Love, Danielle (2024) Movie Script
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[bright music]
[man] Yes, genes do sometimes
change.
Heredity changes.
The changes are called
mutations.
Such changes down
through the ages
of the basis of evolution.
On rare occasions, nature
strikes a wrong key.
[bright music continues]
About once in 100,000
generations or more,
a gene doesn't copy
itself exactly.
Once a gene does change,
it can be passed on only
in its new form.
It becomes a regular part of
heredity from that time on.
[bright music continues]
[silent dialogue]
[]
[silent dialogue]
[phone buzzing]
[Dr. Morgan] Danielle,
you've tested positive
for the BRCA1 gene mutation.
Unfortunately, that
means your lifetime risk
of developing breast cancer
is between 60% and 85%.
Now, I know that you said that
your mother has been clear,
but given your sister's recent
breast cancer diagnosis--
Yeah, and my aunt.
My late aunt, she died from
ovarian cancer when she was 43.
[clears throat] My
recommendation is a bilateral
salpingo oophorectomy,
complete removal of
fallopian tubes,
[in distant voice] ovaries,
total hysterectomy,
and any preventative
double mastectomy.
We can delay some
of the surgeries
until after having children
or after going egg
freezing process.
Egg freezing process.
Egg fertilization, your
husband's sperm.
Surrogate carriers, mastectomy.
Expanders.
With ovarian cancer,
there are no reliable
screening methods,
so it's usually diagnosed
in its later stages
when it's treatable
but not curable.
Important thing right now
is to not feel overwhelmed.
-[car door slams shut]
-[papers rustling]
-[sobs]
-[somber music]
Stay calm for Pat.
[inhales]
I'm okay.
It's okay.
[children faintly speaking]
I don't even like lollipops.
Those had cancer.
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[Danielle] I know we were
planning to start trying
as soon as Amy is better,
but now I'm not sure
it can wait.
Should we really be
having this conversation
-on the phone?
-[children laughing]
Where are you?
[Danielle] I'm at a park
by the doctor's office,
but I'm heading back
to work soon.
Danielle, no.
I can have Rena cover
the books for today.
You and I are both heading
straight home
to talk about this in person.
[Danielle] Okay.
I'll be a little late though.
I'm gonna stop off to
pick stuff up for tonight.
We're not still doing tonight.
Of course we are, Pat.
Danielle, it's
just game night.
You need time to process.
Take a long bath, open
a bottle of wine.
Canceling is rude.
[Pat] Honey, rude takes kind of
a backseat to a medical crisis.
But if it make you feel
better to have people over...
-Will it make you feel better?
-[Danielle sighs]
-[children laughing]
-[birds chirping]
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[dice clattering]
[man] There's an amulet
on the floor.
Do you pick it up?
Oh.
[Rob] Babe, do you pick it up?
[Misty] Yes, fine,
I pick it up.
[Rob] Ooh, you slip on
polished marble,
breaking your last remaining
good arm and one of your legs.
-Bullshit!
-[door creaks open]
This sucks.
-That's the game.
-Can I be game master?
-[Rob] No.
-[Misty] Let me see those notes.
-Hey, don't worry, I got it.
-Hi.
Oh no, it's fine.
-I don't--
-I said don't worry.
[lips smacking]
[sighs] How are you?
Lasagna stacks are
under the broiler
and I've got the dip out, so
I hope you grab pita chips
'cause Rob's just eating
it with his hands.
Honey.
I talked to Gustavo.
I'm switching to the morning
shift, so I can be here more.
Oh, brought back your favorite,
brown butter cupcakes.
Print some info from
these groups.
They help with this
sort of thing.
Pat, how are you?
[Rob faintly speaking]
It's not about me,
it's about you.
How are you?
I...
[Misty] Missed you.
Hey, Misty.
How's the game?
Oh, no.
[chuckles]
Are you okay?
[Rob] There are two tunnels
before you.
One, smells of sulfur.
The other, rattling chains.
We can play in a bit.
I Googled your WebMD thing.
We've got a lot of
catching up to do.
She cast Cube of Truth.
[Rob] Which tunnel
do you choose?
Ah, we'll take the sulfur one.
Pat can check the chains.
Wait, you don't split
the party up.
You never...
You don't split the party up.
Hey, this is what you
might do to yourself.
You should at least look.
[Doctor] Will be inserted.
Carbon dioxide will be pumped
in and inflate your abdomen,
so there is room to manipulate.
I get the point.
I get the point.
I'm your best friend,
and I'm pregnant, which
makes me very wise.
Listen to me.
Do not do this.
It could save my life.
You know what saved my life?
Kids.
[Misty laughs]
Rob and me, well, you know
what we were like before.
Pat and I have a
great marriage.
Which means you'll
be even better parents.
[sighs]
Think of all those kids out
there with shitty moms and dads
growing up to be shitty
moms and dads.
Um, have you met my mom?
By that logic, I'm doomed.
[chuckles] But she never got
cancer.
Proves my point that
you'll be fine.
I can't believe I have
enough to make this choice.
Just don't do anything
you'll regret,
-[Danielle sighs]
-and you'll regret this.
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Oh, god.
[gentle bright music]
[Danielle] Does every female
character
have to be so boob-centric?
[Misty] Yeah, how come
Danielle's lady has a bikini
instead of armor like you guys?
It came that way.
[Rob] She is a sexy sorceress.
That's where she draws
her magic from.
Uh, okay, so it's time for
you to roll for your spell.
-[Dice clattering]
-[Rob] Ooh, weak roll.
Okay.
Your poor magic triggers
Misty's stone scourge,
which spreads from her
neck to her chest.
[Misty] I hate stage
4 stone scourge.
I thought the stone potion
was supposed to stop
the stone curse.
Okay, was I the only person
who was paying attention
when we bought that potion
from the stone merchant?
[slams gameboard]
Why the fuck are our
adventures always like this,
Rob?
-[chair slides]
-Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.
So canceling would've
been rude, huh?
-[sighs]
-[approaching footsteps]
[crickets chirping]
I'm really sorry.
I don't know what to do.
[Danielle sighs]
I know Misty's your best
friend, but she can be a lot.
Yeah, it's just Amy's who I
wanted to talk to about this,
not Misty.
You can talk to me.
I know.
But I need to talk to Amy.
[gentle ethereal music]
[young Danielle] Amy, we're
gonna be late for school.
[young Amy] Danielle,
it's fine.
[gentle ethereal
music continues]
[plastic bag rustling]
[young Danielle] I'm okay.
It's okay.
Who are you talking to?
Nobody.
Your hair looks messy.
I like it that way, Danielle.
[young Amy] Bye, Mom.
[young Danielle] Bye.
[door creaks open]
[door clicks shut]
[knocking on door]
[Danielle] Amy?
[knocking on door]
[door clicks open]
Amy?
[Amy] I'm in here.
Come in.
[keys clattering]
No, I don't mean come
in, come in.
I'm sorry.
Why are you in there?
[Amy] I'm fine.
Are you throwing up again?
Because we can get you a
higher dose of the meds.
[Amy] I'm not throwing up.
Well, why are you in there?
Should I call your doctor?
[Amy] Danielle, stop
acting like mom
and tell me if you have it.
Hey.
Yes.
Well, there go your fantasies
that you were kidnapped
from a really nice family.
[sighs]
[Amy] What are you gonna do?
I'm not telling you till
you tell me what's wrong.
Ugh, I'm just constipated
from these fucking meds.
[wincing] I feel like my ass is
sealed with roofing tar.
You look skinnier.
Yeah, well, if I
never shit again,
then it'll take care of that.
What are you gonna do?
[Danielle sighs]
I don't know.
I have an appointment
with a genetic counselor.
Misty says I should
wait and have kids,
and Pat doesn't have an opinion.
No, Pat has an opinion.
He just hates saying it.
Please don't be a
marriage counselor.
[sighs]
What do you want to do?
Well, I mean, I should wait,
right, don't you think,
for biological kids.
Dee, you've been saving
your baby mobile
your entire life for your
future children.
It was the only thing
that was ever there for me.
I know.
But dead people can't have kids
or harvest their eggs.
[notification rings]
[Amy] Shit.
-[notification rings]
-[grunts]
[gentle somber music]
[Amy] Whew!
[pills clattering]
[sighs]
Oh.
[heavy breathing]
But you have to decide.
And you get to decide.
[Amy sniffs]
Thank you for getting
cancer, so I might not have.
[Amy chuckles]
What are sisters for?
[young Amy] I can't
wait to get boobs.
[young Danielle] Me too.
I'm older, so I get
to get boobs first.
Oh, so unfair.
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What are you in for?
Uh, genetic counseling.
Ah.
You?
Mammogram.
Oh.
They should call it mannogram.
Like for man.
[Stan chuckles]
Yeah.
It's actually the
third time here
since I found out I
have the BRCA gene.
[sighs]
First time, I couldn't get
through the intake form
'cause I could not
remember the date
of my last menstrual period.
[both laughing]
The second time, they
brought out the pink robe.
I fled.
This time, I'm gonna
do it for my sister.
God rest her soul.
-I'm sorry.
-I'm sorry.
Stan.
De Man...
Well, it's actually DeManuel,
but big D, little E, big M.
An.
I'm Danielle.
-Big D, little A.
-[nurse] Ms. Bledsoe?
Oh.
That's me.
Okay, Big D.
Good luck.
Thanks.
[nurse] Mrs. DeManuel?
It's mister.
[doctor] Removing your ovaries
and fallopian tubes
will reduce the chance of
you getting ovarian cancer.
And with your BRCA1 gene
mutation and your family
history,
there is evidence that
you may also have
an increased risk of
uterine cancer.
So you may wanna consider
taking out the uterus.
[sighs]
Do you and your partner have
plans for biological children?
[somber music]
So, will I just be,
like, empty then?
I just always thought
that I would get to know what
it felt like to be pregnant
and to give birth
and to be a mom.
[doctor] If you wanna be a mom,
-you absolutely have options.
-[sighs]
IVF, surrogacy, adoption.
Danielle, I know that
this is a lot to digest,
and I'm sorry, your choices
are imperfect options.
But our number one goal
is to keep you healthy
and cancer-free.
Under the current guidelines,
it's advisable to
have this surgery
between the ages of 35 and 40.
And I see here that
you just turned 35.
I could wait until I'm 40?
This is such a personal
decision, Danielle,
and you have to make the
choice that's right for you.
But knowing that your
aunt passed away
from ovarian cancer at age 43,
it would be recommended to
have your fallopian tubes
and your ovaries removed
sooner rather than later.
So we could start trying now.
But will I pass on the mutation?
Well, there are options
to reduce that risk,
and Dr. Brown is a fabulous
fertility specialist
and can answer all
those questions for you.
[bright music]
[Danielle chuckles]
[slurp sound]
Ooh, that's cold.
[laughing]
I am here because
my husband and I
are gonna start trying
to have a baby.
-[Char] How exciting.
-Yeah.
Well, Dr. Brown is great.
[Danielle] I'm excited to make
sure
that everything is working
right in there.
[Char] And I remember when my
husband and I first started
trying.
It's an exciting time.
I have four kids now.
Wow, four.
Enjoy this time.
I certainly will.
[laughs]
I just need to get a
closer look here.
I'm gonna put a little
bit of pressure here
on your abdomen to shift
things around
so I can get a better
look at this ovary.
[exhales] Sure.
You said you were BRCA1
positive, right?
Yes.
All right.
All done.
[Char] You can get dressed now.
Okay.
I'm gonna ask you to wait here
while I show these to
Dr. Brown, okay?
Is something wrong?
[Char] I just want
her to take a look.
Okay.
-[door clicks shut]
-[somber music]
Okay, Dr. Brown is
not available right now,
but she will call you
first thing in the morning.
Are you serious?
What is going on?
Dr. Brown has to read it.
Try not to worry.
[Danielle] What?
And you can't tell me anything?
Is there something there?
Did you see something?
I'm really sorry.
Dr. Brown has to be the one
to discuss this with you.
Sorry.
I got your mail and
brought you some soup.
[Amy] Soup, yay!
Good.
Well, you never eat
solid foods, Amy.
You gotta have some nutrients
and protein,
and no one wants to see a
chicken noodle smoothie.
That's disgusting.
Hey, did you talk to
your genetic counselor
about your fertility options?
Oh, hey!
You got a postcard from
your friend Lindsay.
Hawaii would be really nice
right now, don't you think?
Burn it.
What?
You're not friends anymore?
Uh, cancer.
You know, in the beginning,
it's like a novelty to people
and they bring you casseroles
and you get to watch, like,
all your favorite movies.
And then after a while,
people realize that having
cancer for a long time
gets fucking boring as shit.
That's what family is for.
Mom annoys the shit out of me.
[Danielle] I know.
I swear to God, if it weren't
for you, I'd be dead by now.
Like, for real.
For real, for real.
I promise you I will
always be here.
Not if you get cancer.
[]
Yeah, I know.
I...
I don't want to have
to go through--
-Chemo?
-Yeah.
I do not recommend it.
-Like, it's 1.5 stars.
-[Danielle chuckles]
When you take it, you feel
like you're going to die.
If you don't take it,
you may be dead.
Plus, I don't think the
universe is gonna give it to you
because you would not
look so good bald like me.
So, that's my signature
look for now.
If you knew that a plane had
a 50% chance of crashing,
would you still get on it?
I feel like my ovaries
are ticking time bombs.
[chuckles]
Amy, Pat and I decided
to try for kids.
Dee.
But I went in for an
ultrasound yesterday,
and they found something
weird, I guess.
What the fuck?
Why are you just telling
me this now?
I didn't wanna upset you.
[sighs]
And please, do not say
anything to anyone
because I haven't even told Pat.
Danielle.
Aunt Ruth, okay?
Why haven't they called you yet?
What are they telling you?
They should be calling
me anytime now.
Amy, what if I fucking
already have ovarian cancer?
What if I'm already
on that plane?
[phone ringing]
Oh, shit, it's Pat.
Oh, crap, I'm supposed
to be at work.
Hey, hey, I'm heading
to the bakery now.
What?
No, I put in that
order last week.
I know I did.
Okay, well, I'm on my way.
[sighs]
[phone ringing]
Hello?
Yeah, this is Ms. Bledsoe.
[somber music]
Not great.
I've been worried and waiting
for this call all morning.
So...
okay.
Yeah, I will.
Thank you.
What?
I'm okay.
[Amy sighs]
[Danielle sighs]
It's okay.
It was just a fluid-filled cyst.
[Danielle sighs]
[Danielle] I can't live in
constant fear like this.
And now all this fertility shit?
It takes way too much time.
It's so fucking expensive.
Having kids is your
tip-top priority.
You know that you guys
could try now, right?
[bright music]
Oh my god.
What if Pat had to
raise them alone?
It'd be such a shit show.
[sighs]
[birds chirping]
-[Pat sighs]
-[door clicks shut]
Sorry, I...
I finished the order.
I just never replaced it.
Amy needed me, and
I just forgot.
[Pat] Danielle, we have to
figure something out.
-This can't keep happening.
-[papers rustling]
Should we hire someone else?
No, I'm fine.
I got it.
Listen, I talked to
Amy about the surgery.
[Pat] Of course you did.
What?
How's she doing?
[Danielle] I mean, she's still
got that cancer,
Uh huh
and I don't want it.
I know we had a future in mind,
but I feel like I
have to make sure
that I am still a part
of that future.
Saving my own life has
to be more important
than any hypothetical
biological kids right now.
I would never get on that
plane no matter how badly
-I wanted the trip.
-Whoa, whoa, whoa.
What plane?
Will you resent me?
[sighs]
Danielle, I'm confused.
We were so excited
to start trying.
Are you saying you
definitely don't wanna try
and have kids first?
Well, Amy and I--
So, Amy decides whether
or not we have kids?
[sighs]
They found something
on my ovary
when they did the ultrasound.
-What?
-Yeah.
My god, Danielle,
why didn't you tell me?
I didn't wanna worry you.
This is a huge deal,
and I'm your husband.
Well, it turns out
it's just a cyst.
It's totally benign,
so I don't have cancer.
Yet.
I wish you'd led with that.
The doctor said I could
go on birth control pills,
but that kind of defeats
the purpose
of delaying this surgery.
And what if the next time
it isn't benign?
[melancholic music]
I don't wanna die at 43
like my Aunt Ruth, Pat.
I'm scared.
I have to have this surgery.
If I do it now, will
you resent me?
-[Pat] No, of course not.
-[sighs]
I married you.
My future has to have
a healthy you in it.
Just don't lie to me, okay?
[Pat] Amy says she loves you
and enjoy the gas.
You keep her updated?
Every hour.
And not a word to--
Misty And Rob, I know.
Good.
If she finds out I'm
going through with this,
she'd come crashing into the OR
and steal the scalpel out
of the surgeon's hands.
[gentle serene music]
I am sorry.
I love you.
[bag zipping]
You're Danielle?
Yes.
Please confirm this is
your birthdate and sign here.
And here.
We're taking you to the OR.
Let me check your IV.
I'm Dr. Davies, your
anesthesiologist.
Here's a sedative to get
you nice and comfortable.
Hi.
Does that hurt?
Yes.
[Anesthesiologist] Just a
little or a burning sensation?
A little, I guess.
We're ready to go now.
Wait a second.
Pat.
Pat?
I'm right here,
I'm right here.
[Dr. Davies] You're gonna
start to feel a little sleepy.
-Okay.
-[Dr. Davies] But don't worry,
we won't put you all the way
under till we're in the OR.
I love you.
Love you too.
[Dr. Davies] Nice
deep breaths.
[pensive music]
[Dr. Davies] Nice deep breaths,
Danielle.
Nice deep breaths.
Countdown from a hundred.
-[equipment beeping]
[echoes] 99.
[echoes] 90.
-[pensive music continues]
-[equipment beeping]
[spirited music]
[Candie] Isn't Amy
so beautiful?
[Amy] If you knew that a plane
had a 50% chance of crashing,
would you still get on it?
[Dr. Brown] Do you and
your partner have plans
for biological children?
[Pat] I married you.
My future has to have
a healthy you in it.
[baby cooing]
[baby crying]
[Dr. Morgan] Complete
removal of the fallopian tubes,
ovaries, total hysterectomy.
[baby babbling]
[deep breathes]
[gentle melancholic music]
Oh, Christ.
Oh.
Is that everything?
Yep.
Ooh.
[Amy sighs]
it smells amazing here.
Oh, crap.
Will it make you nauseous?
Surprisingly, no.
And that is my highest
compliment.
I'm honored.
Don't tell me Danny
went to the bakery.
We brought on a temp
to cover the books while
she recovers.
Good.
[paper rustling]
Could you, um...
Yeah, I'll get her.
Thank you.
You okay?
[moans]
[gentle solemn music]
[young Amy] She can't
do a ballerina turn.
She has a fin.
[young Danielle] Oh, yeah.
She'll do it on her head.
[Amy laughs]
Head spin.
Hey. [knocks on door]
You okay?
Yep, I'm fine.
Did I hear Amy?
She set up for the party.
[wincing]
Honey, just stay in bed, okay?
She can match decorations
without you.
Mom will throw a fit
if she finds out I'm
making Amy do all the work.
[wincing]
[Danielle] Hey.
Hey.
[drawer slides]
[Danielle] Here you go.
Thank you.
[Amy] Aw, thank you.
So, who's coming tomorrow?
[Danielle] Uh, it's just us.
And Misty and Rob and mom.
Oh, uh, dad's coming too.
What the fuck?
It's her 25th sobriety
anniversary.
It's a big deal.
Mom will like it.
Yeah, if he shows.
I thought it would
be a nice gesture.
And it would be nice to have
the whole family together.
[Amy laughs]
LOL's, the whole family.
She did leave him.
He left us first.
Pat thought it
was a good idea.
I said you should do
what you thought was right.
-Trader!
-[chuckles]
Oh, poster.
Yeah, I'll get it.
Of course, Mom would
have you do this
two weeks after your surgery.
And of course you would say yes.
[Danielle] Ah.
She does not know.
What?
I didn't tell her,
or Misty and Rob.
See, that makes you
and Pat so special.
[sighs] You have to tell her.
-No, I don't.
-[Amy] Yes, you do.
You think she's not gonna notice
when your tits are gone
in two months?
She'll be happy I'm skinnier.
You have to tell her.
Yo.
Listen, we can make her a card
and it can be like,
"Hey, Mama, congratulations
on your sobriety.
Oh, and PS, I just had all my
reproductive organs removed.
Ta-da!"
[joyfully sarcastic noises]
Then she'll probably accuse
me of stealing her thunder.
-Well, this we know this.
-[both laughing]
-[Pat] Got it.
-[spirited music]
Uh-uh, uh-uh.
[sighs]
-Here we go.
-No, no, no, no, no.
-Look at it.
-I can't, I can't.
I can't, I can't, I'm sorry.
This is our family history.
Oh my god, I can't.
It was dad's wedding
present to us.
Nobody on eBay bid on it.
I can't.
I can't.
I can't.
Where do you wanna hang it?
Uh, let me see.
[Danielle gasps]
How much pain medication
is she taking?
She won't take any.
Bitch!
Take it.
Or give it to me.
You have your own stash, okay?
Listen, you guys, I
am perfectly fine,
and tomorrow is gonna
be 100% painless.
[contemplative music]
[Danielle] Just act normal.
Everything's fine.
I'm okay.
It's okay.
-[Rob] Hey, hey.
-Hey, Misty.
-Hey.
-Hey.
-You brought cake.
-[Misty] Hi, Amy.
I got the monster
manual in the car
in case you guys wanna knock
out some of the campaign.
Cool.
My mom doesn't play.
Yeah, we can teach her.
I'm gonna put this
in the kitchen.
Hey, Amy.
[Bryce] Hello, I'm here.
I'm coming through.
Enter stage right.
-Ha, ha!
-[Danielle laughs]
My baby girl.
-I'm not late, am I?
-Oh, no.
You came just in time.
Oh, good.
Ah.
Oh, what a handsome devil.
Yee-haw!
Thank you very much.
Thank you.
You know, that is a
collector's item.
It goes for thousands on eBay.
Oh my god.
Wow, really?
-Yeah.
-We never take it down.
Hey, big guy.
-How are you?
-How are you?
Hey, you know, you should
sell that thing.
Buy a new car.
Ah.
We should think about that.
Good, good, yeah.
Hey, Amy, look who's here.
[Bryce] Hey, baby girl.
Have you lost some weight?
Cancer.
Well, that'll do it.
Oh, look, you brought
wine to a sobriety party.
It's fine, it's fine.
I'll just go put it in the room
with the rest of the booze.
No, no, no.
I might want a drink.
You know, I'm not the
booze hound in this family.
Dad, you remember
Misty, right?
Hey.
Yeah, Missy, how could I forget?
-Misty.
-[Danielle] Okay, I'll be right
back.
I just re-watched
your whole show.
-Yeah.
-Season 5.
It was...
It was epic.
Oh.
You want a selfie there?
Oh my god, if it's not
too much trouble.
[Bryce] No, no, we're
all family here.
[Misty] Okay.
[Bryce faintly speaking]
-[Bryce] Yes.
-[Misty laughing]
-[Bryce] Yes.
-[Misty laughing]
[Bryce] Candie, I don't
understand what's going on.
[Candie] Quiet.
I'm six months sober.
[Bryce] Well, sorry,
I didn't know.
[Candie] Because
you don't listen.
[Bryce] Nah, one toast
won't kill you.
It's a great role.
I wanna celebrate.
[Candie] No.
Now, please go.
[Bryce] Candie.
-[door slams]
-Candie.
Why wouldn't she let him in?
He wanted to celebrate with us.
He didn't even ask about us.
Because she closed
the door on him.
[door creaks open]
[grandmother] Hello, girls.
-[Candie] Hello,
everybody.
-Shit.
Hi, Mama, happy soberversary.
Thank you.
I'm gonna put this right here.
This would be perfect.
Oh, my baby girl.
Oh.
Have you taken your three doses?
The last one's before bed.
Oh, right.
And Danielle is taking you
to your appointment
on Monday, right?
Yeah.
Did she ever get you
those soaps we talked about?
Hey, mom.
Oh, sweetheart.
Hi.
Oh, look at you.
She's so skinny.
You are a little pale.
I have some lotion in my purse.
I'm fine, I'm fine.
Happy soberversary!
Don't ever forget
how lucky you are
you still have your sister.
I know, Mom.
I know.
[Danielle] Jesus Christ, is that
me and great Uncle Maurice?
This is my vision board.
It's the happiest moments
I can remember.
Oh, is that how a
vision board works?
He groped me at my
12th birthday party.
I told you that.
Look how precious you look.
Can you please take it off?
He's been dead for decades.
[sighs]
Let's see, let's see.
-But look at this.
-[card flapping]
Look at this.
This will be just with this
right over his little kisser.
Huh?
All better.
Hey, darling.
Bryce.
[laughs]
What are you doing here?
I couldn't miss
your special day.
20 years sober?
That's a hell of a thing.
-That's even better.
[laughs] Uh, for you.
Wow, gorgeous.
Costco?
Yes.
[Candie chuckles]
Oh my goodness.
-[laughs]
-Welcome.
Thank you.
[lips smacking]
[gentle bright music]
[Candie] Whoo!
Okay.
Let's have a party.
[Candie laughs]
Let's have a party.
Come on, let's have a party.
Who wants cake?
-Yeah, bro.
-Me, me, me.
Oh!
Ladies first.
[Candie] Yep.
[guests faintly speaking]
[faint chattering]
I am fine.
[Pat] This is the
best [indistinct].
[guests faintly speaking
and laughing]
You know what?
Screw it.
[spirited percussive music]
[Misty] Come on, just one line.
Just the one line.
Oh, no, no.
[laughs]
[Misty] Danielle, I'm so
jealous.
My dad is a real
estate attorney.
Imagine how fun Bryce would
be at grandparents' day.
You still have to have
some kids first.
Come on, come on, come on.
[Misty] Did you know
you're a meme?
What's a meme?
[Candie laughs]
That one's my favorite.
Oh.
Oh, would you look at this?
Put it there.
Oh, that's just
the babysitter.
You can ignore it.
You feeling okay, baby girl?
I'm fine.
Do do you want some tea?
Danielle could make it.
I'm not nauseous, Mom.
I'm fine.
[sighs]
[]
[glass tinkling]
Can I have everyone's
attention, please?
Today we are here to honor
[Candie chuckles]
a very special woman
whose strength and courage
and demanding presence
has always been [sighs] at
the forefront of our lives.
Our mother, Candie.
[Amy] Mom, you really taught
us what a beautiful,
protective, connected,
loving family look like.
And then when we turned
off "The Brady Bunch,"
there was you.
-[Danielle sighs]
-So, thank you for you.
Thank you.
Thank you, sweetheart.
[sighs]
[slurping]
Why don't we all go
around the table and say
how much mom has contributed
to our lives?
Well, that's a fine
idea, baby girl.
You go first.
Oh.
Well, thanks for having me.
I'd like to thank Danielle
and Pat for hosting this
and for this delicious cake.
It's really good.
It's GD good.
Huh?
You know, back in the old days,
oh, Candie and I, we,
let's just say that the
party never stopped.
Right?
Until your sister Ruth died.
And that day marked
a change in you.
It was the beginning
of a whole new journey,
and you just got rid
of everything
that was toxic in your life.
Pew!
Including me.
[Bryce laughs]
Candie, I know that there's
an awful lot of regrets,
but I always have seen
you as somebody
who made the right call.
Eventually.
That's better than some.
That's better than most.
[Amy] Danny, you go next.
[]
-Can we just go clockwise?
-[Candie chuckles]
Danielle, don't be difficult.
Yeah, Danny.
Tell mommy what she
needs to hear.
[Bryce] Just talk.
You know, share the impact
that she's had on you.
[chuckles]
BRCA mutation.
[Amy chuckles]
What?
Are you drunk?
[snorts]
No.
You are drunk at my
sobriety party.
[laughs]
[clears throat]
[Candie] And you're acting like
12 year olds.
It's really selfish, Danielle.
I am not drunk.
I am high on opiate
pain medication.
What, for what?
[Misty] Danielle, what
does that mean?
Nothing.
-I...
-Something happened?
What?
Honey, let's get
you some coffee.
More coffee, anyone?
It's shade-grown Costa Rican.
-Yes, please.
-Danielle, what did you do?
[Misty] Oh my god, did you
get the surgery?
Surgery, what surgery?
She had all her
organs removed.
-What?
-What?
[Bryce] Not all of them?
She'd be dead.
[Danielle] No, it's nothing.
I just... [laughs]
Yeah, you did.
How could you do that?
Misty, shut up.
You told Amy, but not me?
[table bangs]
She's my sister.
-[table bangs]
-God damn it!
I'm her mother,
and I wanna know
what's going on.
[chair sliding]
I should have gotten
you a card.
[Danielle laughs]
You need some water?
Nope.
Danielle, what did you do?
What did you do?
[sobs]
[door slams]
[Candie] For fuck's
sake, Bryce.
Where the hell were you?
[Bryce] Girls can hear you.
Calm down!
[Candie] I don't give
a shit if the girls hear!
[sobbing]
-[somber music]
-[Danielle crying]
[screen door clicks open]
[screen door clicks shut]
Your mother's gone already?
Oh, yeah.
She's gonna be okay, right?
She always takes
care of herself.
Yeah.
Whereas your daughters
are dealing with
cancer-related medical issues.
Well, your sister
has cancer too.
I'm so confused.
No, we both have
the gene mutation
and she is getting preventative
surgery,
so she does not get cancer.
Oh.
What you women go
through with your bodies.
[clicks tongue]
It's amazing.
Well, life's a mystery.
Men can get this mutation too.
But you got this from
your mother though, right?
Mom did not get any
genetic testing.
She's a little tired then.
But Aunt Ruth...
[clicks tongue] Done and dusted,
so, yes, life is definitely a
mystery.
[birds chirping]
Wow.
[Bryce sighs]
How you doing?
[gentle somber music]
Well, chemo sucks.
Yeah, but you're okay.
All the women in this
family, strong.
What are you doing,
Monday at two?
Wanna come to chemo with me?
Sure, kiddo.
Sounds like fun.
[]
It's a date.
[Pat] So, what does this next
surgery involve?
[doctor] Well, I will connect
you with a breast surgeon
and a plastic surgeon.
In the meantime, let's
order you a breast MRI.
Why don't we do a breast
exam and discuss?
[paper gown rustling]
[doctor] For the mastectomy,
the breast surgeon will remove
all of your breast tissue.
It's a great surgical
option for breast cancer.
I don't have cancer.
[doctor] Ah, yes, of course.
That's right.
Hands behind your head, please.
You two will have some
decisions to make
regarding reconstruction,
implants or using your own
tissue.
And, of course, size.
[Pat] They're different sizes.
-I...
-[doctor] Mm-hmm.
[Pat] Of course, they're
different size.
I haven't decided.
[doctor] There is
also the option
of having no breast
reconstruction.
Meet with both surgeons
and start thinking about
what would work for you guys.
Okay, we're done.
[paper gown rustling]
[gentle spirited music]
What?
That one irritate
your incisions?
It's fine.
Lace me up.
[Danielle sighs]
Misty and Rob?
Oh, they had a thing.
[sighs] They did not.
I'm sure it'll blow over.
Some people just don't
do well with conflict
outside a fancy role
playing setting.
Maybe we should have
challenged them to a joust.
Okay.
All set.
No, come on.
You have to pull it.
It has to be tight.
I can't get the leverage.
-Okay.
-Just do it, all right?
All right, okay.
All right, you ready?
-Deep breath.
-[inhales]
[zipping]
Ow.
-[bright music]
-[crowd laughing]
[Pat] How you doin', Lass?
It's probably good that
Misty and Rob aren't here.
They'd be mad at me for
not wearing my costume.
Oh, I miss it.
[gasps] Oh, look at hers.
Hmm, elaborate.
So what do you think?
[Pat] What, her costume?
What about that one?
More your style.
Well, I don't think that
would look good on me at all.
Not the dress, the boobs.
-What?
-You heard the doctor.
We've got boob choices to make.
Yeah, but that should be
based on your preference.
Yeah, but think about it.
How many men get to
pick the exact size
and shape of their wife's boobs?
I hope not that many.
[gasps] What about hers?
I...
Uh, I don't know.
Give me information.
You're a man.
You have to have a favorite
kind of boobs.
No, no, boobs are
like french fries.
There are no bad kinds,
and you're always
happy to see 'em.
But everyone has a preference.
My preference is that
you are alive and healthy
and sharing this mead with me.
Honey, please.
You're always saying you wanna
help me get through this.
I'm trying to do everything
you need.
Well, I need you to
give me an honest opinion
on women's breasts.
I like 'em just fine, madam.
[]
I'm getting another mead.
[bright music]
[sighs]
[crowd chattering]
[children laughing]
[somber music]
[wind blowing]
Hey, stranger.
[giggles]
What are you doing here?
I decided to come hang out
and give you a ride home.
Mmm.
Let me guess.
Dad's not coming.
You know what?
At least he thought to call me.
He could have just
left you here.
You know, I'm really
tired of giving him credit
for literally doing
the bare minimum.
I can't believe that I
asked him to come here.
[laughs]
I can't believe that you invited
him to the freaking party.
He's our dad.
I have cancer.
Yeah.
I'm really sorry.
What are you doing
for yourself lately?
[Danielle] Since when?
Since you had half
of your organs removed?
[laughs] I don't know.
Oh, I did take a bath when
I could finally take a bath
without soaking the stitches.
[Amy chuckles]
-That's hygiene, you dumbass.
-[laughs]
It's not indulgence.
I steal things.
What?
Mm-hmm, I steal things.
From where?
[Amy] The pharmacy.
What, like drugs?
No, come on.
No.
Like, chopstick,
or a toothbrush,
or toothpaste, or other
little things that are useful.
Why?
Because the world
did this to me.
I would never do anything
that would directly
hurt someone, obviously.
You know?
But I feel like the world owes
me some fucking chocolate.
Like, a little bit of chocolate.
When I can keep it down,
it'll be delightful.
And it really makes
you feel better.
Yeah.
It does.
Well, I don't wanna
steal anything
because you know that
I would get caught.
[both laugh]
-You would get caught.
-Yep.
What do you want?
[gentle bright music]
Uh...
I just wanna feel normal again.
You know?
I wanna be able to stay healthy
so I can take care of you.
[chomps]
Take care of you.
And I just...
I wanna feel like my
body works like normal.
I just want everything to
go back to the way it was.
I love you.
I love you.
[Danielle sighing]
[gentle lively music]
[exhales]
[blows]
[gentle lively music continues]
[strip peeling]
[exhales]
[gentle playful music]
[Pat] Hey, honey, I'm back.
[sighs]
[gentle spirited music]
[Pat] Honey, did you see this?
[exhales]
[gentle upbeat music]
Hi, there.
Wow.
Hello.
I did see that bill
and I called insurance.
It's all [whispers] in-network.
Why are you using
your sexy voice?
Because I also called
Dr. Morgan
and he confirmed that six
weeks is enough time to wait.
Oh, yeah.
For what?
Six weeks is plenty of time
for my vaginal cuff to heal
for lightly penetrative
activity.
Babe, you know, lightly
penetrative is not my style.
I think after six weeks,
you'll take what you can get.
-Hell, yeah, I will.
-[Danielle chuckles]
[Danielle] Should we turn off
the lights?
I think we should.
Okay.
[lamp clicks]
All right.
What, what's wrong?
-Nothing.
-Okay.
[kisses]
Hey, we don't have to rush.
No, I'm okay.
-Are you sure?
-Honey, it's fine.
It's fine.
Okay.
Okay.
[Danielle sucks teeth]
Just keep going.
There's a little bit of pain.
-It's fine.
-Maybe we should stop.
No, no, no, no, no.
We need to do this now.
It's okay, we can just--
No, damn it, yes, we
need to keep going.
I need to know if I can
still have sex, okay?
Hey, hey, whoa.
-Not like this, okay?
-[Danielle sighs]
[sighs]
What?
What is going on?
I just, it hurts.
I can't.
We're never gonna be
able to have sex again.
It just like, they're
gonna cut off my breasts
and it feels like
they just keep taking
more and more of me away,
and every time.
I just feel like I'm not
gonna be me when they stop.
-We'll work out, okay?
-[Danielle sighs]
-It's gonna be okay.
-No.
[melancholic music]
[sighs]
[birds chirping]
[footsteps]
-[Amy] What?
-What?
Hey, why are you getting a late
notice on your car payment?
I paid this last week.
The bank shows it cleared.
-[Amy coughing]
-I'll double check on it.
Oh, I swear to God, if
cancer doesn't kill me,
the chemo will.
[Amy sighs]
You okay?
[imitates vomiting]
[chomps]
Do you know about the
Ship of Theseus?
The Greek legend?
Really?
-Yes.
-No.
They wanted to preserve
Theseus' ship,
but some of the planks
had rotted,
so they replaced them.
The question is, how
much can be replaced
and still be the
Ship of Theseus?
You know that surgery doesn't
change who you are, right?
Yeah, I know.
[sighs]
You remember when
we used to joke
about being grateful to mom
for giving us such
magnificent boobs?
[both laughing]
Oh, god, yes.
Boobs that give you cancer.
Oh, they looked fantastic.
[Amy] Mm.
God.
Mom's still do.
Bitch.
Biatch.
[Pat] Surprise!
What? [laughs]
That's amazing.
Oh my gosh.
I love it.
Thank you, It looks great.
Oh.
You know what?
Hmm?
This is gonna suck.
I know.
It's not fair.
[sighs]
I mean, I guess it's
definitely more fair
than constantly being afraid
of getting breast
cancer like Amy.
I don't wanna be afraid
all the time.
I know.
[exhales]
Man, I'm gonna miss these
gorgeous boobs.
Oh. [laughs]
Oh, well, should I, like,
apologize to you
-about this too?
-What?
No.
I just...
No, I was...
I don't know how to
respond to that.
I thought I was saying
something nice.
That was nice.
I don't know.
-It's not?
-I don't know.
You know what, no, I
shouldn't have said anything.
That was dumb.
-Okay.
-Okay.
Thank you so much.
[gurney rolling]
-[machine beeping]
-[pensive music]
[young Amy] Oh, here.
[young Danielle]
Maybe right here.
[smearing noise]
[laughs] Very good.
It's GD good.
[chewing noise]
-Got it.
-There.
[pensive music continues]
[inhales and moans]
Hey, you're okay.
Everything's okay.
Pat?
[both] They're aggressive
getting the tissue.
Okay.
They're aggressive getting
the tissue out
and the expanders are in.
[sighs]
I don't wanna look.
[sighs]
It's okay.
[Amy] Hi, this is Amy.
Leave a message.
-Mwah!
-[voicemail beeps]
[Danielle] It's Danielle again.
Call me back, okay?
Please.
[sighs]
-[knocking on door]
-[groans]
[Pat] What's wrong?
You still upset you can't
make it to Amy's again today?
Yes.
Did she like the soup?
Yeah, she said so.
Did she also say why she
isn't answering her phone?
Did something happen?
Is she okay?
'Cause I can go check on her.
Everything's fine.
She's good.
But?
She wants you to read this
before you try to call again.
Great. [sighs]
So now even my own sister
doesn't wanna talk to me.
I should never have
done any of this.
Oh, it was supposed to help
me be able to help her,
and now I'm lying here
like a useless lump.
I'll be in the kitchen
if you need me.
-[Danielle sighs]
-[footsteps leaving]
[somber music]
[paper rustling]
[Amy] " Hey, Dee,
hope you're okay.
I mean, obviously, you're
not, and everything sucks.
And none of us are gonna live
to see the heat death
of the universe,
but maybe you're at least
eating, or whatever.
I wish I could be there to
help you out through this.
But as it turns out,
I have cancer.
Instead, I'm gonna help
you out another way,
by making you leave
me the hell alone."
[sighs]
[Danielle crying]
[Amy] "What you need right now
is to take care of yourself.
And it's never gonna
happen if you're too busy
wiping puke off my bathroom
floor when I miss the toilet.
Mom's annoying.
But if anything major happens,
she'll be here for me.
So you're going straight
to voicemail from now on.
I love you sis.
Oh, PS, leave as many
messages you want,
at any time that you want.
Tiny heart, smiley face,
tiny heart, tiny heart.
Love you."
-[somber music continues]
-[birds chirping]
[Danielle] Hey, Amy, it's
Danielle.
So, I guess you really meant
it.
God, you're an asshole.
[]
Danielle, again.
I tried to take a walk today.
Almost made it to the
end of my block
before nearly passing out.
Everything is on fire.
Sorry, I called you an asshole.
Hey, Amy, I miss you.
I somehow managed 10,000
steps today
and I think it's hurting less,
or at least I'm able to breathe
without my chest feeling
like it's being crushed
by a thousand-pound boulder.
I hope you're okay.
I still haven't decided
whether I'm going through
with the breast implants.
I might just have them take out
the expanders and stay flat.
I keep thinking that
I'm almost back to okay,
but then every morning,
it still feels like I wake
up in someone else's body.
So, who knows?
-[birds chirping]
-[sighs]
You can do this.
You can do this, Danielle.
I'm okay.
It's okay.
[phone buzzing]
[sighs]
Hey, dad.
[Bryce] Oh, hey darling.
Did you see the "Horseman
Marathon" last week?
They had me film some
intro banter.
I thought it could have been
written better, of course.
No, I didn't see it, dad.
I was recovering from surgery.
[Bryce] What?
Another surgery?
How many organs are
left to be removed?
[laughs]
It was my breasts, remember?
Oh.
Oh, I...
Oh, that's right.
Just make sure that's...
How's Pat doing with
all of this?
Are you gonna be doing
some enhancements?
I'm sorry, what?
I... [chuckles]
I'm not even sure I'm gonna
do reconstruction, Dad.
[Bryce]
Oh, Danielle, you know,
breasts are
very important to men.
And, you know,
you should
talk to Pat about this.
I know it's a sensitive subject,
but it's important that he's
a big part of this decision.
You know what, Dad?
It's my body, so I'm the
one that gets to decide.
I gotta go.
-[somber music]
-[sighs]
[visor mirror sliding]
[man] And I'm really grateful
to still be here,
and I mark everyone's support
as the reason for that.
Thank you.
-[woman] Thanks.
-Thanks, Todd.
-[group] Thanks, Todd.
-[man] Thanks, Todd.
[Candie] I'm Candie.
-[Candie laughs]
-[man] Hi, Candie.
I am 25 years sober.
-[crowd applauding]
-[man] Yeah.
Thank you. [laughs]
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
[phone buzzing]
So I've been thinking a lot
about when I first got sober.
[pills clattering]
Sorry, I'm...
I'm sorry.
[Candie] Danielle.
Danielle!
I'm sorry, I shouldn't
have come.
No, you should not have come,
unless you're addicted
to whatever it is
you spilled all over the floor
in front of a room
full of addicts.
It was just Motrin.
What on earth are
you doing here?
I wanted to apologize for
making a scene at the party.
And now here.
Oh, wow.
That is so like you.
What?
What do you mean?
You know what I mean.
You get so fixated
on your situation,
you ride rough shot over
everyone else's.
I mean, this is an AA
meeting for God's sake.
Why do you always assume I
have the worst motivations?
It's just like when
you were little.
Your dad was gone,
and I had to miss out on so
many of Amy's recitals and games
because you were too hungry
or you were too tired
or you were too scared
of the babysitter.
Amy had to miss out on so much
because you needed this
or you needed that.
Mom, I was six.
Well, you are an adult now,
and your sister needs
you so much
in this horrible,
horrible time in her life
but you can't be there for her
because you had to have
the surgeries right now.
I'm not telling you
this to upset you.
[sighs]
I am telling you this
so that maybe you wouldn't
have to learn the hard way.
What is that supposed
to mean, mom?
What is the hard way?
I mean like Ruth.
What?
Bryce and I were on
location in Mexico
and we would drink till noon,
and then he'd shoot
till midnight,
and then we'd drink till dawn.
-[somber music]
-And Ruth would call
and call and call the hotel.
But I always thought she
was gonna lecture me,
that she was trying to
ruin my good time.
Mexico.
The summer that we went to camp?
When she died?
You told us it happened
suddenly.
She was alone in
the hospital...
...for six days.
But...[laughs]
I never answered her calls,
so I didn't know.
[sobs]
No, don't, don't
let me tell you.
I'm gonna tell you.
I didn't know that she had
died until I came home.
And I can't believe
that you want Amy
to go through the same thing.
It's so god damn selfish.
Mom, I love Amy.
Okay?
I always have, I have
always taken care of her.
I've always been there
for her, and for you.
Hell, I've even been
there for dad.
When the fuck is someone
in his family
gonna be there for me?
I am getting ripped to shreds.
Is that not enough?
I should not have come.
[somber music]
[clicks tongue]
[door slams shut]
Pat?
[Pat] You're getting rid of
all this stuff, aren't you?
[somber music]
[Danielle] I just wanna bury
the past and move forward.
[Pat] I'll help you.
Ah, maybe it's something
I should do on my own.
On your own or
just without me?
What do you mean?
Nothing.
No, tell me.
Seriously, it's nothing.
Forget it.
You know, you've been
acting like everything's fine.
If you're not fine, you
need to tell me.
How could I be fine?
You know what I mean.
You've been so calm and
quiet about everything.
It's actually been
kind of annoying.
I just thought you wanted to
talk to Amy about everything
or keep it to yourself
like the ultrasound scare.
Felt like everything I
said was the wrong thing,
so I just kept my mouth shut.
I thought I was giving you the
support you needed from me.
I needed you to stand up
for me at my mom's party.
I needed you to tell me what
kind of boobs you liked.
I need you to be honest with me.
I don't wanna cause
any more stress.
Cause me stress?
I need to know what
you're thinking.
I can't.
Pat.
[]
How can I be selfish
when you're the one
going through everything?
It is not selfish.
You couldn't be selfish
if you tried.
That's why I married you.
Now fucking tell
me how you feel.
I really wanted kids.
I wanted our kids.
I wanted the future that we
pictured since we got married.
And then it all went
away so fast.
I felt like I couldn't
say anything.
But I asked you if
you would resent me
and you said no.
I don't resent you.
You said saving your
life was more important
than having biological kids.
What kind of an asshole
argues with that?
[Danielle sighs]
Wow.
Thank you for finally
being honest.
I need that.
I need you to do that.
I don't want you to
do this on your own.
I want us to bury the
past together.
I want us to be in
this together.
We'll bury it together.
And I have something
to tell you,
and I haven't even talked
to Amy about it yet,
but I've decided that I wanna
do the breast reconstruction.
I've tried being fine
how I am, but I just...
I miss me.
And I honestly don't even care
what kind of french fries
you like anymore
-[Pat laughs]
-because I like french fries.
You're amazing.
I know.
-[Pat chuckling]
-[lips smacking]
Pat, why don't you go
see a movie or something?
Or go take a nap, or
get really drunk?
You're starting to look like
you need to be in the
gown more than me.
Ah, I'm fine.
Oh, you went to work at
4:00 AM, you're exhausted.
I'm calling in back up.
[nurse] Ready to go, ma'am?
[gentle pensive music]
[Muffled] 100.
[Muffled] 99.
[Muffled] 98.
[spirited music]
[brooding music]
[]
[young Danielle giggling]
[silent dialogue]
[machine beeping]
[birds chirping]
[gentle contemplative music]
[]
Are you okay, baby girl?
[sighs] Mom?
You're here.
Yes,
I'm here.
Look who else is here.
[Danielle gasps]
Hi.
What do you think?
-So pretty.
-[Amy chuckles]
You came.
Of course, I'm here, dumbass.
Pat, where's Pat?
I told him we had it covered.
We might have put some
Xanax in his tea.
-[Pat snoring]
-Oh, good, good.
-[laughing]
-[Danielle] Thank you.
I did good?
You did great.
[gentle solemn music]
I am so sorry, Danielle.
I love you.
[gentle solemn music continues]
So this is me now.
[chuckles]
[gentle uplifting music]
[Amy] Hey, Dee.
[Danielle chuckling]
Who'd you invite today?
Um, Rob and Misty.
And Dad?
I didn't ask him.
Finally.
[both chuckling]
[gentle bright music]
No more walking away instead
of telling you how I feel.
No more pretending
I'm okay when I'm not.
We're awesome.
-We're okay.
-[Pat chuckles]
[gentle bright music continues]
[Danielle sighs]
[dirt sifting]
[Danielle laughing]
For Amy, a Rogue character
in fashionable chinos.
For Candie, a Bard
in velour robes.
Oh, does that mean
I can do spells? [chuckles]
Not exactly.
We'll explain the rules.
And for you.
Aw, you gave her armor!
[Pat] She always
should've had it.
[Danielle] Rob is gonna say
sorceresses can't cast an armor.
Tell him it's mithril.
[knocking on door]
Speaking of.
[door creaks open]
Hey, guys.
Hey, girl, hey.
Listen, the new edition
of the spell book
completely nerfs firethorn.
But don't worry, we're
gonna figure it out.
-Hey.
-[Danielle] Come on in.
By the way, I was
doing a little research
and I found the absolute
best website
for fast-tracking adoption.
I'll text you a link.
Misty, I love you,
but I need you to stop.
Okay, Danielle.
Misty, you're finally here.
I need help with this taco bowl.
Come on.
Aw.
[Rob] I get that.
I know it sounds like
it's complicated at first,
but once you get the hang
of it, it's pretty easy.
I mean, okay.
Wait, I rolled it, so
why can't I just keep it?
Okay, well, that roll
is for initiative.
So now what you have to do
is you have to roll for
the Song of Merriment,
and then, of course,
you roll for damage
and you've add your
joy modifier.
I just wanna be a wizard.
[Misty and Amy laughing]
[Rob] Danielle, it is your
choice.
Do we head down the
path Crystal Cavetrolls
or into the Forest of
Infinite Pollen?
Ooh, I cast Antihistamine
Shields.
Everybody, follow me.
Okay, was not anticipating
that.
Time to roll for initiative.
[]
[crowd cheering and applauding]
[Rob] Long time.
Is it over?
No, it just started.
-[group laughing]
-Oh.
No, we just started.
-[group laughing]
-[gentle bright music]
What?
[Danielle laughing]
Where'd you get those lights?
It's a secret.
[]
-[gentle bright music continues]
-[giggles]
I moved to California
In the summer time
I changed my name thinking
That it would change my mind
I thought that all my
problems they would stay
behind
I was a stick of dynamite
And it was just a matter
Of time yeah
[whispers] We're waiting in
the waiting room
to go into pre-op.
I think I'm ready to not
have surgeries anymore.
It's always scary going
under anesthesia.
I love you both.
[Speaker] We love you both.
And we both love you.
[Speaker 2] All three of you .
And it's all right
It's okay it's okay
It's okay it's okay
If you're lost we're
All a little lost
And it's all right
It's all right
It's all right
It's all right
It's all right
I am super excited
because I'm about to go into
my plastic surgeon's office
to have my first expander fill,
which is, like, the first step
to having my reconstruction.
I drove through
Yellow lights
And don't look back at all
[doctor] One, two,
three, poke.
Ooh, that's it.
-[Danielle] All right.
-[doctor] That's the worst part.
-Okay?
-[Danielle] Oh good.
[whispers] I sort of have
boobs.
Look at that.
[Speaker 3] Oh my goodness.
Don't know why I take the
Tightrope and cry when I fall
Oh dang oh my now
I can't hide
Said I knew what I
Wanted but I guess I lied
It's okay it's okay
It's okay it's okay
If you're lost we're
All a little lost
And it's all right
It's okay it's okay
It's okay it's okay
If you're lost we're
All a little lost
And it's all right
It's all right
It's all right it's all
Right it's all right
It's all right
It's all right
[]
[bright music]
[man] Yes, genes do sometimes
change.
Heredity changes.
The changes are called
mutations.
Such changes down
through the ages
of the basis of evolution.
On rare occasions, nature
strikes a wrong key.
[bright music continues]
About once in 100,000
generations or more,
a gene doesn't copy
itself exactly.
Once a gene does change,
it can be passed on only
in its new form.
It becomes a regular part of
heredity from that time on.
[bright music continues]
[silent dialogue]
[]
[silent dialogue]
[phone buzzing]
[Dr. Morgan] Danielle,
you've tested positive
for the BRCA1 gene mutation.
Unfortunately, that
means your lifetime risk
of developing breast cancer
is between 60% and 85%.
Now, I know that you said that
your mother has been clear,
but given your sister's recent
breast cancer diagnosis--
Yeah, and my aunt.
My late aunt, she died from
ovarian cancer when she was 43.
[clears throat] My
recommendation is a bilateral
salpingo oophorectomy,
complete removal of
fallopian tubes,
[in distant voice] ovaries,
total hysterectomy,
and any preventative
double mastectomy.
We can delay some
of the surgeries
until after having children
or after going egg
freezing process.
Egg freezing process.
Egg fertilization, your
husband's sperm.
Surrogate carriers, mastectomy.
Expanders.
With ovarian cancer,
there are no reliable
screening methods,
so it's usually diagnosed
in its later stages
when it's treatable
but not curable.
Important thing right now
is to not feel overwhelmed.
-[car door slams shut]
-[papers rustling]
-[sobs]
-[somber music]
Stay calm for Pat.
[inhales]
I'm okay.
It's okay.
[children faintly speaking]
I don't even like lollipops.
Those had cancer.
[]
[Danielle] I know we were
planning to start trying
as soon as Amy is better,
but now I'm not sure
it can wait.
Should we really be
having this conversation
-on the phone?
-[children laughing]
Where are you?
[Danielle] I'm at a park
by the doctor's office,
but I'm heading back
to work soon.
Danielle, no.
I can have Rena cover
the books for today.
You and I are both heading
straight home
to talk about this in person.
[Danielle] Okay.
I'll be a little late though.
I'm gonna stop off to
pick stuff up for tonight.
We're not still doing tonight.
Of course we are, Pat.
Danielle, it's
just game night.
You need time to process.
Take a long bath, open
a bottle of wine.
Canceling is rude.
[Pat] Honey, rude takes kind of
a backseat to a medical crisis.
But if it make you feel
better to have people over...
-Will it make you feel better?
-[Danielle sighs]
-[children laughing]
-[birds chirping]
[]
[dice clattering]
[man] There's an amulet
on the floor.
Do you pick it up?
Oh.
[Rob] Babe, do you pick it up?
[Misty] Yes, fine,
I pick it up.
[Rob] Ooh, you slip on
polished marble,
breaking your last remaining
good arm and one of your legs.
-Bullshit!
-[door creaks open]
This sucks.
-That's the game.
-Can I be game master?
-[Rob] No.
-[Misty] Let me see those notes.
-Hey, don't worry, I got it.
-Hi.
Oh no, it's fine.
-I don't--
-I said don't worry.
[lips smacking]
[sighs] How are you?
Lasagna stacks are
under the broiler
and I've got the dip out, so
I hope you grab pita chips
'cause Rob's just eating
it with his hands.
Honey.
I talked to Gustavo.
I'm switching to the morning
shift, so I can be here more.
Oh, brought back your favorite,
brown butter cupcakes.
Print some info from
these groups.
They help with this
sort of thing.
Pat, how are you?
[Rob faintly speaking]
It's not about me,
it's about you.
How are you?
I...
[Misty] Missed you.
Hey, Misty.
How's the game?
Oh, no.
[chuckles]
Are you okay?
[Rob] There are two tunnels
before you.
One, smells of sulfur.
The other, rattling chains.
We can play in a bit.
I Googled your WebMD thing.
We've got a lot of
catching up to do.
She cast Cube of Truth.
[Rob] Which tunnel
do you choose?
Ah, we'll take the sulfur one.
Pat can check the chains.
Wait, you don't split
the party up.
You never...
You don't split the party up.
Hey, this is what you
might do to yourself.
You should at least look.
[Doctor] Will be inserted.
Carbon dioxide will be pumped
in and inflate your abdomen,
so there is room to manipulate.
I get the point.
I get the point.
I'm your best friend,
and I'm pregnant, which
makes me very wise.
Listen to me.
Do not do this.
It could save my life.
You know what saved my life?
Kids.
[Misty laughs]
Rob and me, well, you know
what we were like before.
Pat and I have a
great marriage.
Which means you'll
be even better parents.
[sighs]
Think of all those kids out
there with shitty moms and dads
growing up to be shitty
moms and dads.
Um, have you met my mom?
By that logic, I'm doomed.
[chuckles] But she never got
cancer.
Proves my point that
you'll be fine.
I can't believe I have
enough to make this choice.
Just don't do anything
you'll regret,
-[Danielle sighs]
-and you'll regret this.
[]
Oh, god.
[gentle bright music]
[Danielle] Does every female
character
have to be so boob-centric?
[Misty] Yeah, how come
Danielle's lady has a bikini
instead of armor like you guys?
It came that way.
[Rob] She is a sexy sorceress.
That's where she draws
her magic from.
Uh, okay, so it's time for
you to roll for your spell.
-[Dice clattering]
-[Rob] Ooh, weak roll.
Okay.
Your poor magic triggers
Misty's stone scourge,
which spreads from her
neck to her chest.
[Misty] I hate stage
4 stone scourge.
I thought the stone potion
was supposed to stop
the stone curse.
Okay, was I the only person
who was paying attention
when we bought that potion
from the stone merchant?
[slams gameboard]
Why the fuck are our
adventures always like this,
Rob?
-[chair slides]
-Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.
So canceling would've
been rude, huh?
-[sighs]
-[approaching footsteps]
[crickets chirping]
I'm really sorry.
I don't know what to do.
[Danielle sighs]
I know Misty's your best
friend, but she can be a lot.
Yeah, it's just Amy's who I
wanted to talk to about this,
not Misty.
You can talk to me.
I know.
But I need to talk to Amy.
[gentle ethereal music]
[young Danielle] Amy, we're
gonna be late for school.
[young Amy] Danielle,
it's fine.
[gentle ethereal
music continues]
[plastic bag rustling]
[young Danielle] I'm okay.
It's okay.
Who are you talking to?
Nobody.
Your hair looks messy.
I like it that way, Danielle.
[young Amy] Bye, Mom.
[young Danielle] Bye.
[door creaks open]
[door clicks shut]
[knocking on door]
[Danielle] Amy?
[knocking on door]
[door clicks open]
Amy?
[Amy] I'm in here.
Come in.
[keys clattering]
No, I don't mean come
in, come in.
I'm sorry.
Why are you in there?
[Amy] I'm fine.
Are you throwing up again?
Because we can get you a
higher dose of the meds.
[Amy] I'm not throwing up.
Well, why are you in there?
Should I call your doctor?
[Amy] Danielle, stop
acting like mom
and tell me if you have it.
Hey.
Yes.
Well, there go your fantasies
that you were kidnapped
from a really nice family.
[sighs]
[Amy] What are you gonna do?
I'm not telling you till
you tell me what's wrong.
Ugh, I'm just constipated
from these fucking meds.
[wincing] I feel like my ass is
sealed with roofing tar.
You look skinnier.
Yeah, well, if I
never shit again,
then it'll take care of that.
What are you gonna do?
[Danielle sighs]
I don't know.
I have an appointment
with a genetic counselor.
Misty says I should
wait and have kids,
and Pat doesn't have an opinion.
No, Pat has an opinion.
He just hates saying it.
Please don't be a
marriage counselor.
[sighs]
What do you want to do?
Well, I mean, I should wait,
right, don't you think,
for biological kids.
Dee, you've been saving
your baby mobile
your entire life for your
future children.
It was the only thing
that was ever there for me.
I know.
But dead people can't have kids
or harvest their eggs.
[notification rings]
[Amy] Shit.
-[notification rings]
-[grunts]
[gentle somber music]
[Amy] Whew!
[pills clattering]
[sighs]
Oh.
[heavy breathing]
But you have to decide.
And you get to decide.
[Amy sniffs]
Thank you for getting
cancer, so I might not have.
[Amy chuckles]
What are sisters for?
[young Amy] I can't
wait to get boobs.
[young Danielle] Me too.
I'm older, so I get
to get boobs first.
Oh, so unfair.
[]
What are you in for?
Uh, genetic counseling.
Ah.
You?
Mammogram.
Oh.
They should call it mannogram.
Like for man.
[Stan chuckles]
Yeah.
It's actually the
third time here
since I found out I
have the BRCA gene.
[sighs]
First time, I couldn't get
through the intake form
'cause I could not
remember the date
of my last menstrual period.
[both laughing]
The second time, they
brought out the pink robe.
I fled.
This time, I'm gonna
do it for my sister.
God rest her soul.
-I'm sorry.
-I'm sorry.
Stan.
De Man...
Well, it's actually DeManuel,
but big D, little E, big M.
An.
I'm Danielle.
-Big D, little A.
-[nurse] Ms. Bledsoe?
Oh.
That's me.
Okay, Big D.
Good luck.
Thanks.
[nurse] Mrs. DeManuel?
It's mister.
[doctor] Removing your ovaries
and fallopian tubes
will reduce the chance of
you getting ovarian cancer.
And with your BRCA1 gene
mutation and your family
history,
there is evidence that
you may also have
an increased risk of
uterine cancer.
So you may wanna consider
taking out the uterus.
[sighs]
Do you and your partner have
plans for biological children?
[somber music]
So, will I just be,
like, empty then?
I just always thought
that I would get to know what
it felt like to be pregnant
and to give birth
and to be a mom.
[doctor] If you wanna be a mom,
-you absolutely have options.
-[sighs]
IVF, surrogacy, adoption.
Danielle, I know that
this is a lot to digest,
and I'm sorry, your choices
are imperfect options.
But our number one goal
is to keep you healthy
and cancer-free.
Under the current guidelines,
it's advisable to
have this surgery
between the ages of 35 and 40.
And I see here that
you just turned 35.
I could wait until I'm 40?
This is such a personal
decision, Danielle,
and you have to make the
choice that's right for you.
But knowing that your
aunt passed away
from ovarian cancer at age 43,
it would be recommended to
have your fallopian tubes
and your ovaries removed
sooner rather than later.
So we could start trying now.
But will I pass on the mutation?
Well, there are options
to reduce that risk,
and Dr. Brown is a fabulous
fertility specialist
and can answer all
those questions for you.
[bright music]
[Danielle chuckles]
[slurp sound]
Ooh, that's cold.
[laughing]
I am here because
my husband and I
are gonna start trying
to have a baby.
-[Char] How exciting.
-Yeah.
Well, Dr. Brown is great.
[Danielle] I'm excited to make
sure
that everything is working
right in there.
[Char] And I remember when my
husband and I first started
trying.
It's an exciting time.
I have four kids now.
Wow, four.
Enjoy this time.
I certainly will.
[laughs]
I just need to get a
closer look here.
I'm gonna put a little
bit of pressure here
on your abdomen to shift
things around
so I can get a better
look at this ovary.
[exhales] Sure.
You said you were BRCA1
positive, right?
Yes.
All right.
All done.
[Char] You can get dressed now.
Okay.
I'm gonna ask you to wait here
while I show these to
Dr. Brown, okay?
Is something wrong?
[Char] I just want
her to take a look.
Okay.
-[door clicks shut]
-[somber music]
Okay, Dr. Brown is
not available right now,
but she will call you
first thing in the morning.
Are you serious?
What is going on?
Dr. Brown has to read it.
Try not to worry.
[Danielle] What?
And you can't tell me anything?
Is there something there?
Did you see something?
I'm really sorry.
Dr. Brown has to be the one
to discuss this with you.
Sorry.
I got your mail and
brought you some soup.
[Amy] Soup, yay!
Good.
Well, you never eat
solid foods, Amy.
You gotta have some nutrients
and protein,
and no one wants to see a
chicken noodle smoothie.
That's disgusting.
Hey, did you talk to
your genetic counselor
about your fertility options?
Oh, hey!
You got a postcard from
your friend Lindsay.
Hawaii would be really nice
right now, don't you think?
Burn it.
What?
You're not friends anymore?
Uh, cancer.
You know, in the beginning,
it's like a novelty to people
and they bring you casseroles
and you get to watch, like,
all your favorite movies.
And then after a while,
people realize that having
cancer for a long time
gets fucking boring as shit.
That's what family is for.
Mom annoys the shit out of me.
[Danielle] I know.
I swear to God, if it weren't
for you, I'd be dead by now.
Like, for real.
For real, for real.
I promise you I will
always be here.
Not if you get cancer.
[]
Yeah, I know.
I...
I don't want to have
to go through--
-Chemo?
-Yeah.
I do not recommend it.
-Like, it's 1.5 stars.
-[Danielle chuckles]
When you take it, you feel
like you're going to die.
If you don't take it,
you may be dead.
Plus, I don't think the
universe is gonna give it to you
because you would not
look so good bald like me.
So, that's my signature
look for now.
If you knew that a plane had
a 50% chance of crashing,
would you still get on it?
I feel like my ovaries
are ticking time bombs.
[chuckles]
Amy, Pat and I decided
to try for kids.
Dee.
But I went in for an
ultrasound yesterday,
and they found something
weird, I guess.
What the fuck?
Why are you just telling
me this now?
I didn't wanna upset you.
[sighs]
And please, do not say
anything to anyone
because I haven't even told Pat.
Danielle.
Aunt Ruth, okay?
Why haven't they called you yet?
What are they telling you?
They should be calling
me anytime now.
Amy, what if I fucking
already have ovarian cancer?
What if I'm already
on that plane?
[phone ringing]
Oh, shit, it's Pat.
Oh, crap, I'm supposed
to be at work.
Hey, hey, I'm heading
to the bakery now.
What?
No, I put in that
order last week.
I know I did.
Okay, well, I'm on my way.
[sighs]
[phone ringing]
Hello?
Yeah, this is Ms. Bledsoe.
[somber music]
Not great.
I've been worried and waiting
for this call all morning.
So...
okay.
Yeah, I will.
Thank you.
What?
I'm okay.
[Amy sighs]
[Danielle sighs]
It's okay.
It was just a fluid-filled cyst.
[Danielle sighs]
[Danielle] I can't live in
constant fear like this.
And now all this fertility shit?
It takes way too much time.
It's so fucking expensive.
Having kids is your
tip-top priority.
You know that you guys
could try now, right?
[bright music]
Oh my god.
What if Pat had to
raise them alone?
It'd be such a shit show.
[sighs]
[birds chirping]
-[Pat sighs]
-[door clicks shut]
Sorry, I...
I finished the order.
I just never replaced it.
Amy needed me, and
I just forgot.
[Pat] Danielle, we have to
figure something out.
-This can't keep happening.
-[papers rustling]
Should we hire someone else?
No, I'm fine.
I got it.
Listen, I talked to
Amy about the surgery.
[Pat] Of course you did.
What?
How's she doing?
[Danielle] I mean, she's still
got that cancer,
Uh huh
and I don't want it.
I know we had a future in mind,
but I feel like I
have to make sure
that I am still a part
of that future.
Saving my own life has
to be more important
than any hypothetical
biological kids right now.
I would never get on that
plane no matter how badly
-I wanted the trip.
-Whoa, whoa, whoa.
What plane?
Will you resent me?
[sighs]
Danielle, I'm confused.
We were so excited
to start trying.
Are you saying you
definitely don't wanna try
and have kids first?
Well, Amy and I--
So, Amy decides whether
or not we have kids?
[sighs]
They found something
on my ovary
when they did the ultrasound.
-What?
-Yeah.
My god, Danielle,
why didn't you tell me?
I didn't wanna worry you.
This is a huge deal,
and I'm your husband.
Well, it turns out
it's just a cyst.
It's totally benign,
so I don't have cancer.
Yet.
I wish you'd led with that.
The doctor said I could
go on birth control pills,
but that kind of defeats
the purpose
of delaying this surgery.
And what if the next time
it isn't benign?
[melancholic music]
I don't wanna die at 43
like my Aunt Ruth, Pat.
I'm scared.
I have to have this surgery.
If I do it now, will
you resent me?
-[Pat] No, of course not.
-[sighs]
I married you.
My future has to have
a healthy you in it.
Just don't lie to me, okay?
[Pat] Amy says she loves you
and enjoy the gas.
You keep her updated?
Every hour.
And not a word to--
Misty And Rob, I know.
Good.
If she finds out I'm
going through with this,
she'd come crashing into the OR
and steal the scalpel out
of the surgeon's hands.
[gentle serene music]
I am sorry.
I love you.
[bag zipping]
You're Danielle?
Yes.
Please confirm this is
your birthdate and sign here.
And here.
We're taking you to the OR.
Let me check your IV.
I'm Dr. Davies, your
anesthesiologist.
Here's a sedative to get
you nice and comfortable.
Hi.
Does that hurt?
Yes.
[Anesthesiologist] Just a
little or a burning sensation?
A little, I guess.
We're ready to go now.
Wait a second.
Pat.
Pat?
I'm right here,
I'm right here.
[Dr. Davies] You're gonna
start to feel a little sleepy.
-Okay.
-[Dr. Davies] But don't worry,
we won't put you all the way
under till we're in the OR.
I love you.
Love you too.
[Dr. Davies] Nice
deep breaths.
[pensive music]
[Dr. Davies] Nice deep breaths,
Danielle.
Nice deep breaths.
Countdown from a hundred.
-[equipment beeping]
[echoes] 99.
[echoes] 90.
-[pensive music continues]
-[equipment beeping]
[spirited music]
[Candie] Isn't Amy
so beautiful?
[Amy] If you knew that a plane
had a 50% chance of crashing,
would you still get on it?
[Dr. Brown] Do you and
your partner have plans
for biological children?
[Pat] I married you.
My future has to have
a healthy you in it.
[baby cooing]
[baby crying]
[Dr. Morgan] Complete
removal of the fallopian tubes,
ovaries, total hysterectomy.
[baby babbling]
[deep breathes]
[gentle melancholic music]
Oh, Christ.
Oh.
Is that everything?
Yep.
Ooh.
[Amy sighs]
it smells amazing here.
Oh, crap.
Will it make you nauseous?
Surprisingly, no.
And that is my highest
compliment.
I'm honored.
Don't tell me Danny
went to the bakery.
We brought on a temp
to cover the books while
she recovers.
Good.
[paper rustling]
Could you, um...
Yeah, I'll get her.
Thank you.
You okay?
[moans]
[gentle solemn music]
[young Amy] She can't
do a ballerina turn.
She has a fin.
[young Danielle] Oh, yeah.
She'll do it on her head.
[Amy laughs]
Head spin.
Hey. [knocks on door]
You okay?
Yep, I'm fine.
Did I hear Amy?
She set up for the party.
[wincing]
Honey, just stay in bed, okay?
She can match decorations
without you.
Mom will throw a fit
if she finds out I'm
making Amy do all the work.
[wincing]
[Danielle] Hey.
Hey.
[drawer slides]
[Danielle] Here you go.
Thank you.
[Amy] Aw, thank you.
So, who's coming tomorrow?
[Danielle] Uh, it's just us.
And Misty and Rob and mom.
Oh, uh, dad's coming too.
What the fuck?
It's her 25th sobriety
anniversary.
It's a big deal.
Mom will like it.
Yeah, if he shows.
I thought it would
be a nice gesture.
And it would be nice to have
the whole family together.
[Amy laughs]
LOL's, the whole family.
She did leave him.
He left us first.
Pat thought it
was a good idea.
I said you should do
what you thought was right.
-Trader!
-[chuckles]
Oh, poster.
Yeah, I'll get it.
Of course, Mom would
have you do this
two weeks after your surgery.
And of course you would say yes.
[Danielle] Ah.
She does not know.
What?
I didn't tell her,
or Misty and Rob.
See, that makes you
and Pat so special.
[sighs] You have to tell her.
-No, I don't.
-[Amy] Yes, you do.
You think she's not gonna notice
when your tits are gone
in two months?
She'll be happy I'm skinnier.
You have to tell her.
Yo.
Listen, we can make her a card
and it can be like,
"Hey, Mama, congratulations
on your sobriety.
Oh, and PS, I just had all my
reproductive organs removed.
Ta-da!"
[joyfully sarcastic noises]
Then she'll probably accuse
me of stealing her thunder.
-Well, this we know this.
-[both laughing]
-[Pat] Got it.
-[spirited music]
Uh-uh, uh-uh.
[sighs]
-Here we go.
-No, no, no, no, no.
-Look at it.
-I can't, I can't.
I can't, I can't, I'm sorry.
This is our family history.
Oh my god, I can't.
It was dad's wedding
present to us.
Nobody on eBay bid on it.
I can't.
I can't.
I can't.
Where do you wanna hang it?
Uh, let me see.
[Danielle gasps]
How much pain medication
is she taking?
She won't take any.
Bitch!
Take it.
Or give it to me.
You have your own stash, okay?
Listen, you guys, I
am perfectly fine,
and tomorrow is gonna
be 100% painless.
[contemplative music]
[Danielle] Just act normal.
Everything's fine.
I'm okay.
It's okay.
-[Rob] Hey, hey.
-Hey, Misty.
-Hey.
-Hey.
-You brought cake.
-[Misty] Hi, Amy.
I got the monster
manual in the car
in case you guys wanna knock
out some of the campaign.
Cool.
My mom doesn't play.
Yeah, we can teach her.
I'm gonna put this
in the kitchen.
Hey, Amy.
[Bryce] Hello, I'm here.
I'm coming through.
Enter stage right.
-Ha, ha!
-[Danielle laughs]
My baby girl.
-I'm not late, am I?
-Oh, no.
You came just in time.
Oh, good.
Ah.
Oh, what a handsome devil.
Yee-haw!
Thank you very much.
Thank you.
You know, that is a
collector's item.
It goes for thousands on eBay.
Oh my god.
Wow, really?
-Yeah.
-We never take it down.
Hey, big guy.
-How are you?
-How are you?
Hey, you know, you should
sell that thing.
Buy a new car.
Ah.
We should think about that.
Good, good, yeah.
Hey, Amy, look who's here.
[Bryce] Hey, baby girl.
Have you lost some weight?
Cancer.
Well, that'll do it.
Oh, look, you brought
wine to a sobriety party.
It's fine, it's fine.
I'll just go put it in the room
with the rest of the booze.
No, no, no.
I might want a drink.
You know, I'm not the
booze hound in this family.
Dad, you remember
Misty, right?
Hey.
Yeah, Missy, how could I forget?
-Misty.
-[Danielle] Okay, I'll be right
back.
I just re-watched
your whole show.
-Yeah.
-Season 5.
It was...
It was epic.
Oh.
You want a selfie there?
Oh my god, if it's not
too much trouble.
[Bryce] No, no, we're
all family here.
[Misty] Okay.
[Bryce faintly speaking]
-[Bryce] Yes.
-[Misty laughing]
-[Bryce] Yes.
-[Misty laughing]
[Bryce] Candie, I don't
understand what's going on.
[Candie] Quiet.
I'm six months sober.
[Bryce] Well, sorry,
I didn't know.
[Candie] Because
you don't listen.
[Bryce] Nah, one toast
won't kill you.
It's a great role.
I wanna celebrate.
[Candie] No.
Now, please go.
[Bryce] Candie.
-[door slams]
-Candie.
Why wouldn't she let him in?
He wanted to celebrate with us.
He didn't even ask about us.
Because she closed
the door on him.
[door creaks open]
[grandmother] Hello, girls.
-[Candie] Hello,
everybody.
-Shit.
Hi, Mama, happy soberversary.
Thank you.
I'm gonna put this right here.
This would be perfect.
Oh, my baby girl.
Oh.
Have you taken your three doses?
The last one's before bed.
Oh, right.
And Danielle is taking you
to your appointment
on Monday, right?
Yeah.
Did she ever get you
those soaps we talked about?
Hey, mom.
Oh, sweetheart.
Hi.
Oh, look at you.
She's so skinny.
You are a little pale.
I have some lotion in my purse.
I'm fine, I'm fine.
Happy soberversary!
Don't ever forget
how lucky you are
you still have your sister.
I know, Mom.
I know.
[Danielle] Jesus Christ, is that
me and great Uncle Maurice?
This is my vision board.
It's the happiest moments
I can remember.
Oh, is that how a
vision board works?
He groped me at my
12th birthday party.
I told you that.
Look how precious you look.
Can you please take it off?
He's been dead for decades.
[sighs]
Let's see, let's see.
-But look at this.
-[card flapping]
Look at this.
This will be just with this
right over his little kisser.
Huh?
All better.
Hey, darling.
Bryce.
[laughs]
What are you doing here?
I couldn't miss
your special day.
20 years sober?
That's a hell of a thing.
-That's even better.
[laughs] Uh, for you.
Wow, gorgeous.
Costco?
Yes.
[Candie chuckles]
Oh my goodness.
-[laughs]
-Welcome.
Thank you.
[lips smacking]
[gentle bright music]
[Candie] Whoo!
Okay.
Let's have a party.
[Candie laughs]
Let's have a party.
Come on, let's have a party.
Who wants cake?
-Yeah, bro.
-Me, me, me.
Oh!
Ladies first.
[Candie] Yep.
[guests faintly speaking]
[faint chattering]
I am fine.
[Pat] This is the
best [indistinct].
[guests faintly speaking
and laughing]
You know what?
Screw it.
[spirited percussive music]
[Misty] Come on, just one line.
Just the one line.
Oh, no, no.
[laughs]
[Misty] Danielle, I'm so
jealous.
My dad is a real
estate attorney.
Imagine how fun Bryce would
be at grandparents' day.
You still have to have
some kids first.
Come on, come on, come on.
[Misty] Did you know
you're a meme?
What's a meme?
[Candie laughs]
That one's my favorite.
Oh.
Oh, would you look at this?
Put it there.
Oh, that's just
the babysitter.
You can ignore it.
You feeling okay, baby girl?
I'm fine.
Do do you want some tea?
Danielle could make it.
I'm not nauseous, Mom.
I'm fine.
[sighs]
[]
[glass tinkling]
Can I have everyone's
attention, please?
Today we are here to honor
[Candie chuckles]
a very special woman
whose strength and courage
and demanding presence
has always been [sighs] at
the forefront of our lives.
Our mother, Candie.
[Amy] Mom, you really taught
us what a beautiful,
protective, connected,
loving family look like.
And then when we turned
off "The Brady Bunch,"
there was you.
-[Danielle sighs]
-So, thank you for you.
Thank you.
Thank you, sweetheart.
[sighs]
[slurping]
Why don't we all go
around the table and say
how much mom has contributed
to our lives?
Well, that's a fine
idea, baby girl.
You go first.
Oh.
Well, thanks for having me.
I'd like to thank Danielle
and Pat for hosting this
and for this delicious cake.
It's really good.
It's GD good.
Huh?
You know, back in the old days,
oh, Candie and I, we,
let's just say that the
party never stopped.
Right?
Until your sister Ruth died.
And that day marked
a change in you.
It was the beginning
of a whole new journey,
and you just got rid
of everything
that was toxic in your life.
Pew!
Including me.
[Bryce laughs]
Candie, I know that there's
an awful lot of regrets,
but I always have seen
you as somebody
who made the right call.
Eventually.
That's better than some.
That's better than most.
[Amy] Danny, you go next.
[]
-Can we just go clockwise?
-[Candie chuckles]
Danielle, don't be difficult.
Yeah, Danny.
Tell mommy what she
needs to hear.
[Bryce] Just talk.
You know, share the impact
that she's had on you.
[chuckles]
BRCA mutation.
[Amy chuckles]
What?
Are you drunk?
[snorts]
No.
You are drunk at my
sobriety party.
[laughs]
[clears throat]
[Candie] And you're acting like
12 year olds.
It's really selfish, Danielle.
I am not drunk.
I am high on opiate
pain medication.
What, for what?
[Misty] Danielle, what
does that mean?
Nothing.
-I...
-Something happened?
What?
Honey, let's get
you some coffee.
More coffee, anyone?
It's shade-grown Costa Rican.
-Yes, please.
-Danielle, what did you do?
[Misty] Oh my god, did you
get the surgery?
Surgery, what surgery?
She had all her
organs removed.
-What?
-What?
[Bryce] Not all of them?
She'd be dead.
[Danielle] No, it's nothing.
I just... [laughs]
Yeah, you did.
How could you do that?
Misty, shut up.
You told Amy, but not me?
[table bangs]
She's my sister.
-[table bangs]
-God damn it!
I'm her mother,
and I wanna know
what's going on.
[chair sliding]
I should have gotten
you a card.
[Danielle laughs]
You need some water?
Nope.
Danielle, what did you do?
What did you do?
[sobs]
[door slams]
[Candie] For fuck's
sake, Bryce.
Where the hell were you?
[Bryce] Girls can hear you.
Calm down!
[Candie] I don't give
a shit if the girls hear!
[sobbing]
-[somber music]
-[Danielle crying]
[screen door clicks open]
[screen door clicks shut]
Your mother's gone already?
Oh, yeah.
She's gonna be okay, right?
She always takes
care of herself.
Yeah.
Whereas your daughters
are dealing with
cancer-related medical issues.
Well, your sister
has cancer too.
I'm so confused.
No, we both have
the gene mutation
and she is getting preventative
surgery,
so she does not get cancer.
Oh.
What you women go
through with your bodies.
[clicks tongue]
It's amazing.
Well, life's a mystery.
Men can get this mutation too.
But you got this from
your mother though, right?
Mom did not get any
genetic testing.
She's a little tired then.
But Aunt Ruth...
[clicks tongue] Done and dusted,
so, yes, life is definitely a
mystery.
[birds chirping]
Wow.
[Bryce sighs]
How you doing?
[gentle somber music]
Well, chemo sucks.
Yeah, but you're okay.
All the women in this
family, strong.
What are you doing,
Monday at two?
Wanna come to chemo with me?
Sure, kiddo.
Sounds like fun.
[]
It's a date.
[Pat] So, what does this next
surgery involve?
[doctor] Well, I will connect
you with a breast surgeon
and a plastic surgeon.
In the meantime, let's
order you a breast MRI.
Why don't we do a breast
exam and discuss?
[paper gown rustling]
[doctor] For the mastectomy,
the breast surgeon will remove
all of your breast tissue.
It's a great surgical
option for breast cancer.
I don't have cancer.
[doctor] Ah, yes, of course.
That's right.
Hands behind your head, please.
You two will have some
decisions to make
regarding reconstruction,
implants or using your own
tissue.
And, of course, size.
[Pat] They're different sizes.
-I...
-[doctor] Mm-hmm.
[Pat] Of course, they're
different size.
I haven't decided.
[doctor] There is
also the option
of having no breast
reconstruction.
Meet with both surgeons
and start thinking about
what would work for you guys.
Okay, we're done.
[paper gown rustling]
[gentle spirited music]
What?
That one irritate
your incisions?
It's fine.
Lace me up.
[Danielle sighs]
Misty and Rob?
Oh, they had a thing.
[sighs] They did not.
I'm sure it'll blow over.
Some people just don't
do well with conflict
outside a fancy role
playing setting.
Maybe we should have
challenged them to a joust.
Okay.
All set.
No, come on.
You have to pull it.
It has to be tight.
I can't get the leverage.
-Okay.
-Just do it, all right?
All right, okay.
All right, you ready?
-Deep breath.
-[inhales]
[zipping]
Ow.
-[bright music]
-[crowd laughing]
[Pat] How you doin', Lass?
It's probably good that
Misty and Rob aren't here.
They'd be mad at me for
not wearing my costume.
Oh, I miss it.
[gasps] Oh, look at hers.
Hmm, elaborate.
So what do you think?
[Pat] What, her costume?
What about that one?
More your style.
Well, I don't think that
would look good on me at all.
Not the dress, the boobs.
-What?
-You heard the doctor.
We've got boob choices to make.
Yeah, but that should be
based on your preference.
Yeah, but think about it.
How many men get to
pick the exact size
and shape of their wife's boobs?
I hope not that many.
[gasps] What about hers?
I...
Uh, I don't know.
Give me information.
You're a man.
You have to have a favorite
kind of boobs.
No, no, boobs are
like french fries.
There are no bad kinds,
and you're always
happy to see 'em.
But everyone has a preference.
My preference is that
you are alive and healthy
and sharing this mead with me.
Honey, please.
You're always saying you wanna
help me get through this.
I'm trying to do everything
you need.
Well, I need you to
give me an honest opinion
on women's breasts.
I like 'em just fine, madam.
[]
I'm getting another mead.
[bright music]
[sighs]
[crowd chattering]
[children laughing]
[somber music]
[wind blowing]
Hey, stranger.
[giggles]
What are you doing here?
I decided to come hang out
and give you a ride home.
Mmm.
Let me guess.
Dad's not coming.
You know what?
At least he thought to call me.
He could have just
left you here.
You know, I'm really
tired of giving him credit
for literally doing
the bare minimum.
I can't believe that I
asked him to come here.
[laughs]
I can't believe that you invited
him to the freaking party.
He's our dad.
I have cancer.
Yeah.
I'm really sorry.
What are you doing
for yourself lately?
[Danielle] Since when?
Since you had half
of your organs removed?
[laughs] I don't know.
Oh, I did take a bath when
I could finally take a bath
without soaking the stitches.
[Amy chuckles]
-That's hygiene, you dumbass.
-[laughs]
It's not indulgence.
I steal things.
What?
Mm-hmm, I steal things.
From where?
[Amy] The pharmacy.
What, like drugs?
No, come on.
No.
Like, chopstick,
or a toothbrush,
or toothpaste, or other
little things that are useful.
Why?
Because the world
did this to me.
I would never do anything
that would directly
hurt someone, obviously.
You know?
But I feel like the world owes
me some fucking chocolate.
Like, a little bit of chocolate.
When I can keep it down,
it'll be delightful.
And it really makes
you feel better.
Yeah.
It does.
Well, I don't wanna
steal anything
because you know that
I would get caught.
[both laugh]
-You would get caught.
-Yep.
What do you want?
[gentle bright music]
Uh...
I just wanna feel normal again.
You know?
I wanna be able to stay healthy
so I can take care of you.
[chomps]
Take care of you.
And I just...
I wanna feel like my
body works like normal.
I just want everything to
go back to the way it was.
I love you.
I love you.
[Danielle sighing]
[gentle lively music]
[exhales]
[blows]
[gentle lively music continues]
[strip peeling]
[exhales]
[gentle playful music]
[Pat] Hey, honey, I'm back.
[sighs]
[gentle spirited music]
[Pat] Honey, did you see this?
[exhales]
[gentle upbeat music]
Hi, there.
Wow.
Hello.
I did see that bill
and I called insurance.
It's all [whispers] in-network.
Why are you using
your sexy voice?
Because I also called
Dr. Morgan
and he confirmed that six
weeks is enough time to wait.
Oh, yeah.
For what?
Six weeks is plenty of time
for my vaginal cuff to heal
for lightly penetrative
activity.
Babe, you know, lightly
penetrative is not my style.
I think after six weeks,
you'll take what you can get.
-Hell, yeah, I will.
-[Danielle chuckles]
[Danielle] Should we turn off
the lights?
I think we should.
Okay.
[lamp clicks]
All right.
What, what's wrong?
-Nothing.
-Okay.
[kisses]
Hey, we don't have to rush.
No, I'm okay.
-Are you sure?
-Honey, it's fine.
It's fine.
Okay.
Okay.
[Danielle sucks teeth]
Just keep going.
There's a little bit of pain.
-It's fine.
-Maybe we should stop.
No, no, no, no, no.
We need to do this now.
It's okay, we can just--
No, damn it, yes, we
need to keep going.
I need to know if I can
still have sex, okay?
Hey, hey, whoa.
-Not like this, okay?
-[Danielle sighs]
[sighs]
What?
What is going on?
I just, it hurts.
I can't.
We're never gonna be
able to have sex again.
It just like, they're
gonna cut off my breasts
and it feels like
they just keep taking
more and more of me away,
and every time.
I just feel like I'm not
gonna be me when they stop.
-We'll work out, okay?
-[Danielle sighs]
-It's gonna be okay.
-No.
[melancholic music]
[sighs]
[birds chirping]
[footsteps]
-[Amy] What?
-What?
Hey, why are you getting a late
notice on your car payment?
I paid this last week.
The bank shows it cleared.
-[Amy coughing]
-I'll double check on it.
Oh, I swear to God, if
cancer doesn't kill me,
the chemo will.
[Amy sighs]
You okay?
[imitates vomiting]
[chomps]
Do you know about the
Ship of Theseus?
The Greek legend?
Really?
-Yes.
-No.
They wanted to preserve
Theseus' ship,
but some of the planks
had rotted,
so they replaced them.
The question is, how
much can be replaced
and still be the
Ship of Theseus?
You know that surgery doesn't
change who you are, right?
Yeah, I know.
[sighs]
You remember when
we used to joke
about being grateful to mom
for giving us such
magnificent boobs?
[both laughing]
Oh, god, yes.
Boobs that give you cancer.
Oh, they looked fantastic.
[Amy] Mm.
God.
Mom's still do.
Bitch.
Biatch.
[Pat] Surprise!
What? [laughs]
That's amazing.
Oh my gosh.
I love it.
Thank you, It looks great.
Oh.
You know what?
Hmm?
This is gonna suck.
I know.
It's not fair.
[sighs]
I mean, I guess it's
definitely more fair
than constantly being afraid
of getting breast
cancer like Amy.
I don't wanna be afraid
all the time.
I know.
[exhales]
Man, I'm gonna miss these
gorgeous boobs.
Oh. [laughs]
Oh, well, should I, like,
apologize to you
-about this too?
-What?
No.
I just...
No, I was...
I don't know how to
respond to that.
I thought I was saying
something nice.
That was nice.
I don't know.
-It's not?
-I don't know.
You know what, no, I
shouldn't have said anything.
That was dumb.
-Okay.
-Okay.
Thank you so much.
[gurney rolling]
-[machine beeping]
-[pensive music]
[young Amy] Oh, here.
[young Danielle]
Maybe right here.
[smearing noise]
[laughs] Very good.
It's GD good.
[chewing noise]
-Got it.
-There.
[pensive music continues]
[inhales and moans]
Hey, you're okay.
Everything's okay.
Pat?
[both] They're aggressive
getting the tissue.
Okay.
They're aggressive getting
the tissue out
and the expanders are in.
[sighs]
I don't wanna look.
[sighs]
It's okay.
[Amy] Hi, this is Amy.
Leave a message.
-Mwah!
-[voicemail beeps]
[Danielle] It's Danielle again.
Call me back, okay?
Please.
[sighs]
-[knocking on door]
-[groans]
[Pat] What's wrong?
You still upset you can't
make it to Amy's again today?
Yes.
Did she like the soup?
Yeah, she said so.
Did she also say why she
isn't answering her phone?
Did something happen?
Is she okay?
'Cause I can go check on her.
Everything's fine.
She's good.
But?
She wants you to read this
before you try to call again.
Great. [sighs]
So now even my own sister
doesn't wanna talk to me.
I should never have
done any of this.
Oh, it was supposed to help
me be able to help her,
and now I'm lying here
like a useless lump.
I'll be in the kitchen
if you need me.
-[Danielle sighs]
-[footsteps leaving]
[somber music]
[paper rustling]
[Amy] " Hey, Dee,
hope you're okay.
I mean, obviously, you're
not, and everything sucks.
And none of us are gonna live
to see the heat death
of the universe,
but maybe you're at least
eating, or whatever.
I wish I could be there to
help you out through this.
But as it turns out,
I have cancer.
Instead, I'm gonna help
you out another way,
by making you leave
me the hell alone."
[sighs]
[Danielle crying]
[Amy] "What you need right now
is to take care of yourself.
And it's never gonna
happen if you're too busy
wiping puke off my bathroom
floor when I miss the toilet.
Mom's annoying.
But if anything major happens,
she'll be here for me.
So you're going straight
to voicemail from now on.
I love you sis.
Oh, PS, leave as many
messages you want,
at any time that you want.
Tiny heart, smiley face,
tiny heart, tiny heart.
Love you."
-[somber music continues]
-[birds chirping]
[Danielle] Hey, Amy, it's
Danielle.
So, I guess you really meant
it.
God, you're an asshole.
[]
Danielle, again.
I tried to take a walk today.
Almost made it to the
end of my block
before nearly passing out.
Everything is on fire.
Sorry, I called you an asshole.
Hey, Amy, I miss you.
I somehow managed 10,000
steps today
and I think it's hurting less,
or at least I'm able to breathe
without my chest feeling
like it's being crushed
by a thousand-pound boulder.
I hope you're okay.
I still haven't decided
whether I'm going through
with the breast implants.
I might just have them take out
the expanders and stay flat.
I keep thinking that
I'm almost back to okay,
but then every morning,
it still feels like I wake
up in someone else's body.
So, who knows?
-[birds chirping]
-[sighs]
You can do this.
You can do this, Danielle.
I'm okay.
It's okay.
[phone buzzing]
[sighs]
Hey, dad.
[Bryce] Oh, hey darling.
Did you see the "Horseman
Marathon" last week?
They had me film some
intro banter.
I thought it could have been
written better, of course.
No, I didn't see it, dad.
I was recovering from surgery.
[Bryce] What?
Another surgery?
How many organs are
left to be removed?
[laughs]
It was my breasts, remember?
Oh.
Oh, I...
Oh, that's right.
Just make sure that's...
How's Pat doing with
all of this?
Are you gonna be doing
some enhancements?
I'm sorry, what?
I... [chuckles]
I'm not even sure I'm gonna
do reconstruction, Dad.
[Bryce]
Oh, Danielle, you know,
breasts are
very important to men.
And, you know,
you should
talk to Pat about this.
I know it's a sensitive subject,
but it's important that he's
a big part of this decision.
You know what, Dad?
It's my body, so I'm the
one that gets to decide.
I gotta go.
-[somber music]
-[sighs]
[visor mirror sliding]
[man] And I'm really grateful
to still be here,
and I mark everyone's support
as the reason for that.
Thank you.
-[woman] Thanks.
-Thanks, Todd.
-[group] Thanks, Todd.
-[man] Thanks, Todd.
[Candie] I'm Candie.
-[Candie laughs]
-[man] Hi, Candie.
I am 25 years sober.
-[crowd applauding]
-[man] Yeah.
Thank you. [laughs]
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
[phone buzzing]
So I've been thinking a lot
about when I first got sober.
[pills clattering]
Sorry, I'm...
I'm sorry.
[Candie] Danielle.
Danielle!
I'm sorry, I shouldn't
have come.
No, you should not have come,
unless you're addicted
to whatever it is
you spilled all over the floor
in front of a room
full of addicts.
It was just Motrin.
What on earth are
you doing here?
I wanted to apologize for
making a scene at the party.
And now here.
Oh, wow.
That is so like you.
What?
What do you mean?
You know what I mean.
You get so fixated
on your situation,
you ride rough shot over
everyone else's.
I mean, this is an AA
meeting for God's sake.
Why do you always assume I
have the worst motivations?
It's just like when
you were little.
Your dad was gone,
and I had to miss out on so
many of Amy's recitals and games
because you were too hungry
or you were too tired
or you were too scared
of the babysitter.
Amy had to miss out on so much
because you needed this
or you needed that.
Mom, I was six.
Well, you are an adult now,
and your sister needs
you so much
in this horrible,
horrible time in her life
but you can't be there for her
because you had to have
the surgeries right now.
I'm not telling you
this to upset you.
[sighs]
I am telling you this
so that maybe you wouldn't
have to learn the hard way.
What is that supposed
to mean, mom?
What is the hard way?
I mean like Ruth.
What?
Bryce and I were on
location in Mexico
and we would drink till noon,
and then he'd shoot
till midnight,
and then we'd drink till dawn.
-[somber music]
-And Ruth would call
and call and call the hotel.
But I always thought she
was gonna lecture me,
that she was trying to
ruin my good time.
Mexico.
The summer that we went to camp?
When she died?
You told us it happened
suddenly.
She was alone in
the hospital...
...for six days.
But...[laughs]
I never answered her calls,
so I didn't know.
[sobs]
No, don't, don't
let me tell you.
I'm gonna tell you.
I didn't know that she had
died until I came home.
And I can't believe
that you want Amy
to go through the same thing.
It's so god damn selfish.
Mom, I love Amy.
Okay?
I always have, I have
always taken care of her.
I've always been there
for her, and for you.
Hell, I've even been
there for dad.
When the fuck is someone
in his family
gonna be there for me?
I am getting ripped to shreds.
Is that not enough?
I should not have come.
[somber music]
[clicks tongue]
[door slams shut]
Pat?
[Pat] You're getting rid of
all this stuff, aren't you?
[somber music]
[Danielle] I just wanna bury
the past and move forward.
[Pat] I'll help you.
Ah, maybe it's something
I should do on my own.
On your own or
just without me?
What do you mean?
Nothing.
No, tell me.
Seriously, it's nothing.
Forget it.
You know, you've been
acting like everything's fine.
If you're not fine, you
need to tell me.
How could I be fine?
You know what I mean.
You've been so calm and
quiet about everything.
It's actually been
kind of annoying.
I just thought you wanted to
talk to Amy about everything
or keep it to yourself
like the ultrasound scare.
Felt like everything I
said was the wrong thing,
so I just kept my mouth shut.
I thought I was giving you the
support you needed from me.
I needed you to stand up
for me at my mom's party.
I needed you to tell me what
kind of boobs you liked.
I need you to be honest with me.
I don't wanna cause
any more stress.
Cause me stress?
I need to know what
you're thinking.
I can't.
Pat.
[]
How can I be selfish
when you're the one
going through everything?
It is not selfish.
You couldn't be selfish
if you tried.
That's why I married you.
Now fucking tell
me how you feel.
I really wanted kids.
I wanted our kids.
I wanted the future that we
pictured since we got married.
And then it all went
away so fast.
I felt like I couldn't
say anything.
But I asked you if
you would resent me
and you said no.
I don't resent you.
You said saving your
life was more important
than having biological kids.
What kind of an asshole
argues with that?
[Danielle sighs]
Wow.
Thank you for finally
being honest.
I need that.
I need you to do that.
I don't want you to
do this on your own.
I want us to bury the
past together.
I want us to be in
this together.
We'll bury it together.
And I have something
to tell you,
and I haven't even talked
to Amy about it yet,
but I've decided that I wanna
do the breast reconstruction.
I've tried being fine
how I am, but I just...
I miss me.
And I honestly don't even care
what kind of french fries
you like anymore
-[Pat laughs]
-because I like french fries.
You're amazing.
I know.
-[Pat chuckling]
-[lips smacking]
Pat, why don't you go
see a movie or something?
Or go take a nap, or
get really drunk?
You're starting to look like
you need to be in the
gown more than me.
Ah, I'm fine.
Oh, you went to work at
4:00 AM, you're exhausted.
I'm calling in back up.
[nurse] Ready to go, ma'am?
[gentle pensive music]
[Muffled] 100.
[Muffled] 99.
[Muffled] 98.
[spirited music]
[brooding music]
[]
[young Danielle giggling]
[silent dialogue]
[machine beeping]
[birds chirping]
[gentle contemplative music]
[]
Are you okay, baby girl?
[sighs] Mom?
You're here.
Yes,
I'm here.
Look who else is here.
[Danielle gasps]
Hi.
What do you think?
-So pretty.
-[Amy chuckles]
You came.
Of course, I'm here, dumbass.
Pat, where's Pat?
I told him we had it covered.
We might have put some
Xanax in his tea.
-[Pat snoring]
-Oh, good, good.
-[laughing]
-[Danielle] Thank you.
I did good?
You did great.
[gentle solemn music]
I am so sorry, Danielle.
I love you.
[gentle solemn music continues]
So this is me now.
[chuckles]
[gentle uplifting music]
[Amy] Hey, Dee.
[Danielle chuckling]
Who'd you invite today?
Um, Rob and Misty.
And Dad?
I didn't ask him.
Finally.
[both chuckling]
[gentle bright music]
No more walking away instead
of telling you how I feel.
No more pretending
I'm okay when I'm not.
We're awesome.
-We're okay.
-[Pat chuckles]
[gentle bright music continues]
[Danielle sighs]
[dirt sifting]
[Danielle laughing]
For Amy, a Rogue character
in fashionable chinos.
For Candie, a Bard
in velour robes.
Oh, does that mean
I can do spells? [chuckles]
Not exactly.
We'll explain the rules.
And for you.
Aw, you gave her armor!
[Pat] She always
should've had it.
[Danielle] Rob is gonna say
sorceresses can't cast an armor.
Tell him it's mithril.
[knocking on door]
Speaking of.
[door creaks open]
Hey, guys.
Hey, girl, hey.
Listen, the new edition
of the spell book
completely nerfs firethorn.
But don't worry, we're
gonna figure it out.
-Hey.
-[Danielle] Come on in.
By the way, I was
doing a little research
and I found the absolute
best website
for fast-tracking adoption.
I'll text you a link.
Misty, I love you,
but I need you to stop.
Okay, Danielle.
Misty, you're finally here.
I need help with this taco bowl.
Come on.
Aw.
[Rob] I get that.
I know it sounds like
it's complicated at first,
but once you get the hang
of it, it's pretty easy.
I mean, okay.
Wait, I rolled it, so
why can't I just keep it?
Okay, well, that roll
is for initiative.
So now what you have to do
is you have to roll for
the Song of Merriment,
and then, of course,
you roll for damage
and you've add your
joy modifier.
I just wanna be a wizard.
[Misty and Amy laughing]
[Rob] Danielle, it is your
choice.
Do we head down the
path Crystal Cavetrolls
or into the Forest of
Infinite Pollen?
Ooh, I cast Antihistamine
Shields.
Everybody, follow me.
Okay, was not anticipating
that.
Time to roll for initiative.
[]
[crowd cheering and applauding]
[Rob] Long time.
Is it over?
No, it just started.
-[group laughing]
-Oh.
No, we just started.
-[group laughing]
-[gentle bright music]
What?
[Danielle laughing]
Where'd you get those lights?
It's a secret.
[]
-[gentle bright music continues]
-[giggles]
I moved to California
In the summer time
I changed my name thinking
That it would change my mind
I thought that all my
problems they would stay
behind
I was a stick of dynamite
And it was just a matter
Of time yeah
[whispers] We're waiting in
the waiting room
to go into pre-op.
I think I'm ready to not
have surgeries anymore.
It's always scary going
under anesthesia.
I love you both.
[Speaker] We love you both.
And we both love you.
[Speaker 2] All three of you .
And it's all right
It's okay it's okay
It's okay it's okay
If you're lost we're
All a little lost
And it's all right
It's all right
It's all right
It's all right
It's all right
I am super excited
because I'm about to go into
my plastic surgeon's office
to have my first expander fill,
which is, like, the first step
to having my reconstruction.
I drove through
Yellow lights
And don't look back at all
[doctor] One, two,
three, poke.
Ooh, that's it.
-[Danielle] All right.
-[doctor] That's the worst part.
-Okay?
-[Danielle] Oh good.
[whispers] I sort of have
boobs.
Look at that.
[Speaker 3] Oh my goodness.
Don't know why I take the
Tightrope and cry when I fall
Oh dang oh my now
I can't hide
Said I knew what I
Wanted but I guess I lied
It's okay it's okay
It's okay it's okay
If you're lost we're
All a little lost
And it's all right
It's okay it's okay
It's okay it's okay
If you're lost we're
All a little lost
And it's all right
It's all right
It's all right it's all
Right it's all right
It's all right
It's all right