couldn't.
What the fuck is this on?
-No, I was just flicking.
-[turns TV off]
So you said you wanted
60 notes?
Well, I'll hold onto your
phone for a couple of days.
You bring me 80 back,
you can have your phone back.
Fuck off, you're not taking
my phone.
Fuck sake.
No deal then.
You told me to bring you
something that were worth
more than 60.
Double.
Fine, double.
Fucking hell.
-Is this real?
-Of course it's fucking real.
[scoffs]
-There's a lot more
than 120 here.
-Mm.
[scoffs]
I've changed my mind.
What?
You can't have it,
it's not mine.
Fuck sake.
Just hold onto my shit.
It's worth a lot more than
60 quid anyway.
[scoffs]
We got a deal?
Fine.
Right.
Dickhead.
Two days, Shepherd.
Fine, whatever.
[]
Haven't seen you for a while.
All right?
-Don't want any trouble
in here tonight.
-[sighs]
You're on your last warning
after the last time you were in.
Fine, whatever.
Get us a vodka, will you?
Seen Seb tonight?
[man] Nope.
Four pound, Tina.
-Watch me drink, Al.
-[knocks]
[knocking]
Seb?
Let me in, dickhead,
before someone comes in.
Boo.
What's going on?
You really thought
you could just fuck off
and I wouldn't find you?
Where's Seb?
What, that little faggot
mate of yours?
He cried like a little bitch
when I took this off him.
And I slapped him about
for extra measure.
-I'm going.
-You're not going anywhere.
Now didn't I tell you if you
didn't pay, I'd find you?
I did pay.
[groans]
Enough of the fucking lies,
right?
-Now there's prices to pay.
-What?
I've always wanted to know
what it'd be like to fuck you.
[Tina grunting]
Not a fucking sound.
Or I'll cut you and leave you
here to bleed.
Understand?
-Come on.
-[Tina crying]
[grunting]
-[sobbing]
-Fuck.
Shut the fuck up.
[grunting]
Fuck!
Fucking sort yourself out,
yeah?
[jewelry clattering]
What's this?
-Please don't, it's not--
-Shut the fuck up.
Always hiding from me?
You sly little fucker.
-It's not mine, please--
-Shut the fuck up, all right?
Yeah.
I think this will settle
your debt.
No, please.
Now, you don't ever
contact me again
and you tell anybody
about this,
I'll find you and you'll go
fucking missing.
Yeah?
[sniffling]
[sobbing]
-You William?
-Yeah, yeah, yeah.
-Is she alright?
-She's not really talking
to me,
but she's saying
she fell in the toilets,
and I don't believe her.
Okay, I'll speak with her.
Thank you.
Hey.
You alright?
I'm sorry.
They wanted to ring someone.
There's only you.
No, no, no,
I'm glad they rang.
Do you want to tell me
what's happened?
Why is it that when
you try to do some good
and want to change your
life now for the better,
something always
drags you back?
I just want to be happy,
you know?
Is that too much to ask?
No, no.
Then why won't people
let me be happy?
Always dealt with a bad hand.
For all my life,
ever since I can remember,
I've been made to struggle
and I'm sick of it.
I know, I know.
I know.
Life... puts these hurdles
in our way,
but we just have
to get over them.
Keep moving, keep going.
It were Dan.
He attacked me tonight.
What do you mean, Dan?
The dealer.
I gave you the money
to pay him back.
Yep.
I left it at Lisa's
on the table,
and he said he never got it.
Right, come on.
We're going police.
No.
The police can fix this.
I just want to go home.
You can't just let him walk?
William, I just want
to go home and forget it.
Please, no police.
[sighs]
Okay, for now.
Finish your drink,
I'll take you home.
I need to tell you
something else.
What?
Dan stole your wife's jewelry.
What? [stammers]
How has this happened? How?
I had it.
I had it and he took it,
I'm so sorry.
Why did you have
Sandra's jewelry?
I don't know.
I was gonna put it back.
No, I can't believe this.
You just took
my wife's jewelry
without even asking?
I swear I was gonna
put it back.
No, no, no, no.
It wasn't yours to touch,
never mind take.
You basically stole something,
and now it's been stolen
from you.
I had you down as a lot
of things when we first met.
I did. I had you down
as this broken,
pathetic, lost little girl.
A fucking loser, but I never
had you down as a thief.
I said I'm sorry.
I'll pay for it,
whatever it costs.
Some of that was sentimental.
Priceless. Do you understand
what that means?
No, of course you don't,
'cause you've never had
anything of value
in your whole little life,
have you?
The only reason I helped
you was to help me.
Okay? I thought helping
you might help me
get a bit of perspective
on my own life okay?
You know where
my head's been at,
but you've never even
thought about that, have you?
'Cause you only ever
thought about yourself.
You know, just get
your belongings
and find somewhere
else to live.
I'm not having a thief
under my roof, okay?
Live where? You know
I've got nowhere to go.
Not my problem.
Me and you are done.
Is that all you care about?
Pieces of rocks and metal
that belongs
to a woman that don't give
a flying fuck about you?
Don't you dare
turn this on me.
I was attacked and nearly
raped an hour ago,
and all you care about
is necklaces and some rings?
-Tina, you tried--
-Fuck you!
[Bill] Tina.
[knocking]
-What do you want?
-Where is she?
What do you mean?
She moved in with you,
didn't she?
She's not here?
No, she's fucking not here.
She run out on you too?
No, I don't know where she is.
Now I'm getting worried.
She'll be fine,
selfish bitch.
Have you tried her mums?
No, no, I don't have
the address.
One sec.
That's the address.
If she tries contacting you--
[knocking]
Yeah?
Hi.
My name's William Coulthard.
I'm sorry for intruding
upon you.
What do you want?
I'm a friend of Tina's.
Tina's?
Yes.
[man] Who is it, Sharon?
Some stuck up prick
asking after our Tina.
Can I come in?
Can you fuck?
Okay, thank you
for your time.
Hey, what'd you want her for?
She seemed upset last night.
I just wanted to speak with her.
Is she here?
I've not seen her
for a couple of years.
Do you have any idea
where she might be?
No.
Gave up on that girl
a long time ago.
Oi, you got any cigs on you?
I don't smoke.
Fuck off then.
[breathing heavily]
[clatters]
[door closes]
[]
All right, girls. Here we are.
This is our final rehearsal,
so let's give this
everything we've got
and make ourselves proud.
Pippa, to the front please?
Great.
Right, let's do this.
[woman] But one day
I couldn't get back.
Will there be a reward
for all these failed jumps?
Will there be a reward
for keeping the fate
in the sunlight?
Will there be a lesser song
for all of us?
When the light is down,
open your windows.
[]
It's been such a long life
Do you have a little time
Just been trying
To remember
But I can't read the words
In my mind
Tell me what I say
Maybe you can mark me
Time to come
I was dying in the dark
Tell me what I said
Tell me you don't look
At my reflex
It has been raining
All the time
When you feel so down
When you don't even know
What to think about it
When you heart
Can sit on the light
Be the spark that helps
Others see
When you feel so down
When you don't even
Want to think about it
When your heart can see
The moonlight
Be the spark in the dark
That helps others
See tonight
[music fades]
[clapping]
You were great.
How'd you find me?
Uh, um...
I looked everywhere for you.
Yeah, well I didn't want
to be found.
Yeah, I understand that.
But...
I wanted to apologize.
I shouldn't have acted
the way I did.
It wasn't your fault.
Thanks.
Now I've got to go.
Are you hungry?
[scoffs]
What, you think
you can buy my forgiveness
with a cheap meal?
No, no, no. I--no.
I don't want to buy
your forgiveness.
I want to earn
your forgiveness.
I know I did you wrong
and I'm sorry.
I just...
I want...
I want to start over again.
Yeah, well I'm busy.
Yeah, yeah.
First show tonight.
It's good.
It's very good.
Still, there's a little caf
around the corner.
I'll be there for the next
hour or so.
You do eat, don't you?
[chuckles]
Yeah.
We could get a bite, talk.
If you don't come...
I understand.
[scoffs]
You were great.
I mean that.
[sighs]
[crying softly]
Thank you.
-[door opens]
-[bell rings]
Hi, there.
What can I get you?
[indistinct]
-Two coffees.
-Two coffees?
-Take a seat and I'll bring
them right up.
-Thank you.
[sighs]
-[door opens]
-[bell rings]
[upbeat music]
[music fades]