What Tomorrow Brings (2025) Movie Script
1
Dr. McAdams says this will help.
Writing. Writing. Writing.
(sighs)
Writing.
Let's see.
(sighs)
Nope.
Okay, Clara.
Let's try this.
It had been a good summer,
and my senior year
of high school
was about to begin.
Earlier that summer,
my band won a contest,
and the prize was to open
for a huge concert.
Until I'm sour
Of course, no one there
would be interested
in seeing us perform.
Sweet and sour,
trust me I'll devour you
if you get
on the wrong side of me
Be the best
as long as you don't test me
Feed me what I want to hear
I'll agree, ooh
Ca-ca-ca call me
sweet and sour
Ca-ca-ca
call me sweet and sour
Ca-ca-ca call me
sweet and sour
Ca-ca-ca call me
sweet and sour
Guys, what the fuck?
We're performing in front
of 20,000 people next week.
I... I thought it sounded great.
Chill out, Jason.
Really?
You thought that was great?
Well...
I'll see you on Monday.
I can't believe
you're leaving this week.
Well, my sister's
getting married,
so... yeah,
I'm going away this weekend.
Stop being an asshole, Jason.
It's supposed to be fun.
Have a great time, Nikki.
And congratulate
your sister for me.
And text me lots of pictures.
So, that's it for today?
Jason had a way with words.
I'll walk you home.
Sure, Ruby will be here soon.
Senior year,
can you believe it?
I mean, maybe, just maybe,
this is my year
to be homecoming king.
Oh, you dream big, Noah.
Can you imagine?
Me? Homecoming king?
I mean, I'd try
to save a dance for you,
if no one was watching.
I have an image to protect.
Oh, you really know
how to sweet talk a girl.
By the way,
you sounded great today.
Noah.
I always sound great.
I mean,
I sing because it's fun.
Nikki gets it, you get it,
I mean,
I'm excited about the concert,
it's a cool gig,
but I'm pretty much
done with Jason.
I'm with you.
Hey, Princess Ruby.
Hey, Prince Noah.
That's King Noah.
Does have a nice ring to it.
Can I go with you
on your date tomorrow?
How about ice cream next week?
Yay.
Do we--
Do we even need Jason?
(rimshot)
How was band practice?
Mom only engaged in small talk.
With the exception of me,
she had shut everyone
out of her world.
It was good,
next week is going
to be really exciting for us.
Your dad would be
so proud of you.
It's only three songs.
I've... I've been thinking
a lot about my health,
my well-being,
and I have
an opportunity, Clara.
Really?
That's great, Mom.
What's great, Mom?
I'm talking with Clara.
(sighs)
So, I'll need to go away
for a little while.
But...
I mean, I know you've got
school starting up soon,
and Ruby will need
probably lots of--
If you can get
the help you need,
don't worry about things here,
I've got it.
I just haven't
been fair to you, Clara.
God knows I have not been
a good mom to Ruby.
I just can't continue like this.
I know you struggle, Mom.
Can you tell me about the place?
The place?
The place you're going to.
Oh.
Only that I've been
reading a lot about it
and I think
it's exactly what I need.
I'll leave you the car keys
and the credit card.
When are you leaving?
Sunday.
In two days?
Ruby's birthday?
You'll make it special for her,
you always do.
I will.
Just, make something up.
She probably won't
even notice that I'm gone.
I'll figure it out.
And I'm excited for you,
I really am.
Thank you, Clara.
Mom was never the same
after dad died.
That was almost six years ago.
I'm sorry for getting sick.
I'm sorry too, Daddy.
Mommy's not strong like you
and she's gonna need your help.
I just wish
she was better with Ruby.
I know.
You need to be there for Ruby.
And Mom?
Ruby first, always.
Understand?
Yes, Daddy.
(chuckles)
How much of the bottle
did you use?
Are you ever planning
on coming out?
(giggles)
You think
you got enough bubbles?
Never.
What?
Don't do that again!
I knew she would.
Oh, I'm going to get you
for that, missy.
Someone is turning nine
on Sunday!
I can't wait.
(giggling)
(giggling)
The next morning, I took a run.
I was feeling optimistic.
My mom had definitely thrown
a wrench in my plans,
but I could handle it.
Ruby and I do great together,
and maybe Mom would finally
get the help she needed.
Such a beautiful morning.
Little chilly.
Are you all packed?
Almost.
Well... will you need
a ride to the airport?
No, Clara,
I've got it all covered.
Any idea
how long you'll be away for?
We'll talk later.
Good talk, Mom.
Good talk.
There was a time
my mom was happy,
when she loved,
when she was beautiful.
There was a time
we were family.
Ruby does not
remember those days.
I miss those days.
(restaurant background chatter)
Don't you like it?
Oh, yeah, it's good.
What's wrong, Clara?
Just my mom.
Is she losing it again?
I don't know,
she's going away for a while.
For what?
Help.
Where's she going?
I don't know.
For how long?
I don't know.
Did she give you any details?
I don't know, Noah.
I'm sorry.
No, I'm sorry,
too many questions.
Is Ruby going?
I'm sorry, too many questions.
I wish...
Whatever,
I just hope she gets some help.
I do, too.
I wish she wasn't so selfish.
I mean, I know
I should expect it from her,
but I wish...
It's just frustrating.
I feel horrible for you.
And Ruby.
This is just not fair.
Maybe this time she'll find
the answer she needs?
Maybe.
Hey, we don't have to go
to a movie today.
Yeah, I think
I need to be with Ruby.
Well, let's try to enjoy dinner.
Forget about everything else,
just for now.
For me?
Deal.
You know, for a guy,
you're pretty understanding.
(chuckles)
I've handled stress forever,
but Mom's timing
was making it more challenging.
I didn't want
to take it out on Noah,
he's the only boyfriend
I've ever had,
and I've known him
since he moved here
in second grade.
Other than Ruby,
he was my best friend.
I promise to be
better company next time.
Good thing you're hot.
I suppose it is.
If I win homecoming king,
I can't promise
I'll be this understanding.
I'll take my chances.
(chuckling)
I can't right now.
Happy birthday, Princess Ruby.
I got everything ready,
birthday girl.
You know what to do.
One, two, three, four
I can't help
but feel irritated
every single time he walks by
Time he walks by
His goofy little smirk
and his baby blues
catching my eye
Catching my eye
But when he looks,
I scoff and he laughs it off
but he thinks
that I can't see
He makes me so mad
and I want him so bad
How'd he get
such a hold on me?
He's not a real blonde
and I won't respond
I wanna hear him
say my name on repeat
He can stop and stare,
baby, I don't care
Just as long
as he's looking at me
When he walks my way,
I say go away
But I hope
he'll stay right there
My heart's doing me wrong,
singing silly love songs
For fake blonde hair
Okay, Ruby,
what do you want to do today?
Hmm.
Cinnamon pretzels and a movie?
Deal.
-And a slushy?
-Deal.
-And a...
-Don't push your luck!
-A cake?
-Well, duh!
Mom home?
So, about Mom,
she's gone away
for a little bit.
Where?
Well--
Did she leave a present?
Or a card?
Actually, she did leave a card.
And I have a fun day
planned with it,
just you and me.
You aren't going anywhere,
right?
No, never.
Yay.
(chuckles)
I love it!
I'm so glad you like it.
(sighs)
I remember the day
my father died.
He had come home
from the hospital
the day before.
He wanted to celebrate
one more birthday with Ruby.
He was so fragile.
He passed away
in his sleep that night.
Wake up!
I remember Mom
yelling at him to get up.
-Get up! Wake up!
-She was so angry.
I was devastated,
I loved my dad.
I was 11 years old,
and this was her third birthday.
The ambulance came
and took his body.
Mom went back into her bedroom
and didn't come out
the rest of the day.
The whole day.
All I could do
was go into Ruby's bedroom
and hold her
while she was sleeping.
You need any help with that?
No!
Every year I made sure
Ruby's birthday was special.
Always just the two of us.
There was no one else.
I love it.
I'm so happy you like it.
Do I look grown up?
Oh, you look too grown up.
I love it, I love it, I love it!
(giggles)
Ruby was thrilled with the day,
I spoiled her.
Did you really think
you were only getting
one birthday present?
Peaches!
You're giving me Peaches?
I want you to have it.
Peaches got me through
a lot of hard times.
But it's from Dad.
It's your favorite.
You are my favorite.
I had so much fun today:
The movie,
the dinner,
the cake,
my new dress.
I still can't believe
everyone in the restaurant
sang "Happy Birthday" to me.
It was the best birthday.
I'm so glad.
You deserved it.
Now, get some sleep.
School tomorrow.
(groans)
Hey, I know it's a bit late,
but I do have
band rehearsal tonight.
Now?
I hate being
home alone at night.
I know, I really don't wanna go,
but I promise
to be back home soon, okay?
Fine.
In an instant,
I had ruined her perfect day.
One, two, one, two--
Hold up, hold up.
Clara.
Are you okay?
I'm... I'm sorry,
but I have to go.
Are you kidding?
We just started.
Clara, are you okay?
Ruby's home alone, I...
I need to be with her,
I'm really sorry.
Kids are always left home alone.
I'm sure she's fine.
Clara, we have to rehearse,
the show is in two days.
That is our
only focus right now.
Don't you think she'll be okay
for a little longer?
I have to go.
Okay, what the fuck is going on?
I--
I'm sorry.
Clara,
you don't have to apologize.
Is that it?
How the hell
are we gonna find
a replacement for you
in two days?
Replacement?
These are her songs.
Her voice
won us the competition.
Could you just try to get
through the show in two days?
You know I have to go.
Fuck this!
Let's get out of here, girl.
I was angry with myself.
What was I thinking?
I knew love from a mom and dad.
Ruby never did.
I couldn't sleep.
Oh, I shouldn't have left you.
Please don't do it again.
Ruby, I promise.
Hey.
Forgive me?
Yes.
Can you get some sleep?
I'll try.
I did have a lot of sugar today.
I suppose I shouldn't
have been surprised.
A week had passed
since I backed out
of the concert.
I was walking down the hallway,
when I felt a massive,
violent push
against my shoulders.
My face smashed
against the wall.
I remember
putting my hand to my face
and turning around
and seeing him.
He was in my face,
screaming at me.
I remember closing my eyes
and in an instant,
he was on the floor.
I was speechless.
I was numb.
I didn't say a word.
Clara, are you okay? Clara?
Please, let me help you.
Clara?
Clara!
I ran home... I think.
I remember changing my clothes.
I was in shock.
My ears were ringing,
it was so loud.
I found Mom's hangover glasses.
I had to get it together,
had to get Ruby from school.
(giggles)
Nice glasses.
What happened?
Are you okay?
I'm okay,
some boys are just stupid.
Who did it?
It doesn't matter.
Trust me,
he got the worst of it.
I don't like
anybody hurting you, Clara.
I know.
Nobody better even think
about hurting you.
Now, let's get home,
I need some ice.
And hugs.
Tag, you're it!
(Ruby giggles)
We spent that evening
on the couch
watching silly videos.
Holding Ruby
was always comforting.
I just hope the shock
and pain would ease.
Getting your face
smashed into a wall
definitely leaves a mark
for days.
Makeup helps.
It was career day
at school for us seniors.
Hi, you guys,
my name is Lindsay Andrews,
and I am a lawyer.
And that is when I saw Lindsay.
She talked to the class
about being a lawyer.
She looked and sounded so smart.
And she seemed... nice.
Just something in her voice.
And I specialize in family law.
So, this deals with anything
from marriage and divorces
to, uh... to, uh, custody.
Most of the kids
looked really bored,
or were talking to each other.
Lindsay started talking about--
Guardianships.
So, yes, question in the back.
How old do you have to be
to be a guardian?
You have to be 18 years old,
but that's
just the beginning, right?
So, the court's gonna check
for a myriad of other--
I was fascinated.
I did not know
it was a legal word.
My dad would always say
I was Ruby's guardian angel.
...need to provide
physical and mental,
and emotional support,
I wish the other kids
would shut up.
...and shelter.
Does that make sense?
She was so--
Does anybody have any--
Everything I hoped to be.
Mrs. Andrews?
I really liked
what you had to say,
you're really smart.
Oh, thank you!
What's your name?
Clara, my name's Clara.
Hi, Clara, I'm Lindsay,
it's very nice to meet you.
Thank you for asking a question.
I, you know, wasn't really sure
that anybody
was listening, so...
Do you wanna be
a lawyer someday?
I'm just trying to make it
through my senior year.
I was hoping to learn more
about guardians.
Sure, yeah,
I'd be happy to tell you more.
Maybe you can swing by
my office one day?
Tomorrow?
I could come by
during my lunch hour.
I have to pick up
my sister from school
but only if you're not too busy.
You know what?
Absolutely,
I... I look forward to it.
Thank you, seriously, thank you.
She just met me
and she was willing
to give me time.
And I was excited
to see her the next day.
I know my face upset Ruby.
I didn't want her
worrying about me,
she's my responsibility.
It's not enough
to just make sure
she gets to school on time.
It's not enough to just exist.
She deserves so much happiness.
She deserves so much more.
Gimme a "T"!
T!
Gimme an "A"!
A!
Gimme a "C"!
C!
Gimme an "O"!
O!
What does that spell?
Taco?
Taco night!
Whoa, easy there.
So, how was your day at school?
There was a fight
on the playground.
Really?
Shirley Matthews
beat up three boys.
At once!
Is she in your grade?
She's in my class.
Everyone's really nice to her,
especially when
she's on her period.
Well, how old is Shirley?
Ten.
She uses tampons.
I think you put them
in your belly button.
Close.
Is that Noah?
No, I made a new friend today.
Oh, I bought something
for your room.
What?
I'll show you after dinner.
Eat up.
How was your day at school?
I got a bit of food in my mouth.
I hated Ruby's bedroom.
Mom didn't like
anything on the walls,
but Mom was away.
Bruise looked angry.
I had to be my best that day.
I took extra time on my makeup
and found something
more professional to wear.
Mrs. Andrews?
Welcome, Clara!
Hi!
She welcomed me
with the biggest hug.
I wasn't expecting that.
I needed it.
I needed this day, this moment.
She had brought in
a special lunch,
just for me.
I couldn't believe it.
Middle Eastern food.
I'm more used to salads,
tacos, and burgers.
She was so excited
to share it with me.
Was this for real?
I tried everything.
Actually, I devoured everything.
It was so delicious.
She must have thought
I hadn't eaten for days.
I certainly had not
been eating well.
So, tell me a little bit
about yourself.
Well, I'm a senior.
Oh, you already know that.
I have a little sister, Ruby.
Tell me about Ruby.
She just turned nine,
she's the sweetest
person on Earth.
She's my best friend.
My whole world.
Oh!
Look at the ear.
What about your parents?
My dad died six years ago.
I'm so sorry.
He was a great dad.
He was the best dad.
Well, I bet he'd
be very proud of you.
That must've been
really hard on your mom.
He had ALS,
it was a brutal couple of years.
I have so many
wonderful memories of my dad.
I cherished
every second with him.
My favorite memory
was my fourth grade
daddy/daughter dance.
He bought me a new dress,
he took me out
for a fancy dinner,
he made me feel like a princess.
There was no greater daddy,
and I felt like
the luckiest kid in the world.
He was a brilliant engineer.
He loved music.
Even had a studio
in our basement.
And, yeah,
Mom was never the same.
How so?
She just stopped...
caring.
I wish Ruby knew
what she was like
before dad got sick.
Do you have grandparents?
Or, aunts or uncles?
No one.
Are you comfortable with me
asking some questions?
-No, I'm fine with it.
-Okay.
Clara, I... I have to ask
about the bruise on your face.
Oh, that happened
at school, um...
Some boys were roughhousing
in the hallway
and I got the best--
Clara,
you can be honest with me.
Really.
Tell me a bit more
about your mom.
Um... she's away right now,
training for a new job.
So, it's, uh...
it's just you
and Ruby in the house, then?
Yeah, for a bit.
But I'm used to it, Ruby's easy.
When does she return?
From what?
When does your mom
return from her training?
Oh, soon.
Clara, you are...
You are one brave woman.
Who's that?
That is my Graham.
We've been married
for two years,
and he's my best friend.
He looks nice, like you.
Well, I'm lucky,
I got a good one.
Well, I think
he's the lucky one.
Do you have anybody special
in your life other than Ruby?
Noah.
I've known him
since second grade.
He's really nice.
Ruby likes him, too.
What did you want to know
about guardianships?
Can a big sister be a guardian?
Uh, yeah, yes,
the short answer is yes.
You know,
the state will always look
for what's in the best interest
of the child, right?
Lindsay listed all the things
that a court would look at.
The guardian's mental
and physical health, check.
The child's preference,
that's an easy one.
The ability to provide shelter,
food, clothing, medical care.
Check, check, check.
All checks.
Is... is this making sense?
It really does.
I'm sorry, I need to go.
Well, let me drop you off.
Oh, it's fine.
Clara, let me drop you off.
Okay.
I was mad at myself
for not being there
to pick up Ruby from school.
Ruby?
What are you doing in here?
Do you think she loves me?
Mom?
Of course she loves you.
I love you, Mom.
I love you, Ruby.
Mom wasn't well.
Perhaps she really
did not love Ruby.
The only person
I know that loves me is you.
I promise not to do anything
to ever make you mad at me.
There's nothing
you could ever, ever do
that would make me mad at you.
And I promise I will never,
ever let you feel alone.
We'll stay in Mama's room,
okay?
Okay.
-Promise?
-Promise.
Now, who wants to give me
a makeover?
I do!
Ruby's makeup skills
were legendary.
I loved these moments.
Saturday mornings were special.
How do you stay so tiny?
We would go to the diner.
Ruby loves hash browns.
"Love" is not
a strong enough word.
She's so cute!
There wasn't a hint of jealousy.
Everything was going well.
We had settled into a routine.
Until...
(retching noise)
I threw up!
-(retching)
-Oh, baby!
(retching)
I don't feel good.
You're burning up.
Let's get you to the bathroom.
Oh.
I'm not good with vomit.
The sound of it.
But this is my baby sister.
Come on, baby. You're okay.
I hate throwing up.
(retching noise)
I know, baby.
Try to relax.
I'm sorry about my sheets.
Don't worry about that.
I'll get it all cleaned up.
(retching noise)
Well. Somebody doesn't have
school tomorrow.
My head hurts.
I'm gonna go fill up the tub,
come on.
(water gushing)
(water dripping)
Clara. My head hurts,
and my throat is really sore.
I bet, baby.
I'm sure throwing up
made it hurt really bad.
But I'll buy
your favorite popsicles,
and I'm just gonna
cuddle you all day.
-Promise?
-I love you.
Around noon, it started again.
104.5.
If anyone is listening,
I could really use a hand here.
I felt so useless.
I was lost.
Should I take her
to the doctor?
The emergency room?
This is what a mom
was supposed to do.
This is also what a guardian
is required to do.
I was so scared.
98.6!
I had never been so happy,
so relieved.
So... exhausted.
Lindsay, I-I'm so sorry.
Are you okay?
I am.
Ruby was sick.
Is she okay?
Now she is.
I should have called you.
You should have.
I was worried.
-Does your mom know?
-No.
Do you want me to come over?
Do you need anything?
No, we just need
to catch up on rest today.
Would you be up for breakfast
tomorrow morning?
Can I bring Ruby?
Of course!
And call if you need
anything today, understood?
Understood.
Tell Ruby that I hope
she's feeling better
and that I can't wait
to meet her,
and I'm bringing Graham.
That sounds great!
I'll see you tomorrow.
Ruby was so excited
that morning.
She needed more people
in her life,
good people.
Graham, this is Clara,
and this must be Ruby!
It's nice to meet you,
Ms. Andrews.
Oh, please, call me Lindsay.
Nice to meet you, Graham.
I must warn you both,
Ruby is a bit of a hugger.
Amazing. So am I!
(Ruby squeals, Graham laughs)
Okay, how 'bout
you guys go outside
and have a little bit of fun,
and we will wait
for the table?
-Yeah?
-Mm-hm.
Let's go!
Well, she looks
like she's feeling better.
She is.
You do look exhausted.
I'm okay.
I can show you both
to your table now.
Thank you.
And I can also
take your coats.
That would be awesome,
thank you so much.
Thank you.
(soft music, indistinct chatter)
Could you bring us some tea?
-Of course.
-Okay. Thank you.
Clara, I'm worried about you.
Did you mom come home yet?
-Promise, I'm okay.
-That's not what I asked.
Did she?
No.
All right, look.
You're doing a lot
on your own here.
Okay? Everything
that we talk about
is confidential.
Do you know what that means?
I think so.
It means that
it stays between us.
Um, I would never do anything
to hurt you or hurt Ruby,
but I have to--
I have to put this out there.
Are you protecting your mom?
Did she cause
the bruise on your face?
No, nothing like that.
That really did happen
at school.
This stupid boy
got angry with me, and...
I should have been
more honest about that.
Was this stupid boy Noah?
Oh--oh, no,
Noah would never hurt me.
Really, you would definitely
approve of Noah.
Okay, well...
I'm going to need to know more
about this stupid boy.
But for right now,
I really--
I think it's time
for your mom to come home.
-Thank you.
-Thank you!
Oh, my God.
Look at th--
are they skipping?
(Lindsay laughs)
Oh.
She's not really
training for a new job.
That's what she told me
to tell people.
She found a place
to get help.
Get better.
She left me
the keys to the car
and a credit card.
I'll try to be
more honest with you,
it's just...
I'm doing the best I can,
it's just, you know, a lot.
It's way too much.
It's way, way, way too much.
Okay? Look.
Graham and I are going
to be out of town
for an early Thanksgiving
with his parents,
but I want you to call me
if you need anything.
-You promise?
-I promise.
Giddyup, giddyup, giddyup!
(mock neighing sound)
(chuckling)
A throne for Her Majesty.
Look who's back.
-Hey.
-Hey.
So, Ruby tells me
that you are the greatest
singer in the world.
Wait, I didn't know
that you sang.
It's just for fun.
She won a huge contest--
Um, let's, um,
talk about something else.
I wanna hear more
about your singing.
So what do you do, Graham?
Besides give the best
piggybacks in the world?
(Ruby laughs)
I build houses.
And I also buy and restore
old buildings.
He has the world's
most wonderful imagination.
How old are the buildings?
The 1800s!
Wow. That's really old.
Wanna hear something cool?
The house where you live
was built by my grandfather.
Really?
Tell him he did a good job.
I'll be sure
to let him know.
How did you two meet?
Okay. Well, this is
sort of a crazy story.
I was walking
through Sparrow Market
and I was picking out
an orange,
and I must have picked
the wrong one or something,
because, of course,
all of the oranges come
toppling off of the shelf
and onto the floor,
and it's, it's mayhem,
and I look behind me,
and this guy,
this random dude,
is laughing at me.
It was a lot of oranges!
So after he stops laughing,
he comes over
and he helps me clean them up,
and, yeah,
that's how we met.
How could I not want
to marry him?
That's how you met?
It was love at first sight.
She has a way with oranges.
Oh, my God.
Like right out of a movie.
Your ring is beautiful.
How did Graham propose?
Yeah. How did he propose?
Well, we were walking
through a neighborhood
that we both loved,
and all of a sudden,
Graham stops.
And he gets on one knee
and he holds out this ring
and he says to me...
he says to me,
"This is where I want
to start my life with you."
And then he points behind me
and there's a big,
beautiful house
and it has
a "For Sale" sign on it,
and I turn back around,
and there's Graham
with a "Sold" sign in his hands,
and then he asks me
to marry him.
Wait.
He got you a ring and a house?
Yeah.
What are you all doing
after this?
No big plans.
How would you both like
to come see a project
I'm working on?
That'd be awesome!
Yeah, that really does
sound like fun.
Are you all ready to order?
-Oh.
-Oh, gosh!
-I...
-We haven't even looked
at the menu!
-Sorry.
-Five minutes, uh...
Not the one made for you.
No? Not the...
That was such a special day.
I don't know
who needed it more,
me or Ruby.
Lindsay and I talked
and watched Graham and Ruby.
They seemed like they had
known each other forever.
It was so comfortable
and so genuine.
But I was so tired.
Perhaps I was just
desperate to see something
that really wasn't there.
You're late.
I know. I'm sorry.
Good day at school?
Clara? Clara!
Whoo! Glad I caught you, Clara.
Ruby says
your mom's out of town?
Yeah, training for a new job.
It's taking longer
than she thought.
Well, I need to have Ruby's
parent/teacher conference soon.
I promise to let her know.
As long as it's
before the holidays.
Are the two of you home alone?
Uh, no, of course not.
Our Aunt Lindsay is, uh,
with us.
Aunt Lindsay's great.
Uncle Graham is even better.
Oh! Well, that's a relief.
Just be sure to have your mom
be in touch with me.
How come Noah isn't coming over?
I've just been busy
with Mom being away.
I like him.
He's nice to you.
And to me.
I know, it's just...
complicated.
I saw him today.
Where?
Some of the high school band
came and played at the school.
Did you talk to him?
Well, he said,
"What's up, Princess Ruby?"
So I said, "I haven't seen you
in forever,"
and Noah said,
"I'm sorry, I really am."
So I said, "Did you break up
with my sister?"
And he said,
"No, I just think
she wants some time
away from me."
Something like that.
I'm not sure.
But then, he said, "She might
have broken up with me,"
and gave a sad face, like this.
(Clara laughs)
So, I said, "I don't think so,
because she still has
all of your pictures up
in her room."
-You told him that?
-Yeah.
-And what happened next?
-The bell rang.
Being sick, Ruby missed
her second-favorite holiday,
Halloween.
I suppose one good thing
about the days after Halloween
is that candy goes on sale.
I may have outdone myself
this time.
I love this little girl so much.
Can I open my eyes?
(shuffling sounds)
Not yet.
I'm sorry you missed Halloween.
I am, too.
Open your eyes.
This looks amazing!
Now, enjoy your spaghetti
with...
Spaghetti with what?
Eyeballs!
And, of course,
a vampire's favorite drink...
(Ruby giggles)
Why are you staring at me?
I'm just so happy
you're better.
That was, like, a week ago.
I know.
I did miss out
on a lot of candy.
Or did you?
What do you mean?
Ruby loved the costume
I bought for her.
The cutest little hippie ever.
She came away
with more candy that evening
than any previous year
of trick-or-treating.
It will last.
Did not realize
how easy it is
to become so isolated in school.
And the world.
Did someone order
a pumpkin spice latte?
Your fave.
It's freezing out here.
I miss you.
I'm not giving up on you, Clara.
I'm beginning to.
What?
Give--give up on yourself?
I wish you would
let me help you.
You look so tired.
Gee, thanks.
That's not--
that's not what I meant.
You just look so stressed
and you seem so unhappy.
Not what I thought
senior year would be.
Tell me about it.
I didn't win a single vote
for homecoming king.
I heard you saw Ruby.
I did.
I miss her, too.
Do you really still keep
our pictures up in your room?
Do you just need time?
Can I stay here with you?
I like that.
A few days had passed
and I picked Ruby up
from school.
Winter definitely arrived early.
I had skipped school that day.
I had been skipping many days.
I was having trouble focusing.
Oh! And I got an A on spelling.
(indistinct reply)
I was having trouble
with everything.
Thank you for bringing
my gloves.
I was freezing at recess.
I'm making hot cocoa
when we get home.
Good idea.
And we could sleep in tomorrow.
How 'bout a movie night tonight?
Yes!
Movie night! Movie night!
If... you make the popcorn.
Movie night! Movie night!
It was such a fun evening,
just the two of us.
She could always make me laugh.
Her smile was the only
motivation I needed.
She has no idea
how many times she's saved me.
Ruby made the popcorn
and picked the movie.
We cuddled on the couch.
I let her stay up late
and she fell asleep
on the couch.
I brought pillows
and blankets from the bedroom
and joined her.
Then... dammit,
I hate this part.
I woke up
in the middle of the night
and realized
something was not right.
The house was cold.
We'd lost power.
I looked outside
and saw streetlights were on.
Oh, no.
This isn't good.
Maybe the lights would be on
in the morning?
I was beginning to crack.
No, I was cracking.
I felt like I was taking
one last breath
before jumping
into the deep end.
I'd used up all my prayers
when Ruby was sick.
But here we were,
together in a freezing home
with no power.
Some guardian angel I am.
I just lay there.
I recounted everything
Lindsay told me in her office.
In just a couple months,
I could no longer check
any of the boxes.
I was desperate and failing.
Clara.
Clara, wake up!
Something's wrong
with the house.
What?
The house.
It's freezing in here.
And the lights won't turn on.
I know.
We'll get it fixed.
Come here.
I called the electric company.
Twenty-minute wait time.
My phone battery was down
to five percent.
I turned off my phone.
When we arrived at the diner,
I was so tired, numb.
I was in a fog,
just existing.
My mind couldn't focus.
I wanted to make a plan...
(Clara chuckles sadly)
...but there was no plan.
How did we get to this place?
My God, I'm just a kid.
Ruby and those hash browns.
A cat.
A mermaid.
Hey...
A fish.
A cupcake.
An ice cream.
And this one.
This one.
How do you know
when you hit rock bottom?
(Clara sighs)
You just know.
I didn't want Ruby
to see me cry,
hear me scream.
I've come this far
without letting her see
how scared and devastated
and desperate I was.
But she's so smart,
so perceptive.
She knew something
was not right.
But she has complete faith
in her big sister.
Excuse me!
Excuse me.
Sorry.
We're about to be closing soon.
We're about to close?
Thanks.
I'm sorry.
Your card was declined.
Oh. Can you try again?
I--I did.
(Clara sighs)
Hey, hey.
It's okay.
It's on the house.
Thank you.
Okay. Hey.
Get your jacket on, okay?
Could it get any worse?
It could.
Of course
the car wouldn't start.
I didn't have any energy
to really feel anything
about it.
I just came
to the realization
that this would be
my last night with Ruby.
I had one last best idea
to ease her worry.
I would make a tent
in the basement
and we could go camping.
She brought a couple blankets
and leftover Halloween candy.
And peaches.
The most amazing, beautiful,
wonderful baby sister ever.
My best friend.
Ruby fell asleep in my arms.
Then reality completely hit,
and it hit over and over.
Being smashed into a wall,
Ruby getting sick.
The credit card, the car.
This freezing house.
I couldn't convince myself
to get it together.
I was failing Ruby.
My beautiful baby sister,
sleeping curled up next to me.
I was out of options.
It was bad.
This was very, very bad.
Breathe.
Breathe!
I failed Daddy.
I failed Ruby.
I failed.
Game over.
I'm so sorry, Ruby.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to say.
Just make something up.
You'll make it special for her.
You always do.
(hum of white noise)
I'm still here.
(banging)
Clara?
Clara!
Clara! Ruby!
I got a ringtone.
Clara?
Hey, Ruby!
-Clara!
-Ruby?
Clara.
Clara!
(approaching footsteps)
Oh my God--Graham!
Graham, they're down here!
Oh--Clara!
(indistinct remarks)
It's so cold.
It's so cold!
Clara.
Clara, hey!
Honey. Honey.
We're gonna get you
out of here, okay?
Look at me,
we're gonna get you out of here.
Let's go.
-Let's go.
-Wait.
(floor squeaking)
What is it, Clara,
can you show me?
She had a plan to get help.
For the first time, I saw
a glimmer of hope in her eyes.
That evening,
after I put Ruby to bed,
I went to check on her,
but something wasn't right.
She had been out
evenings before, but,
I thought she'd be
packing or something, I mean,
she was leaving the next day.
I knocked on her door, but...
there was no answer.
I opened the door,
but the lights were off.
The lights in the closet
were on.
I made my way to the closet.
I saw a shadow moving.
I could hear creaking.
Suddenly, I could see a shadow.
Come out, I was so scared.
I made my way
to the front of the closet.
First, I noticed the feet.
Then my eyes made its way
up to the knees.
And the waist,
and the shoulders.
Oh, God, oh, no.
A rope.
The ceiling.
No.
No, no, no, mom, no.
I checked for a pulse, but...
if you saw her face,
and her eyes.
Oh, God.
I went to the kitchen
and got a knife.
I cut the rope,
and she collapsed to the ground
with such a thud.
Please, God,
don't let Ruby wake up.
I can't let her see this.
I panicked.
I promised Daddy
to protect Ruby.
Ruby first.
(sniffling)
Her...
Put her in her favorite dress,
and made up her face,
covering the marks on her neck.
I put her in a large tarp.
It was pouring outside.
Dragged her outside to the shed
and put her in the big freezer
that dad used to keep deer in.
I went back inside,
took off my clothes,
took a shower,
went in Ruby's room,
and fell asleep next to her.
Clara.
Clara.
She's all I have.
We're getting you both
out of here, okay?
You're both coming home with us.
I'm so tired.
Hey, you.
Where am I, am I dreaming?
It's okay, honey,
you're at the hospital.
I don't understand.
It's just,
you had a rough night,
and you're here for observation.
Where's Ruby?
She's with Graham.
Why do I feel like
I did something wrong?
You did absolutely
nothing wrong.
I didn't know what to do,
there was no one else
in our life.
We only had each other.
They're going to take away Ruby.
No, no one,
no one is going
to take Ruby away,
no one.
Okay, I know the system,
I know the people in the system.
They're good people,
and I'm working on it,
and my team is working on it,
and, besides,
Graham would never allow it.
Clara, but now you need
to get the resources
that you need
to heal and to rest.
I can't go back there.
You never have to.
How did you know?
How did I know what?
To come to the house.
Oh, we tried calling you
and calling you
and calling you all day.
We were worried.
Clara,
I knew when I met you
that something was wrong...
but I had no idea.
When can I see Ruby?
Soon.
But I promise she is okay.
Clara, I don't know
how you did it,
but you shielded
that little girl
from everything bad in her life.
We're gonna
keep an eye on her, okay?
I am so scared.
I know, I know.
But you don't have
to hide anything anymore.
You can rest
and you can heal.
What about...
what about mom?
Everything at the house
is being taken care of.
What was I thinking, I...
I knew it couldn't last,
I knew every night
when I was putting Ruby to bed.
You did it for Ruby.
Would've been easier
if mom just left
and never came back.
I mean, she must've known
I would find her,
or worse, Ruby.
Why did she do it?
I don't know.
But, Clara,
I do know
that it's time for people
to start taking care of you.
Clara, you have your whole life
ahead of you.
Your whole life.
And I know it doesn't
feel like that right now,
but I will be with you,
every step.
I failed, Lindsay.
No.
You look at that.
You look at those smiles.
That's the most
beautiful picture
I've ever seen.
Well...
you need sleep,
okay?
I'll be back tomorrow.
(sniffling)
(sighs)
It had only been two days,
but it felt much longer.
My body was rebooting.
A nice doctor, Dr. MacAdams,
spoke with me.
Lindsay spent
so much time with me there.
That was comforting.
So,
I talked to Dr. MacAdams,
and she admires you.
She's really nice,
easy to talk to.
When can I leave?
(laughs)
It looks like today,
but you're gonna
continue to see Dr. MacAdams,
because I understand
that you two have a plan.
You know I would
never harm myself,
or Ruby, right?
Of course I know that.
They're just asking
silly questions, and--
I know, I know.
They just need
to hear it from you.
That's all.
Okay?
I know you, Clara.
Easy, easy.
I missed you so much.
Not as much as I missed you.
Please tell me you aren't
going away again?
I'm not going anywhere.
Hey, this is such
a beautiful room.
Graham let me pick out
my favorite color,
and we spent the day
painting the walls.
Wow, you two must've been busy.
You have Peaches?
Yeah.
Peaches and the dress
you bought me.
Those are the only things
I asked Graham
to get me from the house.
I know that mom's dead.
Oh, Ruby, I...
I wanted to tell you.
It's...
she was never a mom to me.
I don't have any memories of her
ever being a mom to me.
I'm not sad she's dead.
She wasn't good to you.
All I care about
is you and your happiness.
I know that.
I've always known that.
Do you like it here?
Lindsay and Graham
are so nice to me.
Lindsay took me out to get
some new clothes yesterday,
and Graham and I
went Christmas shopping.
Wow, how fun.
I had a bad dream last night.
Do you wanna tell me about it?
You were driving,
and the road was so windy.
We were near a cliff,
and we kept getting
closer and closer
to the edge.
And finally,
the car went over.
What an awful dream.
Sounds like I might need
some driving lessons.
We did drive off a cliff there.
The other night.
But you know what?
I think we may have just landed
on a different road.
Maybe we let Graham and Lindsay
drive for a little bit?
Thank you, Clara.
For what?
Everything.
I was in the room
right next to Ruby's.
Graham had brought
my clothes from the house,
as well as my paintings
from the wall.
Hi.
I hope you like the room.
This doesn't feel real, Lindsay.
It's gonna take some time.
Man, I knew that
you like to sing,
but I didn't know
that you were a painter.
I mean, I think that we should
hang this in our foyer.
I'm... it's...
your work is beautiful.
Thank you.
But of course.
This room is really pretty,
thank you.
I think we need...
a prettier headboard.
I don't want you
to worry anymore.
Everything is taken care of
with the house.
I'm glad,
I just don't wanna relive it.
Clara...
your mom left a note.
For me?
I don't wanna read it.
Okay, I understand.
What could she possibly say?
That she's sorry?
That she did it for me, for us?
I never wanna read it.
You never have to.
Now, get some rest, okay?
Hey.
I didn't think you'd pick up.
I just haven't known
what to say.
It's just good
to hear your voice.
I'm so sorry
for what you're going through.
I know the rumors.
I know they're not true, Clara.
People make up the worst things.
It doesn't matter.
There are more people
pulling for you
than you realize.
I just can't be
anywhere near it.
That's fair.
I really would
like to see you, but--
I just...
I have a lot to figure out.
I understand.
I'm really sorry, Noah.
For so many years,
we did not have anything special
planned for Thanksgiving.
This Thanksgiving was obviously
and wonderfully different.
Other than each other,
Ruby and I have something
to be thankful for.
The two had a plan,
and they insisted
Lindsay and I rest.
Lindsay definitely needed it.
She was spending day and night
protecting me and Ruby.
I was given some medication
to help with the anxiety.
It made me pretty tired.
But I couldn't take my eyes
off the two of them.
It was so good for my heart.
My soul.
The kitchen smelled amazing.
There's so much kindness
and love in this home.
Ruby was safe here.
Hey, dinner's almost ready.
I'll go get the others.
Uh, before you go, Clara,
I just wanted to thank you.
Thank me?
All I've done
is make your life complicated.
No, you haven't.
-Really?
-You haven't.
So, when I was 12 years old,
I lost my baby sister,
Annabelle.
I loved her so much,
I loved being her big brother.
When she passed,
it completely left me
heartbroken.
I would have given anything,
anything to allow her to live.
I can only imagine the entirety
of what you've done for Ruby,
knowing everything
that you've been through.
But that little girl
has filled this immense hole
in my heart,
and that is all because of you.
I really admire you, Clara.
I'm so sorry about Annabelle.
I don't what I'd do
without Ruby.
I love how you are with her.
She's never had someone
like you in her life,
not that she would remember.
The other day,
when I was at the hospital,
I think I was at my lowest point
when Lindsay showed me
that picture of you
and Ruby and Santa.
I don't know
where they got that Santa,
he was pretty rough.
Well, that picture helped me
more than you'll ever know.
I just hope you and Ruby
like it here.
Graham, we love it here.
Don't open your eyes yet!
Watch your step,
watch your step.
This does not seem like
the dining room.
Open your eyes!
Ruby, did you do this?
Me and Graham.
Dear Lord God,
thank You so much for
bringing us together
as a family.
Lindsay's prayer
was so meaningful.
I know I was supposed
to close my eyes.
But I could not take my eyes
off of Ruby's face.
These kind, resilient,
strong young women
that You have brought
into our lives
and into our home.
In Your name we pray, Amen.
For that moment,
every ounce of stress lifted.
We ate and laughed.
Watching the relationship
between Graham and Ruby grow
meant more to me
than Graham will ever know.
He is so gentle and kind,
and hangs on every word
she says.
Lindsay was becoming
a big sister to me.
I knew I could
tell her anything.
I know how quickly
everything can change,
and everything
can be taken away.
And that's something
I would have to work on.
And I will.
Things that might seem so small
are so impactful and large.
I just can't explain the feeling
of being in that room,
watching everyone
place an ornament
on this big, beautiful tree,
one after another
until only the star remained.
Oh, how I love this moment.
I went upstairs to rest.
It had been a long,
wonderful day.
But something Lindsay said...
Thank you for today.
I don't think Ruby has ever
experienced anything like that,
and I don't remember
the last time I have, either.
It was the perfect day.
(giggling)
Lindsay, you said something
during your prayer
before dinner.
Well, I meant every word.
Ruby's face
when you said, "Family."
She was looking at you.
Family is something
she so desperately wants,
and I suppose,
of course, I do too.
Watching her,
you know, with you,
putting the star on the tree.
It's something
I'll never forget.
It meant as much to me
as it did to her,
And I guess
I'll never fully understand
why you and Graham
are doing this.
I meant every word,
okay?
I mean, Graham and I,
we've tried to start a family
since we got married,
um, but...
We both feel this way,
and it...
it may be hard
for you to understand why.
Faith is a huge part
of both of our lives,
and, by the way,
it's okay if it's not for you.
But we believe that you were
put into our lives for a reason,
a powerful, wonderful reason.
You and Ruby
have made our lives
immensely better.
And don't get me wrong,
we're very thankful
for everything we have,
but it's better
because you're in it.
Clara.
We want you and Ruby to move in,
and not just for the holidays.
We want this to be
a real home for you.
What do you say?
(gentle laughter)
We're so emotional.
(laughter)
Words can't express how I felt
going to bed that night.
I don't know
if I will ever understand
the love and generosity
that Graham and Lindsay
have shown me and Ruby.
They have given us
the greatest gift.
The gift of a second chance.
The opportunity for survival.
So, this is the right place
and time to end this journal.
There isn't more to tell.
Dr. MacAdams has been with me
every step of the way
these past six months.
So has Lindsay, and Graham,
and Ruby.
I'm in a much better place.
I feel a sense of
security and comfort
that I have not felt since
before my father got sick.
I can think about my future.
I am breathing again.
And one day,
I know I will be able
to fully exhale.
I have faced my trauma
and my demons...
and I feel
I can leave it behind.
I've forgiven my mom.
I will keep those
beautiful memories of my dad,
and those I had of my mom.
But I owe it to myself,
and Ruby, to move forward.
Well, you're making
great progress, Clara.
The writing really helps,
and I've started
writing songs again.
I'm delighted,
another positive step.
And school is going well?
It is.
And I'm glad it's online,
and the classes are pretty easy.
And you will graduate
at the end of the summer?
That's the plan.
Did you decide
what you want to do next?
I'm going to take
a year and work
at Lindsay's law office.
I saw Noah.
You did?
Where?
The toy store.
I was looking
to buy something for Ruby.
Tell me about him.
Well, I haven't seen him
since everything happened,
and he seemed scared
to even come near me.
Go on.
Well,
he smiled, and...
I've really missed his smile.
It was right out of a movie.
That's when he walked
over to me.
He told me he missed me,
and I told him
I missed him, too.
I was so happy.
That's really sweet.
Are you going to see him again?
As much as I
just want to move forward,
Noah has always
been there for me.
Always.
And to think
he didn't give up on me.
I mean, if you could've
seen his eyes.
We've talked on the phone
every day since, and...
we're going on a date
this weekend,
can you believe it?
That's wonderful, Clara.
Did you tell Ruby?
She was really happy.
You should be really proud
of the progress you have made.
And then Dr. MacAdams told me
she no longer needed to spend
as much time with me.
That I was ready to move on.
It made me feel so proud.
I was... happy.
I can't lose hope
I can't lose faith
At the end of the night
There's another day
About to start
Let it begin
I will open up the doors
I'll breathe it in
I'm standing up
Gonna rise above
Remind myself
What it means to love
I would run a thousand miles
I'd walk the earth,
so vast and wild
There is someone
waiting at the end
She's too far for me to see
But I know she waits for me
And I can't stop
until she smiles again
I hope she knows
I'm always here
I might hide
behind the moonlight
But I won't disappear
I won't give up
I'm holding on
Oh, I fear I grew
too quickly
But I'm learning
to grow strong
I'm catching up
One day, I'll rise above
Remind myself
What it means to love
Oh, I would run
a thousand miles
I'd walk the earth,
so vast and wild
There is someone
cheering at the end
She's too far for me to see
But I know she waits for me
And I can't stop
Until she smiles again
The water's rough
Rising endlessly
But I'm treading water
Swimming aimlessly
Because I know
When I reach the shore
I will see
Her face once more
I won't lose hope
I won't lose faith
At the end of the night
There's another day
Oh, I would run
a thousand miles
I'd walk the earth,
so vast and wild
There is someone
waiting at the end
She's too far for me to see
Oh, but I know
she waits for me
And I can't stop
Until she smiles again
Again
Until she smiles again
Oh
It's perfect.
Rewinding years
I don't know where I've gone
Sweat and tears until
I'm back at square one
Is there an answer
hiding in this dark abyss?
Am I what's wrong,
it's never done
The paint still drips
A treasure trove
In worlds untold
Yeah, now I'm waking up
I hear the starting gun,
get set and run
Now I'm learning what
And now I'm learning
what can break a fall
Searching for
another way to roam
To get away, we can't stay
Wish I could let it go
And every step we take,
it feels the same
In this shadow play,
the hurt quakes
But you're my only home
Pull me under, but now,
now I'm waking up slowly
Slowly, slowly,
slowly, slowly
The Novocaine's worn off
and I'm seeing so clearly
Clearly, clearly, clearly
And the TV is flickering
In the static before me
'fore me, 'fore me, 'fore me
And I'm feeling
this chill again
Finding some confidence
-In the new me
-In the new me
But I'm standing taller
I'm seeing farther
than this city
City, city, city
The voice in my head,
it's starting to spread
It's taking a hold of me
Hold of me, hold of me
And now I'm waking up
I hear the starting gun,
get set and run
Now I'm learning what
Now I'm learning
what can break a fall
My hands are harder
But they're so much stronger
And they'll wipe away
the salt
And I'll make it
Searching for
another way to roam
To get away, we can't stay
We're gonna lose control
And we're waking up,
waking up
Waking
And every step we take
it feels the same
In this shadow play,
the hurt quakes
We're just hanging on
A treasure trove
In worlds untold
And now, I'm waking up
And now, I'm waking up
Dr. McAdams says this will help.
Writing. Writing. Writing.
(sighs)
Writing.
Let's see.
(sighs)
Nope.
Okay, Clara.
Let's try this.
It had been a good summer,
and my senior year
of high school
was about to begin.
Earlier that summer,
my band won a contest,
and the prize was to open
for a huge concert.
Until I'm sour
Of course, no one there
would be interested
in seeing us perform.
Sweet and sour,
trust me I'll devour you
if you get
on the wrong side of me
Be the best
as long as you don't test me
Feed me what I want to hear
I'll agree, ooh
Ca-ca-ca call me
sweet and sour
Ca-ca-ca
call me sweet and sour
Ca-ca-ca call me
sweet and sour
Ca-ca-ca call me
sweet and sour
Guys, what the fuck?
We're performing in front
of 20,000 people next week.
I... I thought it sounded great.
Chill out, Jason.
Really?
You thought that was great?
Well...
I'll see you on Monday.
I can't believe
you're leaving this week.
Well, my sister's
getting married,
so... yeah,
I'm going away this weekend.
Stop being an asshole, Jason.
It's supposed to be fun.
Have a great time, Nikki.
And congratulate
your sister for me.
And text me lots of pictures.
So, that's it for today?
Jason had a way with words.
I'll walk you home.
Sure, Ruby will be here soon.
Senior year,
can you believe it?
I mean, maybe, just maybe,
this is my year
to be homecoming king.
Oh, you dream big, Noah.
Can you imagine?
Me? Homecoming king?
I mean, I'd try
to save a dance for you,
if no one was watching.
I have an image to protect.
Oh, you really know
how to sweet talk a girl.
By the way,
you sounded great today.
Noah.
I always sound great.
I mean,
I sing because it's fun.
Nikki gets it, you get it,
I mean,
I'm excited about the concert,
it's a cool gig,
but I'm pretty much
done with Jason.
I'm with you.
Hey, Princess Ruby.
Hey, Prince Noah.
That's King Noah.
Does have a nice ring to it.
Can I go with you
on your date tomorrow?
How about ice cream next week?
Yay.
Do we--
Do we even need Jason?
(rimshot)
How was band practice?
Mom only engaged in small talk.
With the exception of me,
she had shut everyone
out of her world.
It was good,
next week is going
to be really exciting for us.
Your dad would be
so proud of you.
It's only three songs.
I've... I've been thinking
a lot about my health,
my well-being,
and I have
an opportunity, Clara.
Really?
That's great, Mom.
What's great, Mom?
I'm talking with Clara.
(sighs)
So, I'll need to go away
for a little while.
But...
I mean, I know you've got
school starting up soon,
and Ruby will need
probably lots of--
If you can get
the help you need,
don't worry about things here,
I've got it.
I just haven't
been fair to you, Clara.
God knows I have not been
a good mom to Ruby.
I just can't continue like this.
I know you struggle, Mom.
Can you tell me about the place?
The place?
The place you're going to.
Oh.
Only that I've been
reading a lot about it
and I think
it's exactly what I need.
I'll leave you the car keys
and the credit card.
When are you leaving?
Sunday.
In two days?
Ruby's birthday?
You'll make it special for her,
you always do.
I will.
Just, make something up.
She probably won't
even notice that I'm gone.
I'll figure it out.
And I'm excited for you,
I really am.
Thank you, Clara.
Mom was never the same
after dad died.
That was almost six years ago.
I'm sorry for getting sick.
I'm sorry too, Daddy.
Mommy's not strong like you
and she's gonna need your help.
I just wish
she was better with Ruby.
I know.
You need to be there for Ruby.
And Mom?
Ruby first, always.
Understand?
Yes, Daddy.
(chuckles)
How much of the bottle
did you use?
Are you ever planning
on coming out?
(giggles)
You think
you got enough bubbles?
Never.
What?
Don't do that again!
I knew she would.
Oh, I'm going to get you
for that, missy.
Someone is turning nine
on Sunday!
I can't wait.
(giggling)
(giggling)
The next morning, I took a run.
I was feeling optimistic.
My mom had definitely thrown
a wrench in my plans,
but I could handle it.
Ruby and I do great together,
and maybe Mom would finally
get the help she needed.
Such a beautiful morning.
Little chilly.
Are you all packed?
Almost.
Well... will you need
a ride to the airport?
No, Clara,
I've got it all covered.
Any idea
how long you'll be away for?
We'll talk later.
Good talk, Mom.
Good talk.
There was a time
my mom was happy,
when she loved,
when she was beautiful.
There was a time
we were family.
Ruby does not
remember those days.
I miss those days.
(restaurant background chatter)
Don't you like it?
Oh, yeah, it's good.
What's wrong, Clara?
Just my mom.
Is she losing it again?
I don't know,
she's going away for a while.
For what?
Help.
Where's she going?
I don't know.
For how long?
I don't know.
Did she give you any details?
I don't know, Noah.
I'm sorry.
No, I'm sorry,
too many questions.
Is Ruby going?
I'm sorry, too many questions.
I wish...
Whatever,
I just hope she gets some help.
I do, too.
I wish she wasn't so selfish.
I mean, I know
I should expect it from her,
but I wish...
It's just frustrating.
I feel horrible for you.
And Ruby.
This is just not fair.
Maybe this time she'll find
the answer she needs?
Maybe.
Hey, we don't have to go
to a movie today.
Yeah, I think
I need to be with Ruby.
Well, let's try to enjoy dinner.
Forget about everything else,
just for now.
For me?
Deal.
You know, for a guy,
you're pretty understanding.
(chuckles)
I've handled stress forever,
but Mom's timing
was making it more challenging.
I didn't want
to take it out on Noah,
he's the only boyfriend
I've ever had,
and I've known him
since he moved here
in second grade.
Other than Ruby,
he was my best friend.
I promise to be
better company next time.
Good thing you're hot.
I suppose it is.
If I win homecoming king,
I can't promise
I'll be this understanding.
I'll take my chances.
(chuckling)
I can't right now.
Happy birthday, Princess Ruby.
I got everything ready,
birthday girl.
You know what to do.
One, two, three, four
I can't help
but feel irritated
every single time he walks by
Time he walks by
His goofy little smirk
and his baby blues
catching my eye
Catching my eye
But when he looks,
I scoff and he laughs it off
but he thinks
that I can't see
He makes me so mad
and I want him so bad
How'd he get
such a hold on me?
He's not a real blonde
and I won't respond
I wanna hear him
say my name on repeat
He can stop and stare,
baby, I don't care
Just as long
as he's looking at me
When he walks my way,
I say go away
But I hope
he'll stay right there
My heart's doing me wrong,
singing silly love songs
For fake blonde hair
Okay, Ruby,
what do you want to do today?
Hmm.
Cinnamon pretzels and a movie?
Deal.
-And a slushy?
-Deal.
-And a...
-Don't push your luck!
-A cake?
-Well, duh!
Mom home?
So, about Mom,
she's gone away
for a little bit.
Where?
Well--
Did she leave a present?
Or a card?
Actually, she did leave a card.
And I have a fun day
planned with it,
just you and me.
You aren't going anywhere,
right?
No, never.
Yay.
(chuckles)
I love it!
I'm so glad you like it.
(sighs)
I remember the day
my father died.
He had come home
from the hospital
the day before.
He wanted to celebrate
one more birthday with Ruby.
He was so fragile.
He passed away
in his sleep that night.
Wake up!
I remember Mom
yelling at him to get up.
-Get up! Wake up!
-She was so angry.
I was devastated,
I loved my dad.
I was 11 years old,
and this was her third birthday.
The ambulance came
and took his body.
Mom went back into her bedroom
and didn't come out
the rest of the day.
The whole day.
All I could do
was go into Ruby's bedroom
and hold her
while she was sleeping.
You need any help with that?
No!
Every year I made sure
Ruby's birthday was special.
Always just the two of us.
There was no one else.
I love it.
I'm so happy you like it.
Do I look grown up?
Oh, you look too grown up.
I love it, I love it, I love it!
(giggles)
Ruby was thrilled with the day,
I spoiled her.
Did you really think
you were only getting
one birthday present?
Peaches!
You're giving me Peaches?
I want you to have it.
Peaches got me through
a lot of hard times.
But it's from Dad.
It's your favorite.
You are my favorite.
I had so much fun today:
The movie,
the dinner,
the cake,
my new dress.
I still can't believe
everyone in the restaurant
sang "Happy Birthday" to me.
It was the best birthday.
I'm so glad.
You deserved it.
Now, get some sleep.
School tomorrow.
(groans)
Hey, I know it's a bit late,
but I do have
band rehearsal tonight.
Now?
I hate being
home alone at night.
I know, I really don't wanna go,
but I promise
to be back home soon, okay?
Fine.
In an instant,
I had ruined her perfect day.
One, two, one, two--
Hold up, hold up.
Clara.
Are you okay?
I'm... I'm sorry,
but I have to go.
Are you kidding?
We just started.
Clara, are you okay?
Ruby's home alone, I...
I need to be with her,
I'm really sorry.
Kids are always left home alone.
I'm sure she's fine.
Clara, we have to rehearse,
the show is in two days.
That is our
only focus right now.
Don't you think she'll be okay
for a little longer?
I have to go.
Okay, what the fuck is going on?
I--
I'm sorry.
Clara,
you don't have to apologize.
Is that it?
How the hell
are we gonna find
a replacement for you
in two days?
Replacement?
These are her songs.
Her voice
won us the competition.
Could you just try to get
through the show in two days?
You know I have to go.
Fuck this!
Let's get out of here, girl.
I was angry with myself.
What was I thinking?
I knew love from a mom and dad.
Ruby never did.
I couldn't sleep.
Oh, I shouldn't have left you.
Please don't do it again.
Ruby, I promise.
Hey.
Forgive me?
Yes.
Can you get some sleep?
I'll try.
I did have a lot of sugar today.
I suppose I shouldn't
have been surprised.
A week had passed
since I backed out
of the concert.
I was walking down the hallway,
when I felt a massive,
violent push
against my shoulders.
My face smashed
against the wall.
I remember
putting my hand to my face
and turning around
and seeing him.
He was in my face,
screaming at me.
I remember closing my eyes
and in an instant,
he was on the floor.
I was speechless.
I was numb.
I didn't say a word.
Clara, are you okay? Clara?
Please, let me help you.
Clara?
Clara!
I ran home... I think.
I remember changing my clothes.
I was in shock.
My ears were ringing,
it was so loud.
I found Mom's hangover glasses.
I had to get it together,
had to get Ruby from school.
(giggles)
Nice glasses.
What happened?
Are you okay?
I'm okay,
some boys are just stupid.
Who did it?
It doesn't matter.
Trust me,
he got the worst of it.
I don't like
anybody hurting you, Clara.
I know.
Nobody better even think
about hurting you.
Now, let's get home,
I need some ice.
And hugs.
Tag, you're it!
(Ruby giggles)
We spent that evening
on the couch
watching silly videos.
Holding Ruby
was always comforting.
I just hope the shock
and pain would ease.
Getting your face
smashed into a wall
definitely leaves a mark
for days.
Makeup helps.
It was career day
at school for us seniors.
Hi, you guys,
my name is Lindsay Andrews,
and I am a lawyer.
And that is when I saw Lindsay.
She talked to the class
about being a lawyer.
She looked and sounded so smart.
And she seemed... nice.
Just something in her voice.
And I specialize in family law.
So, this deals with anything
from marriage and divorces
to, uh... to, uh, custody.
Most of the kids
looked really bored,
or were talking to each other.
Lindsay started talking about--
Guardianships.
So, yes, question in the back.
How old do you have to be
to be a guardian?
You have to be 18 years old,
but that's
just the beginning, right?
So, the court's gonna check
for a myriad of other--
I was fascinated.
I did not know
it was a legal word.
My dad would always say
I was Ruby's guardian angel.
...need to provide
physical and mental,
and emotional support,
I wish the other kids
would shut up.
...and shelter.
Does that make sense?
She was so--
Does anybody have any--
Everything I hoped to be.
Mrs. Andrews?
I really liked
what you had to say,
you're really smart.
Oh, thank you!
What's your name?
Clara, my name's Clara.
Hi, Clara, I'm Lindsay,
it's very nice to meet you.
Thank you for asking a question.
I, you know, wasn't really sure
that anybody
was listening, so...
Do you wanna be
a lawyer someday?
I'm just trying to make it
through my senior year.
I was hoping to learn more
about guardians.
Sure, yeah,
I'd be happy to tell you more.
Maybe you can swing by
my office one day?
Tomorrow?
I could come by
during my lunch hour.
I have to pick up
my sister from school
but only if you're not too busy.
You know what?
Absolutely,
I... I look forward to it.
Thank you, seriously, thank you.
She just met me
and she was willing
to give me time.
And I was excited
to see her the next day.
I know my face upset Ruby.
I didn't want her
worrying about me,
she's my responsibility.
It's not enough
to just make sure
she gets to school on time.
It's not enough to just exist.
She deserves so much happiness.
She deserves so much more.
Gimme a "T"!
T!
Gimme an "A"!
A!
Gimme a "C"!
C!
Gimme an "O"!
O!
What does that spell?
Taco?
Taco night!
Whoa, easy there.
So, how was your day at school?
There was a fight
on the playground.
Really?
Shirley Matthews
beat up three boys.
At once!
Is she in your grade?
She's in my class.
Everyone's really nice to her,
especially when
she's on her period.
Well, how old is Shirley?
Ten.
She uses tampons.
I think you put them
in your belly button.
Close.
Is that Noah?
No, I made a new friend today.
Oh, I bought something
for your room.
What?
I'll show you after dinner.
Eat up.
How was your day at school?
I got a bit of food in my mouth.
I hated Ruby's bedroom.
Mom didn't like
anything on the walls,
but Mom was away.
Bruise looked angry.
I had to be my best that day.
I took extra time on my makeup
and found something
more professional to wear.
Mrs. Andrews?
Welcome, Clara!
Hi!
She welcomed me
with the biggest hug.
I wasn't expecting that.
I needed it.
I needed this day, this moment.
She had brought in
a special lunch,
just for me.
I couldn't believe it.
Middle Eastern food.
I'm more used to salads,
tacos, and burgers.
She was so excited
to share it with me.
Was this for real?
I tried everything.
Actually, I devoured everything.
It was so delicious.
She must have thought
I hadn't eaten for days.
I certainly had not
been eating well.
So, tell me a little bit
about yourself.
Well, I'm a senior.
Oh, you already know that.
I have a little sister, Ruby.
Tell me about Ruby.
She just turned nine,
she's the sweetest
person on Earth.
She's my best friend.
My whole world.
Oh!
Look at the ear.
What about your parents?
My dad died six years ago.
I'm so sorry.
He was a great dad.
He was the best dad.
Well, I bet he'd
be very proud of you.
That must've been
really hard on your mom.
He had ALS,
it was a brutal couple of years.
I have so many
wonderful memories of my dad.
I cherished
every second with him.
My favorite memory
was my fourth grade
daddy/daughter dance.
He bought me a new dress,
he took me out
for a fancy dinner,
he made me feel like a princess.
There was no greater daddy,
and I felt like
the luckiest kid in the world.
He was a brilliant engineer.
He loved music.
Even had a studio
in our basement.
And, yeah,
Mom was never the same.
How so?
She just stopped...
caring.
I wish Ruby knew
what she was like
before dad got sick.
Do you have grandparents?
Or, aunts or uncles?
No one.
Are you comfortable with me
asking some questions?
-No, I'm fine with it.
-Okay.
Clara, I... I have to ask
about the bruise on your face.
Oh, that happened
at school, um...
Some boys were roughhousing
in the hallway
and I got the best--
Clara,
you can be honest with me.
Really.
Tell me a bit more
about your mom.
Um... she's away right now,
training for a new job.
So, it's, uh...
it's just you
and Ruby in the house, then?
Yeah, for a bit.
But I'm used to it, Ruby's easy.
When does she return?
From what?
When does your mom
return from her training?
Oh, soon.
Clara, you are...
You are one brave woman.
Who's that?
That is my Graham.
We've been married
for two years,
and he's my best friend.
He looks nice, like you.
Well, I'm lucky,
I got a good one.
Well, I think
he's the lucky one.
Do you have anybody special
in your life other than Ruby?
Noah.
I've known him
since second grade.
He's really nice.
Ruby likes him, too.
What did you want to know
about guardianships?
Can a big sister be a guardian?
Uh, yeah, yes,
the short answer is yes.
You know,
the state will always look
for what's in the best interest
of the child, right?
Lindsay listed all the things
that a court would look at.
The guardian's mental
and physical health, check.
The child's preference,
that's an easy one.
The ability to provide shelter,
food, clothing, medical care.
Check, check, check.
All checks.
Is... is this making sense?
It really does.
I'm sorry, I need to go.
Well, let me drop you off.
Oh, it's fine.
Clara, let me drop you off.
Okay.
I was mad at myself
for not being there
to pick up Ruby from school.
Ruby?
What are you doing in here?
Do you think she loves me?
Mom?
Of course she loves you.
I love you, Mom.
I love you, Ruby.
Mom wasn't well.
Perhaps she really
did not love Ruby.
The only person
I know that loves me is you.
I promise not to do anything
to ever make you mad at me.
There's nothing
you could ever, ever do
that would make me mad at you.
And I promise I will never,
ever let you feel alone.
We'll stay in Mama's room,
okay?
Okay.
-Promise?
-Promise.
Now, who wants to give me
a makeover?
I do!
Ruby's makeup skills
were legendary.
I loved these moments.
Saturday mornings were special.
How do you stay so tiny?
We would go to the diner.
Ruby loves hash browns.
"Love" is not
a strong enough word.
She's so cute!
There wasn't a hint of jealousy.
Everything was going well.
We had settled into a routine.
Until...
(retching noise)
I threw up!
-(retching)
-Oh, baby!
(retching)
I don't feel good.
You're burning up.
Let's get you to the bathroom.
Oh.
I'm not good with vomit.
The sound of it.
But this is my baby sister.
Come on, baby. You're okay.
I hate throwing up.
(retching noise)
I know, baby.
Try to relax.
I'm sorry about my sheets.
Don't worry about that.
I'll get it all cleaned up.
(retching noise)
Well. Somebody doesn't have
school tomorrow.
My head hurts.
I'm gonna go fill up the tub,
come on.
(water gushing)
(water dripping)
Clara. My head hurts,
and my throat is really sore.
I bet, baby.
I'm sure throwing up
made it hurt really bad.
But I'll buy
your favorite popsicles,
and I'm just gonna
cuddle you all day.
-Promise?
-I love you.
Around noon, it started again.
104.5.
If anyone is listening,
I could really use a hand here.
I felt so useless.
I was lost.
Should I take her
to the doctor?
The emergency room?
This is what a mom
was supposed to do.
This is also what a guardian
is required to do.
I was so scared.
98.6!
I had never been so happy,
so relieved.
So... exhausted.
Lindsay, I-I'm so sorry.
Are you okay?
I am.
Ruby was sick.
Is she okay?
Now she is.
I should have called you.
You should have.
I was worried.
-Does your mom know?
-No.
Do you want me to come over?
Do you need anything?
No, we just need
to catch up on rest today.
Would you be up for breakfast
tomorrow morning?
Can I bring Ruby?
Of course!
And call if you need
anything today, understood?
Understood.
Tell Ruby that I hope
she's feeling better
and that I can't wait
to meet her,
and I'm bringing Graham.
That sounds great!
I'll see you tomorrow.
Ruby was so excited
that morning.
She needed more people
in her life,
good people.
Graham, this is Clara,
and this must be Ruby!
It's nice to meet you,
Ms. Andrews.
Oh, please, call me Lindsay.
Nice to meet you, Graham.
I must warn you both,
Ruby is a bit of a hugger.
Amazing. So am I!
(Ruby squeals, Graham laughs)
Okay, how 'bout
you guys go outside
and have a little bit of fun,
and we will wait
for the table?
-Yeah?
-Mm-hm.
Let's go!
Well, she looks
like she's feeling better.
She is.
You do look exhausted.
I'm okay.
I can show you both
to your table now.
Thank you.
And I can also
take your coats.
That would be awesome,
thank you so much.
Thank you.
(soft music, indistinct chatter)
Could you bring us some tea?
-Of course.
-Okay. Thank you.
Clara, I'm worried about you.
Did you mom come home yet?
-Promise, I'm okay.
-That's not what I asked.
Did she?
No.
All right, look.
You're doing a lot
on your own here.
Okay? Everything
that we talk about
is confidential.
Do you know what that means?
I think so.
It means that
it stays between us.
Um, I would never do anything
to hurt you or hurt Ruby,
but I have to--
I have to put this out there.
Are you protecting your mom?
Did she cause
the bruise on your face?
No, nothing like that.
That really did happen
at school.
This stupid boy
got angry with me, and...
I should have been
more honest about that.
Was this stupid boy Noah?
Oh--oh, no,
Noah would never hurt me.
Really, you would definitely
approve of Noah.
Okay, well...
I'm going to need to know more
about this stupid boy.
But for right now,
I really--
I think it's time
for your mom to come home.
-Thank you.
-Thank you!
Oh, my God.
Look at th--
are they skipping?
(Lindsay laughs)
Oh.
She's not really
training for a new job.
That's what she told me
to tell people.
She found a place
to get help.
Get better.
She left me
the keys to the car
and a credit card.
I'll try to be
more honest with you,
it's just...
I'm doing the best I can,
it's just, you know, a lot.
It's way too much.
It's way, way, way too much.
Okay? Look.
Graham and I are going
to be out of town
for an early Thanksgiving
with his parents,
but I want you to call me
if you need anything.
-You promise?
-I promise.
Giddyup, giddyup, giddyup!
(mock neighing sound)
(chuckling)
A throne for Her Majesty.
Look who's back.
-Hey.
-Hey.
So, Ruby tells me
that you are the greatest
singer in the world.
Wait, I didn't know
that you sang.
It's just for fun.
She won a huge contest--
Um, let's, um,
talk about something else.
I wanna hear more
about your singing.
So what do you do, Graham?
Besides give the best
piggybacks in the world?
(Ruby laughs)
I build houses.
And I also buy and restore
old buildings.
He has the world's
most wonderful imagination.
How old are the buildings?
The 1800s!
Wow. That's really old.
Wanna hear something cool?
The house where you live
was built by my grandfather.
Really?
Tell him he did a good job.
I'll be sure
to let him know.
How did you two meet?
Okay. Well, this is
sort of a crazy story.
I was walking
through Sparrow Market
and I was picking out
an orange,
and I must have picked
the wrong one or something,
because, of course,
all of the oranges come
toppling off of the shelf
and onto the floor,
and it's, it's mayhem,
and I look behind me,
and this guy,
this random dude,
is laughing at me.
It was a lot of oranges!
So after he stops laughing,
he comes over
and he helps me clean them up,
and, yeah,
that's how we met.
How could I not want
to marry him?
That's how you met?
It was love at first sight.
She has a way with oranges.
Oh, my God.
Like right out of a movie.
Your ring is beautiful.
How did Graham propose?
Yeah. How did he propose?
Well, we were walking
through a neighborhood
that we both loved,
and all of a sudden,
Graham stops.
And he gets on one knee
and he holds out this ring
and he says to me...
he says to me,
"This is where I want
to start my life with you."
And then he points behind me
and there's a big,
beautiful house
and it has
a "For Sale" sign on it,
and I turn back around,
and there's Graham
with a "Sold" sign in his hands,
and then he asks me
to marry him.
Wait.
He got you a ring and a house?
Yeah.
What are you all doing
after this?
No big plans.
How would you both like
to come see a project
I'm working on?
That'd be awesome!
Yeah, that really does
sound like fun.
Are you all ready to order?
-Oh.
-Oh, gosh!
-I...
-We haven't even looked
at the menu!
-Sorry.
-Five minutes, uh...
Not the one made for you.
No? Not the...
That was such a special day.
I don't know
who needed it more,
me or Ruby.
Lindsay and I talked
and watched Graham and Ruby.
They seemed like they had
known each other forever.
It was so comfortable
and so genuine.
But I was so tired.
Perhaps I was just
desperate to see something
that really wasn't there.
You're late.
I know. I'm sorry.
Good day at school?
Clara? Clara!
Whoo! Glad I caught you, Clara.
Ruby says
your mom's out of town?
Yeah, training for a new job.
It's taking longer
than she thought.
Well, I need to have Ruby's
parent/teacher conference soon.
I promise to let her know.
As long as it's
before the holidays.
Are the two of you home alone?
Uh, no, of course not.
Our Aunt Lindsay is, uh,
with us.
Aunt Lindsay's great.
Uncle Graham is even better.
Oh! Well, that's a relief.
Just be sure to have your mom
be in touch with me.
How come Noah isn't coming over?
I've just been busy
with Mom being away.
I like him.
He's nice to you.
And to me.
I know, it's just...
complicated.
I saw him today.
Where?
Some of the high school band
came and played at the school.
Did you talk to him?
Well, he said,
"What's up, Princess Ruby?"
So I said, "I haven't seen you
in forever,"
and Noah said,
"I'm sorry, I really am."
So I said, "Did you break up
with my sister?"
And he said,
"No, I just think
she wants some time
away from me."
Something like that.
I'm not sure.
But then, he said, "She might
have broken up with me,"
and gave a sad face, like this.
(Clara laughs)
So, I said, "I don't think so,
because she still has
all of your pictures up
in her room."
-You told him that?
-Yeah.
-And what happened next?
-The bell rang.
Being sick, Ruby missed
her second-favorite holiday,
Halloween.
I suppose one good thing
about the days after Halloween
is that candy goes on sale.
I may have outdone myself
this time.
I love this little girl so much.
Can I open my eyes?
(shuffling sounds)
Not yet.
I'm sorry you missed Halloween.
I am, too.
Open your eyes.
This looks amazing!
Now, enjoy your spaghetti
with...
Spaghetti with what?
Eyeballs!
And, of course,
a vampire's favorite drink...
(Ruby giggles)
Why are you staring at me?
I'm just so happy
you're better.
That was, like, a week ago.
I know.
I did miss out
on a lot of candy.
Or did you?
What do you mean?
Ruby loved the costume
I bought for her.
The cutest little hippie ever.
She came away
with more candy that evening
than any previous year
of trick-or-treating.
It will last.
Did not realize
how easy it is
to become so isolated in school.
And the world.
Did someone order
a pumpkin spice latte?
Your fave.
It's freezing out here.
I miss you.
I'm not giving up on you, Clara.
I'm beginning to.
What?
Give--give up on yourself?
I wish you would
let me help you.
You look so tired.
Gee, thanks.
That's not--
that's not what I meant.
You just look so stressed
and you seem so unhappy.
Not what I thought
senior year would be.
Tell me about it.
I didn't win a single vote
for homecoming king.
I heard you saw Ruby.
I did.
I miss her, too.
Do you really still keep
our pictures up in your room?
Do you just need time?
Can I stay here with you?
I like that.
A few days had passed
and I picked Ruby up
from school.
Winter definitely arrived early.
I had skipped school that day.
I had been skipping many days.
I was having trouble focusing.
Oh! And I got an A on spelling.
(indistinct reply)
I was having trouble
with everything.
Thank you for bringing
my gloves.
I was freezing at recess.
I'm making hot cocoa
when we get home.
Good idea.
And we could sleep in tomorrow.
How 'bout a movie night tonight?
Yes!
Movie night! Movie night!
If... you make the popcorn.
Movie night! Movie night!
It was such a fun evening,
just the two of us.
She could always make me laugh.
Her smile was the only
motivation I needed.
She has no idea
how many times she's saved me.
Ruby made the popcorn
and picked the movie.
We cuddled on the couch.
I let her stay up late
and she fell asleep
on the couch.
I brought pillows
and blankets from the bedroom
and joined her.
Then... dammit,
I hate this part.
I woke up
in the middle of the night
and realized
something was not right.
The house was cold.
We'd lost power.
I looked outside
and saw streetlights were on.
Oh, no.
This isn't good.
Maybe the lights would be on
in the morning?
I was beginning to crack.
No, I was cracking.
I felt like I was taking
one last breath
before jumping
into the deep end.
I'd used up all my prayers
when Ruby was sick.
But here we were,
together in a freezing home
with no power.
Some guardian angel I am.
I just lay there.
I recounted everything
Lindsay told me in her office.
In just a couple months,
I could no longer check
any of the boxes.
I was desperate and failing.
Clara.
Clara, wake up!
Something's wrong
with the house.
What?
The house.
It's freezing in here.
And the lights won't turn on.
I know.
We'll get it fixed.
Come here.
I called the electric company.
Twenty-minute wait time.
My phone battery was down
to five percent.
I turned off my phone.
When we arrived at the diner,
I was so tired, numb.
I was in a fog,
just existing.
My mind couldn't focus.
I wanted to make a plan...
(Clara chuckles sadly)
...but there was no plan.
How did we get to this place?
My God, I'm just a kid.
Ruby and those hash browns.
A cat.
A mermaid.
Hey...
A fish.
A cupcake.
An ice cream.
And this one.
This one.
How do you know
when you hit rock bottom?
(Clara sighs)
You just know.
I didn't want Ruby
to see me cry,
hear me scream.
I've come this far
without letting her see
how scared and devastated
and desperate I was.
But she's so smart,
so perceptive.
She knew something
was not right.
But she has complete faith
in her big sister.
Excuse me!
Excuse me.
Sorry.
We're about to be closing soon.
We're about to close?
Thanks.
I'm sorry.
Your card was declined.
Oh. Can you try again?
I--I did.
(Clara sighs)
Hey, hey.
It's okay.
It's on the house.
Thank you.
Okay. Hey.
Get your jacket on, okay?
Could it get any worse?
It could.
Of course
the car wouldn't start.
I didn't have any energy
to really feel anything
about it.
I just came
to the realization
that this would be
my last night with Ruby.
I had one last best idea
to ease her worry.
I would make a tent
in the basement
and we could go camping.
She brought a couple blankets
and leftover Halloween candy.
And peaches.
The most amazing, beautiful,
wonderful baby sister ever.
My best friend.
Ruby fell asleep in my arms.
Then reality completely hit,
and it hit over and over.
Being smashed into a wall,
Ruby getting sick.
The credit card, the car.
This freezing house.
I couldn't convince myself
to get it together.
I was failing Ruby.
My beautiful baby sister,
sleeping curled up next to me.
I was out of options.
It was bad.
This was very, very bad.
Breathe.
Breathe!
I failed Daddy.
I failed Ruby.
I failed.
Game over.
I'm so sorry, Ruby.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to say.
Just make something up.
You'll make it special for her.
You always do.
(hum of white noise)
I'm still here.
(banging)
Clara?
Clara!
Clara! Ruby!
I got a ringtone.
Clara?
Hey, Ruby!
-Clara!
-Ruby?
Clara.
Clara!
(approaching footsteps)
Oh my God--Graham!
Graham, they're down here!
Oh--Clara!
(indistinct remarks)
It's so cold.
It's so cold!
Clara.
Clara, hey!
Honey. Honey.
We're gonna get you
out of here, okay?
Look at me,
we're gonna get you out of here.
Let's go.
-Let's go.
-Wait.
(floor squeaking)
What is it, Clara,
can you show me?
She had a plan to get help.
For the first time, I saw
a glimmer of hope in her eyes.
That evening,
after I put Ruby to bed,
I went to check on her,
but something wasn't right.
She had been out
evenings before, but,
I thought she'd be
packing or something, I mean,
she was leaving the next day.
I knocked on her door, but...
there was no answer.
I opened the door,
but the lights were off.
The lights in the closet
were on.
I made my way to the closet.
I saw a shadow moving.
I could hear creaking.
Suddenly, I could see a shadow.
Come out, I was so scared.
I made my way
to the front of the closet.
First, I noticed the feet.
Then my eyes made its way
up to the knees.
And the waist,
and the shoulders.
Oh, God, oh, no.
A rope.
The ceiling.
No.
No, no, no, mom, no.
I checked for a pulse, but...
if you saw her face,
and her eyes.
Oh, God.
I went to the kitchen
and got a knife.
I cut the rope,
and she collapsed to the ground
with such a thud.
Please, God,
don't let Ruby wake up.
I can't let her see this.
I panicked.
I promised Daddy
to protect Ruby.
Ruby first.
(sniffling)
Her...
Put her in her favorite dress,
and made up her face,
covering the marks on her neck.
I put her in a large tarp.
It was pouring outside.
Dragged her outside to the shed
and put her in the big freezer
that dad used to keep deer in.
I went back inside,
took off my clothes,
took a shower,
went in Ruby's room,
and fell asleep next to her.
Clara.
Clara.
She's all I have.
We're getting you both
out of here, okay?
You're both coming home with us.
I'm so tired.
Hey, you.
Where am I, am I dreaming?
It's okay, honey,
you're at the hospital.
I don't understand.
It's just,
you had a rough night,
and you're here for observation.
Where's Ruby?
She's with Graham.
Why do I feel like
I did something wrong?
You did absolutely
nothing wrong.
I didn't know what to do,
there was no one else
in our life.
We only had each other.
They're going to take away Ruby.
No, no one,
no one is going
to take Ruby away,
no one.
Okay, I know the system,
I know the people in the system.
They're good people,
and I'm working on it,
and my team is working on it,
and, besides,
Graham would never allow it.
Clara, but now you need
to get the resources
that you need
to heal and to rest.
I can't go back there.
You never have to.
How did you know?
How did I know what?
To come to the house.
Oh, we tried calling you
and calling you
and calling you all day.
We were worried.
Clara,
I knew when I met you
that something was wrong...
but I had no idea.
When can I see Ruby?
Soon.
But I promise she is okay.
Clara, I don't know
how you did it,
but you shielded
that little girl
from everything bad in her life.
We're gonna
keep an eye on her, okay?
I am so scared.
I know, I know.
But you don't have
to hide anything anymore.
You can rest
and you can heal.
What about...
what about mom?
Everything at the house
is being taken care of.
What was I thinking, I...
I knew it couldn't last,
I knew every night
when I was putting Ruby to bed.
You did it for Ruby.
Would've been easier
if mom just left
and never came back.
I mean, she must've known
I would find her,
or worse, Ruby.
Why did she do it?
I don't know.
But, Clara,
I do know
that it's time for people
to start taking care of you.
Clara, you have your whole life
ahead of you.
Your whole life.
And I know it doesn't
feel like that right now,
but I will be with you,
every step.
I failed, Lindsay.
No.
You look at that.
You look at those smiles.
That's the most
beautiful picture
I've ever seen.
Well...
you need sleep,
okay?
I'll be back tomorrow.
(sniffling)
(sighs)
It had only been two days,
but it felt much longer.
My body was rebooting.
A nice doctor, Dr. MacAdams,
spoke with me.
Lindsay spent
so much time with me there.
That was comforting.
So,
I talked to Dr. MacAdams,
and she admires you.
She's really nice,
easy to talk to.
When can I leave?
(laughs)
It looks like today,
but you're gonna
continue to see Dr. MacAdams,
because I understand
that you two have a plan.
You know I would
never harm myself,
or Ruby, right?
Of course I know that.
They're just asking
silly questions, and--
I know, I know.
They just need
to hear it from you.
That's all.
Okay?
I know you, Clara.
Easy, easy.
I missed you so much.
Not as much as I missed you.
Please tell me you aren't
going away again?
I'm not going anywhere.
Hey, this is such
a beautiful room.
Graham let me pick out
my favorite color,
and we spent the day
painting the walls.
Wow, you two must've been busy.
You have Peaches?
Yeah.
Peaches and the dress
you bought me.
Those are the only things
I asked Graham
to get me from the house.
I know that mom's dead.
Oh, Ruby, I...
I wanted to tell you.
It's...
she was never a mom to me.
I don't have any memories of her
ever being a mom to me.
I'm not sad she's dead.
She wasn't good to you.
All I care about
is you and your happiness.
I know that.
I've always known that.
Do you like it here?
Lindsay and Graham
are so nice to me.
Lindsay took me out to get
some new clothes yesterday,
and Graham and I
went Christmas shopping.
Wow, how fun.
I had a bad dream last night.
Do you wanna tell me about it?
You were driving,
and the road was so windy.
We were near a cliff,
and we kept getting
closer and closer
to the edge.
And finally,
the car went over.
What an awful dream.
Sounds like I might need
some driving lessons.
We did drive off a cliff there.
The other night.
But you know what?
I think we may have just landed
on a different road.
Maybe we let Graham and Lindsay
drive for a little bit?
Thank you, Clara.
For what?
Everything.
I was in the room
right next to Ruby's.
Graham had brought
my clothes from the house,
as well as my paintings
from the wall.
Hi.
I hope you like the room.
This doesn't feel real, Lindsay.
It's gonna take some time.
Man, I knew that
you like to sing,
but I didn't know
that you were a painter.
I mean, I think that we should
hang this in our foyer.
I'm... it's...
your work is beautiful.
Thank you.
But of course.
This room is really pretty,
thank you.
I think we need...
a prettier headboard.
I don't want you
to worry anymore.
Everything is taken care of
with the house.
I'm glad,
I just don't wanna relive it.
Clara...
your mom left a note.
For me?
I don't wanna read it.
Okay, I understand.
What could she possibly say?
That she's sorry?
That she did it for me, for us?
I never wanna read it.
You never have to.
Now, get some rest, okay?
Hey.
I didn't think you'd pick up.
I just haven't known
what to say.
It's just good
to hear your voice.
I'm so sorry
for what you're going through.
I know the rumors.
I know they're not true, Clara.
People make up the worst things.
It doesn't matter.
There are more people
pulling for you
than you realize.
I just can't be
anywhere near it.
That's fair.
I really would
like to see you, but--
I just...
I have a lot to figure out.
I understand.
I'm really sorry, Noah.
For so many years,
we did not have anything special
planned for Thanksgiving.
This Thanksgiving was obviously
and wonderfully different.
Other than each other,
Ruby and I have something
to be thankful for.
The two had a plan,
and they insisted
Lindsay and I rest.
Lindsay definitely needed it.
She was spending day and night
protecting me and Ruby.
I was given some medication
to help with the anxiety.
It made me pretty tired.
But I couldn't take my eyes
off the two of them.
It was so good for my heart.
My soul.
The kitchen smelled amazing.
There's so much kindness
and love in this home.
Ruby was safe here.
Hey, dinner's almost ready.
I'll go get the others.
Uh, before you go, Clara,
I just wanted to thank you.
Thank me?
All I've done
is make your life complicated.
No, you haven't.
-Really?
-You haven't.
So, when I was 12 years old,
I lost my baby sister,
Annabelle.
I loved her so much,
I loved being her big brother.
When she passed,
it completely left me
heartbroken.
I would have given anything,
anything to allow her to live.
I can only imagine the entirety
of what you've done for Ruby,
knowing everything
that you've been through.
But that little girl
has filled this immense hole
in my heart,
and that is all because of you.
I really admire you, Clara.
I'm so sorry about Annabelle.
I don't what I'd do
without Ruby.
I love how you are with her.
She's never had someone
like you in her life,
not that she would remember.
The other day,
when I was at the hospital,
I think I was at my lowest point
when Lindsay showed me
that picture of you
and Ruby and Santa.
I don't know
where they got that Santa,
he was pretty rough.
Well, that picture helped me
more than you'll ever know.
I just hope you and Ruby
like it here.
Graham, we love it here.
Don't open your eyes yet!
Watch your step,
watch your step.
This does not seem like
the dining room.
Open your eyes!
Ruby, did you do this?
Me and Graham.
Dear Lord God,
thank You so much for
bringing us together
as a family.
Lindsay's prayer
was so meaningful.
I know I was supposed
to close my eyes.
But I could not take my eyes
off of Ruby's face.
These kind, resilient,
strong young women
that You have brought
into our lives
and into our home.
In Your name we pray, Amen.
For that moment,
every ounce of stress lifted.
We ate and laughed.
Watching the relationship
between Graham and Ruby grow
meant more to me
than Graham will ever know.
He is so gentle and kind,
and hangs on every word
she says.
Lindsay was becoming
a big sister to me.
I knew I could
tell her anything.
I know how quickly
everything can change,
and everything
can be taken away.
And that's something
I would have to work on.
And I will.
Things that might seem so small
are so impactful and large.
I just can't explain the feeling
of being in that room,
watching everyone
place an ornament
on this big, beautiful tree,
one after another
until only the star remained.
Oh, how I love this moment.
I went upstairs to rest.
It had been a long,
wonderful day.
But something Lindsay said...
Thank you for today.
I don't think Ruby has ever
experienced anything like that,
and I don't remember
the last time I have, either.
It was the perfect day.
(giggling)
Lindsay, you said something
during your prayer
before dinner.
Well, I meant every word.
Ruby's face
when you said, "Family."
She was looking at you.
Family is something
she so desperately wants,
and I suppose,
of course, I do too.
Watching her,
you know, with you,
putting the star on the tree.
It's something
I'll never forget.
It meant as much to me
as it did to her,
And I guess
I'll never fully understand
why you and Graham
are doing this.
I meant every word,
okay?
I mean, Graham and I,
we've tried to start a family
since we got married,
um, but...
We both feel this way,
and it...
it may be hard
for you to understand why.
Faith is a huge part
of both of our lives,
and, by the way,
it's okay if it's not for you.
But we believe that you were
put into our lives for a reason,
a powerful, wonderful reason.
You and Ruby
have made our lives
immensely better.
And don't get me wrong,
we're very thankful
for everything we have,
but it's better
because you're in it.
Clara.
We want you and Ruby to move in,
and not just for the holidays.
We want this to be
a real home for you.
What do you say?
(gentle laughter)
We're so emotional.
(laughter)
Words can't express how I felt
going to bed that night.
I don't know
if I will ever understand
the love and generosity
that Graham and Lindsay
have shown me and Ruby.
They have given us
the greatest gift.
The gift of a second chance.
The opportunity for survival.
So, this is the right place
and time to end this journal.
There isn't more to tell.
Dr. MacAdams has been with me
every step of the way
these past six months.
So has Lindsay, and Graham,
and Ruby.
I'm in a much better place.
I feel a sense of
security and comfort
that I have not felt since
before my father got sick.
I can think about my future.
I am breathing again.
And one day,
I know I will be able
to fully exhale.
I have faced my trauma
and my demons...
and I feel
I can leave it behind.
I've forgiven my mom.
I will keep those
beautiful memories of my dad,
and those I had of my mom.
But I owe it to myself,
and Ruby, to move forward.
Well, you're making
great progress, Clara.
The writing really helps,
and I've started
writing songs again.
I'm delighted,
another positive step.
And school is going well?
It is.
And I'm glad it's online,
and the classes are pretty easy.
And you will graduate
at the end of the summer?
That's the plan.
Did you decide
what you want to do next?
I'm going to take
a year and work
at Lindsay's law office.
I saw Noah.
You did?
Where?
The toy store.
I was looking
to buy something for Ruby.
Tell me about him.
Well, I haven't seen him
since everything happened,
and he seemed scared
to even come near me.
Go on.
Well,
he smiled, and...
I've really missed his smile.
It was right out of a movie.
That's when he walked
over to me.
He told me he missed me,
and I told him
I missed him, too.
I was so happy.
That's really sweet.
Are you going to see him again?
As much as I
just want to move forward,
Noah has always
been there for me.
Always.
And to think
he didn't give up on me.
I mean, if you could've
seen his eyes.
We've talked on the phone
every day since, and...
we're going on a date
this weekend,
can you believe it?
That's wonderful, Clara.
Did you tell Ruby?
She was really happy.
You should be really proud
of the progress you have made.
And then Dr. MacAdams told me
she no longer needed to spend
as much time with me.
That I was ready to move on.
It made me feel so proud.
I was... happy.
I can't lose hope
I can't lose faith
At the end of the night
There's another day
About to start
Let it begin
I will open up the doors
I'll breathe it in
I'm standing up
Gonna rise above
Remind myself
What it means to love
I would run a thousand miles
I'd walk the earth,
so vast and wild
There is someone
waiting at the end
She's too far for me to see
But I know she waits for me
And I can't stop
until she smiles again
I hope she knows
I'm always here
I might hide
behind the moonlight
But I won't disappear
I won't give up
I'm holding on
Oh, I fear I grew
too quickly
But I'm learning
to grow strong
I'm catching up
One day, I'll rise above
Remind myself
What it means to love
Oh, I would run
a thousand miles
I'd walk the earth,
so vast and wild
There is someone
cheering at the end
She's too far for me to see
But I know she waits for me
And I can't stop
Until she smiles again
The water's rough
Rising endlessly
But I'm treading water
Swimming aimlessly
Because I know
When I reach the shore
I will see
Her face once more
I won't lose hope
I won't lose faith
At the end of the night
There's another day
Oh, I would run
a thousand miles
I'd walk the earth,
so vast and wild
There is someone
waiting at the end
She's too far for me to see
Oh, but I know
she waits for me
And I can't stop
Until she smiles again
Again
Until she smiles again
Oh
It's perfect.
Rewinding years
I don't know where I've gone
Sweat and tears until
I'm back at square one
Is there an answer
hiding in this dark abyss?
Am I what's wrong,
it's never done
The paint still drips
A treasure trove
In worlds untold
Yeah, now I'm waking up
I hear the starting gun,
get set and run
Now I'm learning what
And now I'm learning
what can break a fall
Searching for
another way to roam
To get away, we can't stay
Wish I could let it go
And every step we take,
it feels the same
In this shadow play,
the hurt quakes
But you're my only home
Pull me under, but now,
now I'm waking up slowly
Slowly, slowly,
slowly, slowly
The Novocaine's worn off
and I'm seeing so clearly
Clearly, clearly, clearly
And the TV is flickering
In the static before me
'fore me, 'fore me, 'fore me
And I'm feeling
this chill again
Finding some confidence
-In the new me
-In the new me
But I'm standing taller
I'm seeing farther
than this city
City, city, city
The voice in my head,
it's starting to spread
It's taking a hold of me
Hold of me, hold of me
And now I'm waking up
I hear the starting gun,
get set and run
Now I'm learning what
Now I'm learning
what can break a fall
My hands are harder
But they're so much stronger
And they'll wipe away
the salt
And I'll make it
Searching for
another way to roam
To get away, we can't stay
We're gonna lose control
And we're waking up,
waking up
Waking
And every step we take
it feels the same
In this shadow play,
the hurt quakes
We're just hanging on
A treasure trove
In worlds untold
And now, I'm waking up
And now, I'm waking up