Big Love (2006) s05e03 Episode Script

Marge, would you like a blessing? - Close your eyes.
- Nicki: I caught her trying to give Margene a blessing.
She doesn't have the authority.
She knows that.
She has to be brought back in line.
The wine, the dancing and this Adaleen: My pregnancy is not sustainable without aggressive hormone therapy.
( Whispers ) Why can't you just write me a prescription? What happened over here? I put in a work order for some maintenance with the u.
E.
B.
( Sighs ) Nicki: Dating before you're 16 keeps you from other experiences that will help you meet your true eternal partner.
This place is no different from a compound.
You are quitting home plus and you are not seeing that boy! Cara Lynn is impressionable.
And as her mother, I have to protect her.
Nicki, the only thing Cara Lynn needs protecting from is you.
Bill: What's going on here? There's new legislation on the table to hunt us down and wipe us out.
That's what he's won us.
( Theme music playing ) Home, is this my home? been starting over bathe in the water home, is this my home? been starting over bathe in the water home, is this my home? been starting over bathe in the water.
Ethan Phillips, please.
Bill Henrickson.
Please leave him a message I called.
Thank you.
Stephen Sola, please.
Bill Henrickson calling.
Well, will he be back before the holidays? All right, please have him call me when he returns.
- Thank you.
- Let it go.
Nothing you can do till after new year's.
You may be deeply invested in your fate, but everyone else is off celebrating the holidays.
So you people do celebrate Christmas? Of course.
Well, I thought I had read somewhere that your prophet shut it down and you only celebrate Joseph Smith's birthday instead.
You still don't understand, do you? I'm not of the compound.
I'm trying to clean up the compounds.
There's a whole new face of polygamy.
You know, we follow the same Bible as you do, the same book of mormon.
- ( Laughter, chatter ) - ( Party favors squawking ) Those phi delts from the u having their Christmas party in the rotunda.
What are you still doing here? Shelley's back in the hospital, so Thought I'd take advantage of the peace and quiet.
I'm sorry to hear that.
Senator-elect, have a restful holiday.
You're gonna need it come January.
( Buttons clicking ) ( Dogs barking "jingle bells" ) ( Squealing, laughing ) It's all right, Thomas.
Papa's here.
It's just a little nip.
His skin's not broken.
Why weren't you watching him, Lura? You failed to protect your children.
This is a stain on my intentions for our new home.
- ( Kids yelling ) - Stop that satanic howling! - ( Music stops ) - It wasn't porkchop's fault.
Sometimes he plays too rough.
I'll work with him, father.
It won't happen again.
This has nothing to do with the dog.
Your mind is unfocused and your heart is full of distraction.
Well, I'm bloody well trying.
I have a good mind to reassign your children to one of your sisterwives until you get yourself right.
I s-strive to be in compliance with your wishes, father, but I'm lost.
If you can't learn to please me, your future is not bright.
I wait for you every night.
- ( Dog whimpers ) - No! Round up all the dogs.
Poison them.
( Grunts ) - ( Car door closes ) - Bill: Honey.
Whoa whoa whoa whoa.
- Let me give you a hand there.
- Oh! - Here.
- Thanks.
Hey, you got a lot of this stuff.
Took a leap and signed on at premier platinum level.
- More Christmas decorations? - Uh, Nicki.
How are the stores? There's still protestors out front.
Here, I'll give you a hand.
I got it.
How are you doing? Better.
Still not 100%? No, not yet.
Well, we'll get you there.
Do you know yesterday was the shortest day of the year? The darkest.
Now we're turning to the light.
We're gonna have the best Christmas ever.
By the way, I need your driver's license.
Can you leave it out on the counter? What do you need it for? It's a surprise.
Why don't you close the garage door and I'll lock the one to the house? Bill.
Please come up and have Christmas Eve dinner with us.
We're going caroling and we're entering a big decorate your house competition on the block.
We're having an old-fashioned storybook Christmas.
Adaleen: I'll be too tired.
I've got meetings at the county offices all morning with all my caseworkers.
I'm officially indigent.
Well, I'm so glad that's working out.
Yes, there's benefits for low-income pregnant women.
There's a $200 emergency food assistance program because I'm destitute.
Uh, there's utility assistance.
There's even a welfare avoidance program that gives me $350 a month to stay off welfare.
Can't get my hands on the moolah for at least a week, so I've asked Albert to give me a small stipend to tide me over.
Don't take one penny from that man.
I can get you a little cash to get you by.
I'd be happy to.
Mama? Oh, it's those darn hormones.
Please come for Christmas.
Spend it with us.
I'll be fine.
I I'm really looking forward to the new year and to bringing another righteous warrior for heavenly father into the world.
- Merry Christmas, darling.
- ( Beeps ) Well, it's not regular fat.
It's a special fat from around the kidneys.
It has a rich flavor and a high melting point.
- Is fat safe to eat? - Oh no, not very, but we only have it once a year.
And when you get all the labels off them, we put the cans in the water to sterilize them.
I used to love suet pudding as a girl.
Melted beef suet and and sour milk and raisins and molasses all boiled together.
( Murmurs ) Barb, I couldn't find your new skates.
Uh, well, they might be up in the bedroom.
Honey, I'm a little worried about your mother.
Bill: It's okay, Barb.
I told her the work on her cabin won't be done till after the first.
- She'll be spending Christmas with us.
- No.
I mean I think you need to take a look at her.
I am.
Actually, bill, you've been avoiding her.
Just don't get angry, but I called Dr.
Herman's office and they are able to squeeze her in tomorrow before they close for the holidays.
- Now I want you to take her.
- Thank you.
What is that? - It's going to be our plum pudding.
- Where are the plums? All right, Benny, you're old enough to know that there are no plums in plum pudding.
Did you speak with the recruiter this morning? I was really tired from finals.
I will in January.
All right, do you want us to call a family council and we can talk about your options? We just want to help you with a plan.
- You do need a plan, Benny.
- I know.
But, guys, what was your plan at 18? It's the change of plans that concerns us.
- You just always said you wanted the Navy.
- ( Music playing ) Now you're not sure that you're still interested.
Lois, Lois, could you turn that down? It's "Navy blue.
" I know her.
I know her! All right, I understand, but could you turn that down? - Is this rancid? - Navy blue I'm as blue as I can be.
Darn that butcher.
Don't worry.
I'll take care of it.
- ( Doorbell rings ) - I got it.
( Vocalizing ) - Heather: Can I come in? - Aaron: Yeah.
Okay, thanks.
Ben, hi.
Heather? Wow.
You look you don't look like you.
Mm, a new haircut, I guess.
You just look different.
- Sarah's not here.
- I know.
It's it's a bummer, but I have just been thinking about you guys a lot since the election and I wanted to say hi, so I baked some gingerbread.
- Merry Christmas.
- Thanks.
- How's college? - It's good.
Um, b.
Y.
U.
Is a hard school, but it's worth it.
It's fun.
Do you want to go ice skating with us later? Okay.
Margene: See, it's not actually about selling.
It's about signing up other people to sell, who sign up more people to sell, and we get a cut of all of those orders.
- Michael Sainte is huge, Margene.
- I know.
I met him my last day at v.
S.
N.
He's our Utah Warren buffett and Elvis rolled into one.
- ( Laughs ) - My sister-in-law sold his Nahjie juice.
He's sponsoring that huge soccer stadium that's been in the news.
Mm-hmm, exactly.
So you'll technically be part of my downline.
But then we'll build you a downline too.
- This fruitcake is so delicious.
- Sam's club.
- Can you believe it? - Hmm.
We're cutting back this year.
Carl's been looking for work for five months.
- The unemployment's run out.
- ( Knocking on door ) - Pam? - Hi, honey! - Oh.
- Margie's helping me build my downline.
- Mm-hmm.
- How much did you spend? You've gotta spend money to make money.
- Come on in, Carl.
- No, I can't really stay.
Pammy, we've gotta head over to aunt Bonnie's.
Okay, hon.
I'll be right there.
I'll be outside.
Merry Christmas, Marge.
Merry Christmas.
Hey, we're gonna do fantastic.
I'm fine.
It's just A rough Christmas is all.
I'm awfully depressed.
Carl's depressed.
Everything's basically great.
There's a lot of problems, especially in the fireworks department.
Oh, Pam, every marriage goes through that at one time or another.
- Even you and bill? - Of course.
And the holidays can be hard.
I don't know how you do it when there's just two people in a marriage.
God, I am sorry.
It really just must have been something I ate.
You want to just finish your proof? My stomach really hurts.
All right, miss Walker, you can finish up next time.
All right.
Thank your mother for the cookies.
Wait, I have something for you too before you go.
Go ahead, open it.
I think you'll like Barbara McClintock.
She demonstrated how genes are associated with who we are.
They're associated with who we are, Cara Lynn, but they don't dictate who we become.
A whole lot more goes into that.
McClintock's father was a struggling family physician and she grew up to win the nobel prize.
Thank you.
I'm gonna work hard.
I want you to know that.
- I got your text.
- Yes.
Your mother's turning us into criminals.
She doesn't mean to.
She's just kind of high strung.
Do you wanna go downtown? - Okey-dokey, dominokey.
- ( Laughs ) Sorry.
Who says stuff like that? I gotta be home by 5:00.
In the name of Jesus Christ I bless this good food which strengthens our bodies and the ladies of the house who prepared it.
- Ben? - On behalf of the Aaronic priesthood, dad and I would like to give a special salute to womanhood.
Heavenly father has assigned us as men and women separate but equally sacred responsibilities.
Ben: We recognize that without righteous mothers and daughters to nurture us, heavenly father's plans can't come to fruition.
( Aaronic ) Okay, thank you.
So, Barb, Nicki, Margene, Cara Lynn, Nell, mother, always remember that not just during Christmas when the fruits of your labors and baking and whatnot are so evident, but year round, that as beloved daughters of heavenly father you're very special and entitled to the guidance of righteous priesthood holders.
And Cara Lynn and Nell, remember, too, that as daughters of heavenly father, you also have free will, your own personal relationship with him and the divine ability to discern the truth of the gospels in your testimony.
Whoa, you put your left arm in, your left arm out in, out, in, out, you shake it all about you do the hokey-pokey and you turn around that's what it's all about hokey hokey-pokey hokey hokey-pokey.
What was that little rumpus at dinner all about? I had something to say, so I said it.
Why would heavenly father give us strong minds and powerful faith if he didn't trust us to use them? Honestly, Barb any chance to stir the pot.
I ink I left my mittens in the car.
- Do they fit? - Yep.
I'm glad.
They were mine.
Bill: Wayne, your brothers are a couple of naturals.
I used to have double runners when I was a boy.
Come on, get out there.
- Margie.
- Hmm? Don't forget I still want your license.
- Oh, bill, I think I lost it.
- You think or you know? I looked in my wallet and it wasn't there.
Well, Santa still needs it, so I want you to go down to the d.
M.
V.
First thing in the morning and get a replacement, okay? You seem more confident or something.
I think I get confidence from finally being where I think I'm supposed to be, you know? You seeing anyone? Yeah, I've had a few dates with a couple guys.
How's your family doing? Seems like everyone's going after your dad like piggy from "lord of the flies.
" We're pretty proud of him.
It's hard right now, but you can't go through life pretending not to be who you are.
And who are you, Ben? L.
D.
S.
Guys at your age are preparing for their missions.
I finished up mid-semester, so my last day of school was yesterday.
- Oh oh.
- Are you okay? - Barb: Ben, Heather.
- How you holding up? - Fine.
- Oh! Heather's really blossomed.
She got Ben out on the ice.
Those were great comments at dinner.
Thank you.
Do you want to say anything more? - Is there a problem? - No problem.
I just hope we're not settling into a place where we feel the need to constantly one-up each other.
Well, I don't want that either.
'Cause if you're feeling I'm not enough - or that my guidance is lacking - Bill.
There's no hidden agenda.
Man over p.
A.
: Time to grab your sweetheart and take her for a spin around the rink.
Couples skate.
It's a couples skate only.
Shall we? ( Shrieking, laughing ) Oh no, bill.
It's our family night.
It's now or never.
( Music playing ) No more carefree laughter - I'm uncomfortable.
- We all are.
Chin up, Margene.
See? It's not so bad.
Just don't let go of each other.
Knowing me, knowing you uh-huh there is nothing we can do knowing me, knowing you uh-huh we just have to face it this time we're through.
( Knocking on door ) If you can't do the $300, I could make do with $200.
- I got a call from the county this morning - Yes? Verifying your address for the women, infants and children program.
What's this? - What is this? - Albert.
You said the baby was gone.
Not exactly.
You said this monstrosity was gone.
- Please - I am purifying this compound to make us worthy in heavenly father's favor.
I have nowhere else to go.
This baby and this house is all I have! No.
No! No.
You are impure, unworthy and unholy.
I have kept all of the covenants.
You are unclean to dwell among the righteous and unfit for resurrection at the end of days.
I only did what was asked of me.
I'm sorry! Please! I am sorry! You are a cold and deceitful woman.
Pack your things and go.
Father, she's left.
- Who's left? - Lura.
She'd never leave me.
She's confused.
Find her.
Get her.
Go! Pack.
To your knowledge, has your mother suffered any strokes lately? - No, not at all.
- Has she complained of any headaches or migraines? No, but she wouldn't.
She doesn't like to complain or show vulnerability.
Why, what's going on? I'm sorry to tell you this, but your mother is suffering from a fair to moderate amount of dementia.
Dementia? You mean Alzheimer's? Possibly, but not necessarily.
I gave her a quick mini cog-screening test and I asked her to draw a clock with the hands set at 10 past 11:00.
Could be Alzheimer's or huntington's or Parkinson's, or even aphasia or a b12 deficiency.
Oh, bill.
She wants to put her through all kinds of tests and scans at university hospital after new year's.
I'm so sorry.
How's she doing with the news? Bill? She doesn't know? I mean, bill, you have to tell her.
- Not now, I don't.
- Well, it's her life.
- She needs to know.
- Barb, it'll destroy her.
I'm not gonna ruin what could be her last Christmas.
It can wait.
All I can think is there'll be a day when she won't even know who I am.
She's always been so indestructible.
Let me help you.
I'm strong, bill.
Let me shoulder some of the burden.
You are such a blessing to me.
What would I do without you? You know, it felt so good to have responsibility at the casino, to feel that I had something unique to offer.
Let's find more areas where we can make that happen.
It means so much to me to hear you say that.
Do you ever doubt it? No.
No.
I'm gonna make some changes at church tonight.
I think you'll be pleased with them.
Oh, and the butcher's gonna call this afternoon with the suet.
Thank you.
Let's hope these make a difference at the casino.
Albert has no authority.
Albert's a false prophet.
Mama, don't you understand? My life, my beliefs, all my good works, building up juniper creek shoulder to shoulder with your father This Christmas is your new beginning, our new beginning.
- I have no one.
- You'll start over.
You are a survivor.
Where's the woman who can work any situation to her advantage? Bill called.
I'm so sorry.
- What can I do to help? - Thank you, Margene.
- My poor mother.
- Cara Lynn: Here you go.
Oh, thank you, sweetheart.
I'm gonna go pray for a while.
Gram, have you heard anything from my father? Has he called you recently? Um, no, sweetheart.
I did get a card not long ago from Mexico.
I think that's where it was.
Definitely.
And he's well.
Is he mad at me or angry? Oh, I'm sure he isn't.
Nicki, I'm so sorry.
I hate to ask you this right now, but I need a driver's license.
Bill's breathing down my neck for it and I lost mine.
And I can't go get another one because I have so many parking tickets.
Margene, that's unacceptable.
- Any little scandal could hurt us.
- Please you get rid of those tickets right away.
Please, could you or your mom just make me a new one? Margie, it's not as easy as you think.
And I doubt mama just carries the equipment around in her van.
Could you ask her? You just pay your tickets.
Bill has many enemies now.
- ( Drill whirring ) - What are you doing? Putting together the nativity for the front yard.
- What's up? - What do you know about my father? Nothing.
They stop talking about him whenever I come into the room.
My mom says that he ran away to evade arrest.
And I've talked to all my family and they don't know where he is.
I mean, the whole thing is just weird.
What do you think's happening? I really don't know.
Will you cover for me tomorrow? Back me up, say you took me shopping? Sure, I guess.
It depends.
What are you gonna do? I'm gonna find out where he is.
Santa baby slip a sable under the tree - for me - Man: Right here.
Been an awful good girl My ice cream bar.
Austin: The tribe wanted to go in a different direction.
And you shouldn't even be here until we're through with arbitration.
Yes, I know, but we wanted to make a gesture of conciliation.
Barb: Look, we invested our hearts in this.
You can't just take it away from us.
The place smells to high heaven of cigarette smoke.
You've made yourselves quite unwelcome up here.
This new concept is keeping this place in business and it's doing quite well.
Here's your check for your percentage of the revenue.
Whoa, wait a second.
$1,700? That can't be for the whole quarter.
- That's impossible.
- Well, you can take that up with the arbitration too.
Nice of you guys to drop by.
Leave the plants on the bar on your way out.
Next year I could be just as good if you'll check off my Christmas list Santa baby, I want a yacht.
I testify that our lord Jesus Christ is a resurrected being of absolute love and compassion.
I testify that Christ gave his life that we may live eternally with him and our father in heaven and with our beloved families.
- In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
- Congregation: Amen.
I see we have several new faces with us here tonight.
Welcome.
I usually have the honor of blessing the sacrament, but tonight I'd like to start a new tradition, try something different.
Ben, would you bless this special sacrament? O God, the eternal father, we ask thee in the name of thy son, Jesus Christ, to bless and sanctify this bread.
( Knocking on door ) ( Dogs barking ) ( Doorbell ringing ) ( Knocking on door ) I didn't know where else to go.
Don't trust her.
She's here to get mama.
You're here to hurt mama.
No, I left.
I've left the creek.
What happened, lura? Why did you leave? He's killed all the dogs on the compound.
He threatened to reassign my children.
I don't believe you.
He's changed.
He's frozen inside.
Please, I can't lose my children.
She's in need and we're gonna help.
But it's not safe for them here, or for us.
What if Alby comes looking for her? I'm getting dressed and taking them to the shelter.
Mary Catherine: This way.
Okay.
Nice beds for you guys.
Here we go.
Here's your new place.
Thomas, you're the oldest.
You get to pick bunks.
I'll be right back.
How fast can the cops get here if there's a problem? Only takes a few minutes.
We have a direct line to the dispatcher.
Only takes we don't go through 911.
After the holidays, I can get with the state attorney to help out with protection and custody.
Until then, we've gotta keep an eye out.
Unfortunately, I have more experience with abusive husbands than I care to recount.
This is a special variety.
No one on that compound has ever left a man of her husband's importance.
We'll give her special care and we'll see you tomorrow.
We don't want to hurt you, Santa claus, so come along quietly.
What's cookin', good lookings? Gram, I can't see Santa.
- Boys: Yeah! - Oh, you wanna see Santa, do ya? - Yeah.
- Santa, Santa, Santa, Santa! ( Music playing over radio ) O little town of Bethlehem how still we see thee lie.
Oh, Gary, I don't know what to say.
I saw it at the mall.
I thought maybe you'd like it.
- How's it look? - Beautiful.
( Siren wails past ) Are you nervous or something? - We just passed a cop.
- So? So I don't have my driver's license, just a learner's permit.
I mean, we're all going to perdition anyway, so what the heck? Man: Welcome to telly's.
Happy holidays.
- How may I help you? - We wanna see Santa.
Uh, excuse me? Santa.
Santa.
We're here to see Santa.
Gram, let's just go home.
Ma'am, maybe if you try thmall.
What's wrong with you? Do you think I'm some kind of fool? Is that what you think in there? Come on, let's go home, gram.
- Yeah, let's go home.
- Yeah, I don't yeah.
( Car honks ) Man: Come on, lady! Move it! Where is Santa? You tell me right now.
( Honking ) - Guns, bill? - You peeked.
You deliberately went out of your way to find them, then you deliberately unwrapped them.
I wanted it to be a surprise.
Well, the streak continues.
Last year you got me an electric razor.
You got me a curling iron.
You got me a scale while I was pregnant.
I thought they'd be fun.
And not just the guns, the permits and shooting lessons that I thought we could all take together.
- ( Oven beeps ) - Nicki, could you please take my pepparkakor out of the oven and rotate my spritz? I specifically asked for a washer and dryer, something practical.
- Guns are practical.
- Barb: How, bill? How are guns practical? I haven't had one since my bag was stolen and I'm fine.
The world's an uncertain place, and if ever I wasn't here, I want you guys to be able to take care of yourselves.
- Why wouldn't you be here? - It's just precautionary, Margie.
Just in case.
- In case we need to shoot someone.
- No.
- In case anything happens to me.
- What's gonna happen to you? - I'm not gonna shoot anyone.
- No one is.
I already have a gun anyway.
If this is why you need my driver's license, forget it.
- You're not gonna get it.
- Enough! That's enough.
I'm sorry you hate my gift idea, but they're paid for.
It's what you're getting.
And if this, of all christmasses, with your mother and mine, the trials we're facing, the wars overseas if this is about nothing more than gifts when we should be counting our blessings and, Margene, I am tired of asking.
I want your driver's license or your birth certificate.
I don't care, but I want it now! - ( Phone ringing ) - ( Bill sighs ) - ( Phone beeps ) - Barb: Hello? - We're lost.
- Wayne? - Wayne? - Where is he? - He's lost.
- Lost? Honey, where are you? Wayne: I grabbed gram's phone.
We've been driving around.
God, please, stop lying to me! - We're at a restaurant.
- Can you look for an adult? - Okay, can you do that? - ( Horn honking ) Man: What's wrong with you? I did not say one word to you.
- I think so.
- Please stop lying to me! Why won't why won't anyone tell me? Oh dear God, where is Santa? - Mom! - Mom.
Are you okay? Wayne? - Am I in trouble? - What happened? I'm sorry.
I just I'm not sure.
She's confused.
I hope you don't have to write up a report.
You're that polygamist senator, aren't you? Not today.
Today, I'm just a father and a son.
I get it.
I'll do my best to keep this off the blotter.
- Thank you, officer.
- Merry Christmas, buddy.
- Is everything all right? - It's all right, mom.
It's all taken care of.
We just gotta go.
Can we go home? Let's go home.
Thanks again.
This was his clinic.
No one said anything about a fire.
Something's happened to him.
But you said you've talked to him.
I just made that up.
( Phone ringing ) Alby: Hello? Lura? My darling? I'm sorry I had to leave you at christmastime.
I can't tell you how much it gladdens my heart to hear from you, lura.
Are you coming back? To think of you rejecting the righteous path to live among the filthy, amoral gentiles you're a good woman.
I know that.
You and I are not perfect, but we can turn our marriage around with the help of heavenly father.
Do you want to be an outcast, an apostate? No.
You'll never see your parents again or your brothers or sisters, in this life or the next.
I should think that would be too much to endure.
( Beeps ) ( Sighs ) ( Nell coos ) ( Knocking ) Senator We hope your wife is feeling better.
Group: the first Noel the angels did say was to certain poor Shepherds in fields as they lay in fields where they lay keeping their sheep on a cold winter's night that was so deep Noel Noel Noel Noel born is the king of Israel.
I'll be home for Christmas Heather: I looked up bicams and unicams and I had to conclude that the unicameral legislature just makes for more efficient lawmaking.
That sounds like a very interesting course, Heather.
Mm.
Honey, why are you so quiet? - What's the matter with you? - I'm fine, mama.
Thank you, everyone, for having me here.
Bill: It's a joy having you with us this Christmas, Adaleen.
It's a very tough time for me, and I'm so grateful to heavenly father for my daughter, my grandchildren, for all of you.
We're glad you're here, grandma.
- I'm grateful too.
- B: Did you like the lamb, gram? - Are you all right? - I'm fine, thanks.
What exactly are you doing here? It is Christmas Eve.
My parents are in Mexico city right now picking up baby Ruby.
- It's my new little sister.
- Oh, that's wonderful.
( Chuckles ) This plum pudding is delicious, by the way.
Oh, thank you, Heather.
It's a family tradition.
There are no plums.
It's made with all fat.
- Ha.
- Take some to Aaron and Lester.
By nebo's lonely Mountain on this side Jordan's wave there land, there lies in the land, there come on, gram.
Let's go look at the tree.
- ( Phone ringing ) - That's Sarah and Teenie.
I wanna talk to them too, mom.
- ( Phone beeps ) - Hello? ( Gasps ) Hi, sweetie! Margie? Honey, come sit by me.
I'll beome for Christmas you can plan on me - Hi.
- What is it, honey? Hey, what's going on? I have to tell you something.
I found my driver's license.
- You found it.
That's great.
- It wasn't lost.
I didn't want to give it to you because when we got married, I was really 16.
Barb: Bill? What do you mean? I lied about my age.
I wasn't 18 when we got married.
I was 16.
- No, you weren't.
- Yes, I was.
Um, hold on.
What is it? You were only 16? But your mother said you were 18.
Because I told her to.
But you signed on for medical at work.
No one looked.
And then I didn't think it was a big deal at the time, but then I realized it was a big deal, so I've been too afraid to tell.
And I didn't want to hurt anybody because I love you all so much.
Sarah: Mom, where are you? Where's dad? Your dad will have to call you girls back.
Okay.
You are aware that the legal age of consent is 18? Congratulations, Margene.
You've just ruined Christmas.
Home for Christmas you can plan on me.
( Door opens ) - What happened to my father? - Nothing I'm aware of.
His clinic is burnt to the ground.
- Yes.
He did it.
- Why? To hide the evidence.
The evidence of what? - Of what he was doing.
- What was he doing? I don't know experimenting.
- Please, leave me alone! - No, tell me.
- Leave me alone, Cara Lynn.
- Experimenting with what? - Tell me.
- With babies, with with conception, with what he put inside me.
What did he put inside you? A monster.
My father is dead, isn't he? ( Nell crying ) - Shh.
- ( Crying continues ) O come all ye faithful joyful and triumphant o come ye o come ye to Bethlehem Okay, uh, Aaron, Lester, let's get these toys home, huh? ( Nell crying ) That can wait until after we get back.
Oh, we're not still going to the shelter? Of course we are.
I'll stay with gram.
I I think I'll stay too.
O come let us adore him o come let us adore him o come let us.
Merry Christmas.
Soup? Thank you, sir.
- Merry Christmas.
- Oh, thank you.
Don't be mad.
Bill didn't know.
I am not mad at him.
Please don't be mad at me either, Barb.
I have struggled alone with this for a while.
Do you know what this turns us into, Margene? What it does to bill? Didn't you ever think of that? No, Barb, I didn't.
- Do you know why? - Oh, please enlighten me.
Because my age never mattered before.
It was just a date on a license, a license that nobody cared about because I wasn't remotely associated with bill or you or the family.
Unmarried mother, unmarried teen mother.
Oh, I care.
Bill cares.
I can't believe we're here after Margie's little stunt.
Well, I wish I knew how I could go forward, but I don't.
Oh, I can't expect you to understand how I feel, but I me? Listen, Barb, I was against that marriage from the start.
I voted against it.
You were all for it.
So spare me the indignation.
Your anger is between you and you.
- Man: Here you are.
- Woman: Thank you.
- Enjoy.
- Thank you.
- I'm sorry.
- I know, Margie.
I'm so sorry for what I've done.
All I wanted was to be a member of this family.
It's not your fault, Margene.
It's not your fault.
Would you like some soup? - Merry Christmas.
- Thank you.
Please scrape the plates in the garbage.
The Turkey can't go down the disposal.
Cara Lynn, snap out of it.
Things are hard enough already.
It's Christmas.
What's the matter with you? He's dead.
Who? Who's dead? Papa is.
Stop lying to me.
I went to the compound.
- I saw his clinic.
- No.
- I talked to Adaleen.
- I I don't I stop lying to me.
Don't! I didn't tell you because I wanted to protect you.
Your father was not a holy man.
- No.
- He had evil in his heart and he did terrible things.
I grew up insisting that my father was a good man and it almost ruined my life.
Please stop.
- I'm sorry, baby, but you have to hear this.
- Mm-mm.
If I'd accepted what my father was, things would have been different for me.
Your father tried to play God, Cara Lynn.
He tried to do it with me.
He tried to do it with you.
He taught me how to ride a bike.
He taught me how to read.
Why are you trying this family, me, so unmercifully? Are we sinning? Have we strayed? We struggle to keep your commandments, to dwell in love.
Heavenly father, I I can bear any burden, I can endure any trial, but but my family please spare my family these unending punishments.
Bill, bill, come quick.
Alby's got lura.
Let's go home.
Very good.
Here we go.
Alby, no.
Unhand my wife, Nicolette.
You hated papa, but you're becoming worse.
Let her go.
Bill.
You have to let her decide, Nicki.
I'm not leaving until she tells me with her own mouth that she wants to stay in hell among the darkest spirits.
Bill: Lura, listen to me.
You don't have to go.
We can protect you and your children.
- What do you want to do? - Um, I - I don't - Tell me.
- I - She wants to go home.
Then let her say it.
Lura? I don't want to go back.
That's it, Alby.
She stays.
Bill: Now get outta here.
How dare you come between a priesthood holder and his wife and children? Alby.
( Both gasp ) You're not worthy to be anyone's priesthood holder.
I'll tell you what you are.
You are filth.
You're a sinful, shame-faced coward who lives a secret life, who takes out his own self-loathing on innocent women and children.
- You disgust me.
- Bill! That's enough.
Come on.
( Door opens, closes ) Oh, you got you got back early.
- Barb.
- Hmm? Wayne, go in the other room.
She's been, uh I I think there's some leftover plum pudding in the fridge.
Um, I haven't eaten it all.
( Can clatters ) ( Sniffles ) Merry Christmas.
( Laughing ) Mom, come on.
It's gonna be all right.
No, I'm fine.
I'm fine.
Barbara.
( Wind howling ) Here.
We're not holy.
We're all unholy.
No, that's absolutely untrue.
Come on, it's still Christmas.
( Knocking ) I wasn't pure.
I am now.
Heavenly father tests those he holds a special mission for.
Sometimes we only realize his plan through loss.
My darling boy I will never leave you.
I'll take good care of you.