This is Us (2016) s04e17 Episode Script

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Previously on This Is Us
I'm not gonna do that trial, Randall.
And I really don't want to hear
what either of you has to say about it
because I have made
the decision for myself.
This could've saved her life.
Don't you ever wonder
what it would've been like
if Dad hadn't died?
No. I don't, Randall. Do you?
Dad, if you go back in
that house, so help me, God,
I'll go through that front
door and get you myself!
Dad, look!
Every single day.
I haven't been able to
stop thinking about it
since I asked my brother,
what my life would be
like if my dad hadn't died.
What do you think
would've been different?
It's all just
gone?
Yeah.
You're lucky you weren't there.
All right.
Here you go.
- Thank you.
- Waters all around.
Hey, uh, you guys need anything else?
I can heat up some food
for you to eat, or
- No, thank you.
- No. Thank you.
- Mom, Dad.
- Guys
- Hey, Kev. Is everyone okay?
- Hi, sweetheart. God
- Are you okay?
- Yeah, no, no, no, I'm fine.
Yeah, no, I'm fine. I'm okay.
- Hi, baby doll.
- Hi, Mom.
Just some minor burns.
Hey, the doctor said I'm gonna be fine.
He said the smoke
inhalation was minimal.
Yeah, thank God you didn't
go back in the house.
Well, thank God that fireman
actually got to Louie.
I wouldn't be able to live with myself.
- He okay?
- Yeah, I think so.
Okay.
Hey, guys, listen to me.
We're all gonna be fine.
- Yeah.
- Right? We're here, together.
That's all that matters.
This family is the
only thing that matters.
So, I just got off the
phone with the police.
They have officially cleared the house.
I'm gonna go over there
and see what's left,
see if there's anything salvageable.
Bec.
We'll find temporary housing.
- No, no, no, babe, it's-it's
- Okay? We
It's not about the house.
I mean, we, we could have died.
And it just
it-it puts things in
perspective, you know?
Like what?
Like
Things you know you should share,
but you don't because it's hard.
And time goes by.
And then more time goes
by, and eventually you're
I have to tell you something.
Randall?
Hey, uh, Miguel took Kate and
Kevin to go buy some essentials.
I'm looking up that
info you asked about,
- the fire insurance policy, you know
- Son, just
What's wrong?
What happened?
Mom, you're really freaking me out.
Sweetheart.
When you were a baby
I met your father.
Your birth father.
My
My-my what?
How?
He, he was hanging around
outside the hospital,
and I followed him
back to his apartment.
But, sweetheart, you have to understand,
he was not well, okay?
He was an addict and
I, I-I got out of there
and I never said anything to anyone.
And then I tried to
go back years later
Wait, wait, wait, wait.
This whole time, you knew who he was?
You just kept it secret from me?
- All these years.
- No, no, no, no, no.
He just found out
five minutes ago, okay?
What's his name?
What is his name?!
William
William Hill.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
- Stop, stop.
- Okay, okay.
Do you know where he lives?
Um, I don't know if he
still lives there, but I can,
- I can show you where he lived years ago.
- No, no, no.
Just give me the address.
And I can go by myself.
- No, you won't.
- No. I need to do this, Dad.
I know. I know.
I'll go with you.
- Hey, Dad?
- Yeah?
This isn't I
This isn't about you.
Uh, l-like, wanting to meet him. I
Yeah, no, I know.
Yeah, it's okay.
I think this is it.
You ready?
- Uh-huh.
- Yeah.
Can I help you?
Are you William Hill?
Last I checked.
My name is Randall Pearson.
I think I'm your son.
Wow. Top of your class.
That's something.
Hey, what can I say?
I work hard.
Not trying to brag or anything.
- We're very proud of him.
- Yeah.
Mm.
Well, so, uh, do you
play any instruments?
Oh, well,
I'm not really the
musical one in the family.
My sister Kate is.
She gets it from my mom. My adopted mom.
Randall.
Uh, speaking of,
I was wondering if you
could, uh, tell me more about
- my biological mom?
- Oh
Well
Do you know the feeling you get
when you take a sip of something hot?
That was Laurel.
She was a warm drink
straight to your soul.
She stopped using when she was pregnant,
but right after you were born
Old habits.
She didn't make it.
And me, I I didn't
know the first thing
about raising a baby on my own.
You were never not wanted.
In fact
I wrote these for
you a long time ago.
I never thought anyone else
would see it besides me.
Maybe I can go back next week?
You know, Randall, I
really think you should
temper your expectations of
this guy, just a little bit.
What do you mean?
He was a very nice man.
But I think, I think
he might still be using.
- So?
- So I'm really not too comfortable
with my son spending
time with a guy who's
- Come on, Dad.
- involved with that.
Dad, you're an addict, too.
Please.
It's been
a tough time for my family lately.
From the, uh,
American Songbook, these
are riffs that I've been
It's been a long time since I've spoken
to a room full of people like this.
So I've been thinking,
I'm probably gonna stay home for
college, go to Carnegie Mellon.
But you got into Howard.
I thought that was your top choice.
It was, but
I-I thought it'd be nice
to spend more time together.
Right?
Right.
That's cool.
Hey, sweetheart,
if you did forget anything,
we'll be happy to drive it over to you.
You sure you don't want
me to come with you guys
and help you move in?
The car's pretty packed,
so there's only really
room for two of us.
Okay.
I'm gonna go say bye to Kevin and Kate.
Okay.
Hey. He's just sorting
through everything.
- Yeah.
- Okay?
He'll come around.
- Oh
- Oh, oh, I-I'm sorry.
No problem.
Beth, we are so thrilled
to have you here tonight.
This is the first time we've had
all of our kids home from
college at the same time.
Oh, thank you for having me over.
Oh, I-I brought, uh, a little something.
- Oh, you didn't need to do that. You don't
- It's just a little gift.
You don't need to bring
us a g whoa! Hot sauce?
No, no, give that here.
Uh, my-my dad loved hot sauce, too.
Uh, he always brought it with him
to every house we went as a gift.
But it wasn't actually
a gift, he just wanted
to make sure he always had hot sauce.
Randall told us that, um,
that he passed last year.
We were very sorry to hear that.
Yeah, I can't imagine going through
all of that stuff at
your age, sweetheart.
Yeah, we really shouldn't make her
talk about it right now, Mom.
- I'm sorry.
- No, it
- No, no, no, no, it's-it's fine.
- I'm sorry.
- It's fine.
- Thank you.
- This is, uh, wonderful.
- Yeah.
Sweetheart,
how do you like your
salad? I added those
little slivered almonds
in there just for you.
Don't really like almonds.
What?
Since when?
Never have.
Could you show me where the bathroom is?
It's right through the kitchen.
Can you show me?
It's good, Mom.
I like the almonds.
Was that a "rescue me" head nod
or a "I want to go sneak in
a quick make-out" head nod?
That was a "quit being such
a dick to your mom" head nod.
You need to forgive her.
Beth, you don't know what
you're talking about.
- You don't know how I
- Look, I carry bottles of hot sauce
because they remind me of my dead dad.
And you get not one, but two,
living, breathing, really freaking
cool dads, okay?
Li life is short, Randall.
It's too damn short.
- So Dad hops in to grab Kevin out of the pig pen.
- Uh-huh.
And he's screaming because he's
decided he loves this pig
She won best in show at the county fair.
It was a big deal when I was five.
So-so me, Kate and my mom
are outside the fence, terrified
We were screaming.
- You remember that, crying?
- Yes.
You remember that?
Yes, how can I forget?
Actually, do you want to tell this part?
You tell it better.
Um
the, um
the little pig started
squealing and then
muddy little Kevin over here
started squealing right back.
And then Jack started squealing
I remember picking
Randall up from school
one day in, uh, sixth grade.
And he was studying the periodic table.
He was so excited to
tell me about Marie Curie
and her husband Pierre
who had discovered radium and polonium
together.
Kid's 11.
And I-I remember him saying to me,
"Dad, I want to marry someone
I can discover elements with".
Let's raise our glasses.
To Randall and Beth.
To Randall and Beth.
And that is how you got the name Tess.
Because of a ceiling fan of all things.
Pretty perfect first grandkid, huh?
No complaints here.
Mind if I join?
Come on in, Grandpa.
Hey, beautiful.
All right.
Ham's in the oven.
Everyone's arriving at 2:00.
The Pearson Christmas
Feast is right on track.
Fruitcake?
Nah, stomach's a little funny.
Again?
We rarely catch
stomach cancer in its earliest stages.
You are a very lucky man.
Lucky my boy here's a
relentless son of a gun.
Hey, guys, gather round.
Let me get this picture real quick.
Everybody say, "Thanksgiving
hot dogs wrapped in cheese".
Thanksgiving hot dogs wrapped in cheese!
Yeah!
Okay, wait, no.
I want to get one, too.
On my phone
Where did I put my phone?
No, wait, hold on a
sec. It was just here.
- What's wrong, hon?
- Can't find my phone.
I'll help you look for it, Rebecca.
I just had it.
She misplaced her phone again.
I'm sorry to interrupt you,
Randall, but I suspect
that you and your father are about
to band together to save your mother?
So I'm just trying to keep track here.
In the version of your life
where your father lives,
you immediately find your birth father,
get him clean,
your parents' marriage survives,
you have the same wife and kids,
cure stomach cancer,
and you get your mother
into this clinical trial?
Yeah, that's what I
think would've happened.
Gotcha.
Hey, there's, um,
Scrabble and Connect Four
in the cabinet behind you.
You're in that chair
for another half an hour.
We could either play games
or you could be honest.
Your choice.
I don't understand.
You asked for my version.
Rose-colored or not,
that's what I gave you.
Randall, when we
started working together,
you asked me to challenge you.
Now let's try this again.
This time tell me what
scares you the most
about what could have happened
if your father survived that night?
Please say something.
What do you want me to say?
That you
understand why I did it?
You met our son's birth father
and then you lied to me
about it for 17 years.
What am I supposed to
understand about that?
That I was trying to protect him.
Protect him from what?
William was sick.
He was an addict.
I was, I was worried
he would want to take
Randall away from us.
Well, then we could have dealt with that
together as a family.
But you made that call on your own.
You
You were wrong, Bec.
My God, you were so wrong.
I wanted to tell you so many times.
Then why didn't you, huh?
Because I was scared.
And I-I knew that you would want to do
what you thought was right.
And I'm-I'm sorry.
I'm sorry, Jack.
I'm so sorry.
I can't even look at you right now.
The Rebecca that I know?
She isn't capable of
something this cruel.
She is not capable of keeping our son
away from his birth father.
- Oh, my God
- Stop!
Randall
I will take care of our son.
Look, if it's bibles you're
selling, I've got several.
William Hill?
I don't love it when people know my name
and I'm not familiar with theirs.
I'm Randall Pearson.
17 years ago, I was
left at a fire station
in Bethel Park.
I'm your son.
That's impossible.
My mom says she saw you at the
hospital the day that I was
I said that's impossible!
I've never had children.
And I don't got a son.
Mr. Hill!
Hey, listen to me.
That man may not know he has a son,
but you have a father.
You hear me?
Howard has summer classes.
I think I might go early.
Okay.
That's why we take care
of our community, 'cause
family is everything.
Now my brother Quinton
here's gonna lead us
by "setting owt" a march.
Let's clap it up for Brother Randall
for leading a great group
and being a great example.
What's the motto of this group?
Lifting as we climb!
- We lift! We lift!
- We climb! We climb!
Que team!
Que team!
Que team!
Que Psi Phi!
Well, it's time
For us to throw down
For my Que Psi Phi
Omega Psi Phi, for my Que Psi Phi
Que Psi Phi!
It is the first time
we have all the kids
home from college at the same time.
It's nice, isn't it, Jack?
Yeah.
Uh, Rebecca,
this Cornish hen is delicious.
Oh, thank you, Sophie.
- Yeah, Mom, really juicy.
- Thank you.
Hey, I helped. How about
throwing some compliments my way, guys?
Oh, okay, Kevin.
You're-you're the next Iron Chef.
Dad, think I should
quit Lundy and, uh,
go to culinary school?
You make one decent piece
of chicken, and you want to
abandon your old man on the job?
So, Randall, how's school?
It's fine.
Just just fine?
I can remember your
first day of kindergarten.
You burst through those front doors,
you couldn't wait to get
to the car and tell me
everything about your day,
and now you've been gone
for a whole semester,
and all I get is a "fine"?
Bec, please.
I'm gonna go. I'm gonna
catch a bus back to D.C.
What, wait, now, Randall?
Hey, wait. Wait, wait, wait, wait
Dad, no. I thought I could do it.
I thought enough time had passed
and I'd be able to come back
and things would be
normal, but they're not.
And they're never going to be.
- I'm sorry.
- Randall, don't leave, man.
Randall, please stay.
And my son, just 11 years
old, he walks clear across town
just so he can get his favorite
girl her favorite doughnuts.
- Aw
- It was in that moment,
Kevin, that I knew you'd spend
the rest of your life
going the extra mile
just to make Sophie happy.
- I'm proud of you, son.
- Thank you.
Hear, hear. Cheers.
Your dad is kind of a hottie.
Uh, see, this is why I didn't
want you coming with me.
I'm just teasing.
You're a lot to unpack, RP.
Two years, and I've never once
heard you talk about these people.
Hey, let me show my face real quick,
then we can get out of here, all right?
Mmm.
Thank you very much for coming.
Hey, Kev.
- Hey.
- Congrats, man.
- Oh, thank you. Thanks.
- Really happy for you.
- Happy you came.
- Yeah, man.
Um, Dad told me Big
Three had a killer quarter.
- That's great.
- Yeah, yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, we did.
We got the city to
commission two houses.
- Okay.
- And, uh, yeah, we've been doing great.
- I'm trying to convince the old man to retire.
- Ah.
- Good luck with that.
- Probably die with a hammer in his hands.
That's what I always say.
Yeah.
Uh Oh, hey, I read in
the paper you got the Brunel,
uh, teaching award.
That-That's-that's huge, man.
- Thank you very much, man.
- Yeah.
No, work's been good.
My students have been good.
Students are g I can see that.
Uh, she's my T.A., man,
it's nothing serious.
Well, it's never serious with you,
- brother, is it?
- Ah
- Well, hey.
- Look at this.
- When did you sneak in?
- Yeah, oh, just a sec ago.
- Yeah?
- And hi to this little lady.
- Say hi.
- Not so little anymore, huh?
No. You want to go see Daddy?
Here, you go see Daddy.
That's a yes.
- See you later.
- Go see Daddy.
- Oh, man. Time flies.
- Mm.
I know. Oh, wait, did Kev tell you?
- Tell me what?
- About going to the cabin for Fourth of July?
We're gonna have a big blowout.
- Ah
- Ethan said he'd watch the girls,
so, you know, I thought
we'd have a Big Three soirée?
No, that sounds great. Um,
but with schedules and
I don't know, let me
think about it, yeah?
All right.
- Okay.
- Just let him think about it.
- Kev
- What's wrong with saying I'll think about it?
Nothing. Nothing. You
do it all the time.
You think about it and then
you never show up.
- Mm-hmm.
- I'm-I'm curious, like,
why did you even bother coming today?
- 'Cause Dad asked me to.
- Uh, Dad asked you to?
- Oh, well, glad you came.
- Yeah.
- Thank you for gracing us with your presence.
- Guys.
- Thanks, Randall. It's been wonderful.
- Guys.
- I'm not talking about
- Hey, boys?
Whatever you're talking
about can probably wait
until our guests leave.
Yeah.
Hi, Randall.
- Hey, Mom.
- Hi.
You know, I was just
about to leave, anyway.
I got a lecture in the morning, so
Right.
Ah.
So, lesson plans are on your nightstand.
- Mm-hmm.
- And I've uploaded the fall semester grades.
- You're the best.
- Mm-hmm.
Mm.
Hey, Dad.
Hey, son. Catch you at a bad time?
No. Just got in from a run.
I don't have a lecture
till noon. What's up?
Well Thanksgiving is next week.
I was hoping you'd come home.
- Dad.
- You're just y-you're so far away.
You should be with your
family for the holiday.
Randall,
it's been a long time.
You're gonna have to forgive
her at some point, son.
She's not well, Randall.
Not well? What do you mean?
A few months ago,
I started to notice
things just little things.
She'd forget where she
put her keys or her phone.
She couldn't remember
the name of a movie
that we had just seen
I'm done.
I don't want to do this anymore.
I mean, what exactly are we doing here?
What is the point of this exercise?
I need you to acknowledge that
even if your father had lived,
that every moment in
your life after that
could have gone a
million different ways.
- I'm aware of that.
- You're aware that you don't
control the outcomes of
every situation in your life?
Yes.
In your fantasy, you were the one
who stopped your father
from going back in the house.
Why are you so sure you
could've stopped him?
Dad, if you go back in
that house, so help me, God,
I'll go through that front
door and get you myself!
Just stay there, I'll be right back!
Jack! Jack!
But it wasn't the fire that killed him.
It was his heart.
I could've gone to
the hospital with him.
I should've been there.
I'm gonna try and go find
a pay phone and call Kate,
- see if they've found Kevin.
- Okay.
Okay.
I can't believe
the Broncos won the
Dad? You
Something's wrong.
Something's not right.
You said he had a widowmaker
heart attack, right?
That's right.
So, even if you were there,
you might not have
been able to save him.
Unless you're gonna tell
me that, as a 17-year-old,
you were trained in emergency
cardiac resuscitation.
I don't know, damn it, but
I could've done something.
That's what I do. I fix things.
- You couldn't fix this.
- Yeah, well at least I could've spent
the last 20 years knowing that I tried.
So,
so you think that would've
made a difference
in how you processed his death?
Knowing that you tried to save him?
Yes!
Why do you think that?
Because I tried with William.
And when it became clear
to me that it was hurting
more than it was helping, I was
okay letting him choose to stop.
Because we had tried.
Okay.
What?
- Nothing, I said okay.
- Mm-mm.
Mm-mm. No, you don't
think it's the same, right?
But you don't think it's the
same because I knew my dad
my whole life and I knew
William for less than a year,
so the bond was different.
Obviously it was easier for me
to make peace with his death?
Is that what you think?
I-I think I lost two fathers.
And I think if I'd had it my way,
obviously I wouldn't have
lost either one of them.
So to answer your first question, yes,
I'm fully aware that I'm
just a-a cute little pawn
on the universe's big giant chess board.
I don't need an exercise
from some overpriced
therapist in cheap shoes
to prove it to me.
That was uncalled for.
Sorry.
Oh, please, I live for this stuff.
It's interesting, Randall,
how you see this entirely as
an exercise about losing your father.
Your fathers. Plural fathers.
I don't follow.
Actually, this whole exercise
began because of a disagreement
that you had with your brother
over your mother's care.
If you think about it, your
life has really been defined
by your mothers, hasn't it?
The mother you lost at birth,
who is barely a footnote in your story,
and the mother who lied
to you for 36 years.
All right, look.
William told me everything
he knew about my birth mother.
It was a romance that
was sweet for a time,
but it was short-lived and drug-addled.
I'll never know much about her,
I've accepted that long ago.
As for my mother Rebecca
yeah, she lied to me.
But I forgave her for that.
And we've moved on.
I've accepted that, too.
Have you?
Absolutely.
It's behind us.
It's
It's curious, though,
that in both your
scenarios of how your life
would've played out if
your father had lived
the first thing that
happens after you save him,
the first thing,
is your mother tells
the truth about William.
Why do you think you're
here in my office right now?
I know, I know,
because everybody who comes to therapy
has these deep-seated
mommy issues, right?
I didn't say therapy. I said my office.
My office.
Do you know how many black men
who can choose whatever
therapist they want choose me?
It's a very low number.
You were highly recommended.
Your mother and I are the same gender,
we're the same race,
I'm probably around the same age
she was when your father died.
Another therapist
a good one, not an
overpriced hack like me
might say you're looking
for someone like your mother
to help you process her.
What she's done.
Her illness.
I'm not a neurologist, Randall,
and I don't know your
mother's condition.
But I'm pretty sure you don't
have all the time in the world
to heal from the wounds
that you have from her.
So, what are you saying?
What is the exact
advice that you're giving me?
I'm a therapist.
I don't give advice.
I offer observations
and I pose questions.
Observation.
Even in the worst version of your life,
you still protect your mother,
you still redeem her in the end.
Question.
Have you ever really
confronted your mother
about what she did to you?
About what she kept from you?
Hey.
It took six episodes, but
it finally makes sense.
- And, baby
- Huh?
I might be leaving you for Yahya.
Ah I thought we was gonna
binge Watchmen together.
You okay?
You look exhausted.
Turns out I'm still holding
on to some residual resentments
about my mom keeping William from me.
Well, hell, I could've told you that.
- How much we paying this lady?
- Mm-hmm.
What was that for?
I am very proud of you.
- Okay.
- Okay.
- All right.
- Here we go.
Uh half of a square?
I'm gonna need more than
that. That's that's nothing.
It's, uh it's the train tracks from,
uh it's
- How do you ?
- What is it?!
It's Mission to Mars.
Mission Mission to Mars.
Of course, obviously, yeah,
it's Mission to Mars.
- It looks like an 11.
- There's no mission,
- there's no Mars.
- My turn,
but you're gonna go for me,
because my phone's ringing.
- Okay? Do me proud.
- Okay.
I will definitely do better
than Toby's impressionistic
- spaceship.
- Clearly, it's a r
it's a rocket ship going up into
You know what? I would kill it
on Fallon, I don't care what
Hi, sweetheart.
Hey, Mom.
Wow, it's late out there.
Is everything okay
with Beth and the girls?
Yeah, yeah, they're fine.
Asleep.
Was just calling to talk.
Haven't really done that since New York.
Yeah.
I know. How are you?
I'm good.
I just, uh, have been thinking
a lot about your decision.
Oh, Randall, come on, sweetheart,
I thought we had put that to bed.
I told you,
I have no interest in
being away from the family.
Okay? I-I respect the fact
that you're passionate about it,
but I really don't want to talk
about the clinical trial anymore.
Dr. Leigh,
everything you've said makes sense.
And I've probably known
about it all for a while
but haven't been able to
find it.
I'm grateful to you for your help today.
Mom,
I've been a good son.
And I never say stuff like that,
but I know that I have been.
After Dad died,
I stayed at home.
I took care of you.
I have been a good son.
I know you have.
You've-you've always been.
And I've let things go, Mom.
Things
that were kept from me.
Things that I should
have resented you for,
but I never did,
because I knew that it
would be painful for you.
So I didn't.
I know.
I lost my father,
and I couldn't stop it.
I lost a second father,
and I couldn't fix that either.
And now my mother is sick,
and there are options.
I have never asked
you for anything, Mom.
Not in my entire life.
I've never asked you for anything.
But I'm gonna ask you for something now.
Mom, you have to do this clinical trial.
And I know you don't want to,
but you have to.
'Cause I don't want to be
in a therapy session
20 years from now,
playing out scenarios,
wishing that I had pushed harder,
wishing that I had done more,
'cause, maybe if I had,
you would still be alive.
I can't live with that,
even if you can.
I will come to therapy
to work this through.
I won't take it on alone.
But I will not
relitigate what my mother
did to me with William.
I won't reopen that wound for her.
I understand you think
that hashing it out
will bring me some kind of peace.
Maybe you're right. I
I don't know.
But I've already lost three parents.
I know that losing my
mother would break me.
I can't lose her.
I will do anything to
keep that from happening.
I'll do whatever
it takes.
I've been a good son, Mom.
I've been a good son,
and I've never asked you
for anything. But I am
asking you for this now.
And I need you to say it.
You are going to St. Louis.
You are going to do this clinical trial.
Okay.
I will go to St. Louis,
and I will do the trial.