Plus-Size Porn: Adults Only! (2020) Movie Script
1
I love the term BBW because
it means big beautiful woman.
You get a lot of men who come in
and say quite horrible things to you-
- so, yeah, I think you really
do have to have a thick skin.
People don't like it because
I think they want fat people-
- to be invisible.
So many people don't appreciate
themselves for the beauty-
- that they are and web camming
helps you do that. You pay for me.
I can't just not pay my rent.
People say things like,
"Oh, you charge too much,"
- and I'm like,
"Well, how much is a woman's body worth?"
Pussy sells more than crack, you know.
And that's a fact.
People will push for bareback,
people will push for oral without.
It's sad to me that I'm actually getting to the
stage where I'm considering it as an option.
Right, so this custom order here,
he's explained that he wants it to-
- be a mummy and son video.
Just every day, yeah,
it is really, really common.
I'll try not to fart.
A lot of people really love
the feeling of being squashed.
You OK?
I'm not asking every Tom, Dick
and Harry to find me attractive-
- cos of course they're not, but oh,
my God yes, I am sexy. I've got it.
So if I know they're wanking,
then I think a tip's only fair.
I think there are a number of,
like, broken people in-
- the industry and that-
- and I think that a lot of people
do hide behind their character.
I'm fat, I'm here, I'm taking up space-
- and I don't give a toss
what anybody else thinks.
Oh, Richard.
Oh, what would you like Richard?
Oh.
Mm.
Eh?
Mm.
Well, I'd better strip all my clothes off.
Mm.
You want to see my big nipples?
There we go.
You need to get them hard for me, baby.
Ooh, come and suck them.
I love the term BBW because
it means big beautiful woman-
- which is all positive words, isn't it?
And I think it's a great thing that
the bigger woman can be seen-
- as sexy, I think it's empowering,
it's brilliant.
You want to see my tight ass?
My big, fat ass.
When I first started I did not want
to show any of my wobbly bits-
- but then I realised, well,
the men was asking to see them-
- and I was saying,
"Do you really want to see it?"
And they was like,
"Yeah, it's sexy, it's gorgeous, its lovely,"
- and they love it.
Mm, you want to see my ass?
- At least you know it works.
- Yeah, I know.
Just don't know how to fill it.
Well, you did, didn't you?
Before I did cam work I was
working in a home for adults-
- with learning difficulties-
- but unfortunately that home closed
down so I was left without a job.
It was quite sudden
so I just sort of panicked-
- a bit cos I had rent to pay,
bills to pay, and I remember watching-
- a documentary with my daughter
about web camming and she knew I was-
- struggling. She actually said,
"Why don't you try that web camming, mum?"
I wonder why they tell you to put water in it.
Maybe they can't advertise. You put water in there.
No, I mean why,
cos it's not water that comes out, is it?
It's not going to look realistic.
Can we try it without the battery?
Do you think it'll come out?
Yeah, the batteries only makes it vibrate.
Oh, right.
Me and my mum have
been just best friends, really.
My mum actually used to be
in an amateur dramatic group-
- and she's just like an extrovert.
What did you do?
Did you...?
Did you squirt?
I can't. You naughty boy.
It's a weird thing to say to your mum-
- but because she loved acting and
all that stuff and we didn't have that-
- taboo thing about it, it was just,
"Would you do that?" And she was like, "Yeah."
So it just came out.
"Why don't you try it, then?"
And ever since then it's just took
off and I'm really proud of her.
She's always told me
not to talk about sex or...
Well, not talk about sex but say,
"Mum, stop it, I'm your daughter.
"You can't talk about that sort of thing."
So for her to sort of,
- like, mention, "Why don't you do sex online?"
It was quite shocking.
But then when she explained,
you know, "You'd be quite good at it,
- you like acting, it's all about
role play, it's all about fantasy,"
I was thinking, yeah, maybe she's got
a point, maybe I could do that, yeah.
How sadistic I'm feeling.
I discovered my kink very early on.
I think I've always been kinky.
Assume the position!
This feels too low.
If we could maybe move it sideways-
- and have it adjacent with this...
sorry... with this...
I was 11 and my 12-year-old
friend told me about bondage-
- and I thought, oh, what's this?
And I kind of knew I was kinky-
- and then when I met my husband
we explored it more and we were-
- quite switchy with it so we
would take the different roles-
- and things like that and
that's how we explored it.
I never joined the scene at
all until my marriage was over.
- It's not too tight?
- No. - Good sport.
That was when I was like, right,
that's it, I'm going to go out-
- and I'm going to have great
fun and go to the kink clubs.
If you can go a little bit closer to him,
just step right towards him.
Sweet. An now do your thing.
Right. So, where do you want me?
You know,
I went from being a sub to a slave-
- and then I just thought it
wasn't kind of fulfilling me.
I think the submissive in me sort
of disappeared and then I found-
- that when I was being more
dominant that I actually got more out-
- of it sexually and it's the sense
of power and the power exchange-
- and the energy that
you exchange with them.
It was a really good rush.
...his face and pull his hair.
And that's kind of when I thought, oh,
- I could do this and I could
earn money from it cos there is-
- a lot of submissive guys-
- and not a lot of dominant women.
Get up at 04:00am to start at 05:00-
- just cos I want to hit the
American market when they're just-
- going to bed cos, like,
they're six hours behind us,
- and then I try to hit the English market-
- where they're just getting up for work.
If I didn't do that I would probably
get up, have my breakfast-
- and think, oh,
I can't be bothered to work today.
It's funny what the men like to see.
They like to see all the wobbly bits.
And women like to hide all the wobbly bits.
It's not really a kink I've got,
- it's just... an ability to,
I don't know, attract men, I don't know.
I'm sorry, this is not very sexy, is it?
I always thought I was too big to
be sexy so it was quite a shock that-
- men found me attractive and sexy
in my body and that was quite an-
- eye opener, really, it gave me loads
of confidence, loads of confidence.
The first-ever show I ever did-
- I was so nervous.
Took me ages to actually start.
My heart was pounding,
I just didn't know what to expect.
Oh, hi, baby.
Ooh, what would you like?
Well, it's like going on stage, isn't it?
It's like-
- you're in front of everybody.
Ooh, look.
Mm!
Ooh, that's it.
Are you on your knees?
I know the men are coming
to see me cos I'm a big girl,
- cos I advertise that I'm chubby,
I'm wobbly so I know that people-
- are coming to watch me
because I'm big, cos I'm wobbly-
- and because I'm older.
I know that.
Oh, Shit.
It is scary but the men are just
so nice, they know you're new-
- so they're going to guide you in
slowly but it was fine, I loved it,
- I came off buzzing, I was thinking,
oh, my God, this is great.
Ooh, look. Here we go.
Are you ready?
Oh, yes.
Oh, come and tease my hair.
Some of the videos that she
was getting requests for,
- she can't really film on her own. Like, she
had, like, a splodging video which was, like,
- where she had to stand there and,
like, put, like, beans and, like,
- sauces and all that stuff on her.
So I was filming it and it was
quite funny, we had such a laugh-
- because the smell
of it all mixed together-
- and I had to keep my mouth, like,
closed and my nose closed and every-
- time we did a pause I had to go
like this so I could breathe fresh air.
But it's, like, at the start we just did loads
of videos and it was just so much fun-
- so it's kind of like a bonding
thing as well, it's really strange.
She can do whatever she wants in the job.
Obviously she has her own boundaries
of what she wouldn't do with people-
- and a lot of things she won't talk
to me about because it's my boundary-
- of listening to it, so if she gets,
like, a really, a dirty thing-
- that she's doing, she knows that
she won't really talk to me about that.
- You all ready and set up?
- Yeah.
How much are you ready?
- Very ready, Mistress.
- Very ready?
I think you should ask for permission
for me to sit on your face.
Can I have permission for you
to sit on my face, Mistress?
No. "Please will you sit?"
- Please will you sit on my face, Mistress?
- Once more with feeling.
- Please will you sit on my face, Mistress?
- Again.
- Please will you sit on my face, Mistress?
- Beg better.
Please will you sit on my face, Mistress?
I'll try not to fart.
OK, Mistress.
Face sitting is essentially
a form of breath play.
What's the first rule of diving?
Breathing. Exactly.
It's done fully clothed so,
you know, they can't,
- they don't touch you or
lick you or anything like that.
Nice, big, deep breath for me.
A lot of people really love
the feeling of being squashed.
Are you ready?
Big breath.
I've got my upper part of my belly-
- and then there's the bottom part-
- and, erm, the guys love that.
What did it feel like to have
the belly on top of you?
It was...
- Have you not got words?
- No.
Yes.
Get a free view.
Would you like to be able
to lick your nou nou?
Um, I think I'd pull a hernia if I tried.
I do class myself as a BBW.
I am fully aware that I am a bit chubby.
I know that I am.
I'm honest about that,
- like I'll laugh about it and I say
to my family, yeah, I'm a fat fucker-
- or something like that, you know,
I'm honest about it.
BBW to me is anyone that is either curvy,
- a bit chubby but it depends,
I think, on the shape of the body,
- if there is, like, no actual
shape and she's just, like, round-
- then to me, I don't class
that as a BBW, me, personally,
- and I know my guys, like,
they would say, "I like a little bit of fat,"
- you know, "Something to hold on to,"
- or just, like, a big bum or whatever.
But that is a little bit too big for me.
- I can actually suck on them.
- Can you?
Yeah, that's what I do on web cam.
That's amazing. I suck my tits on web cam.
Whatever size you are, you should
make it work, whatever that is.
If I lactated I could actually
drink my own milk, technically.
It doesn't matter if
you've got stretch marks,
- it doesn't matter if you've
got rolls or whatever,
- whatever it is, you can find
something, some form of a niche.
For me BBW, it's like boobs, butt,
- mainly butt,
- so it seems to be
a lot of stuff that, like,
- you're bent over and things like that.
It used to be boobs, people used to like
my boobs when I was a little bit smaller-
- and that used to be
the thing but now it's like,
- "Oh, my God, you've got a massive bum!"
I've just rolled with it and I've
actually found that there's more-
- money in being bigger
and I'm more popular-
- the size I am now as a 12 to 14-
- than I ever was when I was small.
I've always marketed myself as BBW-
- but I didn't want it
originally to be the sole focus.
I wanted to be treated like
every other person out there.
People don't like seeing us.
They want fat people to be invisible.
I really don't care
what other people think.
I'm up for a bit of badness.
I actually really want to fuck shit up-
- in terms of how fat people are perceived.
Lord have mercy on my mother fucking soul.
But, like, you can sit looking as if-
- you're kind of just sort of,
like, being all foot fetishy. OK.
You don't need to, like,
lick me or kiss me or anything like that.
I'm working on the new
wording for my website-
- cos I'm changing my name to
Lady Voluptua and rebranding.
And then just, like, kind of,
like, be caressing my foot.
Like, you know,
as if you were going to caress a teddy bear.
Kind of thing.
If you come closer in as well.
"Behold the luscious, luxurious
and libidinous darling that is me."
"Lady Voluptua."
"Give in to your basest desires
and worship my glorious curves."
"Celebrate my deliciously
divine adiposity."
"Fem dom with a difference.
Big, beautiful"
"and ready to make your wildest
fetish fantasies come true."
Love it.
"Whether you long to be smothered
by my bosoms, squished like a bug-
- underneath my beautiful fat bum-
- or squashed between my thunderous
thighs, you're guaranteed to have-
- an intoxicating time with me."
- Do you think we've got the shot of him?
- I think so, yeah.
I think there's one that we can use.
L'lljust do a couple of closer in ones.
OK. Thank you.
We're taught from a very young
age that being fat is wrong.
The media hammers it home all the time.
It is quite a kind of bold thing
to actually come out and say,
- "I'm fat, I'm here, I'm taking up
space and I think I'm glorious-
- and I don't give a toss
what anybody else thinks."
And hopefully it'll work.
Look how hard they're getting now.
Making me excited.
Probably do two to four hours a day-
- and I'm earning in a week
more than I've earned in a month-
- in my other jobs.
So, I mean,
that is just mind-blowing, isn't it?
My hairy legs.
So bad.
But I won't shave 'em until
somebody pays me to shave 'em.
So if I know they're wanking,
- if they're asking me to show them
something for wanking like my feet-
- or something like that then I
think a tip's only fair. Mutual respect.
Sometimes I don't even do a full week,
- sometimes I do four or five clays
but I'm still earning more than-
- I earned in a month in a week,
so that's just amazing.
Here they are, this is what we need.
Ooh, you get,
buy one get one half price.
What are you actually looking for?
I'm looking for one that shoots.
It's not very big.
- That is big.
- No, not compared to what they want.
No, I mean...
Like that.
Oh, my goodness.
Yeah, don't worry, girls,
I'm not going into this area. Please don't.
No.
These do look good in your bum.
Thank you very much.
Enjoy your products and have fun.
Oh, I will. Thank you.
You're welcome.
Are you ready, girls?
Thank you.
Thanks, girls.
Thank you.
Bye. Bye.
When my mum first started camming
I was actually working full time,
- so my husband was at
home with my daughter,
- so he had to be in the same house-
- and it got to the point where he did
actually turn, like, pull me to a side and say,
- "Can you let her know to,
like, cover the door?"
He didn't want to, like, say it to my mum
cos it was kind of, like, embarrassing.
First of all we have to get
your penis nice and hard.
Shall I show you how I'm
going to do that, David?
Do you trust Mummy?
You love Mummy, don't you, so you trust me.
I feel like I've made something
and I want them to be happy-
- so I need the feedback.
Do you want to come and play?
And I do get a lot of feedback
from it and they say,
- "Oh, yeah, that was brilliant,
it was the best one." Yes!
Oh, make Aunt Jackie pregnant.
There you go.
To be honest, I think it's a
really good thing that there is a-
- category for bigger women because
the average woman isn't skinny.
The fact that there is men out there
that absolutely love bigger women-
- kind of gives me a confidence
boost as well cos I think, right,
- I'm getting a bit bigger and
I know that people out there-
- might like me and I
can walk down the street-
- and somebody might fancy me.
That's a nice feeling to have,
- that there is actually people
out there who like bigger women.
Today we are just getting ready.
We're going to do a pyjama scene.
We're doing a Christmas theme-
- and everything, as obviously you can see we've got
Christmas decorations up and everything and I'm going to-
- fuck myself with a candy cane.
I do cuckold, I do interracial,
I do water sports.
Cool.
Normal boy/girl.
Domination, foot, shoe,
- toys and things like that, you know.
It's the biggest pussy lips I've ever seen.
I don't like anal.
Tried it numerous times.
I wish I could do it and
I wish could just fuck myself-
- in both holes because it's popular-
- but, no, it's not something I enjoy,
it's very uncomfortable for me.
Oh, hands, I thought you meant...
I don't enjoy facials cos I
feel that you're knelt down-
- and someone is, like,
ejaculating all over your face.
I don't know,
I just feel that that is disrespectful-
- and I won't do that, I don't like that.
That's not something I do.
There is a nasty image associated to
dominatrix and they sort of see it-
- as sort of titillation but it's
dirty and nasty when at the end-
- of the day all we're really doing is-
- catering to people's fantasies
and fetishes and fulfilling a need-
- where they maybe can't get it at
home or they're too kind of worried-
- about, you know, that perhaps
if they are married that their wife-
- or their family will reject them,
- they can come to a safe place.
But there is definitely a negative
image because everybody thinks-
- it's really salacious and that
it's all about sex when it's not,
- it's actually about getting into
somebody's mind and really helping-
- them explore what turns them on.
Let's tune in for radio...
What is it?
Radio Ams...
No, it's not radio Amsterdam,
it's radio something. Luxembourg.
Luxembourg! That's the one.
Ow! Nobody asked you.
It can also be like a form of
therapy although we would-
- never say that we're therapists
cos we're not obviously qualified-
- for that kind of thing but, fuck it,
- it's... whatever floats your boat.
Ooh!
Oh, it's a 20-year-old cock, is it?
Ooh, I do like younger men.
Do you want to come play with me?
It's so common that I get
asked to be the mother-
- and they come in and they
ask can you do mother-son?
And, yeah, yeah, yeah, I can do it now.
So it's just every day, yeah,
it is really, really common.
That was quite shocking,
how common it is.
I think, David, you're looking
a little bit confused, darling.
Maybe Mummy better show you.
Let mummy take your penis.
Mm, that's it.
I'm just going to kiss it, don't worry.
Oh, David I can feel you're
getting nice and hard for Mummy.
I was like, oh, no, I can't do
that, it's incest, it's like taboo,
- it's wrong, but then I realised,
and I spoke to some other cam girls-
- on a forum and they said,
"No, if you think about it, it is
about domination and submission."
Ooh, you naughty boy.
"They're not actually wanting
to be with their mother,
- they're not actually wanting
you to be their mother,
- it's more of that mother
figure that they see,
- maybe their friend's mother
or the woman in the shop-
- that they fantasize about,
that's what it is."
"The neighbor's mother.
It's not their mother."
So it made me feel a bit easier
then cos it was a bit strange to-
- be asked to be someone's mother
and do sexual things and talk about sex.
Hi, guys,
come and have a chat to me.
VOICE-OVER: I think
there's a need for it.
Let me help you relax.
VOICE-OVER: I don't think about
what's happening in their lives
and who they're with,
cos I wouldn't be able to do it.
Sometimes you'll do a shoot
and you don't always
like your pictures, the way
you look or what you're wearing.
I just like the whole dressing up
thing, it reminds me of, like,
when you're a little girl.
I enjoy it, I suppose,
for sometimes different
reasons than most people
would think.
Like, "Oh, yeah you must
get turned on or whatever,"
but I think it's the being desired thing
is the thing that makes you feel good.
I feel in charge,
I feel that I am in demand.
You realise when you do this job
that you actually do have all-
- the control.
Do you think you've learn't
a lot doing the job? Yeah.
It's empowering. It's bought me
so much more confidence than-
- I ever would have had normally-
- and then you realise all these
things that you were giving away,
- you could have earned money on and, like,
why the fuck you giving it away for free?
I think I'd have something to say,
like, if one of my girls,
- you know, they were uploading
stuff like teasing pictures-
- on just normal social
media and for free. Yeah.
I would have something to say about
that, it's like what are you doing?
You know, if you're going to
do that, make money out of it,
- don't do it for free. I come from
a middle class family from, like...
They lived in, like,
a posh sort of area-
- and all that, they had money and
you didn't swear, you didn't put your-
- elbows on the table,
you didn't do this, you didn't do that.
I've gone from, that's what I knew-
- to this, like,
now I swear like a trouper.
Do they all know what you do?
Oh, God, no.
My daughter did find out.
The video she saw was a massive
gang bang I had over in Florida.
So not easing her in.
Uh, no. It was literally, if you was going
to see something that you shouldn't see,
- it was literally of all the stuff that she,
you know, you wouldn't be introducing...
Yeah... until much later.
It wasn't like just normal boy/girl.
No, no, not with me,
- it was everything.
How did you feel about that?
Oh, I felt embarrassed, to be honest.
Yeah.
"Your full spreaded pussy,
showing your beautiful face,
- squirting and pissing..."
Ooh! "..squirting and pissing
everywhere on your feet."
My God he wants a lot, doesn't he?
"At the end you take your breasts
in your hands and tell me..."
When I first started doing this cam
job work, I thought I couldn't tell-
- anybody cos I thought they'd have
a negative reaction to it, I thought-
- they'd go, "Oh what you
doing that for? It's disgusting!"
And, eventually, you do have to tell people
because you can't really keep it a secret,
- especially me, I'll say,
Oh, do you...
And I have to stop myself talking about it, and I
don't want to be like that, I want to be quite open.
Ooh, look at those big, bouncy titties.
Oh, yeah.
Ooh, let me ride you.
Ooh, yeah.
If you're doing something
like this it's easier to tell-
- people about it that's close to you
because you actually have an outlet.
So you don't keep everything to yourself.
You wouldn't go to a normal job and
then come home and never, ever-
- talk about your life away from home,
it's just exactly the same.
Right, guys, we're going
to go for some breakfast,
- so I'll see you in an hour.
Bye.
More innocent.
Well a lot more compared to now.
You're not innocent now.
Just do a teaser.
Hand over your fairy and cover
your boobs like that. Fairy!
Cover nipples.
I'll try.
You could send this to somebody, if you want
to see the rest, do you know what I mean?
- Yeah, that's the little thing
for Instagram, isn't it? - Yeah.
It's built my confidence
over the years and all that.
Something that I didn't have before.
I think there are a number-
- of, like, broken people
in the industry and that-
- and I think that a lot of people
do hide behind their character.
First of all,
let's just have them hanging first.
Initially, I had a marriage
breakdown not because of the work-
- but that was very difficult.
And because I was the
one working originally,
- we decided that he was going
to be the one that had my children-
- at the time.
Um...
And I found the separation of
my children and the breakdown-
- of my marriage very
difficult to deal with-
- and it did destroy me.
It did.
Went up my nose!
It's all fizzy up my nose.
I think for somebody that is broken,
- it allows you to create an alter ego.
You kind of believe you
are that person, I think,
- and kind of separate that
from who you really are-
- and it lets you forget about...
...that, you know,
you just try and bury it, you know,
- and you just try and
be this other person.
Oh, look, my boobs,
I've found my boobs.
You found them.
I found my boobs.
Right, so this custom order here,
- he's explained that he wants
it to be a mummy and son video-
- where I'm teaching him
how to make a baby.
He wants me to use all the medical
terms and not naughty terms-
- like I was talking to a son,
saying a vagina,
- I probably wouldn't say a pussy.
And then he wants me to
start off by explaining it-
- but then Mummy comes
up with an idea of,
- "Oh, it's better that I don't just explain it,
- I'll show you what I mean."
He wants lots of "David's" throughout,
- mummy, Mum, mother, breast,
- nipples, penis, erection,
vagina, cum, sperm, ejaculation."
So he wants me to mention all them words.
Um, and then he's given me
phrases to say as well like,
- "Mummy's vagina is going
to make your penis ejaculate."
Love you, too.
I think you need to have a hard
skin to do this, really, I think-
- you have to think,
"I don't care what people think."
Now I'm getting old,
my thighs are sagging.
So it just holds them up.
Everybody's got insecurities, even the most
beautiful people in the world are insecure-
- about something but
I think in this industry-
- you get a lot of men who come in
and say quite horrible things to you-
- so, yeah, I think you really do
have to have a thick skin to do it.
You have to not care what
people think, and it does help-
- you in that way because
you're doing stuff and you have-
- to not care because if you
did it would just drive you mad.
I wish I could go on camera
just being my natural self-
- but I wear make-up,
I have my nails done,
- I have my eyelashes done,
my eyebrows done.
It's all about fantasy,
they want to see a nice,
- in lingerie and looking all sexy,
- do you know?
They want to see your hair done-
- and your make-up done
because it is a fantasy world,
- it's not the real world,
it's a fantasy world.
We have this magical little attachment,
it's very spongey-
- and, well, it's silicone-
- and you whack it over the top-
- and it basically becomes-
- a device for willies.
You're not going to move for me, OK?
You're going to stay still.
I'm not a scary dominatrix,
I'm much more approachable,
- I like to laugh in my sessions,
I like to just have a lot of fun-
- and so I kind of attract people that-
- like that sort of less
intense experience.
But do you know what?
I'm getting bored.
Cos you're not playing the game.
You're no use to me.
If I can't make you cum or give you
a ruined orgasm then you're no use.
Come back when your penis is smaller.
OK?
Yeah.
Using food as comfort, I mean,
I always had disordered eating-
- from a very young age-
- but now I feel quite happy
with my body. I was, what,
- 14 or 15 years old and I was
starting to put the weight on-
- and I was always told, "Cover your stomach
with your cardigan, don't show your stomach."
And I thought I was fat back then-
- but when I look at the pictures I
was actually a normal sized child-
- but it was very damaging
to constantly be told,
- you know, "You're the biggest
person on stage, cover yourself up,
- pull your stomach in."
I mean, I spent most of my life
standing with my stomach muscles-
- pulled in anyway because
that's what you do when-
- you're a dancer...
...stomach in, bum in,
shoulders down, head up, you know?
Gives you great posture
but it's very damaging.
And I'm not making excuses
but it doesn't matter how much-
- I exercise or try to lose weight,
- it just piles back on again.
Since having a baby,
I've always been a big woman-
- and I have tried to
diet like most women,
- but it's just not going to happen.
I love my food too much.
Everything I see puts on weight.
I don't even have to eat it.
It's really hard, I mean,
I'm confident on web cam-
- but in real life I still
think I should be skinnier.
It's like you don't look nice
in clothes so I don't think I'll-
- ever accept being a big woman-
- but, I don't know, the web camming-
- does help because it gives you that
confidence to know that it doesn't-
- matter what size you are,
you're still sexy but it's a different...
I find it a different world,
camming, to the real world.
I still feel big in the real world-
- but in camming I feel sexy.
It's real strange.
So what about relationships?
When you get into a relationship
or have a relationship,
- how do guys feel
about you doing this job?
Um...
It does cause problems for people.
Some people do try and understand it-
- or they'll think that
they can and they don't-
- but I'm not actually intending
on getting into a relationship-
- for quite some time.
Why not?
I'm quite happy just doing
what I'm doing on my own.
Is that cos you're worried about guys,
telling them what you do?
Um, no, I'm open to tell people,
I've got no issue with that.
It's the time, putting into
a relationship and that,
- I would rather put it into work stuff.
Urgh.
I'm going to switch that buzzer off.
It's never really going to be small-
- but in general I am
happy and I love my body-
- and I love the fact that
my girlfriend loves my body-
- and she celebrates it-
- and that kind of gives me confidence,
- when after all of these
years in my life I've been told,
"No, your fat body's wrong,
- you would be so much
happier if you were thin."
Like, there's this, like,
- thin woman just inside,
- dying to sort of burst out
of the fat suit and get out,
- but there's not,
there's not a thin girl inside of me.
I want to be like, "Voluptua's the
most amazing woman I've ever met,"
- but I'd just be lying.
You're such a bitch.
No, you are, you're just...
Yeah.
There are a lot of
people who will say to me,
- because I'm dating a big woman,
"Oh when did you realise
that you fancied big women?"
And I'm just like, "When did you
realise you fancied thin women,
- when did you realise
that you were anything?"
I'm attracted to big women.
What's not to like?
You know, curves, lots of flesh, gorgeous.
And there's loads of people
that love big women.
We just have a normal life together-
- but we just happen to also have a
dungeon and we're both dominatrixes.
So, erm, yeah,
it's really cool dating a sex worker.
Did you use the ruler upon him?
How many times?
Uh... No, because...
It's almost like a body dysmorphia,
I guess,
- like I just see myself as a normal
size person even though I'm not-
- and I just thought, well, No,
I just want to be like everybody else-
- but it wasn't really until sort
of I got together with Vixen-
- and she said, "You know,
you're really missing a trick here-
- because you should use your size
and promote what you actually are-
- and be comfortable with what
you are and that's your niche."
Ooh. Should take that home.
You do start to build up a
relationship with the men-
- that come and see you,
especially the regulars,
- you get to know a
little bit of their life.
Sometimes they just
come in for a chat,
- they're not after anything sexual
or anything like that, and you want-
- to be their favourite, you want
to be their call girl, their cam girl,
- so when they go off, see somebody
else, I get a little bit jealous.
I'm going to have to make
myself look nice again.
It can be a very solitary job, really.
I've been single-
- since I've started it so to
meet a man, I don't know,
- I'm not embarrassed to tell them,
it's more like how their reaction-
- to me would be and
how they would view me.
It might turn me into a sex toy-
- and I don't want a relationship
where it's just based on sex.
It's non-existent sex life at the moment.
Some clays I haven't been out the house-
- so where am I going to meet a man?
It's not all about sex,
it's about relationships,
- it's about loneliness,
it's about everything,
it's not just a sex thing,
so, yeah, I'd love it-
- and I'd have someone to share it with,
someone to share stories with.
The thing that does bug me, though...
...people don't want
to pay for the content,
- but they don't think about the
amount of work that we do put in,
- which is sad, really, because-
- if they did, that would be supporting us-
- and we can make even more stuff.
No-one wants to work for free.
It would be great if the guys did
think about this sort of thing-
- instead of just trying
to get a quick wank.
It would be great because it would
support us all to make more content.
I'm not asking every Tom,
Dick and Harry to find me attractive-
- cos of course they're not, but,
oh, my God, yes, I am sexy-
- and I know I'm sexy and I know
that the people that come to visit me-
- absolutely love the way that I look.
And...
...you know, I've got it.
Sexiness, it's in the brain,
- it's not in the way
that you actually look...
...I don't think, anyway.
Hello, Regency.
Are you my pimp? Are you my pimp?
Well, then.
It sounds to me, sir, like you might be doing something
to yourself at the moment, am I correct in that?
Cos I will have to terminate
the call if that's the case.
I love the term BBW because
it means big beautiful woman.
You get a lot of men who come in
and say quite horrible things to you-
- so, yeah, I think you really
do have to have a thick skin.
People don't like it because
I think they want fat people-
- to be invisible.
So many people don't appreciate
themselves for the beauty-
- that they are and web camming
helps you do that. You pay for me.
I can't just not pay my rent.
People say things like,
"Oh, you charge too much,"
- and I'm like,
"Well, how much is a woman's body worth?"
Pussy sells more than crack, you know.
And that's a fact.
People will push for bareback,
people will push for oral without.
It's sad to me that I'm actually getting to the
stage where I'm considering it as an option.
Right, so this custom order here,
he's explained that he wants it to-
- be a mummy and son video.
Just every day, yeah,
it is really, really common.
I'll try not to fart.
A lot of people really love
the feeling of being squashed.
You OK?
I'm not asking every Tom, Dick
and Harry to find me attractive-
- cos of course they're not, but oh,
my God yes, I am sexy. I've got it.
So if I know they're wanking,
then I think a tip's only fair.
I think there are a number of,
like, broken people in-
- the industry and that-
- and I think that a lot of people
do hide behind their character.
I'm fat, I'm here, I'm taking up space-
- and I don't give a toss
what anybody else thinks.
Oh, Richard.
Oh, what would you like Richard?
Oh.
Mm.
Eh?
Mm.
Well, I'd better strip all my clothes off.
Mm.
You want to see my big nipples?
There we go.
You need to get them hard for me, baby.
Ooh, come and suck them.
I love the term BBW because
it means big beautiful woman-
- which is all positive words, isn't it?
And I think it's a great thing that
the bigger woman can be seen-
- as sexy, I think it's empowering,
it's brilliant.
You want to see my tight ass?
My big, fat ass.
When I first started I did not want
to show any of my wobbly bits-
- but then I realised, well,
the men was asking to see them-
- and I was saying,
"Do you really want to see it?"
And they was like,
"Yeah, it's sexy, it's gorgeous, its lovely,"
- and they love it.
Mm, you want to see my ass?
- At least you know it works.
- Yeah, I know.
Just don't know how to fill it.
Well, you did, didn't you?
Before I did cam work I was
working in a home for adults-
- with learning difficulties-
- but unfortunately that home closed
down so I was left without a job.
It was quite sudden
so I just sort of panicked-
- a bit cos I had rent to pay,
bills to pay, and I remember watching-
- a documentary with my daughter
about web camming and she knew I was-
- struggling. She actually said,
"Why don't you try that web camming, mum?"
I wonder why they tell you to put water in it.
Maybe they can't advertise. You put water in there.
No, I mean why,
cos it's not water that comes out, is it?
It's not going to look realistic.
Can we try it without the battery?
Do you think it'll come out?
Yeah, the batteries only makes it vibrate.
Oh, right.
Me and my mum have
been just best friends, really.
My mum actually used to be
in an amateur dramatic group-
- and she's just like an extrovert.
What did you do?
Did you...?
Did you squirt?
I can't. You naughty boy.
It's a weird thing to say to your mum-
- but because she loved acting and
all that stuff and we didn't have that-
- taboo thing about it, it was just,
"Would you do that?" And she was like, "Yeah."
So it just came out.
"Why don't you try it, then?"
And ever since then it's just took
off and I'm really proud of her.
She's always told me
not to talk about sex or...
Well, not talk about sex but say,
"Mum, stop it, I'm your daughter.
"You can't talk about that sort of thing."
So for her to sort of,
- like, mention, "Why don't you do sex online?"
It was quite shocking.
But then when she explained,
you know, "You'd be quite good at it,
- you like acting, it's all about
role play, it's all about fantasy,"
I was thinking, yeah, maybe she's got
a point, maybe I could do that, yeah.
How sadistic I'm feeling.
I discovered my kink very early on.
I think I've always been kinky.
Assume the position!
This feels too low.
If we could maybe move it sideways-
- and have it adjacent with this...
sorry... with this...
I was 11 and my 12-year-old
friend told me about bondage-
- and I thought, oh, what's this?
And I kind of knew I was kinky-
- and then when I met my husband
we explored it more and we were-
- quite switchy with it so we
would take the different roles-
- and things like that and
that's how we explored it.
I never joined the scene at
all until my marriage was over.
- It's not too tight?
- No. - Good sport.
That was when I was like, right,
that's it, I'm going to go out-
- and I'm going to have great
fun and go to the kink clubs.
If you can go a little bit closer to him,
just step right towards him.
Sweet. An now do your thing.
Right. So, where do you want me?
You know,
I went from being a sub to a slave-
- and then I just thought it
wasn't kind of fulfilling me.
I think the submissive in me sort
of disappeared and then I found-
- that when I was being more
dominant that I actually got more out-
- of it sexually and it's the sense
of power and the power exchange-
- and the energy that
you exchange with them.
It was a really good rush.
...his face and pull his hair.
And that's kind of when I thought, oh,
- I could do this and I could
earn money from it cos there is-
- a lot of submissive guys-
- and not a lot of dominant women.
Get up at 04:00am to start at 05:00-
- just cos I want to hit the
American market when they're just-
- going to bed cos, like,
they're six hours behind us,
- and then I try to hit the English market-
- where they're just getting up for work.
If I didn't do that I would probably
get up, have my breakfast-
- and think, oh,
I can't be bothered to work today.
It's funny what the men like to see.
They like to see all the wobbly bits.
And women like to hide all the wobbly bits.
It's not really a kink I've got,
- it's just... an ability to,
I don't know, attract men, I don't know.
I'm sorry, this is not very sexy, is it?
I always thought I was too big to
be sexy so it was quite a shock that-
- men found me attractive and sexy
in my body and that was quite an-
- eye opener, really, it gave me loads
of confidence, loads of confidence.
The first-ever show I ever did-
- I was so nervous.
Took me ages to actually start.
My heart was pounding,
I just didn't know what to expect.
Oh, hi, baby.
Ooh, what would you like?
Well, it's like going on stage, isn't it?
It's like-
- you're in front of everybody.
Ooh, look.
Mm!
Ooh, that's it.
Are you on your knees?
I know the men are coming
to see me cos I'm a big girl,
- cos I advertise that I'm chubby,
I'm wobbly so I know that people-
- are coming to watch me
because I'm big, cos I'm wobbly-
- and because I'm older.
I know that.
Oh, Shit.
It is scary but the men are just
so nice, they know you're new-
- so they're going to guide you in
slowly but it was fine, I loved it,
- I came off buzzing, I was thinking,
oh, my God, this is great.
Ooh, look. Here we go.
Are you ready?
Oh, yes.
Oh, come and tease my hair.
Some of the videos that she
was getting requests for,
- she can't really film on her own. Like, she
had, like, a splodging video which was, like,
- where she had to stand there and,
like, put, like, beans and, like,
- sauces and all that stuff on her.
So I was filming it and it was
quite funny, we had such a laugh-
- because the smell
of it all mixed together-
- and I had to keep my mouth, like,
closed and my nose closed and every-
- time we did a pause I had to go
like this so I could breathe fresh air.
But it's, like, at the start we just did loads
of videos and it was just so much fun-
- so it's kind of like a bonding
thing as well, it's really strange.
She can do whatever she wants in the job.
Obviously she has her own boundaries
of what she wouldn't do with people-
- and a lot of things she won't talk
to me about because it's my boundary-
- of listening to it, so if she gets,
like, a really, a dirty thing-
- that she's doing, she knows that
she won't really talk to me about that.
- You all ready and set up?
- Yeah.
How much are you ready?
- Very ready, Mistress.
- Very ready?
I think you should ask for permission
for me to sit on your face.
Can I have permission for you
to sit on my face, Mistress?
No. "Please will you sit?"
- Please will you sit on my face, Mistress?
- Once more with feeling.
- Please will you sit on my face, Mistress?
- Again.
- Please will you sit on my face, Mistress?
- Beg better.
Please will you sit on my face, Mistress?
I'll try not to fart.
OK, Mistress.
Face sitting is essentially
a form of breath play.
What's the first rule of diving?
Breathing. Exactly.
It's done fully clothed so,
you know, they can't,
- they don't touch you or
lick you or anything like that.
Nice, big, deep breath for me.
A lot of people really love
the feeling of being squashed.
Are you ready?
Big breath.
I've got my upper part of my belly-
- and then there's the bottom part-
- and, erm, the guys love that.
What did it feel like to have
the belly on top of you?
It was...
- Have you not got words?
- No.
Yes.
Get a free view.
Would you like to be able
to lick your nou nou?
Um, I think I'd pull a hernia if I tried.
I do class myself as a BBW.
I am fully aware that I am a bit chubby.
I know that I am.
I'm honest about that,
- like I'll laugh about it and I say
to my family, yeah, I'm a fat fucker-
- or something like that, you know,
I'm honest about it.
BBW to me is anyone that is either curvy,
- a bit chubby but it depends,
I think, on the shape of the body,
- if there is, like, no actual
shape and she's just, like, round-
- then to me, I don't class
that as a BBW, me, personally,
- and I know my guys, like,
they would say, "I like a little bit of fat,"
- you know, "Something to hold on to,"
- or just, like, a big bum or whatever.
But that is a little bit too big for me.
- I can actually suck on them.
- Can you?
Yeah, that's what I do on web cam.
That's amazing. I suck my tits on web cam.
Whatever size you are, you should
make it work, whatever that is.
If I lactated I could actually
drink my own milk, technically.
It doesn't matter if
you've got stretch marks,
- it doesn't matter if you've
got rolls or whatever,
- whatever it is, you can find
something, some form of a niche.
For me BBW, it's like boobs, butt,
- mainly butt,
- so it seems to be
a lot of stuff that, like,
- you're bent over and things like that.
It used to be boobs, people used to like
my boobs when I was a little bit smaller-
- and that used to be
the thing but now it's like,
- "Oh, my God, you've got a massive bum!"
I've just rolled with it and I've
actually found that there's more-
- money in being bigger
and I'm more popular-
- the size I am now as a 12 to 14-
- than I ever was when I was small.
I've always marketed myself as BBW-
- but I didn't want it
originally to be the sole focus.
I wanted to be treated like
every other person out there.
People don't like seeing us.
They want fat people to be invisible.
I really don't care
what other people think.
I'm up for a bit of badness.
I actually really want to fuck shit up-
- in terms of how fat people are perceived.
Lord have mercy on my mother fucking soul.
But, like, you can sit looking as if-
- you're kind of just sort of,
like, being all foot fetishy. OK.
You don't need to, like,
lick me or kiss me or anything like that.
I'm working on the new
wording for my website-
- cos I'm changing my name to
Lady Voluptua and rebranding.
And then just, like, kind of,
like, be caressing my foot.
Like, you know,
as if you were going to caress a teddy bear.
Kind of thing.
If you come closer in as well.
"Behold the luscious, luxurious
and libidinous darling that is me."
"Lady Voluptua."
"Give in to your basest desires
and worship my glorious curves."
"Celebrate my deliciously
divine adiposity."
"Fem dom with a difference.
Big, beautiful"
"and ready to make your wildest
fetish fantasies come true."
Love it.
"Whether you long to be smothered
by my bosoms, squished like a bug-
- underneath my beautiful fat bum-
- or squashed between my thunderous
thighs, you're guaranteed to have-
- an intoxicating time with me."
- Do you think we've got the shot of him?
- I think so, yeah.
I think there's one that we can use.
L'lljust do a couple of closer in ones.
OK. Thank you.
We're taught from a very young
age that being fat is wrong.
The media hammers it home all the time.
It is quite a kind of bold thing
to actually come out and say,
- "I'm fat, I'm here, I'm taking up
space and I think I'm glorious-
- and I don't give a toss
what anybody else thinks."
And hopefully it'll work.
Look how hard they're getting now.
Making me excited.
Probably do two to four hours a day-
- and I'm earning in a week
more than I've earned in a month-
- in my other jobs.
So, I mean,
that is just mind-blowing, isn't it?
My hairy legs.
So bad.
But I won't shave 'em until
somebody pays me to shave 'em.
So if I know they're wanking,
- if they're asking me to show them
something for wanking like my feet-
- or something like that then I
think a tip's only fair. Mutual respect.
Sometimes I don't even do a full week,
- sometimes I do four or five clays
but I'm still earning more than-
- I earned in a month in a week,
so that's just amazing.
Here they are, this is what we need.
Ooh, you get,
buy one get one half price.
What are you actually looking for?
I'm looking for one that shoots.
It's not very big.
- That is big.
- No, not compared to what they want.
No, I mean...
Like that.
Oh, my goodness.
Yeah, don't worry, girls,
I'm not going into this area. Please don't.
No.
These do look good in your bum.
Thank you very much.
Enjoy your products and have fun.
Oh, I will. Thank you.
You're welcome.
Are you ready, girls?
Thank you.
Thanks, girls.
Thank you.
Bye. Bye.
When my mum first started camming
I was actually working full time,
- so my husband was at
home with my daughter,
- so he had to be in the same house-
- and it got to the point where he did
actually turn, like, pull me to a side and say,
- "Can you let her know to,
like, cover the door?"
He didn't want to, like, say it to my mum
cos it was kind of, like, embarrassing.
First of all we have to get
your penis nice and hard.
Shall I show you how I'm
going to do that, David?
Do you trust Mummy?
You love Mummy, don't you, so you trust me.
I feel like I've made something
and I want them to be happy-
- so I need the feedback.
Do you want to come and play?
And I do get a lot of feedback
from it and they say,
- "Oh, yeah, that was brilliant,
it was the best one." Yes!
Oh, make Aunt Jackie pregnant.
There you go.
To be honest, I think it's a
really good thing that there is a-
- category for bigger women because
the average woman isn't skinny.
The fact that there is men out there
that absolutely love bigger women-
- kind of gives me a confidence
boost as well cos I think, right,
- I'm getting a bit bigger and
I know that people out there-
- might like me and I
can walk down the street-
- and somebody might fancy me.
That's a nice feeling to have,
- that there is actually people
out there who like bigger women.
Today we are just getting ready.
We're going to do a pyjama scene.
We're doing a Christmas theme-
- and everything, as obviously you can see we've got
Christmas decorations up and everything and I'm going to-
- fuck myself with a candy cane.
I do cuckold, I do interracial,
I do water sports.
Cool.
Normal boy/girl.
Domination, foot, shoe,
- toys and things like that, you know.
It's the biggest pussy lips I've ever seen.
I don't like anal.
Tried it numerous times.
I wish I could do it and
I wish could just fuck myself-
- in both holes because it's popular-
- but, no, it's not something I enjoy,
it's very uncomfortable for me.
Oh, hands, I thought you meant...
I don't enjoy facials cos I
feel that you're knelt down-
- and someone is, like,
ejaculating all over your face.
I don't know,
I just feel that that is disrespectful-
- and I won't do that, I don't like that.
That's not something I do.
There is a nasty image associated to
dominatrix and they sort of see it-
- as sort of titillation but it's
dirty and nasty when at the end-
- of the day all we're really doing is-
- catering to people's fantasies
and fetishes and fulfilling a need-
- where they maybe can't get it at
home or they're too kind of worried-
- about, you know, that perhaps
if they are married that their wife-
- or their family will reject them,
- they can come to a safe place.
But there is definitely a negative
image because everybody thinks-
- it's really salacious and that
it's all about sex when it's not,
- it's actually about getting into
somebody's mind and really helping-
- them explore what turns them on.
Let's tune in for radio...
What is it?
Radio Ams...
No, it's not radio Amsterdam,
it's radio something. Luxembourg.
Luxembourg! That's the one.
Ow! Nobody asked you.
It can also be like a form of
therapy although we would-
- never say that we're therapists
cos we're not obviously qualified-
- for that kind of thing but, fuck it,
- it's... whatever floats your boat.
Ooh!
Oh, it's a 20-year-old cock, is it?
Ooh, I do like younger men.
Do you want to come play with me?
It's so common that I get
asked to be the mother-
- and they come in and they
ask can you do mother-son?
And, yeah, yeah, yeah, I can do it now.
So it's just every day, yeah,
it is really, really common.
That was quite shocking,
how common it is.
I think, David, you're looking
a little bit confused, darling.
Maybe Mummy better show you.
Let mummy take your penis.
Mm, that's it.
I'm just going to kiss it, don't worry.
Oh, David I can feel you're
getting nice and hard for Mummy.
I was like, oh, no, I can't do
that, it's incest, it's like taboo,
- it's wrong, but then I realised,
and I spoke to some other cam girls-
- on a forum and they said,
"No, if you think about it, it is
about domination and submission."
Ooh, you naughty boy.
"They're not actually wanting
to be with their mother,
- they're not actually wanting
you to be their mother,
- it's more of that mother
figure that they see,
- maybe their friend's mother
or the woman in the shop-
- that they fantasize about,
that's what it is."
"The neighbor's mother.
It's not their mother."
So it made me feel a bit easier
then cos it was a bit strange to-
- be asked to be someone's mother
and do sexual things and talk about sex.
Hi, guys,
come and have a chat to me.
VOICE-OVER: I think
there's a need for it.
Let me help you relax.
VOICE-OVER: I don't think about
what's happening in their lives
and who they're with,
cos I wouldn't be able to do it.
Sometimes you'll do a shoot
and you don't always
like your pictures, the way
you look or what you're wearing.
I just like the whole dressing up
thing, it reminds me of, like,
when you're a little girl.
I enjoy it, I suppose,
for sometimes different
reasons than most people
would think.
Like, "Oh, yeah you must
get turned on or whatever,"
but I think it's the being desired thing
is the thing that makes you feel good.
I feel in charge,
I feel that I am in demand.
You realise when you do this job
that you actually do have all-
- the control.
Do you think you've learn't
a lot doing the job? Yeah.
It's empowering. It's bought me
so much more confidence than-
- I ever would have had normally-
- and then you realise all these
things that you were giving away,
- you could have earned money on and, like,
why the fuck you giving it away for free?
I think I'd have something to say,
like, if one of my girls,
- you know, they were uploading
stuff like teasing pictures-
- on just normal social
media and for free. Yeah.
I would have something to say about
that, it's like what are you doing?
You know, if you're going to
do that, make money out of it,
- don't do it for free. I come from
a middle class family from, like...
They lived in, like,
a posh sort of area-
- and all that, they had money and
you didn't swear, you didn't put your-
- elbows on the table,
you didn't do this, you didn't do that.
I've gone from, that's what I knew-
- to this, like,
now I swear like a trouper.
Do they all know what you do?
Oh, God, no.
My daughter did find out.
The video she saw was a massive
gang bang I had over in Florida.
So not easing her in.
Uh, no. It was literally, if you was going
to see something that you shouldn't see,
- it was literally of all the stuff that she,
you know, you wouldn't be introducing...
Yeah... until much later.
It wasn't like just normal boy/girl.
No, no, not with me,
- it was everything.
How did you feel about that?
Oh, I felt embarrassed, to be honest.
Yeah.
"Your full spreaded pussy,
showing your beautiful face,
- squirting and pissing..."
Ooh! "..squirting and pissing
everywhere on your feet."
My God he wants a lot, doesn't he?
"At the end you take your breasts
in your hands and tell me..."
When I first started doing this cam
job work, I thought I couldn't tell-
- anybody cos I thought they'd have
a negative reaction to it, I thought-
- they'd go, "Oh what you
doing that for? It's disgusting!"
And, eventually, you do have to tell people
because you can't really keep it a secret,
- especially me, I'll say,
Oh, do you...
And I have to stop myself talking about it, and I
don't want to be like that, I want to be quite open.
Ooh, look at those big, bouncy titties.
Oh, yeah.
Ooh, let me ride you.
Ooh, yeah.
If you're doing something
like this it's easier to tell-
- people about it that's close to you
because you actually have an outlet.
So you don't keep everything to yourself.
You wouldn't go to a normal job and
then come home and never, ever-
- talk about your life away from home,
it's just exactly the same.
Right, guys, we're going
to go for some breakfast,
- so I'll see you in an hour.
Bye.
More innocent.
Well a lot more compared to now.
You're not innocent now.
Just do a teaser.
Hand over your fairy and cover
your boobs like that. Fairy!
Cover nipples.
I'll try.
You could send this to somebody, if you want
to see the rest, do you know what I mean?
- Yeah, that's the little thing
for Instagram, isn't it? - Yeah.
It's built my confidence
over the years and all that.
Something that I didn't have before.
I think there are a number-
- of, like, broken people
in the industry and that-
- and I think that a lot of people
do hide behind their character.
First of all,
let's just have them hanging first.
Initially, I had a marriage
breakdown not because of the work-
- but that was very difficult.
And because I was the
one working originally,
- we decided that he was going
to be the one that had my children-
- at the time.
Um...
And I found the separation of
my children and the breakdown-
- of my marriage very
difficult to deal with-
- and it did destroy me.
It did.
Went up my nose!
It's all fizzy up my nose.
I think for somebody that is broken,
- it allows you to create an alter ego.
You kind of believe you
are that person, I think,
- and kind of separate that
from who you really are-
- and it lets you forget about...
...that, you know,
you just try and bury it, you know,
- and you just try and
be this other person.
Oh, look, my boobs,
I've found my boobs.
You found them.
I found my boobs.
Right, so this custom order here,
- he's explained that he wants
it to be a mummy and son video-
- where I'm teaching him
how to make a baby.
He wants me to use all the medical
terms and not naughty terms-
- like I was talking to a son,
saying a vagina,
- I probably wouldn't say a pussy.
And then he wants me to
start off by explaining it-
- but then Mummy comes
up with an idea of,
- "Oh, it's better that I don't just explain it,
- I'll show you what I mean."
He wants lots of "David's" throughout,
- mummy, Mum, mother, breast,
- nipples, penis, erection,
vagina, cum, sperm, ejaculation."
So he wants me to mention all them words.
Um, and then he's given me
phrases to say as well like,
- "Mummy's vagina is going
to make your penis ejaculate."
Love you, too.
I think you need to have a hard
skin to do this, really, I think-
- you have to think,
"I don't care what people think."
Now I'm getting old,
my thighs are sagging.
So it just holds them up.
Everybody's got insecurities, even the most
beautiful people in the world are insecure-
- about something but
I think in this industry-
- you get a lot of men who come in
and say quite horrible things to you-
- so, yeah, I think you really do
have to have a thick skin to do it.
You have to not care what
people think, and it does help-
- you in that way because
you're doing stuff and you have-
- to not care because if you
did it would just drive you mad.
I wish I could go on camera
just being my natural self-
- but I wear make-up,
I have my nails done,
- I have my eyelashes done,
my eyebrows done.
It's all about fantasy,
they want to see a nice,
- in lingerie and looking all sexy,
- do you know?
They want to see your hair done-
- and your make-up done
because it is a fantasy world,
- it's not the real world,
it's a fantasy world.
We have this magical little attachment,
it's very spongey-
- and, well, it's silicone-
- and you whack it over the top-
- and it basically becomes-
- a device for willies.
You're not going to move for me, OK?
You're going to stay still.
I'm not a scary dominatrix,
I'm much more approachable,
- I like to laugh in my sessions,
I like to just have a lot of fun-
- and so I kind of attract people that-
- like that sort of less
intense experience.
But do you know what?
I'm getting bored.
Cos you're not playing the game.
You're no use to me.
If I can't make you cum or give you
a ruined orgasm then you're no use.
Come back when your penis is smaller.
OK?
Yeah.
Using food as comfort, I mean,
I always had disordered eating-
- from a very young age-
- but now I feel quite happy
with my body. I was, what,
- 14 or 15 years old and I was
starting to put the weight on-
- and I was always told, "Cover your stomach
with your cardigan, don't show your stomach."
And I thought I was fat back then-
- but when I look at the pictures I
was actually a normal sized child-
- but it was very damaging
to constantly be told,
- you know, "You're the biggest
person on stage, cover yourself up,
- pull your stomach in."
I mean, I spent most of my life
standing with my stomach muscles-
- pulled in anyway because
that's what you do when-
- you're a dancer...
...stomach in, bum in,
shoulders down, head up, you know?
Gives you great posture
but it's very damaging.
And I'm not making excuses
but it doesn't matter how much-
- I exercise or try to lose weight,
- it just piles back on again.
Since having a baby,
I've always been a big woman-
- and I have tried to
diet like most women,
- but it's just not going to happen.
I love my food too much.
Everything I see puts on weight.
I don't even have to eat it.
It's really hard, I mean,
I'm confident on web cam-
- but in real life I still
think I should be skinnier.
It's like you don't look nice
in clothes so I don't think I'll-
- ever accept being a big woman-
- but, I don't know, the web camming-
- does help because it gives you that
confidence to know that it doesn't-
- matter what size you are,
you're still sexy but it's a different...
I find it a different world,
camming, to the real world.
I still feel big in the real world-
- but in camming I feel sexy.
It's real strange.
So what about relationships?
When you get into a relationship
or have a relationship,
- how do guys feel
about you doing this job?
Um...
It does cause problems for people.
Some people do try and understand it-
- or they'll think that
they can and they don't-
- but I'm not actually intending
on getting into a relationship-
- for quite some time.
Why not?
I'm quite happy just doing
what I'm doing on my own.
Is that cos you're worried about guys,
telling them what you do?
Um, no, I'm open to tell people,
I've got no issue with that.
It's the time, putting into
a relationship and that,
- I would rather put it into work stuff.
Urgh.
I'm going to switch that buzzer off.
It's never really going to be small-
- but in general I am
happy and I love my body-
- and I love the fact that
my girlfriend loves my body-
- and she celebrates it-
- and that kind of gives me confidence,
- when after all of these
years in my life I've been told,
"No, your fat body's wrong,
- you would be so much
happier if you were thin."
Like, there's this, like,
- thin woman just inside,
- dying to sort of burst out
of the fat suit and get out,
- but there's not,
there's not a thin girl inside of me.
I want to be like, "Voluptua's the
most amazing woman I've ever met,"
- but I'd just be lying.
You're such a bitch.
No, you are, you're just...
Yeah.
There are a lot of
people who will say to me,
- because I'm dating a big woman,
"Oh when did you realise
that you fancied big women?"
And I'm just like, "When did you
realise you fancied thin women,
- when did you realise
that you were anything?"
I'm attracted to big women.
What's not to like?
You know, curves, lots of flesh, gorgeous.
And there's loads of people
that love big women.
We just have a normal life together-
- but we just happen to also have a
dungeon and we're both dominatrixes.
So, erm, yeah,
it's really cool dating a sex worker.
Did you use the ruler upon him?
How many times?
Uh... No, because...
It's almost like a body dysmorphia,
I guess,
- like I just see myself as a normal
size person even though I'm not-
- and I just thought, well, No,
I just want to be like everybody else-
- but it wasn't really until sort
of I got together with Vixen-
- and she said, "You know,
you're really missing a trick here-
- because you should use your size
and promote what you actually are-
- and be comfortable with what
you are and that's your niche."
Ooh. Should take that home.
You do start to build up a
relationship with the men-
- that come and see you,
especially the regulars,
- you get to know a
little bit of their life.
Sometimes they just
come in for a chat,
- they're not after anything sexual
or anything like that, and you want-
- to be their favourite, you want
to be their call girl, their cam girl,
- so when they go off, see somebody
else, I get a little bit jealous.
I'm going to have to make
myself look nice again.
It can be a very solitary job, really.
I've been single-
- since I've started it so to
meet a man, I don't know,
- I'm not embarrassed to tell them,
it's more like how their reaction-
- to me would be and
how they would view me.
It might turn me into a sex toy-
- and I don't want a relationship
where it's just based on sex.
It's non-existent sex life at the moment.
Some clays I haven't been out the house-
- so where am I going to meet a man?
It's not all about sex,
it's about relationships,
- it's about loneliness,
it's about everything,
it's not just a sex thing,
so, yeah, I'd love it-
- and I'd have someone to share it with,
someone to share stories with.
The thing that does bug me, though...
...people don't want
to pay for the content,
- but they don't think about the
amount of work that we do put in,
- which is sad, really, because-
- if they did, that would be supporting us-
- and we can make even more stuff.
No-one wants to work for free.
It would be great if the guys did
think about this sort of thing-
- instead of just trying
to get a quick wank.
It would be great because it would
support us all to make more content.
I'm not asking every Tom,
Dick and Harry to find me attractive-
- cos of course they're not, but,
oh, my God, yes, I am sexy-
- and I know I'm sexy and I know
that the people that come to visit me-
- absolutely love the way that I look.
And...
...you know, I've got it.
Sexiness, it's in the brain,
- it's not in the way
that you actually look...
...I don't think, anyway.
Hello, Regency.
Are you my pimp? Are you my pimp?
Well, then.
It sounds to me, sir, like you might be doing something
to yourself at the moment, am I correct in that?
Cos I will have to terminate
the call if that's the case.