Sunny Dancer (2026) Movie Script
1
"Call me so I can meet you"
"Silence on the phone"
"I usually need you"
"This time I don't want to go"
"Lately I've been turning
into someone you don't know"
"You had a chance to love
her but you don't seem to"
"No. you don't"
"So even if I can"
"I won't go back
to where we started"
"I know you're still
waiting and wondering"
"Where my heart is"
"Pray that things don't change"
"But the hardest part
is you might realise"
"That I might not be who I am"
"And what you're waiting
for no longer exists"
"The former close
friend known as Ruby"
Yeah?
Just open the door
You asked me to always knock
I answered
Ivy. your room is a
mess. clothes everywhere
I can see your yellow
trousers sticking out
- Disgusting. Dad?
- Come on. yeah. it's disgusting
Dad!
It's a pigsty
Okay. do you want the bad
news or the really bad news?
The bad news
The bad news is your mum cooked
- Remember last time?
- Yeah. I had the shits for a week
And what's the really bad news?
She made stew
I don't know why you
two didn't like it
- You don't like it
either - Yes. I do
Have another spoonful then
No. actually. I don't
want it. I'm full
I think I might have
one of your veggie wraps
- To soak up the gravy...
- Absolutely not
Not until you admit
your stew is shit
Bob
Karen
Alright. the stew's
terrible. agreed?
We'll have to leave the
rest for Big Head's birthday
I'm sorry. that's child cruelty
Saying my head's big
is also child cruelty
That's not cruelty. that's facts
You have an
excessively large head
- Especially when
you were a baby - No
Your birth was like pushing
a wrecking ball out of my body
It was like a crime
scene. ask your dad
I'm staying out of
it. I'm like Switzerland
Look. I know
you're great company
But you came back at the start of the year
and you still haven't brought anyone round
What about Ruby?
You like Ruby
You used to like her
Is it because you feel...
Different?
I got the all-clear
ten months ago
Yeah. but it still
affects you in other ways
Maybe you feel... I
don't know... weird?
Not my fault they
all acted weird
Can we have a conversation
without you getting angry?
This isn't an attack on you
Feels like you're attacking me
God! Listen. I... okay
Okay. we think it might be
good if you could be around people
Who've been through what you've been
through. can you keep an open mind?
No way
You haven't even read it yet
- Bob. why don't you pull up the website?
- Yeah. yeah. just a sec
"Where boys come to have fun"
You got on great with
the boys on the ward
- It's a chemo camp -
Okay. that's inaccurate. Ivy
- Bob - It's literally a
mutant camp. Dad. tell her
- Would you just read this please. agreed?
- I thought you were neutral like Switzerland
Your dad worked really hard
to try and get you a spot
What? You already spoke
to them? Dad. what the hell?
I just asked them
Asked them what? Is my mutant daughter
weird enough for your stupid camp?
Ivy. nobody's
calling you a mutant
I just called them casually
To see if they
had space this late
Did they have space?
Yeah
I'm not going
Look. it's four weeks
in August and that's it
Look. if you don't like
it. you can just come home
Yeah. we really think
it'll be good for you
You really feel sorry
for me. don't you?
- Ivy. we don't feel sorry for
you - Sorry I'm not sick anymore
What's that supposed to mean?
Having a sick daughter isn't the
only way for you two to be interesting
- Ivy!
- That's a really awful thing to say
I don't want to be someone
people feel sorry for all the time
Nobody feels sorry for you. trust me.
you're annoying. and we're worried about you
- Why are you worried about me?
- Because you've become...
What?
Karen...
A non-existent person.
agreed? Emotionally
You're distancing yourself
from everything and everyone
- Ivy...
- Exactly
"Children running free
where boys come to have fun"
You're here to convince me to go
- I'm here to just
talk - Same thing
You're like your mum
Stubborn as hell
- I can't stand you being
miserable - I'm not miserable
Right. you just hang out
on your bedroom floor for fun
We just care about you. kiddo
Did you even look
at the website?
Yeah. looks great
It says you can start a fire
with sticks. which is pretty cool
Dad!
It's not going to work
You know you can call
us whenever you want
You can just come home
She's not 12. Bob
I think we need a little...
- Absolutely not -
Yeah. come on. Big Head
- Karen. you naughty girl!
- No!
- Absolutely not!
- Embarrassing you? Sorry. sorry
- It's our sacred law. Ivy -
No. no. I'm not doing this anymore
Whenever I dance...
You get embarrassed
She's embarrassed. come on. Ivy
- Here we go - Come on
I love this! Come on!
I love this!
There she is!
And now the walk
I'm not holding
the lead. come on
I'm letting go of the lead
Clap. clap
"My heart can take a chance"
"But my feet can't find the way"
"You'd think I
could swing gently"
"But I don't feel like dancing"
"No sir. no dancing today"
"Don't feel like dancing"
"Even if I don't find
anything better to do"
"Don't feel like dancing"
"Why did you choose a
tune my mood doesn't allow?"
"Don't feel like dancing"
"I'd rather be home in
bed with you till dawn"
"Cities come and cities
go like old empires"
"While all you do is change
your clothes and call it variety"
"You have so many colours"
"You confuse the blind so much"
"Why can't I keep up with you
when you're the only thing I lose?"
"I'll just pretend I
know which way to bow"
"And I'll tell the
whole world you're mine"
"Just pretend you understand
while I see you clap your hands"
"Sunny Dancer"
"Week One"
"Camp CRF. don't
forget to have fun"
"Come back soon"
Look. Ivy
Keep it down. keep it down
- Please. keep it down. this
is so embarrassing - Okay. okay
Thank you
Look. they seem nice!
Don't stare
Why don't you go say hi!
Stop. I'm begging you. stop
They could be your friends
- Look. don't judge a book by
its cover - Don't embarrass me
- I think you'll find that's
my job - No. Mum. please don't
- Please don't -
Hi. excuse me. hi
- Hi. guys - Why
are you doing this?
I just want to say: this is my
daughter Ivy. and she's fun. agreed?
And also. she can probably
drink more than all of you bastards
And she has a massive bottle
of vodka in her bag. agreed?
I'm pretty sure vodka
isn't allowed at camp
No. no. no. I'm
joking. I'm joking
I don't. a massive bottle
Really?
No. no. no. not really
Ivy prefers tequila anyway
- Hi - Hi
- I'm Bob - Hi. Bob
- Nice to meet you.
I'm her dad - Yeah. great
We spoke on the phone about...
They're nice
I hate you
That guy's pretty fit. isn't he?
- A bit pale but handsome. right?
- No. he's not my type
You were bald three years
ago. you weren't our type either
I'll miss you
If they start singing "Wherever
we go. people ask us". I'll throw up
No. just give it a try
I transferred you
an extra 50 quid
- And I put some condoms
in your bag too - God!
I'll go tell them about
the night you were conceived
What? Mum. no!
- We were around the same age...
- Mum!
Get in the car. bye
- We love you - Love you too
Bye
Love you both. bye
- Okay. come on
- Dad. I got this
- You sure?
- Yeah
Okay. come here
I transferred you an
extra 50 just in case
Thanks
Look. call me if
you need anything
- We can get here quick - Okay
What did you say to him?
Just making sure that
guy's not a psycho
That means I gotta go
You lot! Listen
If any of you mess
with my daughter
Cancer will be the least
of your worries. got it?
Yeah. especially you
Welcome to Camp CRF.
let me hear a cheer!
Yeah
Okay. I think we can
do better than that
Can I hear a cheer?
- Yeah - Thank you.
that's what I want
For those of you who
haven't had the pleasure yet
I'm the camp director
Also known as Patrick
How's it going?
I see we have some returning
campers. welcome back
We've got some new faces too
Hi. I see one
All new campers come forward
Time to place the new campers
Come on. don't be nervous
We're all strangers here.
but in a good way. I promise
Let's give all the new
campers a Camp CRF cheer
Two. three. four
Thank you new campers
for coming here
We hope you have a good
time and enjoy your stay
Welcome new campers. there's
something we want to say
Welcome new campers. hi. welcome
You nailed that!
Awesome!
Okay. thank you. you can go back
This summer's programme
Is unlike anything
you've seen before
We're expanding our activities this
year and introducing the annual talent show
This is mandatory for everyone
So start thinking of ideas that'll
impress our special guest judge
Behind me is my amazing team
They're here to help
you in any way you need
So without further
delay. let's meet them
Let me hear a cheer?
Okay. you first
Hi
To all new campers. I'm Tristan.
Head of Outdoor Activities
I'll be doing activities with you
from archery to mountain climbing
I'm Lucy. I'm a trained
therapist and counsellor
And unlike the talent show.
my programme isn't mandatory
But I'm here if you need me
It's really important that you tell me
if any of your medications have changed
I have a list. but it's long
This is Michael.
and Polly. and Alice
And we're the awesome
ones at Camp CRF
But now it's the moment
you've all been waiting for
I know this. we've pinned
it on the notice board
Activity schedule for tonight and
most importantly. cabin assignments
So go take a look and
grab a map and a shirt
And grab a Camp CRF hat
What are you waiting
for? Go. go. go
"Each day brings its
gifts... untie the knot"
It's great. isn't it?
"Stay active every day"
It's a bit preachy
Some say it's inspiring
But I hope you
like your roommate
Where's Alana?
She's not coming back this year
You mean she's not coming
or she's not coming back?
Shit!
She was a nice girl
You're with me. Rach
Can you smell that?
Homesickness and discipline
You're a real freak!
And I'm stuck with you again!
Don't do that stupid
tarot thing again. got it?
Not my fault your bad
aura gave you bad cards
- It said "Death
was imminent" - Yeah
Come on then
You hit me in the chest
Is this cabin Orine?
I'm Ella
I'm Ivy
What are you doing?
I film a video every camp
Really?
Are there any lava falls
or activities tonight?
No. not really
But...
Wait
Look at this shot. it's
worth a lot to Tristan
- Head of Outdoor Activities?
- Yeah
This is footage stalkers shoot
- All of it of him - What?
- Not all of it of
him - Most of it of him
I think he has nice hands
- Hands?
- Yeah
He has clam-like sexy nails
Clam nails!
Okay
Do you still have
your virginity board?
- What do you mean? Virginity board?
- Yeah. your virginity card
An endless resource. a blank CD
A snow dragon without fluff
That's partly why I'm
here. the virginity thing
You come to a chemo camp
to lose your virginity?
Yeah. exactly
To get rid of
those old restraints
But you're pretty. it'll be easy
Wait. wait. you
think I'm pretty?
Yeah. I do
- Would you try it?
- No. what?
Sorry. I just watched
Blue Is the Warmest Colour
I mean Lea Seydoux...
I'm not saying I wouldn't do it
Are you bi?
I don't have a type. just...
- I'll take anyone available -
You'll take anyone who breathes. right?
See? I knew we'd be friends
But you're not my type
- No?
- No. you're a bit...
Oh well. I'm going to sleep now
Goodnight. roomie
I'm on the pill
What?
Yeah. it helps with acne. and
also. I take it just in case
Yeah. good to be prepared
You get me
Tristan's hot. right?
- He's alright. yeah - Yeah
This is my year. this is my year
Hey. weirdo!
Wanna sit with us?
Who?
Us. the team
We come every year
Or are you gonna keep
staring at them like a stalker?
You're a funny guy. Ralph
Fuck my life!
What's your name?
Ivy
- I don't read minds. what's your surname?
- Pritchard
Four Dex pills. twice daily
Ella Oxley. new hair
Yeah
If you change your
mind. Ivy Pritchard
We'll be there
Later
Who's that girl? What's
your favourite part?
And so I reclaimed my life
They asked me if
I wanted to be paid
But I said if my story inspires
just one person here today
That's enough payment for me
How lovely!
So inspiring!
Okay. you know what we do now
Q&A
Got your questions ready?
Because she's got lots of answers
Anyone? Don't be
shy. come on. ask away
Can you make money
from social media posts?
Yeah. through sponsored ads
Sponsored ads? Who knew?
- Yeah?
- Can you become a millionaire from it?
Maybe. if you work really hard
Do you get paid for this? Or
just for doing this session?
I don't get paid for this
Then why do you do it?
Let everyone ask. Ivy
I feel more fulfilled
when I help people like you
So we're like a
charity case to you
- Yeah - No
No. no
I don't think coming to a
camp for kids with cancer
And saying you inspire
us all is the right move
Okay. I said my story
could do that. not me
And what story was that. sorry?
That your parents paid for
a gap year abroad for you?
- Ivy. that's enough -
You're clearly on your period
What?
I won't be the only one
bleeding if you say that again
Don't act surprised
Hey. I'm sorry.
you can't do that
- Fuck you!
- Fuck me? Fuck you. grief tourist!
- "Grief tourist"?
- Ivy. my office. now!
Okay. everyone calm
down. please calm down
- You threatened her - I
didn't really threaten her
- You said you'd make her bleed
- You swore at a girl with cancer
She's...
I'm struggling to know if I can
keep you here after what you did
Keep me here? Am I a
pet? She was patronising us
She was trying
to inspire you all
You clearly have a warped view
of what can be inspiring then
I think I've done
pretty well so far
196 kids have come here and
Camp CRF made their lives better
Sorry I won't be number 197
Fuck this camp and your
boy-love display wall!
Stupid!
"For every mountain.
there is a miracle"
I'm sorry. not a
boy-love display wall
When you're little. saying
sorry makes the problem go away
It's like a magic word
But when you grow up. it
doesn't have the same power
I promised my parents I'd try
Okay. listen...
Let's start over
I'm Patrick. the camp director
Hi. I'm Ivy
I've been in
remission for 10 months
Hi. Ivy
I think it would be a good
idea for you to talk to Lucy
I don't need therapy
If you want to stay
here after all that...
What time is my therapy session?
Good question. at 8.
right before breakfast at 9
At 8:30?
At 8
This is prison
I know it's a bit
early. but you can talk
I've got nothing to say
Why are you here?
Because Patrick
wanted me to come here
No. I mean at camp.
why are you at camp?
Because of my parents
You won't benefit if you
only do things to please others
Patrick told me
you're not engaging
What do you mean I'm not
engaging? That's a bit shocking
Have you had therapy before?
Yeah. I've tried it
That's a promising start
No. it didn't work
I'm sure it helps some
people. but it didn't help me
That's a shame you feel that way
Can you talk to me directly instead
of talking about my inner self?
I feel like you're not talking to me
as a person. and it's really annoying
Is that something
you often feel?
No
Why do you think therapy
didn't work for you before?
I think I was trying
to outsmart her
And I'd say what
she wanted to hear
And also...
Maybe I was smarter than her
That sounds like a waste of your
money and her time. doesn't it?
Do you think you're
smarter than me?
I don't know yet. Lucy
Okay
We'll give it some time then
Can I ask you that
question from before again?
Do you often feel like people
talk to you as if you're not human?
It's now 8:59
Wild Ivy!
Where were you this
morning. Wild Ivy?
Went for a walk
- You like walking. don't you?
- Can you stop filming me?
Okay
She scares me
Yeah. she can smell
cancer like a truffle pig
Like a truffle pig but
she sniffs out tumours
Tumour. tumour
Who said that?
It's well known at CRF camps
One year she smelled
cancer on a boy
And he actually relapsed
I know. her nose is spot on
Do you mind if I sit here? I
always like meeting new campers
Yeah. I mean. yeah. sure
But not too politely please
"I don't want you to sit please"
Okay. I don't care if
you sit here. just sit
Ella was telling me Brenda
can smell cancer like a pig
No. not exactly
That's rude
It's a rumour I heard
Shut up
- No way - What?
Is that a Panasonic HC-VXF1?
Yeah
- I had one when I
was younger - Really?
Awesome!
It's good. it can...
Zoom really well. 32x zoom
Yeah. it says that on top
Right
Very funny
I had one just like it but red
God. I love red
- Can I try it?
- Yeah. of course. yeah
No
Avoid the scrambled eggs
They microwave them.
so they taste like tyres
It's to the left
It literally says
"right" on the map
Look at her! Look at her!
- It's D3. that's where the
treasure is - Are you an idiot?
Idiot and pale.
that's a bad look
Give it to Rash Vest.
he's good at reading maps
It's DF
By the way. they don't
mean pale in a bad way
Sorry
But I didn't want you to feel...
Offended. or think
we're all assholes
I don't feel offended
Okay. but don't think
we're all assholes
We've all been coming
to Camp CRF for years
And we keep coming back
And it has that effect
I'm not sure
Yeah
You were funny at
the meeting yesterday
I personally found
it very inspiring
Are you all roommates?
No. Ralph and
Maisie are together
And I'm with Rash Vest
- Why's he called Rash Vest?
- Because he wore a rash vest once and it stuck
Rash vest?
The nickname
Told you I was right
Shut up. Ralph. nobody cares
Maybe I should go make sure
they don't kill each other
Wild Ivy's glowing
after Jake talked to her
No way. he's way too handsome
I'm going out tonight. so you'll
be free if you want to bring him over
We barely talked.
and he's not my type
And I can't be his type either
Right
Aren't you gonna
ask where I'm going?
Where are you going. Ella?
Tristan asked me to help him
set up tomorrow's activities
Did he ask you?
Kind of
You asked him
If I'm not back.
don't look for me
He's not interested in you
Slow and steady
And maybe you should give us a
chance. you might not hate everyone here
Feeling better?
Thanks for asking
I found my long-lost twin. turns
out we have a rich dad in America
That's a great movie
This place isn't for me
Okay. have you tried?
Yeah. my roommate's weird
- Why is she weird?
- She does weird stuff
I get that you don't care
Does anyone care?
- You know what you do care about?
- No
Maybe if you get into
the spirit. you'll find out
I got into the spirit
What do you want
to achieve here?
What does Patrick
want me to achieve here?
I think...
I think Patrick might want you
to be less angry at the world
I'm not angry at the world
I'm not angry at the world
Okay
- Where do you want to start?
- I don't know. that's your job
Okay
Where were you when you
found out you had leukaemia?
It goes past the pig farms
You're just jealous
you didn't...
Whoa! It's the
camper on her period
Sorry. stupid joke
You ruined that influencer
You haven't met my
roommate Ivy. have you?
She's a bit weird. but
you'll get used to it
At least she got her wish
They felt sorry for me
That's bullshit. it's just
because you lost a kidney
Okay. Rash Vest only
has one kidney too
He went to Lapland and has both
What was your wish. Ivy?
It's so Disney
No way. unbelievable.
you chose Disney?
- How do you know I chose Disney?
- That's the rebellious type
- It's childhood trauma screaming
out - What's your star sign?
- Leo - Leo. yeah.
that gives Disney
- The Lion King - Yeah. to
be fair. you do give Disney
Give what? What does that mean?
Stop!
- God - They picked
the meanest nurses
Okay...
She's my favourite
- We love you. Brian - Brenda
Brent
Want me to help you take it?
Ouch
When Ralph was younger. Brenda
had to hold him down to take his meds
Yeah. it was torture
I'm 17 now
Bruce
That's so funny
I'll tell Patrick
No. no. don't tell Patrick
Don't tell Patrick please
We really love her
What do the letters
CRF stand for?
"Children Running Free"
"Cancer Ruins Families"
Still sneaking out late?
- Obviously - Okay. ready?
We should go
I don't know
What if we get caught?
Tristan will hate me
Tristan will be fine
- He asked me to help him set up again
tomorrow - Ella. you're being desperate
- I shaved my head
- You did what?
I shaved my head
He's 24!
Yeah. and I'll be 18
soon. and he's my type
A pulse is your type
- Please. will you come. please. for
me - Why do you want to go that badly?
It's not that I'm desperate
to go. it's that it'll be fun
What?
Jake's like a brother to
me. but he has his own issues
What do you mean?
He...
He gets panic attacks
Yeah. sometimes he
needs to be put on ice
So will you come?
- Okay - Yes!
But if T calls. I'm going
Deal
Okay. deal
Wanna do a full makeover?
- God. a full makeover!
- No. no. no
- Ivy. Ivy. Ivy. okay
- No. no. I take it back
- Lip balm. no - Fuck!
Lip gloss
- God. I have a vision - No
"Not anymore. not anymore"
"What you ask for"
"Strange steps"
"Heels turn black"
"Ashes. ashes. light. the way"
"For those strange steps"
"Take us back. take us back"
"Flow gently and stop heavily"
"You complete me suddenly.
you complete me suddenly"
"Flow gently and stop heavily"
They never tell us
we're going to die
They always say they'll do everything
they can to stop you from dying
Yeah. like saying:
"Excuse me. doctor. do you
have an extra spinal cord?"
How close was it
for you. Maisie?
The doctors gave me a
year to live. neuroblastoma
But you beat it. didn't you?
And you're fully strong now
- It became a life chance. right?
- Yeah
Then if you survive.
you become a statistic
One in ten
When people talk to you
like they know how you feel
"My gran died of cancer too"
I don't think your gran's
like my 14-year-old best mate
- Yeah - What's worse
than leaning over your gran?
Hitting your head on her
coffin lid when you get up
You're actually mentally ill
I think what's worse
than us is "stay positive"
- Yeah - That's insane
to say to someone
You're sitting there
With a catheter
coming out of you
And then...
A nurse comes and says:
maybe you should stay positive
Yeah. cancer crew
And my body looked like a water
snake that swallowed a teacup
Have you ever been
isolated because of cancer?
- Yeah - People you
least expect disappeared
Yeah. I've been through that
- That's bad - Why?
Like they forgot
how to act around you
What are you two doing?
- So your fingers don't
smell - Who smells...
Who smells your fingers?
- I don't know. maybe Patrick?
- I hope he's not smelling your fingers
Okay
Who's first?
- No way. God. I'm not going
next. fuck this - I'll go!
Me!
Okay. cut the cards. anywhere
- Anywhere?
- Yeah
Okay
- The Moon - The Moon
You feel confused
- Yeah - You feel weak
and full of self-doubt
- It's not what it
looks like at all - God
Feel the fear and do it anyway
God. God. must be - Who?
- Tristan
- You've been after that
guy for two years - No
- He's not new. it has
to be new - No. no. no
- Something new - No. he looked
right into my eyes the other day
- When he said "Water
equipment room" - Who? Tristan?
- Yeah - Ella. he's
Head of Outdoor Activities
Since he was 18
- He's not interested
in you - No. no. no
Slow and steady wins
the race. agreed?
The tortoise and the hare
It's impossible for me
to work at camp when I'm 18
Yeah. if you make it to 18
You'll drown or
do something wild
Really?
Yeah
What are you doing?
I'm drowning. or
doing something wild
Tonight?
No. right now
- Let's go - What's happening?
Come on!
- Come on. Rashi - Come
on. Rashi. come on. Rashi
Get in the water
You'll be fine
- I don't have a towel
- You won't need a towel
Rash Vest. Rash Vest. Rash Vest
Come on guys. this isn't safe
We can see you. don't
make us call Patrick
Come on. come on. come on
Let's get them on this side
My strap is falling down
Come on. this way.
come on. come on
You look different today
Different?
Happier
- Really?
- Yeah
I'm usually miserable. right?
Yeah. a bit. maybe
it's our influence
Yeah. because you
guys are so much fun
Yeah. to be fair. we are
pretty great. I mean...
Maisie. Ralph. Archie. Ella
- They're not. but I am -
Really? What makes you so great?
My amazing water skills?
You're trying
hard to stay afloat
I have a 25-metre swimming badge
I'm teaching you that
It's on my towel. sewn on
Fuck!
That's refreshing
What?
I feel like I don't
really know you
How poetic!
Ask
- Remission?
- Four years
- Ten months - Newbie. lymphoma
Cool
- And you?
- Leukaemia
Remission?
- You already said that - Fuck!
I had a stem cell transplant
Did you? From who?
From my sister. she
was a perfect match
So you're half female?
Yeah. I'm...
I'm actually Jakita
- Jakita?
- Jakita
No. no. no
- Don't wet my hair - What?
Why?
Because my head gets
huge when my hair gets wet
But your head's always huge
Is that your way
of flirting with me?
No. actually. I can't
ignore that sight. Big Head
I didn't realise the
side effects of lymphoma...
Is having stupid blue
eyes and a big nose
- Really? Nice. nice - Yeah
- Stupid. then?
- Yeah. they're stupid
Kiss!
Kiss!
Come here!
Get out. get out
Shut up
Fuck. fuck. fuck
Did you get that?
"Week Two"
When I was growing my hair out
I thought I'd look
pretty with short hair
I looked better bald
Is that why you dyed
your hair crimson?
Yeah. yeah. I told myself...
You know?
Let me draw more
attention to my bad hair
You idiot
The chemo changed it.
it doesn't grow well now
I'm sure you had
cute chemo curls
No. my hair went platinum blonde
But when I was bald. my head
went up about 10 hat sizes
Not kidding. I wore
a beanie for a while
- No!
- No. I looked like a bowling ball
- Wearing a turtleneck
upside down - No
- No - Did you wear a
beanie when you were little?
God! You dropped to
a 3 out of 10 for me
Baby in a beanie?
- Beanies suit hat-fish
- What's a hat-fish?
People who only
look good in hats
"Hi. I only look good in a hat"
I only look good in a hat
Did people at school
shave their heads for you?
No. I wasn't that popular
That's overrated
When we were all bald.
we looked pretty similar
That's the point.
right? Everyone united
No. no. I wanted to feel
special when I was bald
Yeah. that's what I wanted
How did you find
out you had cancer?
When I was 13...
I had a trapped
nerve in my spine
My mum took me to hospital.
and then you know the rest
That's bad
Yeah
Yeah. the doctor said there was a
chance I'd be paralysed from the neck down
That scared me so much
And from then on. I
started telling myself:
I need to use my amazing
body while I can still move
While I'm still alive
Okay. I'll go to the water equipment
room. anything wet you want me to dry?
I don't know
Maybe me when I see Are you horny all the time?
We're about to turn 18. how
are you not horny all the time?
I actually just turned 17
Okay. I think only
losers stay virgins at 18
So we need to make a move
Somehow. I think...
That when I was sick. I
was scared I'd never do it
It's great to see you happy
Bye
Bye
- You haven't called us
in ages - Sorry. been busy
Just wanted to check
you haven't killed anyone
Not yet
And what about friends?
Made any new friends?
Yeah. I have. a few
- Really? That's
great - Who's that?
- It's Ivy - Ivy!
- Hey. Dad - Hey. how are you?
I'm fine
I have a day trip tomorrow
Where to? That'll be great
To a nearby town
We mutants have to
deal with normal people
Don't bite anyone.
we know how you are
By the way. we're
fine. thanks for asking
We sold all your stuff.
your room's now the spare room
We use it as a love nest
- You look great. Ivy - Okay. I
gotta go. something's happening
- What? No - Sorry
- Love you. bye - Love
you both. bye. talk soon
- Love you. bye.
love you - Shut up
- Did they tell you not to beg?
- No
- You look like
a beggar - Shut up
Sorry. do you mind if...
I hang my jacket there. you're
standing perfectly in front of it
No. I'm not doing this with
you in the water equipment room
It smells like a
homeless shelter
Is this better?
I want you to feel like
you can tell me anything
I was about to feel something
for you. then you said that
Shut up
But that was a bit embarrassing
You wouldn't have agreed
to talk to me outside of here
No. I probably would've said no
CRF
Okay. let me do the talking
You can barely say your own
name. let alone get us six tickets
Shut up! Trust me
Hi
Did it hurt?
What?
When you fell from
heaven. darling
Yeah. it hurt. darling
Tickets are a tenner
for adults and eight...
Listen to me. lady
Give us some tickets.
we don't have any money
Can't help you then
Please
- God - I don't give
tickets without money
Ralph. Ralph. it's okay
Ralph. you're fine. go
join the group. agreed?
Go join the group. agreed?
Sorry about him
- It's okay. next time -
We're not from around here
- We're from the camp down the
road - We'll see what he does then
- Camp CRF?
- Yeah. he is. Camp CRF
The camp for kids
who almost died...
From cancer
- I lost a testicle
- All of you?
Yeah. yeah. cancer's
invading my body
- Come on then - Really?
Thank you
Come on
Here we go
You want this?
Ivy. come here. I'll protect you
- God!
- This is lame
No. no. no
Guys. guys
- Ralph. is that your new girlfriend?
- They're from the cancer camp
The lame ones
- Actually I'm not. I can't...
- I'll stay with Ivy. you guys...
No. no
- Have a great time. you
two - But I'm taking the bear
Can we bring the
bear in this game?
CRF mutants
Nice face paint
Look. they're cancer avengers
- They must have taken my gym top...
- Get new material
I'm talking to
you. chemo mutants
Come on
- You can't even manage basic
hygiene - What did you say. retard?
I said you should suck on
a mint. your breath stinks
Nice one. Ivy!
Tiger? Did they paint you blind?
Okay. fuck
- Let's slaughter...
- Don't touch me
Fuck!
Last but not least. Ivy
The rest of you can go back to your cabins
because we're cancelling all camp activities today
No! Fuck!
This... this is really serious
It's never happened before
in Camp CRF history that...
Really? Something funny. Jake?
This is completely unacceptable
The others gave me a clear
picture of what happened
Yeah. those people are assholes
This isn't about them
- It's about how you all represented
this camp - What did you want us to do?
Look. don't swear
Whether you're here or there. you
represent this camp and what it stands for
I think if they call me a retard
and a mutant. that's crossing a line
Again. they're not at camp
So you want us to be insulted?
- That's not what...
- To just take it all the time
- Would you let me...
- We're sick of it
- And we do this all the time
- Would you let me speak. Ivy?
- Let me speak -
Don't shout at me
Wow!
Since you got here. you've
been acting like a spoiled brat
- Spoiled?
- I gave you a last chance and you blew it
Do you get off on this?
On what?
This camp
You act smug all summer
Don't you have
anything better to do?
We're helping people here
It's your whole
existence to have this camp
Don't you have a
family or something?
I have a wife and
three kids. Ivy
Great. go hang out with them
It's summer. take
them on holiday
Take a chill pill
My two oldest are at university
And my youngest...
He would have been 17
Same age as you
You see that? In the middle?
The little boy in
the yellow shirt
That's Oscar
He was 9 when he was diagnosed
with non-Hodgkin lymphoma
And he didn't lose his fight
He was winning
Every day. for three years
For three years...
my little boy suffered
And I promise you.
there's nothing harder
Than watching your
son's heart stop
While your own keeps beating
This camp isn't
just about surviving
It's about giving people who've lost their
ability to survive a chance to really live
So... yeah
That's what I do. Ivy
That's my pathetic existence
You can leave
Activities will resume
for all of you tomorrow
I'm so sorry about Oscar
These are the ones
who didn't make it
I hate to burst your bubble. Ivy
But some kids aren't
as lucky as you
And maybe you've forgotten
this. but you used to be sick
And there was a time when you
wanted to be a girl at this camp
More than anything in the world
- Can I watch it?
- No
Then what's the
point of filming it?
It's for memories. so
I remember everything
Let us in!
Why don't you use the door?
Come on. get in. come on
- Look. that looked more real -
Patrick said there are no activities
Please. don't listen
to what Patrick says
- Where's Jake?
- The lover
Shut up
I think he was really tired
- Haven't you two done it yet?
- No they haven't. and she's in a bad mood too
Come on. have some of this
So. did you and
Jake do anything?
We kissed
Was he good?
Of course he's good.
his lips are sexy
You can't play that. if
Patrick hears we'll be in trouble
Since when did you
become such a coward? Drink
Drink the whole
bottle. all of it
Tastes like nail polish
Can you pee when you're on
your period? Because of the...
- I don't know what
it's called - The pad?
- Yeah. the pad - The pad
It doesn't stick to
your body. does it?
Where do you think it goes?
It sticks to the dangly bits
No. not the actual part. not the
actual lips. the top of the thigh
The top of the thigh?
- Did you say part or lips?
- Wait. wait. Archie. you're laughing
- Where do you think it goes?
- Yeah. talk
I have two sisters.
I know where it goes
- Go on then. where?
- You have two sisters? Are they fit?
Like cups around...
What? Like a nappy?
Like a nappy
No?
- It sticks to the
underwear. you idiots - What?
"I have two sisters"!
- Have either of you seen a tampon?
- Yeah. I bought some for my mum
They come in lemon
and lime flavours
There are different flavours
Do you have any?
I have strawberry
ones in the cupboard
Okay. get ready to learn
a lesson. both of you
- That's defective -
Please don't get naked
Obviously I'm not
getting naked. you idiot
Completely naked
What the hell is that?
Move back a bit. lesson
one. put that there
Not that way. no. the other way
Push it
Hold the string. hold the string
- Fuck - Hold the string
It's huge
That goes inside you?
I use moon cups. but you're
clearly not ready for that yet
What's a moon cup?
For the night?
Yeah. for the
night mostly. right?
- Pull it out. Ralph -
Is that tarot reading?
Pull it out!
- I can't pull it
out - Pull it out
Hit him again
Hello?
- Jake. are you okay?
- I didn't want to wake you. I didn't want to wake you
- I'm sorry - It's
okay. where are you?
I didn't know who
to call. I wasn't...
You're okay. you're
okay. keep breathing
Just breathe. can you breathe?
- I don't know - Are
you in your cabin?
- I'm having a panic attack -
Jake. where the hell are you?
I'm in the woods.
I'm in the woods
Okay. the woods. okay.
don't hang up. I'm coming
It's okay
Jake. Jake. fuck!
Fuck! Jake. Jake
I'm sorry. I'm sorry
It's okay
It's okay
"Week Three"
You look like a heroin addict
Blame the girls' nights
It always affects me. it's
the Victoria's Secret perfume
Try not to think about
warm salmon milkshake
You bitch!
Why don't we chill
at camp today. Ralph?
I need to see Jake
try that on you
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Maybe you're pregnant
Okay campers. are we ready?
Survival Island is
that island over there
If you need to come
back. blow this horn
We'll come get you
On the island you'll
find wood for a fire
Pots. tents. and tarpaulin.
and sleeping bags are in the boat
This is a fun
team-building activity
Most important tip: make sure you put
tarpaulin on the ground under your tents
I've tried this before.
nobody wants a wet arse
Let's get in the boats now. there'll
be one boat for every two of you
So pick a boat when you're ready
Ella. I was going to share
with Jake. you okay with that?
Yeah. no. yeah. it's fine
Okay. I'll share with Ralph
Looks like it's just
you and me then. Rashi
This is gross
Just be grateful
Why do they make us do this?
It's tradition. it's
supposed to make you resilient
I think chemo was easier
You never even had chemo
Okay. radiotherapy then
At least we get one
morning without Brenda
I'll be Brenda tomorrow morning
and give you your pills by force
What pills do you take. Ivy?
Dex
What pills do you take?
I got leukaemia when I was 14
I had four rounds of chemo
Did you relapse?
Not yet
What are you doing?
There's a sacred rule
When you're sad. you
have to dance this dance
It's... just do what I do
What is this?
Trust me. trust me.
it'll make you feel better
Okay. you gotta teach us then
I love it
- We're happy!
- Yay!
Shoulder. shoulder. shoulder
Then hand. spin motion
And the pigeon. like this
Get up
A clothespin-like move
- What's next?
- The chicken
Then we do the Charleston
- Then you walk a bit - A
mentally challenged person's walk
"But I don't feel like
dancing when old Joanna plays"
"My heart can take a chance.
but my feet can't find the way"
"You'd think I
could swing gently"
"But I don't feel like dancing"
Then you go down
"No dancing today.
don't feel like dancing"
"Even if I don't find
anything better to do"
"Don't feel like dancing"
"Why did you choose a
tune my mood doesn't allow?"
"Don't feel like dancing"
Okay. we bow. and we run
We straighten up. and
now we act deeply sad
The most sad you've ever felt
Then we become the happiest ever
You have to scream
Scream
"While all you do is change
your clothes and call it variety"
"I'll pretend I know
which way to bow"
"And I'll tell the
whole world you're mine"
Turn around
"But I don't feel like
dancing when old Joanna plays"
"My heart can take a chance.
but my feet can't find the way"
"You'd think I
could swing gently"
"But I don't feel like dancing.
no sir. no dancing today"
"Don't feel like dancing"
"Even if I don't find
anything better to do"
"Don't feel like dancing"
"I'd rather be at
home in bed with you"
I know we're gonna
have so much fun. right?
I don't really like this
But I think Camp CRF
Is the only place
where people like us...
Feel what we feel...
Yeah
And there's ten days left...
Till next year
We'll be too old. Ivy
Okay...
We could...
Take over from Tristan
Then Patrick
And we'll run the
camp until we're 70
And our skin gets
wrinkly or worse
- That might be a bit sad
- No. it'll be beautiful
And you won't want to be
here and there and everywhere
Travelling the world
So... yeah
I think it might
actually be our only option
To stay here
Yeah
I don't want you
to think I'm a loser
No. it's too late for that
I really like you
A lot
I really like you too
A lot
We can stop any time
Have you done this before?
Does it matter if I have?
No
Have you done this?
Does it matter if I have?
No
- Fuck!
- What?
- Fuck!
- What?
I didn't bring...
- What? Condoms?
- Condoms?
I have some. wait
- There isn't...
- Wait. let me find them
They're my mum's
- No. no. no - What?
No. they're mine.
she bought them for me
- Open it...
- Okay. okay
- You taste like lube - Sorry
Fuck!
We don't have tissues
Do you want my shirt
to wipe yourself?
To wipe myself?
I mean to dry it
- Dry it? Am I a river?
- Fuck
I'm gonna go smoke
Wow!
Are they doing it?
I could beat you
in a UFC challenge
Do you watch UFC?
- Surrender. coward - No
- Do it. surrender - No
I'll beat you in a
best-of-three challenge
No way
You saw me punch
that guy at the fair
Yeah. that's
exactly what I meant
Okay. let's sleep now
It's almost 2:30
God
Okay
I thought you defending
me was really cool
I really like you
God
Okay. how many cancer patients
does it take to change a lightbulb?
- How many?
- One
Then twelve to say
how inspiring it was
The doctor says
it's all in your head
The bad news is
it's brain cancer
What's the similarity
between you and cancer?
I don't know
Nobody wants you inside them
Fuck!
Dark comedy is like
a kid with cancer
It never gets old
Sorry. did I go too far?
I don't think you saw the line.
I think you crossed it by a mile
Yeah. that's banned behaviour.
they'll send you home early
Yeah
Good job I'm leaving
in the morning
I'm serious
What do you mean you're
leaving in the morning?
I'm going home tomorrow
We can get past the joke. Ralph
Sorry
Some test results
came back from home
The doctor called Brenda
I'm going back to
hospital at the weekend
Fuck! I'm so sick of tests
But for the next 24 hours.
we can pretend I'm fine
Deal?
I think Brenda smelled
the cancer on me
You always had a
bad aura to be fair
Yeah. at least we have the
camp disco to come back to
Better go now
No
No. we're gonna give you
the best night of your life
- Puking after two
sips. cheap date - Right
By the way. we all
heard you last night
- Ivy. Ivy - Jake. Jake
Shut up
"Something new.
Casper's Sled. Part Two"
"Presented by Platinum Crew"
"And this time we're
gonna act weird"
Come on. you promised
me a special night out
Camp CRF disco is a great night
Fuck that! We're going out
Twenty minutes or
I'll kill myself
- God. Ralph!
- Jake. go with him
Or he'll die by a bush somewhere
Yeah. you two should
go. both of you
Yeah. aren't the
lovebirds gonna dance?
No. I can't dance
Look what Tristan gave me
You look amazing
as always. Brian
What did he bring you. Raimundo?
I wish you could
bring me a new body
Best I can do is this
Just because you're my favourite
You'll be fine
Some days it'll hurt
You got this. Rachel
"Let's go to work. to the left"
- "Now back. one jump this
time" - Go. we'll cover for you
Come on. lovebird
Bye
See you later. okay?
- Excuse me. excuse me - Bye
- Campers - Fuck!
Where do you two
think you're going?
I don't know. out
- Where?
- I don't know. anywhere
Get in. all three of you
No
- No. fuck you!
- He doesn't mean it
- Yes I do - He doesn't mean it!
- Patrick...
- I just want to...
Ralph. shut up
You told me once there'd
be a time in my life
When I'd be sick
And I'd want to be
that girl at this camp
More than anything
I did
We live in fear of relapse
And he's being taken
away in the morning
And who knows what'll happen
And that's bad
So let him go
Please let him go
I'll count to five
And when I'm done. I expect you
both to be in your cabins. understood?
Five
- Come on. come on - Fuck!
Four
Three
Two
One
I can't believe
you waited for me
Where's Ralph?
Patrick made him
sleep in the main cabin
But I carried him there...
By myself
- You carried him?
- Yeah. all the way
If you're the one in charge.
he must have been in a bad way
Yeah. he was in a bad way
He...
Threw up on a 35-year-old mum
Who hit you?
Her boyfriend
What? He did
And I was trying to
help them. and he hit me
What's that?
And I think I realised something
People are what make it worth it
That way. I won't be scared
That's deep for a drunk person
Thank you
I have my moments
I love you
I love you too
I'm so sorry and I really meant
it. but I'm gonna throw up...
Are you okay?
How are you?
- You must be Ivy - Yeah
I've heard a lot about you
My car's waiting
- Get off - That's awful
- For god's sake.
Ralph! Get in - What?
Bye. you bastards
Bye
Drive. drive fast
- We miss you - Bye
My mate went home
Yeah. I know. Ralph
He's a nice boy
- How does that make you feel?
- Really shit
Like we're all members of
a club nobody wants to be in
I feel like I've been
alone for a really long time
Like I shouldn't have survived
I haven't achieved
anything in my life
That's not true
There was a guy in my ward
A few years older than me
He'd just started uni
And he was so happy
And he died
And I survived
And it didn't feel right
I'm sorry
It didn't feel fair
Like I took his place
If only one of us could survive
I stole that from him
- You didn't take
his place - Yes I did
- No. you didn't - Yes I did
No. no. you didn't
It's bad that he died
It's terrible. it's cruel
But you didn't take his place
Do you hear me?
You survived
And you don't get to choose
Who lives and who
dies. we don't do that
You deserve to take up space
I feel like I told you
all these things during camp
I opened up to you
What happens now?
Why am I not cured yet?
Therapy doesn't work that way
Am I supposed to live
with these feelings forever?
I want to use a Ribena
blackcurrant cordial analogy
If you think of your mind
as blackcurrant cordial
Every time you come here
and we talk about things
It's like adding a
little water to the cordial
Add a little water
Until you're so watered down.
hopefully. you don't even notice it's there
So these feelings never go away?
Unfortunately not
But I promise it'll
get easier with time
- Keep your eyes shut. keep your
eyes shut - I'm keeping them shut
Happy birthday!
What is this? Guys?
No!
Eighteen. Ella
Eighteen and with
a terrible fake tan
Yeah. but I have to
be golden on my birthday
Some say golden.
some say offensive
My hands will be
stained for weeks
- What?
- Open it!
- Who's it from?
- From all of us
Okay
No? Raise your own Tris...
Guys!
I love it so much!
Thank you
I got you something too
It's not a big deal. but...
I saw you lost your
contact lens case. so...
God. I lost my contact
lens case last year
He's been searching
for it for weeks
No. I knew... I
knew which one it was
It's just a little
piece of plastic for...
I had it specially made and put your
name on it in case you lose it again
- Don't lose it
again - I love it
And it's crimson because that's your hair
colour. and it's silly. and you probably won't...
- No. I love it - I'll
take it... give it back
I love it. Archie. thank you
- Come here - Okay
Thank you
What did your parents get you?
They're taking me to a restaurant
next week when we get home
- I can't believe camp
is almost over - I know
- It's the last week. the big slide
- One week left to pop this cherry
- Cherry?
- You mean her virginity
That's gross. Ella
Tristan's taking me out
to celebrate my 18th tonight
- What?
- It's happening. Maisie
I can feel it in
my energy points
- Maybe I'll keep his trousers
as a souvenir - Oh god. Ella!
I swear. keep your
cherries away from me
Thank you for doing this tonight
It's a lovely spot by the pool
The lights and the
steam coming off it
- I like this - Yeah
- Nothing like a bit
of cocktail pouch - Yeah
- Tastes like tar
- It's delicious
Yeah
The pinker the better
- Sorry - You okay?
Yeah
Happy birthday
Thanks
Here we are
There's something
I want to tell you
Really?
How do I say this?
You remind me so
much of my sister
She's why I started
working here at Camp CRF
When I was 18
We lost her when I was younger
Really?
Fuck!
That's crazy
Okay
Somehow. you've always been
like a little sister to me here
I feel like you've
always understood me
And that's what I thought would never happen
because obviously our experiences were...
Different
I want to say thank you
And happy 18th birthday
Yeah. yeah
You've always been
like a big brother to me
- Yeah - Come here
Okay
Yeah
I'm sorry I didn't
stay. I was feeling sick
My chest was...
I'm fine
What happened?
He said I remind him
of his sister. who's dead
God!
- Fuck. I thought
I felt bad - Jake!
Sorry. Ella
There'll be others. Ella
No
No. there won't be others
- What about Rash Vest?
- Archie?
Yeah
No. we're just friends.
he doesn't like me that way
Ella. I promise you. I've lived
with him all camp. so I think I know
Maybe he'll make a
move at the talent show
I never thought of him that way
I mean... I would
- Maybe he'll surprise you - What might
surprise you? Are you talking about me?
- You're really
attracted to Ella - Shut up
- Okay. bye - See
you in the morning
- Bye - Okay. bye
Is anyone suffering
from separation anxiety?
No. but it doesn't feel good
Yeah. I told you
that guy has issues
I think we all feel a bit
lost sometimes. don't we?
God. you're so smitten
Rub it in more. here I
am on my 18th birthday
In a friendship-only.
celibate. nun-like drought
And still a virgin
That's not funny
It's a little funny
Happy 18th. weirdo
When you're ready. run and jump
- Much higher than the pictures -
Yeah. because it's called the big slide
- Not the coward's slide
- No way I'm doing this
By the way. where's Jake?
I don't think he was feeling
great. he went to see Brenda yesterday
- Ivy. you're up - Ivy. Ivy. Ivy
Ropes go here. equipment there
People think kayaking and canoeing
are the same. but they're not
Kayaking needs a double-bladed paddle.
canoeing needs a single-bladed paddle
Right
Okay
Yeah
Was Jake...
Serious?
Did you Google contact
lens cases for a few weeks?
- That's a bit embarrassing -
I don't think it's embarrassing
I really like him
Really?
That's cool. what knot is this?
It's a manger tie
Designed for a cow to bite on
Wet knots are really hard to undo.
but this one's especially resistant
I was learning
different knots and stuff
This is an easy-release knot
Want me to teach you?
Yeah
- Okay - Yeah. please
Make a loop. then grab
the side. yeah. around it
Like this?
Put it like that. yeah
God
That's called a bite
A loop. in rope language
Okay
Like that
See how tight it is?
Yeah. it's really tight
You're really...
Good with ropes
Thanks
Do you...
Know any other knots
that are slower to undo?
The hardest knot I know
is the constrictor knot
Yeah
It's really hard
to tie. really hard
"Jake"
I'm Jake. don't leave a message
because I won't listen to it. bye
I can't believe I'm saying this
But I'm going to
get with Rash Vest
And I hope he keeps
the lead while I do this
- You need to set
a deadline - I will
Ella. read the room
I went to speak to Patrick
He'll talk to you when he's back
He was at the hospital with Jake
- What?
- That's all he said
- He'll be back and talk to you
right away - This or this for Rashi?
- I want to embarrass
my ancestors - Green
Okay
- Did he say anything else?
- No
Why isn't he answering?
- Hello - Hi
- Got a minute? It's about
Jake - Yeah. Maisie told me
Please sit down.
girls. thank you
Okay
Great
I'm Jake. don't leave a message
because I won't listen to it. bye
I'm Jake. don't leave a message
because I won't listen to it. bye
I was so worried
You didn't call me
- Then Patrick came...
- I'm sorry
What happened?
They took my phone
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
That's dramatic
Turns out if you say
you have chest pain
They send you straight
to hospital now
I thought you
weren't coming back
You can't get rid
of me that easily
Where's Ella?
In your cabin.
getting with Rash Vest
Are you okay. Jake?
Whenever you're sad
That's a sacred rule. Ivy
You weren't lying that day
when you said you can't dance
Looks like the most
important move is the hips
I can't. no. I can't
- Doctor's orders - Coward
Where are the others?
I saw them earlier
at Patrick's office
He's going to try and
keep them as staff next year
- No - He'll ask you next
They're pulling out
of the talent show
Who's the special guest judge?
I don't know. they'll bring someone
crazy just because they feel sorry for us
- Craig Davis was
last year - Really?
Yeah. he was
Yeah. he does that old stuff now
- What?
- What are you going to do for it then?
I was thinking
interpretive dance
I'm serious. Jake. the show
tonight. you'll embarrass yourself
I'll play drums or something
- Can you play drums?
- No. but I'll try. what about you?
That's a surprise
Will you be diagnosed
live on stage?
That's so funny
Why don't you wear
the show clothes?
We're over it
- That's bullshit. you snakes -
What are you doing? The woman in black?
You'll find out later
Are you sure you
want to do this?
- Are you back?
- Did someone order a stripper?
- No way - Hi
Hey
Couldn't miss this. right?
I escaped the ward for this
You better clap for
me. I'm shaking with fear
Kill it. we're rooting for you
- Thanks - Yeah
- Good luck - Good luck
Bye
- Are your parents coming?
- No. I didn't tell them
Fuck!
- How did they find out?
- Classic Patrick move
If my act is bad. Bob. I'll have to leave.
you know I can't handle embarrassment
We can't. they've got cancer
Ladies and gentlemen. welcome
to the Camp CRF annual talent show
We have performances
from all campers
And tonight we have a
very special guest judge
Please welcome to the stage...
Drumroll please
James Blunt
Who did Patrick
have to suck up to?
I know
Yes!
James Blunt!
Thank you very much.
thank you. thank you
Yeah. I feel like I'm at my peak
Next year I'll be
doing cruise ship gigs
"My life is brilliant.
my love is pure"
"I saw an angel.
of that I'm sure"
"She smiled at me on the subway"
"She was with another man"
"But I won't lose
no sleep on that"
"'Cause I've got a plan"
"You're beautiful.
you're beautiful"
"You're beautiful. it's true"
"There must be an angel
with a smile on her face"
"When I thought I
should stay with you"
"But it's time
to face the truth"
- "I will never be with you"
- Okay. you're next. ready?
What are you doing after this?
Sorry?
You know. after this.
you wanna go for a drink?
- I still have to work.
yeah. sorry - Yeah. sure
I'm free
Yeah. come on
Come on. Ivy
"I wake up in the morning
and think what did I do?"
"That was my life but
I don't need another"
"You cut and you follow.
you wear those clothes"
"Why do I feel lonely
when you're here?"
So...
I think we can both admit that
the time I spent here at camp
Had its ups and downs
But we're so proud of you
You're proud of me?
Yeah. proud of the
person you've become
Okay...
I'm really grateful
Here I'm just Ivy.
not Ivy with cancer
So. Ivy. when we lose
someone close to us
Our bodies can go into shock
Especially when it's unexpected
But also someone we love
And there's a thing called
bereavement hallucination
Where we start imagining
those who left us
Because the pain of them
not being here is so huge
Your other friends decided not to take part
in the talent show and we understand why
But we felt like you wanted to
And it was beautiful
We wanted to talk to
you before you left
Why is he on the wall?
Patrick. why is he on the wall?
Why is he on the wall?
Ivy. Jake had a heart
attack at the hospital
The chemo weakened his heart
And I think his body
was just too exhausted
- Ivy. he's gone - What do
you mean? No. he came back
- We think it's important you
leave him here - Mum. tell him
Ivy. don't...
Dad
- Ivy...
- Please tell him. please tell him
Ivy. Ivy...
He's not coming back
Sweetheart
- He went into cardiac arrest. Ivy
- No. no. he didn't. no. he didn't
He's not supposed to be there! Can you
take his picture down? Take it down now!
Take it down. he's
not supposed to be there
- He's not dead
- I told you that
No. stop. stop saying that
Stop. stop. he's not dead
No! No! No!
Ivy
You didn't tell me
We tried to
- You didn't tell
me - We tried to
You didn't tell me.
you didn't tell me
- Patrick said...
- You didn't tell me
No!
- No!
- I'm sorry
I'm sorry
He loved you
He loved you so much
"Two weeks later"
Hey loser. it's me. Ella
I was thinking about
you and I miss you so much
Did you ever open
that box I made you?
Did you like it?
Can't wait to see you soon.
let me know when. okay? Love you
You haven't told us
much since you got back
I mean...
To be fair. I didn't really
know what to say to you either
I feel like I lost someone
close to me. Mum. and it's not fair
I know
It's strange...
Sometimes they don't
tell you about grief
That it feels a lot like fear
Maybe you're not necessarily...
Feeling scared. or
maybe you are but...
The feelings are similar
You know what I mean?
That unsettled feeling
in your stomach you get
The weight of everything
And I imagine it's hard to
take in anything anyone says
Let alone what I'm saying
But...
I didn't lose you. Ivy
So I didn't grieve the
way other mothers had to
But I grieved for
you losing your freedom
And how you had
to grow up so fast
I know we never met him
But if he was special
to you. then god...
I'm absolutely certain I
know he was really special
I know some days
will be really hard
But some days you'll wake
up and feel a bit better
Then the next day
might be hard again
But the love you felt for Jake
God. some people
search their whole lives
For a love like you and Jake had
This pain you're
feeling... you know?
I promise you. it's all worth it
Okay? I promise
It's okay. sweetheart
We'll have stew instead of tea
I'll see you downstairs. okay?
"To my best friend
Ivy. with love from Ella"
"To the worst and best roommate
in the world. with love from Ella"
Hey loser
I don't let anyone watch
this. so I hope you like it
- Great day - First
day at this awful place
- This is gonna be the
best summer ever - Ever
Okay. come on then
Forward to your mum.
back to your dad?
Back to Ivy's dad
He's fit
For the people at home
One point
I love this so much
If I wear this I look stupid
Yeah
It actually looks like you
Yeah
Hello and welcome back
to Ella's Explorations
Today we're at the campfire
It's a bit cold
I'm freezing
Stop filming everything
or you'll get sent to prison
Yeah
Based on where we're from
We'll tell them their truth
It moves on its own
We're here bringing rays. bringing
sunshine. bringing positive vibes
- Do you like my whip?
- I like your whip. baby
She's flirting with
Jake. you know what I mean?
Does that look weird?
Any tall guys. can we...
Hi Mum. I'm having
a great time at camp
This is for Brenda.
love you Brenda
Miss you Brenda
Brenda. Brenda
You're going to
compete team vs team
Just so you know. I
only compete M vs M
Run to the hill
I'm so tired
- I've got one here. I've
got one - Hey guys. wait
Cheers. we were
about to toast you
Oh god!
"Call me so I can meet you"
"Silence on the phone"
"I usually need you"
"This time I don't want to go"
"Lately I've been turning
into someone you don't know"
"You had a chance to love
her but you don't seem to"
"No. you don't"
"So even if I can"
"I won't go back
to where we started"
"I know you're still
waiting and wondering"
"Where my heart is"
"Pray that things don't change"
"But the hardest part
is you might realise"
"That I might not be who I am"
"And what you're waiting
for no longer exists"
"The former close
friend known as Ruby"
Yeah?
Just open the door
You asked me to always knock
I answered
Ivy. your room is a
mess. clothes everywhere
I can see your yellow
trousers sticking out
- Disgusting. Dad?
- Come on. yeah. it's disgusting
Dad!
It's a pigsty
Okay. do you want the bad
news or the really bad news?
The bad news
The bad news is your mum cooked
- Remember last time?
- Yeah. I had the shits for a week
And what's the really bad news?
She made stew
I don't know why you
two didn't like it
- You don't like it
either - Yes. I do
Have another spoonful then
No. actually. I don't
want it. I'm full
I think I might have
one of your veggie wraps
- To soak up the gravy...
- Absolutely not
Not until you admit
your stew is shit
Bob
Karen
Alright. the stew's
terrible. agreed?
We'll have to leave the
rest for Big Head's birthday
I'm sorry. that's child cruelty
Saying my head's big
is also child cruelty
That's not cruelty. that's facts
You have an
excessively large head
- Especially when
you were a baby - No
Your birth was like pushing
a wrecking ball out of my body
It was like a crime
scene. ask your dad
I'm staying out of
it. I'm like Switzerland
Look. I know
you're great company
But you came back at the start of the year
and you still haven't brought anyone round
What about Ruby?
You like Ruby
You used to like her
Is it because you feel...
Different?
I got the all-clear
ten months ago
Yeah. but it still
affects you in other ways
Maybe you feel... I
don't know... weird?
Not my fault they
all acted weird
Can we have a conversation
without you getting angry?
This isn't an attack on you
Feels like you're attacking me
God! Listen. I... okay
Okay. we think it might be
good if you could be around people
Who've been through what you've been
through. can you keep an open mind?
No way
You haven't even read it yet
- Bob. why don't you pull up the website?
- Yeah. yeah. just a sec
"Where boys come to have fun"
You got on great with
the boys on the ward
- It's a chemo camp -
Okay. that's inaccurate. Ivy
- Bob - It's literally a
mutant camp. Dad. tell her
- Would you just read this please. agreed?
- I thought you were neutral like Switzerland
Your dad worked really hard
to try and get you a spot
What? You already spoke
to them? Dad. what the hell?
I just asked them
Asked them what? Is my mutant daughter
weird enough for your stupid camp?
Ivy. nobody's
calling you a mutant
I just called them casually
To see if they
had space this late
Did they have space?
Yeah
I'm not going
Look. it's four weeks
in August and that's it
Look. if you don't like
it. you can just come home
Yeah. we really think
it'll be good for you
You really feel sorry
for me. don't you?
- Ivy. we don't feel sorry for
you - Sorry I'm not sick anymore
What's that supposed to mean?
Having a sick daughter isn't the
only way for you two to be interesting
- Ivy!
- That's a really awful thing to say
I don't want to be someone
people feel sorry for all the time
Nobody feels sorry for you. trust me.
you're annoying. and we're worried about you
- Why are you worried about me?
- Because you've become...
What?
Karen...
A non-existent person.
agreed? Emotionally
You're distancing yourself
from everything and everyone
- Ivy...
- Exactly
"Children running free
where boys come to have fun"
You're here to convince me to go
- I'm here to just
talk - Same thing
You're like your mum
Stubborn as hell
- I can't stand you being
miserable - I'm not miserable
Right. you just hang out
on your bedroom floor for fun
We just care about you. kiddo
Did you even look
at the website?
Yeah. looks great
It says you can start a fire
with sticks. which is pretty cool
Dad!
It's not going to work
You know you can call
us whenever you want
You can just come home
She's not 12. Bob
I think we need a little...
- Absolutely not -
Yeah. come on. Big Head
- Karen. you naughty girl!
- No!
- Absolutely not!
- Embarrassing you? Sorry. sorry
- It's our sacred law. Ivy -
No. no. I'm not doing this anymore
Whenever I dance...
You get embarrassed
She's embarrassed. come on. Ivy
- Here we go - Come on
I love this! Come on!
I love this!
There she is!
And now the walk
I'm not holding
the lead. come on
I'm letting go of the lead
Clap. clap
"My heart can take a chance"
"But my feet can't find the way"
"You'd think I
could swing gently"
"But I don't feel like dancing"
"No sir. no dancing today"
"Don't feel like dancing"
"Even if I don't find
anything better to do"
"Don't feel like dancing"
"Why did you choose a
tune my mood doesn't allow?"
"Don't feel like dancing"
"I'd rather be home in
bed with you till dawn"
"Cities come and cities
go like old empires"
"While all you do is change
your clothes and call it variety"
"You have so many colours"
"You confuse the blind so much"
"Why can't I keep up with you
when you're the only thing I lose?"
"I'll just pretend I
know which way to bow"
"And I'll tell the
whole world you're mine"
"Just pretend you understand
while I see you clap your hands"
"Sunny Dancer"
"Week One"
"Camp CRF. don't
forget to have fun"
"Come back soon"
Look. Ivy
Keep it down. keep it down
- Please. keep it down. this
is so embarrassing - Okay. okay
Thank you
Look. they seem nice!
Don't stare
Why don't you go say hi!
Stop. I'm begging you. stop
They could be your friends
- Look. don't judge a book by
its cover - Don't embarrass me
- I think you'll find that's
my job - No. Mum. please don't
- Please don't -
Hi. excuse me. hi
- Hi. guys - Why
are you doing this?
I just want to say: this is my
daughter Ivy. and she's fun. agreed?
And also. she can probably
drink more than all of you bastards
And she has a massive bottle
of vodka in her bag. agreed?
I'm pretty sure vodka
isn't allowed at camp
No. no. no. I'm
joking. I'm joking
I don't. a massive bottle
Really?
No. no. no. not really
Ivy prefers tequila anyway
- Hi - Hi
- I'm Bob - Hi. Bob
- Nice to meet you.
I'm her dad - Yeah. great
We spoke on the phone about...
They're nice
I hate you
That guy's pretty fit. isn't he?
- A bit pale but handsome. right?
- No. he's not my type
You were bald three years
ago. you weren't our type either
I'll miss you
If they start singing "Wherever
we go. people ask us". I'll throw up
No. just give it a try
I transferred you
an extra 50 quid
- And I put some condoms
in your bag too - God!
I'll go tell them about
the night you were conceived
What? Mum. no!
- We were around the same age...
- Mum!
Get in the car. bye
- We love you - Love you too
Bye
Love you both. bye
- Okay. come on
- Dad. I got this
- You sure?
- Yeah
Okay. come here
I transferred you an
extra 50 just in case
Thanks
Look. call me if
you need anything
- We can get here quick - Okay
What did you say to him?
Just making sure that
guy's not a psycho
That means I gotta go
You lot! Listen
If any of you mess
with my daughter
Cancer will be the least
of your worries. got it?
Yeah. especially you
Welcome to Camp CRF.
let me hear a cheer!
Yeah
Okay. I think we can
do better than that
Can I hear a cheer?
- Yeah - Thank you.
that's what I want
For those of you who
haven't had the pleasure yet
I'm the camp director
Also known as Patrick
How's it going?
I see we have some returning
campers. welcome back
We've got some new faces too
Hi. I see one
All new campers come forward
Time to place the new campers
Come on. don't be nervous
We're all strangers here.
but in a good way. I promise
Let's give all the new
campers a Camp CRF cheer
Two. three. four
Thank you new campers
for coming here
We hope you have a good
time and enjoy your stay
Welcome new campers. there's
something we want to say
Welcome new campers. hi. welcome
You nailed that!
Awesome!
Okay. thank you. you can go back
This summer's programme
Is unlike anything
you've seen before
We're expanding our activities this
year and introducing the annual talent show
This is mandatory for everyone
So start thinking of ideas that'll
impress our special guest judge
Behind me is my amazing team
They're here to help
you in any way you need
So without further
delay. let's meet them
Let me hear a cheer?
Okay. you first
Hi
To all new campers. I'm Tristan.
Head of Outdoor Activities
I'll be doing activities with you
from archery to mountain climbing
I'm Lucy. I'm a trained
therapist and counsellor
And unlike the talent show.
my programme isn't mandatory
But I'm here if you need me
It's really important that you tell me
if any of your medications have changed
I have a list. but it's long
This is Michael.
and Polly. and Alice
And we're the awesome
ones at Camp CRF
But now it's the moment
you've all been waiting for
I know this. we've pinned
it on the notice board
Activity schedule for tonight and
most importantly. cabin assignments
So go take a look and
grab a map and a shirt
And grab a Camp CRF hat
What are you waiting
for? Go. go. go
"Each day brings its
gifts... untie the knot"
It's great. isn't it?
"Stay active every day"
It's a bit preachy
Some say it's inspiring
But I hope you
like your roommate
Where's Alana?
She's not coming back this year
You mean she's not coming
or she's not coming back?
Shit!
She was a nice girl
You're with me. Rach
Can you smell that?
Homesickness and discipline
You're a real freak!
And I'm stuck with you again!
Don't do that stupid
tarot thing again. got it?
Not my fault your bad
aura gave you bad cards
- It said "Death
was imminent" - Yeah
Come on then
You hit me in the chest
Is this cabin Orine?
I'm Ella
I'm Ivy
What are you doing?
I film a video every camp
Really?
Are there any lava falls
or activities tonight?
No. not really
But...
Wait
Look at this shot. it's
worth a lot to Tristan
- Head of Outdoor Activities?
- Yeah
This is footage stalkers shoot
- All of it of him - What?
- Not all of it of
him - Most of it of him
I think he has nice hands
- Hands?
- Yeah
He has clam-like sexy nails
Clam nails!
Okay
Do you still have
your virginity board?
- What do you mean? Virginity board?
- Yeah. your virginity card
An endless resource. a blank CD
A snow dragon without fluff
That's partly why I'm
here. the virginity thing
You come to a chemo camp
to lose your virginity?
Yeah. exactly
To get rid of
those old restraints
But you're pretty. it'll be easy
Wait. wait. you
think I'm pretty?
Yeah. I do
- Would you try it?
- No. what?
Sorry. I just watched
Blue Is the Warmest Colour
I mean Lea Seydoux...
I'm not saying I wouldn't do it
Are you bi?
I don't have a type. just...
- I'll take anyone available -
You'll take anyone who breathes. right?
See? I knew we'd be friends
But you're not my type
- No?
- No. you're a bit...
Oh well. I'm going to sleep now
Goodnight. roomie
I'm on the pill
What?
Yeah. it helps with acne. and
also. I take it just in case
Yeah. good to be prepared
You get me
Tristan's hot. right?
- He's alright. yeah - Yeah
This is my year. this is my year
Hey. weirdo!
Wanna sit with us?
Who?
Us. the team
We come every year
Or are you gonna keep
staring at them like a stalker?
You're a funny guy. Ralph
Fuck my life!
What's your name?
Ivy
- I don't read minds. what's your surname?
- Pritchard
Four Dex pills. twice daily
Ella Oxley. new hair
Yeah
If you change your
mind. Ivy Pritchard
We'll be there
Later
Who's that girl? What's
your favourite part?
And so I reclaimed my life
They asked me if
I wanted to be paid
But I said if my story inspires
just one person here today
That's enough payment for me
How lovely!
So inspiring!
Okay. you know what we do now
Q&A
Got your questions ready?
Because she's got lots of answers
Anyone? Don't be
shy. come on. ask away
Can you make money
from social media posts?
Yeah. through sponsored ads
Sponsored ads? Who knew?
- Yeah?
- Can you become a millionaire from it?
Maybe. if you work really hard
Do you get paid for this? Or
just for doing this session?
I don't get paid for this
Then why do you do it?
Let everyone ask. Ivy
I feel more fulfilled
when I help people like you
So we're like a
charity case to you
- Yeah - No
No. no
I don't think coming to a
camp for kids with cancer
And saying you inspire
us all is the right move
Okay. I said my story
could do that. not me
And what story was that. sorry?
That your parents paid for
a gap year abroad for you?
- Ivy. that's enough -
You're clearly on your period
What?
I won't be the only one
bleeding if you say that again
Don't act surprised
Hey. I'm sorry.
you can't do that
- Fuck you!
- Fuck me? Fuck you. grief tourist!
- "Grief tourist"?
- Ivy. my office. now!
Okay. everyone calm
down. please calm down
- You threatened her - I
didn't really threaten her
- You said you'd make her bleed
- You swore at a girl with cancer
She's...
I'm struggling to know if I can
keep you here after what you did
Keep me here? Am I a
pet? She was patronising us
She was trying
to inspire you all
You clearly have a warped view
of what can be inspiring then
I think I've done
pretty well so far
196 kids have come here and
Camp CRF made their lives better
Sorry I won't be number 197
Fuck this camp and your
boy-love display wall!
Stupid!
"For every mountain.
there is a miracle"
I'm sorry. not a
boy-love display wall
When you're little. saying
sorry makes the problem go away
It's like a magic word
But when you grow up. it
doesn't have the same power
I promised my parents I'd try
Okay. listen...
Let's start over
I'm Patrick. the camp director
Hi. I'm Ivy
I've been in
remission for 10 months
Hi. Ivy
I think it would be a good
idea for you to talk to Lucy
I don't need therapy
If you want to stay
here after all that...
What time is my therapy session?
Good question. at 8.
right before breakfast at 9
At 8:30?
At 8
This is prison
I know it's a bit
early. but you can talk
I've got nothing to say
Why are you here?
Because Patrick
wanted me to come here
No. I mean at camp.
why are you at camp?
Because of my parents
You won't benefit if you
only do things to please others
Patrick told me
you're not engaging
What do you mean I'm not
engaging? That's a bit shocking
Have you had therapy before?
Yeah. I've tried it
That's a promising start
No. it didn't work
I'm sure it helps some
people. but it didn't help me
That's a shame you feel that way
Can you talk to me directly instead
of talking about my inner self?
I feel like you're not talking to me
as a person. and it's really annoying
Is that something
you often feel?
No
Why do you think therapy
didn't work for you before?
I think I was trying
to outsmart her
And I'd say what
she wanted to hear
And also...
Maybe I was smarter than her
That sounds like a waste of your
money and her time. doesn't it?
Do you think you're
smarter than me?
I don't know yet. Lucy
Okay
We'll give it some time then
Can I ask you that
question from before again?
Do you often feel like people
talk to you as if you're not human?
It's now 8:59
Wild Ivy!
Where were you this
morning. Wild Ivy?
Went for a walk
- You like walking. don't you?
- Can you stop filming me?
Okay
She scares me
Yeah. she can smell
cancer like a truffle pig
Like a truffle pig but
she sniffs out tumours
Tumour. tumour
Who said that?
It's well known at CRF camps
One year she smelled
cancer on a boy
And he actually relapsed
I know. her nose is spot on
Do you mind if I sit here? I
always like meeting new campers
Yeah. I mean. yeah. sure
But not too politely please
"I don't want you to sit please"
Okay. I don't care if
you sit here. just sit
Ella was telling me Brenda
can smell cancer like a pig
No. not exactly
That's rude
It's a rumour I heard
Shut up
- No way - What?
Is that a Panasonic HC-VXF1?
Yeah
- I had one when I
was younger - Really?
Awesome!
It's good. it can...
Zoom really well. 32x zoom
Yeah. it says that on top
Right
Very funny
I had one just like it but red
God. I love red
- Can I try it?
- Yeah. of course. yeah
No
Avoid the scrambled eggs
They microwave them.
so they taste like tyres
It's to the left
It literally says
"right" on the map
Look at her! Look at her!
- It's D3. that's where the
treasure is - Are you an idiot?
Idiot and pale.
that's a bad look
Give it to Rash Vest.
he's good at reading maps
It's DF
By the way. they don't
mean pale in a bad way
Sorry
But I didn't want you to feel...
Offended. or think
we're all assholes
I don't feel offended
Okay. but don't think
we're all assholes
We've all been coming
to Camp CRF for years
And we keep coming back
And it has that effect
I'm not sure
Yeah
You were funny at
the meeting yesterday
I personally found
it very inspiring
Are you all roommates?
No. Ralph and
Maisie are together
And I'm with Rash Vest
- Why's he called Rash Vest?
- Because he wore a rash vest once and it stuck
Rash vest?
The nickname
Told you I was right
Shut up. Ralph. nobody cares
Maybe I should go make sure
they don't kill each other
Wild Ivy's glowing
after Jake talked to her
No way. he's way too handsome
I'm going out tonight. so you'll
be free if you want to bring him over
We barely talked.
and he's not my type
And I can't be his type either
Right
Aren't you gonna
ask where I'm going?
Where are you going. Ella?
Tristan asked me to help him
set up tomorrow's activities
Did he ask you?
Kind of
You asked him
If I'm not back.
don't look for me
He's not interested in you
Slow and steady
And maybe you should give us a
chance. you might not hate everyone here
Feeling better?
Thanks for asking
I found my long-lost twin. turns
out we have a rich dad in America
That's a great movie
This place isn't for me
Okay. have you tried?
Yeah. my roommate's weird
- Why is she weird?
- She does weird stuff
I get that you don't care
Does anyone care?
- You know what you do care about?
- No
Maybe if you get into
the spirit. you'll find out
I got into the spirit
What do you want
to achieve here?
What does Patrick
want me to achieve here?
I think...
I think Patrick might want you
to be less angry at the world
I'm not angry at the world
I'm not angry at the world
Okay
- Where do you want to start?
- I don't know. that's your job
Okay
Where were you when you
found out you had leukaemia?
It goes past the pig farms
You're just jealous
you didn't...
Whoa! It's the
camper on her period
Sorry. stupid joke
You ruined that influencer
You haven't met my
roommate Ivy. have you?
She's a bit weird. but
you'll get used to it
At least she got her wish
They felt sorry for me
That's bullshit. it's just
because you lost a kidney
Okay. Rash Vest only
has one kidney too
He went to Lapland and has both
What was your wish. Ivy?
It's so Disney
No way. unbelievable.
you chose Disney?
- How do you know I chose Disney?
- That's the rebellious type
- It's childhood trauma screaming
out - What's your star sign?
- Leo - Leo. yeah.
that gives Disney
- The Lion King - Yeah. to
be fair. you do give Disney
Give what? What does that mean?
Stop!
- God - They picked
the meanest nurses
Okay...
She's my favourite
- We love you. Brian - Brenda
Brent
Want me to help you take it?
Ouch
When Ralph was younger. Brenda
had to hold him down to take his meds
Yeah. it was torture
I'm 17 now
Bruce
That's so funny
I'll tell Patrick
No. no. don't tell Patrick
Don't tell Patrick please
We really love her
What do the letters
CRF stand for?
"Children Running Free"
"Cancer Ruins Families"
Still sneaking out late?
- Obviously - Okay. ready?
We should go
I don't know
What if we get caught?
Tristan will hate me
Tristan will be fine
- He asked me to help him set up again
tomorrow - Ella. you're being desperate
- I shaved my head
- You did what?
I shaved my head
He's 24!
Yeah. and I'll be 18
soon. and he's my type
A pulse is your type
- Please. will you come. please. for
me - Why do you want to go that badly?
It's not that I'm desperate
to go. it's that it'll be fun
What?
Jake's like a brother to
me. but he has his own issues
What do you mean?
He...
He gets panic attacks
Yeah. sometimes he
needs to be put on ice
So will you come?
- Okay - Yes!
But if T calls. I'm going
Deal
Okay. deal
Wanna do a full makeover?
- God. a full makeover!
- No. no. no
- Ivy. Ivy. Ivy. okay
- No. no. I take it back
- Lip balm. no - Fuck!
Lip gloss
- God. I have a vision - No
"Not anymore. not anymore"
"What you ask for"
"Strange steps"
"Heels turn black"
"Ashes. ashes. light. the way"
"For those strange steps"
"Take us back. take us back"
"Flow gently and stop heavily"
"You complete me suddenly.
you complete me suddenly"
"Flow gently and stop heavily"
They never tell us
we're going to die
They always say they'll do everything
they can to stop you from dying
Yeah. like saying:
"Excuse me. doctor. do you
have an extra spinal cord?"
How close was it
for you. Maisie?
The doctors gave me a
year to live. neuroblastoma
But you beat it. didn't you?
And you're fully strong now
- It became a life chance. right?
- Yeah
Then if you survive.
you become a statistic
One in ten
When people talk to you
like they know how you feel
"My gran died of cancer too"
I don't think your gran's
like my 14-year-old best mate
- Yeah - What's worse
than leaning over your gran?
Hitting your head on her
coffin lid when you get up
You're actually mentally ill
I think what's worse
than us is "stay positive"
- Yeah - That's insane
to say to someone
You're sitting there
With a catheter
coming out of you
And then...
A nurse comes and says:
maybe you should stay positive
Yeah. cancer crew
And my body looked like a water
snake that swallowed a teacup
Have you ever been
isolated because of cancer?
- Yeah - People you
least expect disappeared
Yeah. I've been through that
- That's bad - Why?
Like they forgot
how to act around you
What are you two doing?
- So your fingers don't
smell - Who smells...
Who smells your fingers?
- I don't know. maybe Patrick?
- I hope he's not smelling your fingers
Okay
Who's first?
- No way. God. I'm not going
next. fuck this - I'll go!
Me!
Okay. cut the cards. anywhere
- Anywhere?
- Yeah
Okay
- The Moon - The Moon
You feel confused
- Yeah - You feel weak
and full of self-doubt
- It's not what it
looks like at all - God
Feel the fear and do it anyway
God. God. must be - Who?
- Tristan
- You've been after that
guy for two years - No
- He's not new. it has
to be new - No. no. no
- Something new - No. he looked
right into my eyes the other day
- When he said "Water
equipment room" - Who? Tristan?
- Yeah - Ella. he's
Head of Outdoor Activities
Since he was 18
- He's not interested
in you - No. no. no
Slow and steady wins
the race. agreed?
The tortoise and the hare
It's impossible for me
to work at camp when I'm 18
Yeah. if you make it to 18
You'll drown or
do something wild
Really?
Yeah
What are you doing?
I'm drowning. or
doing something wild
Tonight?
No. right now
- Let's go - What's happening?
Come on!
- Come on. Rashi - Come
on. Rashi. come on. Rashi
Get in the water
You'll be fine
- I don't have a towel
- You won't need a towel
Rash Vest. Rash Vest. Rash Vest
Come on guys. this isn't safe
We can see you. don't
make us call Patrick
Come on. come on. come on
Let's get them on this side
My strap is falling down
Come on. this way.
come on. come on
You look different today
Different?
Happier
- Really?
- Yeah
I'm usually miserable. right?
Yeah. a bit. maybe
it's our influence
Yeah. because you
guys are so much fun
Yeah. to be fair. we are
pretty great. I mean...
Maisie. Ralph. Archie. Ella
- They're not. but I am -
Really? What makes you so great?
My amazing water skills?
You're trying
hard to stay afloat
I have a 25-metre swimming badge
I'm teaching you that
It's on my towel. sewn on
Fuck!
That's refreshing
What?
I feel like I don't
really know you
How poetic!
Ask
- Remission?
- Four years
- Ten months - Newbie. lymphoma
Cool
- And you?
- Leukaemia
Remission?
- You already said that - Fuck!
I had a stem cell transplant
Did you? From who?
From my sister. she
was a perfect match
So you're half female?
Yeah. I'm...
I'm actually Jakita
- Jakita?
- Jakita
No. no. no
- Don't wet my hair - What?
Why?
Because my head gets
huge when my hair gets wet
But your head's always huge
Is that your way
of flirting with me?
No. actually. I can't
ignore that sight. Big Head
I didn't realise the
side effects of lymphoma...
Is having stupid blue
eyes and a big nose
- Really? Nice. nice - Yeah
- Stupid. then?
- Yeah. they're stupid
Kiss!
Kiss!
Come here!
Get out. get out
Shut up
Fuck. fuck. fuck
Did you get that?
"Week Two"
When I was growing my hair out
I thought I'd look
pretty with short hair
I looked better bald
Is that why you dyed
your hair crimson?
Yeah. yeah. I told myself...
You know?
Let me draw more
attention to my bad hair
You idiot
The chemo changed it.
it doesn't grow well now
I'm sure you had
cute chemo curls
No. my hair went platinum blonde
But when I was bald. my head
went up about 10 hat sizes
Not kidding. I wore
a beanie for a while
- No!
- No. I looked like a bowling ball
- Wearing a turtleneck
upside down - No
- No - Did you wear a
beanie when you were little?
God! You dropped to
a 3 out of 10 for me
Baby in a beanie?
- Beanies suit hat-fish
- What's a hat-fish?
People who only
look good in hats
"Hi. I only look good in a hat"
I only look good in a hat
Did people at school
shave their heads for you?
No. I wasn't that popular
That's overrated
When we were all bald.
we looked pretty similar
That's the point.
right? Everyone united
No. no. I wanted to feel
special when I was bald
Yeah. that's what I wanted
How did you find
out you had cancer?
When I was 13...
I had a trapped
nerve in my spine
My mum took me to hospital.
and then you know the rest
That's bad
Yeah
Yeah. the doctor said there was a
chance I'd be paralysed from the neck down
That scared me so much
And from then on. I
started telling myself:
I need to use my amazing
body while I can still move
While I'm still alive
Okay. I'll go to the water equipment
room. anything wet you want me to dry?
I don't know
Maybe me when I see Are you horny all the time?
We're about to turn 18. how
are you not horny all the time?
I actually just turned 17
Okay. I think only
losers stay virgins at 18
So we need to make a move
Somehow. I think...
That when I was sick. I
was scared I'd never do it
It's great to see you happy
Bye
Bye
- You haven't called us
in ages - Sorry. been busy
Just wanted to check
you haven't killed anyone
Not yet
And what about friends?
Made any new friends?
Yeah. I have. a few
- Really? That's
great - Who's that?
- It's Ivy - Ivy!
- Hey. Dad - Hey. how are you?
I'm fine
I have a day trip tomorrow
Where to? That'll be great
To a nearby town
We mutants have to
deal with normal people
Don't bite anyone.
we know how you are
By the way. we're
fine. thanks for asking
We sold all your stuff.
your room's now the spare room
We use it as a love nest
- You look great. Ivy - Okay. I
gotta go. something's happening
- What? No - Sorry
- Love you. bye - Love
you both. bye. talk soon
- Love you. bye.
love you - Shut up
- Did they tell you not to beg?
- No
- You look like
a beggar - Shut up
Sorry. do you mind if...
I hang my jacket there. you're
standing perfectly in front of it
No. I'm not doing this with
you in the water equipment room
It smells like a
homeless shelter
Is this better?
I want you to feel like
you can tell me anything
I was about to feel something
for you. then you said that
Shut up
But that was a bit embarrassing
You wouldn't have agreed
to talk to me outside of here
No. I probably would've said no
CRF
Okay. let me do the talking
You can barely say your own
name. let alone get us six tickets
Shut up! Trust me
Hi
Did it hurt?
What?
When you fell from
heaven. darling
Yeah. it hurt. darling
Tickets are a tenner
for adults and eight...
Listen to me. lady
Give us some tickets.
we don't have any money
Can't help you then
Please
- God - I don't give
tickets without money
Ralph. Ralph. it's okay
Ralph. you're fine. go
join the group. agreed?
Go join the group. agreed?
Sorry about him
- It's okay. next time -
We're not from around here
- We're from the camp down the
road - We'll see what he does then
- Camp CRF?
- Yeah. he is. Camp CRF
The camp for kids
who almost died...
From cancer
- I lost a testicle
- All of you?
Yeah. yeah. cancer's
invading my body
- Come on then - Really?
Thank you
Come on
Here we go
You want this?
Ivy. come here. I'll protect you
- God!
- This is lame
No. no. no
Guys. guys
- Ralph. is that your new girlfriend?
- They're from the cancer camp
The lame ones
- Actually I'm not. I can't...
- I'll stay with Ivy. you guys...
No. no
- Have a great time. you
two - But I'm taking the bear
Can we bring the
bear in this game?
CRF mutants
Nice face paint
Look. they're cancer avengers
- They must have taken my gym top...
- Get new material
I'm talking to
you. chemo mutants
Come on
- You can't even manage basic
hygiene - What did you say. retard?
I said you should suck on
a mint. your breath stinks
Nice one. Ivy!
Tiger? Did they paint you blind?
Okay. fuck
- Let's slaughter...
- Don't touch me
Fuck!
Last but not least. Ivy
The rest of you can go back to your cabins
because we're cancelling all camp activities today
No! Fuck!
This... this is really serious
It's never happened before
in Camp CRF history that...
Really? Something funny. Jake?
This is completely unacceptable
The others gave me a clear
picture of what happened
Yeah. those people are assholes
This isn't about them
- It's about how you all represented
this camp - What did you want us to do?
Look. don't swear
Whether you're here or there. you
represent this camp and what it stands for
I think if they call me a retard
and a mutant. that's crossing a line
Again. they're not at camp
So you want us to be insulted?
- That's not what...
- To just take it all the time
- Would you let me...
- We're sick of it
- And we do this all the time
- Would you let me speak. Ivy?
- Let me speak -
Don't shout at me
Wow!
Since you got here. you've
been acting like a spoiled brat
- Spoiled?
- I gave you a last chance and you blew it
Do you get off on this?
On what?
This camp
You act smug all summer
Don't you have
anything better to do?
We're helping people here
It's your whole
existence to have this camp
Don't you have a
family or something?
I have a wife and
three kids. Ivy
Great. go hang out with them
It's summer. take
them on holiday
Take a chill pill
My two oldest are at university
And my youngest...
He would have been 17
Same age as you
You see that? In the middle?
The little boy in
the yellow shirt
That's Oscar
He was 9 when he was diagnosed
with non-Hodgkin lymphoma
And he didn't lose his fight
He was winning
Every day. for three years
For three years...
my little boy suffered
And I promise you.
there's nothing harder
Than watching your
son's heart stop
While your own keeps beating
This camp isn't
just about surviving
It's about giving people who've lost their
ability to survive a chance to really live
So... yeah
That's what I do. Ivy
That's my pathetic existence
You can leave
Activities will resume
for all of you tomorrow
I'm so sorry about Oscar
These are the ones
who didn't make it
I hate to burst your bubble. Ivy
But some kids aren't
as lucky as you
And maybe you've forgotten
this. but you used to be sick
And there was a time when you
wanted to be a girl at this camp
More than anything in the world
- Can I watch it?
- No
Then what's the
point of filming it?
It's for memories. so
I remember everything
Let us in!
Why don't you use the door?
Come on. get in. come on
- Look. that looked more real -
Patrick said there are no activities
Please. don't listen
to what Patrick says
- Where's Jake?
- The lover
Shut up
I think he was really tired
- Haven't you two done it yet?
- No they haven't. and she's in a bad mood too
Come on. have some of this
So. did you and
Jake do anything?
We kissed
Was he good?
Of course he's good.
his lips are sexy
You can't play that. if
Patrick hears we'll be in trouble
Since when did you
become such a coward? Drink
Drink the whole
bottle. all of it
Tastes like nail polish
Can you pee when you're on
your period? Because of the...
- I don't know what
it's called - The pad?
- Yeah. the pad - The pad
It doesn't stick to
your body. does it?
Where do you think it goes?
It sticks to the dangly bits
No. not the actual part. not the
actual lips. the top of the thigh
The top of the thigh?
- Did you say part or lips?
- Wait. wait. Archie. you're laughing
- Where do you think it goes?
- Yeah. talk
I have two sisters.
I know where it goes
- Go on then. where?
- You have two sisters? Are they fit?
Like cups around...
What? Like a nappy?
Like a nappy
No?
- It sticks to the
underwear. you idiots - What?
"I have two sisters"!
- Have either of you seen a tampon?
- Yeah. I bought some for my mum
They come in lemon
and lime flavours
There are different flavours
Do you have any?
I have strawberry
ones in the cupboard
Okay. get ready to learn
a lesson. both of you
- That's defective -
Please don't get naked
Obviously I'm not
getting naked. you idiot
Completely naked
What the hell is that?
Move back a bit. lesson
one. put that there
Not that way. no. the other way
Push it
Hold the string. hold the string
- Fuck - Hold the string
It's huge
That goes inside you?
I use moon cups. but you're
clearly not ready for that yet
What's a moon cup?
For the night?
Yeah. for the
night mostly. right?
- Pull it out. Ralph -
Is that tarot reading?
Pull it out!
- I can't pull it
out - Pull it out
Hit him again
Hello?
- Jake. are you okay?
- I didn't want to wake you. I didn't want to wake you
- I'm sorry - It's
okay. where are you?
I didn't know who
to call. I wasn't...
You're okay. you're
okay. keep breathing
Just breathe. can you breathe?
- I don't know - Are
you in your cabin?
- I'm having a panic attack -
Jake. where the hell are you?
I'm in the woods.
I'm in the woods
Okay. the woods. okay.
don't hang up. I'm coming
It's okay
Jake. Jake. fuck!
Fuck! Jake. Jake
I'm sorry. I'm sorry
It's okay
It's okay
"Week Three"
You look like a heroin addict
Blame the girls' nights
It always affects me. it's
the Victoria's Secret perfume
Try not to think about
warm salmon milkshake
You bitch!
Why don't we chill
at camp today. Ralph?
I need to see Jake
try that on you
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Maybe you're pregnant
Okay campers. are we ready?
Survival Island is
that island over there
If you need to come
back. blow this horn
We'll come get you
On the island you'll
find wood for a fire
Pots. tents. and tarpaulin.
and sleeping bags are in the boat
This is a fun
team-building activity
Most important tip: make sure you put
tarpaulin on the ground under your tents
I've tried this before.
nobody wants a wet arse
Let's get in the boats now. there'll
be one boat for every two of you
So pick a boat when you're ready
Ella. I was going to share
with Jake. you okay with that?
Yeah. no. yeah. it's fine
Okay. I'll share with Ralph
Looks like it's just
you and me then. Rashi
This is gross
Just be grateful
Why do they make us do this?
It's tradition. it's
supposed to make you resilient
I think chemo was easier
You never even had chemo
Okay. radiotherapy then
At least we get one
morning without Brenda
I'll be Brenda tomorrow morning
and give you your pills by force
What pills do you take. Ivy?
Dex
What pills do you take?
I got leukaemia when I was 14
I had four rounds of chemo
Did you relapse?
Not yet
What are you doing?
There's a sacred rule
When you're sad. you
have to dance this dance
It's... just do what I do
What is this?
Trust me. trust me.
it'll make you feel better
Okay. you gotta teach us then
I love it
- We're happy!
- Yay!
Shoulder. shoulder. shoulder
Then hand. spin motion
And the pigeon. like this
Get up
A clothespin-like move
- What's next?
- The chicken
Then we do the Charleston
- Then you walk a bit - A
mentally challenged person's walk
"But I don't feel like
dancing when old Joanna plays"
"My heart can take a chance.
but my feet can't find the way"
"You'd think I
could swing gently"
"But I don't feel like dancing"
Then you go down
"No dancing today.
don't feel like dancing"
"Even if I don't find
anything better to do"
"Don't feel like dancing"
"Why did you choose a
tune my mood doesn't allow?"
"Don't feel like dancing"
Okay. we bow. and we run
We straighten up. and
now we act deeply sad
The most sad you've ever felt
Then we become the happiest ever
You have to scream
Scream
"While all you do is change
your clothes and call it variety"
"I'll pretend I know
which way to bow"
"And I'll tell the
whole world you're mine"
Turn around
"But I don't feel like
dancing when old Joanna plays"
"My heart can take a chance.
but my feet can't find the way"
"You'd think I
could swing gently"
"But I don't feel like dancing.
no sir. no dancing today"
"Don't feel like dancing"
"Even if I don't find
anything better to do"
"Don't feel like dancing"
"I'd rather be at
home in bed with you"
I know we're gonna
have so much fun. right?
I don't really like this
But I think Camp CRF
Is the only place
where people like us...
Feel what we feel...
Yeah
And there's ten days left...
Till next year
We'll be too old. Ivy
Okay...
We could...
Take over from Tristan
Then Patrick
And we'll run the
camp until we're 70
And our skin gets
wrinkly or worse
- That might be a bit sad
- No. it'll be beautiful
And you won't want to be
here and there and everywhere
Travelling the world
So... yeah
I think it might
actually be our only option
To stay here
Yeah
I don't want you
to think I'm a loser
No. it's too late for that
I really like you
A lot
I really like you too
A lot
We can stop any time
Have you done this before?
Does it matter if I have?
No
Have you done this?
Does it matter if I have?
No
- Fuck!
- What?
- Fuck!
- What?
I didn't bring...
- What? Condoms?
- Condoms?
I have some. wait
- There isn't...
- Wait. let me find them
They're my mum's
- No. no. no - What?
No. they're mine.
she bought them for me
- Open it...
- Okay. okay
- You taste like lube - Sorry
Fuck!
We don't have tissues
Do you want my shirt
to wipe yourself?
To wipe myself?
I mean to dry it
- Dry it? Am I a river?
- Fuck
I'm gonna go smoke
Wow!
Are they doing it?
I could beat you
in a UFC challenge
Do you watch UFC?
- Surrender. coward - No
- Do it. surrender - No
I'll beat you in a
best-of-three challenge
No way
You saw me punch
that guy at the fair
Yeah. that's
exactly what I meant
Okay. let's sleep now
It's almost 2:30
God
Okay
I thought you defending
me was really cool
I really like you
God
Okay. how many cancer patients
does it take to change a lightbulb?
- How many?
- One
Then twelve to say
how inspiring it was
The doctor says
it's all in your head
The bad news is
it's brain cancer
What's the similarity
between you and cancer?
I don't know
Nobody wants you inside them
Fuck!
Dark comedy is like
a kid with cancer
It never gets old
Sorry. did I go too far?
I don't think you saw the line.
I think you crossed it by a mile
Yeah. that's banned behaviour.
they'll send you home early
Yeah
Good job I'm leaving
in the morning
I'm serious
What do you mean you're
leaving in the morning?
I'm going home tomorrow
We can get past the joke. Ralph
Sorry
Some test results
came back from home
The doctor called Brenda
I'm going back to
hospital at the weekend
Fuck! I'm so sick of tests
But for the next 24 hours.
we can pretend I'm fine
Deal?
I think Brenda smelled
the cancer on me
You always had a
bad aura to be fair
Yeah. at least we have the
camp disco to come back to
Better go now
No
No. we're gonna give you
the best night of your life
- Puking after two
sips. cheap date - Right
By the way. we all
heard you last night
- Ivy. Ivy - Jake. Jake
Shut up
"Something new.
Casper's Sled. Part Two"
"Presented by Platinum Crew"
"And this time we're
gonna act weird"
Come on. you promised
me a special night out
Camp CRF disco is a great night
Fuck that! We're going out
Twenty minutes or
I'll kill myself
- God. Ralph!
- Jake. go with him
Or he'll die by a bush somewhere
Yeah. you two should
go. both of you
Yeah. aren't the
lovebirds gonna dance?
No. I can't dance
Look what Tristan gave me
You look amazing
as always. Brian
What did he bring you. Raimundo?
I wish you could
bring me a new body
Best I can do is this
Just because you're my favourite
You'll be fine
Some days it'll hurt
You got this. Rachel
"Let's go to work. to the left"
- "Now back. one jump this
time" - Go. we'll cover for you
Come on. lovebird
Bye
See you later. okay?
- Excuse me. excuse me - Bye
- Campers - Fuck!
Where do you two
think you're going?
I don't know. out
- Where?
- I don't know. anywhere
Get in. all three of you
No
- No. fuck you!
- He doesn't mean it
- Yes I do - He doesn't mean it!
- Patrick...
- I just want to...
Ralph. shut up
You told me once there'd
be a time in my life
When I'd be sick
And I'd want to be
that girl at this camp
More than anything
I did
We live in fear of relapse
And he's being taken
away in the morning
And who knows what'll happen
And that's bad
So let him go
Please let him go
I'll count to five
And when I'm done. I expect you
both to be in your cabins. understood?
Five
- Come on. come on - Fuck!
Four
Three
Two
One
I can't believe
you waited for me
Where's Ralph?
Patrick made him
sleep in the main cabin
But I carried him there...
By myself
- You carried him?
- Yeah. all the way
If you're the one in charge.
he must have been in a bad way
Yeah. he was in a bad way
He...
Threw up on a 35-year-old mum
Who hit you?
Her boyfriend
What? He did
And I was trying to
help them. and he hit me
What's that?
And I think I realised something
People are what make it worth it
That way. I won't be scared
That's deep for a drunk person
Thank you
I have my moments
I love you
I love you too
I'm so sorry and I really meant
it. but I'm gonna throw up...
Are you okay?
How are you?
- You must be Ivy - Yeah
I've heard a lot about you
My car's waiting
- Get off - That's awful
- For god's sake.
Ralph! Get in - What?
Bye. you bastards
Bye
Drive. drive fast
- We miss you - Bye
My mate went home
Yeah. I know. Ralph
He's a nice boy
- How does that make you feel?
- Really shit
Like we're all members of
a club nobody wants to be in
I feel like I've been
alone for a really long time
Like I shouldn't have survived
I haven't achieved
anything in my life
That's not true
There was a guy in my ward
A few years older than me
He'd just started uni
And he was so happy
And he died
And I survived
And it didn't feel right
I'm sorry
It didn't feel fair
Like I took his place
If only one of us could survive
I stole that from him
- You didn't take
his place - Yes I did
- No. you didn't - Yes I did
No. no. you didn't
It's bad that he died
It's terrible. it's cruel
But you didn't take his place
Do you hear me?
You survived
And you don't get to choose
Who lives and who
dies. we don't do that
You deserve to take up space
I feel like I told you
all these things during camp
I opened up to you
What happens now?
Why am I not cured yet?
Therapy doesn't work that way
Am I supposed to live
with these feelings forever?
I want to use a Ribena
blackcurrant cordial analogy
If you think of your mind
as blackcurrant cordial
Every time you come here
and we talk about things
It's like adding a
little water to the cordial
Add a little water
Until you're so watered down.
hopefully. you don't even notice it's there
So these feelings never go away?
Unfortunately not
But I promise it'll
get easier with time
- Keep your eyes shut. keep your
eyes shut - I'm keeping them shut
Happy birthday!
What is this? Guys?
No!
Eighteen. Ella
Eighteen and with
a terrible fake tan
Yeah. but I have to
be golden on my birthday
Some say golden.
some say offensive
My hands will be
stained for weeks
- What?
- Open it!
- Who's it from?
- From all of us
Okay
No? Raise your own Tris...
Guys!
I love it so much!
Thank you
I got you something too
It's not a big deal. but...
I saw you lost your
contact lens case. so...
God. I lost my contact
lens case last year
He's been searching
for it for weeks
No. I knew... I
knew which one it was
It's just a little
piece of plastic for...
I had it specially made and put your
name on it in case you lose it again
- Don't lose it
again - I love it
And it's crimson because that's your hair
colour. and it's silly. and you probably won't...
- No. I love it - I'll
take it... give it back
I love it. Archie. thank you
- Come here - Okay
Thank you
What did your parents get you?
They're taking me to a restaurant
next week when we get home
- I can't believe camp
is almost over - I know
- It's the last week. the big slide
- One week left to pop this cherry
- Cherry?
- You mean her virginity
That's gross. Ella
Tristan's taking me out
to celebrate my 18th tonight
- What?
- It's happening. Maisie
I can feel it in
my energy points
- Maybe I'll keep his trousers
as a souvenir - Oh god. Ella!
I swear. keep your
cherries away from me
Thank you for doing this tonight
It's a lovely spot by the pool
The lights and the
steam coming off it
- I like this - Yeah
- Nothing like a bit
of cocktail pouch - Yeah
- Tastes like tar
- It's delicious
Yeah
The pinker the better
- Sorry - You okay?
Yeah
Happy birthday
Thanks
Here we are
There's something
I want to tell you
Really?
How do I say this?
You remind me so
much of my sister
She's why I started
working here at Camp CRF
When I was 18
We lost her when I was younger
Really?
Fuck!
That's crazy
Okay
Somehow. you've always been
like a little sister to me here
I feel like you've
always understood me
And that's what I thought would never happen
because obviously our experiences were...
Different
I want to say thank you
And happy 18th birthday
Yeah. yeah
You've always been
like a big brother to me
- Yeah - Come here
Okay
Yeah
I'm sorry I didn't
stay. I was feeling sick
My chest was...
I'm fine
What happened?
He said I remind him
of his sister. who's dead
God!
- Fuck. I thought
I felt bad - Jake!
Sorry. Ella
There'll be others. Ella
No
No. there won't be others
- What about Rash Vest?
- Archie?
Yeah
No. we're just friends.
he doesn't like me that way
Ella. I promise you. I've lived
with him all camp. so I think I know
Maybe he'll make a
move at the talent show
I never thought of him that way
I mean... I would
- Maybe he'll surprise you - What might
surprise you? Are you talking about me?
- You're really
attracted to Ella - Shut up
- Okay. bye - See
you in the morning
- Bye - Okay. bye
Is anyone suffering
from separation anxiety?
No. but it doesn't feel good
Yeah. I told you
that guy has issues
I think we all feel a bit
lost sometimes. don't we?
God. you're so smitten
Rub it in more. here I
am on my 18th birthday
In a friendship-only.
celibate. nun-like drought
And still a virgin
That's not funny
It's a little funny
Happy 18th. weirdo
When you're ready. run and jump
- Much higher than the pictures -
Yeah. because it's called the big slide
- Not the coward's slide
- No way I'm doing this
By the way. where's Jake?
I don't think he was feeling
great. he went to see Brenda yesterday
- Ivy. you're up - Ivy. Ivy. Ivy
Ropes go here. equipment there
People think kayaking and canoeing
are the same. but they're not
Kayaking needs a double-bladed paddle.
canoeing needs a single-bladed paddle
Right
Okay
Yeah
Was Jake...
Serious?
Did you Google contact
lens cases for a few weeks?
- That's a bit embarrassing -
I don't think it's embarrassing
I really like him
Really?
That's cool. what knot is this?
It's a manger tie
Designed for a cow to bite on
Wet knots are really hard to undo.
but this one's especially resistant
I was learning
different knots and stuff
This is an easy-release knot
Want me to teach you?
Yeah
- Okay - Yeah. please
Make a loop. then grab
the side. yeah. around it
Like this?
Put it like that. yeah
God
That's called a bite
A loop. in rope language
Okay
Like that
See how tight it is?
Yeah. it's really tight
You're really...
Good with ropes
Thanks
Do you...
Know any other knots
that are slower to undo?
The hardest knot I know
is the constrictor knot
Yeah
It's really hard
to tie. really hard
"Jake"
I'm Jake. don't leave a message
because I won't listen to it. bye
I can't believe I'm saying this
But I'm going to
get with Rash Vest
And I hope he keeps
the lead while I do this
- You need to set
a deadline - I will
Ella. read the room
I went to speak to Patrick
He'll talk to you when he's back
He was at the hospital with Jake
- What?
- That's all he said
- He'll be back and talk to you
right away - This or this for Rashi?
- I want to embarrass
my ancestors - Green
Okay
- Did he say anything else?
- No
Why isn't he answering?
- Hello - Hi
- Got a minute? It's about
Jake - Yeah. Maisie told me
Please sit down.
girls. thank you
Okay
Great
I'm Jake. don't leave a message
because I won't listen to it. bye
I'm Jake. don't leave a message
because I won't listen to it. bye
I was so worried
You didn't call me
- Then Patrick came...
- I'm sorry
What happened?
They took my phone
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
That's dramatic
Turns out if you say
you have chest pain
They send you straight
to hospital now
I thought you
weren't coming back
You can't get rid
of me that easily
Where's Ella?
In your cabin.
getting with Rash Vest
Are you okay. Jake?
Whenever you're sad
That's a sacred rule. Ivy
You weren't lying that day
when you said you can't dance
Looks like the most
important move is the hips
I can't. no. I can't
- Doctor's orders - Coward
Where are the others?
I saw them earlier
at Patrick's office
He's going to try and
keep them as staff next year
- No - He'll ask you next
They're pulling out
of the talent show
Who's the special guest judge?
I don't know. they'll bring someone
crazy just because they feel sorry for us
- Craig Davis was
last year - Really?
Yeah. he was
Yeah. he does that old stuff now
- What?
- What are you going to do for it then?
I was thinking
interpretive dance
I'm serious. Jake. the show
tonight. you'll embarrass yourself
I'll play drums or something
- Can you play drums?
- No. but I'll try. what about you?
That's a surprise
Will you be diagnosed
live on stage?
That's so funny
Why don't you wear
the show clothes?
We're over it
- That's bullshit. you snakes -
What are you doing? The woman in black?
You'll find out later
Are you sure you
want to do this?
- Are you back?
- Did someone order a stripper?
- No way - Hi
Hey
Couldn't miss this. right?
I escaped the ward for this
You better clap for
me. I'm shaking with fear
Kill it. we're rooting for you
- Thanks - Yeah
- Good luck - Good luck
Bye
- Are your parents coming?
- No. I didn't tell them
Fuck!
- How did they find out?
- Classic Patrick move
If my act is bad. Bob. I'll have to leave.
you know I can't handle embarrassment
We can't. they've got cancer
Ladies and gentlemen. welcome
to the Camp CRF annual talent show
We have performances
from all campers
And tonight we have a
very special guest judge
Please welcome to the stage...
Drumroll please
James Blunt
Who did Patrick
have to suck up to?
I know
Yes!
James Blunt!
Thank you very much.
thank you. thank you
Yeah. I feel like I'm at my peak
Next year I'll be
doing cruise ship gigs
"My life is brilliant.
my love is pure"
"I saw an angel.
of that I'm sure"
"She smiled at me on the subway"
"She was with another man"
"But I won't lose
no sleep on that"
"'Cause I've got a plan"
"You're beautiful.
you're beautiful"
"You're beautiful. it's true"
"There must be an angel
with a smile on her face"
"When I thought I
should stay with you"
"But it's time
to face the truth"
- "I will never be with you"
- Okay. you're next. ready?
What are you doing after this?
Sorry?
You know. after this.
you wanna go for a drink?
- I still have to work.
yeah. sorry - Yeah. sure
I'm free
Yeah. come on
Come on. Ivy
"I wake up in the morning
and think what did I do?"
"That was my life but
I don't need another"
"You cut and you follow.
you wear those clothes"
"Why do I feel lonely
when you're here?"
So...
I think we can both admit that
the time I spent here at camp
Had its ups and downs
But we're so proud of you
You're proud of me?
Yeah. proud of the
person you've become
Okay...
I'm really grateful
Here I'm just Ivy.
not Ivy with cancer
So. Ivy. when we lose
someone close to us
Our bodies can go into shock
Especially when it's unexpected
But also someone we love
And there's a thing called
bereavement hallucination
Where we start imagining
those who left us
Because the pain of them
not being here is so huge
Your other friends decided not to take part
in the talent show and we understand why
But we felt like you wanted to
And it was beautiful
We wanted to talk to
you before you left
Why is he on the wall?
Patrick. why is he on the wall?
Why is he on the wall?
Ivy. Jake had a heart
attack at the hospital
The chemo weakened his heart
And I think his body
was just too exhausted
- Ivy. he's gone - What do
you mean? No. he came back
- We think it's important you
leave him here - Mum. tell him
Ivy. don't...
Dad
- Ivy...
- Please tell him. please tell him
Ivy. Ivy...
He's not coming back
Sweetheart
- He went into cardiac arrest. Ivy
- No. no. he didn't. no. he didn't
He's not supposed to be there! Can you
take his picture down? Take it down now!
Take it down. he's
not supposed to be there
- He's not dead
- I told you that
No. stop. stop saying that
Stop. stop. he's not dead
No! No! No!
Ivy
You didn't tell me
We tried to
- You didn't tell
me - We tried to
You didn't tell me.
you didn't tell me
- Patrick said...
- You didn't tell me
No!
- No!
- I'm sorry
I'm sorry
He loved you
He loved you so much
"Two weeks later"
Hey loser. it's me. Ella
I was thinking about
you and I miss you so much
Did you ever open
that box I made you?
Did you like it?
Can't wait to see you soon.
let me know when. okay? Love you
You haven't told us
much since you got back
I mean...
To be fair. I didn't really
know what to say to you either
I feel like I lost someone
close to me. Mum. and it's not fair
I know
It's strange...
Sometimes they don't
tell you about grief
That it feels a lot like fear
Maybe you're not necessarily...
Feeling scared. or
maybe you are but...
The feelings are similar
You know what I mean?
That unsettled feeling
in your stomach you get
The weight of everything
And I imagine it's hard to
take in anything anyone says
Let alone what I'm saying
But...
I didn't lose you. Ivy
So I didn't grieve the
way other mothers had to
But I grieved for
you losing your freedom
And how you had
to grow up so fast
I know we never met him
But if he was special
to you. then god...
I'm absolutely certain I
know he was really special
I know some days
will be really hard
But some days you'll wake
up and feel a bit better
Then the next day
might be hard again
But the love you felt for Jake
God. some people
search their whole lives
For a love like you and Jake had
This pain you're
feeling... you know?
I promise you. it's all worth it
Okay? I promise
It's okay. sweetheart
We'll have stew instead of tea
I'll see you downstairs. okay?
"To my best friend
Ivy. with love from Ella"
"To the worst and best roommate
in the world. with love from Ella"
Hey loser
I don't let anyone watch
this. so I hope you like it
- Great day - First
day at this awful place
- This is gonna be the
best summer ever - Ever
Okay. come on then
Forward to your mum.
back to your dad?
Back to Ivy's dad
He's fit
For the people at home
One point
I love this so much
If I wear this I look stupid
Yeah
It actually looks like you
Yeah
Hello and welcome back
to Ella's Explorations
Today we're at the campfire
It's a bit cold
I'm freezing
Stop filming everything
or you'll get sent to prison
Yeah
Based on where we're from
We'll tell them their truth
It moves on its own
We're here bringing rays. bringing
sunshine. bringing positive vibes
- Do you like my whip?
- I like your whip. baby
She's flirting with
Jake. you know what I mean?
Does that look weird?
Any tall guys. can we...
Hi Mum. I'm having
a great time at camp
This is for Brenda.
love you Brenda
Miss you Brenda
Brenda. Brenda
You're going to
compete team vs team
Just so you know. I
only compete M vs M
Run to the hill
I'm so tired
- I've got one here. I've
got one - Hey guys. wait
Cheers. we were
about to toast you
Oh god!