It's Not Like That (2026) s01e05 Episode Script
Cold Salami
1
Previously on It's Not Like That
We did kiss.
It's not like it's gonna happen again.
Yeah, no, of course not.
- What does Jill think?
- Nothing.
- We broke up.
- What?
If two people are into each other,
they shouldn't let anything
stand in their way.
I was wondering if you, maybe,
wanted to have dinner, sometime.
I would love to have dinner with you.
Cheers, my friend.
Is he drunk?
- I'm working.
- No, you are not working anymore
I'm working!
I was two plus years sober, and, uh,
now, I have one day.
As long as the tags are on,
I can still take them back.
No, you're not taking these back.
This is simple.
Or it would be,
if you would stop fidgeting
- and let me do my thing.
- Sorry.
- I can stay still.
- Good.
Or else you're gonna be the first pastor
to give a sermon with ankle cleavage.
Actually, the pants aren't for church.
I have a
dinner thing.
- A dinner thing?
- Mm-hmm.
- You mean, like a date?
- Mm-hmm.
Okay. Wow. That's great. Good for you.
- Thanks.
- All right, well, spill it.
Who's the mystery woman?
- I met her at school.
- Oh.
Okay. Do I know her?
Ms. Colasante.
You're going on a date with "Cold Salami"?
- "Cold Salami?"
- Oh, it's just a nickname.
It's some of the kids, a few of the kids,
it's the bad kids,
they call her that behind her back.
Not me.
I Sorry.
She is wonderful. She's, she is amazing.
- And I didn't mean to
- No, no, it's not
I just I want this to go well,
and I don't really know what I'm doing.
She knows you.
She knows what you guys have been through.
- Yeah.
- Go out, have a great time.
Take her to Kimball House,
that place is great.
And then,
if it turns out to be a nightmare,
you'll have eaten some
amazing chicken roulade.
- Right.
- Yeah. How do they feel?
Uh, good, I think. Yeah.
- Okay. Hey.
- Mm-hmm.
- Don't overthink this. That's my thing.
- You get this nervous for your dates?
Um, it's a lot of swiping,
but the, the pool of eligibles is
- just shallow.
- Mm.
- What about Cuppa Joe?
- Mm
- Oh, no, I'm sorry. I didn't mean
- It's all right.
I didn't mean to bring that up.
I take it back.
You know, I don't know if I've ever
- if I've ever been more confident
- Ooh.
- In a pair of pants.
- All right. Well, great.
- I still have to do the other leg. So
- Oh. Sorry. Well
That one leg feels good.
Okay. Good.
All right.
Stay still.
Hey, good morning.
What are you doing?
I'm making breakfast burritos, guys.
Look, I spoke to your mom,
and I wanted to talk to you guys
about what happened the other night.
My slip.
'Cause that's what it was.
Okay, I'm really sorry, guys.
I'm committed to my sobriety.
Okay? I mean that.
I hope you guys can forgive me?
Yeah, okay. Thanks for the burrito.
- Merritt, hey, come on
- I get it.
I-I've heard this speech before.
I forgive you. I'm gonna walk.
Hey, bug, listen
I know seeing me like that
the other night,
that must've been really scary for you.
I wish I could take it back.
It's fine.
It's so not fine, Casey.
I've made a lot of mistakes,
but I think the biggest one
is not talking enough.
Communicating with you.
Okay? With your brother.
With your mom.
Maybe if I would've, I
I'm just not good at it, but I promise
I'm gonna try to get better. Okay?
I wanted to give you something.
This is my one year chip.
I got if after the first year
in the program.
So, shouldn't you give it back,
or something?
That's not how that works.
Look, I want you
to hold on to this for me. Okay?
Keep it safe.
Can you do that?
Look, I know I only have a week right now,
but in 11 months and 19 days,
I want you to give that back to me.
And then we can go to Cone Zone.
Or roller skating.
Or whatever you think is cool
a year from now.
What's the other one?
This is my two year.
I'm keeping this one for inspiration.
Hey.
I promise you I will never slip again.
Hey, I was about to give up on you.
Sorry. Parents.
Are you okay?
I am now.
- Did you finish the English homework?
- Um, mostly. Did you?
- Of course.
- Oh, I
- I got you something.
- Really?
- Don't get too excited.
- Ooh.
I figured you had a notebook for lyrics
Mm Ta-da.
What?
You do know how to read music, right?
- No. Not at all.
- Oh.
But now I have a reason to learn.
I was thinking, let's not
make a big deal of this at school.
Yeah. Totally.
I-I was just gonna say the same.
- Uh, see you later.
- Okay.
- Hey.
- Got a sec?
Yeah.
I just forwarded you the branding proposal
for Brooke Alexx
for that new athleisure brand.
- Oh, yeah. Okay.
- Here's what they're thinking.
So Mold?
It's pronounced "moold."
There's an umlaut.
Oh. I see that now.
- "Moold" your best life.
- Mm-hmm.
Okay.
Is she gonna go jogging with that guitar?
Oh.
Apparently she is. Okay.
I will, uh I'll look at these tonight.
Actually,
Kasey Musgraves' doing a secret show
at McCusker's
and I scored comps for me and Leila.
- Do you wanna be a third wheel?
- I can't.
I'm feeding Malcolm's kids. He has a date.
Okay. Can I say something?
- Is there any way I could stop you?
- Mm-mm.
Too much of your life
revolves around that man.
Every time we talk,
you're either helping him at the church
- or feeding his kids
- Okay.
You're making it sound way worse
than it is.
What did you say
you were doing with him last night?
Tailoring his pants.
"Moold" your best life, Lori.
That's all I'm saying.
"Moold" my best life.
Hey, Merritt.
Hey, we're hitting Derek's tonight.
You coming?
Yeah, man. Come.
- Yo, are you in or out?
- Huh?
- Derek's having a party tonight.
- Oh, cool.
I don't know.
I don't know if I can go.
Nah, I'll text you.
- I'll text you.
- All right, man. See ya.
What was all that about?
Just some party, later.
Derek's party?
- Do you wanna go?
- Not really.
It could be fun.
Are you saying you want to go
to a high school party?
You don't have to act so surprised.
All right. Uh, well,
I'll see you there, then.
- Okay. Yeah, you will.
- Okay.
Come on.
It's not supposed to be easy, let's go.
Put your backs on the wall.
There you go, hands down.
Good. Just like that. Good.
Ah. Two minutes and seven seconds.
Come on, shake it off. Let's go.
It's gonna be hard, all right?
Dig deep. We're in the big gym now.
Let's go!
Getting tired, Soto?
I'm good. You?
All day.
Five, six, seven,
eight. One, three, five, seven, dip
Where is that Tiger spirit?
Let me see it, let me see it!
Tighter. I shouldn't see any movement.
Keep it tight, girls. Keep it strong.
You got this!
Smiles, yes, smiles.
Fix those faces!
Penelope, keep those wrists stable.
Come on. Give her a strong base.
Okay, Joelle, your connections are sloppy.
Laura, you're early. And Penelope.
Penelope, I need you
rock solid in that pyramid.
Do you understand? No wobbles.
Just go ahead and stretch, okay,
but I expect better next practice.
I need water.
My body feels like rubber.
Casey.
Casey. Casey
Come on,
three minutes. Dig deep.
Casey. Casey
Casey's kind of a badass.
Go off.
Go, Casey.
Casey. Casey. Casey
Coach Alcala. Can we go again?
We still have five minutes.
Yeah. We've got one more,
right, you guys? Let's do it.
Okay. Yeah. Show me what you've got.
But it had better be better
than last time. Come on.
Nice job! That was great!
That was really good!
Wow, Casey!
Let's go again. Okay, from the top.
Hey, can I come with you tonight?
To Derek's party?
No, you are not old enough.
I'm only two years younger than you.
I'm mature enough.
I don't need to be babysat at Lori's.
- Mm-hmm.
- Come on.
You can introduce me around.
Yeah, I That's not happening
- And I don't really know anybody.
- Fine.
Then I can introduce you around.
I don't wanna go
to Casey's house.
She's being, like
Oh, the two of you need to figure out
whatever this is, already.
Trust me, she does not want me
coming over, either.
- So be with Justin then.
- Oh, can I?
Uh, here.
"Moaning Mauve" feels more your speed.
Killer slacks, Dad.
Slacks?
This is one of those times where I can't
tell if you're making fun of me or not.
You're making fun of me.
So, who are you going out with?
A female person.
But I promise I will tell you guys more
if there's ever a reason to.
- Well, the pants look good.
- Thanks.
Lori fixed them for me.
This is hopeless.
What happened to your wrist?
Nothing. It's fine.
Uh, the brown shoes match your belt.
I'm not wearing a belt.
You are now.
No. No.
- Hmm?
- Hard no.
Mm.
Let me.
Okay, king.
Okay, queen.
Now, can I come tonight?
- Hi.
- Hey.
Our table is almost ready.
Thanks for suggesting this place.
I'm awful at picking restaurants.
Apparently, their chicken roulade
is really something.
Oh. Oh, no.
Well, they also have
a good pork chop, I hear.
No, no, no, it's not the roulade,
it's the Holdens.
- The Who are the Holdens?
- Shh.
Their son, Ryan, he's in my class.
He's a he's a terror.
He can't be that bad.
Yeah. He dipped our class hamster
in a bowl of paint,
and when I talked to his parents about it,
they blamed the hamster.
Sure.
That's the worst part
about being a teacher.
Parents see me out in the wild,
and their minds are blown
that I could actually have a personal life
outside of school.
Where I'm not on duty
and they can't help
but come and talk to me
about their awful, awful children.
Yeah, I get it. It's 24/7.
My kids joke that I should have a T-shirt
that says "Pastors are people, too."
Absolutely, I will add your Aunt Sue
to the prayer chain,
just as soon as I get my kids' ice cream
home to the freezer.
All of my children aren't awful.
Well, all my congregants
aren't related to Aunt Sue.
- They're coming. Some Cover me.
- What?
Yeah, yeah. You're hiding?
- I'm hiding behind you.
- Right.
Okay. How you doin'?
- Hello.
- Hi.
- All right, you're safe.
- Thanks.
- All good?
- Yeah. All good.
Still nothing from Cuppa Joe?
You gotta let it go, Mom.
Who's Cuppa Joe?
Uh, he is nobody.
I thought he was somebody,
and then he stopped answering me,
so now he is no one.
What happened?
I wish I knew.
I tried to find him on Facebook, but
Facebook? Mom, you're so old.
Yes, I am.
Which is why I need a young person
to help me track him down.
I can find him.
Okay. Good.
All right.
Okay, the first rule of online stalking,
follow the money.
Mm-hmm. Venmo.
Your generation doesn't know
how to switch off a public.
My generation is just trying to keep up.
- Look, I don't know if I feel
- Found him.
Okay. So he's in Minneapolis.
Minneapolis?
According to his transaction history
the last week,
he's bought wine
and a lot of stuff from a cheese shop.
Maybe he just likes cheese, you know.
- What else?
- Oh.
And he spent $285
at a place called Dream Weaver?
- Mmm-mm.
- Which is a florist.
- That's a lot of flowers.
- Yeah.
Okay, I'm having regrets.
Crossing state lines
to surprise your secret girlfriend
- with a floral arrangement, not great.
- Yeah.
Could be a secret wife.
Or, like, a whole secret family.
Like, imagine
All right. I'm glad you two
are enjoying yourselves.
Whoever he gave those flowers to,
this guy has definitely moved on.
You should, too.
Mm-hmm. Sorry, Mom.
It's official, I'm not a drummer.
Can I bake something?
We're about to have dinner.
But, uh, okay.
Justin, what are you gonna bake?
I'm gonna make cookies for Ms. Colasante
for Monday at recess.
Aw, that's so sweet.
She's my favorite teacher. Like,
out of all the teachers I've ever had.
Yeah, she's the best.
Justin, you're such a goodie-goodie.
Like, why are you baking for Cold Salami?
Don't call her that.
Justin's right.
Everybody loves Ms. Colasante.
- Thank you so much.
- Thank you.
Oh. So
Grace Community, huh?
It's, um, it's a pretty big church.
Somewhere in the middle.
We're always fighting attrition,
but that's not unique to us.
It's modern times.
How long have you been a pastor?
Is that a weird question? I'm sorry.
I just don't have, um, experience
with anyone who has a job like yours.
No, no, there are no weird questions.
Uh, well, it's the most
important relationship in my life.
I have been serving the Grace Community
for over 20 years.
Wow.
When I was 15,
I was alone in a moment of prayer,
and I felt a calling.
This unrelenting pull to see people.
And love them.
Right where they are.
I think that's the best way to describe
what it means to be a pastor.
No, I get that.
- I think of teaching as a calling.
- Mm.
My students mean everything to me.
I've got teachers going all the way back
in my family on both sides.
Um, it's in my DNA.
Oh. Excuse me.
- I need to
- Please.
It's Penelope.
"When are you going to be home?"
As you can see, I don't, uh,
I don't get out very often.
But I'm gonna prepare you,
there will most likely be more of these.
That's okay.
Yeah, okay.
It's an adjustment.
They know I'm dating.
And I'm leaving it at that until I know
that it's going well with someone.
Not that you're "just someone."
Or that I think this is going badly.
I don't. It's not.
Although, maybe it is, for you.
Which, that's totally fine.
I mean, you might be
having an awful time as far as I know.
- So
- No. No, I'm not.
Well, look, they're fine.
They're they're with Lori.
- Casey's mom.
- Oh, Lori Soto?
- Yeah.
- I had Casey and Pen together.
That's right. Lori and I,
we've just been helping each other out.
I don't know what this year
would've looked like
without her there for me.
I I didn't realize you two
were so close.
Yeah. Well, no. Uh,
we're just
We're normal close, our families.
- Okay.
- Um,
like, she helped me get dressed.
Uh, the cuffs
She helped me with my pants today.
My cuffs, she, uh, she hemmed them.
So, normal close.
Yeah, just normal close.
Flora, you're here.
PK at a party. I love it.
- Chloe, right?
- Yes.
We have English together.
By the way, your hair is fire.
- So good.
- Thanks.
What's up?
- Hi.
- You look really nice.
Thanks. You, too.
Hey, Mer, we're up.
- Uh, next round.
- It's now or never.
It's fine. I'll catch up with you.
Why don't you two play with us?
Oh, I've,
I've never played beer pong before.
Well, then I'll try not to embarrass you
with my mad skills.
- Did you say "mad skills"?
- Yeah, you heard me.
- Yo, we're gonna lose our spot.
- I'm game.
All right. All right, I'm down.
All right.
Free advice for the first-timer,
it's all about the follow through.
Mm.
Okay. I will keep that in mind.
Okay, LeBron, I see you.
It's beginner's luck.
So
I've convinced our husbands that they
can handle our children for the evening.
That's right.
You're taking me out tonight
to see that Country singing client
of yours Mandy Suggs at the Tavern.
I told David you work too hard
raising babies and making stars.
And I need to find something to chase
those My Little Ponies from my head.
Mm?
Come on, I got you.
Sometimes, you have to
put yourself first, Lori.
Stop staring.
- I'm not.
- You were.
Dude.
I don't get you.
You're in fifth grade,
you haven't had Colasante for two years,
you don't have to kiss her butt anymore.
Pen, he likes her.
Yeah.
Would you mind your own business for once?
You know, he's my brother.
Why do you have to be such a jerk to her?
I'm not.
I do like Ms. Colasante.
She likes baking.
Just like Mom did.
She lets me hang out.
She's cool.
- Okay.
- You're not the boss of me.
Just because you're my sister,
doesn't mean
you get to tell me what to do.
I can do what I want to do.
Okay.
You totally can.
So can I.
For luck.
How did you do that?
I used my mad skills.
Wow. Rematch.
You hate losing that much?
- I am a varsity athlete.
- Not anymore, you're not.
Oh. All right. Well, I don't lose to you.
Apparently, you do.
Hey, less talking, more drinking.
So, you wanna go again or what?
Oh, if if you wanna lose to a PK twice,
be my guest.
Amen!
Help me fill the cups?
I think we might've missed the fridge.
Oh.
How did that happen?
- I wonder.
- Mm.
Nice helmet.
Pen.
Pen!
- Come here.
- Wait, with Merritt?
What are you doing?
Why are you here? What are you doing?
What are you doing?
How long has that been going on?
It's none of your business.
Isn't it? I mean, you've know him
since, like, you were born.
Shut up. If you even think
of telling anyone about this,
I will destroy
your sad little prepubescent life.
I'm not prepubescent.
Starting my telling Dad
that you snuck out of the house.
Whatever.
- No. No. No. No, no.
- What?
- No. No.
- I'm already here.
Flora.
How many parties do we get invited to?
You weren't invited.
You weren't invited.
You are going home.
Now.
Or I will make sure that you are grounded
for the rest of the year.
What were you even thinking?
You are such a child sometimes.
Go!
- After you.
- Thank you.
Oh. Wow.
I didn't realize how long we were talking.
- Yeah.
- We shut down the place.
Sorry if I was distracted in there.
Pen's texts.
She's probably too old to be babysat,
but when Justin's there,
I want her there, too.
It's all just a big adjustment for them,
you know.
You're good.
It's a big adjustment for me, too.
Most Friday nights I'm,
I'm home, writing my sermon, so
So, I should probably mention
I haven't stepped foot inside a church
in I don't know how long.
It's okay.
I don't remember why I stopped.
I I always loved
being part of a community.
- And I like the music.
- Mm-hmm.
Maybe, if I had a pastor like you,
I wouldn't have left.
But I hope that I didn't keep you
from working on your sermon tonight.
No, no, I, I wrote ahead.
I wanted to make time for this.
My life, my personal life.
This.
I'm glad you did.
You know this is actually
the least awkward first date
- I've had in a long time.
- Really? Wow.
- You set a pretty low bar.
- Stop.
Hey, stranger.
Jill.
Aren't you happy to see me?
I guess.
You smell so good.
Where's Derek?
Shouldn't you be telling him that?
You didn't know. Derek and I broke up.
I'm sorry it didn't work out with Derek.
How sorry?
Not that sorry.
- I miss you. Don't you miss me?
- Jill.
I can't.
- Thank you so much.
- Thank you.
- Hey
- Uh
You know, maybe,
next time we could eat in?
I could cook.
That, uh, that sounds amazing.
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
Mm.
- I'm so sorry. I, uh
- You're fine.
- You're fine.
- Okay.
Oh, no.
Is everything all right?
Thanks for coming.
I didn't want to bother my dad on his
Are you okay?
- Yeah.
- Where were you?
Um, I was out with some friends and
there was this boy
Can we just go?
Are you hungry?
- Mm-hmm.
- Come on.
I've got you.
- Thanks for the text.
- Yeah.
I told you not to bother him.
You were not on my list
of hospital visits.
How's the patient?
- Well, she has disobedient co-workers.
- Mm-hmm.
Otherwise, she's fine.
The doctors are calling it a mild stoke.
They're running a few more tests
to get the full picture.
It's a lot of hubbub for nothing.
You should go home
and be with your family.
Hey, you are my family.
I'll keep that in mind
when I need a kidney transplant.
Please do.
I appreciate you being here, I do, but
Between all the doctors
and the nurses,
I've just got more help
than I can stomach.
Mm. I thought we might pray together.
Yes. Yes. Let's do that.
Heavenly Father,
we ask that you would be present
with Virginia here tonight.
We ask for your healing touch.
And for wisdom for the doctors.
Please bless her body and mind.
And fill this room with your peace.
In your name we pray. Amen.
What's that?
- Poker chip?
- It's nothing.
Where've you been on my bike?
Doesn't matter.
Totally sucked.
What's that for?
Your wrist.
My wrist is fine.
Okay. You've been nursing it all night.
Do you remember when
Merritt rolled his ankle in freshman year?
He didn't want to sit out sectionals,
so he just wrestled on it anyway
and he ended up losing the match
and injuring himself even worse.
Well, that was dumb.
What's dumb is if he'd just stayed off it,
he would've been fine
in time for regionals.
Instead he just messed up
his whole season.
It's really not that bad.
Can I see it?
Ouch!
Pen, you need to tell someone about that.
Like, an adult.
It's fine.
I didn't ask for your medical opinion.
Fine. Yeah. Whatever.
Jeez.
Be that way.
These always remind me of being a kid.
My grandpa used to get us treats
after church every Sunday.
A little sugary reward.
Yeah, something like that.
It's gonna take a little bit
more than this to
make me feel better.
Wanna talk about it?
Not really.
It's stupid. It's guy stuff.
I know. Been there.
Still there, actually.
But, I don't know,
emotions are so high at your age.
You just gotta give it time.
Can we please skip
the "it gets better" speech?
It does and it doesn't.
In my experience, most guys
aren't worth the heartache.
Especially high school boys.
You know, when we were in college,
there was this phrase,
"ring by spring."
And that the girls needed to lock down
a man by the end of senior year,
or else
Or else what?
We were doomed to a lonely life
of spinsterdom at the age of 22.
Right?
But that isn't true.
It wasn't true then,
and it sure isn't true now.
Didn't you meet David in college?
You guys got married, like,
- right after your graduation?
- Well, yeah. Yes, we did.
But that wasn't part of any plan.
Trust me.
The point is
you don't need someone else
to make you happy.
Least of all, some boy.
Do you really believe that?
I want to.
I mean, yeah, I get it. Girl power.
What happens when you meet somebody
really special?
When you're with him,
everything is, like, easy
and comfortable,
and you feel more like yourself
than you've ever felt before.
And it turns out that
they like somebody else.
What, then?
Well, that's a toughie.
I don't know.
My mom would know.
Oh, yeah.
Yeah, she would.
- She was the best at these kind of things.
- Yeah.
She always knew
exactly what I was going through and
exactly what I needed.
I think I do know what your mom
would say to you right now.
She'd say that if this guy
is really worth it,
you have to put yourself out there.
Even if it means you might get hurt.
My mom was a lot braver than me.
M Maybe you're a lot braver
than you think.
Mm? Come here.
Merritt driving you up the wall again?
No, I just, I just wanna stay with you
this weekend.
Just tonight. Okay?
- I already texted Mom.
- Mm.
Do you wanna go to Cone Zone?
It's a little late for ice cream,
isn't it?
No, I checked online, they're still open.
I was thinking we could celebrate.
Celebrate what?
I know you're trying.
- And maybe you won't ever slip up again.
- I won't.
Or you will.
And it'll take more tries.
That won't happen. I promise.
I know, Dad.
But it could happen.
So we don't have to wait a year.
Okay? I'm just, I'm just glad
you're getting help now.
Yeah.
It's me.
- Oh, hey. Oh
- Yeah.
What?
- Sorry I'm late.
- No.
How's Virginia?
Uh, very Virginia.
She's not gonna be
leaving us any time soon.
- Oh, good.
- Yeah.
Um, Flora took Pen home,
and Justin's conked out.
- And there was a lot of baking.
- I see that.
- Mm-hmm.
- My goodness.
- Um, you look great, by the way.
- Thank you.
How was the date?
Well, the pants,
the pants put it over the top.
The date was, it was good.
It went surprisingly well, actually.
Good.
How are the girls?
Did they survive the night together?
Yes, they actually bonded.
They cyber stalked Cuppa Joe
and it turns out, um, he's in Minneapolis.
Just buying wine and cheese
and $285 worth of flowers
for, in their minds,
a secret girlfriend or a secret wife.
Um, but one thing they definitely agree on
is the, um, secret woman
in their story isn't me.
I don't know.
I mean, maybe, the story is
that Joe is just a really loving son.
Yeah, and maybe the flowers
and the wine and all the food
is for his aging mom
who's just gotten out of the hospital,
and he wants to make sure that, you know,
her first night home is special.
$285 special.
He's a really good son.
- We'll never know.
- Right?
- Right?
- No.
Either way, he is an idiot
for not being able to see
what was right in front of him.
- Don't do that.
- Why? It's the truth.
But what does it matter
if the moment's passed?
Malcolm, do you, uh
want to split a cookie?
- Before we wake him up?
- Yes, yes, I do.
He made these for me? Oh.
Um No.
Actually, he made them for your date.
Ms. Colasante.
Mm. She's gonna love that.
Flora! Flora.
Flora.
- Hey.
- What's that?
It's a keyboard.
I can see that.
Yeah, I thought you might
wanna write music on it.
You're not gonna
gift your way out of this, Merritt.
Look.
The other night
Th-The thing with Jill
You mean the kiss with Jill?
Ob Obviously,
that shouldn't have happened,
- but I was drunk
- Nope.
- And and she started it.
- Also no.
You were the one who said we weren't
gonna make a big deal of things.
Do you know why I said
we shouldn't make a big deal of things?
It's because I could tell
that you were freaking out.
I was responding to you.
And I was right.
You're, like, embarrassed
to actually be around me.
Or for people to know. Or
Whatever. Just leave me alone.
Hang on. Hang on. I'm sorry.
I'm I'm sorry. I-I'm an idiot.
Let me try again.
Please.
Ever since my parents split,
I have been feeling
like
I don't even know who I am.
Or who I'm going to be.
But you make me feel like that's okay.
Or it will be.
Does, does that make sense?
You're right. I was freaking out and
that's probably why
I went with the Jill thing.
And maybe that's 'cause our families
have known each other for so long.
And getting caught by Pen. But
whatever whatever is going on with us,
whatever we wanna call it
I'm I'm I'm into it.
I'm into you.
The last thing I am
is embarrassed to be around you.
Because
the truth is
when I'm not around you,
I am thinking about the next time
that I'm going to be.
You're, like, the only thing in my life
that makes sense.
And I don't want that to stop.
Previously on It's Not Like That
We did kiss.
It's not like it's gonna happen again.
Yeah, no, of course not.
- What does Jill think?
- Nothing.
- We broke up.
- What?
If two people are into each other,
they shouldn't let anything
stand in their way.
I was wondering if you, maybe,
wanted to have dinner, sometime.
I would love to have dinner with you.
Cheers, my friend.
Is he drunk?
- I'm working.
- No, you are not working anymore
I'm working!
I was two plus years sober, and, uh,
now, I have one day.
As long as the tags are on,
I can still take them back.
No, you're not taking these back.
This is simple.
Or it would be,
if you would stop fidgeting
- and let me do my thing.
- Sorry.
- I can stay still.
- Good.
Or else you're gonna be the first pastor
to give a sermon with ankle cleavage.
Actually, the pants aren't for church.
I have a
dinner thing.
- A dinner thing?
- Mm-hmm.
- You mean, like a date?
- Mm-hmm.
Okay. Wow. That's great. Good for you.
- Thanks.
- All right, well, spill it.
Who's the mystery woman?
- I met her at school.
- Oh.
Okay. Do I know her?
Ms. Colasante.
You're going on a date with "Cold Salami"?
- "Cold Salami?"
- Oh, it's just a nickname.
It's some of the kids, a few of the kids,
it's the bad kids,
they call her that behind her back.
Not me.
I Sorry.
She is wonderful. She's, she is amazing.
- And I didn't mean to
- No, no, it's not
I just I want this to go well,
and I don't really know what I'm doing.
She knows you.
She knows what you guys have been through.
- Yeah.
- Go out, have a great time.
Take her to Kimball House,
that place is great.
And then,
if it turns out to be a nightmare,
you'll have eaten some
amazing chicken roulade.
- Right.
- Yeah. How do they feel?
Uh, good, I think. Yeah.
- Okay. Hey.
- Mm-hmm.
- Don't overthink this. That's my thing.
- You get this nervous for your dates?
Um, it's a lot of swiping,
but the, the pool of eligibles is
- just shallow.
- Mm.
- What about Cuppa Joe?
- Mm
- Oh, no, I'm sorry. I didn't mean
- It's all right.
I didn't mean to bring that up.
I take it back.
You know, I don't know if I've ever
- if I've ever been more confident
- Ooh.
- In a pair of pants.
- All right. Well, great.
- I still have to do the other leg. So
- Oh. Sorry. Well
That one leg feels good.
Okay. Good.
All right.
Stay still.
Hey, good morning.
What are you doing?
I'm making breakfast burritos, guys.
Look, I spoke to your mom,
and I wanted to talk to you guys
about what happened the other night.
My slip.
'Cause that's what it was.
Okay, I'm really sorry, guys.
I'm committed to my sobriety.
Okay? I mean that.
I hope you guys can forgive me?
Yeah, okay. Thanks for the burrito.
- Merritt, hey, come on
- I get it.
I-I've heard this speech before.
I forgive you. I'm gonna walk.
Hey, bug, listen
I know seeing me like that
the other night,
that must've been really scary for you.
I wish I could take it back.
It's fine.
It's so not fine, Casey.
I've made a lot of mistakes,
but I think the biggest one
is not talking enough.
Communicating with you.
Okay? With your brother.
With your mom.
Maybe if I would've, I
I'm just not good at it, but I promise
I'm gonna try to get better. Okay?
I wanted to give you something.
This is my one year chip.
I got if after the first year
in the program.
So, shouldn't you give it back,
or something?
That's not how that works.
Look, I want you
to hold on to this for me. Okay?
Keep it safe.
Can you do that?
Look, I know I only have a week right now,
but in 11 months and 19 days,
I want you to give that back to me.
And then we can go to Cone Zone.
Or roller skating.
Or whatever you think is cool
a year from now.
What's the other one?
This is my two year.
I'm keeping this one for inspiration.
Hey.
I promise you I will never slip again.
Hey, I was about to give up on you.
Sorry. Parents.
Are you okay?
I am now.
- Did you finish the English homework?
- Um, mostly. Did you?
- Of course.
- Oh, I
- I got you something.
- Really?
- Don't get too excited.
- Ooh.
I figured you had a notebook for lyrics
Mm Ta-da.
What?
You do know how to read music, right?
- No. Not at all.
- Oh.
But now I have a reason to learn.
I was thinking, let's not
make a big deal of this at school.
Yeah. Totally.
I-I was just gonna say the same.
- Uh, see you later.
- Okay.
- Hey.
- Got a sec?
Yeah.
I just forwarded you the branding proposal
for Brooke Alexx
for that new athleisure brand.
- Oh, yeah. Okay.
- Here's what they're thinking.
So Mold?
It's pronounced "moold."
There's an umlaut.
Oh. I see that now.
- "Moold" your best life.
- Mm-hmm.
Okay.
Is she gonna go jogging with that guitar?
Oh.
Apparently she is. Okay.
I will, uh I'll look at these tonight.
Actually,
Kasey Musgraves' doing a secret show
at McCusker's
and I scored comps for me and Leila.
- Do you wanna be a third wheel?
- I can't.
I'm feeding Malcolm's kids. He has a date.
Okay. Can I say something?
- Is there any way I could stop you?
- Mm-mm.
Too much of your life
revolves around that man.
Every time we talk,
you're either helping him at the church
- or feeding his kids
- Okay.
You're making it sound way worse
than it is.
What did you say
you were doing with him last night?
Tailoring his pants.
"Moold" your best life, Lori.
That's all I'm saying.
"Moold" my best life.
Hey, Merritt.
Hey, we're hitting Derek's tonight.
You coming?
Yeah, man. Come.
- Yo, are you in or out?
- Huh?
- Derek's having a party tonight.
- Oh, cool.
I don't know.
I don't know if I can go.
Nah, I'll text you.
- I'll text you.
- All right, man. See ya.
What was all that about?
Just some party, later.
Derek's party?
- Do you wanna go?
- Not really.
It could be fun.
Are you saying you want to go
to a high school party?
You don't have to act so surprised.
All right. Uh, well,
I'll see you there, then.
- Okay. Yeah, you will.
- Okay.
Come on.
It's not supposed to be easy, let's go.
Put your backs on the wall.
There you go, hands down.
Good. Just like that. Good.
Ah. Two minutes and seven seconds.
Come on, shake it off. Let's go.
It's gonna be hard, all right?
Dig deep. We're in the big gym now.
Let's go!
Getting tired, Soto?
I'm good. You?
All day.
Five, six, seven,
eight. One, three, five, seven, dip
Where is that Tiger spirit?
Let me see it, let me see it!
Tighter. I shouldn't see any movement.
Keep it tight, girls. Keep it strong.
You got this!
Smiles, yes, smiles.
Fix those faces!
Penelope, keep those wrists stable.
Come on. Give her a strong base.
Okay, Joelle, your connections are sloppy.
Laura, you're early. And Penelope.
Penelope, I need you
rock solid in that pyramid.
Do you understand? No wobbles.
Just go ahead and stretch, okay,
but I expect better next practice.
I need water.
My body feels like rubber.
Casey.
Casey. Casey
Come on,
three minutes. Dig deep.
Casey. Casey
Casey's kind of a badass.
Go off.
Go, Casey.
Casey. Casey. Casey
Coach Alcala. Can we go again?
We still have five minutes.
Yeah. We've got one more,
right, you guys? Let's do it.
Okay. Yeah. Show me what you've got.
But it had better be better
than last time. Come on.
Nice job! That was great!
That was really good!
Wow, Casey!
Let's go again. Okay, from the top.
Hey, can I come with you tonight?
To Derek's party?
No, you are not old enough.
I'm only two years younger than you.
I'm mature enough.
I don't need to be babysat at Lori's.
- Mm-hmm.
- Come on.
You can introduce me around.
Yeah, I That's not happening
- And I don't really know anybody.
- Fine.
Then I can introduce you around.
I don't wanna go
to Casey's house.
She's being, like
Oh, the two of you need to figure out
whatever this is, already.
Trust me, she does not want me
coming over, either.
- So be with Justin then.
- Oh, can I?
Uh, here.
"Moaning Mauve" feels more your speed.
Killer slacks, Dad.
Slacks?
This is one of those times where I can't
tell if you're making fun of me or not.
You're making fun of me.
So, who are you going out with?
A female person.
But I promise I will tell you guys more
if there's ever a reason to.
- Well, the pants look good.
- Thanks.
Lori fixed them for me.
This is hopeless.
What happened to your wrist?
Nothing. It's fine.
Uh, the brown shoes match your belt.
I'm not wearing a belt.
You are now.
No. No.
- Hmm?
- Hard no.
Mm.
Let me.
Okay, king.
Okay, queen.
Now, can I come tonight?
- Hi.
- Hey.
Our table is almost ready.
Thanks for suggesting this place.
I'm awful at picking restaurants.
Apparently, their chicken roulade
is really something.
Oh. Oh, no.
Well, they also have
a good pork chop, I hear.
No, no, no, it's not the roulade,
it's the Holdens.
- The Who are the Holdens?
- Shh.
Their son, Ryan, he's in my class.
He's a he's a terror.
He can't be that bad.
Yeah. He dipped our class hamster
in a bowl of paint,
and when I talked to his parents about it,
they blamed the hamster.
Sure.
That's the worst part
about being a teacher.
Parents see me out in the wild,
and their minds are blown
that I could actually have a personal life
outside of school.
Where I'm not on duty
and they can't help
but come and talk to me
about their awful, awful children.
Yeah, I get it. It's 24/7.
My kids joke that I should have a T-shirt
that says "Pastors are people, too."
Absolutely, I will add your Aunt Sue
to the prayer chain,
just as soon as I get my kids' ice cream
home to the freezer.
All of my children aren't awful.
Well, all my congregants
aren't related to Aunt Sue.
- They're coming. Some Cover me.
- What?
Yeah, yeah. You're hiding?
- I'm hiding behind you.
- Right.
Okay. How you doin'?
- Hello.
- Hi.
- All right, you're safe.
- Thanks.
- All good?
- Yeah. All good.
Still nothing from Cuppa Joe?
You gotta let it go, Mom.
Who's Cuppa Joe?
Uh, he is nobody.
I thought he was somebody,
and then he stopped answering me,
so now he is no one.
What happened?
I wish I knew.
I tried to find him on Facebook, but
Facebook? Mom, you're so old.
Yes, I am.
Which is why I need a young person
to help me track him down.
I can find him.
Okay. Good.
All right.
Okay, the first rule of online stalking,
follow the money.
Mm-hmm. Venmo.
Your generation doesn't know
how to switch off a public.
My generation is just trying to keep up.
- Look, I don't know if I feel
- Found him.
Okay. So he's in Minneapolis.
Minneapolis?
According to his transaction history
the last week,
he's bought wine
and a lot of stuff from a cheese shop.
Maybe he just likes cheese, you know.
- What else?
- Oh.
And he spent $285
at a place called Dream Weaver?
- Mmm-mm.
- Which is a florist.
- That's a lot of flowers.
- Yeah.
Okay, I'm having regrets.
Crossing state lines
to surprise your secret girlfriend
- with a floral arrangement, not great.
- Yeah.
Could be a secret wife.
Or, like, a whole secret family.
Like, imagine
All right. I'm glad you two
are enjoying yourselves.
Whoever he gave those flowers to,
this guy has definitely moved on.
You should, too.
Mm-hmm. Sorry, Mom.
It's official, I'm not a drummer.
Can I bake something?
We're about to have dinner.
But, uh, okay.
Justin, what are you gonna bake?
I'm gonna make cookies for Ms. Colasante
for Monday at recess.
Aw, that's so sweet.
She's my favorite teacher. Like,
out of all the teachers I've ever had.
Yeah, she's the best.
Justin, you're such a goodie-goodie.
Like, why are you baking for Cold Salami?
Don't call her that.
Justin's right.
Everybody loves Ms. Colasante.
- Thank you so much.
- Thank you.
Oh. So
Grace Community, huh?
It's, um, it's a pretty big church.
Somewhere in the middle.
We're always fighting attrition,
but that's not unique to us.
It's modern times.
How long have you been a pastor?
Is that a weird question? I'm sorry.
I just don't have, um, experience
with anyone who has a job like yours.
No, no, there are no weird questions.
Uh, well, it's the most
important relationship in my life.
I have been serving the Grace Community
for over 20 years.
Wow.
When I was 15,
I was alone in a moment of prayer,
and I felt a calling.
This unrelenting pull to see people.
And love them.
Right where they are.
I think that's the best way to describe
what it means to be a pastor.
No, I get that.
- I think of teaching as a calling.
- Mm.
My students mean everything to me.
I've got teachers going all the way back
in my family on both sides.
Um, it's in my DNA.
Oh. Excuse me.
- I need to
- Please.
It's Penelope.
"When are you going to be home?"
As you can see, I don't, uh,
I don't get out very often.
But I'm gonna prepare you,
there will most likely be more of these.
That's okay.
Yeah, okay.
It's an adjustment.
They know I'm dating.
And I'm leaving it at that until I know
that it's going well with someone.
Not that you're "just someone."
Or that I think this is going badly.
I don't. It's not.
Although, maybe it is, for you.
Which, that's totally fine.
I mean, you might be
having an awful time as far as I know.
- So
- No. No, I'm not.
Well, look, they're fine.
They're they're with Lori.
- Casey's mom.
- Oh, Lori Soto?
- Yeah.
- I had Casey and Pen together.
That's right. Lori and I,
we've just been helping each other out.
I don't know what this year
would've looked like
without her there for me.
I I didn't realize you two
were so close.
Yeah. Well, no. Uh,
we're just
We're normal close, our families.
- Okay.
- Um,
like, she helped me get dressed.
Uh, the cuffs
She helped me with my pants today.
My cuffs, she, uh, she hemmed them.
So, normal close.
Yeah, just normal close.
Flora, you're here.
PK at a party. I love it.
- Chloe, right?
- Yes.
We have English together.
By the way, your hair is fire.
- So good.
- Thanks.
What's up?
- Hi.
- You look really nice.
Thanks. You, too.
Hey, Mer, we're up.
- Uh, next round.
- It's now or never.
It's fine. I'll catch up with you.
Why don't you two play with us?
Oh, I've,
I've never played beer pong before.
Well, then I'll try not to embarrass you
with my mad skills.
- Did you say "mad skills"?
- Yeah, you heard me.
- Yo, we're gonna lose our spot.
- I'm game.
All right. All right, I'm down.
All right.
Free advice for the first-timer,
it's all about the follow through.
Mm.
Okay. I will keep that in mind.
Okay, LeBron, I see you.
It's beginner's luck.
So
I've convinced our husbands that they
can handle our children for the evening.
That's right.
You're taking me out tonight
to see that Country singing client
of yours Mandy Suggs at the Tavern.
I told David you work too hard
raising babies and making stars.
And I need to find something to chase
those My Little Ponies from my head.
Mm?
Come on, I got you.
Sometimes, you have to
put yourself first, Lori.
Stop staring.
- I'm not.
- You were.
Dude.
I don't get you.
You're in fifth grade,
you haven't had Colasante for two years,
you don't have to kiss her butt anymore.
Pen, he likes her.
Yeah.
Would you mind your own business for once?
You know, he's my brother.
Why do you have to be such a jerk to her?
I'm not.
I do like Ms. Colasante.
She likes baking.
Just like Mom did.
She lets me hang out.
She's cool.
- Okay.
- You're not the boss of me.
Just because you're my sister,
doesn't mean
you get to tell me what to do.
I can do what I want to do.
Okay.
You totally can.
So can I.
For luck.
How did you do that?
I used my mad skills.
Wow. Rematch.
You hate losing that much?
- I am a varsity athlete.
- Not anymore, you're not.
Oh. All right. Well, I don't lose to you.
Apparently, you do.
Hey, less talking, more drinking.
So, you wanna go again or what?
Oh, if if you wanna lose to a PK twice,
be my guest.
Amen!
Help me fill the cups?
I think we might've missed the fridge.
Oh.
How did that happen?
- I wonder.
- Mm.
Nice helmet.
Pen.
Pen!
- Come here.
- Wait, with Merritt?
What are you doing?
Why are you here? What are you doing?
What are you doing?
How long has that been going on?
It's none of your business.
Isn't it? I mean, you've know him
since, like, you were born.
Shut up. If you even think
of telling anyone about this,
I will destroy
your sad little prepubescent life.
I'm not prepubescent.
Starting my telling Dad
that you snuck out of the house.
Whatever.
- No. No. No. No, no.
- What?
- No. No.
- I'm already here.
Flora.
How many parties do we get invited to?
You weren't invited.
You weren't invited.
You are going home.
Now.
Or I will make sure that you are grounded
for the rest of the year.
What were you even thinking?
You are such a child sometimes.
Go!
- After you.
- Thank you.
Oh. Wow.
I didn't realize how long we were talking.
- Yeah.
- We shut down the place.
Sorry if I was distracted in there.
Pen's texts.
She's probably too old to be babysat,
but when Justin's there,
I want her there, too.
It's all just a big adjustment for them,
you know.
You're good.
It's a big adjustment for me, too.
Most Friday nights I'm,
I'm home, writing my sermon, so
So, I should probably mention
I haven't stepped foot inside a church
in I don't know how long.
It's okay.
I don't remember why I stopped.
I I always loved
being part of a community.
- And I like the music.
- Mm-hmm.
Maybe, if I had a pastor like you,
I wouldn't have left.
But I hope that I didn't keep you
from working on your sermon tonight.
No, no, I, I wrote ahead.
I wanted to make time for this.
My life, my personal life.
This.
I'm glad you did.
You know this is actually
the least awkward first date
- I've had in a long time.
- Really? Wow.
- You set a pretty low bar.
- Stop.
Hey, stranger.
Jill.
Aren't you happy to see me?
I guess.
You smell so good.
Where's Derek?
Shouldn't you be telling him that?
You didn't know. Derek and I broke up.
I'm sorry it didn't work out with Derek.
How sorry?
Not that sorry.
- I miss you. Don't you miss me?
- Jill.
I can't.
- Thank you so much.
- Thank you.
- Hey
- Uh
You know, maybe,
next time we could eat in?
I could cook.
That, uh, that sounds amazing.
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
Mm.
- I'm so sorry. I, uh
- You're fine.
- You're fine.
- Okay.
Oh, no.
Is everything all right?
Thanks for coming.
I didn't want to bother my dad on his
Are you okay?
- Yeah.
- Where were you?
Um, I was out with some friends and
there was this boy
Can we just go?
Are you hungry?
- Mm-hmm.
- Come on.
I've got you.
- Thanks for the text.
- Yeah.
I told you not to bother him.
You were not on my list
of hospital visits.
How's the patient?
- Well, she has disobedient co-workers.
- Mm-hmm.
Otherwise, she's fine.
The doctors are calling it a mild stoke.
They're running a few more tests
to get the full picture.
It's a lot of hubbub for nothing.
You should go home
and be with your family.
Hey, you are my family.
I'll keep that in mind
when I need a kidney transplant.
Please do.
I appreciate you being here, I do, but
Between all the doctors
and the nurses,
I've just got more help
than I can stomach.
Mm. I thought we might pray together.
Yes. Yes. Let's do that.
Heavenly Father,
we ask that you would be present
with Virginia here tonight.
We ask for your healing touch.
And for wisdom for the doctors.
Please bless her body and mind.
And fill this room with your peace.
In your name we pray. Amen.
What's that?
- Poker chip?
- It's nothing.
Where've you been on my bike?
Doesn't matter.
Totally sucked.
What's that for?
Your wrist.
My wrist is fine.
Okay. You've been nursing it all night.
Do you remember when
Merritt rolled his ankle in freshman year?
He didn't want to sit out sectionals,
so he just wrestled on it anyway
and he ended up losing the match
and injuring himself even worse.
Well, that was dumb.
What's dumb is if he'd just stayed off it,
he would've been fine
in time for regionals.
Instead he just messed up
his whole season.
It's really not that bad.
Can I see it?
Ouch!
Pen, you need to tell someone about that.
Like, an adult.
It's fine.
I didn't ask for your medical opinion.
Fine. Yeah. Whatever.
Jeez.
Be that way.
These always remind me of being a kid.
My grandpa used to get us treats
after church every Sunday.
A little sugary reward.
Yeah, something like that.
It's gonna take a little bit
more than this to
make me feel better.
Wanna talk about it?
Not really.
It's stupid. It's guy stuff.
I know. Been there.
Still there, actually.
But, I don't know,
emotions are so high at your age.
You just gotta give it time.
Can we please skip
the "it gets better" speech?
It does and it doesn't.
In my experience, most guys
aren't worth the heartache.
Especially high school boys.
You know, when we were in college,
there was this phrase,
"ring by spring."
And that the girls needed to lock down
a man by the end of senior year,
or else
Or else what?
We were doomed to a lonely life
of spinsterdom at the age of 22.
Right?
But that isn't true.
It wasn't true then,
and it sure isn't true now.
Didn't you meet David in college?
You guys got married, like,
- right after your graduation?
- Well, yeah. Yes, we did.
But that wasn't part of any plan.
Trust me.
The point is
you don't need someone else
to make you happy.
Least of all, some boy.
Do you really believe that?
I want to.
I mean, yeah, I get it. Girl power.
What happens when you meet somebody
really special?
When you're with him,
everything is, like, easy
and comfortable,
and you feel more like yourself
than you've ever felt before.
And it turns out that
they like somebody else.
What, then?
Well, that's a toughie.
I don't know.
My mom would know.
Oh, yeah.
Yeah, she would.
- She was the best at these kind of things.
- Yeah.
She always knew
exactly what I was going through and
exactly what I needed.
I think I do know what your mom
would say to you right now.
She'd say that if this guy
is really worth it,
you have to put yourself out there.
Even if it means you might get hurt.
My mom was a lot braver than me.
M Maybe you're a lot braver
than you think.
Mm? Come here.
Merritt driving you up the wall again?
No, I just, I just wanna stay with you
this weekend.
Just tonight. Okay?
- I already texted Mom.
- Mm.
Do you wanna go to Cone Zone?
It's a little late for ice cream,
isn't it?
No, I checked online, they're still open.
I was thinking we could celebrate.
Celebrate what?
I know you're trying.
- And maybe you won't ever slip up again.
- I won't.
Or you will.
And it'll take more tries.
That won't happen. I promise.
I know, Dad.
But it could happen.
So we don't have to wait a year.
Okay? I'm just, I'm just glad
you're getting help now.
Yeah.
It's me.
- Oh, hey. Oh
- Yeah.
What?
- Sorry I'm late.
- No.
How's Virginia?
Uh, very Virginia.
She's not gonna be
leaving us any time soon.
- Oh, good.
- Yeah.
Um, Flora took Pen home,
and Justin's conked out.
- And there was a lot of baking.
- I see that.
- Mm-hmm.
- My goodness.
- Um, you look great, by the way.
- Thank you.
How was the date?
Well, the pants,
the pants put it over the top.
The date was, it was good.
It went surprisingly well, actually.
Good.
How are the girls?
Did they survive the night together?
Yes, they actually bonded.
They cyber stalked Cuppa Joe
and it turns out, um, he's in Minneapolis.
Just buying wine and cheese
and $285 worth of flowers
for, in their minds,
a secret girlfriend or a secret wife.
Um, but one thing they definitely agree on
is the, um, secret woman
in their story isn't me.
I don't know.
I mean, maybe, the story is
that Joe is just a really loving son.
Yeah, and maybe the flowers
and the wine and all the food
is for his aging mom
who's just gotten out of the hospital,
and he wants to make sure that, you know,
her first night home is special.
$285 special.
He's a really good son.
- We'll never know.
- Right?
- Right?
- No.
Either way, he is an idiot
for not being able to see
what was right in front of him.
- Don't do that.
- Why? It's the truth.
But what does it matter
if the moment's passed?
Malcolm, do you, uh
want to split a cookie?
- Before we wake him up?
- Yes, yes, I do.
He made these for me? Oh.
Um No.
Actually, he made them for your date.
Ms. Colasante.
Mm. She's gonna love that.
Flora! Flora.
Flora.
- Hey.
- What's that?
It's a keyboard.
I can see that.
Yeah, I thought you might
wanna write music on it.
You're not gonna
gift your way out of this, Merritt.
Look.
The other night
Th-The thing with Jill
You mean the kiss with Jill?
Ob Obviously,
that shouldn't have happened,
- but I was drunk
- Nope.
- And and she started it.
- Also no.
You were the one who said we weren't
gonna make a big deal of things.
Do you know why I said
we shouldn't make a big deal of things?
It's because I could tell
that you were freaking out.
I was responding to you.
And I was right.
You're, like, embarrassed
to actually be around me.
Or for people to know. Or
Whatever. Just leave me alone.
Hang on. Hang on. I'm sorry.
I'm I'm sorry. I-I'm an idiot.
Let me try again.
Please.
Ever since my parents split,
I have been feeling
like
I don't even know who I am.
Or who I'm going to be.
But you make me feel like that's okay.
Or it will be.
Does, does that make sense?
You're right. I was freaking out and
that's probably why
I went with the Jill thing.
And maybe that's 'cause our families
have known each other for so long.
And getting caught by Pen. But
whatever whatever is going on with us,
whatever we wanna call it
I'm I'm I'm into it.
I'm into you.
The last thing I am
is embarrassed to be around you.
Because
the truth is
when I'm not around you,
I am thinking about the next time
that I'm going to be.
You're, like, the only thing in my life
that makes sense.
And I don't want that to stop.