Even if This Love Disappears from the World Tonight (2022) Movie Script
[Alarm]
[I have amnesia from a car accident.
Read journal on laptop]
[Only my parents and Izumi
know about my condition]
[Decide what to wear the next day]
[Don't forget to write in journal
before going to sleep]
[I have amnesia from a car accident.
Read journal on laptop]
[Read journal on laptop when I get up]
[Read journal when I get up]
On the first day of Golden Week,
I was in a car accident.
Once I go to sleep, I lose all my
memories from the previous day.
I decided to keep a journal
to back up my memories,
which are erased day by day.
May 5, 2019.
[This is a record]
[of what happened
from May 5, 2019 to yesterday]
[May 5, 2019.
Today, I will start my journal]
[Doctors can't do
anything. Monitor at home]
Ow.
- This, too.
- Okay.
She's up.
Morning!
Hey.
Do I have amnesia?
Well, you were in a car accident
three years ago.
You were a brave girl.
You saved a child from being run over.
That's right. We're very proud of you.
I remember
everything about yesterday.
I stepped on my palette and hurt myself.
I remember... very clearly.
It's not definitive,
but Maori is showing signs of recovery.
Maori.
- Really, Doctor?
- Yes.
Hello?
Hello, Izumi? Can you talk now?
Not really, but go ahead. What's up?
I think my memory is coming back.
[Don't forget to write in journal
before going to sleep]
Let's take it step by step.
[Never sleep outside the house]
Here you go.
Thank you.
Looks good.
How does it feel to get your memory back?
I remember everything about yesterday,
and before that, when I was in high school.
But the three years in between
are wiped clean.
Like I turned into an adult overnight.
Anyhow, it feels strange.
Can lost memories be recovered?
I've written in my journal every day
for three years,
but they say those are just records.
They won't come back as memories.
I see.
Oh.
Do you know who this is?
Do you recognize him?
Oh, him. I saw him a few times
at the library over the summer.
I see.
Looks like he modeled
for me more than once.
You liked portraiture
and wanted to draw a guy,
so he helped you out.
Did I write that in my journal?
Anyways, I'm glad.
At least you remembered.
[Read journal when I get up]
[On the first day of Golden Week,
I was in a car accident]
[Don't forget Toru Kamiya]
Will you go out with me?
I didn't mean it.
I'm sure she knew I wasn't serious.
Yes, I will.
What?
What was your name again?
Toru Kamiya.
Toru.
Got it.
Which class are you in?
Class 1.
Wait for me in Class 1
tomorrow after school.
See you then.
What the heck was that?
I did what you asked.
Now keep your promise
and don't mess with Shimokawa anymore.
Go to sleep.
You have to get up early tomorrow.
"Don't worry about tomorrow."
"Tomorrow is tomorrow. Live for today."
Yeah, yeah. A quote from Osamu Dazai.
I quit work.
Are you going to write again?
Literary Circle's Best New Author.
I think I have a shot at it this time.
Maybe there's an age limit, though.
I have to keep my promise to your mom.
[Literary Circle]
['Remnants' by Fumino Nishikawa]
Morning.
Morning.
They didn't harass me this morning.
I see. Glad to hear that.
- Is this Kamiya?
- Yeah.
- He heard you.
- He's looking this way.
- Go! He's looking.
- Seriously?
Go!
I can't believe I'm doing this.
This is trending right now.
Will you go out with me?
Did you know?
- Who's Kamiya?
- That guy over there.
Did you say something to Saegusa?
I asked Maori Hino from Class 7
to go out with me.
I see.
Well, congrats!
Are you free this Sunday?
Why?
To celebrate.
Nah. It's okay.
What do you want to eat?
It's about Maori Hino.
See you later.
All right.
Are you really going out with her?
Something like that.
Why? You don't even know her.
Love at first sight?
Something like that.
Like what?
Well...
If you're not serious about her, back off.
Sorry, class is starting.
Kamiya.
Toru, right?
Hello.
Any after school activities?
No.
Good. Me neither.
I wouldn't want you
to miss any club activities.
If we're going to be dating,
we need to establish some rules.
About that...
Did you change your mind?
A friend of mine was being bullied.
They promised to stop if I asked you out.
I see.
You're a popular girl.
They probably set me up
to be rejected, just for laughs.
I'm sorry for getting you involved.
Why are you sorry?
You did it to protect a friend.
That's cool.
So?
So what?
You don't want to go out with me?
It's not that...
Why did you agree?
Me?
I've been wondering that myself.
I have an idea.
Let's "pretend" we're together.
"Pretend"?
Yup.
Everyone thinks we're a couple already.
I know, but you'll have nothing to gain...
Your friend will be hurt if he finds out
the real reason you asked me out.
- Yes, I will.
- You're right.
It's gone too far to tell everyone
it was a lie.
I suppose.
Okay, then.
I'll pretend to be your girlfriend
on three conditions.
- Conditions?
- Yes.
One. Don't talk to each other
until school's over.
Two. Keep communication short.
And...
Three. Don't actually fall in love.
Okay.
That's it, boyfriend.
There they are!
Let's get to know each other
to make it seem real.
- When's your birthday?
- Kamiya!
February 25.
Blood type?
AB.
- What?
- Who do you look up to?
Fumino Nishikawa.
I have no idea who that is.
An esoteric classic novelist.
I see.
- Are you writing that down?
- Of course.
Thanks.
Special talents?
I can cook, I guess.
Wow.
I do all the housework.
I see.
It's just me and my dad.
I'd like to taste your cooking someday.
I'll be supportive,
but you don't have to, you know.
I kind of like what you said the other day.
Fake relationship: Condition 1.
Don't talk to each
other until school's over.
[Tomorrow] [Class duty] [I'll be late]
Fake relationship: Condition 2.
Keep communication short.
[K]
And...
Fake relationship: Condition 3.
Wanna go somewhere sometime?
You mean... on a date?
Yup. We're dating after all.
I suppose...
How about Sunday?
I'd like that.
But in the afternoon, okay?
Are you busy in the morning?
You're so dense.
Girls need time to get ready.
Fake relationship...
We were girlfriend and boyfriend.
But not really.
But first...
This is my best friend, Izumi Wataya.
I know.
She's very concerned about us
and wants to have a three-way meeting.
More like an interrogation, I bet.
- What?
- Nothing.
I don't mind.
Come with me to the station.
Do you like cats?
Come on.
Here?
Yup.
- I miss Maya and Bruno.
- It's huge...
Yeah.
Long time, no see Bruno. How are you?
You're so tame today.
Your house is... amazing.
What does your dad do?
My parents are going through a divorce.
I live with my mom now.
I see.
Izumi's mom is a famous designer.
No wonder your house is so nice.
- Thank you.
- Go ahead.
Good?
Glad to know. ['Allium in the
Evening' by Fumino Nishikawa]
Fumino Nishikawa...
Oh, Fumino Nishikawa.
She's an up-and-coming classic novelist.
She's one of my faves.
A bit of an esoteric, though.
Fumino Nishikawa?
That's the person you look up to.
You're a fan too?
Not so much a fan...
So we share literary tastes.
A fellow bookworm.
I'm not.
You're a classicist. I can tell.
- It's not that.
- Don't be embarrassed.
- I'm not embarrassed.
- Admit it.
Wait...
Hey.
Don't call me a "bookworm" in your journal.
Okay. I'll refer to you as the bookworm
who doesn't want to be called a "bookworm".
Look!
Wow!
- How beautiful!
- So pretty.
Hey, take it easy.
It's better to capture the picture
in your mind, not on your phone.
No.
I have to do this. Or
I'll forget everything.
In my world, I didn't exist yesterday.
[I have amnesia from a car accident.
Read journal on desk]
[Read journal when I get up]
[On the first day of Golden Week,
I was in a car accident]
[Sunday, May 5.
Today, I will start my journal]
Is it June already?
What about school?
You've been going to school
since you got out of the hospital.
But the only people who know
about your amnesia
are the teachers and Izumi.
What?
So don't tell anyone else.
Why not?
Anyone could do anything to you,
and you wouldn't remember.
Someone may take advantage of that.
So you should only
tell people you can trust.
Morning.
Morning.
Wait... well...
Am I a burden?
No way. Right, Mom?
You were a brave girl.
You saved a child from being run over.
That's right. We're very proud of you.
Do we have this conversation every day?
I feel so hopeless, but...
I have to face it.
[Toru Kamiya, Year 3, Class 1.
No after school activities]
A little hope...
I saw something that looked like hope
in the words written there.
Toru Kamiya... Toru.
Blood-type AB. Kind of different.
Lives with his father.
A bookworm who doesn't like
to be called a "bookworm".
What's that mean?
[Izumi (A friend I can trust)]
Hello?
Maori? You're going on your first date
with Kamiya today. Are you ready?
Sorry that you always have to remind me.
I know it's an inconvenience.
Don't worry about it.
I only do as much as I can,
and as much as I want to.
Thanks.
And... I need your advice on something.
Shoot.
What should I wear on my date?
- Whatever.
- Huh?
You're bragging.
No, I'm not!
Should I wear a dress or a denim skirt?
Seriously? Either one.
I asked Izumi, but she was no help at all.
- See ya.
- After much deliberation,
I decided on the blue dress.
I'll be meeting Toru
for the first time today.
It's my first date with
a complete stranger.
I'm a little nervous.
We're meeting at the
fountain at Kaihin Park.
I have to make sure I approach
the right person.
Toru?
I've never seen a proper picnic basket
like that before.
My sister bought it a long time ago
at a fair or something.
It's all I had.
Your sister?
Did you tell me about your sister before?
No, I don't think so.
Right. You said you lived alone
with your dad.
My sister lived with
us too. Until recently.
Our mom died when we were young,
so my sister was like a mother to me.
I see.
- Here.
- That's amazing!
Looks delicious.
You said you wanted to taste my cooking.
I'll try this one.
- Thanks.
- Go ahead.
I'll take this one.
- It's good!
- Really?
Glad to hear that.
You said you did all the housework.
Did your sister teach you?
Some of it.
My mom left us a journal
with our favorite recipes and whatnot.
And housework tips, where the bank book
was kept... stuff like that.
Wow. That's awesome.
She had a heart condition.
Maybe she was preparing herself.
I see...
Your mom was very organized.
She cared about us so much.
She was the center of our universe.
Like the sun.
Thanks for sharing that with me.
I think it's the first time I told anyone.
What about you? Any brothers or sisters?
I'm an only child.
A very precious only daughter.
I think my dad would go crazy
if he found out I had a boyfriend.
So don't tell him.
Why don't you come over and
introduce yourself as my boyfriend?
I'll pass.
Anyways, we're just "pretending".
It's strange.
What is?
I rarely talk about myself like this.
When I'm with you, I feel calm.
It's not a struggle at all.
You're up?
Who are you?
What?
Sorry.
- What's happening?
- What's wrong?
Excuse me.
Hino!
[Izumi (A friend I can trust)]
[Have fun!]
Hello?
Sorry, Izumi. I'm so confused.
- What's wrong?
- I woke up at a park
with a strange guy next to me.
Okay. Calm down.
First, read the notes in your bag.
I'll be right there, so stay put.
Describe where you are.
Hello?
Where are you, Kamiya?
Sorry, I'll call you back.
You're looking for Maori, right?
How do you know?
I'll explain later.
[Anterograde amnesia]
[Once I go to sleep, I forget everything]
[Refer to folder named "Toru"]
I'm sorry!
Anterograde amnesia.
When I explained those
foreign words to him,
he said nothing. Just listened.
I remember everything up until
the moment of the accident.
But everything after that
gets erased once I go to sleep.
Like just now.
I keep my journal
to help me through the next day.
Day after day.
That explains all those memos...
Sorry. I know this is weird for you.
Weird?
Pretending you're my boyfriend.
When you asked me out, I knew it was fake.
But I took advantage of it.
It was my fault for asking you out
when I didn't even mean it.
I guess I'm not cut out for it.
I'll probably be a huge burden on you.
So let's end this...
If you don't write about this
in your journal today,
you won't remember it tomorrow?
- That's right.
- In that case
don't write about it.
That you fell asleep,
or told me about your amnesia.
You don't mind?
I like being with you.
No one wants to be reminded
of their failures over and over again.
So let's pretend that
this never happened today.
We'll play a trick on you tomorrow.
But...
Maori!
She just wandered off on me, so I panicked.
I know! She has a tendency to sleepwalk.
She walks around in her sleep,
sometimes for 30 minutes.
If it ever happens
again, call me right away.
Okay.
[I told Toru about my amnesia]
Found you, Toru Kamiya.
I had fun yesterday. Thanks.
Yeah. Me, too.
If I were really your girlfriend,
it'd be my turn to make you lunch.
But I'm a lousy cook.
Yeah, I figured.
Don't be rude.
You said so yourself.
I can criticize myself,
but other people can't.
That's huge!
- I want to get that Ferris wheel.
- Ferris wheel?
- Let me.
- Thanks.
Looks good!
Oh, no.
What a waste!
[...bought two large ice creams]
Any recommendations?
Maybe this.
"Trajectory" by Hirohiko Moriyama.
I had an English test today.
How did you do?
Ready? Go!
[Great luck]
- Nice!
- Yay!
[Toru picked "Great luck"!]
Favorite animal: Penguin.
Least favorite: Snake.
[13:00 at the square
in front of the station]
It's been a while since I rode a bike.
- A little further.
- Just a little.
- Hey-ho.
- You can do it!
You made it.
- It feels good.
- Right?
Okay. Your turn.
What about tomorrow?
Tomorrow?
Let's do whatever you want to do.
I'm going to make sure
you have fun tomorrow too.
[I'm going to make sure
you have fun tomorrow too]
"I'm going to make sure
you have fun tomorrow too".
It made my heart skip a beat.
This is a "first" for me, too.
My feeling of hopelessness is gone.
Thank you, Toru.
Fumino Nishikawa was beautiful.
I'll treasure this forever.
She's so pretty.
[Fumino Nishikawa book signing
Akutagawa Prize nominee 'Remnants']
- Thank you.
- Thank you.
Thank you so much.
- Thank you.
- Thank you.
Hello.
Kamiya!
You're here, too?
Too bad they ran out of tickets...
Toru?
Ms. Nishikawa?
Excuse me.
Why didn't you tell me?
Sorry. I didn't know how to bring it up.
Fumino Nishikawa is your sister?
I said all those things, as if I knew her!
Like she's esoteric. This is terrible.
But she is esoteric, so don't worry.
I was shocked. She's so beautiful.
You don't have to say that.
Go talk to your sister.
But Hino's waiting for me.
It's okay. I'll go ahead with Maori.
But I haven't seen her yet today.
Wait a minute. Do you know?
About her amnesia? Yeah.
I thought so...
It was that day at the park, right?
Did she tell you?
Yes. But she didn't write about it
in her journal.
Why not?
I asked her not to.
Because I didn't want things to change.
So today,
Hino doesn't know that
I know about her amnesia.
Please
keep it a secret, okay?
Okay.
Wow! Look! It's shimmering!
Look at that big, flat one, Daddy!
I wonder what it is.
Maybe it's a ray.
Could I ever have a
family? In my condition?
What if I had a baby?
I'd wake up every morning
and not know it was mine.
There's so much information
to process on a daily basis.
It's hard to keep up.
Sorry. I'm being a bit pessimistic today.
I'll probably never get married.
I wouldn't be able to.
So let's be old maids together.
Even if I never grow up?
Ouch! That's a good one.
You're funny.
I didn't know you'd have
a book signing so close to home.
My publisher begged me to do it.
I couldn't say no.
Toru, did you lose weight?
Wow. Akutagawa Prize, huh?
I didn't win it yet.
I did it
at your expense. Our family's expense.
It wasn't a sacrifice for me.
When Mom died,
you did everything around the house.
Those were dark times.
Books were your escape.
Your safe haven.
Is it fun to read?
Even after Mom died,
Dad continued to write.
But he didn't enjoy writing anymore.
At some point,
you started writing in secret
so Dad wouldn't feel bad.
And you won Best New Author.
And the books you wrote...
[Nominee: Fumino Nishikawa,
'Allium in the Evening']
Became a safe haven for me.
I know.
Yes.
I'm honored you think I have potential,
but I have to put my family first.
I'm sorry. Good bye.
I learned how to keep house.
I was proud of you.
You poured your all into writing.
It wasn't a sacrifice for me.
That's why I supported your moving out.
How's Dad?
The same.
But how long are you going to
keep it a secret from him?
I'll tell him once the winner of the prize
is announced.
I promise.
And?
What about you, Toru?
Have a girlfriend yet?
Huh?
I can tell.
She's more like a friend than a girlfriend.
She was in a car accident
and lost her memory.
Once she goes to sleep,
she forgets everything
that happened that day.
So she writes everything down in a journal.
If she doesn't read it the next day,
she'll forget who I am.
But...
Whenever she reads her journal,
you'll always be there.
That's right. That's why I want to
fill her journal with fun memories.
So she'll feel optimistic
when she reads it every day.
I'm glad you have someone, Toru.
See you.
Thanks. See you.
Toru!
Take care. For her sake, too.
I will. Don't worry.
He's here.
Look how cute!
I'll buy it for you, for making you wait.
Really?
Then you buy one too.
So we can be twins.
- Twins?
- You made me wait, right?
- Fine.
- Yay!
Then...
Bye.
See you tomorrow.
You've changed, Kamiya.
What? Really?
You used to be more detached.
I didn't think you really liked Maori.
What are you smiling at?
I just want to fill her days with fun.
Even if she doesn't remember?
Yup. That's what I've decided.
I see.
[Literary Circle Best New Author Entry]
They're announcing the winner
of the Akutagawa Prize tonight.
[Akutagawa Prize Announcement tonight]
Yeah.
Is that so?
Let's wait for the announcement together.
Huh? Sure. But where?
For example...
My house?
- Huh?
- Huh?
It's the closest.
Okay?
You sure?
Okay. It's decided. Let's go, Kamiya.
Huh? Wait...
Isn't your dad at home?
The one that would go crazy
if he knew you had a boyfriend?
Did I say that?
What should I say to him?
You won't have to say anything.
We have a plan.
What plan?
Are you listening?
You're ignoring me!
- Thank you for having me.
- Thank you.
Let me tidy up a little. Wait here.
What? Wait... what?
I brought some custard from Chez Muroi.
Really? That super popular place?
They're always sold out! Thanks, Izumi!
No problem. There was no line today.
I'll take two.
- Oh.
- Of course.
- I'll get some drinks.
- Thank you.
- Come in.
- Thanks.
Don't look in my underwear drawer.
I won't.
You can take a little peek, though.
I won't!
I'll go get Izumi.
Why are you flustered?
I-I'm not!
What's that string?
String?
Gotcha!
Come on...
- Heave-ho!
- Here you go.
Thanks.
The penguin.
You put it on your bag.
Mine is
on my house key.
What was that?
When we went to the aquarium!
Oh, yeah.
Doesn't it look like Kamiya?
The penguin?
Sorry, I forgot the spoons for the custard.
Be right back.
Sorry.
I think I'll go home. I
have to make dinner.
Running away?
I thought you were ready for this.
[I have amnesia from a car accident...]
Can you imagine
how frustrated Maori must feel
reading these every morning?
But she forces herself
to look despair in the face and laugh.
She never runs away.
I thought you decided
to fill her days with fun.
[Read journal when I get up]
[Akutagawa Prize:
Fumino Nishikawa, 'Remnants']
I can't believe this is happening,
to be honest.
[Fumino Nishikawa wins Akutagawa Prize]
Toru.
Is Fumino Nishikawa...
You knew?
Yeah.
Oh... I get it now!
Sanae left home to be a novelist.
Sanae is different from you and me.
Different how?
She didn't run away from us.
She left to pursue something. Her own life.
So...
Sanae must have been
laughing at me behind my back.
I'm a failure. As a father and a novelist.
She must pity me.
You claim to be a novelist!
But you've been running
away since Mom died!
You!
I'm
sick of running away.
Toru!
I decided to write novels
because of you, Dad.
At first, I did it to run away from myself.
But that changed.
By writing,
by transforming myself into words,
I thought maybe I could
connect with someone.
That's why I write now.
Dad...
You wrote your novels for Mom, right?
I loved watching her
read your novels.
I should have
mourned her properly back then.
It happened so suddenly...
I couldn't do anything for you
as your father.
I didn't do right by either of you.
But I'm grateful to you.
You raised us.
And you're still here.
You're a fine dad.
Yes?
We don't mean to meddle,
but Dad thought you should consider these.
[Musashino Art University]
Thank you.
But...
I can't apply to art college now.
It's too late for that.
- Hey!
- Doodling?
You're good.
I was in the Art Club in middle school.
I even won some contests.
Give it back.
I see...
Once you learn something,
it's hard to unlearn it.
[The memory mechanism.
Why won't we forget how to ride a bike?]
Really?
It's called "procedural memory".
Procedural memory?
[Procedural memory]
It's like riding a bike.
Something your body remembers how to do.
Something you never forget?
You hadn't ridden a bike in a while,
but you remembered how, right?
Maybe drawing is the same thing.
Your body will remember, so the
more you draw, the better you become.
Procedural memory, huh?
So you should keep drawing.
Not me, though.
You said to keep drawing.
I did... but don't just draw me.
Why not?
You said I'd get better,
even if I had no memory of it.
You taught me that
even in my condition,
I could continue to improve myself.
I wanted to show my future self
the Toru I saw through my eyes.
So I kept drawing him.
For you.
Every day, he gives me a ray of hope.
Toru is tired. He fell asleep.
My days begin full of despair.
But when I'm with him,
I'm overcome with happiness.
Even if I can't store memories,
something may remain.
The "me" in my journal
is starting to fall in love with him.
[Thank you, Toru]
[3. Don't actually fall in love]
And here I am,
going to see him again.
[Have fun.
Make up for yesterday's lost memories]
[Fireworks Festival]
You're wearing the hair pin.
It took you long enough to notice.
It looks nice on you.
I'm so happy that my
memories can't keep up.
Even precious moments like these
will soon be forgotten.
I'm going to forget everything.
Even the warmth of your hand.
I don't want to... I don't want to forget.
You won't.
Memories never disappear completely.
Please don't go anywhere, Toru.
I'll always
stay by your side.
Sorry.
Toru.
Can I... break Rule #3?
I broke it a long time ago.
I'll try to be kind to everyone.
I won't be selfish. So...
Please
[Please let me stay by his side.]
let me stay by his side.
[Next year and the year after that]
Even in the fall,
then the school festival season...
Even in the winter,
when it started to snow,
[Congratulations on your graduation]
They stayed together.
I was closer to them than anyone else,
but I was left behind.
See you. Bye!
I'm done.
Shall we go?
- Excuse me...
- Let's go, Maori.
Thanks for everything.
What?
If it weren't for you,
I would have never graduated.
You worked hard. Good job.
The same to you.
You made every day so much fun for me.
Let's go to all those places again.
The aquarium, picnics,
the fireworks festival.
Your home-made lunches.
So many memories.
Even if I don't remember.
What are you wearing
to the graduation dinner?
That dress I just bought.
It looks good on you. See you later.
Let's get dressed up!
- Okay.
- Bye.
See you tomorrow.
See you.
Thanks.
For what?
For Maori.
When I first heard about you two,
I was afraid it wouldn't last.
No one knows when Maori's memory
will ever come back.
Watching my parents split up,
I realized love isn't forever.
But seeing the two of you
made me believe that
maybe love can last forever.
I like you too, Kamiya.
What?
What I mean to say is...
I'm counting on you
to take care of my best friend.
You're my best friend now, too.
Say something.
Wataya.
I have a favor to ask.
What is it?
I...
I may have a heart condition.
And...
I had an attack yesterday.
It was nothing serious.
But my mom had the same thing.
They're going to run some tests tomorrow.
I see. But it isn't... anything really bad,
is it?
Well, my mom passed away suddenly.
So I thought I'd ask you while I could.
If... and I mean if...
If I...
If something happens to me...
[Toru Kamiya]
Why didn't you pick up?
How did the tests go?
Toru...
My brother passed away this morning.
He had an attack last night
and never regained consciousness.
I was trembling so hard,
I thought I was being swallowed up.
I wasn't prepared for death.
After much deliberation,
I decided to tell Maori
about Kamiya's death.
I couldn't carry the grief alone,
so I unloaded it onto her.
Knowing she couldn't share my grief.
It's funny.
I have no memory of him.
I only remember him through photos
and journal entries...
It's funny.
No, it's not.
You two were really good together.
It's not funny at all.
In the end, we didn't attend the wake.
Maori's mental state was breaking down.
It was too much to bear.
I clung to Kamiya's sister for support.
I see.
Toru said that?
Thank you for telling me.
Before Toru died,
he talked about Maori once.
He wanted to fill her journal
with fun memories.
He seemed so happy.
He wanted her
to feel positive about life
whenever she read her journal.
So I think Toru
was already imagining
what would happen after he was gone.
Every time she read her journal,
she'd have to confront the death
of a boyfriend she didn't remember.
If anything happens to me,
I want you to delete everything about me
from her journal.
What?
If I don't appear in her journal,
it will be like I never existed.
And you're okay with that?
We didn't know each other
before the accident.
Hino and I hadn't even met then.
So I want you to delete me.
You're an important
friend to me too, Wataya.
If it pains you to do it,
I'll delete him from her journal.
Do you think that's the best thing to do?
Toru asked you to do it.
So you need to decide.
But if it's too hard for you,
you can blame it on me.
I have a legitimate reason
to carry out my brother's wishes.
I thought about Kamiya's resolve,
and Maori's fragile mental state,
which was unsustainable.
Here it is.
[Read journal when I get up]
She's fast asleep.
I'll return it as soon as I make copies.
Can you take care of her phone?
[Read journal when I get up]
[On the first day of Golden Week,
I was in a car accident]
[May 5, 2019.
Today, I will start my journal]
[Date with Toru after school]
[Toru]
[Izumi]
[Toru]
[Toru]
[Toru]
[Copying...]
[On the first day of Golden Week,
I was in a car accident]
[Let's do all those fun things
together again, Izumi!]
[Don't forget to write in journal
before going to sleep]
[Only my parents and Izumi
know about my condition]
[I have amnesia from a car accident.
Read journal on desk]
[Read the journal on desk]
[Don't forget Toru Kamiya]
[So please let me stay by his side.
Next year and the year after that...]
Yes?
Izumi.
Sorry. Let me get to a good stopping point.
Sit down.
I can't stop painting him.
I don't know why.
The guy in my sketch book.
It's like my hand remembers,
and I paint him over and over.
What's wrong?
I'm sorry.
I've stolen some very precious memories
from you.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
[Read journal when I get up]
This is your real journal.
I'm sorry...
I hid it from you.
I see.
I've been a huge burden on you again.
Thank you.
For respecting the final wishes
of someone I loved.
Monday, May 27th.
Something shocking happened today.
Excuse me...
Will you go out with me?
At first, it was just a whim.
Yes, I will.
I just went along with it.
I thought, maybe even someone like me
could experience something new.
Let's "pretend" we're together.
"Pretend"?
On three conditions.
- Conditions?
- Yes.
One. Don't talk to each other
until school's over.
Because organizing memories takes time.
Two. Keep communication short.
Because I won't know how to deal
with yesterday's conversations.
[K]
Three. Don't actually fall in love.
How can someone
who can't hold onto memories fall in love?
[3. Don't actually fall in love]
I'm going to make sure
you have fun tomorrow too.
But he knew about my memory loss.
We'll play a trick on you tomorrow.
He pretended not to know,
and gave me days filled with light.
Procedural memory?
So you should keep drawing.
I couldn't connect yesterday to today,
but he gave me a reason to live.
Toru dropped his ice cream.
This is his second ice cream of the day.
How does it taste?
It tastes sad.
- Poor thing.
- Yup.
It may be over your head.
What?
How did you do?
I shouldn't have asked.
And you?
He stayed by my side until the day
before his life was extinguished.
Where are we?
This is Kugenuma Inari Shrine.
Our family used to
come here on New Year's Day.
He never asked for anything in return.
He just kept giving me memories.
Here it comes.
But...
I kept losing them.
The time I spent with him
only exists in my journal.
Memories never
disappear completely.
[I have amnesia from a car accident.
Read journal on desk]
[Don't forget Toru Kamiya]
So...
Please, God.
Etch the time we spent together into me.
[Don't forget Toru Kamiya]
I'm so glad you can remember things again.
Thank you.
But...
I don't remember Toru.
Whenever I read my journal,
I'm filled with happiness,
but I don't remember him.
Everyone forgets eventually.
Toru will become a part of my past too.
I think that's how we survive.
So...
Don't let your future go to waste.
I won't.
But...
Even if...
Even if everyone eventually forgets him,
I want to remember.
Because the precious time we shared
must be somewhere inside me.
I'll try this one.
It's good!
So you can cook?
How rude. I can do this much.
Izumi.
I have something to tell you.
What?
I'm
going to apply to an art college.
I thought you would.
You're not surprised?
"Procedural memory", right?
Yeah.
I think Toru wanted to tell me
that even if I don't have memories,
there's something accumulating inside.
I don't want to let it go to waste.
Sounds like Kamiya.
Really?
Right.
I'm so full!
It was pretty good.
Pretty good?
You're up?
In a world where so much is lost,
some things remain vivid.
Toru definitely lives inside me.
Even if this love disappears tonight,
my heart will capture you.
[I have amnesia from a car accident.
Read journal on laptop]
[Only my parents and Izumi
know about my condition]
[Decide what to wear the next day]
[Don't forget to write in journal
before going to sleep]
[I have amnesia from a car accident.
Read journal on laptop]
[Read journal on laptop when I get up]
[Read journal when I get up]
On the first day of Golden Week,
I was in a car accident.
Once I go to sleep, I lose all my
memories from the previous day.
I decided to keep a journal
to back up my memories,
which are erased day by day.
May 5, 2019.
[This is a record]
[of what happened
from May 5, 2019 to yesterday]
[May 5, 2019.
Today, I will start my journal]
[Doctors can't do
anything. Monitor at home]
Ow.
- This, too.
- Okay.
She's up.
Morning!
Hey.
Do I have amnesia?
Well, you were in a car accident
three years ago.
You were a brave girl.
You saved a child from being run over.
That's right. We're very proud of you.
I remember
everything about yesterday.
I stepped on my palette and hurt myself.
I remember... very clearly.
It's not definitive,
but Maori is showing signs of recovery.
Maori.
- Really, Doctor?
- Yes.
Hello?
Hello, Izumi? Can you talk now?
Not really, but go ahead. What's up?
I think my memory is coming back.
[Don't forget to write in journal
before going to sleep]
Let's take it step by step.
[Never sleep outside the house]
Here you go.
Thank you.
Looks good.
How does it feel to get your memory back?
I remember everything about yesterday,
and before that, when I was in high school.
But the three years in between
are wiped clean.
Like I turned into an adult overnight.
Anyhow, it feels strange.
Can lost memories be recovered?
I've written in my journal every day
for three years,
but they say those are just records.
They won't come back as memories.
I see.
Oh.
Do you know who this is?
Do you recognize him?
Oh, him. I saw him a few times
at the library over the summer.
I see.
Looks like he modeled
for me more than once.
You liked portraiture
and wanted to draw a guy,
so he helped you out.
Did I write that in my journal?
Anyways, I'm glad.
At least you remembered.
[Read journal when I get up]
[On the first day of Golden Week,
I was in a car accident]
[Don't forget Toru Kamiya]
Will you go out with me?
I didn't mean it.
I'm sure she knew I wasn't serious.
Yes, I will.
What?
What was your name again?
Toru Kamiya.
Toru.
Got it.
Which class are you in?
Class 1.
Wait for me in Class 1
tomorrow after school.
See you then.
What the heck was that?
I did what you asked.
Now keep your promise
and don't mess with Shimokawa anymore.
Go to sleep.
You have to get up early tomorrow.
"Don't worry about tomorrow."
"Tomorrow is tomorrow. Live for today."
Yeah, yeah. A quote from Osamu Dazai.
I quit work.
Are you going to write again?
Literary Circle's Best New Author.
I think I have a shot at it this time.
Maybe there's an age limit, though.
I have to keep my promise to your mom.
[Literary Circle]
['Remnants' by Fumino Nishikawa]
Morning.
Morning.
They didn't harass me this morning.
I see. Glad to hear that.
- Is this Kamiya?
- Yeah.
- He heard you.
- He's looking this way.
- Go! He's looking.
- Seriously?
Go!
I can't believe I'm doing this.
This is trending right now.
Will you go out with me?
Did you know?
- Who's Kamiya?
- That guy over there.
Did you say something to Saegusa?
I asked Maori Hino from Class 7
to go out with me.
I see.
Well, congrats!
Are you free this Sunday?
Why?
To celebrate.
Nah. It's okay.
What do you want to eat?
It's about Maori Hino.
See you later.
All right.
Are you really going out with her?
Something like that.
Why? You don't even know her.
Love at first sight?
Something like that.
Like what?
Well...
If you're not serious about her, back off.
Sorry, class is starting.
Kamiya.
Toru, right?
Hello.
Any after school activities?
No.
Good. Me neither.
I wouldn't want you
to miss any club activities.
If we're going to be dating,
we need to establish some rules.
About that...
Did you change your mind?
A friend of mine was being bullied.
They promised to stop if I asked you out.
I see.
You're a popular girl.
They probably set me up
to be rejected, just for laughs.
I'm sorry for getting you involved.
Why are you sorry?
You did it to protect a friend.
That's cool.
So?
So what?
You don't want to go out with me?
It's not that...
Why did you agree?
Me?
I've been wondering that myself.
I have an idea.
Let's "pretend" we're together.
"Pretend"?
Yup.
Everyone thinks we're a couple already.
I know, but you'll have nothing to gain...
Your friend will be hurt if he finds out
the real reason you asked me out.
- Yes, I will.
- You're right.
It's gone too far to tell everyone
it was a lie.
I suppose.
Okay, then.
I'll pretend to be your girlfriend
on three conditions.
- Conditions?
- Yes.
One. Don't talk to each other
until school's over.
Two. Keep communication short.
And...
Three. Don't actually fall in love.
Okay.
That's it, boyfriend.
There they are!
Let's get to know each other
to make it seem real.
- When's your birthday?
- Kamiya!
February 25.
Blood type?
AB.
- What?
- Who do you look up to?
Fumino Nishikawa.
I have no idea who that is.
An esoteric classic novelist.
I see.
- Are you writing that down?
- Of course.
Thanks.
Special talents?
I can cook, I guess.
Wow.
I do all the housework.
I see.
It's just me and my dad.
I'd like to taste your cooking someday.
I'll be supportive,
but you don't have to, you know.
I kind of like what you said the other day.
Fake relationship: Condition 1.
Don't talk to each
other until school's over.
[Tomorrow] [Class duty] [I'll be late]
Fake relationship: Condition 2.
Keep communication short.
[K]
And...
Fake relationship: Condition 3.
Wanna go somewhere sometime?
You mean... on a date?
Yup. We're dating after all.
I suppose...
How about Sunday?
I'd like that.
But in the afternoon, okay?
Are you busy in the morning?
You're so dense.
Girls need time to get ready.
Fake relationship...
We were girlfriend and boyfriend.
But not really.
But first...
This is my best friend, Izumi Wataya.
I know.
She's very concerned about us
and wants to have a three-way meeting.
More like an interrogation, I bet.
- What?
- Nothing.
I don't mind.
Come with me to the station.
Do you like cats?
Come on.
Here?
Yup.
- I miss Maya and Bruno.
- It's huge...
Yeah.
Long time, no see Bruno. How are you?
You're so tame today.
Your house is... amazing.
What does your dad do?
My parents are going through a divorce.
I live with my mom now.
I see.
Izumi's mom is a famous designer.
No wonder your house is so nice.
- Thank you.
- Go ahead.
Good?
Glad to know. ['Allium in the
Evening' by Fumino Nishikawa]
Fumino Nishikawa...
Oh, Fumino Nishikawa.
She's an up-and-coming classic novelist.
She's one of my faves.
A bit of an esoteric, though.
Fumino Nishikawa?
That's the person you look up to.
You're a fan too?
Not so much a fan...
So we share literary tastes.
A fellow bookworm.
I'm not.
You're a classicist. I can tell.
- It's not that.
- Don't be embarrassed.
- I'm not embarrassed.
- Admit it.
Wait...
Hey.
Don't call me a "bookworm" in your journal.
Okay. I'll refer to you as the bookworm
who doesn't want to be called a "bookworm".
Look!
Wow!
- How beautiful!
- So pretty.
Hey, take it easy.
It's better to capture the picture
in your mind, not on your phone.
No.
I have to do this. Or
I'll forget everything.
In my world, I didn't exist yesterday.
[I have amnesia from a car accident.
Read journal on desk]
[Read journal when I get up]
[On the first day of Golden Week,
I was in a car accident]
[Sunday, May 5.
Today, I will start my journal]
Is it June already?
What about school?
You've been going to school
since you got out of the hospital.
But the only people who know
about your amnesia
are the teachers and Izumi.
What?
So don't tell anyone else.
Why not?
Anyone could do anything to you,
and you wouldn't remember.
Someone may take advantage of that.
So you should only
tell people you can trust.
Morning.
Morning.
Wait... well...
Am I a burden?
No way. Right, Mom?
You were a brave girl.
You saved a child from being run over.
That's right. We're very proud of you.
Do we have this conversation every day?
I feel so hopeless, but...
I have to face it.
[Toru Kamiya, Year 3, Class 1.
No after school activities]
A little hope...
I saw something that looked like hope
in the words written there.
Toru Kamiya... Toru.
Blood-type AB. Kind of different.
Lives with his father.
A bookworm who doesn't like
to be called a "bookworm".
What's that mean?
[Izumi (A friend I can trust)]
Hello?
Maori? You're going on your first date
with Kamiya today. Are you ready?
Sorry that you always have to remind me.
I know it's an inconvenience.
Don't worry about it.
I only do as much as I can,
and as much as I want to.
Thanks.
And... I need your advice on something.
Shoot.
What should I wear on my date?
- Whatever.
- Huh?
You're bragging.
No, I'm not!
Should I wear a dress or a denim skirt?
Seriously? Either one.
I asked Izumi, but she was no help at all.
- See ya.
- After much deliberation,
I decided on the blue dress.
I'll be meeting Toru
for the first time today.
It's my first date with
a complete stranger.
I'm a little nervous.
We're meeting at the
fountain at Kaihin Park.
I have to make sure I approach
the right person.
Toru?
I've never seen a proper picnic basket
like that before.
My sister bought it a long time ago
at a fair or something.
It's all I had.
Your sister?
Did you tell me about your sister before?
No, I don't think so.
Right. You said you lived alone
with your dad.
My sister lived with
us too. Until recently.
Our mom died when we were young,
so my sister was like a mother to me.
I see.
- Here.
- That's amazing!
Looks delicious.
You said you wanted to taste my cooking.
I'll try this one.
- Thanks.
- Go ahead.
I'll take this one.
- It's good!
- Really?
Glad to hear that.
You said you did all the housework.
Did your sister teach you?
Some of it.
My mom left us a journal
with our favorite recipes and whatnot.
And housework tips, where the bank book
was kept... stuff like that.
Wow. That's awesome.
She had a heart condition.
Maybe she was preparing herself.
I see...
Your mom was very organized.
She cared about us so much.
She was the center of our universe.
Like the sun.
Thanks for sharing that with me.
I think it's the first time I told anyone.
What about you? Any brothers or sisters?
I'm an only child.
A very precious only daughter.
I think my dad would go crazy
if he found out I had a boyfriend.
So don't tell him.
Why don't you come over and
introduce yourself as my boyfriend?
I'll pass.
Anyways, we're just "pretending".
It's strange.
What is?
I rarely talk about myself like this.
When I'm with you, I feel calm.
It's not a struggle at all.
You're up?
Who are you?
What?
Sorry.
- What's happening?
- What's wrong?
Excuse me.
Hino!
[Izumi (A friend I can trust)]
[Have fun!]
Hello?
Sorry, Izumi. I'm so confused.
- What's wrong?
- I woke up at a park
with a strange guy next to me.
Okay. Calm down.
First, read the notes in your bag.
I'll be right there, so stay put.
Describe where you are.
Hello?
Where are you, Kamiya?
Sorry, I'll call you back.
You're looking for Maori, right?
How do you know?
I'll explain later.
[Anterograde amnesia]
[Once I go to sleep, I forget everything]
[Refer to folder named "Toru"]
I'm sorry!
Anterograde amnesia.
When I explained those
foreign words to him,
he said nothing. Just listened.
I remember everything up until
the moment of the accident.
But everything after that
gets erased once I go to sleep.
Like just now.
I keep my journal
to help me through the next day.
Day after day.
That explains all those memos...
Sorry. I know this is weird for you.
Weird?
Pretending you're my boyfriend.
When you asked me out, I knew it was fake.
But I took advantage of it.
It was my fault for asking you out
when I didn't even mean it.
I guess I'm not cut out for it.
I'll probably be a huge burden on you.
So let's end this...
If you don't write about this
in your journal today,
you won't remember it tomorrow?
- That's right.
- In that case
don't write about it.
That you fell asleep,
or told me about your amnesia.
You don't mind?
I like being with you.
No one wants to be reminded
of their failures over and over again.
So let's pretend that
this never happened today.
We'll play a trick on you tomorrow.
But...
Maori!
She just wandered off on me, so I panicked.
I know! She has a tendency to sleepwalk.
She walks around in her sleep,
sometimes for 30 minutes.
If it ever happens
again, call me right away.
Okay.
[I told Toru about my amnesia]
Found you, Toru Kamiya.
I had fun yesterday. Thanks.
Yeah. Me, too.
If I were really your girlfriend,
it'd be my turn to make you lunch.
But I'm a lousy cook.
Yeah, I figured.
Don't be rude.
You said so yourself.
I can criticize myself,
but other people can't.
That's huge!
- I want to get that Ferris wheel.
- Ferris wheel?
- Let me.
- Thanks.
Looks good!
Oh, no.
What a waste!
[...bought two large ice creams]
Any recommendations?
Maybe this.
"Trajectory" by Hirohiko Moriyama.
I had an English test today.
How did you do?
Ready? Go!
[Great luck]
- Nice!
- Yay!
[Toru picked "Great luck"!]
Favorite animal: Penguin.
Least favorite: Snake.
[13:00 at the square
in front of the station]
It's been a while since I rode a bike.
- A little further.
- Just a little.
- Hey-ho.
- You can do it!
You made it.
- It feels good.
- Right?
Okay. Your turn.
What about tomorrow?
Tomorrow?
Let's do whatever you want to do.
I'm going to make sure
you have fun tomorrow too.
[I'm going to make sure
you have fun tomorrow too]
"I'm going to make sure
you have fun tomorrow too".
It made my heart skip a beat.
This is a "first" for me, too.
My feeling of hopelessness is gone.
Thank you, Toru.
Fumino Nishikawa was beautiful.
I'll treasure this forever.
She's so pretty.
[Fumino Nishikawa book signing
Akutagawa Prize nominee 'Remnants']
- Thank you.
- Thank you.
Thank you so much.
- Thank you.
- Thank you.
Hello.
Kamiya!
You're here, too?
Too bad they ran out of tickets...
Toru?
Ms. Nishikawa?
Excuse me.
Why didn't you tell me?
Sorry. I didn't know how to bring it up.
Fumino Nishikawa is your sister?
I said all those things, as if I knew her!
Like she's esoteric. This is terrible.
But she is esoteric, so don't worry.
I was shocked. She's so beautiful.
You don't have to say that.
Go talk to your sister.
But Hino's waiting for me.
It's okay. I'll go ahead with Maori.
But I haven't seen her yet today.
Wait a minute. Do you know?
About her amnesia? Yeah.
I thought so...
It was that day at the park, right?
Did she tell you?
Yes. But she didn't write about it
in her journal.
Why not?
I asked her not to.
Because I didn't want things to change.
So today,
Hino doesn't know that
I know about her amnesia.
Please
keep it a secret, okay?
Okay.
Wow! Look! It's shimmering!
Look at that big, flat one, Daddy!
I wonder what it is.
Maybe it's a ray.
Could I ever have a
family? In my condition?
What if I had a baby?
I'd wake up every morning
and not know it was mine.
There's so much information
to process on a daily basis.
It's hard to keep up.
Sorry. I'm being a bit pessimistic today.
I'll probably never get married.
I wouldn't be able to.
So let's be old maids together.
Even if I never grow up?
Ouch! That's a good one.
You're funny.
I didn't know you'd have
a book signing so close to home.
My publisher begged me to do it.
I couldn't say no.
Toru, did you lose weight?
Wow. Akutagawa Prize, huh?
I didn't win it yet.
I did it
at your expense. Our family's expense.
It wasn't a sacrifice for me.
When Mom died,
you did everything around the house.
Those were dark times.
Books were your escape.
Your safe haven.
Is it fun to read?
Even after Mom died,
Dad continued to write.
But he didn't enjoy writing anymore.
At some point,
you started writing in secret
so Dad wouldn't feel bad.
And you won Best New Author.
And the books you wrote...
[Nominee: Fumino Nishikawa,
'Allium in the Evening']
Became a safe haven for me.
I know.
Yes.
I'm honored you think I have potential,
but I have to put my family first.
I'm sorry. Good bye.
I learned how to keep house.
I was proud of you.
You poured your all into writing.
It wasn't a sacrifice for me.
That's why I supported your moving out.
How's Dad?
The same.
But how long are you going to
keep it a secret from him?
I'll tell him once the winner of the prize
is announced.
I promise.
And?
What about you, Toru?
Have a girlfriend yet?
Huh?
I can tell.
She's more like a friend than a girlfriend.
She was in a car accident
and lost her memory.
Once she goes to sleep,
she forgets everything
that happened that day.
So she writes everything down in a journal.
If she doesn't read it the next day,
she'll forget who I am.
But...
Whenever she reads her journal,
you'll always be there.
That's right. That's why I want to
fill her journal with fun memories.
So she'll feel optimistic
when she reads it every day.
I'm glad you have someone, Toru.
See you.
Thanks. See you.
Toru!
Take care. For her sake, too.
I will. Don't worry.
He's here.
Look how cute!
I'll buy it for you, for making you wait.
Really?
Then you buy one too.
So we can be twins.
- Twins?
- You made me wait, right?
- Fine.
- Yay!
Then...
Bye.
See you tomorrow.
You've changed, Kamiya.
What? Really?
You used to be more detached.
I didn't think you really liked Maori.
What are you smiling at?
I just want to fill her days with fun.
Even if she doesn't remember?
Yup. That's what I've decided.
I see.
[Literary Circle Best New Author Entry]
They're announcing the winner
of the Akutagawa Prize tonight.
[Akutagawa Prize Announcement tonight]
Yeah.
Is that so?
Let's wait for the announcement together.
Huh? Sure. But where?
For example...
My house?
- Huh?
- Huh?
It's the closest.
Okay?
You sure?
Okay. It's decided. Let's go, Kamiya.
Huh? Wait...
Isn't your dad at home?
The one that would go crazy
if he knew you had a boyfriend?
Did I say that?
What should I say to him?
You won't have to say anything.
We have a plan.
What plan?
Are you listening?
You're ignoring me!
- Thank you for having me.
- Thank you.
Let me tidy up a little. Wait here.
What? Wait... what?
I brought some custard from Chez Muroi.
Really? That super popular place?
They're always sold out! Thanks, Izumi!
No problem. There was no line today.
I'll take two.
- Oh.
- Of course.
- I'll get some drinks.
- Thank you.
- Come in.
- Thanks.
Don't look in my underwear drawer.
I won't.
You can take a little peek, though.
I won't!
I'll go get Izumi.
Why are you flustered?
I-I'm not!
What's that string?
String?
Gotcha!
Come on...
- Heave-ho!
- Here you go.
Thanks.
The penguin.
You put it on your bag.
Mine is
on my house key.
What was that?
When we went to the aquarium!
Oh, yeah.
Doesn't it look like Kamiya?
The penguin?
Sorry, I forgot the spoons for the custard.
Be right back.
Sorry.
I think I'll go home. I
have to make dinner.
Running away?
I thought you were ready for this.
[I have amnesia from a car accident...]
Can you imagine
how frustrated Maori must feel
reading these every morning?
But she forces herself
to look despair in the face and laugh.
She never runs away.
I thought you decided
to fill her days with fun.
[Read journal when I get up]
[Akutagawa Prize:
Fumino Nishikawa, 'Remnants']
I can't believe this is happening,
to be honest.
[Fumino Nishikawa wins Akutagawa Prize]
Toru.
Is Fumino Nishikawa...
You knew?
Yeah.
Oh... I get it now!
Sanae left home to be a novelist.
Sanae is different from you and me.
Different how?
She didn't run away from us.
She left to pursue something. Her own life.
So...
Sanae must have been
laughing at me behind my back.
I'm a failure. As a father and a novelist.
She must pity me.
You claim to be a novelist!
But you've been running
away since Mom died!
You!
I'm
sick of running away.
Toru!
I decided to write novels
because of you, Dad.
At first, I did it to run away from myself.
But that changed.
By writing,
by transforming myself into words,
I thought maybe I could
connect with someone.
That's why I write now.
Dad...
You wrote your novels for Mom, right?
I loved watching her
read your novels.
I should have
mourned her properly back then.
It happened so suddenly...
I couldn't do anything for you
as your father.
I didn't do right by either of you.
But I'm grateful to you.
You raised us.
And you're still here.
You're a fine dad.
Yes?
We don't mean to meddle,
but Dad thought you should consider these.
[Musashino Art University]
Thank you.
But...
I can't apply to art college now.
It's too late for that.
- Hey!
- Doodling?
You're good.
I was in the Art Club in middle school.
I even won some contests.
Give it back.
I see...
Once you learn something,
it's hard to unlearn it.
[The memory mechanism.
Why won't we forget how to ride a bike?]
Really?
It's called "procedural memory".
Procedural memory?
[Procedural memory]
It's like riding a bike.
Something your body remembers how to do.
Something you never forget?
You hadn't ridden a bike in a while,
but you remembered how, right?
Maybe drawing is the same thing.
Your body will remember, so the
more you draw, the better you become.
Procedural memory, huh?
So you should keep drawing.
Not me, though.
You said to keep drawing.
I did... but don't just draw me.
Why not?
You said I'd get better,
even if I had no memory of it.
You taught me that
even in my condition,
I could continue to improve myself.
I wanted to show my future self
the Toru I saw through my eyes.
So I kept drawing him.
For you.
Every day, he gives me a ray of hope.
Toru is tired. He fell asleep.
My days begin full of despair.
But when I'm with him,
I'm overcome with happiness.
Even if I can't store memories,
something may remain.
The "me" in my journal
is starting to fall in love with him.
[Thank you, Toru]
[3. Don't actually fall in love]
And here I am,
going to see him again.
[Have fun.
Make up for yesterday's lost memories]
[Fireworks Festival]
You're wearing the hair pin.
It took you long enough to notice.
It looks nice on you.
I'm so happy that my
memories can't keep up.
Even precious moments like these
will soon be forgotten.
I'm going to forget everything.
Even the warmth of your hand.
I don't want to... I don't want to forget.
You won't.
Memories never disappear completely.
Please don't go anywhere, Toru.
I'll always
stay by your side.
Sorry.
Toru.
Can I... break Rule #3?
I broke it a long time ago.
I'll try to be kind to everyone.
I won't be selfish. So...
Please
[Please let me stay by his side.]
let me stay by his side.
[Next year and the year after that]
Even in the fall,
then the school festival season...
Even in the winter,
when it started to snow,
[Congratulations on your graduation]
They stayed together.
I was closer to them than anyone else,
but I was left behind.
See you. Bye!
I'm done.
Shall we go?
- Excuse me...
- Let's go, Maori.
Thanks for everything.
What?
If it weren't for you,
I would have never graduated.
You worked hard. Good job.
The same to you.
You made every day so much fun for me.
Let's go to all those places again.
The aquarium, picnics,
the fireworks festival.
Your home-made lunches.
So many memories.
Even if I don't remember.
What are you wearing
to the graduation dinner?
That dress I just bought.
It looks good on you. See you later.
Let's get dressed up!
- Okay.
- Bye.
See you tomorrow.
See you.
Thanks.
For what?
For Maori.
When I first heard about you two,
I was afraid it wouldn't last.
No one knows when Maori's memory
will ever come back.
Watching my parents split up,
I realized love isn't forever.
But seeing the two of you
made me believe that
maybe love can last forever.
I like you too, Kamiya.
What?
What I mean to say is...
I'm counting on you
to take care of my best friend.
You're my best friend now, too.
Say something.
Wataya.
I have a favor to ask.
What is it?
I...
I may have a heart condition.
And...
I had an attack yesterday.
It was nothing serious.
But my mom had the same thing.
They're going to run some tests tomorrow.
I see. But it isn't... anything really bad,
is it?
Well, my mom passed away suddenly.
So I thought I'd ask you while I could.
If... and I mean if...
If I...
If something happens to me...
[Toru Kamiya]
Why didn't you pick up?
How did the tests go?
Toru...
My brother passed away this morning.
He had an attack last night
and never regained consciousness.
I was trembling so hard,
I thought I was being swallowed up.
I wasn't prepared for death.
After much deliberation,
I decided to tell Maori
about Kamiya's death.
I couldn't carry the grief alone,
so I unloaded it onto her.
Knowing she couldn't share my grief.
It's funny.
I have no memory of him.
I only remember him through photos
and journal entries...
It's funny.
No, it's not.
You two were really good together.
It's not funny at all.
In the end, we didn't attend the wake.
Maori's mental state was breaking down.
It was too much to bear.
I clung to Kamiya's sister for support.
I see.
Toru said that?
Thank you for telling me.
Before Toru died,
he talked about Maori once.
He wanted to fill her journal
with fun memories.
He seemed so happy.
He wanted her
to feel positive about life
whenever she read her journal.
So I think Toru
was already imagining
what would happen after he was gone.
Every time she read her journal,
she'd have to confront the death
of a boyfriend she didn't remember.
If anything happens to me,
I want you to delete everything about me
from her journal.
What?
If I don't appear in her journal,
it will be like I never existed.
And you're okay with that?
We didn't know each other
before the accident.
Hino and I hadn't even met then.
So I want you to delete me.
You're an important
friend to me too, Wataya.
If it pains you to do it,
I'll delete him from her journal.
Do you think that's the best thing to do?
Toru asked you to do it.
So you need to decide.
But if it's too hard for you,
you can blame it on me.
I have a legitimate reason
to carry out my brother's wishes.
I thought about Kamiya's resolve,
and Maori's fragile mental state,
which was unsustainable.
Here it is.
[Read journal when I get up]
She's fast asleep.
I'll return it as soon as I make copies.
Can you take care of her phone?
[Read journal when I get up]
[On the first day of Golden Week,
I was in a car accident]
[May 5, 2019.
Today, I will start my journal]
[Date with Toru after school]
[Toru]
[Izumi]
[Toru]
[Toru]
[Toru]
[Copying...]
[On the first day of Golden Week,
I was in a car accident]
[Let's do all those fun things
together again, Izumi!]
[Don't forget to write in journal
before going to sleep]
[Only my parents and Izumi
know about my condition]
[I have amnesia from a car accident.
Read journal on desk]
[Read the journal on desk]
[Don't forget Toru Kamiya]
[So please let me stay by his side.
Next year and the year after that...]
Yes?
Izumi.
Sorry. Let me get to a good stopping point.
Sit down.
I can't stop painting him.
I don't know why.
The guy in my sketch book.
It's like my hand remembers,
and I paint him over and over.
What's wrong?
I'm sorry.
I've stolen some very precious memories
from you.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
[Read journal when I get up]
This is your real journal.
I'm sorry...
I hid it from you.
I see.
I've been a huge burden on you again.
Thank you.
For respecting the final wishes
of someone I loved.
Monday, May 27th.
Something shocking happened today.
Excuse me...
Will you go out with me?
At first, it was just a whim.
Yes, I will.
I just went along with it.
I thought, maybe even someone like me
could experience something new.
Let's "pretend" we're together.
"Pretend"?
On three conditions.
- Conditions?
- Yes.
One. Don't talk to each other
until school's over.
Because organizing memories takes time.
Two. Keep communication short.
Because I won't know how to deal
with yesterday's conversations.
[K]
Three. Don't actually fall in love.
How can someone
who can't hold onto memories fall in love?
[3. Don't actually fall in love]
I'm going to make sure
you have fun tomorrow too.
But he knew about my memory loss.
We'll play a trick on you tomorrow.
He pretended not to know,
and gave me days filled with light.
Procedural memory?
So you should keep drawing.
I couldn't connect yesterday to today,
but he gave me a reason to live.
Toru dropped his ice cream.
This is his second ice cream of the day.
How does it taste?
It tastes sad.
- Poor thing.
- Yup.
It may be over your head.
What?
How did you do?
I shouldn't have asked.
And you?
He stayed by my side until the day
before his life was extinguished.
Where are we?
This is Kugenuma Inari Shrine.
Our family used to
come here on New Year's Day.
He never asked for anything in return.
He just kept giving me memories.
Here it comes.
But...
I kept losing them.
The time I spent with him
only exists in my journal.
Memories never
disappear completely.
[I have amnesia from a car accident.
Read journal on desk]
[Don't forget Toru Kamiya]
So...
Please, God.
Etch the time we spent together into me.
[Don't forget Toru Kamiya]
I'm so glad you can remember things again.
Thank you.
But...
I don't remember Toru.
Whenever I read my journal,
I'm filled with happiness,
but I don't remember him.
Everyone forgets eventually.
Toru will become a part of my past too.
I think that's how we survive.
So...
Don't let your future go to waste.
I won't.
But...
Even if...
Even if everyone eventually forgets him,
I want to remember.
Because the precious time we shared
must be somewhere inside me.
I'll try this one.
It's good!
So you can cook?
How rude. I can do this much.
Izumi.
I have something to tell you.
What?
I'm
going to apply to an art college.
I thought you would.
You're not surprised?
"Procedural memory", right?
Yeah.
I think Toru wanted to tell me
that even if I don't have memories,
there's something accumulating inside.
I don't want to let it go to waste.
Sounds like Kamiya.
Really?
Right.
I'm so full!
It was pretty good.
Pretty good?
You're up?
In a world where so much is lost,
some things remain vivid.
Toru definitely lives inside me.
Even if this love disappears tonight,
my heart will capture you.