Tahara (2020) Movie Script
1
[Carrie] Sometimes it's
painful to be inarticulate.
You know, to never have
the right thing
to say when it really matters.
Like you might spend
your entire life
thinking you're dealing
with a square
because it looks like a square
and acts like a square
or feels like whatever.
But then one day,
you turn a corner and realize
that actually
it's not a square.
It never was.
All along,
you've just been staring
at the flat face of a cube.
(upbeat music)
I section off the petrol
with the metro card
Days you heard of
secondhand on rented heart
Cover for me, your tarp
is see through, dummy
I patch like iOS and if you
question, need that monthly
What a trip, never slipped
I don't miss
I go Gilbert in '06
You more like Adonal Foyle
Before Curry
killed the Knicks
From the back
I lost my grip
Low behold,
I caught up quick
Overall, I'm well equipped
Coat of arms,
they rep the set
Too prideful
for the charity
A blessing scorned
We just want a nigga
we can root for, yeah
Cherish while a champ
walk you to the door, yeah
Shekels brought on grandeur
but your spirit poor
Poor ass spirit
Roaming true predator stare,
hone in to regular gears
Regular pair of wings
on your toes in the air
I dick for relief
and to share
Only fair
I've had no other life
So I do not act as if
yours is mine
Why do some act as if
otherwise
Why even ask
We on borrowed time
I'm not wasting ticks
Stick talk, you gon' listen
Brick stock, new edition
How it sing
when it's clipping
Every scene that
you're missing right here
Yeah
Never leave home
heavy-handed
Never take your victories
for granted
When everything went just
the way you planned it
(people chattering)
(bell dinging)
(bell dinging)
People keep posting
pictures of her everywhere.
- You gonna post?
- No, it's not like
she's gonna see it.
Ready?
Yeah, as I'll ever be.
(people chattering)
- What are you doing?
- Shh! Carrie!
- Be quiet.
- (bell dinging)
- Holy shit.
- What?
Tristan.
Oh, yeah. I always forget he was
in our Hebrew School class.
He smiled at me.
No, he didn't.
Look.
(sighs)
No, that's just his face.
He always looks like that.
Jealous much?
Definitely not.
Oh, sorry.
Don't be.
Okay, cool.
You, you look really nice.
Um, thanks.
You look-- I mean you look
like really, really good.
(laughing)
- You think so?
- Yeah.
I mean, duh. (laughs)
You're, like, really cute.
This is some real
premium stuff, okay.
So you can only take
a little bit of it at a time.
I heard it was 20.
20 what?
20 pills.
I ate an Advil once because
I thought it was a red M&M.
Shalom.
[Audience] Shalom.
From the 23rd chapter
of the Book of Psalms.
Mizmor ledhavidh
Adonay ro'iy
Lo' 'echsar
Bin'othdeshe' yarbiytseniy
Al-mey menuchoth
yenahaleniy
Naphshiy
yeshobhebhyancheniy
(bell dings)
Gam kiy-'elekh
Beghey'tsalmaveth
lo'-'iyra'
Ra' kiy-'attah 'immadhiy
Shibhthekha
Umish'antekhahemmah
yenachamuniy
Ta'arokh lephanay shulchan
Neghedh tsoreraydishanta
Bhashemen ro'shiy kosiy
Revayah
'Akh thobh vachesedh
Yirdephuniykol-yemey
chayyay
Veshabhtiy bebheyth-Adonay
Le'orekh yamiym
From the 121st chapter
of Psalms.
(continues singing in Hebrew)
(woman clears throat)
Shh!
It is now my honor to
invite Samantha's cousin,
Sarah Bronstein,
for her remarks.
Sarah.
Hello, everyone.
My name is Sarah Bronstein.
Samantha is-- was my cousin.
Even though we were less
than a year apart in age,
I've always seen Samantha
as the big sister I never had.
My name is David Gold, and
I am Samantha's piano teacher.
We never know when a tragedy
will strike our community,
but we do know that we,
as a community,
will come together
after the tragedy.
She had this connection
to horses
that I'll never be able
to understand.
And Samantha became
a brilliant pianist.
In her 18 years, she studied
Torah here at Temple Beth El.
And because of her, I can
ride both Western and English.
She was very young.
I had the honor
of officiating at the service
when she became a bat mitzvah.
And I give my condolences
to the family.
And I, for one, am going
to miss her very much.
Thank you.
I will now recite
the Kel Moleh Rachamim,
the memorial prayer.
Would you kindly rise?
(singing in Hebrew)
(crying)
There will be a luncheon
in the pastoral conference room
downstairs where they will
be collecting donations
for Habitat for Horses
in Samantha's honor.
(bell dings)
(people chattering)
Carrie, Hannah,
oh, thank you so much
for coming.
- Of course, Mrs. Goldstein.
- Yeah, of course.
I haven't seen you since
you all were in that musical.
- Do you remember that?
- Mm-hmm.
Oh, listen to me.
Of course, you remember.
Samantha loved musicals.
I don't know if
a lot of people knew that.
She would always sing
that Annie song in the shower.
You know, the "Tomorrow" one?
- "Tomorrow"?
- Yes, right.
That's it.
Tomorrow
She had such a good voice.
Yeah, I remember we were
in eighth grade choir together.
She was so great.
Yeah, she was like really,
really good.
Oh, that's so nice of you
girls to say.
You know, she thought
the world of you two.
Especially you, Hannah.
It was so nice seeing pictures
of you two at that big party.
- Totally.
- You looked so pretty.
Thanks.
Oh, I should probably
stop rambling.
I know Samantha
would die of embarrassment
if she knew I was
carrying on like this.
- (crying)
- I'm so sorry for your loss,
Mrs. Goldstein.
Yeah. So sorry.
So, so sorry.
Thank you, girls.
If you'll excuse me.
Uh, what did she mean by that?
What?
I just didn't know that
you and Samantha took a picture
together at Melissa's party.
Oh, I don't know.
I don't really remember,
but I wasn't gonna,
like, correct her.
- But--
- Ugh, I'm starving.
I think I'm gonna have a bagel.
Do you want the other half?
No, I'm not really hungry.
Hmm, your loss.
(laughter)
Can you believe that?
It's so sad.
Don't they know that Tristan
would never go for any of them.
Bad bone structure.
- This is so messed up.
- Oh, totally.
It's, like, Elaina's pretty
and everything,
but she's not,
like, a real person.
I'm gonna go get a cup of water.
Could you get me some?
(chatter continues)
(chatter is muffled)
(chatter resumes)
- Here.
- Thanks.
- Oh, my God, are you crying?
- What? No.
- Your eyes are red.
- Yeah, because of, like,
air pollution or whatever.
Stop being... weird.
Do you think Tristan
owns that suit?
I don't know.
It just looks so good on him.
Like, he looks really,
really good.
Yeah.
He got hotter, right?
I guess?
You guess?
I just don't think
we should be talking about this
right now.
Why?
Because we're at
a funeral service.
You didn't even know her
that well.
She was in, like,
my AP Psych class.
She was nice.
We worked on
a group project together.
Didn't you say
you had to do all the work?
Yeah, no one ever does the work
in, like, a group project.
I remember you being,
like, really mad
because she said she would help
you with the presentation part
and then she, like,
totally ghosted you.
I mean, she clearly had
other things on her mind.
It doesn't matter, just...
I just don't think
we should be talking
about Tristan's suit
right now, okay?
Are you sure
you don't want a bite?
Yeah.
Ugh, fine. I gotta pee.
(toilet flushes)
What took you so long?
You know I pee slow.
That's why I had
to quit swim team.
You quit swim team
because you hated running.
Well, why should I have
to run for swim practice?
That's unfair and stupid.
Ugh, I'm so bored.
I mean, today has been,
like, so, so sad,
but now I just want to go home.
I don't want to go
to the stupid Teen Talk Back.
Those things are always so dumb.
I don't know.
I feel like the best part of USY
was always
the intellectual debates.
(laughs) Or that was
probably hard for you
with someone's tongue down
your throat the whole time.
I found that pretty
stimulating actually.
- (laughs)
- You're so gross.
Okay. At least I didn't have
Ben Schwartz's hands
down my pants like somebody.
Yeah, you had Ben Feldman's.
True. At least him stabbing me
in the vagina
with his boiled fingers
was more fun than today.
He was, like, trying to get
a peanut out of a tiny bag.
I want to hook up with
someone who's experienced
like me, you know?
You've hooked up with,
like, three guys.
Okay, you've hooked up
with one
and you kept your jeans on.
What? I'm just saying,
if this was a competition,
I would win.
Yeah, I'm sure you would.
Okay.
Do you think I'm pretty?
Don't be stupid.
I think I'm like okay-looking.
I'm not classically beautiful
or whatever.
My nose is weird.
Stop it, you're pretty.
Would you ever kill yourself?
No, I don't think so.
Neither would I.
But if I did, which I wouldn't,
I'd do what Samantha did.
Pills are so easy.
I guess you could hang yourself,
but that'd be kind of hard.
Slitting your wrists
in the bathtub could be cool
but it's so emo middle school,
you know?
Ugh.
Shit.
Do you have concealer?
Concealer?
Do you have some?
Like, in your purse?
For me, yes.
For, you, no.
Whatever.
You can hardly see it anyway.
Do you think Tristan's
a good kisser?
No clue.
Rachel Feinstein says
he's, like, really good,
but she's a pathological liar.
So, who knows
if that's even true.
Wait, didn't
Tristan and Samantha
used to hook up?
Oh, yeah, I heard about that.
But then he took
Lauren Silverstein
to homecoming.
I remember seeing them
kiss during the slow dance.
So tragic. (laughing)
I wonder if I'm a good kisser.
I thought you were
"so experienced".
Well, I never,
like, dated anybody.
So?
So, I haven't exactly
had any returning customers.
What? Why are you looking at me
like that? Stop!
- Kiss me.
- What? No.
- Do it.
- No.
Please, I need to know
if I'm, like,
the worst kisser
in the world.
Okay, I can tell you right now,
you're probably not
the worst kisser in the world.
Just pretend I'm like
Zack Horowitz or something.
Zack Horowitz has back hair.
Okay, fine,
pretend I'm someone else.
- Pretend I'm Mr. Danielson.
- Stop.
I know you think he's so hot
when he pours those beakers.
"Oh, Mr. D,
will you come over here
and help me with something?
Oops, I dropped a beaker.
I know that's a safety hazard."
I don't want to kiss
Mr. Danielson.
- Then kiss me.
- No!
Come on, just do it.
It'll be like a second.
Fine.
- That doesn't count.
- Yes, it does!
You asked me to kiss you,
so I kissed you.
Okay, there's no way you
determined anything from that.
Okay, fine.
All right, well,
I guess I'll never know
if I'm a good kisser or not.
And then one day, I'll kiss
someone and they'll be like,
"That was awful."
And I'll die of shame
because my best friend was too-
(ethereal music)
[Hannah] How's that?
Bad?
Okay.
Cool.
- Good.
- (both laughing)
Cool.
Thanks.
Yeah, totally.
Ladies, what did I tell
you about being in here?
- Sorry, Moreh Klein.
- We were just leaving.
Good. See you in my classroom
in five minutes, correct?
- Yep!
- Mm-hmm.
(door opens, then closes)
Ugh, I can't believe she's
the one running the talkback.
It's like Hebrew School,
but worse.
Yeah, I think her real job
is in grief counseling.
Truly the last person
on the planet
I'd want to counsel my grief.
(both laugh)
All right,
we should probably go.
Yeah, yeah, um...
I just need to grab my...
- Oh, sorry.
- Sorry.
Carrie, Carrie, Carrie.
Kill me. (laughing)
Ugh.
- Did you see it?
- Did you see it?
- Did you see it?
- You didn't see it?
You didn't see it.
You have to look with your eyes.
You've got two of them.
I'm gonna play it one more time.
Look who's crying again.
- (girl speaking in Hebrew)
- (both laughing)
Why do they do that?
Because they can.
Everyone.
Please settle down.
(footsteps)
Shalom.
[Class] Shalom.
Today is a terrible day.
(girl crying)
But we have
this time now to process
what the Jewish tradition
teaches us about death,
so we can grieve
and be stronger together.
I know this is difficult.
I was in a similar situation
when I was your age.
At that time,
I was fighting for Israel.
Back then, I saw death
around every corner.
I was haunted like a phantom.
When I slept, I dreamt it.
When I woke, I saw it.
And to see someone so young
choose to leave this world
of the living,
well, I cannot explain it
and I cannot justify it,
but, as the Talmud tells us,
we must try to understand.
Now,
please take these handouts.
Who would've thought they'd
have handouts for this?
This is better than
the workbooks
with the mice on them.
Do you remember those?
(girl crying)
Okay, I guess not.
[Moreh] Does everyone have one?
Good.
Now, who would like
to read aloud?
Hmm, Hila.
"Death is something
that happens to people
of all religions,
but in the Jewish faith,
there are particular
rituals that must be done
when someone passes away."
[Moreh] Rachel Feinstein,
please help your friend
Rachel Grossman.
Excuse yourselves if you must.
- [Elaina] Should I keep going?
- [Moreh] Um...
Would anyone else care to read?
Let's have a little fun,
shall we?
Um, Yitzhaka,
please, continue.
"There are many
Jewish traditions
associated with death.
Some come right from the Torah,
while others were
developed in Eastern Europe
throughout the 19th century,"
[Moreh] Yes, Hila.
Moreh Klein, what do you think
the great rabbis
would specifically say
about this situation?
Interesting question, Hila.
I think the great rabbis tell us
that in order
to understand death,
we must have insightful
conversations.
We can't express grief with
standard, shallow platitudes.
Like what we're doing
here today.
- For Samantha.
- Exactly, Miera.
(Hannah snorts)
What was that?
A cough.
[Moreh] Did you have something
to add, Yitzhaka?
[Hannah] Um, uh, yeah.
I was wondering
if I should keep reading.
I see.
Would anyone else cared to read?
- Yes, Miera.
- Miera?
"Some of these traditions
include preparing the body
by cleansing it and the ritual
act of purification Tahara,
in which the funeral
director or, alternatively,
a holy society, the chevra
kadisha cleanses the body."
In Samantha's case, her body
would have only been handled
by women to make sure
it stayed totally pure.
I bet Samantha
would've liked that.
(Rachel sobbing)
[Moreh] Now, can anyone tell me
the significance
of these rituals?
Come on, I don't want Miera
and Hila to do all the talking.
One of you young scholars
must understand
why it's important that
the body be pure before burial?
Fine, Miera.
It's supposed to erase
your social status in death.
Correct. The only relationship
that matters in the end
is the one you have with Hashem.
Yes, Hila?
Um, yeah, just piggybacking
off of that,
I wanted to say
how important it is
because it shows no matter
how bad things are,
like, if you're dead,
we always have our faith.
But we have it
when we're alive too.
[Moreh] Does anyone else
want to add to this discussion?
Stop.
Oh, my God, Hannah!
[Moreh] Yitzhaka?
Are you all right?
Um... yeah, I just,
I didn't have
that much for breakfast.
It was my fault, sorry.
[Moreh] Uh, maybe it's time
for a break.
Yitzhaka, please make sure
you drink some water
and get something to eat.
We don't need to add
to today's tragedy, understood?
I'll take care of her.
Thank you, Hava.
Hey, are you okay?
Totally, I just,
I lost my balance.
That's all.
God, I can't believe I did that,
that's so embarrassing.
(waves crashing)
[Natalie] I don't know, man.
That could totally
be Photoshopped.
No way somebody made that
on Photoshop.
What about the whole, like,
you know, satellite thing?
Well, I mean, according to
the video, this satellite--
- Shut up!
- You shut up.
Why do we never
see the boats go lower?
I wonder if prom's
even still gonna happen?
Of course it is. They wouldn't
cancel prom over one person.
If anything, they should move
it up so we have a distraction.
Or, like, make it a memorial.
- That's a really good idea.
- Thanks.
I just said prom
should be a distraction.
Oh, right.
I just can't believe
she won't be there.
Me too.
Were you guys close?
That's too bad.
Hey. (laughs)
I can't watch
this fake pity party.
Yeah, yeah, me neither.
You wanna...
- What?
- You know...
could go to the bathroom and--
I mean, people are probably
gonna be crying in there
or worse, talking about me.
Yeah, probably.
Um...
but we can check
and see if it's empty,
- and if it's empty, we can--
- What are you talking about?
If you have to go
to the bathroom, go.
Uh, yeah, yeah.
I don't have to go
to the bathroom.
Okay, then what?
Nothing, nothing.
Never mind.
- Have you seen Tristan?
- No.
I wonder if he went outside.
That'd be so like him.
(laughing)
It's like 20 degrees out.
I know, he's so random.
I wonder if I should say
something to him so he, like,
- knows that I'm here.
- I'm sure he knows you're here.
I don't know.
I feel like I haven't been very,
like, visible.
You fell out of your chair,
like, two seconds ago.
Yeah, that's not the kind
of visibility that I want.
Plus, I don't think he noticed.
He definitely saw.
I thought you were gonna
get, like, a concussion.
Ugh, yeah.
So embarrassing.
Whatever.
I just want him to see me
how I want him to.
- You know how it is.
- Not really.
Like, I want him
to see me doing hot stuff.
Like what?
Do you know where
we could get a Popsicle?
(uncomfortable chuckle)
Kidding. (laughs)
We'll find something else.
Or, like,
maybe we could practice more.
You know, you said
you wanted to be
like a really great kisser.
Yeah, and now I know that I am.
I want him to, like, want me.
Like, how do I
get somebody to want me?
I don't know.
I'm sure you'll figure it out.
Is it, like, my hair?
I was gonna straighten it
this morning,
but I didn't have enough time
and now it's gonna mess
everything up for me.
Where are you going?
God.
(crying)
(door opens)
- (door closes)
- Hi.
[Elaina] Hey.
Do you vape?
I, uh, don't think we're
allowed to smoke in here.
It's not smoke.
It's cucumber,
it's easily the best flavor,
but they don't make it any more
so my brother
has to buy it on eBay.
(coughing)
Mango's good too though.
I don't want to sit in here.
What are you so scared of?
Nothing.
Damn.
I'm bored.
Why don't you break me off
a little piece of that brownie?
Dude, you were only supposed
to have, like, a tiny bite.
[Zack] Your brother
got ripped off.
If these haven't hit yet,
they're not going to.
Oh, hey.
Sorry about your dead
girlfriend.
Dude, stop it, seriously?
- What? I was joking.
- It's not funny.
No, it's fine. I mean,
she wasn't actually
my girlfriend so...
I mean, not anymore.
Oh, I'm really sorry dude.
No, we didn't actually
know each other.
Yeah, totally. Do you want
to see something cool?
Dude, stop. It's fake.
(students chattering)
Let's get back to it.
Hey, Trist...
[Moreh] All right, everyone.
Please turn over your
worksheets from earlier.
As you can see,
it's divided into six panels,
each representing
a stage of mourning.
I want you
to fill in each section
with how you, personally,
will honor Samantha's memory.
(coughing)
Oh, my God,
don't inhale so deeply.
One puff of these
is like 20 cigarettes.
If you keep coughing like that,
you're basically done for.
Thank you.
(coughing)
So when did you first
start smoking, or vaping?
This summer.
I wanted to impress a boy.
Well, it's, like,
super impressive.
Do you, um,
do you remember
Samantha's bat mitzvah?
Uh, I don't think I went.
Yeah, it was the, um,
it was the same day
as Amy Levi's
and most people didn't want
to go to both, or...
honestly, most people
only wanted to go to Amy's.
Yeah, Amy's was
at the planetarium.
Yeah, it was cool.
And Samantha's
was at that, like, weird hotel,
The, um, Wagon Wheel.
You know, it was,
like, horse-themed.
Did you go to Samantha's?
Yeah, I went.
My mom made me go.
She said I had to go
to anyone's bat mitzvah
who was
in my Hebrew school class.
Even if we weren't friends.
Plus, me and Samantha used to
carpool together all the time.
She lives, like,
three houses down from me.
Lived.
I'm really sorry.
Yeah.
It was, like, so sad.
It was, like, all adults and
Samantha's little cousins
and, like, the DJ kept trying
to get people to dance
and, like, no one did.
I mean, I left right
after the candle ceremony,
which was humiliating.
But she had a candle
for all of her friends
and it was just me and
our other neighbor, Kim.
Oh, my God, that sucks.
Yeah.
(sighs) I wish--
I mean, I don't know.
I know she was weird, but, like,
I wish people
cared about her more.
Today feels so fake.
Yeah.
(clears throat)
But you two were close, right?
Uh...
I mean, not really, um...
In elementary school, we used
to, like, dance together,
but, you know, like, you know,
hip hop and jazz and whatever.
It was so dumb.
I quit when I went
to middle school, um...
So, I never really saw her
outside of any of that
except for here.
But...
I don't know.
This feels, like, different.
So, we weren't really,
like, friends,
I don't know why.
I guess--I guess I do know why.
I just never really gave
her much of a chance.
And now, I guess I never will.
Yeah, she, like, never told
anyone anything about herself.
Like, it was clear
she was a total lesbian.
Like just come out already.
We all see your haircut,
- no one cares.
- Yeah.
Well, except for Hannah,
but, like, she didn't
feel the same way so...
Wait, wait, what?
I mean, I wouldn't want
Samantha to ask me out,
but I wouldn't go and
tell literally everyone.
(fluttering)
[Hannah] Ew, why are you
looking at me like that?
What? Are you, like,
in love with me now?
(laughing)
Wait until I tell
literally everyone.
And you know what else
is annoying?
Why is Melissa
being so needy today?
Like, why are you making
today all about you?
You know, Samantha was,
like, actually my friend,
and I get that you have things
going on with your parents,
but, like, Samantha's dead.
Yeah.
Totally, I get it.
Okay, well, I guess
the break's almost over.
This was... weird, but fun.
- I guess.
- Yeah.
[Moreh] Remember that
each and every one of you
should always be here
for one another.
As the Babylonian Talmud
tells us,
all Jews are responsible
for one another.
Tragedy takes a long time
to process.
Super embarrassing.
[Moreh] Thankfully, your faith
will guide you through
and so will your community.
(Carrie and Elaina laughing)
(coughing)
Did you feel this?
- Uh, definitely.
- Okay.
And so,
once everyone is finished,
we will share
our responses out loud
and see how we can best
process our grief together.
(students chattering)
- Oh, hi.
- What's up?
(Carrie laughing)
(chatter and laughter continue)
How did you think of that quick?
Oh, my God.
Don't even look at me.
Don't look.
- Uh, Moreh Klein?
- Yes, Yitzhaka?
Could I use the restroom?
[Moreh] We just
got back from break.
I know, I just thought
I felt a little bit of blood
on the seat, so I thought
maybe I could ask you
if I could go,
if not, it's okay.
- Go.
- Okay.
Whatever.
[Moreh] Toda, Rifkah.
Now, who else
would like to share?
Anyone can share.
There are no wrong answers.
Uh-huh.
I just think this whole thing
is really sad
and it's such a hard time
for all of us.
Also, I was wondering
who drew this?
I'm looking to commission
some artwork.
Dude, you do not need
anymore art.
You have so much.
Thank you for sharing,
Yihtzak.
I don't know who drew it.
- [Natalie] Obviously.
- [Zack] It was worth asking.
Now, would anyone else
like to share?
[Miera] And I just feel, like,
I really relate to this
because just
the shock and the numbness,
- that's phase one, like I was
at camp, and so...
- You okay?
...I was really shocked
when I got that call.
And then, like, there's
the sadness part, which I did--
Literally, every atom in my body
is vibrating right now.
I think still stuck
in that busy-ness phase,
because it really just helps me
to cope with grief.
Just keeping busy and,
like, keeping my mind
doing other things.
And I just think that
it would be really nice
in a year from now to come back
and do something similar
to what we're doing today.
I always light
the Yehuda for my Bubbe.
She passed away three years ago,
but I'm still really sad
- about that.
- Mmm. Thank you, Miera.
What?
What? Sorry.
[Moreh] Hila,
would you like to share?
I just thought what Miera said
is powerful is all.
Toda.
Is that seat open?
Hava, do you have
something to share?
- No, I'm good. Thank you.
- This is a safe space
and you haven't said anything
all day, please, share.
[Carrie] Mmm.
Um...
Okay, um...
I guess I've just
been thinking and...
I realized that
none of this matters.
What doesn't matter?
Um, today and everything,
like--like, this class thing.
I mean, none of us really liked
Samantha that much, right?
Right?
Right, Elaina?
I don't know
what you're talking about.
You said that none of this
really matters
and it's all fake
and no one really cares
- that Samantha's dead.
- Hila, do you feel that way?
Absolutely not.
I never said that.
You literally told me,
like, an hour ago.
Today is a horrible day and
I don't know why you're lying
- and making it worse
for everyone.
- I'm not lying.
Maybe we should
take a moment to reflect.
I mean, were any of us
surprised to find out
that it was Samantha?
Like, none of us did
anything to help her
'cause we're all too caught up
in our own lives.
(girls sobbing)
God, shut up.
Hava, please.
But you asked me to be honest.
And I'm just tired
of acting like this
has some sort of greater meaning
and we, like, cared so much.
I mean, Samantha killed herself
and nothing that we do here
today is gonna change that.
I know we're all exhausted,
but I think we can have
a productive discussion
about how you feel.
Well, I'm sorry being honest
isn't fucking productive.
Do you have a worksheet
for that?
If you cannot be here today,
you are free to leave.
My ride doesn't get here
until five.
Then maybe you should
go into the hall
and call and see if they can
come get you earlier.
Fine.
Yes, Tzadik.
- I gotta use the bathroom.
- Go.
(rumbling)
(rumbling stops abruptly)
Now, who else
would like to share?
(cars passing by)
Shabbat Shalom.
How's everybody doing tonight?
(Tristan coughs)
Oh, um...
[Tristan] Oh, sorry.
Oh, no, no.
It's fine, I'm fine.
Welcome to the sanctuary.
So, today's been
crazy boring, right?
- What do you mean?
- And, like, really sad too.
Yeah.
I mean, especially for you.
Cause, like, you know?
I mean, didn't you
and Samantha used to--
Oh, uh, that was fake.
Um...
Topher made that up as a joke
and-- 'Cause she's--
She was the--the weird girl who
never talked to any of the boys
and she was really into yarn
and it was messed up.
(sighs)
Now it's even more messed up.
That--that sucks, I'm sorry.
[scoffs] Yeah.
And, like, I feel like
everyone's looking at me,
like I'm, like, super upset
about her dying or whatever.
And that's not even true
because I--
That's--that's not what I--
(sighs)
I mean, it's shit
that she's dead
and I guess
I should have told them
to stop saying all that stuff.
And now this...
thing.
- So you two weren't close?
- What?
You and Samantha.
You weren't close,
- 'cause you didn't ever?
- No, no.
Yeah, same.
Wait, didn't she, like,
ask you out a few weeks ago?
I think she thought
you were, like--
- like, a lesbian--
- Oh, my God, no.
That's crazy
that you heard that.
Well, you posted it
on your-- Right?
I mean, I could have sworn I saw
on your story that you were--
I mean, like, who can remember?
That was all so long ago.
I mean, I don't think
she even meant it.
Yeah.
Well, I wouldn't be surprised.
She never came "out" out, but,
well, she never had to,
you know?
Yeah.
Well, I guess I just
wasn't that into it.
- [scoffs] Sorry.
- Because of the horses?
No.
Actually, yeah. (laughing)
No, I just...
I don't know why,
but at the time,
it really weirded me out.
It was like... like...
Like maybe she just
really liked you?
Sorry, just being honest.
Well, it's not like
I would never do that.
Yeah, um...
have you, uh,
seen Carrie around or...?
Wasn't she just in class?
Oh, my God, she left.
Wait, why?
Is she all right?
I think so. Oh, my--
- She went off on Moreh Klein.
- What did she say?
Like, just that, like,
today's totally fake.
Like, which it is. (laughing)
I think she's really cool.
I think today's fake too.
Yeah, like, super fake.
It's, like,
what are we even doing here?
Plus, it's, like,
today and then that's it.
We're all gonna just
move on with our lives.
Forget about this tomorrow.
(laughs)
Sorry, that was, like, a lot.
So, uh, you and Carrie are...
You guys are like
best friends, right?
Yeah, she's my best friend.
So, is she, like,
hooking up with anyone
right now or...?
Um, it's not-- I--
It's not, like, that big of a--
It's not a big, uh-- It's not
that big of a deal or anything.
I just wanted to know
if she, uh--
We've made out before.
Yeah.
We, like, make out and stuff.
It's not like a thing, you know?
It's whatever.
[scoffs] Oh, okay.
She's a good kisser.
So am I.
Oh, uh, cool.
I, I guess?
We kiss boys too,
if you're interested.
Oh, um... I don't, I don't--
I mean, like, if you wanted
a distraction from today,
you know?
I was already gonna hang out
with Carrie in the library.
You should join.
Now?
Meet me in the library
in, like, 10.
Um, yeah, okay.
Um, are you sure?
Hannah, are you sure this
is like the right time to be...?
Ah. (laughs)
Hannah, are you in here?
Hannah?
(children playing outside)
- Hey.
- I was just calling you.
Yeah, my phone's off.
Where have you been?
I had to get some air.
Plus, it looks like
I'm not the only who skipped.
- I was looking for you.
- That's not what I heard.
Why are you being so weird?
I'm not being weird.
What?
You're, like, um,
like gaslighting me.
(laughing) No, I'm not.
That's not what that word means.
Yes, it is and you are.
You're telling me that
I'm being weird
but I'm not doing anything.
You're being weird.
No, I'm not.
Yes, you are. What do you want?
I don't want anything from you.
Stop being weird.
Fine.
What?
Sorry, didn't mean to
gaslight you again.
You're being a bitch.
So are you.
So, why did you leave?
- I had to get some air.
- That's a lie.
No, it's not.
I wasn't feeling well,
and I had to get some air.
Be honest!
Fine.
I thought we weren't friends
anymore and so I freaked out.
You did?
Yeah.
I just couldn't
sit in that classroom anymore.
I felt like I was--
I told Moreh Klein that
I bled all over the seat.
(laughing)
I'm sure she loved that.
I thought I...
weirded you out.
So I thought
I'd give you some space.
Why would you weird me out?
I don't know.
It was stupid. I'm sorry.
It's fine.
It's just, seeing you
hanging out with Elaina
kind of freaked me out.
- She's actually
really not that bad.
- Shut up.
She sucks
and nothing you say or do
will make me change my mind.
She let me hit her vape.
Ew, what?
(Carrie laughing)
Yeah, it was pretty fun.
That's so gross.
- What flavor?
- Cucumber.
Cool.
Today's been, like...
- so fucked up.
- I know.
I just keep on thinking, like,
why she did it.
I mean, like, I know
it's a stupid question to ask,
but, like,
why does anyone
do that sort of thing?
What?
Kill themselves?
I mean, like, yeah.
I don't know.
I think she might've just
been depressed, you know?
You don't have to answer.
We're going to be okay though.
Nothing has changed between us.
I mean, you still want
to be my best friend, right?
Yeah, I do.
Okay.
So there's no problem.
Um...
Samantha had a crush on you?
- What?
- Elaina told me that,
um, Samantha had
a crush on you and,
and you told everybody, but, uh,
you didn't tell me.
Why does that matter?
Because I'm your best friend,
why didn't you tell me?
Oh, 'cause it was dumb.
I was drunk.
You were sad about
not being invited to the party.
I didn't want to hurt
your feelings.
Well, that kind of
makes me feel worse
- that you didn't tell me.
- She didn't kill herself
- because she had a crush on me.
- I didn't say that she did.
Okay, so then why
did you ask it like that?
I didn't ask it like anything.
I didn't make her
kill herself.
I didn't say that you did,
I just...
Okay, so then what
were you trying to ask?
Nothing! Just...
just forget about it.
Okay, I will.
I mean, it's, like, not on you.
I mean, she had other friends.
I mean, like, she was--
she was invited
to the party and I wasn't.
I guess.
I should have told you.
It's just, it was like--
It was weird and then she died.
It's whatever.
I just didn't know what to do.
I didn't like her like that,
but she was,
like, a nice person.
She was.
I hope she doesn't hate me.
I don't want anyone to hate me.
Even if they're dead.
I don't hate you.
(laughing)
I don't hate you too.
You gonna go back to class?
No, I think I want to do
something else.
Like what? My dad gets
here in, like, 30 minutes.
We'll find
something fun to do.
Okay, I don't want to,
like, lay backwards
on the hill outside.
(laughing)
Neither do I.
We're not in fifth grade.
I want to do something
more adult.
Adult?
Come on, trust me.
We can't be sad
and thinking about this
for the rest of our lives.
- Okay, what is it?
- You'll see.
Okay, so,
what's the surprise?
Kiss me.
- What?
- Kiss me.
- Please.
- I, uh...
What the fuck?
(ethereal music)
[Tristan] Uh, hello?
Sorry.
[Tristan] Sorry, sorry.
[Hannah] Hey, Tristan.
Hannah, what is he doing here?
We're all gonna hang out, duh.
Like we hung up before
in the bathroom.
- What?
- Come on, be cool.
- Uh, yeah.
- Don't be jealous.
[Tristan] I thought
we were just-- I thought
you were just joking.
I didn't think we were
actually going to do this.
[Hannah] Why wouldn't we?
Can I talk to you
for a second?
Of course.
We'll be right back.
You know I've never, like...
like, done this before.
I mean, you've, like,
kissed other people before.
Yeah, but I haven't done,
like, everything.
I don't want this
to be how it happens.
Okay, well,
you don't have to do that.
I can do that and he'll just,
like, play with you.
Play with me.
You know, like,
touch you down there.
I know what fingering is.
I wasn't trying
to say that you didn't.
Why the hell
would I want to do this?
You know, I'm actually
really worried about you.
Don't you ever
want to try this stuff?
You can't avoid it forever.
Tristan thinks
you're so hot and cool.
He literally couldn't
stop talking about you.
You're just saying that so
you can play out your stupid,
gross fantasy.
It's fun.
- You're using me.
- No, I'm not.
Tristan is only doing this
because he wants to go with you
because he's so, so into you.
Don't overthink this.
Let's just do it.
Why do you even
want to do this?
You were, like,
in love with him.
I mean, we're both gonna,
like, be with him.
What if I don't want to?
Why wouldn't you want to?
Why can't you
just hook up with him?
I mean, I like him,
I really like him,
but it's so obvious
that he likes you more.
So I thought
maybe we could share.
Share, got it.
It's a fun thing.
It's not, like, a serious thing.
You want to have sex
in our synagogue.
- Hook up.
- Isn't that sex?
I don't know, we'll just,
like, see what happens.
It's Samantha's funeral.
Who cares? She's dead.
Plus, her ghost didn't
stop you from kissing me.
That was--
That was different.
- No, it's not.
- Yes, it is.
You've been fucking with my head
all day.
- No, I haven't.
- Yes, you have.
You know that I like you
and now you're using me
so you can get with Tristan.
No, I'm not.
I didn't know anything.
- I thought you would think
this was fun.
- Stop saying that.
This isn't fun.
I'm not having fun.
I'm not going to have fun.
Why did you kiss me
in the first place?
I told you. I wanted to know
if I'm a good kisser.
Okay.
(sighing)
Okay.
So, do you want to go back?
- You're so selfish.
- What?
Do you like me at all?
Yes, of course, I like you.
I love you.
You're my best friend.
But not more than that?
More than best friends?
Like, you wouldn't
want to hook up with me
if Tristan wasn't here.
No.
Would you?
I mean...
I don't know.
But you're going to prom
with Ben.
Just because I'm--
Look, I really liked
kissing you,
and I thought you liked it too.
Carrie,
I don't think of you that way.
We're like sisters.
We're, like, closer than
sisters, we're like--
I don't know, and it's not like
I don't think you're pretty,
or smart, or whatever.
And it's cool
if you like me that way.
It's, like, I just, I don't like
you that way,
but it's good if you do?
[Tristan] Is everything
all right?
Yeah! Um,
everything's great.
Right, Carrie?
It's nice to see you, Tristan.
So, um...
maybe we could hang out,
just the two of us?
- Is--is she okay?
- Yeah.
She seemed really upset.
Oh, yeah, she's fine.
Just a long day.
Did she know this
was gonna happen or...?
Totally, she just, like,
gets like that sometimes.
I feel so bad.
Don't! Don't, I mean,
maybe I can make it up to you.
Um... my mom works late,
- so I have the house to--
my house for myself.
- What?!
- What? Are you serious
right now?
- Yeah, I mean, totally.
I thought we were just gonna
hang out. I didn't think
you actually wanted to do...
- I thought it would be--
- What the fuck
is wrong with you?
Look, I'm--I'm not interested
in you at all and...
Fuck, I'm sor--
I gotta go. This is--
It's really not a big deal.
Okay, see you around!
Shit.
Shit.
(crying)
(students chatter)
(ethereal music)
(music stops abruptly)
(chatter)
Shit.
[Zack] I just really
need to sleep right now.
Nothing feels real.
Like, I can see the code
in the simulation.
Hey, Mom.
Yeah, we just got out.
I'm gonna be home later.
Mr. Lowstein's gonna taking me
and Carrie to get food.
(high heel breaks)
Ugh, seriously? Hey!
Carrie, hey!
Would you just look at me?
What, are you, like, mad at me?
Carrie.
- I didn't mean to hurt you.
- (cellphone vibrates)
- Hey, I'm here.
- Oh, my God, Carrie.
Carrie!
(gentle music)
(singer vocalizing)
Through the Juno bush
You see her lips
are miming Gwen Stefani
The horizon takes a trip
Along her body
Staring at the posters
on your wall
As they talk
about my chances
Boy, you're so tragic
Your floor was damaged
From months ago
Where you dropped a hot comb
dancing to neo-soul
The trees are gold
On your iPhone background
Which is funny
'cause you cut down
Like eight last spring
for the new lawn
How's it look, baby?
How's it feel?
Is it too much for you?
Big fucking deal
Me, me, me
That's all we know
Me, me, me
That's all we know
You might think you do
But I bet you don't
You might think you do
But I bet you don't
(vocalizing)
I heard you joined
the Peace Corps
Planting ferns
And feeding the poor
You're not so bad anymore
(vocalizing)
Me, me, me
That's all we know
That's all we know
That's all we know
Me, me, me
That's all we know
That's all you know
You might think you do
But I bet you don't
You might think you do
But I bet you don't
(vocalizing)
[Carrie] Sometimes it's
painful to be inarticulate.
You know, to never have
the right thing
to say when it really matters.
Like you might spend
your entire life
thinking you're dealing
with a square
because it looks like a square
and acts like a square
or feels like whatever.
But then one day,
you turn a corner and realize
that actually
it's not a square.
It never was.
All along,
you've just been staring
at the flat face of a cube.
(upbeat music)
I section off the petrol
with the metro card
Days you heard of
secondhand on rented heart
Cover for me, your tarp
is see through, dummy
I patch like iOS and if you
question, need that monthly
What a trip, never slipped
I don't miss
I go Gilbert in '06
You more like Adonal Foyle
Before Curry
killed the Knicks
From the back
I lost my grip
Low behold,
I caught up quick
Overall, I'm well equipped
Coat of arms,
they rep the set
Too prideful
for the charity
A blessing scorned
We just want a nigga
we can root for, yeah
Cherish while a champ
walk you to the door, yeah
Shekels brought on grandeur
but your spirit poor
Poor ass spirit
Roaming true predator stare,
hone in to regular gears
Regular pair of wings
on your toes in the air
I dick for relief
and to share
Only fair
I've had no other life
So I do not act as if
yours is mine
Why do some act as if
otherwise
Why even ask
We on borrowed time
I'm not wasting ticks
Stick talk, you gon' listen
Brick stock, new edition
How it sing
when it's clipping
Every scene that
you're missing right here
Yeah
Never leave home
heavy-handed
Never take your victories
for granted
When everything went just
the way you planned it
(people chattering)
(bell dinging)
(bell dinging)
People keep posting
pictures of her everywhere.
- You gonna post?
- No, it's not like
she's gonna see it.
Ready?
Yeah, as I'll ever be.
(people chattering)
- What are you doing?
- Shh! Carrie!
- Be quiet.
- (bell dinging)
- Holy shit.
- What?
Tristan.
Oh, yeah. I always forget he was
in our Hebrew School class.
He smiled at me.
No, he didn't.
Look.
(sighs)
No, that's just his face.
He always looks like that.
Jealous much?
Definitely not.
Oh, sorry.
Don't be.
Okay, cool.
You, you look really nice.
Um, thanks.
You look-- I mean you look
like really, really good.
(laughing)
- You think so?
- Yeah.
I mean, duh. (laughs)
You're, like, really cute.
This is some real
premium stuff, okay.
So you can only take
a little bit of it at a time.
I heard it was 20.
20 what?
20 pills.
I ate an Advil once because
I thought it was a red M&M.
Shalom.
[Audience] Shalom.
From the 23rd chapter
of the Book of Psalms.
Mizmor ledhavidh
Adonay ro'iy
Lo' 'echsar
Bin'othdeshe' yarbiytseniy
Al-mey menuchoth
yenahaleniy
Naphshiy
yeshobhebhyancheniy
(bell dings)
Gam kiy-'elekh
Beghey'tsalmaveth
lo'-'iyra'
Ra' kiy-'attah 'immadhiy
Shibhthekha
Umish'antekhahemmah
yenachamuniy
Ta'arokh lephanay shulchan
Neghedh tsoreraydishanta
Bhashemen ro'shiy kosiy
Revayah
'Akh thobh vachesedh
Yirdephuniykol-yemey
chayyay
Veshabhtiy bebheyth-Adonay
Le'orekh yamiym
From the 121st chapter
of Psalms.
(continues singing in Hebrew)
(woman clears throat)
Shh!
It is now my honor to
invite Samantha's cousin,
Sarah Bronstein,
for her remarks.
Sarah.
Hello, everyone.
My name is Sarah Bronstein.
Samantha is-- was my cousin.
Even though we were less
than a year apart in age,
I've always seen Samantha
as the big sister I never had.
My name is David Gold, and
I am Samantha's piano teacher.
We never know when a tragedy
will strike our community,
but we do know that we,
as a community,
will come together
after the tragedy.
She had this connection
to horses
that I'll never be able
to understand.
And Samantha became
a brilliant pianist.
In her 18 years, she studied
Torah here at Temple Beth El.
And because of her, I can
ride both Western and English.
She was very young.
I had the honor
of officiating at the service
when she became a bat mitzvah.
And I give my condolences
to the family.
And I, for one, am going
to miss her very much.
Thank you.
I will now recite
the Kel Moleh Rachamim,
the memorial prayer.
Would you kindly rise?
(singing in Hebrew)
(crying)
There will be a luncheon
in the pastoral conference room
downstairs where they will
be collecting donations
for Habitat for Horses
in Samantha's honor.
(bell dings)
(people chattering)
Carrie, Hannah,
oh, thank you so much
for coming.
- Of course, Mrs. Goldstein.
- Yeah, of course.
I haven't seen you since
you all were in that musical.
- Do you remember that?
- Mm-hmm.
Oh, listen to me.
Of course, you remember.
Samantha loved musicals.
I don't know if
a lot of people knew that.
She would always sing
that Annie song in the shower.
You know, the "Tomorrow" one?
- "Tomorrow"?
- Yes, right.
That's it.
Tomorrow
She had such a good voice.
Yeah, I remember we were
in eighth grade choir together.
She was so great.
Yeah, she was like really,
really good.
Oh, that's so nice of you
girls to say.
You know, she thought
the world of you two.
Especially you, Hannah.
It was so nice seeing pictures
of you two at that big party.
- Totally.
- You looked so pretty.
Thanks.
Oh, I should probably
stop rambling.
I know Samantha
would die of embarrassment
if she knew I was
carrying on like this.
- (crying)
- I'm so sorry for your loss,
Mrs. Goldstein.
Yeah. So sorry.
So, so sorry.
Thank you, girls.
If you'll excuse me.
Uh, what did she mean by that?
What?
I just didn't know that
you and Samantha took a picture
together at Melissa's party.
Oh, I don't know.
I don't really remember,
but I wasn't gonna,
like, correct her.
- But--
- Ugh, I'm starving.
I think I'm gonna have a bagel.
Do you want the other half?
No, I'm not really hungry.
Hmm, your loss.
(laughter)
Can you believe that?
It's so sad.
Don't they know that Tristan
would never go for any of them.
Bad bone structure.
- This is so messed up.
- Oh, totally.
It's, like, Elaina's pretty
and everything,
but she's not,
like, a real person.
I'm gonna go get a cup of water.
Could you get me some?
(chatter continues)
(chatter is muffled)
(chatter resumes)
- Here.
- Thanks.
- Oh, my God, are you crying?
- What? No.
- Your eyes are red.
- Yeah, because of, like,
air pollution or whatever.
Stop being... weird.
Do you think Tristan
owns that suit?
I don't know.
It just looks so good on him.
Like, he looks really,
really good.
Yeah.
He got hotter, right?
I guess?
You guess?
I just don't think
we should be talking about this
right now.
Why?
Because we're at
a funeral service.
You didn't even know her
that well.
She was in, like,
my AP Psych class.
She was nice.
We worked on
a group project together.
Didn't you say
you had to do all the work?
Yeah, no one ever does the work
in, like, a group project.
I remember you being,
like, really mad
because she said she would help
you with the presentation part
and then she, like,
totally ghosted you.
I mean, she clearly had
other things on her mind.
It doesn't matter, just...
I just don't think
we should be talking
about Tristan's suit
right now, okay?
Are you sure
you don't want a bite?
Yeah.
Ugh, fine. I gotta pee.
(toilet flushes)
What took you so long?
You know I pee slow.
That's why I had
to quit swim team.
You quit swim team
because you hated running.
Well, why should I have
to run for swim practice?
That's unfair and stupid.
Ugh, I'm so bored.
I mean, today has been,
like, so, so sad,
but now I just want to go home.
I don't want to go
to the stupid Teen Talk Back.
Those things are always so dumb.
I don't know.
I feel like the best part of USY
was always
the intellectual debates.
(laughs) Or that was
probably hard for you
with someone's tongue down
your throat the whole time.
I found that pretty
stimulating actually.
- (laughs)
- You're so gross.
Okay. At least I didn't have
Ben Schwartz's hands
down my pants like somebody.
Yeah, you had Ben Feldman's.
True. At least him stabbing me
in the vagina
with his boiled fingers
was more fun than today.
He was, like, trying to get
a peanut out of a tiny bag.
I want to hook up with
someone who's experienced
like me, you know?
You've hooked up with,
like, three guys.
Okay, you've hooked up
with one
and you kept your jeans on.
What? I'm just saying,
if this was a competition,
I would win.
Yeah, I'm sure you would.
Okay.
Do you think I'm pretty?
Don't be stupid.
I think I'm like okay-looking.
I'm not classically beautiful
or whatever.
My nose is weird.
Stop it, you're pretty.
Would you ever kill yourself?
No, I don't think so.
Neither would I.
But if I did, which I wouldn't,
I'd do what Samantha did.
Pills are so easy.
I guess you could hang yourself,
but that'd be kind of hard.
Slitting your wrists
in the bathtub could be cool
but it's so emo middle school,
you know?
Ugh.
Shit.
Do you have concealer?
Concealer?
Do you have some?
Like, in your purse?
For me, yes.
For, you, no.
Whatever.
You can hardly see it anyway.
Do you think Tristan's
a good kisser?
No clue.
Rachel Feinstein says
he's, like, really good,
but she's a pathological liar.
So, who knows
if that's even true.
Wait, didn't
Tristan and Samantha
used to hook up?
Oh, yeah, I heard about that.
But then he took
Lauren Silverstein
to homecoming.
I remember seeing them
kiss during the slow dance.
So tragic. (laughing)
I wonder if I'm a good kisser.
I thought you were
"so experienced".
Well, I never,
like, dated anybody.
So?
So, I haven't exactly
had any returning customers.
What? Why are you looking at me
like that? Stop!
- Kiss me.
- What? No.
- Do it.
- No.
Please, I need to know
if I'm, like,
the worst kisser
in the world.
Okay, I can tell you right now,
you're probably not
the worst kisser in the world.
Just pretend I'm like
Zack Horowitz or something.
Zack Horowitz has back hair.
Okay, fine,
pretend I'm someone else.
- Pretend I'm Mr. Danielson.
- Stop.
I know you think he's so hot
when he pours those beakers.
"Oh, Mr. D,
will you come over here
and help me with something?
Oops, I dropped a beaker.
I know that's a safety hazard."
I don't want to kiss
Mr. Danielson.
- Then kiss me.
- No!
Come on, just do it.
It'll be like a second.
Fine.
- That doesn't count.
- Yes, it does!
You asked me to kiss you,
so I kissed you.
Okay, there's no way you
determined anything from that.
Okay, fine.
All right, well,
I guess I'll never know
if I'm a good kisser or not.
And then one day, I'll kiss
someone and they'll be like,
"That was awful."
And I'll die of shame
because my best friend was too-
(ethereal music)
[Hannah] How's that?
Bad?
Okay.
Cool.
- Good.
- (both laughing)
Cool.
Thanks.
Yeah, totally.
Ladies, what did I tell
you about being in here?
- Sorry, Moreh Klein.
- We were just leaving.
Good. See you in my classroom
in five minutes, correct?
- Yep!
- Mm-hmm.
(door opens, then closes)
Ugh, I can't believe she's
the one running the talkback.
It's like Hebrew School,
but worse.
Yeah, I think her real job
is in grief counseling.
Truly the last person
on the planet
I'd want to counsel my grief.
(both laugh)
All right,
we should probably go.
Yeah, yeah, um...
I just need to grab my...
- Oh, sorry.
- Sorry.
Carrie, Carrie, Carrie.
Kill me. (laughing)
Ugh.
- Did you see it?
- Did you see it?
- Did you see it?
- You didn't see it?
You didn't see it.
You have to look with your eyes.
You've got two of them.
I'm gonna play it one more time.
Look who's crying again.
- (girl speaking in Hebrew)
- (both laughing)
Why do they do that?
Because they can.
Everyone.
Please settle down.
(footsteps)
Shalom.
[Class] Shalom.
Today is a terrible day.
(girl crying)
But we have
this time now to process
what the Jewish tradition
teaches us about death,
so we can grieve
and be stronger together.
I know this is difficult.
I was in a similar situation
when I was your age.
At that time,
I was fighting for Israel.
Back then, I saw death
around every corner.
I was haunted like a phantom.
When I slept, I dreamt it.
When I woke, I saw it.
And to see someone so young
choose to leave this world
of the living,
well, I cannot explain it
and I cannot justify it,
but, as the Talmud tells us,
we must try to understand.
Now,
please take these handouts.
Who would've thought they'd
have handouts for this?
This is better than
the workbooks
with the mice on them.
Do you remember those?
(girl crying)
Okay, I guess not.
[Moreh] Does everyone have one?
Good.
Now, who would like
to read aloud?
Hmm, Hila.
"Death is something
that happens to people
of all religions,
but in the Jewish faith,
there are particular
rituals that must be done
when someone passes away."
[Moreh] Rachel Feinstein,
please help your friend
Rachel Grossman.
Excuse yourselves if you must.
- [Elaina] Should I keep going?
- [Moreh] Um...
Would anyone else care to read?
Let's have a little fun,
shall we?
Um, Yitzhaka,
please, continue.
"There are many
Jewish traditions
associated with death.
Some come right from the Torah,
while others were
developed in Eastern Europe
throughout the 19th century,"
[Moreh] Yes, Hila.
Moreh Klein, what do you think
the great rabbis
would specifically say
about this situation?
Interesting question, Hila.
I think the great rabbis tell us
that in order
to understand death,
we must have insightful
conversations.
We can't express grief with
standard, shallow platitudes.
Like what we're doing
here today.
- For Samantha.
- Exactly, Miera.
(Hannah snorts)
What was that?
A cough.
[Moreh] Did you have something
to add, Yitzhaka?
[Hannah] Um, uh, yeah.
I was wondering
if I should keep reading.
I see.
Would anyone else cared to read?
- Yes, Miera.
- Miera?
"Some of these traditions
include preparing the body
by cleansing it and the ritual
act of purification Tahara,
in which the funeral
director or, alternatively,
a holy society, the chevra
kadisha cleanses the body."
In Samantha's case, her body
would have only been handled
by women to make sure
it stayed totally pure.
I bet Samantha
would've liked that.
(Rachel sobbing)
[Moreh] Now, can anyone tell me
the significance
of these rituals?
Come on, I don't want Miera
and Hila to do all the talking.
One of you young scholars
must understand
why it's important that
the body be pure before burial?
Fine, Miera.
It's supposed to erase
your social status in death.
Correct. The only relationship
that matters in the end
is the one you have with Hashem.
Yes, Hila?
Um, yeah, just piggybacking
off of that,
I wanted to say
how important it is
because it shows no matter
how bad things are,
like, if you're dead,
we always have our faith.
But we have it
when we're alive too.
[Moreh] Does anyone else
want to add to this discussion?
Stop.
Oh, my God, Hannah!
[Moreh] Yitzhaka?
Are you all right?
Um... yeah, I just,
I didn't have
that much for breakfast.
It was my fault, sorry.
[Moreh] Uh, maybe it's time
for a break.
Yitzhaka, please make sure
you drink some water
and get something to eat.
We don't need to add
to today's tragedy, understood?
I'll take care of her.
Thank you, Hava.
Hey, are you okay?
Totally, I just,
I lost my balance.
That's all.
God, I can't believe I did that,
that's so embarrassing.
(waves crashing)
[Natalie] I don't know, man.
That could totally
be Photoshopped.
No way somebody made that
on Photoshop.
What about the whole, like,
you know, satellite thing?
Well, I mean, according to
the video, this satellite--
- Shut up!
- You shut up.
Why do we never
see the boats go lower?
I wonder if prom's
even still gonna happen?
Of course it is. They wouldn't
cancel prom over one person.
If anything, they should move
it up so we have a distraction.
Or, like, make it a memorial.
- That's a really good idea.
- Thanks.
I just said prom
should be a distraction.
Oh, right.
I just can't believe
she won't be there.
Me too.
Were you guys close?
That's too bad.
Hey. (laughs)
I can't watch
this fake pity party.
Yeah, yeah, me neither.
You wanna...
- What?
- You know...
could go to the bathroom and--
I mean, people are probably
gonna be crying in there
or worse, talking about me.
Yeah, probably.
Um...
but we can check
and see if it's empty,
- and if it's empty, we can--
- What are you talking about?
If you have to go
to the bathroom, go.
Uh, yeah, yeah.
I don't have to go
to the bathroom.
Okay, then what?
Nothing, nothing.
Never mind.
- Have you seen Tristan?
- No.
I wonder if he went outside.
That'd be so like him.
(laughing)
It's like 20 degrees out.
I know, he's so random.
I wonder if I should say
something to him so he, like,
- knows that I'm here.
- I'm sure he knows you're here.
I don't know.
I feel like I haven't been very,
like, visible.
You fell out of your chair,
like, two seconds ago.
Yeah, that's not the kind
of visibility that I want.
Plus, I don't think he noticed.
He definitely saw.
I thought you were gonna
get, like, a concussion.
Ugh, yeah.
So embarrassing.
Whatever.
I just want him to see me
how I want him to.
- You know how it is.
- Not really.
Like, I want him
to see me doing hot stuff.
Like what?
Do you know where
we could get a Popsicle?
(uncomfortable chuckle)
Kidding. (laughs)
We'll find something else.
Or, like,
maybe we could practice more.
You know, you said
you wanted to be
like a really great kisser.
Yeah, and now I know that I am.
I want him to, like, want me.
Like, how do I
get somebody to want me?
I don't know.
I'm sure you'll figure it out.
Is it, like, my hair?
I was gonna straighten it
this morning,
but I didn't have enough time
and now it's gonna mess
everything up for me.
Where are you going?
God.
(crying)
(door opens)
- (door closes)
- Hi.
[Elaina] Hey.
Do you vape?
I, uh, don't think we're
allowed to smoke in here.
It's not smoke.
It's cucumber,
it's easily the best flavor,
but they don't make it any more
so my brother
has to buy it on eBay.
(coughing)
Mango's good too though.
I don't want to sit in here.
What are you so scared of?
Nothing.
Damn.
I'm bored.
Why don't you break me off
a little piece of that brownie?
Dude, you were only supposed
to have, like, a tiny bite.
[Zack] Your brother
got ripped off.
If these haven't hit yet,
they're not going to.
Oh, hey.
Sorry about your dead
girlfriend.
Dude, stop it, seriously?
- What? I was joking.
- It's not funny.
No, it's fine. I mean,
she wasn't actually
my girlfriend so...
I mean, not anymore.
Oh, I'm really sorry dude.
No, we didn't actually
know each other.
Yeah, totally. Do you want
to see something cool?
Dude, stop. It's fake.
(students chattering)
Let's get back to it.
Hey, Trist...
[Moreh] All right, everyone.
Please turn over your
worksheets from earlier.
As you can see,
it's divided into six panels,
each representing
a stage of mourning.
I want you
to fill in each section
with how you, personally,
will honor Samantha's memory.
(coughing)
Oh, my God,
don't inhale so deeply.
One puff of these
is like 20 cigarettes.
If you keep coughing like that,
you're basically done for.
Thank you.
(coughing)
So when did you first
start smoking, or vaping?
This summer.
I wanted to impress a boy.
Well, it's, like,
super impressive.
Do you, um,
do you remember
Samantha's bat mitzvah?
Uh, I don't think I went.
Yeah, it was the, um,
it was the same day
as Amy Levi's
and most people didn't want
to go to both, or...
honestly, most people
only wanted to go to Amy's.
Yeah, Amy's was
at the planetarium.
Yeah, it was cool.
And Samantha's
was at that, like, weird hotel,
The, um, Wagon Wheel.
You know, it was,
like, horse-themed.
Did you go to Samantha's?
Yeah, I went.
My mom made me go.
She said I had to go
to anyone's bat mitzvah
who was
in my Hebrew school class.
Even if we weren't friends.
Plus, me and Samantha used to
carpool together all the time.
She lives, like,
three houses down from me.
Lived.
I'm really sorry.
Yeah.
It was, like, so sad.
It was, like, all adults and
Samantha's little cousins
and, like, the DJ kept trying
to get people to dance
and, like, no one did.
I mean, I left right
after the candle ceremony,
which was humiliating.
But she had a candle
for all of her friends
and it was just me and
our other neighbor, Kim.
Oh, my God, that sucks.
Yeah.
(sighs) I wish--
I mean, I don't know.
I know she was weird, but, like,
I wish people
cared about her more.
Today feels so fake.
Yeah.
(clears throat)
But you two were close, right?
Uh...
I mean, not really, um...
In elementary school, we used
to, like, dance together,
but, you know, like, you know,
hip hop and jazz and whatever.
It was so dumb.
I quit when I went
to middle school, um...
So, I never really saw her
outside of any of that
except for here.
But...
I don't know.
This feels, like, different.
So, we weren't really,
like, friends,
I don't know why.
I guess--I guess I do know why.
I just never really gave
her much of a chance.
And now, I guess I never will.
Yeah, she, like, never told
anyone anything about herself.
Like, it was clear
she was a total lesbian.
Like just come out already.
We all see your haircut,
- no one cares.
- Yeah.
Well, except for Hannah,
but, like, she didn't
feel the same way so...
Wait, wait, what?
I mean, I wouldn't want
Samantha to ask me out,
but I wouldn't go and
tell literally everyone.
(fluttering)
[Hannah] Ew, why are you
looking at me like that?
What? Are you, like,
in love with me now?
(laughing)
Wait until I tell
literally everyone.
And you know what else
is annoying?
Why is Melissa
being so needy today?
Like, why are you making
today all about you?
You know, Samantha was,
like, actually my friend,
and I get that you have things
going on with your parents,
but, like, Samantha's dead.
Yeah.
Totally, I get it.
Okay, well, I guess
the break's almost over.
This was... weird, but fun.
- I guess.
- Yeah.
[Moreh] Remember that
each and every one of you
should always be here
for one another.
As the Babylonian Talmud
tells us,
all Jews are responsible
for one another.
Tragedy takes a long time
to process.
Super embarrassing.
[Moreh] Thankfully, your faith
will guide you through
and so will your community.
(Carrie and Elaina laughing)
(coughing)
Did you feel this?
- Uh, definitely.
- Okay.
And so,
once everyone is finished,
we will share
our responses out loud
and see how we can best
process our grief together.
(students chattering)
- Oh, hi.
- What's up?
(Carrie laughing)
(chatter and laughter continue)
How did you think of that quick?
Oh, my God.
Don't even look at me.
Don't look.
- Uh, Moreh Klein?
- Yes, Yitzhaka?
Could I use the restroom?
[Moreh] We just
got back from break.
I know, I just thought
I felt a little bit of blood
on the seat, so I thought
maybe I could ask you
if I could go,
if not, it's okay.
- Go.
- Okay.
Whatever.
[Moreh] Toda, Rifkah.
Now, who else
would like to share?
Anyone can share.
There are no wrong answers.
Uh-huh.
I just think this whole thing
is really sad
and it's such a hard time
for all of us.
Also, I was wondering
who drew this?
I'm looking to commission
some artwork.
Dude, you do not need
anymore art.
You have so much.
Thank you for sharing,
Yihtzak.
I don't know who drew it.
- [Natalie] Obviously.
- [Zack] It was worth asking.
Now, would anyone else
like to share?
[Miera] And I just feel, like,
I really relate to this
because just
the shock and the numbness,
- that's phase one, like I was
at camp, and so...
- You okay?
...I was really shocked
when I got that call.
And then, like, there's
the sadness part, which I did--
Literally, every atom in my body
is vibrating right now.
I think still stuck
in that busy-ness phase,
because it really just helps me
to cope with grief.
Just keeping busy and,
like, keeping my mind
doing other things.
And I just think that
it would be really nice
in a year from now to come back
and do something similar
to what we're doing today.
I always light
the Yehuda for my Bubbe.
She passed away three years ago,
but I'm still really sad
- about that.
- Mmm. Thank you, Miera.
What?
What? Sorry.
[Moreh] Hila,
would you like to share?
I just thought what Miera said
is powerful is all.
Toda.
Is that seat open?
Hava, do you have
something to share?
- No, I'm good. Thank you.
- This is a safe space
and you haven't said anything
all day, please, share.
[Carrie] Mmm.
Um...
Okay, um...
I guess I've just
been thinking and...
I realized that
none of this matters.
What doesn't matter?
Um, today and everything,
like--like, this class thing.
I mean, none of us really liked
Samantha that much, right?
Right?
Right, Elaina?
I don't know
what you're talking about.
You said that none of this
really matters
and it's all fake
and no one really cares
- that Samantha's dead.
- Hila, do you feel that way?
Absolutely not.
I never said that.
You literally told me,
like, an hour ago.
Today is a horrible day and
I don't know why you're lying
- and making it worse
for everyone.
- I'm not lying.
Maybe we should
take a moment to reflect.
I mean, were any of us
surprised to find out
that it was Samantha?
Like, none of us did
anything to help her
'cause we're all too caught up
in our own lives.
(girls sobbing)
God, shut up.
Hava, please.
But you asked me to be honest.
And I'm just tired
of acting like this
has some sort of greater meaning
and we, like, cared so much.
I mean, Samantha killed herself
and nothing that we do here
today is gonna change that.
I know we're all exhausted,
but I think we can have
a productive discussion
about how you feel.
Well, I'm sorry being honest
isn't fucking productive.
Do you have a worksheet
for that?
If you cannot be here today,
you are free to leave.
My ride doesn't get here
until five.
Then maybe you should
go into the hall
and call and see if they can
come get you earlier.
Fine.
Yes, Tzadik.
- I gotta use the bathroom.
- Go.
(rumbling)
(rumbling stops abruptly)
Now, who else
would like to share?
(cars passing by)
Shabbat Shalom.
How's everybody doing tonight?
(Tristan coughs)
Oh, um...
[Tristan] Oh, sorry.
Oh, no, no.
It's fine, I'm fine.
Welcome to the sanctuary.
So, today's been
crazy boring, right?
- What do you mean?
- And, like, really sad too.
Yeah.
I mean, especially for you.
Cause, like, you know?
I mean, didn't you
and Samantha used to--
Oh, uh, that was fake.
Um...
Topher made that up as a joke
and-- 'Cause she's--
She was the--the weird girl who
never talked to any of the boys
and she was really into yarn
and it was messed up.
(sighs)
Now it's even more messed up.
That--that sucks, I'm sorry.
[scoffs] Yeah.
And, like, I feel like
everyone's looking at me,
like I'm, like, super upset
about her dying or whatever.
And that's not even true
because I--
That's--that's not what I--
(sighs)
I mean, it's shit
that she's dead
and I guess
I should have told them
to stop saying all that stuff.
And now this...
thing.
- So you two weren't close?
- What?
You and Samantha.
You weren't close,
- 'cause you didn't ever?
- No, no.
Yeah, same.
Wait, didn't she, like,
ask you out a few weeks ago?
I think she thought
you were, like--
- like, a lesbian--
- Oh, my God, no.
That's crazy
that you heard that.
Well, you posted it
on your-- Right?
I mean, I could have sworn I saw
on your story that you were--
I mean, like, who can remember?
That was all so long ago.
I mean, I don't think
she even meant it.
Yeah.
Well, I wouldn't be surprised.
She never came "out" out, but,
well, she never had to,
you know?
Yeah.
Well, I guess I just
wasn't that into it.
- [scoffs] Sorry.
- Because of the horses?
No.
Actually, yeah. (laughing)
No, I just...
I don't know why,
but at the time,
it really weirded me out.
It was like... like...
Like maybe she just
really liked you?
Sorry, just being honest.
Well, it's not like
I would never do that.
Yeah, um...
have you, uh,
seen Carrie around or...?
Wasn't she just in class?
Oh, my God, she left.
Wait, why?
Is she all right?
I think so. Oh, my--
- She went off on Moreh Klein.
- What did she say?
Like, just that, like,
today's totally fake.
Like, which it is. (laughing)
I think she's really cool.
I think today's fake too.
Yeah, like, super fake.
It's, like,
what are we even doing here?
Plus, it's, like,
today and then that's it.
We're all gonna just
move on with our lives.
Forget about this tomorrow.
(laughs)
Sorry, that was, like, a lot.
So, uh, you and Carrie are...
You guys are like
best friends, right?
Yeah, she's my best friend.
So, is she, like,
hooking up with anyone
right now or...?
Um, it's not-- I--
It's not, like, that big of a--
It's not a big, uh-- It's not
that big of a deal or anything.
I just wanted to know
if she, uh--
We've made out before.
Yeah.
We, like, make out and stuff.
It's not like a thing, you know?
It's whatever.
[scoffs] Oh, okay.
She's a good kisser.
So am I.
Oh, uh, cool.
I, I guess?
We kiss boys too,
if you're interested.
Oh, um... I don't, I don't--
I mean, like, if you wanted
a distraction from today,
you know?
I was already gonna hang out
with Carrie in the library.
You should join.
Now?
Meet me in the library
in, like, 10.
Um, yeah, okay.
Um, are you sure?
Hannah, are you sure this
is like the right time to be...?
Ah. (laughs)
Hannah, are you in here?
Hannah?
(children playing outside)
- Hey.
- I was just calling you.
Yeah, my phone's off.
Where have you been?
I had to get some air.
Plus, it looks like
I'm not the only who skipped.
- I was looking for you.
- That's not what I heard.
Why are you being so weird?
I'm not being weird.
What?
You're, like, um,
like gaslighting me.
(laughing) No, I'm not.
That's not what that word means.
Yes, it is and you are.
You're telling me that
I'm being weird
but I'm not doing anything.
You're being weird.
No, I'm not.
Yes, you are. What do you want?
I don't want anything from you.
Stop being weird.
Fine.
What?
Sorry, didn't mean to
gaslight you again.
You're being a bitch.
So are you.
So, why did you leave?
- I had to get some air.
- That's a lie.
No, it's not.
I wasn't feeling well,
and I had to get some air.
Be honest!
Fine.
I thought we weren't friends
anymore and so I freaked out.
You did?
Yeah.
I just couldn't
sit in that classroom anymore.
I felt like I was--
I told Moreh Klein that
I bled all over the seat.
(laughing)
I'm sure she loved that.
I thought I...
weirded you out.
So I thought
I'd give you some space.
Why would you weird me out?
I don't know.
It was stupid. I'm sorry.
It's fine.
It's just, seeing you
hanging out with Elaina
kind of freaked me out.
- She's actually
really not that bad.
- Shut up.
She sucks
and nothing you say or do
will make me change my mind.
She let me hit her vape.
Ew, what?
(Carrie laughing)
Yeah, it was pretty fun.
That's so gross.
- What flavor?
- Cucumber.
Cool.
Today's been, like...
- so fucked up.
- I know.
I just keep on thinking, like,
why she did it.
I mean, like, I know
it's a stupid question to ask,
but, like,
why does anyone
do that sort of thing?
What?
Kill themselves?
I mean, like, yeah.
I don't know.
I think she might've just
been depressed, you know?
You don't have to answer.
We're going to be okay though.
Nothing has changed between us.
I mean, you still want
to be my best friend, right?
Yeah, I do.
Okay.
So there's no problem.
Um...
Samantha had a crush on you?
- What?
- Elaina told me that,
um, Samantha had
a crush on you and,
and you told everybody, but, uh,
you didn't tell me.
Why does that matter?
Because I'm your best friend,
why didn't you tell me?
Oh, 'cause it was dumb.
I was drunk.
You were sad about
not being invited to the party.
I didn't want to hurt
your feelings.
Well, that kind of
makes me feel worse
- that you didn't tell me.
- She didn't kill herself
- because she had a crush on me.
- I didn't say that she did.
Okay, so then why
did you ask it like that?
I didn't ask it like anything.
I didn't make her
kill herself.
I didn't say that you did,
I just...
Okay, so then what
were you trying to ask?
Nothing! Just...
just forget about it.
Okay, I will.
I mean, it's, like, not on you.
I mean, she had other friends.
I mean, like, she was--
she was invited
to the party and I wasn't.
I guess.
I should have told you.
It's just, it was like--
It was weird and then she died.
It's whatever.
I just didn't know what to do.
I didn't like her like that,
but she was,
like, a nice person.
She was.
I hope she doesn't hate me.
I don't want anyone to hate me.
Even if they're dead.
I don't hate you.
(laughing)
I don't hate you too.
You gonna go back to class?
No, I think I want to do
something else.
Like what? My dad gets
here in, like, 30 minutes.
We'll find
something fun to do.
Okay, I don't want to,
like, lay backwards
on the hill outside.
(laughing)
Neither do I.
We're not in fifth grade.
I want to do something
more adult.
Adult?
Come on, trust me.
We can't be sad
and thinking about this
for the rest of our lives.
- Okay, what is it?
- You'll see.
Okay, so,
what's the surprise?
Kiss me.
- What?
- Kiss me.
- Please.
- I, uh...
What the fuck?
(ethereal music)
[Tristan] Uh, hello?
Sorry.
[Tristan] Sorry, sorry.
[Hannah] Hey, Tristan.
Hannah, what is he doing here?
We're all gonna hang out, duh.
Like we hung up before
in the bathroom.
- What?
- Come on, be cool.
- Uh, yeah.
- Don't be jealous.
[Tristan] I thought
we were just-- I thought
you were just joking.
I didn't think we were
actually going to do this.
[Hannah] Why wouldn't we?
Can I talk to you
for a second?
Of course.
We'll be right back.
You know I've never, like...
like, done this before.
I mean, you've, like,
kissed other people before.
Yeah, but I haven't done,
like, everything.
I don't want this
to be how it happens.
Okay, well,
you don't have to do that.
I can do that and he'll just,
like, play with you.
Play with me.
You know, like,
touch you down there.
I know what fingering is.
I wasn't trying
to say that you didn't.
Why the hell
would I want to do this?
You know, I'm actually
really worried about you.
Don't you ever
want to try this stuff?
You can't avoid it forever.
Tristan thinks
you're so hot and cool.
He literally couldn't
stop talking about you.
You're just saying that so
you can play out your stupid,
gross fantasy.
It's fun.
- You're using me.
- No, I'm not.
Tristan is only doing this
because he wants to go with you
because he's so, so into you.
Don't overthink this.
Let's just do it.
Why do you even
want to do this?
You were, like,
in love with him.
I mean, we're both gonna,
like, be with him.
What if I don't want to?
Why wouldn't you want to?
Why can't you
just hook up with him?
I mean, I like him,
I really like him,
but it's so obvious
that he likes you more.
So I thought
maybe we could share.
Share, got it.
It's a fun thing.
It's not, like, a serious thing.
You want to have sex
in our synagogue.
- Hook up.
- Isn't that sex?
I don't know, we'll just,
like, see what happens.
It's Samantha's funeral.
Who cares? She's dead.
Plus, her ghost didn't
stop you from kissing me.
That was--
That was different.
- No, it's not.
- Yes, it is.
You've been fucking with my head
all day.
- No, I haven't.
- Yes, you have.
You know that I like you
and now you're using me
so you can get with Tristan.
No, I'm not.
I didn't know anything.
- I thought you would think
this was fun.
- Stop saying that.
This isn't fun.
I'm not having fun.
I'm not going to have fun.
Why did you kiss me
in the first place?
I told you. I wanted to know
if I'm a good kisser.
Okay.
(sighing)
Okay.
So, do you want to go back?
- You're so selfish.
- What?
Do you like me at all?
Yes, of course, I like you.
I love you.
You're my best friend.
But not more than that?
More than best friends?
Like, you wouldn't
want to hook up with me
if Tristan wasn't here.
No.
Would you?
I mean...
I don't know.
But you're going to prom
with Ben.
Just because I'm--
Look, I really liked
kissing you,
and I thought you liked it too.
Carrie,
I don't think of you that way.
We're like sisters.
We're, like, closer than
sisters, we're like--
I don't know, and it's not like
I don't think you're pretty,
or smart, or whatever.
And it's cool
if you like me that way.
It's, like, I just, I don't like
you that way,
but it's good if you do?
[Tristan] Is everything
all right?
Yeah! Um,
everything's great.
Right, Carrie?
It's nice to see you, Tristan.
So, um...
maybe we could hang out,
just the two of us?
- Is--is she okay?
- Yeah.
She seemed really upset.
Oh, yeah, she's fine.
Just a long day.
Did she know this
was gonna happen or...?
Totally, she just, like,
gets like that sometimes.
I feel so bad.
Don't! Don't, I mean,
maybe I can make it up to you.
Um... my mom works late,
- so I have the house to--
my house for myself.
- What?!
- What? Are you serious
right now?
- Yeah, I mean, totally.
I thought we were just gonna
hang out. I didn't think
you actually wanted to do...
- I thought it would be--
- What the fuck
is wrong with you?
Look, I'm--I'm not interested
in you at all and...
Fuck, I'm sor--
I gotta go. This is--
It's really not a big deal.
Okay, see you around!
Shit.
Shit.
(crying)
(students chatter)
(ethereal music)
(music stops abruptly)
(chatter)
Shit.
[Zack] I just really
need to sleep right now.
Nothing feels real.
Like, I can see the code
in the simulation.
Hey, Mom.
Yeah, we just got out.
I'm gonna be home later.
Mr. Lowstein's gonna taking me
and Carrie to get food.
(high heel breaks)
Ugh, seriously? Hey!
Carrie, hey!
Would you just look at me?
What, are you, like, mad at me?
Carrie.
- I didn't mean to hurt you.
- (cellphone vibrates)
- Hey, I'm here.
- Oh, my God, Carrie.
Carrie!
(gentle music)
(singer vocalizing)
Through the Juno bush
You see her lips
are miming Gwen Stefani
The horizon takes a trip
Along her body
Staring at the posters
on your wall
As they talk
about my chances
Boy, you're so tragic
Your floor was damaged
From months ago
Where you dropped a hot comb
dancing to neo-soul
The trees are gold
On your iPhone background
Which is funny
'cause you cut down
Like eight last spring
for the new lawn
How's it look, baby?
How's it feel?
Is it too much for you?
Big fucking deal
Me, me, me
That's all we know
Me, me, me
That's all we know
You might think you do
But I bet you don't
You might think you do
But I bet you don't
(vocalizing)
I heard you joined
the Peace Corps
Planting ferns
And feeding the poor
You're not so bad anymore
(vocalizing)
Me, me, me
That's all we know
That's all we know
That's all we know
Me, me, me
That's all we know
That's all you know
You might think you do
But I bet you don't
You might think you do
But I bet you don't
(vocalizing)