C'mon C'mon (2021) Movie Script

JOHNNY: Okay, I'm gonna ask you
a series of questions,
and there are no right
or wrong answers.
So when you think
about the future,
how do you imagine it'll be?
Like, what will nature be like?
How will your city change?
Will families be the same?
What will stay with you,
and what will you forget?
What scares you?
What makes you angry?
Do you feel lonely?
What makes you happy?
So we are goin'
around the country,
goin' to different cities
and interviewing kids,
ranging in age, um, just
about their... their life
and what they think
about the future.
ROXANNE: If I ask you anything
that you don't wanna answer,
or you don't like a
question or whatever,
you can just be like, "No."
- I want you to just
feel comfortable,
and if there's anything
that I ask you about
that you don't wanna talk about,
say "I don't really
wanna talk about that."
- I think adults always
think they're the boss,
and they always gotta be
the boss of everything.
And I think that some
adults have that mindset
where "I'm right
and you're wrong."
- When you think
about the future,
how do you imagine it'll be?
- I... [SIGHS]
I imagine and hope
it'll be good.
JOHNNY: And do you ever think,
like, what could
adults have done
to have made sure that we
went in the right path?
- Definitely most of all,
pay more attention
to, like, what's
going on around them,
'cause I feel like
that's a big problem
with, like,
literally everything.
Like, that's a big, big thing.
GIRL 1: They'll be like,
"Oh, you're from Detroit."
I was like, "Yeah."
Like, "It's really
dangerous there.
The schools are really terrible
and, like, nothing's
good there."
I was like, "Well,
how would you know?
You don't live there,
and you don't go
to school there.
You weren't raised in Detroit."
Like, "I've been raised
in Detroit all my life."
GIRL 2: America,
uh, it's so much...
It's so much tragedy,
and some people
aren't treated fairly,
because of race, because
of who they like,
because of where they live,
because of how much
money they have.
So I would want it to
become a better place
and people to know
that just because
someone isn't like you
doesn't mean that they're wrong,
but then I'm not sure.
GIRL 3: We're at
the point right now
where we have to change things,
and just based on
our morals as people,
I don't really see that
happening anytime soon.
JOHNNY: So, you're... You're
hopeful for the future?
Like, when you think
about the future,
you think it'll be
better or worse?
GIRL 4: For me, personally,
I feel like things
are gonna get better,
because I have a lot of
opportunities right now.
hopeful for myself,
for other people.
I don't know if things
are gonna get better,
it's really on the side,
but I really hope
things get better.
Um, but for the overall world,
once again I hope
it gets better,
but it might not,
like everything.
could have one superpower,
what would it be?
GIRL 4: That's a hard question.
Um, that's one of
the popular questions
that I ask people.
Some people say...
Detroit was the future.
So we came to...
We came to Detroit to talk
to young people, kids.
You know, we came to Detroit
to talk to kids, young people,
and to ask them
what they thought their
lives would be like,
how it's changing for them,
what are they inspired
by and excited by,
and what are their
lives like now?
- Hey.
VIV: Hi.
- Hi.
- It's nice that you called.
- I didn't know if
I was gonna call
or if you would...
If no one would...
- It's a good day to talk.
Maybe Mom's listening.
JOHNNY: Yeah, maybe.
It doesn't feel like
it's been a year to me.
Does it to you?
VIV: No, it's weird.
I didn't know what to
do with myself today.
JOHNNY: Yeah, I know.
If I just, um, work,
then I feel like
I'm not mourning
in the right way or whatever.
And if I sit in this
depressing hotel room
and just think about Mom,
then, yeah, it's
just pretty brutal.
So, yeah, I called you.
- Where are you?
- Um, I'm in Detroit.
I've been, um,
interviewing kids.
Uh, so that was cool.
VIV: Cool.
- Yeah.
- Jesse heard you on the
radio the other day.
- Oh, yeah?
VIV: Yeah, we were driving,
and there you were on
the radio as usual,
and I had to tell
him it was you.
- Really?
- He's nine, you know?
He didn't recognize your voice,
it's been a year.
It's a long time for a kid.
- Wow.
All right.
VIV: Yeah.
JOHNNY: How is Jesse?
VIV: Uh, he's so good.
He's smart, and he's so weird.
He's older, and he's funny,
and I don't know, he's...
He's... he's a whole
little person.
Um, and Paul moved to Oakland.
- He did?
- Yeah.
- Whoa, really?
- Yeah, it's okay.
I... It's... I think so.
Jesse is dealing
with it well so far,
but Paul's not.[CHUCKLING]
- He is...
- Hmm.
I mean, he... I'm just...
He's fine.
I just have to go up
and help a little.
Help him settle in.
- Oh, yeah?
- Yeah.
So I'm heading up there
soon, but we're good.
- So you taking...
You taking Jesse?
- No.
No, I don't think it's
that kind of trip.
- So who's watching Jesse?
VIV: I haven't gotten there yet.
- Hi.
- Say hi.
- [WHISPERS] "Hi, how are you?"
- How are you?
I'm good. How are you?
- I'm good.
- Hmm.
VIV: [WHISPERS] Wanna ask
Uncle Johnny to come in?
- You should ask me
if I wanna come in.
JESSE: Do you wanna come in?
- Thank you.
- Okay.
- I get a hug?
- Hi.
- Hi.
- We have, um, her dresses
um, all my homework stuff.
- Hmm, cool.
- Mom says you're gonna
sleep up here tonight
in her extra-big, cozy bed,
best bed in the house.
So there are these, um,
big, big, big, big,
big, um, little
like fungus tubes
or tubes that are fungus,
and they're connecting
all the trees.
So they're up here.
- Mm-hmm.
And they'd be really tall.
They get all the food,
and then you kinda,
like, go through the
tubes into another tree.
And then, um, well, they...
They would, like,
get all the food
and then it'll go through.
And so the tree needs... [FADES]
JOHNNY: So what's goin' on
with Paul? How's he doin'?
- Oh, I don't know.
I mean, he was offered this,
you know, incredible position
at the San Francisco Symphony,
which he totally deserves,
but the transition
fucked him up.
- Mm-hmm.
- Like transitions always do.
And... And then he
got a fucking dog,
which he should not
have gotten, so...
- No. No.
- So, yeah. It's just...
It's... It's... It's a
total mess as usual.
- And you have to clean it up?
- Yeah.
Yeah, that's Paul.
- What about Jesse?
What does he know?
- Nothing. I said I was gonna
help him get organized,
so we'll go together later.
- He gonna be okay just with me?
Like, what...
- He loves it when
I'm not around.
He'll have so much fun.
- Yeah?
- It's really good to see you.
JESSE: Hello?
Is anyone home?
- Hello?
- Uh, are you ready for this?
- God, what?
- Hello?
- Brace yourself.
There's this, uh, little orphan
who likes to come visit me.
In fact, he will
probably come visit you,
and he likes to pretend that,
uh, I have some dead children,
and he asks me a lot of
questions about what they did,
so he can do those same things.
- That's fucked up.
- Yeah.
It's really...
It's totally normal.
All the kids do this.
JESSE: Is anyone home?
- I'm coming.
- Hi.
- Hi.
- Is this the orphan?
- Mm-hmm.
Can I sleep here tonight?
They only have bunk
beds at the orphanage
and all the kids snore.
- Hmm, of course you can.
Uh, actually, my son's
not here tonight, so...
- I could take his
place if you want.
- That's a good idea.
He usually goes
to bed right now.
You know, this way, I
happen to have a room
with a bed just your size.
You wanna check it out?
- "Dorothy lived in the midst
of the great Kansas prairies
with Uncle Henry,
who was a farmer,
and Aunt Em, who was
the farmer's wife."
She hugged me, and
she felt different,
or I felt different,
and, yeah, Jesse maybe
vaguely remembered me.
Maybe. Maybe not.
Da, da. Da, da, da, da.
He told me about trees
communicating with each other
and how connected they were
by an underground
network of fungus.
- Love you, love you, love
you, love you, love you.
Love you, love you, love you.
Oh, cozy. Okay,
go back to sleep.
- Good morning.
- It's Saturday.
I get to be loud on Saturdays.
- Mom just left?
- Uh-huh.
She said you might
be a bit awkward.
- What?
- She said you might
be a bit awkward.
But you'll get used to things.
- Will you turn it
down a little?
- She left you some
notes in the kitchen.
- Is that a microphone
or is it a... in the headphones?
- Huh?
- Is it... Is the mic in
the headphones and...
Or is that the mic?
- This is the mic,
and I'm just gonna get
a quick little level.
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da.
So when you think
about the future,
what do you imagine?
- Um, I don't wan...
I don't wanna.
- You don't wanna imagine
what the future's like?
- I don't wanna do
the questions.
- Uh-uh.
- Oh, what's that?
- Um...
- There's a screw there,
and there's loads
of little buttons.
- Well, that's the...
That's the gain.
- The gain?
- Well, it's how you
know how much...
Here, put these on.
Do you see this?
- Can you hear that?
- I can...
- Yes.
- Hear that.
- Yeah. So this is what you
adjust for an input volume.
JESSE: Now it's super quiet.
JOHNNY: So turn it
all the way up,
you can feel that.
JOHNNY: Having fun?
JESSE: It all sounds
amazing in here.
My dad would love this.
JOHNNY: You need something?
- My mom tells me stories.
It can be fiction
or non-fiction.
- [SIGHS] Oh, boy, I
don't know any stories.
Can we just talk and
get to know each other?
- Why did she stop
talkin' to you?
- Um, we talk.
- No, you don't.
- [SOFTLY] I mean, I don't know.
- Did you used to talk a lot?
- Yeah.
- Johnny, where have you been?
- Hi.
- You can help me.
- Yeah, what do you need?
- He's coming to get me.
- Who's coming?
- I have to get dressed.
My dad's taking me to the DMV.
My sweater was over there.
Help me up.
I'm gonna get my license.
VIV: I don't know
why you give in
to those delusions like that.
JOHNNY: Are you serious?
VIV: Yeah, I'm serious.
- Are you fucking serious?
Easy, I got you.
- Hurry.
- Why wouldn't I entertain it?
Just let her have
that. Why you...
VIV: What's going on?
- My dad's coming to get me.
- Mom, why don't you, um...
Why don't we wait for
your dad lying down?
You just give in to her!
You always just give in to her!
- This is precisely...
- Whatever she wants!
- what you should give in to.
- What are you talking about?
- It's not her, though.
It's not even her...
JOHNNY: What is your problem?
VIV: You know what
my problem is?
JOHNNY: Yeah, yeah.
It's thatfor our entire lives,
I am the only one
whoever challenged them.
JOHNNY: Really? Really?
For our entire lives?
VIV: Yes. Yes, really.
So easy for you.
They made me feel like
I was a crazy person
again and again,
and you just went along with it.
JOHNNY: You don't exactly
make it easy to help you.
VIV: Well, maybe, but
I needed your help.
- Look, you're losing a
mom who adored you.
She just did.
And I'm losing one who
never understood me.
[SOFTLY] Okay, Mom.
JOHNNY: "It is kind of you to
wear that", said Boq.
"Blue is the color
of the Munchkins,
and white is the witch color.
So we know you are
a friendly witch.
Dorothy didn't know what to say.
Dorothy did not know
what to say to this,
for all the people seemed
to think her a witch,
"and she knew..."
- Why aren't you married?
- Um, I was with...
I was with somebody for
a long time, Louisa.
"And she knew very well
she was only an
ordinary little girl
who had come by the
chance of a cyclone
into a strange land."
- Did you love her?
I still do.
- Then why did you break up?
- I don't know.
Um... "When she had tired
watching the dancing,
Boq... Boq led her
into the house,
where he gave her a room
with a pretty bed in it."
I don't think it was my choice.
Mm, I think, um,
you love each other,
and then you still
love each other,
but find it hard to express
that love to each other,
and so then you
look at each other,
and you do this.
And you go, "Oh."
You... You know, I mean,
I hope you don't
have the experience,
but you probably will.
It's all right, actually.
Um, "The sh..."
"Pretty bed in it.
The sheets were
made of blue cloth,
and Dorothy slept soundly..."
Okay, good night.
- Um, so what happened...
JOHNNY: Read him
The Wizard of Oz,
kissed him on the head,
and said good night,
and he asked me why
am I not married.
I didn't tell him
that I wanna be,
that I miss Louisa.
I made it into a weird joke.
Why'd I do that?
Not so long ago,
in an Arctic village far away,
there lived a polar bear family.
There was a papa polar
bear, a mama polar bear,
and a baby polar bear,
and they all loved
each other very much,
but something was
not quite right.
Baby bear knew
something was wrong.
He never said a word,
but he worried all the time.
He worried about his papa.
You see, Papa Bear
had a hard time
controlling his feelings
and sometimes he did
things that upset,
and even scared
Mama and Baby Bear.
- So should I call
you like "Papa"
or "Dad" or just "Johnny"?
JOHNNY: You can call me
whatever feels
comfortable to you.
- Uh, I... I don't know,
it's just I'm not used
to being able to choose.
- Maybe we can just take
this process slowly
and... [CHUCKLES]
And see... See how it feels.
- Mm-hmm, yeah.
And I'm just really sorry
that your children died.
- Um, you know, I don't
think I can do that part.
- Yeah, I... I told you
that's how me and Mom do it.
- If it's... makes sense
for your mom to do that,
that's cool, but it
doesn't make sense for me
and that's what I was
explaining to you.
- Why it doesn't make
sense for you? It's...
- Because it's ridiculous.
- Is it...
- It's sad.
The question is why
do you wanna do it.
- You are just terrible at this.
- Oh, man, I'm tryin'.
Let... Let me ask
you a question.
Why does everything have to
be like this kind of weird,
eccentric thing that you do?
- 'Cause I like it.
- Yeah, but why not just
do something normal?
- What's normal?
- Like everything in
your real life...
- What's normal?
- Okay, fine. Good point.
BOY: [ON TAPE] The only
thing that I do have
is that I know that I'm safe.
I'm in a home where
people care about me
and I have friends that
care about me and...
- That's the total randomness.
Like there was nothing.
It was like a triangle
one on this one
and a square on this one,
and half of the block
would be a triangle,
and the other half
would be a wood,
and they'll be like,
"Can you figure it out?"
It looked very similar
to this floor here.
JOHNNY: Hey, what's...
what's going on?
VIV: Oh, it's really bad.
He really needs to go
somewhere for help
and he's not letting me,
uh, get him there.
- I'm sleeping,
I'm going to work, I have...
- Are you sleeping?
- I am sleeping!
- How many hours
do you usually...
- [SIGHS] Does that matter?
I'm sleeping, I'm sleeping!
VIV: [ON PHONE] You know,
he's totally fucking paranoid.
Just the second I bring it up...
Yeah, you know, I just tried
to put some things in a bag
and he totally fucking
lost his mind.
- And you took all these clothes
if I'm gonna be there for a
month or two months or whatever.
- No, no, no, we don't...
we don't have to.
- No, no, no. Because I want
all my things there.
VIV: I know that I can get
him to check himself in,
but I've just...
I've gotta lay off
and just slow down.
So can you stay
with Jesse for me
for another couple of days?
I called Jesse's school
and put you on the list,
and you can... You can
just bring him to school
and pick him up.
Can you do that?
- Yeah, I can.
- Oh, thank you.
- But, uh, Viv, you know,
I'm supposed to do these,
um, interviews on Friday
back in New York, um,
but I'll figure it out.
- You will? You can...
You can do that?
- Yeah, don't...
I'll figure somethin' out.
- Okay.
Thank you. Thank you.
And listen, you just don't
say anything to him, okay?
JOHNNY: Yeah, okay.
I think our first one
is maybe 9:00 on Saturday.
Will you be back for that?
- Yeah, definitely.
Is that something where
I'll see you before that
or should I send you
the pre-interview notes
Fernando gave us
for like the plane?
- Um... Yeah, I'll be there,
but, um, yeah, just send it,
just... just so I have
it and I'll look at it,
but, no, I'll be in, um, Friday.
Well, I don't know, I haven't
figured out a ticket yet,
but, um...
- Okay.
- I'll figure somethin' out.
- And how's...
How's like Vivs and stuff?
- Good.
- Yeah?
- Good. Yeah.
Yeah, it's, um,
I mean, you know,
we're just working out,
but, um, this kid
is fucking great.
- Yeah?
- He's got... He's got the
gear on and he's, uh...
- Oh, have you been showing him
like audio recording stuff?
JOHNNY: Have you
been to New York?
- No.
- Never been to New York?
- Never ever been to New York.
- You don't think all the,
like, sunshine and sand,
and bodies is kinda boring?
- No.
- Oh, man.
You know, you should
come with me.
- What?
- Yeah, come with
me to New York.
- Like... Like, right now?
- Well, not right
now, but, yeah,
I have to go this weekend
to do interviews and stuff,
and you can help me.
You know, record sound
and maybe I can,
like, weave that into the show.
I think it'd be fun.
- I'd love that.
- Hi!
Come here.
Uh, so Paul is gone.
Uh, he doesn't answer his phone,
I don't know where he went.
- Uh, does he even want help?
I feel like he just...
He just wants you back
taking care of him.
- Oh, God. Oh, please,
don't... Don't start.
I can't do this
with you right now.
- Just hear me out for a second.
I know you're stressed out,
but just hear me
out for a second.
What if Jesse came
with me to New York?
He said that he wanted to
and I think that, um...
- What do mean, he
said he wanted to?
You already asked him?
- No, we talked
about New York...
- Oh, God, you
already asked him.
- And he said he'd
never been there.
Calm down.
- Johnny, you don't ask
a nine-year-old kid
if they want go to New York
before you ask their mother!
- Viv, I wanna help,
I wanna help.
- Jesus Christ!
- Listen to me.
I'm tryin' to help you and
this is a way that I can help.
- Well, that's not helpful.
I'll call somebody else.
I'll figure it out.
JOHNNY: And I sat on the wall
waiting for him to
come out of school,
and then I heard all the
kids coming out of school,
running down the
steps, talking loud,
and then he came down.[CHUCKLES]
And then, this
stupid little voice
with this cute little
fucking hair and face,
he was like,
"Did you talk to Mom?"
I said, "Yeah."
"Well, what did she say?"
"She loves you very much."
'Cause I couldn't tell him.
- So listen, can you find
somebody in New York
to watch him when
you're working?
Is that a realistic plan
that you could make happen?
- Yes.
- Yeah?
- Yes.
- Who would that person be?
- I'll find someone.
I'll figure it out, I promise.
- Okay. Okay.
I called Jesse's teacher,
and said there's a
family emergency,
and I'll be out
for about a week.
I'll send you his assignments.
- Don't worry.
VIV: Okay, okay.
- Okay.
- Okay.
JOHNNY: "Motherhood is the
place in our culture
where we lodge, or rather bury,
the reality of
our own conflicts,
of what it means
to be fully human."
"It is the ultimate
scapegoat for our personal
and political failings,
for everything that is
wrong with the world,
which it becomes the task,
unrealizable of course,
"of mothers to repair."
"What are we doin' to
mothers when we expect them
to carry the burden
of everything
that is hardest to
contemplate about our society
and ourselves.
Mothers cannot help,
but be in touch
with the most difficult aspects
"of any fully-lived life."
"Why on earth should
it fall to them
to paint things bright,
and innocent, and safe"
SINGER: It's gonna
rock you dead,
come upside your
head. You get ready?
You said, here we go.
Yay, all right, come on.
Come on. Come on, let's go.
All right, everybody, get
down on your basement.
Get ready, yeah, okay.
Hey, put your hands up
Upside your knees
Now do the ostrich
Do the ostrich
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Do the ostrich
Hey, take this forward
and step on your head
And do the ostrich
Do the ostrich
All right
Do the ostrich
Here, we go, oh, whoa!
All right
Do the ostrich
You take a step forward
then you turn to the right
And do the ostrich
Do the ostrich
Oh, oh, whoa,
whoa, yeah, yeah
Do the ostrich
You turn to left
And then you feet
upside your left
And do the ostrich
Do the ostrich
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Do the ostrich
Now, you go, whoa...
- It's so long.
- Do you like it here?
- What?
- Do you like it
here in New York?
- Yeah.
- What do you like better?
Recording here or at the beach?
- Here.
But I like the...
I like the skaters.
- You like the skaters?
Yeah, you know, what I
love about recording?
What I love about recording?
You can hear me?
- Yep.
- Oh, whatever, I'm so...
- No, no, no, no!
No, no.
- [CHUCKLES] No, just...
- Oh, okay, okay.
And in a way it's cool,
because you get to keep
these sounds, right?
You keep it forever.
You make like this
mundane thing,
like be immortal,
and that's cool and fun.
- Hey.
FERN: Hey. What's up?
JESSE: Hello.
FERN: Nice to meet you.
JOHNNY: This is Jesse.
FERN: Jesse, this is Fern.
JESSE: Hello.
JOHNNY: This is the
sweetest man in New York.
He's gonna help take care
of you while I'm workin'.
FERN: Also notice how
Johnny just like lights up?
- I know.
He is like a...
like a mini Johnny.
- Right.
With the... with the...
With the little hoods...
- Yeah, the little hoods.
- And the flopsy hair.
What? Yeah.
- Just hangin' out.
- Uh-huh.
- You know, we're gonna hold
off till we eat more.
We're gonna hold off
till we eat more.
ROXANNE: I'm sorry.
We're gonna hold off
till we eat more.
It's right here.
ROXANNE: Mm-hmm.
So if you eat this,
'cause it's melting,
if you eat this as
quick as you can,
not too fast, but just get
so many... A few more bites
and you can have the ice cream.
ROXANNE: Go for it. You did it.
Enough. Enough.
ROXANNE: Craziest thing
you've seen on the internet.
JESSE: Okay.
- So I... I like conspiracies.
FERN: Perfect. Great.
FERN: Tell us...
- Uh, let's eat... Just a
little bit of broccoli
and then talk about...
JESSE: Okay, a little bit of
broccoli and then we can talk?
- then you
can talk about conspiracies.
- Yeah, the government got,
like, a colony of ants.
This is how I think it happened.
FERN: Okay.
- And like in the rock
and they place it
inside a dead person.
- And they made him alive
and he has a plan...
planets of ants inside of him.
- Oh, this is scary stuff.
- Do, um... Uh, I know one.
Oh, I'll show you SCP.
FERN: Yeah. No screen time.
- Do SCP 1.
- Not screen time
right now, come on.
- One of them, it was a big
thing that they found
in like a forest
and they took the
face off of it.
ROXANNE: Wait, like...
- And injected it with
a bunch of injections
to make it powerful.
FERN: Whoa.
JESSE: It was meant to be
like a government weapon...
they were gonna use.
ROXANNE: Do you... Do all
your friends act like you?
JESSE: And that
would be a big no.
JOHNNY: Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
JESSE: What up,
Sunny Spa E Broadway?
I don't know what that says.
JOHNNY: Hey, hey,
hey, hey, hey, hey.
JESSE: Whoa! Come on. Hey.
Hey, what's goin' on?
- Oh.
JOHNNY: Made it back.
And I was tired.
So tired,
but he wasn't.
So do you have your toothbrush,
'cause I don't see it.
- No.
- Come on, I...
I told you to pack it.
What? You didn't bring it?
- Um, I didn't.
Do you have trouble
expressing your emotion?
- Well, I'm feeling pretty
frustrated right now.
- That's good.
Just sit down, you can
let it all come out.
- Hey, you okay?
- My friends don't talk
like me, because...
I don't really have friends.
I mostly hang out with adults.
JOHNNY: No, Jesse,
no. Back to bed.
I did? I don't... I don't
remember saying that.
I took him to the
couch, I laid him down,
and I sat with him
till he was asleep.
I got up and slowly started
walking back to my room.
- Can't I just sleep
with you tonight?
Oh, why did you let me
eat all that sugar?
Mom would not let me eat that.
- Oh, my God, you said
that she would let you.
- Can you tell me about Mom
when she was a little girl?
- I said, She was cute.
He said...
JESSE: I heard about
her boyfriends,
and she ran away,
and she got in trouble
all the time.
And I heard that she
got an abortion.
-[WHISPERING] What the
fuck do I say to that?
I didn't even know about it.
You know, a woman's body is, um,
like a... [HESITATES]
um, maybe every person.
Like you have the right...
[CLEARS THROAT] of your own body
and a woman certainly
has the right.
It's like... it's called
the right to choose.
Okay, now fuck that. Um...
- Let me tell you how my
mom puts me to sleep.
Now, lay down.
- Okay.
- Rest your feet,
rest your legs.
Rest your hands, rest your arms.
- My mom would never do this.
- [SOFTLY] Rest your eyes.
Rest your mouth.
Rest your jaw.
Rest your mind.
No more thoughts tonight.
No worries.
Just stars in the sky.
JOHNNY: So what? Does he
have something that it...
Is it a sleeping problem?
Listen, he's probably
just over stimulated.
Did you give him sugar?
Did you let him watch
shit on your computer?
- No.
- 'Cause that makes him crazy.
- You're just, uh, used to this.
JESSE: Like, why are
there so many scratches?
VIV: I'm not used to it.
I fucking hate it sometimes.
I mean, I love him
more than I...
I can even understand
and that makes it
even worse when I can
barely stand to be in
the same room with him,
going on and on,
talking, talking...
- Another stick.
- Relentlessly about nothing
random nothingness,
interrupting every
thought I might have...
- Kick, kick, kick, kick.
- Oh, God, and I know.
- From making him lunch
and doing the dishes,
from making lunch and
then doing the dishes,
from making dinner and
then doing the dishes,
from lunch, and then
going grocery shopping,
on, and on, and on, and
on, he never stops.
- Bees!
- It's a fucking nightmare.
- Yeah. [GRUNTS]
[ON PHONE] Slow down!
- Do you think I'm horrible now?
- No, no, I have so
much sympathy.
- Listen, you just have to get
some protein into him, okay?
You know, those disgusting
little, uh, rolls,
the salami and cheese things,
just... He loves them.
JESSE: Where are we going now?
JOHNNY: I have to find you
some disgusting salami
and cheese rolls.
ROXANNE: Historically, New
York represents the future
and possibility for
so many immigrants.
JOHNNY: We ask today's
children of immigrants
what they think about the future
and the world they live in now.
GIRL 1: I never thought
that I would be this scared
about like what might
happen in the future,
but then now,
I'm starting to think about it,
like, I can't... I can't...
I just can't imagine
animals going extinct,
pollution, like, the
Earth dying, basically.
BOY 1: So my fears
would be like loneliness
and, like, you know,
just like people not
understanding you
even though they're
there to understand you
and stuff like that.
It's just really scary,
'cause it feels like
you have nobody.
BOY 2: My mom always
tells me like,
I hate kids that cry.
There was one time I told
her, Oh, my gosh, I can...
Like, I could cry, uh,
like, it's like a human thing
to do, and then she's like,
No, you're supposed to
be, uh, strong and stuff.
So, yeah, I think that's
what I hate the most.
GIRL 2: When people
end up saying,
Oh, words don't hurt,
it... like it gets to me so bad.
People will just judge
you without even knowing.
It's like not even their
fault that they don't know.
They probably just
wasn't raised like I am
knowing how to treat people,
how not to treat people.
GIRL 3: I don't like
when everyone's
just in a stressed mindset
and they're very closed
into themselves.
They just don't
speak to each other
and they're just like
kind of hiding away
from like real life.
BOY 2: I feel like people
who try to express
their emotions,
like they... they would
get a lot of hate.
It happened like more
in the 20th century.
So instead of
letting them be them,
they wanted to oppose them
in like bad horrible ways.
But I feel like now you could
speak your feelings easier,
but not easily.
Oh, sorry.
Texting. Texting.
- Ha, ha, ha.
- I am tex...
- Oh, what...
what are you doing?
Uh, hey, who are
you mimicking here
with that fancy
texting you're doing?
- You're doing fancy texting.
- But I'm actually
texting something.
- No you're not.
- Uh, here.
- Health and beauty.
- Oh, here it is.
All right, grab one of those
and I'll find toothpaste.
- For some reason, they're
not in the same aisle.
I am a toothbrush
- Mm-mm, not... Not that one.
That'll flip your mom out.
I am your toothbrush
You can't get that one.
Come on, find which
one you want.
- Oh, she's not here, so...
- Well, she's right.
- Can I please have it?
- Oh, come on, you...
You don't need a song...
- Please.
- to brush your teeth to.
The next thing you
know, you're gonna need
electronic stimuli
for everything you do.
You know, it's important to
just live in it, you know?
Peace and quiet.
Your generation is
completely lost.
Hey, did you see a little
kid running around here?
Did you see a kid here?
- Jesse!
What are you doin'?
- You should see your face.
- Hey, you can't do
that, you understand?
You can't do that to somebody.
- You're freakin' out.
- Stop it.
- Stop it.
- You stop it.
- You stop it.
- Stop!
- Stop!
- Enough!
- Enough!
- You stop now!
- Get off!
JOHNNY: Sorry, it's
so ridiculous.
Do you know I just...
I just said, you know,
You can't have that toothbrush,
and I went around the corner
for a second to grab toothpaste,
and then he disappeared.
So I'm runnin' after
him, tryin' to find him,
and he jumps out, scares me,
and, yeah, I... I got angry
and I yelled at him.
I yelled at him.
- That's... It's...
It's fucking awful.
I've done it.
I know that look in
those little eyes,
it's the worst.
But it's okay also.
You know, you just
have to explain to him
that you were scared,
and that's why you yelled,
and then you
apologize, you know?
He's... he's a person, you
just be honest with him.
It's called doing a repair.
There's scripts for it online.
- Okay, sounds...
- Let me... Let me...
- Sounds easy.
- This is not...
- Okay.
- This is not easy.
- No, I know.
I know, it's not. Um, yeah.
- Let me talk to him and...
- Okay.
- Now, I'll yell at him.
- All right, thank you
for talking me down.
Now, hold on.
Hey, Jesse, it's your mom.
JESSE: Hello.
- Hi, sweetie. Hi. Are you okay?
- I'm okay.
I was just jokin' around,
he didn't need to call you.
- I know. I know you were,
but you really scared
him, Jesse, okay?
You can't do that.
- Mom, why are you
taking his side?
- I'm not on his side.
Sweetie, there are no sides,
but you have to listen
to Johnny, okay?
You're staying at his house,
he's taking care of you.
- Why?
Why is he taking care of me?
- Sweetie, come on.
Just be nice to Johnny.
I am a toothbrush
My name is funky brush
- I don't even know you.
Why my mom let me come with you?
- Hey, man, come on.
Jesse, you wanted to come.
- I didn't really have a choice.
[SIGHS] She's a
horrible, horrible mom.
- I know you don't
really feel that way.
- My feelings are inside me.
You don't know what they are.
- I think you're mad at me,
because I scared you and...
- No, she just does
what she wants.
- No, that's not true, Jesse.
- You don't know what you're
talkin' about. She does!
- Well, why do you
think you're here?
Do you think that your mom
really wants to
be away from you?
She's tryin' to help your dad.
- Well, why does he need help?
- He, um...
- What's wrong with him?
- He just... He... [STAMMERS]
Do you wanna call her?
- [TEARFULLY] I want my mom.
- Hey, I'm so sorry.
Hey, hey, Jesse.
JOHNNY: I thought I was helping,
and somehow it got away from me.
I don't know even how.
- What... What does he know?
Did... Did he know?
Does he know everything?
- [SIGHS] Yeah, he knows.
Um, let me talk to him.
- Hey, Jesse.
JESSE: Just tell her I'm fine.
JOHNNY: Come on,
just talk to her.
JESSE: She's impossible.
JOHNNY: Hey, hey, hold
on, hold on, hold on.
Viv, you're...
You're on speaker.
honey, listen to me,
your dad's gonna be fine.
- Is it like before?
- Yeah.
Yeah, it's like before,
but he's gonna be fine, okay?
And I didn't wanna worry you,
but I messed up, okay?
I should have told
you, I'm sorry.
Tell her I'm fine.
- Um...
Viv, I'm so sorry, uh...
- It's fine, it's fine.
Um, just tell him I love
him and I miss him, okay?
- Okay.
I'm gonna go get him.
- What's your child like,
you know,
fighting about washing his hair,
'cause I could do that anytime.
- You don't wanna talk?
- Mm, I am talking.
- Are you gonna be like normal?
- I am talking, like,
you know, normal.
- Okay.
- We have to wash our own
hair at the orphanage.
- Ooh, that's harsh.
- It is.
- Hmm, sorry about that.
- It is harsh.
Not even as a punishment, just,
Wash your hair, you dumb kids.
- Yeah.
What an awful place.
- Yeah.
- Okay. [INHALES]
Do you want to fight
about washing your hair
and then I'll wash your hair?
All right, I think we have
to wash your hair, young man.
- Why don't you wash
your hair, old man?
- Well, you first.
- No, you first.
- I'm telling you right now,
you're gonna have
to wash your hair.
- I'm telling you right now
you're gonna wash
your hair, old man.
JOHNNY: Nice. Is
that how I sound?
JESSE: Yeah.
- Ugh.
- You're like old Johnny,
I'm Johnny.
-Yeah, well, that's the way
to wash your hair, old man.
VIV: [ON PHONE] The Tin Woodman
gave a sigh of satisfaction
and lowered his ax.
'This is a great
comfort, ' he said.
'I have been holding that ax
in the air ever since I rusted
'and I'm glad to
put it down at last.
'Now, if you will oil
the joints of my legs,
'I shall be all
right once more.'
So they oiled his legs
until he could move them freely,
and he thanked them again
and again for his release.
Are you guys still there?
JESSE: Keep reading, Mama.
I might have stood there always
if you had not come
along, he said.
How did you happen to be here?
We are on our way
to the Emerald City
to see the great Oz,
she answered.
- So does he just like
walk in to a room
and pretend to be an orphan?
- There's different scenarios.
- It's... It's... Listen...
- [CHUCKLES] Okay.
- You don't wanna get into
that, I promise you.
Okay. All right, I'll
leave that between you.
- I'm trying like to figure
out how to talk to him
and so I'll try to play along...
- Yeah.
- In an indirect way
and like, this is ridiculous.
He wants to say something.
I have to be open and so I say,
Hey, man, I know
you wanna talk about something?
- Yeah.
- And... Yeah, and I
look at him like this,
like real earnest.
- Yeah, sincere.
And then, he just
is like dismissive,
and makes me feel stupid,
and then I feel crushed...
And... And...
know it's funny now,
but when it happens,
it's... It's frustrating.
- Yeah. He seems like
he's doing good.
- He is, but he should
be holding the mic
if he wants to get that,
you hold the mic up.
- No, he's gotta
find his own way!
- Yes.
- That's how we all did.
JOHNNY: Let's say
somebody your age
that was coming from another...
AnoBOY: Yeah.y...
What would you tell
them about the US?
TEENAGER: You come here and
you'll see a lot of bad,
but it's beautiful.
Even though there could be like
problems here and there,
you know,
you see all these good people
who just have kind hearts
and, you know, and they
don't even know you.
There's been a lot of
issues with my dad.
He's in jail right now,
so everything is,
like, crazy, you know?
My little sister,
she didn't, like, really see
what was actually going on.
The stuff that I went
through, I don't want her
to know any of that or just be,
like, have to think about that.
You have a lot of
responsibilities in your life,
and sometimes they
just come to you,
and you can't really
do anything about them.
They're just there.
I feel like a responsibility
to like that I'm proud to take,
because I love her a lot,
and basically, it
wouldn't matter to me
if she sees me as a
father or a brother.
Yeah, that's pretty
much it. [CHUCKLES]
- You're a good man.
How... How often do you...
do you get to visit your dad?
Yeah, I feel like that's
one of my like motivations
to just think about the future.
Everything that could happen...
JOHNNY: I ask for trust,
cooperation, and permission
without knowing
where the experience
will lead the subject.
I can and will leave a place,
a situation, a problem,
but the people I
interview cannot.
The work offers the interviewer
access and a reason
to stay in a world
that's not my own,
complete distraction
from my own life,
a sense of invincibility,
a sense of invisibility.
I traffic in hope without
the ability to know
what will happen in the future.
The work offers the
subjects a chance to speak
of things they have
never spoken of,
a chance to see
themselves as subjects
worthy of time and attention.
The work offers the subjects
the creation of
an image of self,
the distribution of
which they cannot control
on a global scale,
in perpetuity.
- you know, there's, like,
a lot of Chinese
people actually,
so it's not, like,
hard to communicate.
Sometimes in other
places, I'm actually...
VIV: [ON PHONE] You let
Johnny interview you yet?
JESSE: [ON PHONE] Oh, God, no.
VIV: That seems
like a smart move.
Too many questions
with that guy, right?
Not enough answers.
Oh, I miss you so much, babe.
- I miss you, too, Mama.
JOHNNY: Excuse me, please.
Thank you.
- We've been goin' around
the country asking kids
what they think the
future would be like.
- Uh-huh.
- Um...
If there's anything
you don't wanna answer,
you can just say skip or no,
or I do not want to
do this question.
- Okay.
- Why don't you and my mom
act like brother and sister?
- This one?
- Yep.
Why are you alone?
- I mean, who cares?
Blah, blah, blah.
The same... [GIBBERING]
Yeah, exactly, who cares?
- Did you tell my mom to leave
my dad when he first got sick?
Did you?
- I told her to take
care of herself.
- Blah, blah, blah.
- No, it's not blah, blah, blah.
- It is.
- No, it's not.
- It is.
- Okay...
- Means you did it.
- There were many things
that were done, and everybody
said a lot of things,
and there was a lot of concern,
and sometimes we don't
completely understand
why we're doing the things
that we're doing, right?
But I never did anything
because I wanted
to hurt your mom
or hurt your dad or hurt you.
I only wanted
everything to be okay.
- Oh, blah, blah,
blah, blah, blah.
- Hmm.
Maybe... Maybe it is blah,
blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
- Blah, blah, blah,
blah, blah, blah.
- Exactly.
- Coming from somewhere unknown,
he's as tall as a small person!
Jesse the Man!
- Watch it, man.
- Wait, wait, wait, wait.
Have to do my expression, too.
You can't just jump
right into it, okay?
Go back. Do your introduction.
All right!
I'll rise up from the volcano
and destroy you!
That's how you do it.
- Then, he just said,
"Pack my bag, get my stuff,
take me to the hospital."
"If you don't, I'm just
gonna run away again, right?"
Which is true.
So I took him to the ER,
which was fucking awful.
MALE NURSE: Absolutely, Paul.
- The milligrams have
to be specific...
- We'll make sure that they are.
- Because Dr. Marklin said that,
and he worked on it
for three months,
and it was still
going back and forth.
- Well, I'm not Dr. Marklin,
VIV: I mean, you can't
believe it, Johnny,
it's so humiliating.
They just asked him
the same questions
over and over, and over again.
- I have been eating
and I have been sleeping
the regular amount
that I usually eat and sleep.
You ask me a question,
I answer it,
and then all of a
sudden you ask her.
Like, just why don't you ask her
the goddamn question.
VIV: And then we finally
got him into a real center.
- I've done this before,
I know it all.
NURSE: Yeah, no
shoelaces, you're right.
VIV: He was so scared.
- I'm gonna have you sign off
that you're gonna be
taking those things home.
VIV: Okay, sure, right here?
- And then when I was leaving,
he asked me in the sweetest...
In the sweetest way
if I could just stay
until he was a little better.
That's what he said,
Just a little better.
- Oh, I'm so sorry.
- And I want Jesse to
have his dad, you know?
I mean, what the fuck can I do?
I've gotta...
- Yeah, you gotta stay with him.
Really, Viv, we're doin' okay.
You just take care
of what you need to.
Jesse can keep
staying here with me.
We're havin' a great time.
someone in New Orleans
who can get us kids and
I think we should do it.
JOHNNY: Okay, I know,
but I got Jesse and
I just don't know
if I can make that,
um, trip right now.
ROXANNE: Uh, I don't
wanna go solo.
it's sort of like
we told, like, audiences,
and funders...
JESSE: Johnny!
- And everybody that we...
- Johnny!
Were gonna go to
multiple cities.
- Johnny. Johnny,
let's go to the park.
- I think we have to do it.
- JOHNNY: Stop, stop. Please.
- Johnny.
- JOHNNY: Stop.
- Unfortunately...
- Get off your phone.
- Yeah, what?
Are you... Are you with Jesse?
How's it going?
- Yeah, yeah, fine.
So what...
Where we at with things?
I think New Orleans
was a good idea.
I know someone down there.
She can get us kids.
We just need to tell
them we wanna do that
and then we can have Fern,
like, start booking
everything for us.
- I know, but a lot...
- Can you hear me?
- Hold on a second.
Just, like, give me a sec.
- You were jazzed about the
idea like two days ago.
- Jesse?
- You were like we just need to
get you back to that spot.
- This is not a great time.
- Yeah, yeah.
- I, uh...
Listen, let me, um...
Let me call you back,
okay? I'll call you back.
- Okay, okay.
- Jesse?
Fuck. Oh, fuck.
Oh, fuck.
Wait, wait! Jesse.
- Where'd you go?
- I was right there!
- No, you weren't!
- I was on the phone,
I turned around one second
and you were gone!
Hey, listen, you can't
do that, you understand?
- You lost me!
- I didn't lose you.
- You did.
- I lost you? Okay,
okay, I lost you.
I'm the worst uncle
in the world!
What... What are you doin'?
You, uh... Hey, come here!
What are we doin' here, huh?
- I don't know.
- That could have been
really, really bad.
- I don't need you.
- You so need me.
VIV: He can feel how fucked up
things are right now, okay?
So in his... In his little
inarticulate kid way,
he's saying, I'm feeling
out of control right now.
Can you handle it?
Can you take care of
me feeling this way?
If I run away from you,
if I hide from you,
even if I jump on this bus,
am I gonna be okay?
- Oh, I'm just, like, in
this fucking fantasy
that you know, I got
everything under control
and, uh, you know,
I'll... I'll be there,
I'll figure it out,
I'll get you snacks,
and I'll pack your bags,
and we'll go off,
I'm thinking of goin',
I don't know what
I'm fucking doing.
- Yeah.
Yeah, welcome to
my fucking life.
I... Nobody knows
what they're doing.
Nobody knows what they're
doing with these kids.
You just have to keep doing it.
- I ran up and down the street
calling out his name.
I saw him from across the street
as a bus passed in front of me.
I ran towards him,
screaming out his name, Jesse.
He was mad at me, he was scared.
He turned, and he walked away,
and got onto a bus.
I don't like feeling this,
but I feel like he's spoiled,
or I am.
- I can't believe
you're doing this.
- I know, but I can't take
care of you right now.
- You can.
- No, but as soon as
I get done with work,
I'll come out to LA and...
And we'll do whatever you want.
All right? I'd like that?
- My stomach hurts.
- I'm sorry.
- I need to poop.
- You do?
- Right now.
- Really?
- I need to poop.
- You can't...
you can't hold it.
- I can't hold my poop.
- Okay. Um, excuse me, sir,
could you please pull over
at a gas station or diner?
- Thank you. Okay, just hold on.
Okay, I'll be right back.
Hey, is there a
bathroom he can use?
WAITER: Down over there.
- Thank you.
Okay, hold it,
just hold, hold on.
You okay?
- No.
- Okay, well, hurry up,
'cause we got...
We gotta go to the airport.
- What?
Are you going poop?
- No.
- Do you even have to
go to the bathroom?
- No.
You got me. You got me.
You got me. You... Shit.
[CLICKS TONGUE] All right,
fun time's over, let's go.
Time to come out.
- No!
- Jesse, come out right now.
- No!
- Jesse, come out right now!
- I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I hid,
I'm sorry I ran onto the bus,
I'm sorry, Johnny, I am sorry!
I heard you talking
on the phone.
You can't take care of me.
I don't wanna go home.
My mom is just gonna
be sad about my dad
and my dad's not even there.
- Okay.
All right, just, um...
I'll be right back,
stay in there.
You can blame me
Try to shame me
And still I'll care for you
You can run around
Even put me down
Still I'll be
there for you...
TEENAGE GIRL: New Orleans is
like... Is very different.
You don't see it anywhere else
and, like, sometimes
I understand
why people wanna come here,
because it's like so beautiful
and just so different
to where it's, like,
sometimes we need something
different in our lives.
I feel like people are
sometimes being selfish
when they come here,
so they're like,
Oh, I wanna go see
something different,
but you're not takin'
in consideration
about where you are.
If they keep it up,
like buildin' Airbnbs
and everything,
all of it is gonna be gone.
There is not gonna
be a New Orleans,
but I also think that,
like, we, as people
and who live in New Orleans,
make it New Orleans.
- Yes.
SUNNI: Hey, how are you?
JESSE: I'm good.
ROXANNE: This is Jesse.
SUNNI: Nice meeting
you, Jesse. I'm Sunni.
- Hey. Thank you for having us.
- Absolutely.
- Come on in, come on in.
- I'm excited.
- Hi, I'm Fern.
- Hey, how are you?
- Hey, Fern. Nice meeting you.
- Through this way in
the kitchen here,
and then there are
two rooms back here.
So Johnny and Jesse,
I figure, you can be here.
There's a bathroom...
- She mentioned that
she doesn't think
that humans are innately
violent, which I thought
was really interesting.
- Mm-hmm.
- Um, and she said she
thinks the violence
took place a long time ago.
- Mm-hmm.
- And has just been passed down.
- Passed down?
Yeah. She did speak about it.
- And then she said that, um,
it's in people's genetic makeup.
But we have the power...
- There you go.
- To override that.
- Yeah.
- Which I was like...
- Yeah.
I'm like, What PDFs
are you reading?
FERN: Yeah, can you believe...
BOY 2: [ON TAPE] So my fears
would be like loneliness
and like people not
understanding you
even though, they're
there to understand you
and stuff like that.
It's just really scary,
'cause it feels like
you have nobody.
JOHNNY: All right,
listen, it's lesson time.
So first, as the adult,
take time for the sad, mad,
or scared feelings to
work their way through.
How this happens will
depend on your personality.
Calmly invite your
child to hear you out.
You can try,
"Hey, I made a mistake
and I would like to
talk to you about that.
May I come in?"
- Sure.
- Try to... [MUMBLING
Try... Try something like,
"Did you feel hurt that I
was gonna send you home?"
- Yeah, I did.
- Yeah.
Uh, then I say...
I feel badly about
how I behaved.
Are you feeling mad at me?
It's okay if you are
and I'd like to hear whatever
you're feeling and thinking.
- Mmm...
I thought that you were
being a pain in the ass.
- Yeah.
I am feeling very...
Use a feeling word.
Shitty, stupid, totally out
of touch, and also, um, sad.
Sorry, I shouldn't.
Then, from the
bottom of your heart,
look your child in the
eye and say you're sorry.
Oh, come on.
- Say it. [PATS ON BACK]
- I'm sorry.
- I'm sorry, too.
- Your mom does all this?
- Yeah, but she doesn't have to
read it from a stupid phone.
Now, no more phone time for you.
No more... No more screen time.
Can I sleep with you?
- Hmm?
- Can I sleep with you?
- Yeah. Hmm.
- Can I be an orphan?
- Mm-hmm.
You okay?
- I just want to be the orphan.
- Okay.
- Is there anything about my
past you'd like to ask me?
- What was your mom like?
- She was nice.
- Hmm, yeah.
Do you remember her?
JESSE: Yeah.
She always took baths,
but she'd act like she
never got to take 'em,
but she always took them.
When she'd get home from work,
she'd clean up the kitchen,
all bangy and loud.
Then I'd say, "Why are
you being so loud?"
"Are you mad?"
Then she'd say,
"I'm not being loud."
She wrote books,
fiction and non-fiction.
VIV: [SINGING] When you
skip-to-my-lou, My darlin'
JESSE: She's always
singing old songs
from when she was a kid.
[SINGING] I'm gonna get ya
I bet you a bottom dollar
You were best under pressure
Yo, Sandy I wanna
like taste you
Get your, get your lips wet
'Cause it's time to have Pep
On your mark, get set, go
Let me go, let me shoop
And in that place, you have...
JESSE: She thought about
weird things, like ghosts
and incarnation, all that stuff.
She'd loved it here.
She taught her classes.
When she was stressed out,
she would just cook
herself a big steak
and just eat it.
She loved hanging out
with her friends.
She says even though
we love each other,
she'll never know
everything about me
and I'll never know
everything about her.
It's just the way it is.
- Um...
- You're weird.
- Okay, yeah. Time to screen
time as much screen time
- as he wants.
- Okay.
- He can watch
anything he wants.
- All the screen time he wants.
Here, here, here, here.
- R-rated, anything,
anything he wants.
- You have to make sure
your eyelids stay open.
Get as much screen
time as possible.
- If he cries or anything,
no screen time, all right?
- All right.
- Yeah.
- Okay, that was it, that
was your screen time.
- Nice.
- Yeah.
FERN: Do you feel screenful?
JESSE: I feel screenful.
- Yeah.
- Screenish.
- So do you feel like
adults understand
what kids are going through?
- Um, I definitely think
lots of moms do,
because... I think they do.
ROXANNE: I'm curious,
like, you said this was
one of the hardest
hit areas of Katrina,
like, what are the
stories you've heard?
BOY: Um, a guy died
in this house,
but I like to believe
that ghosts are nice
and they don't try
to scare people,
unless that's their intention.
ROXANNE: Tell me about that, uh,
tattoo you've got on your arm.
- It is nothing.
- Oh!
what I... I've learned
about Devante so far.
Devante is like,
my business is mine.
What's about that?
I don't feel like talking
about that right now.
What's the tattoo?
Don't worry about
what's the tattoo.
You know, this kinda thing.
So, uh, you know, what
I appreciate about you?
I appreciate the
fact that you, um...
You hold what is sacred, right?
ROXANNE: So what do you think
happens to you after you die?
and my mom are Baptists.
Uh, well, I would
say heaven, I feel.
I don't know how
it would be like,
but what I imagine it,
uh, I would say a meadow
with a one big tree,
and you just lay on
the grass with flowers
and you just stare
up into the sun
with a lot of breeze, obviously.
You don't want it to be too hot.
Yeah, that's what
I kind of imagine.
really beautiful.
JOHNNY: Do you think
that the world is fair?
GIRL: No, nothing's
really that fair.
There's always gonna be, uh,
like, probably
gonna be more wars,
since there's more
things to fight about
if you keep on building
onto what's in the past.
SUNNI: What causes
flooding within yourself,
within whether
it's in your mind,
within your heart,
within your spirit?
What causes flooding,
um, within you?
[CHUCKLES] Um, I think
it would be, like,
not, like, feeling that,
like I said no one cares
or, like, just feeling that
I'm, like, alone sometimes.
GIRL: But I know a lot
of kids are saying,
Oh, the world's gonna
end and all that.
I don't think the
world's gonna end.
I just think the world's
not gonna be as clean
as it used to be.
SUNNI: Say if your parents
were your children...
What's something you
would want them to learn?
What's something
you would teach 'em?
Not to be selfish, not
to be bad, and not to...
And not to disrespect,
and not to have...
And to have close feelings
for your friends, your parents,
and not to be...
if I were the one to be a lead.
- If you could change one
thing about yourself,
what would it be?
- My attitude.
- [CHUCKLES] Hey, what's
wrong with your attitude?
You seem like you have
a great attitude.
What would you change
about yourself?
My anger.
FERN: There, colors,
sensations, and sounds
will wash over you constantly.
You will see so
many living things.
FERN: Hey, what's up?
FERN: Beyond imagining...
- How's it going?
- Sensations and sounds...
- Thank you.
- will wash over you constantly.
No problem.
- Hey. You're good?
- Yeah.
- I'm sorry.
- Yeah.
- What happened?
- No. It's okay.
He just... There
were some tears...
- Why?
- we ran out of snacks,
the iPad died, it was
like thing after thing.
We only have raisins left.
- Shit.
- We don't like raisins.
- I didn't plan well,
I'm so sorry.
- No, don't cuss.
- Hey, sorry.
- It's fine.
- You all right?
- Yeah, I'm gonna
go find Maurice.
- Okay.
- And I'll be back.
- Thanks, Fern.
- Hey.
- Hey.
- You okay?
- I'm embarrassed.
- You're embarrassed?
- That I cried.
- You're embarrassed that you
cried, don't be embarrassed.
- Because I don't
usually cry that much.
- Huh?
- I don't usually cry that much.
- It's okay.
[CHUCKLES] It's all right.
You mad at me?
- Mmm-mmm.
Can you finish that book?
- Yeah.
- Please.
- To visit planet Earth,
you will have to be
born as a human child.
At first, you'll have to
learn to use your new body,
to move your arms and legs,
to pull yourself upright.
You will learn to walk
and run, to use your hands
to make sounds and form words.
Slowly, you will learn
to take care of yourself.
Here, it is still and peaceful,
but there, the
colors, sensations,
and sounds will wash
over you constantly.
You will see so
many living things,
plants and animals,
beyond imagining.
Here, it is always the same,
but there, everything
is in motion,
everything is always changing.
You will be plunged into
Earth's river of time.
There will be so
much for you to learn
and so much for you to feel,
pleasure and fear,
joy and disappointment,
sadness and wonder.
In your confusion and delight,
you will forget
where you came from.
You will grow up,
travel, and work.
Perhaps, you'll have children,
even grandchildren of your own.
Over the years, you will
try to make sense
of that happy, sad, full, empty,
always-shifting life you're in.
And when the time comes
to return to your star,
it may be hard to say "goodbye"
to that strangely
beautiful world.
Damn this book.
- You're crying.
- No, I'm not.
- Yes, you are.
You're definitely cry...
See, you're cry...
- No, it's just... It's true.
We forget everything.
- No, I don't, you do.
You're stupid.
- Yeah, you'll barely
remember this.
You'll have, like, a few
blurry memories
of this whole trip.
That's... That's very stupid.
You're just the
stupidest, stupid person.
Ever. And, like, you have
the lesser brain capacity
than an actual
deceased dead person.
So eating steaks,
I know this and...
- Oh!
- You used to give mom
so much shit about that.
- [CHUCKLING] I did, didn't I?
- I can't fucking believe it.
- Yes, I am. God, that little
shit needs to learn
how to keep secrets.
- Uh-huh?
- Uh-huh.
Why are you still up?
- Good question. I'm so
exhausted I can't sleep.
I just... I'm gonna
tell you something
that as a mother you won't
be able to understand,
but you're gonna
have to trust me.
Taking care of him and working
at the same time is...
- Yeah.
- A little too much.
It just takes a lot out of you.
So tomorrow, I'm gonna
take him to a parade
that Sunni told me about.
- You're doing so good.
JOHNNY: Yeah, he's
been such a trouper,
I feel like I owe
him a good time.
Even though, he, um, keeps
asking me why we don't talk.
- Oh!
Cool. I like this kid.
And what do you say?
- Apparently, some bullshit.
VIV: He didn't let you get
away with that, did he?
I just don't know
what to do anymore.
I'll probably run out
of bullshit I guess.
- Well, you could
tell him the truth.
JOHNNY: That sounds fun.
Just tell your 9-year-old
the truth. What...
Which... Which part?
That I...
messed up with you and Paul,
that I got in the middle
of something I
didn't understand?
That part?
- Oh, yeah, that's good.
That's... That's a
really good start.
- Or was it when Mom
died, we got in...
into all that weird
shit when Mom died.
[CHUCKLES] That part?
- You mean, like all
that weird shit
of our entire lives? That stuff?
JOHNNY: Yeah, our entire lives.
Or was it when Louisa left me
and everything just exploded.
- You know, that's the first
time you've said that.
- Yeah, which part?
- All of it.
- Johnny.
Johnny. Johnny, Johnny!
- I'm okay. MAN: You okay?
WOMAN: Are you all right?
- Uh, I'm okay.
- Johnny.
- I'm okay.
- Stop, Johnny! Johnny!
- Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
- Take it slow. Take it slow.
- It's okay, it's okay.
- Okay.
JOHNNY: It's okay.
- Did I drop you?
- I jumped.
- Okay, good move.
I don't know what that was.
- You fainted.
- What?
Okay, I fainted.
Uh, maybe we shouldn't
talk about it with anyone,
'cause it's embarrassing.
- It's not embarrassing!
- That must have been
scary for you.
- Nah-uh.
- No, really?
- I was fine.
- I don't think I was fine
and I don't think you were fine.
- We have a zone of resiliency.
When we're out of the
zone, we can meditate.
Just think of something
that can bring you joy.
When you're stressed out,
you can use some of
these techniques.
Shoulder-tapping, rock-tossing.
Or mindful breathing.
And, or you can
just shake it off...
- That's amazing. Thank you.
Do you think we're alike?
- God, no.
- Yeah, we are.
- We are, we are.
- No, we are not.
No, we are not.
- Yeah, we are.
- No, we're not.
No, we are not!
- Well, I wanna be.
- I don't faint like you do.
GIRL: [ON TAPE] But I know
a lot of kids are saying,
Oh, the world's gonna
end and all that.
I don't think the
world's gonna end.
I just think the world's
not gonna be as clean
or as easy to get around
or easy to breathe
or easy stuff like that.
Thank you so much.
This was really fun.
- Have you ever thought
about the future?
[DEEPENS VOICE] Have you ever
thought about the future?
Uh, yeah.
Uh, whatever you plan on
happening, never happens.
Stuff you would never
think of happens.
So you just have to...
you have to come on,
come on, come on,
come on, come on,
come on, come on, come on,
come on, come on,
come on, come on.
VIV: [ON PHONE] Uh, so he slept.
He slept for two whole nights
and he's responding to his meds,
so the doctor said he
can do outpatient care.
He just told me he can go home.
- He did?
- Yeah.
- Wow. Um...
And how are you?
You doin' all right?
- I don't know. Yeah, just fine.
- Um, you wanna tell Jesse now?
- Yeah.
Johnny, thank you so much.
- Okay.
Jesse, it's your mom.
- Hello.
VIV: Hi, sweetie, how are you?
- I'm good.
- Oh, good.
So listen, your dad's
doing so much better.
The doctors are gonna
keep helping him,
but they thought he was
well enough to go home.
So I'm gonna come get you, okay?
I'm just driving Moses home
and then I'm gonna be on the
first flight out tomorrow.
Oh, I'm so excited, I can't
wait to see you.
- Yep.
- Jesse?
- Oh, take the phone,
take the phone, take the phone!
- Jesse. Sweetie, are you there?
- You don't have to
follow me everywhere.
- Come on, man.
- [SIGHS] I'm fine.
- Oh, yeah?
You can be not fine.
- But I'm fine.
- Okay, you know, when
you're not in your zone,
like, your zone of
resiliency, it's...
It's okay to not
be fine, you know?
Like, you can be...
you know, angry, and... and sad,
and... and lost, and confused,
and that's okay.
- But I'm fine!
- Okay, but if you're
ever not fine,
you can kick the air,
you can throw a fit,
you can yell,
and it would be okay.
- [LOUDLY] I'm fine!
- It'd be a totally
reasonable response!
It'd be reasonable!
You're not fine.
- [LOUDLY] I'm fine!
- [YELLING] Yeah, I'm not fine!
- I'm fine!
- I'm not fine and that's a
totally reasonable response!
[IN NORMAL TONE] Come on, man.
- I'm not fine!
- Yeah.
- And that is a totally
reasonable response!
- Yeah. This is fucked up
and that makes sense!
- This is fucked up
and that makes sense!
- [SHOUTS] How could this being
so fucked up make sense?
- It's fucked!
Are you laughing or crying?
I can't... I can't tell.
I wanna have the
appropriate reaction.
Hey, man, come here.
Let me... Let me look at you.
- Mm.
- Are you laughing?
Is that a smile?
Is that your big stupid smile?
- Are you all right?
- Yeah.
- All right.
- Are you gonna faint?
- No.
I got my shoulder-touching,
finger-tapping, rock-throwing.
Why are you throwing
rocks, by the way?
JESSE: Do you think I'm gonna
be like my dad when I'm older?
- I think you have
it better, Jesse.
- Why?
- 'Cause you are just...
I don't know.
You know yourself more,
you're able to like
express yourself
and your feeling, that's
what your mom taught you.
So you are way ahead of
the game, believe me.
Means you're looking better.
- Lots of blah, blah, blah.
- Lots of blah, blah, blah.
- Be funny, comma,
when you can, period.
- What's that?
- My dad used to say that to me.
- Really?
- Yeah.
- That's funny.
VIV: Hi!
JESSE: Mama!
VIV: Hi. JESSE: Hi, hi, hi.
VIV: Hey. Hey.
ALL: two, three...
SUNNI: Bye, you guys. FERN: Bye.
So he needs a lot of
protein with every meal
and no screen time
on the weekdays.
Weekends, one hour a day
and that's it, all right?
- Bye.
- I love you.
- I love you.
JESSE: [ON TAPE] Have you ever
thought about the future?
[DEEPENED VOICE] Have you ever
thought about the future?
Uh, yeah.
Uh, whatever you
plan on happening,
never happens.
Stuff you would never
think of happens.
So you just have to...
You have to come on,
come on, come on,
come on, come on,
come on, come on,
come on, come on.
Johnny, Johnny, Johnny,
Johnny, Johnny, Johnny.
Johnny is a bit strange.
Um, he's really fun.
He makes me laugh.
He's really funny
when he wrestles.
He might be my best friend,
'cause he only has
only has two... two...
He only has two friends,
but he might be my best friend.
I don't know.
Blah, bablah, blah, blah.
- I would say so blah, blah,
blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
- You ready?
JOHNNY: [ON TAPE] Hey, Jesse,
this is Mozart,
your intense and overly
emotional uncle.
When I woke up, you were
blaring crazy opera music.
I was surprised that
your mom had left,
but you didn't seem
bothered about it.
You just pretty much...
accepted me.
I showed you my recorder,
but you didn't want
to be interviewed.
You recorded the beach,
the sounds of the city.
I had to go back to New York
and I asked you to come with me,
and you just said,
I'd love that.
And you couldn't sleep,
and you were just
talking a mile a minute,
and you had so many
things to say,
and what about approaches,
and how to record...
And I could never
actually stop you,
and then I kept trying,
and I wish I wouldn't have.
Now I wanna hear all
of your crazy thoughts
and cool ideas.
And then we were in bed,
you asked...
- Are you gonna
remember any of this?
Uhm, What do you mean?
And that's, like,
our awesome sleepovers.
- And you said you
won't remember it.
No, I said,
"You won't remember it."
I'll remember it.
- I won't remember?
JOHNNY: I said, I hope you do,
and you got so upset,
and I said,
I'll remind you of everything.
JOHNNY: Do you think it's easy
to understand your feelings?
Like, do you have access
to... To what you feel or...
BOY: Hmm, the only
thing that I do have
is that I know that I'm safe.
- That's beautiful.
- Hmm.
- Uh, what... What
makes you feel safe?
- I'm in a home where
people care about me.
And I have friends
that care about me
and everything like that.
GIRL: Um, I would definitely
take a lot of what
my parents did
into account of how I
parent my future children.
I would talk to them
about what they want,
and, like, what they feel
would be the best for them,
and make it known,
like they could talk,
but I wouldn't force them.
I wouldn't be like,
Hey, just so you know
we can talk all the time,
'cause sometimes
parents do that.
JOHNNY: Mm-hmm.
And it gets annoying
and they'll be like...
BOY 2: It's sort of scary, uh,
to talk to other
people sometimes.
JOHNNY: Mm-hmm.
- Because, um, uh, personally,
I feel like you never know
what they're gonna say next.
SUNNI: right?
In your... If you had this...
this superpower, what'd you do?
What would it be?
GIRL: I don't know.
I don't think
I would ever, like,
use a superpower.
I think I would just be me.
Like, me is my superpower.
SUNNI: Yeah.
GIRL: And like I use
it to help people
and use it in ways that's...
that have never
been done before.
GIRL: Yeah.
SUNNI: That's super. [CHUCKLES]
JOHNNY: What about you, London?
What's the worst thing
that's ever happened to you?
GIRL: Uh, it would probably
be either the fact that
I can I have a nasty personality
that clashes with my
siblings or the fact that
I might have to have surgery
when I'm older on this one tooth
'cause it's like...
BOY: Well,
uh, maybe humanity ends,
just humans cease to
exist on this earth.
I mean, uh...
I don't really know
if that's a good
thing or a bad thing.
Uh, I mean, if we're...
GIRL 2: Yeah, like I want
everybody to be kind
to each other and
I don't know, like, any harm
or any anger towards
anybody. Like, why? Why?
Wouldn't... Wouldn't
you rather be happy
than angry at someone?
SUNNI: Mm-hmm.
And why do those things
when you can just
come together...
JOHNNY: So... What...
Describe adults for me.
Like, what do you
think an adult is?
BOY 2: It's... An adult, mm...
All adults have to
do is get money
and have to pay student loans.
Got 'em.
BOY 3: I think
that I get excited
'cause I know that I can do
something to make the world,
the world a better place
and I also think that
it's kinda devastating,
because, like, I'm 14,
why should I be worried about
the way the world looks,
or like, I should be able to...
JOHNNY: Do you ever think about
what happens after you die?
GIRL 3: Even though, like,
the scientific thing to say
is that we don't think at all,
our bodies decompose
and, uh, like, life
continues on without us.
- Mm-hmm.
- But why would we be
made to just die?
- Mm-hmm.
- There's probably that...
There's probably not a reason
but there might be
a reason behind it.
Somehow, I don't
know, I'm not sure.
BOY 4: Kids tend
to think freely.
Adults when they think,
they think in a tight space.
You get what I'm saying...
GIRL 4: I think... it's hard.
I think it's probably a cross
between mind reading and flying.
Mind reading because
if someone's sad,
they usually won't tell
you what's going on.
And I'm a little bit of a...
that kind of person
that is a little...
GIRL 5: Apparently,
scientific studies,
I'm not saying this is
completely true or whatever,
it's just what I've heard,
but, uh, your brain
has to knock out
some old memories
to be able to save new ones.
GIRL 6: So I feel like there's
two types of Americans, like,
people who can constantly
get what they want
and have what they need,
and then there's the other type
where they kind of
have to struggle
and work harder for the
things that they need.
BOY 5: It's not the way we look,
but it's, like, how we are
on the inside that's...
Just like you can't judge
a book by its cover,
it's the same with humans.
GIRL 7: So I like to look at
the positive side of things.
Um, I like to think about,
um, like new
inventions that might
actually help save the world.
I think about going into space
and discovering a new planet
and then maybe like
building a life there.
JOHNNY: What do you hope
that you really remember
about your mom and your dad?
GIRL 8: That they were
always there for me,
that they always love me.
They say...[CHUCKLES]
I tell her
good night every night and...
[SNIFFLES] I always tell
her that I love her,
just like out of the blue
and she would do the same.
[VOICE BREAKS] And I really feel
that strong connection with her.
JOHNNY: If you could
have any superpower,
what would it be?
BOY 6: The ability to
bend space and time.
GIRL 9: If you were what
you believe is a good person
and you ask whoever
you believe in,
Hey, can I be reincarnated
into, I don't know,
like a tiger?
And you were a good person
then they would be like,
Yeah, you can be a
tiger, go ahead.
BOY 7: Well, I feel
like if we die,
like, we don't
really feel anything,
all like memories
are gone and stuff.
And we're just like,
we'll just see you wait
becoming a baby.[CHUCKLES]
And, yeah,
getting born and then
just restarting life.
Like, I'm not sure 'cause
I've never been dead before.
GIRL 10: Sit down
and close your eyes,
and try to find yourself.
Because I feel like that's
what you really have to do,
to know what you want.
Like, find a way that you feel
comfortable finding yourself.
You know, you gotta
find to find.