Caterpillar (2023) Movie Script

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People don't understand
the struggle out here.
There's a struggle going on.
I'm my worst enemy.
I see all the negativities.
I see all the bad things
about myself.
"Am I talking right?"
"Am I looking right?"
Everything.
And sometimes
the way you look matters.
This is a fucking
nasty world sometimes,
and people just don't give you
a break for nothin'.
I want so much
for an opportunity
in my life to change.
I cannot stay stagnant anymore.
In today's video, gents,
I'm laying out
ten scientifically proven ways
to instantly be more attractive.
I know that
image can make or break you.
It can make such an huge impact.
It affects our mental state.
This is the world we live in.
When we see somebody,
we make a mental judgment
of this person
within ten seconds.
It's like an instant...
- - There arecertain traits that
universally
people find the most attractive
in a person.
Studies have shown
that your eyes
are the part of you
that people connect with
the most.
Hey, guys!
So, my name is Sayyora,
and I'm here
in New Delhi, India,
for the BrightOcular procedure
to get my eye color changed.
And I'm super excited.
I couldn't be more stoked.
You guys will have to stay tuned
to see what I look like after.
So, the color that I went for,
it's called frost gray.
I've always loved being
the person to stand out.
And I'm so excited to start
my new life with my new eyes.
Did I get my eye
color changed? Yes, I did.
- From a company called BrightOcular.
- - For me,
doing this eye color change,
it's changed my life.
You can be whatever you want,
and your confidence
is going to become higher
because you'll always
be the person
you've always wanted to be.
Most of the time,
people shy away
from those things
that will bring them
the most change in their life.
Stop overthinking
and just do it.
There's over 15 million people
who have done
cosmetic procedures
performed last year
in the United States alone.
And can we really call
15 million people
who want to feel good
about themselves shallow?
- Here you go, David.
- When I saw myself
the first time
after the surgery,
um, I was shocked
by how natural the color looked.
Um, I was amazed.
Very happy with the results.
I definitely recommend this.
I... Even the pictures
don't do justice
to how realistic
they look in person.
BrightOcular hasthe
perfect track record. 100%. No
one ever went blind.
Doctors are amazing.
It was, you know...
In general, BrightOcular
is a great company.
- So, uh...
- It's for Juan?
Yes. Hi, Juan.
How you doing, buddy?
How I wanted to feel before,
I was actually
feeling afterwards.
I became
more popular, I guess.
"Dear BrightOcular, the reason
for my email is simple.
I want this procedure
very badly.
You see, I was born biracial,
and my family was
all lighter complexioned.
Within this family,
I dealt with racism,
and did not have a father
until I was five years old.
And all I remember
was his green eyes.
All I wanted was to feel
he was actually my father.
- I felt like I was alone.
- Why am I telling you this?
Because I can't afford
the surgery,
and I'm hitting 50 at August.
I can't be tall,
I can't be light-skinned,
but I can have light eyes.
Please help me make
my dream come true.
Enclosed is the photo of me
with my brown eyes.
Blue, edited.
I would not be opposed
to a pamphlet
or any other way
that I can compensate you.
I thank you very much.
Raymond David Taylor."
Once I saw really deep
into my eyes, I saw a new me.
And that feeling
of being reborn
was everything to me.
I have been looking
for this for so long,
and all of a sudden, this is me.
Let's start with
everybody lives one life.
This is something
you wanna do, go for it.
Now, obviously, it is far away.
It, it takes a trip
to India to get it done.
I also wanted to be sure
I wasn't gonna walk out blind.
But for me, it was a risk
that I was willing to take.
You know,
we don't have to settle
for the eye color
that we're born with.
"Dear David,
let me introduce myself.
I'm Spencer from BrightOcular,
your virtual patient consultant.
I help you get
your dream eye color.
I work with
the medical tourism company
that schedules patients
for the doctors
that perform BrightOcular.
Your story is very moving.
We are willing to provide
the procedure to you for free...
free of charge, in exchange
for promotional materials.
You will not only have
the light eyes,
but the attractive dark frame
around your eyes
finally will be noticed.
I am here to support you
through the entire process.
Getting the new look
is literally life-changing.
You will feel better
and look better.
I look forward to helping you
get the brand-new look.
Those beautiful eyes
that will hypnotize.
You will love them.
We look forward
to seeing you in India."
Oh, my God.
Wow.
- Just look up a little bit.
- Look up?
- Yeah.
- That better? Like that?
Yeah, right there.
There we go. That's perfect.
So, you really,
really ready for this?
- I'm ready.
- Aye...
You don't... Believe it or not,
I'm ready. It's gonna happen.
And you tried
different colors already?
Yeah, I tried different colors.
The color that I'm looking at
is, uh, 3G frost.
So, what I have to do
is I have to just sample my eye.
Oh, that should look hot.
I know.
Now, this is obviously...
- ...an idea.
- Yeah.
This is the more...
More the color's going to be.
- Did you research that doctor?
- - Yes.
- All right.
- But they have other places
- where you can
get your eyes done.
- Mm.
All right. There's, um, Cairo,
Mexico, and, um, Panama.
- And where else? And India.
- Yeah, I wouldn't go...
-And India.
But I'm definitely going.
- to any of those places.
- I know there's this,
there's this specialized...
um, place...
Uh, the specialist is in India.
You know, I literally sat there,
and I was thinking the other day
about how many times I'm...
I've been afraid of stuff...
- Mm-hm.
- And never went nowhere.
- I've seen people happy.
- Mm-hm.
There's always some
plastic-surgery crazy person
- that does something
and then screwed up their stuff.
- Mm-hm.
And, you know, there's always
bad stories about everything.
Just like implants.
If you go in... It's...
- Everybody has a body
that's gonna reject something.
- Mm-hm.
So, my, my body rejects it,
then it just reject it.
But here's the good thing.
Check this out.
They also check
your eyes out first.
So, they make sure
that you're a good candidate.
You feel confident
that you're gonna be okay
when you do that?
Do you have
a good feeling about it?
- Yes.
- 'Cause if you have
a good feeling about it...
- Yes.
- Go for it.
- I think...
- If you have a negative feeling
about it, don't go for it.
But if you feel that urge,
that spark...
- I feel, I feel positive...
- make that spark...
- about it.
- Ignite, and just do it.
I feel positive about it.
I feel like
this is the right thing
for me to do.
Well, keep your mind frame
on that positive aspect.
The confidence level
in me is going
-to go through the roof.
And it's just coming...
-Mm.
Right out of my eyes.
And you'll see that.
- You just wanna feel different.
- Yeah.
- You wanna feel that change.
- I wanna feel the change.
I wanna feel different.
Hey, son.
Hey, Mom.
- Hello.
- Hi.
Can you call me in five minutes,
so I can finish eating my salad?
Uh, well,
I just wanna be real quick.
Do you mind if I be real quick
and just tell you
I'm just gonna come by
and visit you tomorrow?
Okay. By yourself
or with people?
Uh...
I'll be by myself for now.
I'll talk to you
a little bit later
about everything,
and then
we'll just go over everything.
But I'm just gonna come
visit you tomorrow, all right?
All right. So let me just
call you back in five minutes,
because there's got
to be a reason
why you're coming to see me.
Well, thank you, Ma.
You know I love you.
Okay, I'll call you
back in five.
But everything okay?
Yeah, I just wanna
finish eating.
All right, so I'll call you,
and, uh...
You call me back later on.
But I just wanna let you know
I'm going to come see you
tomorrow in the afternoon.
What time... Or in the morning?
Just let me finish eating, Ray.
Let me call you
in five minutes.
- Uh, all right. No problem.
- Okay, bye.
I just wanna tell you,
I just wanna tell you
I'm gonna come see you.
- Okay?
- I know, I know, I know.
There's got to be a reason.
All right, I love you.
Love you too. Bye, Mom. Bye.
Please, babe
There he goes.
Do the things
That we like to do
Do a little dance
Make a little love
Get down tonight
Get down tonight
Do a little dance
Make a little love
Get down tonight
Get down tonight
Baby
Say, "hey," Ma.
Hey, son.
Tell me what you want.
I, I don't want my hair short.
I just want the top cut down.
You want layers,
right, on the top?
On the top. That's it.
So that my curls could show.
Fair enough.
I, I don't understand it.
What don't you understand?
Well, that you're
a good-looking man.
You was a good-looking kid,
and you're just,
like, never satisfied
with your... The way you look.
- Yeah.
- And what, what is it
that you think I want?
I think that ba...
That you thought
that at, at a certain age,
that things would be different,
that you would
have accomplished more
than what you have accomplished.
That's very insightful,
and that's probably true.
- You know? And I'd warn you,
when you were little...
- Oh, shit.
I'd say, "Life is not easy,
Ray. Stick to one thing."
It's just that it's... You know,
you know, it's been hard for me.
I've been struggling
my whole life too.
Some of the struggles
in your life, you've...
You walked right into them.
And, you know, you're stubborn.
You don't listen.
Like that crazy-ass nightlife.
You, you know,
with the drugs and,
and the hustlers,
and this and that.
You know, I couldn't
teach him none of that stuff.
I didn't know about it myself.
So, you think I was drugs
and I was hanging out?
No, I don't think... I think
that when you got involved,
and started, uh...
- working those places...
- Why, Ma?
- Don't...
- You, you say,
because, you know,
- we was bad. I was a bad
mother. - That's not...
And this and that. Oh, well,
hey, I was the best mother
I could have been.
-I tried to be the best I can.
And, and, and...
-Ma, I had to, I had to do
- what I had to do
because I had to survive.
- I know.
'Cause I was slipped in...
I had to be in the street.
But that was
because you didn't wanna listen.
- Mom, I got kicked out...
- Yeah, but, uh...
- I had no hope.
- But I'm happy for you
that you... If,
if changing your eyes
makes you happy,
and then, then...
Okay. All right.
I'm, I'm not saying
nothing negative.
- I know that...
- I mean, a lot of things,
you came and, you know,
were shocking to me.
Like, when I found out
you was gay.
That's shocking, uh, you know?
- How can that be shocking?
- Now, now...
Because I didn't know
about stuff like that.
You know, somebody comes
and brings something to you
and you don't know about it,
it is shocking,
especially at my age.
Nobody was teaching me,
"Well, you know, you might have
a gay son or a gay daughter."
You don't know
about those things.
And then they pop up
and you're, like,
"Okay, now what do I do?"
Now I... Now I'm worried
that the whole family
is gonna turn against my son.
They're gonna hate him.
People are saying,
"Oh, if you're gay,
you go to hell."
It's all bullshit.
But, you know,
it, it, it...
The mother's instinct is,
you're only seeing the part
where you say, "I'm gay,"
and I'm seeing the part
about the whole world
against gay.
Then he went through
this stage where he said,
"Well, Ma, you know,
I think I'm gonna put breast."
And I said,
"Well, that's the end.
I cannot deal with that,
if you start cutting
parts off and adding stuff."
Then I, uh... I...
"There's no more understanding
on this part."
You know,
I don't care if my son is gay.
I love him,
but he's a man first.
You understand?
He's got to be a man first
and everything else secondary.
You know,
you don't cut your penis off.
You don't have boobs
to you, you know, uh...
If somebody else wants
to do it, that's fine.
I don't condemn them,
but that would have been
my, uh...
That would have been...
I'm sorry.
I, I don't got your back
on that, on that.
But, uh, I have his back
on everything else.
But he gotta be a man.
I mean, God gave me men.
Was I not supposed to say that?
No?
But I thought he was
a great impersonator.
I told him...
to go ahead and do it, and...
Oh, God.
Hey.
Now I feel bad.
It's okay. It's done.
- Yeah.
I mean, you, you...
- It's okay. It's done.
I... I'm concerned about you.
I know, I know. I'll be fine.
I'm just... I just
need a minute.
I've had a rough life.
I had molesters.
I've had crazy people.
I had drug addicts.
I've had it all.
And now I'm done.
Changing me will change
my outlook on life.
I'm helping myself heal.
I'm tired of being sad
because if I feel sad
one more day,
I don't know
if I'm gonna make it.
Come on, Barbie
Let's go party
Ooh-whoa-ooh
I'm a Barbie girl
In a Barbie world
Life in plastic
It's fantastic
You can brush my hair
Undress me everywhere
Imagination
Life is your creation
I'm a Barbie girl
In a Barbie world
Life in plastic
It's fantastic
You can brush my hair
Undress me everywhere...
I freakin' own you, basically.
I'm goin' to India!
That's that!
You need to grow up.
The dogs.
You don't wanna
see me get like that.
Hey, Jasmine.
Introduce yourself.
My name is Jasmine Sang.
So, how did you find
about the BrightOcular?
I found out about BrightOcular,
um, via YouTube.
Why you want to do this?
Well, uh, why I want to do
this procedure is,
um, to enhance
my overall look aesthetically
and also, um, to empower me.
It opens up my eyes
to a fresh start,
to a new beginning,
and how the world sees me.
Yeah, that's good.
I'd love to drive a Bentley.
Bigger diamonds on my finger.
I'm not there yet.
Of course I'm gonna want more.
- How much is this one? 2...
- Only, only 299.
- How you put it on? How?
- I'll put...
How you put it on?
My childhood was terrible.
Nothing to eat, nothing to wear.
Roaches running
all over the place.
- Done, ma'am?
- Yeah, I like this one better.
And I rise above that.
So, what am I content with?
I don't know, just more.
It's, it's, it's a Band-Aid...
to the past.
Lie down. Put your head here.
- Okay.
Where? Here?
- Yeah.
- Okay.
Like that? Or down?
Down. Down.
When you sustain a wound,
when it's healed, it's healed.
You might have a scar,
but it's healed.
But mentally,
when there's a trauma,
like sexual abuse,
you're not healed.
How do you fix that?
Therapy can't fix that.
What are they gonna do?
Go in and give me a new brain?
- Hi, guys.
Hi. How's everybody?
- Hi.
- I'm Izzy.
- Hi. Nice to meet you.
- Hi. I'm Maurice.
- Hi. Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.
- So just us.
I'm actually surprised...
- I thought he was looking
at me girls, to be honest.
Oh, interesting.
The guys are vain too.
- So, you all... Guys are
doing the same thing?
- Yes.
- What color are you doing?
- Um...
I wanna tell you,
but I'm kind of, like...
- I don't know
if I really wanna tell you.
- You wanna surprise us?
Oh, we're all, like, a little...
- Kind of like a...
- I know...
You're all
similar-looking, though.
It's, like, kind of similar,
exotic-looking...
- Yeah.
- Which is interesting.
Um, I'll tell you
if you tell me.
- Uh...
- Jade green.
- Yeah, same. Jade green.
- Yeah.
- I was thinking the same thing.
- Jade green.
- Jade green.
- That is not gonna work out.
Everybody the same color.
- I'm actually...
I was gonna do jade too,
but I'm, I'm thinking,
actually a frost.
- Yeah, frost...
- Go for it.
- Yeah, yeah, go for it.
- Go for it.
He's gonna look better.
- You seems very anxious.
- Who, me?
- Yes.
- - I'm just a bashful person.
- I'm a very...
- - Have you done anything else?
- Mm, what do you mean?
- Any other procedures?
- Facially? No.
- Anything.
That's why you're
really nervous.
What do you got done? Lip?
No, I've done, like, fillers.
- Yeah.
- Okay. Nothing like... Never
big brom... bombs or anything?
- No. I want to do
my boob, though.
- Mm.
- It, it seems huge.
I thought you had done before.
- No.
It's not even about the size.
I just want, like, that look.
- Okay. Like, high?
- You already don...
You already...
- No, because you already
have a good size.
- Yeah. They're not...
- So, I thought it was...
- There's nothing really
I'm unhappy about.
But I think, even, like,
if you wear, like, um,
- certain dresses
with fake boobs...
- Right.
I don't know,
they just look better.
I got fillers too.
So, I got my jaw done.
- My... Put
a little bit filler here.
- Yeah,
- I got that as well.
- Yeah.
- So, Botox, and teeth.
- Yeah.
- And...
- I wanna get teeth.
- Brazil is the best.
- Really? I really
wanna get teeth.
It's the best
in comparing to the prices.
Hello, Maurice.
How are you? Good?
- Good.
- Sit, sit.
- Your age?
- I'm 30.
- Thirty. Okay. Sit back. Relax.
- Okay.
You are thinking
for BrightOcular, na?
- Yes.
- Look straight.
- Nice to meet you.
- Thank you.
Look straight.
Don't blink and don't move.
Just sit straight.
Good. Same for the left eye.
- Okay.
- What is this check for?
Just, uh, scanning the cornea.
Any vision-related problem
you feel?
- Mm.
- You feel vision...
You're using any glasses?
Using sunglass?
Glasses. Power glasses.
Yeah.
- Glasses?
- Spectacles. Spectacles.
You're using, right, any?
Power glasses. Power.
For distance vision,
you feel any problem?
- No. No problem.
- No problem?
- Yeah.
- Okay. This I understand.
Read.
U-R-D-B-N-L.
- Read F-E.
- F-E-Z-Y...
- D-O-H.
- - Now you have to wait outside.
We will do some scans.
Then, after that,
senior doctor will see. Okay?
- Okay.
- Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.
- Okay.
Your eyes are weak.
Okay.
All right, next time you see me,
you won't recognize me
- because of my new color.
- Okay.
But I'll introduce myself again.
- Read.
- O-H.
- Read.
- E-T-P.
Read.
Read.
I, I wanna see
what it looks like.
I wanna see, though.
I wanna see.
See it in the flesh.
Open. Open big eyes. Yeah.
See?
Oh, shit.
Nice color.
Those are beautiful.
Super cool.
Just don't get too close.
'Cause, I don't know,
black box chairs or something.
- I love it.
- So blue.
Hi. How are you?
- Hi.
- Hi.
- Where are you from?
- Uh, Jamaica.
But I live in the US.
What's your name?
- Maurice. Yours?
- Maurice. Jasmine.
- Nice to meet you.
- Uh, that's my sister's name.
- My name is Fumiya.
- Fumiya and David.
All right. Cool. Yeah.
What color it is?
Uh, frost. Frost gray.
- It looks really good on you.
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
- Nice.
- Everywhere you go, like, your life is gonna change.
- - Yeah.
- Hi.
- Hi.
- How are you?
- Good. How are you?
- Good.
- Good afternoon.
Welcome. Have a seat.
Thank you very much
for taking the time to see me.
Keep looking straight.
Okay.
Fine. I've seen your reports.
- Just get back.
- Yes.
Uh, everything seems to be fine.
And you can go ahead with it.
- You're fit for the...
- Perfect.
You're fit for the job.
- I'm glad to hear that.
- But, uh, you should
be aware about
the side effects related to it,
which can happen, okay?
Though all the criterias
required for, uh,
- going ahead with the surgeries
are fine in your case.
- Mm-hm.
But despite of that,
there can be increase
in your eye pressure.
- Okay.
- There can be other factors
like iritis.
Okay. So we would have
to monitor that.
You have to monitor that.
You have to
be vigilant about that.
You have to be visiting
the eye doctor
around your place,
- say, every two months
or three months.
- Mm-hm.
- Okay.
- And if pressure is fine,
nothing to worry.
Would you be able to feel
the pressure or would you...
- How would you be able to know?
- No, even if you don't feel,
- you just visit.
- Visit the doctor?
Sometimes the pressure
is not that much,
you will start feeling it.
But it is a silent killer, okay?
- Okay, so I...
- So, the best way
is to visit the doctor
and get yourself checked.
It doesn't mean that if I do it,
it will surely happen,
but there are chances
that it might happen.
But if it happens,
you have to inform us.
You can come back, and we will,
uh, you know, weigh the options,
and we might have
to take out the implant.
- Right. And, obviously,
anything I, I feel...
- Go back to square one.
I'm gonna let you guys
know immediately.
Yeah. So, please
don't ignore any signs, okay?
Absolutely. 'Cause I'm
a little afraid myself.
But I'm going to make sure
that I let you guys
know everything.
-Yeah, yeah.
-Thank you so much.
I'm so excited, though.
What do you do to live?
- I'm a model.
Great. So you feel that
it will help in your career?
Um, I think so.
I, I work more with underwear.
I'm a underwear model.
- Okay. Mm-hm.
- So I go to the clubs
to promote the underwear.
So, I need more, more my body
-than my face.
-Mm-hm, hm, hm.
We'll try to do our best job
-for you, but you...
I have been very upfront...
-Great. Thank you.
- in telling you about the
complications and side effects.
- I understand that.
Okay? And, uh, you should be,
you know, vigilant about that.
You are fit for BrightOcular.
If ever we feel you need
to remove the implant,
then you have
to come back and do it.
- Please don't ignore it, okay?
- Okay.
- Because this is just fashion.
- Yes.
Your vision is much more
important than
what you're doing it right now.
- Okay?
- Yes. Yes. I understand.
So, everything is fine.
We can do it for you.
Plus, you know
that your eyes are weak also.
Your vision is not that good.
- Okay?
- Okay.
Yeah. So, do you wear
glasses for that
or you just ignore it?
Your vision. Not good.
Okay, I'll tell someone
to explain you everything.
Okay? Don't worry.
So, why would you like to do it?
Um, a lot of reasons,
but mainly it's the change.
- Okay.
- Um,
and, yeah, I saw, like, online.
- Hm. - And they looked really
amazing.
You must be aware
about the side effects
of the BrightOcular.
- Yeah.
- Okay.
The pressure can increase,
and there can be other problems.
- Mm-hm.
- And you have to be careful.
You have to keep
your eyes on watch.
Look straight, madam.
-Okay, fine.
Everything is fine, madam.
-Okay.
- You are a fit candidate
to go ahead with the procedure.
- Okay.
And you are the one
that will be carrying out
the procedure?
Yup.
Anything else you want
to ask me, madam?
Would you ever
do this procedure yourself?
- No.
- Why not?
"Why not?"
Because I'm happy
with the color
of my eyes, madam.
- Yeah?
- Okay?
Okay.
Would you... Say, if you, um...
Your sister said she wanted
to do it, would you
- support it?
- I don't have a sister, madam.
If you did?
- Hm?
- If you did?
Uh, no. I will...
I'll tell her the same thing,
- what I've been telling you.
- You've lived without it,
you can live...
Yes, you can live without it.
And you should avoid doing it
because this is something
you really need not to do it
because there are chances
of side effects.
- Yeah.
- So, it's totally
your choice, madam.
-Okay? Any plastic...
Any, any cosmetic surgery.
-It's not a necessity.
- Mm? Any cosmetic surgery
is like that.
- Hm.
So, what color
are you interested in?
- 3G frost gray.
- Okay.
But I wanna make sure
that it's going to be
- 3G frost gray.
- It, it is going to be
3G frost gray.
Don't worry about that.
Your vision is absolutely fine.
And these scans will be given
to you once we are done.
In your...
You can carry this paper.
This has your vision.
This has your eye pressure.
- So you can keep it
for reference for later.
- Okay.
We should get the implants
by, say, Monday.
-Okay?
So we'll do one eye on Monday.
-Okay.
- The... And the other eye
will be done on Tuesday. Okay?
- Okay.
Surgery's going to take
only five to ten minutes.
- Okay.
- Okay? You might have
a little blurry vision
- or might have a little redness
for a week or so.
- Okay.
- But then it will subside.
- Okay.
-Okay?
Just sign here for the color.
-Okay.
- Bye-bye.
- Bye.
Thank you again.
See, BrightOcular basically just helps us with the implants.
That's it.
It's just one cosmetic surgery
we are doing
because Spectra, otherwise,
performs all kind
of eye surgeries available
across the globe.
So, I have never had a word
with BrightOcular.
Everything is on the email.
I've met a lot of patients
who have always told me
that they have never...
They have never been on phone
with somebody from BrightOcular.
Yeah! High five!
We were saying, like,
who's behind BrightOcular?
- Yeah.
- 'Cause we haven't met anyone
that actually re...
represents BrightOcular.
Why, why don't I see
a BrightOcular office?
- Yeah. There isn't.
- I don't see
a BrightOcular building.
I thought someone
would be, like, "Hello? I'm...
- Right. Exactly.
- so and so
from BrightOcular."
- Do you see what I'm saying?
- Oh, you guys watching
too many movies?
Let's be honest.
I, I really wanna live
in a movie, then.
Because I believe in that.
I believe when...
You're like guys
watching, like,Matrix.
You want somebody all in black
- and, like, "Hey, welcome."
- Maybe I didn't... Maybe I...
- "I am a BrightOcular.
You're welcome."
Yes, I, I guess I do.
Maybe it's more
of a protection thing
- because this is not FDA
tested. - Yeah.
Like, it's not regulated
in any way.
We pass it through
four doctors, you know.
-Well, that's good.
That's what... That is true.
-It's like we...
- Very thorough.
- Yes. We had a...
- like, really,
it somes... get done.
- I agree.
It was nothing... something,
like, "Oh, come here,
you're gonna get your money."
- "Yeah, let's change your
eye..." - "And this is it."
No, that I agree with.
- That I agree with.
- I feel safe.
Whether it's right or wrong,
it's not the point.
It's just that
there is something,
that we're not getting
the full story.
- Let's pray on it, okay?
- All right, pray.
In the name of Jesus Christ,
let's make this work.
Our eyes are gonna be amazing.
Amen.
There we go.
It's not completely safe.
You are doing something
to your eye,
which is not normal.
And, uh, it's not recommended.
I mean, it's not a necessity.
I mean, this is your choice.
You're doing it.
I think most of them feel
that it is going to change
the perception
of people towards them.
"If my eye color is changed,
I... I'll get a fresh look.
I'll, I'll look better."
I think that kind
of mindset is there.
And they have to think the way.
I love my eyes.
Directly, indirectly,
just because of
all these videos,
you know, some patients
have come and changed...
- Mm-hm.
- Just because of videos.
- The camera is here.
- Hm.
- You see the sky? Camera good?
- Hm.
- Hm.
- "Hey!" Then you tell
about your all the things.
What's your name, what you do,
what you don't do,
what you want to do in the life.
- Okay.
- Job?
- Job.
- Hobby?
Job, hobby, girlfriend.
Okay.
- This is supposed
to be English version.
- Oh.
It's a English version.
Or you can start with a story
rather than your name
and all the things.
It's so boring.
Start with a story.
- Something story which is...
- nothing to do with your eyes.
Story? What?
Nothing to do with my eyes?
Yeah. Something else.
"Hey, let me tell you a story."
-Like what?
-Something like that.
You have any story?
- A small, interesting story.
- What?
- Something.
- I don't have a story.
Any story, like, which can
make people smile,
which can connect with you.
Can you do a push up?
You want me
to do a push up on here?
- Yeah! Yeah, do a push up.
- Uh...
Okay. I can do this
if you want me to do this.
I can do this.
Yeah. Okay, go.
And I'm so pumped!
Wait till you see it.
You can tell that.
"Hey, so, it's so hot,"
you know.
- Okay.
- Just remove with this thing
and just start with your thing.
- Start with what thing? What
thing do you want me to say?
- Um...
Can I have some smile, please?
- Yeah. But keep your eyes open
when you smile.
- Okay.
Can you do that?
- Read?
- Yes, please.
Okay. Unlike the people
who had surgery at BrightOcular,
I thought I had to change
the eye color of my eyes
suddenly one day.
I'm sure it's my destiny.
In the brain, it's been done.
Okay, next.
Oh, my God.
It's so hot in here.
So, finally, I made it.
And, by the way,
my name is Menachem.
So, now, I'm just waiting
for the big, big day
where this is gonna
look amazing.
Guess
what I'm doing?
I'm actually doing
the BrightOcular procedure.
That's just between
you and me. All right?
I'm actually changing
from the inside out.
Wait till you see the color.
It's gonna look so good.
Hi, I'm Izzy,
and I'm in New Delhi
to do
the BrightOcular procedure,
and I'm really excited.
Um, we're gonna do it
on Monday, hopefully.
And I'm just really
looking forward to it.
To the Supreme God,
Divine Father, Divine Mother,
thank you for your blessings.
Inhale. Accept the blessings.
Heart center is heavy,
so that means that you have,
over the past,
stored some emotional stuff.
- We all do...
- Yeah.
But you have quite a lot.
Say, "I forgive you..."
I forgive you...
"from the core
of my heart..."
from the core of my heart...
"for all the pain and sadness
you have caused me."
for all the pain and sadness
you've caused me.
Having those eyes
is gonna be like...
It's like a complete circle.
And I just feel...
I, I feel like I'm gonna be...
Feel complete.
So, why are you going
through people controlling you,
people not being loving
towards you?
Because you did the same thing
in the past lives.
And so your soul
has to experience
similar experiences...
- Yeah.
- so that your soul learns not to do that again.
I, I came to India, uh,
mainly to have this eye surgery,
and it's...
They change your eye color.
I feel like, throughout
the years, I've changed so much.
Like, internally,
I've become more resilient.
And I kind of
wanted that to change
my outward appearance as well,
to kind of match that.
Like, I want, like,
a whole transformation.
Sometimes you have to understand
that your physical body
- is a radiation
of your inner self.
- Mm.
Okay?
When you work
just on the physical body
and you haven't changed
the inner self,
it's not going to show
much of a change.
The karma will catch up with you
if you don't work on it.
I just don't wanna
be the old me.
There was a lot of violence,
growing up.
I ran away from home
because I was being abused
and controlled,
and I'd hide all my books
that my family
wouldn't want me to read,
because they didn't want
those ideas in my head,
to think,
"Oh, I could be free,
and women can do
what they want."
So I left.
Hi!
Can you see me?
Can you see me?
Ah!
I miss you!
As a single parent,
it's a struggle.
And there are a lot
of weak moments
where I feel like
I've made a huge mistake.
Like, should I run back?
Mwah.
I'm coming back real, real soon.
I can't wait. I'm so excited
to give you cuddles.
My immediate family, like,
they always used to tell me
I'm ugly and, like,
I didn't deserve to live.
On top of that,
they would taunt me about it,
you know?
They're just scary people.
I think they instilled
so much fear in me.
I feel like, like,
am I in constantly in search
of this new fresh start?
Like, when is it gonna end?
But I don't know
if I ever will be.
Like, I'm constantly
looking for the next new start.
I'm trying my best
to delete the past.
Can you tell me...
- Yes, madam?
- - Can you tell me what you're gonna do?
I'm just preparing you
for the procedure.
Oh, my God, I don't like this.
You don't move, huh?
Stay relaxed.
There's nothing to worry.
Oh, God,
that feels really weird.
Okay, tell me what you're doing.
Uh, just try not to speak, huh?
That's actually crazy.
Oh, my God.
I look so different.
Well, this is the change
that I wanted, so...
I'm really happy.
Well, it look really good.
Guys, wait.
I can see a black fleck.
Can you see?
- Yeah.
- What is that?
Yes. Maybe the contact is fold.
You have to tell the doctor.
Just look at... Chill.
'Cause it looks
like it's folded...
- I'll just look at it.
- Or it's cut.
- Remove your cap.
- Oh, yeah. Sorry.
Touch your head with this.
- It's a small incision we have given...
- - It's deliberately made.
- Deliberately made.
- - So is this gonna be the same?
It, uh, it has to be decided
by the surgeon
on the table itself.
So, we have done
for your own benefit only.
So, nothing to worry about.
So the, the cut
was made intentionally?
- Intentionally.
- - To maintain the pressure.
Okay, but why only in her case?
- And why...
- - Sir, every patient is different.
That has to be decided
by the surgeon only.
It also depends on...
We have done it
for your benefit only.
It just looks a bit...
- weird.
- But you should be
happy. It's looking very good.
Nothing to worry.
Just have a smile.
- It's looking very beautiful.
- Yeah?
Really, it's looking
very beautiful.
Why are you so much worried?
It's just, it's not what I've...
See, you've only got it done
for cosmetic reasons, no?
Okay, it is because
of the structure of the eyes,
sometimes, that we need
to do some changes
depending on the structure
of the eye.
You need not be worried.
Just go for
the cosmetic reason only.
Need not worry about it.
Okay. Thank you.
No, thank you. Thank you.
This is going to be
my eye reveal outfit.
It's a traditional kurta.
And I absolutely love it.
It's salmon.
And I bought it for the reveal
of my beautiful new eyes
from BrightOcular.
And I'm gonna turn around
so you can see
the front and the back.
I feel like
an Indian prince in it.
I love you, India!
This is my new beginning!
I'm changing!
I love India.
Thank you.
I want society to accept me.
Beauty matters.
Beauty gets you
through the door.
Opportunities
are gonna be opening.
It's new adventures.
And believe me, I believe it.
Namaste.
Thank you so much.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Come.
Oh, shit.
There's a body in here.
I want you to sedate me.
Don't do nothing
without sedating me, please.
Did they do the sedation?
Sir, please open your eye.
Okay. It's open.
Look straight.
Look, look in the light, please.
Look in the light.
Here. Please look in the light.
Look in the light.
Look, you're not looking
in the light.
Look straight. Yes.
I can't believe I just did this.
'Cause, for a split second,
when they put the thing
over my face,
I was about to say,
-"Hey, hey, hey.
I'm sorry. No, it's okay."
-The question of doing.
Like, "It's okay. It's okay.
I'm, I'm good."
I really don't feel
like doing this again.
So, what I can say,
um, Fumiya was looking
at it and he was, like,
"Your eyes are look green."
I was, like, "What the fuck?
They better not."
'Cause I want a freaking refund.
I don't know. How about this?
I was... Immediate... I was,
I was immediately
at the front desk.
Like, "They put
the wrong ones in."
So, he was, like,
"You gotta wait a half an hour."
I was, like,
"Wait a half an hour?
I'm going in the bathroom now
to check if these shits
are the wrong ones.
I'm gonna go and see."
And I was, like,
"Well, if they are, I'm gonna
have to tell the doctor,
'Uh, did you make a mistake
and give me his?'"
Hey, what's going on?
- It was fine?
The surgery was okay?
- I think...
Yeah, the surgery was okay.
It went well.
It just was a little scary.
- Scary?
- Of course.
- Oh.
- And I was, like,
very, very nervous.
But it went well.
- Then?
- I'm not gonna lie.
I went to the bathroom
and I popped open this thing
and looked in, in the bathroom.
- Oh, my God.
- You opened your bandage?
- No.
- Then?
- I didn't understand.
- Yes, he did that.
You opened your bandage?
But you're not
supposed to do that.
Um, so it looks green. So...
- It looks green?
- Yes.
So I want, I want to know
if it's the wrong color.
We'll check it downstairs.
It should not be the wrong color.
- It cannot be the wrong color.
- Uh, yeah.
Okay, I hope so.
Because, you know,
it is marked when it comes,
and the gray is in
a different kind of packaging.
- Okay. All right.
- It cannot be. Right?
- I hope not.
- I... Yeah.
Because that would
be pretty bad, right?
I haven't seen something
like that before.
Fair enough.
So, my, my thought was...
I was a little anxious.
Don't be.
Now read.
I can't see.
Just try. Try. No, no, don't.
Oh. P.
Now?
- O-H.
- Now?
- U-T-P.
- Very good.
- No problem. Okay?
- Yeah.
Tomorrow will be
better vision, okay?
Right. Can you tell me
what color this is?
Doctor will say
about this, okay?
I can't even see
what color this is.
Let me see.
Can you see?
Damn.
Hey, look at that.
Okay, I can see yours.
Yours is fine.
Can you see mine?
Hard for me to see.
Yeah, I can see.
I think it's frost gray.
It's frost...
I fucking can't see.
It looks like it's jade to me.
I don't know if it is or not.
I need to know
if this is the right color.
This is jade green.
This is not the color
it was supposed to be.
Just give me a second.
Let me check.
This is not the color
it was supposed to be.
This is not the color
it was supposed to be.
This is ridiculous.
Give me one second.
And this is what? This is what?
This is why you don't do
three people at one time.
This is why you don't do
three people at one time.
You don't stick three people in
next to each other.
I'm so upset.
I can see that.
Please, please, please.
Please. Listen to me.
Listen to me.
Don't, don't cry.
Don't cry. Spoiling your eye.
- Okay, okay, okay.
- I'm sorry. Okay.
Okay.
Give me one minute.
I can't. I'm so fucking hurt.
You cannot cry.
- Don't touch your
eye. - Okay, okay, okay.
- It will hurt you.
- Okay, okay.
Look, look at me.
Menachem has your color,
uh, frost gray.
I can take that out
and I can change it.
You're gonna take him out
his eyes and put him in mine?
- Yeah.
It is actually yours.
- It's gross. It's gross.
It's gross.
You don't... It's gross.
- That's gross. That's nasty.
- Why?
I don't want it. I can't.
- I will not do it.
- It's not that
I'll just take it out
and put it in your eye.
It has
to be sterilized.
Yes, I don't want
what is in his eye in my eye.
They want me to take
this out and put it...
Take the one from Menachem
and put it in my eye.
That sounds gross.
This is not what I wanted.
Right. So...
the point right now it is
there was a mistake, right?
Clear was a mistake
of packaging or whatever.
At this point,
what was explained to me,
we can get it reversed.
We can go to the surgery
tomorrow, take his off,
put on mine,
take my off and put in his.
What for me
sounds totally crazy.
Plus, there is bacterias, germs
that is in your eyes.
You know, like,
I don't want to take my contact
and give my contact to David.
And they remove his
and put in my eyes.
Like, how they disinfect this?
You know?
Like, how the, the contact
that is infected,
do not get disinfected.
It's like, she said,
"Well, if it's comfortable
of exchanging, we should do it."
I was, like, "At this point,
if I have to do it,
I feel just remove
and don't put anything,"
'cause I'm not gonna
be hurting my eyes twice,
you know, in less than 24 hours.
- It's insane.
It's like, I don't even know...
- So, he's fine.
In other words, he's fine.
So, then just take care of me.
So, that's what, that's what
he's basically saying.
-So, that's fine.
That's what we'll do.
-I'm not fine,
- because I prefer the green.
- Okay.
But I don't feel like taking it
off my and give it to you...
- No, I understand that.
- and take your off and give
to me. To me, it's crazy.
That's fine.
So, what I'm say... And I agree.
So, then what I'm saying is
is that he's gonna be...
They're just gonna put
another implant...
His... The other one in.
And I'm gonna have to deal with
taking this one out and putting
this... Another blue.
I was just so mad
at the fucking whole situation.
How could you be so stupid?
- Right. I 100% agree.
- You know, like how...
It's like, how you don't check
things first, you know?
- Like...
- Is it same if I go to...
Bitch, I'm right
in front of you!
What the fuck?
- Put it right here.
- Right.
I mean, like...
This... I'm Black.
You're not! What the fuck?
I'll be all right.
I'm just cranky.
I'm fucking stupid.
Um, I'm super cranky right now.
All right. It's all good.
- Love you, guys.
All right, I'm ready to go.
Let me see how I look.
It doesn't really matter
how it happened to me...
because how it happened
doesn't really benefit me.
What's gonna benefit me
is what we're gonna do
to resolve the issue.
This is my eyes, man.
I'm not asking you
to paint my nails.
And then you went
over the cuticle.
I came here to look beautiful,
not to come out here
with extra scars.
- Hi.
- Hi. How are you?
I'm really,
really hurt about this.
I know that.
I mean, I really, really...
This is not what I wanted.
This is totally,
like, unacceptable.
I really feel like
whoever did this...
is really unprofessional.
It was just the packaging thing.
I've already told you.
I, I... Packaging should've...
It should have been out of
the...
See, I understand
that it has been put wrong,
so there's no denying
the fact about it.
If it was put wrong, is...
There's a problem.
I don't wanna be
retouched again in my eye,
because I don't want,
20 years later,
to have to be worried
about maybe
something could happen
to my eye.
Things happen.
Now we are ready to work it out.
That's the best
I can do for you.
It's not a... It's not something
that, uh, your eye
has been damaged
or something, and we know that.
So, things are fine.
It's just you to...
How you take this color.
And I know,
if you don't like it,
I can get it removed.
That's the best
I can do for you.
There's nothing wrong
with the color. Trust me.
Okay.
Let's do the surgery
in this color.
You'll be fine. Don't worry.
Just have a seat outside.
We'll call you for check-up.
- Mm-hm.
- And then we'll move ahead.
When we'll do both the eyes,
I'm sure you're going
to like it.
I have no choice
but to be positive about it.
Because, at this point
right now,
we are so far into this...
that I don't want
to have to turn back.
The company's weird,
but this is gonna make it...
It's gonna, it's gonna
make my life better.
I cannot be the same person
in Miami with nothin'.
I'm gonna make a prayer.
In the name of Jesus Christ,
let us all be safe
and that all our eyes
come out the right way.
- Amen.
- Amen.
Put it in your head,
you're gonna be fine tomorrow.
Whoa.
- Damn.
- Let me see yours.
Your looks amazing too.
- How is your vision?
- Good.
- Good?
- They look pretty, right?
I love it.
Oh, they look beautiful.
They are beautiful.
I made it. I did it.
I'm ready.
Wow.
I didn't come here to change
my eyes to look pretty,
I came here to change my soul.
I regenerated myself
and I made my life better.
Like, to reinvigorate yourself,
to motivate yourself,
to feel like your existence
of who you were
in your past has changed.
Because you want
a different life.
And say, "Guess what?
I am not who I was before,
and I'm ten times better now."
- Hey, man. What's up?
How are you?
- Hey, David.
I'll come by a little bit later.
I'm just gonna drop this off.
- I just got back.
- See you later.
All right.
He has always,
since he was a little boy,
value beauty over anything,
and that's what has gotten him
in so much trouble.
Like, he was good-looking
young teenager,
he wasn't happy.
He was a handsome man,
he wasn't happy.
I don't know,
he's happy with this.
Okay.
- Hey, Ma.
- Hey!
Let me see.
- Palm tree?
- No. A tiki hut.
- A tiki hut?
- Yeah.
I know the last time we left,
I left in not-so-great terms.
- Yeah, you were real mean to
me. - Oh...
Mm, I don't think that you...
I don't think I was mean.
I think that
I was not happy with you.
And I'm sure that we both
weren't happy with each other.
So I'm not gonna say
that I was mean.
I just think that
I was very specific.
No, you were mean.
See, you got to realize now,
son, I'm a mom.
You went to another country,
and I was petrified.
And you think
that parents don't worry,
and parents do.
And you don't know
what it's like
to be a mom and... Or a dad
'cause you don't
have children of your own.
And you get
really upset with me.
And that hurts my feelings.
Yeah, 'cause I'm not gonna
ever tell you nothing wrong.
But it's just that sometimes,
Ma, you come across
really negative,
and I can't handle
the negativity. I really can't.
It's just words mean a lot.
And how you vocalize
means more to me than...
No, you got to start
realizing I'm not,
I'm not a friend.
- Words, like I said...
- Uh, I'm your mom,
and you can't take things
out of content
when I tell you something.
You can't be on the lookout.
You just got to think,
"Hey, Mom is telling me
something for my own good."
I appreciate the fact
that you care, but...
what bothers me
more than anything
is the fact
that you can't communicate.
And you say things,
like, insulting things,
and you call me
all kinds of, losers...
-No, I said...
You know that's not true.
- and homos, and faggots,
and... Ma, see,
that's the thing.
-See, when you...
When I... When...
-That is not true.
When you say... When...
That's why every time
we have these conversations,
when I say back what you say,
you say... You deny it.
And that's why
we and you don't
have these conversations.
This is the kind
of things you do.
You'll sell me your car, right?
For...
What? What did you sell,
what did you sell your...
I sold him my car
that I paid $3000 for,
that I worked
my ass off to pay for.
- Mm-hm.
- Everything in there...
Tires, battery,
everything was new.
And I said to him...
He had no vehicle.
I said, "Son, I'll sell you
my vehicle for $1500."
- That's half the price.
- Knowing that I couldn't
even afford it. You know.
- Did you give me a penny
when you took my vehicle?
- Okay. All right.
I, I, I didn't because you knew
I didn't have the money.
- No. Exactly. Son...
- Okay.
- How many times
have you done that?
- Son,
- why can't you
get yourself together...
- Okay.
And help your mother
that's 70 years old?
Why? Okay, now I,
I have to help you out, right?
No, no. Well, well, if you feel
that I'm not helping you out
by giving you a car
with plates and insurance...
And I had to pay for it.
You're a grown man.
- That doesn't matter.
- It does matter, Ray.
How long am I gonna give you?
- How long do I have to?
- What did you give me?
When do I have
to stop giving you?
This is what you do.
And all these things
that you do,
- I have 'em all in text.
- You know what he needs to do?
- Grow up.
- All right.
And realize that he's a man.
He got a pair of balls
between his legs
that God gave him.
God made him a man.
That he sticks to being a man
and stop being a baby.
That's it. I'm done with this.
Arguing with you
about any of this.
Who's right and who's wrong.
'Cause it's not even
better, about this.
This is bad energy.
You know what I'm saying?
This is really wrong.
It's not what I want.
I didn't come here for arguing
about this shit.
It's stupid. Okay?
-That's what I'm saying.
It makes no sense.
-Fair...
Fair enough, okay? I just know
what's real and what's not.
It's making myself crazy.
All right?
All right.
Why?
Okay.
There's always turmoil,
but there's still love there.
She's... Makes me so angry
with everything
that comes out of her mouth,
but, uh...
And she makes me hate her
at the same time
that I love her.
So, my thought is, is that,
do I continue to try?
I continue to try,
but at the same time,
I continue to fail.
Right now, it's time for me
to start a new life.
I feel like
society looks for faults.
But I also notice
that there's something
beautiful about everyone.
Hey, little guy.
How are you?
You are beautiful.
'Cause nothing's gonna
stop me from flying.
My goodness,
you have amazing green eyes.
Thank you for the compliment
about my eyes.
Yes, they're amazing.
Somebody has a problem
with, with what I've done,
then that's not my problem.
And this is the first time
I've done something
because I wanted to.
I am definitely interested.
Definitely.
I don't care what it looks like.
For that amount of money,
it doesn't really matter.
All I need is a bed to sleep on,
and that's it.
And if I have to sleep
on the floor,
then that's fine too.
I don't care.
My best friend decided
that I needed a change,
and he said to me,
"David, you said you really
wanted to move to New York.
You needed a place.
You needed a place
that you can afford."
And he said, "Listen,
it's a reasonable place.
It's less than $500.
Just move today."
And I said, "I'll take it."
There's no more tears
Left here for you to see
Was it really worth
You going out like that?
Tell me
Oh
See, I'm movin' on
And I refuse to turn back
Oh, I wanna dance
With somebody
I wanna feel the heat
Yeah, I wanna dance
With somebody
With somebody who loves me
Somebody who
Somebody who knows me...
Are you excited
to get to New York?
I'm excited. Are you ready?
You ready to get to New York?
Mwah. I am too.
Oh, we're almost there.
Almost home.
New York City.
This is my place.
- Hello.
- Maria.
- Hey!
- Guess what?
What's going on?
I'm in New York.
- Girl!
- Serious.
- Yeah, I just got here.
- When did you got here?
- Hello?
- Melina.
- Yeah?
- Hi.
- Who's this?
- It's David. How are you?
Oh, my God, David.
I haven't heard from you
in, like, ten years.
I know. What's been going on?
I'm good,
but I don't even know...
Where you been?
Under a rock or something?
Matt?
Yo, Matt.
Yeah. What's up, buddy?
How you doing?
Yeah, I'm back here. I moved
to a rent-stabilized place
up in Williamsburg.
It's really nice.
I got a brand-new place
in, in Brooklyn.
When I found out about it,
I was, like, "Fuck it.
I'm gonna take it."
I needed to get out of Florida.
It's a brand-new me,
and I'm just starting
all over, and,
and I need my friends
again over here, you know?
So, just do me a favor,
and let's just...
Bygones is bygones.
Let's start all over. Okay?
Hey, sweetheart.
There's a lot of work
that needs to be done.
This right here,
why wouldn't somebody fix this?
Obviously. Who knows?
But do I know how to fix this?
No.
They obviously fixed the leak,
but they leave a big-ass hole.
Can I fix that?
Sure, I can fix it.
Do I know how to fix it?
Probably not. But I know
I'm gonna figure that out
because it doesn't take
more than sheetrock.
I'll make it work.
Now, I love this apartment
because there's bones here.
There's good bones
in this apartment.
It just needs love.
Whatever comes my way
that's positive,
I am gonna grab it
like it was a lifeline.
Because it is.
Holy shit.
I can't believe I did this.
I'm pretty talented.
All the thingsthat
I was scared to do before,
I'm throwing
in the universe to try.
- I like your bunny.
- Oh, thanks.
So cute.
I love your eyes.
Thank you, sweetie.
That's very sweet.
You're welcome.
Hello!
Oh, my God.
- Oh!
- Oh!
- You look amazing.
- Only you'd get me out
in 100-degree weather.
Oh, wait. Oh. So good. Oh!
Thirty-six years is a very long
friendship, Davey,
- for our age.
- It's one of the longest
friendships that I...
Well, it is the longest
friendship that I had.
- Mm-hm.
- You're my first best friend.
You're my first best friend.
- Aw. Tell me again.
- We were best...
- Tell me again. Tell me again.
- Friends as soon as we met.
Who's the, who's the best,
who's the longest best friend?
- David is.
- All right. Thank you.
I appreciate it.
All right. I love to be wanted.
The stores,
to me, look the same.
The stores are
basically the same.
But, wait. Wait, wait. Hold up.
I didn't get to show you this.
Hold on. You ready?
- Are you ready?
- I'm ready.
Oh, my God.
- You're beautiful.
- Thank you.
- They're more beautiful
in person. Mm-hm.
- Right? Aren't they?
- Are you happy?
- Yeah.
I'm, I'm really happy about it.
That's all that matters, Davey,
- that you're happy.
- Yeah. I'm much,
much more happier
that I got it done
because I feel, like, complete.
And I feel like I finally
took a chance with myself,
and I gave it a value.
You know what I'm saying?
I valued myself. I decided that
I wanted to do something,
- and I took the chance.
- For yourself.
- Exactly. I did it for myself.
- Not for anybody.
Yeah.
I think, at this time,
you have found yourself, Davey.
Thank you. I appreciate that.
Now, I know who you are.
And I know that it took a lot
for, for you to be who you are.
How did you do that?
And I wanna know,
what strength did you find
in yourself to do that?
You have to live
your life for you.
There's no roadmap.
The roadmap that I took
in my life worked for me.
So, I don't think you should
really idealize anybody,
but respect them,
which I have grown
to love and respect myself.
What really made me whole
is knowing my value,
not my appearance.
I think I am actually...
trying to make up for time
for not being seen.
You understand?
Because I actually was so...
I felt so scared to be seen.
- Right?
- I believe
half of your issues mentally
were what your family did.
They put a bad vision
of you in your own mind.
And I seen that
when you would break away
from certain family members,
you were more freer, more you.
Right. And, and I'm starving
to get that notice that I want.
And, yes, it seems
a little bit, like, needy
or weird or whatever,
or maybe a little selfish,
but it's not.
It's just being... Listen.
It's... I'm just being...
I'm just living.
Remember, Davey,
we, we are alike
in a lot of ways,
'cause that's what drew us.
We're loving people.
But I cannot say my life
was the same as you.
On the streets, yes,
but when I went home...
Like any family,
we have our arguments.
But my family
always gave me love
and never shut me out.
It's an opposite thing
that what your family did,
and I think that did you
a lot of damage.
Even though sometimes
you get anger
towards those people.
But you have
a right to that anger.
- Remember...
- And I know those things.
But at the same time,
you know me. I hid that.
And I don't wanna
even be a victim.
Was I smiling? Yes.
- I smiled my way through it.
- Okay. Yeah.
-But, you know...
-But you know what?
At the same exact time...
Sometimes anger
comes out of people,
and you didn't
even realize that.
There was times
you had a lot of anger in you.
I had a good starting.
I had a sister,
and she supported me
from day one.
And you never really
had that, Davey.
I know. But at the same
exact time, you have to move on.
- And I'm trying
to move on from that.
- You have to take
the unhealthy people away.
And sometimes it's hard
when it's family,
when you love them.
We don't control
everything in life.
We're just living.
You don't have
to prove yourself to nobody.
My whole life, and in my head,
I always felt like
something is wrong with me.
The eyes opened up a lot.
I feel it in my heart
that people acknowledge me.
I've been so many places
In my life and time
I've sung a lot of songs
I've made some bad rhymes
I've acted out my life
All in stages
With 10,000 people watching
But we're alone now
And I'm singing
This song to you
I know your image of me
Is what I hoped to be
I've treated you unkindly
But, darling
Can't you see?
There's no one
More important to me
Baby, can't you see
Through me?
'Cause we're alone now
And I'm singing this song
To
To you
To you
Just... Something's not right.
I just... I don't know.
I don't know.
I, I need to see a doctor.
I'm just scared.
I just feel like something
is definitely not right.
You mean, this pain in my head.
I mean,
the throbbing that I have,
the light sensitivity.
Every time I open my eyes,
my eyes are watering.
This is...
Something's not right.
It's just wrong.
It's fucking scary.
Both eyes
open. Straight ahead.
Look right toward my ear.
There's good news
and there's bad news
with your eyes.
You know,
the good news is there's...
Appears to be
no collateral damage yet.
The bad news is that
they need to come out,
and they need
to come out pretty soon.
The implants are in a location
which will damage your cornea.
If you don't remove
this in time,
you will have
irreversible vision loss,
uh, and we can't
bring you back from that.
They're just sitting
somewhere where
there's no anatomical place
for them to sit.
So, they start rubbing against
critical structures of the eye,
and every time you move,
turn your head,
it's moving
and roughing up that area.
And I see patients,
unfortunately,
being duped into thinking
that this is safe
based on false language
on, on, on social media.
Take these out
in the next few months,
and we have...
Beyond that, it's the unknown.
Uh, we just don't know.
When the night
Has come
And the land is dark
And the moon
Is the only light we'll see
No, I won't be afraid
No, I...
I don't really wanna
get them removed.
I went all the way
to India to have this done,
to have to now get this removed.
And now I don't have the money,
I don't have anything.
I don't have none of the stuff
that I need to get this
taken care of.
This is scary.
This shit is scary.
Another operation.
As positive as I wanna be,
it's not fucking easy
to think about.
And I'm trying to be,
"Yes, yes, yes!"
You understand? I'm trying.
This is me doing that thing
that I do all the time.
It's smile my way through it.
Do you understand?
Because if you don't say,
"You know what, I'm okay,"
then it's embarrassing
to have somebody,
'cause you know
what they're gonna do?
Point at you and say,
"You did it to your damn self."
I won't cry
I won't cry
No, I won't
Shed a tear
Just as long as you stand
Stand by me
"Dreamy eyes."
"Looking fabulous."
"I like your style."
"I need this." "It's so cool."
You know, I do love to...
I do love the attention.
Trust me, when I see
those pictures on BrightOcular,
I'm, like, "Damn, bitch,
you're not that bad.
You got it hooked up.
Look at you, looking cute."
But you know what?
I can't keep this image.
This is not an image
that I can keep.
I was happy to give
my image for free...
and promote it,
and have them be
on the BrightOcular Instagram,
and even on their,
on their website,
and all that stuff,
and use my image
as much as they wanted,
if it was successful
and if it was correctly done,
and if I didn't have
any side effects,
and if it was
the, the eyes that I wanted.
It was just like
a full fantasy.
This procedure does give you
what it promises.
You will have
your eye color changed,
and the results
are indeed stunning.
You're the, the full deal.
I had women
circle back
and give me their phone number,
or circle back,
and I'll come back
the next day,
and the... One of the clerks
would be, like,
"Hey, this lady wanted me
to give you this."
It was flattering.
I was getting booked
in more jobs, in TV.
Everybody was just telling me
how pretty I was,
and I was getting the attention
that I always wanted to get.
I was trying
to escape the child
that went through
so much trauma, and I did.
I felt so beautiful.
I was in high heaven.
I thought this would
change my life.
I'm gonna look pretty in photos.
I'll be more approachable.
I'll...
Men will like me.
I can move on, I can,
I can lose weight,
because I'm gonna have
more confidence
and more motivation.
I'm telling you,
that right there
was gonna pay the bills.
Of course, looking
at all the testimonies,
and it was a lot
of testimonies, you know.
They said it was
all good, all safe.
And, you know,
they were all fine.
I fell for it.
I was excited for this
new look that I was about to
have,
with my positive mindset,
manifest that this was
gonna be a success,
and that nothing would be wrong.
I was thinking that
this is gonna be
a long-term, uh, fix
and that I will be able
to have blue eyes forever.
Roughly four months into this,
I started having cloudiness
in my eyes, in my right eye.
The doctors looked at my eye.
He said,
"Hey, we, we have a problem."
I woke up one day
and I was almost blind
from my left eye.
My doctor also freaked out
and he said,
"We have to remove
this implant now."
In removing them
was, uh, you know,
was a bitch to remove.
They were a bitch to remove.
They said that if I agree
to allow their videographer
take a promotional video of me,
that they would comp
the entire thing.
That should have been
my first red flag.
It's like a ticking bomb,
you know.
You put it inside.
You don't know
how long it's gonna last.
You don't know what damage
it's gonna do for you.
I'm a businesswoman
that's, you know, educated.
Someone that you would
not think would fall for this.
And I did.
I was willing
to sacrifice my vision.
And for what?
Blond hair and blue eyes?
Now, uh, I see that that was
the worst mistake of my life.
If I could turn back time,
I would never get it done.
Never.
Absolutely not.
I'm in control of my life now,
and I'm moving forward.
- Love that. Gorgeous.
- Oh, I love that one.
That's my favorite.
How could it be
your first photo shoot?
You're so gorg. You should
be shooting every day.
I would love to.
Okay, full lengths.
One, two, and three.
I'm free,
and I've left the past,
but I just... I want
my external appearance
to reflect that.
They really do
transform your life.
- Brilliant. Good.
- Thank you.
Again, this is
a Colombian emerald.
Very, very rare to find.
It matches
the color of your eye.
- And I think
you should try it on.
- Wow.
- Yeah.
- - I'll put it on for you if you want.
Yes, please.
I wanna transform
into someone else
that I've created in my head.
I feel unstoppable.
Like I could do anything
and be anything.
And I'm addicted
to that feeling.
Hi!
- Hi, sweetie.
- How are you?
Good. It's so amazing
to see you.
I know. I haven't
seen you in ages.
You look beautiful as always.
How are your eyes feeling?
- Mm...
- What is that face?
I have something...
The face?
Well, I'm gonna be honest,
because we're like
brother and sister in this.
Yeah, definitely.
You know, it's...
I... I've been,
been having issues,
and every doctor I spoke to
said it's just
the implants themselves.
- They're saying monthly
that it's getting bad.
- Really?
They're not saying yearly,
they're saying monthly
that it's getting bad.
Did they tell you,
like, when you should
actually take them out?
- Like...
- They said... Yeah,
they, they kept saying to me
that they wanted them out
as soon as possible.
I know it bo... It, it, it...
It's a psychological thing.
It is a psychological thing.
I definitely agree.
- It's like a part of who we
are. - And they think that...
But you don't want that either.
Because guess what?
You're gonna have
a daughter that's
gonna have
a blind mother? Listen.
- This is what's
going on with me.
- Yeah.
You just do what you wanna do.
And I want you to be happy.
- Definitely.
- And I want you to understand
what I'm going through.
Yeah. I don... I
can't see myself
going back to the old me.
I, I just don't.
You're beautiful, honey.
It's not about beauty.
It's different.
I don't know, it's just, like...
It is what it is.
Like, it's life, you know.
- And that first question.
- Mm.
Let's rewind everything.
Rewind.
Would you... If you had it
to do it all over again,
would you do it again?
Yeah.
- Really?
- I would.
- Wow. Okay.
- Yeah.
Oh, wow!
Your eyes are amazing.
Aw, I appreciate it.
That's very sweet. Thanks.
Oh, hey! Dave!
- Hey, what's up, bud?
- Long time, no see, man.
- Good to see you, bud.
- You back in New York?
Yeah.
Killer eyes, bro.
Thanks, brother. Thank you.
- Hi. You're Greg?
- Yes.
Hi. Nice to meet you.
- Likewise.
- Thanks for taking the time
- to talk to me.
- Yeah, of course.
I see you got
the new colored eyes. Wow.
Yeah.
I mean,
how do you feel about those?
Good and bad. Meaning that
they look really great.
Um, I love them for that.
But they've also had
difficult issues, you know.
The person that I was
looking up to that had 'em in
for ten-plus years,
he is now partially blind.
And then I had 'em in
for almost five years,
so I thought I was in the clear.
I thought I was good to go,
and then sure enough,
last year, I woke up and, um,
I had blood in my pupil,
and then I had to see
a cornea specialist.
And right away, he told me,
"I've dealt with this before.
I've specifically had to remove
BrightOcular implants.
And you're gonna
have to do the same."
And, you know,
it was kind of, like...
It crushed my heart,
you know, because
part of the reason
why I got them done
was because I wanted
the attention.
And that's what I got.
I had the attention every day
for four or five years. And
I didn't want to lose that.
It's so dis... It's
disheartening because I was like
the same...
That's the same
exact feelings that I had,
because I just expected it to be
this magic pill
that's gonna change my life.
But I, I also feel like
I, I was cheated.
Because I feel like...
I, I expected this to work.
You know, to come out
of this with nothing
and just having all these,
like, eye problems,
it's, it's very sad.
- And that... Yeah.
- I know that it's hard
right now.
You know, having a...
Accept the fact
that they are gonna come out.
But, you know, I promise you,
um, once you get 'em taken out,
it's... You're gonna
feel relieved.
You're gonna be okay.
Hi, my name is David,
and you probably know me
from the BrightOcular procedure
I had last year.
Let me give you
a little bit of information
on what is actually happening.
I actually have to remove them.
What BrightOcular does
is it makes you feel
as though
it's the right decision to make,
because they show you
all of these great testimonials
that make you believe
that everything
is gonna be safe,
and it's going to be great,
and you're gonna be
in the right hands.
I believed everything
they told me.
I believed everything
BrightOcular said.
I took it for truth.
Can't be fooled.
Can't be fooled by the pictures.
You can't be fooled
by the videos.
You can't be fooled
by what people tell you.
Because you'll end up like me.
Now it's become something like,
"Okay, I'm gonna lose
my superpowers."
Hey, Ma. Uh, I'm just
giving you a call
because I wanna
let you know that
I'm having surgery in Miami.
I'm having problems
with my eyes,
and I have to do it
in Miami because of insurance.
Um, I don't really wanna
get into too much detail
over the phone,
but I'll give you
a call soon, okay?
When I think aboutmy
relationship with my mother,
it's always a back and forth,
because there's always
a hope with her.
You try stuff
that I never think of trying.
So, you're, like, way ahead
of me in those things.
Like, you... You'll try
something that I would say,
"Mm-mm."
You're adventurous.
First of all, when I did it,
it's just that I, I wanted
so many, uh, things to change,
and I just wanted
to be a different person.
I think a lot of it was worth it
because I had a lot...
Some of it... I don't...
It's, it's hard to say.
Like, you experience
different things that you
wouldn't normally experience...
- Right. Exactly.
- With these eyes.
And that, and that
you could actually say,
"Yeah, they're mine.
They're not contacts."
So, you feel more
like they're yours.
Right. It's a part of me
that I... I'm very happy about,
I'm excited about.
And then, there's also
a part of me that I feel
like I'm losing.
But I also feel like
I've succeeded with
a lot of things
because a lot
of opportunities came from it.
But... when you take 'em out,
then what are you gonna do?
Are you... Did you get
the confidence you wanted?
- I mean...
- I feel like I made
a genuine choice to be happy.
Like, I made a, a, a choice.
Like, I'm not going
to be unhappy anymore.
- I'm gonna be confident
of whatever I do.
- Okay.
Like, being in my body,
I felt uncomfortable.
Everything bothered me
because I felt like
everybody's looking at me
in a negative way.
Some people even
don't like you for your looks
if you're attractive.
"He's good-looking."
"She's pretty."
"I don't like him."
I want you to know
that I know exactly
how you feel.
I learned that, you know what?
Wow! You know what?
I'm blessed.
You're blessed.
I wanna, I wanna share
what I've been through with you.
Why it was so difficult...
for me
to even find work
if I wasn't being cornered
by some man.
- Or, or...
- You don't think
I was there, Ma?
I know. I was there.
And I used to tell you that,
I said...
I used to tell you, "Ray,
be careful,
because you're good-looking.
People are gonna
do things to you."
- You don't think
that it happens?
- Yeah, it happened,
- but at least...
- So I know.
Yeah, but you ran away from me.
That's the difference.
I didn't, I didn't
run away from you.
The issue that I have
with my, my... With who I am,
and the problem that I have...
The problems that I have
is because I, uh, um...
The insecurities that I have
is because I'm always
been judged.
I was making $2.30.
Okay?
And you used to have asthma,
and you used to be so sick.
And I used to get up at one,
two o'clock in the morning,
all summer, all winter,
dragging you to the hospital.
I just couldn't do it.
And then go to work
and then come home
and take care of you kids.
Your father didn't help me
with you or nothing.
So I wound up in the streets
and stuff like that.
And I used to tell you,
"Ray, be careful. Be careful.
People would do things to you.
You're a good-looking kid.
They're gonna give you drugs.
They're gonna do this.
- Please be care...
- " 'Cause I already been through it.
It's things
that is difficult in life.
And I wanted you...
I love you so hard
- that I do the best I can.
- I know you do, Ma.
And I know there's things
that you do, and you help.
And you do...
I'm not saying you don't, Ma.
But there's times
that sometime...
And trust me, I appreciate it.
Just because
I can't accept everything
- doesn't mean
that I don't love you.
- Ma, I am not taking that.
I know that.
I would never, ever say
that you don't love me, Ma.
- So, don't ever think that.
- But you call me bitches,
-and you tell me... You...
-Because you made...
'Cause you know why?
- Because you pissed me off with
the things that you say to me.
- Yeah.
- Because you're not listening
to me, and I'm scared.
- Because you don't...
Because you... Listen.
'Cause you say things to me, Ma,
that really drives me nuts.
You know how to push
the buttons on me
- that nobody does, does.
- Yeah.
- If you work with me... - I...
I'm, I'm working with you.
- I'm sitting here.
- If we work...
- I'm sitting here, right?
- if we work together,
we could accomplish so much.
- Am I sitting here?
- Yeah.
Okay. So, the point about it...
I'm not saying
that you don't love me, Ma.
That's the point about it,
is, is that...
- And I, and I... - That's it. I
love you too much.
Well, then listen.
If you love me too much,
then you have to understand
why I'm sitting here with you.
I know, I know.
Things are good now.
- I'm happy that things are
good. - Okay.
So, there you go. Give me a hug.
Love you.
- Are you okay?
- It feels good.
- Oh, good.
- Your arms are so strong.
Thank you.
- Hey.
- How's it goin'?
- How's it goin'?
- Okay.
I bought you this for tomorrow,
'cause you're supposed to wear
loose clothing, right?
No, no. I don't know.
But, I mean...
Oh, you bought me this?
But I'll wear this tonight.
Come on, Maria. Come on.
Come on. Come on.
You can sleep with me tonight.
Ta-da!
I like that. I think it's cute.
I think so too.
Well, I mean, I'm, uh...
I couldn't get any more festive,
and definitely more crazy,
and like a four-year-old.
But it's still cute.
Are you excited about tomorrow?
Are you concerned
about tomorrow?
Uh, "excite" is probably
not the right word for me.
You know, I, I really...
wanted to keep 'em,
but I don't...
I know it's just not
the right thing to do
because it's not healthy.
Like always, you're number one,
you and your brother.
And there isn't anything
that I wouldn't...
- Ma, I appreciate you
coming, and...
- do for you.
And, and, you know,
taking the time.
Trust me, I do. And I know that
you're, you're here for my...
- To support me,
and I appreciate it.
- Absolutely.
But, you know, I'm just saying,
at this time, right now,
I just... I'm just trying my
best to just be strong about it.
And I know that in the end,
it's gonna be...
See, everything's
gonna be all right. I just...
I think I'm making
the right decision
to get this taken care of
the right way.
Okay, that's good.
All right, are you ready
to go to bed, Ma?
So I got a long day.
- And you too. Okay?
- Yeah.
Sweet dreams, Ma.
- Come here, pookie head.
- Love you.
I said goodbye
I said I hope
You will be happy
Happy to know
That we will meet again
I know
When people say
That you're dreaming
I just check in
With my feeling...
I think that I've struggled
for a lot in this last year.
Sometimes you need
to do something just to see
who you are,
to learn who you really are.
And maybe
I'll never know who I am
or what makes me feel whole.
I'm happy that I got
to try a dream.
You looked at life...
The eyes don't make me.
I'm growing into the person
that I wanna be.
Not knowing
what my future's going
to hold is a very scary thing,
but I also know
that I'm in control of it.
I can do this.
I can definitely do this.
I didn't know
If any part was real
I know
When people say
That you're dreaming
I just check in
With my feelings
Was it a dream?
Somehow it is not me
Who is fading
It's the one
That is changing
It is not what it seems