Happier Than Ever: A Love Letter to Los Angeles (2021) Movie Script
Welcome, it's Billie,
and this is Happier Than Ever,
the first time I am doing my album
all in one, front to back.
So, enjoy.
I'm getting older
I think I'm aging well
I wish someone had told me
I'd be doing this by myself
There's reasons that I'm thankful
There's a lot I'm grateful for
But it's different when a stranger's
Always waiting at your door
Which is ironic 'cause the strangers
Seem to want me more
Than anyone before
Anyone before
Too bad they're usually deranged
Last week, I realized I crave pity
When I retell a story
I make everything sound worse
Can't shake the feeling
That I'm just bad at healing
And maybe that's the reason
Every sentence sounds rehearsed
Which is ironic
Because when I wasn't honest
I was still being ignored
Lying for attention
Just to get neglection
Now we're estranged
Things I once enjoyed
Ah, ah
Just keep me employed now
Things I'm longing for
Someday I'll be bored of
It's so weird
That we care so much
Until we don't
I'm getting older
I've got more on my shoulders
But I'm getting better
At admitting when I'm wrong
I'm happier than ever
At least, that's my endeavor
To keep myself together
And prioritize my pleasure
'Cause to be honest
I just wish that what I promise
Would depend on what I'm given
Not on his permission
Wasn't my decision
To be abused
Mmm
Things I once enjoyed
Just keep me employed now
Things I'm longing for
Someday I'll be bored of
It's so weird
That we care so much
Until we don't
But next week
I hope I'm somewhere laughing
For anybody asking
I promise I'll be fine
I've had some trauma
Did things I didn't wanna
Was too afraid to tell ya
But now I think it's time
Okay
Mm-hmm, I
I didn't change my number
I only changed who I reply to
Laura said I should be nicer
But not to you
I laughed at your "Mad at me?" text
Should've guessed
That you would think I was upset
You're obsessed
Mmm
Don't take it out on me
I'm out of sympathy for you
Maybe you should leave
Before I get too mean
I didn't change my number
I only changed who I believe in
You were easy on the eyes, eyes, eyes
But looks can be deceiving
I gotta work, I go to work
You don't deserve to feel so hurt
You got a lot of nerve
I don't deserve, so
Don't take it out on me
I'm out of sympathy for you
Maybe you should leave
Before I get too mean
And take it out on you
And your best friend, too
I should have left when Drew
Said you were bad news
Da-da-da-da-da-da
Welcome to the Hollywood Bowl.
It's me, Billie.
I'm so excited for this,
and I couldn't be happier to be here
with Gustavo Dudamel right behind me
and the LA Phil.
I wanna thank Romero Lubambo
right over there
for playing guitar for me.
This is a dream come true.
Love when it comes without a warning
'Cause waiting for it gets so boring
A lot can change in 20 seconds
A lot can happen in the dark
Love when
It makes you lose your bearings
Some information's not for sharing
Use different names at hotel check-ins
It's hard to stop it once it starts
It starts
I'm not sentimental
But there's something
'Bout the way you look tonight
Ah
Makes me wanna take a picture
Make a movie with you
That we'd have to hide
You better lock your phone
And look at me when you're alone
Won't take a lot to get you going
I'm sorry if it's torture, though
I know, I know
It might be more of an obsession
You really make a strong impression
Nobody saw me in the lobby
Saw me in the lobby
Nobody saw me in your arms
I'm not sentimental
But there's something
'Bout the way you look tonight
Ah-ah, ah
Makes me wanna make 'em jealous
I'm the only one
Who does it how you like
You better lock your phone
And look at me when you're alone
Won't take a lot to get you going
I'm sorry if it's torture, though
I know, I know
You better lock your door
And look at me a little more
We both know I'm worth waiting for
That heavy breathing on the floor
I'm yours, I'm yours
I'm yours
I'm not sentimental
I'm not sentimental
I'm not sentimental
I can't seem to focus
And you don't seem to notice
I'm not here
I'm just a mirror
You check your complexion
To find your reflection's all alone
I had to go
Can't you hear me?
I'm not coming home
Do you understand?
I've changed my plans
'Cause I
I'm in love
With my future
Can't wait to meet her
And I
I'm in love
Oh
But not with anybody else
Just wanna get to know myself
I know supposedly I'm lonely now
Lonely now
Know I'm supposed to be unhappy
- Without someone
- Someone
- But aren't I someone?
- Aren't I someone?
Yeah
I'd
I'd
Like to be your answer
Be your answer
- 'Cause you're so handsome
- You're so handsome
But I know better
Than to drive you home
'Cause you'd invite me in
And I'd be yours again
But I
- I'm in love
- Love, love, love, love
With my future
And you don't know her
Ooh
And I
I'm in love
But not with anybody here
I'll see you in
A couple years
Can't take it back
Once it's been set in motion
You know I love to rub it in
Like lotion
If you only pray on Sunday
Could you come my way on Monday?
'Cause I like to do things
God doesn't approve of
If She saw us
She couldn't look away
Look away, look away
She'd wanna get involved
Involved, involved
And what would people say
People say, people say
If they listen through the wall
The wall, the wall?
I can see it clear as day
You don't really need a break
Wanna see what you can take
You should really run away
I wanna do bad things to you
I wanna make you yell
I wanna do bad things to you
Don't wanna treat you well
Can't take it back
Once it's been set in motion
You know I need you for the oxytocin
If you find it hard to swallow
I can loosen up your collar
'Cause as long
As you're still breathing
Don't you even think of leaving
Not gonna wanna look away
Look away, look away
You're gonna wanna get involved
Involved, involved
And what would people say
People say, people say
If they listen through the wall
The wall, the wall?
I can see it clear as day
You don't really need a break
Wanna see what you can take
You should really run away
Other people wouldn't stay
Other people don't obey
You and me are both the same
You should really run away
Bad things
I wanna do bad things to you
I wanna make you yell
I wanna do bad things to you
Don't wanna treat you well
I wanna do bad things to you
I wanna make you yell
I wanna do bad things to you
Don't wanna treat you well
He hath come to the bosom
Of his beloved
Smiling on him
She beareth him
To highest heav'n
With yearning heart
On thee we gaze
O' gold-wing'd messenger
Of mighty Gods
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Gold-winged angel
Go home, don't tell
Anyone what you are
You're sacred and they're starved
And their art is getting dark
And there you are to tear apart
Tear apart, tear apart, tear apart
You better keep your head down-down
Da-da-down, down, da-da-down, down
Better keep your head down, down
Da-da-down, down, da-da-down, down
They're gonna tell you
What you wanna hear
Then they're gonna disappear
Gonna claim you like a souvenir
Just to sell you in a year
You better keep your head down, down
Da-da-down, down, da-da-down, down
Keep your head down, down, down
Da-da-down
Better keep your head down, down
Da-da-down, down, da-da-down, down
Keep your head down, down
Down, down, down, down
With yearning heart
On thee we gaze
O' gold-wing'd messenger
Of mighty Gods
As you could see,
there's a choir out here.
And this was actually
the choir that I grew up in,
and, um, a song that we used to do,
that, like, beginning and ending section,
that you just heard
in the song we just did.
I just fell in love with it then and knew
that I wanted to put it in a song.
And I thought it would be really cool
to have them
actually come out and sing it here.
It's just a cute little
full-circle moment.
So, thank you to the choir.
I love you guys, and...
So the next song we have is "Lost Cause."
So, let's do it.
Something's in the
Something's in the air right now
Like I'm losing track of time
Like I don't really care right now
But maybe that's fine
You weren't even there that day
I was waiting on you
I wonder if you were aware that day
Was the last straw for me and I knew
I sent you flowers
Did you even care?
You ran the shower
And left them by the stairs
Ooh-ooh, ooh
Thought you had your shit together
- But damn, I was wrong
- Wrong
- You ain't nothing but a lost cause
- Cause
- This ain't nothing like it once was
- Was
I know you think
You're such an outlaw, yeah
- But you got no job
- Job
- You ain't nothing but a lost cause
- Cause
- This ain't nothing like it once was
- Was
I know you think you're such an outlaw
But you got no...
I used to think you were shy
But maybe
You just had nothing on your mind
Maybe you were thinking 'bout yourself
All the time
I used to wish you were mine
But that was way before I realized
Someone like you
Would always be so easy to find
Yeah, so easy
Oh
Yeah
Da-da, da-da, da, da
Gave me no flowers
I wish I didn't care
You'd be gone for hours
Could be anywhere
Ooh
I thought
You would've grown eventually
But you proved me wrong
- You ain't nothing but a lost cause
- Cause
- This ain't nothing like it once was
- Was
I know you think
You're such an outlaw, yeah
- But you got no job
- Job
- You ain't nothing but a lost cause
- Cause
- This ain't nothing like it once was
- Was
I know you think
You're such a lost cause
But you got no job
What did I tell you?
No job
Don't get complacent
It's time to face it now
- What did I tell you?
- Tell you
- Don't get complacent
- Get complacent
- It's time to face it now
- Face it now, now, now, now, now
It is such a thrill
to be able to do this in my hometown,
Los Angeles.
A place that really formed me
into who I am,
and I think that I took it for granted.
The older I've gotten,
the more I've come
to love Los Angeles so, so much
and be so grateful for my childhood
and my growth as a person.
LA really got me there.
I don't want it
And I don't want to want you
But in my dreams
I seem to be more honest
And I must admit
You've been in quite a few
Halley's Comet
Comes around more than I do
But you're all it takes
For me to break a promise
Silly me to fall in love with you
I haven't slept since Sunday
Midnight for me is 3:00 a.m.
For you
But my sleepless nights
Are better with you
Than nights could ever be alone
Ooh
I was good at feeling nothing
Now I'm hopeless
What a drag to love you like I do
Ooh-ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
I've been loved before
But right now in this moment
I feel more and more
Like I was made for you
For you
I'm sitting in my brother's room
Haven't slept in a week or two
I think
I might have fallen in love
What am I to do?
Do you know me?
Really know me?
You have opinions
About my opinions
About my music
About my clothes
About my body
Some people hate what I wear
Some people praise it
Some people use it to shame others
Some people use it to shame me
But I feel you watching
Always
And nothing I do goes unseen
So while I feel your stares
Your disapproval
Or your sigh of relief
If I lived by them
I'd never be able to move
Would you like for me to be smaller?
Weaker, softer, taller?
Would you like me to be quiet?
Do my shoulders provoke you?
Does my chest?
Am I my stomach? My hips?
The body I was born with
Is it not what you wanted?
If I wear what is comfortable
I am not a woman
If I shed the layers
I'm a slut
Though you've never seen my body
You still judge it
And judge me for it
Why?
We make assumptions about people
Based on their size
We decide who they are
We decide what they're worth
If I wear more, if I wear less
Who decides what that makes me?
What that means?
Is my value based
Only on your perception?
Or is your opinion of me
Not my responsibility?
I don't really even know
How it happened
I started talking
They started laughing
I don't really even know
How it happened
I started watching
Them photographing
I don't really know how it happened
Instead of stopping
They still were flashing
I started walking
Gave no reaction
No reaction
I'm overheated
Can't be defeated
Can't be deleted
Can't unbelieve it
I'm overheated
Can't be defeated
Can't be deleted
Can't be repeated
I'm overheated
I'm overheated
And I don't really wanna know
Why it went there
- I kinda don't care
- Kinda don't care
- You wanna kill me
- Wanna kill me
You wanna hurt me
Stop being flirty
'Cause it's kinda working
Did you really think
"This is the right thing to do?"
Is it news?
News to who?
That I really look
Just like the rest of you
Mm-hmm, I'm overheated
Can't be defeated
Can't be deleted
Can't unbelieve it
I'm overheated
Can't be defeated
Can't be deleted
Can't be repeated
I'm overheated
And everybody said it was a letdown
I was only built
Like everybody else now
But I didn't get a surgery to help out
'Cause I'm not about
To redesign myself now, am I?
Am I?
Am I?
All these other inanimate bitches
It's none of my business
But don't you get sick
Of posing for pictures
With that plastic body?
Man, I'm overheated
Can't be defeated
Can't be deleted
Can't unbelieve it
I'm overheated
Can't be defeated
Can't be deleted
Can't be repeated
I'm overheated
Everybody dies
Surprise, surprise
We tell each other lies
Sometimes we try
To make it feel like we might be right
We might not be alone
Be alone
"Everybody dies"
That's what they say
And maybe in a couple hundred years
They'll find another way
I just wonder why you'd wanna stay
If everybody goes
You'd still be alone
I don't wanna cry, some days I do
But not about you
It's just a lot to think about
The world I'm used to
The one I can't get back
At least not for a while
I sure have a knack
For seeing life more like a child
And it's not my fault
It's not so wrong to wonder why
Everybody dies
And when will I?
You ought to know
That even when it's time
You might not wanna go
But it's okay to cry
And it's all right to fold
But you are not alone
You are not unknown
Mmm, mmm
Try not to abuse your power
I know we didn't choose to change
You might not wanna lose your power
But having it's so strange
She said you were a hero
You played the part
But you ruined her in a year
Don't act like it was hard
And you swear you didn't know
Didn't know, didn't know
No wonder why you didn't ask
She was sleeping in your clothes
In your clothes, in your clothes
But now she's got to get to class
How dare you?
And how could you?
Will you only feel bad
When they find out?
If you could take it all back
Would you?
Try not to abuse your power
I know we didn't choose to change
You might not wanna lose your power
But having it's so strange
I thought that I was special
You made me feel like it was my fault
You were the devil
Lost your appeal
Does it keep you in control?
In control
For you to keep her in a cage?
And you swear you didn't know
Didn't know
You said you thought she was your age
How dare you?
And how could you?
Will you only feel bad if it turns out
That they kill your contract?
Would you?
Try not to abuse your power
I know we didn't choose to change
You might not wanna lose your power
But power isn't pain
Mmm
Da-da-da-da-da, ah
Billie! Billie!
Yes! Billie!
-Guys, don't get too excited.
-Yeah!
We love you, Billie!
Billie, we have a present for you!
Did you think I'd show up
In a limousine? No
Had to save my money for security
Got a stalker
Walking up and down the street
Says he's Satan and he'd like to meet
I bought a secret house when I was 17
Haven't had a party
Since I got the keys
Had a pretty boy over
But he couldn't stay
On his way out, made him sign an NDA
Uh
Yeah, I made him sign an NDA
Once was good enough
'Cause I don't want him
Having shit to say
You couldn't save me
But you can't let me go
Oh, no
I could crave you
But you don't need to know
Know
30 Under 30 for another year
I can barely go outside
I think I hate it here
Maybe I should think about
A new career
Somewhere in Kauai
Where I can disappear
I've been having fun getting older now
Didn't change my number
Made him shut his mouth
At least I gave him something
He can cry about
I thought about my future
But I want it now
I want it now
You can't give me up
You couldn't save me
But you can't let me go
Oh, no
I could crave you
But you don't need to know
Know
Did I take it too far?
Now I know what you are
You hit me so hard
I saw stars
I think I took it too far
When I sold you my heart
How'd it get so dark?
I saw stars
Stars
I'm not your friend or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
I'm not your friend or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
Stop
What the hell are you talking about?
Get my pretty name out of your mouth
We are not the same with or without
And don't talk 'bout me like
How you might know how I feel
Top of the world
But your world isn't real
Your world's an ideal
So go have fun
I really couldn't care less
And you can give 'em my best
But just know
I'm not your friend or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
I'm not your friend or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
I don't want press
To put your name next to mine
We're on different lines, so I
Wanna be nice enough
They don't call my bluff
'Cause I hate to find
Articles, articles, articles
Rather you remain unremarkable
Got a lot of
Interviews, interviews, interviews
When they say your name
I just act confused
And I really couldn't care less
And you can give 'em my best
But just know
I'm not your friend or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
I'm not your friend or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
I'm sorry
I don't think I caught your name
And I'm sorry
I don't think I caught your name
I'm not your friend
Damn
You think that you're
Therefore, I am
I'm not your friend
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
When I'm away from you
I'm happier than ever
Wish I could explain it better
I wish it wasn't true
Give me a day or two
To think of something clever
To write myself a letter
To tell me what to do
Do you read my interviews?
Or do you skip my avenue?
When you said you were passing through
Was I even on your way?
I knew when I asked you to
Be cool about what I was telling you
You'd do the opposite
Of what you said you'd do
And I'd end up more afraid
Don't say it isn't fair
You clearly weren't aware
That you made me miserable
So if you really wanna know
- When I'm away from you
- When I'm away from you
- I'm happier than ever
- Happier than ever
Wish I could explain it better
I wish it wasn't true
You call me again
Drunk in your Benz
Driving home under the influence
You scared me to death
But I'm wasting my breath
'Cause you only listen to your
- Friends
- And I don't relate to you
I don't relate to you, no
'Cause I'd never treat me this shitty
You made me hate this city
And I don't talk shit about you
On the Internet
Never told anyone anything bad
'Cause that shit's embarrassing
You were my everything
And all that you did was make me sad
So don't waste the time I don't have
And don't try to make me feel bad
I could talk about every time
That you showed up on time
But I'd have an empty line
'Cause you never did
Never paid any mind
To my mother or friends
So I shut 'em all out for you
'Cause I was a kid
You ruined everything good
Always said you were misunderstood
Made all my moments your own
Just leave me alone
Oh, oh
Oh, oh
Yeah
Yeah! Yeah!
So here we are at our last song
of the whole night.
This has been a magical, beautiful,
um, amazing experience,
and I can't, uh, really believe
that this happened at all.
This is the Hollywood Bowl,
a place that has been the most
iconic venue in all of Los Angeles,
and it's a real dream come true.
It's been so beautiful and so, uh, surreal
to do this tonight,
and yeah.
We're gonna do "Male Fantasy,"
which is the last song on the album.
Thank you guys for listening,
and thank you to everyone who's involved.
I love you all to pieces,
and I will see you soon.
Home alone, trying not to eat
Distract myself with pornography
I hate the way she looks at me
I can't stand the dialogue
She would never be that satisfied
It's a male fantasy
I'm going back to therapy
'Cause I loved you then
And I love you now
And I don't know how
Guess it's hard to know
When nobody else comes around
If I'm getting over you
Or just pretending to
Be all right
Convince myself I hate you
Ba-da-da-da
I got a call
From a girl I used to know
We were inseparable years ago
Thought we'd get along
But it wasn't so
And it's all I think about
When I'm behind the wheel
I worry this is how
I'm always gonna feel
But nothing lasts, I know the deal
'Cause I loved you then
And I love you now
And I don't know how
Guess it's hard to know
When nobody else comes around
If I'm getting over you
Or just pretending to
Be all right
Convince myself I hate you
Can't get over you
No matter what I do
I know I should
But I could never hate you
Can't take it back
Once it's been set in motion
You know I love to rub it in
Like lotion
If you only pray on Sunday
Could you come my way on Monday?
'Cause I like to do things
God doesn't approve of
If She saw us
She couldn't look away
Look away, look away
She'd wanna get involved
Involved, involved
And what would people say
People say, people say
If they listen through the wall
The wall, the wall?
I can see it clear as day
You don't really need a break
Wanna see what you can take
You should really run away
I wanna do bad things to you
I wanna make you yell
I wanna do bad things to you
Don't wanna treat you well
Can't take it back
Once it's been set in motion
You know I need you for the oxytocin
If you find it hard to swallow
I can loosen up your collar
'Cause as long
As you're still breathing
Don't you even think of leaving
Not gonna wanna look away
Look away, look away
You're gonna wanna get involved
Involved, involved
And what would people say
People say, people say
If they listen through the wall
The wall, the wall?
I can see it clear as day
You don't really need a break
I wanna see what you can take
You should really run away
Other people wouldn't stay
Other people don't obey
You and me are both the same
You should really run away
and this is Happier Than Ever,
the first time I am doing my album
all in one, front to back.
So, enjoy.
I'm getting older
I think I'm aging well
I wish someone had told me
I'd be doing this by myself
There's reasons that I'm thankful
There's a lot I'm grateful for
But it's different when a stranger's
Always waiting at your door
Which is ironic 'cause the strangers
Seem to want me more
Than anyone before
Anyone before
Too bad they're usually deranged
Last week, I realized I crave pity
When I retell a story
I make everything sound worse
Can't shake the feeling
That I'm just bad at healing
And maybe that's the reason
Every sentence sounds rehearsed
Which is ironic
Because when I wasn't honest
I was still being ignored
Lying for attention
Just to get neglection
Now we're estranged
Things I once enjoyed
Ah, ah
Just keep me employed now
Things I'm longing for
Someday I'll be bored of
It's so weird
That we care so much
Until we don't
I'm getting older
I've got more on my shoulders
But I'm getting better
At admitting when I'm wrong
I'm happier than ever
At least, that's my endeavor
To keep myself together
And prioritize my pleasure
'Cause to be honest
I just wish that what I promise
Would depend on what I'm given
Not on his permission
Wasn't my decision
To be abused
Mmm
Things I once enjoyed
Just keep me employed now
Things I'm longing for
Someday I'll be bored of
It's so weird
That we care so much
Until we don't
But next week
I hope I'm somewhere laughing
For anybody asking
I promise I'll be fine
I've had some trauma
Did things I didn't wanna
Was too afraid to tell ya
But now I think it's time
Okay
Mm-hmm, I
I didn't change my number
I only changed who I reply to
Laura said I should be nicer
But not to you
I laughed at your "Mad at me?" text
Should've guessed
That you would think I was upset
You're obsessed
Mmm
Don't take it out on me
I'm out of sympathy for you
Maybe you should leave
Before I get too mean
I didn't change my number
I only changed who I believe in
You were easy on the eyes, eyes, eyes
But looks can be deceiving
I gotta work, I go to work
You don't deserve to feel so hurt
You got a lot of nerve
I don't deserve, so
Don't take it out on me
I'm out of sympathy for you
Maybe you should leave
Before I get too mean
And take it out on you
And your best friend, too
I should have left when Drew
Said you were bad news
Da-da-da-da-da-da
Welcome to the Hollywood Bowl.
It's me, Billie.
I'm so excited for this,
and I couldn't be happier to be here
with Gustavo Dudamel right behind me
and the LA Phil.
I wanna thank Romero Lubambo
right over there
for playing guitar for me.
This is a dream come true.
Love when it comes without a warning
'Cause waiting for it gets so boring
A lot can change in 20 seconds
A lot can happen in the dark
Love when
It makes you lose your bearings
Some information's not for sharing
Use different names at hotel check-ins
It's hard to stop it once it starts
It starts
I'm not sentimental
But there's something
'Bout the way you look tonight
Ah
Makes me wanna take a picture
Make a movie with you
That we'd have to hide
You better lock your phone
And look at me when you're alone
Won't take a lot to get you going
I'm sorry if it's torture, though
I know, I know
It might be more of an obsession
You really make a strong impression
Nobody saw me in the lobby
Saw me in the lobby
Nobody saw me in your arms
I'm not sentimental
But there's something
'Bout the way you look tonight
Ah-ah, ah
Makes me wanna make 'em jealous
I'm the only one
Who does it how you like
You better lock your phone
And look at me when you're alone
Won't take a lot to get you going
I'm sorry if it's torture, though
I know, I know
You better lock your door
And look at me a little more
We both know I'm worth waiting for
That heavy breathing on the floor
I'm yours, I'm yours
I'm yours
I'm not sentimental
I'm not sentimental
I'm not sentimental
I can't seem to focus
And you don't seem to notice
I'm not here
I'm just a mirror
You check your complexion
To find your reflection's all alone
I had to go
Can't you hear me?
I'm not coming home
Do you understand?
I've changed my plans
'Cause I
I'm in love
With my future
Can't wait to meet her
And I
I'm in love
Oh
But not with anybody else
Just wanna get to know myself
I know supposedly I'm lonely now
Lonely now
Know I'm supposed to be unhappy
- Without someone
- Someone
- But aren't I someone?
- Aren't I someone?
Yeah
I'd
I'd
Like to be your answer
Be your answer
- 'Cause you're so handsome
- You're so handsome
But I know better
Than to drive you home
'Cause you'd invite me in
And I'd be yours again
But I
- I'm in love
- Love, love, love, love
With my future
And you don't know her
Ooh
And I
I'm in love
But not with anybody here
I'll see you in
A couple years
Can't take it back
Once it's been set in motion
You know I love to rub it in
Like lotion
If you only pray on Sunday
Could you come my way on Monday?
'Cause I like to do things
God doesn't approve of
If She saw us
She couldn't look away
Look away, look away
She'd wanna get involved
Involved, involved
And what would people say
People say, people say
If they listen through the wall
The wall, the wall?
I can see it clear as day
You don't really need a break
Wanna see what you can take
You should really run away
I wanna do bad things to you
I wanna make you yell
I wanna do bad things to you
Don't wanna treat you well
Can't take it back
Once it's been set in motion
You know I need you for the oxytocin
If you find it hard to swallow
I can loosen up your collar
'Cause as long
As you're still breathing
Don't you even think of leaving
Not gonna wanna look away
Look away, look away
You're gonna wanna get involved
Involved, involved
And what would people say
People say, people say
If they listen through the wall
The wall, the wall?
I can see it clear as day
You don't really need a break
Wanna see what you can take
You should really run away
Other people wouldn't stay
Other people don't obey
You and me are both the same
You should really run away
Bad things
I wanna do bad things to you
I wanna make you yell
I wanna do bad things to you
Don't wanna treat you well
I wanna do bad things to you
I wanna make you yell
I wanna do bad things to you
Don't wanna treat you well
He hath come to the bosom
Of his beloved
Smiling on him
She beareth him
To highest heav'n
With yearning heart
On thee we gaze
O' gold-wing'd messenger
Of mighty Gods
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Goldwing
Gold-winged angel
Go home, don't tell
Anyone what you are
You're sacred and they're starved
And their art is getting dark
And there you are to tear apart
Tear apart, tear apart, tear apart
You better keep your head down-down
Da-da-down, down, da-da-down, down
Better keep your head down, down
Da-da-down, down, da-da-down, down
They're gonna tell you
What you wanna hear
Then they're gonna disappear
Gonna claim you like a souvenir
Just to sell you in a year
You better keep your head down, down
Da-da-down, down, da-da-down, down
Keep your head down, down, down
Da-da-down
Better keep your head down, down
Da-da-down, down, da-da-down, down
Keep your head down, down
Down, down, down, down
With yearning heart
On thee we gaze
O' gold-wing'd messenger
Of mighty Gods
As you could see,
there's a choir out here.
And this was actually
the choir that I grew up in,
and, um, a song that we used to do,
that, like, beginning and ending section,
that you just heard
in the song we just did.
I just fell in love with it then and knew
that I wanted to put it in a song.
And I thought it would be really cool
to have them
actually come out and sing it here.
It's just a cute little
full-circle moment.
So, thank you to the choir.
I love you guys, and...
So the next song we have is "Lost Cause."
So, let's do it.
Something's in the
Something's in the air right now
Like I'm losing track of time
Like I don't really care right now
But maybe that's fine
You weren't even there that day
I was waiting on you
I wonder if you were aware that day
Was the last straw for me and I knew
I sent you flowers
Did you even care?
You ran the shower
And left them by the stairs
Ooh-ooh, ooh
Thought you had your shit together
- But damn, I was wrong
- Wrong
- You ain't nothing but a lost cause
- Cause
- This ain't nothing like it once was
- Was
I know you think
You're such an outlaw, yeah
- But you got no job
- Job
- You ain't nothing but a lost cause
- Cause
- This ain't nothing like it once was
- Was
I know you think you're such an outlaw
But you got no...
I used to think you were shy
But maybe
You just had nothing on your mind
Maybe you were thinking 'bout yourself
All the time
I used to wish you were mine
But that was way before I realized
Someone like you
Would always be so easy to find
Yeah, so easy
Oh
Yeah
Da-da, da-da, da, da
Gave me no flowers
I wish I didn't care
You'd be gone for hours
Could be anywhere
Ooh
I thought
You would've grown eventually
But you proved me wrong
- You ain't nothing but a lost cause
- Cause
- This ain't nothing like it once was
- Was
I know you think
You're such an outlaw, yeah
- But you got no job
- Job
- You ain't nothing but a lost cause
- Cause
- This ain't nothing like it once was
- Was
I know you think
You're such a lost cause
But you got no job
What did I tell you?
No job
Don't get complacent
It's time to face it now
- What did I tell you?
- Tell you
- Don't get complacent
- Get complacent
- It's time to face it now
- Face it now, now, now, now, now
It is such a thrill
to be able to do this in my hometown,
Los Angeles.
A place that really formed me
into who I am,
and I think that I took it for granted.
The older I've gotten,
the more I've come
to love Los Angeles so, so much
and be so grateful for my childhood
and my growth as a person.
LA really got me there.
I don't want it
And I don't want to want you
But in my dreams
I seem to be more honest
And I must admit
You've been in quite a few
Halley's Comet
Comes around more than I do
But you're all it takes
For me to break a promise
Silly me to fall in love with you
I haven't slept since Sunday
Midnight for me is 3:00 a.m.
For you
But my sleepless nights
Are better with you
Than nights could ever be alone
Ooh
I was good at feeling nothing
Now I'm hopeless
What a drag to love you like I do
Ooh-ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
I've been loved before
But right now in this moment
I feel more and more
Like I was made for you
For you
I'm sitting in my brother's room
Haven't slept in a week or two
I think
I might have fallen in love
What am I to do?
Do you know me?
Really know me?
You have opinions
About my opinions
About my music
About my clothes
About my body
Some people hate what I wear
Some people praise it
Some people use it to shame others
Some people use it to shame me
But I feel you watching
Always
And nothing I do goes unseen
So while I feel your stares
Your disapproval
Or your sigh of relief
If I lived by them
I'd never be able to move
Would you like for me to be smaller?
Weaker, softer, taller?
Would you like me to be quiet?
Do my shoulders provoke you?
Does my chest?
Am I my stomach? My hips?
The body I was born with
Is it not what you wanted?
If I wear what is comfortable
I am not a woman
If I shed the layers
I'm a slut
Though you've never seen my body
You still judge it
And judge me for it
Why?
We make assumptions about people
Based on their size
We decide who they are
We decide what they're worth
If I wear more, if I wear less
Who decides what that makes me?
What that means?
Is my value based
Only on your perception?
Or is your opinion of me
Not my responsibility?
I don't really even know
How it happened
I started talking
They started laughing
I don't really even know
How it happened
I started watching
Them photographing
I don't really know how it happened
Instead of stopping
They still were flashing
I started walking
Gave no reaction
No reaction
I'm overheated
Can't be defeated
Can't be deleted
Can't unbelieve it
I'm overheated
Can't be defeated
Can't be deleted
Can't be repeated
I'm overheated
I'm overheated
And I don't really wanna know
Why it went there
- I kinda don't care
- Kinda don't care
- You wanna kill me
- Wanna kill me
You wanna hurt me
Stop being flirty
'Cause it's kinda working
Did you really think
"This is the right thing to do?"
Is it news?
News to who?
That I really look
Just like the rest of you
Mm-hmm, I'm overheated
Can't be defeated
Can't be deleted
Can't unbelieve it
I'm overheated
Can't be defeated
Can't be deleted
Can't be repeated
I'm overheated
And everybody said it was a letdown
I was only built
Like everybody else now
But I didn't get a surgery to help out
'Cause I'm not about
To redesign myself now, am I?
Am I?
Am I?
All these other inanimate bitches
It's none of my business
But don't you get sick
Of posing for pictures
With that plastic body?
Man, I'm overheated
Can't be defeated
Can't be deleted
Can't unbelieve it
I'm overheated
Can't be defeated
Can't be deleted
Can't be repeated
I'm overheated
Everybody dies
Surprise, surprise
We tell each other lies
Sometimes we try
To make it feel like we might be right
We might not be alone
Be alone
"Everybody dies"
That's what they say
And maybe in a couple hundred years
They'll find another way
I just wonder why you'd wanna stay
If everybody goes
You'd still be alone
I don't wanna cry, some days I do
But not about you
It's just a lot to think about
The world I'm used to
The one I can't get back
At least not for a while
I sure have a knack
For seeing life more like a child
And it's not my fault
It's not so wrong to wonder why
Everybody dies
And when will I?
You ought to know
That even when it's time
You might not wanna go
But it's okay to cry
And it's all right to fold
But you are not alone
You are not unknown
Mmm, mmm
Try not to abuse your power
I know we didn't choose to change
You might not wanna lose your power
But having it's so strange
She said you were a hero
You played the part
But you ruined her in a year
Don't act like it was hard
And you swear you didn't know
Didn't know, didn't know
No wonder why you didn't ask
She was sleeping in your clothes
In your clothes, in your clothes
But now she's got to get to class
How dare you?
And how could you?
Will you only feel bad
When they find out?
If you could take it all back
Would you?
Try not to abuse your power
I know we didn't choose to change
You might not wanna lose your power
But having it's so strange
I thought that I was special
You made me feel like it was my fault
You were the devil
Lost your appeal
Does it keep you in control?
In control
For you to keep her in a cage?
And you swear you didn't know
Didn't know
You said you thought she was your age
How dare you?
And how could you?
Will you only feel bad if it turns out
That they kill your contract?
Would you?
Try not to abuse your power
I know we didn't choose to change
You might not wanna lose your power
But power isn't pain
Mmm
Da-da-da-da-da, ah
Billie! Billie!
Yes! Billie!
-Guys, don't get too excited.
-Yeah!
We love you, Billie!
Billie, we have a present for you!
Did you think I'd show up
In a limousine? No
Had to save my money for security
Got a stalker
Walking up and down the street
Says he's Satan and he'd like to meet
I bought a secret house when I was 17
Haven't had a party
Since I got the keys
Had a pretty boy over
But he couldn't stay
On his way out, made him sign an NDA
Uh
Yeah, I made him sign an NDA
Once was good enough
'Cause I don't want him
Having shit to say
You couldn't save me
But you can't let me go
Oh, no
I could crave you
But you don't need to know
Know
30 Under 30 for another year
I can barely go outside
I think I hate it here
Maybe I should think about
A new career
Somewhere in Kauai
Where I can disappear
I've been having fun getting older now
Didn't change my number
Made him shut his mouth
At least I gave him something
He can cry about
I thought about my future
But I want it now
I want it now
You can't give me up
You couldn't save me
But you can't let me go
Oh, no
I could crave you
But you don't need to know
Know
Did I take it too far?
Now I know what you are
You hit me so hard
I saw stars
I think I took it too far
When I sold you my heart
How'd it get so dark?
I saw stars
Stars
I'm not your friend or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
I'm not your friend or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
Stop
What the hell are you talking about?
Get my pretty name out of your mouth
We are not the same with or without
And don't talk 'bout me like
How you might know how I feel
Top of the world
But your world isn't real
Your world's an ideal
So go have fun
I really couldn't care less
And you can give 'em my best
But just know
I'm not your friend or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
I'm not your friend or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
I don't want press
To put your name next to mine
We're on different lines, so I
Wanna be nice enough
They don't call my bluff
'Cause I hate to find
Articles, articles, articles
Rather you remain unremarkable
Got a lot of
Interviews, interviews, interviews
When they say your name
I just act confused
And I really couldn't care less
And you can give 'em my best
But just know
I'm not your friend or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
I'm not your friend or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
I'm sorry
I don't think I caught your name
And I'm sorry
I don't think I caught your name
I'm not your friend
Damn
You think that you're
Therefore, I am
I'm not your friend
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
When I'm away from you
I'm happier than ever
Wish I could explain it better
I wish it wasn't true
Give me a day or two
To think of something clever
To write myself a letter
To tell me what to do
Do you read my interviews?
Or do you skip my avenue?
When you said you were passing through
Was I even on your way?
I knew when I asked you to
Be cool about what I was telling you
You'd do the opposite
Of what you said you'd do
And I'd end up more afraid
Don't say it isn't fair
You clearly weren't aware
That you made me miserable
So if you really wanna know
- When I'm away from you
- When I'm away from you
- I'm happier than ever
- Happier than ever
Wish I could explain it better
I wish it wasn't true
You call me again
Drunk in your Benz
Driving home under the influence
You scared me to death
But I'm wasting my breath
'Cause you only listen to your
- Friends
- And I don't relate to you
I don't relate to you, no
'Cause I'd never treat me this shitty
You made me hate this city
And I don't talk shit about you
On the Internet
Never told anyone anything bad
'Cause that shit's embarrassing
You were my everything
And all that you did was make me sad
So don't waste the time I don't have
And don't try to make me feel bad
I could talk about every time
That you showed up on time
But I'd have an empty line
'Cause you never did
Never paid any mind
To my mother or friends
So I shut 'em all out for you
'Cause I was a kid
You ruined everything good
Always said you were misunderstood
Made all my moments your own
Just leave me alone
Oh, oh
Oh, oh
Yeah
Yeah! Yeah!
So here we are at our last song
of the whole night.
This has been a magical, beautiful,
um, amazing experience,
and I can't, uh, really believe
that this happened at all.
This is the Hollywood Bowl,
a place that has been the most
iconic venue in all of Los Angeles,
and it's a real dream come true.
It's been so beautiful and so, uh, surreal
to do this tonight,
and yeah.
We're gonna do "Male Fantasy,"
which is the last song on the album.
Thank you guys for listening,
and thank you to everyone who's involved.
I love you all to pieces,
and I will see you soon.
Home alone, trying not to eat
Distract myself with pornography
I hate the way she looks at me
I can't stand the dialogue
She would never be that satisfied
It's a male fantasy
I'm going back to therapy
'Cause I loved you then
And I love you now
And I don't know how
Guess it's hard to know
When nobody else comes around
If I'm getting over you
Or just pretending to
Be all right
Convince myself I hate you
Ba-da-da-da
I got a call
From a girl I used to know
We were inseparable years ago
Thought we'd get along
But it wasn't so
And it's all I think about
When I'm behind the wheel
I worry this is how
I'm always gonna feel
But nothing lasts, I know the deal
'Cause I loved you then
And I love you now
And I don't know how
Guess it's hard to know
When nobody else comes around
If I'm getting over you
Or just pretending to
Be all right
Convince myself I hate you
Can't get over you
No matter what I do
I know I should
But I could never hate you
Can't take it back
Once it's been set in motion
You know I love to rub it in
Like lotion
If you only pray on Sunday
Could you come my way on Monday?
'Cause I like to do things
God doesn't approve of
If She saw us
She couldn't look away
Look away, look away
She'd wanna get involved
Involved, involved
And what would people say
People say, people say
If they listen through the wall
The wall, the wall?
I can see it clear as day
You don't really need a break
Wanna see what you can take
You should really run away
I wanna do bad things to you
I wanna make you yell
I wanna do bad things to you
Don't wanna treat you well
Can't take it back
Once it's been set in motion
You know I need you for the oxytocin
If you find it hard to swallow
I can loosen up your collar
'Cause as long
As you're still breathing
Don't you even think of leaving
Not gonna wanna look away
Look away, look away
You're gonna wanna get involved
Involved, involved
And what would people say
People say, people say
If they listen through the wall
The wall, the wall?
I can see it clear as day
You don't really need a break
I wanna see what you can take
You should really run away
Other people wouldn't stay
Other people don't obey
You and me are both the same
You should really run away