Almost Family (2019) s01e10 Episode Script

Courageous AF

1 ROXY: Previously on Almost Family I really care about you.
But I also have to respect where they're at.
Do yourself a favor, Julia.
Don't try so hard.
ROXY: When I was competing, I had this frenemy, Nina Benett.
She one-upped me every chance she got.
LEON: Tim told me.
Told you what? That your marriage is over, and that you've been in a secret, intimate relationship with the prosecutor who intends to send me to prison.
- Leon.
- You're fired, Edie.
No one's ever gonna listen to you.
And stay away from me.
What is it, Rox? It's about Nick.
He sexually abused me.
JULIA: I'm really proud of you for telling your parents.
I want to stop that bastard before he hurts anybody else.
(INDISTINCT CHATTER) - What's up, man? - What's good, bro? (RAZOR BUZZING) Looking good.
You have a visitor.
(GENTLE MUSIC) I had a hundred on you not showing up here.
I guess you lost that bet.
Um, I read your letter.
It was very powerful.
Must have been if it got you here.
Does the list of milk options get longer every time I come in here, or am I imagining things? Hemp milk? Yeah, that's the one that's made out of ropes, right? Oh.
- Oh, I dare you.
- (LAUGHS) Hello, um, I have been challenged to try a hemp milk latte.
BARISTA: It's not as strange as you might think.
Tastes kind of earthy.
I don't know.
You might just like it.
Mmm.
Can't wait.
When I saw you walk in, I thought, "That's a girl with adventurous taste".
I'll have a whole milk cappuccino, please.
Dry.
(MOUTHS) (UPBEAT POP MUSIC) SINGER: Whoa, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh Whoa, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh I think she likes you.
EDIE: No way.
And if I'm not mistaken, I think I saw you blush.
Will you stop it? You're embarrassing me.
AMANDA: I completely understand if you're curious about other women.
It's natural.
You're new to this.
I'm not curious.
What makes you think I'm curious? I'm just saying, maybe you want to know what it feels like to be with someone else.
I'm your first.
Maybe it's something you should try.
Wait, how did how did we go from talking about alternative milks to me hooking up with random other women? - Are you breaking up with me? - Not at all.
I want us for the long haul, okay? But it might not be that long if you get curious about other women, and you have to admit that you are, at least a little bit.
Okay, yeah, sure, I guess, but So then why not get it out of the way? Curiosity killed your last relationship.
I don't want it to ruin ours.
I knew the search for my biological father wasn't going to be easy, but I reached out to, like, ten potential cousins on Double Helix, and I have yet to hear back from any of them.
Maybe they're just busy, and they don't want to be distracted, like me right now, trying to jog.
And Donovan is totally MIA.
I asked him to dinner two days ago, and I haven't heard a peep, not a text, not a tweet, nada, nothing.
He's a single dad with a job.
He's probably got a lot going on.
Or he's reconsidering our relationship, because I totally face-planted with his kids.
Okay, the whole point of this is to get out of our heads and into our bodies.
It's a big part of my recovery.
Okay? Come on.
I'm here for you and your recovery.
I'm getting into my body, but mine is just a little slower than yours.
- ROXY: Come on, you can do it.
- JULIA: Okay.
(PANTING) I finally catch up with you, and you stop? Are you okay? Oh, no.
No, this can't happen.
(EXHALES DEEPLY) (DOOR BUZZES) MILES: Freshman year at NYU, these two white dudes, my roommates, wanted to do some coke.
I had never seen the stuff before in my life except in movies.
I was trying to fit in.
So, uh, Mike scored some, and we parked behind the club to, uh, partake, when these cops pull up behind us.
Jordan threw the bag in my glove compartment.
Cops told me to get out of the car and accused me of resisting arrest when I was just trying to get my registration.
And of course they found the drugs, which my friends said they knew nothing about.
Good friends.
Man, it's crazy how quickly I stopped being their homeboy once those cop lights started flashing.
My parents had some resources, not like most guys in here.
They could afford braces and college, but, uh I don't know, it was always a struggle.
They mortgaged their house for me twice.
Wasn't enough.
It's very moving how they fought for you against those odds.
Are you moved enough to help me get an appeal? My attorneys have told me that I really can't meddle in anyone else's affairs until my own court case is over.
You used your own sperm to conceive me.
Wouldn't you call that meddling? You know, the whole time I was growing up, I didn't fit in anywhere.
That story they told me about who I was never added up.
But now, after meeting you I finally know why.
Did she really use the phrase "try out other women"? What, are you test-driving a car? No, I am getting my lesbian PhD to prove to my girlfriend that I know what I want.
Haven't you already proven that? Just saying.
It's tough.
You're in uncharted territory, and I can kind of relate.
I mean, I've never dated a single dad before, and it's it's different.
Like, when he doesn't call me back for a few days, I just have to understand that he's he's busy, and that's all that it means.
- No, you're getting dumped.
- (DOOR CLOSES) - Wait, seriously? - Yeah.
Hey, guys.
I'm ready to do it.
I'm ready to make a statement about Nick.
EDIE: Okay.
JULIA: Um, do you want to talk it out first? We can make some notes.
EDIE: Yeah, I'll walk you through the legal parameters, make sure you're protected.
No, I want to do it now, okay, while I have the courage and the support of my sisters.
Here.
We'll go on action, okay? - EDIE: Um - ROXY: Okay.
And action.
- JULIA: Oh, God.
- (CELL PHONE BEEPS) Hi, I'm Roxy Doyle.
You may know me as an Olympic silver medalist in gymnastics, or you may know me from some more recent encounters with some inappropriate fans that ended up on the internet.
I really don't like it when people mess with me, and I thought that was normal, that I was just hot-tempered.
But then, because of some caring people in my life, I got the chance to get some help, and I discovered that it wasn't.
I was masking my pain, because I couldn't acknowledge where it was coming from, that I had let someone in that ended up hurting me.
And that was a tough thing to admit, but it happened.
Someone saw an innocent girl and preyed on her need for approval, a girl who, when she was told she was special and talented, she fed off those words and did things to earn them she never wanted to do.
Nick Cameron, you are a predator who uses the trust girls have in you as their coach for the worst possible gain.
I want anybody who's watching this who's ever been manipulated and abused by him and made to feel like it was their fault I want you to hit me up, and I promise that I'll be there for you.
We'll do it together.
(CELL PHONE BEEPS) EDIE: So before you post it, I think, uh - BOTH: Um - (CELL PHONE CHIMES) - Okay.
- Oh.
Okay.
No going back now.
Hey.
What's going on with the post? Are there any more likes or mentions or trolls? - A few more.
- Yeah, a few? Like, how many, three? 23.
Some are positive.
How many are positive? Rox, the whole point of me monitoring your social media is so you don't obsess.
It's not healthy.
I'm not obsessing! I'm terrified.
I put it out there, and I can't take it back.
I know.
Let's just give it some time, okay? You told the truth, and that is a beautiful thing, but let's just let it play out.
You did get a DM from a producer, something called Game Zine? - GameZone? - That's not right.
Let me see.
Oh, my God.
They want to interview me on GameZone.
"We saw your brave statement, and we'd like to invite you on to tell your story".
Okay, but are you sure you're ready for that? Because those journalists can be pretty tough.
Are you kidding me? I was born for this.
I'm gonna be on GameZone.
(DOORBELL RINGS) Okay, nope, not so fast.
Give me that.
Thank you.
Can you get that? Tim, hi.
Come in.
what's wrong? What isn't wrong? I think I just need to see a familiar face right now.
I'm sorry.
I I look, I know that you, um, are probably upset with me for knowing about Edie and not telling you and I was put in a really awkward position I would not blame you for that.
That wouldn't be fair.
Thank you.
That's (SIGHS) You're such a good Oh, I know.
Yeah, yeah, I know, I know.
"You're just a great guy, the best person ever".
I know.
I hear it all the time.
Do you want to come in and sit down? - Sit, sit.
- Are you sure? (SIGHS) Edie and I, we were a team in every way.
Yeah.
And I'm out here, and I don't know what I'm doing, Julia.
I'm flying blind.
I am just I'm so blind that I I joined a dating app.
Footsie? That that's good.
That's that's great, kind of.
- Is it? - Yeah.
It's a first good step.
But how am I supposed to find love answering questions about whether or not I like guacamole? - Hmm.
- It's depressing is what it is.
It's it's It's just people, just looking for a connection.
I actually found someone really great on there.
Although he's totally ghosting me right now, and so are all the distant cousins that I reached out to on Double Helix.
But sorry, I'm just I'm feeling very vulnerable right now, because I'm just reaching out to people and no one's getting back to me.
And I'm just putting you in an awkward position, because you can't do anything about this, and Not about the boyfriend, but I can help with the DNA matches.
You can? There's actually an investigator that owes me a favor, so Of course someone does, because you're such a good Ugh.
Don't - Lawyer.
- Okay.
You're such a good lawyer.
(MOUTHS) (DISTANT PHONE RINGING) (INDISTINCT CHATTER) Hello.
How are you today? Ah.
Okay.
Thanks.
Have a nice day.
Okay.
That's okay.
(EXHALES) You been here a while? MAN: We're moving the line along L28 shouldn't be long now.
(WHIMSICAL MUSIC) WOMAN (OVER PA): Now serving C5.
Ah.
Uh, excuse me.
Uh, you are a public defender, correct? - How could you tell? - Well, because you look like a very hard-working young woman.
Here's the thing.
I want you to do me a favor, please.
I'm here to ask about a case, Miles Walker.
I really need to help this kid.
He's been dealt a very, very bad hand.
Sir, I'm glad you've just awoken to the injustices in this country.
The reason I took this job is to actually fight them, but I have about 500 of them on my plate.
So please just take a seat like everyone else.
WOMAN (OVER PA): Now serving C6.
(MOXI'S "TERRIBLE DISGUISE") (UPBEAT POP MUSIC) MOXI: A little restless again It's that time of night It's that time of year Hey.
Hey.
Here to order a drink you don't really want again? No, I'm actually pretty clear on what I want this time.
I would love a cappuccino with whole milk and extra foam.
Like, a lot of foam.
Like, a really wet cappuccino.
A wet cappuccino actually has a lot of milk, not foam.
(LAUGHS) Well, um, then foam it up.
I'm sure you make a great frothy foam.
Are you okay? What? Yes.
No, no.
I am so sorry.
Oh, my God.
Um, my girlfriend thinks that I'm really green at being a lesbian, and she thinks I'm a green lesbian.
- (BOTH LAUGH) - And I'm trying to prove to her that I'm not a green lesbian, even though green is my favorite color, weirdly.
Oh, my God, I am tanking.
I am so sorry.
Save yourself.
Okay, listen, you want to rip the lesbian Band-Aid off quickly? I have a suggestion, but you need to be willing to get pretty dirty, so Oh, no.
I I don't think that's in the cards, 'cause oh, kickball.
You can join my team, - the Dixie Kicks.
- Oh.
We play tomorrow out at McCarren Park.
Should be 20 lesbians there for you to make awkward advances on.
Great, that's a lot of "les" practice.
I probably need it.
But I've never I mean, I haven't played team sports since I was a kid, so Can I tell you a secret? (WHISPERS) None of us are good.
We just play long enough to earn beers after.
Oh, okay.
(LAUGHS) Then I guess I could I could try that.
- Yeah? - Yeah.
You can't wear that jacket.
No, I I will bring it.
You got it.
- Oh oh, God.
- EDIE: Oh, sorry.
- I'm so sorry.
- Watch that.
- All right.
- Sorry, ma'am.
(KNOCK AT DOOR) I'm almost done, Isaac.
When I said "give me a second", I didn't think you were gonna take me lit oh.
- (BUMPS DESK) - Oh, careful.
Ow.
It's okay.
It's just a stupid desk.
Sorry, I, um I What can I what can I do you for? What can I do for you? 'Cause I'm very busy.
I have a very busy plate.
Yeah, I won't take up too much time.
I just wanted to make sure you were all right.
Um, I'm I'm all right.
Are are you? I'm okay.
No, uh, I'm not.
I I I haven't heard back from you in days.
- Wait, you haven't heard back from me? - Did I do something? Did I make you angry? I've been, like, racking my brain as to why you would ghost me.
I think it must be what happened with my kids.
I I mean, I I texted you, like, a million times.
I I mean, not, like, a million times.
I thought about texting you a million times.
I actually only texted you, like, four five.
I did not get these texts that you're referring to.
Oh, my gosh.
(GIGGLES) I'm so relieved.
Pretending to be mad at you just now was was really tough.
- How how'd I do? - Not great.
- Hmm.
- You know what? I think I know what happened here.
Phone bill, no judgement.
No, I think that my daughter blocked you.
Ouch.
Well, that is way worse than you being financially irresponsible.
Yeah, she's kind of been on the warpath since we started dating, and her phone skills are pretty well honed at this point, so I'm sorry.
Is there anything that I can do? Yeah, you can meet me somewhere at a, you know a restaurant for a romantic dinner, place of your choosing.
Aww, my choice.
(CLICKS TONGUE) How do feel about floating candles? If they don't float, what's the point, really? (SOFT MUSIC) Aww.
(INDISTINCT CHATTER) Roxy Doyle, just want to say a quick hello and welcome.
Hi.
Um, longtime viewer, first-time guest.
Thank you so much for having me on to tell my story.
Yeah, your statement was extremely powerful.
- It's the least we could do.
- Thanks.
- Wait, what is she doing here? - Oh.
Well, that's the thing about stories.
There's always two sides, right? You'll be great.
I'll see you out there.
(DRAMATIC MUSIC) ROXY: And then this man you idolize handpicks you to be his favorite, and you feel untouchable.
The boys in high school become pimply-faced, immature dummies, and here's this mature, charming man who wants to be your prince.
But I was 16, and he was 27 and my coach, and I was incapable of consent.
So you say this inappropriate relationship ended how many years ago? Um, about ten.
And you're just coming forward now.
Can you tell us why? There's a lot of shame and fear and a sense that nobody'll believe you.
Uh, Nina, do you have a comment to make about Roxy's story? Well, I just think it's interesting that all these accusations are coming up right as you're trying so hard to get back in the public eye.
- That's - MARTY: Well, it sounds like you're suggesting that this is some kind of stunt for attention.
You said that, not me.
I just think it's really sad that she's trying to blame all of her problems on Nick, when he tried so hard - to help her all over the years - To help me? We all tried, but Roxy is she's a really troubled person.
If we weren't on TV right now, I would rip your pretty little throat out.
NINA: I really hope that you get some help, Roxy.
ROXY: Oh, no, I wouldn't need help.
I would do it right here, right now with my bare hands.
NINA: Do you see what I'm talking about? This is what Nick had to deal with.
This is what we all had to deal with.
(LAUGHS) You're doing great.
Let me rescue that little guy for ya.
There you go.
I've logged a lot of chopstick hours in my day as a proud New Yorker.
My dad and I actually had this Chinese food weekly ritual, 'cause my mom hated spicy food.
And so he would he and I would, um (EXHALES DEEPLY) - Where'd you go just now? - Sorry.
Ever since I found out he's not my biological father, it's just it's just different.
Anyway, we've talked a lot about my family.
Let's hear more about yours.
You told me that your mom was a homemaker and your dad was a salesman, but I don't think you actually told me what he sold.
Well, buckle up, because my dad worked in the thrillingly fast-paced world of refrigerator sales.
And when you are lucky enough to meet him, he will tell you endless, hugely boring stories about it.
- I look forward to that.
- Oh, no, you don't.
- Well, I'm sure he's - (CELL PHONE CHIMES) A very "cool" guy.
- What? - Oh, nothing.
That was just ignore me.
That was a very lame joke attempt at a joke.
- Is everything okay? - Yeah, yeah.
I'm sorry.
Uh, what was I saying? You were talking about your dad and refrigerators.
Ah, right, yeah, yeah.
- Uh, he was really - (CELL PHONE CHIMES) Jeez, okay.
If you need to check in on them, it's totally fine.
- No, no, I really don't.
- (CELL PHONE CHIMES) They're fine, everything's fine.
Let's do this date thing.
- (CELL PHONE RINGING) - (SIGHS) It's okay, answer it.
Hey, Olivia, what's up? Yeah, I'm out.
Yeah, you know I'm out.
Okay, well, did he throw up or ? Okay, well, what did you guys eat? Cheetos and marshmallows? No, I'm not blaming you, but you're in charge.
No, please, don't send me a picture of it.
I believe you.
Okay, I I'll be right there.
We can do this another time.
I can text her and try to buy a little time with some Pepto.
Don't be silly.
Go take care of him.
Really, it's fine.
- You sure? - Positive.
Thank you for understanding.
All right, well, rain check, I promise.
And next time, double the romance, no intestinal distress.
- JULIA: Okay.
- It'll be amazing.
Just go.
LEON: He's a good kid, you know.
He doesn't deserve the sentence he got.
It's tragic, actually.
I've been looking over his case, and I just I think this would be great for you.
Well, I don't need your handouts, Leon.
I'm doing just fine since you fired me.
- Thank you.
- I have no doubt that you are.
I just think you're the right person for the situation.
He needs the best of the best.
Well, I'm sure he has a public defender.
You should start there.
Well no no, I went down that road.
I mean, that's how I got his file.
So you tried one thing, and you think that's enough to help a kid in this type of situation? You did a little research and then you came to me to try to convince me to take the case to clear your guilty conscience? Oh, be careful getting on too high a horse.
Oh, please don't compare my situation to yours, Leon.
You are on a whole other level.
Okay, I'll just leave this here in case you want to have a look.
EDIE: (SCOFFS) Don't hold your breath.
(EDIE SIGHS) You know what's worse than your "date fail"? Trolls, mean ones, who are saying things I can't see.
That's the way the world is now.
You have a phone, you can have an opinion.
You just got to shut it out.
Yeah.
Whoa! Oh, that was so fast.
"Liar, liar, career on fire"? All right, "Flossing at Fifty", I have something for you.
- No, no.
- Hey, come on! I had a response for that! Fighting trolls only makes them stronger.
- It's my phone.
Give it back.
- No.
You asked me to do this.
Yeah, well, I changed my mind.
Phone, please.
You know, this is Nina's fault, okay? I need to call her out.
- Come on! - No.
We are taking the high road.
Okay.
Fine.
Can I check my weather app? - Nice try.
- I have tornado anxiety.
It's Brooklyn, not Kansas.
Global warming is real.
- Come on! - I am protecting you.
- (JULIA SQUEALS) - ROXY: No.
(GASPS) You did not just do that.
JULIA: I think I did.
Oh.
- Well - Sorry.
I can still look at my computer.
- You'll have to find it first.
- Damn it.
(DOORBELL RINGS) Hi, Tim.
Come in.
Sorry to come by so late, but I thought you'd be excited to see this.
Our investigator found a cousin of yours on your mother's side.
On my mother's side? She could still be helpful.
Right, um, "Patti Fletcher".
I don't remember my mom ever talking about her.
ROXY: Patti Fletcher.
Patti Fletcher sounds like a librarian with, like, a bunch of cats.
Sorry.
(PEOPLE EXCLAIMING IN DISTANCE) - Edie! - Hey.
Hi.
- Welcome.
- Hey.
Um, I wasn't sure what I was supposed to wear.
I clearly overdid it.
I I do that.
No, you look amazing.
Come on.
Let me introduce you to the squad.
Dixies! Edie, she's dope, she's looking to play.
All right, ladies, let's send these kitty cats back to Queens licking their wounds.
Come on, everybody, huddle up! Whoo! Whoo! - Come on! - (ALL WHOOPING) - Okay, bring it in.
- Okay, here we go.
Dixie Kicks on three! ALL: One, two, three.
Dixie Kicks! (UPBEAT HIP-HOP MUSIC) SINGER: Don't get me wrong, had some ups and downs They made me strong, and that helps me now Ain't a thing I can't handle Try to take me down, that'll be a scandal You can call me an optimist My accomplishments, I needed no assist I need you to bow for me Yeah, when I come through, call me Your Majesty Bow to the queen, touchdown for the queen Ride for the queen, get live for the queen Bounce for the queen, get loud for the queen Yeah, when I come through, call me Your Majesty Floss for the queen, take a loss for the queen Groove for the queen, take two for the queen Fight! SINGER: Call me Your Majesty Yes! You guys headed to Hotbox? Carla's paranoid she's gonna see Jacque there, so probably not.
I can't believe she pretended not to know me when we all lined up at the end.
She's a hetero-flexible pillow queen.
What did you expect? Um, not for her to literally use me and then throw me away.
There's nothing worse than a goldfish.
- (LAUGHS) - (CHUCKLES) Yeah.
What's a what's a goldfish? I'll, uh, explain it at the bar.
Your mother and I were two peas in a pod back in the day.
I really wanted to see how much you resembled her.
Dead ringer, really.
I don't see any Leon.
Yeah yeah, um, actually, that's one of the reasons I'm here.
I recently learned some news about him.
About him using his own swimmers at his clinic? Doesn't surprise me.
- Why not? - Never cared for the guy.
(CAT GROWLS, MEOWS) Your mother and I were big rule-breakers.
Did she ever show you the tattoo we got? No, I I didn't even know that she had a tattoo.
She was so against it when I wanted to get mine.
She regretted it instantly, talked about removing it, but I like mine.
- It suits me.
- (CHUCKLES) Oh, there was this lake we used to swim in late at night, nude.
Lots of rocks, but we didn't care.
We felt like we were invincible.
We'd blast our music and dance.
My mom wasn't much of a dancer.
Are you kidding me? Your mother could have danced professionally, almost did, in fact.
There was a time (STAMMERS) "There was a time", what? There was this dance troupe, had a studio in a church downtown somewhere, Saint Paul's maybe.
There was a time she wanted to run away and join them.
I I didn't know any of this.
I when I wanted to take up dancing when I was a kid, she said it was not for me.
It's too painful, I imagine, the road not traveled and all.
So what happened? Why'd you lose touch? Leon happened.
When Sarah married him, she made herself smaller, shrunk herself to fit into his world.
I just I hated that.
We argued about it a lot.
Eventually, she'd had it with me and my opinions.
Do you know if, um, she cheated on Leon? It wouldn't surprise me.
In a room that's suffocating, you're bound to open a window.
- Cheers, ladies! - We killed it today.
To the Dixie Kicks! (ALL CHEER) That's just the beginning.
Crushed it.
(POP MUSIC PLAYING) So has everyone here, at some point, dated everyone else here? You want to be part of this world, you got to stay friends with every woman you've been in a relationship with or even made out with once.
You're exaggerating, obviously.
(LAUGHS) Maybe a little.
Will you please tell me what a goldfish is? A gold star is a lesbian who's never been with a man, so a goldfish is Me.
- You asked.
- Okay.
- I didn't want to say anything.
- Got it.
So cheers to that.
Right, great, learning so much today.
Mm.
Ah.
Okay, what do you want to hear? I got four songs for a dollar.
I don't know, you know, just, like, some Melissa Etheridge or, um Ani DiFranco, Tracy Chapman.
You don't have to name an artist that you think "our kind" like.
What do you like? I'm looking at what I like.
Okay.
(LAUGHS) Mm.
(GASPS) Okay.
Oh, okay.
Okay, that's that's a little aggressive for me.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry.
It seems like you have a girl that you're into, and it feels like you're kissing me to prove that you want to be with her.
You see how that's, like, a little unfair to me? I have no idea what I'm doing.
I am so sorry.
If you were my girl, I would never push you to go and make out with other women.
That's not a lesbian thing.
It's an insecure thing.
(CAR HORNS HONK IN DISTANCE) Hey.
Good workout? Roxy, you scared the crap out of me.
I do that too, my keys between my fingers.
It makes a decent weapon.
I'm not like you, Roxy.
I'm not brave.
Come on, I've seen you back tuck on a balance beam.
Yeah, after you did it first.
Look, I can't come forward like you.
Okay? I can't be that person that you Google and the sexual abuse scandal is the first thing that comes up.
You don't have to let it define you.
But it will.
It'll be the only thing anybody knows about me.
I can't have that.
You know what keeps me up at night? The younger girls.
I mean, if we don't say anything, who's gonna protect them? I know that it can be scary to come forward alone, but you don't have to.
We can do it together.
We can be a team.
We're not a team anymore.
I'm sorry, Roxy.
(SOMBER MUSIC) Chamomile.
(CHUCKLES) Thanks.
To what do I owe this unexpected visit? Do you know a Patti Fletcher? I do, your mother's cousin, big personality, big hair.
Yeah, that's her.
I never met her, because she and Mom drifted apart? She didn't like me, never liked me.
She, um I found her to be quite pretentious, actually.
I thought she judged me unfairly.
She thought that I wasn't good for your mom.
She was a bit of a wild card, never married.
She told me that mom was a dancer, and I guess she was pretty serious about it.
She even was thinking about pursuing it professionally.
I I guess she had these big dreams that I didn't even know about.
Honestly, Julia, I'm just a little too preoccupied with the present to be dredging up the past.
- So - Right.
I'll I'll figure it out on my own.
(EXHALES DEEPLY) Your mom had a world I wasn't a part of.
She went to a dance studio.
She felt a kind of kinship with the people there.
And on those nights when she'd come home, she was different like she left a piece of her heart there.
Sorry.
Uh, it's not much, but It's something.
I tried to devour her whole in the bathroom.
(LAUGHS) As naive as I am about the whole lesbian thing, I'm pretty sure it wasn't a turn-on.
- (LAUGHS) - It's not funny.
I'm sorry.
Did you enjoy it at all? No.
I embarrassed myself.
I came on so strong, all because I was trying to prove something to you.
Babe.
I risked so much to be here with you.
What makes you think I want to run off and make out with some stranger? All I think about is kissing you.
When you told me you were falling for me, I I felt a kind of happiness I just I don't allow myself to feel anymore.
The kind that if it's ever taken away Why would it be taken away? I guess a part of me just couldn't believe that you were choosing me.
And then Margaret made it worse.
Margaret? Oh, she gave me this cautionary tale about getting caught up with someone who only had one experience.
Wait.
This this whole thing is about your ex-wife? She was just being protective and And still holding on, apparently.
I'm gonna get some air.
Edie.
We both know that relationships with our exes it's complicated.
Yeah, but you could have been honest about where it was coming from.
You made me look like a fool.
(DOOR SLAMS) NICK: Okay, are you gonna do two at once? (LAUGHS) (ENGINE RUMBLING) Hey, honey, why don't you go inside and help your mom? What in the hell are you doing here? You're lucky I saw you before my wife did.
Are you crazy? Crazy? No, I don't think so.
I don't think I've ever felt more sane.
What you did was messed up, Nick.
Okay, we need to go talk somewhere else, okay? My kids are in there.
You should have thought about your kids before you were taking advantage of innocent young girls.
Roxy, you had no complaints when I was giving you everything that you wanted.
I never forced you to be intimate with me.
You gave that up freely.
Freely? I was a child.
You took advantage of my trust and my vulnerability and my brokenness.
Just admit what you did! Why are you trying to ruin both of our lives? I'm not! The gym, everything those other girls are working for, you're putting that at stake.
If you destroy that, it's on you, not me.
- I just want an apology.
- For what? Because you fell in love with me? Huh? For my generosity and my kindness? For your mistakes? Go screw yourself.
Truly.
(LAUGHS) What do you want, huh? Do want to break my wife's heart? Because she's the nicest woman in the world.
I bet.
(SNIFFLES) Are you here to tear apart my family? Is that the goal? I'm just trying to tell the truth.
Oh, "the truth".
Here's the truth.
You are not gonna turn my life into the disaster that's become of yours.
Get off my property before I call the police.
(KNOCK AT DOOR) Oh, did I forget daylight savings again? - I'm terrible at that.
- I'm two hours early.
- Oh, welcome.
- Thanks.
I'm actually here to, um I'm here to talk to Olivia.
Oh.
She and I have more in common than she thinks.
I mean, I understand why she hates me.
I would have hated me.
And she's going through a lot, and I get it.
I just need the opportunity to convince her of that, you know.
She's even feistier than usual, but if you want to have a crack I'm going in.
I'll be right here if you need me.
Okay.
All right.
(KNOCK AT DOOR) I'm working.
Is there something you need? Can I talk to you about something that happened to me today that I'm hoping you'll understand? Okay.
So, um I lost my mom too, about eight years ago.
And I very recently found out all of these things about her that I had no idea about when she was alive.
Like, she had a tattoo, and she was this total free spirit.
And, um, I would I I feel like I would give anything to talk to her to ask her why she felt like she needed to hide so many aspects of who she was.
I know you lost your mom too.
(SOLEMN MUSIC) I know what it's like to want to ask her these things.
I know what it's like to want to ask your mom these questions, these really important questions.
You know it's actually really different.
I'm 16.
You're like, what, 40? Well, no.
I'm sorry your mom got a tattoo and didn't tell you, but I can never tell my mom about my first kiss.
She won't be able to help me pick out a prom dress or see me graduate or help me pick a college or see me become the badass environmentalist I will eventually be.
So no, we are not the same.
One dead mom doesn't equal another.
I know.
I'm sorry.
Your mom got to watch you grow up and become whatever this is.
Now can you please, like, disappear? Suffice to say she was pretty upset.
It wasn't exactly the hug and feel-good moment that I was hoping for.
I'm so sorry.
You know, Luke's grief has always been right there, but Olivia just keeps it all inside.
I never know what's going on with her.
It's really hard.
Yeah, I know that game pretty well.
You know, give her some time.
You know, circle back and in a few weeks, maybe she'll be more open.
You and I both know that's not gonna happen.
She's made a decision about me.
But she's not the one deciding here.
You're my girlfriend, not hers.
She's a teenager.
She thinks she has power, but she doesn't.
She lost her mom at such a tough and fragile time in her life.
And she needs you.
She needs all of you, and I can't stand in the way of that.
I won't.
This can't be happening.
I can't have met someone as amazing as you and not get to be with you.
I happened to be up all night for reasons that are none of your business.
So I read his file.
(EXHALES DEEPLY) You know, during my fancy law school education, I feel in love with the principle of blind justice.
I I found a poetry in legal language that was so invigorating, I couldn't wait to practice.
And then I got my first job as a clerk, and I saw how it really goes down, how hopelessly flawed and deeply unfair the system really is.
And so I thought, "Screw it.
If it's already rigged, I might as well make money off it, right? I'll go work for some high-profile white shoe law firm, and I'll take care of myself and I'll take care of my mom and I'll be a kick-ass, self-made black woman at the top of her game in a rich white man's world".
But when I look at who I am and what I've done You don't feel proud.
I think I can do something for Miles.
I think I can do something meaningful for him.
It's a drop in the bucket, but It's a start.
Uh-uh.
No, don't smile.
You don't get to own this one.
You know, you're gonna find somebody as great as Donovan.
You will.
You really think so? No, there's no one out there.
Everyone is terrible.
Everybody has baggage, exes, kids.
Nobody's a blank slate.
Yeah, an ex-wife is one thing, but kids are different.
- It's not fair.
- Nothing's fair.
It really isn't fair.
I hate to break up this little pity party of ours, but, um, Rox, I got you something.
- Drumroll, please.
- Just give it to her.
- Can I just - Not a drumroll? - Can I look? - Okay.
Thanks.
Hey, nice.
I'd say you didn't have to, but you kind of had to.
I know.
They managed to save your SD card, so all of your info should be accessible.
Um, you know, I think the last thing I need right now is to see what they're saying about me on social media.
Can you just can you look for me? I don't really have the strength.
(CELL PHONE CHIMING) Whoa, Rox, I think you need to see this.
No, I can't.
I know that everybody hates me.
They're gonna say I'm a liar and that I'm a stupid, crazy bitch.
"Thank you for having the courage to jump before I did, #TeamRoxy".
Give me that.
Hey, that's from Nina.
Holy crap, you guys.
"Roxy, you're the bravest person I know.
Thank you for telling your story, #TeamRoxy".
I think you're trending.
"Because you came forward, Roxy, it gave me the courage to own what actually happened and realize it wasn't my fault, #TeamRoxy".
"I used to be such a fan of yours as a gymnast, but now I'm an even bigger fan of you as a human being.
Thanks for speaking your truth, #TeamRoxy".
Hey, this one's from Izzy's mom, Natalie.
"Believe women, #TeamRoxy".
WOMAN: Today, every woman who's ever been taken advantage of is on #TeamRoxy.
WOMAN: I can't keep silent anymore.
Thank you for giving me the courage to speak.
WOMAN: Thank you for being brave, #TeamRoxy.
WOMAN: This is what champions are made of: talent and courage.
WOMAN: You are not alone, #TeamRoxy.
WOMAN: Truth is truth.
I believe women.
I believe Roxy Doyle and WOMAN: Your courage inspired me to share my truth.
- WOMAN: I'm not alone anymore.
- WOMAN: Your story is my story too.
WOMEN: #TeamRoxy.

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