Pornomelancholia (2022) Movie Script
-I can't even remember their ages.
-You don't remember?
I'm trying to think...
Maybe 42, 43 years old.
-They're old already, huh?
-And married for how long?
Married? They're all married.
-No, yourself.
-Married?
Yes. For how long?
Or can't you remember?
No, I've been...
-Single for twenty years now.
-What?
-She ditched me cause I was...
-A womanizer?
That's pretty much it.
I was married for almost 25 years.
It's only been 19 for me.
-Married?
-Married, yes.
My son's going to turn...
on the 10th of January he'll be...
eighteen already, fuck...
The kid will be eighteen already.
Like they say...
She caught me in her net.
I didn't want to get married, but...
-My wife wanted to, I didn't.
-You were hunted down.
No longer free.
Not free, not free.
It's like they say, right?
You're better off being free.
She got me. What can you do?
As they say, the hunter became the prey.
You were hunted.
Yep, and nothing I could do about it.
But it was for the best.
I don't regret it.
I have my kids now.
It's different.
The law of life.
I'm a hard worker
In case you need
some work done.
What kind of jobs do you do?
A little bit of everything.
May I?
-Please check it's a new needle.
-Ok.
You'll feel a slight prick on three...
One, two, three.
Want to earn money doing porn?
Send us photos of your face,
and naked body, with an erection.
Hi, I'm interested.
How much do you pay?
I'm top.
Sending photos.
Four feet long?
What caliber?
May I take your number please?
Ok, perfect, sir.
We'll send you our estimate right over.
Thank you, good afternoon.
So, your payment is...
-From the 2nd to the 6th?
-To the 6th.
Ok, dear. Sign here.
There's no... attendance bonus.
Hmm, let me check.
This is the list they gave me.
It's because you missed a day.
I was at the doctor's that day.
Fine, but either way
you didn't come to work.
But I did tell you
I was going to the doctor's.
Yes, but if you miss one day
you automatically lose your bonus.
-So... there's nothing I can do.
-What if I bring the sick note?
Even if you do,
I can't pay you
because you didn't work.
I'm sorry, I can't do anything.
After you.
Hello, just a moment.
I'll call you during this week
to talk more
about the project.
Bye, then.
Have a good day.
Bye.
-Lalo, right?
-Yes.
Come in, please.
Just relax.
Turn around, stick your bum out
and turn to look at me.
Relax your arm, relax it, perfect.
Ok, the same thing on the other side.
Look at me,
turn a little bit more.
Thats a good one.
Ok, facing me.
Again, raise your arms,
show me your armpits. Tough guy.
That's it. Good.
Arms out front.
That's good.
And... briefs off.
We'll take one, like that, soft.
Cover it up. Like that, good.
With attitude.
Exactly.
There.
Different stances.
Face looking up.
Give me a flirty smile.
Now a wicked one.
Good, lower your face a little.
A bit more.
More, and look at me more like...
That's right.
That's good.
Ok, a more intense look,
right into the camera.
That's right.
Turn around
and turn and look at me.
With attitude. Tough guy.
Like 'I'll kick the shit out of you.'
That's good.
Now a flirty smile, now a tough guy one.
Like, 'I'm gonna shove my cock
in your ass, you slut.' That's it.
Same thing on the other side.
That's a nice one.
Lower your face a bit.
Tough guy.
Wicked smile.
Nice and sexy, think of sex.
Good.
Face me.
-Can you show me an erection?
-Yes.
Would you prefer to stand,
lie down, sit in a chair?
I'm fine right here.
Great, so...
Start thinking about...
Hi, mom.
Well, I've had a bit of work on but...
I really want to see you, so...
I think I'll drop round
in the next few days
so we can have a chat.
I've got lots of stuff to tell you.
Hi, mom.
I've been a bit busy, but...
Everything's fine and...
We'll talk later.
Have a good night.
This nation is tired of lying
and treacherous men
who present themselves as liberators,
but who, when they come to power,
forget all their promises
and become traitors.
Villa.
A pleasure to meet you,
General Zapata!
I'm Francisco Villa,
and together we shall be inseparable
in this Revolution.
Villa.
I mean, imagine the excitement
if we join forces,
this country will be free
from North to South!
Boom!
With that energy, ok?
Exhale.
Action.
A pleasure to meet you,
General Zapata!
I'm Francisco Villa,
and together we shall be inseparable
in this Revolution.
Villa!
If we join forces,
we shall set this country free
from North to South!
With that moustache,
I'm with you to the death!
Viva the Mexican Revolution!
Viva!
That's it. Now shove it in nice and slow,
there you go.
More heavy breathing, both of you.
More noises, Lalo!
If you're ready to cum, then cum.
Motherfucker!
Very good! Cut.
Very good, really good!
Congratulations,
that's the energy I want!
Two fucking bulls
grabbing each other's big balls!
That's it. Two big studs!
Very good!
Welcome, Lalo!
Welcome to the world of porn!
We're doing great!
That's what porn is, gentlemen: fantasies.
It's about arousing people,
giving people orgasms.
It's about perfect sex:
cocks are always hard,
the ejaculations are huge,
everyone's gorgeous,
everyone fucks splendidly,
the bottom is also a top...
That is real porn!
And also... good lighting.
With proper lighting,
transmitting this sex and passion...
Because the best orgasms I've ever had
have been watching porn.
That's why I do porn.
Once my cum hit my ceiling,
I had a very low ceiling,
Wanking for six hours...
weed, tequila, lube and boom!
My cock was sore!
But it was one of my biggest orgasms,
just me and my porn.
Let's make some fag's cum
hit the ceiling.
-Ok?
-Ok.
Let's go, gentlemen!
The scene was about
a masseur welcoming his client.
We didn't say a word,
there was no dialogue,
we just started faking it,
and then he started filming.
He insisted a lot
on recording each position
for up to five minutes.
You went numb.
-He calculated the time?
-Yes.
Obviously, you can't live off
making porn movies.
Sure,
but there are people who can.
Some people make the most of
-their name, and career.
-But are there many?
For example, Giordano.
He filmed three scenes in Canada
and they were a big hit.
Everyone wanted to buy them.
So, that catapulted him to fame
as an international porn actor.
Then he wasn't just famous here in Mexico,
but in other countries too.
So, it's another market.
That could happen to you.
Once a scene is a hit,
once it goes viral,
you get known in other countries,
countries where
people speak Spanish.
If you make a scene
saying, 'fuck me,'
or 'Oh, my God',
it's a different market
that could help you.
To speak English opens doors.
Just by saying, 'fuck me.'
Let's make a little video.
Hi there! We're still working.
New surprises are on their way
here with Delmar.
Don't forget to follow us on Twitter,
guys.
-Next scene is yours, man.
-Ok.
Who are you, Emiliano?
I didn't like it.
Think about it...
Your drink's just been spiked,
you're still under the effects,
so it makes you
slur your words a bit,
'Who are you, Emiliano?'
Who are you, Emiliano?
Better, now say it...
like you are angry, afraid.
Like you are coming out to yourself
and that scares you, motherfucker.
Who are you, Emiliano?
-May I, General?
-Certainly.
So good!
An enemy, a revolutionary.
Take it out again,
button up and take it out again.
He is General Carranza,
he is the President.
He introduces himself as President
of the Mexican Republic
after the Revolution.
Go.
-May I, sir?
-Of course.
With your other hand.
Let the light hit you.
The light, search for it.
-Do you work as an escort, too?
-I don't.
This is all you do?
I'm just doing this movie,
nothing else right now.
Well, it'd be great if
you did everything,
working as an escort, doing porn...
It's great being an escort because
in an hour you bring in
the same as you do in a whole day here
for wearing these little costumes
and fucking for cameras.
But being an escort...
is better,
you may even like it.
One day, a client
paid me for a whole day
and I earned 14,000 pesos.
It was at a motel with a pool
and drugs, man.
We fucked all day,
he paid me to party.
Believe me, it's great pulling in
14,000 pesos in no time.
Also,
you work an hour
and sometimes you don't even fuck,
sometimes you just chat.
It's happened to me
that we've just talked.
Cause they feel lonely,
and that's nice,
cause they ring you again.
Here you have to fuck
and fuck and fuck...
Sometimes you can't get a hard on,
too much pressure.
Sometimes they treat you well,
but other times, well...
You...
You are freezing,
they don't take care of you.
More noises.
More noises.
Tell me when you are cumming.
You are annoyed, Zapata!
You are furious!
Ejaculation!
You are annoyed, disgusted.
Like that.
That's it, mock him.
Let's prepare the second ejaculation.
Ejaculation!
Another one!
Like that.
One more, continue.
Continue.
Keep going, play, play with the cum.
Like that.
Cut! It's good!
That's a wrap, gentlemen!
-I was no longer horny.
-But it comes back to life.
Just touch yourself a little.
First off, his dignity's at stake.
I don't think weed would help.
I had just cum in that scene.
This stud came way more than me
and the other guy.
He's a beast!
If I felt I came a lot,
and I did cum a lot,
then the other dude came
a whole fucking pint of cum, man.
I'll bring some cups tonight, Adrin.
I'll bring a cup.
I'll bring a cup to collect it.
Good evening, neighbor,
can I borrow a cup of cum?
But my parents were always really
focused on my self-confidence.
So, I think we all go through that,
thinking about stuff
you don't want.
But... aside from that, no.
I always had such self-confidence.
Look at me now, I'm doing porn,
not afraid of being criticized,
because everything is criticized.
If I'm with some hunk,
they go, 'what're you doing
with that stunted fucknut?'
Everyone has different tastes.
But there are also
positive comments, like,
'No way, you look gorgeous,
I wanna be with you.'
I end up reading
both kinds of comments,
but if the negative ones
affected me,
shit, I wouldn't be doing porn.
And I love it.
This much fucking is...
And you have the tools,
you have them.
Chacalito...
Hi, guys, how are you doing?
@lalooaxaca as Emiliano Zapata!
'My heart tells me
I won't forget you.
'It's hard not to have you
by my side,
'I really miss you, dad.
'You went away and left...
'A huge void
in all of our hearts.'
Rodrigo Hinojosa Ruiz.
My dad.
My father died in March,
on the 30th 2002,
and I graduated in June,
so I had funeral expenses,
cemetery lot expenses,
many other expenses too.
We had no house of our own.
I mean...
I was 15 and my brother was 7,
my sister was 16,
so my mother
couldn't afford my studies.
You're the middle child?
There's three of you?
Yes. A younger one,
an older one and me.
So... A boy, a girl and this, me!
I couldn't study anymore because
I saw my mother struggling, man.
She'd leave at 7am
and get back at 9pm.
It was better to work.
Maybe I didn't go hungry,
because we always had something
to eat at home,
but we didn't have
a full fridge,
it was always empty.
My mum would leave us something
in the morning
and we'd wait for her
to eat again at night, so...
When my dad died it was hard.
Many things happened.
Time went by,
I started working when I saw
my mother couldn't cope.
I went out to work to help her.
I was really young.
Now I transfer money to her every week,
I pay her bills,
I've just got her house redone,
I bought her a new TV, clothes,
I pay for her Netflix,
I bought her a washing machine,
a fridge, a new stove.
That's nice of you.
Hi mom!
I'm out of the city
and there isn't much signal,
but I wanted to tell you
that I got a job.
Just for a few days,
but the pay's good.
I'll drop by and see you soon.
I love you!
This scene came about
after writing the script,
I came up with it after seeing this
Buuel movie which blew me away,
'That Obscure Object of Desire'.
Two actresses
play the same character.
So I said, 'Let's have two Zapatas.'
That duality we all have,
the masculine, the feminine;
fiction and reality,
what we think happens,
what actually happens,
what we interpret is happening.
So, start with mysticism,
like a dance,
and start feeling.
I don't want to interfere too much.
Feel your way,
smell your way.
Move, follow each other,
mimic each other,
enjoy it.
I want you both to really enjoy this one.
Action.
Are you feeling all right, Emiliano?
You look confused.
Just a bad night.
I think I'm hallucinating.
Insomnia?
Bad dreams.
Omens.
I can't tell if I'm dreaming
or imagining things.
Apparitions.
I think the city is getting me sick.
Apparitions, ghosts?
Omens...
A future with dead people.
People I don't know yet...
but who talk to me.
Like you. You are myself.
What do those dreams tell you?
'That you'll be part of a...'
That you'll be part of a...
Revolution!
More noises, Lalo.
Different rhythms.
Fuck, yeah!
More passion!
Pull it out and swap positions.
Like that.
Nice.
Turn and look at him.
More expressive, Lalo.
You're loving it.
Just like that, look at him.
It looks like
he's trying to eat him.
That's the goal,
eat that ass.
There are three basic concepts.
Asses should not be kissed,
but eaten.
Asses should not be fucked,
but destroyed.
And the third
and most important one,
asses should not starve.
You should always feed them
with full-protein cum,
a lot of full-protein cum.
When I was cumming, he started moving
like a crazy bitch and said,
'do me harder so I can cum'.
He cums and says
'Are you clean? Are you healthy?
I never do this stuff.'
Well, I can't infect you with HIV,
because I'm under treatment.
So that's that, I can't pass it on.
But you sat down
and I put the condom in your hand.
You wanted cock, you wanted cum,
and you got off on it.
It's rude to ask,
'Are you clean?'
-Yeah.
-If you've got HIV,
you control it with your daily pills.
It used to be three pills,
but the world changes,
now they give you just one.
within a few years,
you will only need
to take one a month.
-Maybe just an injection and it's over.
-Exactly. One of those and it's over.
A little injection,
just like syphilis.
And when we get used
to fucking without a condom,
to having someone
cumming in your ass,
then you have your tools.
Instead of acetaminophen
and paracetamol in your med kit,
you now have three penicillin doses,
two vitalgin, two of this and that.
Antifungal treatment,
a little cream for this...
If you are a pro you have PrEP.
Of course, you have PrEP.
You get to understand that it's just
another disease and there are treatments.
You can have a good quality of life,
I mean, life can be dope.
But it's like this disease
is hidden away in a trunk,
and it becomes taboo.
And you suddenly think,
'you're a reject.'
I can't remember who I told first.
Or how.
But it was probably something like
four years later.
Or three.
For the first three years no one knew.
I was working at night,
and I had to take the medicine
at eight, because they said,
'you have to take them
every 24 hours, like clockwork,
if you're a minute late,
you may die.'
That was the idea I had.
So, I'd go to work
and take my pills with me.
I took them in secret,
when no one was watching.
At school nobody knew, either.
They said: 'Your eyes are yellow'.
And I'd say, 'I was up all night',
stuff like that.
And...
as I was in another city,
I didn't want to tell mom and dad,
because they'd only worry.
I mean, the first idea they'd get
was that I was dying...
that whole image people have of AIDS:
a skinny guy,
with spots,
half dead,
who gets ill
at the slightest breath of air.
So I thought,
'I don't need to tell them right now,
I'm better now,
both psychologically
and physically.
I definitely won't tell my family.'
I remember who I told first. A friend.
It was actually very liberating.
And this guy said,
'Why didn't you tell me before?'
This movie should be called:
'Lalo Santos'
History of Pornomelancholy.'
'The capitalist,
the soldier and the governor
had lived in peace
without being bothered
with their privileges
and properties,
at the expense of an illiterate
and enslaved people...
with no assets or future,
condemned to work endlessly
and starve to death.'
-It sounds overdramatic.
-Does it?
Yes, more real?
You are the people.
You are the oppressed,
you've been there.
Give me more feeling,
and less overdramatic,
because you are really
experiencing it.
And you say,
'I'm gonna feed my mare!'
I'm gonna feed my mare!
More noises, I can't hear you.
Look at the camera,
more noises.
That's it, Lalo.
Build the energy, little by little.
Cock in and out!
I want to see it!
Own him!
Harder now.
Easy, man.
Easy!
Harder!
-Easy, man!
-Faster, wilder!
A bit slower, man!
More noises, Zapata!
Come on! Harder!
Don't stop, motherfucker!
That's it! Harder!
More frenetic!
You're a sex machine, man!
Yes! Look at the camera!
Like a beast!
Come on, nearly there!
Harder, come on!
Don't get dressed.
We're not done yet.
Lalo, are you Ok?
Lalo, do you want Brandon
to be replaced?
Lalo,
I have to finish my movie. Ok?
You are wasting the crew's time.
Get dressed.
Find a replacement.
She wants to be your friend.
Here's your money,
you can count it or trust me.
Thank you.
What's up, guys?
I came out here to sunbathe
and got really horny
and wish...
some little bitch was here
to suck me off hard.
What's up, guys?
I came out here to sunbathe...
I'm here sunbathing.
You're adorable!
I did a sketch of you.
Hi there, handsome!
Stop cruising at the subway,
I'll help you.
Hi. I'd like to have a taste
of your dick.
I always jerk off thinking of you.
Wanna cum in my ass?
Text me when you come
to Mexico City.
You're so hot, I'd love a macho man
like you to fuck me.
Thanks.
Really nice.
Up.
Is it Ok if I film you?
Turn around.
Want some?
Is it Ok if I film you?
The video looks good.
Do you edit your videos yourself?
I used to edit them,
but it's a lot of work
and it's actually not necessary,
because people just want penetration,
cumming, that's it.
I used to edit them, cut them,
try to make a sequence
to keep the sexual tension up,
to make it hotter and hotter.
Sometimes,
if the penetration is too mechanic,
I put in another scene, or a cut.
It took me a whole day...
just for one video,
I could only upload one
and people commented,
'this guy uploaded just one video'.
However, if I take
all my little shots
and upload five scenes
of ten minutes each
people think,
'this guy uploaded five videos.'
Even if they are...
If they are raw,
with no editing.
But I see that I get
more subscriptions,
on JustForFans, if I upload
five minute videos.
Just a peso for each follower...
Can you imagine?
133,000 pesos.
Right into your bank account.
And if it's dollars?
133,000 dollars.
It's a whole bunch of people.
Where do you see yourself
in ten years' time?
Ten years?
I'll be forty-four.
Maybe a bit tired by then, but...
Christ!
With the handsome @jairoxxx2018
filming a surprise for you.
-Mr. Lalo?
-Yeah, good evening.
Do you get
many messages on Twitter?
A lot.
-Do you answer them all?
-Sometimes.
They just say, 'Hello,
Wanna fuck me?'
That's all.
I have a lot of followers, but...
They see you fucking
and think
that you are just for fucking,
and they don't even know how you feel.
I'm having a great time!
I wish you could all be here!
To have some fun together!
No, man!
Your results are fine,
the viral load is undetectable.
-Also, your white blood cells are normal.
-Yes.
How have you felt lately?
So-so...
Sometimes I feel fine,
but sometimes...
I don't feel like getting out
of bed or...
I feel like sleeping all day.
So...
Then I feel...
useless.
I don't feel...
I feel I can't do anything.
And...
Sometimes I just want to...
not be here anymore.
Do you have anyone
to talk to about this?
Hi, mom!
I did a scene yesterday
where I had to play dead.
I started imagining
the soldiers entering.
I tried to think about
the sound of their boots,
about...
the metallic clanking of the guns,
and how someone must feel
in that situation,
the last moments,
the last seconds,
all the angst, the fear,
the desperation,
the feelings you may feel
at that moment.
Then the shots came.
I thought about nothing,
I dropped to the ground.
Once I was on the ground,
dead,
just looking at the clouds,
I felt like...
my skin was wet
from the fake blood.
I kept thinking about my breathing,
in case it showed.
What I did was to think about nothing,
or at least try to.
I tried to feel nothing.
It was like a break
from everything,
from the world.
And I liked it.
That's all I wanted to tell you.
I hope we can talk soon,
I'll call you.
And well,
I'm a good son.
-You don't remember?
I'm trying to think...
Maybe 42, 43 years old.
-They're old already, huh?
-And married for how long?
Married? They're all married.
-No, yourself.
-Married?
Yes. For how long?
Or can't you remember?
No, I've been...
-Single for twenty years now.
-What?
-She ditched me cause I was...
-A womanizer?
That's pretty much it.
I was married for almost 25 years.
It's only been 19 for me.
-Married?
-Married, yes.
My son's going to turn...
on the 10th of January he'll be...
eighteen already, fuck...
The kid will be eighteen already.
Like they say...
She caught me in her net.
I didn't want to get married, but...
-My wife wanted to, I didn't.
-You were hunted down.
No longer free.
Not free, not free.
It's like they say, right?
You're better off being free.
She got me. What can you do?
As they say, the hunter became the prey.
You were hunted.
Yep, and nothing I could do about it.
But it was for the best.
I don't regret it.
I have my kids now.
It's different.
The law of life.
I'm a hard worker
In case you need
some work done.
What kind of jobs do you do?
A little bit of everything.
May I?
-Please check it's a new needle.
-Ok.
You'll feel a slight prick on three...
One, two, three.
Want to earn money doing porn?
Send us photos of your face,
and naked body, with an erection.
Hi, I'm interested.
How much do you pay?
I'm top.
Sending photos.
Four feet long?
What caliber?
May I take your number please?
Ok, perfect, sir.
We'll send you our estimate right over.
Thank you, good afternoon.
So, your payment is...
-From the 2nd to the 6th?
-To the 6th.
Ok, dear. Sign here.
There's no... attendance bonus.
Hmm, let me check.
This is the list they gave me.
It's because you missed a day.
I was at the doctor's that day.
Fine, but either way
you didn't come to work.
But I did tell you
I was going to the doctor's.
Yes, but if you miss one day
you automatically lose your bonus.
-So... there's nothing I can do.
-What if I bring the sick note?
Even if you do,
I can't pay you
because you didn't work.
I'm sorry, I can't do anything.
After you.
Hello, just a moment.
I'll call you during this week
to talk more
about the project.
Bye, then.
Have a good day.
Bye.
-Lalo, right?
-Yes.
Come in, please.
Just relax.
Turn around, stick your bum out
and turn to look at me.
Relax your arm, relax it, perfect.
Ok, the same thing on the other side.
Look at me,
turn a little bit more.
Thats a good one.
Ok, facing me.
Again, raise your arms,
show me your armpits. Tough guy.
That's it. Good.
Arms out front.
That's good.
And... briefs off.
We'll take one, like that, soft.
Cover it up. Like that, good.
With attitude.
Exactly.
There.
Different stances.
Face looking up.
Give me a flirty smile.
Now a wicked one.
Good, lower your face a little.
A bit more.
More, and look at me more like...
That's right.
That's good.
Ok, a more intense look,
right into the camera.
That's right.
Turn around
and turn and look at me.
With attitude. Tough guy.
Like 'I'll kick the shit out of you.'
That's good.
Now a flirty smile, now a tough guy one.
Like, 'I'm gonna shove my cock
in your ass, you slut.' That's it.
Same thing on the other side.
That's a nice one.
Lower your face a bit.
Tough guy.
Wicked smile.
Nice and sexy, think of sex.
Good.
Face me.
-Can you show me an erection?
-Yes.
Would you prefer to stand,
lie down, sit in a chair?
I'm fine right here.
Great, so...
Start thinking about...
Hi, mom.
Well, I've had a bit of work on but...
I really want to see you, so...
I think I'll drop round
in the next few days
so we can have a chat.
I've got lots of stuff to tell you.
Hi, mom.
I've been a bit busy, but...
Everything's fine and...
We'll talk later.
Have a good night.
This nation is tired of lying
and treacherous men
who present themselves as liberators,
but who, when they come to power,
forget all their promises
and become traitors.
Villa.
A pleasure to meet you,
General Zapata!
I'm Francisco Villa,
and together we shall be inseparable
in this Revolution.
Villa.
I mean, imagine the excitement
if we join forces,
this country will be free
from North to South!
Boom!
With that energy, ok?
Exhale.
Action.
A pleasure to meet you,
General Zapata!
I'm Francisco Villa,
and together we shall be inseparable
in this Revolution.
Villa!
If we join forces,
we shall set this country free
from North to South!
With that moustache,
I'm with you to the death!
Viva the Mexican Revolution!
Viva!
That's it. Now shove it in nice and slow,
there you go.
More heavy breathing, both of you.
More noises, Lalo!
If you're ready to cum, then cum.
Motherfucker!
Very good! Cut.
Very good, really good!
Congratulations,
that's the energy I want!
Two fucking bulls
grabbing each other's big balls!
That's it. Two big studs!
Very good!
Welcome, Lalo!
Welcome to the world of porn!
We're doing great!
That's what porn is, gentlemen: fantasies.
It's about arousing people,
giving people orgasms.
It's about perfect sex:
cocks are always hard,
the ejaculations are huge,
everyone's gorgeous,
everyone fucks splendidly,
the bottom is also a top...
That is real porn!
And also... good lighting.
With proper lighting,
transmitting this sex and passion...
Because the best orgasms I've ever had
have been watching porn.
That's why I do porn.
Once my cum hit my ceiling,
I had a very low ceiling,
Wanking for six hours...
weed, tequila, lube and boom!
My cock was sore!
But it was one of my biggest orgasms,
just me and my porn.
Let's make some fag's cum
hit the ceiling.
-Ok?
-Ok.
Let's go, gentlemen!
The scene was about
a masseur welcoming his client.
We didn't say a word,
there was no dialogue,
we just started faking it,
and then he started filming.
He insisted a lot
on recording each position
for up to five minutes.
You went numb.
-He calculated the time?
-Yes.
Obviously, you can't live off
making porn movies.
Sure,
but there are people who can.
Some people make the most of
-their name, and career.
-But are there many?
For example, Giordano.
He filmed three scenes in Canada
and they were a big hit.
Everyone wanted to buy them.
So, that catapulted him to fame
as an international porn actor.
Then he wasn't just famous here in Mexico,
but in other countries too.
So, it's another market.
That could happen to you.
Once a scene is a hit,
once it goes viral,
you get known in other countries,
countries where
people speak Spanish.
If you make a scene
saying, 'fuck me,'
or 'Oh, my God',
it's a different market
that could help you.
To speak English opens doors.
Just by saying, 'fuck me.'
Let's make a little video.
Hi there! We're still working.
New surprises are on their way
here with Delmar.
Don't forget to follow us on Twitter,
guys.
-Next scene is yours, man.
-Ok.
Who are you, Emiliano?
I didn't like it.
Think about it...
Your drink's just been spiked,
you're still under the effects,
so it makes you
slur your words a bit,
'Who are you, Emiliano?'
Who are you, Emiliano?
Better, now say it...
like you are angry, afraid.
Like you are coming out to yourself
and that scares you, motherfucker.
Who are you, Emiliano?
-May I, General?
-Certainly.
So good!
An enemy, a revolutionary.
Take it out again,
button up and take it out again.
He is General Carranza,
he is the President.
He introduces himself as President
of the Mexican Republic
after the Revolution.
Go.
-May I, sir?
-Of course.
With your other hand.
Let the light hit you.
The light, search for it.
-Do you work as an escort, too?
-I don't.
This is all you do?
I'm just doing this movie,
nothing else right now.
Well, it'd be great if
you did everything,
working as an escort, doing porn...
It's great being an escort because
in an hour you bring in
the same as you do in a whole day here
for wearing these little costumes
and fucking for cameras.
But being an escort...
is better,
you may even like it.
One day, a client
paid me for a whole day
and I earned 14,000 pesos.
It was at a motel with a pool
and drugs, man.
We fucked all day,
he paid me to party.
Believe me, it's great pulling in
14,000 pesos in no time.
Also,
you work an hour
and sometimes you don't even fuck,
sometimes you just chat.
It's happened to me
that we've just talked.
Cause they feel lonely,
and that's nice,
cause they ring you again.
Here you have to fuck
and fuck and fuck...
Sometimes you can't get a hard on,
too much pressure.
Sometimes they treat you well,
but other times, well...
You...
You are freezing,
they don't take care of you.
More noises.
More noises.
Tell me when you are cumming.
You are annoyed, Zapata!
You are furious!
Ejaculation!
You are annoyed, disgusted.
Like that.
That's it, mock him.
Let's prepare the second ejaculation.
Ejaculation!
Another one!
Like that.
One more, continue.
Continue.
Keep going, play, play with the cum.
Like that.
Cut! It's good!
That's a wrap, gentlemen!
-I was no longer horny.
-But it comes back to life.
Just touch yourself a little.
First off, his dignity's at stake.
I don't think weed would help.
I had just cum in that scene.
This stud came way more than me
and the other guy.
He's a beast!
If I felt I came a lot,
and I did cum a lot,
then the other dude came
a whole fucking pint of cum, man.
I'll bring some cups tonight, Adrin.
I'll bring a cup.
I'll bring a cup to collect it.
Good evening, neighbor,
can I borrow a cup of cum?
But my parents were always really
focused on my self-confidence.
So, I think we all go through that,
thinking about stuff
you don't want.
But... aside from that, no.
I always had such self-confidence.
Look at me now, I'm doing porn,
not afraid of being criticized,
because everything is criticized.
If I'm with some hunk,
they go, 'what're you doing
with that stunted fucknut?'
Everyone has different tastes.
But there are also
positive comments, like,
'No way, you look gorgeous,
I wanna be with you.'
I end up reading
both kinds of comments,
but if the negative ones
affected me,
shit, I wouldn't be doing porn.
And I love it.
This much fucking is...
And you have the tools,
you have them.
Chacalito...
Hi, guys, how are you doing?
@lalooaxaca as Emiliano Zapata!
'My heart tells me
I won't forget you.
'It's hard not to have you
by my side,
'I really miss you, dad.
'You went away and left...
'A huge void
in all of our hearts.'
Rodrigo Hinojosa Ruiz.
My dad.
My father died in March,
on the 30th 2002,
and I graduated in June,
so I had funeral expenses,
cemetery lot expenses,
many other expenses too.
We had no house of our own.
I mean...
I was 15 and my brother was 7,
my sister was 16,
so my mother
couldn't afford my studies.
You're the middle child?
There's three of you?
Yes. A younger one,
an older one and me.
So... A boy, a girl and this, me!
I couldn't study anymore because
I saw my mother struggling, man.
She'd leave at 7am
and get back at 9pm.
It was better to work.
Maybe I didn't go hungry,
because we always had something
to eat at home,
but we didn't have
a full fridge,
it was always empty.
My mum would leave us something
in the morning
and we'd wait for her
to eat again at night, so...
When my dad died it was hard.
Many things happened.
Time went by,
I started working when I saw
my mother couldn't cope.
I went out to work to help her.
I was really young.
Now I transfer money to her every week,
I pay her bills,
I've just got her house redone,
I bought her a new TV, clothes,
I pay for her Netflix,
I bought her a washing machine,
a fridge, a new stove.
That's nice of you.
Hi mom!
I'm out of the city
and there isn't much signal,
but I wanted to tell you
that I got a job.
Just for a few days,
but the pay's good.
I'll drop by and see you soon.
I love you!
This scene came about
after writing the script,
I came up with it after seeing this
Buuel movie which blew me away,
'That Obscure Object of Desire'.
Two actresses
play the same character.
So I said, 'Let's have two Zapatas.'
That duality we all have,
the masculine, the feminine;
fiction and reality,
what we think happens,
what actually happens,
what we interpret is happening.
So, start with mysticism,
like a dance,
and start feeling.
I don't want to interfere too much.
Feel your way,
smell your way.
Move, follow each other,
mimic each other,
enjoy it.
I want you both to really enjoy this one.
Action.
Are you feeling all right, Emiliano?
You look confused.
Just a bad night.
I think I'm hallucinating.
Insomnia?
Bad dreams.
Omens.
I can't tell if I'm dreaming
or imagining things.
Apparitions.
I think the city is getting me sick.
Apparitions, ghosts?
Omens...
A future with dead people.
People I don't know yet...
but who talk to me.
Like you. You are myself.
What do those dreams tell you?
'That you'll be part of a...'
That you'll be part of a...
Revolution!
More noises, Lalo.
Different rhythms.
Fuck, yeah!
More passion!
Pull it out and swap positions.
Like that.
Nice.
Turn and look at him.
More expressive, Lalo.
You're loving it.
Just like that, look at him.
It looks like
he's trying to eat him.
That's the goal,
eat that ass.
There are three basic concepts.
Asses should not be kissed,
but eaten.
Asses should not be fucked,
but destroyed.
And the third
and most important one,
asses should not starve.
You should always feed them
with full-protein cum,
a lot of full-protein cum.
When I was cumming, he started moving
like a crazy bitch and said,
'do me harder so I can cum'.
He cums and says
'Are you clean? Are you healthy?
I never do this stuff.'
Well, I can't infect you with HIV,
because I'm under treatment.
So that's that, I can't pass it on.
But you sat down
and I put the condom in your hand.
You wanted cock, you wanted cum,
and you got off on it.
It's rude to ask,
'Are you clean?'
-Yeah.
-If you've got HIV,
you control it with your daily pills.
It used to be three pills,
but the world changes,
now they give you just one.
within a few years,
you will only need
to take one a month.
-Maybe just an injection and it's over.
-Exactly. One of those and it's over.
A little injection,
just like syphilis.
And when we get used
to fucking without a condom,
to having someone
cumming in your ass,
then you have your tools.
Instead of acetaminophen
and paracetamol in your med kit,
you now have three penicillin doses,
two vitalgin, two of this and that.
Antifungal treatment,
a little cream for this...
If you are a pro you have PrEP.
Of course, you have PrEP.
You get to understand that it's just
another disease and there are treatments.
You can have a good quality of life,
I mean, life can be dope.
But it's like this disease
is hidden away in a trunk,
and it becomes taboo.
And you suddenly think,
'you're a reject.'
I can't remember who I told first.
Or how.
But it was probably something like
four years later.
Or three.
For the first three years no one knew.
I was working at night,
and I had to take the medicine
at eight, because they said,
'you have to take them
every 24 hours, like clockwork,
if you're a minute late,
you may die.'
That was the idea I had.
So, I'd go to work
and take my pills with me.
I took them in secret,
when no one was watching.
At school nobody knew, either.
They said: 'Your eyes are yellow'.
And I'd say, 'I was up all night',
stuff like that.
And...
as I was in another city,
I didn't want to tell mom and dad,
because they'd only worry.
I mean, the first idea they'd get
was that I was dying...
that whole image people have of AIDS:
a skinny guy,
with spots,
half dead,
who gets ill
at the slightest breath of air.
So I thought,
'I don't need to tell them right now,
I'm better now,
both psychologically
and physically.
I definitely won't tell my family.'
I remember who I told first. A friend.
It was actually very liberating.
And this guy said,
'Why didn't you tell me before?'
This movie should be called:
'Lalo Santos'
History of Pornomelancholy.'
'The capitalist,
the soldier and the governor
had lived in peace
without being bothered
with their privileges
and properties,
at the expense of an illiterate
and enslaved people...
with no assets or future,
condemned to work endlessly
and starve to death.'
-It sounds overdramatic.
-Does it?
Yes, more real?
You are the people.
You are the oppressed,
you've been there.
Give me more feeling,
and less overdramatic,
because you are really
experiencing it.
And you say,
'I'm gonna feed my mare!'
I'm gonna feed my mare!
More noises, I can't hear you.
Look at the camera,
more noises.
That's it, Lalo.
Build the energy, little by little.
Cock in and out!
I want to see it!
Own him!
Harder now.
Easy, man.
Easy!
Harder!
-Easy, man!
-Faster, wilder!
A bit slower, man!
More noises, Zapata!
Come on! Harder!
Don't stop, motherfucker!
That's it! Harder!
More frenetic!
You're a sex machine, man!
Yes! Look at the camera!
Like a beast!
Come on, nearly there!
Harder, come on!
Don't get dressed.
We're not done yet.
Lalo, are you Ok?
Lalo, do you want Brandon
to be replaced?
Lalo,
I have to finish my movie. Ok?
You are wasting the crew's time.
Get dressed.
Find a replacement.
She wants to be your friend.
Here's your money,
you can count it or trust me.
Thank you.
What's up, guys?
I came out here to sunbathe
and got really horny
and wish...
some little bitch was here
to suck me off hard.
What's up, guys?
I came out here to sunbathe...
I'm here sunbathing.
You're adorable!
I did a sketch of you.
Hi there, handsome!
Stop cruising at the subway,
I'll help you.
Hi. I'd like to have a taste
of your dick.
I always jerk off thinking of you.
Wanna cum in my ass?
Text me when you come
to Mexico City.
You're so hot, I'd love a macho man
like you to fuck me.
Thanks.
Really nice.
Up.
Is it Ok if I film you?
Turn around.
Want some?
Is it Ok if I film you?
The video looks good.
Do you edit your videos yourself?
I used to edit them,
but it's a lot of work
and it's actually not necessary,
because people just want penetration,
cumming, that's it.
I used to edit them, cut them,
try to make a sequence
to keep the sexual tension up,
to make it hotter and hotter.
Sometimes,
if the penetration is too mechanic,
I put in another scene, or a cut.
It took me a whole day...
just for one video,
I could only upload one
and people commented,
'this guy uploaded just one video'.
However, if I take
all my little shots
and upload five scenes
of ten minutes each
people think,
'this guy uploaded five videos.'
Even if they are...
If they are raw,
with no editing.
But I see that I get
more subscriptions,
on JustForFans, if I upload
five minute videos.
Just a peso for each follower...
Can you imagine?
133,000 pesos.
Right into your bank account.
And if it's dollars?
133,000 dollars.
It's a whole bunch of people.
Where do you see yourself
in ten years' time?
Ten years?
I'll be forty-four.
Maybe a bit tired by then, but...
Christ!
With the handsome @jairoxxx2018
filming a surprise for you.
-Mr. Lalo?
-Yeah, good evening.
Do you get
many messages on Twitter?
A lot.
-Do you answer them all?
-Sometimes.
They just say, 'Hello,
Wanna fuck me?'
That's all.
I have a lot of followers, but...
They see you fucking
and think
that you are just for fucking,
and they don't even know how you feel.
I'm having a great time!
I wish you could all be here!
To have some fun together!
No, man!
Your results are fine,
the viral load is undetectable.
-Also, your white blood cells are normal.
-Yes.
How have you felt lately?
So-so...
Sometimes I feel fine,
but sometimes...
I don't feel like getting out
of bed or...
I feel like sleeping all day.
So...
Then I feel...
useless.
I don't feel...
I feel I can't do anything.
And...
Sometimes I just want to...
not be here anymore.
Do you have anyone
to talk to about this?
Hi, mom!
I did a scene yesterday
where I had to play dead.
I started imagining
the soldiers entering.
I tried to think about
the sound of their boots,
about...
the metallic clanking of the guns,
and how someone must feel
in that situation,
the last moments,
the last seconds,
all the angst, the fear,
the desperation,
the feelings you may feel
at that moment.
Then the shots came.
I thought about nothing,
I dropped to the ground.
Once I was on the ground,
dead,
just looking at the clouds,
I felt like...
my skin was wet
from the fake blood.
I kept thinking about my breathing,
in case it showed.
What I did was to think about nothing,
or at least try to.
I tried to feel nothing.
It was like a break
from everything,
from the world.
And I liked it.
That's all I wanted to tell you.
I hope we can talk soon,
I'll call you.
And well,
I'm a good son.