A Part of You (2024) Movie Script

[girl] I have nightmares too.
Or, over and over, the same dream.
And, um...
And what?
[chuckling] Go on.
[both laugh]
- It's a triumph.
- Stop it.
I mean, it's fantastic.
I mean, I...
[girl sighs]
- You are a star. [laughing]
- Come on, knock it off already.
You are. You're great.
Go on.
Um, well...
- She's walking in front of me.
- Wow.
Don't interrupt me
right in the middle of it. [chuckling]
Sorry, but...
Oh, you're just so good.
I don't know how you do it.
[both chuckling]
It feels good to laugh again.
You're gonna knock 'em dead today.
When you go.
Because you have to go.
You're going, aren't you?
Yeah, probably.
No, no, no, no.
You are going.
You got it?
- [giggling]
- Or I'll kill you.
Okay, take it easy.
[both chuckling]
So, you'll go.
[upbeat electronic music playing]
- You have to promise.
- Mm-hm.
[music becomes quiet]
[girl] She's walking in front of me,
on hot coals.
I can't see her face, and she...
she doesn't turn around.
I ask... No, instead I yell,
"Can you look at me?"
But nothing happens.
She refuses.
[man] Thank you.
Okay, let's see.
Um, Agnes Svan?
Um... Agnes Svan?
No Agnes Svan? No?
Okay, moving on.
[Agnes] I'm here.
- Oh.
- [Agnes] Sorry.
[people chattering]
[girl] Make sure you both
come tonight, she needs it.
Don't be a boring old man.
[boy 1] I'm not a boring old man.
- You can't just... You can't just say that.
- [chuckling]
You can't be that harsh, Esther.
You know why.
[Esther] I know, I just miss her.
- [girl 1] And it's a party.
- [girl 2] Guess who?
- [Esther] Julia! Hi.
- Hi!
- How are you? Hey, baby.
- What's up?
- Mwah.
- One more.
- [Esther] Now?
- Okay.
- [Julia] Mm, is that sour candy?
- [boy 1] Mm-hm.
- [girl 1] Are you coming tonight?
- [Julia] Of course.
[boy 2] It's gonna be so much fun.
- [girl 1] Well, now it will be.
- [girl 2] I have no idea.
[girl 3] Okay, well,
I'll see you later. Don't flake.
[people chattering]
[person whistling]
So, I... Forgive me if we've discussed this,
but what would you like to eat
for your birthday tomorrow?
- Doesn't matter.
- It doesn't matter?
It doesn't matter?
Well, make something up.
Let's do something nice.
- Let's do something... cool.
- [woman] Mm.
I'm glad that everyone's so curious
about my audition.
- [Julia] Oh gosh.
- No. No.
- Oh, no.
- [woman] Honey.
- Hey.
- [Agnes] Mm.
- Come. Come here. Mmm.
- [light pop music playing]
- Tell us, how was your audition?
- It was good, yeah.
You'll get the part you wanted.
- It's way too soon to know.
- What happens next?
- Well, tonight they'll send an email...
- [woman] Yes?
...that says, "You are the greatest, Agnes."
- "You got the part."
- Stop it.
- You are the best.
- We should celebrate.
"You're the best anyone has ever seen
in the..." Something like that.
- [woman] Exciting.
- Yeah.
- [doorbell rings]
- [door opens]
- Hello?
- [woman] Come on in.
[Julia] It's boiling, Mom.
- Hey, how are you?
- Hi, honey.
- [boy] I'm good. How are you?
- [Julia] Good.
Food's almost done.
- [boy] Smells good.
- [Julia] Yeah.
- [Mom] Hi.
- [boy] Hi, Carina.
- [Carina] How are you?
- Good. And you?
[Carina] Good, thanks.
- [boy] Hey, Agnes.
- Hey.
How are you?
- Good. How about you?
- Good, thanks. Check it out, a cake.
- [Carina] Yes.
- Celebrating?
No, Agnes doesn't want
to celebrate her birthday tomorrow.
- Why?
- I didn't say that.
That isn't what I said, Mom.
If not tomorrow, let's do it tonight.
- Get a head start. A bit?
- No. I don't think so.
- [Julia] It'll be fun.
- [boy] Who wants to try this cake?
[Agnes] The cake is mine. [chuckles]
[music no longer playing]
No. Sorry.
- Or I said yes.
- Time to stop.
- No.
- Why are you doing this?
[Julia] We always stay in.
How many weeks, Noel?
- Four weeks? More than that?
- [Carina] It's not about...
It's not about you being at home.
Why are you acting like
we haven't had this discussion before?
How many times do we need
to have this conversation?
Mm, depends how many times you need.
- [Carina] We've agreed, haven't we?
- A waste of time.
- Gets us nowhere, then she locks me away.
- [Carina] Julia. Stop it.
- [Julia] I'm an adult.
- [Carina] Yes, I... You think so? Hm?
- [Julia] That's what I'm saying.
- [Carina] I'm saying no.
- I'm saying that I'm gonna go anyway.
- [Carina] No. But you live...
- You live in my house.
- Yeah. You should be grateful for that.
[utensil scrapes]
[Carina] Why am I saying no?
- I don't know. I won't drink.
- You're pretending. That's enough.
- I won't even drink.
- Look at me.
[Carina] We've had this argument
many times before.
Mm. Noel, you're gonna
get me home by 11, right?
[Carina] Thanks, Noel,
but it doesn't matter.
Be real.
Maybe it's not cool to be hungover
for your sister's birthday tomorrow.
- It's all right, Mom.
- See?
- She's saying it's all right.
- Stay out of this?
- [Julia] She says it's all right.
- [Carina] Stay out of this.
No. Thanks for dinner.
- [Julia] I'm not gonna drink.
- [Carina] It doesn't matter.
[music and chatter on TV]
[knocking and door opens]
[Carina] Should I remind you? You were
like a little child. I had to carry you.
- [Noel] Hey, can I hide in here?
- [Julia and Carina arguing]
[Julia and Carina continue arguing]
[Carina] You make it
everyone else's problem.
[speaking Swedish] Do you want this?
I don't know if you want something that...
Show Me Love. [chuckles]
[girl on TV] 'Cause you know, if it is...
You have good taste.
I remember every word of it.
All of 'em. By heart.
- No way.
- I do.
No, you don't.
- Yes.
- No.
[both chuckle]
Prove it, then.
What? Prove it? Just trust me.
[speaking Swedish] You can write books
about, you know, psychological stuff...
and like, mass murderers.
Most of all, I want to be a model.
- Do you think I could?
- [door opens]
- [person on TV] Yeah, I think so.
- Come on.
- What? Me?
- [Julia] Yup. You.
[Agnes] Why?
[Julia] Mom said I could go
if you come too.
- [Agnes] To Esther's?
- [Julia] Yes, so get dressed.
- [girl chatters on TV]
- Should I wear this?
Or should I... wear this?
- [Julia] This one?
- [Agnes] Mm-hm.
For tonight, this one's better.
'Kay, hurry up, guys.
[girl 1 on TV] You're weird.
[girl 2 on TV] You're weird too.
- [girl 1] Am I?
- [girl 2] Yes.
- I wanna be weird, or...
- [Noel] Mm.
Not weird but...
I don't wanna be like everyone else.
Although sometimes
I think I'm just like everyone else.
- But you're not.
- But you're not.
Do you know what my nightmare is?
That I'll end up staying here in ml.
That I'll never leave.
[Noel] No, Julia, you can't have a bonfire
in a residential area.
- [Julia] You can. Of course you can.
- [Noel] You can't. No.
- [Julia] There's a bonfire every year.
- [Noel] You can go to jail.
- [Julia] What are you talking about?
- [Noel] It's true.
[Julia] You're just making stuff up,
all the damn time.
- Hold on, I need to fix myself first.
- [dance music playing]
[zipper zips]
Please. You promised.
[Noel sighs]
Here, have the rest.
[Agnes] What is it?
[people chattering]
[Julia] Hang on.
I'm just gonna... help you a little bit.
- Come here.
- What?
Come. Nice lips.
Uh, wait, what is that?
Just hold still. You look great.
[dance music continues]
Come on, then.
[people chattering loudly]
Ooh, that one, yes, that one!
Exactly! Exactly!
Who's next? Who's next?
Esther, smoke!
Do it! Do it!
- You did it better!
- Guess who!
[crowd cheers]
Hey, you made it. You look so pretty, wow!
Hello! Hi!
- Come here, come here, come here!
- Hi!
- Hey, hey, baby!
- Damn, I've missed you at these parties!
Oh. [mimics cat purring] Have you?
What are you up to? What's going on?
- [boy 1] Julia, you thirsty?
- [girl] Hi, Agnes!
- [Esther] Hi.
- [boy 2] Hi.
- Hi.
- Having fun?
- Yeah, I am.
- Yeah? [chuckling]
Oh, here we go.
For you. And, oh, nope! For me. Drink.
[both chuckle]
[rock music playing]
- Listen to that.
- Oh my God.
- [in Swedish] "This is the story of..."
- Oh my God, no.
[in Swedish]
No phone, no chick, he's everywhere
From Lund, Gothenburg to Sdermalm
He's your savior, your right-hand man
If you battle him you'll fall down
That's the start of the story
He was down with the crew
So special, and so were they
Some didn't like it
You know Stockholm
Then one day, checking out the sale
The crew starts shouting
"There he is!"
[Julia in English] It's showtime!
[girl] Oh my God!
[in English]
Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can't tell
Where the journey will end
[all] But I know where to start
They tell me
I'm too young to understand
Say I'm caught up in a dream
Well, life will pass me by
If I don't open up my eyes
- [Julia] Come on! Fine by me
- [all] Fine by me
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time
I was finding myself, and I
Didn't know I was lost
[music continues]
[crowd cheering]
[distant dance music playing]
[cell phone chimes and vibrates]
[distant people shouting and cheering]
[inhales deeply]
[Julia] You're all freaking me out,
watching me like the fucking police!
I don't get it, what's the problem?
[Noel] We're just worried about you.
- [Noel] Where are you going?
- [Julia] I'll walk home!
- [Noel] Julia!
- [Julia] Take Agnes. Move!
[tires screeching]
[dance music continues]
[tires screech]
[people chattering]
[Julia sniffles]
[Julia sobs]
- [Noel] I'll get Agnes.
- [Julia] Okay.
[Noel] Agnes!
- What?
- [Noel] We're going.
Julia wants to go, so get in the car.
- Okay.
- [car drives off]
[car tires screech]
[Noel] Julia.
[tires screech]
- [sobbing]
- [pop music playing on stereo]
[horn honks]
[pop music continues playing]
[tense music playing]
[tense music fades]
Can we, um, sit down here?
So, we've... tried... um...
- Yes? No.
- ...everything we could.
- But unfortunately, it was...
- [Carina] Wait, are you the doctor, or...
- [surgeon] I am the surgeon who...
- [Carina] I might be confused, but...
- What... No, what are you working on now?
- [surgeon] I've performed surgery...
[surgeon] I'm a surgeon.
I've been performing surgery
on your daughter, who came in here.
[Carina] Who's the doctor?
- [surgeon] I'm the sur... Yes.
- You're the surgeon? Okay. And why... you...
Why aren't you in there helping her?
Now, I know this is... hard.
[Carina] Sorry, can I speak to someone
else? I need someone who can help.
- [surgeon] I hear what you're saying.
- [Carina] Yes.
[cup clatters]
- And I... I...
- [surgeon] I understand, yes.
- But unfortunately...
- [Carina] No.
[Carina whimpers]
- I'm sorry.
- I want you to go away.
Go away.
- Can...
- Leave.
[Carina panting]
[Carina] Oh my God. I can't breathe.
Oh my God. [whimpering]
[moody music playing]
[moody music continues]
[telephone ringing]
[moody music continues]
[ringing continues]
[woman] Carina?
Carina, hello?
Hello, are... are you there?
[crying] Yeah.
What's wrong?
- Sweetie, what is it?
- [sobbing]
It's... Ju... [sobbing]
It's what?
Carina, you're scaring me.
Breathe. Just breathe.
It's Ju... [sobbing]
I can't.
- What happened?
- [sobbing]
[Carina] It's Julia!
She's dead. [sobbing]
[music plays faintly]
[church bell ringing]
[girl, in Swedish] Don't be afraid
There is a secret sign
A name that protects you
Now when you go
Your loneliness
Has shores leading towards the light
Don't be afraid
There are footsteps in the sand
Don't be afraid
There is a darkened harbor
You don't see it now
But you are going there
One day you will
Loudly confess His name
His loving peace
Asks nothing in return
[baby crying]
[song ends]
[distant people chattering]
[fly buzzing]
[fly buzzing]
Where are you going?
Um, to school.
But I told them you would be home
a little while longer.
Mm, but Mom, I...
I'll see you later.
[door opens and closes]
What's up this weekend?
I don't know, I guess I thought...
we'd just chill out?
Watch a movie?
Can't we have some fun?
[people chattering]
- See you after German class.
- Mm.
- [girl 1] Hi.
- [girl 2] Hey.
- [girl 1] How're you doing?
- Good.
[girl 1] Um, it was a nice funeral.
- [girl 2] It really was.
- [girl 3] Mm-hm.
[girl sighs]
[people chattering and laughing]
[Amir] Come in.
[door creaks]
'Sup? Come in.
I just wanted to say thanks for the part,
and I, um... I'd love to be in the play.
Oh? Nice.
Agnes, could you sit down for a minute?
I can really relate to, uh...
to your hardship.
I, uh... lost my brother in an accident,
when I was about your age.
So about the play?
I did...
so much stuff that I shouldn't have.
But then I started thinking
about what he would've wanted, and...
Yeah. [chuckles]
I wound up here.
Come by tomorrow at three.
- Wait! Wait!
- I said no! No, you can't!
- Let me look at it, please!
- [both giggling]
- Come on, please?
- Can you drop it?
- You really won't show me?
- Please, don't!
- Wait.
- Calm down. Stop it!
[both giggling]
[soft rock music playing]
- You hungry?
- A little bit.
- Want some food?
- Sure.
Oh, can you hand me a butter knife?
Go ahead, grab whatever you want.
[paper crinkling]
[doorbell rings]
[Noel] Agnes?
Agnes, are you there?
Agnes, can we talk?
[sniffing deeply]
[moody music playing]
- [typing on cell phone]
- [people chattering]
[alert on cell phone]
I didn't mean to stare at you,
but I just know the top, from...
- [Agnes] Yeah, sorry.
- No, it just brought back some memories.
Hey. How are you?
I'm fine. How are you?
Um, fine.
What's going on?
- Uh...
- Uh... We just recognized Julia's top.
She bought it when we went to Berlin.
Uh... Should we go eat?
- Uh...
- Yeah. Mm-hm.
- Yeah.
- [boy] Come with us.
- Wait, do you know Adrian Hagerfors?
- [pop music playing]
[Agnes] Uh, yeah, we have French together.
What about him?
He's standing outside. [chuckles]
[girl] No!
- [teasingly] Adrian.
- [girl] Stop it.
- Hmm...
- Hey, it wasn't that bad, I...
- [boy] I've missed you.
- [girl] Come on, stop it.
- [boy] I haven't seen you in so long.
- [girl, giggling] Stop.
[boy] I've been thinking about...
- Fanna's got a bit of a crush on Adrian.
- Stop it.
- [Fanna] No. No.
- [Esther] You do too.
- Yeah, like...
- [Fanna] No.
- [Esther] Last winter, we were at a party.
- [Boy] Adrian.
- [moaning]
- [Esther] Yeah.
- Adrian.
- Your sister...
- Knock it off. Okay, quit it, both of you.
- ...thought that
- Fanna and Adrian would be a great couple.
- [boy] Adrian.
- Stop it. Man.
- [boy] Fanna walks up.
Doesn't know what to say,
so she takes her beer and opens it...
- [can top clicks]
- ...sensually.
- Okay, come on, cut it out.
- [boy] Adrian.
[Esther] It was really weird, because
Adrian was, of course, super high.
Shh! He's coming.
[doorbell jingles]
- [Esther] Looking good.
- [Fanna] Be cool.
- [boy moaning]
- Here he comes.
[person clears throat]
- Hey, guys.
- Hey.
- [Agnes] Hey.
- [Adrian] Hey.
- Hey.
- [Adrian] Agnes, it's good to see you.
Same, same.
I was wondering if I'll see you tonight?
- Wh... Uh...
- Oh, um, so yeah, there's a party.
Come. And bring Lydia.
Oh, okay. Cool.
[Adrian] Great.
[all laughing]
- Hey.
- Hey.
No, you'll have to ask
about the reflections.
- Hey.
- I know, right?
Hey, Agnes!
I've been thinking about you.
Wanna go for a walk?
I... I... I have play rehearsal.
Okay. Well, then,
I'll wait and we'll go after.
I mean, I would,
but I'm going to Sam's place, so...
We have to talk about what happened.
I am just so sorry.
[Agnes] Mm.
See ya around.
Come on. Agnes!
[locks door]
[moody music playing]
[music fades]
[Amir] And we'll keep it to ourselves.
[chuckling] Hey, don't look scared.
It's just a game to get us warmed up.
Nothing weird.
Okay. Um... Agnes.
Wanna start?
[Agnes] Mm.
I guess I don't... I don't know what to...
I don't know what I should...
Show me which one.
Ah. That one's tricky.
Okay. We'll try... If you guys will move
back a bit, make some room, make space.
Good, good, give her room.
Come over here now, by me.
Come here.
Now I'd like for you
to just let out a scream.
Mm-hm. Just do it.
[Amir] Just yell. Out loud.
[Amir] Come on.
- No laughing, it's not easy.
- [boy] Sorry.
- [Agnes] I don't know, it's hard.
- Yeah, yeah, I get it, I get it.
Uh... [clears throat]
We all are actors here, right?
So, um...
Try being somebody else.
Think about someone...
you think would scream out loud.
[screams loudly]
[screams loudly]
[all laugh]
[all screaming]
["Longing For Lullabies
(feat. Titiyo)" by Kleerup playing]
["Longing For Lullabies" continues]
["Longing For Lullabies" continues]
As I look at the sun
I think of you
And traces we leave behind
[indistinct chatter]
Like a fallen piece
We'll make a better start
But still end up alone
[both laugh]
Looking down upon a place
Inside our heart
Dividing us in two
All that we leave behind
- [lively club music playing]
- [people cheering and chattering]
- [Lydia] Let's grab something to drink.
- Yeah.
- Do we help ourselves?
- I don't know.
Are there any glasses?
Yeah, here they are.
[Lydia] Do we just dip it in there?
[both chuckling]
- I'm not sure.
- Okay.
[both chuckling]
[Fanna] Hey.
[all] Hey.
- How are you?
- Good, and you?
Hey, you look pretty in that.
- [Agnes] You look good too.
- Thanks.
Hey, Sam apparently
can't get his ass out of the pool.
- Hm?
- [Sam] Fanna!
Yeah. [chuckling]
[groaning] Yes, Sam, I'm coming!
[all chuckling]
Hey, Sam, what's up?
- Agnes! Come here!
- [Agnes chuckling]
- [Lydia] Hey, Sam.
- Hi!
- [Lydia] Hey.
- Oh.
- Hi.
- You're beautiful, you know that?
- Thank you.
- You know that, Lydia.
- Remember how beautiful you are.
- Thank you.
[Sam] Yes.
- [Fanna] Sam. Sam.
- [Sam] Yes.
- [Fanna] I love you. Sam.
- [Lydia] Everything all right?
Not the greatest idea.
[girls chuckling]
- Sam?
- What?
- You know, I wanna get in this water.
- Sam.
- [Sam] Have you seen this water?
- [chatter]
- [Fanna] You're gonna fall in. Hey.
- [Sam] I mean, have you seen this water?
[Fanna] Sam, okay, enough already.
Sam, get it together.
Hey, no. Come on, Sam.
Sam! No. No, for real.
- [Sam] Yeah, I won't do it.
- [Fanna] For real.
- Come on, Sam.
- [Sam] I think I want to.
- We're dancing.
- [girl chuckles]
[techno music playing]
[people chattering excitedly]
Who next? Who, um, wants some? [chuckling]
- You?
- Oh, no, over my dead body.
So, Agnes?
- Mm-mm.
- Get in there. Come on.
[Esther] You and me!
[crowd] Agnes! Agnes! Agnes! Agnes! Agnes!
Okay, okay, okay, okay.
- [Esther] Calm down.
- [girl] Agnes, you've got this.
No. [chuckling]
[people] Come on! Come on!
- [both chuckling]
- [overlapping shouting]
- [crowd] Agnes! Agnes!
- [groaning]
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah!
Stop! Stop! Stop! Stop!
What the fuck? You.
Time for a shot.
["Pressure (feat. Tov Lo)"
by Martin Garrix playing]
Always under pressure
Pressure, pressure
Can't take it back
- What do you want?
- Yeah.
- [both chuckling]
- What do you want?
I'm thinking
I would like something... strong!
For us.
Maybe... tequila. [chuckling] For us both.
I'll get it.
Gimme silence, silence
I just need your touch
Know your violence, violence
Hides on the tip of your tongue
In the darkness, darkness
We go on and on
Always under pressure
[girl] What are we even...
[girls chuckling]
[girls laughing]
What the fuck
are we all just sitting around...
Guess who?
Did you get...
our tequila?
I've just gotta...
[girls laughing]
[Lydia] Hey.
- Hey. Oh!
- [bottle clatters]
[Lydia] How are you?
[Agnes] Good.
How are you?
Not bad.
- [Fanna] Yeah?
- What was she like drunk?
Who do you mean?
- [Agnes] Why is there such a weird vibe?
- Hey, please, Agnes...
Stop it. I'm not the only one
borrowing her clothes,
if that's what you're thinking.
My mom does it.
- Mm, but...
- Hey.
It's really not that hard, is it?
I always thought it was so damn hard.
- But it's not hard.
- Come on, Agnes. Stop it.
- [Agnes] Stop telling me what to do!
- [Lydia] Don't do this. Stop.
- Give it back, okay?
- Hey, stop it.
Give it back.
- It's mine.
- Okay, give it to me.
- What are you doing?
- Stop it! Please stop!
Whoa, fuck!
- [gasping]
- Leave me alone!
[glass breaking]
[object clattering]
[soft rock music playing]
Where's Carina?
At my grandma's.
You good?
[knife cutting]
Thank you.
[bottle clatters quietly]
You want pasta?
[water running]
[contemplative music playing]
[Noel] I don't want to stress you out.
- What now?
- I smell something burning.
[both chuckle]
Lower the heat. There, good, yeah.
Also, let's add in that.
No, but you shouldn't... No, no more salt.
Just a little bit.
No. No, easy. Stop it.
That's enough. Stop.
- Not yet.
- Dumbass.
- Hey, what... [chuckling]
- [pasta clatters]
- What are you doing?
- It's done.
[contemplative music continues]
[Agnes] I have nightmares too.
[music fades]
Or, over and over, the same dream,
[girl 1] Who cares about dreams?
- [girl 2] So boring.
- Shush. Let her continue.
She's walking in front of me.
On hot coals, and I can't see her face.
She doesn't turn around.
Um... And,
Um, thank you, thank you, thank you.
- [Agnes] Sorry, I couldn't...
- [Amir] No, no, no, don't worry. Um...
This is like the first time
that you say anything.
'Til now, you've been
holding it, in a bottle.
Until, finally, now,
you say it. You're open.
- [Agnes] Okay.
- Get me?
- Okay. Let's try it.
- Mm.
She's walking in front of me.
On h... hot... coals.
She doesn't turn.
And I can't really see her face.
And I ask, I...
No, no. Instead, I yell at her,
[shouting] "Can you look at me?"
But nothing happens.
She refuses.
"Watch out"...
is all she says.
"Be careful."
But, um...
But I'm not watching my step,
and I've stepped on the coals,
and... and...
and I feel like I'm burning, all...
All burning.
All of me, all, burning.
And... that's when she turns around.
"There you go," she says.
"What did you expect?"
And, I don't know...
I don't know what I expected.
[exhaling deeply]
"It isn't free,"
she says.
"Not for us."
[people chattering]
[Noel chuckling]
Here. Take it.
- Take it! [chuckling]
- Okay.
- Thanks.
- Yes.
- Go on, step back.
- But...
And then you can...
- [blanket ruffles loudly]
- Hey.
[Noel] There.
And then, if you stand right there,
you can have this too.
[Noel, chuckling] What the hell?
- I have a secret.
- [Agnes chuckles]
I wet the bed 'til I was, like, 13.
[both chuckle]
- I know, right? I had a problem.
- You're kidding.
- And it was, um...
- But, you can...
- I even went to a doctor and everything.
- No, no.
They gave me these little pills
that tasted like styrofoam.
It was a real...
It was a really weird thing.
I had this, um...
- It was a device.
- A device?
It's like a walkie-talkie. It goes here.
On your shoulder?
Yeah. Right here, my shoulder,
on a t-shirt, on a tank top or something.
- Okay.
- There was this tube that went down.
- No way.
- Down, yeah.
What was it used for?
It had this little,
um, like a little sensor.
That you'd put on your underwear.
- It was supposed to sense it?
- Before bed. Yeah.
it would sense it when I was about...
If I was gonna um, uh, wiz.
Then... Then this thing up here
would, like, make a sound.
[both laugh]
God, that's so weird.
[clears throat]
Um, maybe I used to wet myself too,
when I was small. A little.
- You did?
- Mm.
- Then why are you laughing?
- 'Cause I wasn't 13, Noel.
[Agnes chuckles]
- I was, like, seven, maybe eight tops.
- Yeah, right.
An age that's a little
more normal. And yet...
- I was just a small child, but...
- Yeah?
But I remember now, 'cause I would
have needed a device like that.
Because I remember waking up
'cause it would be, like, cold.
And then... then...
So... So, I got out of bed and I went
to, uh, Julia's bedroom and laid down.
Um, just like
a tiny little dog at her feet
where it was warm, and...
[chuckles faintly]
[both chuckle faintly]
Let's go swimming.
Can we swim? I wanna swim.
by Hannes & Waterbaby playing]
I'll be honest
I'll be honest for you
Yeah, yeah
And if we're talking
I'm gon' tell you the truth
You and me
Made a lover of an enemy
No, no, no, no
We're gonna make a memory
Don't come near.
[Agnes chuckles]
- Do you remember when she lied to you?
- I do
Remember how she almost fooled me too?
I do
- You could do better, I mean honestly
- No.
Hey! Are you good at floating?
- Floating?
- Not everyone is.
- I can't float.
- [chuckles]
- [Agnes] Okay, watch me, then.
- Yeah.
Yeah, I'm okay by myself
You and me
Made a lover of an enemy
- You're pretty good.
- Thank you.
No, no, no, no
We're gonna make a memory
[man 1] Come on now, guys!
[man 2] Hustle!
["Stockholmsvy" continues]
Keep up the pace!
- Let's go!
- [man 1] Let's see you push!
- Push from your legs!
- [man 2] Keep it up!
- Like that, keep it going!
- Get the ball!
- Come on!
- [man 2] Hustle! Hustle! Hustle!
All the way to the bench!
- Good work, well done.
- ["Stockholmsvy" fades]
[Agnes chuckles faintly]
[Noel] Thanks.
[both chuckle]
[Agnes] What?
[chuckles] Funny.
That you can find anything in this chaos.
- It's not that messy.
- "Not that messy."
It's easier to find stuff
when it's sitting out.
- Okay, so organized chaos.
- It's organiz... I know where everything is.
- It's under control.
- Yeah.
It's... Yeah.
You're cool coming across like you may
be a, um, not especially clean person?
Why are you... What do you mean?
Someone who kind of starts
to love the stink, I guess.
All the filthiness in her room.
[Agnes chuckling] Stop.
[Noel] It's like, um...
It's a freaking pig sty.
- That's all I'm saying.
- Yeah, but that's enough.
Don't look if you don't like it.
Don't... Don't look, you won't see it.
Oh, good, spare me.
- Is that better?
- That's better. So much better.
Thanks, Agnes. [chuckles]
["Torn Up Dress" by Love Truls playing]
- Your room's hot.
- [chuckling]
When you close your eyes
I have a little tiny fan.
[both chuckling]
- "I have a little tiny fan."
- [chuckles]
Cold floor
As deep as you can go
Locked lips
Waiting for a knock
On the door
We are the swimmers that you met
[both chuckle faintly]
Empty face
We are the people that you met
When you close one mess
The torn up dress
Agnes, no.
Wait. Stop it. Please, stop, Ag...
Sorry, I... I... I gotta go.
[Noel shuddering]
["Torn Up Dress" continues]
Sorry, Agnes.
- [door slams]
- ["Torn Up Dress" fades]
[tense music playing]
[door shuts]
[tense music continues]
[music becomes contemplative]
[music fades]
[teacher] So, what is driving Selma
Lagerlf during this stage of her life?
Is it anger? Grief?
Maybe even love?
Books have been written about this,
movies have been made.
I've thought a lot about it.
- Right now, I'm curious what you think.
- [typing on cell phone]
- Any thoughts on this, anyone?
- [cell phone vibrates]
[typing on cell phone]
Petra? No?
[sent message alert]
- Anyone?
- [cell phone vibrates]
Hello? Class?
Can we wake up?
You're all just sitting there, hello?
[typing on cell phone]
[sighing] And please,
Agnes, put your phone away.
- [Agnes] Oh, sorry.
- You have somewhere else you need to be?
No. [clears throat]
No, I'm sorry.
[teacher] Then put it away
and keep it away.
[Agnes] Mm-hm.
Are you coming
to the club with us tonight?
Yeah, or actually, I...
Oh, fuck, I keep forgetting
you're not 18 yet.
Okay. One more time, from the top.
[in monotone voice]
I have nightmares too, sometimes.
Or, over and over,
the same dream, actually.
[girl 1] Who cares about dreams?
[girl 2] So boring.
[Sam] Shush. Let her continue.
Go to your spot. Go, your spot.
Yes, there. That's good.
She's walking in front of me,
on hot coals.
-I can't see-
-Wait, wait, wait, uh, what was that?
Again, and this time
do it with feeling. Like yesterday.
I was feeling that.
No. [scoffs] For real though,
come on, do it again. For real.
I... I did it exactly the same way as if...
[Amir] One more time.
[breathing deeply]
She's walking in front of me.
[girl sighs]
[Amir] Guys, calm down now.
This part isn't easy.
Yes, it is easy,
tell me what I'm doing wrong?
Listen, we... We...
We open in just a couple of days.
- Mm, I know.
- Mm-hm.
We need to focus, Agnes.
I am focused, really, let me
just run it again, and I'll... fix, um...
[Amir] Hm.
You know, I... I think it'd be best
if you, uh, take today off, to rest.
I don't need to rest.
- Yes, you do.
- No, I don't need to rest.
- You're not present.
- Yes, I'm fucking right here!
- Where else would I be?
- You know what?
We don't throw tantrums
in theater rehearsal.
That's enough.
Pathetic, being a fucking
high school drama teacher.
- What was that?
- [sighs]
I said being a theater teacher at a high
school is fucking incredibly pathetic!
Your brother would be embarrassed by you.
[exasperated sigh]
[tense music playing]
[Agnes] Coming tonight?
See you there.
[tense music continues]
[music intensifies]
[door shuts]
[Carina] You can just
put that in the freezer.
[woman] Okay.
[Carina] Oh God, ouch.
- [woman] Is your back hurting?
- [Carina] No.
- [woman] Oh.
- [Carina] Just a second, let me just...
Agnes? Agnes.
[Agnes sighs]
[Agnes] Yeah.
What's this?
Turn around.
Turn around.
I said turn around. Now.
[approaching footsteps]
What's this?
- [Agnes] What?
- [Carina] What're you doing?
What's so funny?
- It's good to have you back.
- Are...
[Carina] You're drunk.
- Right?
- So what?
- You're not going anywhere.
- I can go wherever I want.
- Where you think you're going like that?
- Out. Yeah.
- No. You're not going anywhere like that.
- Yes, I am.
And drunk? No. Don't wear that.
I'll wear whatever I want.
[Carina] No. No. No.
- No.
- Get away from me.
I'm sorry.
No, no, no, no, no.
I'm really sorry. I miss her so much, I...
I'm sorry, Agnes.
I'd like for us to talk to each other.
Can we do that? Can we talk?
- No.
- Now?
[Agnes] No.
- I'm going to hug you now. I'm going to.
- No. No. Leave me alone.
- Mom. Let me go. Mom, let go of me!
- Come on, no, please. No.
- Mom! Mom! Let... [groans]
- [thud]
[objects clattering]
[door opens and closes]
[techno music playing]
[people chattering]
Agnes, come here.
Sorry. Excuse me.
- Hey, how are you?
- Hi.
- Um how are you?
- I'm good.
- Hey.
- Hi.
- ID, for you both.
- Yes.
- Thank you.
- Thank you.
- I need your ID, please.
- Mm-hm. Here you go.
- Thanks so much.
- [Agnes] Thanks.
- Welcome in.
- [Sam] Thanks.
[music plays loudly]
- What you want?
- [Sam] Um... Surprise me.
What? Okay.
[Sam] Come in after.
- [Agnes] Hey! Um, can I have anything?
- [bartender] Hey.
[bartender] Okay...
[Agnes] I mean two of... anything.
- [chuckling]
- [bartender] You got it.
[DJ on mic] Next up to the stage,
please welcome Lea!
[people cheering]
Come on, everyone!
Put your hands together for Lea!
[Lea] Yellow diamonds in the light
And we're standing side by side
As your shadow crosses mine
What it takes to come alive...
- [people chattering and laughing]
- [club music playing]
[Sam] Was there a long line?
- [Fanna] Really long. It was horrible.
- Hey.
- Hey.
- [Fanna] Hey.
- How are you?
- Not bad.
- How about you?
- I'm good.
My mom is a fucking mess.
I don't know what's her problem.
How'd you get in?
Julia's ID.
Let's see.
- What?
- [Esther] The ID.
Show it to me.
[Agnes] We look alike.
Stop it.
I can't take this anymore,
just stop it, Agnes.
[Esther] What are you trying to do here?
Playing dress-up, or...
Is this gonna end anytime soon?
[Fanna] Esther, stop.
I don't understand. Are you just grieving?
Some process you're stuck in?
- Esther, stop it.
- Hey! No! No!
I'm just so fucking over us
all playing it down!
You need to get rid of
that gross fucking blue eyeshadow!
It's so fucking disgusting!
- You ought to love it more than anybody.
- What?
Yeah, you were in love with her.
Oh, was that a secret?
Don't look so surprised,
my sister told me.
My sister.
I knew her better than you did, sorry.
But I would.
Have you even visited her?
Visited Julia? I've never seen you there.
Not once.
[chuckles weakly]
Give me the ID.
- No.
- Give it!
- I said give it to me!
- Let go!
[Sam] Agnes!
[techno music playing]
- [music mutes slightly]
- [heavy breathing]
[music level rises slowly]
[Agnes] Where are you going?
Are you running away again?
I can't look at you, Agnes.
- What was that?
- I can't look at you!
Why can't you look at me, huh?
Come look at me!
- Come look at me, I said!
- Stop, Agnes!
Please, stop it.
- Stop it, please! I can't take this!
- Don't run off on me!
What's the problem?
It's not running away, I...
Why would you sleep with me if you
don't like that I remind you of her?
Agnes, do not pull that.
You don't listen, you...
Stop it!
Julia was a black hole!
You don't want to be near that!
You don't want to be like that.
Agnes, listen to me.
You have no idea. You... You don't know.
Every freaking...
Every day,
I wake up wishing I...
I had done different.
Sure, but you didn't.
You don't get it.
That night, you...
you have no idea what happened. [stammers]
- What I think happened.
- No, Noel.
No, I know what happ...
- There were sides to her you never saw!
- I've known her my whole entire life.
- You don't know how dark she could get.
- No.
- You don't know. No.
- Real dark!
Real dark!
I ran after her,
drove her everywhere, took care of her!
I made sure she was good!
I made sure she didn't harm herself!
Stop lying!
What the fuck can I say to you?
Stop that!
I loved her,
I loved her too, Agnes, I loved her.
- Okay? Please, please, listen!
- Stop it!
What do you not get?
It's your fault!
It's your fault she's gone!
What do you want me
to say here, Agnes? Huh?
What should I say? That she'll come back?
- Is that what you want?
- Stop it!
- Huh? Julia's dead, Agnes!
- Shut up!
Dead! Dead!
Fucking asshole.
- [Noel] She's fucking dead!
- [Agnes] Shut up!
[techno music playing]
[people chattering loudly]
- Hi.
- Hello.
Will you please play, um,
"Wake Me Up" by Avicii?
For me to sing?
- What's your name?
- Uh, Julia Svan.
- Julia Svan?
- Julia Svan.
[DJ on mic] Next up, we have Julia Svan,
performing "Wake Me Up".
[light applause]
[light applause]
[DJ] Julia Svan!
[crowd cheering]
["Wake Me Up" starts]
Put your hands together for Julia.
Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can't tell
Where the journey will end
But I know where to start
They tell me I'm too young
to understand
They say I'm caught up in a dream
Well, life will pass me by
If I don't open up my eyes
Well, that's fine by me
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time
I was finding myself, and I
Didn't know I was lost
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost!
["Wake Me Up" continues]
[screaming excitedly]
["Wake Me Up" fades out]
[quiet, moody music playing]
[drawer clatters]
[drawers clattering]
[cell phone hums]
[shuddering quietly]
- [Carina] Agnes?
- [door shuts]
[approaching footsteps]
- She's home. Thanks for calling.
- [continues sobbing]
- Hey, honey. Hey.
- [continues sobbing]
[voice wavering] Why didn't you tell me?
Why didn't you... Why...?
Is it...?
[Agnes crying]
It was... It was... It wasn't an accident?
- It wasn't an accident, Mom.
- Honey, oh, hey.
[sobbing] It wasn't an accident.
No, no, no. We don't know that.
We don't... We don't know that.
- But I... I need to know.
- Baby, we don't know that.
- We don't know that.
- I don't know what to do.
- It hurts so much.
- Yes, I understand.
I know it feels like that.
- I can't breathe, it hurts so much.
- Yes, I know. I know it hurts.
I know. Honey, I'm here.
- [sobbing] I can't take it.
- I'm here. I've got you. I know.
- [continues sobbing] I can't take it.
- Oh, I know. I know.
[Carina] Oh, I know, honey.
[Agnes] Why didn't you tell me?
- Why, why, why, why, why, why?
- Oh.
Honey, I wanted to, I wanted to.
You're okay, honey, you...
I talked to her, Agnes.
She said, "No, no, no!"
She didn't want you to know...
- [continues sobbing]
- ...how much she was hurting.
[stops sobbing]
- I should've seen it.
- Hear me?
I should've noticed, I should have...
- Baby, she walked her... own road.
- I should have done something, Mom.
- We should have done something.
- You couldn't've known.
- I should have done something.
- You were always there.
And you were... You are an excellent sister.
- We were there for her. We were. You...
- No, we should have... We should...
- We should have done something.
- You loved her, and... and...
and... and... and...
and she knew you were there for her,
she knows that.
- You were there for her. She knows, honey.
- [sobbing quietly]
She knows that.
- [sobbing] I can't take it... I... I can't...
- Mm. Yeah.
I can't...
[Carina] No, no.
I've got you. I've got you.
- We're here now. You and I. Mmm.
- [whimpering]
We're here. Mm.
You hear me? Trust me.
Trust me.
My darling.
I'm sorry.
[contemplative music playing]
[Carina] Hmm.
[music continues]
- [footsteps]
- [people chattering]
[contemplative music fades]
[Agnes] Hey.
What's up?
[Esther] I have class in a little bit.
[distant door shuts]
I know now.
[Esther sighs]
I, um...
I haven't, um...
I... I haven't visited her... either.
- [sobbing softly]
- I, um...
I don't know how to do it.
[chuckling faintly]
["En Del Av Dig"
by Borjesson & Rindborg playing]
[chuckles faintly]
I don't think anyone knows how, really.
[Swedish lyrics playing]
[both chuckling]
It could have been, we might have been 11,
and you know she...
Julia always goes too far.
I mean... one step further
than the rest of us. No matter what.
So, we had taken the car with my dad.
He took us to this arcade
that had these, like...
[Amir chattering indistinctly]
["En Del Av Dig" continues]
[girl shouting indistinctly]
- [indistinct shout]
- [both laugh]
Love it?
Thank you.
Yes, and now one more. [chuckling]
["En Del Av Dig" continues]
["En Del Av Dig" fades]
[distant bird calling]
[all chattering]
[overlapping chatter]
[Amir] Okay, ten minutes to curtain!
Get ready.
- Hey.
- You've got this.
[Agnes] Thanks.
[door creaking]
[Sam] Listen,
we don't have much time left.
We have only one chance before dawn.
Doesn't anyone want to share?
[Agnes] I have nightmares too.
Or... over and over, the same dream,
[girl 1] Who cares about dreams?
[girl 2] So boring.
[Sam] Shush. Let her continue.
She's, um...
walking in front of me.
On hot coals.
I can't really see her face.
She doesn't turn.
I... I... I ask, I...
No. No, instead...
Instead I yell,
"Can you... Can you look at me?"
[deep breath]
But nothing happens. She refuses.
"Watch out,"
she tells me.
"Be careful."
But... I'm not watching my step.
I step on the coals, and...
and... and... and...
[deep breath]
I'm burning.
All of me burning.
All my body, on fire.
"So," she says,
"what did you expect?"
And I don't know what I...
I don't... I don't know what I expected.
[deep breath]
"It's not free"... she says.
"Not for us."
I don't remember anything after that.
[deep breath]
Say it!
[girl] What do you want us to say?
I understand now.
[Sam] What do you understand?
That I'm burnt up.
At last.
- [inhales]
- [loud click]
[loud cheering and applause]
["Wake Me Up" by Avicii playing]
Feelin' my way through the darkness
Guided by a beatin' heart
I can't tell
Where the journey will end
But I know where to start
They tell me
I'm too young to understand
They say I'm caught up in a dream
Well, life will pass me by
If I don't open up my eyes
Well, that's fine by me
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time
I was finding myself and I
Didn't know I was lost
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time
I was finding myself, and I
Didn't know I was lost
["Wake Me Up" ends]
["En Del Av Dig"
by Borjesson & Rindborg playing]
[Swedish lyrics playing]
["En Del Av Dig" fades out]