Are You My First? (2025) s01e04 Episode Script

1
["The Dark Side of Love"
by The Breaker Sisters playing]
Oh, it's poison in wine ♪
It's fire and ice got you feeling like ♪
[Kaitlyn Bristowe] Previously,
the girls voted Hakeem and Krash
to be sacrificed from the island.
But before they go, the guys
must break their tied vote
and seal one girl's fate.
[tense music playing]
Katya and Carissa
♪♪
both have a strong connection,
but one must go.
You need to come to a decision right now.
♪♪
-[sparkling flourish]
-[birds chirping]
[ocean waves crashing]
[contestants chattering]
Is anyone gonna change their vote?
-I'm not changing my vote.
-I'm not changing mine.
It's a lot. It's a lot.
[tense music playing]
[Katya] I'm here to find love.
I'm here to find my husband.
And I have this great
connection with Andrew.
So, if I go home,
that would be heartbreaking.
[Carissa] I'm hoping to stay
because me and Mike have
a genuine connection.
And I genuinely wanna
look for a relationship.
[tense, emotional music playing]
[Colton Underwood] Alright, guys.
Did someone from the group
want to reveal
what your guys' final decision is?
♪♪
[Godwin] Let's let Hakeem. Hakeem.
It's his last night.
Let Hakeem reveal that.
Sure, why not?
[Colton] So, Hakeem,
which woman did the men
vote to leave Are You My First?
["The Weight of Your Words"
by The Venice Connection playing]
[dramatic crescendo]
We voted for Carissa.
[dramatic sting]
[Colton] That means, Carissa,
you have been sacrificed.
[dramatic music plays]
I'm sorry.
[somber music playing]
This sucks. I didn't think it was
gonna be me, honestly.
I mean, who could possibly
have voted for me?
That means that Krash,
Hakeem, and Carissa,
it is time to say goodbye here
to everybody on the island.
[Deya] This is crazy.
[Madi]
No. I don't want you to leave.
[Deya] You did amazing.
Come here, Hakeem.
[Hakeem] I came here to look
for a compatible girlfriend.
Yeah, a little bit bummed
it didn't shake out like that.
-[group cheering]
-Much love. We outta here.
Nobody ever told me ♪
Mr. 305, out.
-[group cheering]
-[Krash chuckles]
It definitely would've been
cool to lose my virginity,
but Krash is definitely gonna
find love in the future,
even if I didn't find it here.
-[ocean waves lapping]
-[insects chirping]
-[Jade weeping]
-[Carissa] Don't cry. I love you guys.
Obviously, it's really sad
to have to leave everyone,
but I'm really grateful
for the opportunity
and the experience.
[group cheering]
This is where we say goodbye ♪
This is where we draw the line ♪
I definitely have so much more
confidence now as a virgin
in the power and the beauty
of what it means to be vulnerable.
And I'm ready to lose my virginity.
[indistinct chatter]
[Mike]
It just makes zero sense to me.
Like, her name never
should have been brought up
if we're going just based off
of where connections are at.
I mean, I think it's pretty clear.
You know, some of the guys didn't get
the attention that they wanted from her.
And I think it ultimately
just boils down to
just lack of maturity.
-[laughter]
-What the fuck?
[Noah]
It was really good to meet you.
-You okay?
-Yeah.
[Carissa]
If I'm gonna be completely honest,
I think the guys chose me
because Noah's a little hurt
that I rejected him
and he's out for some revenge.
I was just being honest with everyone.
That came back to bite me.
[dramatic music playing]
Wow.
This gets very real very quick, huh?
-Yeah.
-You said it.
Shocking.
You can head on back
and we will see you later.
Okay. Goodnight.
-Goodnight.
-Goodnight.
["Come to an End" by Nik Ammar playing]
[Mike] Yeah, we don't know
where he's at, but
[Rachael]
Yeah. It's a lot to process.
I knew the day would come ♪
When we would say goodbye ♪
Michael's gone for whatever reason.
Carissa gets sent home,
who was like--
I thought everybody loved her.
It just goes to show that
it's really important
to work on building a connection here.
[Kaitlyn] The remaining virgins
have survived their first sacrifice.
And while some connections ended,
others got a second chance.
After her escape earlier,
Andrew's stoked he can see Katya later
and didn't have to say, "Catch ya later."
-First of all, can I just say thank you?
-Yeah, of course.
It's a huge gesture.
Obviously, I want you to stay,
-and I want to continue our connection.
-Of course.
I'm all in for you. I don't even
want to talk to the other girls.
Mm, I'm, like, scared 'cause we're gonna--
I feel like we're gonna lock in.
-Why are you scared of that?
-'Cause it's sc-- I'm a runner.
-[laughs] Let's run together.
-I
[both laughing]
It's so-- This is-- I don't do this!
-This is hard.
-Just, run. Just--
You have to meet me where I'm at.
I'll meet you where you at,
but just run with me, not away from me.
Like, I'm not putting pressure here.
I just wanna make sure, like,
you're actually invested in this.
Well, you're obviously my number one.
[upbeat music playing]
And you make me feel so secure
and so safe and so comfortable.
And you deserve that and more.
And I'm gonna try my best.
-Okay.
-So, that's a start, right?
Yeah, it's a start.
Katya, the thing about her,
she's more of a slow burner.
The feelings that I've grown
for Katya are incredible.
I have goosebumps right now
to know that a person I met days ago
has the potential to want
to build a life with me.
I definitely can see myself
losing my virginity to her.
[upbeat music continues]
Fighting tooth and nail for me to stay
was definitely worthy of a smooch.
Our connection really is super special.
[both groaning]
Are you more like, a hand-holding
or arm around you or--
-I like being close to you right now.
-You're like-- You like being close? Okay.
[Katya]
I've been set in my ways for so long.
I'm 28 years old, you know?
I-I have built this wall
around myself for protection.
But maybe that's why I'm a virgin.
So, I'm nervous, but I'm ready to open up
in a way that I haven't
allowed myself to with Andrew.
And he's the perfect person
for me to be vulnerable with,
'cause he's laid it all out on the table.
["Closer" by Andrew Kingslow playing]
Until the night is over ♪
Let's get a little closer ♪
["Follow The Sun" by BILLION$ playing]
[Colton] After last night's wakeup call,
the virgins are eager
-to start forming connections.
-[Godwin groaning]
[Colton]
Some keep building on their bonds.
-Hello! I haven't seen you.
-[grunts] I know!
[Colton] Others, like Noah and Ty,
have both found a deep connection.
[Noah] Hey, gorgeous.
[Colton] Hopefully they'll try
forming one with some girls, too.
[Noah] Just know, I wanna
be best friends forever.
Dude, same.
I will always be in your corner.
-I know you-- I know--
-Wait.
Wait, wait, wait. Wait, wait, wait, wait.
[dramatic music playing]
Shut the fuck up. [gasps]
-[Ty] Is there a girl?
-No, look.
Can't wait to see
the look on your face ♪
When I'm here ♪
Do you see that?
Or am I tripping?
-Is someone coming?
-Oh yeah, same thing.
Shut the fuck up.
[dramatic music continues]
-[Jade gasps]
-No!
[Deya] Holy shit!
Dang, we just had an elimination
and now the new girls show up.
Like, it's rough out here, okay?
[Madi] I think there's two.
-[Ty laughing]
-I will be nice.
Unless they go for Noah,
and then I will be a little bit angry.
Oh fuck.
[Godwin] Crazy, bro. Two?
Like, I'm freaking the fuck out!
I don't want him to fuckin'
look at another girl,
and wanna date her.
Cuties!
-There's a V card!
-Ooh!
-[birds chirping]
-[ocean waves crashing]
[Kaitlyn] Last night, the island gods
claimed their first sacrifices,
but today, bless us
with a bountiful harvest
of two new ladies set
to plant the seeds of trouble.
Will our couples keep growing,
or be uprooted?
And will I ever stop this
agriculture metaphor?
-[Andrew] She has a V card.
-[Madi] Oh, for sure!
[overlapping greetings]
They're absolutely drop-dead gorgeous.
Especially the blonde hair,
blue-eyed girl.
She's my type through and through.
Let's just be the confident
queens that we are.
Hi, I'm Brooklyn Benson, and I'm 24.
A part of my religion is that
you should save yourself for marriage.
Dating other virgins
will be the best way to do it.
-They're like, waving.
-Hi!
My name is Farha, and I'm 25 years old.
Brooklyn, nice to meet you.
-[Sara] What's your name? Farha?
-Farha.
-Nice to meet you.
-Andrew.
-[Farha] Andrew, nice to meet you.
-[Andrew] Nice to meet you, Farha.
[Farha] I would describe
myself as a contradiction
because I think half of me is
super realist and pragmatic
and the other half of me is romantic.
But I definitely haven't found a guy
who matches my hopeless romanticism.
[contestants chattering, laughing]
Uh, we have this V card
to read to you guys.
[group exclaiming]
"This V card grants each of you
a once-in-a-lifetime date
with the man of your choice."
-Wow.
-[Deya] Ooh.
"So, have fun getting to know the men,
and when ready, choose your dates."
-[group cheering]
-[upbeat music playing]
[Mike] Right now,
I don't have a connection.
So, the importance of a date, it's huge.
Anytime you have a date,
it puts you maybe a little bit ahead
to be safe from the elimination.
I mean, you're closest to me.
-I'll grab you.
-Yeah, let's chat.
[excited chatter]
And then, I'll go with the next closest.
-[Godwin] Yes, okay. Okay.
-[Brooklyn chuckles]
[Katya] Alright! Go get 'em, tigers!
[upbeat rock music playing]
I'm still a virgin 'cause the dating pool
out there in the real world
is lamentable.
Dating in LA is so hard.
I'm not even being dramatic.
[Farha] I want a nice guy,
but that's hard to find,
'cause a lot of men,
they just have no goals outside of
just like, gamifying dating
and fucking women.
I've had multiple men
throughout the past couple of years
break up with me just
because I am a virgin.
It would be preferable
to date a male virgin,
but like, a cool one, not like, you know,
an incel or something.
Are you still a virgin
or did you bang one of these
-[laughing]
-these girls here?
-All of them. Yeah.
-All of them? Yeah.
-No. Still a virgin.
-What, uh, religion are you?
-I'm Christian.
-Okay, cool. I'm LDS.
-What about you?
-Oh! There it is.
-Yeah.
-Okay.
-What?
-There's other guys that are LDS here.
-Oh, really?
Yeah. The one that has, like,
more of like a shaved head,
-that's Andrew.
-Oh, okay.
And then also Noah's LDS.
I love, like, a bubbly, happy boy.
'Cause I'm so, like, stiff and in my head.
So, I love like a fun, you know, dumb guy.
-Really?
-Yeah.
I'm sadly really fun but not dumb.
[upbeat music playing]
-[chuckles]
-You tryin' to fuck anyone here yet?
[Noah] Me and Madi are really tight.
We're home base, but she knows that
we're still exploring other people.
I'm not opposed to home-wrecking,
but it's not my first goal in mind.
But, you know, I'm open
to talking to him more.
-How did the convo go?
-[Sara] Okay?
-Yeah, we're good.
-Okay.
[Jake] Brooklyn is lovely,
but I think it's definitely
gonna stay in the,
the friend zone.
Sara's the only person I have my eyes on.
-[Noah] There she is!
-Hi!
Can I steal you?
[everyone exclaiming]
[people clapping]
I got some news. I got some news, guys.
She's also LDS.
-[Rachael] What? Huh?
-[Deya] She's what?
-What?
-[Jake] She's LDS.
-[Rachael] Oh!
-[Deya] Oh, she's Mormon?
-[Katya] Oh, that's perfect.
-[Deya] That is perfect.
Look at the two blondes.
The two blonde Mormons.
Sorry, I'm gonna-- I've, I've sweat
through this shirt entirely
'cause it's so hot, so
-Oh, you're totally good.
-Um
Oh, I love it. Andrew took off his shirt.
He's playing no games.
-I'm proud of him.
-Wait, why are you excited about that?
I'm secure in our connection!
-I'm-I'm an insecure little girly.
-[Deya, Madi laugh]
I don't have him.
I don't own people, right?
-[Jade] Yeah.
-Like, Andrew is with me willingly.
Girl, you're lying. Katya's lying.
You're a liar ♪
Liar ♪
Andrew is LDS and this Brooklyn is LDS.
So, there is a good chance, like,
they could really hit it off.
I don't think Katya should feel
as safe as she's feeling.
[Kaitlyn] Katya's trying to
convince herself she's not worried
about new hottie Brooklyn
turning Andrew's head,
kind of the same way
I'm trying to convince myself
I'll be bikini-ready by summer.
Totally working.
Just a liar ♪
-[birds chirping]
-[ocean waves crashing]
["Exchange" by KVASIR playing]
I know you got me runnin'
on the right groove ♪
[Kaitlyn] Two new hotties,
Brooklyn and Farha,
hold the golden ticket,
like the one in
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory,
except Charlie is two hot virgins,
the chocolate is sex,
and the factory is obviously an island.
-What brings you here?
-Like, honestly, I'm so ready
for a serious relationship.
-Right.
-Like, so I, like,
really wanna find someone
out of this, you know?
-Mm-hm.
-How 'bout you?
Same thing. I'm not dating
to, like, mess around anymore.
Like, there's no reason.
The guy-- Oh, I forgot his name--
-Who I was just chatting with.
-Oh, that's a sign.
-I'm just kidding. Jake.
-Wait, was it Jake?
[Brooklyn] Jake, Jake. Yeah.
Uh, he told me you're LDS.
-Yeah.
-Me too.
-No, you're not!
-Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I would say I'm a little bit no--
more non-traditional.
-Mm.
-And I don't know if that's like
a bad thing for you.
-No.
-Okay.
And are you, like, open right now?
-Or are you, like, with someone?
-I'm very open, yeah.
-I'm all in for you.
-Yeah?
-The thing is--
-Like, are you open-minded
-to, like, getting to know me?
-Oh, very open-minded. Yes.
I don't even wanna talk
to the other girls.
-[laughs]
-And I would love to go
on the date with you,
like, to explore things further.
Yeah. Okay, well, that's good to know.
I felt a little bit of butterflies.
Yeah, yeah.
She's drop-dead gorgeous.
Katya's still my number one for sure,
but I'm not closing myself off on
the opportunity to connect with Brooklyn.
[Colton] To Katya, he's "all in."
To Brooklyn, he's "open."
So, when Andrew says he's LDS,
does he mean the Church,
or does he mean he suffers
from "Loyalty Deficit Syndrome"?
♪♪
I'm gonna snatch you.
-[Andrew] Oh! Have fun, Noah!
-[Deya] Oh, my God!
-Alright. Nice to meet you.
-[crosstalk]
I-I don't wanna give you a sweaty hug,
-but sweaty hug.
-[Brooklyn] Oh, it's okay.
[screaming]
[screaming echoes]
[birds cawing]
Yeah, I am insecure. Okay?
Like, I am insecure in the connection
'cause of all the shit that
just happened with Carissa.
Like, what the fuck?
-Do you wanna sit over here?
-Yeah.
Someone was saying that you're like,
a member of the Church
of Jesus Christ, right?
-Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
-Me as well.
-Cool.
-So, I was surprised.
You were the only girl in here that is.
-Wait, really? The only girl?
-None of the other girls are.
Madi isn't of my faith,
and I've never really dated
outside of the-the Church of Jesus Christ.
-So it's like really a new experience.
-Yeah.
The reason why I'm afraid is like,
when I was in high school,
I would like a guy
and my friends would go out with him.
Oh, shit. I keep forgetting. You're right.
I can understand why Madi
is so concerned about Brooklyn,
because she's tall and blonde.
And I also think a fresh meat's
always gonna be scary
because you could be
old news to a guy like that.
Are you open-minded to, like,
meeting other girls, or?
Me and Madi, I would say we're like,
maybe one of the most secure couples
in the villa at the moment.
-Okay.
-That being said,
I'm enjoying this conversation,
and I, like, do want
to keep getting to know you.
Definitely.
Felt like he was, like, really
wrapped up in his girl,
but I do think, like,
he is interested in me,
and we could have a connection.
Okay, he's coming. So make room for him.
-[Noah] What's up?
-Hey, Papi Suave.
[Noah] Yeah. Soy Papi Suave.
How'd it go?
Um, Brooklyn's really sweet, girly girl,
and it was, like, fun to get to know her.
Obviously, we, like, share the same faith.
And then, me and Farha,
her humor was pretty, like, edgy
where you don't say, "Just kidding,"
at the end of your roast.
-Oh!
-I was like, "Ooh! Okay."
I want you to stay.
-"I want you to stay"? What?
-Yeah, I don't want you to go on the date.
Oh! You-- Okay.
I thought you were, like,
saying part of the bit or something.
-No.
-Honestly, and I'll say it to your face,
-like, I'm not gonna--
- No, I know, I know.
-I'm not gonna shut them off.
-I know. No, I know.
'Cause they're--
And I don't know them yet, you know?
[Kaitlyn] Madi's seriously concerned
Noah might be thinking
of moving to Brooklyn.
It's a totally new experience for her,
because, as a virgin, she's quite
literally never given any fucks before.
[everyone greeting each other]
-[Andrew] How are we?
-[Katya] Hi, girl!
So, we're inviting some
of you out on a date.
[contestants laughing]
You seem stoked!
-Yeah
-[laughter]
we're hyped.
Uh, do you wanna go first?
Yes. I'm picking
[suspenseful music playing]
Andrew!
[contestants cheering]
-I'm very excited. Sorry I'm so sweaty.
-Oh, it's okay.
[Noah] Brooklyn's very, very beautiful.
I think because I didn't express
too much interest in her,
that's why she chose Andrew.
But I would like to get to know her.
I feel like there's definitely
some potential there.
Uh, Noah, would you be so kind
as to join me on this date?
-I would love to.
-[Deya] Oh, my God!
-Yay. Bye. Have fun.
-Bye, Madi. Thanks.
["Give Me More Time"
by Markus Hughes playing]
Come back to me ♪
Like this is a dream no end from ♪
[Madi] What the fuck?
Like, she picked Noah?
I wasn't expecting that.
I'm worried about Noah being on the date,
mainly because it takes time
away from us connecting.
Empty shadows ♪
[Andrew] Alright, let's do it.
-[Deya] Bye, guys! We'll miss you!
-[overlapping goodbyes]
[Katya] Make good decisions!
Can't wait to hear all about it.
-[Deya] Okay.
-Wow.
[Katya] I am Andrew's number one,
so I'm not worried at all about Brooklyn.
I'm secure in what we have.
[Deya] How you feeling now?
[Madi] I can't breathe.
I don't-- Like, she--
He said she's really funny.
I'm like, fuck, I know he
likes people that are funny.
So wake me like this never happened ♪
And you're still by my side ♪
I'm a feminist, but I'm not a girl's girl.
I believe in your right, you know,
your body, your choice.
I believe in my right,
in-in doing what I choose,
even if that includes, you know,
stealing your man.
So, that's where I stand.
Give me more time ♪
-[birds chirping]
-[ocean waves crashing]
I wanna fall in love ♪
I wanna fall in love tonight ♪
[Kaitlyn] At Virginity HQ,
Madi tries to take her
mind off her own business
by not minding her own business.
How are things with Ty going?
-Think they're going good. Um--
-Good? I was like,
are you feeling him a little bit more,
or what's, like, the vibe there?
I don't know. We'll see. And like--
-[Madi] He's like the sweetest guy.
-[Jade] He really is.
So, I am feeling very good with Ty,
but the door is still open for Godwin.
I still wanna continue
getting to know him as well.
So, I am a bit relieved
that Brooklyn and Farha,
they didn't pick neither
of my men for the date.
Although, I am concerned for my girl Madi.
I thought Brooklyn was gonna pick Noah.
-[Madi] Yeah.
-So, I was like, "Whoa."
Just because she didn't ask him
doesn't mean I still shouldn't be
-like a little worried.
-Mm-hm.
I think it's to the point where like,
I need to tell him how
I'm feeling right now.
-Mm-hm.
-And then, we go from there.
Are you just gonna tell him
or are you gonna like--
I'm gonna do like,
a little, like, rhyme
-Mm-hm.
-that leads him to the boat.
-I'm gonna be laying in the boat.
-Yeah.
-Waiting for him. Hiding.
-[laughs] Just like that?
Yeah. [squeals] Hiding.
I think it's a good plan.
I think it'll work.
I don't normally take a lot of risks
when it comes to dating,
so this is a big risk for me.
I've gone out on a limb
before and been, you know,
open and honest about my feelings
and it did not go well.
So, it makes me really scared
to open up to someone again
and, you know, put my feelings out there
when I have been so hurt in the past.
[Colton] Madi hopes waiting in a boat
and luring Noah into that same boat
will ensure emotionally,
they're in the same boat.
This is all I need right now ♪
[Noah] Yo, that's definitely the boat.
[Andrew] Look how big it is.
Catamaran, let's go!
[everyone squealing]
[Colton] Until then,
Noah's in the same boat
as three other virgins.
Same boat, same outfits, same body count.
[Noah] I am so excited to go
on a date with Farha.
I came into this journey to be open
to exploring relationships with girls
outside of my normal preference or bubble.
So, I'm excited to get to know her better.
Don't care about the where or how ♪
[Brooklyn] Ooh!
-[Andrew] Oh, I got you.
-Thank you.
Oh, my gosh, look at how nice this is.
I'm here to find love
and finally lose my virginity.
And right now, I have
a deep connection with Katya
that I want to maintain.
But Brooklyn has such
a sweet, amazing heart.
Like, I could see her being the mother
of my frickin' kids, you know what I mean?
And if she's checking
that box from the get-go,
then, like,
I shouldn't be messing around.
I just need to get to know her
on a deeper level.
Right now ♪
To the catamaran, because this is
the best type of boat and vibe there is.
-Okay.
-Yes.
-[Andrew] What about you?
-I'm toasting to meeting you guys!
Love it.
I'm toasting to our much-coveted chastity
-and our entry to heaven.
-[Andrew whooping]
Hell yeah, sister! [laughs]
So, how has it, like, been
in general in the villa?
Like, are you guys, like, super,
like, connected with someone?
[Noah] There's no declaration of like,
"I want you and you want me
and we're together."
So then, it, like,
gets tricky to navigate, like,
it-- how appropriate is it to, like,
have your number-one girl
and then go talk to other girls?
Madi doesn't feel good
about me going on this date
and that's making her really anxious.
But the date is so, so, so amazing
that it's not hard to just put it
outta my mind while I'm on the date.
Life's a beach so let's
party 'til the sunrise ♪
[Brooklyn squeals and laughs]
-You ready?
-Oh, my gosh.
-Come on. You're fine.
-[Brooklyn squealing]
["Until The Sunrise"
by Vanacore Music playing]
I kind of want to hear some
stories from you, though.
Like, I feel like that's the best way
to get to know someone, like
Oh, um, so I started to try new things.
So I started doing like,
some, like, streaming stuff
and, like, debates and stuff.
So I entered this thing
called, like, the "manosphere."
It's like the deep web
bottom of the barrel.
-Say that like, you know
-Okay.
women shouldn't have the right to vote.
[Noah] You're kind of like in
a weird side of society right now.
Like, you're interacting
with some weird dudes.
So, like, I started doing
like, debates with those people,
'cause I think it's so funny.
And now you're with a ton of dudes
who, like yeah, are virgins.
That's why I was not expecting,
like, normal virgin guys.
I'm a virgin, but I also do OnlyFans.
-No, you don't.
-Yeah.
[intense percussive music plays]
Oh, my goodness.
[echoing] But I also do OnlyFans.
♪♪
This is the first girl I've met
that does OnlyFans.
Like, actual, like, porn would you say?
No, I wouldn't say that, but that's--
My first date with an OnlyFans girly.
Oh, my gosh.
-Oh, really?
-Well, yeah, I mean,
I mostly have dated, like, Mormon girls
'cause I went to school in Utah.
I don't know how pornographic it is,
but I just have, like, a really, really
strong opinion against pornography
and I think it's like a poison in society.
I wish it didn't exist, you know?
But I'm curious, like,
what are you doing on OnlyFans?
Like, is it just like bikini poses,
or is it like, yeah, kind of like crazy?
-It's definitely not crazy.
-Oh, okay.
-It's more on the mild side, but--
-Oh, okay, okay.
I-I actually don't disagree
with anything you're saying.
-Mm.
-Like, I have felt the same way.
Like, I don't think you're
ever gonna get guys,
outside of a religious niche,
as, like, a culture as a whole
to ever stop indulging porn.
My point is, even if I don't
do that type of content,
people will make it,
so it doesn't even matter
if I'm not sexualizing myself online.
I started my OnlyFans account
because I thought, like, the best way to,
you know, flesh out my opinion is to
sell my body myself,
which I love doing.
But typically, when people
hear the word "OnlyFans,"
it's like the Boogeyman to them.
But for me, it's actually
a pretty good litmus,
because I encounter a lot of guys
who fetishize me for being a virgin.
But then the OnlyFans
kind of mitigates that.
I'm really grateful that you're being,
like, open and honest
and like sharing so much about yourself.
Like, that's sick. But that is, like,
a line in the sand for me
where I want you as a friend,
I won't be pursuing you romantically,
just because of the OnlyFans thing.
[solemn music playing]
You know,
obviously I respect that you're--
you know, have that red line.
He took it the way I expected
a Mormon to take the news.
So, I wanna get to know
the rest of the guys,
and hopefully, there's
a liberal type of guy here.
Like, I can just lead with it
and he won't give a fuck.
[Andrew] What do you do? Like--
Like, what's your main gig?
[Brooklyn] Yeah, I mean,
I teach dance, so
Like, younger people, older people?
Yeah, I just finished teaching
like this summer camp
for, like, three-and-a-half
to five-year-olds
-and they're so cute!
-Shut up!
And it was a Barbie-themed camp,
so it was so fun.
-Like, just like--
-You give Barbie energy for sure.
Thanks. Ah! Just like the girliest music.
Just like having the best time
with the little kids.
-Okay.
-Like, I love little kids, you know?
Yeah. That's incredible.
-You have, like, very maternal
-Yeah.
like loving energy.
Just first impression, I'm like, "This
girl could be the mother of my kids,"
and more confidence than anyone
that I think I've met here.
It's like my dream to be a mother.
So, that's like a super sweet compliment.
-And I think--
-I feel like that's the best.
It is, because like, you know,
I want to have kids,
I want to have a family,
and I wanna make sure that, like,
the person I'm with is not only good to me
but r-- helps me raise, like,
the coolest, fun, most awesome people.
[Brooklyn] Andrew's, like, super nice.
We have, like, a really good,
like, connection, you know?
Like, I feel like we
can talk back and forth
and then not be like super awkward.
But I think it's best for me
to keep my options open right now
and to get to know as many guys
that I'm interested in as possible.
I guess I would like, just, like,
like to, like, keep talking
with you and stuff, and like, um,
I also-- Like, it--
Of course, you've been here
longer than me, too,
so you already do have
connections, like, with other girls.
-Of course. Yeah.
-You know?
So it's just like,
I just have to catch up.
Trust me, you're, you're caught up.
I'm very interested.
Yeah.
[Andrew] This is the best date of my life.
I'm actually attracted to Brooklyn.
My initial impression of her is like,
she has such a sweet, amazing heart.
It could be what
we've been dreaming of ♪
[Kaitlyn] As Andrew and Brooklyn discuss
where to send their kids to school,
Deya and Rachael check in on Katya,
AKA the girl Andrew was planning
on having kids with yesterday.
[Deya] Just thinking about
the whole Andrew situation
and like, how excited he was
to go on that date with Brooklyn.
I was just like 'Cause you know,
-I gotta watch out for my girl.
-Yeah. I know. I love you for that.
-Thank you.
-So, I'm like, I don't know,
but also you didn't seem fazed by it.
This is what's hard.
It's like, I'm not a jealous person,
but, okay, is the reason that
I'm not a jealous person
because of my attachment issues?
It's almost like you don't wanna care,
so that you won't get hurt.
-Right. So, I'm like
-I hear that.
am I not letting myself get there?
I think so.
I think you're holding yourself back.
[Katya] One of the biggest reasons
that I am still a virgin
is because I'm this avoidant
attachment runner girl.
What if you open up to someone
and they see it and they give it back
and they don't want it?
I think you just need
to be real with your feelings.
-That's all.
-[Rachael] Yeah.
Like, if you-- If it bothers you
a little bit, that's okay.
-It's no fun, but yes.
-[Deya] You're so good
at having all the happy,
good one emotions,
but the bad ones are helpful too.
So, I have to actively fight
against who I've built myself up to be,
to open up with Andrew
and to be really vulnerable.
You know, it's scary and I'm nervous,
but I'm also ready to do it.
If Andrew, like, kisses
the girl on the date, like,
after just kissing
and making out with you last night,
have you even thought about that?
Or just like, now?
-I just did right now!
-[Rachael] Yeah.
-[laughter]
-Like, I was so secure--
Dang, I was really trying
not to think about it.
I was so secure until you guys
made me feel not secure!
In order to best enjoy
the ride on a catamaran,
it's gotta end with a swim.
Are you down?
-[Brooklyn winces]
-You down to jump in?
-Okay. Okay, I'll do it, I'll do it.
-Yes? You'll do it? You'll jump in?
-Yeah.
-Okay. Let's-Let's-Let's go back there.
[Andrew] My initial spark with Brooklyn
is much more secure
than what I felt with Katya.
I'm here for that long-term goal,
and Brooklyn does seem like someone
I could share a beautiful family with.
And she's the woman I can see
myself losing my virginity to.
She's the top person
I'm gonna be pursuing now.
One, two, three!
[both shrieking]
["Better" by Emma Horan playing]
-Oh, it feels so good!
-[Brooklyn laughing]
Now they're jumping
in the water, but I'm--
don't know how to swim, so I'm here.
I like him better, better ♪
Thought I could never, ever ♪
Find better, better ♪
Andrew has been waiting
for his butterfly sparks moment
and I think he's finally
getting it with Brooklyn.
Water was perfect. Girls are perfect.
What-What else can we ask for?
-Nothin'.
-[moody pop music playing]
I care about him so much as a friend,
but I am curious to see if me
and Brooklyn have something there.
Like, I haven't really chatted too much
with her on this date so far,
so, I don't know.
We'll see what happens.
[Brooklyn]
Guys, this was seriously so much fun.
I am enjoying my time with Andrew,
but Noah and Farha,
they don't seem too into each other,
and Noah is kind of
really standing out to me.
Let me feel, let me feel, let me feel ♪
He's just very, very handsome.
Something about Noah is
just very intriguing to me.
Let me feel, let me feel, let me feel ♪
♪♪
-[birds chirping]
-[ocean waves crashing]
["Give U My Love" by LIBERATI playing]
[Kaitlyn] Not all virgins get the chance
to woo a girl on a sunset cruise.
Some are doing it the old-fashioned way,
relying on their charm
and impeccable flower arranging skills.
With no holding back this time ♪
Give you my love ♪
And Ty will need to rely
on something else entirely.
[Ty] Jade and I do have some
feelings for each other,
but what makes me a little uncomfortable
is she hasn't closed the door with Godwin.
And, and so, I wanted to do
something special for her
because I really like her.
-Oh, my gosh.
-What?
Oh! [laughing]
I'm gonna cry.
[laughter]
-Oh! Are these for me?
-I Yeah!
[Jade squeals]
[Madi, Katya scream]
[Jade] Oh, my goodness.
[Ty] I picked 'em for you.
-Oh, this is so sweet!
-Yeah!
Oh. And I actually set up a little picnic
for us on the beach for the sunset.
-I'm about to cry. [laughs]
-[Ty] Do you wanna go?
Okay, let me grab my shoes!
-[Madi, Jade squeal]
-Oh, my God! I'm gonna start crying.
I'm just, like, so nervous.
Oh, my God. I'm shitting myself.
-[Katya] Bring the flowers on the date.
-I am.
♪♪
Ty is not someone who I
would typically go for.
I like, you know,
a basketball player build
minus the basketball player.
Obviously, that's not working.
So, think it's very important
for me to take chances,
especially since he's so different
from what I've dated in the past.
Oh, my God, I feel like I'm going to prom.
-[Madi, Katya squealing]
-[Jade laughs]
Spending time with him
and spending time with someone like him,
it's all very new, but it's all
very exciting at the same time.
-Alright.
-This is the sweetest thing ever.
-How freaking cute.
-That is so freaking cute.
That's what I want from Noah.
I was like,
"Where are my flowers, Andrew?"
["Sober (Only for You)"
by Beth De Bacci playing]
We could go for a long walk ♪
I don’t know where you came from ♪
-[Jade] Oh, my goodness, the rose petals!
-[Ty] Yeah!
[Jade] The rose petals
and the candles and the pillows,
I'm as giddy as a schoolgirl.
I'm like, [squealing incoherently].
Oh, my God, oh, my God, oh, my God.
[Ty] So?
[Jade] Not you was
plotting this whole time.
[Ty] Yeah.
How are you doing?
-Good now!
-Yeah. [laughs]
[Jade] Hol-- Holy cow!
This is quite literally
the most romantic thing
-that anyone has ever done for me
-Really?
-ever, in my 28 years of living.
-Yeah.
[Jade] All my experiences in
the past have just been like,
surface-level situationships.
So like, something like this
wouldn't have ever been, like, a thought.
[Ty] I think you of anyone is, like,
so deserving of this treatment.
[gentle music playing]
Like, I know that, in--
you know, as today goes on
or even tomorrow, whatever,
like, if you're feeling, like,
other people and stuff,
like-- and I know you'll always
like, shoot it straight
-Mm-hm.
-but, like, keep that open with me
and not toy with that,
-you know what I mean?
-Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Like, I haven't dated all this year, and--
Mm-hm.
I feel like this is my first time
getting back into it, and I'm,
I'm taking the stance of
just, like, being true
to, like, my feelings.
I think, for me, being an active
member of the Mormon church,
I am always striving to remain chaste.
I say like, "Wait for marriage,"
like, that is a goal of mine.
But if I'm being real with myself,
like, it is very hard.
And I do see that if I was with someone
who I was really connected with,
like, I wouldn't really
consider that a bad thing
if we were very, like, intentional.
[Jade] I would never want to go
into anything, like, hurting you.
-Right.
-'Cause I, I value you
and I value your heart.
-Yeah.
-And I-I would never want to like,
do anything intentionally
or unintentionally
-that could hurt you.
-Yeah.
Getting to know Jade's
proven that I can fall in love
and seek romantic connection
outside of my normal dating pool.
-Thank you.
-I-I definitely want to, like,
keep it, like, transparent.
If there ever is like a shift,
-like, I definitely wanna--
-Tell me.
-Yeah. Yeah.
-Please. Yeah.
And I'll do the same.
-Mm-hm.
-I'd rather have a moment of rejection
than like, a whole experience of delusion.
I thought I would ask just out of respect,
but like [chuckles]
-can I steal a kiss from you?
-[laughs]
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I still feel the fire ♪
-Wow!
-[Jade squeals]
[Jade] You know, I've never been
courted in that way before.
I've never had this grandiose of gesture.
Like, not even a fraction.
Never had a, a man pick me flowers.
Ty knocked it out of the park.
The bar is high to the sky thanks to Ty.
Oh, my God, I wanna keep these forever.
["Fire Between Us"
by Vanacore Music playing]
Such a gentleman.
[Kaitlyn] They're a good fit. Tailor-made.
You could say Jade is really "suit 'n Ty."
Back at Club Cortisol,
Madi's super chill about her
man's date with Brooklyn.
She's totally not stressing
about Noah's whereabouts.
[Madi] I'm like,
where the fuck are they, though?
It has been all day.
Hopefully, he missed me.
[Rachael] Yes, like, you know
when you're like--
[Madi] Like, hopefully,
he's feeling the same way.
Like, "I just wanna get back
and talk to Madi."
Like, I'm just, like, hoping--
-I'm like, waiting for them to walk back.
-[Rachael] Yeah.
["Cry No More" by Jake Warren playing]
Baby, it's just not fair ♪
[Jade] Where is everybody?
Dude, I don't fuckin' know.
I'm about to fuckin' lose my mind.
Tonight, I have this huge plan because
I have to frickin' tell him how I feel
or else it's gonna be too late.
Do this whole thing for him.
But I can do this whole thing tonight
and he can be like,
"Man, I had a great time on the date.
Like, I don't like you anymore."
And then I would be probably
throwing shit at the beach club
[laughing] and, like, flipping tables.
Like, I would be so pissed off.
[Rachael] Game plan. You feel ready?
-Deya has the thing.
-Mm-hm.
[Madi] She just has to pull him
over there and distract him.
-'Kay.
-And then I gotta go run to the boat and--
-Go off into the night?
-Yeah.
Best case scenario [laughs]
he says, "I love you. Let's get married."
No, I'm kidding. I'm kidding, I'm kidding,
I'm kidding, I'm kidding, I'm kidding.
[tense music playing]
-[Rachael] That's them.
-[group chattering]
Shut up. Oh fuck, I'm nervous now.
Alright. You got this, queen.
Hey, this is what you wanted.
-You wanted to see him, and now here.
-I know, I know, I know.
-Welcome back!
-Welcome back.
[contestants cheering]
My God.
Hi, how are you? You got sun, too.
Oh yeah, we got a lot of sun.
-[Katya] What'd you guys do?
-We'll find out here in a second.
I can't wait.
-[Noah] What's up?
-[overlapping greetings]
Get up! Zip line.
-[Madi] Your hair's all messed up.
-I know. My hair looks like shit.
-I look like a coconut head.
-[Madi] No.
I wanna know what y'all did.
We were on a catamaran.
-A bougie catamaran.
-[Rachael] Shut up!
That's the best fucking thing!
We got golden hour sunset.
Jumped in and swam.
I am jelly!
-Aw, that's cute.
-[crosstalk]
Noah, I really gotta
talk to you. Like, come.
[overlapping chatter]
[Noah] Dude, is that okay?
-Yeah. That's fine.
-[Noah] Okay.
[playful, curious music playing]
[Rachael] When it comes to Madi and Noah,
I'm wondering if Madi is
just Noah's safe person.
Like, he isn't opening up as much
because he has Madi as almost a crutch?
Or he's just really into her
and maybe, like, it's a slower burn.
I don't know. They're a little crazy.
But I hope, for her, it works.
-[Deya] So, it's a Madi thing.
-[Noah] Yeah?
[Deya] Um
Is-- I just don't want her to look.
-Okay.
-Okay. Just read this.
Okay? Just do what it says.
Uh
[Madi] So, the plan for Noah tonight is,
basically I wrote this little, like, poem,
and then it says, "Meet me at the blank,"
which will be the boat,
and then I'll be at the boat
waiting for him.
Best case scenario is,
he's like, "I missed you so much today.
"It really made me realize
how much I like you.
And you know, I think we should
not really talk to other people."
That would be the best.
[Deya] Um, Madi's already set up?
-Yeah, she's in there. Yeah.
-Okay, shh. Don't let them hear.
-[Madi] Wanna come in?
-What's up? Yeah.
Thanks for the, the, the rap or the poem.
-That was really cute.
-You're welcome.
It's so good to see you.
[Madi] How was the date?
Cutting to the chase,
just so I'm-- don't give you, like,
"The date was amazing!"
-and then you start freaking out.
-Yeah.
[Noah] Not compatible at all with Farha.
-[Madi] Really?
-[Noah] Like, in no way, shape, or form.
-And Brooklyn's not interested in me.
-Mm.
On top of that,
I already know that I don't quite
-Yeah.
-like, vibe with that kind of girl, so.
'Cause I will say I was
very worried 'cause she's LDS.
It piqued my interest at ver--
-at the very first moment.
-[Madi] Yeah.
Well, I actually think
Andrew's really interested, too,
and I would not, like, pursue at all
someone that Andrew is interested in.
You know, you have like,
-that respect for your boys.
-Yeah.
-So, I
-It's-- That makes me so happy
'cause I was freaking
the fuck out all day.
-[Noah chuckling]
-Wait!
["One Of Your Girls"
by Troye Sivan playing]
Everybody loves you, baby ♪
♪♪
Baby, let me plead my case ♪
-I like you.
-I like you, too.
And I want to see where this goes.
Bet nobody wants you bad as I do ♪
I think it was good to just, like,
affirm how I'm feeling with him
and, like, express that,
and like, if anything, I feel better
and I feel like we're on the same page.
So, I feel good.
-Oh! That's so comfortable.
-[Madi] Aw.
I wanted to calm her anxiety
because a girl taking the time
to think about me
and write the letter
and set up this mini-date,
like, that was so appreciated by me.
But it might be too soon
for me to shut Brooklyn out.
I'm not sure what to do
because I'm not ready
to reciprocate those words.
-[Deya] They're gonna kiss. Aw.
-[Godwin] Yeah. Definitely.
Okay, we don't have to look anymore.
-Give them their privacy!
-[Rachael] That's so cute.
I'ma keep watching. [laughs]
You okay?
Give me a call if you ever get lonely ♪
I'll be like one of your girls ♪
That's so cute. I'm happy for her.
I know.
Say what you want
and I'll keep it a secret ♪
You get the key to my heart
and I need it ♪
Love Shack. I mean, Love Boat, sorry.
I'll be like one of your girls ♪
I'm definitely excited that
I have a connection with Noah.
I would love to fall in love,
and I definitely could see myself
losing my virginity with Noah.
You are still my number one.
-Okay.
-Right?
Give me a call if you
ever get desperate ♪
I'll be like one of your girls ♪
Everybody wants you, baby ♪
♪♪
[Colton] Next time,
on Are You My First?
[Godwin, Deya shrieking]
A high-flying date sees
one couple find their fairy tale.
Oh, just kiss already!
I'm like-- Wait, wait, wait. [laughing]
[Colton] But will others
get reacquainted with reality?
This is like a slap in the face.
Got virgin fuckboys around here.
Holy shit!
Well, this fucking sucks.
Got Viva Forever on repeat ♪
["Take A Nostalgia Trip"
by Ross Gilmartin playing]
I just need the company ♪
When two becomes one
I'll be there for you ♪
We put too much trust
in being young and in love ♪
We got too much time ♪
Up all night 'til the sunrise ♪
Got me goin' ♪
Like we throwin' it back to '99 ♪
Where we're goin' ♪
If I know it's gonna be a crazy ride ♪
♪♪
Hey! ♪
Hey! ♪
[song fades out]