Jesy Nelson: Life After Little Mix (2026) s01e04 Episode Script

[monitor beeping]
[Dr Ruwan] She's 31-plus-five weeks,
MCDA twins.
We are expecting possible blood loss
of over a litre.
[dramatic music playing]
[Dr Ruwan] So, it's the smaller one
coming out first.
[nurse 1] Heart rate 89/100.
-[timer buzzing]
-[nurse 2] Timer started.
[nurse 1] We're nearly at 30 seconds.
-Okay, 30 seconds.
-[Dr Ruwan] Yeah.
[timer buzzes]
[Dr Ruwan] Delayed cord clamping.
[nurse 1] That's a minute.
[Dr Ruwan] Someone…
[music builds, ends]
[cries]
[Dr Ruwan] Thank you.
[crying]
[tense music playing]
[sighs]
[monitor beeping]
It's all happening in that room right now.
[music builds]
[music fades]
[crying]
[emotional music playing]
[nurse] They're here.
-Are they?
-Yeah.
-Are they actually?
-Yes, they're crying.
They're breathing.
-Oh, my God.
-It's so cute!
-Oh, my God.
-They are absolutely beautiful.
Are you serious? Oh, my God.
-What's that? What's that?
-They're doing really well.
The placenta. Do you want to see it?
Oh, my God.
-That's what's been feeding them?
-That's been feeding them.
Oh, my gosh.
Oh, my God.
[exclaiming]
I'm so happy.
[chuckling]
[mouthing words]
[whispers] Yes!
I mean, the placenta
looked healthy as well.
The placenta looked healthy.
Not like I know
what a healthy placenta looks like, but…
[sighs] Thank you, God. Thank you.
[gentle music playing]
[groans] Ow.
The pain hurts so much.
I can't wait to see them.
Love you, darling.
This is more frightening,
your children having babies,
-than you having babies yourself.
-[nurse] It never stops.
[Zion] She's just about coming back
from the general anaesthetic.
Whoo!
The twins are officially out.
It is the weirdest feeling ever
because I still feel like I'm in a dream.
-So proud of you. So proud of us.
-[sighs] God.
-I'm so proud of us.
-Can't wait to see them.
-Oh, my God.
-We're officially mum and dad.
-Is it time?
-Can you tell?
Yay!
Oh, my Lord. This is crazy.
[chuckles]
So excited.
Yeah.
Oh, little baba.
-She's so tiny.
-So tiny.
Hello, my baby girl.
I can't wait until the tubes are off
so I can properly see her face.
Hello, my little angel girl.
Can you hear Mama?
[Zion] So, Jes is in here.
Hopefully get to do
skin-to-skin for the first time.
My heart is racing.
[nurse speaks indistinctly]
I want you to lift her up a little bit.
That's it. Perfect.
And you just hold that onto her like that.
Let me fix that.
-[Zion] Do you feel her skin? Is it?
-This is the best feeling ever.
Aw.
Story, I just love you so much.
-You know, me and Daddy love you so much.
-[Zion] And she's so…
-She's so at peace.
-Do you know that, my baby girl?
[Zion] Why you crying?
[breathes heavily]
'Cause I just literally love them so much.
I didn't think you could ever
love someone this much.
It's the best feeling ever.
And every time I think of them,
I just wanna cry.
'Cause I just think we're just so lucky.
Don't you just think we're so lucky?
[Zion] Yeah, of course.
To wake up and be like,
"Let's go see our girls".
-Yeah.
-[sniffles]
You don't even know how much we love you.
Do you?
Oh. [cries]
[presenter] Some good news,
-Jesy Nelson from Little Mix…
-[presenters exclaiming]
she's had her twin babies,
which is just such lovely news
if you've been following her story.
[presenter 2]
Look how tiny. Tiny, tiny, tiny.
-Gorgeous.
-They were born at 31 weeks, bless them.
Ocean Jade Nelson-Foster
and Story Monroe Nelson-Foster.
It's just good to see Jesy
-having some lovely news…
-[presenter 3] Isn't it?
…and a whole new chapter in her life.
I was lining at the counter, and I wanted
to go say, "That's my little girl.
That's my granddaughter." [chuckling]
Yeah, it was nice
'cause it's such a lovely picture as well.
It's just such a beautiful picture.
There's inside as well,
it's on all the papers.
All the papers have all put nice things
in all of them, so that's really nice.
Which makes a change.
[interviewer] How does it feel now
that you're at this side of it?
Still a bit scary.
I think until they're home,
and we can cuddle 'em,
then I know we're safe.
I think it's her… the way
she's been as well, her and Zion,
I think their positive thoughts…
and they have got
these babies for it really.
'Cause they've just remained so strong,
they've been unbelievable.
[baby crying]
[nurse] You're okay, baby.
[Zion] They've been in incubators
now for four days.
Yeah.
Yeah, it's just been really tough
not being able to give them
the love that we have for them.
-[crying]
-[Jesy] They're here,
and obviously
I'm really grateful that they are,
but the bit I'm actually struggling
with the most is them being in incubators,
and not even being able to feel
like a proper mum to them.
[Zion] Of course.
[Jesy] It's just really unnatural
as a mum,
when you've had babies
grow in you for nine months,
and you've looked after them,
to have them… [sniffles]
…taken off of you really hurts.
[melancholy music playing]
Like, I almost feel like
I'm grieving. [cries]
Like…
not being able to be a mum right now.
[cries, sniffles]
-[crying]
-[Jesy] When they're crying,
my natural instinct
is to just go straight over to them,
and be able to, like, pick them up
and comfort them.
And I can't.
And you're only allowed to get a cuddle
with them for two hours once a day,
and that's just so unnatural.
And I hate when we get to cuddle them,
and I literally have to look at the clock,
'cause I'm like, "Oh, God,
they're gonna be taken off of me
in, like, ten minutes,"
and I hate that so much.
[Zion] Yeah.
[sobbing]
[Jesy] I just don't want them
to not know I'm their mum.
[Zion] Of course they're gonna know
you're their mum.
They know their mama.
[monitors beeping, chiming]
Ocean, baby, Ocean, baby ♪
I love you
Daddy does too ♪
Story, baby, Story, baby ♪
We love you, yes we do ♪
[emotional music playing]
This is the weirdest feeling ever.
[chuckles]
[Zion] What's happening?
[Jesy] We're going home, girlies.
-[car seat clicks]
-[engine starts]
[dogs barking]
[Jesy] No… Right. Right, guys,
you need to calm down.
Reggie.
When you're in NICU,
taking them home feels so far away.
Let you feel like
that's never gonna happen.
So that when you do,
it's the most surrealist feeling ever.
-Come on, babe.
-[Zion] There you go.
-Hello!
-[Zion] Hello, baby.
[Jesy] Welcome home!
This is your new bed.
-[Zion] We made it, my baby.
-[Jesy] I know. [chuckles]
[Zion] We're actually home.
[Jesy] I love you, baby. Well done.
[kisses]
-Oh, you made it! You made it!
-We actually made it.
-Well done--
-[Zion] Which one's which?
-[chuckles]
-Wait, actually, I'm…
-[gasps]
-I think that's Ocean.
-Oh, no. This is really bad. [laughs]
-[Zion laughing]
[Jesy] Is that Ocean?
Oh, my God. I actually don't know.
[Zion] I actually don't know.
[Jesy] Wait, who's got the chubbier face?
That's Story.
-That's Ocean.
-[Zion] That's Ocean, yeah.
[Jesy] Bloody hell.
["Touch" playing]
[whines]
[thermometer beeps]
-[crying]
-No, don't cry. Don't cry.
[chuckles] Oh.
Baby, it's okay.
It's okay.
Oh, baby. It's okay.
[crying continues]
[music ends]
All right, baby. It's okay. It's okay.
It's okay, baba.
When they both start crying,
I literally don't know what to do,
'cause I'm like, "Who do I go to first?"
If Zion goes out, it is the most
stressful thing ever when I'm on my own,
and I feel so guilty
when one's crying and I've got one,
I'm like, are they thinking… [chuckling]
…"For fuck's sake, Mum. Pick me up"?
I know, baby. It's not fair, is it?
[cries]
No, don't get me wrong.
I absolutely love it,
and I wouldn't have it any other way.
[gentle music playing]
Like, I keep saying
to everyone that I speak to,
I don't understand
what the point of my life was before this.
Like, I feel like
I have so much purpose now.
There's so many milestones
to look forward to, we keep talking about,
like when we go
to their first school play,
when we have to go
to their first parents' evening.
There's so many things to look forward to.
And that for me is like… Just,
I feel like I've literally been given…
I don't know how to explain it.
Like, a new start in life.
[music continues]
[interviewer] For not having much sleep,
you're looking pretty composed.
Even the house feels completely, like,
just tranquil and gorgeous.
Oh, that's Mum, not me.
I have done fuck all.
[laughs]
Literally, this is the first time
I've put make-up on.
[hopeful music playing]
I'd actually say me and Zion
are very similar
in the way we've been brought up,
in terms of our mums do everything for us.
I do need my mum,
but I really want to learn
how to be a mum by myself.
[Jesy] Come on, my little chops.
Where's that burp?
Where's that little burp?
[patting]
I know it's in there somewhere.
'Cause I don't ever want there
to be a time where my mum's not there,
and I'm like… [gasps] …and panic.
Oh, wonderful.
[chuckling] She's just peed everywhere.
[cries]
Oh, no. Oh, no, no, no.
-[Zion] What happened?
-Pee-pee everywhere.
-How?
-I was changing her nappy, then she weed,
-and then it all went underneath her.
-Bloody hell.
[Jesy] Mum? I need your help.
Give her a kiss. Give Jesy a cuddle.
Love her. Love Jesy.
[Jesy] If I can be half the mum
that my mum is, then I'm winning.
[family member]
Say hello to the camera, Jany.
[Jesy] Everyone probably
says this about their mum, but genuinely,
my mum is, like, the most incredible
woman I've ever known.
When I think about the stuff
that my mum's gone through,
that could really change a person
and mess with them mentally.
And she's still just the most kind,
caring, loving person.
-[Jesy's dad] I'm a number one.
-Yeah, there you go.
[vocalising]
[Jan] I grew up in, um, quite a lot of
domestic violence.
My dad was, um, quite a violent man.
Hold him, Jes.
[grunts]
[Jan] If you can't trust your dad,
who can you trust?
And then I've met
a load of knobby boyfriends.
Give a cuddle.
[child] I want that one!
No, don't film me, please.
I think the reason
I'm so protective over my children
is because I brought them all up on my own
from when they was little.
You've gotta become two parents then.
I am a worrier. A complete worrier.
And actually, I feel guilty
'cause I think I pass a lot
of my anxieties on to my children.
[laughing on video]
-Look how young my mum looks.
-I know.
[Jesy's dad] Jesy? Jes?
[Jan speaking indistinctly]
Where's my Jesy?
-Wait, is that your dad? Oh.
-Yeah. Do you think I look like him?
-I don't…
-Zion's never seen my dad.
[interviewer]
When was the last time you saw him?
At my cousin's funeral was when I saw him.
Which was really awkward,
'cause obviously, I hadn't seen him
since I was really little.
So then that was just
really uncomfortable.
We didn't speak to each other.
[interviewer] How long ago was that?
[Jesy] 2019 or 20.
When you watch this footage,
he looks like a great dad,
but there's definitely times
when he wasn't.
Give me a kiss.
[Jan] Bye.
[Jesy] He would be gone for weeks.
And he wouldn't tell my mum.
He'd just get up and leave.
And my mum had no clue where he was.
He wouldn't answer his phone.
And he'd go for, like,
a month, two months.
[sombre music playing]
Just used to do it to my mum all the time.
Okay. Just give me two seconds.
[breathes heavily]
It's just made me realise
how incredible she was,
because, yeah, the shit
she had to go through was just horrible.
But she hid it really well.
And raising four kids on her own,
the fact that she…
continued to stay a beautiful,
kind, caring, loving mum
throughout everything
she was going through
is just incredible to me.
[TV playing]
John. [laughs]
[Jesy] Since I've had kids, I've really
reflected on my relationship with my dad.
No one's born a bad person.
I think shit happens
in your life that shapes you.
And I think you can either grow from that,
and learn from that,
and be a better person,
or it can just completely
fuck with you mentally.
[John] Jes?
Me and Zion don't ever want
any of our past traumas
to play into bringing up our children.
I think we're both
very, very conscious of that.
And I think I really…
I'm trying so hard… [inhales deeply]
…to not let any
of my insecurities and traumas, like,
play out in front of my children,
so that they don't learn that.
That's one thing that really scares me.
[doorbell chimes]
-[psychologist] Hello.
-[Jesy] Hello. How are you doing?
I'm good, thank you. Nice to meet you.
-I'm Jesy.
-I'm Frankie.
Come in. Do you want a cup of tea
or water or anything?
-I would love a water.
-Yeah. Of course.
-[Frankie] How are you doing?
-Yeah, all right, thank you.
A little sleep-deprived,
but other than that, I'm all right.
-Of course. Yeah. Completely.
-Yeah. There you go.
Is there anything that you
particularly wanted to talk about today?
Um, there's just certain things
that I'm feeling,
and I don't know
if they're like just general mum things
-that most mums feel…
-Yeah.
…or I'm just feeling that because
of the experience that I went through.
[melancholy music playing]
The thing that I really struggle with
is just seeing another woman hold my baby.
-Mm-hmm.
-When they were in NICU,
they were just
so used to seeing all different women.
I don't feel like
I've had them for long enough
-for them to know that I'm their mum.
-Yeah.
I-It's, like, primitive.
It's, like, "Give me my baby.
I wanna look after them.
I wanna be protective of them". Right?
And that's bonding, right?
-Yeah. Mm-hmm.
-It's part of the bonding experience.
I'm also having really intrusive thoughts.
All they have to do is go…
[imitates whine] …and I'm at the cot.
-Okay.
-'Cause I feel like something is wrong.
Okay. Where does your brain go?
-They're choking on their sick.
-Okay.
-I know they're okay.
-Logically.
-Yeah, but like…
-Yeah.
For some reason, I just can't seem
to get rid of the thoughts.
-But that's trauma, right.
-Hmm.
So trauma does that disconnect
between our logic…
-Yeah.
-…and what we feel in our gut.
So in your gut, you're like,
"They're not safe".
-Right?
-Yeah.
Because of the experiences
that you have been through.
I just wanna burst into tears
when they start crying.
It literally, like, hurts my heart.
-Yeah, completely. It's a lot.
-Yeah. Sorry.
It all comes from love
and protection and bonding.
But it's incredibly, incredibly hard…
Mm-hmm.
…because of what you've kind of
been through in NICU.
And then adding on the pregnancy
that you had on top of it.
It's okay to cry,
to be sad about it, you know?
It's something huge
that you've been through.
Yeah.
["This Morning" theme song plays]
Jesy and her beautiful,
healthy twin girls are here today,
so she's gonna be telling us about
her nightmare pregnancy at five to 12:00.
And we're gonna be
meeting the little twins.
Stop it. Also coming up this Wednesday…
[interviewer]
When was the last time you did live TV?
Two years ago. It's not that long.
But yeah. I-I quite like live TV.
Well, I like this kind of show,
because it's just very chilled
and relaxed.
But it's gonna be a bit different
now we've got babies.
I keep thinking, like, "Oh, God".
'Cause I've never actually had to do
an interview with a baby in my arms.
Imagine I'm chatting away, and her head
flops back and she falls out my arms.
That'd be a viral clip, wouldn't it?
When we found out
what we were going through,
we were so shocked
by the complications
that come with having twins
that we had no idea about.
So I almost feel like a duty
to, like, raise awareness about it.
[crew chattering]
-Honestly, I'm happy they're asleep now.
-Oh, yeah.
-How are they doing?
-Yeah, really good. They are good.
I mean, we're a bit sleep-deprived.
-It's a lot, isn't it?
-Yeah.
My friend had twins. Oh, my God.
Okay.
-Dermot, it's so lovely to see you.
-So nice to see you.
-Are you good? Good, good.
-I'm great.
[crew] Okay, standby.
[Jesy] Dr Ruwan sat us down,
and then basically told us
all the complications
that can come with the type of twins
that we were having.
I just… We had no idea
that this can happen with twins.
You know, there are things we can do
to help even a really complex,
difficult situation
to hopefully get
a good outcome just like this.
She had a lot to deal with,
so it's so lovely to see her now
so happy with Zion and the two babas.
Yeah, I'm just really proud of her
and happy for her.
Oh, by the way,
I was talking to your friend…
-Who?
-Did you see my interview?
-Perrie?
-She loves you.
[chuckling] Oh, bless you.
[photographer] Jes.
And she wrote a song about you.
I know, I've heard.
I just want you to know.
-That's so sweet of you. Thank you.
-There's so much love for you.
-[Zion] Thank you so much.
-So good to see you.
-How many years has it been?
-So long.
-It's crazy, isn't it?
-Thank you so much for having us.
Thank you.
-[interviewer] So you go back a long way?
-Such a long way, yeah.
Um… [clicks tongue]
…I remember the band getting together.
I remember especially the early weeks
when they were getting to know each other.
And they just had it, you know?
Also, I always thought that the bands
that did the best on that show
were the ones like Little Mix,
like One Direction,
who very much were their own people.
I thought they were
a really good team together.
You did so well.
[interviewer] Dermot was saying
you were all very much yourselves.
Oh, right, okay.
And there was no,
kind of, trying to fit into a box…
-Yeah. Yeah. Mm-hmm.
-…at all.
I do feel like that is why Little Mix
did well, to be honest,
because I think people just always assumed
girl bands are like puppet… like robots.
But it was very different for Little Mix.
From the very, very get-go,
we've always been creative as a band.
And we always knew,
"This is what we wanna look like.
This is what we wanna stand for.
These are the songs we wanna write".
And performances, that was where
we were the most creative.
[joyful music plays]
[interviewer] The BRIT awards,
when you did "Shout Out to My Ex",
I was like, "Wow".
Oh, my God. [chuckling] That's one of
my favourite performances ever.
That's what we shone at, I-I think.
Like, big performances.
Like, that's what we…
We were always so excited to do that.
We were so involved
in the creative process of that.
-Day one of BRIT rehearsals.
-[Perrie] 'Sup.
Don't get me wrong, though.
They were stressful and they were hard.
[high-pitched, backing track plays]
[glass shatters]
[high-pitched ringing]
[music playing]
We were on tour with Ariana Grande,
and we flew back to do that performance.
And I think we had, like, about four days
to get that performance together.
[backing track ends]
Guys, I thought the whole treatment
was gonna be futuristic.
-And it sounds cheap. It sounds so tacky.
-[Perrie] It sounds so cheap.
-There's so much going on as well.
-I don't know where to begin.
-Imagine, we're up there…
-[Jesy] Let's start from the beginning,
and let's just plan out
exactly what we want.
I think they need to scrap
the whole thing and start again. [laughs]
[Jesy] A hundred per cent, they do.
This wouldn't matter if this was like
two weeks… we had two weeks.
We've got three fucking days.
[Jade Thirlwall]
I'm gonna put it as, "Shout Out shitshow".
[all laughing]
[Jesy chuckling] Stop.
So, we've just heard
the first edit of the BRITS production,
and it's nothing what we asked for.
So now we've gotta start
all over again from scratch.
It's such a big moment, I think,
for an artist to perform at the BRITS
because not only is it terrifying,
but you're also just being judged
by so many other music artists
and people in the industry.
So it's like one of
them moments in your career
where you have to, like, get it right.
[Perrie] I think there's just too much
going on right now, it's not slick.
I know what you mean. I think
less is more. I know what you mean.
[Jade Thirlwall] The production needs
to match the treatment.
[Jesy] A hundred per cent.
…metallics, and be these
futuristic goddesses…
-Queens coming through.
-That's what the music needs to represent.
Not drums.
More like futuristic sounds, innit?
-Yeah.
-Exactly.
The… [vocalises] …needs to be
like a piercing opera sound
that gives you goose bumps
of being, "Oh, my God. What's happening?"
[audience cheering]
[presenter] Ladies and gents, if you're
on the floor, please take your seats.
We're about to start the show.
[audience cheering]
-[vocalising]
-[person clears throat]
-I actually feel sick.
-Yeah. I do.
I feel a bit dizzy.
[crew] It's just your adrenaline.
It's all it is.
[electronic voice]
Four, five, six, seven, eight.
[Jesy] One of the things I loved about us
as a group, it was so polished.
Because we rehearsed 24-7.
It was just, like, "Get the job done.
That's all that really matters."
Come on, let's fucking have it!
Good luck. Have a great show.
-[cheering]
-[exclaiming]
[presenter 2] Please welcome Little Mix.
[audience cheering]
This is gonna sound really knobby.
But in my whole career,
when we were being carried through
the crowd… [laughs] …I felt a bit like,
"I'm a pop star".
I'm living so legit ♪
Even though
You broke my heart in two, baby ♪
But I snapped right back
I'm so brand new, baby ♪
Boy, read my lips… ♪
That's such a happy memory for me
when I look back at Little Mix.
It's a really lovely memory.
Shout out to my ex
You're really quite the man ♪
You made my heart break
And that made me who I am ♪
It sounds really big-headed,
but we were, at the time,
the biggest girl band in the world.
You'll never bring me down ♪
That night, we'd won an award, and that
was the first BRIT award we'd ever won.
Little Mix, "Shout Out to My Ex"!
You're really quite the man ♪
These girls are my best friends.
Long may it continue.
I love you girls so much. Whoo! [screams]
[screaming]
[emotional music playing]
[exclaiming]
I'm really sorry, we're very drunk.
But we don't give a s.
-[screams]
-We're so happy.
It's gonna look wonderful
on our mantelpiece.
-[snorts]
-[laughs]
I fing love these girls
more than anything. I'm sorry!
-Stop swearing!
-[chuckling] I'm too happy, I don't care.
[laughing]
-[screaming] We did it!
-Yes!
We were on such a high.
We were just at the peak of our career.
-What the fuck is life? Don't cry, babe.
-Fucking get in.
And we were so close as a band.
Like, I would say that's the tightest
we've ever been as a band.
[cheering]
And to me,
everyone was just in a good place.
But actually, I was wrong.
[Leigh-Anne] We didn't think we'd make it!
[applause]
[Leigh-Anne] These girls are
my best friends. Long may it continue.
I love you girls so much. Whoo!
[audience cheering]
[dramatic music playing]
[interviewer] When you see yourself
all together as a group,
what's that feeling like?
Like sad and hurt.
But no one stays in their job forever.
Especially if it doesn't make them happy.
We got called in for a meeting,
and I had this gut feeling
it wasn't gonna be good.
[audience] Little Mix!
Little Mix! Little Mix!
[Jan] It was just horrible.
You could've cut the atmosphere
with a knife.
Jesy Nelson had to leave a performance
after suffering from a panic attack.
At this point, she was broken.
I knew she'd done something.
Jesy is unwell tonight
so won't be joining us.
That was when she was really
at rock bottom.
[Jan] I personally believe the girls
weren't really there for her.
I don't know. I just didn't feel like
they were my sisters.
Like no one cares.
[music ends]