The Fall of Diddy (2025) s01e03 Episode Script
Untouchable
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[Tim Patterson] I didn't even call
Sean to tell him I was doing this.
I don't want the public's
perception to be swayed
as if this is a payoff
or if this is a favor.
This is just brotherly love.
So, there was one day me and
Sean went up to my mom's house.
My parents used to
love to play blackjack.
And everybody's sitting
at the table playing cards
and they see us come in.
And at that time we
had the germ of fame.
I had a record or
two on the radio.
They say "Y'all play a
hand of cards with us.
"Y'all got all the money."
Sean didn't know
how to play blackjack.
We played one hand
of cards with him.
Cards is being dealt.
Sean doesn't know to turn his
card over and only reveal one.
So he had both of
his cards turned up,
and he wasn't hiding them.
And people laughed.
"Boy, you better
hide your cards.
Don't be showing your cards."
And he looked at me
like "Yo, what I got?"
And I said, "You're good.
Don't even worry about
it. You're gonna win."
And he said, "What do you mean?"
I said, "You're gonna
win. Don't worry.
You got 20. It takes 21 to win."
He says, "For real?"
He says, "It's
guaranteed that I win?"
I said, "It ain't guaranteed, but
shit, it's damn near guaranteed."
He said, "I want it to
be guaranteed I win.
Give me another card."
Everybody at the table looked
at him like, "Boy, are you crazy?"
Dealer deals the
card, and it's an ace.
Twenty one.
The whole table went ham.
Oh, my God. Who is this boy?
He took all the
money off the table,
put it in his
pocket, and we left.
Everybody's yelling
for him to come back.
He said, "No, I won."
Who does that?
That's Sean.
All or nothing.
That's it.
That's who he is.
[crowd clamoring]
[Patterson] Sean Combs.
You can never count him out.
It's like the life of a cat.
[interviewer speaking]
Nine?
Shit.
I think that what has
happened in Puffy's life
is the byproduct of
extreme good fortune,
and that extreme good fortune
can also be a paradox of power.
It's a yin and a yang.
In order to get all the goodies,
you've got to have
this confidence
that you can get
all the goodies.
And so Puffy created
a cult of personality.
[Tisa Tells] After the
nightclub shooting,
when he was acquitted,
he went into PR overdrive,
Who said we had
to have one name?
[Tells] He rebranded
himself as P. Diddy.
He wanted to put a clear divider
between who he was
and where he's going.
[Diddy] You know, I don't
really just play by the rules.
I create my own rules.
Puff wanted to get rid of
this image of him as a thug.
He's changing his name.
[woman] But is he a changed man?
[crowd applauding]
Puffy knew how the media worked,
and he knew how important
it was to maintain an image.
I have a big announcement
to make today.
I will run the New
York City Marathon
to raise money and
awareness for three charities.
[Nori] We start to
see Sean Combs
engage in these kind of stunts.
In the 2004 election, he starts to
talk about this Vote or Die campaign.
This election is life or death.
Now we're going
to make voting cool.
He's now mingling with
future President Obama
at the time when Obama's
career was on the rise.
I just want to say how
much I appreciate Puff Daddy
for doing the kinds
of work that he's doing
because he doesn't
have to do this.
[Mark Anthony Neal] Sean Combs
shows up in a Broadway production
that's revisiting A
Raisin in the Sun,
one of the first plays by a Black
woman produced on Broadway.
[female newscaster] Sean P. Diddy Combs
is winning over audiences on Broadway.
[Neal] Combs found
a way to rise again.
Is there anything
this man can't do?
He was seen, to many people in
the media, as a safe person of color.
At the time, reality
TV was exploding.
[Mark Jacobs] There were all
these competition reality shows
with mega moguls and
different aspects of culture.
And there were contestants vying
to be able to have it on their resume.
They worked for Trump,
they worked for Paris
Hilton, they worked for Diddy.
I was the director, director of
photography and co-executive producer
of I Want to Work
for Diddy on VH1.
[announcer] To live the
dream, you have to work for it.
I Want to Work for Diddy.
[Jacobs] I was quite blown away
that I was actually
directing this guy
and telling this guy what to do.
I think to work for a narcissist,
you have to become one,
and I think that's what
the show's success was.
Exposing the
narcissist in Diddy.
The last episode of I Want to Work
for Diddy starts at The London hotel.
The brand spanking new
never slept in presidential suite.
I was planning to go up and talk
to Sean and block it out with him
before we started.
My AD is with me,
and I knock on
the door, I come in,
and to the right is this
pretty grandiose staircase.
So I'm standing there
a good five minutes.
He comes down, he's
got a robe on, it's open.
He's got nothing
on. He's just naked.
Like it was nothing.
He knew I was there.
He knew we were waiting.
There was a moment
where it's like, "Wow."
I guess somebody at that
level can really, truly do,
and say whatever they
want to do and say, period.
[D. Woods] From the
outside, he was this mogul.
He was this guy who, you know,
could make your dreams come true.
But then, there
was the other side.
It might not be so safe.
I have not shared my
story in a public way.
In a very truthful,
uncensored way.
I was one of five
girls in Danity Kane
on Making the Band 3.
The premise of the show was Diddy
was gonna find the next superstar group.
[Woods] Our first album was
number one on the Billboard charts.
First week out, we beat
Christina Aguilera and OutKast.
It was our first
single showstopper.
We show stoppin' We show
show stoppin' We show stoppin♪
[Woods] Like I love the fact
that fans still listen to Danity Kane.
It takes a lot for me to allow
you to have your experience
and not taint it.
And still
understand what
my experience was.
And, um, it was not
a good experience.
You know, hearing
some of those songs,
bring up
awful memories.
I see myself standing in those
dark, scary predatory spaces,
and hearing somebody say some
of the most degrading things to me,
and at the age of 20 and 21,
having to figure
out how to navigate
and not let that
person break me down.
I remember one time where
he had the cameras there
while we were, like, trying on
clothes, so he could watch us.
He's going to point this
little camera at us for Diddy,
so he can judge our appearance.
I called it like
Jedi mind tricks.
This happened so early on.
He was going one by one by one,
just like critiquing our style.
And when he got to me,
It wasn't about the clothes.
[Diddy] What's your
stomach looking like?
Are you still a little thick?
And I was like, "Well, you know,
next to these skinny girls,
I'm always gonna look thick."
I'm working out. I'm running.
I always feel thick next
to these skinny chicks.
Puff was just saying, "You look like,
you know, you one cheeseburger away.
You know that.
You know that, right?
You know that you one
cheeseburger away,"
like he wanted me
to agree with him.
You're like a burger away.
And it was like, like I
just, I had to just take it.
Grit my teeth and let him
say what he wanted to say.
[Mara S. Campo] I remember feeling
like Diddy was this tough love boss.
But looking at Making the
Band through today's lens
makes it clear that
the body shaming,
verbal abuse,
intimidation was rampant.
He was singling out different
ones of us, especially Aubrey.
Aubrey always stuck
out as one of the stars.
One of the fan favorites.
He had an aggressive,
intimidating way with her.
I remember one scene where he
was like, "What do you have to say?"
Aubrey, you ain't
got nothing to say?
You've got such a big
mouth when I'm going.
What you got to say? Say it now.
The way Puff and Aubrey went
back and forth was very uncomfortable
to witness, to watch.
[Aubrey] He was the hardest
person that you can work for,
and it was torture.
And not the work part
of it, but the other stuff.
I remember her
sharing with me
that he has sent her a lot of
very inappropriate pictures.
I saw a lot of things
that he would email her.
Very sexual in nature.
Very just like,
overtly like pornographic,
like, things that he
wanted to do to her.
She was just kind of
like, "What do I do?"
I remember telling her,
"Girl, put that in a folder.
Send it to your mama.
Save that."
[Woods] Aubrey and I decided to
go to New York for Fashion Week.
Aubrey came into my
hotel room and told me
that she ran into
Puff in person,
and he had pulled her in close,
and he said, "Now you're hot
enough that I can [bleep] you.
I can [bleep] you now."
It was like a moment of shock.
A moment of your
stomach turning.
A moment of just like
We're definitely
in over our heads.
And then all of a sudden it was this
mandatory meeting that needed to happen.
We thought we were "off".
We thought we
had finished filming.
It was just like
What in the entire [bleep]?
So what do you think is
gonna happen tomorrow?
Yeah, we just walked
into the lion's den.
We get to the Bad Boy Offices.
We're in the conference room.
It was very Donald
Trump Apprentice style.
The vision that I
had for the group,
this ain't the
vision that I'm on.
You know what I'm saying?
[Woods] The whole group of
Danity Kane sitting at the table
when Puff was saying to
Aubrey she was promiscuous,
saying that he didn't like
her image and her body.
[Diddy] I don't like what
she does to the brand
when she's wilding out there
being overly raunchy, promiscuous.
[Woods] Puff fired Aubrey.
I don't want you in
the group no more.
And then he turned to
me and said, "Get out."
You can go too.
I believe that
he fired Aubrey
One, because she did not
succumb to his advances.
Two, because he wanted
her to feel powerless
and question her worth.
I feel like that's
probably the same reason
why he probably
got rid of me, too.
[Campo] At the time,
the press was really very much
against the girls of Danity Kane,
making it seem like
they were the problem.
[Roundtree] There is a real
sense of fear surrounding Diddy.
If you go through a
timeline of his history,
there is that kind of
sprinkle or a trail of violence,
of aggression, of intimidation,
that has popped up
throughout the years.
But it always kind of
was explained away
because Diddy is so big
and has so much power.
By 2007, Diddy's wealth
just starts rapidly multiplying.
[woman] Sean Combs is one
of the most influential beacons
in luxury culture today.
He then lands a huge
partnership with Diageo.
I am proud to announce a
groundbreaking strategic alliance
between myself and CIROC Vodka.
[Neal] He becomes
synonymous with this brand,
and he transcends everything
that he had been before.
[Roundtree] This would prove
to be so lucrative for Diddy.
He later expands to
tequila with DeLeon.
Over the course
of their relationship,
Diageo paid Combs
a billion dollars.
I am the American
dream. This is Black history.
[Campo] He continued
to expand his brand.
He got into media
with REVOLT TV.
I am the former managing editor
and global news
anchor for REVOLT TV.
Hey everyone, and
welcome to the show.
I'm Mara S. Campo.
It was the only place
I've ever worked
where I felt like I could show
up 100% as my authentic self.
There was one experience that I
actually found to be quite funny,
where I had a
bottle of Casamigos
that I had to
leave in my office.
When I got back to my office,
the bottle was in the trash.
They said if Puffy had come in
and seen a bottle of Casamigos,
meaning something that was not
DeLeon, he would have gone ballistic.
To be successful in business, you have
to take your brands very, very seriously.
And clearly he did that.
What's going on? Just
sending you some love.
We're on set.
We're working hard.
We know y'all working hard.
Love.
[Campo] My experience in the
Diddyverse was actually quite positive,
although I did not
directly work for him.
But what we've heard from
those who have worked with him
is that he used the same fear
and intimidation and coercion tactics
in the workplace as
he did with his enemies.
[Jourdan Cha'Tuan] I
was Puff's personal chef.
Since the news broke about
Puff, it brought everything back.
I've been quiet
for 17, 18 years,
and because of it
being brought back,
I went into a trunk
that I have in my house
that actually had my journal
entries from around that time,
and I read over them.
And there's a lot of things
that I forgot or buried.
I started working for Puff
in the summer of 2007.
I am Sean Combs' personal chef.
I was in my early 20s, and I'm
just like, you know, I'm excited.
His level of success, his
level of power, and his reach.
Who wouldn't want to
be associated with him?
Puff was the top.
- [Diddy] Hey, Chef.
- [Cha'Tuan] Yeah.
[Diddy] Mr. Combs
would like to see.
[Diddy] What do
we got for dessert?
[Cha'Tuan] Fruit.
[Cha'Tuan] I was
definitely intimidated.
I have some of my
journal entries here.
Puff would notoriously berate
you, embarrass you, belittle you.
I was having constant anxiety
attacks and heart palpitations.
I was diagnosed with
stress induced alopecia.
My hair started to fall out.
And then I saw a cardiologist
who said that my body
couldn't handle the stress levels.
He said to me, "If you keep
this job any longer than a year,
you'll be dead."
When I discussed
what was going on
with a few other people that
worked, it was kind of like a joke.
It was like, "Oh yeah, well,
you're official now. Welcome."
You know, you're
not really official
until you have some sort
of breakdown around here.
I think his
expectation of others
was how he operated
within his own life.
He really is a "can't stop,
won't stop. No sleep."
That is really how he operates.
But there's also a lot
of drugs being used.
I saw lots of different pills.
I know that there was like
ecstasy, definitely alcohol.
So I kind of was like, "He's just
tripping because he's coming down."
Like I'm not paying
him any attention.
But there was a specific time Puff
comes downstairs and he's yelling,
"I'm so [bleep] tired of hearing
about you and your [bleep] attitude,
"and all you've got to do
is cook the [bleep] food."
Me and him are like
face to face like this,
and he's just like, he does
like this to my forehead,
and he's just like,
you know, like,
and I'm telling him like,
"Don't [bleep] touch me,"
and now tears are
coming down my eyes.
And he's like, "You're [bleep]
crying, you're [bleep] crying
and there's kids
starving in Africa,
and you over here
[bleep] crying?
And all you got to do
is cook [bleep] food?"
He was just getting
madder and madder.
And so I walk away and I'm
opening up the refrigerator.
And I remember him saying,
"Yeah, you're [bleep] crazy."
And then I just remembered
slamming the door
and being like, "Yeah,
that's right. I'm [bleep] crazy.
And you know what else? I quit."
Me saying that I quit
like, enraged him more,
because he's like, "You
can't [bleep] quit on me.
You can't [bleep] quit on me."
And I just remember turning
around and saying, "[bleep] you."
And when I turned around
and I said that to him,
he used all of his force,
and he just shoved
me, like he pushed me.
And I went flying
outside of the doorway
and I ended up on
my elbows and my butt.
I'm telling the office, I'm
gonna sue this mother [bleep]."
They understood
that I was upset,
but they're like, "If you
sue him, your career is over.
You will be blackballed.
He does have the power to
do that, and he will do that."
Puff scared me.
So I kept quiet about
things that I knew
because I was afraid that
something might happen to me.
[Roger Bonds] I've
seen Diddy in incidents
with multiple
women with violence.
One time, I
remember telling him,
"Yo, I think you got a problem."
He looked at me and he was like,
"I ain't got no mother
[bleep] problem."
So he said, "Sometimes
you just gotta
let these hoes know
who the boss is."
From 2006 to 2012,
nobody else spent more
time with Puff than I did.
I was his everyday bodyguard.
It meant so much to
me to get with Diddy
because of who I was
and what I've been through.
I was incarcerated
for a little while,
so to me, that
was a stepping up.
One of the reasons
that I got with Puff
was because he was a older guy,
so I felt like it's just a matter of
time before he simmers down.
But he was still waking me up
at 4:00 or 5:00 in the morning
talking about, "Yo, we
getting ready to go to the club?"
And I remember lots of drugs.
When he was on drugs,
it enabled him to stay up
for two or three days at a time.
At that time, you had different
people that Diddy did respect,
telling him, You need help."
And when that didn't happen, I seen
a spiral and the spiral was going down.
There was a time he
had a fight in Miami,
and when we was
running out the door,
he seemed to think it was funny.
He looked at me and he told
me, he said, "I got time, Bonds."
I said, "What you got time for?"
He said, "I got enough
money for one more big fight
that I could pay
the people off."
In my mind, I was like,
"Yo, this dude is crazy."
Who wants to get into a fight
to have to pay somebody?
Diddy, he always wanted
you to agree with what he said,
and if you don't agree
with what he said,
he had his way of
getting rid of you.
Coming home from jail,
I couldn't move on
to nothing better.
And so I was even willing to turn a
blind eye to some of the bad things
because Diddy would always say,
"You should be
thankful for being here."
He was just a
master manipulator.
So when I look at him now, I
say, the respect that I had for him,
the way that I looked up
to him when I first started,
it's all gone because
I know it's a facade.
I like to value my success
on not the monetary aspect.
It's how many lives I could touch and
change and help to give a chance to.
[Campo] Diddy did such a
good job of presenting himself.
And so I, like
most of the world,
did not fully realize the
extent of the darkness.
Lil Rod is the first man
that has come forward
with some of these
allegations of sexual assault.
There are a lot of things that
stood out in Lil Rod's lawsuit.
"Mr. Jones witnessed, experienced,
and endured many things
that went far beyond his role as
a producer on The Love Album."
[Lil Rod] When I started
working with Puffy,
I was very, very
excited. For me,
I had already won just to
be sitting in a room with him.
It didn't get any
better than that.
But knowing everything that I know
now, I would never work for Puffy.
My name is Rodney Jones
Junior, also known as Lil Rod.
I produced The Love Album:
Off The Grid for Sean Combs.
Working with Puff, you never
know who you're dealing with.
So some days he would walk in
and be one of the coolest guys.
And then some days he walked
in and he's just being a thug.
I remember one time
he was asking me
how much was I
going to charge him
for working on his album.
Before I knew it, he
was up in my face.
He's like, "Yo, you don't
charge me no money.
I'm Puff Daddy.
I'll eat your face off."
I never got paid as a producer
for The Love Album still to this day.
Puff making threats,
that's who he is.
A bully in a suit.
Puffy crossed the
line so many times.
We were at Puffy's Los Angeles
house, working in the studio.
He says, "I want to
work in my bathroom.
Everybody bring everything."
So we break down the studio,
get the instruments and
go to his bathroom as usual.
And he strips
himself in front of us
and jumps right into the shower.
But he's looking directly at me.
You know what I mean?
I found myself getting
a pat on my butt.
It felt uncomfortable, and
still feels uncomfortable.
I was very unsure what
to think and how to feel.
It's not something that I
ever want to happen again.
I did at some point raise this
issue to one of the chief of staff
and she would tell me,
"Oh, that's just his way of
showing he likes you or loves you.
You should just downplay
it like it's nothing."
And it just happened
over and over.
Working with him, there was
a lot of abuse that came with it.
[interviewer speaking]
No.
There's so much
more that he did.
Puffy would require
us to go to the club
and bring back multiple
choices of women
for himself and whoever he
deemed necessary to have fun with.
So more than often, we did spend a
lot of our time going to the strip clubs
to get sex workers to
bring back to the house.
You'll see girls come
at the Miami house.
That happened quite often.
Lots of women, lots of partying,
lots of drugs, lots of alcohol.
I even found myself
a couple of times
waking up next to
some of the sex workers.
And you know, it felt like it just
went from zero to 10, like quickly.
[interviewer talking]
I feel like I was
for sure drugged.
I feel like the
drinks were spiked.
It's not like I don't know
how to handle my liquor,
so for me to be having a drink
and then I wake up
trying to remember
exactly how I got
here, what's going on.
I can only imagine that
somebody tapped me.
Everybody was sipping
on the Puffy juice.
That makes me feel
very used, abused.
It makes me feel like
only a monster can do this.
As disturbing as Lil
Rod's lawsuit was,
there have been more shocking
things that have come out.
[sighs]
[Thalia Graves] I've tried to
put it away for all these years,
but even now it's a lot. [sighs]
The color red for
me is a trigger.
It took a lot to wear
this red shirt today.
Um, you know,
'cause it's a process.
I'm trying-- I'm
trying to get there.
I can't listen to any Bad Boy
music without it triggering me.
I cannot hear his voice
without it making
my stomach hurt.
That effing monster.
Back in 2000, I
was living in Queens.
I was a mom in the
middle of a divorce,
so kind of maintaining
house and home first.
And then I started dating
a Bad Boy executive.
Through my boyfriend,
I met Sean Combs at
Daddy's House Studio.
It was just a normal,
"Hey, how you doing?
"Welcome to the fam.
Welcome to Bad Boy."
That was the atmosphere.
Very fun. Very upbeat.
At that time, Diddy was
the jokester, the prankster.
But now, thinking back,
Diddy would make remarks
that if you have to
really think back to it,
it's like, ugh, a little weird.
Like, "Hey, don't leave
her alone over here.
You've got a pretty
girl. She's a little thing."
Now, in hindsight,
it's like we're prepping
yourself for the kill.
And then what happened in
2001 changed my whole life.
I was home in Queens.
I got a call from one of the
people at Bad Boy Studios.
They said, "Puff
wants to talk to you
because your boyfriend is
[bleep] up at work again."
There was nothing alarming
about Puff wanting to talk to me
because we've had a conversation
about him screwing up at work
prior to this, to get
him back on track.
A little while later,
this burgundy Escalade pulls up,
and Puff was sitting in the
back, so I jumped in the back.
And he said, "Hey, what's up?
Do you want something to drink?"
I said, "Sure, what you got?"
And he was drinking
something in a red Solo cup.
And he gave me a clear glass,
like a little cup with some white zin.
By the time we got to
Daddy's House Studios,
I started feeling a little
woozy, lightheaded.
I kept doing this,
trying to feel my face
because it kept
feeling a little numb.
I remember getting
out the Escalade.
Still, I'm thinking we're
going to go to the studio
and my boyfriend's
gonna be there.
But at this time, we
went down the hallway
to a door and a lounge
that I've never been to.
And I remember sitting
on the dark couch.
Puff was sitting there
on the couch with me,
and I'm not sure for how
long I was sitting there.
And I started feeling
a lot more fuzzier,
and I remember crying.
And the next thing I remember
was I was slammed
on a pool table.
I was naked
[exhales] on the pool table,
and my hands were
tied behind my back.
And I kept trying to do this to try
to figure out what was tying me.
It felt like plastic bags.
Puffy was standing by
the bar and he was naked.
There was a jar on the bar.
And he put on something
on his privates that--
Like, I smell it. It
smelled like menthol.
And he was slathering it in.
[breathes deeply]
[sobbing]
[sobbing]
So [sniffles]
I was still trying to
figure out what's going on.
[exhales]
And Puffy came up
behind me [sniffles]
[breathing deeply]
and went straight in my anus
to where I ended up
throwing up on the pool table.
[sniffling]
And screaming.
And I'm not sure
if there was anything coming out
my voice while I was screaming,
but I could feel the
burn anally, [sniffs]
and I was trying
to try to kick him.
I'm short so my feet wouldn't
even touch the ground,
and I was trying to kick him
and I was trying to hold on
to the table at the same time.
At some point, Puffy stopped, went
back to the bar, wiped himself off
because I'm looking
at him like this, still tied,
and trying to-- trying to see
everything I possibly can,
and trying to focus
'cause it was a big blur.
And then he came back
and went into me vaginally.
And, um
[exhales]
He said something.
I'm not sure what he said or
if he was even talking to me.
Um
And then when I came back to,
I was back on the couch.
I had stuff all over me, um,
from throwing up, drooling,
whatever it was.
But this time, I didn't have
the ties anymore on my hands.
I had red panties on. I
couldn't find my panties.
I remember putting on my
bra, putting my dress on.
I don't even remember if I
put the dress on correctly.
And I ran out the door.
I was terrified.
I just didn't want to die.
I remember running out, going
downstairs, and running down the block.
I didn't see anybody.
I was just gone.
I ended up calling a
cab driver that I knew.
When he came and picked
me up, I jumped in the front seat.
I was a mess.
And he was in shock.
His exact words were
"What the F happened?"
Did you get hit
by a truck? A car?
Did you have an accident?"
And he was checking out my wrist
because I had bruises
and welts on my wrist.
And he took me straight
to Elmhurst Hospital.
I couldn't go in.
I couldn't go in.
I couldn't move.
[exhales] I was scared,
not just for my life,
I was scared for my
parents finding out,
just because, you know, I
didn't want to embarrass them.
I didn't want to
embarrass myself.
And I didn't want
to go to the police
because I was in the middle of a
child custody battle and a divorce,
and I didn't want anything
stopping this process.
And he was trying to convince
me to go into the hospital,
and I just wanted to go home.
And just sit in the shower for
about an hour, and that's what I did.
I'm trying to scrub, literally,
like scrub your life away.
I have stayed in bed,
and hiding from my parents for
three days in the same household,
because I still couldn't
fathom what happened.
It didn't seem real.
And then came the
questions. "Why me?"
You know, we were
supposed to be cool.
We were supposed
to be like friends.
We were supposed to be,
you know, you know me.
Those were all the thoughts going
through my head while I was hiding.
Soon after that, I got a call.
And it was Puff.
I was terrified.
He said, "Ay. Keep
your effing mouth shut."
And then he hung up the phone.
Puffy has ways of finding out
stuff and making things happen.
I need to get the hell
away from New York.
I ended up disappearing
for a few years.
I was a total wreck, hanging
on to sanity by a thread.
Trying to cope with
being raped and assaulted,
trying to raise a child,
depression,
trying to fight every day
to keep yourself alive,
because at that point
there was nothing there.
There was nothing to say, "Okay, you've
got tomorrow to live for, right?" So
Every day. Every
day was a battle.
Every day was a
struggle to try to keep me
from either killing myself
or doing something stupid.
Today, I'm still coping with
and trying to get through it.
Because in November of 2023,
I was told by my ex-boyfriend
that my assault was
actually recorded on tape.
For me, it was like, why would
somebody record raping somebody,
and then you show
it to other people?
I was so angry.
And then he said, "Do you see what's
happening in the news with Cassie?"
[newscaster 1] Sean Diddy
Combs, the disgraced music mogul.
[newscaster 2] Sean Diddy Combs.
[newscaster 3] Sean Diddy
Combs, facing a slew of allegations,
including rape
and sex trafficking.
She opened up a
can of worms with Puff.
[newscaster 3] forcing her
into unwanted sexual encounters
through the use of illegal
substances and threats of violence.
The acclaimed music producer
vehemently denying the allegations.
I always believed that
I was the only victim.
[newscaster 4] These are
the first of what could be
scores of lawsuits.
[policeman] I'm definitely
looking at a piece
of property that is
owned by Sean Combs.
[newscaster 5] It has been
a staggering fall from grace.
♪
[Tim Patterson] I didn't even call
Sean to tell him I was doing this.
I don't want the public's
perception to be swayed
as if this is a payoff
or if this is a favor.
This is just brotherly love.
So, there was one day me and
Sean went up to my mom's house.
My parents used to
love to play blackjack.
And everybody's sitting
at the table playing cards
and they see us come in.
And at that time we
had the germ of fame.
I had a record or
two on the radio.
They say "Y'all play a
hand of cards with us.
"Y'all got all the money."
Sean didn't know
how to play blackjack.
We played one hand
of cards with him.
Cards is being dealt.
Sean doesn't know to turn his
card over and only reveal one.
So he had both of
his cards turned up,
and he wasn't hiding them.
And people laughed.
"Boy, you better
hide your cards.
Don't be showing your cards."
And he looked at me
like "Yo, what I got?"
And I said, "You're good.
Don't even worry about
it. You're gonna win."
And he said, "What do you mean?"
I said, "You're gonna
win. Don't worry.
You got 20. It takes 21 to win."
He says, "For real?"
He says, "It's
guaranteed that I win?"
I said, "It ain't guaranteed, but
shit, it's damn near guaranteed."
He said, "I want it to
be guaranteed I win.
Give me another card."
Everybody at the table looked
at him like, "Boy, are you crazy?"
Dealer deals the
card, and it's an ace.
Twenty one.
The whole table went ham.
Oh, my God. Who is this boy?
He took all the
money off the table,
put it in his
pocket, and we left.
Everybody's yelling
for him to come back.
He said, "No, I won."
Who does that?
That's Sean.
All or nothing.
That's it.
That's who he is.
[crowd clamoring]
[Patterson] Sean Combs.
You can never count him out.
It's like the life of a cat.
[interviewer speaking]
Nine?
Shit.
I think that what has
happened in Puffy's life
is the byproduct of
extreme good fortune,
and that extreme good fortune
can also be a paradox of power.
It's a yin and a yang.
In order to get all the goodies,
you've got to have
this confidence
that you can get
all the goodies.
And so Puffy created
a cult of personality.
[Tisa Tells] After the
nightclub shooting,
when he was acquitted,
he went into PR overdrive,
Who said we had
to have one name?
[Tells] He rebranded
himself as P. Diddy.
He wanted to put a clear divider
between who he was
and where he's going.
[Diddy] You know, I don't
really just play by the rules.
I create my own rules.
Puff wanted to get rid of
this image of him as a thug.
He's changing his name.
[woman] But is he a changed man?
[crowd applauding]
Puffy knew how the media worked,
and he knew how important
it was to maintain an image.
I have a big announcement
to make today.
I will run the New
York City Marathon
to raise money and
awareness for three charities.
[Nori] We start to
see Sean Combs
engage in these kind of stunts.
In the 2004 election, he starts to
talk about this Vote or Die campaign.
This election is life or death.
Now we're going
to make voting cool.
He's now mingling with
future President Obama
at the time when Obama's
career was on the rise.
I just want to say how
much I appreciate Puff Daddy
for doing the kinds
of work that he's doing
because he doesn't
have to do this.
[Mark Anthony Neal] Sean Combs
shows up in a Broadway production
that's revisiting A
Raisin in the Sun,
one of the first plays by a Black
woman produced on Broadway.
[female newscaster] Sean P. Diddy Combs
is winning over audiences on Broadway.
[Neal] Combs found
a way to rise again.
Is there anything
this man can't do?
He was seen, to many people in
the media, as a safe person of color.
At the time, reality
TV was exploding.
[Mark Jacobs] There were all
these competition reality shows
with mega moguls and
different aspects of culture.
And there were contestants vying
to be able to have it on their resume.
They worked for Trump,
they worked for Paris
Hilton, they worked for Diddy.
I was the director, director of
photography and co-executive producer
of I Want to Work
for Diddy on VH1.
[announcer] To live the
dream, you have to work for it.
I Want to Work for Diddy.
[Jacobs] I was quite blown away
that I was actually
directing this guy
and telling this guy what to do.
I think to work for a narcissist,
you have to become one,
and I think that's what
the show's success was.
Exposing the
narcissist in Diddy.
The last episode of I Want to Work
for Diddy starts at The London hotel.
The brand spanking new
never slept in presidential suite.
I was planning to go up and talk
to Sean and block it out with him
before we started.
My AD is with me,
and I knock on
the door, I come in,
and to the right is this
pretty grandiose staircase.
So I'm standing there
a good five minutes.
He comes down, he's
got a robe on, it's open.
He's got nothing
on. He's just naked.
Like it was nothing.
He knew I was there.
He knew we were waiting.
There was a moment
where it's like, "Wow."
I guess somebody at that
level can really, truly do,
and say whatever they
want to do and say, period.
[D. Woods] From the
outside, he was this mogul.
He was this guy who, you know,
could make your dreams come true.
But then, there
was the other side.
It might not be so safe.
I have not shared my
story in a public way.
In a very truthful,
uncensored way.
I was one of five
girls in Danity Kane
on Making the Band 3.
The premise of the show was Diddy
was gonna find the next superstar group.
[Woods] Our first album was
number one on the Billboard charts.
First week out, we beat
Christina Aguilera and OutKast.
It was our first
single showstopper.
We show stoppin' We show
show stoppin' We show stoppin♪
[Woods] Like I love the fact
that fans still listen to Danity Kane.
It takes a lot for me to allow
you to have your experience
and not taint it.
And still
understand what
my experience was.
And, um, it was not
a good experience.
You know, hearing
some of those songs,
bring up
awful memories.
I see myself standing in those
dark, scary predatory spaces,
and hearing somebody say some
of the most degrading things to me,
and at the age of 20 and 21,
having to figure
out how to navigate
and not let that
person break me down.
I remember one time where
he had the cameras there
while we were, like, trying on
clothes, so he could watch us.
He's going to point this
little camera at us for Diddy,
so he can judge our appearance.
I called it like
Jedi mind tricks.
This happened so early on.
He was going one by one by one,
just like critiquing our style.
And when he got to me,
It wasn't about the clothes.
[Diddy] What's your
stomach looking like?
Are you still a little thick?
And I was like, "Well, you know,
next to these skinny girls,
I'm always gonna look thick."
I'm working out. I'm running.
I always feel thick next
to these skinny chicks.
Puff was just saying, "You look like,
you know, you one cheeseburger away.
You know that.
You know that, right?
You know that you one
cheeseburger away,"
like he wanted me
to agree with him.
You're like a burger away.
And it was like, like I
just, I had to just take it.
Grit my teeth and let him
say what he wanted to say.
[Mara S. Campo] I remember feeling
like Diddy was this tough love boss.
But looking at Making the
Band through today's lens
makes it clear that
the body shaming,
verbal abuse,
intimidation was rampant.
He was singling out different
ones of us, especially Aubrey.
Aubrey always stuck
out as one of the stars.
One of the fan favorites.
He had an aggressive,
intimidating way with her.
I remember one scene where he
was like, "What do you have to say?"
Aubrey, you ain't
got nothing to say?
You've got such a big
mouth when I'm going.
What you got to say? Say it now.
The way Puff and Aubrey went
back and forth was very uncomfortable
to witness, to watch.
[Aubrey] He was the hardest
person that you can work for,
and it was torture.
And not the work part
of it, but the other stuff.
I remember her
sharing with me
that he has sent her a lot of
very inappropriate pictures.
I saw a lot of things
that he would email her.
Very sexual in nature.
Very just like,
overtly like pornographic,
like, things that he
wanted to do to her.
She was just kind of
like, "What do I do?"
I remember telling her,
"Girl, put that in a folder.
Send it to your mama.
Save that."
[Woods] Aubrey and I decided to
go to New York for Fashion Week.
Aubrey came into my
hotel room and told me
that she ran into
Puff in person,
and he had pulled her in close,
and he said, "Now you're hot
enough that I can [bleep] you.
I can [bleep] you now."
It was like a moment of shock.
A moment of your
stomach turning.
A moment of just like
We're definitely
in over our heads.
And then all of a sudden it was this
mandatory meeting that needed to happen.
We thought we were "off".
We thought we
had finished filming.
It was just like
What in the entire [bleep]?
So what do you think is
gonna happen tomorrow?
Yeah, we just walked
into the lion's den.
We get to the Bad Boy Offices.
We're in the conference room.
It was very Donald
Trump Apprentice style.
The vision that I
had for the group,
this ain't the
vision that I'm on.
You know what I'm saying?
[Woods] The whole group of
Danity Kane sitting at the table
when Puff was saying to
Aubrey she was promiscuous,
saying that he didn't like
her image and her body.
[Diddy] I don't like what
she does to the brand
when she's wilding out there
being overly raunchy, promiscuous.
[Woods] Puff fired Aubrey.
I don't want you in
the group no more.
And then he turned to
me and said, "Get out."
You can go too.
I believe that
he fired Aubrey
One, because she did not
succumb to his advances.
Two, because he wanted
her to feel powerless
and question her worth.
I feel like that's
probably the same reason
why he probably
got rid of me, too.
[Campo] At the time,
the press was really very much
against the girls of Danity Kane,
making it seem like
they were the problem.
[Roundtree] There is a real
sense of fear surrounding Diddy.
If you go through a
timeline of his history,
there is that kind of
sprinkle or a trail of violence,
of aggression, of intimidation,
that has popped up
throughout the years.
But it always kind of
was explained away
because Diddy is so big
and has so much power.
By 2007, Diddy's wealth
just starts rapidly multiplying.
[woman] Sean Combs is one
of the most influential beacons
in luxury culture today.
He then lands a huge
partnership with Diageo.
I am proud to announce a
groundbreaking strategic alliance
between myself and CIROC Vodka.
[Neal] He becomes
synonymous with this brand,
and he transcends everything
that he had been before.
[Roundtree] This would prove
to be so lucrative for Diddy.
He later expands to
tequila with DeLeon.
Over the course
of their relationship,
Diageo paid Combs
a billion dollars.
I am the American
dream. This is Black history.
[Campo] He continued
to expand his brand.
He got into media
with REVOLT TV.
I am the former managing editor
and global news
anchor for REVOLT TV.
Hey everyone, and
welcome to the show.
I'm Mara S. Campo.
It was the only place
I've ever worked
where I felt like I could show
up 100% as my authentic self.
There was one experience that I
actually found to be quite funny,
where I had a
bottle of Casamigos
that I had to
leave in my office.
When I got back to my office,
the bottle was in the trash.
They said if Puffy had come in
and seen a bottle of Casamigos,
meaning something that was not
DeLeon, he would have gone ballistic.
To be successful in business, you have
to take your brands very, very seriously.
And clearly he did that.
What's going on? Just
sending you some love.
We're on set.
We're working hard.
We know y'all working hard.
Love.
[Campo] My experience in the
Diddyverse was actually quite positive,
although I did not
directly work for him.
But what we've heard from
those who have worked with him
is that he used the same fear
and intimidation and coercion tactics
in the workplace as
he did with his enemies.
[Jourdan Cha'Tuan] I
was Puff's personal chef.
Since the news broke about
Puff, it brought everything back.
I've been quiet
for 17, 18 years,
and because of it
being brought back,
I went into a trunk
that I have in my house
that actually had my journal
entries from around that time,
and I read over them.
And there's a lot of things
that I forgot or buried.
I started working for Puff
in the summer of 2007.
I am Sean Combs' personal chef.
I was in my early 20s, and I'm
just like, you know, I'm excited.
His level of success, his
level of power, and his reach.
Who wouldn't want to
be associated with him?
Puff was the top.
- [Diddy] Hey, Chef.
- [Cha'Tuan] Yeah.
[Diddy] Mr. Combs
would like to see.
[Diddy] What do
we got for dessert?
[Cha'Tuan] Fruit.
[Cha'Tuan] I was
definitely intimidated.
I have some of my
journal entries here.
Puff would notoriously berate
you, embarrass you, belittle you.
I was having constant anxiety
attacks and heart palpitations.
I was diagnosed with
stress induced alopecia.
My hair started to fall out.
And then I saw a cardiologist
who said that my body
couldn't handle the stress levels.
He said to me, "If you keep
this job any longer than a year,
you'll be dead."
When I discussed
what was going on
with a few other people that
worked, it was kind of like a joke.
It was like, "Oh yeah, well,
you're official now. Welcome."
You know, you're
not really official
until you have some sort
of breakdown around here.
I think his
expectation of others
was how he operated
within his own life.
He really is a "can't stop,
won't stop. No sleep."
That is really how he operates.
But there's also a lot
of drugs being used.
I saw lots of different pills.
I know that there was like
ecstasy, definitely alcohol.
So I kind of was like, "He's just
tripping because he's coming down."
Like I'm not paying
him any attention.
But there was a specific time Puff
comes downstairs and he's yelling,
"I'm so [bleep] tired of hearing
about you and your [bleep] attitude,
"and all you've got to do
is cook the [bleep] food."
Me and him are like
face to face like this,
and he's just like, he does
like this to my forehead,
and he's just like,
you know, like,
and I'm telling him like,
"Don't [bleep] touch me,"
and now tears are
coming down my eyes.
And he's like, "You're [bleep]
crying, you're [bleep] crying
and there's kids
starving in Africa,
and you over here
[bleep] crying?
And all you got to do
is cook [bleep] food?"
He was just getting
madder and madder.
And so I walk away and I'm
opening up the refrigerator.
And I remember him saying,
"Yeah, you're [bleep] crazy."
And then I just remembered
slamming the door
and being like, "Yeah,
that's right. I'm [bleep] crazy.
And you know what else? I quit."
Me saying that I quit
like, enraged him more,
because he's like, "You
can't [bleep] quit on me.
You can't [bleep] quit on me."
And I just remember turning
around and saying, "[bleep] you."
And when I turned around
and I said that to him,
he used all of his force,
and he just shoved
me, like he pushed me.
And I went flying
outside of the doorway
and I ended up on
my elbows and my butt.
I'm telling the office, I'm
gonna sue this mother [bleep]."
They understood
that I was upset,
but they're like, "If you
sue him, your career is over.
You will be blackballed.
He does have the power to
do that, and he will do that."
Puff scared me.
So I kept quiet about
things that I knew
because I was afraid that
something might happen to me.
[Roger Bonds] I've
seen Diddy in incidents
with multiple
women with violence.
One time, I
remember telling him,
"Yo, I think you got a problem."
He looked at me and he was like,
"I ain't got no mother
[bleep] problem."
So he said, "Sometimes
you just gotta
let these hoes know
who the boss is."
From 2006 to 2012,
nobody else spent more
time with Puff than I did.
I was his everyday bodyguard.
It meant so much to
me to get with Diddy
because of who I was
and what I've been through.
I was incarcerated
for a little while,
so to me, that
was a stepping up.
One of the reasons
that I got with Puff
was because he was a older guy,
so I felt like it's just a matter of
time before he simmers down.
But he was still waking me up
at 4:00 or 5:00 in the morning
talking about, "Yo, we
getting ready to go to the club?"
And I remember lots of drugs.
When he was on drugs,
it enabled him to stay up
for two or three days at a time.
At that time, you had different
people that Diddy did respect,
telling him, You need help."
And when that didn't happen, I seen
a spiral and the spiral was going down.
There was a time he
had a fight in Miami,
and when we was
running out the door,
he seemed to think it was funny.
He looked at me and he told
me, he said, "I got time, Bonds."
I said, "What you got time for?"
He said, "I got enough
money for one more big fight
that I could pay
the people off."
In my mind, I was like,
"Yo, this dude is crazy."
Who wants to get into a fight
to have to pay somebody?
Diddy, he always wanted
you to agree with what he said,
and if you don't agree
with what he said,
he had his way of
getting rid of you.
Coming home from jail,
I couldn't move on
to nothing better.
And so I was even willing to turn a
blind eye to some of the bad things
because Diddy would always say,
"You should be
thankful for being here."
He was just a
master manipulator.
So when I look at him now, I
say, the respect that I had for him,
the way that I looked up
to him when I first started,
it's all gone because
I know it's a facade.
I like to value my success
on not the monetary aspect.
It's how many lives I could touch and
change and help to give a chance to.
[Campo] Diddy did such a
good job of presenting himself.
And so I, like
most of the world,
did not fully realize the
extent of the darkness.
Lil Rod is the first man
that has come forward
with some of these
allegations of sexual assault.
There are a lot of things that
stood out in Lil Rod's lawsuit.
"Mr. Jones witnessed, experienced,
and endured many things
that went far beyond his role as
a producer on The Love Album."
[Lil Rod] When I started
working with Puffy,
I was very, very
excited. For me,
I had already won just to
be sitting in a room with him.
It didn't get any
better than that.
But knowing everything that I know
now, I would never work for Puffy.
My name is Rodney Jones
Junior, also known as Lil Rod.
I produced The Love Album:
Off The Grid for Sean Combs.
Working with Puff, you never
know who you're dealing with.
So some days he would walk in
and be one of the coolest guys.
And then some days he walked
in and he's just being a thug.
I remember one time
he was asking me
how much was I
going to charge him
for working on his album.
Before I knew it, he
was up in my face.
He's like, "Yo, you don't
charge me no money.
I'm Puff Daddy.
I'll eat your face off."
I never got paid as a producer
for The Love Album still to this day.
Puff making threats,
that's who he is.
A bully in a suit.
Puffy crossed the
line so many times.
We were at Puffy's Los Angeles
house, working in the studio.
He says, "I want to
work in my bathroom.
Everybody bring everything."
So we break down the studio,
get the instruments and
go to his bathroom as usual.
And he strips
himself in front of us
and jumps right into the shower.
But he's looking directly at me.
You know what I mean?
I found myself getting
a pat on my butt.
It felt uncomfortable, and
still feels uncomfortable.
I was very unsure what
to think and how to feel.
It's not something that I
ever want to happen again.
I did at some point raise this
issue to one of the chief of staff
and she would tell me,
"Oh, that's just his way of
showing he likes you or loves you.
You should just downplay
it like it's nothing."
And it just happened
over and over.
Working with him, there was
a lot of abuse that came with it.
[interviewer speaking]
No.
There's so much
more that he did.
Puffy would require
us to go to the club
and bring back multiple
choices of women
for himself and whoever he
deemed necessary to have fun with.
So more than often, we did spend a
lot of our time going to the strip clubs
to get sex workers to
bring back to the house.
You'll see girls come
at the Miami house.
That happened quite often.
Lots of women, lots of partying,
lots of drugs, lots of alcohol.
I even found myself
a couple of times
waking up next to
some of the sex workers.
And you know, it felt like it just
went from zero to 10, like quickly.
[interviewer talking]
I feel like I was
for sure drugged.
I feel like the
drinks were spiked.
It's not like I don't know
how to handle my liquor,
so for me to be having a drink
and then I wake up
trying to remember
exactly how I got
here, what's going on.
I can only imagine that
somebody tapped me.
Everybody was sipping
on the Puffy juice.
That makes me feel
very used, abused.
It makes me feel like
only a monster can do this.
As disturbing as Lil
Rod's lawsuit was,
there have been more shocking
things that have come out.
[sighs]
[Thalia Graves] I've tried to
put it away for all these years,
but even now it's a lot. [sighs]
The color red for
me is a trigger.
It took a lot to wear
this red shirt today.
Um, you know,
'cause it's a process.
I'm trying-- I'm
trying to get there.
I can't listen to any Bad Boy
music without it triggering me.
I cannot hear his voice
without it making
my stomach hurt.
That effing monster.
Back in 2000, I
was living in Queens.
I was a mom in the
middle of a divorce,
so kind of maintaining
house and home first.
And then I started dating
a Bad Boy executive.
Through my boyfriend,
I met Sean Combs at
Daddy's House Studio.
It was just a normal,
"Hey, how you doing?
"Welcome to the fam.
Welcome to Bad Boy."
That was the atmosphere.
Very fun. Very upbeat.
At that time, Diddy was
the jokester, the prankster.
But now, thinking back,
Diddy would make remarks
that if you have to
really think back to it,
it's like, ugh, a little weird.
Like, "Hey, don't leave
her alone over here.
You've got a pretty
girl. She's a little thing."
Now, in hindsight,
it's like we're prepping
yourself for the kill.
And then what happened in
2001 changed my whole life.
I was home in Queens.
I got a call from one of the
people at Bad Boy Studios.
They said, "Puff
wants to talk to you
because your boyfriend is
[bleep] up at work again."
There was nothing alarming
about Puff wanting to talk to me
because we've had a conversation
about him screwing up at work
prior to this, to get
him back on track.
A little while later,
this burgundy Escalade pulls up,
and Puff was sitting in the
back, so I jumped in the back.
And he said, "Hey, what's up?
Do you want something to drink?"
I said, "Sure, what you got?"
And he was drinking
something in a red Solo cup.
And he gave me a clear glass,
like a little cup with some white zin.
By the time we got to
Daddy's House Studios,
I started feeling a little
woozy, lightheaded.
I kept doing this,
trying to feel my face
because it kept
feeling a little numb.
I remember getting
out the Escalade.
Still, I'm thinking we're
going to go to the studio
and my boyfriend's
gonna be there.
But at this time, we
went down the hallway
to a door and a lounge
that I've never been to.
And I remember sitting
on the dark couch.
Puff was sitting there
on the couch with me,
and I'm not sure for how
long I was sitting there.
And I started feeling
a lot more fuzzier,
and I remember crying.
And the next thing I remember
was I was slammed
on a pool table.
I was naked
[exhales] on the pool table,
and my hands were
tied behind my back.
And I kept trying to do this to try
to figure out what was tying me.
It felt like plastic bags.
Puffy was standing by
the bar and he was naked.
There was a jar on the bar.
And he put on something
on his privates that--
Like, I smell it. It
smelled like menthol.
And he was slathering it in.
[breathes deeply]
[sobbing]
[sobbing]
So [sniffles]
I was still trying to
figure out what's going on.
[exhales]
And Puffy came up
behind me [sniffles]
[breathing deeply]
and went straight in my anus
to where I ended up
throwing up on the pool table.
[sniffling]
And screaming.
And I'm not sure
if there was anything coming out
my voice while I was screaming,
but I could feel the
burn anally, [sniffs]
and I was trying
to try to kick him.
I'm short so my feet wouldn't
even touch the ground,
and I was trying to kick him
and I was trying to hold on
to the table at the same time.
At some point, Puffy stopped, went
back to the bar, wiped himself off
because I'm looking
at him like this, still tied,
and trying to-- trying to see
everything I possibly can,
and trying to focus
'cause it was a big blur.
And then he came back
and went into me vaginally.
And, um
[exhales]
He said something.
I'm not sure what he said or
if he was even talking to me.
Um
And then when I came back to,
I was back on the couch.
I had stuff all over me, um,
from throwing up, drooling,
whatever it was.
But this time, I didn't have
the ties anymore on my hands.
I had red panties on. I
couldn't find my panties.
I remember putting on my
bra, putting my dress on.
I don't even remember if I
put the dress on correctly.
And I ran out the door.
I was terrified.
I just didn't want to die.
I remember running out, going
downstairs, and running down the block.
I didn't see anybody.
I was just gone.
I ended up calling a
cab driver that I knew.
When he came and picked
me up, I jumped in the front seat.
I was a mess.
And he was in shock.
His exact words were
"What the F happened?"
Did you get hit
by a truck? A car?
Did you have an accident?"
And he was checking out my wrist
because I had bruises
and welts on my wrist.
And he took me straight
to Elmhurst Hospital.
I couldn't go in.
I couldn't go in.
I couldn't move.
[exhales] I was scared,
not just for my life,
I was scared for my
parents finding out,
just because, you know, I
didn't want to embarrass them.
I didn't want to
embarrass myself.
And I didn't want
to go to the police
because I was in the middle of a
child custody battle and a divorce,
and I didn't want anything
stopping this process.
And he was trying to convince
me to go into the hospital,
and I just wanted to go home.
And just sit in the shower for
about an hour, and that's what I did.
I'm trying to scrub, literally,
like scrub your life away.
I have stayed in bed,
and hiding from my parents for
three days in the same household,
because I still couldn't
fathom what happened.
It didn't seem real.
And then came the
questions. "Why me?"
You know, we were
supposed to be cool.
We were supposed
to be like friends.
We were supposed to be,
you know, you know me.
Those were all the thoughts going
through my head while I was hiding.
Soon after that, I got a call.
And it was Puff.
I was terrified.
He said, "Ay. Keep
your effing mouth shut."
And then he hung up the phone.
Puffy has ways of finding out
stuff and making things happen.
I need to get the hell
away from New York.
I ended up disappearing
for a few years.
I was a total wreck, hanging
on to sanity by a thread.
Trying to cope with
being raped and assaulted,
trying to raise a child,
depression,
trying to fight every day
to keep yourself alive,
because at that point
there was nothing there.
There was nothing to say, "Okay, you've
got tomorrow to live for, right?" So
Every day. Every
day was a battle.
Every day was a
struggle to try to keep me
from either killing myself
or doing something stupid.
Today, I'm still coping with
and trying to get through it.
Because in November of 2023,
I was told by my ex-boyfriend
that my assault was
actually recorded on tape.
For me, it was like, why would
somebody record raping somebody,
and then you show
it to other people?
I was so angry.
And then he said, "Do you see what's
happening in the news with Cassie?"
[newscaster 1] Sean Diddy
Combs, the disgraced music mogul.
[newscaster 2] Sean Diddy Combs.
[newscaster 3] Sean Diddy
Combs, facing a slew of allegations,
including rape
and sex trafficking.
She opened up a
can of worms with Puff.
[newscaster 3] forcing her
into unwanted sexual encounters
through the use of illegal
substances and threats of violence.
The acclaimed music producer
vehemently denying the allegations.
I always believed that
I was the only victim.
[newscaster 4] These are
the first of what could be
scores of lawsuits.
[policeman] I'm definitely
looking at a piece
of property that is
owned by Sean Combs.
[newscaster 5] It has been
a staggering fall from grace.
♪