Diana: In Her Own Words (2017) Movie Script

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INTERVIEWER: Right...
Questions, here we are.
Yeah, has anything come up
since the last meetings?
Any afterthoughts?
PRINCESS DIANA: Well, only about
being accused very early on
of stopping him hunting and shooting.
INTERVIEWER: Let's now go
back to the other life,
before this life as it were...
DIANA: Mm-hmm.
INTERVIEWER: Your first memory
after being born?
Anything as a child?
DIANA:
I mean, it was a very unhappy childhood.
I remember seeing my father
slap my mother across the face
and I was hiding behind a door.
And she was crying.
The press were being unbearable
following my every move.
REPORTER: Is there any possibility
of any announcement
of your marriage in the near future,
can you tell me?
DIANA: He sat me down and he said,
"Will you marry me?"
I thought the whole thing was hysterical,
getting married.
It was so grown up.
And here was Diana,
a kindergarten teacher.
I mean, the whole thing was ridiculous.
I once heard him on the telephone saying,
"Whatever happens, I'll always love you."
And I told him I'd listened at the door.
We had a filthy row.
And I realized I had taken on
an enormous role
but I had no idea what I was going into.
But no idea.
(bleating)
I remember him coming to Althorp to stay.
He came with his labrador.
My sister was all over him
like a bad rash.
I thought, "God, he must
really hate that."
And I kept out the way.
I remember being a fat,
podgy, non-makeup, unsmart lady
but I made a lot of noise
and he liked that.
And he just came up to me
after dinner, we had a big dance
and he said,
"Will you show me the gallery?"
For a 16-year-old, for someone like that
to show any attention was just so...
sort of amazed.
"Why would anyone like him
be interested in me?"
Anyway, that was it for about two years.
Saw him off and on with Sarah.
Sarah got frightfully excited
about the whole thing.
And then she saw something
different happening
which I hadn't twigged on to.
When he had his 30th birthday dance,
I was asked too.
"Well, why is Diana coming as well?"
And I said, "Well, I don't know,
but I'd like to come."
"Oh, all right."
And I had a very nice time at the dance.
Fascinating.
And then, um...
I was asked to stay with the de Passes
in July by Philip de Pass.
"Would you like to come 'cause we've got
Prince of Wales staying and...
you're young blood,
you might amuse him."
So I said, "Okay."
The first night, we sat down on a bale
and I said, you know,
"You looked so sad..."
"when you walked up the aisle
at St. Paul's...
with Lord Mountbatten's funeral."
And I said, "My heart bled for you,
I watched you.
"I thought, 'This is wrong,
you're lonely.'
You should be with somebody
to look after you, etcetera."
And the next minute he leapt
on me, practically.
And it was very strange,
because it was almost as if...
Like a... it wasn't a magnet effect.
I thought, "Well, this isn't very cool."
I thought men were supposed
to not to be so obvious.
But I hadn't got anything to go by
because I'd never had a boyfriend.
I'd always kept them away.
Thought they were all trouble
and I couldn't handle it.
Emotionally, I was
very screwed up, I thought.
And he said, "Oh, you must come
to London with me tomorrow.
I've got to go and work
at Buckingham Palace."
I thought, "This is too much."
I said, "No, I can't, I'm sorry."
I thought, "How will I
explain my presence...
at Buckingham Palace when
I'm supposed to be staying with Philip?"
And then it sort of built up from there.
Charles used to ring me up and say,
"Would you like to come for a walk?"
"Would you like to come for barbecues?"
So I said, "Yes, please."
I thought this was all wonderful.
INTERVIEWER: A lot of admiration for
an episode on the riverbank at Balmoral
when you looked at
the press through your mirror.
Did you know that was going to happen?
DIANA: No. I saw them appearing
from the other side.
So I said to Charles,
"I must get out the way.
You don't need any aggravation."
So I went up, up, up, up to the bank
and sat behind a tree
for a good half an hour.
And then the press seized upon it.
(reporters shouting indistinctly)
REPORTER: Lady Diana was back
at the Pimlico Kindergarten
where she teaches this morning.
But, polite as ever, she was
saying nothing about her weekend
with Prince Charles at Sandringham
to the assembled press corps.
She drove off in her brand-new
Mini Metro with a smile.
I managed to have a word with her later,
outside her Kensington flat.
Is there any possibility
of any announcement
of your marriage in the near future,
can you tell me?
Boy (off screen):
Prince Charles' girlfriend!
Can you tell me if
there's any possibility?
DIANA: I'm not gonna say anything.
REPORTER: But Prince Charles
did give us a hint himself.
He said we wouldn't have to wait too long.
DIANA: Oh, careful.
REPORTER: He said we wouldn't
have to wait too long.
- Was he completely off beam?
- (boy yells indistinctly, laughs)
- Was he?
- DIANA: Sorry, I... Sorry.
REPORTER: Was he completely off beam
when he said we wouldn't
have to wait too long?
DIANA: I wouldn't know.
JOHN CHANCELLOR:
Prince Charles of Britain is perhaps
the world's most eligible bachelor,
early 30s, handsome, rich,
and the heir to the British throne.
London was full of rumors this week
that he may now be about to take a bride.
The photographers are trailing
Lady Diana Spencer, 19 years old,
daughter of the eighth Earl of Spencer.
She fits the qualifications,
aristocratic, good-looking,
and well-heeled.
REPORTER: She is said
to be besotted by him,
and that, in the Queen's English,
means I presume that she's in love.
Sweet, kind, nice, and shy
are all the terms used to describe her.
A girl born to be queen.
Ideal for the most eligible bachelor
in the Western world.
Even the Queen, we're told,
thinks she's delightful,
and that is as good as saying
that mother approves.
Her pedigree is perfect.
Her father is the 8th Earl Spencer,
a wealthy landowner
who farms 15,000 acres
in the heart of
the Northamptonshire countryside.
The family link with the royal family
dates back to Queen Victoria's
reign and before.
INTERVIEWER:
Have you ever had feedback on
who you first spoke to
or what you first...
DIANA: No, nothing like that.
I was born at home,
I wasn't born in hospital.
I was born in my mother's.
INTERVIEWER:
Your first memory after being born?
Anything as a child?
DIANA: It's really the smell
of the inside of my pram.
- INTERVIEWER: Right.
- DIANA: Hmm.
INTERVIEWER:
You remember that quite vividly?
DIANA: Yes, very. Yes.
INTERVIEWER:
What did it smell of?
DIANA (laughing):
I don't... Just plastic, yes.
It's the hood.
INTERVIEWER: Wet nappies.
DIANA (laughing): Yes, probably.
We were always shunted
over to Sandringham for holidays
to go and see Chitty Chitty
Bang Bang, the film,
and we hated it so much.
We hated going over there.
The atmosphere was always
very strange when we went there,
and I used to kick and fight
anyone who tried
to make us go over there.
And Daddy was most insistent,
because he said it was rude.
And I said, I don't want to go and see
Chitty Chitty Bang Bang
for the third year running.
(laughs)
INTERVIEWER: Children's parties...
- Do you remember any of them?
- DIANA: Yeah, I hated them.
I've always hated parties.
That's why I've never had them my own.
- Daddy loves parties.
- INTERVIEWER: Right.
DIANA: And organized it
and took great pride in that.
But there were still none of
the arms around the shoulder,
or the hugging.
It was always the other things,
which was probably what he had, too.
I mean, yeah, it was
a very unhappy childhood.
Parents were busy
sorting themselves out.
Always seeing our mother crying.
Daddy never spoke to us about it.
We could never ask questions.
Too many changeover of nannies.
Very unstable, the whole thing.
- I just remember being...
- INTERVIEWER: Just generally unhappy.
DIANA: Generally unhappy,
and being very detached
from everybody else.
INTERVIEWER:
How did you first learn about the divorce?
DIANA: I remember seeing my father
slap my mother across the face,
and I was hiding behind the door.
And she was crying.
And I remember Mommy
cried an awful lot.
And every Saturday,
when we went up for weekends,
every Saturday night, standard procedure,
she'd start crying on Saturday.
We would both see her crying.
"What's the matter, Mummy?"
"Oh, I don't want you to leave tomorrow."
Which, for a nine-year-old,
was devastating, you know?
And for my brother and I,
it was very sort of wishy-washy
but painful experience,
and he said to me the other day
that he hadn't realized just how much
the divorce affected him
until he got married and started
having a life of his own.
REPORTER 1: She was educated
privately at Riddlesworth Hall,
and then at West Heath School
in Sevenoaks.
REPORTER 2: When she was 13,
she really developed
her sporting talents,
particularly diving.
DIANA: I liked all subjects.
I played the piano, I loved the piano.
I did my tap dancing,
which I absolutely adored.
There was an enormous hall there
which they built on
just after I got there.
I used to sneak down at night
when it was all dark
and put on my music
and do my ballet there
in this enormous hall for hours.
And no one ever found me.
But actually,
I loved being at school.
I was very naughty in the sense
of always wanting to laugh
and muck about rather than sit tight
in a four-walled schoolroom.
INTERVIEWER: As a child, any ideas
of futures or ambitions?
DIANA: No.
Always felt very different
from everyone else.
Very detached.
Knew I was going somewhere different.
Had no idea where.
And said to my father when
I was the age of 13,
"I know I'm going to marry
someone in the public eye.
I don't know which way."
- INTERVIEWER: At 13?
- DIANA: Yes.
Thinking an ambassador's wife, actually.
Not the top one.
(laughs)
REPORTER: Since leaving school,
she has lived in a 100,000-pound flat
in South Kensington
given to her by her father.
DIANA: It was nice being in a flat
with girls, you know, I loved that.
It was great, laughed my head off there.
My three girls were wonderful.
Star performers, loyalty beyond belief.
I kept myself to myself.
I wasn't interested in
having a full diary.
REPORTER: And she works part-time
at a nursery in Pimlico.
(peppy piano music playing)
WOMAN: From the minute
she walked in, you could tell
that she had a really genuine
love for young children,
particularly the very small ones.
She was just always there,
if ever a child was looking miserable,
she was the one who would go
and pick them up and comfort them.
REPORTER: It didn't seem to be
quite the life for a future queen,
but one man can testify
that Lady Diana may only
have been biding her time.
Ray Hunt services the family's
electrical and film equipment,
and he remembers something prophetic
she told him
at her sister Jane's wedding.
RAY: She did say to me, uh,
"Nothing like this for me, right?"
She said, "Westminster Abbey or nothing."
And I said, "You're joking, Diana."
And she said, "Not really."
DIANA: By the time I got to
the top of the school,
all my friends had boyfriends.
But not me.
I knew somehow I had to
keep myself very tidy
for whatever was coming my way.
REPORTER: Many speak of her
as a happy but quiet girl,
and her father, her uncle, Lord Fermoy,
and others have even vouched
for her virginity.
Lord Fermoy stating categorically,
and I quote, "I can assure you
she has never had a lover."
REPORTER: How well are you coping
with all the press attention?
DIANA: Well, as you can see. You can tell.
REPORTER: Are you bearing up
with it quite well, though,
'cause it must be quite a strain
with all of us after you.
DIANA: Well, it is, naturally.
INTERVIEWER: Any chases
involving the media in the car?
DIANA: Oh, lots of them.
(indistinct shouting)
But I always made sure
that I went through
just as the light was going to red.
So they were very stuck.
Sometimes I cycled, some days I didn't.
INTERVIEWER:
Did they chase you on the bike?
DIANA:
Oh, they chased me everywhere.
We're talking about thirty of them,
we're not talking about two.
REPORTER 1: Prince Charles has had
a few relationships
that we all know about,
and he is looking for somebody
that he can live with
who will be queen,
who will fulfill her duties,
and everyone who knows him says
that he's very tired indeed
of being pursued endlessly
and being asked endlessly
when he's going to marry
and who he's going to marry.
REPORTER 2: For a girl of 19,
it was a necessary demonstration
of just how great are the pressures
of living constantly in the public eye.
But she handled the problem
with cheerful good nature.
REPORTER 3:
Between the two of you,
can you say if we're likely
to hear the announcement soon?
REPORTER 4 (off screen): Lady Diana?
- DIANA: Um...
- REPORTER 4: Lady Diana?
REPORTER 3: We thought there was
gonna be an announcement
on his 32nd birthday, but there wasn't,
and he told reporters yesterday
that it may be coming soon.
Have you any comment
to make about that?
DIANA: No.
- REPORTER: Lady Di? Lady Diana?
- (laughs)
REPORTER 3: No comment, all round.
DIANA: Hmm.
Did you have a good weekend, though?
DIANA: I'm going to work now, okay?
REPORTER: The view is that
her age is about right, being 19,
because it's unlikely
that any ex-boyfriends
would be ringing up
those well-known newspapers
with scandals of this or that
in future years
if she is indeed going to be the queen.
And they say that it's useful
that she's so young,
because of childbearing,
to put it very simply.
People seem to forget,
Western society, we marry for love.
But when we talk about the royalty,
that never seems to enter it.
DIANA: Charles rang me up from Klosters,
saying, "I've got something to ask you."
Instinct in a female,
you know what's coming.
Anyway, I sat up all night
with my girls, saying,
"What do I do? What do I say?"
By that time I had realized
there was somebody else around.
I'd been staying at Bolehyde with
the Parker Bowleses an awful lot.
I couldn't understand why
Camilla kept saying to me,
"Don't do this, don't do that."
She knew so much about
what he was doing privately.
Eventually, I worked it all out.
The next day I went to Windsor.
I arrived about sort of 5 o'clock.
And he sat me down and he said,
"Will you marry me?"
And I laughed.
I remember thinking, "This is a joke."
So I said, "Yeah, okay."
And he was deadly serious.
And he said, "You do realize that
one day you will be Queen."
A voice said to me inside,
"You won't be Queen,
but you'll have a tough role."
So I thought to myself, "Okay."
So I said, "Yes."
And I said, "I love you so much,
I love you so much."
And he said, "Whatever love means."
Said it then.
So I thought that was great!
I thought he meant that.
INTERVIEWER: How much thought
did you really give the proposal?
DIANA: A lot, actually.
In my immaturity, which was enormous
I thought that he was very much
in love with me
which he was, he sort of had
the besotted look about him
looking back at it,
but it wasn't the genuine sort.
You know, "Who is this girl
who's so different?"
But he couldn't understand it
'cause his immaturity is
quite good in that department.
And um...
It was like a call for duty, really.
Go and work with people.
And then it all started to build up.
The press were being unbearable,
following my every move.
REPORTER: The decision by
the press council to discuss reports
of alleged harassment of Lady Diana
have involved reporters trailing
the 19-year-old almost continuously.
DIANA: I understood they had a job,
but people did not understand
they had binoculars on me the whole time.
They hired the opposite flat
in Old Brompton Road,
which was a library
that looked into my bedroom.
And it wasn't fair on the girls.
I couldn't put the telephone off the hook
in case any of their family
were ill overnight.
The papers used to ring me up
at 2:00 in the morning
'cause they were just putting out
their last story,
could I confirm it or deny?
Whenever he rang me up, he said,
"Poor Camilla Parker Bowles.
"I've had her on the telephone tonight...
"and she says there's
lots of press at Bolehyde.
She's having a very rough time."
And I never complained
about the press to him
because I didn't think
it was my position to do so.
And I said, "How many
press are out there?"
He said, "Oh, at least four."
And I thought,
"My God, there's 34 out here."
But I never told him.
I just couldn't cope with it.
I got no support from Charles
and no support from the press office.
They just said, "You're on your own."
So I thought, fine.
(camera shutters clicking)
I was able to recognize
an inner determination...
to survive.
Before I knew what happened,
I was in Clarence House.
Nobody there to welcome me.
It was like going into a hotel.
And then everyone said,
"Why are you at Clarence House?"
And I said, "Because I was told
that I was expected to be
at Clarence House."
So I'd left my flat for the last time,
and suddenly I had a policeman.
And my policeman the night
before the engagement said to me,
"I just want you to know that this is
your last night of freedom ever
"in the rest of your life,
so make the most of it."
And it was like a sword went in my heart.
I thought, "God."
ROGER:
Charles Philip Arthur George Windsor,
heir to the British throne,
Prince of Wales,
Earl of Chester, Duke of Cornwall,
and Great Steward of Scotland
has finally chosen his bride.
She is Lady Diana Spencer,
and their engagement is the news
Britain has been waiting for.
CARTHEW: 11:00 a.m., Buckingham Palace.
The beginning of a day to remember
for Prince Charles, Lady Diana,
and for quite a lot of other people, too.
The long-awaited,
much-written-about engagement.
There was a fair amount of unrestrained,
old-fashioned happiness
in the cold February air.
It seemed to all of us there
that Britain's constitutional monarchy
appeared to be in quite good health.
And for the couple themselves
in the palace,
undoubtedly a feeling of relief
that it was all out in the open.
WOMAN: It's good. It's great, isn't it?
Cheers everybody up, you know, too,
something like this.
He's getting on a bit, isn't it?
About time he got married.
(inaudible)
REPORTER: Immediately after lunch,
the Earl Spencer, Lady Diana's father,
most surprisingly appeared
in the middle of the crowd.
His object, he said, was to take
happy snaps of the palace.
RAINE: You must get her. We're so...
REPORTER: He'd always done
this sort of thing
on important days in his daughter's life.
At three o'clock,
Prince Charles and Lady Diana
appeared for the first time in public.
INTERVIEWER: Do you find it
a very daunting experience
that yesterday you were a nanny
looking after children,
um, now you're about to marry
the Prince of Wales,
and one day, you would
in all likelihood be queen?
It's a tremendous change
for someone, if I may say, of 19
to make all of a sudden, the transition.
DIANA: It is, but I've had
a small run-up to it all
in the last six months.
And next to Prince Charles,
I know I can't go wrong.
He's there with me.
CHARLES: I'm amazed that she's been
brave enough to take me on.
INTERVIEWER (off screen):
And I suppose, in love.
DIANA: Of course.
CHARLES:
Whatever "in love" means.
You can put your own interpretation.
INTERVIEWER:
Obviously, it means two very happy people.
- CHARLES: Yes.
- DIANA: As you can see.
INTERVIEWER: Well, from us,
congratulations.
- DIANA: Thank you very much.
- CHARLES: Thank you very much. Very kind.
REPORTER: The gilded surroundings
of the Goldsmiths' Hall
in the city of London
were chosen quite deliberately
by the palace
in order to show Lady Diana off
to the best advantage for
her first public appearance.
INTERVIEWER: Do you remember
what your first ever memory was?
DIANA: In this life?
INTERVIEWER: Yes.
DIANA: Yeah, I remember
my first engagement so well.
I remember being so excited.
I got this black dress from Emanuel's.
REPORTER: It was in black taffeta,
it was off-the-shoulder,
and by normal royal standards,
it was fairly revealing.
DIANA: I thought it was okay
'cause girls of my age wore this.
I hadn't appreciated
that I was now seen as a royal lady,
although I'd only got
a ring on my finger
as opposed to two rings.
And I remember walking into
my husband-to-be's study
and saying, "I'm ready."
And he said, "You're not going
in that dress, are you?"
And I said, "Yes, I am."
He said, "It's black!"
I said, "Yes, it's black."
"But only people in mourning
wear black."
And I said, "Yes, but I'm not
part of your family yet."
Black to me was the smartest color
you could possibly have
at the age of 19,
it was a real grown-up dress.
REPORTER: She looked pretty relaxed,
considering this must have been
something of an ordeal for her.
DIANA: And I was quite big-chested then,
and they all got frightfully excited.
I learned a lesson that night.
I remember meeting Princess Grace.
REPORTER: One of the performers
was Princess Grace of Monaco.
She, of course, is very experienced
at this sort of occasion,
and the often-tricky business
of making small talk.
She also knows how to give
a helping hand to a newcomer,
and how to pose for the cameras,
which Lady Diana is now learning.
(inaudible)
DIANA: I didn't know whether
to get out the door first.
I didn't know if your handbag
should be carried
in your left hand,
not your right hand.
Everything was all over the place.
I remember that evening so well.
I was terrified.
Nearly sick.
REPORTER: At the end,
something else Lady Diana
is going to have to get used to,
the fusillade of camera flashbulbs.
MANGOLD: After the royal wedding
and honeymoon this summer,
Prince Charles will bring
his 19-year-old bride here
to Highgrove in Gloucestershire.
This is the 18th-century
manor house bought last summer
by the Duchy of Cornwall
for one million pounds.
Prince Charles' neighbors
living a mile away in Tetbury
were as pleased as the prince
himself must be
at the prospect of
a royal wedding at last.
WOMAN 1: I was absolutely overcome.
I'm very, very pleased for them.
And I feel like going out and getting
a card and sending it, actually,
but it's probably a bit silly.
WOMAN 2: I think they're
a really super couple.
They'd have a lovely
sort of life around here
if they do sort of live
in Highgrove most of the time, you know.
It's really smashing, so romantic.
(laughs)
And I think really
when the country's so,
everyone's so depressed and everything,
I think really it's nice
to sort of cheer everybody up
with a lovely wedding
in the summer, hopefully.
You know, so, what more can you say?
Smashing. Thanks very much.
DIANA: When I arrived
at Clarence House
there was a letter on my bed from Camilla
dated two days previous saying,
"Such exciting news
about the engagement.
"Do let's have lunch soon
"when Prince of Wales goes
to Australia and New Zealand.
"And love to see the ring.
Lots of love, Camilla."
And that was... wow.
You may recall seeing a picture
of me sobbing in a red coat
when he went off on his aeroplane.
That was nothing to do with him going.
The most awful thing had happened
before he went.
I was in his study talking
to him about his trip.
The telephone rang. It was Camilla.
Just before he was going for five weeks.
So, I thought, "Shall I be nice
or shall I just sit here?"
So, I thought I'd be nice,
so I left them to it.
And it just broke my heart, that.
So, I organized lunch.
We had lunch, and...
very tricky, very tricky indeed.
She said, "You're not going
to hunt, are you?"
I said, "No."
"Oh, I just wanted to know that."
But as far as she was concerned
that was her communication.
I was still too immature to understand
all the messages coming my way.
And then someone
in his office told me that
my husband has had
a bracelet made for her.
I walked into this man's office one day
and I said, "Ooh, what's in that parcel?"
"Oh," he said,
"You shouldn't look at that."
I said, "Well, I'm going to look at it."
So, I opened it
and there was the bracelet.
I was devastated.
And he said, "Well, he's going
to give it to her tonight."
So, rage, rage, rage. You know,
"Why can't you be honest with me?"
But, no, absolutely cut me dead.
It was as if he'd made his decision
and if it wasn't going to work,
it wasn't going to work.
He'd found the virgin,
the sacrificial lamb
and in a way he was obsessed with me
but it was hot and cold, hot and cold.
You never knew what mood
it was going to be.
Up and down, up and down.
I went upstairs, had lunch
with my sisters who were there.
And I said, "I can't marry him.
I can't do this.
This is absolutely unbelievable."
And they were wonderful and said,
"Well, bad luck, Duch,
your face is on the tea towel...
so you're too late to chicken out."
REPORTER: Two young and loving
and happy faces are,
in their own very individual way,
putting a smile back
into a broken-hearted, miserable Britain.
Three hundred million pounds
are the spoils of their wedding.
Lot of money, that, 300 million pounds.
But of all the souvenirs,
of all the presents
winging their way to the happy couple,
the nicest, I think,
comes from the Black Country.
A man who grows four-leaf clovers
is sending them one apiece.
He says, no matter how much
money they may have
or might have,
they still have to have Lady Luck
riding on their shoulders.
How very true.
REPORTER: The royal family made
the traditional carriage drive
down the course at Ascot today.
In the third carriage, Lady Diana,
but no Prince Charles.
He's having an away day
on Concorde to New York.
As if to make up for this,
she'd splurged a bit on the fashion,
an outfit that brought sighs of approval
from people in the royal enclosure,
particularly that hat.
DIANA: The day we got engaged
I had literally one long dress
one silk shirt
one smart pair of shoes
and that was it.
So, suddenly, my mother and I had
to go and buy six of everything.
Bear in mind, you have to
change four times a day.
Suddenly, your wardrobe
expands into something unbelievable.
REPORTER 1: The effect,
displayed somewhat shyly today,
suggests that Lady Diana,
when she becomes Princess of Wales,
is going to be a leader of
fashion of the kind
not seen in the royal family for 50 years.
REPORTER 2: News of Lady Diana's
visit spread quickly.
Shoppers waited in pouring rain
while staff from nearby offices
abandoned work for half an hour.
Lady Sarah Spencer was there
to give a sister's opinion
of the wedding dress.
It's been slightly altered.
The crowds saw that,
like most brides,
Lady Diana has lost weight
as the day approaches.
DIANA: The bulimia started
the week after we got engaged.
My husband put his hand
on my waistline and said,
"Oooh, a bit chubby here, aren't we?"
And that triggered off something in me.
And I remember the first time
I made myself sick, I was so thrilled.
Because I thought,
"Right, this is the release, the tension."
The first time I got measured for my
wedding dress, I was 29 around the waist.
The day I got married,
I was 23 and a half.
I'd shrunk into nothing.
(crowd cheering)
The public side was very different,
obviously, from the private side.
The public side, they wanted
a fairy princess.
Touch them and everything
will turn into gold
and all their worries would be forgotten.
Little did they realize
that the individual
was crucifying herself inside
because she didn't think
she was good enough.
"Why me? Why all this publicity?"
MAN: I think she saw
all the press around her,
all the television crews
from all around the world.
Probably went through her mind
about the big day next Wednesday.
It's also her third
public engagement in two days.
I just think she was surrounded,
she felt claustrophobic,
and she felt she had to move.
REPORTER: A lot of press today.
Very many more, of course,
next Wednesday.
- How will she cope on that?
- MAN: Oh, yeah.
I think she'll cope
magnificently Wednesday,
I think it's just a little lapse.
Bit of pre-wedding nerves.
CHARLES: It's not much fun,
actually, watching polo,
when you're being surrounded
by people with very long lenses,
poking in from all directions
at you the entire time.
And then taking a photograph,
which is quite easy to do,
and saying, you know,
"Looking bored."
And I think all this adds up
to a certain amount of strain each time.
So I would only hope
that after we get married,
it will be a bit easier
to come to a polo match
without this kind of, you know,
intensity of interest.
(bells tolling)
(applause)
DIANA: We got married on Wednesday,
and on the Monday
we'd gone to St. Paul's
for our last rehearsal,
and that's when
all the camera lights were on full.
And I sobbed my eyes out,
absolutely collapsed.
And it was collapsing
because of all sorts of things.
The Camilla thing rearing its head
the whole way through
our engagement,
and I was desperately trying to
be mature about the situation,
but I didn't have the foundation to do it,
I couldn't talk to anyone about it.
MAN: Lady Diana, meeting so many people
is still quite new to you.
How have you reacted to
this warmth and affection?
DIANA: Well, it's been
a tremendous boost,
and just a mass of smiling faces.
It's wonderful.
- MAN (off screen): Quite emotional, too.
- DIANA: Oh, very, very. Yes.
WOMAN: One thing that I know
St. Paul's have done to make it,
from their point of view, very personal,
they were telling me that
where you're going to make your vows,
they've made a platform
so that at least you can feel
that you're together and alone,
because I think everyone would agree,
when you make your vows,
that's the most solemn,
the most precious,
and a very personal moment.
Is it going to be that for you,
even though you'll know the eyes
of the world are watching you
at that very important moment?
CHARLES: Well, I hope so, yes. I...
I don't know about Diana,
but I'm more used to it,
I think, probably now,
knowing for years
that the camera's poking at you
from every quarter
and recording every twitch you make.
So you can get used to a certain extent,
and on those occasions,
you accept that that's part of it.
I think that if you don't try
to work out in your own mind
some kind of method
for existing and surviving
this kind of thing,
you would go mad, I think.
I don't know, do you find
that after the last six months,
you're beginning to get used to it?
- DIANA: Just.
- CHARLES (off screen): Hmm.
WOMAN (off screen): It is, I suppose,
one of the most important things
you're gonna have to
adjust to, really, isn't it?
DIANA: Well, of course. Yes.
REPORTER: And Prince Charles
has been a great help to you
- in that, I should think.
- DIANA: Marvelous. A tower of strength.
CHARLES: Gracious.
DIANA: I have to say that
because you're sitting there.
(laughing)
WOMAN: I'm sure you would anyway.
DIANA: I remember my husband
sent me a very nice signet ring
the night before to Clarence House
with the Prince of Wales feathers on it,
and a very nice card that said,
"I'm so proud of you.
"I'll be there at the altar
for you tomorrow.
Just look 'em in the eye
and knock 'em dead."
I had a very bad fit of bulimia
the night before.
I ate everything
I could possibly find,
which amused my sister,
'cause she was staying
at Clarence House with me.
Nobody understood
what was going on then.
It was sort of hush-hush.
I was sick as a parrot that night,
and it was such an indication
of what was going on.
Next morning when we were
getting up at Clarence House,
I must have been awake about 5:00.
And I was very, very deathly calm.
Deathly, deathly calm.
I felt I was a lamb to the slaughter,
and I knew it.
REPORTER: At the household
cavalry barracks,
horses were awakened
and mucking out began in preparation
for a day for which both men and horses
had been practicing for weeks.
Along the route, both crowds
and excitement were building.
By eight o'clock, police estimated
900,000 people
were already out in Central London.
REPORTER: Before he left home,
Lord Spencer,
the proudest of men today,
wanted a few words.
SPENCER: I'd just like to say a word.
May I say a word?
REPORTER (off screen): Please do.
SPENCER: Um, the Spencers have,
through the centuries,
fought for their king and country.
Today, Diana is vowing to help her country
for the rest of her life.
She'll be following in
the tradition of her ancestors,
and she will have at her side
the man she loves.
REPORTER 1: And then,
just after half past 10:00,
from Clarence House
came the glass coach
and our first chance
to see Lady Diana,
dress half-glimpsed,
veil tantalizingly low.
REPORTER 2: And so, Lady Diana
in her truly stunning dress
is well and truly launched
on her way to the cathedral.
Of course this is the moment
where she could exercise
the traditional bride's
prerogative of being late,
but somehow
I don't think she will.
INTERVIEWER: Did your father say anything
to you in the coach?
DIANA: No. He was so thrilled.
Waved himself stupid.
We went past St. Martin's-in-the-Field,
and he thought we were at St. Paul's,
so he was ready to get out.
It was wonderful, that.
I don't think I was happy.
I think I was...
I never tried to call it off
in the sense
of really doing that, but...
I think the worst day of my life.
I cried a lot on the Monday
when we'd done the rehearsal,
because the tension suddenly hit me,
but by Wednesday I was fine,
and I had to get my father
basically up the aisle,
and that's what I concentrated on.
And I remember being terribly worried
curtsying to the Queen.
Walking down the aisle,
I spotted Camilla,
pale gray, veiled hat, pillbox hat.
Saw it all.
Her son Tom standing on a chair.
To this day, you know, vivid memory.
And I thought, well, there we are,
that's it, let's hope
that's all over with.
ARCHBISHOP:
Charles Philip Arthur George,
wilt thou have this woman
to thy wedded wife,
to live together after God's ordinance
in the holiest state of matrimony?
Wilt thou love her, comfort her,
honor and keep her
in sickness and in health,
and forsaking all other
keep thee only unto her
so long as ye both shall live?
CHARLES: I will.
ARCHBISHOP: I, Diana Frances...
DIANA: I, Diana Frances...
ARCHBISHOP: Take thee,
Charles Philip Arthur George...
DIANA: Take thee,
Philip Charles Arthur George...
ARCHBISHOP:
To my wedded husband...
DIANA: To my wedded husband...
ARCHBISHOP:
To have and to hold...
DIANA: To have and to hold...
ARCHBISHOP: From this day forward...
DIANA: From this day forward...
ARCHBISHOP: For better, for worse...
DIANA: For better, for worse...
ARCHBISHOP: For richer, for poorer...
DIANA: For richer, for poorer...
ARCHBISHOP: In sickness and in health...
DIANA: In sickness and in health...
ARCHBISHOP: To love and to cherish...
DIANA: To love and to cherish...
ARCHBISHOP: Till death us do part.
DIANA: Till death us do part.
ARCHBISHOP: Here is the stuff
of which fairy tales are made.
A prince and princess
on their wedding day.
DIANA: And I remember being
so in love with my husband
that I couldn't take my eyes off of him.
I just absolutely thought I was
the luckiest girl in the world,
and, you know, he was gonna look after me.
(cheering)
MAN 1: It's absolutely fantastic.
They're right in front of me.
They're right underneath us!
Looking, looking right up
at them as they come past us.
Well, that was the moment
you've been waiting for, wasn't it?
- WOMAN: Ah, smashing.
- MAN: Did you get a good view?
WOMAN: I did. It was lovely.
She was beautiful.
MAN 2: Yes. What about Margaret,
did you get a good view?
MARGARET: Marvelous, marvelous.
MAN 2: How much would you give
to swap with Lady Di?
WOMAN: Anything.
DIANA: It was a wonderful feeling,
everybody hoorayed, everybody happy
and everybody happy
because they thought we were happy
and there was a big question mark
in my mind.
(horse whinnies)
PHOTOGRAPHER (off screen):
Your Royal Highness?
- WOMAN (off screen): Sir?
- PHOTOGRAPHER: Sir, sir, please.
(camera shutters clicking)
Sir.
DIANA:
Went back to Buckingham Palace,
did all the photographs, nothing tactile.
I was basically wandering around,
trying to find where I should be,
touching my long train
with my bridesmaids and pages.
Sat next to him
at the wedding breakfast,
which it's called,
but actually it was lunch.
Neither of us spoke to each other.
We were so shattered.
It was exhausting, the whole thing.
CROWD (chanting): We want Charlie!
We want Charlie!
We want Charlie!
(cheering)
REPORTER 1 (off screen):
The curtains are open. That's the signal.
REPORTER 2 (off screen):
The Prince of Wales.
His bride, the Princess of Wales,
Diana Spencer.
(crowd cheering)
DIANA: Got out on the balcony.
Overwhelming, what we saw.
So humble-making.
Thousands and thousands
of people, happy.
It was just wonderful.
(inaudible)
I realized I had taken
on an enormous role.
But I had no idea
what I was going into.
But no idea.
REPORTER 1: The Duke of Edinburgh
and the Queen Mother
helped throw the confetti this afternoon.
Prince Edward and Prince Andrew
tied balloons
and a suitable notice
to the going-away carriage.
REPORTER 2: And into the afternoon
sunshine they came,
Prince Charles
and the new Princess of Wales,
smiling and looking
wonderfully relaxed.
DIANA: I just had tremendous hope in me,
which was slashed by day two.
(laughing)
My husband took eight Laurens van der Post
novels along on our honeymoon.
INTERVIEWER: To prop the bed up?
DIANA: Well, no, to read.
DIANA: So every lunchtime or dinnertime,
when we were allowed to be on our own,
we were supposed to read them.
We were never on our own.
(crowd chanting)
(cheering)
I remember crying my heart out
on my honeymoon.
I was so tired.
For all the wrong reasons.
Totally.
REPORTER: You can now say
that the honeymoon
has really started.
Actually, it gets more
like a romantic novel
as the minutes go on.
All the old clichs come to mind,
like "And so we say farewell,"
and "At last, we're alone, darling."
DIANA: We were opening
our diaries to discuss various things.
Out comes two pictures of Camilla.
And on our honeymoon...
cufflinks arrive on his wrists.
Two 'C's entwined like the Chanel 'C.'
Got it in one. Knew exactly.
So, I said, "Camilla gave you those,
didn't she?"
He said, "Yes, so what's wrong?
They're a present from a friend."
And, boy, did we have a row.
Jealousy, total jealousy.
And it was such a good idea, the two 'C's.
But it wasn't that clever.
By then, the bulimia was appalling
absolutely appalling, it was rife
it was four times a day on the yacht.
Anything I could find, I would gobble up
and be sick two minutes later.
We survived that all right.
Then we went off to Balmoral
straight from the yacht.
DIANA: Everyone was there to welcome us.
And then the realization set in.
(camera shutters clicking)
My dreams were appalling at night.
I dreamt of Camilla the whole time.
Everybody saw I was getting
thinner and thinner and thinner.
I was being sicker
and sicker and sicker.
REPORTER (off screen): May we ask,
are you having a good holiday, sir?
CHARLES:
Every now and then, yes.
DIANA:
Basically, they thought I could adapt
to being Princess of Wales overnight.
REPORTER 1: Madam, how are you
enjoying married life?
DIANA: It's highly recommended.
REPORTER (off screen):
How do you like Balmoral as a place?
DIANA: It's lovely, it's beautiful.
REPORTER 2:
Have you cooked a breakfast yet?
(laughter)
DIANA: I don't eat breakfast.
(laughter)
Obsessed by Camilla. Totally.
Didn't trust him.
Thought every five minutes
he was ringing up,
asking her how to handle
his marriage, da, da, da, da.
And all the guests at Balmoral
coming to stay
just stared at me the whole time,
and you know, treated me like glass.
As far as I was concerned, I was Diana,
and the only difference was
people called me "ma'am" now,
"Your Royal Highness."
They curtsied,
that was the only difference.
We stayed up there
from August to October.
By October I was about
to cut my wrists.
I was in a very bad way.
It rained and rained and rained.
And I came down early
from Balmoral to seek treatment,
not because I hated Balmoral,
but because I was
in such a bad way.
Couldn't sleep.
Didn't eat.
A whole world was
collapsing around me.
All the analysts and psychiatrists
you can ever dream of came plodding in.
Tried to sort me out.
Put me on high doses of Valium.
It was me telling them what I needed.
They were telling me, "Pills."
Got to keep them happy,
they could go to bed at night and sleep
knowing the Princess of Wales
wasn't going to stab anyone.
DIANA: But the Diana that was
still very much there
decided that it was just time,
patience, and adapting
were all that was needed.
Anyway, a godsend,
William was conceived in October.
Marvelous news.
Occupied my mind.
REPORTER: In a way,
an odd place to arrive.
None of the grandeur and romance
and legend of Wales here.
Just a little station with one passenger
waiting for the upline train.
There was a minimum
of formality at Shotton,
just a Lord Lieutenant
and a Lady High Sherriff
to greet the couple.
Beyond them the flat outline
of Shotton's beleaguered steelworks,
the reminder of the problems
of modern Wales.
The princess went straight
into an impromptu walkabout
in the station path
and received her first
unofficial bouquet.
The princess was in
a red and green wool suit
with a hat faintly reminiscent
of a Robin Hood principal
Boylan pantomime.
But she can obviously
get away with things
other royals wouldn't attempt.
DIANA: Went to Wales for three days
to do our visit as
Prince and Princess of Wales.
Being terribly sick carrying this child.
Hadn't told the world I was pregnant.
Rained the whole time around Wales.
I wasn't easy.
I cried a lot in the car,
saying I couldn't get out.
I couldn't cope with the crowds.
"Why had they come to see us?
Someone help me."
He just said, "You've just
got to get out and do it.
You just gotta get out."
He tried his hardest
and he did really well in that department.
Got me out.
And once I was out
I was able to do my bit.
But it cost me such a lot
because I hadn't got the energy...
'cause I was being sick
with my bulimia so much
let alone, you know,
the support for him or vice versa.
REPORTER: Perhaps the highlight
of this grueling three days
was the conferring of
the Freedom of the City of Cardiff
on the princess.
All through the tour
it was expected at some stage
the princess would say
something in Welsh.
(trumpet fanfare playing)
DIANA: Desperately trying
to make him proud of me,
made a speech in Welsh.
(applause)
He was more nervous than I was.
I am extremely grateful to you,
Lord Mayor,
and to the city council,
and to the city of Cardiff
for granting me the Freedom of the City.
I realize it is a very great honor,
and I am most grateful.
I would like to try to express
my thanks to you in Welsh also.
(in Welsh): It is a great pleasure
for me to come to Wales.
I look forward to returning
many times in the future.
Thank you.
Never got any praise from Charles for it.
And I began to understand
that was absolutely normal.
CHANCELLOR: Lady Diana Spencer
became the Princess of Wales
in a ceremony watched by
the world at the end of July.
Buckingham Palace today said
she's expecting.
The baby will be second in line
to the British throne.
MAN (off screen): Ohh!
I'm pouring over the counter there,
aren't I?
REPORTER (off screen): Don't you think
it's perhaps it's a bit soon?
MAN: Well, I do really, yeah,
I don't really think
they've got to know each other
really by now.
But they obviously have.
(laughs)
REPORTER: Let's turn to your good lady.
What do you think, a boy or a girl?
WOMAN: Boy or a girl?
I don't think it really matters.
Another baby's always good news.
REPORTER: Whether or not
the baby's to be born here
has yet to be decided.
That's largely a question for
the Queen's gynecologist, George Pinker,
who will be attending
the princess throughout.
That's just one of many questions
for the future.
For the present, though,
well, there's really only one way
of saying it, isn't there?
That's, of course, if they'll let me.
Wonder if you might,
in her Royal Highness' absence,
pass those on from ATV, ATV Today,
all its viewers,
with our sincere congratulations.
REPORTER: "If only the station
was always this full,"
said the British rail official.
And the royal train
pulled in right on time.
For the hundreds of guests,
just one question.
And, yes, her Royal Highness
was on board.
Recently the princess has had
to cancel several engagements
because of morning sickness.
DIANA: I was sick all day.
I didn't know what to do.
I was very aware that I wasn't
being helpful to my husband,
and I was just mortified.
REPORTER:
Today she looked well enough,
although perhaps just a little pale.
DIANA: I mean, I look gray
in all the pictures.
I remember exactly what I was wearing.
Black felt hat, and a sort of,
um, Robin Hood green cloak.
Just simply dreadful.
And I felt so sick. I remember it.
REPORTER: She is young.
She's only just over 20,
and she is having a baby,
and she is, after all, human.
Just because she's a royal princess,
it doesn't mean to say
that she has a baby
any differently to anybody else.
DIANA:
Very, very difficult pregnancy, indeed.
Sick the whole time.
Bulimia and morning sickness.
And this family's never had anybody
who's had morning sickness before,
so every time in my evening dress,
I had to go out,
I either fainted or I was sick.
So I was a problem.
And they registered,
Diana's a problem.
She's different.
She's doing everything
that we never did.
Why?
REPORTER 1: And what about
the photographers?
Obviously, they're all looking
for the ideal picture.
Are they going to take
any notice of this?
REPORTER 2: I think they might.
I wonder sometimes about
some of the foreign photographers,
particularly the French and the Germans.
They don't really care
about anything
except getting a good shot
on their camera.
But they might just find that, uh,
they're gonna have to pack their bags
and take a few steps back
and have a little bit of a pause.
Because they are literally
camping wherever you go.
DIANA: It was Charles' choice
when we first got married
not to run around.
He wanted to try and have
a home life of some sort.
But he didn't know how to do it
because he'd never been taught.
So the whole thing just evaporated.
INTERVIEWER:
When you fell down the stairs?
DIANA:
I threw myself down the stairs.
DIANA:
Charles said I was crying wolf.
And I said I felt so desperate,
and I was crying my eyes out.
And he said, "I'm not gonna listen,
you're always doing this to me."
He said "I'm going riding now."
So I threw myself down the stairs.
Bearing in mind,
I was carrying a child.
Quite bruised around the stomach.
Queen comes out,
absolutely horrified.
Shaking, she was so frightened.
And Charles went out riding,
and when he came back, you know,
it was just dismissal.
When we had William
we had to find a date in the diary
that suited him and his polo.
William had to be induced,
because I couldn't handle
the press pressure any longer.
It was becoming unbearable.
It was as if everybody
was monitoring every day for me.
And I was aware that the whole country
was holding its breath.
REPORTER: But one thing is certain.
When the celebrations
really begin to bubble,
so will many bottles of this,
Earl Spencer's special Althorp champagne
for estate workers and locals alike
all ready and willing
to wet the baby's head.
DIANA: Went in very early,
and I was sick as a parrot
the whole way through the labor.
WOMAN: Strawberries and cream,
anybody?
DIANA: Very bad labor.
They wanted a cesarean.
No one told me this
until afterwards.
(cheering)
The boy arrived.
Great excitement.
Everyone was absolutely high as a kite.
CROWD: It's a boy, it's a boy,
it's a boy
It's a boy, it's a boy, it's a boy
It's a boy, it's a boy...
DIANA: I knew it was a boy.
I was just thrilled.
CROWD: It's a boy, it's a boy
(cheering)
(inaudible)
REPORTER 1 (off screen):
Does he look like you?
CHARLES: Very kind.
REPORTER 1: Does he look like you, sir?
CHARLES: Um, no, he's lucky
enough not to. (laughs)
REPORTER 2 (off screen):
How do you feel, sir?
CHARLES: It's very difficult
to tell at the moment.
REPORTER 2: How do you feel?
CHARLES: I'm obviously
relieved and delighted.
It's marvelous.
It's rather a grown-up thing, I've found.
(laughing)
Rather a shock to my system.
REPORTER 3 (off screen):
What is the baby like?
CHARLES: He's in marvelous form.
REPORTER 4 (off screen):
Does the baby have any hair?
CHARLES: He looks marvelous. Yes. Fair.
- REPORTER 4: Fair hair?
- CHARLES: Sort of blondish.
It will probably go
to something else later on.
REPORTER 5: Who does he look like, sir,
you or his mother?
CHARLES: You can't tell yet.
REPORTER 6:
They have been singing,
"Well done, Charlie,
let's have another one."
REPORTER 6:
Is that on the program of events?
CHARLES:
Bloody hell, give us a chance.
You ask my wife, I don't think
she'd be too pleased just yet.
REPORTER 7: Have you thought
of a name yet, sir?
Have you thought of a name yet?
CHARLES:
We've thought of one or two,
but bit of an argument about it. (laughs)
REPORTER: William Arthur
Philip Louis, how about that?
WOMAN 1: I said Louis, yes.
- REPORTER (off screen): You said Louis?
- WOMAN 1: Yes, yes.
REPORTER: Are you happy with William?
WOMAN 2: Yes, I think
William's a very nice name.
WOMAN 1: It's a king's name.
REPORTER: Prince Billy. Prince Billy.
WOMAN 1: King William.
REPORTER: Prince William,
you think? Regal ring?
King William, indeed, regal ring.
- WOMAN 1: Willy.
- WOMAN 2: Not bad.
- WOMAN 1: King Willy.
- REPORTER: King Willy.
- WOMAN 2: Yes, King Bill.
- (laughter)
(crowd cheering)
REPORTER (off screen): May we see
your son, Your Royal Highness?
INTERVIEWER: How good a dad
was he with the children?
DIANA: At the beginning
he loved the nursery life.
He just couldn't wait to get back...
and do the bottle.
WOMAN (off screen): Congratulations!
DIANA: Came home, and then
post-natal depression hit me hard.
And it wasn't so much
the baby that had produced it.
It was the baby that triggered off
all else that was going on in my mind.
If Charles didn't come home
when he said he was coming home
I thought something dreadful
happened to him.
Tears, panic, all the rest of it.
He didn't see the panic.
I would just sit there, quietly.
Boy, was I troubled.
DIANA: William's christening
was desperate,
'cause I literally had just given birth.
He was only six weeks old.
(inaudible)
And it was all decided around me.
Hence, the ghastly pictures
of somebody who is so...
And my bulimia,
everything was out of control.
Yeah, everything.
I was treated like
nobody else's business
on the fourth of August.
Nobody asked me
whether it was suitable for William.
Eleven o'clock couldn't have been worse.
(William crying)
(inaudible)
There were endless pictures
of the Queen, Queen Mother,
Charles, and William.
(William crying)
I was excluded totally in that day.
(crying)
DIANA: I wasn't very well,
and I just blubbed my eyes out.
Yeah.
Well, he sensed
that I wasn't exactly hunky-dory.
One minute, I was nobody,
and the next minute,
I was Princess of Wales,
mother, media toy,
member of this family, you name it.
And it was just too much
for one person at that time.
REPORTER: Well, with the amount
of stories that there are
in our newspapers and on television,
you could hardly fail to notice
that the Prince
and the Princess of Wales,
and, of course, young Prince William,
are now well into the swing
of their tour of Australia.
REPORTER: Brisbane was the place
where they expected
the biggest crowds of the tour,
and they got them.
The police estimated
there were 80,000 people here,
but wise old locals reckoned
there were nearer 100,000.
DIANA: The crowds were just
something to be believed.
And, you know, my husband had
never seen crowds like it,
and I sure as hell hadn't.
CHARLES: Ladies and gentlemen,
the last time I was here
was two years ago in 1981
shortly before we were married,
and at that time everybody
was saying good luck,
and I hope everything goes well,
and how lucky you are to be
engaged to such a lovely lady,
and, my goodness,
I was lucky enough to marry her.
- And we had many, many messages.
- (laughter)
It's amazing what ladies do
when your back's turned.
(laughter)
REPORTER: The theme of this
second week has really been
the princess' rapidly growing popularity.
DIANA: Everybody always said
when we were in the car,
"Oh, we're on the wrong side.
We want to see her,
we don't want to see him."
And that's all we could hear
as we went down these crowds.
And, obviously, he wasn't used to that.
Nor was I.
He took it out on me.
He was jealous.
I understood the jealousy
but I couldn't explain
that I didn't ask for it.
(inaudible)
CHARLES: I've come to the conclusion
that really it would
have been far easier
to have had two wives...
(laughter)
to have covered
both sides of the street.
(laughter)
And I could have walked down
the middle directing the operation.
(laughter)
DIANA: I kept saying, "Whoever you
married would have been of interest...
"for the clothes, how she
handles this, that, and the other.
"And you build the building block
for your wife to stand on...
to make her own building block."
He didn't see that at all.
I learned to be a Royal in one week.
I was thrown into the deep end,
which now I prefer it that way.
And nobody ever helped me at all.
They'd be there to criticize
but never be there to say, "Well done."
When we came back from our six-week tour
I was a different person.
I was more grown up, more mature.
But not anything like what one
was going to go through
for the process
in the next four or five years.
Between William and Harry
being born, it's total darkness.
I can't remember much,
I've blotted it out.
It was such pain.
INTERVIEWER: Now, they then had
all sorts of people for you to talk to.
DIANA: Yes.
INTERVIEWER:
Did you have any choice over it?
DIANA: No.
Dr. Mitchell came in
every evening at 6 o'clock
and I'd have to explain to him
about my conversations
with my husband during the day.
And there weren't many conversations,
it was more tears than anything else.
Because on the outside,
people were saying
I was giving my husband a hard time.
I was acting like a spoiled child.
But I knew that I was just...
needed rest and patience and time
to adapt to all the roles
that were required of me overnight.
By then, there was immense jealousy
because every single day I was
on the front of the newspapers.
Anyway, Harry appeared by miracle.
Charles and I, we were
very, very close to each other
the six weeks before Harry was born.
The closest we've ever, ever been
and ever will have been.
And then, as suddenly as Harry was born
it just went bang.
Our marriage.
The whole thing went down the drain.
REPORTER: Good evening.
The Princess of Wales' new baby,
born at 20 past 4:00
this afternoon is another boy.
Both are doing well.
The new prince, not yet named,
weighed 6 pounds, 14 ounces.
He has pale blue eyes,
and according to his father,
indeterminate color hair.
DIANA: I knew Harry was going to be a boy
because I saw on the scan.
And Charles, all he wanted was a girl.
He wanted two children
and he wanted a girl.
I knew Harry was a boy
and I didn't tell him.
REPORTER (off screen):
What's your reaction?
CHARLES: What do you think?
Have you had any children?
REPORTER: I've got two,
and one on the way.
CHARLES: Marvelous.
What was your reaction?
REPORTER: Fantastic.
And I was there both times.
CHARLES: Exactly that. Marvelous.
REPORTER: Were you expecting a boy?
Can you tell us now?
CHARLES: No, I mean,
it doesn't matter what it was,
as long as he was all right.
REPORTER: His name is
Henry Charles Albert David,
but they're gonna call him Harry.
INTERVIEWER: Who chose the names?
DIANA: I did.
I chose William and Harry.
But Charles did the rest.
'Cause he wanted Albert and Arthur,
and I said, "No. Too old.
No, thank you."
Harry arrived, Harry was a boy.
First comment was,
"Oh, God. It's a boy."
Something inside of me closed off.
And by then I knew
he'd gone back to his lady.
But somehow we managed to have Harry.
And Harry is a complete joy
and is actually closer to his father
than perhaps William.
(piano notes playing)
- DIANA: Harry.
- CHARLES (off screen): Harry.
(indistinct)
REPORTER: Yes, four hands,
two princes, and a piano.
WILLIAM: Harry!
Harry, don't tread on my toes.
REPORTER: It's a photo session
at Kensington Palace,
with the Prince and Princess
of Wales and family.
- DIANA (off screen): Louder.
- CHARLES (off screen): Louder.
INTERVIEWER:
And then there was an ITV film.
DIANA:
I was basically bribed to do that.
First of all...
American network was going
to do it for Operation Raleigh
and they were going to raise
some incredible amount of money
and I said I didn't want to do it.
And Charles said, "Okay, I'll do it."
They came back and said,
"No, no, we want both of you,
or we don't want any of you."
So I said, "No."
So they dropped Charles
and then ITN picked it up and said,
"If your wife does it with you...
we will pay you
such and such amount."
- So there was the bribe.
- INTERVIEWER: Into what?
DIANA: Into the Charities Trusts.
ALISTAIR: Well, now, two questions
that everybody will
want to have answered.
What do you say
when you read in the papers
that you are a determined,
domineering woman?
DIANA: I don't always read that.
I'm... I'm...
People are very willing to tell me that.
But I don't think I am.
I'm a perfectionist with myself,
but not necessarily
with everybody else.
And those stories arose a long time ago
and have kept coming out
again and again.
But I don't think I am.
ALISTAIR (off screen):
Do you feel hurt by them?
DIANA: Well, obviously one does.
You feel very wounded,
and if it comes out, you think,
"Oh, gosh, I don't want to go out
and do my engagement this morning,
nobody wants to see me, help, panic."
But you've got to push yourself out
and remember, uh, some people,
hopefully, won't believe
everything they read about you.
Because there's far too much
about me in the newspapers,
far too much.
Horrifies me, when there's
something more important
like what goes on in hospice,
or there's been a bomb or something,
they'll put me on the front page.
I feel underdressed.
Why don't you sit down?
- Is this for me?
- MAN: Yes.
How are you?
Nice to see you in the flesh.
- DIANA: In the flesh.
- MAN: Hmm.
DIANA: Don't look too near,
you might get a shock.
MAN: I've seen enough photos.
DIANA:
I know, there's too many of those.
WOMAN: Sell them
in the shop downstairs.
DIANA: Are they?
How much do you sell them for?
WOMAN: Three pounds ten
that one's going for.
DIANA: Is that all?
WOMAN: She bought it.
(laughing)
DIANA: Under pressure?
(laughter)
A lot of hard work goes into it.
I mean, how long does it take
to make something like this?
WOMAN: Well, I really don't know.
ALISTAIR: But there is a natural
and continuing interest in you.
For example, have you actually
tried to change Prince Charles
in any way since you got married?
DIANA: Not at all.
I mean, obviously, there were
one or two things that,
maybe the odd tie or something,
but nothing...
- CHARLES: Shoes.
- DIANA: Shoes.
We won't go any further.
But, that-that, but-but...
nothing dramatic.
- I...
- (laughs)
MAN: Just in case you fell in.
DIANA: This is what Samantha Fox
must feel like.
(laughter)
DIANA: They followed us around
for 18 months.
Very strange.
DIANA: I think you must...
Can I sit down here?
It's all right?
Who's that?
(laughter)
MAN (off screen):
I thought you might ask that.
DIANA: Who's that?
Who does she belong to?
(inaudible)
ALISTAIR (off screen):
Now, you both like skiing.
And yet, every year,
it has become a regular,
you don't appear to hit it off
exactly eye to eye on the slopes.
What is the secret of this?
- You two read the papers.
- (Diana laughs)
CHARLES: Not if I can help it.
I suspect most husbands and wives
find that they often have arguments.
DIANA: But we don't!
CHARLES: No, no, no.
But occasionally we do.
- Because I mean, I, I...
- DIANA: No, we don't.
- CHARLES: I-I, you know, I...
- (Alistair laughing)
I go on longer sometimes.
DIANA: Yes, but I'm faster.
(Alistair laughing)
CHARLES: There we are.
ALISTAIR: Of course, some people
say that you're so slim
you probably don't eat enough anyway.
DIANA: When we go on an engagement,
if it's a lunchtime one,
we often have a buffet lunch,
so we can get around
the enormous amount of people
there sometimes are.
So it's impossible to talk
and eat at the same time.
So you end up chasing a bit
of chicken around the plate,
and then never getting anything yourself.
And by the time you get home,
certainly there's no time,
you're rushing off somewhere else.
But I'm never on what's called a diet.
Maybe I'm so scrawny is
because I take so much exercise.
Don't know.
INTERVIEWER: In what way was the Queen
involved with doctors of your bulimia?
- DIANA: None.
- INTERVIEWER: None at all?
DIANA: None at all.
INTERVIEWER:
Did she know about it at all?
DIANA:
She indicated to me that she thought
that was the reason why
our marriage had gone downhill
was because Charles was having such
a difficult time with Diana's bulimia.
INTERVIEWER:
Right. Did she indicate that to you?
DIANA: Yes, she told me that.
She hung the coat on the hook,
so to speak.
And it made me realize
that they all saw that
as the cause of
the marriage [problems]
not one of the symptoms of the marriage.
INTERVIEWER: Any wise heads during
the whole thing that were helpful?
DIANA: I think a lot of people tried
'cause they saw
that something was going wrong.
But nobody actually,
I never leant on anyone.
Especially... None of my family
knew about this at all.
After five years of being married,
my sister Jane came up to see me,
and I had a V-neck on.
She said, "Duch, what's that
marking on your chest?"
I said, "Oh, it's nothing."
She said, "What is it?"
And the night before,
I wanted to talk to Charles
about something,
he wouldn't listen to me,
said I was crying wolf.
So I picked up his pen knife
off his dressing table
and scratched myself
heavily down my chest
and my both thighs.
There was a lot of blood.
DIANA: And it hadn't made
any reaction whatsoever to him.
And she went for me, she said,
"You mustn't let this side down..."
And I turned on her and I said,
"Give me some credit...
that I haven't troubled any of you
in my family for five years about this."
And, obviously, their perception
is very different now.
They're annoyed by
the lack of support from him.
CHARLES: It's a particular pleasure
to be able to introduce
my wife to this great Pacific province
and to let her see...
(cheering)
and to let her see for herself,
and to find out for herself
just what a warm, hearty lot you all are.
(inaudible)
INTERVIEWER: Then things got a bit
tricky on the bulimia front.
DIANA: Yes.
INTERVIEWER: And the expo.
DIANA: The expo where I passed out.
INTERVIEWER: Yeah.
DIANA: I remember,
I never fainted before in my life.
And we'd been walking around
for four hours,
we hadn't had any food.
And presumably I hadn't eaten
for days beforehand.
When I say that,
I mean food staying down.
And I remember walking around
feeling really ghastly,
and I didn't dare tell anyone
I felt ghastly
because I thought they'd think
I was whinging.
I put my arm on my husband's shoulder,
and I said, "Darling, I think
I'm about to disappear."
And slid down the side of him.
My husband told me off.
He said I could have passed out quietly
somewhere else.
And everyone was saying,
"She can't go out tonight,
she can't go out,
she must have some sleep."
Charles said, "She must go out tonight,
"otherwise there's gonna be
a sense of terrific drama.
They're gonna think there's something
really awful wrong with her."
Inside me, I knew there was
something wrong with me,
but I was too immature to voice it.
REPORTER: This afternoon,
the Prince and Princess
said farewell to BC.
They're going to Tokyo
to begin a royal tour
that includes at least five
12-hour days.
Royal officials say there are
no plans to change the schedule.
(march music playing)
INTERVIEWER: Was anyone helpful about
the press, generally?
DIANA: No, they were all running around,
they couldn't understand.
It was like a sort of
Marilyn Monroe publicity, you know?
She only had to click a heel
and the whole world was
at her feet, it was very odd.
(applause)
But I'm never comfortable in it.
Never ever.
WOMAN: Princess Diana!
DIANA: I was absolutely mesmerized
by the whole thing, couldn't believe it.
WOMAN: Diana!
(screams)
Diana! Please!
Please.
Please, please, please,
please, please, Diana.
Please, come on.
This will make my day, my life.
DIANA: They all thought,
"Oh, she's got lots of press,
she must be doing all right."
But that summer
I sat myself down in Scotland.
I remember saying to myself,
"Right, Diana, it's not good.
You've got to change it
right round, with this publicity."
I remember my conversation so well,
sitting by water.
I always sit by water when contemplating.
"You've got to grow up."
"You've got to be responsible."
(inaudible)
(camera shutters clicking)
"You've got to understand that...
"you can't do what other
26 and 27-year-olds are doing.
"You've been chosen to do a position...
so you must adapt to it
and stop fighting it."
And I knew I could do it
if I chose a different angle.
REPORTER: The Princess of Wales
felt not the slightest apprehension
about her visit
to the Middlesex Hospital
and its AIDS ward.
All the speculation had centered
on whether she would wear gloves
when shaking hands
with the staff and patients.
DIANA: I'd always wanted to hug
people in hospital beds
and this particular man was so ill
so I thought, "Right, Diana, do it.
C'mon, just do it."
So I gave him an enormous hug
and it was just so touching
as he clung to me
and he cried and
it was wonderful,
it made him laugh.
(applause)
REPORTER: In Britain,
the public's obsession
with the royal family
has reached new heights or lows,
depending on how you look at it.
The cause of the latest
flurry of excitement
is the rumor that Prince Charles
and Princess Diana
may be on the verge
of ending their marriage.
But whatever problems they may be having,
says Andrew Morton,
royal reporter for
the British newspaper The Star,
there's no chance
the two will get divorced.
MORTON (on phone):
They're as much likely to get divorced
as I am to get pregnant.
I would stake my life on the fact
that they would
never, ever, ever divorce.
(thunder rumbling)
REPORTER: 24 hours before
the royal visit,
parts of Carmarthen were still
under several feet of water.
Today, the floods had subsided,
as the lengthy job
of clearing up was under way.
DIANA: One of the worst things
to ever happen was when we went to Wales
after the flooding
and there'd been a tremendous amount
of press about us being apart.
And I burst into tears
when he got on the plane.
He said, "Oh God, what's the matter?"
I said, "I've had a very bad time
with the press."
Because they'd literally
haunted me or hunted me.
And he said, "Well, if you were in your
right place, none of this would happen."
Indicating that I should be
up in Scotland.
It was a real cry for help.
I wasn't just blubbing
because I'd just turned the taps on.
It was just desperation.
REPORTER: It's only the couple's
second public appearance together
in over a month.
But tomorrow, they'll go
their separate ways again.
The princess stays in London.
Prince Charles goes to Scotland.
DIANA: I said, "I choose to work,
because that's my role in life."
(indistinct chatter)
INTERVIEWER: What do you think
woke you up?
I think the bulimia, actually.
I suddenly realized
what I was going to lose if I let go.
And was it worth it?
So, that's how I got
involved with the...
shrink called Dr. Lipsedge.
Walked in, he said, "How many times
have you tried to do yourself in?"
I thought, "I don't believe
this question."
So, I heard myself say, "Four times."
I asked all these questions
and I was able to be completely honest.
He said, "I'm going to come
and see you once a week for an hour...
and we're just going
to talk it through."
He said, "There's nothing
wrong with you."
And when he said that,
a door opens.
I thought, "Well, maybe
it's not me."
And he helped me get back my self-esteem.
REPORTER: For the first
formal dinner of the visit,
the princess unveiled
another new look,
her worn up with a tiara
that clearly won the approval
of state president Von Viesecker.
The cameras were concentrating
on the princess,
interest in her clothes
replacing speculation
about the royal marriage.
And she seemed relaxed enough
to respond in informal manner
when one photographer
complimented her hairstyle.
PHOTOGRAPHER (off screen):
Your hair looks nice.
DIANA: Looks all right?
One of the bravest moments
of my entire ten years
was when we went to this ghastly party.
It was the 40th birthday party
for Camilla's sister
and nobody expected me to turn up
but again, a voice inside me said
"Just go for the hell of it."
So, I psyched myself up something awful.
I decided that I wasn't going to
kiss Camilla hello anymore.
I was going to shake hands with her.
This was my big step.
Well, he needled me
the whole way down to Ham Common.
Trying to bait me.
"Why are you coming tonight?"
Needle, needle, needle, needle
the whole way down.
I didn't bite,
but I was very, very on edge.
I walk into the house and...
stick my hand out to
Camilla for the first time
and think, "Phew, got over that."
We were all upstairs
and I was chatting away
and I suddenly noticed there was
no Camilla and no Charles upstairs.
So, this disturbs me.
So, I make my way to
go downstairs for him.
I know what I'm going
to confront myself with.
They try and stop me
from going downstairs.
"Diana, don't go down there."
"I have to go and find my husband."
I go downstairs and there's a very happy
little threesome going on downstairs.
Camilla, Charles, and some other man
who I don't really know, chatting away.
So, I thought,
"Right, this is your moment."
So, I went and sat down
and joined in the conversation
as though we were best friends.
And I said, "Camilla, I'd love
to have a word with you, if possible."
And she got really uncomfortable
and put her head down
and said, "Oh, yes, fine."
I said to the two men,
"Okay, boys...
"I'm just gonna have
a quick word with Camilla...
and I'll be up in a minute."
And they shot upstairs
like chickens with no heads
and I could feel upstairs
all hell breaking loose.
"What is she going to do?"
So, I said,
"Camilla, would you like to sit down?"
So we sat down,
and I was terrified of her.
And I said,
"Camilla, I'd just like you to know...
that I know exactly what's going on."
And she said, "I don't know
what you're talking about."
And I said, "I know what's going on
between you and Charles...
and I just want you to know that."
And she said to me,
very interesting, she said to me,
"You've got everything
you ever wanted.
"All the men in the world
fall in love with you.
You've got two beautiful children.
What more would you want?"
And I didn't believe
what she said anyway.
So I said, "I want my husband."
And she said, "Well."
And she looked down the whole time.
I said to Camilla,
"I'm sorry I'm in the way.
"I obviously am in the way...
"and it must be hell for both of you.
But I do know what is going on,
don't treat me like an idiot."
In the car on the way back,
my husband was over me like a bad rash.
I cried like I've never cried before.
It was anger, it was seven years
of pent-up anger coming out.
I cried and cried and cried.
I didn't sleep that night.
And the next morning, I woke up
and I felt different.
A shift, a tremendous shift.
I'd done something, said what I felt.
Still the old jealousy
and the anger swilling around
but it wasn't so deathly
as it had been before.
And I said to him
at the weekend three days later
I said, "Oh, darling,
I'm sure you'll want to know...
"what I said to Camilla.
"There's no secret, you may ask her.
"I just said I loved you...
and there's nothing wrong in that."
INTERVIEWER:
Six, seven, eight, nine, ten.
One, two, three, four, five.
INTERVIEWER:
Think you might be interested...
DIANA: Oh, nice.
INTERVIEWER: Some quite interesting
bits and pieces in there.
Now, what's he got down here?
Questions, here we are.
What have been
the turning moments in life
that turned you from victim to victor?
DIANA:
Wow, love the way he says that.
(laughs)
Gosh, can't remember
what triggered it off.
I suppose last summer
when Sam cut my hair differently
it let out something quite different.
And when my bulimia
finished two years ago
I suddenly felt so much stronger,
mentally and physically
so I was able to...
soldier on.
(inaudible)
I've got what my mother's got
where however bloody you're feeling,
you can put on the most
amazing show of happiness.
But what I couldn't cope
in those dark ages
was people saying it's her fault,
and I got that from everywhere,
everywhere.
INTERVIEWER: Within?
DIANA: The system and media
starting to say it was my fault.
And I was the Marilyn Monroe of the 1980s
and that I was adoring it.
I've never, ever sat down
and said, "Hooray, how wonderful."
Never.
Because the day I do that,
we're in trouble.
I am performing a duty
as the Princess of Wales
as my time is allocated.
And if I go anywhere else,
I go somewhere else.
If life changes, it changes.
But at least when I finish my
as I see it, my 12 or 15 years
as Princess of Wales
I don't see it as any longer,
funny enough...
I know, when I turn my light off
at night, I did my best.
I always knew I would never be
the next Queen, put it that way.
And no one said that to me.
I just knew it.
REPORTER (off screen):
A very what, Your Royal Highness?
DIANA: Healing experience.
REPORTER: In what way?
DIANA: You work that out for yourself.
CHARLES (off screen):
A wiser prince than I
would've opted for a visit
to the Taj Mahal,
and the Red Fort at Agra,
which I believe is where
some at least of the greatest
pundits of the press
think I ought to be anyway,
rather than making
a greater fool of myself here.
REPORTER: As the Princess of Wales
delivered Prince Harry
to his school this morning,
the author of the book
which claims to expose
the real state of her marriage,
said he left very strong
material out of his account,
because it would have
revealed the identity
of several key sources.
The book, due to go
on sale tomorrow,
claims she made
several attempts on her life.
Not serious attempts,
but what it says were
desperate cries for help.
The author, Andrew Morton,
insisted today
that close friends of the princess
stand by the integrity of the book.
And he came on
ITN's lunchtime news
to make his first live defense
of the book on television.
MORTON: The motivation
was to tell the truth.
For once, forget the propaganda,
tell the truth
about what's really going on,
because we do face a crisis
in the House of Windsor.
It's obvious to everyone.
REPORTER (off screen): And make you,
and make you a rich man, Mr. Morton.
MORTON: Well, if that's a corollary,
then so be it.
But hopefully, people,
it struck a nerve, because it is true.
It is a true story.
It's a sympathetic account of her life.
REPORTER 1: "We are not
in the business of hyping publications"
was the only comment from
Buckingham Palace this morning.
Palace officials refused to comment
on whether they had a copy of the book,
or whether top libel lawyers
were examining the text.
REPORTER 2: The secrecy surrounding
one of the most publicized books ever
is remarkable.
The bookshops have been
straining at the bit
for a glimpse of what is arguably
the most talked-about book of all time.
The hype behind this book
is virtually unprecedented,
but according to Andrew Morton,
the story stands up.
He says Diana is a victim
who became a princess
before she became a woman,
and as a result she hit what she
herself called the dark ages.
REPORTER 3: The book serialized
in The Sunday Times today
claims it was the Prince's indifference
to his wife
that caused her chronic depression
and five separate suicide attempts.
REPORTER 4: At the Queen's Cup
polo tournament
in Windsor Great Park this afternoon,
all attention was
on Camilla Parker Bowles,
a long-time friend of Prince Charles,
a relationship which the book claims
sparked off jealousy in the princess.
REPORTER 5: Buckingham Palace
officials have denied once again today
that the Princess of Wales
cooperated in any way with the book,
and refuses to dignify its claims
with any further comments.
But the repercussions are continuing.
REPORTER 6: And what about
the role of Prince Charles
in this rather sad, if you say,
cry for help?
DEMPSTER:
I think that Prince Charles
has a tremendous responsibility
towards the Princess of Wales,
and I think that Prince Charles
is very sad
at what has happened
to the marriage,
and he's even sadder that the princess
should have seen fit
to air the problems
in the marriage so publicly.
JUNOR: I am trying to bring some balance
to this whole story.
I think that we've had nothing
but Diana's misery
and Diana's loneliness
and Diana's side of the story.
We've heard her say
how Charles is a bad father,
how he's a bad husband, he's uncaring,
he drove her to suicide attempts,
and I think the time has simply
come to adjust the balance.
Prince Charles is not a cold man.
He is not an uncaring man.
The fact of the matter is
that because of Diana's illness
everything has built up in her mind.
She has created situations,
she has imagined situations.
BROKAW: Charles and Diana's
storybook wedding
has collapsed into
a royal embarrassment.
Separate lives, public scrutiny,
whispers of infidelity.
And there were signs today
that it's all getting to be
too much for the princess.
REPORTER: Royal composure
collapsed as Princess Diana,
under extraordinary media attention,
broke down in tears,
red-faced and confused.
This was a side of the princess
never seen in public.
MAN: In all that you do,
you reflect so very sincerely
the philosophy of tender, loving care,
which is and always will be
the hallmark of this hospice.
REPORTER:
Diana appeared near tears
in her first public engagement
since a book detailing
her unhappiness
was published last week.
(applause)
COURIC: It began as a royal romance,
but quickly faded.
Britain's Prince Charles
and Lady Diana.
In the latter years,
a troubled marriage
and mostly separate lives.
She reportedly described it
as a loveless misalliance.
Well, today, official word,
the union is over.
REPORTER 1: The couple will
continue to carry out
separate engagements and duties.
The Princess of Wales
has already done much
to establish herself
as a solo operator.
REPORTER 2: Whether or not
the Princess of Wales will become queen
may finally be decided
by Queen Elizabeth herself
when she chooses to abdicate.
MAN: A lot of people would question
whether she's entitled
to wear the crown.
And it's very important for us
that the dignity and the stature
of the monarchy is protected,
and I think that might well reduce it,
rather than enhance it.
DIANA:
If I was able to write my own script
I would say that I would
hope that my husband would go off
with his lady
and sort that out
and leave me and the children
to carry the Wales name
through to the time when William
ascends the throne.
(inaudible)
And I'd be behind them all the way.
And I can do this job
so much better on my own.
I don't feel trapped.
MAN (off screen): Ladies and gentlemen,
Her Royal Highness,
the Princess of Wales,
would like to make a short statement.
Your Royal Highness.
(applause)
DIANA: When I started
my public life 12 years ago,
I understood the media
might be interested in what I did.
I realized then their attention
would inevitably focus
on both our private and public lives.
PHOTOGRAPHER: Thank you, ma'am.
(horn honking)
DIANA: But I was not aware
of how overwhelming
that attention would become.
Excuse me.
At the end of this year,
when I've completed my diary
of official engagements,
I will be reducing
the extent of the public life
I have led so far.
My first priority will continue
to be our children,
William and Harry, who deserve
as much love and care
and attention as I am able to give.
I couldn't stand here today
and make this sort of statement
without acknowledging
the heartfelt support
I've been given by the public in general.
Your kindness and affection
has carried me through
some of the most difficult periods.
And always your love and care
has eased that journey.
And for that, I thank you
from the bottom of my heart.
(applause)
(inaudible)
REPORTER: Amid the chaos
of Luanda Airport,
a scheduled flight at the start
of an unofficial visit
for the newest and most high-profile
Red Cross volunteer.
For the first time on her own,
stepping out into the Third World,
reunited with the charity she deserted
before her divorce from Prince Charles.
DIANA: It's an enormous privilege
for me to have been
invited here to Angola
in order to assist the Red Cross
in its campaign
to ban, once and for all,
anti-personnel land mines.
REPORTER: Has the reality of Angola
been more shocking than you expected?
DIANA: Yes, I knew the statistics,
but putting a face to those figures
brought the reality home to me.
Like when I met Sandra,
the 13-year-old girl, two days ago,
who had lost her leg.
And for people like her, you know,
the rest of her life
will be very different.
But we must stop
the land mines if we can.
REPORTER (off screen):
Can we ask you that question
about your political role?
DIANA: I would've thought that
was the most important question
out of the two, I'd go for that one.
REPORTER (off screen):
What, the political one?
Okay.
MAN (off screen):
No, not the political one,
you don't mean the political one.
DIANA: No, no, I mean the one saying
I'm not a political figure.
MAN: Yes, exactly.
REPORTER: Were you surprised
at the political furore
that came out as a result
of your visit here to Angola?
DIANA: It was merely a distraction,
and the fact is
I'm a humanitarian figure,
not one who is a political, political...
- Sorry, can we do that again?
- REPORTER: Sure.
(clears throat)
Were you surprised
at the political furore
that developed as a result
of your visit to Angola?
DIANA: I saw it merely as a distraction,
because I'm not a political figure,
I-I am a humanitarian figure,
and always have been
and always will be.
(helicopter blades whirring)
REPORTER: It is not
the horror of land mines
that is making the headlines back home,
but reports of the princess'
romance with Dodi Fayed.
DIANA:
I see myself one day living abroad.
And you once said to me
last August, you said to me,
"You're going to marry someone
who is foreign.
Or got a lot of foreign blood in them."
I thought it was always interesting, that.
REPORTER:
Confirmation of Princess Diana's
first serious romance
since her split with Charles
will be shown in London's
Sunday Mirror tomorrow.
Paparazzi photographer
Mario Brenna is said to become
a millionaire from worldwide
sales of the shots.
WHITAKER: She wants
this romance on the record,
and this is a story
that's gonna run and run
until something wonderful
or something ghastly happens.
COLTHURST: Are you optimistic
about the future?
DIANA: I have been positive
about it for some time...
though obviously there's
endless question marks.
Be quite nice to go and do things
like a weekend in Paris.
I know one day, if I play the game of life
I will be able to have those things
which I've always pined for.
And they'll be that much more special
because I'll be that much more older
and be able to appreciate
them that much more.
(siren wailing)
REPORTER 1:
We interrupt this film to tell you
we are getting reports
that Diana, Princess of Wales,
has been badly injured
in a car crash in France.
REPORTER 2: Stephen Jessel,
our correspondent in Paris,
what is your view of what is now
happening at the hospital?
JESSEL (on phone): Well, I'm, I'm worried
by the lack of any news
or the lack of any statement.
One wonders if one is being told
the whole truth at the moment.
REPORTER 1: One's heart goes out,
especially to the young princes,
William and Harry.
REPORTER 2: William and Harry, indeed.
William, let's remind ourselves,
he, particularly close to his mother,
he, very sensitive young man,
hates photographers.
ANNOUNCER:
This is the IRN News Desk.
This message is, I repeat,
is not for public broadcast.
Diana, Princess of Wales, has died.
REPORTER:
I know that these pictures
are being beamed
around the world
and maybe people
in some parts of the world
will think this is
quite a normal scene.
Little do they know.
In America, I know for a fact,
people have got up early
to watch live transmissions from London.
In the Far East where it's,
well, well into the day now,
late afternoon, early evening,
they're sitting watching.
Television schedules have been
cleared around the world.
This is an extraordinary view
we're seeing here.
We've never, as far as I'm aware,
seen the royal family
standing like this
at the gates
of Buckingham Palace.
Could they be intending
to walk behind the coffin?
Anything is possible today.
The word "Diana" on a huge banner
on the gate.
And no one said that mustn't be there,
you don't put posters or banners
on the gates of Buckingham Palace.
"Diana of Love."
Prince William, Earl Spencer,
Prince Harry,
and the Prince of Wales.
Almost intolerable moment
for the two boys, the two princes.
Impossible to put into words
as they take their place
behind their mother's coffin.
CHARLES SPENCER:
Of all the ironies about Diana,
perhaps the greatest was this,
a girl given the name of
the ancient goddess of hunting
was, in the end, the most hunted person
of the modern age.
She would want us today
to pledge ourselves
to protecting her beloved boys,
William and Harry,
from a similar fate.
And I do this here, Diana,
on your behalf.
Diana was the very essence
of compassion,
of duty, of style, of beauty.
All over the world, she was
a symbol of selfless humanity,
a standard bearer for the rights
of the truly downtrodden.
Someone with a natural nobility
who was classless,
and who proved in the last year
that she needed no royal title
to continue to generate
her particular brand of magic.
There is no doubt that she was
looking for a new direction
in her life at this time.
She talked endlessly of
getting away from England,
mainly because of the treatment
that she received
at the hands of the newspapers.
I don't think she ever understood
why her genuinely good intentions
were sneered at by the media,
why there appeared to be
a permanent quest on their behalf
to bring her down.
Above all, we give thanks
for the life of a woman
I'm so proud to be able to call my sister,
the unique, the complex,
the extraordinary
and irreplaceable Diana,
whose beauty
both internal and external
will never be extinguished
from our minds.
WOMAN 1: She affected everybody,
and that's everyone's way of showing it.
Laying their flowers and writing
their cards and their poems.
It's just amazing.
But she'll never know how much
she meant to everybody, really.
(sobbing)
WOMAN 2: She was just so human,
she made so many mistakes
and just exactly like we do,
and yet she shone through it.
DIANA:
The public side was very different
obviously from the private side.
The public side,
they wanted a fairy princess.
Touch them and everything
will turn into gold
and all their worries
would be forgotten.
Little did they realize
that the individual
was crucifying herself inside...
because she didn't think
she was good enough.
Why me? Why all this publicity?
DIANA: I remember when I first
arrived on the scene
I always put my head down.
Now, from my point of view,
I interpret it
yes, it did look sulky.
Just so frightened
of the attention I was getting.
Head down.
The bit I can remember is that
I didn't want to do anything on my own.
I was too frightened.
I mean, the thought of meeting
anyone on my own sent tremors.
So, I stuck with whatever Charles did.
And if it included a wife, I went with him
all the way, wherever.
(inaudible)
I was just so desperate.
I knew what was wrong with me...
but nobody else around me understood me.
I needed rest and to be
looked after inside my house
and for people to understand the torment
and the anguish going on in my head.
Because I had a smile on my face
everybody thought
I was having a wonderful time.
That's what they chose to think
and they were happier thinking that.
DIANA: It didn't get easier.
I just got used to what people required
from the Princess of Wales.
What Diana thought wasn't
going to come into it yet.
(applause)
History fascinated me.
But I never anticipated I'd end up
in the system, in the books.
(laughs)
INTERVIEWER: Would you leave the format
of the monarchy as it is now
or would you alter it for William?
DIANA: I am altering it for him [William],
but in a subtle way.
People aren't aware of it, but I am.
Through William learning what I do
and his father, to a certain extent
he has got an insight
of what's coming his way.
He's not hidden upstairs
with the governess.
COLTHURST: What would you say
your greatest achievement has been?
DIANA: To not bow down to pressure.
You know, not let
all this chat disturb me.
It took me six years
to get comfortable in this skin.
And now...
I'm ready to go... forward.
I hug my children to death.
I get in bed with them at night
and hug them, and I always say,
"Who loves you most
in the whole wide world?"
And they always say, "Mommy," you know.
And it's always that, always feed them.
It's so important.
INTERVIEWER: Did you have
any expectations looking forwards?
DIANA: I had so many dreams
as a young girl.
Hopes that my husband
would look after me,
he'd be like a father figure.
He'd support me, encourage me,
say, "Well done,"
or say, "No, it wasn't good enough."
I knew somehow I had
to keep myself very tidy
for whatever was coming my way.
I was always different.
I had always this thing inside me
that I was going somewhere different.
I didn't know why,
couldn't even talk about.
INTERVIEWER: Do you remember
the moment you fell in love?
DIANA: No... it was gradual.
It wasn't anything dramatic.
One blink and it would have gone, yes.