Party of Five s03e24 Episode Script

A Little Faith

So, uh, Dave's parents aren't renting a condo in Vail too, are they? Dave? Dave, the guy you're dating.
His name's-- Look, you know what his name is.
Drew.
Yeah, Drew.
And he's going to Hawaii with his family over the break.
Hm.
So let's do some accounting here.
Sarah, Vail.
Drew, the big island.
Bailey, nowhere.
Hey.
You know, maybe you could get together with some friends, and drive up to Tahoe for a couple of days.
Skiing's a party scene.
I gotta steer clear of that.
I just wish I had more to keep me busy.
You know? All this spare time on my hands just makes me kind of nervous.
Nervous you'll-- Oh, um-- You know, maybe you could help out Charlie at the restaurant.
You know, make some extra money, hang with the staff.
Yeah.
And try to ignore the huge bar stocked with every kind of liquor known to man.
I'm sorry, I didn't-- Look, Bailey, I-- I wish-- It's-- It's a family thing.
Otherwise-- No.
No.
Y-you're going.
You're going.
And you're gonna have a great time, and you're not gonna worry about me at all.
You know, you can worry about me a little if you want, but don't, like, obsess about me or anything.
Okay.
Excuse me, but I need your butt.
You wish.
Sit.
Heh-heh.
You will have a phone up there, right? GRIFFIN: Oh, come on, why don't we just say This has gotta be, like, totally random, chance, fate, the will of the gods.
So just do it, and-- And no peeking.
Okay.
Okay.
Uh, we are going to be spending our spring break in Ow.
Hm.
The Pacific Ocean.
Yeah.
Not unless your motorcycle doubles as a Jet Ski.
Well, you do it.
This is your idea.
Okay.
Watch and learn.
[HUMMING.]
[CHUCKLES.]
Carson City, Nevada, and points beyond.
Cool.
Let's do it.
Let's hit the road.
Don't you want your map? No.
So, what if we get lost? That's kind of the point.
[THE BODEANS' "CLOSER TO FIVE" PLAYING.]
* Everybody wants to live * * Like they wanna live * * And everybody wants to love * * Like they wanna love * * Everybody wants to be * * Closer to free-ee-ee-ee * * Closer to free * So we're going live in about, uh, 45 seconds.
Okay? I'm gonna, um, do a quick intro, and then I'll introduce you and Grace.
Where's Grace? I'll, uh-- Just give me a second.
Hey, you okay? My stomach's a little Actually, you're looking-- What? I don't know.
Green.
Green? Great, Charlie.
Just what a girl needs to hear before she's being beamed into households all over the Bay area.
I look green.
That's not what I-- Good morning.
This is Gemma Rollins coming to you live from Golden Gate Park.
I'm here this morning with Grace Wilcox, contender for the new city council seat.
Now, this race is said to ride on a few key issues.
One of them Charlie, I need you to fill in for me.
What? What are you talking about? I-- I think-- No.
I know I'm gonna be sick.
Sick? You mean, like, sick sick? Well, it's just a question or two-- Now, Grace-- Uh, Charlie Salinger, Miss Wilcox's campaign manager, will fill us in.
Sure.
Um, on-- On what exactly? The parks? Right, uh, the parks.
They can really do that? Apparently, I'm paying a fine or imprisonment.
[SIGHS.]
How long is the imprisonment? Well, can't you make an excuse? I don't know, write a note to the-- You know, the head of the jury duty, and tell them that you made a promise to a 14-year-old orphan.
I'm sure the government eats stuff like that up.
Claudia.
I'm just upset.
Okay? I mean, this is-- I was really looking forward to this.
I mean, it's not like it's been the greatest year for me.
You know? This is a big deal.
Can't you just miss the first couple days of the trial? It's not like I wouldn't rather be in L.
A.
, and listening to you play than sitting in some stupid jury box.
They sent me a copy of the program in the mail.
"Los Angeles Chamber Orchestra presents its Fourth Annual Young Soloist Series.
" Think they invite you again if you cancel at the last minute? You're not gonna cancel, Claud, because of me.
Well, who else is gonna bring me? Not Charlie.
Why not Charlie? I can't leave the restaurant for four days like this at the last minute.
I don't have anybody to run the place.
Plus I've got Owen.
And Grace's campaign.
That is not the reason, Claud.
We've gotta work something out, Charlie.
They invite something like four people a year.
Well, what about Julia? Julia's gone.
She's off with Griffin somewhere.
Okay.
Then I'll call Joe.
He's down there since Franny got the L.
A.
-New York route, right? I'll fly down myself.
I'm sure they'd let me stay with them.
Claud, I don't-- I'm gonna call.
No, Claud, don't.
Why not? They got a tiny little place.
Plus, you can't ask 'em to cancel their plans at the last minute just to-- To baby-sit you.
That's too much to ask even for Joe.
Why don't you let me take her? I'm on break.
It's-- It's not a problem.
And I wanna do it.
Bailey, I don't know.
You don't trust me.
Bailey-- No.
No, I don't-- I don't blame you.
But you know what? You can trust me, Charlie, because I got more to prove than anybody right now.
And, anyway, it's the only way that Claud's gonna get to go.
And there's no way we can say no, Charlie.
She's been working on this piece for, like, three months.
Four months.
I'm not gonna blow this.
No way.
JULIA: Don't, don't, don't.
Ha-ha-ha.
[GRIFFIN CHUCKLES.]
JULIA: Wow.
I bet you won't find that in a AAA guidebook.
[LAUGHING.]
I can't believe we did that.
What do you call that anyway? Yeah.
There's the mile-high club if you do it in a plane.
But in two states at once, what is that? Uh, we're crossing the state line? Horizontally? So we started in California-- And ended up in Nevada.
Are you ready to roll? Yeah.
[SIGHS.]
Hey, you know what? We should do it on every state line that we hit.
How far to Utah? Oh, about 10 minutes.
Ha-ha.
[ENGINE SPUTTERS.]
You still bad? What? Oh, yeah.
All I can say is thank God for the bushes.
[CHUCKLES.]
Oh, come on, Grace, it's just the flu.
No, it's not.
Could be.
No, Charlie.
It isn't the flu.
What? Why are you being so hard on yourself? You don't have to be superhuman, Grace.
You know, you're tired and overworked and-- Late.
Huh? I'm late, Charlie.
I'm usually so regular you can set a clock by me.
What? And this-- It's the third morning in a row I've gotten sick.
But it couldn't-- I mean, we were careful.
We were really careful.
Wow.
You sure it's not the flu? WOMAN [ON PA.]
: Ladies and gentlemen, we've started our cocktail and beverage service.
Cocktails are $4.
Beer and wine are $3.
Do you think I should sway more? I mean, when I perform.
I always thought it looked kind of goofy, but audience eat stuff like that up.
They think they're getting their money's worth or something if you give them a lot of: Okay.
Take Nadja Solerno-Sonnenberg.
Okay, technically, she's really good.
But come on, what's the real reason she cleans up on the soloist circuit? It's because when she plays, she looks like she's sawing a sequoia in half.
Am I right? Huh? Huh? Claud, could--? You wanna switch seats? No way.
Come on, I want to look out the window for a while.
Forget it.
I called dibs in the car.
Right, you did.
Oh, you know the other thing people are total suckers for? When the horsehair on your bow breaks.
Like that's a sign that you're playing really hard.
Please.
Hi.
Can I get you a drink? Can I get an OJ? Sure.
[ORCHESTRA PLAYING CLASSICAL MUSIC.]
A little more aggressive.
You know what I mean? We don't want any timid Bartók.
Okay.
Okay.
Grab something to drink.
We'll come back in five and do the second movement.
[CHATTER.]
Hey, Claud.
That sounded great up there.
How would you know? The movement's in C, you were squeaking back and forth in your chair in B sharp.
Sorry.
Sorry.
Anyway, the, um-- The conductor seems like a nice guy.
Uh-huh.
What were you doing with your chair? Oh, you noticed that? I was just-- I was staring up and-- And squinting.
You know how sometimes you can make the ceiling feel like it's moving in and out? Go away, Bailey.
What? Y-you're bugging me.
Oh, okay.
Then, uh-- Then, I'll stop.
No.
I want you to go because you're bored and you're annoying.
No, I'm not.
I'm not bored.
I'm not.
I'm interested.
Claud, I'm very interested.
And, anyway, I said I was gonna look out for you, so-- You don't need to look after me.
I'm in the middle of rehearsal, and I'm fine.
So why don't you go out and have a nice time.
I don't know.
Claud, I think I would just rather-- Go.
Pick me up at 6:30.
We'll go out and have some dinner.
It'll be great 'cause I've got a surprise for you.
GRIFFIN: So, what do you think? The guy in the little town in Nevada says it's the condenser but-- No.
It's more likely your coil, man.
That's what I tried to tell him.
Either way, he didn't have the part.
JULIA: That's right.
We figured we could fix it faster here at home and then just sort of take off again.
Well, your condenser's fine, man.
So it's definitely your coil.
You must've been running her on-- One cylinder.
Yeah, I know.
Electric's kind of funky.
I was thinking about-- So anyway, can you fix it? 'Cause we already lost a day waiting for a ride back, and we're kind of in a rush.
Sure.
You know, I got a couple of coils around here somewhere, but everything's pretty much packed up.
Packed up? Why? Oh, I'm selling the shop.
You know, moving on.
Hey, here they are, man.
Ever think about electronic ignition, 'cause that would solve a lot of problems.
Sweet.
Uh, maybe a Bonneville head and some carbs? Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
Wait.
We don't need a carb.
And we don't need any, um, heads.
And we-- What we really need is-- What do you call it? A coil.
A coil.
Thank you.
We need a coil.
That's all we need.
We're kind of in a rush.
Okay.
Be done in the morning.
Excellent.
Oh, you know what? Maybe we should sleeve Concentric carb.
Yeah.
I'm right there with you, man.
Coil.
We just need a coil.
[SPEAKING IN SPANISH.]
[COMMENTATOR SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY.]
COMMENTATOR: You guys get a lot of attention, Joe.
And, uh And of course there's some genetics involved in it too, but [***.]
Mrs.
Reeves.
Hi, it's Bailey calling.
Great.
Just great.
Yeah.
I'm feeling real good.
Um, anyway, is-- Is Sarah around? Oh.
Well, when do you expect her back? That late, huh? Dennis.
Hey, man, it's Bailey.
Hey, is my brother around? Okay, but he's working the dinner shift tonight, right? So he should be back-- Oh, with Grace.
Okay.
Um Yeah.
Yeah.
Could you if he checks in? Uh No, it's not an emergency, exactly, but-- But it's important.
Okay, man.
Thanks.
Bye.
Mrs.
Reeves, hi.
It's-- It's Bailey again.
Hi.
Um Look, I know-- I know that you and Mr.
Reeves have been kind of upset about Sarah and I spending time together since the accident and everything.
And I-- I didn't know if you were so mad that you would tell me she wasn't there if she actually was, because if she is, I really do need to-- Oh, okay.
Right.
Right.
Okay.
I'm sorry to bother you again.
Bye.
[***.]
You okay? No, I'm not okay.
I mean, what are the odds? A pregnancy test either turns up white or it turns up blue.
And what do I get? Plaid.
Maybe we shouldn't have bought generic.
Could the timing possibly be any worse? I don't know.
Maybe not.
I mean, maybe you're not even-- But I was wondering, if you were, maybe we should talk abo-- Whatever I do, whatever I do, this is a lose-lose situation.
Well, if you think about it, I mean-- And the political fallout from this is-- It's a disaster.
No matter what.
Not necessarily.
And that's what I was trying to-- And-- And I do something about this and it gets out, I mean, I lose half the vote easy.
And if I decide to have the baby as a single mother, I lose the family values vote.
So no matter what I decide-- What if we got married? Excuse me? Well, think about it.
I mean, yeah, the-- The timing is off and-- And we are making this up as we go along, but it's working out, right? Us, I mean.
So-- So if you are pregnant, if that's what the doctor says, then why not? I mean, I could do that.
We could do it.
Charlie.
Wow.
Um-- [DOOR OPENS.]
WOMAN: Grace Wilcox? This way, please.
Just putting it out there as an option.
That's all.
[***.]
You still here? Yeah.
My brother's a little late.
He probably just got lost or something.
You want me to give you a lift? Oh, no.
No.
He'll be here.
Hey.
Forgot a few necessities the first time around.
Would have been brushing with a twig.
You just get back from the shop? Hey, what--? What time does he open in the morning? What? Uh, 7, I think.
Great.
So we can get an early start then.
You know how you, uh-- You were saying how you wanted to start leaving more things up to chance, or-- Fate.
Yeah.
Yeah.
What exactly did you mean by that? Um, well, i-it's like with our trip.
You know how we were gonna go through Willits, right? Well, I just called AAA, and they told me it's under a foot of water because of the rains.
So if it hadn't been for your bike, like, going dead-- We wouldn't have ended up back here, right? And I wouldn't have gone to the bike shop, and I never would have met Carter.
Who wouldn't have fixed your bike so we could take off and steer clear of Willits.
See, fate.
Yeah.
Well, sort of.
You see, uh, we, uh-- We can't take off.
What do you mean can't? It's just that little coil thingy, right? I-- I was thinking, you know, you said that how-- How one thing leads to the next for a reason, right? Like-- Like this trip being blown.
Well, it's not exactly blown.
It's-- Now I have this totally amazing opportunity.
What opportunity? I-- I told Carter that I'd-- That I'd buy it, Jule.
The bike shop.
I'm gonna use my money to buy the bike shop.
[KNOCKING ON DOOR.]
Hey, Bailey.
Hey.
Joe, Franny, what are you doing--? What are you doing here? Are we gonna do this through the door? Bailey.
What are you--? I thought you were on the wagon, Bailey? I am.
I am.
It's just-- I was-- What are you guys doing here anyway? Claudia invited us to have dinner together.
Oh, my God, what time is it? It's 7:00.
Oh, my God, I was supposed to pick her up a half hour ago.
[KEYS JINGLING.]
Where is she? She's at the Music Center.
Joe, don't-- Don't tell her.
Okay? I'm gonna have some coffee, and I'll be fine in a couple minutes.
Just don't tell her.
Please, don't tell her.
[***.]
[CRICKETS CHIRPING.]
Hey, you guys.
Hi, sweetie.
How's it going? Hey.
Hi.
Hey, Claud.
I thought we were gonna-- Let me take this.
Meet at the hotel? Yeah, we were.
Well, you know, we ran into Bailey because we got there early and-- Oh, you did? Yeah.
You did? 'Cause he was supposed to pick me up, like, forever ago.
No.
That's our fault.
Our fault entirely.
I was pressing him for details about you guys and-- And, uh, we just, uh, lost track of time.
Yeah.
Is he parking or something? No, no.
He's, uh-- I talked him into letting us take you out to dinner.
Just the three of us? Yeah.
Yup.
And-- And then we were thinking maybe you'd like to spend the night at our place.
Yeah.
How does that sound? Okay.
But-- Maybe-- Maybe I should just check in with Bailey.
You know, make sure he doesn't-- He doesn't feel like I'm deserting him or something.
Oh, I wouldn't do that.
No.
He was gonna go out.
What's going on? Why isn't Bailey going with us? Well, like I said, sweetie, he's-- Never mind.
I know why.
He was drinking again, wasn't he? Wasn't he? Look, it doesn't make it any easier when someone doesn't tell you the truth.
It just makes that sick feeling in your stomach worse.
He'd been drinking, yes.
He promised.
Do you realize how much work this is gonna be? Uh-huh.
But I already told him that I'd buy it, so That is an oral agreement subject to inspection and God knows what else.
That is totally non-binding.
You can get out of it.
I don't want to get out of it.
Oh, yeah.
Okay.
So why don't you tell me what his average monthly net profit is.
He brings in three or four grand easy.
That's gross.
What's gross about it? That's good money.
No.
Gross income.
Total.
You have to subtract the expenses to get the net.
Net profit, you know? After payroll, parts, insurance, mortgage, taxes.
Oh, I don't know.
Griffin, you're buying a business here, not deodorant.
Didn't you ask him anything? Yes.
Yeah, sure, I asked him.
I asked him things like, uh, I don't know-- how much business he gets.
He says that he stays busy all the time, so There was no one in there the other day.
We were, like, it.
It was, like, 2:00 on a weekday.
On a Saturday you can't even get near that place.
I know, I've been there.
Okay.
Okay.
So does he own or rent the building? 'Cause if he rents, you need to know the terms of the lease.
If he owns, you need to know the market value of the property.
Look, I'm gonna have Arnie take care of all that stuff.
All right? What's with you anyway? You know, this is a good thing.
You should be excited for me.
I am.
I am.
It's just-- What do you know about running a business? I know that I can do it.
God, I just feel like a 300-pound weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
Yeah.
I bet you would.
I mean, Dr.
Siegel was right about the stress causing a hormonal imbalance.
Of course the test results were wacky.
I mean, look at my life right now.
Anyway, what a relief, huh? Relief? Yeah.
And all I could think about was what if, you know? And I kept trying to put it out of my mind.
But I'm doing these interviews, and lobbying with possible donors.
And it was like this thing hanging over my head the whole time.
I mean, God, can you imagine? Oh, and, Charlie, yesterday at the doctor's, the fact that you would-- You were great.
You were just great.
I mean it.
Thank you.
[SIGHS.]
Anyway, thank God it's not an issue, right? We should celebrate.
Oh, did I tell you Dr.
Siegel's putting me on the pill? Some new dosage, low estrogen or something.
So this will never happen again.
Yeah, you mentioned that.
Can you just clear away the coffee and stuff? Do you need me to order you some more? No.
Oh.
Wait, wait, wait.
Here is the key to the minibar.
We-- We won't be needing it anymore.
And if one of us calls to get the bar restocked, can you just make sure that no one does that? Uh, sure.
You think you embarrassed me enough? No.
Okay.
Come on, sweetheart.
You better get ready.
That picture-taking thing is in less than an hour.
I'm not going.
I canceled.
Claudia.
What? Like we're really gonna go? It's a whole reception, Bailey.
Okay? There'll probably be beer there.
Okay? And wine.
Well, then, I won't go in with you.
I'll just drop you off.
Oh, right.
That's better.
I'll have a great time worrying if you're somewhere getting drunk.
I'm not gonna go get drunk, Claudia.
Look, I slipped up.
Okay? People slip up, but it's not like-- At least I'm admitting it.
Right? And that's the most important thing right now, because I'm definitely not kidding myself anymore.
And you know what? This is actually-- This is probably the best thing that could've happened to me.
'Cause here I am for the past two weeks, and all I can think about is I need a drink.
I gotta have a drink.
Because if I have a drink, then everything that is wrong, and everything that is making me feel bad will go away.
Well, I had a drink, and it wasn't that great.
And it didn't make me feel better.
So now I know that, and maybe I needed to go through that so-- Claudia.
So I-- I was thinking, there's still, like, four days left of spring break.
And I figured it'd be totally stupid to just stay here and waste the entire vacation.
You know? Mm-hm.
So I think-- Well, more like I've-- I've decided I'm-- I'm gonna go.
I'm just gonna get in my car and drive.
Do it the way we planned, you know, no reservations, no maps.
Yeah.
Okay.
Okay? So-- So wait.
You don't mind? Well, no.
I mean, what's the point of you hanging around here? I mean, this stuff's gotta be totally boring to you, right? You might as well go out and have some fun.
That's funny.
I kind of thought I was supposed to be having fun with you.
It's only one road trip, Julia.
Is that all? Griffin, this isn't-- This isn't what I expected.
And-- And I don't just mean the trip.
I mean, this is-- This is a preview, isn't it? Of how things are gonna be for us.
I mean, I-- I thought with you coming back and me not going to college we were gonna do this thing together.
You know? We are.
Are we? Are we? 'Cause now-- Now this feels like we're-- We're stuck here.
I never said you had to stay.
Then I won't.
It's not-- Julia-- I-I don't get it.
I don't-- I don't get you.
You're the one that said that-- That it's not enough for me just to want you.
Well, now, I want this.
I don't know about you, but I am gonna sleep like a baby.
Grace.
Yeah? Look, I know this is, um-- I wanna ask you something.
I think I should probably ask you.
Do you ever see it happening with us? Kids, I mean.
What? Oh, Charlie, God.
I mean, I totally understand where you're coming from.
I was-- I was relieved too, when you told me.
But, I don't know, I wasn't nearly as relieved as you were.
Charlie, come on, why are we talking about this? It's too soon to be talking about this.
Yeah.
I know it is.
It's not like I'm looking to have kids right now.
But, I don't know.
This-- This thing sort of came up and-- And now I'm wondering.
You seem so-- Like your mind is made up about it.
Is that--? Is that a now thing, or is that more like a forever thing? Charlie, I don't wanna have children.
That's just not part of my game plan.
Well, how do you know that? I mean, maybe you just haven't met the right guy.
I mean, until now.
Look, when I was little and I used to play with dolls, sometimes I'd be the teacher and they'd be my students.
And sometimes I'd be Diana Ross and they'd be my Supremes.
But they were never my babies, Charlie.
I just didn't think that way.
Not then and not now.
But maybe-- Charlie, you asked and I'm being honest with you.
I'm-- I don't wanna have children.
And that's-- That's just kind of who I am.
[DINGS.]
Hey.
I know you said you didn't want me to be here, but, wow, Claud, you were incredible.
The couple next to me, they were clapping so hard for you.
If you didn't do an encore, I think they would have ended up in the hospital.
So you wanna do something? You wanna get some dessert and celebrate? Or we can check out Melrose? Just-- Just cut it out.
Okay? Cut what out? Being all nice and concerned and "what do you want, Claud?" You're only doing it 'cause you screwed up.
Claudia.
Look, Claudia, what do you want me to say? I'm sorry.
You're always sorry, and I'm just getting sick of of it.
Okay? Well-- 'Cause all I do is worry about you, Bailey, and-- What--? What happened to you worrying about me? Of course I worry about you, Claud.
Do you? Do you know what a big deal tonight was? Do you really know how scary it is to stand in front of a thousand people who have heard the Bartók a zillion times, only-- Only played by Itzhak Perlman or-- Or Isaac Stern? It's-- It's hard to breathe, and-- And your fingers, they-- They feel all thick and you-- Y-you feel-- You feel-- What? Alone.
I felt alone.
I can't count on you anymore, Bailey.
And I can't go to you to make me feel better because you're-- All of a sudden I'm the one taking care of you, cleaning up after you, watching out for you, and it's not fair.
Why not? Why isn't that fair? Because I'm older than you? Because you need taking care of and I don't? Will you stop? Listen, Claudia, I wish more than anything that you didn't have to watch me fight this the way I am.
But you do.
Now, I am sorry, but that is just the way it is.
Great.
Hey, you know what? You know what? You're not a baby anymore.
And you're not gonna be a kid for that much longer either.
So maybe-- Maybe you could come through for me.
Hey.
Hey.
I thought you guys were heading out of town? Yeah, I thought so too.
Is something going on? Hm? Oh, no.
I was just in the mood for an early lunch.
Yeah? It's 9:30.
Charlie, do you think I'm selfish? Incredibly.
Why? No, I-- I mean it.
Okay.
Selfish in what way? Well, Griffin is buying a motorcycle shop with the money he got, and it's, like, this really great opportunity for him.
You know? And that's bad because? No.
No.
It's good.
Good for Griffin.
But not for you? Well, yeah.
Yeah.
'Cause now we can't do any of the stuff I thought we were gonna do together, and I don't know.
It's just everything is going great.
And I-- I thought we wanted the same things.
And now all of a sudden, he wants something that is, like, totally different.
And I just-- I don't know where to put that.
You know what I mean? Yeah.
I sort of do.
I guess the question you gotta ask yourself is which is more important? Griffin or all that stuff you want.
[***.]
CHARLIE: Is it something you can work out? I mean, is it worth working out? JULIA: Yeah, I think so.
CHARLIE: Well, then your problem's solved.
JULIA: Right.
Problem solved.
So where'd you guys disappear to this morning? Claudia took me backstage at the Music Center, and we watched this incredible string quartet rehearse, and, um-- And we talked.
I told him about Walter Alcott and all that stuff.
Oh, yeah? It just goes from bad to worse, huh? Things can turn around.
You never know.
Yeah.
Hey, I'm talking from experience here.
I mean, you're looking at a guy whose doctor said to him, "If you keep doing the one thing that you really love to do, "if you keep working your restaurant, you're gonna kill yourself.
" I was 50 years old.
I had no job, no family.
Do you think I went wandering around the world for fun? I was lost.
I was lost.
And then I met this woman.
Yeah, well, that's great.
You're a lucky guy.
It's not luck.
It's not luck.
I don't know.
Maybe it's because I'm getting older, and I need to start making sense of this world, but I kind of like to think that it was God looking out for me.
It was God saying, "I'm not gonna let you go.
" Okay.
I know what this is about.
This is about me and God and not wanting to go to AA, right? Everybody needs something to believe in, Bailey, besides themselves.
Not me.
I don't.
I hate to break it to you, Joe, but we're all pretty much on our own here.
And there's nobody looking out for any of us.
Just cut it out, Bailey.
Don't say stuff like that.
JOE: Somebody was looking out for me.
Somebody was looking out for your father when he stopped drinking.
Yeah, well, it wasn't God.
Okay? Look, you believe whatever you want to believe in, Joe.
If you're afraid of dying, and you need to believe in God, then that's your business.
I'm just saying that I don't see him in my life.
How about in the fact that your father's inside of you? Come on.
I'm serious.
Your father is in you, and this is the proof, and it means nothing to you.
Really? The fact that I got this disease from him? It means plenty to me, Joe.
Why do you insist on always looking at the bad stuff, Bailey? You really think I showed up at your house, and told you about your dad's drinking because I wanted to make things worse for you? I told you because I thought it would give you a little hope.
Yeah.
You got what made your father start drinking.
But if you just look for it, you got what made him stop too.
You know what-- CLAUDIA: Why not? Why isn't it possible? Maybe you got all the stuff that made us love him and made Mom love him.
Maybe you got all of him.
No, I don't.
What does this have to do with God anyway? Are you kidding me? Are you kidding me? Your father didn't disappear.
He's inside of you.
And that doesn't just happen.
If the world were random and mean, the way you think it is I think that it's proof that there's someone or something looking out for us.
I don't know.
It's not a curse, Bailey.
It's a gift.
You just gotta look at it that way.
Every time you fight the urge to drink, every time you beat the urge to drink, you feel him.
And you know he didn't really leave you when he died.
He's still here.
[***.]
You're not alone, Bailey.
Hey.
I thought you left town.
No.
I brought this for-- [SOFT ROCK MUSIC PLAYING ON STEREO.]
I thought it might help brighten up the place.
Carter in his office? No.
He went home.
Gave me my own set of keys.
Why didn't you go? 'Cause you're not there.
[GROWLS.]
* Tell me your dark side * I'm sorry.
It's just it seems like everyone else knows what they-- What they want.
But maybe so do I.
Did I tell you what I got Owen? Uh-uh.
It's a snow globe of an earthquake.
The big one.
You shake it, and all the buildings kind of fly around.
Huh.
That's-- That sounds cheery.
Yeah.
I'm sure he'll love it.
Yeah.
You know what? They said they're gonna, um-- They said they're gonna send me a copy of the performance.
Really? Well, that's great, Claud.
That's-- What's--? It's, uh-- It's a meeting.
It's an AA meeting.
I can get home by myself, Bailey.
You sure? Go.
You don't have to wait up.
I'll wait up.
* Tell me you feel * * Deny your silent fear * [***.]

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