Grey's Anatomy s05e14 Episode Script
Beat Your Heart Out
[# Nikka Costa: Stuck To You.]
[lzzie.]
Come on.
Come on, come on Ow! Damn it.
[Meredith.]
Any first year med student knows that an increased heart rate is a sign of trouble.
- All day of this.
- [Leo.]
Stuck with Stevens.
Why are we in a clinic? l thought we're supposed to be surgeons.
Not today we're not.
Today's gonna be about flu shots.
- And enemas.
- What a colossal waste of time.
Morning.
[Meredith.]
A racing heart could indicate anything [gulps.]
- from a panic disorder - [gasping.]
- Oh, God! Sorry! - No, l'm sorry.
l No, l didn't even look, l'm sorry.
Where? No, no.
l'll leave.
l'll leave.
No.
Sleep.
You've been here all night.
Uh How did you know l've been here all night? [Meredith.]
to something much l just knew.
- much more serious.
- [pager beeping.]
[sighing.]
You should wear your hair up more.
Shows off the back of your neck.
l like the back of your neck.
[door closing.]
[Meredith.]
A heart that flutters or one that skips a beat Hey.
l thought you were sleeping.
- Hunt was in the on-call room.
- You had dirty sex with Hunt? No.
lt's not dirty and it's not sex.
lt's - l don't know what it is.
- could be sign of secret affliction.
- Hey, how's it going? - Oh, my God.
Thank you for asking.
lt's great.
l mean, he's fun and funny.
Even with no sex allowed, we just laugh.
- We talk - Yeah.
l don't want to hear this.
Come on! But you have to! You're the only one who knows.
l'm terrible at keeping secrets.
lt makes me sick.
Alone people don't like to hear about together people.
Even if alone people are alone by choice.
lt's mean.
lt's like bringing a six pack to an AA meeting.
Keep it to yourself.
l am.
l need a favor.
My mother's ninth journal.
l need you to pre-read it.
- Why? - She had an affair with the chief.
Your mother had an affair with her chief resident? - Rock on, Ellis.
- No, no, no.
Not her chief.
Our chief.
Yeah, you'll go blind reading that.
[Meredith.]
Or it could indicate romance [sighing.]
which is the biggest trouble of all.
- Whoa.
What is that? - What you think it is.
Dangerous.
People who carry guns are likely to fire.
l'm ready to fire it.
She's the problem.
She spooks easy.
l have to fire at the right time, in the right way, or she'll panic and bolt.
- She's not ready.
Think she's ready? - l don't know.
More importantly, if you don't know, don't do anything.
- Dr.
Sloan.
- Dr.
Hunt.
[groaning.]
Let's make this quick.
- So we're good to go? - Yep.
Use it wisely.
Hey.
l'm with you today.
- What's going on with you and Mark? - What? Nothing.
Why? What did you think is was? You've been on his service for over a week.
Yeah, l'm really interested in Plastics.
As a specialty.
Fascinated.
- l like faces.
- Mmm-hmm.
[man.]
Vehicular blunt trauma, right shoulder stabilized in the field.
- Somebody help us! Please! - Jen, slow down.
We're here.
Can you help my husband? l ran him over with the car! Sweetie, sweetie.
You have to calm down.
- l'm gonna be fine.
- [gasping.]
OK.
l'm calm.
l'm calm.
- All right.
- l'm calm.
[sighing.]
Oh, my God.
That's my stupid pregnant brain! l left the car in drive.
Baby, l'm so sorry.
- lt's a normal neuro exam.
- He's got an inferior shoulder dislocation and fractures.
You'll need surgery.
- Sloan will débride burns in surgery.
- [Jen.]
Surgery? Oh, baby! - Her BP is 1 70 over 1 00.
- Give her five of hydralazine.
- Calm down.
How's the baby? - Kicking.
Pressing right on my bladder.
Look on the bright side.
She's not running you over with a truck.
[chuckling.]
Hey, you wanted the SUV, right? [Derek.]
Pregnancy-induced hypertension? Get her BP down before - it affects the baby.
- Nice couple.
They'll have cute kids.
Not as cute as ours, but cute.
- What? - Nothing.
[door opening.]
lt's been three days.
Three days of vacation.
The only days l've taken, other than my maternity leave.
- l know l'm behind, but - Bailey, l get it.
Jackson Prescott was not an easy case.
Frankly, sir, l would rather not work on another dying kid again.
But no need to worry.
l will catch up and l l'm not worrying.
l'm promoting you.
l need another attending in General Surgery.
l'm submitting to the board that it be you.
And that it starts this July.
The minute you've completed your residency.
l know there was some talk a while back about you getting tired of appies and gall bladders A full roster of appies and gall bladders sounds just perfect.
All right.
But not today, though.
Dixon's requested you on her service.
This is subject to board approval, Bailey, though l'm not worried.
You have less to say now, huh? Get out of here.
[door opening, closing.]
Dr.
Dixon is not big on eye contact, so don't be surprised if she doesn't look at you.
Also, try to avoid physical contact, loud or disruptive noises.
- She's OK? She's a good doctor? - She's amazing.
You couldn't ask for a better surgeon.
l'm telling you so you'll be prepared.
Dr.
Dixon, Dr.
Bailey, this is Dan and Lisa Pollock.
l need to see the patient.
Where's the patient? Hi.
[Cristina.]
Stacy Pollock, age nine.
She's suffering from pulmonary hypertension due to a VSD.
Her EKG also shows a left ventricular hypertrophy, also - Hi.
Can l help you folks? - Not him.
- What's the trouble? - Not him either.
Thank you.
We'll wait.
What about him? Hello.
Could you help us, please? - We need to talk to a grownup.
- This is the chief of surgery.
Just hold on.
That doesn't mean l'm not a doctor.
How can we help? - My husband - Our children went to college.
One's at Stanford, the other at U-Dub.
We tried something a new thing.
- Something slipped and we lost - Rachel.
[chuckles.]
We were reading this thing in a magazine Here.
''Twenty Techniques to Re-lgnite Your Nights.
'' We did Number Nine.
- Um Let's get you in a gown - No.
He did Number Nine.
- We did Number Nine.
- l'm not the one with it stuck in my lt's him.
He's the patient.
Um Have a seat.
We'll take care of you.
- Uh l'll stand.
- [Alex snorting.]
- Taking him now? For surgery? - lt's a good thing.
We'll get his dislocation fixed so we prevent problems with circulation.
Her last BP was still up: The OB was worried about placental blood flow.
[Meredith.]
Stay with her.
Try to keep her calm.
- OK.
- Cheeseburgers and - Painkillers are working.
- Anything else l can get you? l'm OK.
Are you really taking him now? Yeah.
Hmm, Cheeseburgers Cheeseburgers.
She's more relaxed when she eats.
- Cheeseburgers calm her down.
- Thanks for the tip.
[groans.]
[Dixon.]
Stacy has a VSD, which has gotten worse over time and created pulmonary hypertension.
- [Dan.]
Does she need surgery? - Are you OK? That child looks like she's gonna die, l am walking out.
l'll perform a transcatheter closure to repair the defect in the septum.
That baby doesn't understand a word she's saying.
Uh, she says we're gonna fix the part of your heart that pumps the blood - to your lungs.
- [Dixon.]
A simple patch repair.
- Probably something easy to fix.
- [Dixon.]
A midline sternotomy incision - may be required.
- Now she's making stuff up.
- l like your socks.
- Thanks.
They're for soccer.
l'm the best on my team.
Mom says that's bragging.
Dad says it's not, it's just the truth.
You can't fight who you are.
lf you're the best, you're the best.
When you fix my heart, how soon will l be able to play soccer again? - l missed half the season already.
- Well, um we'll have to see.
Cristina.
Did you tell her about the ring? - l don't want to talk about your ring.
- Good.
Don't.
You're not doing a big, McDreamy thing? She'd hate that.
- She built a house of candles.
- She built you a house of candles.
- You like that sort of thing.
- OK, thanks.
How is it? The journal? ls it gross? Are they naked? No, not yet.
lt's kind of, um hot, actually.
But, like, chastely hot.
lt's all stolen glances and loaded exchanges.
The thing reads like a Victorian romance novel.
- Chaste is good.
- l'll let you know when they do it.
[light piano music plays.]
She said a thing about babies.
Like babies were a totally ordinary idea.
- Not afraid.
She's ready.
- When are you gonna do it? - What? - Shepherd's proposing.
- No kidding! Outstanding! - Thank you.
- How are you gonna do it? - l don't know.
l just decided.
- Morning.
- Shepherd's proposing.
- Congratulations.
Big step.
- Thanks.
Telling everybody? You need advice.
Hunt, you ever proposed? Uh, l'm not the guy to ask.
When are you gonna do it? - [Derek.]
More importantly, how? - What do you use, a twist-drill? [Derek.]
Not if you don't want a partial-parietal hematoma.
- Hi.
- Good luck.
Don't tell anybody else, OK? l thought l could trust you.
Of course you can trust me.
[Ryan.]
We got the short end of the stick.
- Quit laughing! We're gonna get reamed.
- Dudes The patient can see you giggling over here like schoolgirls.
- Enough wise cracks.
- Cracks! - What's funny? - Sorry, sir.
These idiots were screwing around, and l kind of got sucked into it.
Enough.
lf you children need a lesson in professionalism, then come and see how it's done.
Mr.
Kramer, your biplane abdominal radiographs show a foreign body.
We'll perform a sigmoidoscopy and proceed with manual extraction.
- You'll get it out? - We'll get it out.
- [Sadie.]
Hold it.
- That's the third time! - What's the problem? - She can't find a vein.
And she's pokin' me like l'm her needlepoint.
What is wrong with you people? Didn't you practice this on each other? Look All right.
When you have a good vein, it should feel bouncy, like this one, OK? You go in at an angle, not at 90 degrees.
Yeah.
Yeah, like that.
Good.
Next time she'll do it on you.
You know, why don't you run them both.
Listen up, you guys.
Before you run any more procedures, come see me first.
[Callie.]
So, clean bill of health from Hunt? - Gonna get back on the horse? - l wouldn't use the word ''horse.
'' That's not gonna work out.
Things changed.
l'm gonna break up with her.
You're what? What is wrong with you? l had to make sure the patient's wife is stable.
She's hypertensive.
l think this surgery's more stressful on her than him.
[monitors beeping.]
Damn it.
There's a huge tear.
Clavicle jutting into the artery.
Hold this.
l'll hold pressure.
Page Hunt.
Get him in! No, they can't.
Patient's unstable.
Subclavian's bleeding out.
- [nurse.]
It doesn't look good.
- OK, thanks.
What'd they say? Did they say it's going well? lt's taking a little longer than expected.
- [exhaling.]
OK - [monitor beeps faster.]
But don't worry, because it's going great.
- lt is? Are you sure? - Yes.
You know, it's good when they take their time.
Right now, there is no reason to believe that he's not gonna be - just fine.
- OK.
Oh, thank you.
[sighing.]
Hey, your pressure's way down.
- [monitor beeping faster.]
- Jen? Jen! [pager beeping.]
- [crying.]
- [monitor beeps rapidly.]
- What's happening? - [Cristina.]
Tamponading.
Her BP crashed, she has muffled heart sounds.
Damn it.
Gloves.
Yang, Betadine and give her local.
Stacy, sweetie, you're gonna be all right, OK? - Don't worry.
1 8-gauge.
- [Stacy crying.]
- What are you doing? - Lisa, turn around or leave.
You're not gonna wanna watch this.
Keep the ultrasound over the effusion.
Stacy, honey, you're gonna feel a little pinch and then a lot of pressure.
And then you're gonna be all better, OK? Here we go.
[yelling.]
[Bailey.]
Good.
Oh, good job, Stacy.
There.
See? lt's all better.
Good job.
Good job, honey.
All better.
Her pulmonary pressures are high.
She's got cor pulmonale.
l'm moving up her surgery.
Yang's getting an OR now.
See you in there.
Let me know how it goes.
Great save, Dr.
Bailey.
l think you better stay.
l'm not scrubbing in on this one.
Bailey.
- You can handle this surgery.
- l can.
What l can't handle is feeling another child slipping away, - right in front of me.
- Mostly, they don't slip away.
Even the really sick ones.
Jackson was a special case.
- Even he survived.
- By the skin of his teeth.
But he survived.
Children are resilient.
ln all likelihood, you'll open this girl's chest and fix something simple.
Then you'll hand her back the rest of her life.
l'm telling you, Bailey, you want to be there for that.
[monitors beeping rapidly.]
[Owen.]
Come on, come on, come on, stabilize.
- BP's going up.
Going up.
- [beeping slows.]
[all sighing.]
- Thank you.
- He should be good to go.
- Dr.
Grey? Jen Harmon - Tell Jen he's stable.
[Lexie.]
She's not.
She had a seizure.
- A seizure? - We got him, Grey.
Go help her.
OK.
- You're an idiot.
- Excuse me? You're an idiot.
What is your problem? He is proposing to her.
That makes Little Her his little sister.
And l can't sleep with any more of his sisters.
And she's young.
- And l'm her boss.
- And l'm celibate.
- What's that have to do with anything? - Celibacy's lonely.
Don't spend time wondering what you are or who you like or whether it's right for you or wrong for you.
Let yourself be happy.
Before you find yourself alone and celibate.
Does she really need a chest x-ray? She's got the flu.
[lzzie.]
Say that after you've ruled out pneumonia.
Be quick and efficient, keep a smile on your face and make stupid, happy small talk to keep them distracted - and not panicky.
- OK.
Should l do small talk now? No.
Just tell me to lie still and take a deep breath.
OK.
Big breath in, and then don't move.
[machine beeping.]
So how are you gonna do it? You gonna go big? Grand, romantic gesture? l l don't know yet.
l'm not sure Meredith's a grand gesture girl.
You want to do the grand gesture.
lt's the opening pitch.
lt determines the entire game.
You've gotta go all out.
Your plans should include flowers, candles, exotic foods, live musicians and a rowboat.
- Skywriting is not out of the question.
- Dr.
Shepherd.
- Yes.
- You gotta [clearing throat.]
- Hi.
- [Derek.]
What's up? - l need a neuro consult.
- OK.
- That's big.
You better go.
- Thanks, chief.
OK.
OK.
- How we doing, Mr.
Kramer? - Oh, fantastic.
They didn't cover this in the What To Expect books.
- They didn't say ''Expect seizures.
'' - We're doing an exam.
- Look down for me.
- OK.
- Oh, what's that? - Oh, uh, Dr.
Grey.
Could you set up an MRl for Mrs.
Harmon, please? - Did you see? - Now.
OK.
- [Jen.]
Oh, you saw something.
- No, no.
No, l'm sorry.
Can you keep a secret? You bet l can.
- This is intended for Dr.
Grey.
- [Jen gasping.]
- Supposed to be a surprise.
- Oh, my God, l almost blew it! When are you gonna do it? Please do it today.
- Do it here.
- No.
l don't know.
l was told it's supposed to be a grand gesture.
Rob proposed to me in a supermarket aisle.
He said that was the place he saw me for the first time.
So l said yes between the cat food and the tampons.
- Oh! That's romantic.
- lt was, actually.
We still have to do the MRl, OK? Just to be safe.
- OK.
Dr.
Shepherd? - Yes.
- Should l be scared? - No.
Should l? No.
[Dixon.]
Eisenmenger's complex.
- [Cristina.]
Can it be repaired? - Children are resilient.
Nine times out of ten you'll find something simple to fix.
- What is it? - l can repair the VSD, but this heart is finished.
This is one of the most diseased hearts l've seen.
ECMO might hold her over, but without a heart-lung transplant, she's going to die.
- [Bailey groaning.]
- Dr.
Bailey? Dr.
Bailey? [Dixon.]
Dr.
Bailey? [Cristina.]
lt's OK.
l can take care of this.
[gasping.]
Her heart is too far gone.
There's far too much scar tissue to repair.
We've started her on lV medications, which she'll need on a continuous basis.
- For how long? How long does she? - Until she can receive a transplant.
- Months? - Years, possibly.
- Years? She'll lay in a bed for years? - [Dixon.]
l'm afraid so, yes.
[# Panda Transport: Transmission.]
Where's Dr.
Bailey gone? [indistinct chattering.]
[Izzie.]
You want to take narrow slices with the scans, - so you get a more comprehensive look.
- OK.
[sighing.]
What do you see? Uh l see a crazy person, taking expensive tests for no reason.
And l see the chief finding out and expelling the crazy person.
Then l see joblessness, homelessness and depression.
lt does not look good, lzzie.
lt doesn't look good.
Somebody kick Dr.
O'Malley out of the booth.
- Have you seen Bailey? - No, but l have to talk to you.
Derek is going crazy.
l said something about having cute babies, and he's been acting weird and avoiding me and dropping conversations.
He wants babies.
He's always wanted babies.
- Aw, he wants babies.
- [Meredith.]
Maybe not my babies.
- No, that's not it.
- My babies will have Alzheimer's.
And suicidal tendencies.
And split ends.
- You might have something.
- l don't think you do.
- Who are you? - l'm Jen.
How are we doing? All set? lf you're gonna do it, do it soon.
She's really freaking out.
[whispering.]
Thank you.
[lzzie.]
They tried Nine? Who does Nine? Personally, l'm a fan of Five [Sadie.]
Seven, Eight - Pretty much 1 2 through 20.
- [all laugh.]
- l would try 1 5.
- [lzzie and George.]
Don't try 1 5.
[clears throat.]
l would try 1 6.
Yeah.
l've never done that before.
- You'd try 1 6? - Hmm-hmm.
l would.
- l totally would.
- [Alex clearing throat.]
Um, don't do 1 6 too fast! You can get hurt.
Badly.
- l've heard.
- You know who likes a good 1 2? - [groaning.]
- Hmm-hmm.
- You on-call tonight? - Looks like it.
You? Hmm-hmm.
lf she misses one dose of medicine, it would be bad? - lt would be fatal.
- The drug needs to be administered - at 3-minute intervals.
- She'll live in a hospital No.
There's another way.
There's a way she won't have to.
- With a diagnosis of pulmonary hyper - [Bailey.]
The girl needs a backpack.
A backpack that has a portable pump that will deliver her meds and allow her to play and go to school and have a childhood.
- Until she gets her new heart.
- This is something we should discuss - privately - She can leave? She can.
She has to wear the backpack at all times.
Put you in a program, teach you to administer medications.
- Do you have a prettier one? - [all laughing.]
- Oh, my God, Dr.
Bailey.
Thank you! - Dr.
Dixon, thank you so much! - So much! - Dr.
Dixon! - Thank you! - No! No, no! No! [panting, gasping.]
Oh, uh Dr.
Dixon, what can l do? How can l help? You can observe protocol.
l was getting to that option lt was too much.
There was too much yelling, too much touching.
Too much.
OK.
l'll leave you alone.
No, no! l don't need alone.
l need pressure.
- l - l need my nervous system suppressed.
l need tight constant, deep, tight pressure across large areas of my body.
[gasping.]
l need you to hold me! - OK, um - Tight tightly.
Tighter.
You're a very tiny person.
l need a bigger person.
l need more Should l? - Oh What can l do? - Get over here and hug on Dr.
Dixon.
- l was thinking a shot of Thorazine.
- [grunting.]
Get over here.
- Just - Yeah.
Good.
[grunting.]
[sighing.]
[sighing.]
An aneurysm? A brain aneurysm? [Meredith.]
Your symptoms, forgetfulness, dizziness, chronic headaches, - can be associated with pregnancy.
- The reason we discovered yours - is because of the seizure.
- So, what? You can fix it? - You can take it out? - [Derek.]
First thing in the morning after Rob's recovered from complications with surgery.
Complications? What? You said You said it was fine.
You said he was OK.
- [Jen.]
You lied to me? - l'm sorry.
l didn't want to worry you - until l knew.
He's fine.
- You'll be fine, too.
- But it could burst, right? - Jen, you have to stay calm.
You just told me there's a time bomb in my head! l promise you that l'm not gonna stay calm! [inhaling deeply.]
[# Bon lver: Re: Stacks.]
Cows are squeezed in a chute before they're slaughtered.
The chute applies intense pressure.
resulting in decreased pulse rate, metabolic rate and muscle tone.
- lt calms them down.
- lt calms them down.
The same principles apply to me.
A hugging machine is used to relax the sympathetic nervous system.
Slows the heart.
This is good.
This lt's working.
- So we can stop now? - No.
Almost there, Mr.
Kramer.
- Hold on There.
- Oh, my God! [clanking noise.]
Oh, thank you! Never again will l try to spice things up.
- l'm not spicing anything up.
- You tried to step it up.
Anything above Five deserves props.
Sounds to me like you're doing good.
You're together, and you're both bending over backwards to find new ways to make each other happy.
Take a step back, you realize that you're doing just fine.
[chuckles.]
''Bending over backwards.
'' [laughing.]
You can let me go now.
- You can let me go now.
- Sorry.
[indistinct chattering.]
Dr.
Stevens, l have the blood test results.
- What is it? - You're anemic.
Anemic? Oh, my God! Do you realize what you did? Your face said l was going to die, - not, ''Go get a hamburger.
'' - Well, see l That's part of patient care, controlling your face.
- l just - Anemic.
[laughs.]
This is fine.
This is no big deal.
lt's like nothing! [sighing.]
How's Mrs.
What's-her-name? [Sadie.]
That's not good, is it? Yeah.
No.
[lzzie.]
Her LDH is off the charts.
What is it? ls it cancer? Consult Oncology.
Start a work-up.
Um lt's OK.
We'll tell her together.
Thank you.
Hi.
- l don't want to keep secrets.
- Sorry? l've been keeping secrets all day.
About surgeries and rings and you.
And that secret, the you secret, it's giving me high blood pressure.
l don't want that secret.
We're having a relationship.
And if we are, if we're in a relationship, then l need to be in it, in front of my sister.
And Derek Shepherd.
lf we can't do that, then l can't do this.
[door closing.]
[woman speaking indistinctly over PA.]
[light piano music plays.]
[gasping.]
- What's going on? What happened? - Sorry.
l can't.
- You're shaking.
- Leave me alone.
l saw someone.
Someone l knew.
l can't do this.
l can't.
- OK.
- Please, go away.
- OK.
lt's all right.
- [panting, gasping.]
- lt's OK.
- No, l don't want this.
- l don't want this! - l'm applying pressure.
- l can't do this! - To relax your nervous system.
Decrease your metabolic rate.
You'll feel more panicked at first.
You'll try to resist it, but eventually you'll feel your pulse rate slow.
Your pulse rate will slow.
lt's OK.
Your breath will come easier.
Your breath will come easier.
OK.
- Breathe.
- [gasping.]
OK.
[Bailey.]
l'm sorry for my outburst.
l should have spoken to you first.
lt was inappropriate, but l've come to expect it from pediatric surgeons.
- Always breaking protocol.
- l'm not a pediatric surgeon.
l've landed a few peds surg cases recently, but l'm getting back to general surgery the first chance l get.
You touch the child whenever you speak with her.
You explain conditions to the child, not just the parents.
You react to the patient as if it was your own child.
You break protocol, which is inappropriate.
Except in pediatric surgery, where protocols are constantly evolving.
You are not a general surgeon.
You're a pediatric surgeon.
Hey! Did you eat? Let me change, l'll come with you.
No, no, no.
l can't.
l have to work.
OK, listen.
You have been acting like a basket case since l dropped that stupid comment about babies.
lf you don't want babies or if you don't want babies with me and my crappy DNA, just say so.
You don't have to avoid me - or make up lame excuses about work.
- Meredith, l want your crappy babies.
- [chuckles.]
You do? - All of them.
- OK.
Do you wanna eat? - No.
l have l gotta l have to work.
[Arizona.]
Oh, my God.
- Did you use a BeDazzler? - Circa 1 986.
- As seen on TV.
- [laughs.]
Dixon's right, you know.
You do belong in Peds surgery.
[sighs.]
[Bailey.]
My own baby almost died last year.
The doctors in this hospital, my friends, all worked to save his life.
And l stood outside the room feeling so useless, so pointless and helpless.
Like l was losing everything in the world.
And when he didn't die, l knew l didn't want to be anywhere near that feeling again, so l think that makes me pretty unsuitable for pediatric surgery.
l'd say that makes you uniquely qualified.
[# Kate Havnevik: Halo.]
- Hey.
You mind if l sit here? - No, no.
l'm just overthinking.
You think he'll tell him? lf he's not an idiot.
- Are you OK? - Um, uh l don't l'm fine.
- Derek is act - Shh [whispering.]
What are you doing? l don't know.
l'm just - staying here.
- OK.
Good night.
Uh, he's planning to propose.
- What? - The chief.
Your mother writes he told her he would leave Adele.
And come back and get on one knee and propose, but l don't think he ever did.
That's sad.
- ls it? - Or romantic.
[Meredith.]
It seems we have no control whatsoever over our own hearts.
- [Arizona.]
Hey.
- Hey.
- Ortho, right? - Yeah.
Right.
Hi.
l'm Arizona Robbins.
Peds surgery.
l've seen you at the hospital.
- [chuckles.]
- Are you OK? You know, l'm fine.
Fine.
People talk.
Where we work.
They talk.
A lot.
So for the sake of being honest, l think l should tell you that l know things about you.
Because people talk.
Oh [exhales.]
You mean - Terrific.
- lt is, actually.
The talk.
People really like you over there.
They respect you and they're concerned and interested.
They really like you.
Some of them really like you.
[laughs.]
You just look upset.
And l thought that you should know that the talk is good.
And when you're not upset, when you're over being upset, there will be people lining up for you.
[chuckles.]
You want to give me some names? [# Dido: Never Want to Say It's Love.]
[Meredith.]
Conditions can change without warning.
l think you'll know.
[chuckles.]
[Meredith.]
Romance can make the heart pound.
Just like panic can.
This is stupid.
She's gonna hate this.
What, the flowers? Girls love this crap.
lt's a cliché.
l'm a cliché.
Clichés became clichés for a reason.
Because they worked.
[sighing.]
lt's great, isn't it? When you feel so strongly for someone, and it's not just about the sex.
lt is lt's true.
[laughs.]
You should not talk like that.
Yeah.
You're right.
You're all set here.
l'm gonna leave you to it.
Thanks.
Congratulations.
Thanks.
[cell phone ringing.]
[Meredith.]
And panic Addison? can make it stop cold in your chest.
What happened? It's no wonder doctors spend so much time trying to keep the heart stable.
To keep it slow.
Steady.
Regular.
To stop the heart from pounding out of your chest, from the dread of something terrible.
Or the anticipation of something else entirely.
[lzzie.]
Come on.
Come on, come on Ow! Damn it.
[Meredith.]
Any first year med student knows that an increased heart rate is a sign of trouble.
- All day of this.
- [Leo.]
Stuck with Stevens.
Why are we in a clinic? l thought we're supposed to be surgeons.
Not today we're not.
Today's gonna be about flu shots.
- And enemas.
- What a colossal waste of time.
Morning.
[Meredith.]
A racing heart could indicate anything [gulps.]
- from a panic disorder - [gasping.]
- Oh, God! Sorry! - No, l'm sorry.
l No, l didn't even look, l'm sorry.
Where? No, no.
l'll leave.
l'll leave.
No.
Sleep.
You've been here all night.
Uh How did you know l've been here all night? [Meredith.]
to something much l just knew.
- much more serious.
- [pager beeping.]
[sighing.]
You should wear your hair up more.
Shows off the back of your neck.
l like the back of your neck.
[door closing.]
[Meredith.]
A heart that flutters or one that skips a beat Hey.
l thought you were sleeping.
- Hunt was in the on-call room.
- You had dirty sex with Hunt? No.
lt's not dirty and it's not sex.
lt's - l don't know what it is.
- could be sign of secret affliction.
- Hey, how's it going? - Oh, my God.
Thank you for asking.
lt's great.
l mean, he's fun and funny.
Even with no sex allowed, we just laugh.
- We talk - Yeah.
l don't want to hear this.
Come on! But you have to! You're the only one who knows.
l'm terrible at keeping secrets.
lt makes me sick.
Alone people don't like to hear about together people.
Even if alone people are alone by choice.
lt's mean.
lt's like bringing a six pack to an AA meeting.
Keep it to yourself.
l am.
l need a favor.
My mother's ninth journal.
l need you to pre-read it.
- Why? - She had an affair with the chief.
Your mother had an affair with her chief resident? - Rock on, Ellis.
- No, no, no.
Not her chief.
Our chief.
Yeah, you'll go blind reading that.
[Meredith.]
Or it could indicate romance [sighing.]
which is the biggest trouble of all.
- Whoa.
What is that? - What you think it is.
Dangerous.
People who carry guns are likely to fire.
l'm ready to fire it.
She's the problem.
She spooks easy.
l have to fire at the right time, in the right way, or she'll panic and bolt.
- She's not ready.
Think she's ready? - l don't know.
More importantly, if you don't know, don't do anything.
- Dr.
Sloan.
- Dr.
Hunt.
[groaning.]
Let's make this quick.
- So we're good to go? - Yep.
Use it wisely.
Hey.
l'm with you today.
- What's going on with you and Mark? - What? Nothing.
Why? What did you think is was? You've been on his service for over a week.
Yeah, l'm really interested in Plastics.
As a specialty.
Fascinated.
- l like faces.
- Mmm-hmm.
[man.]
Vehicular blunt trauma, right shoulder stabilized in the field.
- Somebody help us! Please! - Jen, slow down.
We're here.
Can you help my husband? l ran him over with the car! Sweetie, sweetie.
You have to calm down.
- l'm gonna be fine.
- [gasping.]
OK.
l'm calm.
l'm calm.
- All right.
- l'm calm.
[sighing.]
Oh, my God.
That's my stupid pregnant brain! l left the car in drive.
Baby, l'm so sorry.
- lt's a normal neuro exam.
- He's got an inferior shoulder dislocation and fractures.
You'll need surgery.
- Sloan will débride burns in surgery.
- [Jen.]
Surgery? Oh, baby! - Her BP is 1 70 over 1 00.
- Give her five of hydralazine.
- Calm down.
How's the baby? - Kicking.
Pressing right on my bladder.
Look on the bright side.
She's not running you over with a truck.
[chuckling.]
Hey, you wanted the SUV, right? [Derek.]
Pregnancy-induced hypertension? Get her BP down before - it affects the baby.
- Nice couple.
They'll have cute kids.
Not as cute as ours, but cute.
- What? - Nothing.
[door opening.]
lt's been three days.
Three days of vacation.
The only days l've taken, other than my maternity leave.
- l know l'm behind, but - Bailey, l get it.
Jackson Prescott was not an easy case.
Frankly, sir, l would rather not work on another dying kid again.
But no need to worry.
l will catch up and l l'm not worrying.
l'm promoting you.
l need another attending in General Surgery.
l'm submitting to the board that it be you.
And that it starts this July.
The minute you've completed your residency.
l know there was some talk a while back about you getting tired of appies and gall bladders A full roster of appies and gall bladders sounds just perfect.
All right.
But not today, though.
Dixon's requested you on her service.
This is subject to board approval, Bailey, though l'm not worried.
You have less to say now, huh? Get out of here.
[door opening, closing.]
Dr.
Dixon is not big on eye contact, so don't be surprised if she doesn't look at you.
Also, try to avoid physical contact, loud or disruptive noises.
- She's OK? She's a good doctor? - She's amazing.
You couldn't ask for a better surgeon.
l'm telling you so you'll be prepared.
Dr.
Dixon, Dr.
Bailey, this is Dan and Lisa Pollock.
l need to see the patient.
Where's the patient? Hi.
[Cristina.]
Stacy Pollock, age nine.
She's suffering from pulmonary hypertension due to a VSD.
Her EKG also shows a left ventricular hypertrophy, also - Hi.
Can l help you folks? - Not him.
- What's the trouble? - Not him either.
Thank you.
We'll wait.
What about him? Hello.
Could you help us, please? - We need to talk to a grownup.
- This is the chief of surgery.
Just hold on.
That doesn't mean l'm not a doctor.
How can we help? - My husband - Our children went to college.
One's at Stanford, the other at U-Dub.
We tried something a new thing.
- Something slipped and we lost - Rachel.
[chuckles.]
We were reading this thing in a magazine Here.
''Twenty Techniques to Re-lgnite Your Nights.
'' We did Number Nine.
- Um Let's get you in a gown - No.
He did Number Nine.
- We did Number Nine.
- l'm not the one with it stuck in my lt's him.
He's the patient.
Um Have a seat.
We'll take care of you.
- Uh l'll stand.
- [Alex snorting.]
- Taking him now? For surgery? - lt's a good thing.
We'll get his dislocation fixed so we prevent problems with circulation.
Her last BP was still up: The OB was worried about placental blood flow.
[Meredith.]
Stay with her.
Try to keep her calm.
- OK.
- Cheeseburgers and - Painkillers are working.
- Anything else l can get you? l'm OK.
Are you really taking him now? Yeah.
Hmm, Cheeseburgers Cheeseburgers.
She's more relaxed when she eats.
- Cheeseburgers calm her down.
- Thanks for the tip.
[groans.]
[Dixon.]
Stacy has a VSD, which has gotten worse over time and created pulmonary hypertension.
- [Dan.]
Does she need surgery? - Are you OK? That child looks like she's gonna die, l am walking out.
l'll perform a transcatheter closure to repair the defect in the septum.
That baby doesn't understand a word she's saying.
Uh, she says we're gonna fix the part of your heart that pumps the blood - to your lungs.
- [Dixon.]
A simple patch repair.
- Probably something easy to fix.
- [Dixon.]
A midline sternotomy incision - may be required.
- Now she's making stuff up.
- l like your socks.
- Thanks.
They're for soccer.
l'm the best on my team.
Mom says that's bragging.
Dad says it's not, it's just the truth.
You can't fight who you are.
lf you're the best, you're the best.
When you fix my heart, how soon will l be able to play soccer again? - l missed half the season already.
- Well, um we'll have to see.
Cristina.
Did you tell her about the ring? - l don't want to talk about your ring.
- Good.
Don't.
You're not doing a big, McDreamy thing? She'd hate that.
- She built a house of candles.
- She built you a house of candles.
- You like that sort of thing.
- OK, thanks.
How is it? The journal? ls it gross? Are they naked? No, not yet.
lt's kind of, um hot, actually.
But, like, chastely hot.
lt's all stolen glances and loaded exchanges.
The thing reads like a Victorian romance novel.
- Chaste is good.
- l'll let you know when they do it.
[light piano music plays.]
She said a thing about babies.
Like babies were a totally ordinary idea.
- Not afraid.
She's ready.
- When are you gonna do it? - What? - Shepherd's proposing.
- No kidding! Outstanding! - Thank you.
- How are you gonna do it? - l don't know.
l just decided.
- Morning.
- Shepherd's proposing.
- Congratulations.
Big step.
- Thanks.
Telling everybody? You need advice.
Hunt, you ever proposed? Uh, l'm not the guy to ask.
When are you gonna do it? - [Derek.]
More importantly, how? - What do you use, a twist-drill? [Derek.]
Not if you don't want a partial-parietal hematoma.
- Hi.
- Good luck.
Don't tell anybody else, OK? l thought l could trust you.
Of course you can trust me.
[Ryan.]
We got the short end of the stick.
- Quit laughing! We're gonna get reamed.
- Dudes The patient can see you giggling over here like schoolgirls.
- Enough wise cracks.
- Cracks! - What's funny? - Sorry, sir.
These idiots were screwing around, and l kind of got sucked into it.
Enough.
lf you children need a lesson in professionalism, then come and see how it's done.
Mr.
Kramer, your biplane abdominal radiographs show a foreign body.
We'll perform a sigmoidoscopy and proceed with manual extraction.
- You'll get it out? - We'll get it out.
- [Sadie.]
Hold it.
- That's the third time! - What's the problem? - She can't find a vein.
And she's pokin' me like l'm her needlepoint.
What is wrong with you people? Didn't you practice this on each other? Look All right.
When you have a good vein, it should feel bouncy, like this one, OK? You go in at an angle, not at 90 degrees.
Yeah.
Yeah, like that.
Good.
Next time she'll do it on you.
You know, why don't you run them both.
Listen up, you guys.
Before you run any more procedures, come see me first.
[Callie.]
So, clean bill of health from Hunt? - Gonna get back on the horse? - l wouldn't use the word ''horse.
'' That's not gonna work out.
Things changed.
l'm gonna break up with her.
You're what? What is wrong with you? l had to make sure the patient's wife is stable.
She's hypertensive.
l think this surgery's more stressful on her than him.
[monitors beeping.]
Damn it.
There's a huge tear.
Clavicle jutting into the artery.
Hold this.
l'll hold pressure.
Page Hunt.
Get him in! No, they can't.
Patient's unstable.
Subclavian's bleeding out.
- [nurse.]
It doesn't look good.
- OK, thanks.
What'd they say? Did they say it's going well? lt's taking a little longer than expected.
- [exhaling.]
OK - [monitor beeps faster.]
But don't worry, because it's going great.
- lt is? Are you sure? - Yes.
You know, it's good when they take their time.
Right now, there is no reason to believe that he's not gonna be - just fine.
- OK.
Oh, thank you.
[sighing.]
Hey, your pressure's way down.
- [monitor beeping faster.]
- Jen? Jen! [pager beeping.]
- [crying.]
- [monitor beeps rapidly.]
- What's happening? - [Cristina.]
Tamponading.
Her BP crashed, she has muffled heart sounds.
Damn it.
Gloves.
Yang, Betadine and give her local.
Stacy, sweetie, you're gonna be all right, OK? - Don't worry.
1 8-gauge.
- [Stacy crying.]
- What are you doing? - Lisa, turn around or leave.
You're not gonna wanna watch this.
Keep the ultrasound over the effusion.
Stacy, honey, you're gonna feel a little pinch and then a lot of pressure.
And then you're gonna be all better, OK? Here we go.
[yelling.]
[Bailey.]
Good.
Oh, good job, Stacy.
There.
See? lt's all better.
Good job.
Good job, honey.
All better.
Her pulmonary pressures are high.
She's got cor pulmonale.
l'm moving up her surgery.
Yang's getting an OR now.
See you in there.
Let me know how it goes.
Great save, Dr.
Bailey.
l think you better stay.
l'm not scrubbing in on this one.
Bailey.
- You can handle this surgery.
- l can.
What l can't handle is feeling another child slipping away, - right in front of me.
- Mostly, they don't slip away.
Even the really sick ones.
Jackson was a special case.
- Even he survived.
- By the skin of his teeth.
But he survived.
Children are resilient.
ln all likelihood, you'll open this girl's chest and fix something simple.
Then you'll hand her back the rest of her life.
l'm telling you, Bailey, you want to be there for that.
[monitors beeping rapidly.]
[Owen.]
Come on, come on, come on, stabilize.
- BP's going up.
Going up.
- [beeping slows.]
[all sighing.]
- Thank you.
- He should be good to go.
- Dr.
Grey? Jen Harmon - Tell Jen he's stable.
[Lexie.]
She's not.
She had a seizure.
- A seizure? - We got him, Grey.
Go help her.
OK.
- You're an idiot.
- Excuse me? You're an idiot.
What is your problem? He is proposing to her.
That makes Little Her his little sister.
And l can't sleep with any more of his sisters.
And she's young.
- And l'm her boss.
- And l'm celibate.
- What's that have to do with anything? - Celibacy's lonely.
Don't spend time wondering what you are or who you like or whether it's right for you or wrong for you.
Let yourself be happy.
Before you find yourself alone and celibate.
Does she really need a chest x-ray? She's got the flu.
[lzzie.]
Say that after you've ruled out pneumonia.
Be quick and efficient, keep a smile on your face and make stupid, happy small talk to keep them distracted - and not panicky.
- OK.
Should l do small talk now? No.
Just tell me to lie still and take a deep breath.
OK.
Big breath in, and then don't move.
[machine beeping.]
So how are you gonna do it? You gonna go big? Grand, romantic gesture? l l don't know yet.
l'm not sure Meredith's a grand gesture girl.
You want to do the grand gesture.
lt's the opening pitch.
lt determines the entire game.
You've gotta go all out.
Your plans should include flowers, candles, exotic foods, live musicians and a rowboat.
- Skywriting is not out of the question.
- Dr.
Shepherd.
- Yes.
- You gotta [clearing throat.]
- Hi.
- [Derek.]
What's up? - l need a neuro consult.
- OK.
- That's big.
You better go.
- Thanks, chief.
OK.
OK.
- How we doing, Mr.
Kramer? - Oh, fantastic.
They didn't cover this in the What To Expect books.
- They didn't say ''Expect seizures.
'' - We're doing an exam.
- Look down for me.
- OK.
- Oh, what's that? - Oh, uh, Dr.
Grey.
Could you set up an MRl for Mrs.
Harmon, please? - Did you see? - Now.
OK.
- [Jen.]
Oh, you saw something.
- No, no.
No, l'm sorry.
Can you keep a secret? You bet l can.
- This is intended for Dr.
Grey.
- [Jen gasping.]
- Supposed to be a surprise.
- Oh, my God, l almost blew it! When are you gonna do it? Please do it today.
- Do it here.
- No.
l don't know.
l was told it's supposed to be a grand gesture.
Rob proposed to me in a supermarket aisle.
He said that was the place he saw me for the first time.
So l said yes between the cat food and the tampons.
- Oh! That's romantic.
- lt was, actually.
We still have to do the MRl, OK? Just to be safe.
- OK.
Dr.
Shepherd? - Yes.
- Should l be scared? - No.
Should l? No.
[Dixon.]
Eisenmenger's complex.
- [Cristina.]
Can it be repaired? - Children are resilient.
Nine times out of ten you'll find something simple to fix.
- What is it? - l can repair the VSD, but this heart is finished.
This is one of the most diseased hearts l've seen.
ECMO might hold her over, but without a heart-lung transplant, she's going to die.
- [Bailey groaning.]
- Dr.
Bailey? Dr.
Bailey? [Dixon.]
Dr.
Bailey? [Cristina.]
lt's OK.
l can take care of this.
[gasping.]
Her heart is too far gone.
There's far too much scar tissue to repair.
We've started her on lV medications, which she'll need on a continuous basis.
- For how long? How long does she? - Until she can receive a transplant.
- Months? - Years, possibly.
- Years? She'll lay in a bed for years? - [Dixon.]
l'm afraid so, yes.
[# Panda Transport: Transmission.]
Where's Dr.
Bailey gone? [indistinct chattering.]
[Izzie.]
You want to take narrow slices with the scans, - so you get a more comprehensive look.
- OK.
[sighing.]
What do you see? Uh l see a crazy person, taking expensive tests for no reason.
And l see the chief finding out and expelling the crazy person.
Then l see joblessness, homelessness and depression.
lt does not look good, lzzie.
lt doesn't look good.
Somebody kick Dr.
O'Malley out of the booth.
- Have you seen Bailey? - No, but l have to talk to you.
Derek is going crazy.
l said something about having cute babies, and he's been acting weird and avoiding me and dropping conversations.
He wants babies.
He's always wanted babies.
- Aw, he wants babies.
- [Meredith.]
Maybe not my babies.
- No, that's not it.
- My babies will have Alzheimer's.
And suicidal tendencies.
And split ends.
- You might have something.
- l don't think you do.
- Who are you? - l'm Jen.
How are we doing? All set? lf you're gonna do it, do it soon.
She's really freaking out.
[whispering.]
Thank you.
[lzzie.]
They tried Nine? Who does Nine? Personally, l'm a fan of Five [Sadie.]
Seven, Eight - Pretty much 1 2 through 20.
- [all laugh.]
- l would try 1 5.
- [lzzie and George.]
Don't try 1 5.
[clears throat.]
l would try 1 6.
Yeah.
l've never done that before.
- You'd try 1 6? - Hmm-hmm.
l would.
- l totally would.
- [Alex clearing throat.]
Um, don't do 1 6 too fast! You can get hurt.
Badly.
- l've heard.
- You know who likes a good 1 2? - [groaning.]
- Hmm-hmm.
- You on-call tonight? - Looks like it.
You? Hmm-hmm.
lf she misses one dose of medicine, it would be bad? - lt would be fatal.
- The drug needs to be administered - at 3-minute intervals.
- She'll live in a hospital No.
There's another way.
There's a way she won't have to.
- With a diagnosis of pulmonary hyper - [Bailey.]
The girl needs a backpack.
A backpack that has a portable pump that will deliver her meds and allow her to play and go to school and have a childhood.
- Until she gets her new heart.
- This is something we should discuss - privately - She can leave? She can.
She has to wear the backpack at all times.
Put you in a program, teach you to administer medications.
- Do you have a prettier one? - [all laughing.]
- Oh, my God, Dr.
Bailey.
Thank you! - Dr.
Dixon, thank you so much! - So much! - Dr.
Dixon! - Thank you! - No! No, no! No! [panting, gasping.]
Oh, uh Dr.
Dixon, what can l do? How can l help? You can observe protocol.
l was getting to that option lt was too much.
There was too much yelling, too much touching.
Too much.
OK.
l'll leave you alone.
No, no! l don't need alone.
l need pressure.
- l - l need my nervous system suppressed.
l need tight constant, deep, tight pressure across large areas of my body.
[gasping.]
l need you to hold me! - OK, um - Tight tightly.
Tighter.
You're a very tiny person.
l need a bigger person.
l need more Should l? - Oh What can l do? - Get over here and hug on Dr.
Dixon.
- l was thinking a shot of Thorazine.
- [grunting.]
Get over here.
- Just - Yeah.
Good.
[grunting.]
[sighing.]
[sighing.]
An aneurysm? A brain aneurysm? [Meredith.]
Your symptoms, forgetfulness, dizziness, chronic headaches, - can be associated with pregnancy.
- The reason we discovered yours - is because of the seizure.
- So, what? You can fix it? - You can take it out? - [Derek.]
First thing in the morning after Rob's recovered from complications with surgery.
Complications? What? You said You said it was fine.
You said he was OK.
- [Jen.]
You lied to me? - l'm sorry.
l didn't want to worry you - until l knew.
He's fine.
- You'll be fine, too.
- But it could burst, right? - Jen, you have to stay calm.
You just told me there's a time bomb in my head! l promise you that l'm not gonna stay calm! [inhaling deeply.]
[# Bon lver: Re: Stacks.]
Cows are squeezed in a chute before they're slaughtered.
The chute applies intense pressure.
resulting in decreased pulse rate, metabolic rate and muscle tone.
- lt calms them down.
- lt calms them down.
The same principles apply to me.
A hugging machine is used to relax the sympathetic nervous system.
Slows the heart.
This is good.
This lt's working.
- So we can stop now? - No.
Almost there, Mr.
Kramer.
- Hold on There.
- Oh, my God! [clanking noise.]
Oh, thank you! Never again will l try to spice things up.
- l'm not spicing anything up.
- You tried to step it up.
Anything above Five deserves props.
Sounds to me like you're doing good.
You're together, and you're both bending over backwards to find new ways to make each other happy.
Take a step back, you realize that you're doing just fine.
[chuckles.]
''Bending over backwards.
'' [laughing.]
You can let me go now.
- You can let me go now.
- Sorry.
[indistinct chattering.]
Dr.
Stevens, l have the blood test results.
- What is it? - You're anemic.
Anemic? Oh, my God! Do you realize what you did? Your face said l was going to die, - not, ''Go get a hamburger.
'' - Well, see l That's part of patient care, controlling your face.
- l just - Anemic.
[laughs.]
This is fine.
This is no big deal.
lt's like nothing! [sighing.]
How's Mrs.
What's-her-name? [Sadie.]
That's not good, is it? Yeah.
No.
[lzzie.]
Her LDH is off the charts.
What is it? ls it cancer? Consult Oncology.
Start a work-up.
Um lt's OK.
We'll tell her together.
Thank you.
Hi.
- l don't want to keep secrets.
- Sorry? l've been keeping secrets all day.
About surgeries and rings and you.
And that secret, the you secret, it's giving me high blood pressure.
l don't want that secret.
We're having a relationship.
And if we are, if we're in a relationship, then l need to be in it, in front of my sister.
And Derek Shepherd.
lf we can't do that, then l can't do this.
[door closing.]
[woman speaking indistinctly over PA.]
[light piano music plays.]
[gasping.]
- What's going on? What happened? - Sorry.
l can't.
- You're shaking.
- Leave me alone.
l saw someone.
Someone l knew.
l can't do this.
l can't.
- OK.
- Please, go away.
- OK.
lt's all right.
- [panting, gasping.]
- lt's OK.
- No, l don't want this.
- l don't want this! - l'm applying pressure.
- l can't do this! - To relax your nervous system.
Decrease your metabolic rate.
You'll feel more panicked at first.
You'll try to resist it, but eventually you'll feel your pulse rate slow.
Your pulse rate will slow.
lt's OK.
Your breath will come easier.
Your breath will come easier.
OK.
- Breathe.
- [gasping.]
OK.
[Bailey.]
l'm sorry for my outburst.
l should have spoken to you first.
lt was inappropriate, but l've come to expect it from pediatric surgeons.
- Always breaking protocol.
- l'm not a pediatric surgeon.
l've landed a few peds surg cases recently, but l'm getting back to general surgery the first chance l get.
You touch the child whenever you speak with her.
You explain conditions to the child, not just the parents.
You react to the patient as if it was your own child.
You break protocol, which is inappropriate.
Except in pediatric surgery, where protocols are constantly evolving.
You are not a general surgeon.
You're a pediatric surgeon.
Hey! Did you eat? Let me change, l'll come with you.
No, no, no.
l can't.
l have to work.
OK, listen.
You have been acting like a basket case since l dropped that stupid comment about babies.
lf you don't want babies or if you don't want babies with me and my crappy DNA, just say so.
You don't have to avoid me - or make up lame excuses about work.
- Meredith, l want your crappy babies.
- [chuckles.]
You do? - All of them.
- OK.
Do you wanna eat? - No.
l have l gotta l have to work.
[Arizona.]
Oh, my God.
- Did you use a BeDazzler? - Circa 1 986.
- As seen on TV.
- [laughs.]
Dixon's right, you know.
You do belong in Peds surgery.
[sighs.]
[Bailey.]
My own baby almost died last year.
The doctors in this hospital, my friends, all worked to save his life.
And l stood outside the room feeling so useless, so pointless and helpless.
Like l was losing everything in the world.
And when he didn't die, l knew l didn't want to be anywhere near that feeling again, so l think that makes me pretty unsuitable for pediatric surgery.
l'd say that makes you uniquely qualified.
[# Kate Havnevik: Halo.]
- Hey.
You mind if l sit here? - No, no.
l'm just overthinking.
You think he'll tell him? lf he's not an idiot.
- Are you OK? - Um, uh l don't l'm fine.
- Derek is act - Shh [whispering.]
What are you doing? l don't know.
l'm just - staying here.
- OK.
Good night.
Uh, he's planning to propose.
- What? - The chief.
Your mother writes he told her he would leave Adele.
And come back and get on one knee and propose, but l don't think he ever did.
That's sad.
- ls it? - Or romantic.
[Meredith.]
It seems we have no control whatsoever over our own hearts.
- [Arizona.]
Hey.
- Hey.
- Ortho, right? - Yeah.
Right.
Hi.
l'm Arizona Robbins.
Peds surgery.
l've seen you at the hospital.
- [chuckles.]
- Are you OK? You know, l'm fine.
Fine.
People talk.
Where we work.
They talk.
A lot.
So for the sake of being honest, l think l should tell you that l know things about you.
Because people talk.
Oh [exhales.]
You mean - Terrific.
- lt is, actually.
The talk.
People really like you over there.
They respect you and they're concerned and interested.
They really like you.
Some of them really like you.
[laughs.]
You just look upset.
And l thought that you should know that the talk is good.
And when you're not upset, when you're over being upset, there will be people lining up for you.
[chuckles.]
You want to give me some names? [# Dido: Never Want to Say It's Love.]
[Meredith.]
Conditions can change without warning.
l think you'll know.
[chuckles.]
[Meredith.]
Romance can make the heart pound.
Just like panic can.
This is stupid.
She's gonna hate this.
What, the flowers? Girls love this crap.
lt's a cliché.
l'm a cliché.
Clichés became clichés for a reason.
Because they worked.
[sighing.]
lt's great, isn't it? When you feel so strongly for someone, and it's not just about the sex.
lt is lt's true.
[laughs.]
You should not talk like that.
Yeah.
You're right.
You're all set here.
l'm gonna leave you to it.
Thanks.
Congratulations.
Thanks.
[cell phone ringing.]
[Meredith.]
And panic Addison? can make it stop cold in your chest.
What happened? It's no wonder doctors spend so much time trying to keep the heart stable.
To keep it slow.
Steady.
Regular.
To stop the heart from pounding out of your chest, from the dread of something terrible.
Or the anticipation of something else entirely.