The Affair (2014) s04e08 Episode Script
Season 4, Episode 8
1 Previously on The Affair [Cole.]
I know I'm disappointing you.
What if I left? Would you be willing to give me the time - to go away - Yes.
I'm going home.
[Delphine.]
Back to your wife.
No.
The truth is, I'm in love with somebody else.
And I have tried for years to get her out of my mind, but it just never works, and I don't want to wake up in ten years and want to kill myself 'cause I was just trying to do the right thing.
[Ben.]
You know what we should do? We should meet up all over the country at different PTSD conferences.
[laughs.]
What? Can you switch weekends in two weeks? Uh, yeah.
Sure.
Why? I have this conference I want to go to in Milwaukee.
Done.
My wife she goes crazy with both kids on the weekends, and I'm already late.
Hey, listen.
It's not what you think.
[Cole.]
Does she know you're married? Look, I'm gonna tell her.
- Why don't I tell her myself? - Hey, hey.
What do you know about your dad? Nothing.
Athena must have some idea who he is.
Nope.
She says she doesn't.
I'm sure you could find him if you wanted to.
And say what? You're a shit? Thanks for nothing? - You're my father? - [James.]
Yes.
Why are you contacting me now? My kidneys are failing.
[Julie.]
Alison, don't go.
Alison? [Alison.]
Wait, Noah, I can't breathe.
- I can't breathe.
Can't - You're okay.
If you can talk, you can breathe.
I can't breathe.
I can't - It's okay.
Calm down.
- [gasping.]
I can't Here.
Why don't you take these? They'll make you feel better.
[Anton.]
I need your thoughts.
I really think you need to see Princeton.
Well, how am I supposed to pull that off? It's all the way across the country.
I'm gonna take him this week.
If they fire me, they fire me.
[Noah.]
What if I take him? Uh, we missed our connecting flight to New York, so [woman.]
No, we have no more flights to New York today.
Cole? What's g what's going on? It's been 72 hours.
No one's seen her.
Police have declared her a missing person.
I was screaming into the canyon At the moment of my death The echo I created Outlasted my last breath My voice it made an avalanche And buried a man I never knew And when he died, his widowed bride Met your daddy and they made you I have only one thing to do And that's be the wave that I am, and then Sink back into the ocean I have only one thing to do And that's be the wave that I am, and then Sink back into the ocean I have only one thing to do And that's be the wave that I am, and then Sink back into the ocean, sink back into the ocean Sink back into the o Sink back into the ocean Sink back into the o Sink back into the ocean Sink back into the ocean [quiet, tense music.]
[exhales.]
[soft chuckle.]
[indistinct chatter.]
Hi, there.
You looking to check in? Uh, no.
I'm-I'm actually looking for one of your um, attendees.
[chuckles.]
A woman named Alison Bailey.
Think maybe you could tell me where she is right at the moment? Um Oh.
Hey.
Yeah.
Uh, it looks like she has not checked in yet.
Really? Yeah, so Uh Oh, is this this, uh, is this the first day? No, this is actually day three.
Huh.
Uh, then, thank you.
Hey.
Ali, it's me.
Uh, Cole.
I'm I'm just, um [laughs.]
Uh, just give me a call when you get this.
Bye.
[sighs.]
Hey.
Athena, it's Cole.
Um, I'm trying to get ahold of Ali.
You have any idea where she might be? Well, that's strange, 'cause I'm actually in Milwaukee and she's not here.
She never checked in.
Um [laughs.]
That's a that's a long story, it doesn't matter, but, um, I'm just, I'm just trying to find her, so When? Three days ago? And you haven't heard from her since? [sighs.]
Did you call Luisa? You know what? Um, Athena, I'm gonna have to call you right back.
Okay? Really sorry.
Call you right back.
Hey, Ben.
Ben! Hey.
Cole.
Lockhart.
Hey.
Hey, Cole.
Um what, uh what are you doing here? Uh [exhales.]
I'm looking for Alison, actually.
Is she Are the two of you here together? No.
Um actually, I think, between us, it's, uh it's over.
[plastic on flowers crinkles.]
Oh, shit.
I'm sorry to hear that.
Yeah.
Yeah, me, too.
Um [chuckles.]
Mind if I ask what happened? Well, I, uh, I told her I was married, and she wasn't so into that.
[soft chuckle.]
Yeah.
Sorry.
Ah, it's okay.
You know, we ended things well.
In a weird way, I think she felt good about it.
Something about standing up for herself.
I don't know.
I kind of stopped listening after she said we had no future.
Damn.
That's tough.
Yeah.
It is what it is.
Anyway, um, - I-I really - Um, you don't, by any chance, know where she is, do you? No.
Why? Well, she's kind of gone MIA.
I mean, she said something about, uh, going to Los Angeles.
Los Angeles? Why? Yeah.
She, uh, said she was gonna go see her ex-husband.
I don't really know.
Listen, um, I, uh, I gotta prep for this next workshop.
Veterans.
But do me a favor.
When you do get ahold of her, could you just give me a call, let me know she's all right? Yeah, of course.
All right.
[Cole sighs.]
[sighs.]
[line ringing.]
Hi, this is Noah.
Leave a message.
[line beeps.]
Solloway.
It's Cole Lockhart.
Look, I'm trying to track down Alison and I heard that maybe she went out to LA She with you? Call me back when you get this.
[phone buzzes.]
Hey, Athena.
I'm sorry about that.
Cole, I went by her house.
With Joanie? Uh, no, no, no, I dropped Joanie off with Luisa.
[sighs.]
Thank you for doing that.
Her stuff is still here.
What do you mean? Her phone, her wallet It's all on the table.
Cole? I heard that maybe she went out to Los Angeles.
Without her phone? You sure it's hers? Yes.
I'm looking at it right now.
Maybe she needed another break, you know? Yeah.
Yeah, maybe.
Um Look, do you mind just calling around a little bit and seeing if anybody knows anything? Well, of course.
I'm gonna head home now, I should be back by Well I'll get back as soon as I can.
Okay? - Okay.
- [line chiming.]
- Sh hey, Athena? - Oh.
I gotta go.
I gotta take this call.
All right? Just call me if you get any info.
Okay, bye.
She with you? [Noah.]
Hello to you, too, Cole.
I just want to know where she is.
I have no idea, so [sighs heavily.]
I heard maybe she went out to Los Angeles.
She did, yeah.
She was here last week.
- And? - And nothing.
As far as I know, she went back to Montauk.
As far as you know? - Yeah.
She got on a plane - [sighs.]
Look, I'm not even out there anymore.
I'm in Chicago.
I'm stuck in O'Hare.
Well, it might interest you to know that nobody can find her.
What? Did you just say you're at Chicago O'Hare? Did you say no one can find her? - Cole.
- [sighs.]
Cole? Cole? If I came and picked you up, would you drive? Drive? Where? Home.
I'm exhausted, I can't make the trip by myself.
I'll drop you off anywhere you want along the way.
Noah? Uh Okay, sure.
Stay where you are.
I'll be there soon.
[engine starts.]
[tense, atmospheric music.]
[woman.]
Unattended parking is not permitted on this parking level.
Violators will be ticketed.
Hi.
Thanks for picking us up.
Us? - [Anton.]
Hey.
- Anton.
It's a long story.
I'll explain.
Thanks.
[Noah.]
So she hasn't called? No.
[phone buzzing.]
Fuck.
[continues buzzing.]
You want to get that? I'll grab you something.
Thank you.
[phone continues buzzing.]
Hey, Luisa.
How are you? No, I'm-I'm fine.
Thank you.
Yeah, I'm good.
How's Joanie doing? Good.
[sighs.]
Yeah, I'm on my way.
I'll be I'll be home soon.
You know what's going on.
Alison's missing.
I'm trying to find her.
No I know that's not what you meant Luisa, please, I can't get into us right now.
Please.
We will talk about that as soon as I get home, okay? Yes, I promise.
I'll tell you everything that's going on with me.
I just cannot get into it right now.
Please.
No, no.
No, please don't put her [exhales.]
Hey, baby.
How are you? What are you doing up so late? Shouldn't you be in bed already? [sighs.]
I will be home soon, I promise.
No.
No, Mommy's just gone on a little trip.
That's where I'm going right now.
I'm going to go get her.
Okay? Yes, I will be home soon.
That's right, we will be home soon.
That's exactly right.
Everything's gonna be okay, I promise.
Okay, you go to bed now.
And brush your teeth.
Promise? [somber music.]
I love you, too, kiddo.
[sighs.]
Oh, fuck.
[Anton.]
Hey.
Thank you.
[exhales.]
[engine starts.]
[phone buzzing.]
Hey.
Athena? What's the news? [Athena.]
I know where she may be.
[sighs.]
Oh.
Great.
Where? Her father's.
Her what? He reached out to her last week.
- He wants her kidney.
- He wants her what? She went to see him.
Okay, Athena, s-slow down for a second.
He lives in East Hampton.
Alison's father lives in East Hampton? Yes.
Okay, I just talked to him, but he insists he hasn't seen her since she left.
But he's a terrible person, Cole, and I don't trust him.
- [Noah.]
Athena.
- Who's that? It's Noah.
Noah Solloway.
What? What are you two doing together? It's a long story.
How did Alison find out about her father? - He called me.
- He called you? And you just sent her to him? No! Of course not.
- I didn't know she'd gone.
- You knew where he was? - When did she see him? - Last week.
Is there any good reason in God's name why you are just mentioning this now? Athena?! There's a reason, Cole, but I'd rather not discuss it.
I don't give a shit what you'd rather not discuss.
It's not relevant, Cole, okay? What's important is I don't trust him.
And someone needs to talk to him.
Alison's father has been living in East Hampton for her entire life, 20 miles away, and you're just - telling me this now?! - Cole Look, what's the address? Just-just Just give us the address, Athena.
42 Lee Avenue, East Hampton.
Got that? - Great.
Thanks, Athena.
- [line clicks.]
Oh, my God, this would be so much easier if she wasn't such a fucking nut job.
Did Alison mention any of this when she came out to see you? No, not a word.
Nothing? Look, Cole, there's something else I should tell you.
What? When I picked up Alison in LA, she was in bad shape, okay? Really bad shape.
So I-I got her a prescription for Xanax.
- Please tell me that's a joke.
- No, well, I didn't, Vik did.
- Helen's boyfriend.
- Oh, my God.
- You gave her a bottle of Xanax? - She was having She was having some kind of a panic attack.
Well, actually, Xanax isn't that strong of a drug.
You can't O.
D.
on it unless you, like, mix it with alcohol.
Thanks, Anton.
What was she planning on doing, relaxing herself to death? All right, that's enough.
Sorry, the point is, I didn't tell Jeffries, - and he's gonna find out.
- [car horn blaring.]
- Hey, wait! - [tires screeching.]
- Whoa! - Wait! [Cole.]
What the fuck are you doing?! Cole, keep your eyes on the road! - Man, I'm fine! - How long you been awake? I said I'm fine.
[sighs.]
Here, look.
There's an exit here.
Pull over.
Come on, pull over.
[turn signal clicking.]
[atmospheric music.]
[engine stops.]
Hi.
[TV playing quietly.]
[Noah.]
Hi.
[door closes.]
Hi yourself.
Would you have a couple of rooms, maybe adjoining? Dad? Do we have two adjoining? They don't have to be adjoining.
Yeah, hold on one second.
Uh Yeah, no.
[door closes.]
Just hang on.
Because we are pretty full tonight, but let me see what I can do.
[typing.]
How about a double queen for your son, which adjoins with a single king for you guys.
Does that work for your family? [whispers.]
Because love is love.
Thank you.
That would be perfect.
Thank you.
Rebecca, you're a doll.
- Thank you.
- No problem.
Okay.
Grab you a key.
[atmospheric music.]
[sighs.]
[sighing.]
[line rings.]
[Ben.]
You've reached Ben.
Leave a message after the tone.
- [beeps.]
- Hey.
Ben, it's, uh, Cole Lockhart calling.
I just wanted to well, I wanted to check in, see if maybe you'd heard from Alison.
So, if you do hear anything, give me a call back.
Thank you.
[knock on door.]
We're hungry.
Need anything else? No, that was delicious.
Thank you.
How about the hubby? Oh, no, he's good, too.
Quit macking on her.
Eat your food.
- "Macking"? - Yeah? 1991 called on a landline, asking you to fax its slang back.
[chuckles.]
Seriously, when you've had your dinner, I can, uh give you a few pointers if you like.
- [Anton.]
Pointers? - You know, on sealing the deal.
I'm good, thank you.
[chuckles.]
No.
Please.
I want to hear this.
I bet you would.
See, they say the best advice is to be yourself, but I think it's-it's good to enhance your natural personality, you know? [chuckles.]
See, Cole, for instance, he's a moper.
I'm a what? - Oh, shit.
- A moper.
I am not a moper.
You are.
Classic moper.
See, his thing is is to belly up to the bar and order a drink, like, you know, really seriously, like he's ordering a missile strike, and then just stare into the glass really, really intense, like he's reading tea leaves, like he can see the future in there.
Before you know it, women are falling all over themselves to come and cheer him up.
- Isn't that right? - [Anton.]
Wow.
Mm, mm.
Now, Noah's strategy, - on the other hand - Yes.
Do tell.
I've been wondering about this.
is to make all of these promises he has no intention of keeping and couldn't possibly deliver on, but that's okay, so long as he gets what he wants.
Right? Seriously, though, she's a smart girl, probably totally bored, living in a Podunk town.
She'd really welcome talking to someone with a bigger perspective.
Or maybe she's chosen to live here for reasons you couldn't possibly understand, and she doesn't need some fucking stranger coming into town and ruining her life by rescuing her from choices that she's made as a grown woman.
[Anton.]
All right.
Thank you, guys, for the wisdom.
I think I got it from here, though.
- [sighs.]
- [phone whooshes.]
[phone chimes.]
- Did you just? - Yeah.
I got her number back at the desk.
- Excuse me.
- Geez.
Mr.
Lockhart.
Mr.
Solloway.
[clears throat.]
How exactly do you know this kid? It's complicated.
Yeah, I bet.
Let me guess.
You're fucking his mother.
[knock on door.]
I've been sexiled.
What? Isn't that what you called it in college? Sexiled? I never went to college.
[rhythmic thumping, bed creaking, Rebecca moaning.]
[sighs.]
[Rebecca.]
Yes! Yes! How old is this kid, 18, 19? Where is he getting this control from? I know.
I actually think he might just be punking us at this point.
[rhythmic thumping and moaning continue.]
[loud knocking in distance.]
- Is that ours? - No.
[rhythmic thumping and moaning stop.]
[loud knocking in distance.]
[man.]
Rebecca, open this door right now! - I know you're in there! - Oh, shit.
- [Rebecca.]
Uh, just a second! - It's the dad.
Hey.
[knocks quietly.]
Come here, come here.
- Oh, my God.
- [loud knocking.]
- [man.]
Rebecca! - [Noah.]
Get in here, sit there.
- [loud knocking continues.]
- Put your clothes on.
[man.]
Rebecca! Open this door right now! - [door bangs open.]
- Where is he? - Where the fuck is he?! - [Rebecca.]
I don't know what you're talking about.
I was just cleaning this room.
[man.]
At midnight?! You think I'm fucking stupid, - you little slut?! - Fuck you! [man.]
I'll deal with you later.
- [loud knocking.]
- [doorknob rattling.]
Wait, wait, wait, wait.
Go back, go back, go back.
[knocking.]
[man.]
Open up, you fucking faggots! [loud knocking.]
[keys jingling.]
Excuse me, what are you doing in our room? And what's with all the yelling? What the fuck you three think you're doing in my motel with my daughter? I don't know about your daughter, but my husband and I are just trying to take our son to see some schools on the East Coast.
And if you don't get out of this fucking room right now, I'm gonna kick your teeth down your throat, you fucking redneck.
[Noah.]
Uh, honey, honey, honey, honey, honey.
I think may-maybe we should just leave.
Let's leave.
We'll leave.
That's a real good idea.
[sniffs.]
So, Noah Yeah? Why did Alison go out to Los Angeles? I'm not really sure.
I never understood why she did what she did.
Did you fuck her? No.
There's nothing left between us.
I mean, I'll always love her, but I don't want to be with her and she doesn't want to be with me.
It was all over a long time ago.
What about you? What about me? You want to be with her again? That why you went to Milwaukee? To get her back? This state is endless.
[Metallica's "Spit Out the Bone" playing.]
- [groans.]
- [Anton.]
Morning.
Morning.
[groans.]
Oh, man.
How long you been driving for? Couple hours.
Your man has had his time [groans.]
Nope.
Here.
Thank you.
[chuckles.]
[groans.]
Oh, man.
I can take over at the next truck stop.
I'm good.
What the fuck are we listening to? Metallica.
What? College white boys can lose their mind over hip-hop, I can't listen to metal? [laughs.]
[sighs.]
Stop breathing So Princeton? Hmm.
Aiming low, eh? [scoffs.]
Yeah.
That's what they tell me.
You excited to go see it? I don't know.
All feelings you terminate for me You ever feel like someone else's feelings about something are so loud that you can't even hear your own? Yes, I do.
Yeah.
[sniffs, grunts.]
So, Noah, or "Mr.
Solloway.
" Hmm.
- He's your teacher? - Yep.
He any good? He's fucking great, actually.
Hmm.
[Noah.]
Cole, what's wrong? I'm not gonna be able to take you all the way to Princeton.
I want to go talk to Alison's dad.
Its just gonna be faster if I take 78 the whole way.
Okay, fine.
Don't worry, we'll just get a cab from here if you want.
Well, technically, we don't have to be there until tomorrow, right? No, technically, no, but I want to get you there early, so you can walk around, - visit a class.
- Yeah, or we can keep helping Cole look for y'all's missing ex-wife.
This is not a fun adventure, Anton, it's serious.
Yes, Mr.
Solloway, I know.
That's why I want to stay.
Look, you know you're not gonna be able to think about anything else.
So instead of staying at Princeton for an extra day doing jack shit while you check your phone every ten seconds, we can stay with Mr.
Lockhart.
See if we can help.
Well, that's true, I'm not gonna be able to think about - anything else.
- Exactly.
Plus, I'm invested now.
Don't you want to teach me to follow through? Come on.
Okay.
[gentle, acoustic music.]
Damn.
Y'all are rich.
It's not my house.
[engine stops.]
I meant, like, the collective y'all.
What? Look, I don't know these people, so just follow my lead, all right? Crazy.
We were just getting lunch together.
Uh, should I put down a couple of extra plates? - No, that's fine.
- Oh, yeah, that would be lovely, - thank you.
- Okay.
And, again, sorry to barge in on you.
Oh, I understand.
You must be worried sick about her.
I-I mean, I don't know if James knows anything, but, um, regardless, I'm sure he'd like to help.
- [Noah.]
Thanks.
- Yeah.
[Cole.]
Hey.
We're just trying to find out where she is.
Now you want to stay for lunch? People like this, the more hospitality you accept, the more they open up.
[Julie.]
James? Honey, um, we've got company.
[James.]
Yes, well, I'll just be a moment.
As you can see, I'm otherwise engaged.
[chuckles.]
[Julie.]
All right, guys.
Come on, headphones off.
Cell phones in the basket.
Thank you.
Thank you.
You, too.
It's a rule here.
[softly.]
Great.
Yes.
Meals are a time for human connection.
Oh, uh, Anton, is there anything you don't eat? Our chef made baby octopus for lunch, and, um, well, I'm It's not for everyone.
Perhaps a grilled cheese? No, I pretty much eat anything.
But I could use your shower, though.
We've been driving for, like, a day and a half and I don't really smell too good right now.
So Of course.
Uh, Tessa can show you to the guest shower upstairs.
[Noah.]
Anyway, we were just hoping you might have heard from her since you've just been reacquainted.
I'm sure rebuilding that relationship was very important to her and Mm.
Mm-hmm.
I mean, we even thought maybe she was maybe she was here.
[laughs.]
No, no, she is not here.
I mean, it is a big house, but - [Noah chuckles.]
- it's not that big.
And the last time I heard from her, well, I, I think it must have been before you said she went to Los Angeles, so sorry, I know that's no help.
[Noah.]
No, that's fine, it's just is there anything else you can think of? Anything she might have said or was planning or? [sighs.]
How do you know she's not just having one of those little episodes of hers? I'm sorry, what? It's, it's just an expression, Cole.
Well, I-I don't know exactly what to call it, but she did do this sort of thing every once in a while, no? And how would you know that? We spoke, Cole.
We got to know each other.
While this behavior worries me, well, I must say I'm not surprised.
So, well, I do think she'll turn up, but I think we just must have a little patience.
You had 40 years to get to know her.
And you never reached out to her even once until you needed her organ.
And now you have the audacity to sit there and She is a stranger to you.
I'm going to see if your friend got lost on his way back from the shower.
Excuse me.
I'm not sure what it is you want me to say.
I don't want you to say anything.
I want you to understand the hole that you left in her life.
She blamed herself, you know? She thought you disappeared because she wasn't good enough for you.
There are many things that I regret.
But when you get to be my age, my friend, I think you will find yourself viewing other people's choices more charitably.
No, I did not do well by my daughter when I was young.
But now I am hoping to make up for lost time.
That's not how it works.
You don't get a-a do-over.
Just show up and hope that you can undo everything.
- I mean - [phone rings.]
Oh, you poor kid.
Now I understand what you're doing here.
Really? What am I doing here? You're just looking for someone to blame.
[Julie.]
James? - Darling? - Yeah.
Darling, I think you should take this.
Pardon me.
What are you doing? What am I doing? What are you doing, kissing this guy's ass? I told you, I'm trying to get information.
You're treating him like he's on trial.
Well, maybe he should be.
Is there anything else we can do for you two? [James.]
Oh, God.
- James? - [James.]
Are you sure? [Julie.]
James, is everything all right? That was Athena.
They found her.
They've found her body.
She drowned herself.
She's dead.
[melancholy, ambient music.]
[Anton.]
Yo, yo, that was like the greatest shower I've ever taken.
[retching.]
You sure you don't want to wait in the car? No, I'm good.
[door opens.]
Hi.
I'm Sarah.
I'm the crisis counselor here.
Um, which of you is the closest relative of the deceased? Which of you will be identifying her? Me.
Me.
I'll do it.
This folder contains photographs, visible in which are several of Ms.
Bailey's identifying marks.
I do have to warn you that she was found underwater and had been submerged for several days.
And though we've tried to conceal as much of her appearance as possible, it still may come as a shock.
There's no rush.
Take as much time as you need.
Maybe I should Can I see her? [Sarah.]
What? Can I see her? Not a photo.
Actually go see her.
Um, that's not really something we do anymore.
The photographs are much less upsetting.
Please.
[dramatic music.]
[door closes.]
- You don't have to do this.
- No.
You can just look at the pictures.
No.
- Cole.
- [exhales.]
No! We need to see that it's the real her.
Okay, but look at you.
You're a mess.
You do it.
What? No.
I You do it.
I can't go in there.
We need to know that it's her though.
Not a picture, not a fucking identifying mark.
We need to know that it's the real her.
All right.
[dramatic music.]
[Noah.]
So you'll meet us there? [Jeffries.]
Yeah.
This is the east jetty, the one by Gin Beach.
Do you know what he's talking about? Okay, we're on our way.
[Cole.]
It was Ben.
What? - What's Ben? - Ben killed her.
Cole, you heard what they said.
They're ruling it a suicide.
But they're wrong.
Listen.
You didn't see her in California.
She was at the end of her rope.
[dramatic music.]
This where you found her? Well, we didn't find her, the maintenance guy did, but this is where we pulled her out, yeah.
Can I have his name? I If you want.
Uh, anyway, from the looks of things, she came out here a couple of days ago, probably during the storm, nobody else out here, visibility for shit.
She walked up to the edge and-and jumped in.
The waves were so big, she probably knocked out against these rocks pretty quick.
After that, it was just a matter of time till she drowned.
- How'd she get out here? - How did she? Did you find anything? Her bike, her car? We think she walked, Cole.
I mean, it's not that far from her condo.
In the middle of a storm? In that state of mind? Look, Cole's wondering if it's possible she was killed someplace else, and then No.
We-we considered that.
There was water in her lungs.
She drowned.
Well, okay, but I saw her, and she was pretty beat up.
- She had her head was - Lacerations.
Right, all consistent with striking against these rocks.
Look, there was no signs of struggle here.
Uh, there were no signs of struggle at her place.
I-In fact, she left it immaculate.
And she left everything, her wallet, her phone.
She even Even what? She moved most of her money into a new account.
- For Joanie.
- When? A week ago.
Look, this isn't my first rodeo, unfortunately.
I've seen this before.
She was getting ready.
What about Ben? Have you talked to him? We have, yes.
He has an alibi.
Really? What is it? [chuckles.]
It checks out.
- What is it? - It checks out.
Look, I-I never said this, but one of the first times I talked to Ms.
Bailey, back when I was investigating your She said she'd try to make it to 35.
To live to be 35.
You understand? And she said if she made it that far, but didn't feel any better, well, then, she'd have tried hard enough.
So? I don't buy it.
The man had an alibi, Cole.
You're talking about Ben, still? Alison would not do that.
She would not leave Joanie.
Something stinks.
I'll drop you guys at the train station, but I'm gonna see this through.
I'm gonna go see him.
- [Anton sighs.]
- [door closes.]
All right, let's go.
To the train? [Noah.]
No, with you.
You don't have to do that.
Yeah, I do.
I'm afraid you're gonna kill him.
[engine starts.]
[engine stops.]
Let's do this.
I have to call you back.
Hey.
So you heard? Yeah.
I'm so sorry.
I want to talk about what happened with you and Alison.
What do you mean, what happened? Well, you said she broke up with you.
Yeah.
When? A couple days ago.
How? Face-to-face? I don't have to tell you that.
No, you don't.
But if you don't, I'm gonna think that you're hiding something, and I'm gonna find out what it is.
[door closes.]
Who the fuck are you? I'm Noah.
You're Oh, Jesus Christ.
Look, we're just looking for some answers, Ben.
What happened doesn't make sense to us.
So did you see her? Yes or no.
Yes.
We broke up in person.
And what day was that? Thursday.
I already told the police all of this.
Well, tell me, again.
Where was it? Did you go to her apartment? Yes.
I went to her place, she broke up with me, I left.
And then what'd you do after that? I went to an AA meeting.
- What time? - Ten o'clock.
And what time did you go over to see her? Seven.
Three hours? It took you three hours to break up? What were you talking about? Look, none of your business.
Get the fuck out of my office.
I'm not leaving until you answer my questions.
He's hiding something.
Can't you see that? - I'm - He is hiding something! I apologized for not telling her I was married.
I told her I left my wife for her, and I said I never met a woman like her before.
I didn't want to let her go.
I said I'd stick around for her as long as it took for her to trust me.
And what did she say? She said she couldn't.
She said she'd been hurt one too many times.
That's it? Doesn't sound like that took three hours.
It took 20 minutes.
What happened between that and the AA meeting? I got drunk, okay? I left her place, went out and got shit-faced for the first time in almost a year.
When the bartender took my keys, I realized what I had done, and what I had to do, so I took a cab to the meeting in Riverhead, and turned in my medallions.
Does that answer your fucking questions? Call the bartender if you don't believe me.
- Cole, come on.
- What did you say to her? What? Listen, you need to get him out of here - What did you say to her? - Come on.
I don't know what the fuck you're asking.
I'm asking you what you said that made her want to kill herself.
[exhales.]
You actually think there's something I could have said? I knew Alison for six weeks.
How long have you known her? - Come on, Cole, let's go.
- Or you, asshole? What did either of you say to her, huh? Because she was fucked up long before I ever met her.
You think I could've made an impact on the mess you both left? I tried! You want to know what happened to Alison Bailey, Cole? Why don't you take a look in the fucking mirror?! [Noah.]
Come on, Cole, let's go.
Come on.
Cole.
Cole.
We Fuck you! - [both grunting.]
- [Anton.]
Guys! [Anton.]
Come on.
Stop it, guys.
[Noah.]
What the fuck are you doing?! Ow! Stop it! Stop! [Anton.]
Guys, come on.
Stop! Stop it! - Stop it! - Why didn't you do something?! What? You had her in your hands.
And you let her go.
Why? [panting.]
Why? [groans.]
[groaning.]
It's okay, Cole.
It's okay.
Why didn't you do more? Why didn't you do more? [music playing quietly over speakers.]
We gonna need to tape that up? No, it's okay.
Think I'm-a just get a burger.
Yeah.
You okay, Mr.
Solloway? Anton, call me Noah.
Okay.
I'm-a go take a leak.
Yeah.
I'll be back.
[indistinct chatter.]
[somber music.]
Hey, there.
Hey.
What can I get for you? Uh, I'll just have, uh, two burgers, two fries, two Cokes, please.
And for your friend? What? I'm kidding.
[laughs softly.]
Oh.
From New Jersey, or you just passing through? Uh, I'm just passing through.
You look bad.
Long day? Yeah, you could say that.
Well, you've come to the right place.
I'll get your order right in for you.
Thanks.
[somber music.]
[crying softly.]
[sniffles.]
I know I'm disappointing you.
What if I left? Would you be willing to give me the time - to go away - Yes.
I'm going home.
[Delphine.]
Back to your wife.
No.
The truth is, I'm in love with somebody else.
And I have tried for years to get her out of my mind, but it just never works, and I don't want to wake up in ten years and want to kill myself 'cause I was just trying to do the right thing.
[Ben.]
You know what we should do? We should meet up all over the country at different PTSD conferences.
[laughs.]
What? Can you switch weekends in two weeks? Uh, yeah.
Sure.
Why? I have this conference I want to go to in Milwaukee.
Done.
My wife she goes crazy with both kids on the weekends, and I'm already late.
Hey, listen.
It's not what you think.
[Cole.]
Does she know you're married? Look, I'm gonna tell her.
- Why don't I tell her myself? - Hey, hey.
What do you know about your dad? Nothing.
Athena must have some idea who he is.
Nope.
She says she doesn't.
I'm sure you could find him if you wanted to.
And say what? You're a shit? Thanks for nothing? - You're my father? - [James.]
Yes.
Why are you contacting me now? My kidneys are failing.
[Julie.]
Alison, don't go.
Alison? [Alison.]
Wait, Noah, I can't breathe.
- I can't breathe.
Can't - You're okay.
If you can talk, you can breathe.
I can't breathe.
I can't - It's okay.
Calm down.
- [gasping.]
I can't Here.
Why don't you take these? They'll make you feel better.
[Anton.]
I need your thoughts.
I really think you need to see Princeton.
Well, how am I supposed to pull that off? It's all the way across the country.
I'm gonna take him this week.
If they fire me, they fire me.
[Noah.]
What if I take him? Uh, we missed our connecting flight to New York, so [woman.]
No, we have no more flights to New York today.
Cole? What's g what's going on? It's been 72 hours.
No one's seen her.
Police have declared her a missing person.
I was screaming into the canyon At the moment of my death The echo I created Outlasted my last breath My voice it made an avalanche And buried a man I never knew And when he died, his widowed bride Met your daddy and they made you I have only one thing to do And that's be the wave that I am, and then Sink back into the ocean I have only one thing to do And that's be the wave that I am, and then Sink back into the ocean I have only one thing to do And that's be the wave that I am, and then Sink back into the ocean, sink back into the ocean Sink back into the o Sink back into the ocean Sink back into the o Sink back into the ocean Sink back into the ocean [quiet, tense music.]
[exhales.]
[soft chuckle.]
[indistinct chatter.]
Hi, there.
You looking to check in? Uh, no.
I'm-I'm actually looking for one of your um, attendees.
[chuckles.]
A woman named Alison Bailey.
Think maybe you could tell me where she is right at the moment? Um Oh.
Hey.
Yeah.
Uh, it looks like she has not checked in yet.
Really? Yeah, so Uh Oh, is this this, uh, is this the first day? No, this is actually day three.
Huh.
Uh, then, thank you.
Hey.
Ali, it's me.
Uh, Cole.
I'm I'm just, um [laughs.]
Uh, just give me a call when you get this.
Bye.
[sighs.]
Hey.
Athena, it's Cole.
Um, I'm trying to get ahold of Ali.
You have any idea where she might be? Well, that's strange, 'cause I'm actually in Milwaukee and she's not here.
She never checked in.
Um [laughs.]
That's a that's a long story, it doesn't matter, but, um, I'm just, I'm just trying to find her, so When? Three days ago? And you haven't heard from her since? [sighs.]
Did you call Luisa? You know what? Um, Athena, I'm gonna have to call you right back.
Okay? Really sorry.
Call you right back.
Hey, Ben.
Ben! Hey.
Cole.
Lockhart.
Hey.
Hey, Cole.
Um what, uh what are you doing here? Uh [exhales.]
I'm looking for Alison, actually.
Is she Are the two of you here together? No.
Um actually, I think, between us, it's, uh it's over.
[plastic on flowers crinkles.]
Oh, shit.
I'm sorry to hear that.
Yeah.
Yeah, me, too.
Um [chuckles.]
Mind if I ask what happened? Well, I, uh, I told her I was married, and she wasn't so into that.
[soft chuckle.]
Yeah.
Sorry.
Ah, it's okay.
You know, we ended things well.
In a weird way, I think she felt good about it.
Something about standing up for herself.
I don't know.
I kind of stopped listening after she said we had no future.
Damn.
That's tough.
Yeah.
It is what it is.
Anyway, um, - I-I really - Um, you don't, by any chance, know where she is, do you? No.
Why? Well, she's kind of gone MIA.
I mean, she said something about, uh, going to Los Angeles.
Los Angeles? Why? Yeah.
She, uh, said she was gonna go see her ex-husband.
I don't really know.
Listen, um, I, uh, I gotta prep for this next workshop.
Veterans.
But do me a favor.
When you do get ahold of her, could you just give me a call, let me know she's all right? Yeah, of course.
All right.
[Cole sighs.]
[sighs.]
[line ringing.]
Hi, this is Noah.
Leave a message.
[line beeps.]
Solloway.
It's Cole Lockhart.
Look, I'm trying to track down Alison and I heard that maybe she went out to LA She with you? Call me back when you get this.
[phone buzzes.]
Hey, Athena.
I'm sorry about that.
Cole, I went by her house.
With Joanie? Uh, no, no, no, I dropped Joanie off with Luisa.
[sighs.]
Thank you for doing that.
Her stuff is still here.
What do you mean? Her phone, her wallet It's all on the table.
Cole? I heard that maybe she went out to Los Angeles.
Without her phone? You sure it's hers? Yes.
I'm looking at it right now.
Maybe she needed another break, you know? Yeah.
Yeah, maybe.
Um Look, do you mind just calling around a little bit and seeing if anybody knows anything? Well, of course.
I'm gonna head home now, I should be back by Well I'll get back as soon as I can.
Okay? - Okay.
- [line chiming.]
- Sh hey, Athena? - Oh.
I gotta go.
I gotta take this call.
All right? Just call me if you get any info.
Okay, bye.
She with you? [Noah.]
Hello to you, too, Cole.
I just want to know where she is.
I have no idea, so [sighs heavily.]
I heard maybe she went out to Los Angeles.
She did, yeah.
She was here last week.
- And? - And nothing.
As far as I know, she went back to Montauk.
As far as you know? - Yeah.
She got on a plane - [sighs.]
Look, I'm not even out there anymore.
I'm in Chicago.
I'm stuck in O'Hare.
Well, it might interest you to know that nobody can find her.
What? Did you just say you're at Chicago O'Hare? Did you say no one can find her? - Cole.
- [sighs.]
Cole? Cole? If I came and picked you up, would you drive? Drive? Where? Home.
I'm exhausted, I can't make the trip by myself.
I'll drop you off anywhere you want along the way.
Noah? Uh Okay, sure.
Stay where you are.
I'll be there soon.
[engine starts.]
[tense, atmospheric music.]
[woman.]
Unattended parking is not permitted on this parking level.
Violators will be ticketed.
Hi.
Thanks for picking us up.
Us? - [Anton.]
Hey.
- Anton.
It's a long story.
I'll explain.
Thanks.
[Noah.]
So she hasn't called? No.
[phone buzzing.]
Fuck.
[continues buzzing.]
You want to get that? I'll grab you something.
Thank you.
[phone continues buzzing.]
Hey, Luisa.
How are you? No, I'm-I'm fine.
Thank you.
Yeah, I'm good.
How's Joanie doing? Good.
[sighs.]
Yeah, I'm on my way.
I'll be I'll be home soon.
You know what's going on.
Alison's missing.
I'm trying to find her.
No I know that's not what you meant Luisa, please, I can't get into us right now.
Please.
We will talk about that as soon as I get home, okay? Yes, I promise.
I'll tell you everything that's going on with me.
I just cannot get into it right now.
Please.
No, no.
No, please don't put her [exhales.]
Hey, baby.
How are you? What are you doing up so late? Shouldn't you be in bed already? [sighs.]
I will be home soon, I promise.
No.
No, Mommy's just gone on a little trip.
That's where I'm going right now.
I'm going to go get her.
Okay? Yes, I will be home soon.
That's right, we will be home soon.
That's exactly right.
Everything's gonna be okay, I promise.
Okay, you go to bed now.
And brush your teeth.
Promise? [somber music.]
I love you, too, kiddo.
[sighs.]
Oh, fuck.
[Anton.]
Hey.
Thank you.
[exhales.]
[engine starts.]
[phone buzzing.]
Hey.
Athena? What's the news? [Athena.]
I know where she may be.
[sighs.]
Oh.
Great.
Where? Her father's.
Her what? He reached out to her last week.
- He wants her kidney.
- He wants her what? She went to see him.
Okay, Athena, s-slow down for a second.
He lives in East Hampton.
Alison's father lives in East Hampton? Yes.
Okay, I just talked to him, but he insists he hasn't seen her since she left.
But he's a terrible person, Cole, and I don't trust him.
- [Noah.]
Athena.
- Who's that? It's Noah.
Noah Solloway.
What? What are you two doing together? It's a long story.
How did Alison find out about her father? - He called me.
- He called you? And you just sent her to him? No! Of course not.
- I didn't know she'd gone.
- You knew where he was? - When did she see him? - Last week.
Is there any good reason in God's name why you are just mentioning this now? Athena?! There's a reason, Cole, but I'd rather not discuss it.
I don't give a shit what you'd rather not discuss.
It's not relevant, Cole, okay? What's important is I don't trust him.
And someone needs to talk to him.
Alison's father has been living in East Hampton for her entire life, 20 miles away, and you're just - telling me this now?! - Cole Look, what's the address? Just-just Just give us the address, Athena.
42 Lee Avenue, East Hampton.
Got that? - Great.
Thanks, Athena.
- [line clicks.]
Oh, my God, this would be so much easier if she wasn't such a fucking nut job.
Did Alison mention any of this when she came out to see you? No, not a word.
Nothing? Look, Cole, there's something else I should tell you.
What? When I picked up Alison in LA, she was in bad shape, okay? Really bad shape.
So I-I got her a prescription for Xanax.
- Please tell me that's a joke.
- No, well, I didn't, Vik did.
- Helen's boyfriend.
- Oh, my God.
- You gave her a bottle of Xanax? - She was having She was having some kind of a panic attack.
Well, actually, Xanax isn't that strong of a drug.
You can't O.
D.
on it unless you, like, mix it with alcohol.
Thanks, Anton.
What was she planning on doing, relaxing herself to death? All right, that's enough.
Sorry, the point is, I didn't tell Jeffries, - and he's gonna find out.
- [car horn blaring.]
- Hey, wait! - [tires screeching.]
- Whoa! - Wait! [Cole.]
What the fuck are you doing?! Cole, keep your eyes on the road! - Man, I'm fine! - How long you been awake? I said I'm fine.
[sighs.]
Here, look.
There's an exit here.
Pull over.
Come on, pull over.
[turn signal clicking.]
[atmospheric music.]
[engine stops.]
Hi.
[TV playing quietly.]
[Noah.]
Hi.
[door closes.]
Hi yourself.
Would you have a couple of rooms, maybe adjoining? Dad? Do we have two adjoining? They don't have to be adjoining.
Yeah, hold on one second.
Uh Yeah, no.
[door closes.]
Just hang on.
Because we are pretty full tonight, but let me see what I can do.
[typing.]
How about a double queen for your son, which adjoins with a single king for you guys.
Does that work for your family? [whispers.]
Because love is love.
Thank you.
That would be perfect.
Thank you.
Rebecca, you're a doll.
- Thank you.
- No problem.
Okay.
Grab you a key.
[atmospheric music.]
[sighs.]
[sighing.]
[line rings.]
[Ben.]
You've reached Ben.
Leave a message after the tone.
- [beeps.]
- Hey.
Ben, it's, uh, Cole Lockhart calling.
I just wanted to well, I wanted to check in, see if maybe you'd heard from Alison.
So, if you do hear anything, give me a call back.
Thank you.
[knock on door.]
We're hungry.
Need anything else? No, that was delicious.
Thank you.
How about the hubby? Oh, no, he's good, too.
Quit macking on her.
Eat your food.
- "Macking"? - Yeah? 1991 called on a landline, asking you to fax its slang back.
[chuckles.]
Seriously, when you've had your dinner, I can, uh give you a few pointers if you like.
- [Anton.]
Pointers? - You know, on sealing the deal.
I'm good, thank you.
[chuckles.]
No.
Please.
I want to hear this.
I bet you would.
See, they say the best advice is to be yourself, but I think it's-it's good to enhance your natural personality, you know? [chuckles.]
See, Cole, for instance, he's a moper.
I'm a what? - Oh, shit.
- A moper.
I am not a moper.
You are.
Classic moper.
See, his thing is is to belly up to the bar and order a drink, like, you know, really seriously, like he's ordering a missile strike, and then just stare into the glass really, really intense, like he's reading tea leaves, like he can see the future in there.
Before you know it, women are falling all over themselves to come and cheer him up.
- Isn't that right? - [Anton.]
Wow.
Mm, mm.
Now, Noah's strategy, - on the other hand - Yes.
Do tell.
I've been wondering about this.
is to make all of these promises he has no intention of keeping and couldn't possibly deliver on, but that's okay, so long as he gets what he wants.
Right? Seriously, though, she's a smart girl, probably totally bored, living in a Podunk town.
She'd really welcome talking to someone with a bigger perspective.
Or maybe she's chosen to live here for reasons you couldn't possibly understand, and she doesn't need some fucking stranger coming into town and ruining her life by rescuing her from choices that she's made as a grown woman.
[Anton.]
All right.
Thank you, guys, for the wisdom.
I think I got it from here, though.
- [sighs.]
- [phone whooshes.]
[phone chimes.]
- Did you just? - Yeah.
I got her number back at the desk.
- Excuse me.
- Geez.
Mr.
Lockhart.
Mr.
Solloway.
[clears throat.]
How exactly do you know this kid? It's complicated.
Yeah, I bet.
Let me guess.
You're fucking his mother.
[knock on door.]
I've been sexiled.
What? Isn't that what you called it in college? Sexiled? I never went to college.
[rhythmic thumping, bed creaking, Rebecca moaning.]
[sighs.]
[Rebecca.]
Yes! Yes! How old is this kid, 18, 19? Where is he getting this control from? I know.
I actually think he might just be punking us at this point.
[rhythmic thumping and moaning continue.]
[loud knocking in distance.]
- Is that ours? - No.
[rhythmic thumping and moaning stop.]
[loud knocking in distance.]
[man.]
Rebecca, open this door right now! - I know you're in there! - Oh, shit.
- [Rebecca.]
Uh, just a second! - It's the dad.
Hey.
[knocks quietly.]
Come here, come here.
- Oh, my God.
- [loud knocking.]
- [man.]
Rebecca! - [Noah.]
Get in here, sit there.
- [loud knocking continues.]
- Put your clothes on.
[man.]
Rebecca! Open this door right now! - [door bangs open.]
- Where is he? - Where the fuck is he?! - [Rebecca.]
I don't know what you're talking about.
I was just cleaning this room.
[man.]
At midnight?! You think I'm fucking stupid, - you little slut?! - Fuck you! [man.]
I'll deal with you later.
- [loud knocking.]
- [doorknob rattling.]
Wait, wait, wait, wait.
Go back, go back, go back.
[knocking.]
[man.]
Open up, you fucking faggots! [loud knocking.]
[keys jingling.]
Excuse me, what are you doing in our room? And what's with all the yelling? What the fuck you three think you're doing in my motel with my daughter? I don't know about your daughter, but my husband and I are just trying to take our son to see some schools on the East Coast.
And if you don't get out of this fucking room right now, I'm gonna kick your teeth down your throat, you fucking redneck.
[Noah.]
Uh, honey, honey, honey, honey, honey.
I think may-maybe we should just leave.
Let's leave.
We'll leave.
That's a real good idea.
[sniffs.]
So, Noah Yeah? Why did Alison go out to Los Angeles? I'm not really sure.
I never understood why she did what she did.
Did you fuck her? No.
There's nothing left between us.
I mean, I'll always love her, but I don't want to be with her and she doesn't want to be with me.
It was all over a long time ago.
What about you? What about me? You want to be with her again? That why you went to Milwaukee? To get her back? This state is endless.
[Metallica's "Spit Out the Bone" playing.]
- [groans.]
- [Anton.]
Morning.
Morning.
[groans.]
Oh, man.
How long you been driving for? Couple hours.
Your man has had his time [groans.]
Nope.
Here.
Thank you.
[chuckles.]
[groans.]
Oh, man.
I can take over at the next truck stop.
I'm good.
What the fuck are we listening to? Metallica.
What? College white boys can lose their mind over hip-hop, I can't listen to metal? [laughs.]
[sighs.]
Stop breathing So Princeton? Hmm.
Aiming low, eh? [scoffs.]
Yeah.
That's what they tell me.
You excited to go see it? I don't know.
All feelings you terminate for me You ever feel like someone else's feelings about something are so loud that you can't even hear your own? Yes, I do.
Yeah.
[sniffs, grunts.]
So, Noah, or "Mr.
Solloway.
" Hmm.
- He's your teacher? - Yep.
He any good? He's fucking great, actually.
Hmm.
[Noah.]
Cole, what's wrong? I'm not gonna be able to take you all the way to Princeton.
I want to go talk to Alison's dad.
Its just gonna be faster if I take 78 the whole way.
Okay, fine.
Don't worry, we'll just get a cab from here if you want.
Well, technically, we don't have to be there until tomorrow, right? No, technically, no, but I want to get you there early, so you can walk around, - visit a class.
- Yeah, or we can keep helping Cole look for y'all's missing ex-wife.
This is not a fun adventure, Anton, it's serious.
Yes, Mr.
Solloway, I know.
That's why I want to stay.
Look, you know you're not gonna be able to think about anything else.
So instead of staying at Princeton for an extra day doing jack shit while you check your phone every ten seconds, we can stay with Mr.
Lockhart.
See if we can help.
Well, that's true, I'm not gonna be able to think about - anything else.
- Exactly.
Plus, I'm invested now.
Don't you want to teach me to follow through? Come on.
Okay.
[gentle, acoustic music.]
Damn.
Y'all are rich.
It's not my house.
[engine stops.]
I meant, like, the collective y'all.
What? Look, I don't know these people, so just follow my lead, all right? Crazy.
We were just getting lunch together.
Uh, should I put down a couple of extra plates? - No, that's fine.
- Oh, yeah, that would be lovely, - thank you.
- Okay.
And, again, sorry to barge in on you.
Oh, I understand.
You must be worried sick about her.
I-I mean, I don't know if James knows anything, but, um, regardless, I'm sure he'd like to help.
- [Noah.]
Thanks.
- Yeah.
[Cole.]
Hey.
We're just trying to find out where she is.
Now you want to stay for lunch? People like this, the more hospitality you accept, the more they open up.
[Julie.]
James? Honey, um, we've got company.
[James.]
Yes, well, I'll just be a moment.
As you can see, I'm otherwise engaged.
[chuckles.]
[Julie.]
All right, guys.
Come on, headphones off.
Cell phones in the basket.
Thank you.
Thank you.
You, too.
It's a rule here.
[softly.]
Great.
Yes.
Meals are a time for human connection.
Oh, uh, Anton, is there anything you don't eat? Our chef made baby octopus for lunch, and, um, well, I'm It's not for everyone.
Perhaps a grilled cheese? No, I pretty much eat anything.
But I could use your shower, though.
We've been driving for, like, a day and a half and I don't really smell too good right now.
So Of course.
Uh, Tessa can show you to the guest shower upstairs.
[Noah.]
Anyway, we were just hoping you might have heard from her since you've just been reacquainted.
I'm sure rebuilding that relationship was very important to her and Mm.
Mm-hmm.
I mean, we even thought maybe she was maybe she was here.
[laughs.]
No, no, she is not here.
I mean, it is a big house, but - [Noah chuckles.]
- it's not that big.
And the last time I heard from her, well, I, I think it must have been before you said she went to Los Angeles, so sorry, I know that's no help.
[Noah.]
No, that's fine, it's just is there anything else you can think of? Anything she might have said or was planning or? [sighs.]
How do you know she's not just having one of those little episodes of hers? I'm sorry, what? It's, it's just an expression, Cole.
Well, I-I don't know exactly what to call it, but she did do this sort of thing every once in a while, no? And how would you know that? We spoke, Cole.
We got to know each other.
While this behavior worries me, well, I must say I'm not surprised.
So, well, I do think she'll turn up, but I think we just must have a little patience.
You had 40 years to get to know her.
And you never reached out to her even once until you needed her organ.
And now you have the audacity to sit there and She is a stranger to you.
I'm going to see if your friend got lost on his way back from the shower.
Excuse me.
I'm not sure what it is you want me to say.
I don't want you to say anything.
I want you to understand the hole that you left in her life.
She blamed herself, you know? She thought you disappeared because she wasn't good enough for you.
There are many things that I regret.
But when you get to be my age, my friend, I think you will find yourself viewing other people's choices more charitably.
No, I did not do well by my daughter when I was young.
But now I am hoping to make up for lost time.
That's not how it works.
You don't get a-a do-over.
Just show up and hope that you can undo everything.
- I mean - [phone rings.]
Oh, you poor kid.
Now I understand what you're doing here.
Really? What am I doing here? You're just looking for someone to blame.
[Julie.]
James? - Darling? - Yeah.
Darling, I think you should take this.
Pardon me.
What are you doing? What am I doing? What are you doing, kissing this guy's ass? I told you, I'm trying to get information.
You're treating him like he's on trial.
Well, maybe he should be.
Is there anything else we can do for you two? [James.]
Oh, God.
- James? - [James.]
Are you sure? [Julie.]
James, is everything all right? That was Athena.
They found her.
They've found her body.
She drowned herself.
She's dead.
[melancholy, ambient music.]
[Anton.]
Yo, yo, that was like the greatest shower I've ever taken.
[retching.]
You sure you don't want to wait in the car? No, I'm good.
[door opens.]
Hi.
I'm Sarah.
I'm the crisis counselor here.
Um, which of you is the closest relative of the deceased? Which of you will be identifying her? Me.
Me.
I'll do it.
This folder contains photographs, visible in which are several of Ms.
Bailey's identifying marks.
I do have to warn you that she was found underwater and had been submerged for several days.
And though we've tried to conceal as much of her appearance as possible, it still may come as a shock.
There's no rush.
Take as much time as you need.
Maybe I should Can I see her? [Sarah.]
What? Can I see her? Not a photo.
Actually go see her.
Um, that's not really something we do anymore.
The photographs are much less upsetting.
Please.
[dramatic music.]
[door closes.]
- You don't have to do this.
- No.
You can just look at the pictures.
No.
- Cole.
- [exhales.]
No! We need to see that it's the real her.
Okay, but look at you.
You're a mess.
You do it.
What? No.
I You do it.
I can't go in there.
We need to know that it's her though.
Not a picture, not a fucking identifying mark.
We need to know that it's the real her.
All right.
[dramatic music.]
[Noah.]
So you'll meet us there? [Jeffries.]
Yeah.
This is the east jetty, the one by Gin Beach.
Do you know what he's talking about? Okay, we're on our way.
[Cole.]
It was Ben.
What? - What's Ben? - Ben killed her.
Cole, you heard what they said.
They're ruling it a suicide.
But they're wrong.
Listen.
You didn't see her in California.
She was at the end of her rope.
[dramatic music.]
This where you found her? Well, we didn't find her, the maintenance guy did, but this is where we pulled her out, yeah.
Can I have his name? I If you want.
Uh, anyway, from the looks of things, she came out here a couple of days ago, probably during the storm, nobody else out here, visibility for shit.
She walked up to the edge and-and jumped in.
The waves were so big, she probably knocked out against these rocks pretty quick.
After that, it was just a matter of time till she drowned.
- How'd she get out here? - How did she? Did you find anything? Her bike, her car? We think she walked, Cole.
I mean, it's not that far from her condo.
In the middle of a storm? In that state of mind? Look, Cole's wondering if it's possible she was killed someplace else, and then No.
We-we considered that.
There was water in her lungs.
She drowned.
Well, okay, but I saw her, and she was pretty beat up.
- She had her head was - Lacerations.
Right, all consistent with striking against these rocks.
Look, there was no signs of struggle here.
Uh, there were no signs of struggle at her place.
I-In fact, she left it immaculate.
And she left everything, her wallet, her phone.
She even Even what? She moved most of her money into a new account.
- For Joanie.
- When? A week ago.
Look, this isn't my first rodeo, unfortunately.
I've seen this before.
She was getting ready.
What about Ben? Have you talked to him? We have, yes.
He has an alibi.
Really? What is it? [chuckles.]
It checks out.
- What is it? - It checks out.
Look, I-I never said this, but one of the first times I talked to Ms.
Bailey, back when I was investigating your She said she'd try to make it to 35.
To live to be 35.
You understand? And she said if she made it that far, but didn't feel any better, well, then, she'd have tried hard enough.
So? I don't buy it.
The man had an alibi, Cole.
You're talking about Ben, still? Alison would not do that.
She would not leave Joanie.
Something stinks.
I'll drop you guys at the train station, but I'm gonna see this through.
I'm gonna go see him.
- [Anton sighs.]
- [door closes.]
All right, let's go.
To the train? [Noah.]
No, with you.
You don't have to do that.
Yeah, I do.
I'm afraid you're gonna kill him.
[engine starts.]
[engine stops.]
Let's do this.
I have to call you back.
Hey.
So you heard? Yeah.
I'm so sorry.
I want to talk about what happened with you and Alison.
What do you mean, what happened? Well, you said she broke up with you.
Yeah.
When? A couple days ago.
How? Face-to-face? I don't have to tell you that.
No, you don't.
But if you don't, I'm gonna think that you're hiding something, and I'm gonna find out what it is.
[door closes.]
Who the fuck are you? I'm Noah.
You're Oh, Jesus Christ.
Look, we're just looking for some answers, Ben.
What happened doesn't make sense to us.
So did you see her? Yes or no.
Yes.
We broke up in person.
And what day was that? Thursday.
I already told the police all of this.
Well, tell me, again.
Where was it? Did you go to her apartment? Yes.
I went to her place, she broke up with me, I left.
And then what'd you do after that? I went to an AA meeting.
- What time? - Ten o'clock.
And what time did you go over to see her? Seven.
Three hours? It took you three hours to break up? What were you talking about? Look, none of your business.
Get the fuck out of my office.
I'm not leaving until you answer my questions.
He's hiding something.
Can't you see that? - I'm - He is hiding something! I apologized for not telling her I was married.
I told her I left my wife for her, and I said I never met a woman like her before.
I didn't want to let her go.
I said I'd stick around for her as long as it took for her to trust me.
And what did she say? She said she couldn't.
She said she'd been hurt one too many times.
That's it? Doesn't sound like that took three hours.
It took 20 minutes.
What happened between that and the AA meeting? I got drunk, okay? I left her place, went out and got shit-faced for the first time in almost a year.
When the bartender took my keys, I realized what I had done, and what I had to do, so I took a cab to the meeting in Riverhead, and turned in my medallions.
Does that answer your fucking questions? Call the bartender if you don't believe me.
- Cole, come on.
- What did you say to her? What? Listen, you need to get him out of here - What did you say to her? - Come on.
I don't know what the fuck you're asking.
I'm asking you what you said that made her want to kill herself.
[exhales.]
You actually think there's something I could have said? I knew Alison for six weeks.
How long have you known her? - Come on, Cole, let's go.
- Or you, asshole? What did either of you say to her, huh? Because she was fucked up long before I ever met her.
You think I could've made an impact on the mess you both left? I tried! You want to know what happened to Alison Bailey, Cole? Why don't you take a look in the fucking mirror?! [Noah.]
Come on, Cole, let's go.
Come on.
Cole.
Cole.
We Fuck you! - [both grunting.]
- [Anton.]
Guys! [Anton.]
Come on.
Stop it, guys.
[Noah.]
What the fuck are you doing?! Ow! Stop it! Stop! [Anton.]
Guys, come on.
Stop! Stop it! - Stop it! - Why didn't you do something?! What? You had her in your hands.
And you let her go.
Why? [panting.]
Why? [groans.]
[groaning.]
It's okay, Cole.
It's okay.
Why didn't you do more? Why didn't you do more? [music playing quietly over speakers.]
We gonna need to tape that up? No, it's okay.
Think I'm-a just get a burger.
Yeah.
You okay, Mr.
Solloway? Anton, call me Noah.
Okay.
I'm-a go take a leak.
Yeah.
I'll be back.
[indistinct chatter.]
[somber music.]
Hey, there.
Hey.
What can I get for you? Uh, I'll just have, uh, two burgers, two fries, two Cokes, please.
And for your friend? What? I'm kidding.
[laughs softly.]
Oh.
From New Jersey, or you just passing through? Uh, I'm just passing through.
You look bad.
Long day? Yeah, you could say that.
Well, you've come to the right place.
I'll get your order right in for you.
Thanks.
[somber music.]
[crying softly.]
[sniffles.]