Come Down Molly (2015) Movie Script
- You shot me.
You ready?
Ready.
Oh!
You wanna knock it down?
Wow!
Wow!
- Ah.
Hey, it's me.
Call me back when you get this.
Molly! Jason.
Um, you didn't
respond to my Emails.
Um, now I'm calling you.
Yeah, so we're getting together
at Shelton's still.
And, ah, I think
you should come.
Um, Sam's gonna be here.
I think you know John
and one other guy.
Anyway, I know it's
a bunch of dudes
and you're not a tomboy anymore,
but um, yeah...
All right, I hope
you're doing well.
And, uh, just call me.
Bye.
- Hello, hi.
- Hi.
- How are you?
Hello.
Hi, hi little buddy.
Look who it is, Finn.
It's your Aunt Amy.
You love Aunt Amy.
- Is he done eating?
Come here.
Ooh! Hello.
Hey there, hey there, Finn.
Hi, baby.
What you got there, a spoon?
Got a spoon and a block?
- You're so good with him.
- Shhh.
- Oh!
Oh, that's better.
Oh, that's Finn.
There's my Finn.
Mmm. Is that delicious?
So delicious.
Your face is all dirty.
Your face is all dirty.
- It's not that dirty.
Oh, you're so sleepy.
What's wrong, you
seem a little moody.
- No, no, no.
- I don't know.
I just need a break.
- So take a little break.
I'll take care of him.
That's why I'm here.
Baby.
He's very tired.
I'm gonna put him down.
- OK.
- Is Patrick
coming back tonight?
- Yeah.
- Molly, I'm
making a living for us, OK?
- You know,
I'm just like,
it's too much for me.
I can't...
- Where are you going?
- I've told you.
- And
who are these guys?
- You know them,
you've met them before.
They're my friends
from high school.
- I'm not exactly
comfortable with you staying
in a house with a bunch of men.
That's...
- I'm not looking to
get fucked, Patrick.
It's not what's
going on here, OK?
- Oh, my god, Molly.
Molly, I rearranged
my shit to come back
and spend time
with you and Finn.
That's what I'm doing here, OK?
- Yes, I know.
I don't know, it's not
going to make sense.
It doesn't make sense, OK?
But I just feel like
I'm going insane, OK?
And you're always gone.
You're gone and I'm just here
all by myself, you
know, with him.
I'm just, you know,
I'm just kind of stuck
here with him, OK?
- Listen to yourself.
You're stuck with him?
You're his mother, you're
not stuck with him.
You're his mother,
you're parenting him.
- I know, I'm parenting him.
- You don't get to leave
your job as a parent, OK?
- OK, well, Molly
just explain to me.
- I can't, I just don't
know what's going on.
I don't understand
what's going on.
I just have to--
I don't feel as
though I'm the same.
- What do you want
me to say to that?
- I don't know.
- So you're
just going to leave?
- Yes.
- You're
just going to go?
- Yes.
Bye, baby.
Hey, Finn, give Mommy a kiss.
Bye.
Thanks again.
- It's fine.
- What?
- Nothing.
- C'mon.
- Whoa!
That was
almost kind of good.
- Big swing, not a big hit.
He steps up to the plate.
They call him the
country club cowboy.
That was
actually pretty good.
- That was nice, Tiger!
- Hello?
- Far out!
Oh, shit.
- Hey!
Hey!
- You're here!
- Yeah, I
don't believe this.
- I know.
- Hey, Molly.
- How the
fuck are you guys.
- What the fuck is up?
- Come here.
- It's so
good to see you.
- Oh, fuck!
- I know.
Hi.
- Hey, I needed that.
- I know, so did I.
John!
- Hey, Molly.
- My god, how are you?
- Good, good to see you.
- Always such a pleasure.
- Likewise.
- Hey, Molly.
Long time, huh?
- Ben, jeez- Louise.
I haven't seen you in forever.
- I know.
- Wow! You
look so not changed.
- Good, I guess.
- You've not.
- What's going on with family?
- The family is fine.
- Good. Patrick's good?
- Yeah, they're really good.
- Awesome.
I haven't seen 'em
in a little bit, but...
- That's my brother, David.
- Oh, hi, I'm Molly.
- Hi, David, welcome.
- Thank you.
- He's very zen, very zen.
- He's very at peace
with the Earth.
- I'm just sitting on
the ground, it's OK.
- I cannot believe
this is Shelton's summer home.
This is--
- Well, his parents'.
- It's absolutely beautiful.
I had no idea it was like this.
- They're doing,
they're doing OK.
- I would have come more often.
- Middle class just
isn't what it used to be,
if you now what I mean.
- Where is he, where
is this boy that--
- Shelton?
- Yeah.
- He's still passed out
on the couch in there, I think.
- Go wake his ass up.
We're gonna go down to the
river, sooner than later.
- Put your shit down.
- OK.
Sam's in there, too making
sandwiches or something.
- Good morning.
Hi.
Morning.
Morning, sunshine.
Wake up, you.
Get out of your
dreams, face the day.
What are
you doing here?
- Came to say hey.
- Hey. Oh, god!
What is in that bag?
- Ah! I don't know,
a couple of bricks.
Hey, buddy!
- Hi. Hi, Molly.
- How are you?
- Fine.
- I missed you.
- You're really here?
What are you--
- I am.
- You just drove out here?
- I drove out here,
yes, just for you.
- I Emailed you last
time we came out.
You never responded.
- Yeah, yeah, shit's been tough.
Whatever.
- Well, I'm glad you're here.
- I know, I'm glad I'm here too.
Little buddy.
- Oh, that really fucking hurt.
- Yeah? You'll survive, it's OK.
I'm sure it's payback
for something, anyway.
Hey, Sam?
- Molly.
- Hey.
- Hi.
- I missed you, too.
- I missed you, Molly.
- It's nice to be back.
- It's so freaking
beautiful out here.
- Want this beer?
I just opened it.
- Thank you.
- You know what time it is?
- I don't know,
It's like afternoon, maybe.
- Hey, Shelton, c'mon, let's go!
Is he out of the shower yet?
- Dude, calm down.
He's getting out right now.
- I don't understand why
he's taking a shower.
We're about to get in a river.
- Mister
Cranky-pants, today, huh?
- There he is!
- Hey, guys, I feel
like shit, still.
- You look really
handsome, though.
- Oh, thank you.
- You guys
went out last night?
- No, we got everything here.
- All right, let's
go. C'mon guys.
- Wait, we're gonna
go on a river?
- Yeah.
- I just got here.
Don't you wanna, like, catch up?
- Sure. How are you?
Are you good? Good.
OK, let's go to the river.
All right, we can
talk on the way.
- OK, I don't have
a bathing suit.
Somebody's gotta lend
me some clothing.
Preferably something
that's not white,
so you aren't
staring at my tits.
- What tits?
- You can borrow
something from me.
- Yeah?
- Just go straight
up the stairs.
My room's right there.
You can grab anything
from the dresser.
- Molly, chop-chop.
- Suck it.
- Thank you.
- Jason, why didn't you
tell me that she texted you?
- I don't know,
it's not a big deal.
She wanted it to be a surprise.
- It's just kind of weird.
I haven't spoken to her
in like a year and a half.
She shows up out of nowhere?
- Why, what happened to her?
Where's she been?
- She's got a kid.
She's a mom.
You didn't know that?
- No. Wow.
- So, how you
guys want to do this?
- What do you mean?
- Well, I mean, how far
are we from the place?
I don't want to pop
these on the street.
- It should be coming up soon.
I saw it on the website.
I don't think we should
do it out on the road.
- Hey, Molly, remember
back in middle school
you were always, "I'll
never get married.
"I'll never have kids."
- What?
- Yeah, you were.
- Really? No, I wasn't.
- I mean, did you know
we were all fucking
in love with you back then?
- Oh, god.
- Come on,
you know we were.
- Whatever, you
guys would have been
in love with any chick
who paid attention to you.
I just happened to
find you guys funny.
- That's probably true.
- Molly was the first girl
who was like one of the guys,
you know what I mean?
She was hot, but actually cool.
She was older.
She smoked, she drank.
She went to bars that
we couldn't get into.
And, she was smart.
It was fuckin' unfair.
- Was smart?
- So, did any of you
hook up with her?
- Yeah, I figured that.
- Are you fuckin' serious?
- Wait!
- It's a big deal when I do it?
With Shelton it's cool?
- Oh, I forgot about that, man.
- You forgot about that?
- Wait, wait, hold on.
You guys hooked up?
The two of you hooked up?
Dude, we only kissed.
- When did this happen?
- Um, that was
sophomore year, I think.
Right after my dad died.
You know, I got a little slutty.
I needed attention and
these guys were horny.
- I was fuckin' horny.
I would have given you
lots and lots of attention.
- You obviously
missed your chance, man.
- That's fucked up.
- I totally would
have fucked you.
All you had to do was ask.
- Would you fuck me
back then, please?
Now.
- I fucked so many
dudes then, too.
- All
right, guys, I think
this is probably a good spot.
- Why are you whispering?
- I just don't want to
be too obvious about it.
- Who cares?
- We right by the river?
- Yeah.
Shit, we didn't bring any
peanut butter, did we?
- Just eat it.
It's better, I promise.
- Wow, are you guys doing
mushrooms right now?
Is that what's happening?
- We are all
doing mushrooms right now.
- No, I cannot do that.
- You gotta go to work.
That sucks.
- What are you worried about?
- Yeah, I guess I
just don't want to go
into a really dark
head space, that's all.
I understand
how you feel.
I understand how you feel.
But we're gonna do it.
- We're all gonna do it.
He's gonna do it.
He didn't want to do it,
but he's gonna do it.
Team effort.
- We're about to go
tubing down a river.
Do you really think
this is a good idea?
- She's actually
right about that.
I don't know that we
should do the tubing part.
- It's a lazy river, it's fine.
- That's the whole plan.
- I mean, I think you
definitely should...
It's the perfect environment.
You're surrounded by friends.
You're in nature.
- You couldn't pick a
better place, honestly.
- I just don't want to
get into a dark spot,
you know what I mean?
- I've had bad trips before.
It happens.
But, honestly, those
tend to be the ones
that are the most cathartic.
- And these are trusted.
- It's from
my normal dude.
He's not sketchy at all.
- He's not sketchy,
he's a drug dealer.
He's not sketchy,
don't worry about it.
- Really, he's a
nice guy, a good guy.
- So, is it good?
- We all
ready to do this?
- Yeah, all right.
- It's kinda
gonna taste shitty,
like you're eating
sticks, but...
Don't eat too many caps.
- There's
actually just as much
in the caps and the stems.
It's a myth.
You can
always take half,
see how it goes
then take the rest.
- No, no, no. We want to be
trippin' at the same speed.
- No goin' back now.
- Fuckin' gross.
- That's why you
need fuckin' peanut butter.
- Just keep
your eye on me, OK?
- This is the place?
- This is it, man.
- You talked to him.
- This looks like
a fuckin' lemonade shop.
Like a fifth grade
lemonade stand.
- Five cents for a small.
- Hey, you guys going
down the river today?
- Yeah. You guys found us.
- Awesome.
- I thought it'd be,
like, a bigger operation.
- No, this is it.
I'm gonna run down a few things.
First, our big rule is,
you keep your life
jacket on all the time.
Never take your life jacket off.
And the other
rule, obviously, is
you gotta sign our waiver here.
Just in case you guys do
something really stupid.
Also, each valley here
is a microclimate.
There are little
clouds coming in.
You never know what
the weather's gonna do,
so keep an eye on that.
- This is the last time you're
ever gonna sign your name.
Now, when
you're going down the river,
at the third bridge, you're
gonna paddle your little tube
over to the bank.
You'll see our trailer there.
We'll collect you guys and
shuttle you right back here.
Are there any questions?
- Yeah, can we drink?
- Yeah, that's fine guys.
Just please be smart
about it, all right.
Don't pass out in the
middle of the river
or anything.
- Hey, I was in
the back, thanks.
All right,
are we all clear, now?
Cool. We're gonna
pass everything out
and get you guys on your way.
- Do you want
some bladder wine?
- I'm good, thanks.
- Thanks a lot, dude.
Have fun, guys.
The river's right down that way.
- What the
hell's a micro ciimate?
- Hey, Shelton,
is it rough down there?
- It's a little rough.
Did you guys fall?
- No, but these rapids
are way too shallow.
I can't even get by.
- What should we do?
Should we just walk down?
- Come on, Sam.
- Sam looks miserable.
- I don't know how we're
gonna get any farther down.
It's so shallow.
- Get down and walk it?
Get out, I mean?
- I don't know.
- Sam!
Are you OK?
- No.
- Hey, anybody
listen to that dude
about where we're supposed to go
after whatever bridge?
- What?
- Where the hell are
we supposed to go
after whatever bridge?
- Are you kidding me?
- I don't know, I
wasn't listening
to anything he was saying.
- We're supposed to go
through three bridges
and then go left.
- Three?
Fuckin' A, man.
Those guys robbed us, man.
For real.
Fuck.
Are you guys
starting to feel it?
- Tube, tube, tube, tube, tube.
- We're done for real, right?
- Do you guys
just want to be done?
Yes.
- We can just leave
this shit here.
- Lazy river, my ass.
- Yeah, we're done.
This was a rip-off, anyway.
Twenty bucks?
Somebody help Sam?
- Anybody
know how to get back?
- There's
no way that was safe.
- Not the great idea.
- I lost my shoe.
- Yeah, I lost mine, too,
if it makes you feel better.
- Wait, how long does it
usually take to set in?
- Thirty to 60 minutes, usually.
- Yeah, in like an hour
you'll start seeing
demons and dragons.
- And spiders.
- Evil clowns.
- The clowns are the worst.
- Stop.
- You don't feel
it in your stomach?
- Um, I'm starting to
feel a little relaxed,
but that's about it.
- Relaxed is good.
- Oh, wow!
What is this place?
- It's like an
old, abandoned marble factory.
- Marble factory?
- Oh, it's so cold.
Hm.
- Is that wall
made out of marble?
- Yeah.
- They look like snow.
- Cubes of snow.
- Molly?
Are you OK?
- Yeah.
- Are you sure?
- Yeah.
- OK.
I just know you were nervous,
so I want to make
sure you're OK.
- No, feels all right.
- OK.
Honestly, in my experience,
personally, it comes on
faster if you just let go.
- Yeah, I'm not so
sure what I'm letting,
exactly what that means.
- Most people have a
hard time describing it.
Like, a lot of people say
that it's really spiritually
significant for them.
There's a lot of research
going on right now, you know.
Some people report
having a full,
what they call a
mystical experience,
which can include, you
know, pure awareness merging
with some kind of
ultimate reality, um...
feeling a unity with all things.
Some people rate it
as the most spiritually
significant moment
in their lives.
- Yeah, but it's a
drug taking an effect
on somebody, right?
It's not like a real
religious experience,
spiritual experience.
It's a drug's effect, right?
- I know, I know I
sound like a hippie.
It's ridiculous.
I'm sorry, it's the kind
of shit that I think about
when I'm alone, by myself.
- Hey, guys.
I think we need to
get out of here,
or we'll be here forever.
Forever.
- That sounds
like a good idea.
- Guys, we're
gonna head back.
Shoes, clothes, warm.
We'll be here forever,
we'll be here forever.
- Oh, no.
This is real, right?
There's no way I can
do this right now.
- We're back
but we can't get in.
- Shelton's
thing, Shelton can do that.
- Thank you!
- Oh,
thank god we're here.
- Welcome back, everybody.
- Thank you, Jason.
Great tour guides.
- All right, I think
everybody should get changed.
Then we'll meet back...
uh, wherever.
Just do whatever.
I don't want this
responsibility.
I don't want this on
my plate right now.
Be happy.
Enjoy the sun.
- God, what the fuck am I doing?
- Oh, the light
is different over here.
- Oh, yeah.
Yeah, all these colors
just totally changed.
- Whoa! The light
got different on this side
than even it was on that side.
- Hey, Jason.
You look happy.
- Thank you.
You look happy.
- I'm happy to see you.
- Thank you.
- How come you're
not down at the creek
with everybody?
- Um, I decided I
would lie down right here.
- Huh. Can
I lay down, too?
I would recommend it.
See what I mean?
- Yeah.
Have you even
moved since we've--
since you got here?
- Um...
no, but I have gone
lots of places,
and I've seen lots of
really cool things.
- Jason? Jason.
- Yeah.
- I have a question for you.
- OK.
- Do you think that Shelton
has started to look old?
- I could see it, I guess.
- You know, he's
started balding?
- Yeah.
That's not something
to bring up around him.
That's something that
makes him very upset.
- Oh.
He does
not enjoy that at all.
- Oh.
- I don't blame him.
- Well, secretly, though,
I think it's really funny.
- Everything on
the ground is so wild.
- There's
a beaver all up
and down this creek, though.
- There's a beaver here?
- Yeah, see
he's got a dam right here.
He's got paths all in here.
- Billy the beaver.
- Yeah, sure, dude,
that's his name.
Billy.
- I got some more
nature's candy.
- What do you got?
- Strawberries.
- No shit?
- Did you
say strawberries?
- Yeah.
- Oh, man, really?
You read my mind.
Oh, wow.
Thank you.
- Oh, my god.
- Here, smell.
- Mmm. Thank you.
- Not that one.
- That's the only one I want.
- Could I have another one
before I go back across?
- Yeah.
- What time is it?
- Oh, that is not a
concept that I'm prepared
to talk about
right now.
I apologize.
- Oh, well.
- Oh, well.
- You know what's funny?
Is that I know that I'm
tripping, or whatever,
but how often do you
actually get to sit down
outside like this?
- Yeah.
- I think I'm gonna go
walk down to the creek.
I think I'm gonna make
my way down to the creek.
You wanna come?
- Sure.
I don't know if I could get
up right now, though.
- Sure you can.
- That's very nice.
Whoa, this is different.
- It's nice.
- Good, it's nice, yes.
Standing is good.
Wow!
- You know how the bug
sounds are so amplified
down here?
- This is
awesome.
Are those strawberries?
- Oh, yeah.
Here, have one.
- Really?
- Yes! Please, they're so good.
- Hey, Molly, you
want a strawberry?
- Whoa!
- Probably going to
be the best strawberry
you've ever had in
your entire life.
Not to build it up or anything.
- They're really good.
Really, really good.
- Hey, you guys know flowers?
- Yes.
- I know flowers.
- I knew one, once.
- But you know how
there are flowers
and there are bees.
There are bees and
there are flowers.
And the flowers need the bees.
The bees have to
pollinate the flowers
and the bees need the flowers
because the flowers
have the nectar
and the bees need to make honey.
So without bees, no flowers.
No flowers.
Without flowers, no bees.
Without bees and
without flowers,
total collapse.
Nothing,
There is nothing.
So, bees aren't flowers.
They're not...
The stem is a flower.
The petals are the flower.
The bud is the flower.
Bees are not flowers?
Wings are bees?
- Symbiosis.
- Legs are bees.
Flowers are bees.
Yeah, right.
You know what I'm talking about?
- Yeah, we have to label them.
We have to say,
"You're a flower.
"You're a bee.
"You guys are not connected.
"You're a flower, hang
out with dandelions
"and roses."
- Stop feeling oneness,
you're not the same thing.
I'm sorry.
There is a void.
There's a total void.
I'm tripping my
face off right now.
- Oh, fuck.
- Where is your face?
Where is my face?
- I saw it
in the river, John.
It was smiling.
- As long as it was smiling.
- It was part of the river now.
- It is river.
My face is river.
- You're in
river, right now.
- Face is river,
stick is beaver.
Rock is Ben.
Jason is Sam.
Molly is me.
Shelton is grass, same color.
- Oh, man. Tell us more.
What else about the--
- What else is the
same thing as the same thing?
- I love us, John.
- I love us, too.
- We love us.
- I am you,
you are me, we are us.
- I wish this
was a blanket tree.
- You mean, made of blankets.
- Yeah.
Why do
we have the same thoughts?
- Because we're so
in-tune with each other.
- Hey, were
you guys over there?
- No, we were here.
- The trees.
- Were you at the trees?
Dude, be here.
- May I sit here?
- Yeah.
- Wow, this is cool.
- Yeah.
- How old do you
think this thing is?
- This?
- Yeah.
- 32.
- Well, that's
an appropriate age.
I once got myself off,
I once masturbated
while I was sitting on
a dead tree like that.
- What?
- Whoa!
You fucked it.
- I fucked, I had,
yeah, I fucked it.
Well, I didn't fuck
it, but I like...
I got off on it.
- You jerked off
on a tree trunk?
- Yeah, I was sitting on a trunk
and I got myself off on it.
This was a long, long time ago.
- Is this real?
- What do you mean, is it real?
- I'm asking you
if that really happened?
- Yes, of course it happened.
Why would I just...
Is it weird?
- It's not weird but it's
funny to hear that from you.
It's not weird.
- I masturbated all
over everything.
There's just a time in your life
when you just need to
do that all the time.
- That's very true.
- Does that stop for you?
I love it, still.
- No, it's gone.
- Really?
- My pussy fell asleep.
I mean, it like fell
asleep a while ago.
It's so exhausted.
I mean, I haven't
exhausted it, though.
I haven't exhausted
it, but it's...
It's all been so exhausting.
- So it's just functional.
You just use it to pee?
- You know, I don't
even get wet anymore.
- Ew!
- I'm gonna
stop masturbating now.
- That thought deadened
the whole thing?
- Dry pussy
just killed my dick.
- Someone's gonna see
this land and be like,
"Yeah, I'm gonna put
a house over there,
"and then just figure it out."
- Yeah.
- There'll be a road.
- What was that?
- Something's over there.
Oh, was that an animal?
- Was that is again?
-
Sounds like an elk.
- Like, he was huge.
- Smaller than a moose.
- Yeah, but
still, pretty big.
- Yeah, yeah, no,
I'm just saying--
- Smaller than a moose?
- Well, we
might be able to see him
from the top, actually.
- She doesn't
sound too happy.
- How can you tell if
it's hungry or not.
- I know.
- The best way to
tell, probably, if
it's coming after you.
- Oh, it's cows.
- They're cows?
- Is it cows?
- It's just a bunch of
fucking cows mooing.
- Probably a farmer
over there, being like,
what the fuck is going on
the next door neighbor's.
- Some idiots
keep mooing at it.
- Now, there's a bear.
- Oh!
- Oh, shit!
- Are you sure?
- Yeah, right
here there's a bear.
- It is bear season.
- You see that?
- That's a cow.
- That's a cow, yeah.
- It's definitely
not a bear, guys.
- Yeah, it's a cow.
- It would be so sad if
there was a cow over there,
and like, "Help me!
"Help me, bear, bear!"
- What are the different
kinds of clouds?
It's cirrus...
cumulonimbus, cumulus
and strattus.
- Stratta?
- What's the difference?
- I don't know.
The sirrus are like
the little whisps.
I think these are, I think.
And then cumulonimbus
is the ones
that are thunder clouds.
- The fluffy ones, right?
- How do
the animals know,
it's instinct somehow.
- A trait of evolution, maybe.
- No, but like
where's it come from?
How?
- How are you innately
born with something?
- Yeah.
- You
know, Jason told me
that you're getting engaged.
- I am engaged.
I've been engaged for a while.
- I'm so happy.
- Thanks.
- Why didn't you
tell me, that you?
- Uh, I don't know.
I guess I didn't realize.
Everyone found out from Facebook
and all that kind of bullshit,
so I guess I just
assumed that you knew.
- I didn't know.
- I know you're busy and stuff.
You're out there on your own
and you're fuckin' terrible
at keeping in touch.
- Yeah, exactly.
So, you have to put a little...
I mean...
I'm happy for you.
- Thank you.
I wasn't surprised that
I hadn't heard from you.
I don't know, it's just fuckin',
it's weird, we'll
all be out talking,
you know, having a
beer with the guys
and we'll start talking
about you, eventually.
It's strange, it's like we're
talking about a dead person
or something, you know.
You just completely disappeared.
I don't know.
Sorry.
It's really not a
big deal, I just...
It's just weird, but it's fine.
- Looks like I keep moving.
I'm not really sure what,
like what I'm after.
- I need a
connection.
But I want to tell
you what I'm thinking,
I just don't want
to talk about it.
- I know what you're saying.
I know what you're saying.
- Why can't you
just get in here, dude?
Just listen to what I'm saying?
- Thank you.
- Molly!
Molly!
We're going over here.
This way.
- Molly, you
want a cigarette?
- Yeah, I do, actually.
Thank you.
It tastes really
good, right now.
- It's delicious.
- I stopped.
- Why?
- Why do you think I stopped.
- Oh, yeah.
- And you're not
really allowed to...
I don't know.
- My used to hide
cigarettes from me.
- She did, yeah.
I mean, I have a
little secret stash.
Every once in a
while I'll take one.
- I didn't understand
until I got older, like,
it tastes good to,
like, hurt a little bit
and hurt yourself.
Like that
self-destruction feeling.
You can't help
but want it sometimes.
I want it sometimes.
- Yeah, this is like
a really compact form
of that, isn't it?
But not really this big.
- It's a indirect.
- Yeah, it's like--
- It's the friend your
mom never wanted you
to hang out with.
- A small little
does of it, right?
It's a way that
you can monitor it.
- It's good to be
self-destructive at times.
And it's important.
- Oh, my god
are you kidding me?
I'm like...
I think you have to
sort of, like, know
your spectrum, do
you know what I mean?
- Yeah.
- I mean, maybe that's
kind of part of the reason
I don't know, it's nice
to hit rock bottom.
- Yeah.
- Do you know what I mean?
- Well, yeah.
You gotta get your lows to
get your highs, I think.
And it seems like a
lot of these guys...
Um...
have kind of just plateaued,
and that scares
the shit out of me.
- Plateaued in what way?
- Like, there's never
a fear that they're--
- Like me?
- I think you're all right.
I think you're a little
different, though
in that you've kept a
pretty good perspective...
on, like...
- Oh, god.
- You just aren't
allowed to be as selfish.
I might be, I don't know,
I'm just really selfish
right now, I feel.
- It's weird to be me,
and having accomplished
absolutely nothing,
feel like kind of, I
don't know, I'm here.
Like I miss her, but ah...
I don't have worries right now.
I should have worries.
I don't have any of the
things people need to have.
- Yeah, you do.
- I have her.
- Yeah, you get to
go home every day.
- Yeah.
What about you?
You wanna do that?
- I don't know.
- Whoa!
- Yeah.
I think so.
I thought so for a
really long time, but...
- Hey, Dad.
- Hey, sweetie.
It's so beautiful here.
- Yeah, it's really nice.
You look exactly the same.
- You know...
I wanted to tell you something.
- John, you put
your shoes by the tree.
- I know where
to find them now.
- How is everyone?
What happened?
You guys were
laughing a second ago.
- It'll happen again.
- The only thing I've
been worried about
for hours and hours is,
like, where's the best spot
to lie down.
- Will
this be comfortable?
Should I make this
immense world,
how can I make that my
small, little world?
- It's real wet.
- It's so wet.
- I've had it in my
mouth for, like, an hour
before I lit it.
You want a different one?
- No, no, no, it's
fine, I don't mind.
- We're brother and sister, now.
That's how that works.
- You OK?
- Mm hmm.
- Are you tying shoes?
- Yeah.
- Cause that's
something I need to have done.
- I can tie everybody's shoes.
Why can't you guys
tie your shoes?
- I was looking at it.
I knew that was a
project for later.
- Do you need your
shoe tied, too?
That one's good.
That one's good.
- Can you hear me now?
I can hear you!
- It's gonna go down, too.
Is it?
- The sun.
- Yeah, it's
gonna get colder.
- It's gonna go pfft.
Now you're all fucking freezing.
- Well, it doesn't
actually go down, you know.
We're going up.
- No, we're just going
- Hang on, hold on guys.
It's about to happen.
Look at Johnson coming.
- Safe!
What's the term for that?
For real, what's safe?
Then it seems like,
nope, he didn't get it.
Way off.
To the biggest version of the
cut neck slice you can do.
Definitely not!
- You know
what's really happening
when you're tripping?
- What?
- It basically
disconnects you from yourself.
And it's actually calming
your brain's activity.
So, you're less able to
filter out all these senses
and things that you
wouldn't need normally.
Otherwise it'd be
overload, you know?
So you're consciously feeling
and seeing all these things
that normally you can't.
But, you know.
It's just a drug.
- This is a different world.
- Oh, I need some
water for this.
- Here, in the kitchen.
- All right, buddy, come on now.
It's OK, buddy.
That was fun, wasn't it?
It's OK.
- Hey, hi.
Oh, somebody's tired.
- He's tired.
- It's OK, buddy.
- Hey, guys.
- Say hi to your mom.
- No, hey, baby, I'm sorry.
Hey buddy.
I missed you.
Hey, man I'm thinking 'bout
Takin' it easy
Hey, man I'm thinking 'bout
Goin' slow
I've been cruisin'
at your speed
For too long now
Think it's time for me
To enjoy the ride
You, you seem
A little high strung
Now I really want
To go with the flow
Wish we'd just sit back
Man, and just shut up
You were never really
Part of the show
So, yeah
I think I'm gonna take it easy
Yeah, man, I'm gonna
Go so slow
Gonna see if I
can change my view
On a few things
Think it's time to see
Who's in control
You, you don't seem too happy
Now I really want
To go with the flow
Wish you'd just sit back
And just shut up
'Cause you know you were never
Really part of the show
Hey, man, I'm thinkin' 'bout
Takin' it easy
Hey, man, I'm thinkin' 'bout
Goin' slow
I've been cruising
at your speed
For too long now
Think it's time for me
To enjoy the ride
Think it's time for me
To enjoy the ride
Think it's time for me
To enjoy the ride
You ready?
Ready.
Oh!
You wanna knock it down?
Wow!
Wow!
- Ah.
Hey, it's me.
Call me back when you get this.
Molly! Jason.
Um, you didn't
respond to my Emails.
Um, now I'm calling you.
Yeah, so we're getting together
at Shelton's still.
And, ah, I think
you should come.
Um, Sam's gonna be here.
I think you know John
and one other guy.
Anyway, I know it's
a bunch of dudes
and you're not a tomboy anymore,
but um, yeah...
All right, I hope
you're doing well.
And, uh, just call me.
Bye.
- Hello, hi.
- Hi.
- How are you?
Hello.
Hi, hi little buddy.
Look who it is, Finn.
It's your Aunt Amy.
You love Aunt Amy.
- Is he done eating?
Come here.
Ooh! Hello.
Hey there, hey there, Finn.
Hi, baby.
What you got there, a spoon?
Got a spoon and a block?
- You're so good with him.
- Shhh.
- Oh!
Oh, that's better.
Oh, that's Finn.
There's my Finn.
Mmm. Is that delicious?
So delicious.
Your face is all dirty.
Your face is all dirty.
- It's not that dirty.
Oh, you're so sleepy.
What's wrong, you
seem a little moody.
- No, no, no.
- I don't know.
I just need a break.
- So take a little break.
I'll take care of him.
That's why I'm here.
Baby.
He's very tired.
I'm gonna put him down.
- OK.
- Is Patrick
coming back tonight?
- Yeah.
- Molly, I'm
making a living for us, OK?
- You know,
I'm just like,
it's too much for me.
I can't...
- Where are you going?
- I've told you.
- And
who are these guys?
- You know them,
you've met them before.
They're my friends
from high school.
- I'm not exactly
comfortable with you staying
in a house with a bunch of men.
That's...
- I'm not looking to
get fucked, Patrick.
It's not what's
going on here, OK?
- Oh, my god, Molly.
Molly, I rearranged
my shit to come back
and spend time
with you and Finn.
That's what I'm doing here, OK?
- Yes, I know.
I don't know, it's not
going to make sense.
It doesn't make sense, OK?
But I just feel like
I'm going insane, OK?
And you're always gone.
You're gone and I'm just here
all by myself, you
know, with him.
I'm just, you know,
I'm just kind of stuck
here with him, OK?
- Listen to yourself.
You're stuck with him?
You're his mother, you're
not stuck with him.
You're his mother,
you're parenting him.
- I know, I'm parenting him.
- You don't get to leave
your job as a parent, OK?
- OK, well, Molly
just explain to me.
- I can't, I just don't
know what's going on.
I don't understand
what's going on.
I just have to--
I don't feel as
though I'm the same.
- What do you want
me to say to that?
- I don't know.
- So you're
just going to leave?
- Yes.
- You're
just going to go?
- Yes.
Bye, baby.
Hey, Finn, give Mommy a kiss.
Bye.
Thanks again.
- It's fine.
- What?
- Nothing.
- C'mon.
- Whoa!
That was
almost kind of good.
- Big swing, not a big hit.
He steps up to the plate.
They call him the
country club cowboy.
That was
actually pretty good.
- That was nice, Tiger!
- Hello?
- Far out!
Oh, shit.
- Hey!
Hey!
- You're here!
- Yeah, I
don't believe this.
- I know.
- Hey, Molly.
- How the
fuck are you guys.
- What the fuck is up?
- Come here.
- It's so
good to see you.
- Oh, fuck!
- I know.
Hi.
- Hey, I needed that.
- I know, so did I.
John!
- Hey, Molly.
- My god, how are you?
- Good, good to see you.
- Always such a pleasure.
- Likewise.
- Hey, Molly.
Long time, huh?
- Ben, jeez- Louise.
I haven't seen you in forever.
- I know.
- Wow! You
look so not changed.
- Good, I guess.
- You've not.
- What's going on with family?
- The family is fine.
- Good. Patrick's good?
- Yeah, they're really good.
- Awesome.
I haven't seen 'em
in a little bit, but...
- That's my brother, David.
- Oh, hi, I'm Molly.
- Hi, David, welcome.
- Thank you.
- He's very zen, very zen.
- He's very at peace
with the Earth.
- I'm just sitting on
the ground, it's OK.
- I cannot believe
this is Shelton's summer home.
This is--
- Well, his parents'.
- It's absolutely beautiful.
I had no idea it was like this.
- They're doing,
they're doing OK.
- I would have come more often.
- Middle class just
isn't what it used to be,
if you now what I mean.
- Where is he, where
is this boy that--
- Shelton?
- Yeah.
- He's still passed out
on the couch in there, I think.
- Go wake his ass up.
We're gonna go down to the
river, sooner than later.
- Put your shit down.
- OK.
Sam's in there, too making
sandwiches or something.
- Good morning.
Hi.
Morning.
Morning, sunshine.
Wake up, you.
Get out of your
dreams, face the day.
What are
you doing here?
- Came to say hey.
- Hey. Oh, god!
What is in that bag?
- Ah! I don't know,
a couple of bricks.
Hey, buddy!
- Hi. Hi, Molly.
- How are you?
- Fine.
- I missed you.
- You're really here?
What are you--
- I am.
- You just drove out here?
- I drove out here,
yes, just for you.
- I Emailed you last
time we came out.
You never responded.
- Yeah, yeah, shit's been tough.
Whatever.
- Well, I'm glad you're here.
- I know, I'm glad I'm here too.
Little buddy.
- Oh, that really fucking hurt.
- Yeah? You'll survive, it's OK.
I'm sure it's payback
for something, anyway.
Hey, Sam?
- Molly.
- Hey.
- Hi.
- I missed you, too.
- I missed you, Molly.
- It's nice to be back.
- It's so freaking
beautiful out here.
- Want this beer?
I just opened it.
- Thank you.
- You know what time it is?
- I don't know,
It's like afternoon, maybe.
- Hey, Shelton, c'mon, let's go!
Is he out of the shower yet?
- Dude, calm down.
He's getting out right now.
- I don't understand why
he's taking a shower.
We're about to get in a river.
- Mister
Cranky-pants, today, huh?
- There he is!
- Hey, guys, I feel
like shit, still.
- You look really
handsome, though.
- Oh, thank you.
- You guys
went out last night?
- No, we got everything here.
- All right, let's
go. C'mon guys.
- Wait, we're gonna
go on a river?
- Yeah.
- I just got here.
Don't you wanna, like, catch up?
- Sure. How are you?
Are you good? Good.
OK, let's go to the river.
All right, we can
talk on the way.
- OK, I don't have
a bathing suit.
Somebody's gotta lend
me some clothing.
Preferably something
that's not white,
so you aren't
staring at my tits.
- What tits?
- You can borrow
something from me.
- Yeah?
- Just go straight
up the stairs.
My room's right there.
You can grab anything
from the dresser.
- Molly, chop-chop.
- Suck it.
- Thank you.
- Jason, why didn't you
tell me that she texted you?
- I don't know,
it's not a big deal.
She wanted it to be a surprise.
- It's just kind of weird.
I haven't spoken to her
in like a year and a half.
She shows up out of nowhere?
- Why, what happened to her?
Where's she been?
- She's got a kid.
She's a mom.
You didn't know that?
- No. Wow.
- So, how you
guys want to do this?
- What do you mean?
- Well, I mean, how far
are we from the place?
I don't want to pop
these on the street.
- It should be coming up soon.
I saw it on the website.
I don't think we should
do it out on the road.
- Hey, Molly, remember
back in middle school
you were always, "I'll
never get married.
"I'll never have kids."
- What?
- Yeah, you were.
- Really? No, I wasn't.
- I mean, did you know
we were all fucking
in love with you back then?
- Oh, god.
- Come on,
you know we were.
- Whatever, you
guys would have been
in love with any chick
who paid attention to you.
I just happened to
find you guys funny.
- That's probably true.
- Molly was the first girl
who was like one of the guys,
you know what I mean?
She was hot, but actually cool.
She was older.
She smoked, she drank.
She went to bars that
we couldn't get into.
And, she was smart.
It was fuckin' unfair.
- Was smart?
- So, did any of you
hook up with her?
- Yeah, I figured that.
- Are you fuckin' serious?
- Wait!
- It's a big deal when I do it?
With Shelton it's cool?
- Oh, I forgot about that, man.
- You forgot about that?
- Wait, wait, hold on.
You guys hooked up?
The two of you hooked up?
Dude, we only kissed.
- When did this happen?
- Um, that was
sophomore year, I think.
Right after my dad died.
You know, I got a little slutty.
I needed attention and
these guys were horny.
- I was fuckin' horny.
I would have given you
lots and lots of attention.
- You obviously
missed your chance, man.
- That's fucked up.
- I totally would
have fucked you.
All you had to do was ask.
- Would you fuck me
back then, please?
Now.
- I fucked so many
dudes then, too.
- All
right, guys, I think
this is probably a good spot.
- Why are you whispering?
- I just don't want to
be too obvious about it.
- Who cares?
- We right by the river?
- Yeah.
Shit, we didn't bring any
peanut butter, did we?
- Just eat it.
It's better, I promise.
- Wow, are you guys doing
mushrooms right now?
Is that what's happening?
- We are all
doing mushrooms right now.
- No, I cannot do that.
- You gotta go to work.
That sucks.
- What are you worried about?
- Yeah, I guess I
just don't want to go
into a really dark
head space, that's all.
I understand
how you feel.
I understand how you feel.
But we're gonna do it.
- We're all gonna do it.
He's gonna do it.
He didn't want to do it,
but he's gonna do it.
Team effort.
- We're about to go
tubing down a river.
Do you really think
this is a good idea?
- She's actually
right about that.
I don't know that we
should do the tubing part.
- It's a lazy river, it's fine.
- That's the whole plan.
- I mean, I think you
definitely should...
It's the perfect environment.
You're surrounded by friends.
You're in nature.
- You couldn't pick a
better place, honestly.
- I just don't want to
get into a dark spot,
you know what I mean?
- I've had bad trips before.
It happens.
But, honestly, those
tend to be the ones
that are the most cathartic.
- And these are trusted.
- It's from
my normal dude.
He's not sketchy at all.
- He's not sketchy,
he's a drug dealer.
He's not sketchy,
don't worry about it.
- Really, he's a
nice guy, a good guy.
- So, is it good?
- We all
ready to do this?
- Yeah, all right.
- It's kinda
gonna taste shitty,
like you're eating
sticks, but...
Don't eat too many caps.
- There's
actually just as much
in the caps and the stems.
It's a myth.
You can
always take half,
see how it goes
then take the rest.
- No, no, no. We want to be
trippin' at the same speed.
- No goin' back now.
- Fuckin' gross.
- That's why you
need fuckin' peanut butter.
- Just keep
your eye on me, OK?
- This is the place?
- This is it, man.
- You talked to him.
- This looks like
a fuckin' lemonade shop.
Like a fifth grade
lemonade stand.
- Five cents for a small.
- Hey, you guys going
down the river today?
- Yeah. You guys found us.
- Awesome.
- I thought it'd be,
like, a bigger operation.
- No, this is it.
I'm gonna run down a few things.
First, our big rule is,
you keep your life
jacket on all the time.
Never take your life jacket off.
And the other
rule, obviously, is
you gotta sign our waiver here.
Just in case you guys do
something really stupid.
Also, each valley here
is a microclimate.
There are little
clouds coming in.
You never know what
the weather's gonna do,
so keep an eye on that.
- This is the last time you're
ever gonna sign your name.
Now, when
you're going down the river,
at the third bridge, you're
gonna paddle your little tube
over to the bank.
You'll see our trailer there.
We'll collect you guys and
shuttle you right back here.
Are there any questions?
- Yeah, can we drink?
- Yeah, that's fine guys.
Just please be smart
about it, all right.
Don't pass out in the
middle of the river
or anything.
- Hey, I was in
the back, thanks.
All right,
are we all clear, now?
Cool. We're gonna
pass everything out
and get you guys on your way.
- Do you want
some bladder wine?
- I'm good, thanks.
- Thanks a lot, dude.
Have fun, guys.
The river's right down that way.
- What the
hell's a micro ciimate?
- Hey, Shelton,
is it rough down there?
- It's a little rough.
Did you guys fall?
- No, but these rapids
are way too shallow.
I can't even get by.
- What should we do?
Should we just walk down?
- Come on, Sam.
- Sam looks miserable.
- I don't know how we're
gonna get any farther down.
It's so shallow.
- Get down and walk it?
Get out, I mean?
- I don't know.
- Sam!
Are you OK?
- No.
- Hey, anybody
listen to that dude
about where we're supposed to go
after whatever bridge?
- What?
- Where the hell are
we supposed to go
after whatever bridge?
- Are you kidding me?
- I don't know, I
wasn't listening
to anything he was saying.
- We're supposed to go
through three bridges
and then go left.
- Three?
Fuckin' A, man.
Those guys robbed us, man.
For real.
Fuck.
Are you guys
starting to feel it?
- Tube, tube, tube, tube, tube.
- We're done for real, right?
- Do you guys
just want to be done?
Yes.
- We can just leave
this shit here.
- Lazy river, my ass.
- Yeah, we're done.
This was a rip-off, anyway.
Twenty bucks?
Somebody help Sam?
- Anybody
know how to get back?
- There's
no way that was safe.
- Not the great idea.
- I lost my shoe.
- Yeah, I lost mine, too,
if it makes you feel better.
- Wait, how long does it
usually take to set in?
- Thirty to 60 minutes, usually.
- Yeah, in like an hour
you'll start seeing
demons and dragons.
- And spiders.
- Evil clowns.
- The clowns are the worst.
- Stop.
- You don't feel
it in your stomach?
- Um, I'm starting to
feel a little relaxed,
but that's about it.
- Relaxed is good.
- Oh, wow!
What is this place?
- It's like an
old, abandoned marble factory.
- Marble factory?
- Oh, it's so cold.
Hm.
- Is that wall
made out of marble?
- Yeah.
- They look like snow.
- Cubes of snow.
- Molly?
Are you OK?
- Yeah.
- Are you sure?
- Yeah.
- OK.
I just know you were nervous,
so I want to make
sure you're OK.
- No, feels all right.
- OK.
Honestly, in my experience,
personally, it comes on
faster if you just let go.
- Yeah, I'm not so
sure what I'm letting,
exactly what that means.
- Most people have a
hard time describing it.
Like, a lot of people say
that it's really spiritually
significant for them.
There's a lot of research
going on right now, you know.
Some people report
having a full,
what they call a
mystical experience,
which can include, you
know, pure awareness merging
with some kind of
ultimate reality, um...
feeling a unity with all things.
Some people rate it
as the most spiritually
significant moment
in their lives.
- Yeah, but it's a
drug taking an effect
on somebody, right?
It's not like a real
religious experience,
spiritual experience.
It's a drug's effect, right?
- I know, I know I
sound like a hippie.
It's ridiculous.
I'm sorry, it's the kind
of shit that I think about
when I'm alone, by myself.
- Hey, guys.
I think we need to
get out of here,
or we'll be here forever.
Forever.
- That sounds
like a good idea.
- Guys, we're
gonna head back.
Shoes, clothes, warm.
We'll be here forever,
we'll be here forever.
- Oh, no.
This is real, right?
There's no way I can
do this right now.
- We're back
but we can't get in.
- Shelton's
thing, Shelton can do that.
- Thank you!
- Oh,
thank god we're here.
- Welcome back, everybody.
- Thank you, Jason.
Great tour guides.
- All right, I think
everybody should get changed.
Then we'll meet back...
uh, wherever.
Just do whatever.
I don't want this
responsibility.
I don't want this on
my plate right now.
Be happy.
Enjoy the sun.
- God, what the fuck am I doing?
- Oh, the light
is different over here.
- Oh, yeah.
Yeah, all these colors
just totally changed.
- Whoa! The light
got different on this side
than even it was on that side.
- Hey, Jason.
You look happy.
- Thank you.
You look happy.
- I'm happy to see you.
- Thank you.
- How come you're
not down at the creek
with everybody?
- Um, I decided I
would lie down right here.
- Huh. Can
I lay down, too?
I would recommend it.
See what I mean?
- Yeah.
Have you even
moved since we've--
since you got here?
- Um...
no, but I have gone
lots of places,
and I've seen lots of
really cool things.
- Jason? Jason.
- Yeah.
- I have a question for you.
- OK.
- Do you think that Shelton
has started to look old?
- I could see it, I guess.
- You know, he's
started balding?
- Yeah.
That's not something
to bring up around him.
That's something that
makes him very upset.
- Oh.
He does
not enjoy that at all.
- Oh.
- I don't blame him.
- Well, secretly, though,
I think it's really funny.
- Everything on
the ground is so wild.
- There's
a beaver all up
and down this creek, though.
- There's a beaver here?
- Yeah, see
he's got a dam right here.
He's got paths all in here.
- Billy the beaver.
- Yeah, sure, dude,
that's his name.
Billy.
- I got some more
nature's candy.
- What do you got?
- Strawberries.
- No shit?
- Did you
say strawberries?
- Yeah.
- Oh, man, really?
You read my mind.
Oh, wow.
Thank you.
- Oh, my god.
- Here, smell.
- Mmm. Thank you.
- Not that one.
- That's the only one I want.
- Could I have another one
before I go back across?
- Yeah.
- What time is it?
- Oh, that is not a
concept that I'm prepared
to talk about
right now.
I apologize.
- Oh, well.
- Oh, well.
- You know what's funny?
Is that I know that I'm
tripping, or whatever,
but how often do you
actually get to sit down
outside like this?
- Yeah.
- I think I'm gonna go
walk down to the creek.
I think I'm gonna make
my way down to the creek.
You wanna come?
- Sure.
I don't know if I could get
up right now, though.
- Sure you can.
- That's very nice.
Whoa, this is different.
- It's nice.
- Good, it's nice, yes.
Standing is good.
Wow!
- You know how the bug
sounds are so amplified
down here?
- This is
awesome.
Are those strawberries?
- Oh, yeah.
Here, have one.
- Really?
- Yes! Please, they're so good.
- Hey, Molly, you
want a strawberry?
- Whoa!
- Probably going to
be the best strawberry
you've ever had in
your entire life.
Not to build it up or anything.
- They're really good.
Really, really good.
- Hey, you guys know flowers?
- Yes.
- I know flowers.
- I knew one, once.
- But you know how
there are flowers
and there are bees.
There are bees and
there are flowers.
And the flowers need the bees.
The bees have to
pollinate the flowers
and the bees need the flowers
because the flowers
have the nectar
and the bees need to make honey.
So without bees, no flowers.
No flowers.
Without flowers, no bees.
Without bees and
without flowers,
total collapse.
Nothing,
There is nothing.
So, bees aren't flowers.
They're not...
The stem is a flower.
The petals are the flower.
The bud is the flower.
Bees are not flowers?
Wings are bees?
- Symbiosis.
- Legs are bees.
Flowers are bees.
Yeah, right.
You know what I'm talking about?
- Yeah, we have to label them.
We have to say,
"You're a flower.
"You're a bee.
"You guys are not connected.
"You're a flower, hang
out with dandelions
"and roses."
- Stop feeling oneness,
you're not the same thing.
I'm sorry.
There is a void.
There's a total void.
I'm tripping my
face off right now.
- Oh, fuck.
- Where is your face?
Where is my face?
- I saw it
in the river, John.
It was smiling.
- As long as it was smiling.
- It was part of the river now.
- It is river.
My face is river.
- You're in
river, right now.
- Face is river,
stick is beaver.
Rock is Ben.
Jason is Sam.
Molly is me.
Shelton is grass, same color.
- Oh, man. Tell us more.
What else about the--
- What else is the
same thing as the same thing?
- I love us, John.
- I love us, too.
- We love us.
- I am you,
you are me, we are us.
- I wish this
was a blanket tree.
- You mean, made of blankets.
- Yeah.
Why do
we have the same thoughts?
- Because we're so
in-tune with each other.
- Hey, were
you guys over there?
- No, we were here.
- The trees.
- Were you at the trees?
Dude, be here.
- May I sit here?
- Yeah.
- Wow, this is cool.
- Yeah.
- How old do you
think this thing is?
- This?
- Yeah.
- 32.
- Well, that's
an appropriate age.
I once got myself off,
I once masturbated
while I was sitting on
a dead tree like that.
- What?
- Whoa!
You fucked it.
- I fucked, I had,
yeah, I fucked it.
Well, I didn't fuck
it, but I like...
I got off on it.
- You jerked off
on a tree trunk?
- Yeah, I was sitting on a trunk
and I got myself off on it.
This was a long, long time ago.
- Is this real?
- What do you mean, is it real?
- I'm asking you
if that really happened?
- Yes, of course it happened.
Why would I just...
Is it weird?
- It's not weird but it's
funny to hear that from you.
It's not weird.
- I masturbated all
over everything.
There's just a time in your life
when you just need to
do that all the time.
- That's very true.
- Does that stop for you?
I love it, still.
- No, it's gone.
- Really?
- My pussy fell asleep.
I mean, it like fell
asleep a while ago.
It's so exhausted.
I mean, I haven't
exhausted it, though.
I haven't exhausted
it, but it's...
It's all been so exhausting.
- So it's just functional.
You just use it to pee?
- You know, I don't
even get wet anymore.
- Ew!
- I'm gonna
stop masturbating now.
- That thought deadened
the whole thing?
- Dry pussy
just killed my dick.
- Someone's gonna see
this land and be like,
"Yeah, I'm gonna put
a house over there,
"and then just figure it out."
- Yeah.
- There'll be a road.
- What was that?
- Something's over there.
Oh, was that an animal?
- Was that is again?
-
Sounds like an elk.
- Like, he was huge.
- Smaller than a moose.
- Yeah, but
still, pretty big.
- Yeah, yeah, no,
I'm just saying--
- Smaller than a moose?
- Well, we
might be able to see him
from the top, actually.
- She doesn't
sound too happy.
- How can you tell if
it's hungry or not.
- I know.
- The best way to
tell, probably, if
it's coming after you.
- Oh, it's cows.
- They're cows?
- Is it cows?
- It's just a bunch of
fucking cows mooing.
- Probably a farmer
over there, being like,
what the fuck is going on
the next door neighbor's.
- Some idiots
keep mooing at it.
- Now, there's a bear.
- Oh!
- Oh, shit!
- Are you sure?
- Yeah, right
here there's a bear.
- It is bear season.
- You see that?
- That's a cow.
- That's a cow, yeah.
- It's definitely
not a bear, guys.
- Yeah, it's a cow.
- It would be so sad if
there was a cow over there,
and like, "Help me!
"Help me, bear, bear!"
- What are the different
kinds of clouds?
It's cirrus...
cumulonimbus, cumulus
and strattus.
- Stratta?
- What's the difference?
- I don't know.
The sirrus are like
the little whisps.
I think these are, I think.
And then cumulonimbus
is the ones
that are thunder clouds.
- The fluffy ones, right?
- How do
the animals know,
it's instinct somehow.
- A trait of evolution, maybe.
- No, but like
where's it come from?
How?
- How are you innately
born with something?
- Yeah.
- You
know, Jason told me
that you're getting engaged.
- I am engaged.
I've been engaged for a while.
- I'm so happy.
- Thanks.
- Why didn't you
tell me, that you?
- Uh, I don't know.
I guess I didn't realize.
Everyone found out from Facebook
and all that kind of bullshit,
so I guess I just
assumed that you knew.
- I didn't know.
- I know you're busy and stuff.
You're out there on your own
and you're fuckin' terrible
at keeping in touch.
- Yeah, exactly.
So, you have to put a little...
I mean...
I'm happy for you.
- Thank you.
I wasn't surprised that
I hadn't heard from you.
I don't know, it's just fuckin',
it's weird, we'll
all be out talking,
you know, having a
beer with the guys
and we'll start talking
about you, eventually.
It's strange, it's like we're
talking about a dead person
or something, you know.
You just completely disappeared.
I don't know.
Sorry.
It's really not a
big deal, I just...
It's just weird, but it's fine.
- Looks like I keep moving.
I'm not really sure what,
like what I'm after.
- I need a
connection.
But I want to tell
you what I'm thinking,
I just don't want
to talk about it.
- I know what you're saying.
I know what you're saying.
- Why can't you
just get in here, dude?
Just listen to what I'm saying?
- Thank you.
- Molly!
Molly!
We're going over here.
This way.
- Molly, you
want a cigarette?
- Yeah, I do, actually.
Thank you.
It tastes really
good, right now.
- It's delicious.
- I stopped.
- Why?
- Why do you think I stopped.
- Oh, yeah.
- And you're not
really allowed to...
I don't know.
- My used to hide
cigarettes from me.
- She did, yeah.
I mean, I have a
little secret stash.
Every once in a
while I'll take one.
- I didn't understand
until I got older, like,
it tastes good to,
like, hurt a little bit
and hurt yourself.
Like that
self-destruction feeling.
You can't help
but want it sometimes.
I want it sometimes.
- Yeah, this is like
a really compact form
of that, isn't it?
But not really this big.
- It's a indirect.
- Yeah, it's like--
- It's the friend your
mom never wanted you
to hang out with.
- A small little
does of it, right?
It's a way that
you can monitor it.
- It's good to be
self-destructive at times.
And it's important.
- Oh, my god
are you kidding me?
I'm like...
I think you have to
sort of, like, know
your spectrum, do
you know what I mean?
- Yeah.
- I mean, maybe that's
kind of part of the reason
I don't know, it's nice
to hit rock bottom.
- Yeah.
- Do you know what I mean?
- Well, yeah.
You gotta get your lows to
get your highs, I think.
And it seems like a
lot of these guys...
Um...
have kind of just plateaued,
and that scares
the shit out of me.
- Plateaued in what way?
- Like, there's never
a fear that they're--
- Like me?
- I think you're all right.
I think you're a little
different, though
in that you've kept a
pretty good perspective...
on, like...
- Oh, god.
- You just aren't
allowed to be as selfish.
I might be, I don't know,
I'm just really selfish
right now, I feel.
- It's weird to be me,
and having accomplished
absolutely nothing,
feel like kind of, I
don't know, I'm here.
Like I miss her, but ah...
I don't have worries right now.
I should have worries.
I don't have any of the
things people need to have.
- Yeah, you do.
- I have her.
- Yeah, you get to
go home every day.
- Yeah.
What about you?
You wanna do that?
- I don't know.
- Whoa!
- Yeah.
I think so.
I thought so for a
really long time, but...
- Hey, Dad.
- Hey, sweetie.
It's so beautiful here.
- Yeah, it's really nice.
You look exactly the same.
- You know...
I wanted to tell you something.
- John, you put
your shoes by the tree.
- I know where
to find them now.
- How is everyone?
What happened?
You guys were
laughing a second ago.
- It'll happen again.
- The only thing I've
been worried about
for hours and hours is,
like, where's the best spot
to lie down.
- Will
this be comfortable?
Should I make this
immense world,
how can I make that my
small, little world?
- It's real wet.
- It's so wet.
- I've had it in my
mouth for, like, an hour
before I lit it.
You want a different one?
- No, no, no, it's
fine, I don't mind.
- We're brother and sister, now.
That's how that works.
- You OK?
- Mm hmm.
- Are you tying shoes?
- Yeah.
- Cause that's
something I need to have done.
- I can tie everybody's shoes.
Why can't you guys
tie your shoes?
- I was looking at it.
I knew that was a
project for later.
- Do you need your
shoe tied, too?
That one's good.
That one's good.
- Can you hear me now?
I can hear you!
- It's gonna go down, too.
Is it?
- The sun.
- Yeah, it's
gonna get colder.
- It's gonna go pfft.
Now you're all fucking freezing.
- Well, it doesn't
actually go down, you know.
We're going up.
- No, we're just going
- Hang on, hold on guys.
It's about to happen.
Look at Johnson coming.
- Safe!
What's the term for that?
For real, what's safe?
Then it seems like,
nope, he didn't get it.
Way off.
To the biggest version of the
cut neck slice you can do.
Definitely not!
- You know
what's really happening
when you're tripping?
- What?
- It basically
disconnects you from yourself.
And it's actually calming
your brain's activity.
So, you're less able to
filter out all these senses
and things that you
wouldn't need normally.
Otherwise it'd be
overload, you know?
So you're consciously feeling
and seeing all these things
that normally you can't.
But, you know.
It's just a drug.
- This is a different world.
- Oh, I need some
water for this.
- Here, in the kitchen.
- All right, buddy, come on now.
It's OK, buddy.
That was fun, wasn't it?
It's OK.
- Hey, hi.
Oh, somebody's tired.
- He's tired.
- It's OK, buddy.
- Hey, guys.
- Say hi to your mom.
- No, hey, baby, I'm sorry.
Hey buddy.
I missed you.
Hey, man I'm thinking 'bout
Takin' it easy
Hey, man I'm thinking 'bout
Goin' slow
I've been cruisin'
at your speed
For too long now
Think it's time for me
To enjoy the ride
You, you seem
A little high strung
Now I really want
To go with the flow
Wish we'd just sit back
Man, and just shut up
You were never really
Part of the show
So, yeah
I think I'm gonna take it easy
Yeah, man, I'm gonna
Go so slow
Gonna see if I
can change my view
On a few things
Think it's time to see
Who's in control
You, you don't seem too happy
Now I really want
To go with the flow
Wish you'd just sit back
And just shut up
'Cause you know you were never
Really part of the show
Hey, man, I'm thinkin' 'bout
Takin' it easy
Hey, man, I'm thinkin' 'bout
Goin' slow
I've been cruising
at your speed
For too long now
Think it's time for me
To enjoy the ride
Think it's time for me
To enjoy the ride
Think it's time for me
To enjoy the ride