Grown-ish (2018) s04e13 Episode Script

OK Not to Be OK

After a series of brutal disappointments, starting from when her sister Sky made the Olympics and she didn't, to her breakup with Doug, to her quitting track altogether, and, finally, to her short-lived romance with Des coming to an abrupt end, Jazz was left with an overwhelming feeling of emptiness.
And that emptiness had given way to a void inside of her that sapped her of any energy or enthusiasm, until the only way that Jazz could deal with this void was to avoid it altogether.
Okay, uh Okay.
Hey, Jazz.
Sweetie.
You're really scaring us.
Mm-hmm.
Okay.
We need to talk.
So, Jazz, buddy we can't help but notice that you might have a slight case of, um, the gloomies.
- You haven't come out with us lately.
- Mm.
You've been missing your classes.
And, hey, Jazz, you've been sitting in the exact same place for a few days now, and, honestly, I haven't seen you use the bathroom.
Is this about your fallout with Des? Nothing's about Des.
I just haven't been wanting to engage with anyone in a minute, okay? - Okay.
- Come on, Jazz, talk to us.
What's going on? Are you still going to therapy? Kind of.
I overslept and missed my session a few weeks ago and I'm supposed to reschedule, but, you know, I'll get around to it in due time.
Okay, well, Jazz, we love you, and we absolutely hate seeing you in pain, and it's clear that you're struggling with something, so you should make an appointment, because sweeping your problems under the rug is not healthy.
And, honestly, we're just gonna keep hounding you until you make that appointment, so Mm-hmm.
And you know how annoying I can be.
Oh, I do.
We all do.
But if you promise to leave me alone, fine.
I'll call.
Um, excuse me.
I thought sweeping problems under the rug was not healthy.
- Was that Aaron I just saw you sweep? - Uh, no.
Because what I did was direct his call to voicemail, as the sound of his voice still rips my heart out.
So, at a later date, in which I'm in a less fragile state, I'll read the transcript to his message, which I already know is about picking up my stuff, 'cause he's hit me like five times about it.
So, as you can see, Ana, this is not a problem.
This is a solution.
- Mm-hmm.
Sweep, sweep.
- Mm-hmm.
Well, what do you want from me? This breakup has been hard.
We want you to stop hiding behind these voicemails and acknowledge the pain you're in and push through it, - because you did nothing wrong.
- Mm-hmm.
He's the one who should be feeling awkward, not you.
So, come on, woman up.
Put on a perky bra.
Go get your stuff.
You're right.
I mean, what am I scared of? - I I can do this.
- Mm-hmm.
Yeah, you can absolutely do this.
Oh, you're going to do this.
I am going to do this! I'm here to pick up Zoey's crap.
Right.
Makes sense.
Um, well, come in.
I'll go grab the boxes.
Okay.
So, this is your place, huh? Yeah.
Okay, well, this is all her stuff, so You know, I've actually I've got some time, so, uh, why don't you show me around your little ch√Ęteau? Y yeah.
Okay.
You're dismissed.
Hold up.
I didn't even get to catch my breath yet.
- Are you seriously kicking me out? - Respectfully.
I just have to prepare for this BSU panel I'm moderating tonight.
Oh.
Look at you on your Ida B.
Wells.
- That sounds dope, though.
- Thanks.
Tonight's the first time Cal U's journalism school is letting a freshman moderate one of their alumni panels, so I'm just kinda nervous.
Like really nervous.
Yeah, well, I mean, it's hard to sound reassuring with my nipples out, but, uh, you're gonna do great.
- What time's the panel? - 7:00.
All right, well, that's the time I'll be there to watch you make history.
Leave me your underwear so I can wear it under my dress for good luck.
God, you're so weird.
But it's sexy as hell.
Take 'em.
Dr.
Jenkins: So, it's been a few weeks, Jazz.
I've been wondering about you and how you were.
Well, uh, my friends are worried about me.
Why's that? Because they're a bunch of messy-ass girls who constantly have to be up everyone's butts dissecting their issues, and, apparently, I'm the butt they're up this week because they can't let it go that I just want to chill, watch TV, and eat sweet and salty snacks.
Okay.
Well, have you tried some of the methods we've discussed for shifting your mood? Unplugging from social media, meditating, implementing a self-care ritual before bed? I've tried all that, and none of it seems to work.
Well, in your case, you've experienced a lot of big changes recently, not to mention that you're now on the cusp of graduation, which is yet another huge change.
Ah.
And don't forget I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life.
Look in light of everything you've told me, I'm concerned that your ability to cope with these stressors isn't moving in the right direction.
I think it's time to consider other alternatives.
Uh Other alternatives.
Like Like what? I'm talking more like medication.
Um Hey! So how was therapy? Ugh.
Fine.
Dr.
Jenkins thinks I'm suffering from some sort of situational depression or whatever called Adjustment something.
I don't know.
And she recommends I take some meds.
Oh.
Wait.
That's amazing.
I have the cutest pill organizer that I found on Etsy, and I'm gonna send you the link.
No, you won't, because I'm not taking anything.
I don't want to depend on a pill to make me feel better.
Okay, but, Jazz, if it's situational, then it's not gonna be forever.
Okay? It's like Remember when I was taking meds for my postpartum depression? I just needed some temporary help to ease my suffering.
The pills worked.
That was that.
Uh, Nomi.
Wait.
Aren't you still on them? I saw you take a pill this morning.
No, no, no.
That wasn't for postpartum.
That was just, like, something fun that I found in an old gym bag.
See? And this is the exact reason why I don't mess with medication.
It's a slippery slope.
Mnh.
I respectfully disagree, all right? Per my background in pharmacology - You mean drug dealing.
- Eh, Vicodin, Vicodan.
Anyways, antidepressants aren't some type of party drug, all right? Most of them you have to take for a few weeks before you even really feel them working.
So it is totally safe to begin your road to recovery, in my professional opinion.
You're a college dropout who has a misdemeanor drug charge on his record who's living a lie at work, so I will respectfully decline your professional opinion.
Okay.
Fine.
Be miserable.
See if I care.
I care a lot.
Look, Jazz, I totally get where you're coming from.
When I had my anxiety attacks a few years ago, the doctors gave me a prescription for some medication, but I never filled it.
I I don't know.
I just I felt weird about taking something every day.
But didn't you have, like, a raging Addy habit freshman year? - Yeah.
- Mm.
Honestly, none of you pill poppers are making the case for going on meds, but, most importantly, if I did, I would feel like such a failure for relying on such a crutch.
- Wh - No.
Jazz, that stigma, it's so outdated, it's so harmful.
There is nothing wrong with taking advantage of modern medicine.
No, you don't get it! As an athlete, I train to be in full control of my mind and my body and not to be mentally or physically weak.
So if I can manipulate my body to run faster and to jump higher and to be stronger, then, for sure, I can get myself out of this, okay? I just I just need a bit more time.
I mean, if she can control her body as well as she claims, wouldn't she be in the Olympics? Vivek.
Please.
You were thinkin' it.
And so, my question is do you think the Civil Rights Movement ever really ended? Or is it just a continuation of the same movement, granted with some starts and stops along the way? I'd like to take this one.
I think the answer is there in your question.
I believe that the fight for civil rights has been and will always be a constant struggle.
The specifics of what we're fighting for I-I just I never expected to feel so torn about my future.
I mean, you know what a decisive person I am.
I see something that I want, and I go for it.
Yeah, no, I remember.
Yeah, I guess between the protests and my breakup with Javi and that scooter accident, just my I guess my view of the world just changed.
I never thought that would happen.
Just like I never thought you'd still have that hideous cowhide rug from your dorm room! Hideous? Come on.
You never complained about it before.
That rug is amazing.
Uh, yeah, well, clearly, my judgment used to be a lot worse.
Wow.
Whoa.
You, uh You want another one? Yep.
And giddy up, cowboy.
I have not heard from Ana in over an hour.
Detective Torres must be really searching every inch of that place.
- Yeah.
All nine inches.
- What? What? I don't like this, Zoey, okay? Not.
At.
All.
Do you think something could be going on between them? - You know, nakedly? - Mnh-mnh.
- Maybe even digitally? - Ick! And, no, because that is my best friend and my very newly ex-boyfriend.
Yeah, who used to smash behind your back.
Okay? And let's not forget she let me hop aboard the Ana choo-choo, so there's no telling what my little bomboncita might do.
Bomboncita? It means "little candy" in her native tongue.
Being with him is my punishment for not picking up my own damn stuff.
Hey.
What are you doing here? I got a text from your friends saying it looked like you could really use Sky right now, but since she's not around, I thought I'd bring you the next best thing, so here I am.
Let's see.
All right.
How about this? Have you tried going to church? Have you tried taking a scalding-hot bath? And my this is my personal favorite Have you tried using the bathroom? Oh, my God.
You sound exactly like my dad.
How did you know? Because that's exactly my dad, too.
You know all Black dads say the same stuff.
- Okay.
Yeah.
- Uh So what do you think they'd say about antidepressants? I don't know, man.
We We wasn't really raised to, you know, reach for a pill when something was wrong.
- You know? - Exactly.
And I think that's why this whole medication thing just isn't sitting right with me.
Okay, but but look at it this way, right? Would it sit right with you if you needed it for a migraine or, uh, high blood pressure or gas? Yeah, but, Doug, this is different.
I'm not sick or gassy.
I'm just sad.
Jazz, you're one of the strongest people I know.
So whether or not you choose to take some pills, it isn't gonna change that, you know? I just I'd hate to see you be closed off to something that can actually help you.
This is coming from a dude who messed up things with a really great person 'cause of closed-minded thinking.
Oh.
I'm sorry.
If you have to go, you totally can.
I'm good just where I'm at.
Do you mind? I said you could be out here if you were normal! How could either of us be normal when, right this minute, the two loves of our lives are intertwining their genitals? Wow.
Look.
Here's one pair of the innocent genitals calling right now.
Hey, hey.
Oh, my gosh! This feels amazing! Told you.
- Ana? - Mm-hmm.
- Oh, my God! - See? What'd I tell you? I don't remember it feeling this g Oh, my God.
And thank you again.
Hey! What happened? I didn't see you in the audience when we finished.
I'm so sorry.
I-I got a text that a friend was in a-a really bad place, and I had to go over there.
Oh, my God.
Are they gonna be okay? I think so.
How was the rest of the panel? Not to brag, but, um, hugely successful.
Nice.
But, uh, you know, once I realized you weren't here to share it with me, I just You know, I just I have to be honest with you.
Um, it made me feel a certain type of way.
- Oh, word? - What type of way is that? A way that made me think that I want to be more than just casual.
Kiela, you you know I really like you a lot.
- Yeah.
- I do.
But But things have been going so good the way they are.
You know, why why switch it up and ruin that, you know? Y-yeah.
No, you're you're totally right.
Let's just, um, you know, keep it as it is.
- All right.
- Yeah.
It was actually, oddly, really nice catching up with you.
Yeah, it was, Torres.
So, goodnight.
- Goodnight.
- Separate your genitals right now.
What the hell? What are you doing here? I am so sorry.
I'm pretty sure he has mercury poisoning.
We heard you having sex without us.
- Wh - You heard nothing like that.
- You know that, right? - Wait, of course I do.
I mean, Vivek practically dragged me here.
You butt-dialed Zoey.
What the hell felt so amazing if you weren't having amazing sex? Okay, not that I owe you any explanation, but I was touching his ugly dead animal rug, Vivek.
And you? Zoey, seriously? I came here to do you a favor, 'cause you were too much of a scaredy-cat to face Aaron.
- Gosh, you you all have issues.
- Well - Yeah - Bomboncita, wait! - Bombon-what? - It means "little candy.
" So So You were really scared to face me? Okay, well, not scared scared, like "ahhh.
" More scared like, this breakup's been really hard, and I thought seeing you was gonna make it harder.
And I was right.
Um it is.
Yeah.
Well, I mean, I get it.
It's It's kind of why I wanted you to come get your stuff.
I mean, seeing your tiny-ass socks every day kind of put me in my feelings sometimes.
All the time.
It just kind of sucks, you know? So, how's the "working on yourself" stuff going? You feel like you're in a better place? Starting to.
Yeah.
- Uh, turns out I really like teaching.
- Mm.
You know, kinda feels like I'm making a difference, - so that's good.
- Right.
Right.
And Right.
Vivek told me about your little Afro-Salon, - which sounds amazing.
- Thank you.
Yeah, and Ana told me about Anti-Muse starting to pop, so that's that's pretty tight, right? Yeah, it is.
It is.
Uh, and I'm starting to design again, which feels really good.
Uh So, I guess our breakup was the best thing for both of us, huh? Yeah.
I guess so.
Like Jazz, I had been attempting to avoid my own pain by putting off seeing Aaron.
Um you know, I would say "see you around," but let's not.
I don't think I could handle it.
I get it.
- Okay.
- I have to go.
But now that I had, I realized there was just no side-stepping the fact that we were over.
And my heart was broken.
Des! - Hey! - Jazz.
What up? You running again? Yeah.
My therapist thinks it's good for me, so I'm doing everything I can to make myself feel better.
Glad to hear it.
Yeah.
I'm really glad I ran into you, because I've been meaning to apologize.
I was being such an asshole for thinking I could pick and choose parts of you that I was comfortable with.
Every part of you is amazing, and I'm so sorry that I didn't accept you for everything that you are.
I, um I really appreciate hearing that.
I just wish it hadn't taken me so long to say it.
Well, I-I don't want to hold you up.
I should let you get back to your run.
Maybe I'll see you around? I hope so.
They say running away from your problems only increases the distance from the solution.
So, rather that continuing to avoid those problems, Jazz had finally decided to run straight toward them.
And in doing so, she made peace with the things that were causing her stress, and ensured that she'd never fall into a void like that again.
Even if that meant being open to some new alternatives for help.
Yeah? Hey.
- Nomi said you wanted to talk.
- What's up? "What's up?" Vivek, today was insane.
We are not together.
Yeah, I know, Ana.
I know.
I'm sorry.
Look, there's nothing between us, and you need to accept that.
Oh (bleep)!
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