Glacier (2021) Movie Script
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A PANDEMIC HAS KILLED
HALF THE WORLD'S POPULATION
CURFEW AND TOTAL ISOLATION
ARE ENFORCED
HUMAN TOUCH IS DEADLY
I can't eat salmon
three months in a row, every day!
GLACIER
Welcome to Haymarket.
Your welcome package
is in the reception.
Please avoid all contact
and respect our isolation.
Stay inside your room.
You may only leave your room
during scheduled times.
The times are scheduled so guests
have no contact with each other.
All forms of socialising
are strictly prohibited.
Avoid spread of infection by
always being separated by a wall.
Our policy helps us keep you alive.
Together, we limit contact
between people.
Breaking the rules leads to
immediate evacuation.
I want to begin by praying that...
that all of you, out there...
I know you're everywhere;
North and south.
And I know you're
holding your bibles.
And I also know you're holding your
Quran, Talmud, Bhagavad Gita.
Whatever you believe in, whoever you
are, know that you are welcome here.
You're welco... As you see...
I'm not in my regular studio.
No, I've had to book into this hotel
to stay safe and to...
to be able to talk with you.
But I'll pray with you.
Today, we'll pray together.
PAUL'S RESTAURANHaymarket's isolation program
is designed to give our guests
the most pleasant
quarantine experience as possible.
- Haven't you read the schedule?
- Schedule? I...
- What are you doing in my time?
- I haven't seen anyone at the hotel.
- Have you been here long?
- Get out! What's wrong with you?
- Do you want to die? Are you insane?
- What?
Get out! Oh my god!
What don't you get? Get out!
God! What the hell? Get out!
I've been here for 71 fucking days!
I haven't seen a soul and now
this fucking idiot comes along!
Why the hell would you come in
when I'm here and it's my time?!
We wish to remind you that all
human touch is strictly prohibited.
But wine and spirits can be ordered
through our contactless room service.
Have a pleasant day.
You have three times every day
that we all follow in this place.
And you walk right into my time.
I'm going to tell you something.
I've been here for months.
And I've never seen a single person.
And do you know why?
Because everybody respects
the rules here. Nobody wants to die.
Do you understand?
Nobody wants to die.
That's why we're here.
You've been given information
about how to behave here, right?
It can't be that bloody hard
to figure out.
You know what?
I won't stand for this.
I haven't spent a million for you to
come and explore the whole place.
Tomorrow I'll find out
exactly which room you're in,
and I'm going to ask management
to come and spray it with...
chlorine.
They can spray your room
with chlorine.
Do you know what it's like
to breathe in chlorine?
It's not fun.
Since you seem to so dearly want to
die, you can cough on some chlorine.
Then you'll see.
I'm not some doddery old lady
ranting in the middle of the night.
I'm serious.
I know where you live.
I don't want to have any contact
with you ever again,
so you can go and return
your walkie talkie to reception,
and I'll go down and return mine.
Please answer if you've understood.
4:47.
The time is fucking 4:47.
This is Sweden's
most expensive quarantine hotel,
you must have received instructions.
You get a schedule each day, a
breakfast time, a lunch time,
a dinner time, a walk time,
a gym time, a bar time.
So follow the rules! Okay?
Okay. And what happens
if I don't follow the rules?
- You'll be thrown out and you'll die.
- Exactly!
You were in the kitchen too!
It was actually my dinner time.
And we're not allowed in the kitchen.
Exactly, that's exactly what I mean!
- Hello?
- Hey. Okay.
I shouldn't have been in the kitchen,
that's true. But neither should you.
It's just as true.
I've apologised,
you don't have to apologise.
I say we move on with our lives.
- Can I ask you a question?
- Yes.
What did you work with?
I worked with... I was a doctor.
What about you?
Pastor. I'm a pastor.
If you're a doctor,
why aren't you at a hospital?
None of your business.
We've become people made of glass.
We see each other on screens,
but we can never feel the warmth
of another hand.
Never feel cheek against cheek,
breast against breast.
Never feel another human's heart beat
against ours.
Is God alive?
Is that what the test is about?
I don't know who we are
when we're alone.
Maybe it's in our hardest moments,
when everything is darkest,
that God is most alive.
All I can do is stand here,
preach the word of love,
the word of God.
I'm going to be here with you
every day, the same time.
As long as I can.
Remember to keep your spirits up.
Remember to take advantage
of your gym and bar time.
Remember to wash your hands
after you masturbate.
You've been quiet.
All I ask for is a sign.
A small sign telling me what...
I should do now. Why? What?
Is that your sign?
Not very subtle.
I know, it's not a...
It's not a burning bush either,
you know, but it's...
Hello?
What are you doing?
I'm running.
You're at the gym?
The world is going under and you're
going to get yourself a six-pack?
Yep.
I like my routines.
You're looking for contact.
No, you know what? I'm not.
You contacted me.
Yes I called you. But you're the one
who has the walkie talkie at the gym.
Damn it.
I'm going to shower.
I just wanted to apologise
for hanging up like that.
Can I ask a question?
Depends what it is.
What's your favourite hotel
in the whole world?
Hydra, Greece.
Good food?
Tzatziki and squid they'd just pulled
out of the harbour and... yes.
I think they said something about
squid in the dinner box tonight.
I wouldn't think so.
Where is home?
- I'm from Stockholm.
- Which part?
- Central? South? Norrmalm?
- Central.
And your a doctor.
Which hospital did you work at?
SS, Karolinska, St Gran's?
Karolinska.
What kind of doctor
did you say you were?
Is this an interrogation?
No.
God, I wish I knew what
this crazy old lady's problem is.
Because normally,
if you talk to someone,
and you mention something
they don't want to talk about,
they say,
"I don't want to discuss it."
Why does he think
I'm not at a fucking hospital?
He's not at a fucking hospital.
Who's getting cured?
Not one fucking person gets cured.
There's too much going on to be able
to understand and interpret
what it is you're trying to say.
- He's a fucking idiot.
- I don't get what you want.
I get know what she wants.
I don't...
Fucking hell.
Damn it!
I'm not going to answer
when she calls.
I've had enough.
And yes, I'm aware she may be
the last woman on earth,
but I'm not going to answer.
Are you there?
Hello?
Hello.
- Hello?
- Good.
Well, now I have some questions
for you, since you asked me
a lot of unpleasant questions.
So I was actually wondering,
who are you? Are you a spy?
I'm... from Malm,
I'm born and raised in Malm.
- And you've only been a priest?
- Pastor. And no.
Ok then, pastor.
What were you before?
- Before that, I was a child.
- Have you got children?
No.
- Married?
- Yep. No, or...
What does that mean?
Avoid spread of infection by
always being separated by a wall.
Our policy helps us keep you alive.
Breaking the rules leads to
immediate evacuation.
Together, we limit contact
between people.
How long do you think this hotel
can keep this up?
How long can it last?
I don't know,
but it can't be forever.
We're people. We can't live
our lives alone. It's no good.
- Hello?
- Yes, hello.
I didn't know
if you'd clicked me off.
You click me off for the smallest
wrong word, so I don't know.
Was that a smile? A laugh?
I didn't know you did that.
It was the first time
I've heard you say something funny.
Hey, there always has to be
a wall between us.
Remember, when we stay isolated,
we have a nice time together.
Hello? Are you there?
Hey.
A long time.
You asked before, how long I think
we'd be able to live like this.
I think we could live like this
a long time.
Now that we have walkie talkies,
mobiles...
This is okay. Right?
You don't die from this.
It's my birthday today.
Your birthday? Oh! Happy Birthday!
Thanks.
When's your birthday?
Not until February.
The 10th of February.
- The 10th of February?
- Mm.
That's today.
What? Today's the 10th of February?
Yeah, it is.
Happy Birthday.
We have the same birthday. Okay.
Happy Birthday to us,
Happy Birthday to us,
Happy Birthday to us two,
For we're jolly good fellows,
For we're jolly good fellows,
For we're jolly good fellows,
Happy Birthday to us,
Happy Birthday to us,
It's our birthday,
Hooray! It's our Birthday!
Hip hip, hooray!
The same birthday.
Ta elagu!
Ta elagu!
Ta elagu!
Kolm korda elagu!
Cheese. God. Real cheese.
Made of real milk.
French cheese, maybe. Cow's milk.
I miss it.
At the Grand Hotel in Budapest,
the serve their champagne
as close to zero degrees as possible.
It's ice, ice, ice cold.
They serve it with a single spoonful
of caviar on a tiny macaroon.
Turbot with burnt butter.
Just a bite of meat
with a tiny dollop of butter.
Strawberries dipped in chocolate
and Dom Prignon.
If you could just choose
one last meal.
Just one?
Sausage.
You know. The boat between
Helsingborg and Helsingr.
Two red sausages and a bit of bread.
I hit my head when I was 12.
Ice rink.
There was blood all over the ice.
And all the kids stood around me,
screaming, just watching me...
I've always chatted with God, always
thought he said sensible things.
And I felt like I wanted to
share that.
It was chaos.
Suddenly it's like everyone just
folds away.
And there she was. Karin Ek.
African birthday parties, we have,
you know, 20, 30, 40,
300,000 hungry Ugandans
in our apartment.
...into her room and she just said,
"Now I'm going to sew you up."
I opened my mouth and I say...
"I want to say something."
I'd never said anything to them
in my life.
She spoke to me like an adult,
and said,
"Now we'll do this, we'll take this
and numb it a bit and wash it."
And the words started flowing,
you know. People drop their food,
put down their beer, children stop
crying, people stop moving,
all eyes are on me.
I wanted to be like her.
Total control.
Then I put down my bible
and say Amen.
You know,
you have a whole big team around you.
Everyone knows exactly what to do.
It's like a dance that's exactly...
Sometimes you a light go on in
people, when you say something.
It's nothing big. Not a big light.
No Gloria. But something lights up.
Of course, sometimes someone dies.
Then I go through the operation
a thousand times in my head.
Thinking, what? What did I do?
Did I do something wrong?
Um, I have to...
I'm live in ten minutes.
Do you feel like watching? Hm?
The pastor's vlog?
No. I don't think so, actually.
- Talk later?
- Yep.
I want to thank God
that I get to be here with you today.
Brothers and sisters out there,
fighting the good fight.
Jesus' soldiers on this pilgrimage
from cradle to grave.
This could be our last dance
with death, so there's a question.
Who do you want to be?
We have to look at our reflection
in the mirror with critical eyes.
We're talking critical reflection
with existential consequences.
That's what we have to do.
We have to explore ourselves.
We need to learn to die
to know how to live.
What is it that dies? When we
confront these voices within us,
when we defy and kill that part of
ourselves, that narcissistic self,
the hedonist self,
the egotistical self.
That's where we're going.
And when we come out the other side,
we'll see we're holding our bible.
Hey. I just wanted to say
thank you for your sermon.
I just watched it.
It was amazing.
Skilful. Beautiful, actually.
If you believe...
It's sad that we need to
learn to die,
so we can learn to live.
That's a bit backwards, right?
I really don't get how you can
talk about people's egotistical,
narcissistic side,
at a time like this, when you're
here at the expense of others.
You've gotten money from
the people you preach to.
That's how you can afford to
check into this luxury quarantine.
Can those you preach to
afford to do that?
That's what I'd like to know.
How much money do they give you?
My whole livelihood
comes from my congregation.
From the people
who listen to what I have to say.
You cheat them out of heaps of money
and you're really rich.
Maybe they have nothing.
Take a YouTube star.
What do they sell?
Do they sell lipstick? A recipe for
the perfectly boiled egg?
They make millions.
You think that's okay.
I have to say,
I have a problem with religion.
It's not worth anything?
All the animals,
plants and flowers.
Does there really have to be a god?
Does there really?
Must there be something more?
I go to churches, hospitals
all over the country, trying to help.
We really will...
We will all die alone.
Hey, I know exactly what you mean.
I understand.
We're born alone, we die alone,
and that's how it is.
And I can see it through your eyes,
from your perspective.
How you think,
you sit there and say,
"Well, we're humans, you know,
and we're made from
meat and blood and...
and then it's over
and there's nothing more.
It's over."
"No, you're so wrong."
Everybody wants to go to heaven
but few want to die.
And I've got good news for you.
It's like this, when we die,
we'll float up God with our faith,
and he'll welcome us.
We'll get weed and tons of wine.
And it's one big party
that will never, ever end.
You must have a faith, and if you do,
this love with flow through you.
Love never hurt anyone, has it?
Nobody's been hurt by love,
have they?
Your cynism isn't help anyone.
It's called cynicism.
I haven't got a spirit...
The spirit that makes us beat our...
I haven't got a spirit...
That makes us all slaves like me...
No.
Hello?
Hello?
Hello?
Hello.
No, you know, I was a bartender
when I was young, and you learn,
you never talk politics or religion
with someone you don't know.
I work in a hospital. You talk about
religion and politics a lot there.
But people change their
politics and religion in the end.
We want something to grasp onto.
Hey?
I think the battery
on my walkie talkie is dying.
Mine seems okay.
I think I've only got
a few minutes left.
Listen, if you don't want to
talk anymore, we don't...
073200500, that's my number.
You could call
if you wanted a video chat.
What, now?
Ye... No... Five minutes.
Just give me five minutes.
Yeah, 07...
0500. Thanks!
Hey.
Hey, kitchen-guy.
Hello.
You know, I've never Facetimed
with someone I don't know before.
So maybe I should... take a drink?
Yeah, go on.
Like the game,
"Never have I ever".
You say, "I've never talked to anyone
on Facetime."
I don't know what you mean.
- You don't know it?
- No.
You say "I've never done such and
such," and if you have, you drink.
If you haven't, you don't.
- Why?
- I don't know, to get drunk, I guess.
Get drunk? What, so I say, I've
never driven through a red light?
Mm. Have you driven
through a red light?
- Yes.
- Then you drink.
- I drink?
- Mm.
Okay. Some coffee. Okay.
I've never cheated on my taxes.
- The pastor.
- A decimal place in the wrong spot.
Never have I ever...
been arrested.
- Twice?!
- Mmhmm.
- I've never waxed.
- You have?
Where the sun doesn't shine.
- Why would you wax there?
- Because you're young and dumb,
and you have a girlfriend
and you want to feel experienced.
And when they put the wax on, you
know, and rip it off, I swear to God,
I looked like a leper.
I see. You make assumptions
about pastors.
Anyway...
I've never gone home
with someone I didn't know.
I've never done that. Never tried it.
Are you joking?
No, I'm totally serious.
It's never happened.
You've never picked someone up
at a bar?
- No.
- Why not?
I've been married.
I've never blacked out.
Woken up in a drunken cell
with a guy called Radovan.
Get this!
Radovan's little brother was in
the cell too was called Radovan too,
and was lying next to me.
What parents call
both their sons Radovan?!
Did they run out of names?
You're a strange pastor!
I have my bar time 19:50 to 20:05.
My bar time is 20:05 and onwards.
Should we put the times together
so we have longer?
Are you trying to ask me on a date?
You take the right bar,
I'll take the left.
Okay! Do you want to do on a date?
- No, cut it out.
- We can go on a date.
No! I just said I wanted to
get a drink, okay?
- Okay. Okay, fine.
- No date.
- See you. On the date.
- Oh, cut it out!
Hey there, priest!
Where did you learn to do that?
You know, we have many different
lives. What'll it be?
A Dry Martini.
Okay.
- Dirty.
- Sure thing.
Okay.
- Cheers.
- Cheers!
No, no. Do you think
I don't know how you operate?
It's a game, the whole pastor bit.
You're a player.
You listen to me, I'm not a player.
I can't hit on women,
I never have, I never will,
I'm useless.
Rubbish.
Tell me something?
- Have you ever been married?
- Never.
But I have dated
a lot of married men.
Could that be because...?
No analysis.
Let me be a cliche dating married men
because it's easy to keep a distance.
You can save yourself
by not being the cliche
of a man
trying to give me good advice. Okay?
I could well be
the last man on earth,
and then it would be my duty to
deliver humanity's last mansplaining.
Hey? Do you think God's
made this virus to...
to destroy all humanity?
What if we're
the last two people on earth?
I'd like to...
I just want to feel arms around me.
Feel a weight.
That would make me happy.
To just smell another person's scent.
Do you know it?
No, what the hell...?
What am I doing?
- No, I thought...
- You know what I did?
I just got right in
with all my clothes on!
- Yeah.
- I'm so drunk!
- You look so sad!
- What? No, no.
- What's up with you?
- I don't know. I...
What a lovely evening.
Yeah. I've been laying here,
thinking about this evening...
And it's been nice, and you know,
it's fun to...
- Yeah.
- But also, we think differently,
and have different perspectives.
- You get too...
- I don't understand what you mean.
- What do you mean?
- I'm married.
- Huh? Yes.
- I'm married.
I'm a married man. I'm...
I have a wife. I'm married.
I'm really good at married men.
Yeah, okay.
But... That's my situation.
You're starting
to have feelings for me...
- Sorry?
- So I think...
Hey, stop. What did you just say?
No, no, you.
- I'm married.
- Hey, listen to me.
Listen. Here's how it is.
I go down to a bar, have a drink.
You're in another bar, having a
drink.
- That's it.
- Okay.
No, but, you know,
maybe we shouldn't keep this up.
We went over time, actually.
We ran a bit amok.
Someone could have come,
it's really dangerous.
- So we won't do this again.
- Okay.
Let's say that.
I didn't say that so you'd say
we shouldn't do it again.
- I said it because I felt...
- Yeah, no, but we shouldn't.
Let's not do this.
Let's say good bye.
- Okay, but I mean, I...
- God.
How could he think... God, so stupid.
Good morning.
Hey.
Bloody hell.
Damn. Cool down!
Have you got any... plans later?
Dinner?
Yeah, I think I have
some kind of nice dinner date.
Okay.
- Are you outside?
- Yeah, I'm on the balcony.
Hello?!
No, come on, stop it.
Hello, someone could hear. Hey?
Don't do that.
- What if someone hears?
- What if someone hears what?
When was the last time you heard a
real voice? A voice from a human?
Not a phone or screen or radio?
When was the last time?
- I don't remember, actually.
- Exactly! You don't remember. Hello!
Hello!
Hey! How's... how's it going?
Okay!
- I'll call you! Okay!
- Okay!
Check! Drink!
Sweep.
I take you back, boom! Drink.
The one standing, that you think...
- The pony? You're taking the pony?
- I'm taking the pony!
The pony and... what is it, a bishop?
And this queen.
- It's the horse.
- That one? That's a porn.
- It... No.
- This is a pawn.
- No, it's no pawn.
- Yeah, it is. Definite pawn.
I'll take my queen
and go right down there.
- Pause, pause.
- What do you say now, then?
I say you change which piece
your queen is all the time.
That's never been your queen!
Why do you cheat all the time?
- It's a rook.
- It's unnecessary to cheat like that.
Why can't we just play the game?
You cheat the whole time!
- You cheat...
- No, no, no!
You can't move your king whenever!
- I want to see that again. Go back.
- Let's rewind.
- Yeah, wait.
- What the hell? I have to... wait.
- Go to... Wait, 07.
- 07? Okay. One, two, three.
Oh my god!
So good!
No!
You know?
I like this.
What we're... Us.
We would like to advise there has
been a violation of the rules.
Transgressions will be met with
immediate evacuation.
We have become aware that deviations
from isolation have occurred.
We should probably hang up, then.
- Measures will be taken.
- Yeah.
- Sleep well.
- You too.
Haymarket's isolation program
is designed to give our guests
as pleasant a quarantine experience
as possible.
Hello?
What?
Now?
Okay.
I'm here on two.
Perfect. Come in. Welcome.
Go stand at the computer.
That's it. Welcome!
I'm here. What am I doing here?
You have come to my karaoke bar.
- No! Never.
- Stop. Yes. I'll start.
You want what you want
and you want it now,
You see an opportunity,
doesn't matter how.
We're wilder than animals
when it comes to taking,
If anyone stands in my way,
that's fine.
Everyone wants to go to heaven
but few want to die,
You want to reap the rewards,
but don't sew any seeds.
Sing along!
What's this? I don't know it.
Of course you do. Everyone knows it.
Stop it.
- You'll have to sing it with me. Ok?
- Okay.
Your turn.
Are you with me?
Now I'm going to choose
a song for you, then.
No, no.
We sang the last one together
but it was your turn.
So we'll do this one,
it's a bit calmer.
You're the only one
who secretly sees me,
Though no one has spoken,
you know what I ask of you,
I desire only you,
If you just give me one small word,
I'm yours.
Hey?
I have to tell you something.
I've...
I've run away.
I left my post as doctor and...
ran away from the hospital
so they may very well...
be looking for me. It's against the
law to do what I did.
Just so you know.
There was a woman there
who only had a few hours left.
And a young man comes in, it was her
son, just runs right in to her,
and she opens her arms
even though she can't move,
and he goes and lays in her bed.
It scared the hell out of me.
I was so scared.
Because I...
I've never had anyone to go in to,
and I never will.
It scares me so fucking much.
That I'm going to die alone.
No, please! No, I don't want to!
Let go!
Help! Let me go! Ow!
You're hurting me!
Let me go! Do you hear me?
Stop! No! I don't want to!
I don't want to!
I don't want to go anywhere, no!
Stop! I don't want to!
- Hello.
- Hello.
- Hey, hey.
- Hey, did you hear that?
Yeah.
We have to be careful. Maybe we...
Maybe we should stop this. We...
Maybe we should follow the rules. Hm?
Is that what you want?
No!
Me neither.
Hey? I'm pretty scared now.
- It's okay. We're safe.
- They'll come and get me.
No everything's going to be alright.
It's just a question of time,
isn't it?
Everything's going to be fine.
I don't want to die...
As long as we can stay here,
we can...
talk to each other.
I don't know how I'll die.
You're not going to die.
We're not going to die.
- Yeah, we will.
- No.
I'm not going to die.
I don't want to.
No. It's alright.
There's nothing to be afraid of.
We don't even need to hang up.
We can just sit and...
- Yes, stay.
- We're staying. Yes, I'm here.
I'm here.
If I think about it,
I don't think I've ever had anyone
to talk to for real, like this.
Until now.
We're practically partners.
Are we?
I did committed a terrible crime
when left the hospital.
My colleagues are fighting
this virus, and what did I do?
You hear what it's like at night.
It's getting worse and worse.
So they'll probably be here soon.
I don't know what's worse, the virus
or being taken to the Terminal.
No, we won't end up at the Terminal.
You seem pretty whole.
Do you feel whole?
Yeah. Totally...
complete.
I'm totally...
incomplete.
As a person.
You know? I've never...
said "I love you" ever,
to another human.
Tragic, huh?
I think you need something present
when you're growing up,
so you practice different emotions,
or ways of talking and being.
To be allowed to be angry or to be
loved or accept... well.
To learn how those things work.
My mother didn't love me.
It sounds harsh to say, but it's
true. She was incapable of it.
Truly.
She couldn't.
Maybe it's time you try to say it.
What?
Try saying "I love you".
Try it. It doesn't hurt.
Je t'aime.
It's a good start.
I love you. Try it.
Jeg elsker dig.
Jeg elsker deg.
I love you.
No...
Te quiero.
You're going to run out of languages.
I like you.
That's all you get.
I can't stay here. I need to get out.
We'll run away!
Where? Where do you want to run to?
The streets are closed.
We can't even leave the hotel.
Where would we run to? And why
would we? We have it good here.
- North Africa.
- They're just stories.
- It's not meant to be as bad there.
- It's a fantasy.
- They have antivirals.
- Antivirals... how long do they buy?
I know they're coming to get me.
They'll come for you too, by the way.
We won't be able to stay here
much longer.
And I don't want to die
in this hotel, I don't want to.
And I don't want to end up
at the Terminal to die.
Everyone's heard of North Africa.
Everyone's heard that if you get
there, you'll be fine. It won't...
It's made up to make people
feel better. It's not real.
Yes, it is.
My friend's husband is there.
He's in Alger.
We won't get anywhere.
The streets are full of military.
- There are police everywhere.
- We won't use the streets. Look here.
Look at this. Look. You see?
We'll use the roof.
You can walk over the roof
from here to King's Gardens.
Then down into the subway.
Parallel to the new tracks
are really, really old tracks
which come up at Grna Lund.
Down to the quay, there are boats
waiting, it's very expensive.
- I have money.
- Okay, then what?
There's still a virus.
- Hello.
- We can't touch each other.
- Hey, listen to me.
- We can't even shake hands.
What is it you preach?
Hope.
Hope.
This is our only hope.
I want to live.
While we're running, I want to live.
And I don't care for how long.
I just want to feel
like I'm living a little bit longer.
Are you in?
Why have you forsaken me?
Where are you?
I've looked everywhere for you.
Everywhere! Where are you?
Hm? Where...?
Huh? So?
I'm here! Where are you? Hm?
Have I failed the test?
Is that why I'm being punished?
Is that why I feel like this now?
Shame? I feel eat eating away at me
from within.
Why... I don't even know what for!
What for?
Because I stood before you and said
until death do we part?
That was 12 years ago!
And it was her!
She chose to leave!
Not me.
Will I be punished my whole life
for that? Huh?
Will I be punished my whole life
because she chose to lea... No.
No! I need your words
to choose the right path now.
I need your words
to be rid of this shame.
I need your words
as you've always given them to me.
Give me your words!
I haven't been honest with myself.
I haven't...
I don't know.
I haven't been honest with you.
I haven't told you everything.
I had a wife...
called Dana.
She had a bag that...
A bag she carried with her
where she put all her...
All her anxieties and sorrow and fear
she saw in the world.
She put them in her bag
and carried them with her.
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And one day...
her bag became too heavy for her.
So she lay down on the tracks
between Lund and Helsingborg.
And of course I've been sad about it.
I've been sad and missed her,
but I realise I've also
been angry with Dana.
Angry!
Because when she took her life,
she took mine as well.
And this rage, I've gone and...
I just feel so angry that I haven't
even been able to say her name.
I haven't even been able
to talk about her or what she did,
because it felt like we had an
agreement that we'd do this together.
We would... help each other.
And instead, she chose another way,
and I've wrestled with it.
But maybe I just need to say
that I forgive her.
And maybe I have to say that I...
forgive myself.
Because when I can forgive her,
that's when I understand, somewhere,
that what we're aiming for
is some kind of comprehension,
forgiveness.
And what's that? It's love.
It's love.
And that's how we get through...
It's how we get through it all.
Mum...
I just need to...
You know what?
Just sit still for once.
Don't take this the wrong way.
I've longed for you my whole life.
Why...
Why could you never say one...
You could never say it. Could you?
I hate you so fucking much.
Truly.
Can't you just tell me why?
Why couldn't you love me?
What do you think has happened
in my life? Why am I alone?
I...
So...
No, little sweetheart.
You're so special, aren't you?
You'll have a nice career too,
won't you? Of course.
The rest of us mean nothing.
Have you ever bought me flowers
for my birthday?
No, you haven't!
Why were you so mean
to your little sister? And Dad?
Why have you been so special
your whole life?
You said I was impossible to lo...
That you couldn't like me.
Of course I loved you,
but it was very hard.
You should know, it was very hard.
Ice cold. Your eyes were ice cold
when you looked at me.
I need to hear it. Just once.
It's almost over.
You're already gone.
Say it.
Just say.
Whisper.
Whisper it once.
If you just give me one small word,
I'm yours.
You can't.
No.
You can't.
But you know what?
I forgive you.
I forgive you regardless.
Hey...
Hey.
A violation has occurred.
Those responsible will be prosecuted.
Sorry!
Remain in your rooms
and await further instruction.
Fucking shit!
...medical staff are hereby
relieved of duty.
All hospitals and other care
facilities have been shut down.
The military will cease all attempts
to uphold a state of emergency.
The phone and power grid will be
turned off, effective immediately.
This isn't only happening in Sweden,
but in country after country
around the world.
International borders
will cease to apply.
There is nowhere to run.
Hey.
But, no, no, wait! Calm down.
What is it?
What?
Did they say that on TV? When will it
happen? What will happen to us?
Everyone is encouraged to stay calm.
Let's go!
Let's go!
And we damn all this. I refuse to be
scared like this anymore.
May peace be with all of us.
Are you in?
I'm in.
Hello?
Can you hear me?
Please...
Hello? Please, have it on. Hello?
Hello, please, please, have it on.
Hello?
Hey, hello.
Hey. The internet is down,
phones don't work,
so have the walkie talkie on
all the time, okay?
Okay.
Hey? I've taken everything
from the minibar. Have you?
Yeah, I'm ready.
See you up there, then.
I love you.
- Hello? It went completely dark here.
- Here too.
Okay, see you up there.
I'm leaving now.
No! What the hell? Someone's knocking
on my door. What do I do?
Tell me, what do I do now?
What do I do now?!
Someone's knocking on my door.
No. No, let go. Excuse me, no! Stop!
Ow! No! Let go! Help!
- I'm coming.
- No, I don't want to go anywhere!
- Stop! Please!
- I'm coming.
I'm coming.
Evacuation underway.
All guests are encouraged to
stay in their rooms and await staff.
Evacuation underway.
Hello?
Evacuation underway.
Guests are encouraged to stay
in their rooms and await staff.
Here I am.
A PANDEMIC HAS KILLED
HALF THE WORLD'S POPULATION
CURFEW AND TOTAL ISOLATION
ARE ENFORCED
HUMAN TOUCH IS DEADLY
I can't eat salmon
three months in a row, every day!
GLACIER
Welcome to Haymarket.
Your welcome package
is in the reception.
Please avoid all contact
and respect our isolation.
Stay inside your room.
You may only leave your room
during scheduled times.
The times are scheduled so guests
have no contact with each other.
All forms of socialising
are strictly prohibited.
Avoid spread of infection by
always being separated by a wall.
Our policy helps us keep you alive.
Together, we limit contact
between people.
Breaking the rules leads to
immediate evacuation.
I want to begin by praying that...
that all of you, out there...
I know you're everywhere;
North and south.
And I know you're
holding your bibles.
And I also know you're holding your
Quran, Talmud, Bhagavad Gita.
Whatever you believe in, whoever you
are, know that you are welcome here.
You're welco... As you see...
I'm not in my regular studio.
No, I've had to book into this hotel
to stay safe and to...
to be able to talk with you.
But I'll pray with you.
Today, we'll pray together.
PAUL'S RESTAURANHaymarket's isolation program
is designed to give our guests
the most pleasant
quarantine experience as possible.
- Haven't you read the schedule?
- Schedule? I...
- What are you doing in my time?
- I haven't seen anyone at the hotel.
- Have you been here long?
- Get out! What's wrong with you?
- Do you want to die? Are you insane?
- What?
Get out! Oh my god!
What don't you get? Get out!
God! What the hell? Get out!
I've been here for 71 fucking days!
I haven't seen a soul and now
this fucking idiot comes along!
Why the hell would you come in
when I'm here and it's my time?!
We wish to remind you that all
human touch is strictly prohibited.
But wine and spirits can be ordered
through our contactless room service.
Have a pleasant day.
You have three times every day
that we all follow in this place.
And you walk right into my time.
I'm going to tell you something.
I've been here for months.
And I've never seen a single person.
And do you know why?
Because everybody respects
the rules here. Nobody wants to die.
Do you understand?
Nobody wants to die.
That's why we're here.
You've been given information
about how to behave here, right?
It can't be that bloody hard
to figure out.
You know what?
I won't stand for this.
I haven't spent a million for you to
come and explore the whole place.
Tomorrow I'll find out
exactly which room you're in,
and I'm going to ask management
to come and spray it with...
chlorine.
They can spray your room
with chlorine.
Do you know what it's like
to breathe in chlorine?
It's not fun.
Since you seem to so dearly want to
die, you can cough on some chlorine.
Then you'll see.
I'm not some doddery old lady
ranting in the middle of the night.
I'm serious.
I know where you live.
I don't want to have any contact
with you ever again,
so you can go and return
your walkie talkie to reception,
and I'll go down and return mine.
Please answer if you've understood.
4:47.
The time is fucking 4:47.
This is Sweden's
most expensive quarantine hotel,
you must have received instructions.
You get a schedule each day, a
breakfast time, a lunch time,
a dinner time, a walk time,
a gym time, a bar time.
So follow the rules! Okay?
Okay. And what happens
if I don't follow the rules?
- You'll be thrown out and you'll die.
- Exactly!
You were in the kitchen too!
It was actually my dinner time.
And we're not allowed in the kitchen.
Exactly, that's exactly what I mean!
- Hello?
- Hey. Okay.
I shouldn't have been in the kitchen,
that's true. But neither should you.
It's just as true.
I've apologised,
you don't have to apologise.
I say we move on with our lives.
- Can I ask you a question?
- Yes.
What did you work with?
I worked with... I was a doctor.
What about you?
Pastor. I'm a pastor.
If you're a doctor,
why aren't you at a hospital?
None of your business.
We've become people made of glass.
We see each other on screens,
but we can never feel the warmth
of another hand.
Never feel cheek against cheek,
breast against breast.
Never feel another human's heart beat
against ours.
Is God alive?
Is that what the test is about?
I don't know who we are
when we're alone.
Maybe it's in our hardest moments,
when everything is darkest,
that God is most alive.
All I can do is stand here,
preach the word of love,
the word of God.
I'm going to be here with you
every day, the same time.
As long as I can.
Remember to keep your spirits up.
Remember to take advantage
of your gym and bar time.
Remember to wash your hands
after you masturbate.
You've been quiet.
All I ask for is a sign.
A small sign telling me what...
I should do now. Why? What?
Is that your sign?
Not very subtle.
I know, it's not a...
It's not a burning bush either,
you know, but it's...
Hello?
What are you doing?
I'm running.
You're at the gym?
The world is going under and you're
going to get yourself a six-pack?
Yep.
I like my routines.
You're looking for contact.
No, you know what? I'm not.
You contacted me.
Yes I called you. But you're the one
who has the walkie talkie at the gym.
Damn it.
I'm going to shower.
I just wanted to apologise
for hanging up like that.
Can I ask a question?
Depends what it is.
What's your favourite hotel
in the whole world?
Hydra, Greece.
Good food?
Tzatziki and squid they'd just pulled
out of the harbour and... yes.
I think they said something about
squid in the dinner box tonight.
I wouldn't think so.
Where is home?
- I'm from Stockholm.
- Which part?
- Central? South? Norrmalm?
- Central.
And your a doctor.
Which hospital did you work at?
SS, Karolinska, St Gran's?
Karolinska.
What kind of doctor
did you say you were?
Is this an interrogation?
No.
God, I wish I knew what
this crazy old lady's problem is.
Because normally,
if you talk to someone,
and you mention something
they don't want to talk about,
they say,
"I don't want to discuss it."
Why does he think
I'm not at a fucking hospital?
He's not at a fucking hospital.
Who's getting cured?
Not one fucking person gets cured.
There's too much going on to be able
to understand and interpret
what it is you're trying to say.
- He's a fucking idiot.
- I don't get what you want.
I get know what she wants.
I don't...
Fucking hell.
Damn it!
I'm not going to answer
when she calls.
I've had enough.
And yes, I'm aware she may be
the last woman on earth,
but I'm not going to answer.
Are you there?
Hello?
Hello.
- Hello?
- Good.
Well, now I have some questions
for you, since you asked me
a lot of unpleasant questions.
So I was actually wondering,
who are you? Are you a spy?
I'm... from Malm,
I'm born and raised in Malm.
- And you've only been a priest?
- Pastor. And no.
Ok then, pastor.
What were you before?
- Before that, I was a child.
- Have you got children?
No.
- Married?
- Yep. No, or...
What does that mean?
Avoid spread of infection by
always being separated by a wall.
Our policy helps us keep you alive.
Breaking the rules leads to
immediate evacuation.
Together, we limit contact
between people.
How long do you think this hotel
can keep this up?
How long can it last?
I don't know,
but it can't be forever.
We're people. We can't live
our lives alone. It's no good.
- Hello?
- Yes, hello.
I didn't know
if you'd clicked me off.
You click me off for the smallest
wrong word, so I don't know.
Was that a smile? A laugh?
I didn't know you did that.
It was the first time
I've heard you say something funny.
Hey, there always has to be
a wall between us.
Remember, when we stay isolated,
we have a nice time together.
Hello? Are you there?
Hey.
A long time.
You asked before, how long I think
we'd be able to live like this.
I think we could live like this
a long time.
Now that we have walkie talkies,
mobiles...
This is okay. Right?
You don't die from this.
It's my birthday today.
Your birthday? Oh! Happy Birthday!
Thanks.
When's your birthday?
Not until February.
The 10th of February.
- The 10th of February?
- Mm.
That's today.
What? Today's the 10th of February?
Yeah, it is.
Happy Birthday.
We have the same birthday. Okay.
Happy Birthday to us,
Happy Birthday to us,
Happy Birthday to us two,
For we're jolly good fellows,
For we're jolly good fellows,
For we're jolly good fellows,
Happy Birthday to us,
Happy Birthday to us,
It's our birthday,
Hooray! It's our Birthday!
Hip hip, hooray!
The same birthday.
Ta elagu!
Ta elagu!
Ta elagu!
Kolm korda elagu!
Cheese. God. Real cheese.
Made of real milk.
French cheese, maybe. Cow's milk.
I miss it.
At the Grand Hotel in Budapest,
the serve their champagne
as close to zero degrees as possible.
It's ice, ice, ice cold.
They serve it with a single spoonful
of caviar on a tiny macaroon.
Turbot with burnt butter.
Just a bite of meat
with a tiny dollop of butter.
Strawberries dipped in chocolate
and Dom Prignon.
If you could just choose
one last meal.
Just one?
Sausage.
You know. The boat between
Helsingborg and Helsingr.
Two red sausages and a bit of bread.
I hit my head when I was 12.
Ice rink.
There was blood all over the ice.
And all the kids stood around me,
screaming, just watching me...
I've always chatted with God, always
thought he said sensible things.
And I felt like I wanted to
share that.
It was chaos.
Suddenly it's like everyone just
folds away.
And there she was. Karin Ek.
African birthday parties, we have,
you know, 20, 30, 40,
300,000 hungry Ugandans
in our apartment.
...into her room and she just said,
"Now I'm going to sew you up."
I opened my mouth and I say...
"I want to say something."
I'd never said anything to them
in my life.
She spoke to me like an adult,
and said,
"Now we'll do this, we'll take this
and numb it a bit and wash it."
And the words started flowing,
you know. People drop their food,
put down their beer, children stop
crying, people stop moving,
all eyes are on me.
I wanted to be like her.
Total control.
Then I put down my bible
and say Amen.
You know,
you have a whole big team around you.
Everyone knows exactly what to do.
It's like a dance that's exactly...
Sometimes you a light go on in
people, when you say something.
It's nothing big. Not a big light.
No Gloria. But something lights up.
Of course, sometimes someone dies.
Then I go through the operation
a thousand times in my head.
Thinking, what? What did I do?
Did I do something wrong?
Um, I have to...
I'm live in ten minutes.
Do you feel like watching? Hm?
The pastor's vlog?
No. I don't think so, actually.
- Talk later?
- Yep.
I want to thank God
that I get to be here with you today.
Brothers and sisters out there,
fighting the good fight.
Jesus' soldiers on this pilgrimage
from cradle to grave.
This could be our last dance
with death, so there's a question.
Who do you want to be?
We have to look at our reflection
in the mirror with critical eyes.
We're talking critical reflection
with existential consequences.
That's what we have to do.
We have to explore ourselves.
We need to learn to die
to know how to live.
What is it that dies? When we
confront these voices within us,
when we defy and kill that part of
ourselves, that narcissistic self,
the hedonist self,
the egotistical self.
That's where we're going.
And when we come out the other side,
we'll see we're holding our bible.
Hey. I just wanted to say
thank you for your sermon.
I just watched it.
It was amazing.
Skilful. Beautiful, actually.
If you believe...
It's sad that we need to
learn to die,
so we can learn to live.
That's a bit backwards, right?
I really don't get how you can
talk about people's egotistical,
narcissistic side,
at a time like this, when you're
here at the expense of others.
You've gotten money from
the people you preach to.
That's how you can afford to
check into this luxury quarantine.
Can those you preach to
afford to do that?
That's what I'd like to know.
How much money do they give you?
My whole livelihood
comes from my congregation.
From the people
who listen to what I have to say.
You cheat them out of heaps of money
and you're really rich.
Maybe they have nothing.
Take a YouTube star.
What do they sell?
Do they sell lipstick? A recipe for
the perfectly boiled egg?
They make millions.
You think that's okay.
I have to say,
I have a problem with religion.
It's not worth anything?
All the animals,
plants and flowers.
Does there really have to be a god?
Does there really?
Must there be something more?
I go to churches, hospitals
all over the country, trying to help.
We really will...
We will all die alone.
Hey, I know exactly what you mean.
I understand.
We're born alone, we die alone,
and that's how it is.
And I can see it through your eyes,
from your perspective.
How you think,
you sit there and say,
"Well, we're humans, you know,
and we're made from
meat and blood and...
and then it's over
and there's nothing more.
It's over."
"No, you're so wrong."
Everybody wants to go to heaven
but few want to die.
And I've got good news for you.
It's like this, when we die,
we'll float up God with our faith,
and he'll welcome us.
We'll get weed and tons of wine.
And it's one big party
that will never, ever end.
You must have a faith, and if you do,
this love with flow through you.
Love never hurt anyone, has it?
Nobody's been hurt by love,
have they?
Your cynism isn't help anyone.
It's called cynicism.
I haven't got a spirit...
The spirit that makes us beat our...
I haven't got a spirit...
That makes us all slaves like me...
No.
Hello?
Hello?
Hello?
Hello.
No, you know, I was a bartender
when I was young, and you learn,
you never talk politics or religion
with someone you don't know.
I work in a hospital. You talk about
religion and politics a lot there.
But people change their
politics and religion in the end.
We want something to grasp onto.
Hey?
I think the battery
on my walkie talkie is dying.
Mine seems okay.
I think I've only got
a few minutes left.
Listen, if you don't want to
talk anymore, we don't...
073200500, that's my number.
You could call
if you wanted a video chat.
What, now?
Ye... No... Five minutes.
Just give me five minutes.
Yeah, 07...
0500. Thanks!
Hey.
Hey, kitchen-guy.
Hello.
You know, I've never Facetimed
with someone I don't know before.
So maybe I should... take a drink?
Yeah, go on.
Like the game,
"Never have I ever".
You say, "I've never talked to anyone
on Facetime."
I don't know what you mean.
- You don't know it?
- No.
You say "I've never done such and
such," and if you have, you drink.
If you haven't, you don't.
- Why?
- I don't know, to get drunk, I guess.
Get drunk? What, so I say, I've
never driven through a red light?
Mm. Have you driven
through a red light?
- Yes.
- Then you drink.
- I drink?
- Mm.
Okay. Some coffee. Okay.
I've never cheated on my taxes.
- The pastor.
- A decimal place in the wrong spot.
Never have I ever...
been arrested.
- Twice?!
- Mmhmm.
- I've never waxed.
- You have?
Where the sun doesn't shine.
- Why would you wax there?
- Because you're young and dumb,
and you have a girlfriend
and you want to feel experienced.
And when they put the wax on, you
know, and rip it off, I swear to God,
I looked like a leper.
I see. You make assumptions
about pastors.
Anyway...
I've never gone home
with someone I didn't know.
I've never done that. Never tried it.
Are you joking?
No, I'm totally serious.
It's never happened.
You've never picked someone up
at a bar?
- No.
- Why not?
I've been married.
I've never blacked out.
Woken up in a drunken cell
with a guy called Radovan.
Get this!
Radovan's little brother was in
the cell too was called Radovan too,
and was lying next to me.
What parents call
both their sons Radovan?!
Did they run out of names?
You're a strange pastor!
I have my bar time 19:50 to 20:05.
My bar time is 20:05 and onwards.
Should we put the times together
so we have longer?
Are you trying to ask me on a date?
You take the right bar,
I'll take the left.
Okay! Do you want to do on a date?
- No, cut it out.
- We can go on a date.
No! I just said I wanted to
get a drink, okay?
- Okay. Okay, fine.
- No date.
- See you. On the date.
- Oh, cut it out!
Hey there, priest!
Where did you learn to do that?
You know, we have many different
lives. What'll it be?
A Dry Martini.
Okay.
- Dirty.
- Sure thing.
Okay.
- Cheers.
- Cheers!
No, no. Do you think
I don't know how you operate?
It's a game, the whole pastor bit.
You're a player.
You listen to me, I'm not a player.
I can't hit on women,
I never have, I never will,
I'm useless.
Rubbish.
Tell me something?
- Have you ever been married?
- Never.
But I have dated
a lot of married men.
Could that be because...?
No analysis.
Let me be a cliche dating married men
because it's easy to keep a distance.
You can save yourself
by not being the cliche
of a man
trying to give me good advice. Okay?
I could well be
the last man on earth,
and then it would be my duty to
deliver humanity's last mansplaining.
Hey? Do you think God's
made this virus to...
to destroy all humanity?
What if we're
the last two people on earth?
I'd like to...
I just want to feel arms around me.
Feel a weight.
That would make me happy.
To just smell another person's scent.
Do you know it?
No, what the hell...?
What am I doing?
- No, I thought...
- You know what I did?
I just got right in
with all my clothes on!
- Yeah.
- I'm so drunk!
- You look so sad!
- What? No, no.
- What's up with you?
- I don't know. I...
What a lovely evening.
Yeah. I've been laying here,
thinking about this evening...
And it's been nice, and you know,
it's fun to...
- Yeah.
- But also, we think differently,
and have different perspectives.
- You get too...
- I don't understand what you mean.
- What do you mean?
- I'm married.
- Huh? Yes.
- I'm married.
I'm a married man. I'm...
I have a wife. I'm married.
I'm really good at married men.
Yeah, okay.
But... That's my situation.
You're starting
to have feelings for me...
- Sorry?
- So I think...
Hey, stop. What did you just say?
No, no, you.
- I'm married.
- Hey, listen to me.
Listen. Here's how it is.
I go down to a bar, have a drink.
You're in another bar, having a
drink.
- That's it.
- Okay.
No, but, you know,
maybe we shouldn't keep this up.
We went over time, actually.
We ran a bit amok.
Someone could have come,
it's really dangerous.
- So we won't do this again.
- Okay.
Let's say that.
I didn't say that so you'd say
we shouldn't do it again.
- I said it because I felt...
- Yeah, no, but we shouldn't.
Let's not do this.
Let's say good bye.
- Okay, but I mean, I...
- God.
How could he think... God, so stupid.
Good morning.
Hey.
Bloody hell.
Damn. Cool down!
Have you got any... plans later?
Dinner?
Yeah, I think I have
some kind of nice dinner date.
Okay.
- Are you outside?
- Yeah, I'm on the balcony.
Hello?!
No, come on, stop it.
Hello, someone could hear. Hey?
Don't do that.
- What if someone hears?
- What if someone hears what?
When was the last time you heard a
real voice? A voice from a human?
Not a phone or screen or radio?
When was the last time?
- I don't remember, actually.
- Exactly! You don't remember. Hello!
Hello!
Hey! How's... how's it going?
Okay!
- I'll call you! Okay!
- Okay!
Check! Drink!
Sweep.
I take you back, boom! Drink.
The one standing, that you think...
- The pony? You're taking the pony?
- I'm taking the pony!
The pony and... what is it, a bishop?
And this queen.
- It's the horse.
- That one? That's a porn.
- It... No.
- This is a pawn.
- No, it's no pawn.
- Yeah, it is. Definite pawn.
I'll take my queen
and go right down there.
- Pause, pause.
- What do you say now, then?
I say you change which piece
your queen is all the time.
That's never been your queen!
Why do you cheat all the time?
- It's a rook.
- It's unnecessary to cheat like that.
Why can't we just play the game?
You cheat the whole time!
- You cheat...
- No, no, no!
You can't move your king whenever!
- I want to see that again. Go back.
- Let's rewind.
- Yeah, wait.
- What the hell? I have to... wait.
- Go to... Wait, 07.
- 07? Okay. One, two, three.
Oh my god!
So good!
No!
You know?
I like this.
What we're... Us.
We would like to advise there has
been a violation of the rules.
Transgressions will be met with
immediate evacuation.
We have become aware that deviations
from isolation have occurred.
We should probably hang up, then.
- Measures will be taken.
- Yeah.
- Sleep well.
- You too.
Haymarket's isolation program
is designed to give our guests
as pleasant a quarantine experience
as possible.
Hello?
What?
Now?
Okay.
I'm here on two.
Perfect. Come in. Welcome.
Go stand at the computer.
That's it. Welcome!
I'm here. What am I doing here?
You have come to my karaoke bar.
- No! Never.
- Stop. Yes. I'll start.
You want what you want
and you want it now,
You see an opportunity,
doesn't matter how.
We're wilder than animals
when it comes to taking,
If anyone stands in my way,
that's fine.
Everyone wants to go to heaven
but few want to die,
You want to reap the rewards,
but don't sew any seeds.
Sing along!
What's this? I don't know it.
Of course you do. Everyone knows it.
Stop it.
- You'll have to sing it with me. Ok?
- Okay.
Your turn.
Are you with me?
Now I'm going to choose
a song for you, then.
No, no.
We sang the last one together
but it was your turn.
So we'll do this one,
it's a bit calmer.
You're the only one
who secretly sees me,
Though no one has spoken,
you know what I ask of you,
I desire only you,
If you just give me one small word,
I'm yours.
Hey?
I have to tell you something.
I've...
I've run away.
I left my post as doctor and...
ran away from the hospital
so they may very well...
be looking for me. It's against the
law to do what I did.
Just so you know.
There was a woman there
who only had a few hours left.
And a young man comes in, it was her
son, just runs right in to her,
and she opens her arms
even though she can't move,
and he goes and lays in her bed.
It scared the hell out of me.
I was so scared.
Because I...
I've never had anyone to go in to,
and I never will.
It scares me so fucking much.
That I'm going to die alone.
No, please! No, I don't want to!
Let go!
Help! Let me go! Ow!
You're hurting me!
Let me go! Do you hear me?
Stop! No! I don't want to!
I don't want to!
I don't want to go anywhere, no!
Stop! I don't want to!
- Hello.
- Hello.
- Hey, hey.
- Hey, did you hear that?
Yeah.
We have to be careful. Maybe we...
Maybe we should stop this. We...
Maybe we should follow the rules. Hm?
Is that what you want?
No!
Me neither.
Hey? I'm pretty scared now.
- It's okay. We're safe.
- They'll come and get me.
No everything's going to be alright.
It's just a question of time,
isn't it?
Everything's going to be fine.
I don't want to die...
As long as we can stay here,
we can...
talk to each other.
I don't know how I'll die.
You're not going to die.
We're not going to die.
- Yeah, we will.
- No.
I'm not going to die.
I don't want to.
No. It's alright.
There's nothing to be afraid of.
We don't even need to hang up.
We can just sit and...
- Yes, stay.
- We're staying. Yes, I'm here.
I'm here.
If I think about it,
I don't think I've ever had anyone
to talk to for real, like this.
Until now.
We're practically partners.
Are we?
I did committed a terrible crime
when left the hospital.
My colleagues are fighting
this virus, and what did I do?
You hear what it's like at night.
It's getting worse and worse.
So they'll probably be here soon.
I don't know what's worse, the virus
or being taken to the Terminal.
No, we won't end up at the Terminal.
You seem pretty whole.
Do you feel whole?
Yeah. Totally...
complete.
I'm totally...
incomplete.
As a person.
You know? I've never...
said "I love you" ever,
to another human.
Tragic, huh?
I think you need something present
when you're growing up,
so you practice different emotions,
or ways of talking and being.
To be allowed to be angry or to be
loved or accept... well.
To learn how those things work.
My mother didn't love me.
It sounds harsh to say, but it's
true. She was incapable of it.
Truly.
She couldn't.
Maybe it's time you try to say it.
What?
Try saying "I love you".
Try it. It doesn't hurt.
Je t'aime.
It's a good start.
I love you. Try it.
Jeg elsker dig.
Jeg elsker deg.
I love you.
No...
Te quiero.
You're going to run out of languages.
I like you.
That's all you get.
I can't stay here. I need to get out.
We'll run away!
Where? Where do you want to run to?
The streets are closed.
We can't even leave the hotel.
Where would we run to? And why
would we? We have it good here.
- North Africa.
- They're just stories.
- It's not meant to be as bad there.
- It's a fantasy.
- They have antivirals.
- Antivirals... how long do they buy?
I know they're coming to get me.
They'll come for you too, by the way.
We won't be able to stay here
much longer.
And I don't want to die
in this hotel, I don't want to.
And I don't want to end up
at the Terminal to die.
Everyone's heard of North Africa.
Everyone's heard that if you get
there, you'll be fine. It won't...
It's made up to make people
feel better. It's not real.
Yes, it is.
My friend's husband is there.
He's in Alger.
We won't get anywhere.
The streets are full of military.
- There are police everywhere.
- We won't use the streets. Look here.
Look at this. Look. You see?
We'll use the roof.
You can walk over the roof
from here to King's Gardens.
Then down into the subway.
Parallel to the new tracks
are really, really old tracks
which come up at Grna Lund.
Down to the quay, there are boats
waiting, it's very expensive.
- I have money.
- Okay, then what?
There's still a virus.
- Hello.
- We can't touch each other.
- Hey, listen to me.
- We can't even shake hands.
What is it you preach?
Hope.
Hope.
This is our only hope.
I want to live.
While we're running, I want to live.
And I don't care for how long.
I just want to feel
like I'm living a little bit longer.
Are you in?
Why have you forsaken me?
Where are you?
I've looked everywhere for you.
Everywhere! Where are you?
Hm? Where...?
Huh? So?
I'm here! Where are you? Hm?
Have I failed the test?
Is that why I'm being punished?
Is that why I feel like this now?
Shame? I feel eat eating away at me
from within.
Why... I don't even know what for!
What for?
Because I stood before you and said
until death do we part?
That was 12 years ago!
And it was her!
She chose to leave!
Not me.
Will I be punished my whole life
for that? Huh?
Will I be punished my whole life
because she chose to lea... No.
No! I need your words
to choose the right path now.
I need your words
to be rid of this shame.
I need your words
as you've always given them to me.
Give me your words!
I haven't been honest with myself.
I haven't...
I don't know.
I haven't been honest with you.
I haven't told you everything.
I had a wife...
called Dana.
She had a bag that...
A bag she carried with her
where she put all her...
All her anxieties and sorrow and fear
she saw in the world.
She put them in her bag
and carried them with her.
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And one day...
her bag became too heavy for her.
So she lay down on the tracks
between Lund and Helsingborg.
And of course I've been sad about it.
I've been sad and missed her,
but I realise I've also
been angry with Dana.
Angry!
Because when she took her life,
she took mine as well.
And this rage, I've gone and...
I just feel so angry that I haven't
even been able to say her name.
I haven't even been able
to talk about her or what she did,
because it felt like we had an
agreement that we'd do this together.
We would... help each other.
And instead, she chose another way,
and I've wrestled with it.
But maybe I just need to say
that I forgive her.
And maybe I have to say that I...
forgive myself.
Because when I can forgive her,
that's when I understand, somewhere,
that what we're aiming for
is some kind of comprehension,
forgiveness.
And what's that? It's love.
It's love.
And that's how we get through...
It's how we get through it all.
Mum...
I just need to...
You know what?
Just sit still for once.
Don't take this the wrong way.
I've longed for you my whole life.
Why...
Why could you never say one...
You could never say it. Could you?
I hate you so fucking much.
Truly.
Can't you just tell me why?
Why couldn't you love me?
What do you think has happened
in my life? Why am I alone?
I...
So...
No, little sweetheart.
You're so special, aren't you?
You'll have a nice career too,
won't you? Of course.
The rest of us mean nothing.
Have you ever bought me flowers
for my birthday?
No, you haven't!
Why were you so mean
to your little sister? And Dad?
Why have you been so special
your whole life?
You said I was impossible to lo...
That you couldn't like me.
Of course I loved you,
but it was very hard.
You should know, it was very hard.
Ice cold. Your eyes were ice cold
when you looked at me.
I need to hear it. Just once.
It's almost over.
You're already gone.
Say it.
Just say.
Whisper.
Whisper it once.
If you just give me one small word,
I'm yours.
You can't.
No.
You can't.
But you know what?
I forgive you.
I forgive you regardless.
Hey...
Hey.
A violation has occurred.
Those responsible will be prosecuted.
Sorry!
Remain in your rooms
and await further instruction.
Fucking shit!
...medical staff are hereby
relieved of duty.
All hospitals and other care
facilities have been shut down.
The military will cease all attempts
to uphold a state of emergency.
The phone and power grid will be
turned off, effective immediately.
This isn't only happening in Sweden,
but in country after country
around the world.
International borders
will cease to apply.
There is nowhere to run.
Hey.
But, no, no, wait! Calm down.
What is it?
What?
Did they say that on TV? When will it
happen? What will happen to us?
Everyone is encouraged to stay calm.
Let's go!
Let's go!
And we damn all this. I refuse to be
scared like this anymore.
May peace be with all of us.
Are you in?
I'm in.
Hello?
Can you hear me?
Please...
Hello? Please, have it on. Hello?
Hello, please, please, have it on.
Hello?
Hey, hello.
Hey. The internet is down,
phones don't work,
so have the walkie talkie on
all the time, okay?
Okay.
Hey? I've taken everything
from the minibar. Have you?
Yeah, I'm ready.
See you up there, then.
I love you.
- Hello? It went completely dark here.
- Here too.
Okay, see you up there.
I'm leaving now.
No! What the hell? Someone's knocking
on my door. What do I do?
Tell me, what do I do now?
What do I do now?!
Someone's knocking on my door.
No. No, let go. Excuse me, no! Stop!
Ow! No! Let go! Help!
- I'm coming.
- No, I don't want to go anywhere!
- Stop! Please!
- I'm coming.
I'm coming.
Evacuation underway.
All guests are encouraged to
stay in their rooms and await staff.
Evacuation underway.
Hello?
Evacuation underway.
Guests are encouraged to stay
in their rooms and await staff.
Here I am.