The Angela Chapters (2020) Movie Script

I was desperate. I was willing to do
anything. I almost put an ad up saying I
need $350 by tomorrow morning.
Tell me what you want, I'll do it.
I was desperate.
I would have done animals at that point.
I would have done anything it took to
get that money.
I'm doing what I have to do to survive.
Got kicked out.
I was a housewife for a year and a half.
I got out of the Army because some man
said that he would take care of me, and
I was deep enough to depend on somebody
else.
And he kicked me out.
I was kind of bouncing from here to
there, wherever I could stay for a
stayed in a place with no heat.
I'm running a room with my friends for
$200 a month. I eat maybe once a day
because I can't afford to eat.
I've got $3 in my wallet.
I have $3. You want to see it?
That is all the money I have to my name.
Baby.
When I was on the phone with the bank, I
was crying because I just didn't know
what to do.
You...
It kind of saved my life.
I'm kind of getting kicked out of the
place I'm living now.
I've got a maximum of 60 days.
As soon as I get money, it's gone.
Gas, cell phone, car payment, car
insurance, food.
I couldn't afford to eat.
And then my boyfriend, he made sure that
I had food, even scraped up some money
and got some food.
Well, usually it's the other way around.
Usually it's me making sure that, you
know, somebody else survives.
So it's nice being the one taking care
of.
Because I'm two months late on my car
payment, and I'm about a month and a
late on my car insurance, plus running
low on gas, plus getting ready to move
into a new place, plus we're going out
and spending $400 tomorrow to get a bed.
Finances are tight.
You do what you got to do.
First of all, my father doesn't know I
exist.
My mom found out, they had a physical
relationship, and she found out she was
pregnant. She went to his house to go
tell him that she was pregnant, and he
wasn't there.
All of his stuff was packed and gone.
So he has no idea that he has a
daughter.
I was pretty much raised between my mom
and my grandma.
When my mom went to jail, my grandma had
me for a few years, but then they said
that my great -grandma, but then she was
too old to take care of me, especially
going to foster homes and friends of the
church or friends of the family.
When I was really young, I was a member
of the church, the Assembly of God.
I got sent to people from the church.
They took care of me when my mom went to
jail or I got taken away from.
The house being so nasty and dirty that
nobody should live there, let alone a
child. No heat, no running water,
no food in the house, not enough food in
the house.
We had probably about 20 cats.
They didn't know where the litter box
was, so they went wherever they
wanted to.
An electrician came over to the house,
had to move my bed to get to the plug,
and they found a dead, decayed cat under
my bed.
There were maggots under my bed, eating
that cat.
And me and my friend were eating oatmeal
one time, and we just happened to look
down, and there was maggots in the food.
The general smell of the house would
feel bad that it would... I didn't even
know I had a dead, decaying cat
underneath my bed.
I used to get laughed and teased at at
school, but I never understood why.
They said, you smell, and I'm like, I
don't smell.
I had no clue. I got my head slammed up
against the bus window once,
and it really freaking hurt.
The guy only got the kid who was a high
schooler. He had the great big high
school books that are sick.
and came up behind me and I was looking
out the window and just smashed my head
into the window.
A lot of times the county would step in
and they'd take the cats away or take
our animals away.
So I would get attached to an animal and
it would get taken away.
It killed me but I just came to accept
it.
I mean I knew it was a little bit wrong
but I didn't.
I wasn't raised in an environment like
this where it's clean.
I was raised in that environment.
That's all I knew.
I was raised in Phil.
My mom went to jail for child neglect.
I didn't know how bad I had it.
I was happy.
My mom would take me shopping, and we'd
go try on clothes and stuff.
And for hours, I actually thought that I
was actually going to get to keep them.
And I got to take them home.
And then something came up, so we had to
take them back.
I think she had a really messed up
childhood herself.
She did the best that she could with me.
I used to watch the Olympics every year,
every time they came on, and I just, I
dreamt of being a gymnast someday.
I really like the floor exercise and the
balance beam. I actually took probably
five pallets on one side and five
pallets on another, and I put a board
it, and I'd go up there with my radio,
and I'd dance.
I had a blast. I thought I was the only
child.
So I had to find somebody to have fun,
and I was out there dancing.
I found out when I was older that when I
would go to stay at my cousin's house,
she was a cousin by marriage, but I'd go
to stay at her place and our older
cousin, who was five or six years older
than us, between the ages of four and
seven, he would sneak into the room and
he would play with us while we were
sleeping. And I had no clue, except that
one time that he made it quite clear
and pulled us over into the sleeping
bag.
Looking back, he probably wanted us to.
That happened when I was a little bit
older, thinking probably eight or nine.
I was 16.
I just moved out. I met a boyfriend, and
I needed out.
So I moved out.
We got married at the age of 19 for the
first time.
I've actually been married twice
already.
I don't like wasting my life.
I don't like wasting... I love to love
and I love to be loved. But if I
accomplish nothing in my life but to be
a good wife and a good mother, then I'll
die a happy woman.
I'll give my man anything.
He wants. Just appreciate it.
And that's how I've always... I've
always been, whether they've appreciated
or not.
And I've always been treated like shit.
Because I love them.
Because I loved them.
And I thought that's what it was all
about.
But I've never thought about what I
want. It's always, what do I think the
wants?
How do I think they would like it?
But if it wasn't for those bad
relationships, I wouldn't know how good
now. You can't appreciate what you have
now if you haven't had to deal with
stuff in your past.
Yeah, I'm pretty submissive in every
aspect of my life.
I actually had a rape fantasy, and I
actually let it out.
But it was very fun. It was probably one
of the hottest moments of my life.
The conversation pretty much went.
You know, he was asking me, you know,
what's your fantasy?
What's your one fantasy that you've
never told anybody else?
And I said, I won't do it.
You're going to think I'm a freak or I'm
weird or something.
And he said, no, come on, tell me. I'm
like, I can't.
Five minutes of arguing later, I told
him that I wanted to be raped.
And he said, that's not weird at all.
And I'm like, it's not weird at all.
been raped.
You know, I've been in mental
institutions because I was raped.
That word is actually quite common for
women who have been raped or been
physically abused to like it because
it's trusting.
And it was, I picked him up at the
airport.
He came back from New York or something,
and we'd had it all planned out. I
brought the black hoodie, and I brought
the knife, and we lived in an apartment.
And I'm, you know, dealing with my key,
trying to get it in the door.
You know, he's got the knife, and he's
got the hoodie on.
Acting like he's trying to go into the
other apartment.
And I open the door and he lands me
inside and rips off my shirt,
puts a knife to my throat, ties my shirt
as, like, restraint, and
pushes me into the bedroom, gets me on
the bed, and, uh...
Sorry.
The feel of the knife was so incredibly
hot. And I was able to actually get up
and run away a little bit.
And then he just grabbed the back of the
shirt and ripped me back down to the
bed, which was freaking awesome.
Just holding me down and fucking the
shit out of me.
And then we later found out that the
windows were open.
So as I'm screaming, you know, please
no, please no, don't.
In reality, inside I was screaming, oh
my God, this feels so good.
I was in two mental institutions.
I couldn't handle the rapes.
I couldn't handle the physical abuse.
I guess it all just started boiling
down. I wanted to kill myself and it
cutting and I just wanted to hurt
myself.
I was having panic attacks a few times a
week.
Some people call it rape. Some people
call it being molested. I think it's
the same thing.
I've at least five times.
My cousin.
Some guy at the carnival.
There's some more I just know I've
laughed about.
Do you think I'm sexy?
Even though I'm epileptic?
I got carded. That was so cool.
Hello.
And I am 26 years old.
26 years old. Okay.
Great.
So, we're going to do our third shoot
together tonight.
Okay. And so, do you understand the
types of things that we're going to be
tonight? Yes.
Since we've shot Taylor before, it's
basically the same kinds of things. Any
things that we've added, you've already
signed a document acknowledging those
new things and you're agreeing to those
new things that we're going to do
tonight. Yes. Okay, cool.
Are you here for your own free will?
Yes. How are you feeling today?
I am feeling wonderful today. Okay. How
do you feel right this second? I feel
good. Okay.
Now, we don't want to have you get any
undue physical strain or any kind of...
any kind of physical danger when you're
shooting here tonight. Because of the
nature of what we're doing, there's a
certain amount of manhandling of you
physically, a certain amount of so
-called violence, whether implied,
you know, fictitious scenarios.
That's all well and good. We have to
make sure, first and foremost, that your
safety is adhered to, okay? So your safe
word is I strongly urge you tonight to
use your safe word if you're feeling any
discomfort, any dizziness, okay, if you
feel that you don't want to stop for any
reason at all.
If you're physically tired, if you feel
exhausted, whatever, dehydrated, make
sure you use your safe word. If I think
that you aren't using your safe word, I
will stop the shoot. And I won't pay you
your full fee. I'll pay you some sort
of kill fee, maybe probably half.
So I have to use my own discretion, and
I can't continue shooting you if I feel
that you're not physically able.
You get some money, probably half, but
let's try to be sensible. And I know you
need money, but it's not worth it.
endangering your health or physically
seriously injuring yourself.
Okay, so I'm going to trust you and I
definitely trust me to take care of you.
So that's good.
Do you know if somebody cares?
I do.
Don't get fucking hot.
I don't want to piss myself.
I like it when you piss yourself.
You're a weird brother.
It's not that bad.
I've seen you with your clothes off
before. You've changed right in front of
When we were at the lake last summer.
You're watching me?
Mm -hmm.
Why not?
I'm your assistant.
I know, but you're a hot sister.
Let's pretend we're at the lake going
out.
I'll show you.
I'll show you that someone can like you
no matter what, epilepsy or not.
Let's just pretend.
Hey. Down, up, little sister.
You're gonna change into your bathing
suit.
You sure about this?
Yeah.
You don't mind changing in front of your
brother, do you?
I don't know. Now it feels a little
weird.
You're not a freak.
You say so.
You're my little sister, and I'm telling
you, you're hot.
You believe me?
I don't know.
Come on, sit down. I want to show you
something.
I'll show you something.
Just sit there.
He's laughing so nicely.
Did I hit you hard enough?
Did I fucking hit you hard enough?
I've got $7 in my wallet this time.
$7.
You have $7 to your name this week.
I used to burn myself.
The most severe case I've seen was a
woman who was raped, and her body, she
so nasty, her skin so disgusting.
She actually soaked her clothes in
gasoline and set herself on fire to try
burn her skin.
Burn it off.
I would let somebody punch me.
Preferably not the jaw because I move my
jaw a lot. I talk a lot.
So probably like up here.
But not the temple because that could
kill me.
I might have one guy actually do it and
it was really hot.
I think it's more the control.
I love being dominated, especially in
bed. It's just, I love a man taking
control.
I thought my life was over. I didn't see
the purpose in life.
My ex kicked me out.
I had no job.
Car payment and bills.
That's what had been piling up because
he wanted to take care of his first.
No place to live.
No place to sleep.
Nothing to eat.
I didn't see the purpose in fighting so
hard to get back off the tap when all we
do is fight to live.
I can count to ten.
Why does he make me count to ten,
everybody?
One.
Two.
Three.
Please let me get...
It's a fraud.
The most important thing is to be a good
wife and a good mother.
It's the most important.
But I'd love to own a horse refuge.
The animals that the Humane Society take
in, they've got no place to go.
I'd love to be able to take them in, and
I love horses.
I love animals.
They're awesome. They know when I had a
dog that knew when I was upset.
She would always come up to me.
and she'd put her head on my shoulder
like she was giving me a hug.
She snuck her head into my neck.
I had one dog that was very protective.
My ex started pulling some crazy stunts,
just doing crazy stuff, and I was
really scared. I didn't know what he was
capable of. So I told her, I said,
Emma, you need to protect me tonight.
I slept on the couch so I could be more
aware.
But I noticed that she slept like in the
attention position.
She was like this. She was a German
shepherd. I love shepherds.
She just slept like this, her ears up
the entire time.
She'd get up every once in a while and
she'd patrol the house.
And then she'd lay right back down next
to me.
And she was there for me.
An animal would know.
I didn't think I'd ever find somebody
who would love me and appreciate me.
I didn't see the point of living because
I didn't think I would ever get over
the feel of what had been done to me.
When I was younger, I could still feel
the guy's tongue sweating across my
And I had no control.
I had been in a panic attack for
probably about 15 minutes. I had been
hyperventilating for about 15 minutes. I
had no physical control over my body.
And he totally abused that.
And I remember he tried kissing me,
sticking his tongue in my mouth. And
I mustered up the energy to push myself
back just a little bit.
And when he was pulling his tongue out
of my mouth, he was sliding it across my
face. I was 18.
My intentions on cutting myself was I
knew that it was It took
the edge off I was able to get a clear
head I Wanted to tell myself I wanted to
drive my car 90 miles an hour into a
brick wall But I figured before I did
I would try cutting to see if I could
take away the edge
She might need it.
a little bit of just bathroom stuff.
Yeah.
Yeah. I started doing scat.
I just kept doing, I started doing just
like the regular, the piss stuff.
And then I got all these requests for it
and I'm like, well, you know, I may as
well, I'm doing it. I may as well get
paid for it, you know?
And I started doing the scat stuff, and
I would get on my hands and knees, and I
would shit on the floor. It's very
disgusting. I mean, like, when you see
the toilet, it doesn't look that bad,
but when it's, like, all piled up on the
floor and... Oh, my gosh.
Disgusting. Oh, I would definitely
vomit. The thought of it's making me
I'm going to eat my shit.
It's so good.
I would.
I would for the right amount of money.
Desperate times call for desperate
measures. What can I say?
And then the scene just plays out from
there. There's so many things you can do
with it.
It's great. I love it. Okay, cool.
I absolutely... It's incredible.
And the guy's kind of mean to you,
right? The guy played by me is kind of
sadistic and really, really mean, but
it's still okay, right? I mean, it's
in a nice way.
It's totally cool.
I have a total blast.
I realized I could switch it on and off
like that to be so...
So sadistic and be so scared and
terrified like, oh my God, I'm not going
make it out of here. And then next thing
you know, I'm sitting here having a
beer, chilling.
I
was
raised in filth.
That's the only thing I could compare it
to.
Our friends' houses weren't, you know, I
mean, they didn't have cat shit
everywhere, but they weren't the
cleanest, so I just thought it was
My place is pretty clean. Mm -hmm. Ain't
no maggots.
I appreciate that.
Maggot -free.
Rock on.
Behind the scenes, that's awesome.
Maggot -free. Rock on.
So we're making, like, a really fun
little...
Behind the scenes fucking thing.
Yeah.
Maggot -free frog fun.
I'm glad you like it.
The biography of Captive Candace.
That's me.
A shit -eating girl who likes maggot
-free environments.
I do. I appreciate them very much.
So what are we doing now? What's
happening now, dear?
I'm refilling very slowly.
Okay. We're refilling.
Because we have to do a lot more scenes.
It's going to be a late night tonight,
dear. I hope you're okay with that.
I'm cool. I'm having a blast.
So much fun. I know.
I know.
I know.
Get all the laughing out.
Your first line is...
Do you think I'm sexy even though I have
a lot of dick? Check this out.
I just peeled off all the blood and
stuff from the plastic.
I got a plastic burn last time I was
here.
I go back and I'm like, what the hell is
that?
Oh, it must have been from the plastic.
You are so cute.
You're cutie.
Thank you.
Okay, yeah.
Straight ahead.
Looking into the camera or looking at
you?
Hmm, you can look at me.
That's good. That's okay.
Do you think I'm sexy, even though I'm
epileptic?
Any moment I can just fall over and
start shaking and
banging around and hitting people and...
It's not sexy. It's freaky.
I think you're super hot.
You are.
I don't feel it.
You don't what? I don't feel it. I mean,
I can...
I can be out shopping at any moment.
I can want to go and hang out with my
friends, but I'm always scared that I'm
just going to, the strobe light's going
to turn on, and I'm just going to fall
over, start banging around, hitting
people, bust my head open at any time.
I know, but don't worry about it. You
can't go through your whole life being
worried and scared about it.
You have epilepsy.
That's a fact.
Right? But you're still sexy. People
still look at you. I see people when
out, like when we were at the mall the
other day.
Guys check you out. Guys think you're
hot.
Yeah, but they haven't seen it.
They haven't seen where I drop and I
thrust around and I piss myself.
I mean, disgusting.
I have to carry extra clothes in my car
because I pee myself.
My friends say they don't care, but I
know they're probably just as scared,
but they're probably more embarrassed
me or anything to be around somebody
like me.
Well, they're friends, and they might be
worried and concerned about you.
And they want to make sure that you're
safe.
But they're not, like, scared. They
don't think that you're a freak.
They just want to... But I am a freak.
You're not a freak.
You have a physical condition.
I'd do anything to take it away.
I've always thought you were sexy.
I'm glad somebody does.
Well, I'm not the only one, but I
definitely do.
And I've seen you have a seizure before,
and I still think you're sexy.
See?
See, now you're smiling.
It's fine.
You see, and you shouldn't worry about
it, because that'll...
Make it worse. If you don't think about
it, it's better.
But it's there.
I have to think about it. I always have
to be prepared.
I don't want to hurt somebody.
My elbow gets tossed out and I nail
somebody in the face.
I don't want to hit my friends.
I don't want to put that kind of burden
on them.
Sometimes I just want to stay locked up.
Where nobody can ever...
I can't ever hurt anybody.
I can't ever embarrass anybody again.
Well, you're my little sister, right?
And your big brother will always take
care of you. You know that, right?
I accept you exactly the way you are.
I've known you your whole life, and I've
seen this my whole life.
It doesn't bother me.
And it shouldn't bother any guy who's
going to be with you.
Why would anybody want to be with me?
I mean, friends are one thing. Friends,
you know, come and go. But who's going
to want to be with somebody that they
have to worry about?
Someone who actually truly cares about
you.
That's it.
I don't think I'll ever find him.
Well, I care about you no matter what.
Not because I'm your brother.
Thank you.
Well, we're family and we've got to
stick together no matter what.
I think you're pretty, sis.
I know, it's kind of weird.
That's the latest.
I mean, we grew up in the same house.
I've seen you fall down and hit the
floor.
I still thought it was Becky when you
were shaking and convulsing on the
I'll show you that someone can like you
no matter what, epilepsy or not.
Let's just pretend.
Okay.
Stand up, little sister.
So you're going to change into your
bathing suit.
You sure about that?
Yeah.
You don't mind changing in front of your
brother, do you?
I don't know. It feels a little weird.
Anyone would be crazy to not want that
body.
Come on, sit down. I want to show you
something.
I'll show you something.
Just sit there.
Just fucking look at me.
Let's see.
Turn the lights off, girl.
What are you doing?
I just want to show you how pretty you
are.
No.
Yeah. Please.
Please don't do this now. I just want to
show you how pretty you are.
Please don't do this now.
I just want to show you how pretty you
are, see?
Okay?
Please.
Does that make you feel a little dizzy?
Thank you.
I didn't go to the hospital until the
next day. I called him, and he was like,
well, it's really bad. We won't have it
all. You can wrap it up for now.
We'll wait for the hospital later. So
wrapped it up real tight. As I woke up,
had two bottles, and I puked them out in
the waiting room, the emergency room.
I had to get the fist up. I kept puking
it up over and over again in a teeth.
It's so amazing.
Because sometimes you lose control.
You
don't
know how to gauge what's real and what's
not and what
hurts and what doesn't.
just to gamble from then on.
It's either real or it's not.
You're gonna do anything I fucking tell
you, right?
Yes, Master.
Tell me what to do.
I'll do exactly what you say.
No matter what it is.
I'm a total fucking slave.
Yes, not your master.
What happened to you?
I'm being protected by the devil.
You know,
Part of the benefits of, you know,
giving yourself up to the devil and
worshipping the devil is, you know,
protection and,
you know, getting your prayers answered.
He looks out for my life because I've
devoted my life to him,
so...
He protects my life because it's sacred
to him.
My body belongs to you.
That was good.
I've been close to death.
Like a hairline, you know, fracture away
from death.
So many times.
And I just feel like I've got like, you
know, a guardian angel looking over me
because I should have been dead by now.
Does that feel good for you?
It's like you feel the pain, but you
kind of separate from it. So you feel
but you don't at the same time. It's
like kind of paralleled.
I'm being choked, Pastor.
You know those little girls, those tiny
little girls that they dress up and they
make them look like cute little dolls
and put makeup on them and put cute
outfits on them. They do little pageants
and they compete against each other to,
like, be, like, the cutest and, like,
well, you know, whatever.
Yeah. Well, John Ray Ramsey was this,
like, cute little girl. I can't remember
how old she was. Yeah, six. So she was a
young one.
Gorgeous. Like, cute little girl.
Looked like a, like, doll.
Pretty much.
And she got, like, she got murdered. So
they thought that her parents
did it.
And then, like, there was a guy who I
think he
confessed to the murder.
All these weird circumstances. Like,
they found her in the basement of the
in this one room, I think. And I think
she was...
either tied up like she was bound it
could be that the parents like a mom
specifically maybe she wasn't very good
looking growing up and she wants to live
vicariously through her daughter and
wants to see her daughter good attention
and you know see her loved and adored by
people because they didn't have that
and a lot of moms want to live
vicariously through their daughters
It was the middle of the day. I was
sitting on my bed.
It was a beautiful day. The sun was
shining.
The sun was coming in my window.
Nothing really had happened that day.
It was kind of like a normal day in my
life. I was 11 years old. I'm in grade
I'm just a little girl.
I had my homework stuff out.
I wasn't, like, doing anything. Like, I
wasn't, like, doing my homework. I
wasn't reading a book. I wasn't talking
to anyone. I was just sitting on my bed,
just kind of, like, zoning out. And it
almost felt like someone sat down beside
me on my bed.
And it almost felt like someone was just
sitting with me.
And they were, without words, without,
like,
you know, without communicating in
any...
physical or, like, auditory way. They
sort of were, like, kind of...
And I just looked over, and it was so
shiny. It was like a silver made out of
metal. It's so shiny, and it has this,
like, compelling feeling. Like, this
feeling just came over me from, like,
this weird presence, you know,
kind of encouraging me to...
You know, I don't even know why I did
it. Like, it was like someone encouraged
me to.
And I just had this feeling like I was
in a trance, feeling that I wanted to do
it, and it happened.
You think, oh, that's a little bit
painful.
But it's almost like I didn't feel
anything. It's almost like whoever
to do it didn't want me to feel pain
because they wanted me to do it badly
enough.
So it's almost like I was so out of it,
and I just did it.
Like you can feel it, but it doesn't
make you uncomfortable.
It doesn't make you want to stop.
Kind of accept it, you know. It's not
like it turns you on or anything. It's
just a sacrifice that you're making if
you accept it. It doesn't hurt. You
even feel it. It's just like you're not
even there, you know. Like you get into
such a trance. You're just like passing
away. Like it felt right. Like it felt
like the right thing to do.
Everyone's having so much fun, like,
just interacting, being social, being
happy. And all of a sudden, I felt like
I was in this weird little bubble, and I
couldn't, like, connect to anyone. I'm
completely alone. Like, I'm watching my
friends have fun together and hang out.
I went out back in the alleyway, and I,
like, crossed the alleyway, and I was
leaning up against the garage door. I
felt like the world was ending for me.
Like, I...
complete and utter despair and sorrow
like I wanted I was and I fell down on
knees and I'm just like leaning against
the garage door and
wanting like someone to just come and
pick me up and save me and I
must have been out there for a long time
and I all of a sudden felt like a
guillotine fell down in front of me and
like chopped off my existence
And they were there in front of me,
like, and I felt like I couldn't reach
and I felt like they couldn't notice me,
they weren't looking at me, and if I
said something, they didn't hear me, and
I felt like I wasn't, I didn't exist to
them, and they didn't exist to me, but
they were there, and I could see them.
I was just, I was, like, just begging
for him to just, like, someone to help
It was out of nowhere, and it was
unexplainable. There was nothing to
it. It just happened.
And I'll never forget it.
What better way to get the attention of
your God, you know, than to release your
blood? Because that's a big sacrifice,
is your own blood. And that's a really
good way to, you know, to pray and to do
a ritual.
You know, growing up, Not having a
religion in my family, I just felt like
was something out there, and I wanted to
reach out to it, and I was always
praying to God, and that really didn't
work, and then things started getting
dark for me.
Like, dark.
And I felt like that darkness
was leading me to the devil.
And when I kept getting closer to that
point, that's when better things started
happening to me. And, you know, dreams
were coming true and prayers were being
answered and my life started changing
and things were turning around for me.
And that's when I feel like I kind of,
you know, hit the nail on the head, you
know, when I found the devil.
It takes a second for the blood to come
out, and all of a sudden, it just kind
of starts rushing out.
And it's just like, blood, like the
blood red, again, pale skin, is one of
most amazing things to me. It just like,
it gushes out.
And it's like, that's me, that's my
body, that's my blood, you know. The
part, like... you know that keeps you
alive that flows through your body at
times it's constantly moving it's your
blood it's your life it's alive and it's
there your your essence like the essence
of your physical being anyways your
physical being your vessel
And sometimes I feel like my body needs
to bleed because I feel so trapped that
I want to get out.
You're letting something out, but you're
also letting something in.
It's an exchange, almost like when you
breathe.
And I'm also, you know, letting the
devil in and inviting him in and saying,
I'm, you know, bleeding for you because
I need you to come in and help me be
in this body.
you
Wait until I fucking puke.
I'll be back tomorrow.
And so today is November 21st, 2010, is
that correct?
That's correct. Cool. So you just sat
with me for two nights in a row.
Yeah. So how were the shoots?
They were great.
Great? Yeah. How did the directors treat
you?
Awesome. Okay, cool.
Was everything explained to you prior to
shooting as far as the things that we
may do or use during shooting?
Absolutely. Cool. So you had an
understanding of what we were about to
we did it.
And then we did it, and so after
tonight's shoot, do you need any medical
attention? No.
Okay, cool.
Would you like to come back and do more
work with me in the future?
Absolutely. You would? Great. I would
love to work with you because you're
awesome.
Okay, babe. Well, take care. We'll talk
to you later, all right? Bye. Bye.
I usually puke, like, a lot.
You blush it.
Behind the scenes footage.
You're gorgeous.
Good job.
More to come.
I am just going to... Certainly are.
It's like... I feel that being
submissive, like a part of it is being
able to do what your master wants you to
do for yourself.
If someone wants you to do something and
you want to please them, you'll do it.
And you don't really feel pain.
It's part of, like, to me being
submissive is, yeah,
wanting to please the don't, I guess. So
instead of feeling the actual physical
pain, you're just feeling the desire to
fulfill the master's. Yeah, I feel good
that I'm doing what's asked of me.
It's like the reward of, you know,
getting the pain and feeling, yeah.
You're awesome.
Okay. So you did fucking amazing. We're
just getting started.
You're a natural.
You've never been on camera doing this
shit before ever, right? Never.
It's the first time ever.
Yep. You're fucking great. Oh my god. So
here we are more between scenes. We're
going to do another scene coming up.
But look at you. I'm just admiring how
fucking gorgeous you are. This is
That literally looks like you've been
through a war.
I have. It's called life.
The war called life.
I think it's super hot.
I like the 13 stitches.
Yeah, 13.
Lucky number 13.
Good God.
You always wanted to be a model?
Well, no, I didn't. I wanted to be an
actress my whole life.
You did? Yeah, I did, actually.
When you were like a little kid or what?
Yeah, up until I was like, you know, 12.
What did you want to do? What kind of
acting?
Movies, big movies.
I wanted to be a famous actress.
You wanted to be a movie star?
Oh yeah, for sure.
I took acting lessons when I was like
I wanted to be a movie star.
In Hollywood?
Anywhere. I just wanted to be famous.
I just wanted to be in movies.
Because it's abnormal.
It's interesting to look at.
It's disgusting.
It disturbs people.
Why do you want to disturb people so
badly?
I don't like people.
They're boring.
They, um...
They're all the same.
I think different is good.
You can create as much as you want, but
you can't have creation without
destruction. You can't have destruction
without creation.
You have to destroy to create.
If you want to create yourself, you have
to first destroy yourself.
I hate you.
I love my big brother.
I love my big brother.
Dear big brother, I'm sorry that I can't
do anything without you. Dear big
brother, I'm sorry I was born nervous.
I'm so sorry I haven't taken my
medication in over a year.
That's why I need you here.
Please hurry.
How skinny you got for me, Lester.
I died again.
AJ, stop!
I don't think what we're doing is wrong.
Because if you love someone, it's the
only truth that matters.
Let's keep it in the family.
I felt like a changed life.
I'll always come back to you, master.
I'll always come back for more.
Fuck me like a ghost.
Because I have nowhere else to go.
So I'll keep coming back to haunt you.
Because that's what I'm good for.
that's what I am.
Will you marry me? Will you thwart me
out? Threaten me a thousand times.
Fucking kill me, master.
Take my call to court.
Fuck me like a ghost.
I look at myself in the mirror.
And I see you, master.
Good morning idiot.
I fucking hate you.
It's okay, big brother.
You can use me to get to her.
Open me up and use me. I'll be her
grave.
I'll dress like her for you. I'll wear
high heels.
Please, please make me look like her.
I'll be her. I'll do anything.
Please let me be her for you.
I am her.
Please fuck me like I'm her.
Please. I can be what
you want.
I'm wearing my pigtails. I don't know
how to do anything. I can't do anything
right. Hit me as hard as you can. I have
no idea how far I'll go. Come on, big
brother. Teach me how to fuck.
I disappointed big brother today.
I disappointed myself today.
I need to be punished so fucking badly.
Bye.
You and I would never know.
How are we supposed to know?
One. Two.
Three. Four.
Five.
Six.
Seven.
Eight.
Nine.
Ten. Eleven.
13. 14.
16. 17.
One more, please. Make it a good one.
Please, big brother.
I need you forever.
Give me more, Master. Harder.
It won't make me bleed, Master.
I'll do anything you say, big brother.
Thank you, big brother.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Hit me as hard as you can, big brother.
Oh, my
God.
Hit me again, big brother.
As hard as you can.
Kill me, big brother.
I'm going to die for you, big brother.
Kill me, big brother. Kill me, master.
My mom passed away when I was four years
old.
I've heard lots of different stories
about why my mom passed away.
When I was younger, I was told that she
died of a heart attack.
But when I got to an age where I could
really understand what truly happened,
sister told me that she had passed away
of a drug overdose.
She choked on her vomit in her sleep.
And I remember the night that she passed
away almost perfectly. I remember.
Being in my bedroom with my sister, I
remember the sirens, and I remember
hearing footsteps in the hallway and
just touched voices.
And my sister and I would poke our heads
out of the bedroom, and my dad would
say, oh, get back in your room.
I don't remember really understanding
anything, you know, because I guess I
so young.
But at the funeral, I remember sitting
in the front row.
Right in front of the casket, and I
remember walking up to the casket, and I
my hand on her hand. I grabbed it.
I remember climbing into the casket and
kind of sitting on her chest. I was so
confused. I didn't quite understand why
her hand was so cold. It didn't feel
real. It didn't feel like her.
It's not what she felt like, and she was
so pale.
She was never, ever pale, and her makeup
looked disgusting.
And I remember the looks on my
grandparents' faces. They looked so
and heartbroken, and then they took me
outside.
I only have, like, a couple memories of
her. I remember her teaching me how to
swing when I was really little.
When she signed me up for kindergarten,
she taught me how to swing.
She would leave me at home by myself. I
was three.
She would go to the grocery store to buy
cigarettes or something, and then she
would come back, and she would, like,
ask me what had happened on Baywatch,
I would tell her what happened.
And, um... I remember... I
don't remember.
I don't remember much.
I wish I could have gotten to know more
about her. You know, like, I wish I
knew... Her favorite color or her
favorite band or her favorite movie.
I think the only things I got from her
were probably tall and skinny.
My mom was like a supermodel.
My mom's favorite drug was cocaine, and
I do cocaine sometimes.
It makes me feel a lot closer to her. I
feel like that's something we could have
shared together if she... Oh, how old
was she when she passed away?
Oh, I think she was 33, maybe.
Maybe 32.
I do cocaine to feel closer to my mom.
She didn't.
And she always had very, very, very long
nails.
I like to think it was for the cocaine.
She always had such long nails. And in
the casket, she did not have long nails.
And I thought, that can't be my mom.
My mom wouldn't.
I don't know if I can say that I missed
her because I never really got the
chance to know her, you know. So I was
mostly raised by...
My sister, she liked to slam my head
into the refrigerator.
My sister now, she holds some kind of
strange grudge to my mother.
And I don't really understand why,
because my mom never really did anything
anybody.
She was a really good person.
I've been diagnosed with a lot of
things.
Bipolar, menopause, borderline
personality disorder, ADHD,
OCD, schizophrenic, schizoaffective,
Prozac, lithium, Zoloft, Paxil,
Respiradol, Adderall, Ritalin, Advant,
Klonopin, Xanax, 24 pills a day, dude.
Lamectal, Respiradol, Trizodone,
Theracol. Every single one I took had a
bad effect.
I think my mom was crazy, legitimately.
My mom was the kind of person, every
single day, she would tell us, I'm
this car next week, I'm starting this
job. for getting this house. We had
nothing. I learned that Santa Claus
didn't exist.
I know I fucked up. I had just gotten
out of prison and I wanted to get my
together. I had a baby while I was in
prison. She was 18 months old when I
home. I came home from prison. I was
doing three to four grams of fucking raw
heroin a day.
I've been a junkie for 20 years.
I guess the way I was raised, I'm not.
Stable. Instability.
People have boxes they live in. Their
parents' boxes.
I want a box that keeps me safe. If I
had that, maybe I'd have my kids or
something or anything I own.
I started using heroin again.
because I didn't have a choice. I was
sick.
My husband left. He went out to sea. He
was going to leave me. He dumped me off
in Virginia with the baby in like a car
that broke down in a hotel. I was living
in a hotel at the time. I was basically
using him. I wanted somebody.
He's going to leave you. Take your kid.
You don't have any family. I thought I
was going to die. So I started to get
depressed.
And I started doing fucking cocaine
again.
I chased love like a crackhead. Love
that wasn't there.
I was shooting.
How much fucking crack? It was
ridiculous.
I learned how to murder myself in the
purest form. Prison wasn't that bad. No
one tried to fight me. I tried to kill a
couple girls.
I don't know if you've ever heard
voices.
When you really hear voices, you don't
know the difference.
I OD'd.
They were all dead. Everything was
fucked up and dirty.
Now, keep in mind, there's real people
actually robbing me. and guns to my head
breaking into my house. And I hit my
head up here.
There was no one there to protect me. I
remember talking to myself.
I'm like, fuck you.
Over the next few weeks, my eye turned
black.
And I walked by the hallway, and there
was a toddler bed in there I painted for
her. And I saw a silhouette of her, just
the black.
I feel like my whole body shuddered, and
I died. Then I realized, bitch, you're
going to get lost.
So I ran out the door, just left it
open.
I've dealt with anorexia, bulimia,
forever, I guess, between all the drugs
doing and that. I mean, I weighed 67
pounds. I looked at myself in the
and I saw a fat person.
I never really left my room. I would
drink and then make myself nauseous, and
would throw up. And, you know, I didn't
want to leave my bedroom, so I would
throw up into little Ziploc plastic
baggies, and I would keep them
bed.
I would just sit and binge all day.
And then I would eat more.
People become anorexic because of some
sort of body dysmorphia. They're not
comfortable with how they look. I
personally am not comfortable with how I
I would prefer to be much skinnier. I
would like for you to be able to see
bone, every shadow between every bone. I
feel like that would be beautiful, but
I can't seem to get myself any smaller
than this.
No matter how hard I try, no matter how
hard I throw up, no matter how many days
I go without eating, no matter how many
drugs I take, I'm still over 90 pounds.
And that's not skinny enough.
I would die to look like a skeleton.
I think 85 pounds would be perfect.
But what if when I get there, I'm not
perfect and I have to get smaller?
Then I would get smaller.
I would just keep pushing and pushing
until I get to that.
Perfect size.
I remember when I was 120 pounds and
just looked like a normal person to
everybody else. But to me, I looked
horrendous. I looked like a beached
the night.
I thought, I'll get down to 100 pounds,
and that'll be great.
And then I got down to 100 pounds, and I
thought, this isn't good enough.
I was so excited about double digits.
I got down to 95, and I thought, I could
be smaller.
Double digits wasn't good enough. Then I
pushed myself a little bit more, and I
got down to 92.
Once I even made it down to 89, and that
was amazing.
I got to 89, I felt.
So beautiful. It was so small and so
light. It was definitely the best I ever
felt about myself.
And I just gained it right back.
Sure, it was only like four pounds, but
that's pretty important to me. I don't
want that four pounds. I wish that that
four pounds could be cut off of my skin,
but I don't know how much flesh I could
cut off before I stop existing.
When you're that malnourished, your
brain just doesn't work properly.
I had to convince these motherfuckers
that I wasn't retarded. Now I'm
I was stripping at night. I had a
boyfriend. He cheated on me with this
and she made lots of money. I was like,
oh, my God. Maybe if I was a whore, I'd
make money. When I got locked up, I was
pregnant. So they sent me to the only
maximum security prison for women.
My mom was gone at this point. My mom
just disappeared. And I remember I'd cry
and say to my dad, like, what are you,
pregnant?
What the fuck's wrong with you? Do you
want to be a liar like your mom?
They give you a turtle suit? Which is
the...
green thick post of velcro like a dress
thing she got on a bus i heard and went
to florida with the two box turtles on a
greyhound and never came back all in
all i've had a lot of i guess concussion
head trauma. I guess it caused some
problems in my head.
Schizophrenia is the most evil thing on
earth. It is not natural. Nobody should
go through it. If you could imagine all
your insecurities coming in full force,
that's how the voices are in your head.
Everyone you've ever loved, people you
even forgot, you'll hear their voices
talking and things aren't there. But I
remember his eyes and his face. His face
was really swollen. Clear as day, it
was real to me, just like my daughter.
And I won't lie to you, I called
everyone. I'm like, is she alive? Is she
okay?
I haven't seen her to this day.
I've seen pictures.
I've OD'd on the psychiatric medicine
they gave me. I saw her dead body.
I kept seeing shit. If I sat down on my
couch, I should be under the couch.
There was something in the bed. I'd
smell it. I'd see it.
Some guys are going to make you do some
fucked up shit, girl.
I could do it. I could definitely
escort, but I could also be very, very
nervous. I was really good at murdering
myself and making money. I could easily
get... murdered i would do it a risk i
would take for the money they want to
call you a whore they want to call you a
slut depending on how much money it was
i feel like i could charge a lot for
somebody to fuck me domination that's
i was really doing i loved it i love
people that want me to do things for
like a regular boring vanilla fuck would
be probably like i would probably
charge like three hundred dollars they
want to slap your face they want to bit
in your face.
Blowjob would be like easy, like a
hundred.
They want to make you their dirty little
hooker. You want me to take my dressing
out on you? You want me to treat you
like shit?
I would charge, of course, more for like
anal or any kind of like abuse that
they wanted to do.
Yeah, you've been abused too. That's
cool. But I would do anything for the
amount of money. Whatever makes you
happy, bro. Give me some money. I need
because your problem is you've been
abused and you've got money. My problem
need a box to live in, bitch. So you
have to be ready.
Sometimes
They want to hear you choking.
They want to hear you gasping for air.
They want to hear you struggling to
breathe. They want to see your face turn
blue.
So you got to know how to hang yourself.
Maybe because I like it.
I definitely do like it. I feel like I
like it so much that it could kill me
day.
I'm like 18.
I got a job at the strip club.
Eventually, I went through a hard time.
They're like, we'll take care of you.
All right, you get to fuck people for a
living. I'm like, what? They will buy
you whatever you want. Look, it'll be
like four months. I won't say shit. I'm
gangster. I'm walking around the
streets. I get raped. I get fucking
Whatever, whatever.
I handle it, right? I'll see a friend.
It'll be like vomit.
Actually, I started a girlfriend of mine
was doing it. One night, she asked me
to come out on a call with her
because...
She needed another girl. And I went. I
made money. And that was it. I ended up
being really good.
Like, one night, she asked me to go on a
call for her because she was dope sick.
So I was like, all right, fine.
So I show up at this place, and it's
four Romanian dudes.
I was definitely scared for my life on
several occasions.
Those situations aren't easy to get out
of. The girl that got me started doing
it, one night she called me. I started
out working for her. She taught me how
be a hoe. You don't kiss people. My
first job.
Dress them up like girls.
Humiliate them. Step on their balls.
Choke them.
Degrade them. Dress me up like a girl
and beat me. Fuck them in the ass.
They would pay me. Do them in the butt.
Like, true control.
You'd be that bitch that does it right.
Handy business.
So I introduced them to things. It's
home. Just wanted to do shit on them,
on them. I remember this one time I'd
made, like, $2 ,500.
I got kidnapped once and taken.
See, the other girlfriend was this
Catholic, good girl type thing. She'd
been with a girl before.
And I got to, like, teach her. You know
what I mean? Like, she wanted to know
what to do and she wanted... I was like,
all right, this is what you got to do.
He told her, you need to learn to fuck
dick like Raven. I want you to do it
she does.
And so I would give her lessons.
I mean, basically, I showed her what to
do, and I explained to her. At the end
of the day, she still wasn't as good as
me. For real, don't be afraid. You have
to open up your throat. You have to
really focus.
Suck into the giant cock.
Oh, my God, I'm a whore now.
He molested me in my sleep. He's banging
her. Why do you want him? He's taking
all your money. I ran away after he
smashed a table on some chick's head. I
don't trust you or your instincts.
Okay, yeah, that's my pussy money,
bitch. I'm gonna buy something real.
ticket out of this shit. That's when I
left. I'm like, well, fuck it. You're
pretty much marked.
There's all these creepy guys, and they
came at lunchtime. I'm like, do you have
wives and lives?
I didn't know how to fight it. Couldn't,
but I ran away when I could because I
love him and I don't know what to do. So
he had to put me in my place.
Um, it would be assault on a jail person
of a jail person.
I ripped a blood pressure cuff off my
arm, dude. I'm butt naked in a cage.
Scared of people at that point. I should
have gotten out of the first charge
and, you know, I had that second one.
Yeah, if I was acting fucking crazy,
I'm hiding on the bench, it's a minimum
sentence if I get charged.
I want a house and a house. I don't care
how big it is. I speak Boktai. Because
of my children, I want guns lining it.
Yeah, don't fuck with me. I'm gonna
them. And then die. I need to. It's not
that I want to. I'm never the best
choice. I miss him more than he misses
me. Every day being desperate with a
I always had high standards for my drug
usage.
I earned it. I tell the bitches at work,
like, the strip club, like, bro, don't
buy, like, $10 worth every fucking 10
minutes. Buy a gram. Buy an A -ball. Do
something. Because you know what you
look like? It's not, like, look like to
other people. It's look like to
yourself. That's your fucking soul. I'm
The only reason I'm trying to die is
because I'm just sitting on that street
corner, like, looking stupid.
On my 13th birthday, I went to the mall
with my grandmother.
And then when I came home, I noticed
that my dad was out of his mind drunk,
he seemed very unhappy and depressed.
So I went into my bedroom, and then I
heard some kind of commotion in the
hallway. My father's girlfriend was
holding a knife to his throat.
She was crying, and she was screaming at
him because he hid her medication. I'm
not sure what kind of mental illness she
had.
Then she tried to kill him. I just kind
of hid away in my room. I called my best
friend on my phone, and I cried to her
for hours about my horrible 13th
birthday. To apologize to me for ruining
my birthday, my father bought me a
guitar that I never learned how to play.
He never taught me how to play.
He was probably too busy drinking to
teach me.
I'll do anything for you.
100 % would do anything for me, Master.
You could turn me out right now.
You could put me on the street.
Would you own me, Master?
I'm gonna make a lot of money for my
master.
I don't care what I have to do.
I'm gonna go out and get that.
I don't care if getting skinny is
dangerous or unhealthy.
I'm not afraid of dying from being
skinny.
I would like to die from being skinny.
Number five.
pretty empty already who's responsible
for you why are we supposed to be in
these emergency situations i didn't know
quitting methadone would be so intense
it's liquid handcuffs and they still
call me a terrible person yeah i'm still
living through it because i lived
through everything how many times can i
this bitch through her house
Do you have any words for me, baby?
Like,
he
was not afraid to fucking hit me. I
don't know why guys are so afraid to hit
He made me stupid.
Like, he fucked me up. He locked me in a
closet.
Stabbed me. Like, threw me in a corner.
He ripped my shirt off. Pours 100 % out.
alcohol all over my body which burned
all the cuts like i was leaving there
black eyes and i had a bruise on my jaw
that went all the way across the day
here at my jaw to the point i couldn't
eat for like three weeks what better way
to get your aggression out than punch a
girl in the face i remember playing dead
for a minute
Get that opportunity.
I pissed you off a week ago because I
did some dumb shit. Guess what? You can
smack me around later and fucking get
that shit out your system. Every time I
would go for the door to the stairs,
that's when you'd really get mad.
It just feels right.
I like to get hit. I like to be called a
filthy whore.
It's just, it makes me happy.
And I kept going back.
I mean, I like to be smacked. I
definitely like to be smacked.
Occasionally, I like to be punched in
the face.
Oh, no. What's wrong with me? I like to
be choked.
My face.
My fucking horse face.
I want to feel like my fucking eyes are
going to pop out of my head and my lips
are going to fucking explode.
I love lots of things. They don't love
me.
Like, I want to feel like I might die.
To this day, I'm not sure what he wanted
from me.
That's what it turned out to be.
After
my mom
died, her mom died.
I think because she just couldn't take
the fact that her daughter was gone, I
guess.
I had an apartment with my first
husband. I swear I don't want to kick
out of my own apartment every week. At
first, we were fucking perfect.
And then I started.
I knew he was going to just dump me off,
man.
I saw it coming.
And then he did. And then me and my baby
were alone.
And I'm like, what am I supposed to do
with baby all by myself?
He was in the service.
You can't just dump off your wife. I
didn't know what to do. I don't like
worthless. But I also can't hold my own.
I didn't care. I actually wanted to die,
but once I had kids, I realized I
couldn't. Whatever you do, you're
supposed to do it right. That's why if
gonna do drugs and murder yourself, then
you do drugs and murder yourself. Then
you fucking do it right. Don't lie to
yourself.
Meth is some fucked up shit. It actually
kills your brain, the way I feel about
it. Alright, y 'all are still acting
crazy. Get out of the fucking carpet,
asshole. I remember hiding under the
bed.
I'm in the fucking turtle suit, bro.
The suit that I watch. When you're
right, you're right. My foot is, like,
purple. I swear to God, I thought I was
gonna lose my feet. I'm like, you can't
be poor. no feet. So I told this bitch,
I'm like, look at this shit, I need a
hospital. He kept saying the nurse was
gonna come.
I was kind of belligerent at this point,
and I'm like, dude, this is the
problem. Pounding, pain.
He took me from a hospital to jail. Fuck
is y 'all's problem? And this lady, she
wasn't trying to have it. Look at my
feet, bitch. Look at my fucking feet.
They carried me upstairs.
This shit looks like flesh. I'm hiding
under the bed. I'm trying to climb on
of the bed. They won't even give me a
toothbrush, because I'm in the suicide
watch, so I'm butt naked. With this
little, like, it looks like an x -ray
This is what I truly believe. If you're
out of your fucking mind, you make it to
a hospital with toes or body. fall off
you did something for yourself send me
psych ward fix my goddamn toes don't
send me to fucking jail for trespassing
what the fuck if you're homeless someday
a cop's gonna fuck with you you know
what i'm saying people can tell the
difference between a person that knows
what's going on and doesn't there's a
difference look at my feet so like it's
been a week and a half and i've been in
the jail i've tried to sleep in every
corner i've peeped around the corners
i've hid under the bed yeah i'm driving
legally i'm homeless i'm living in this
car peeping out the window what the fuck
are you doing what the fuck are you
doing you're being pointless i'm a dick
this shit i know makes me want my I get
more, but on the street, the only people
that pick you up are like, hey, how you
doing? You homeless?
Yeah, I'm dirty for like three weeks.
And they're like, you want this dick? 20
bucks. Oh, really?
Because there's a point when you get
drunk off of just being fucking tired
scared. Sure, I guess I'll let you help
me. If you promise.
And they go, bam.
You get like raped in your sleep or some
shit. I ended up getting raped a lot.
Like five times.
I was exhausted in front of this fucking
gas station.
I just want to put a dick in something
that's dirty.
I probably should have sucked some dicks
for 20 bucks.
to get a bus to get home.
I'm cooking it back.
You're gonna do good.
You have to do it right.
Do it right.
You're gonna go all out.
You're going to be out there. My girls
have a look.
People know who my girls are.
Don't make a mess like me.
And they know what they're getting with
my girls.
Now you're going to be too wasted to
think.
Why do people do drugs?
I'm going to give you a shotgun.
Make sure you close your mouth all the
way around my mouth because I'm going
to... blow your head off first rule
always look better than every other
you're high better fake that you're not
don't be looking desperate don't do
anything for drugs because that takes
the price down if you don't have your
faith right you're not getting anywhere
you have to make sure that you are
flawless
If you pay attention, you can be a beast
too.
Lastly is when you fuck.
Pretend like you're important. Never
have a pimp. Pretend like you have one,
make up your own shit. Your job is to
give them what they want, lure them in,
and try to keep as many as you can.
But you have to make them want you
around.
I gotta get that cash first. Thank you.
We don't eat out of candy bowls around
here. Money can buy you things. Make
sure that what you're getting before you
start is what you want.
You gotta remember, they're with you
because they're not getting what they
Give them what they want, and they will
want to keep you forever.
They'll want to marry you.
What are we doing here, bro? What do you
want me to do? How much do I get? Name
a price.
Make it high.
Ridiculously high.
Remember this. You're the shit.
Like, these motherfuckers want you. They
need you. You're the boss.
Don't not be a boss.
Never give anyone your money.
Never be pimped. Unless you're pimping
yourself.
Because that's how you get somewhere.
And if you're hoeing around, you're not
getting anywhere.
You're doing wrong.
You better be paying rent, bills, cars.
If you keep them happy, you really will
have everything you want.
Apartment, phone, clothes, money. You
won't have to do anything.
Hand in your business and don't hold it.
It's a job. That's how you treat it.
When you walk in the door, you talk like
it's a job. Hey, what am I getting? What
are you getting?
Good job.
I love giving shotguns.
Never bring them to your home. Always
use disposable phones.
Number one rule, never be pimped. You're
selling your soul, dude.
Head, foot, whatever.
It's all the same. We're giving a show.
We're being somebody.
We're getting that money. And that's how
you play it. Even if you're working a
strip club, dude, the girls will fit
with the same dude. Oh, he's mine. You
don't want the same dude. You want all
the dudes. If you walk around that
he'd be untouchable. Hi, hi, hi.
Look good. Lips are very important.
Chances are if he's not looking at your
tits, he's looking at your mouth.
When you get on stage, you rock it. Act
like you're shit. People believe it.
Even if you're lying to yourself, even
if you're lying to everyone else, don't
let them know. Believe what you are and
take what you want.
Always be the one in control. Never be
scared. You can't show fear. These guys
that you'll meet will be very
intimidating.
They will not talk to you in public. But
that's the wonderful part because
you're the secret between all the
darkness.
I'm going to try to really blow your
head off.
I'm going to say hopefully you have
security.
I didn't have any. If you run into a bad
situation, pretend like you have
people. Like, you call me on Craigslist,
but I have a fucking escort service. I
got this, I got that.
And then number two, run. Run the fuck
away, huh? For what money you lost, this
and that, run.
If you can't run, we can fight, but
sometimes it's not worth it.
You have to look good.
Trashy is good.
You never kiss a trick.
Like, if you are fucking, never kiss,
always wear a condom.
Crack dick. Call him, bro. Can't get
your shit hard. Have a great day.
time limit here.
There's nothing personal about hustling.
For me, it was about living.
For a lot of people, it is. Don't be
desperate.
Never be desperate in the game. Because
you have to spend money to make money.
Because it's your life. You're risking
your life, your body, your soul.
It's the only time you can beat somebody
up, take out your aggression.
Like, say somebody's whooped your ass
for years.
Anything can be a fetish. They all have
a story. Don't get too in -depth with
it. Be concerned.
Ain't a thing.
I like your story.
And when they want to be humiliated or
degraded, play the part.
Whatever they want. If you're fucking
someone in the ass that never did it
before, okay, I'll introduce you in the
right way. Know what you're doing. I'm
on the frontier of your asshole, brah.
much money.
Remember that.
You're welcome.
She was with my second baby dad. He
didn't even show up the night I had the
baby. I was out on the street with a
backpack.
They didn't care. Eventually this bitch
moved in. My daughter calls her mom.
I don't know what to tell you about
that.
But it breaks my heart.
She looks just like me. She doesn't even
look a thing like this. Can't be mad at
this point. I love everything about
them. I'd love to be in their life.
I've made mistakes.
I was in prison. I had made the decision
to give my baby up for adoption because
I didn't want him to have to deal with
it. When I had her, the guy from the
adoption agency had just walked out of
my room. And I have my baby in one arm
and profiles for families who are
willing to do open adoption in my other
I was planning on letting her go because
I thought that's what would be best for
her. Before I got locked up, I was
sleeping with my ex -boyfriend.
sure who she was until she popped out
and I saw her face. I went, fuck.
Like I said, my mom, she was the biggest
lying bitch I've ever known. I'm not
scared of that.
I'm not scared of what I am.
Schizophrenia comes and I go on a
fucking joyride.
I was hurt initially when I realized
what this world was about. And now I'm
sorry I brought innocent people into it.
Do you want that? Look at this.
Why'd you take me from the hospital to
jail? When you go too far. Because I'm a
real person. She is fucked up. We're
humans.
I don't know what to do. They won't let
me see my baby.
I remember taking naps with them every
afternoon.
Getting bottles every morning. Making
sure I had diapers when I got paid. My
husband throwing lit cigarettes on us in
bed. I could handle it. like getting
hit getting choked like i see logic and
people don't i don't get it if a guy
fixes your car and wants you to say
don't send your kid to be babysitted by
my son loved me He was the first one.
No, you're not gonna. They're gonna lie
you. It's a plot.
If you're one person against a group,
I'm always one person. My son loves me.
used to put him to bed every night. I
used to try and protect him from
everything that I've seen.
Even if I wasn't here, this is
happening.
I can't take care of myself.
You're an adult. If you can't take care
of yourself, you completely lost your
mind. There's a voice in your head
telling you to, like, put a gun to your
and eat bleach, and you're doing it? Who
the fuck is supposed to help you? You
can go to the psych ward and then you
get back out.
They told me another time I killed my
grandma. I'm just like my mom. I could
have had a great life.
She's not pregnant.
Now, they're going to want those.
You have to make sure you do it right.
You've got such a pretty face.
Everyone is going to want you so bad.
Oh.
Thank you.
I want to take care and surround him and
protect him from all the shit I've
seen. And I always did. In my mind,
lately, I took care of my son. I love
I love him so much.
And he's more than able to.
I didn't realize it would be like that.
I hate you.
I hate you.
I hate you.
My God.
You're kind of a piece of shit.
Just walk away.
You're right.
I had the best intentions.
I noticed things.
I was trying to keep him away from
things.
And he saw things.
I had like a taste of a life I've never
had before.
I took care of him. I did what I did. I
got barely any sleep. I went to work. It
was awesome.
And I was happy.
I was scared to lose him.
I'm always scared of him.
I don't belong anywhere.
I got beat up too long. People use and
abuse me. It's my fault I go back.
It's my fault I care, I believe that
it'll change.
I think people will change a lot. In
real life, I'm bitter about the world
because everything I love, I can't be.
How old are you?
I am 23 years old.
Good morning.
I'm good. How are you?
Oh, you're talking to him.
Chippy, how are you?
He said he's doing good. Thank you for
asking.
My shirt is off already.
I'm feeling crazy. I don't know.
The plan for today is I'm going to do a
show every 500 tokens.
And I have a new video for sale.
So if you could get like five people in
here to like buy my video then that's
five new tokens right there and Then
I'll do a show and then you can do it
over again. I'll do a show all over
again Do
you
like my new mouse? Now I don't have to
fucking be like Up here all the time
talking to you guys.
This feels a lot better.
I got some new toys over the weekend,
too.
We're going to take votes every show to
see which one I play with.
I've got this one.
It's fucking... It has 20 different
settings
on it.
it's crazy it's and it like it goes it's
got like a like a bunch of different
intensities it's really it's a lot of
fun i used it the other day but i used
like for a little bit too long and i got
numb but i got that and then i
got a real dildo finally it's cute isn't
it so yeah i've got
this for shoving in me and in my throat
i actually haven't put it into anything
yet it's brand new so you guys are going
to see it for the first time it
is 30 tokens for me to spank myself i'll
take myself five times for 30 tokens
am i thinking like this or this
everybody vote
Are you guys trying to kill me? Why does
everybody want the hairbrush?
Alright, hairbrush it is. You guys are
evil.
Okay.
Do your feet look dirty?
Okay.
Okay.
One, two, three, four, five.
Thank you.
I'll take them off for maybe 100 more
tokens.
I'll be waiting right here.
Aha! Thank you.
Okay,
we need 370 more tokens.
How are we going to do this, everybody?
I'll play a game.
We could play... I can make this stick
to the palm of my hand, kind of.
Yo. Okay.
This thing is wild.
It fucking hurts.
It's heavy as hell.
I just want to try.
Excuse me, everybody.
Somebody has paid for a show. I'll be
right back.
Hey!
Thank you for...
It feels really weird on my nose.
Okay.
Which setting should I have it on? Pick
a number 1 through 20.
Sounds like a good one.
Oh, my God.
Okay, okay, okay, hang on.
This one.
Oh, no.
Oh, my
God.
Sorry, sorry.
I can't do this.
Okay.
Okay. Okay. I know.
Let me get closer.
It's salty.
Okay. Where is it good?
to both of them
Dripping. Oh my gosh.
Oh, you left.
I guess you ran out of money. Okay.
Oh, that's a mess.
Okay.
I have to go clean that.
I'm back.
Did you miss me?
It doesn't have to be 500, but yeah.
Thank you.
Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank
you, thank you. Okay.
Oh my god, I'm still really wet from the
private show.
Pretty good.
How many?
100 for one, 200 for two,
300 for three, and then 400 for four.
If you do 300, that's enough for the
show.
Thank you.
Thank you.
i'm getting like a whole bunch of
private messages hang on don't quit
though okay
i
told you guys i quit doing skype shows
because a lot of you guys are just not
wearing some skype
Let's play with this one.
The highest one.
My accent's really red.
Wow.
Thank you.
Of course I had fun.
I hope you guys had fun.
How far do you guys think I can do?
Maybe I can go.
Maybe I can get the balls all the way
in. I don't know if I can do that one.
Should I do like profile?
Like sword following.
How far was it?
Thank you.
Thank you. Thank you. What the hell?
Thank you.
Oh my god.
That is the biggest tip I've gotten all
day.
I have to go.
Okay. Well, thank you for hanging out.
I'll be online later on tonight, too.
And later on tonight, I'm going to play
Pyro. And I'm going to die.
I'm going to thank myself 20 times, and
that's going to be really, really fun. I
hope you have a good day at work. Thank
you for bringing it up.
I'm probably going to go on a second to
you guys, but don't forget, I've got
that video for sale for $100.
Pretty cool.
Anytime you're doing a lot, you can
watch it.
It'll be like a mirror with you.
to take this inside of me.
What if it gets lost in there?
Send me a private message.
Maybe we can work this thing out and
I'll do that one later.
Okay, so come back tonight for another
show. It'll be fun.
Bye. Bye, everybody. Thank you. Bye.
Oh,
yeah. I need a teacher.
Hello. Hi.
Okay.
So?
How old are you?
I am 23 years old. Are you here of your
own free will?
Yes. And have you been given a safe
word?
Yes. What is your safe word?
Okay, so you know what that means. At
any point in time during filming, if you
want to stop and take a break or are
uncomfortable for any reason or have any
questions, you can always say... Okay,
have the things that we may do or use
during tonight's film been explained to
you prior to this legal addendum?
Yes. That means you understand what
we're going to do. Yes. So you can
the types of scenes that we're going to
do.
Yes. Okay, cool. During tonight's film,
for example, there can also be elements
of BDSM. Do you know what BDSM is? Yes.
So general sorts of things such as hair
pulling, face slapping, biting,
thanking, restraining you.
whipping or flogging you with a belt or
other type of instrument. Is that okay
with you?
Yes. Will you agree to that?
Yes. Okay. So you shot last night, so
how did the director treat you?
Wonderful. Did you have a good time?
I had a great time. Okay, cool. Well,
good luck with everything tonight, and
we'll talk to you after the shoot. Thank
you. Bye. Bye.
Gorgeous.
I understand that the last three days
you participated in filming for
Valentine's Day. Was that correct?
Yes. And the filming took place over
three days. And so after the three days
filming, how do you feel at the present
time?
Fantastic. Do you need any medical
attention?
No.
Were things explained to you prior to
filming as to the things that we may do
use during filming? Mm -hmm. So you
always had a clear understanding of what
were going to do before we did it?
Yes. Okay, cool.
And how did the director treat you?
Amazing. He was so nice.
Were you given a safe word that you
could use at any time?
Yes. What was your safe word?
But did any instance or circumstance
occur in which you needed to use your
word? No. So everything was basically
fine?
Everything was fine, fun, and great.
Awesome. Would you like to come back and
do more work for me in the future?
Yeah. You would?
Definitely. Okay, cool. I'd love to work
with you again.
All right. Well, thanks a lot, and we'll
see you next time.
Bye. Bye.
So we just shot this movie for three
days, and look at the transformation
happened.
So some people might think you're kind
of crazy to come do this movie with
someone that you've never met, although
we chatted online a lot for several
months, right?
Yeah. But then the reality is that you
came and met me all by yourself in a
hotel room to film with me.
Some people might say that's pretty
crazy. What do you think about that?
It was pretty crazy.
It's not something I would have done,
like, probably ever.
Like, ever.
But it was you, so I did it. And it
worked out amazingly.
You did it because it was me.
So you just trusted me and knew that
everything would be okay?
Yeah, totally.
That's good.
What made you want to work with me on a
movie?
I'm a big stupid fan of yours.
You like my other stuff?
Mm -hmm.
Don't you think it's crazy, though, that
you did a move with me and you shaved
your head and carved an X into your
forehead?
Yeah, I did that.
Why did you do such a thing?
Because you wanted me to.
And?
I wanted you to, and you just do
whatever I ask you to?
Yeah, of course.
I'll always do whatever you ask me to.
Was it fun?
I had a lot of fun.
Did it hurt carving that into your head?
No, not really.
Did you like kicking?
Mm -hmm.
You must have really trusted me to do
the kind of move with me.
I trusted you completely.
And you said, like, when we were filming
that you'd do anything I asked you to
do, right?
Mm -hmm.
That's a lot of commitment.
I'm very committed.
So you'll do some more movies with me?
Mm -hmm.
However many you want. I'll do 27 movies
with you.
I especially liked the belt part.
That was a lot of fun, and I liked the
bruises that left afterwards.
That was the first thing I did.
The belt was so fun.
Oh, you slapped me a few times, too. We
did the 18 slaps.
And I thought that was a good way to
break the ice when you first meet
Mm -hmm.
It seemed totally natural, though. I
mean, how did you feel this perfect
stranger, like, personally meeting for
the first time, slapping you in the face
18 times?
You don't really feel like a stranger to
me.
Okay.
Okay, so how did we first come into
contact?
I sent you a friend request on Facebook,
and you sent me a message almost
immediately.
Just, hi.
And I was like, oh, my God.
Wow. Hi.
And how did it come about that you sent
me a friend request? Like, how did that
happen?
Oh, gosh. I don't think I ever told you
about that.
I had just watched... Which one did I
just watch? I think I just watched VG4.
So you were, like, fresh in my mind, and
I was like, I wonder if I could find
him on Facebook and get in touch with
him, and maybe, like, we could do
something together.
So I was looking, but, like, you're a
very hard person to find.
So I spoke to...
Another underground horror director.
And I was like, do you know where this
guy is? And he was like, okay, well,
somebody told me that this is this guy's
Facebook.
And he sent me the link. And it was you.
And I was like, oh, my gosh. I found
him. Amazing.
And I sent you a friend request.
And you started talking.
Mm -hmm.
You told me that you really liked my
look. And you called me baby cat because
had a picture of a baby cat on my chest.
And I love how that name stuck, and
you've called me Baby Cat ever since.
Mm -hmm.
And I asked you to send me how many
pictures?
Oh, at first, you just wanted me to send
you, like, three pictures a day, I
think it was, but then you slowly
started, like, taking it up and up and
you're like, 10 pictures a day, 20
pictures a day.
And, like, sometimes you would just say,
stop what you're doing, go take
pictures right now, and send them to me,
and I would do it.
I don't want to have a thousand pictures
to use for this movie, right?
Mm -hmm. We ended up with more than a
thousand.
Yeah, I think so.
Yeah.
And then somehow, I don't know, I think
I actually filmed a home video, right?
Like, what was the first home video I
actually sent? Oh, I don't remember.
Oh, no, the first one you asked me to
send you, you had, um, it was the, uh,
was one of the Dear Big Brothers.
And I remember I recorded it out in my
car.
Dear Big Brothers. Because I think I had
company over at the time.
A lot of times when you would just say,
like, send me a picture right now, I
would have company over, and I would
have to, like, go scurry away into,
the bathroom and take pictures or make a
video or whatever it was I was doing.
It was a lot of fun.
Sneaky.
And then you sent me a whole bunch of
videos that I loved so much that were of
you just kind of sitting there,
sometimes not saying very much, but just
like, I'm a fucking idiot, like, calling
yourself a fucking idiot, and then I'm
a piece of shit, and then, like, just
hitting yourself.
What was that for the other one?
I don't like you.
I don't like you. I don't like you.
Like, I didn't understand, like, a lot
of anything.
And then, like, when I first started
talking to you, like, in person, and,
you, one of the first things you asked
me to do was to puke for you on camera,
and, like, I was like, uh, yeah.
And so I did it, and I was like, that's
fun.
I just started doing it, like, a lot,
and, like, I had, like, help me throw
and, like, what I really love, though,
oh, my God, I love putting my fingers
down. And, like, helping him throw up.
Yeah, he's, like, I put my fingers down
and throws up. He's so good. He's the
only boy who's ever let me do that for
him. But, like, I guess because, like,
he's the first, like, sincere, like,
romantic relationship I've had since,
like, when I started, like, talking.
But, like, yeah, as soon as I realized
that that was something that I was into
and that was something that would get me
off and something that I wanted to do,
like, a lot, he let me do it, like, a
lot. And I love...
Oh, my God. I loved, like, kissing him
after he would throw up and just, like,
licking my fingers after he threw up.
Because I would, like, put my entire
hand, like, into his mouth, like, down
throat, and he would just, like, throw
up.
You looked really great in that shirt.
Thank you, my brother.
I decided I love that collar, so you
should wear that collar for the birthday
cake.
And you're looking.
You're kind of, yeah, you're kind of
getting yourself ready to deal with it.
You're going
to
see that guy for the first time.
I just want to hear you talk about
something. Can you take your jacket off?
Yes, we can.
That's just because of everything.
I could put you on the street.
You could put me on the street.
That was fucking good. Love it. Love it.
You have no idea how far I'll go. Let's
keep it in the family.
I don't think what we're doing is wrong.
Because if you love someone, it's the
only truth that matters.
I look at myself in the mirror.
I see you, Master.
You're perfect baby
Is it possible for you to slowly go and
grab the lipstick and go ahead?
So yeah, so just turned to the mirror,
and then that was pretty incredible.
Are you feeling your heart?
It's okay.
You just did one of the craziest things
I've ever tried.
Is that fun?
Cotton
candy.
Because I'm cotton candy colored.
You've got to be thorough.
They were meant for me. I lost my other
ones before I came.
My life's been pretty tragic, but I had
to get these.
That sounds like 212. No, no, no.
Your hooker is here.
I, like, painted my toenails today and
then put socks on them, too, right
I'm not going to lie. I had gel tea.
I had gel tea for, like, eight months,
and I painted my toenails to come here.
I'm like, what color? Black, bitch.
black.
I've got an unicorn and rainbow
underwear.
That tattoo is fucking awesome.
It looks like you can't have a photo of
this.
Yeah, it did. Who is it supposed to be?
That is my best friend, Kristen.
Wow. Like, alright.
He said he had acid on that in eight
years.
We're like, we're gonna get a hotel.
Jacuzzi tub. I pull my onesie out.
This dude pulls a fucking onesie out,
too.
And he's Santa Claus.
Oh, nice.
So we're about to trip and balls.
I hear my mother -in -law at the hotel.
Because her house flooded.
We got lost in the barricade.
In a perfect world, I have a jacuzzi
tub.
Do you have one? No. I have like a
garden tub, but it doesn't have jets. So
like, what the fuck? Oh my God, I need a
jacuzzi tub in my life.
That means I'm luxurious.
And then bring my good bitches there.
It's like, yo, you brought a bimmy over
the jacuzzi tub.
There's mirrors surrounding it. It's all
good.
He'll know exactly what we're doing.
You're half naked. I want to get naked
too. So she's going to get dressed into
the thing she was wearing in the scene
right before this that we already shot.
And then you're like basically... Do you
like girls or boys? I need to know.
Hell yeah.
And so the whole time you're just like
teaching her stuff.
You're showing her how to do the line.
You're telling her... Oh, okay. I'm
making her bad and good at it.
Number three.
Needles are bad.
Needles are very bad.
I got this little pocket full of needles
in here.
I got my crack pocket like, you know,
and that's extra baggage. You don't need
it.
If you're going to do drugs, do the kind
of drugs that aren't pussy drugs,
right? What is a pussy drug?
Okay, heroin, for example. If you're
going to do heroin, take a line and fuck
someone for like three days straight.
Keep your trash can right next to the
Call it a day.
After two days of doing it, you need to
stop or you're going to be dope sick.
Acid and mushrooms, that's the best drug
you could ever do in life. I love a
mushroom, but I do not love acid.
I don't know why.
People are scared of it. It's not like
when I did it, like the one time that I
did it. You control your trip.
I like did it in a really weird place
with people I didn't know very well. And
had done ketamine also like a couple
minutes before.
And like I felt like I was underwater.
And everything was black and white. What
is happening?
It wasn't very fun. And I was really
paranoid. Like, I held the whole time,
I was on AFTA one time, and I got so
paranoid, right? I'm sitting in this
attic, like, putting cigarettes out on
my convert.
Like, looking at this fucking neon
light, like, I swear to God, electricity
controls the world.
That's why I love psychedelics.
People are like, I want to kill the
pain. I want to be numb.
I could probably eat mushrooms forever.
Mushrooms are my wife.
They're so beautiful.
There used to be this dude that made
them.
And he'd, like, play the guitar to them
and play music for them and shit. Like,
he cared that much.
He tried to teach me how to do it, but
he got on dope.
Everyone gets on dope.
And then his house was ran over by cat
smell. Man, okay, so I was going to
my favorite purse here.
And it got sprayed by a blind cat. Like
that piss spray?
Yeah. My grandma's dog pissed on my
jacket one time. I don't understand
Are you going to, like, transform into a
hot -ass dick just for, like, what do
you have? Do you have a dress?
I don't have a dress. Oh.
I have a dress, but it's not, like...
Anything fancy. He faked his death, and
I got a tattoo for him, and then he came
back, and I was like, what? My friend
thought someone died, put a fucking
gravestone, but won't put my name in a
gravestone. I'm like, bro, I want to be
dead on your arm.
That bitch ain't dead.
I fucked you.
This is the same dude that got a sleeve
and got dicks all in it. Like, bro,
someone in prison hated you.
This sleeve is beautiful.
It's full of dicks. All right.
I'm going to give it a little bit.
If it's someone that's OG, put two comms
on them. Like, you're a dirty bitch.
I'm like, fuck.
Shit out of you. You know what I'm
saying? I can't even use one car.
Nasty slut.
You feel me?
Like, be smart with what you're doing.
I would advise to try and not do the
dancing or the hoeing because that
price is low.
And the same, like $1 .50 for a fuck all
day.
Fuck you hoes. That's what I'm saying.
It's easy to do that shit. There's so
many freaks in the world. There is.
Do you know how many old white dudes
want... I just want to see a girl suck a
black guy's cock.
I want to suck a black guy's cock.
I'm like, why?
You've been thinking your whole life
about that shit? It's bigger than you?
Like, really? Okay.
But you can't act like that. I'd do
fetishes all day, for real. Like, you
know shit on you? Okay.
I'm cool with it.
I'll beat you up. I'll just show up.
There's people out there that don't know
what it's about.
Truly, it's not about completely
wrecking somebody.
It's about...
Knowing what to do and how to introduce
people to it, and we're not murdering
them. And the spiders make their webs on
the porch. Well, they catch all the
fucking little gnats.
In Africa, they have these giant rats.
They're rats, but they're like this big.
And they teach them to sniff landmines.
They're light enough that when they walk
across... They don't set them off, but
they smell them, and then they go in and
they dig them up. They know where they
are. Those rats have saved so many
lives. In Africa, little kids get blown
like, every day, and it's horrible.
And I want a giant rat.
I want a giant African rat. When I was
in prison, one chick was with another
chick and then there was this other
chick that one of those chicks was
around with. Well, everything's been
building up for like a week. It's really
uncomfortable in the whole wing because
of the situation.
It's like two weeks before Christmas.
We had a little Christmas tree, and our
wing was about this big.
There's tables, and there's a bunch of
empty space. These girls were standing
that empty space for whatever reason,
started talking shit to each other. This
chick hit this other chick so hard, she
landed on her ass.
And as soon as she hit the ground, that
bitch was on top of her, and she was
beating her ass across the floor, and
she was up.
The girl's up underneath the Christmas
tree, and she starts kicking her in the
face, and she's getting her ass beat
under the fucking Christmas tree.
It was, I mean, it doesn't get more
fucking prison than that. That was some
the funniest shit that I ever fucking
saw. They went downstairs and decided to
sword fight.
He got stabbed in the face with a
fucking sword. Like, he ended up with,
20 staples in his ass. Of course, there
was the accident. Now his face is
titanium. I see out my peripherals. He
got stabbed in the face.
Beautiful, beautiful creatures.
They had a hatchet. Mama spider that's
got all her little eggs. He smacked the
dude in the fucking head with it. You
know how some of them carry their eggs
when they have their little babies?
Crapped his head open.
Big garden spiders that are black and
yellow.
I was on house arrest with Zahn. And she
has a huge web.
Okay, we're good.
Good job. Good job.
Good job.
Way to go, you guys. How was that?
I had an organ.
I had to test it.
Good job, Ruthie.
I have to go to bed.
One more shot.
One more shot, baby. Okay.
Do you want to puke in your face?
I have to.
Relax me.
Hello?
I'm about to be on my way home.
Okay.
All right, let me know when you're
ready.
Okay.
I am ready and I'm rolling.
One more, one more. Fucking gorgeous.
Beautiful guys, guys.