Blur: To the End (2024) Movie Script
1
I've been coming here
since 1996-7.
And I don't mind not being around people,
that's the thing.
I'm not racing.
My brain's not racing so fast.
I'm able to... relax.
I suppose that's what I've just realised.
Yeah, I could actually live here now.
We did Think Tank a bit here,
but it was very rough and ready.
Alex and Dave,
they haven't been there since then.
And Graham's never been here.
We just carry a lot
of experience, collectively.
That's why I wanted to do it again.
It felt like, for some reason,
it was wanted
at this moment in time.
I'm 55, I'm, like
have to accept that, you know
time is not infinite.
I'm training to be a rally driver.
Everything else is based on
our reaction to it.
My great grandmother was 103,
and my gran was 100.
Might as well just start thinking about it.
To be totally fair,
she was a month shy of 100.
But it's trying to see...
it's trying to see an upside...
...I suppose.
How long do you think you'll live till?
- Me?
- Yeah.
Who knows?
How long will anyone live, Toby?
When you're young,
you don't have wisdom,
you don't have knowledge,
you don't have stamina,
you don't have dedication, especially...
He was going too fast.
Luckily, I was going really slowly.
Did you... Did you film that?
Fucking wanker, nearly killed me!
And now you're making me do this.
It's classic, though. We were just
talking about mortality, weren't we?
I mean, you couldn't have timed it better,
which is...
This is what I've learnt in life,
is that, you know,
you never know what's round the corner.
All those dirty words
Jusqu'a la fin
They make us look so dumb
En plein soleil
Been drinking far too much
- Jusqu'a la fin...
- Hello.
And neither of us mean what we say
En plein amour
Well, you and I...
They can get very, um
lively round this area.
I have to have a stick.
No prob... Eh, eh, eh, eh!
Oi, oi, oi! Go on! Move, move!
It's a very big day today because we, uh
got our first egg.
We've got quite a rambunctious cockerel.
His name's Tony.
First, I'm going to put this down,
'cause I know that is your...
Come on. Calm down, everyone.
There we go. Wow, look at all of that.
See, while you're busy
protecting everyone,
you're missing out on the treats.
Did you like that? Ooh. Wasn't that nice?
Thank you for the eggs.
Well, I've been here for ages,
but Blur are coming here.
I think it's going to be okay.
I'm just concerned that we do it
as honestly as humanly possible for
you know... people like us.
Whoop, whoop!
Uh-oh!
All right,
I'll see you on Wednesday.
Love you.
- Thanks for last night.
- No, you're welcome.
Driving down,
it's fucking enchanted, man.
Jurassic Park...
- Fuckin' hell!
- How are you? You all right? Nice, innit?
- Hey!
- Hey, man, how's it going?
- You've been in the sun, mate!
- Yeah.
So, where's this...
you're taking me?
This is
a very, very old smuggling...
- Argh!
- ...pub, in a very old smuggling village.
Sometimes you get ghosts.
It's kind of famous for it.
- Cider-swilling...
- Oh, really?
Peasants with smocks
and red kerchiefs, with bright blue eyes.
We've barely communicated
for the last ten years.
I get more from Downing Street
and the Palace
in an average year
than I do from Albarn and Coxon.
I mean, even when we really split up,
it didn't take this long to make a record.
But what's wonderful is, as soon as
the four of us get in a room together,
it's just exactly the same
as it was when we were all 19.
It's just four sweaty blokes
annoying each other.
Oh!
- This is brilliant.
- Wooden floor.
- You all right?
- Yeah!
I'm all right.
- Oh, Jesus.
- Oh, big fuckin'...
- How are you doing?
- Ah, you've been diddling.
I've just been working,
just trying to get this sounding amazing,
and, you know...
Trying to fulfil the
potential of our, uh...
Exactly!
Damon and I communicate
musically a lot, really. We always have.
Then that developed into friendship
or whatever else,
and I haven't got many friends,
so it's a bit like, every now and then,
we have to check up on each other
and see if there's something there
that's been brewing.
How's your knee?
I've already told them
that my knee's knackered, so they know.
But, no, how's your one?
- How's your one?
- It's all right.
It went to crap after my first gig,
but now it's absolutely fine.
I was the very last member of Blur
to get a very big house in the country,
but we've all done it.
And it's funny how these sneering comments
you make in your twenties
turn round and bite you in the arse.
- Is it gluten-free cake?
- I'm pretty sure.
That would be fucking spectacular.
I will be like,
"I'll have the whole thing," if it is.
If it's not, I shall just, you know...
I'll be grown-up about it.
There's some rye bread.
Is there some cold porridge
left over from yesterday?
Stoical face.
I shall unselfconsciously
put this fishcake into my mouth.
No, I'll do it like that
the way chefs place their food.
I think it's lovely that I'm getting into
an old codger who's falling to bits
and I'm flippin' doing the biggest gig...
you know, with me old band.
We haven't played Wembley before
'cause we haven't been big enough
to play Wembley before.
That's the reality.
We're getting bigger and bigger.
The less we do, the bigger we get.
Me and Damon
watched Live Aid together,
you know, round my house.
We were, like, 16.
We sat watching it all day.
So, why are you doing it?
You're doing it
because there's a pureness to it.
So basically
when I come back from America,
we've got, like, two weeks,
and then we're on tour.
- Yeah.
- Is that really it?
New album plus a couple of oldies.
So, like, three weeks' time,
we start rehearsing.
- May 1st.
- May 1st?
Fuuuuuck!
Graham and I
spent a lot of our adolescence
just hanging out by the river
behind the village.
It was not a thing
of being in a band.
It was a thing of hanging out
on Friday nights at his house.
Him writing and me coming round
and maybe playing some saxophone.
Mainly, it was sort of
hanging out and going for walks.
And trying to, uh, race on cows
when we were drunk.
Which never went well,
and I don't recommend that to anybody.
And just talking about
music and life and everything else,
and sharing, you know, our feelings,
or whatever that was.
First time I met Dave, I had to go
round his flat for a rehearsal.
Everybody I knew
played an instrument.
Everybody was constantly in bands,
three or four bands at a time.
And I went down
and knocked on his flat,
and he was still in bed,
and he got up, and
he had this sort of floppy Mohican
haircut, and he was in his pyjamas,
and he sat on the edge of his bed
eating his cornflakes.
His drum kit was there in his bedroom,
and then I got me sax out.
I wanted to be in a band with Damon
because of his songwriting.
Graham took me along to see him.
He was playing with, uh,
some guy in a hat, I remember.
Or did Damon wear the hat?
I don't know.
A hat definitely featured
in their performance.
At one point,
I think I jumped into the audience,
but there were so few people there
that it was actually really embarrassing.
Then I kind of sort of
went for the toilets, I think,
just to make it not feel quite so awkward.
I had a chat to Damon afterwards
and said, "Really like what you're doing.
"If you ever need a drummer
for any of your projects, let me know."
That was the start of that, really.
Alex was just who I met
when we got to halls of residence,
who lived underneath me
in the block there, in Camberwell.
I said, "Alex plays bass, he's this bloke
in my halls," and we all met.
I kind of liked Graham instantly.
Damon was very kind of, "What you got?"
You know, which I respond well to.
Um... And, yeah,
I think Dave made me a cup of tea.
You know,
I think we'd got each other's backs.
It was Alex joining, really,
that was the kind of missing piece.
After he joined,
we were signed within six months.
There's one more on here.
I think our legacy is pretty good.
You know, not wanting to trample on that,
not wanting to release some rubbish,
you know, 'cause we're going out on tour.
You know, in the context of the legacy,
let's just try and make
the very best music we can.
Well, doing a whole new album
is the difference between
this just being a nostalgia-looking thing
and something
that feels totally
part of our lives now.
Again.
Part of my life again, anyway, definitely.
So, yeah, I think
it's a bar of click, and then you're in.
Smooth exterior
Mess inside...
Before we, uh,
dipped our toe in the water with Blur,
I hadn't played drums for quite some time.
I have been making film music,
by and large.
I've done a lot of things.
You know, my legal career
started and ended in the last ten years.
I don't know, I just...
I've always been someone
that just does whatever seems
most interesting at the time.
I've never really had a plan.
Would you mind
doing one more all the way?
Yeah, let's do it like that.
Same again?
Yeah, it gives it loads of energy.
It's cool.
The service station on the road
I took the acid...
You know, the process, I wasn't sure
how it was going to be coming into it.
You never know, going in
with these kind of, like, hero bands
what it's actually going to be like.
And from the very first meetings,
there were some kind of, like
sort of little warning flags of tension,
and, like, I was like,
"Oh, no, it could be a nightmare."
If you see darkness, look away...
Graham's got a young family
and is touring with his new band.
You know, Alex is coming back in
maybe a little apprehensive.
Damon's just, like, a powerhouse
and almost, like,
pathologically kind of addicted
to making new stuff up
all the time, you know?
And to that end, it feels like
you're on shifting sands a little bit.
Great. Do one more chorus,
then we'll go back to the verse,
then we'll go and have dinner.
Yeah, sure.
You'll probably shine it back on me
But I won't fall this time
With godspeed, I'll heed the signs
I won't fall this time
With godspeed, I'll heed the signs...
We were with each other
a lot in the '90s.
And it was a very intense time.
It's the sort of time,
and on the same sort of level,
as a relationship or marriages
and things like that.
And I think it's okay
to say that time apart
was taken up
with other friendships and just
just sort of recuperating,
or, you know, doing other things.
Since everybody
kind of went their separate ways,
I got married
and started making some cheese.
That was in 2003.
I've sort of organised my life
so I don't have to go on tour.
I've moved the mountain to Mohammed,
having a festival on the farm.
It takes all day
to just be a dad
and run a farm and a festival.
Bass playing
is the easiest job in the entire world.
But, you know,
I have to be in Devon to do that.
Yeah, we could just about manage.
- There's been a bit of a storm...
- Oh, Christ, Albarn!
- What?
- Fuck this!
- Fuck that?
- It's horrible!
No, but it's... I mean, it's...
- You feel good afterwards, right?
- Um, I mean...
- That doesn't, you know...
- No, I promise you...
I'm in. I'm all in...
- I promise you...
- ...but blimey!
- Uh, we could go to another...
- No, no, no, no. But this is...
No, do you know what?
Should we go to another one?
No, this is the perfect
spot. This is lovely.
Bands start, usually,
when people are quite young,
you're still finding yourself.
You have to
work through that relationship
where you can be relaxed and comfortable
and not want to push each other's buttons
and want to be supportive.
You know,
that takes time to work through.
And ideally, the best place to do that
working through
is not in the full glare of the public.
We've had times where we've really
not wanted to be
even in the same room as each other.
When you're in the thick of it
and, you know,
you've just been touring
for three years with two days off,
it can feel like what you're
actually engaged in is politics
and the music
is a kind of sideshow to that.
When I last saw them,
it was great.
So... yeah, I mean
we grew up together,
so, you know, family.
The bedrooms aren't finished here yet,
so we've got back to the
house where we're staying down the road,
and, uh.
...I made me and Graham
some bacon and eggs.
And...
...it's just like when we were staying
in halls of residence at college.
You know, the midnight snacks.
But it's actually
sort of quite good to be kind of removed
from the kind of noise of
running a farm
and a festival and a family
to drink scrumpy
and make bacon and eggs in peace.
I don't know how he can stay in there.
Hangover's history.
Wa-hey!
Um, when do you want to
do a playback? Soon?
What is it
that we're going to be hearing?
- Basically...
- What we heard before but with...
With full vocals. Everything...
Damon's done every song.
Let's get this party started.
I don't think any of us
thought we'd make another record.
Especially not a record like this.
I suppose that's why I wanted to try
and make it as good as possible.
'Cause otherwise it's just
some bunch of old cunts
trying to relive their past.
I mean, you know,
it's not the finished record.
Everybody ready?
You of grace
Many ghosts alive in my mind
Many paths I wish I'd taken
Many times I thought I'd break...
Emotionally,
I think, with this album,
something has been dislodged
within the group, within Damon.
...It seems to be...
Well, I suppose it's about
it's... about loss.
It's about the aftershock of... of loss.
...Songs to play...
Once something dramatic
has happened,
whether it's a break-up or pandemic...
...grace for everyone...
I mean,
what do you want me to say?
Now I live alone, essentially,
in the countryside.
That's what's happened.
And this record, obviously,
very much feels like that.
Why everything
In this world been lost...
A boulder has fallen out.
You know, there's 40 years' worth
of stuff in this boulder
that has been dislodged,
and now rolls down
towards us.
Pursuing God with change
And furthermore
I think it's just
Too late.
That was the hardest ever...
It sounds effortless,
for all your hard work.
Well, I promise you,
I really worked hard.
It seems
like lots of little stories,
like, came out
while he was just recording...
"Oh, this is about this thing,
and that is about..."
"Up and down the town clock" is about
when I went round
to Alex's flat in New Cross
and took acid, and thought
it was a good idea to jump up...
'Cause there was a very, very narrow,
like, sort of, um
- distance between.
- It's not that narrow.
I've seen it plenty of times.
It's quite wide.
It's about from here to...
It's about from here to you.
- Really? No, shut up!
- It's not narrow.
No, but anyway,
I jumped over that,
and then went and orienteered myself
onto New Cross Town Hall clock
and changed the time, on acid.
- You actually changed the time?
- Yes, I changed time, yes.
I ch... I... I changed time!
We literally haven't
spoken to each other for ten years,
and it's... straight back together, like...
And actually evolved in some...
This, um
has come into all of our lives
unexpectedly, really, in a way.
It's made us, uh...
something else, you know?
- Wow, this is such a treat to have...
- Like 10cc, ABBA
me old muckers!
That's great.
I can't wait to decipher more words.
- Oh, we have a lot.
- The singing is fucking ace.
Yeah, you think so?
- Yeah, and your voice sounds really good.
- Thanks.
- But it's an expensive microphone.
- I know, well...
It's kind of a bit overwhelming
having all that emotion coming out at me.
I'm a bit kind of gobsmacked,
to be honest.
I'm just getting sentimental
in me old age, that's what it is.
- How are you feeling?
- How am I feeling? I'm feeling
- a little discombobulated.
- I am not surprised.
I saw some footage of the weekend.
- It looked pretty mega.
- Yeah, yeah.
Went on tour
in the Autumn with Gorillaz,
wrote the album, came back,
recorded the album,
went on tour with Gorillaz again,
then came back.
So, it's just... it's non-stop really.
So, there's headphones and stuff,
if you want to sit here.
Everything's quite frenetic
at the moment.
The amount of stuff there is to do
is peaking around this week,
because we're in rehearsals for the shows
and, uh, we've got promo starting.
- Is it possible to have the sound on it?
- Oh, yes! Reuben, hi.
They're all getting fuckin'
younger and younger, aren't they?
And it's been quite a while
since we've been in this position, really,
of doing everything all at the same time.
One, two, three, and...
Blow, blow me out
I am so sad, I don't know why
Blow, blow me out
I am so sad, I don't know why...
He... He...
Hang on a minute.
He...
He was crowned on a Saturday...
There's nothing more boring
than rehearsing.
People are always going to be bad-tempered
and, uh, testy
and irritable,
because nobody wants to be there.
- Turn down.
- I'm just playing it with what's here.
I'm playing what's here.
When you get over here with Blur,
it is like when you see
those fucking gorillas in the zoo.
How does it feel to be back?
You guys are back. How does it feel?
When you're in a band, it's a relationship
like brothers and sisters, isn't it?
- I'm playing normal. I've always...
- Play that in A-minor.
I mean, is it different?
Have the dynamics changed?
Have you enjoyed
being back in the studio together?
Um...
Can't you just stake me out on a beach
and send some vultures over?
Yeah, we could do that.
They handed out cigarettes
to the kids.
- Did they? To the kids?
- Did they?
They did.
Like they hand out sweets on take-off.
They went round with a little basket,
handing out...
- What, packets of, um, tens?
- On a school trip?
- Packets?
- Yeah.
I do like smoking with my kids,
I have to admit.
You like having a fag with your kids?
I used to quite like sitting
with a bottle of scotch, with my mum.
So, what about just doing the
from the "up close" bit,
just go from there.
So, it's kind of that twice, yeah.
Damon's work ethic
is very strong.
That's just part of who he is.
Where you and I might be
watching TV, or, uh, playing video games,
Damon doesn't do any of that,
he just writes songs.
We all go to the bar,
Damon goes to his room,
gets his equipment out and writes songs.
On the bus, he's writing songs.
At home, he's writing songs.
And if we don't keep him
focused on the job in hand,
he will literally be doing another opera
before the third single's out.
- Take in one...
- One, two, three...
He's also exhausted
from doing Coachella,
and so, will basically have an idea
and then fall asleep.
Do you want to
keep going, Damon, or...?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Don't worry about my, uh, demeanour.
It's just.
It's just standard utter exhaustion.
Come on, let's do it again.
It comes
Like me
Up close
I fell in love with you...
This idea of the workaholic,
there must be some sort of brain condition
that drives you to just
pursue something so sort of relentlessly.
Yeah, it's just sort of never believing,
really, that it's happening.
It needs to be right
for me to be able to sleep properly.
It comes
Like me
Up close...
And I guess if he didn't work,
he'd have to
do nothing, and maybe, you know,
have to take a long look at himself,
and, you know, God,
that would be a freaky thing for him.
I'll fall along
We travelled
round the world together.
Really, really, really could happen
Really, really, really could happen...
Where are we?
We're in this fuckin' big shithole.
Concrete floor polished,
so everything sounds insane and bad.
Um, it's a great way to make you
feel awful about everything you're doing.
And then they've got
all these silly lights, and some of them,
like, I look down at my fretboard
and I'm blinded by these stupid lights.
It's as far away as creating
music together as you can possibly get,
when you start incorporating all this shit.
But, you know, Wembley's a big stage.
So, we have to, like,
employ all these people
because they've decided to come
to a venue that is so large,
they're going to see ant-like figures,
like I did when I saw The Osmonds
in the early '70s.
Um, thankfully, there was some luncheon,
and I've had that,
and I'm going to try
and give it another go.
Right, for this run-through,
Let's just go straight through, okay?
Yeah.
Wrong one, son. Come on.
Going back to
the classic model of the Beatles,
I suppose the appeal of the band
was the psycho-dramas
that accompanied everything, you know?
Even though, at the time,
we just wanted to be on Top of the Pops.
Well, Alex and I did.
This is next-level madness for all of us.
And we're all... we're all hanging on.
I've definitely mellowed a bit.
You know,
I'm more tolerant of some things.
I'm completely intolerant
of most other things.
I'll be packing my bag tomorrow
and, uh, hitting the road.
Is it daunting?
It's like children.
It takes absolutely everything out of you.
It takes everything out of you.
Hanging on.
It's a really busy time,
and I'm not used to it.
I mean, I'm not lazy or anything,
and I'm going to do everything I can
for it to be completely brilliant.
But we're a bit older.
You're doing everything you can
to make it completely brilliant.
You know, it's like, we don't want to have
a flippin' hip replacement
because we've pushed it
a bit too far in Eastbourne.
You know, end up living in Eastbourne.
And I fully expect myself to not make it
through the year, at the moment.
I do. I think, at some point,
I'm not going to be able to do it.
But I'll just not think about that
until it happens.
It's a massive trigger
for all of us. It's on a knife edge.
I never know when it's just going to...
I want to hear my fucking band.
I want to fucking hear it played properly!
Stupid...
Just makes you feel like an amateur!
- Concentrate!
- Is there another bit?
No, it's left how you've left it yesterday.
- Yeah.
- We've learnt a lot of songs,
but now we need
to start concentrating a bit,
just so that we've got something
coherent,
and then, you know
see how long we can hold it together
without collapsing,
in one form or another,
'cause there are many, many, many ways
to collapse on the road.
I love the choice of the
warm-up venues that you guys have picked.
Eastbourne Winter Gardens,
Wolverhampton, Newcastle City Hall,
- Colchester Arts Centre...
- Well, there you go.
'Cause those venues
remind me of some of the venues
that Blur would have played
back in the early days.
Really from Parklife onward,
we had full brass,
full backing singers, percussionist.
There was always someone
playing a fucking gourd or something.
This time, we've stripped it right back.
If the four of us
can't get on in a room and make music,
then there's absolutely
no point in doing it as a band,
just back to how we started.
...Feel this strange
Can I go through this again?...
- Hello.
- All right?
- Hiya.
- Hi.
- Damon, this is John.
- Hello. Nice to meet you.
- Hiya. I'm the head teacher, so...
- Excellent.
I just wanted to welcome you
to the Stanway.
- Really good to have you here.
- It's changed a lot.
- Was any of this here when you were here?
- No, none of it.
- Are the Portakabins still here?
- No, they've all gone.
- Why'd you get rid of that? It's...
- They're Portakabins.
Well, look, I have named a room
after you both.
Do you remember me getting in contact
a few years back?
So, where we're going now...
I'll let you off, then.
No, I just really wanted
to see the Portakabins.
You know, 'cause I've kind of...
I've sort of...
I've sort of mythologised that
in my own memory, that place, you know.
We were given the key to it, weren't we?
- Yeah.
- We had a few...
There were a few nice things.
Like, they had a synthesiser.
Okay.
And, uh, yeah,
we used to go in there on our breaks
- and just do that.
- Yeah, there was a piano in there.
And also, it was quite dangerous
for me to go out at
- at lunchtime...
- Oh, was it?
'Cause I was always getting beaten up.
Oh, okay. Well, we don't have
much of that here anymore.
No, well, you had a lot back then.
- Yeah, all right.
- Fuckin' hell.
No, no, I'm just saying, for us, it's...
- "The Albarn & Coxon Room."
- Yeah, this is it.
- This is what we've...
- Oh, that is... this is sweet.
- Well, for...
- Can I take a picture?
Yeah, come on,
we've got to have a photo taken.
Can someone take a little picture of that?
Oh, they've all got
huge pieces of equipment in their hands.
It looks like a serious school now.
I'm not saying it wasn't serious,
but it was... seriously odd.
You know,
my dad lives down the road here.
Behind... Behind the school...
And he's still in the same house
where he used to live? Wow.
He only had to walk up the road to school.
I had to cycle from Ford Street every day.
- Oh, really?
- And I'd do a paper round before that.
As soon as I put my bike in,
walked it by, I'd get beaten up.
Why did you
get beaten up so much?
'Cause everyone thought I was a cunt.
Tell me about the energy
of Colchester when you were growing up
- and what it felt like to be...
- Bit scary.
Lot of squaddies.
Lot of people who were, you know,
somewhat more Anglo-Saxon than myself.
But the music department was amazing.
And, you know, that's where we met.
And we did
all these amazing school productions.
Orpheus in the Underworld,
The Boyfriend...
Starring role in that one.
- Guys and Dolls.
- Who were you in Guys and Dolls?
I was Nathan Detroit.
All right, already
So, call a policeman...
Then we did West Side Story.
- I got a social disease!
- I was like, "Who is that kid?"
"He does not care."
- So, yeah, I did a lot of...
- Where did he get that confidence from?
- I was like, "Oh, my God."
- I loved it.
I absolutely loved it.
I mean, our first-ever gig together
was at an assembly.
- Now destroyed.
- Now destroyed.
The first-ever gig Graham and I did
was at 9:00 in the morning.
This song is called
"It May Be Our Best Chance Yet,"
a song about a child with no future.
We were called Real Lives.
- We played a song.
- We did a couple of songs,
but we did a gig
one evening there as well, didn't we?
And we made programmes and everything,
with drawings and...
I need to give 'em... I want to
give 'em some more stuff in here, though.
Just sort of, you know...
It's quite dry, isn't it?
You know what I mean?
Music rooms should be posters and...
They need to have
some, like, batik wall hangings.
- Yeah.
- Some paisley.
No, they need to have
some nice weed, like in a bowl,
which they can all kind of...
- Thank you very much.
- Thanks, mate.
- Appreciate it.
- Yeah, really nice to have met you.
Wake up straight
Caught out by the sun
On the first day of April...
Did you know that the tower there
was the base
of the legend of Humpty Dumpty?
Did you know that?
The Royalists occupied the town,
and when they came in,
they put a cannon up the top there,
which they nicknamed Humpty Dumpty
'cause it was a bit round.
Parliamentarians were over in the field
across there, Hilly Fields,
and they were coming up.
Of course, the Parliamentarians,
they actually got the cannon,
and it tumbled down.
And all the king's horses
and all the king's men
couldn't put Humpty together again.
And that is one of the legends
about Humpty Dumpty
here at Colchester Arts Centre.
My name's Nigel Hildreth.
I was the person who taught
Damon and Graham music.
So, I taught them at Stanway School.
They were fantastic students,
they were very musical.
And they had an electrifying effect
upon their audience.
You could see that stage presence.
Is the barrier going to go
in-between the PA?
It's part of
the rehearsal process, this.
We're not quite at Wembley,
as you can see.
I mean, it's going to be enough
just to get through it, really.
For us, I think we're really...
It's going to be odd
to have that thing with an audience again,
playing these songs,
because you do get,
you know, a hell of a lift
from just having an audience there.
And just the atmosphere
and the volume and all of that. So...
And there's one or two sing-alongs.
"Sing-along. The new record from Blur."
Ling-along-a-Blur.
Revisiting all their
'90s favourites
auto-tuned.
- Okay, gentlemen...
- Play your music now!
When we go up, do I go on that way? Yeah.
Is the chemistry still there?
Apparently, that's not a given.
Have a great show, everyone.
It's a weird thing when you
go back to something that was so,
so well-documented.
People feel like that's what you are,
but it was so long ago.
Wow, what a sound!
Good evening.
Isn't it nice
to see everyone back together?
I'm leaving town to run away
Run into your twisted arms
No queues and there's no panic there
I'm just dangling my feet in the grass
My lack of natural lustre now
Seems to be losing me my friends
So, in the absence of a way of life
I'll repeat this again and again
And again
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Popscene, all right
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah...
Popscene.
Whoo-whoo-whoo-whoo-whoo!
- What's that?
- Apple juice.
- Ooh, some champagne!
- That was, uh...
- And apritifs.
- That was bloody good.
- Champagne, sir.
- Oh, thank you.
- Chin-chin.
- No, thank you, I'm working.
I was surprised how natural that whole
thing felt, you know? I really was.
You don't get hit by a flying beer.
I hate it when they throw beer.
No, I love it.
I love it when they throw beer.
You got hit by a good one,
and then you did
some exotic stuff with a towel.
So, if you multiply that 400 to 80,000,
- I reckon it'll be okay.
- Just about, yeah.
What are they doing?
Are they sneaking in, getting...?
Are they sneaking in?
The whole thing was good.
I'm very happy with it.
Well done, everyone.
I know there's a lot more to go, but...
One day at a time, sweeties.
When I was very small,
the South Coast still had the vestiges
of an upper crust.
There still is
a Dorset Ladies Luncheon Club,
which my mum's a stalwart of.
But as cheap flights became available,
people were able to get
sunshine guaranteed.
And the bottom was really falling out
of the great British bucket.
I haven't spent much time, really,
playing this country
for a long, long, long time.
I always really enjoy it.
Modern Life is Rubbish
turned 30 last week, I think.
A lot of those older songs
they make more sense to me now.
Even though I wrote them,
they make more sense now,
the language I was using.
My kind of obsession back then,
which was, by some people,
seen as me being quite cruel to people,
about, like, media and absorption
and the sort of paralysing effects of it,
hypnotic effects of it.
I can see that there were some kind of
quite challenging stories
from all those songs.
I believe the role of the artist
is to somehow be... a mirror.
Post-Brexit... And I really do think
Brexit was a terrible mistake.
Post-that, I think there's an appetite
once more in the country
for something that pokes a bit of fun
at that right-wing, conservative aspect
of our society.
The UK seems to be
in some kind of, uh,
slow-motion collapse, at the moment,
at least the UK public services.
Much, much bigger kind of ways
of stealing from the poor
and giving to the rich
have been going on
over the past five years.
Why aren't we taking to the streets?
I don't understand,
it's like people have given up.
How bad do things have to get?
I would like to introduce
our first soloist of the afternoon.
It's a... um,
a good-looking young man.
Hello!
I used to play football
for the New Musical Express,
and, uh, our manager and centre-half
was a guy called Steve Sutherland,
who was the editor of NME.
And he said, "There's some young band
"who are interested in you
doing a bit of a record with 'em.
I said, "Oh, I don't know."
And he said, "No," he said,
"they're going to be big."
"Oh, all right, then."
I'd like to invite someone...
very unique onto this stage.
He's a unique human being.
Eastbourne!
Oi!
Confidence is a preference for
the habitual voyeur of what is known as
Parklife
Morning soup can be avoided if you take
a route straight through what is known as
Parklife
John's got brewer's droop,
he gets intimidated by the dirty pigeons
- They love a bit of him!
- Parklife
Who's that gut-lord marching?
Cut down on your porklife, mate,
get some exercise
All the people
So many people...
I never really ever thought
it would come into the British psyche.
I think Graham felt
it was a bit of a novelty song.
Parklife...
All the dustmen know me, and, uh,
I get "Parklife" shouted at me
all over the place.
Put my trousers on, have a cup of tea
And I think about leaving the house
Parklife...
Damon always said to me,
"Whenever you want to do a gig,
"you're welcome."
I enjoy their songs
and, you know, the social commentary.
...The knowledge there will always be
a bit of my heart devoted to it...
But I just look at this country.
Hopefully,
they can dig theirs elves out of a mess,
um, but it seems to me, you know
if poo was fertiliser, working-class
people wouldn't have an arse.
Parklife.
Arrivederci, Eastbourne!
After we came off on Friday,
we all felt absolutely exhilarated.
It's sort of like in a video game,
when you get the cloak of invincibility.
And there was all these kind of people
that I really admire and respect,
who were at the gig.
Just, like, completely overwhelmed
and overcome.
And I got really drunk,
and I woke up feeling ashamed.
Touring's just like
being on a roller-coaster.
You're on it, you know?
And it's kind of terrifying
and brilliant and scary.
And then you get off, and you're not sure
whether you never want to do it again
or whether you want to get
straight back on.
But you can't actually remember
what it's like
until you're actually doing it.
How's it feel for you guys,
being back in Wolves?
Oh, I mean, I'm just kind of
slightly overwhelmed by the
by the grey peas,
and their effect on my
on my bowels.
What is it, Stu, that we ate?
It's just very low-grade peas.
- Grey peas and bacon.
- Grey peas and bacon.
- Grey peas and bacon.
- Grey peas and bacon.
Do you need anything?
I've got paracetamol, ibuprofen...
- I've had an IV drip today.
- Have you? Already?
- Yeah.
- Crikey.
I've found, during rehearsals,
there's just a bit of spikiness.
It's real life, innit?
And they've had a lot of it.
We've all had a lot of real life.
And I think, you know,
the more you go through,
the more you've got to be accepting
of everyone's shit.
You understand it.
So, I think that's,
you know, a big part of it.
Was it JB's, the first gig?
I think it was, wasn't it?
JB's was the first gig we saw Blur.
I remember,
it was the beginning of summer,
and I'd just got my exam results
from college,
and I got 2% in my French Language.
The examiner had written,
"Is the candidate lucid?"
And I thought
I'd kind of burnt my bridges there.
And, uh, we just landed it.
It was just, like, epic,
you know what I mean?
It was a stage invasion.
That was the first time
we were going to a completely new place
with just the four of us, and letting rip,
and we blew the doors off.
We didn't know back then
- how long it would go on.
- Exactly.
Here we are, 30 years later...
None the wiser.
It's a bit like
drawing up from a well.
And I've never really understood
that about age, really, until now.
That, actually
when it gets to sort of decades,
it's like, actually,
that was quite a while ago.
In a lot of ways,
you're drawing you then back up,
and it's, like, a bit odd sometimes.
Well, you know, just got to go for it,
haven't you, really?
Knock 'em dead, mate.
Good luck, good luck, good luck.
Well, the album's called
The Ballad of Darren, okay?
I'd like to bring onstage Darren.
It's six o'clock on the dot,
and I'm halfway home
I feel foul-mouthed
as I stand and wait for the Underground
And a nervous disposition
doesn't agree with this
I need something to remind me
that there's something else
You need a holiday somewhere in the sun
With all the people who are waiting
There never seems to be one
Say something, say something else...
Say something, say something else...
Say something, say something...
Say something, say something else.
Fuck off!
It's all right, it's all
right. It's okay, just...
I wish we were on a tour bus.
I don't know why we're not on a tour bus.
I've never, ever done this. I haven't...
Drive around individually in cars,
doesn't make any sense to me.
Oh, I'd happily
never get on another tour bus.
Just not knowing where the...
ever knowing where the toilet is.
Newcastle city centre's
basically a street party every weekend.
Got stuck into the Jgerbombs,
posted a lot of stupid stuff on socials
that I shouldn't have done.
The missus is cross with me.
Uh, I've been ordered
to come home and wash up.
So, I'll be leaving...
I'll be leaving after the show tonight.
What is actually really scary
is pitching up to a sound check
with an excruciating hangover.
I mean, it's not like, you know,
being a coal miner, but it's, um
the travel is
is tiring.
30 years ago, they said,
"modern life is rubbish."
How would you describe
the current feeling of the world?
- It is rubbish.
- It's still rubbish.
Modern life is still rubbish.
It doesn't feel very optimistic.
I'm always interested
in new fans.
I'm like this sort of weird storyteller.
I go on, and I can completely inhabit
the characters of those songs.
But for something
that we haven't done for so long,
they kind of have a totally different
relationship with them, obviously.
When I feel sad,
I just went into the mood
and I need something to soothe me,
and Blur has, like,
become my first choice.
There's, like, a deep depression inside.
But then they use, like,
a very enthusiastic way
- to express it.
- True.
And I feel like
it's the most beautiful thing ever.
Ours is a brotherhood
that has been sustained
by our musical relationship.
It's a long time, so it's a very, uh
precious one.
We're happy to see each other
and get on that stage together.
You know, and then we're happy
to go our separate ways.
I mean, that's... that's where we're at.
We're not quite as patient
as we were.
And our idiosyncrasies
have sort of amplified somewhat.
But I think, at the same time,
we have more humility, maybe,
a bit more gratitude.
It's just bloody hard.
People are just really hard work.
How much do you want to be in the band?
That's the thing.
What are you willing to sacrifice
to be in the band?
Are you willing to subsume your ego
for the sake of the whole?
I think it's like
any sort of family.
Individuals in the family come in and out,
some are closer to you,
and you have to balance your own needs
at any given moment in the day
with whoever you're prioritising
at that moment in time.
It's like a
marriage, isn't it, really?
You can be right, or you can be happy.
When everybody's doing something
you know is doomed to fail,
do you bite your lip and just go with it,
or not?
I never know
how any of them are feeling.
You know,
we're not very good at communicating.
I mean,
I don't think blokes do spend much time
asking each other
if they're all right, do they?
I mean, it's like, you know,
"Are you all right?"
That means, like,
"Are you pissed off with me?"
Or, you know, "Are you blitzed?"
There was a point in Devon when Damon,
I thought he was laughing,
singing along with the songs.
He was crying.
You know, I completely misread it.
It is the music and the job
that kind of locks us all together.
You know,
the fact that we haven't always got on,
you know,
that's one of the chemistry points
that has led to us
being able to make the music we do.
I'm absolutely convinced of it.
So, no matter how tired we are,
or how annoying anyone's being,
it just
there's something very healing
about creating a beautiful noise.
And I never know
if it'll be the last
time I hear that noise.
And it's really nice to hear it again.
It's a very late show,
this one, starting at 2:00 in the morning.
Which isn't actually late for Spain,
but it is obviously late for me.
I'm quite relieved that we've, uh,
we've all arrived relatively unscathed.
What happens
between now and stage time?
- No bloody idea.
- Nothing.
Just void.
You go through the days
in a sort of semi-sleep mode.
Battery preserve
till you have to summon up the energy.
Well, yeah, because every bit of energy,
it depletes quick during the gig.
So, you need a good bank of it,
so you can do what you need to do.
"No Other Way," Goldie on capo two
with the neck pick-up.
"Popscene," Preston.
"Tracy Jacks" is Ray.
"Chemical World" is back to Preston
I fucked up
I'm not the first to do it...
We're all different types
of people.
So, when we're away,
it's not like the four of us
like the Beatles in A Hard Day's Night.
You know,
we're all kind of doing different things.
We're quite sheltered.
We don't really have to be out among it.
You know, historically,
it's been a lot of to do with anxiety,
why I won't go out in the streets.
That even stops me going for a swim
in the swimming pool sometimes as well.
It's the sort of thing that,
"Oh, no, I won't today."
I think it's because
I've got these tiny swimming trunks.
Maybe that's why it is.
I got home from Newcastle,
there was a massive party
going on at my house.
All the kids had all their friends over.
So, I got involved in a...
"Rasputin" dance competition,
and, uh, didn't get to bed till late,
and then I got here, and New Order,
my favourite band,
whole reason I started playing the bass,
they're here, and they want
to go out for dinner, and, oh, my God.
You know, I remember this now.
You know, the...
Just exhausting, but there's just always
a really good reason not to go to bed.
It's easy to confuse touring with
going on a massive, self-indulgent binge
of sex and drugs and rock and roll.
I think when we went
into the studio to make the record,
nobody kind of really knew,
I mean, is this going to work or not?
But it did, straight away.
I mean, the only thing
that could really jeopardise this now,
other than physical injury and death,
is... Graham drinking.
That would be really bad.
Dave drinking would be even worse.
Um, me drinking's bad enough, trust me.
When a show goes really well,
It's nice to have
a big night out afterwards.
And then, I woke up in Denmark
with absolutely no idea
of how I'd got there.
Last thing I knew, I was in Holland.
Why did he bring that up?
Because, you know,
I have to tell you why it upset me.
No, I don't want to, because
then that just becomes clickbait.
I famously said,
when I was promoting my book,
that I sprazzed a million quid on booze
and drugs, and my kids now, you know,
they're asking me about that,
and I have to kind of justify it.
On one level,
it was very entertaining.
But at the same time, you know,
I was concerned for him,
to be honest with you.
Joking apart, I was a little bit concerned.
You've got a gaping hole in your head
I'd let the birds nest there instead...
Booze is probably...
It's certainly a big contributing factor
in why Blur stopped being a,
you know, a full-time job.
What happened
towards the end of the '90s is
it always felt like I was
the petulant brat, or treated that way,
and everybody else was really grown-up
and wanted to be professional,
but I was the only one who was ruining it.
It was quite dangerous time,
wasn't it, really?
I think we live in an era
that is somehow a reaction to that.
There's a big sort of
reality check that goes on.
All the artifice falls away, you know,
and you're left with just you, you know.
That's where I arrived with drinking.
"Do I really want to
carry on down this path?"
I thought, "No, I don't."
It takes practice to
to let go of something that was
your absolute identity for a while
and then practice being you
without all of that protection.
I'd let the birds nest there...
I think the reasonable response
to getting all that kind of
fame and attention
is to go bat-shit crazy.
You know, success will mess you up
far more than failure.
It's hard to cope with it,
and what are you supposed to do after
you come off stage at Wembley Stadium?
The way I look at it,
at different times, there were
different people doing different things.
That's it. Could change again.
It's just... humans coexisting, isn't it?
When we were younger,
you need to resolve it there and then,
whereas now,
you realise it didn't need resolving,
we just needed to all disperse, you know?
It's just, well, at what point
does that space become distance?
I have this on my knee, and, uh
the specialist I went to see
after I fucked it in Chile
said that I would no longer be able to
perform in the way I used to,
and that was the end of that,
and I had to come to terms with that.
But, um, I can jump again on it now
and it doesn't...
I mean, maybe tomorrow
I won't be able to walk, but...
It's the, uh, holistic power of, uh
musical commune.
It's the best cure for anything, really.
I was doing an interview,
and I was saying how,
when we were making the album,
it was like those times
when you play tennis
and it feels like
the tennis racquet is huge,
and every shot goes in,
every shot is brilliant.
Then, about two days later,
I was playing tennis.
Oh, God!
I need an operation,
but, obviously, I can't have
an operation... while we're on tour.
What was he doing?
He bent over to pick up a tennis ball?
He was playing tennis, was he?
In Surrey?
Rock 'n' roll.
He just can't help himself, can he?
He's totally rock 'n' roll.
The doctor said
mine wasn't the least rock' n' roll one
he'd seen that week.
The person before was a lady
who'd been making a cup of tea
and turned to reach for the sugar bowl
and did the same thing.
So, she won the least rock 'n' roll
knee injury of the week.
Fortunately, I was spared.
Hopefully,
he's getting his feet up and, um...
Getting some rest.
That's not what I was going to say.
But, yeah, getting some rest.
Get some rest, yeah.
It's been a month
since we last caught up, Damon.
What's been going on?
Yes, 'cause you completely abandoned us.
You know, the whole point
of charting something
is that you take it
from the beginning to the end.
Don't have, like,
a fucking sabbatical in the middle.
It's your moment, you know what I mean?
You're playing Wembley,
and the fact that Dave was
is... you know, he's struggling,
and that's just not nice.
The last thing I read
before I went to sleep
was that, you know,
France is burning again.
You know, the gilets jaunes are off,
aren't they?
Setting everything on fire.
It's... It's not great.
And then the phone rang on
Saturday morning, and it was Blur's PR.
She said, "Just so you know,
we're cancelling the show in France."
She's like,
"Well, the reason is Dave's knee."
Everything is massively impeded.
You know, there are three of us
with bad knees now in the band.
I was feeling a bit left out.
So, it's just really Alex,
then we've got the set.
So, I'm going round there
with a sledgehammer later.
You can tell him that.
And how has it been
as an experience, the past month as well?
Everyone's kind of finding their...
finding their way.
Graham's been playing gigs
with his other band as well,
and he's got a kid.
You know, he's keeping it together...
I mean, it's just... it's amazing, really,
the metamorphosis of Graham Coxon.
I feel like
we're getting on really well.
I feel close to everybody,
and Damon, you know,
closer than I have done for years,
in a way.
Well, the thing is, nothing
is that important to fall out about,
or to have great big arguments about.
So, there's absolutely no point,
and I think we see that.
And if there are harsh words,
the thing is, is to be quick to apologise
and get it out.
And that's it.
It's amazing doing Wembley now.
I really hope that my family and my
what few friends I have
just really have an excellent time...
And, um, give me
a lot of praise afterwards.
'Cause that's all I do it for, the praise.
That's it, no, I hope I flippin' make
the rest of the band proud.
I hope I do it for 'em.
That's it, really.
Not much point in doing it otherwise.
Morning, Mr Coxon. You all right?
- Morning, guys.
- Hiya.
- Hiya.
- Hi.
When somebody asks me afterwards,
"How did it feel to play Wembley Stadium?"
I want to be able to
come up with an answer.
It'd be good to be relaxed enough
to have some feelings while I'm on stage,
other than anxiety.
Where's my coffee?!
- Hi, Michael.
- Hello, Damon, I must give you a hug.
- How's it going?
- Thanks for having us.
- Hi!
- Hi!
Oh, my God. So...
Ooh! I wasn't even...
I wasn't paying attention, then.
Why have we got punnets of tomatoes?
- 'Cause they're from Alex's garden.
- Oh, wonderful!
Mm, umami.
Was up till 3:30, up at 7:00.
But, you know, I've had a
coccyx massage
and a vibrating bowl put on my back,
so I'm feeling pretty good.
It's not the size, is it, really?
It's the story
that you kind of feel it could tell
if the gods are with us, you know?
I mean, that's the way I look at it.
You know, I feel like
I've got a big performance to deliver.
- Here we are.
- This is so weird.
This is so weird.
This place is...
Flippin' heck. Big.
How are you, Damon?
Very excited?
Yeah.
Suppose I've got to do it.
Hit after hit led Blur
to the biggest venues around the world.
Girls who want boys
who like boys to be girls
Who do boys like they're girls...
But somehow,
the iconic one on home soil eluded them.
This weekend, they can tick
Wembley Stadium off their list.
It's amazing for Graham and me
to sit here...
having started off in a little
humble Portakabin in Colchester, Essex,
at the age of 12 and 13, and to be here.
I've only been here really for football,
watching Chelsea.
And I did play here once,
years and years ago,
in a charity game against Scotland.
Did score the winning goal.
He shoots, he scores!
Goooooooooal!
Ooh, that looks like it hurt.
I want to approach it
just like any other show,
but, of course, there's all these extra
bits they're throwing in for Wembley,
which is kind of making it
slightly more stressful.
"So, what are you wearing?
You know, what footwear?"
And, you know,
"We're including this in the performance.
"You know, this element on stage
and that element."
That's hard!
Keep going, sweetie.
I imagine Dave
is just really hoping
that he's going to be absolutely match fit.
I'm hoping that he's not feeling too
anxious about how he's going to perform.
I know we all get
a little bit anxious about things.
I came down
to the kitchen yesterday,
and Beatrix, my 13-year-old,
was singing "The Narcissist,"
she didn't know I was there.
And she was, like, completely in it,
and just like,
"Oh, my God, we've connected."
My heart stopped.
'Cause, trust me,
your children are your harshest critics.
You can't... You can't make them like it.
That was a wonderful thing.
Music is... strong magic.
When this is all over,
I'm gonna have a nervous breakdown.
Does anyone want a drink?
Ginger tea?
Ooh, I might bite some ginger.
Yeah, do you know what we'll do...
Oh, my God, you're so hardcore.
I remember you drinking a bottle
of Tabasco at a sound check in America.
- Yeah, I used to do that.
- Why?
You had hiccups
for about three hours.
- I peel my ginger.
- Oh, my word.
Dave, what's happening over there?
I'm having mechanised
automated treatment on my knee.
Wow, who gave you that?
That and juice.
Oh, God.
I think there's something more interesting
happening over there.
The last time I was at Wembley
was playing in a charity football match,
and now I find myself
being Blur's fluffers.
And we're in that sort of zone
of not knowing what's going on
but loving the fact that we're here.
We still do not know
why Blur asked us to DJ.
So, tonight, after-show ice baths.
Tomorrow night, Britpop bat-shit bender.
Hard stop, Tuesday midday.
Sleep.
Then we get on a bus to France.
I got to have a haircut,
and then I'm going to have a massage,
then I'm going to have a sleep.
Oh, no, I'm going to eat,
then I'm going to have a sleep,
and then it will be show time.
I mean,
I'll get up to watch Jockstrap, but...
Yeah, I gotta go, gotta think about that
I gotta go, gotta think about that
I gotta go, gotta think about that
I gotta go, gotta think about that...
Frontline, out on the streets
Frontline, out on the streets...
Music brings people together.
I mean, look at all these people here,
you know?
I thought modern life was rubbish
about 60 years ago!
Should've grown up at the time I grew up,
it was also rubbish, racist and sexist.
What motivates me?
Half the world is still bloody
racist and sexist and all the other ists.
'Cause all that old rubbish
that we thought that we had
managed to kind of push down,
push under the carpet,
just tell those people to shut up,
has all come back out,
just vomited back out
with all the Trumps and the Johnsons,
and all the rest, and I'm sick of that,
and while I've got breath in my body,
I will do what I do.
I just had to run past security to get in.
- What happened?
- No-one greeted me.
I'm dropped off out there,
the security man's,
"Where's your wristband?"
- "I ain't got one." He's like, "Oi, oi."
- Oh, Graham.
- It's absolutely obscene.
- It is obscene.
I'm used to obsequiant toadying.
What you doing? Pumping your knee
with a sort of electronic...
Blood transfusion.
Always have one before I go on stage.
Like Keith Richards.
Doesn't he just scoop his brain out,
plop it in another body?
Ten, nine,
eight, seven, six,
five, four, three, two, one.
I think that's enough of that.
Ah!
Lovely!
Waking up at 6am on a cool warm morning
Opening the windows
and breathing in petrol
An amateur band rehearse
in a nearby yard
Watching the telly
and thinking about your holidays
That's entertainment
That's entertainment...
Did you
lose control in there, Damon?
Yeah, I...
It's what happens to me.
When I submerge in freezing water,
I... I immediately ejaculate.
- Oh!
- That's not what I was...
Fuck off!
They were going to swing by at 7:30,
so if you want to start getting changed,
maybe in the next 10, 15.
It's an hour before.
Sleaford Mods are on now. Come on,
let's go round the side of the stage.
Sleaford?
See a bit of that, that'll be good.
Go, go, go,
go, go, go, go, go, go!
...Going on about it in the morning to me
I'm losing in the head,
and I've gone too far
Force ten from Navarone
is a shot fired hard
'Cause we never aimed it
In the box of isolation
Jason, why does the darkness elope?
I mean, the environment's changed
over the years.
We like the bigger venues now,
don't we, a bit?
Yeah.
We've become wankers,
if that's what you mean.
A lot of people in our game
who are doing alright, but, um,
generally, it's hopeless, yeah.
Politically, it's a mess.
Either side is
is not really giving
any people that really need help
any hope, are they?
They've got the "cryro," uh
genic baths in there.
- Super cold.
- Oh, yeah? What does that do?
It's like cocaine.
- Oh, is it?
- Oh, is it?
Honestly, it is. The same buzz.
How can I help you
feel better about you?
How can I help you
do what it is that you
Always hoped you could set out to prove?
'Cause that's what I do,
that's what I'm put here to do
Isn't it, isn't it you?
Wasn't it you, though?
Want me eternally youthful,
never grow old
I'll always be wet,
I'll always be up for it
Politely sit, but I
don't know shit, do I?
I don't know shit...
- We're... What?
- 17 minutes.
So, we don't want to go
too early to stage, right? So...
- Yeah.
- Let's go.
Be fashionably late.
- Fashionably late.
- Not late. We've got a curfew issue.
And then he's on, that's it.
Before I go forever
Be sure
Of what you say
So, he paints a pretty picture
And he tells you that he needs you
And he covers you with flowers...
Right, lads,
two minutes to go. Two minutes to go.
Well...
this is it.
Wembley!
This is obviously a very special moment,
and, you know, you're all
more than fucking custodians
of what we're going to give them,
so go out there and just enjoy yourselves.
- 100%.
- And to you, Dames.
Ten seconds, guys,
we've got to clear the ramp.
Lydia, you got my earies?
Moments before that pep talk
or that huddle,
I was like, "Oh, my God, I need a wee."
And I was trying to tell people that,
and no-one was listening to me.
I don't know whether I do, I just...
Do you need the loo? Do you not?
You go up the ramp,
you know, slowly
you know, with all the people
going about their business,
and then that...
Suddenly, it's this big venue.
And I was like, "Where's the nearest loo?"
So, I just went backstage there.
Are we all good?
Everyone happy?
How long have we
got until we gotta go on?
There was a half-empty tin
of Diet Coke...
...so, I just had to go in that.
I think it was one of the road crew's,
I hope they didn't go back and finish it.
Quite a lot of people.
A mile-long queue
of people going in.
- Fuckin' hell.
- You nervous?
- I am.
- I'm not, at all.
Are you not? Are you Zen?
No, I'm just dead.
I don't allow it to get to me,
'cause I accept
if my voice can't sing all those songs,
then that's just the way it is.
But, you know, if I was really neurotic
about things like that,
then, yeah, I would be shitting myself.
We were at college
when we did "Sing."
You know, we wrote that
in Damon's mum's studio,
and now, 35 years, there's going to be
80,000 people singing and crying.
There's a million upsides.
You know, credibility for my kids.
But actually, the brotherhood of
those cunts
who I've known since I was 19,
and the music is its own greatest reward.
It really, really is.
- Shall we go?
- Yeah, let's go.
Good evening, Wembley.
Come on!
I want to see you bounce!
A fervid image of another world
Is nothing in particular now
And imitation comes naturally
But I never really stopped to think how
And everyone is a clever clone
A chrome-covered clone am I
So, in the absence of a way of life
I'll repeat this again and again
and again
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Popscene, oh
Oh! Oh! Oh!
Let's do this!
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Popscene, all right
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Popscene.
All those dirty words
They make us look so dumb
Been drinking far too much
And neither of us mean what we say
Well, you and I
We just collapsed in love
And it looks like we might have made it
Yes, it looks like we've made it
to the end.
Stop that, stop that.
Obviously,
there's something vaguely hilarious
about old men
throwing themselves around the stage.
It's a bit ridiculous, right?
You made us this way. It's your fault!
I want to see every fucker
in this fucking stadium
bounce to this song.
Woo-hoo! When I feel heavy metal
- Woo-hoo!
- And I'm pins and I'm needles
- Woo-hoo!
- Well, I lie and I'm easy
All of the time,
but I'm never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet you...
I got my head done
When I was young...
It's not my problem
It's not my problem
- Woo-hoo!
- When I feel heavy metal
- Woo-hoo!
- And I'm pins and I'm needles
- Woo-hoo!
- Well, I lie and I'm easy
All of the time,
but I'm never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet you...
Music is
something we've been doing
from the dawn of our species.
And, in fact,
it is just a sort of complete abandonment
of the self and the ego in that moment,
and you're just one of the many billions
of atoms in that space.
It's a way of expressing emotion
to somebody else
that bypasses
the rational senses of the brain.
The whole audience and band
kind of merging together
into one 148,000-legged beast.
That has been just extraordinary
and quite overwhelming.
It's the journey
and the hunger for the sublime.
That is the essence of performance,
is when you become
a vessel for everybody.
Now, we really do
have a treat for you now.
This is a very London moment.
I'd like to invite
the London Community Gospel Choir.
Yeah.
Tender is the night
Lying by your side
Tender is the touch
Of someone that you love too much
Tender is the day
The demons go away
Lord, I need to find
Someone who can heal my mind...
Come on, come on, come on
Get through it
Come on, come on, come on... Woo!
- Love's the greatest thing...
- Fuck me!
I find my situation
has been different on this tour
than it's been
for any getting-together with Blur.
And it's to do with a lot of things,
you know, in my personal life
and the Blur album and doing the shows.
But it's, like, we are having a good time.
And maybe it's to do with a certain amount
of gratitude or acceptance
of who we are
and feeling lucky to be able to do this.
Yeah, we do try and earn it,
and we don't think
we can just have that for nothing.
But I think, really, we are free.
We're at our freest when we're on stage.
Oh, my
Oh, my baby
Oh, my baby
Oh, why?
Oh, my...
What I've realised
is that, you know,
Blur's something I can
never, ever walk away from.
You know,
even if I had an absolute hissy-fit,
threw my toys out the pram,
it would still say on my grave,
"Alex from Blur,
"and cheese."
I remember a couple of years ago,
I thought, you know,
"When is the first time in the day
"that I think of either Blur
or one of the people in Blur?"
And I was sitting in the bath
this morning, looking at my toes,
thinking about the boys, just thinking,
"Yeah, nice."
You know, it's just really
really
spiritually
good to just feel
at peace with each other.
Love's the greatest thing
That we have...
I'm waiting for that feeling...
Long-term relationships
are bloody hard work.
There's no way round that,
and being in a band is just the same.
But if you put effort in
over a long period of time,
you can really achieve great things.
I'm more confident now
than I was at the start of the year
that this isn't the end of something,
but the start of something.
Oh, my goodness.
I hope you've had a good night tonight.
I've had a good night.
I really have. Thank you so much.
Honestly, dream come true.
This is the next century
Where the universal's free
You can find it anywhere
Yes, the future's been sold
Every night, we're gone
And to karaoke songs
How we like to sing along
Though the words are wrong
It really, really, really could happen
Yes, it really, really,
really could happen
When the days,
they seem to fall through you
Well, just let them go
Yes, it really, really,
really could happen
It really, really, really could happen
When the days,
they seem to fall through you
Well, just let them go...
It's all up to you now.
Thank you so much.
Unfortunately for me,
it doesn't get better than that.
You know you used to get
those competitions
where the band would
come and play in your living room?
That was the experience
of Wembley, really.
Felt like we were playing
in London's living room.
We've got some champagne for you, sir.
Friendly for Dave.
Damon wrote an e-mail
on Monday morning,
like, one of three he's ever written me,
going, "That was the best show
I've ever done."
I think there was a kind of
unselfconscious glee in the house.
And, yeah, it did feel like there was
no-one watching, in a strange way.
We were just
really, really, really enjoying ourselves.
It was so great.
I loved every minute of it, it was great.
I really did, I'm so proud.
The ending made me feel
really sort of teary.
It made me feel happy.
It made me feel a bit more valued.
I know I don't really care
what people think,
but when they're saying they love me
or they love Blur, and this and that,
you can't help but feel
kind of good about that.
I love you, man.
Some people need to be affirmed
once and it will last them a lifetime,
but some of us need it again and again
and again and are a pain in the arse.
So, it's kind of nice
to be told things like that.
In my grand tradition of being
always down on everything
that was...
It's as good as it gets, really.
Good as it gets.
I wrote the songs
kind of intuitively feeling that something,
you know, heavy about to happen.
And, you know, the first part,
I was on my own completely.
And then the second part of it,
I had my brothers, essentially, back.
You know, we all have
hugely, like,
involving and complicated lives,
and we're so lucky
that we get to spend this time together,
just the four of us.
And that's... that's the beauty of it.
Do I want to repeat it next year? No.
- Why not?
- Because why would I?
I've already had
an amazing year doing Blur. Fantastic.
And that's it, really.
I mean, I'm not saying
that's it, it, it, it, it,
although it may be.
It will manifest itself again if
it's wanted.
It felt like, for some reason,
it was wanted
at this moment in time.
Oh!
We've all been through a lot.
So, to be able to do something
that carries a whole new energy,
I'm not saying I have dreams anymore,
but if I did,
maybe how I would dream it to be.
Beware
Of his promise
Believe
What I say
Before I go forever
Be sure of what you say
So, he paints a pretty picture
And he tells you that he needs you
And he covers you with flowers
And he always keeps you dreamin'
If he always keeps you dreamin'
You won't have a lonely hour
If a day could last forever
You might like your ivory tower
But the night begins
to turn your head around
And you know you're gonna lose
more than you found
Yes, the night begins
to turn your head around
Beware
Of his promise
Believe
What I say
Before I go forever
Be sure of what you say
For the words may come too easy
If you don't believe I'm leavin'
And goodbye may come too quickly
If you really think he loves you
If you really think he loves you
You would give your love so sweetly
If the day could last forever
You would fall in love completely
But the night begins
to turn your head around
And you know you're gonna lose
more than you found
Yes, the night begins
to turn your head around
And the night begins
to turn your head around
And you know you're gonna lose
more than you found
Yes, the night begins
to turn your head around
And you know you're gonna lose
more than you found
Yes, the night begins
to turn your head around.
I've been coming here
since 1996-7.
And I don't mind not being around people,
that's the thing.
I'm not racing.
My brain's not racing so fast.
I'm able to... relax.
I suppose that's what I've just realised.
Yeah, I could actually live here now.
We did Think Tank a bit here,
but it was very rough and ready.
Alex and Dave,
they haven't been there since then.
And Graham's never been here.
We just carry a lot
of experience, collectively.
That's why I wanted to do it again.
It felt like, for some reason,
it was wanted
at this moment in time.
I'm 55, I'm, like
have to accept that, you know
time is not infinite.
I'm training to be a rally driver.
Everything else is based on
our reaction to it.
My great grandmother was 103,
and my gran was 100.
Might as well just start thinking about it.
To be totally fair,
she was a month shy of 100.
But it's trying to see...
it's trying to see an upside...
...I suppose.
How long do you think you'll live till?
- Me?
- Yeah.
Who knows?
How long will anyone live, Toby?
When you're young,
you don't have wisdom,
you don't have knowledge,
you don't have stamina,
you don't have dedication, especially...
He was going too fast.
Luckily, I was going really slowly.
Did you... Did you film that?
Fucking wanker, nearly killed me!
And now you're making me do this.
It's classic, though. We were just
talking about mortality, weren't we?
I mean, you couldn't have timed it better,
which is...
This is what I've learnt in life,
is that, you know,
you never know what's round the corner.
All those dirty words
Jusqu'a la fin
They make us look so dumb
En plein soleil
Been drinking far too much
- Jusqu'a la fin...
- Hello.
And neither of us mean what we say
En plein amour
Well, you and I...
They can get very, um
lively round this area.
I have to have a stick.
No prob... Eh, eh, eh, eh!
Oi, oi, oi! Go on! Move, move!
It's a very big day today because we, uh
got our first egg.
We've got quite a rambunctious cockerel.
His name's Tony.
First, I'm going to put this down,
'cause I know that is your...
Come on. Calm down, everyone.
There we go. Wow, look at all of that.
See, while you're busy
protecting everyone,
you're missing out on the treats.
Did you like that? Ooh. Wasn't that nice?
Thank you for the eggs.
Well, I've been here for ages,
but Blur are coming here.
I think it's going to be okay.
I'm just concerned that we do it
as honestly as humanly possible for
you know... people like us.
Whoop, whoop!
Uh-oh!
All right,
I'll see you on Wednesday.
Love you.
- Thanks for last night.
- No, you're welcome.
Driving down,
it's fucking enchanted, man.
Jurassic Park...
- Fuckin' hell!
- How are you? You all right? Nice, innit?
- Hey!
- Hey, man, how's it going?
- You've been in the sun, mate!
- Yeah.
So, where's this...
you're taking me?
This is
a very, very old smuggling...
- Argh!
- ...pub, in a very old smuggling village.
Sometimes you get ghosts.
It's kind of famous for it.
- Cider-swilling...
- Oh, really?
Peasants with smocks
and red kerchiefs, with bright blue eyes.
We've barely communicated
for the last ten years.
I get more from Downing Street
and the Palace
in an average year
than I do from Albarn and Coxon.
I mean, even when we really split up,
it didn't take this long to make a record.
But what's wonderful is, as soon as
the four of us get in a room together,
it's just exactly the same
as it was when we were all 19.
It's just four sweaty blokes
annoying each other.
Oh!
- This is brilliant.
- Wooden floor.
- You all right?
- Yeah!
I'm all right.
- Oh, Jesus.
- Oh, big fuckin'...
- How are you doing?
- Ah, you've been diddling.
I've just been working,
just trying to get this sounding amazing,
and, you know...
Trying to fulfil the
potential of our, uh...
Exactly!
Damon and I communicate
musically a lot, really. We always have.
Then that developed into friendship
or whatever else,
and I haven't got many friends,
so it's a bit like, every now and then,
we have to check up on each other
and see if there's something there
that's been brewing.
How's your knee?
I've already told them
that my knee's knackered, so they know.
But, no, how's your one?
- How's your one?
- It's all right.
It went to crap after my first gig,
but now it's absolutely fine.
I was the very last member of Blur
to get a very big house in the country,
but we've all done it.
And it's funny how these sneering comments
you make in your twenties
turn round and bite you in the arse.
- Is it gluten-free cake?
- I'm pretty sure.
That would be fucking spectacular.
I will be like,
"I'll have the whole thing," if it is.
If it's not, I shall just, you know...
I'll be grown-up about it.
There's some rye bread.
Is there some cold porridge
left over from yesterday?
Stoical face.
I shall unselfconsciously
put this fishcake into my mouth.
No, I'll do it like that
the way chefs place their food.
I think it's lovely that I'm getting into
an old codger who's falling to bits
and I'm flippin' doing the biggest gig...
you know, with me old band.
We haven't played Wembley before
'cause we haven't been big enough
to play Wembley before.
That's the reality.
We're getting bigger and bigger.
The less we do, the bigger we get.
Me and Damon
watched Live Aid together,
you know, round my house.
We were, like, 16.
We sat watching it all day.
So, why are you doing it?
You're doing it
because there's a pureness to it.
So basically
when I come back from America,
we've got, like, two weeks,
and then we're on tour.
- Yeah.
- Is that really it?
New album plus a couple of oldies.
So, like, three weeks' time,
we start rehearsing.
- May 1st.
- May 1st?
Fuuuuuck!
Graham and I
spent a lot of our adolescence
just hanging out by the river
behind the village.
It was not a thing
of being in a band.
It was a thing of hanging out
on Friday nights at his house.
Him writing and me coming round
and maybe playing some saxophone.
Mainly, it was sort of
hanging out and going for walks.
And trying to, uh, race on cows
when we were drunk.
Which never went well,
and I don't recommend that to anybody.
And just talking about
music and life and everything else,
and sharing, you know, our feelings,
or whatever that was.
First time I met Dave, I had to go
round his flat for a rehearsal.
Everybody I knew
played an instrument.
Everybody was constantly in bands,
three or four bands at a time.
And I went down
and knocked on his flat,
and he was still in bed,
and he got up, and
he had this sort of floppy Mohican
haircut, and he was in his pyjamas,
and he sat on the edge of his bed
eating his cornflakes.
His drum kit was there in his bedroom,
and then I got me sax out.
I wanted to be in a band with Damon
because of his songwriting.
Graham took me along to see him.
He was playing with, uh,
some guy in a hat, I remember.
Or did Damon wear the hat?
I don't know.
A hat definitely featured
in their performance.
At one point,
I think I jumped into the audience,
but there were so few people there
that it was actually really embarrassing.
Then I kind of sort of
went for the toilets, I think,
just to make it not feel quite so awkward.
I had a chat to Damon afterwards
and said, "Really like what you're doing.
"If you ever need a drummer
for any of your projects, let me know."
That was the start of that, really.
Alex was just who I met
when we got to halls of residence,
who lived underneath me
in the block there, in Camberwell.
I said, "Alex plays bass, he's this bloke
in my halls," and we all met.
I kind of liked Graham instantly.
Damon was very kind of, "What you got?"
You know, which I respond well to.
Um... And, yeah,
I think Dave made me a cup of tea.
You know,
I think we'd got each other's backs.
It was Alex joining, really,
that was the kind of missing piece.
After he joined,
we were signed within six months.
There's one more on here.
I think our legacy is pretty good.
You know, not wanting to trample on that,
not wanting to release some rubbish,
you know, 'cause we're going out on tour.
You know, in the context of the legacy,
let's just try and make
the very best music we can.
Well, doing a whole new album
is the difference between
this just being a nostalgia-looking thing
and something
that feels totally
part of our lives now.
Again.
Part of my life again, anyway, definitely.
So, yeah, I think
it's a bar of click, and then you're in.
Smooth exterior
Mess inside...
Before we, uh,
dipped our toe in the water with Blur,
I hadn't played drums for quite some time.
I have been making film music,
by and large.
I've done a lot of things.
You know, my legal career
started and ended in the last ten years.
I don't know, I just...
I've always been someone
that just does whatever seems
most interesting at the time.
I've never really had a plan.
Would you mind
doing one more all the way?
Yeah, let's do it like that.
Same again?
Yeah, it gives it loads of energy.
It's cool.
The service station on the road
I took the acid...
You know, the process, I wasn't sure
how it was going to be coming into it.
You never know, going in
with these kind of, like, hero bands
what it's actually going to be like.
And from the very first meetings,
there were some kind of, like
sort of little warning flags of tension,
and, like, I was like,
"Oh, no, it could be a nightmare."
If you see darkness, look away...
Graham's got a young family
and is touring with his new band.
You know, Alex is coming back in
maybe a little apprehensive.
Damon's just, like, a powerhouse
and almost, like,
pathologically kind of addicted
to making new stuff up
all the time, you know?
And to that end, it feels like
you're on shifting sands a little bit.
Great. Do one more chorus,
then we'll go back to the verse,
then we'll go and have dinner.
Yeah, sure.
You'll probably shine it back on me
But I won't fall this time
With godspeed, I'll heed the signs
I won't fall this time
With godspeed, I'll heed the signs...
We were with each other
a lot in the '90s.
And it was a very intense time.
It's the sort of time,
and on the same sort of level,
as a relationship or marriages
and things like that.
And I think it's okay
to say that time apart
was taken up
with other friendships and just
just sort of recuperating,
or, you know, doing other things.
Since everybody
kind of went their separate ways,
I got married
and started making some cheese.
That was in 2003.
I've sort of organised my life
so I don't have to go on tour.
I've moved the mountain to Mohammed,
having a festival on the farm.
It takes all day
to just be a dad
and run a farm and a festival.
Bass playing
is the easiest job in the entire world.
But, you know,
I have to be in Devon to do that.
Yeah, we could just about manage.
- There's been a bit of a storm...
- Oh, Christ, Albarn!
- What?
- Fuck this!
- Fuck that?
- It's horrible!
No, but it's... I mean, it's...
- You feel good afterwards, right?
- Um, I mean...
- That doesn't, you know...
- No, I promise you...
I'm in. I'm all in...
- I promise you...
- ...but blimey!
- Uh, we could go to another...
- No, no, no, no. But this is...
No, do you know what?
Should we go to another one?
No, this is the perfect
spot. This is lovely.
Bands start, usually,
when people are quite young,
you're still finding yourself.
You have to
work through that relationship
where you can be relaxed and comfortable
and not want to push each other's buttons
and want to be supportive.
You know,
that takes time to work through.
And ideally, the best place to do that
working through
is not in the full glare of the public.
We've had times where we've really
not wanted to be
even in the same room as each other.
When you're in the thick of it
and, you know,
you've just been touring
for three years with two days off,
it can feel like what you're
actually engaged in is politics
and the music
is a kind of sideshow to that.
When I last saw them,
it was great.
So... yeah, I mean
we grew up together,
so, you know, family.
The bedrooms aren't finished here yet,
so we've got back to the
house where we're staying down the road,
and, uh.
...I made me and Graham
some bacon and eggs.
And...
...it's just like when we were staying
in halls of residence at college.
You know, the midnight snacks.
But it's actually
sort of quite good to be kind of removed
from the kind of noise of
running a farm
and a festival and a family
to drink scrumpy
and make bacon and eggs in peace.
I don't know how he can stay in there.
Hangover's history.
Wa-hey!
Um, when do you want to
do a playback? Soon?
What is it
that we're going to be hearing?
- Basically...
- What we heard before but with...
With full vocals. Everything...
Damon's done every song.
Let's get this party started.
I don't think any of us
thought we'd make another record.
Especially not a record like this.
I suppose that's why I wanted to try
and make it as good as possible.
'Cause otherwise it's just
some bunch of old cunts
trying to relive their past.
I mean, you know,
it's not the finished record.
Everybody ready?
You of grace
Many ghosts alive in my mind
Many paths I wish I'd taken
Many times I thought I'd break...
Emotionally,
I think, with this album,
something has been dislodged
within the group, within Damon.
...It seems to be...
Well, I suppose it's about
it's... about loss.
It's about the aftershock of... of loss.
...Songs to play...
Once something dramatic
has happened,
whether it's a break-up or pandemic...
...grace for everyone...
I mean,
what do you want me to say?
Now I live alone, essentially,
in the countryside.
That's what's happened.
And this record, obviously,
very much feels like that.
Why everything
In this world been lost...
A boulder has fallen out.
You know, there's 40 years' worth
of stuff in this boulder
that has been dislodged,
and now rolls down
towards us.
Pursuing God with change
And furthermore
I think it's just
Too late.
That was the hardest ever...
It sounds effortless,
for all your hard work.
Well, I promise you,
I really worked hard.
It seems
like lots of little stories,
like, came out
while he was just recording...
"Oh, this is about this thing,
and that is about..."
"Up and down the town clock" is about
when I went round
to Alex's flat in New Cross
and took acid, and thought
it was a good idea to jump up...
'Cause there was a very, very narrow,
like, sort of, um
- distance between.
- It's not that narrow.
I've seen it plenty of times.
It's quite wide.
It's about from here to...
It's about from here to you.
- Really? No, shut up!
- It's not narrow.
No, but anyway,
I jumped over that,
and then went and orienteered myself
onto New Cross Town Hall clock
and changed the time, on acid.
- You actually changed the time?
- Yes, I changed time, yes.
I ch... I... I changed time!
We literally haven't
spoken to each other for ten years,
and it's... straight back together, like...
And actually evolved in some...
This, um
has come into all of our lives
unexpectedly, really, in a way.
It's made us, uh...
something else, you know?
- Wow, this is such a treat to have...
- Like 10cc, ABBA
me old muckers!
That's great.
I can't wait to decipher more words.
- Oh, we have a lot.
- The singing is fucking ace.
Yeah, you think so?
- Yeah, and your voice sounds really good.
- Thanks.
- But it's an expensive microphone.
- I know, well...
It's kind of a bit overwhelming
having all that emotion coming out at me.
I'm a bit kind of gobsmacked,
to be honest.
I'm just getting sentimental
in me old age, that's what it is.
- How are you feeling?
- How am I feeling? I'm feeling
- a little discombobulated.
- I am not surprised.
I saw some footage of the weekend.
- It looked pretty mega.
- Yeah, yeah.
Went on tour
in the Autumn with Gorillaz,
wrote the album, came back,
recorded the album,
went on tour with Gorillaz again,
then came back.
So, it's just... it's non-stop really.
So, there's headphones and stuff,
if you want to sit here.
Everything's quite frenetic
at the moment.
The amount of stuff there is to do
is peaking around this week,
because we're in rehearsals for the shows
and, uh, we've got promo starting.
- Is it possible to have the sound on it?
- Oh, yes! Reuben, hi.
They're all getting fuckin'
younger and younger, aren't they?
And it's been quite a while
since we've been in this position, really,
of doing everything all at the same time.
One, two, three, and...
Blow, blow me out
I am so sad, I don't know why
Blow, blow me out
I am so sad, I don't know why...
He... He...
Hang on a minute.
He...
He was crowned on a Saturday...
There's nothing more boring
than rehearsing.
People are always going to be bad-tempered
and, uh, testy
and irritable,
because nobody wants to be there.
- Turn down.
- I'm just playing it with what's here.
I'm playing what's here.
When you get over here with Blur,
it is like when you see
those fucking gorillas in the zoo.
How does it feel to be back?
You guys are back. How does it feel?
When you're in a band, it's a relationship
like brothers and sisters, isn't it?
- I'm playing normal. I've always...
- Play that in A-minor.
I mean, is it different?
Have the dynamics changed?
Have you enjoyed
being back in the studio together?
Um...
Can't you just stake me out on a beach
and send some vultures over?
Yeah, we could do that.
They handed out cigarettes
to the kids.
- Did they? To the kids?
- Did they?
They did.
Like they hand out sweets on take-off.
They went round with a little basket,
handing out...
- What, packets of, um, tens?
- On a school trip?
- Packets?
- Yeah.
I do like smoking with my kids,
I have to admit.
You like having a fag with your kids?
I used to quite like sitting
with a bottle of scotch, with my mum.
So, what about just doing the
from the "up close" bit,
just go from there.
So, it's kind of that twice, yeah.
Damon's work ethic
is very strong.
That's just part of who he is.
Where you and I might be
watching TV, or, uh, playing video games,
Damon doesn't do any of that,
he just writes songs.
We all go to the bar,
Damon goes to his room,
gets his equipment out and writes songs.
On the bus, he's writing songs.
At home, he's writing songs.
And if we don't keep him
focused on the job in hand,
he will literally be doing another opera
before the third single's out.
- Take in one...
- One, two, three...
He's also exhausted
from doing Coachella,
and so, will basically have an idea
and then fall asleep.
Do you want to
keep going, Damon, or...?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Don't worry about my, uh, demeanour.
It's just.
It's just standard utter exhaustion.
Come on, let's do it again.
It comes
Like me
Up close
I fell in love with you...
This idea of the workaholic,
there must be some sort of brain condition
that drives you to just
pursue something so sort of relentlessly.
Yeah, it's just sort of never believing,
really, that it's happening.
It needs to be right
for me to be able to sleep properly.
It comes
Like me
Up close...
And I guess if he didn't work,
he'd have to
do nothing, and maybe, you know,
have to take a long look at himself,
and, you know, God,
that would be a freaky thing for him.
I'll fall along
We travelled
round the world together.
Really, really, really could happen
Really, really, really could happen...
Where are we?
We're in this fuckin' big shithole.
Concrete floor polished,
so everything sounds insane and bad.
Um, it's a great way to make you
feel awful about everything you're doing.
And then they've got
all these silly lights, and some of them,
like, I look down at my fretboard
and I'm blinded by these stupid lights.
It's as far away as creating
music together as you can possibly get,
when you start incorporating all this shit.
But, you know, Wembley's a big stage.
So, we have to, like,
employ all these people
because they've decided to come
to a venue that is so large,
they're going to see ant-like figures,
like I did when I saw The Osmonds
in the early '70s.
Um, thankfully, there was some luncheon,
and I've had that,
and I'm going to try
and give it another go.
Right, for this run-through,
Let's just go straight through, okay?
Yeah.
Wrong one, son. Come on.
Going back to
the classic model of the Beatles,
I suppose the appeal of the band
was the psycho-dramas
that accompanied everything, you know?
Even though, at the time,
we just wanted to be on Top of the Pops.
Well, Alex and I did.
This is next-level madness for all of us.
And we're all... we're all hanging on.
I've definitely mellowed a bit.
You know,
I'm more tolerant of some things.
I'm completely intolerant
of most other things.
I'll be packing my bag tomorrow
and, uh, hitting the road.
Is it daunting?
It's like children.
It takes absolutely everything out of you.
It takes everything out of you.
Hanging on.
It's a really busy time,
and I'm not used to it.
I mean, I'm not lazy or anything,
and I'm going to do everything I can
for it to be completely brilliant.
But we're a bit older.
You're doing everything you can
to make it completely brilliant.
You know, it's like, we don't want to have
a flippin' hip replacement
because we've pushed it
a bit too far in Eastbourne.
You know, end up living in Eastbourne.
And I fully expect myself to not make it
through the year, at the moment.
I do. I think, at some point,
I'm not going to be able to do it.
But I'll just not think about that
until it happens.
It's a massive trigger
for all of us. It's on a knife edge.
I never know when it's just going to...
I want to hear my fucking band.
I want to fucking hear it played properly!
Stupid...
Just makes you feel like an amateur!
- Concentrate!
- Is there another bit?
No, it's left how you've left it yesterday.
- Yeah.
- We've learnt a lot of songs,
but now we need
to start concentrating a bit,
just so that we've got something
coherent,
and then, you know
see how long we can hold it together
without collapsing,
in one form or another,
'cause there are many, many, many ways
to collapse on the road.
I love the choice of the
warm-up venues that you guys have picked.
Eastbourne Winter Gardens,
Wolverhampton, Newcastle City Hall,
- Colchester Arts Centre...
- Well, there you go.
'Cause those venues
remind me of some of the venues
that Blur would have played
back in the early days.
Really from Parklife onward,
we had full brass,
full backing singers, percussionist.
There was always someone
playing a fucking gourd or something.
This time, we've stripped it right back.
If the four of us
can't get on in a room and make music,
then there's absolutely
no point in doing it as a band,
just back to how we started.
...Feel this strange
Can I go through this again?...
- Hello.
- All right?
- Hiya.
- Hi.
- Damon, this is John.
- Hello. Nice to meet you.
- Hiya. I'm the head teacher, so...
- Excellent.
I just wanted to welcome you
to the Stanway.
- Really good to have you here.
- It's changed a lot.
- Was any of this here when you were here?
- No, none of it.
- Are the Portakabins still here?
- No, they've all gone.
- Why'd you get rid of that? It's...
- They're Portakabins.
Well, look, I have named a room
after you both.
Do you remember me getting in contact
a few years back?
So, where we're going now...
I'll let you off, then.
No, I just really wanted
to see the Portakabins.
You know, 'cause I've kind of...
I've sort of...
I've sort of mythologised that
in my own memory, that place, you know.
We were given the key to it, weren't we?
- Yeah.
- We had a few...
There were a few nice things.
Like, they had a synthesiser.
Okay.
And, uh, yeah,
we used to go in there on our breaks
- and just do that.
- Yeah, there was a piano in there.
And also, it was quite dangerous
for me to go out at
- at lunchtime...
- Oh, was it?
'Cause I was always getting beaten up.
Oh, okay. Well, we don't have
much of that here anymore.
No, well, you had a lot back then.
- Yeah, all right.
- Fuckin' hell.
No, no, I'm just saying, for us, it's...
- "The Albarn & Coxon Room."
- Yeah, this is it.
- This is what we've...
- Oh, that is... this is sweet.
- Well, for...
- Can I take a picture?
Yeah, come on,
we've got to have a photo taken.
Can someone take a little picture of that?
Oh, they've all got
huge pieces of equipment in their hands.
It looks like a serious school now.
I'm not saying it wasn't serious,
but it was... seriously odd.
You know,
my dad lives down the road here.
Behind... Behind the school...
And he's still in the same house
where he used to live? Wow.
He only had to walk up the road to school.
I had to cycle from Ford Street every day.
- Oh, really?
- And I'd do a paper round before that.
As soon as I put my bike in,
walked it by, I'd get beaten up.
Why did you
get beaten up so much?
'Cause everyone thought I was a cunt.
Tell me about the energy
of Colchester when you were growing up
- and what it felt like to be...
- Bit scary.
Lot of squaddies.
Lot of people who were, you know,
somewhat more Anglo-Saxon than myself.
But the music department was amazing.
And, you know, that's where we met.
And we did
all these amazing school productions.
Orpheus in the Underworld,
The Boyfriend...
Starring role in that one.
- Guys and Dolls.
- Who were you in Guys and Dolls?
I was Nathan Detroit.
All right, already
So, call a policeman...
Then we did West Side Story.
- I got a social disease!
- I was like, "Who is that kid?"
"He does not care."
- So, yeah, I did a lot of...
- Where did he get that confidence from?
- I was like, "Oh, my God."
- I loved it.
I absolutely loved it.
I mean, our first-ever gig together
was at an assembly.
- Now destroyed.
- Now destroyed.
The first-ever gig Graham and I did
was at 9:00 in the morning.
This song is called
"It May Be Our Best Chance Yet,"
a song about a child with no future.
We were called Real Lives.
- We played a song.
- We did a couple of songs,
but we did a gig
one evening there as well, didn't we?
And we made programmes and everything,
with drawings and...
I need to give 'em... I want to
give 'em some more stuff in here, though.
Just sort of, you know...
It's quite dry, isn't it?
You know what I mean?
Music rooms should be posters and...
They need to have
some, like, batik wall hangings.
- Yeah.
- Some paisley.
No, they need to have
some nice weed, like in a bowl,
which they can all kind of...
- Thank you very much.
- Thanks, mate.
- Appreciate it.
- Yeah, really nice to have met you.
Wake up straight
Caught out by the sun
On the first day of April...
Did you know that the tower there
was the base
of the legend of Humpty Dumpty?
Did you know that?
The Royalists occupied the town,
and when they came in,
they put a cannon up the top there,
which they nicknamed Humpty Dumpty
'cause it was a bit round.
Parliamentarians were over in the field
across there, Hilly Fields,
and they were coming up.
Of course, the Parliamentarians,
they actually got the cannon,
and it tumbled down.
And all the king's horses
and all the king's men
couldn't put Humpty together again.
And that is one of the legends
about Humpty Dumpty
here at Colchester Arts Centre.
My name's Nigel Hildreth.
I was the person who taught
Damon and Graham music.
So, I taught them at Stanway School.
They were fantastic students,
they were very musical.
And they had an electrifying effect
upon their audience.
You could see that stage presence.
Is the barrier going to go
in-between the PA?
It's part of
the rehearsal process, this.
We're not quite at Wembley,
as you can see.
I mean, it's going to be enough
just to get through it, really.
For us, I think we're really...
It's going to be odd
to have that thing with an audience again,
playing these songs,
because you do get,
you know, a hell of a lift
from just having an audience there.
And just the atmosphere
and the volume and all of that. So...
And there's one or two sing-alongs.
"Sing-along. The new record from Blur."
Ling-along-a-Blur.
Revisiting all their
'90s favourites
auto-tuned.
- Okay, gentlemen...
- Play your music now!
When we go up, do I go on that way? Yeah.
Is the chemistry still there?
Apparently, that's not a given.
Have a great show, everyone.
It's a weird thing when you
go back to something that was so,
so well-documented.
People feel like that's what you are,
but it was so long ago.
Wow, what a sound!
Good evening.
Isn't it nice
to see everyone back together?
I'm leaving town to run away
Run into your twisted arms
No queues and there's no panic there
I'm just dangling my feet in the grass
My lack of natural lustre now
Seems to be losing me my friends
So, in the absence of a way of life
I'll repeat this again and again
And again
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Popscene, all right
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah...
Popscene.
Whoo-whoo-whoo-whoo-whoo!
- What's that?
- Apple juice.
- Ooh, some champagne!
- That was, uh...
- And apritifs.
- That was bloody good.
- Champagne, sir.
- Oh, thank you.
- Chin-chin.
- No, thank you, I'm working.
I was surprised how natural that whole
thing felt, you know? I really was.
You don't get hit by a flying beer.
I hate it when they throw beer.
No, I love it.
I love it when they throw beer.
You got hit by a good one,
and then you did
some exotic stuff with a towel.
So, if you multiply that 400 to 80,000,
- I reckon it'll be okay.
- Just about, yeah.
What are they doing?
Are they sneaking in, getting...?
Are they sneaking in?
The whole thing was good.
I'm very happy with it.
Well done, everyone.
I know there's a lot more to go, but...
One day at a time, sweeties.
When I was very small,
the South Coast still had the vestiges
of an upper crust.
There still is
a Dorset Ladies Luncheon Club,
which my mum's a stalwart of.
But as cheap flights became available,
people were able to get
sunshine guaranteed.
And the bottom was really falling out
of the great British bucket.
I haven't spent much time, really,
playing this country
for a long, long, long time.
I always really enjoy it.
Modern Life is Rubbish
turned 30 last week, I think.
A lot of those older songs
they make more sense to me now.
Even though I wrote them,
they make more sense now,
the language I was using.
My kind of obsession back then,
which was, by some people,
seen as me being quite cruel to people,
about, like, media and absorption
and the sort of paralysing effects of it,
hypnotic effects of it.
I can see that there were some kind of
quite challenging stories
from all those songs.
I believe the role of the artist
is to somehow be... a mirror.
Post-Brexit... And I really do think
Brexit was a terrible mistake.
Post-that, I think there's an appetite
once more in the country
for something that pokes a bit of fun
at that right-wing, conservative aspect
of our society.
The UK seems to be
in some kind of, uh,
slow-motion collapse, at the moment,
at least the UK public services.
Much, much bigger kind of ways
of stealing from the poor
and giving to the rich
have been going on
over the past five years.
Why aren't we taking to the streets?
I don't understand,
it's like people have given up.
How bad do things have to get?
I would like to introduce
our first soloist of the afternoon.
It's a... um,
a good-looking young man.
Hello!
I used to play football
for the New Musical Express,
and, uh, our manager and centre-half
was a guy called Steve Sutherland,
who was the editor of NME.
And he said, "There's some young band
"who are interested in you
doing a bit of a record with 'em.
I said, "Oh, I don't know."
And he said, "No," he said,
"they're going to be big."
"Oh, all right, then."
I'd like to invite someone...
very unique onto this stage.
He's a unique human being.
Eastbourne!
Oi!
Confidence is a preference for
the habitual voyeur of what is known as
Parklife
Morning soup can be avoided if you take
a route straight through what is known as
Parklife
John's got brewer's droop,
he gets intimidated by the dirty pigeons
- They love a bit of him!
- Parklife
Who's that gut-lord marching?
Cut down on your porklife, mate,
get some exercise
All the people
So many people...
I never really ever thought
it would come into the British psyche.
I think Graham felt
it was a bit of a novelty song.
Parklife...
All the dustmen know me, and, uh,
I get "Parklife" shouted at me
all over the place.
Put my trousers on, have a cup of tea
And I think about leaving the house
Parklife...
Damon always said to me,
"Whenever you want to do a gig,
"you're welcome."
I enjoy their songs
and, you know, the social commentary.
...The knowledge there will always be
a bit of my heart devoted to it...
But I just look at this country.
Hopefully,
they can dig theirs elves out of a mess,
um, but it seems to me, you know
if poo was fertiliser, working-class
people wouldn't have an arse.
Parklife.
Arrivederci, Eastbourne!
After we came off on Friday,
we all felt absolutely exhilarated.
It's sort of like in a video game,
when you get the cloak of invincibility.
And there was all these kind of people
that I really admire and respect,
who were at the gig.
Just, like, completely overwhelmed
and overcome.
And I got really drunk,
and I woke up feeling ashamed.
Touring's just like
being on a roller-coaster.
You're on it, you know?
And it's kind of terrifying
and brilliant and scary.
And then you get off, and you're not sure
whether you never want to do it again
or whether you want to get
straight back on.
But you can't actually remember
what it's like
until you're actually doing it.
How's it feel for you guys,
being back in Wolves?
Oh, I mean, I'm just kind of
slightly overwhelmed by the
by the grey peas,
and their effect on my
on my bowels.
What is it, Stu, that we ate?
It's just very low-grade peas.
- Grey peas and bacon.
- Grey peas and bacon.
- Grey peas and bacon.
- Grey peas and bacon.
Do you need anything?
I've got paracetamol, ibuprofen...
- I've had an IV drip today.
- Have you? Already?
- Yeah.
- Crikey.
I've found, during rehearsals,
there's just a bit of spikiness.
It's real life, innit?
And they've had a lot of it.
We've all had a lot of real life.
And I think, you know,
the more you go through,
the more you've got to be accepting
of everyone's shit.
You understand it.
So, I think that's,
you know, a big part of it.
Was it JB's, the first gig?
I think it was, wasn't it?
JB's was the first gig we saw Blur.
I remember,
it was the beginning of summer,
and I'd just got my exam results
from college,
and I got 2% in my French Language.
The examiner had written,
"Is the candidate lucid?"
And I thought
I'd kind of burnt my bridges there.
And, uh, we just landed it.
It was just, like, epic,
you know what I mean?
It was a stage invasion.
That was the first time
we were going to a completely new place
with just the four of us, and letting rip,
and we blew the doors off.
We didn't know back then
- how long it would go on.
- Exactly.
Here we are, 30 years later...
None the wiser.
It's a bit like
drawing up from a well.
And I've never really understood
that about age, really, until now.
That, actually
when it gets to sort of decades,
it's like, actually,
that was quite a while ago.
In a lot of ways,
you're drawing you then back up,
and it's, like, a bit odd sometimes.
Well, you know, just got to go for it,
haven't you, really?
Knock 'em dead, mate.
Good luck, good luck, good luck.
Well, the album's called
The Ballad of Darren, okay?
I'd like to bring onstage Darren.
It's six o'clock on the dot,
and I'm halfway home
I feel foul-mouthed
as I stand and wait for the Underground
And a nervous disposition
doesn't agree with this
I need something to remind me
that there's something else
You need a holiday somewhere in the sun
With all the people who are waiting
There never seems to be one
Say something, say something else...
Say something, say something else...
Say something, say something...
Say something, say something else.
Fuck off!
It's all right, it's all
right. It's okay, just...
I wish we were on a tour bus.
I don't know why we're not on a tour bus.
I've never, ever done this. I haven't...
Drive around individually in cars,
doesn't make any sense to me.
Oh, I'd happily
never get on another tour bus.
Just not knowing where the...
ever knowing where the toilet is.
Newcastle city centre's
basically a street party every weekend.
Got stuck into the Jgerbombs,
posted a lot of stupid stuff on socials
that I shouldn't have done.
The missus is cross with me.
Uh, I've been ordered
to come home and wash up.
So, I'll be leaving...
I'll be leaving after the show tonight.
What is actually really scary
is pitching up to a sound check
with an excruciating hangover.
I mean, it's not like, you know,
being a coal miner, but it's, um
the travel is
is tiring.
30 years ago, they said,
"modern life is rubbish."
How would you describe
the current feeling of the world?
- It is rubbish.
- It's still rubbish.
Modern life is still rubbish.
It doesn't feel very optimistic.
I'm always interested
in new fans.
I'm like this sort of weird storyteller.
I go on, and I can completely inhabit
the characters of those songs.
But for something
that we haven't done for so long,
they kind of have a totally different
relationship with them, obviously.
When I feel sad,
I just went into the mood
and I need something to soothe me,
and Blur has, like,
become my first choice.
There's, like, a deep depression inside.
But then they use, like,
a very enthusiastic way
- to express it.
- True.
And I feel like
it's the most beautiful thing ever.
Ours is a brotherhood
that has been sustained
by our musical relationship.
It's a long time, so it's a very, uh
precious one.
We're happy to see each other
and get on that stage together.
You know, and then we're happy
to go our separate ways.
I mean, that's... that's where we're at.
We're not quite as patient
as we were.
And our idiosyncrasies
have sort of amplified somewhat.
But I think, at the same time,
we have more humility, maybe,
a bit more gratitude.
It's just bloody hard.
People are just really hard work.
How much do you want to be in the band?
That's the thing.
What are you willing to sacrifice
to be in the band?
Are you willing to subsume your ego
for the sake of the whole?
I think it's like
any sort of family.
Individuals in the family come in and out,
some are closer to you,
and you have to balance your own needs
at any given moment in the day
with whoever you're prioritising
at that moment in time.
It's like a
marriage, isn't it, really?
You can be right, or you can be happy.
When everybody's doing something
you know is doomed to fail,
do you bite your lip and just go with it,
or not?
I never know
how any of them are feeling.
You know,
we're not very good at communicating.
I mean,
I don't think blokes do spend much time
asking each other
if they're all right, do they?
I mean, it's like, you know,
"Are you all right?"
That means, like,
"Are you pissed off with me?"
Or, you know, "Are you blitzed?"
There was a point in Devon when Damon,
I thought he was laughing,
singing along with the songs.
He was crying.
You know, I completely misread it.
It is the music and the job
that kind of locks us all together.
You know,
the fact that we haven't always got on,
you know,
that's one of the chemistry points
that has led to us
being able to make the music we do.
I'm absolutely convinced of it.
So, no matter how tired we are,
or how annoying anyone's being,
it just
there's something very healing
about creating a beautiful noise.
And I never know
if it'll be the last
time I hear that noise.
And it's really nice to hear it again.
It's a very late show,
this one, starting at 2:00 in the morning.
Which isn't actually late for Spain,
but it is obviously late for me.
I'm quite relieved that we've, uh,
we've all arrived relatively unscathed.
What happens
between now and stage time?
- No bloody idea.
- Nothing.
Just void.
You go through the days
in a sort of semi-sleep mode.
Battery preserve
till you have to summon up the energy.
Well, yeah, because every bit of energy,
it depletes quick during the gig.
So, you need a good bank of it,
so you can do what you need to do.
"No Other Way," Goldie on capo two
with the neck pick-up.
"Popscene," Preston.
"Tracy Jacks" is Ray.
"Chemical World" is back to Preston
I fucked up
I'm not the first to do it...
We're all different types
of people.
So, when we're away,
it's not like the four of us
like the Beatles in A Hard Day's Night.
You know,
we're all kind of doing different things.
We're quite sheltered.
We don't really have to be out among it.
You know, historically,
it's been a lot of to do with anxiety,
why I won't go out in the streets.
That even stops me going for a swim
in the swimming pool sometimes as well.
It's the sort of thing that,
"Oh, no, I won't today."
I think it's because
I've got these tiny swimming trunks.
Maybe that's why it is.
I got home from Newcastle,
there was a massive party
going on at my house.
All the kids had all their friends over.
So, I got involved in a...
"Rasputin" dance competition,
and, uh, didn't get to bed till late,
and then I got here, and New Order,
my favourite band,
whole reason I started playing the bass,
they're here, and they want
to go out for dinner, and, oh, my God.
You know, I remember this now.
You know, the...
Just exhausting, but there's just always
a really good reason not to go to bed.
It's easy to confuse touring with
going on a massive, self-indulgent binge
of sex and drugs and rock and roll.
I think when we went
into the studio to make the record,
nobody kind of really knew,
I mean, is this going to work or not?
But it did, straight away.
I mean, the only thing
that could really jeopardise this now,
other than physical injury and death,
is... Graham drinking.
That would be really bad.
Dave drinking would be even worse.
Um, me drinking's bad enough, trust me.
When a show goes really well,
It's nice to have
a big night out afterwards.
And then, I woke up in Denmark
with absolutely no idea
of how I'd got there.
Last thing I knew, I was in Holland.
Why did he bring that up?
Because, you know,
I have to tell you why it upset me.
No, I don't want to, because
then that just becomes clickbait.
I famously said,
when I was promoting my book,
that I sprazzed a million quid on booze
and drugs, and my kids now, you know,
they're asking me about that,
and I have to kind of justify it.
On one level,
it was very entertaining.
But at the same time, you know,
I was concerned for him,
to be honest with you.
Joking apart, I was a little bit concerned.
You've got a gaping hole in your head
I'd let the birds nest there instead...
Booze is probably...
It's certainly a big contributing factor
in why Blur stopped being a,
you know, a full-time job.
What happened
towards the end of the '90s is
it always felt like I was
the petulant brat, or treated that way,
and everybody else was really grown-up
and wanted to be professional,
but I was the only one who was ruining it.
It was quite dangerous time,
wasn't it, really?
I think we live in an era
that is somehow a reaction to that.
There's a big sort of
reality check that goes on.
All the artifice falls away, you know,
and you're left with just you, you know.
That's where I arrived with drinking.
"Do I really want to
carry on down this path?"
I thought, "No, I don't."
It takes practice to
to let go of something that was
your absolute identity for a while
and then practice being you
without all of that protection.
I'd let the birds nest there...
I think the reasonable response
to getting all that kind of
fame and attention
is to go bat-shit crazy.
You know, success will mess you up
far more than failure.
It's hard to cope with it,
and what are you supposed to do after
you come off stage at Wembley Stadium?
The way I look at it,
at different times, there were
different people doing different things.
That's it. Could change again.
It's just... humans coexisting, isn't it?
When we were younger,
you need to resolve it there and then,
whereas now,
you realise it didn't need resolving,
we just needed to all disperse, you know?
It's just, well, at what point
does that space become distance?
I have this on my knee, and, uh
the specialist I went to see
after I fucked it in Chile
said that I would no longer be able to
perform in the way I used to,
and that was the end of that,
and I had to come to terms with that.
But, um, I can jump again on it now
and it doesn't...
I mean, maybe tomorrow
I won't be able to walk, but...
It's the, uh, holistic power of, uh
musical commune.
It's the best cure for anything, really.
I was doing an interview,
and I was saying how,
when we were making the album,
it was like those times
when you play tennis
and it feels like
the tennis racquet is huge,
and every shot goes in,
every shot is brilliant.
Then, about two days later,
I was playing tennis.
Oh, God!
I need an operation,
but, obviously, I can't have
an operation... while we're on tour.
What was he doing?
He bent over to pick up a tennis ball?
He was playing tennis, was he?
In Surrey?
Rock 'n' roll.
He just can't help himself, can he?
He's totally rock 'n' roll.
The doctor said
mine wasn't the least rock' n' roll one
he'd seen that week.
The person before was a lady
who'd been making a cup of tea
and turned to reach for the sugar bowl
and did the same thing.
So, she won the least rock 'n' roll
knee injury of the week.
Fortunately, I was spared.
Hopefully,
he's getting his feet up and, um...
Getting some rest.
That's not what I was going to say.
But, yeah, getting some rest.
Get some rest, yeah.
It's been a month
since we last caught up, Damon.
What's been going on?
Yes, 'cause you completely abandoned us.
You know, the whole point
of charting something
is that you take it
from the beginning to the end.
Don't have, like,
a fucking sabbatical in the middle.
It's your moment, you know what I mean?
You're playing Wembley,
and the fact that Dave was
is... you know, he's struggling,
and that's just not nice.
The last thing I read
before I went to sleep
was that, you know,
France is burning again.
You know, the gilets jaunes are off,
aren't they?
Setting everything on fire.
It's... It's not great.
And then the phone rang on
Saturday morning, and it was Blur's PR.
She said, "Just so you know,
we're cancelling the show in France."
She's like,
"Well, the reason is Dave's knee."
Everything is massively impeded.
You know, there are three of us
with bad knees now in the band.
I was feeling a bit left out.
So, it's just really Alex,
then we've got the set.
So, I'm going round there
with a sledgehammer later.
You can tell him that.
And how has it been
as an experience, the past month as well?
Everyone's kind of finding their...
finding their way.
Graham's been playing gigs
with his other band as well,
and he's got a kid.
You know, he's keeping it together...
I mean, it's just... it's amazing, really,
the metamorphosis of Graham Coxon.
I feel like
we're getting on really well.
I feel close to everybody,
and Damon, you know,
closer than I have done for years,
in a way.
Well, the thing is, nothing
is that important to fall out about,
or to have great big arguments about.
So, there's absolutely no point,
and I think we see that.
And if there are harsh words,
the thing is, is to be quick to apologise
and get it out.
And that's it.
It's amazing doing Wembley now.
I really hope that my family and my
what few friends I have
just really have an excellent time...
And, um, give me
a lot of praise afterwards.
'Cause that's all I do it for, the praise.
That's it, no, I hope I flippin' make
the rest of the band proud.
I hope I do it for 'em.
That's it, really.
Not much point in doing it otherwise.
Morning, Mr Coxon. You all right?
- Morning, guys.
- Hiya.
- Hiya.
- Hi.
When somebody asks me afterwards,
"How did it feel to play Wembley Stadium?"
I want to be able to
come up with an answer.
It'd be good to be relaxed enough
to have some feelings while I'm on stage,
other than anxiety.
Where's my coffee?!
- Hi, Michael.
- Hello, Damon, I must give you a hug.
- How's it going?
- Thanks for having us.
- Hi!
- Hi!
Oh, my God. So...
Ooh! I wasn't even...
I wasn't paying attention, then.
Why have we got punnets of tomatoes?
- 'Cause they're from Alex's garden.
- Oh, wonderful!
Mm, umami.
Was up till 3:30, up at 7:00.
But, you know, I've had a
coccyx massage
and a vibrating bowl put on my back,
so I'm feeling pretty good.
It's not the size, is it, really?
It's the story
that you kind of feel it could tell
if the gods are with us, you know?
I mean, that's the way I look at it.
You know, I feel like
I've got a big performance to deliver.
- Here we are.
- This is so weird.
This is so weird.
This place is...
Flippin' heck. Big.
How are you, Damon?
Very excited?
Yeah.
Suppose I've got to do it.
Hit after hit led Blur
to the biggest venues around the world.
Girls who want boys
who like boys to be girls
Who do boys like they're girls...
But somehow,
the iconic one on home soil eluded them.
This weekend, they can tick
Wembley Stadium off their list.
It's amazing for Graham and me
to sit here...
having started off in a little
humble Portakabin in Colchester, Essex,
at the age of 12 and 13, and to be here.
I've only been here really for football,
watching Chelsea.
And I did play here once,
years and years ago,
in a charity game against Scotland.
Did score the winning goal.
He shoots, he scores!
Goooooooooal!
Ooh, that looks like it hurt.
I want to approach it
just like any other show,
but, of course, there's all these extra
bits they're throwing in for Wembley,
which is kind of making it
slightly more stressful.
"So, what are you wearing?
You know, what footwear?"
And, you know,
"We're including this in the performance.
"You know, this element on stage
and that element."
That's hard!
Keep going, sweetie.
I imagine Dave
is just really hoping
that he's going to be absolutely match fit.
I'm hoping that he's not feeling too
anxious about how he's going to perform.
I know we all get
a little bit anxious about things.
I came down
to the kitchen yesterday,
and Beatrix, my 13-year-old,
was singing "The Narcissist,"
she didn't know I was there.
And she was, like, completely in it,
and just like,
"Oh, my God, we've connected."
My heart stopped.
'Cause, trust me,
your children are your harshest critics.
You can't... You can't make them like it.
That was a wonderful thing.
Music is... strong magic.
When this is all over,
I'm gonna have a nervous breakdown.
Does anyone want a drink?
Ginger tea?
Ooh, I might bite some ginger.
Yeah, do you know what we'll do...
Oh, my God, you're so hardcore.
I remember you drinking a bottle
of Tabasco at a sound check in America.
- Yeah, I used to do that.
- Why?
You had hiccups
for about three hours.
- I peel my ginger.
- Oh, my word.
Dave, what's happening over there?
I'm having mechanised
automated treatment on my knee.
Wow, who gave you that?
That and juice.
Oh, God.
I think there's something more interesting
happening over there.
The last time I was at Wembley
was playing in a charity football match,
and now I find myself
being Blur's fluffers.
And we're in that sort of zone
of not knowing what's going on
but loving the fact that we're here.
We still do not know
why Blur asked us to DJ.
So, tonight, after-show ice baths.
Tomorrow night, Britpop bat-shit bender.
Hard stop, Tuesday midday.
Sleep.
Then we get on a bus to France.
I got to have a haircut,
and then I'm going to have a massage,
then I'm going to have a sleep.
Oh, no, I'm going to eat,
then I'm going to have a sleep,
and then it will be show time.
I mean,
I'll get up to watch Jockstrap, but...
Yeah, I gotta go, gotta think about that
I gotta go, gotta think about that
I gotta go, gotta think about that
I gotta go, gotta think about that...
Frontline, out on the streets
Frontline, out on the streets...
Music brings people together.
I mean, look at all these people here,
you know?
I thought modern life was rubbish
about 60 years ago!
Should've grown up at the time I grew up,
it was also rubbish, racist and sexist.
What motivates me?
Half the world is still bloody
racist and sexist and all the other ists.
'Cause all that old rubbish
that we thought that we had
managed to kind of push down,
push under the carpet,
just tell those people to shut up,
has all come back out,
just vomited back out
with all the Trumps and the Johnsons,
and all the rest, and I'm sick of that,
and while I've got breath in my body,
I will do what I do.
I just had to run past security to get in.
- What happened?
- No-one greeted me.
I'm dropped off out there,
the security man's,
"Where's your wristband?"
- "I ain't got one." He's like, "Oi, oi."
- Oh, Graham.
- It's absolutely obscene.
- It is obscene.
I'm used to obsequiant toadying.
What you doing? Pumping your knee
with a sort of electronic...
Blood transfusion.
Always have one before I go on stage.
Like Keith Richards.
Doesn't he just scoop his brain out,
plop it in another body?
Ten, nine,
eight, seven, six,
five, four, three, two, one.
I think that's enough of that.
Ah!
Lovely!
Waking up at 6am on a cool warm morning
Opening the windows
and breathing in petrol
An amateur band rehearse
in a nearby yard
Watching the telly
and thinking about your holidays
That's entertainment
That's entertainment...
Did you
lose control in there, Damon?
Yeah, I...
It's what happens to me.
When I submerge in freezing water,
I... I immediately ejaculate.
- Oh!
- That's not what I was...
Fuck off!
They were going to swing by at 7:30,
so if you want to start getting changed,
maybe in the next 10, 15.
It's an hour before.
Sleaford Mods are on now. Come on,
let's go round the side of the stage.
Sleaford?
See a bit of that, that'll be good.
Go, go, go,
go, go, go, go, go, go!
...Going on about it in the morning to me
I'm losing in the head,
and I've gone too far
Force ten from Navarone
is a shot fired hard
'Cause we never aimed it
In the box of isolation
Jason, why does the darkness elope?
I mean, the environment's changed
over the years.
We like the bigger venues now,
don't we, a bit?
Yeah.
We've become wankers,
if that's what you mean.
A lot of people in our game
who are doing alright, but, um,
generally, it's hopeless, yeah.
Politically, it's a mess.
Either side is
is not really giving
any people that really need help
any hope, are they?
They've got the "cryro," uh
genic baths in there.
- Super cold.
- Oh, yeah? What does that do?
It's like cocaine.
- Oh, is it?
- Oh, is it?
Honestly, it is. The same buzz.
How can I help you
feel better about you?
How can I help you
do what it is that you
Always hoped you could set out to prove?
'Cause that's what I do,
that's what I'm put here to do
Isn't it, isn't it you?
Wasn't it you, though?
Want me eternally youthful,
never grow old
I'll always be wet,
I'll always be up for it
Politely sit, but I
don't know shit, do I?
I don't know shit...
- We're... What?
- 17 minutes.
So, we don't want to go
too early to stage, right? So...
- Yeah.
- Let's go.
Be fashionably late.
- Fashionably late.
- Not late. We've got a curfew issue.
And then he's on, that's it.
Before I go forever
Be sure
Of what you say
So, he paints a pretty picture
And he tells you that he needs you
And he covers you with flowers...
Right, lads,
two minutes to go. Two minutes to go.
Well...
this is it.
Wembley!
This is obviously a very special moment,
and, you know, you're all
more than fucking custodians
of what we're going to give them,
so go out there and just enjoy yourselves.
- 100%.
- And to you, Dames.
Ten seconds, guys,
we've got to clear the ramp.
Lydia, you got my earies?
Moments before that pep talk
or that huddle,
I was like, "Oh, my God, I need a wee."
And I was trying to tell people that,
and no-one was listening to me.
I don't know whether I do, I just...
Do you need the loo? Do you not?
You go up the ramp,
you know, slowly
you know, with all the people
going about their business,
and then that...
Suddenly, it's this big venue.
And I was like, "Where's the nearest loo?"
So, I just went backstage there.
Are we all good?
Everyone happy?
How long have we
got until we gotta go on?
There was a half-empty tin
of Diet Coke...
...so, I just had to go in that.
I think it was one of the road crew's,
I hope they didn't go back and finish it.
Quite a lot of people.
A mile-long queue
of people going in.
- Fuckin' hell.
- You nervous?
- I am.
- I'm not, at all.
Are you not? Are you Zen?
No, I'm just dead.
I don't allow it to get to me,
'cause I accept
if my voice can't sing all those songs,
then that's just the way it is.
But, you know, if I was really neurotic
about things like that,
then, yeah, I would be shitting myself.
We were at college
when we did "Sing."
You know, we wrote that
in Damon's mum's studio,
and now, 35 years, there's going to be
80,000 people singing and crying.
There's a million upsides.
You know, credibility for my kids.
But actually, the brotherhood of
those cunts
who I've known since I was 19,
and the music is its own greatest reward.
It really, really is.
- Shall we go?
- Yeah, let's go.
Good evening, Wembley.
Come on!
I want to see you bounce!
A fervid image of another world
Is nothing in particular now
And imitation comes naturally
But I never really stopped to think how
And everyone is a clever clone
A chrome-covered clone am I
So, in the absence of a way of life
I'll repeat this again and again
and again
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Popscene, oh
Oh! Oh! Oh!
Let's do this!
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Popscene, all right
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Hey, hey, come out tonight
Popscene.
All those dirty words
They make us look so dumb
Been drinking far too much
And neither of us mean what we say
Well, you and I
We just collapsed in love
And it looks like we might have made it
Yes, it looks like we've made it
to the end.
Stop that, stop that.
Obviously,
there's something vaguely hilarious
about old men
throwing themselves around the stage.
It's a bit ridiculous, right?
You made us this way. It's your fault!
I want to see every fucker
in this fucking stadium
bounce to this song.
Woo-hoo! When I feel heavy metal
- Woo-hoo!
- And I'm pins and I'm needles
- Woo-hoo!
- Well, I lie and I'm easy
All of the time,
but I'm never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet you...
I got my head done
When I was young...
It's not my problem
It's not my problem
- Woo-hoo!
- When I feel heavy metal
- Woo-hoo!
- And I'm pins and I'm needles
- Woo-hoo!
- Well, I lie and I'm easy
All of the time,
but I'm never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet you...
Music is
something we've been doing
from the dawn of our species.
And, in fact,
it is just a sort of complete abandonment
of the self and the ego in that moment,
and you're just one of the many billions
of atoms in that space.
It's a way of expressing emotion
to somebody else
that bypasses
the rational senses of the brain.
The whole audience and band
kind of merging together
into one 148,000-legged beast.
That has been just extraordinary
and quite overwhelming.
It's the journey
and the hunger for the sublime.
That is the essence of performance,
is when you become
a vessel for everybody.
Now, we really do
have a treat for you now.
This is a very London moment.
I'd like to invite
the London Community Gospel Choir.
Yeah.
Tender is the night
Lying by your side
Tender is the touch
Of someone that you love too much
Tender is the day
The demons go away
Lord, I need to find
Someone who can heal my mind...
Come on, come on, come on
Get through it
Come on, come on, come on... Woo!
- Love's the greatest thing...
- Fuck me!
I find my situation
has been different on this tour
than it's been
for any getting-together with Blur.
And it's to do with a lot of things,
you know, in my personal life
and the Blur album and doing the shows.
But it's, like, we are having a good time.
And maybe it's to do with a certain amount
of gratitude or acceptance
of who we are
and feeling lucky to be able to do this.
Yeah, we do try and earn it,
and we don't think
we can just have that for nothing.
But I think, really, we are free.
We're at our freest when we're on stage.
Oh, my
Oh, my baby
Oh, my baby
Oh, why?
Oh, my...
What I've realised
is that, you know,
Blur's something I can
never, ever walk away from.
You know,
even if I had an absolute hissy-fit,
threw my toys out the pram,
it would still say on my grave,
"Alex from Blur,
"and cheese."
I remember a couple of years ago,
I thought, you know,
"When is the first time in the day
"that I think of either Blur
or one of the people in Blur?"
And I was sitting in the bath
this morning, looking at my toes,
thinking about the boys, just thinking,
"Yeah, nice."
You know, it's just really
really
spiritually
good to just feel
at peace with each other.
Love's the greatest thing
That we have...
I'm waiting for that feeling...
Long-term relationships
are bloody hard work.
There's no way round that,
and being in a band is just the same.
But if you put effort in
over a long period of time,
you can really achieve great things.
I'm more confident now
than I was at the start of the year
that this isn't the end of something,
but the start of something.
Oh, my goodness.
I hope you've had a good night tonight.
I've had a good night.
I really have. Thank you so much.
Honestly, dream come true.
This is the next century
Where the universal's free
You can find it anywhere
Yes, the future's been sold
Every night, we're gone
And to karaoke songs
How we like to sing along
Though the words are wrong
It really, really, really could happen
Yes, it really, really,
really could happen
When the days,
they seem to fall through you
Well, just let them go
Yes, it really, really,
really could happen
It really, really, really could happen
When the days,
they seem to fall through you
Well, just let them go...
It's all up to you now.
Thank you so much.
Unfortunately for me,
it doesn't get better than that.
You know you used to get
those competitions
where the band would
come and play in your living room?
That was the experience
of Wembley, really.
Felt like we were playing
in London's living room.
We've got some champagne for you, sir.
Friendly for Dave.
Damon wrote an e-mail
on Monday morning,
like, one of three he's ever written me,
going, "That was the best show
I've ever done."
I think there was a kind of
unselfconscious glee in the house.
And, yeah, it did feel like there was
no-one watching, in a strange way.
We were just
really, really, really enjoying ourselves.
It was so great.
I loved every minute of it, it was great.
I really did, I'm so proud.
The ending made me feel
really sort of teary.
It made me feel happy.
It made me feel a bit more valued.
I know I don't really care
what people think,
but when they're saying they love me
or they love Blur, and this and that,
you can't help but feel
kind of good about that.
I love you, man.
Some people need to be affirmed
once and it will last them a lifetime,
but some of us need it again and again
and again and are a pain in the arse.
So, it's kind of nice
to be told things like that.
In my grand tradition of being
always down on everything
that was...
It's as good as it gets, really.
Good as it gets.
I wrote the songs
kind of intuitively feeling that something,
you know, heavy about to happen.
And, you know, the first part,
I was on my own completely.
And then the second part of it,
I had my brothers, essentially, back.
You know, we all have
hugely, like,
involving and complicated lives,
and we're so lucky
that we get to spend this time together,
just the four of us.
And that's... that's the beauty of it.
Do I want to repeat it next year? No.
- Why not?
- Because why would I?
I've already had
an amazing year doing Blur. Fantastic.
And that's it, really.
I mean, I'm not saying
that's it, it, it, it, it,
although it may be.
It will manifest itself again if
it's wanted.
It felt like, for some reason,
it was wanted
at this moment in time.
Oh!
We've all been through a lot.
So, to be able to do something
that carries a whole new energy,
I'm not saying I have dreams anymore,
but if I did,
maybe how I would dream it to be.
Beware
Of his promise
Believe
What I say
Before I go forever
Be sure of what you say
So, he paints a pretty picture
And he tells you that he needs you
And he covers you with flowers
And he always keeps you dreamin'
If he always keeps you dreamin'
You won't have a lonely hour
If a day could last forever
You might like your ivory tower
But the night begins
to turn your head around
And you know you're gonna lose
more than you found
Yes, the night begins
to turn your head around
Beware
Of his promise
Believe
What I say
Before I go forever
Be sure of what you say
For the words may come too easy
If you don't believe I'm leavin'
And goodbye may come too quickly
If you really think he loves you
If you really think he loves you
You would give your love so sweetly
If the day could last forever
You would fall in love completely
But the night begins
to turn your head around
And you know you're gonna lose
more than you found
Yes, the night begins
to turn your head around
And the night begins
to turn your head around
And you know you're gonna lose
more than you found
Yes, the night begins
to turn your head around
And you know you're gonna lose
more than you found
Yes, the night begins
to turn your head around.