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N/A - s15e07

Hello.
I'm Eriq la Salle.
This past week, we lost the creator of our show, Michael Crichton.
He was a true gentleman, gracious and witty, a brilliant writer, intelligent and unfailingly kind.
But most of all, Michael was a good friend and we will miss him.
RUSSELL: Baby? Where are you? What are you doing in here? I hate this wallpaper.
We'll redo it.
I don't know what you were thinking last night, talking about that.
It was a dinner party, I didn't pick the topic.
Well, you certainly didn't hesitate to dive right in.
Maybe that's because you won't talk about it when we're alone.
You think I blame you for what happened? You think I'd still be here if I did? I try not to worry about who you blame.
No offence, but living with a teenage boy is like living with a barn animal.
Only, cows make better conversations.
Butt abscess - needs dressing.
Well, at least a cow's not a predator.
Sarah's friends are like a pack of she-wolves with cell phones.
Look, a new one just for you - anal warts.
This is so ass.
Looks like the Gates-Taggart merger's in full swing.
You mean the Brady Bunch from hell? No, actually it's going great, but she'll never admit it.
Really? OK.
He's never been happier.
He just loves to complain.
This much we know.
What's that supposed to mean? Sorry? The VA sent these records over, and some guy called from the Wounded Warriors' Project.
What's that all about? Is the ladies' room this way? Uh, yes, ma'am.
It's down the hall, and to the left.
Thank you, dear.
Hey, is Banfield on? She should be in soon.
Is that about our homeless vet? Yeah.
What's the story? I'm gonna figure it out.
Hey, uh, Bertha, Bertha, this is not a good time! Whoa, go get her, big boy.
Bertha! And Hoberman's waiting on a cholecystectomy.
Uh, hey, when are you gonna clear out all these boarders? We're working on it, Sam.
In the meantime, you might want to get more than one intern down here doing your babysitting.
How's Dr Wade managing? The customers seem satisfied.
Yeah? What about you? Are you satisfied? I need to loosen up a bit.
I have a tendency to micromanage.
Yeah, Cate mentioned that.
Cate who? Dr Banfield.
You know, the department head coffee klatch.
Oh, great.
You know, autonomy is a fine teaching device, Neela.
Let's just make sure it doesn't lead to slowness or distraction, OK? You guys ready? Good.
Ready to round.
Where's your intern? When are you going to get me a real bed in a real room? Uh, soon.
Uh, we're a little backed up.
I was meant to go under the knife yesterday - so I haven't had anything to eat but some Jim Jones juice and Jell-o that made my poop red.
Red? Wait, you mean Now this? The mattress is made of cement and I've seen airport runways that were less noisy.
Am I smudged? Uhjust a little.
Hello? What are you doing? Mmm.
Oh, God.
Hey.
I'm in the middle of my run.
We can talk about this later.
No, I'm not, it's just that Listen, I got to go now, Russell.
No, no, no, no, no, no.
Nina! Nina! Nina! Nina! Nina! Nina! Nina! Nina! Six down, two to go.
That's not so bad.
That's just the ER.
We have 40 more waiting upstairs.
OK, right, presents with neck mass Oh, God, with the age again.
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and dysphagia.
Dys-what? Uh, pain on swallowing.
Saying it fancy doesn't make you seem smarter, Andrew.
It makes you seem insecure.
It's a shorthand doctors use, to save us time.
Yes, in theory.
Uh, her son initially noticed the mass about three months ago when she visited him in Michigan.
Ann Arbor.
He's a professor at the university there.
Oh.
A fine needle aspiration showed a degenerative, albeit benign, cyst, but thyroidectomy is still indicated for symptomatic relief.
All right, that's thorough.
Next? Review of systems is positive for headache, back pain, constipation Let's just stick to the thyroid, Dr Wade.
That's what we're here for.
I'm with you, Bollywood.
Uh, no palpitations, diaphoresis, heat intolerance.
However Her TSH is normal so we know there's no hyperthyroidism, right? Right, but there is OK, then.
Moving on.
Three-year-old, near drowning with hypothermia.
Core temp's 84.
Bradycardic in the 60s with a thready pulse.
Dr Banfield? You're doing a ride-along? I was out for a run and saw the rescue team.
Stroller blew into the lake, took almost water that whole time? Mi nieta estaba muy inquieta en la casa, asi que la lleve a pasear.
Grandpa took her on a walk cos she was acting fussy.
Todo estaba bien.
estaba feliz Everything was good, she was happy.
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y de repente ya no la vi.
And then the baby was just gone.
Go deep, go! Go! go! go! go! go! Chase me.
Nice pass.
That's why they call it a Hail Mary.
You didn't chase me.
Cos I'm the quarterback.
Now, buttonhook.
I'm tired.
Oh, one more touchdown, then we get ice cream.
Booker and Banfield - that's all the Bears are gonna need this year.
Whoo! 'What's your plan, Dr Martin? She has a pulse.
' Not much to do but warm her up and wait.
Right.
So? Access, warm saline and get respiratory down here with a vent.
Get the Bair Hugger and prep for intubation.
I'll be right in.
Hey, I have a favour to ask.
Not now.
I need your help getting an MRI.
If it's an emergency indication, call the radiologist.
It's not exactly an emergency, but it needs to happen today.
I have a homeless vet with seizures, cognitive deficits, behavioural changes.
Let Neuro work it out.
Well, I tried that, but they said they want him to come back as an outpatient, which is never gonna happen.
He's not an ER patient any more - it's out of our hands.
He was in Iraq.
A war hero.
Served in the same unit as I did back in Desert Storm.
I hear the harmonica playing, Dr Gates, but work is work and the rest is irrelevant.
Dr Banfield, I get this whole tough boss thing, and it works for you, it really does, but cut me some slack.
I need your help.
Dr Banfield, the old ball and chain on line two.
Thank you.
Tell him I'm in with a patient, Frank.
I'll call him later.
Max Gonzalez, sergeant first class.
You figured out who I am, huh? Mm-hmm.
Yeah.
Yeah, that's right.
They called us the widowmakers.
So you remember it? My memory's a work in progress.
But it's getting better.
So thanks for that.
Don't you want to hear more? Not really.
Awarded a silver star in '06, later wounded in a rocket attack killed a bunch of your buddies.
Doctors documented altered behaviour - anger, depression, hostility.
They gave me some pills.
Yeah, SSRIS - antidepressants.
Didn't help much.
Then they discharged you on a 5-13.
Do you remember what that is? Yeah.
It meant that I could go home.
No, it meant the army could stop giving you medical care, stop being responsible for you.
It meant I could get the hell out of there! Because they said you had a personality disorder.
They said that you had something wrong with your brain before you enlisted.
Maybe there was - that's what my old man always said.
What if there wasn't? What if it was a lie? Your symptoms are consistent with traumatic brain injury - TBI - something you easily could have suffered when that rocket hit.
So you're saying what? They dumped me? I'm saying I think they missed it, mistreated it and sent you packing for the cheapest possible price.
I wanted out, Doc.
Trust me, I wanted out.
Max, you needed out, but not like this.
I don't want to be here.
I don't like it here.
I know how it is to come back from a war and feel adrift.
Max, just give me a couple of hours to help you.
Tube's in.
Get pharmacy to send down more warm saline, as much as they've got.
ABG's back.
She's acidotic - 7.
22.
Should we use a high vent rate? The mother's out here.
Someone should probably talk to her first.
Dr Morris, update the family.
I kind of have my hands full here.
Dr Martin.
OK, but, uh, shouldn't you? I mean, she is your patient, right? What's the CO2? Forty.
Standard rate.
The pH might normalise as we get the temp up.
Hello.
You're the mom? Sandra Herrero.
Is my daughter OK? It's hard to know yet.
We're trying to warm her up now.
She's very strong for her age, and she's a good girl, very sweet, so She'll be OK? We're just waiting to see.
Please, I know you know, so tell me.
Is my baby gonna be all right? RUSSELL: 'Why can't you ever give a straight answer?' Mmm.
You want to have a baby? Another baby? Now? Well, not right now, but Excuse me, is this your son? There's something wrong with him.
Daryl? What? Daryl! Daryl! It's happening again.
OK, OK, baby.
We should call an ambulance? No, no, I'm a doctor.
WOMAN: He doesn't look good.
All right, he's burning up.
It's just a febrile seizure.
We should get him home and cool him down.
Maybemaybe we should be safe.
No, no, it's just like last time.
Look, it's stopping already.
Are you sure? I've been doing this too long to make any promises, but I'll tell you this.
Losing control is not going to help her, so if that's what you got to do, you do it outside.
In here, you be the mom, you be calm, you put all your energy into helping your little girl fight back because that's what she needs.
Can I can I go be with her now? Yes.
We've still got seven boarders down here.
Cate's gonna kill me if we don't clear them out soon.
Yes, she is.
How long is this gonna go on? You people are practically living down here.
And by "you people," you mean? Surgeons.
Of course.
We're trying to clear our overflow as quickly as possible.
-Mrs Mendenhall is crashing.
Well, that's one way.
-BP down to 60 palp.
She's got a massive GI bleed.
-Saline wide open on pressure bags.
Prep for a central line, two units on the rapid infuser.
Let's go.
How's her airway? -Not that great, even on 100%.
Tube her, Neela.
Hey, did she complain of abdominal pain? No.
- Any history of blood per rectum? Um, no, not so far as I know.
-Suction's on high.
-OK.
-Call GI - she goes to Endoscopy if we get her pressure up.
-Lost the pulse.
Ah, damn it.
Starting compressions.
Dr Banfield, our frozen girl is having runs of V tach.
-I've got the amiodarone.
OK, give 75 milligrams and set up an infusion.
TRACY: Got it.
BP's 67/32.
Valecia's temperature has dropped a little.
We're working on that.
-Dropped? It's supposed to go up.
You said I said to stay calm.
I'm stepping up rewarming with some pleural lavage.
You see that? Yeah.
Huh? How are the coags? -Not back yet.
Do we have a platelet count? Specimen clotted - we had to send it in again.
We should not have to wait an hour for trauma labs.
Forget it.
We'll give platelets and FFP empirically.
Why do we have to fight the same battles every damn day? Go on, do it.
Another epi - it's time for another epi.
No, it won't do any good.
What about the GI consult? They won't scope a patient without a pulse.
Dopamine? She's had eight units packed cells, two units FFP.
We've replaced her entire blood volume twice.
If the heart could come back, it would have by now.
We're done.
Uh-uh.
We're done.
Two, three, four Any relatives? A son.
Sorry? She said she had a son in Michigan.
I'll call him.
OK.
I'll get started on the paperwork for the coroner.
Could you get could you get me a death kit, please? I can take care of that for Please.
Pull the curtain behind you.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
No, tomorrow is not good enough.
She needs it now.
What's the holdup? There's no ECMO unit in the hospital.
What? That can't be.
County only has two machines.
One's in use, the other's out for repairs.
Systolic's down to 44.
Valecia needs a machine that will warm her blood and do the work of her heart and lungs.
We don't have that here, so we're gonna have to transfer her to another hospital.
Move her? What? It'll take hours for another hospital to accept her and then a transport team to pick her up.
Yes, time is critical, so let's not waste it.
Call transport - go.
Let's increase internal rewarming, get the heart in better shape before we ship her out.
She still has a pulse and BP.
Now is our window.
Dr Banfield, she's here now.
We got to work with what we have.
-'We don't need to go to the hospital.
' -You don't know that.
He's groggy.
He's postictal.
Just like what happened the other time.
That wasn't the same.
He was fine in ten minutes.
He had a full workup.
He stayed overnight, spinal tap, CT You're not being objective.
They terrified him, and they found nothing.
It was nothing.
Febrile seizures recur.
The paediatrician warned us about it.
What if this is different? If he is not better in 20 minutes, we'll take him in.
She's in V-tach again.
We got a pulse? Thready femoral.
OK, Morris.
Lead the way.
All right, let's move her to a trauma room.
Prep for peritoneal lavage, ten more litres of warm saline, and grab a Thora-seal.
Wait, you're leaving? Get it started.
I'll be in soon.
It was probably diverticulosis.
So, she blew an artery in her colon wall and bled to death.
It wasn't foreseeable.
She had none of the predictors.
Like bloody stool? Yeah, that would be one.
She had it.
Uh, it's not here.
You never said.
She had it.
Did you do a rectal exam? Check for occult blood? Did you ask her about any specific signs of GI bleeding? She, uh, she said something about the food making her stool red.
Why didn't you bring this up at rounds? Cos she had so many complaints.
Her headache could have been a brain bleed, her backache a ruptured triple-A.
It's your job to decide what needs to be considered and when to speak up.
If you're submissive at all when someone's life on the line, you're not ready for this.
I tried to speak up, and nobody listened! Let's discuss this later.
There's no way to be ready for something like this, but in the end, it will make you better.
You can't be a great doctor until you've killed a patient.
Yeah, I've heard that before.
I think it's called a rationalisation.
'It's only been' It's too long.
I'm calling 911.
Russ, he's waking up.
Hey, sweetie.
How you feeling? Hey, little man, you had us scared.
Can't have our number one wide out on the injured reserve list.
Here, have some water.
-'Call an ambulance! -'Oh, God, oh, God.
-'Call an ambulance!' Oh, don't bother, that's my private line.
ER.
-Vindication.
Look - "Diffuse axonal injury "in the parasagittal white matter, "consistent with TBI.
" Yeah, and this is vindication because? It's gonna save Max's life, put him on a path of getting healthy, getting medical coverage.
Well, if you can convince Neuro to readmit him.
I can, with your help.
Dr Gates Come on, indulge that inner softy one more time.
All right, this Can I hug you? I want to hug you.
You try that, and you'll be the one with a traumatic injury.
You're the best.
Dr Banfield? Yep? Valecia lost her pulse.
-Hey, Suri, what happened to my patient? I just got here - that bed's been empty.
Anybody see him leave? Sorry, I don't know.
Hey, Frank, I had a guy in there from Radiology, Max Gonzalez, a vet.
He had a duffel bag with him - you seen him? Yeah, that guy was real jumpy.
He went outside for a smoke maybe 15 minutes ago.
Max! Hey, Max! Max! Wait up.
What happened? Went into v-fib, didn't respond to the shock.
She's still too cold.
All right, this is why I wanted to transfer.
This is what I was worried about.
Think she'd be better off coding in a rig right now? Please, I stayed calm.
I did what you said.
Please help her.
-'Please.
' You don't need to do that.
Yeah, I don't want him to pull the IV out.
I'll hold his hand instead.
It's getting harder to bag.
Might be pulmonary edema.
Get sterile.
You can help with the thoracotomy.
Thoracotomy? Why? Myocardial irrigation.
I'm gonna open up your daughter's chest and flush warm saline over her heart.
Please, don't - something else.
I know it's scary.
Try something else! If we don't get her heart beating, she'll die.
I'm gonna need a ten blade.
SIREN WAILS Is there a fire, mama? No, baby, we're in an ambulance.
We're gonna make sure you're OK.
Where's Daddy? He's in the car right behind us.
MORRIS: 'Are you sure about this?' We are not going to let this baby slip away.
Not here and not now.
PARAMEDIC: 'OK, ma'am.
'We're here.
' DOORS OPEN Welcome to County General.
I'm Dr Greene.
Are you the mom? BANFIELD: What's our core temp? ALVARADO: Still 86.
Take it again.
She just did it two minutes ago.
Take it again! Te dije que te quedes en la casa.
Te dije que no la sacaras.
Internal paddles.
She's still too cold.
There's nothing to lose.
Mira lo que hiciste.
Mira lo que le estan haciendo.
Clear! No change.
Go again.
Clear! Why are you doing that? I've got to get her heart going.
Nothing's working.
Why isn't anything working?! We're just getting started here.
HALEH: Ceftriaxone's in.
Good.
Finish the bolus, then run fluids at 100 an hour.
He needs a D-stick and a serum CK.
An hour ago, he didn't need anything.
Why don't we have labs back? You in the medical field? ER attending at U of C where trauma labs are back in ten minutes.
Welcome to our world.
Sat's 91 on a hundred percent.
Come on.
Come on, Daryl.
Wake up.
All right, crank the o2.
What about an ABG? With your son's depressed consciousness and dropping sat, we may need to consider Why don't we do a head CT first? We only have one scanner and your son's in line behind two criticals.
You have a critical patient here, a child.
Cate, let them do this.
Is Elizabeth working today? I can check.
Forget it.
Call the lab and get them to read the CBC over the phone.
Pulse ox is 87.
Daryl, honey, wake up and breathe for us.
Six of etomidate and 30 of sux.
No, no tube.
He's just postictal.
Your son's vomited blood and he's been altered for over an hour.
My son has a history of febrile seizures.
OK, a seizure can't account for that.
A Mallory-Weiss tear, an atypical presentation.
He's hypoventilating and his brain needs oxygen.
Why don't you check another? Listen! I need you to be the mom now, OK? And I'm going to be the doctor.
It works best that way.
Cate, he's right.
Where's the chief? Who's running the floor? I am.
And I've been doing this job for a while, so you need to trust me.
BANFIELD: 'Clear.
' She should be warm enough now to respond to the shock.
Clear! (GROANS) I don't understand this.
Autoscope.
Mr Herrero, did you see her hit anything on the way down? Se golpio la cabeza? No.
No creo.
On some rocks? Anything? Estaba muy agitada, asi que la lleve a pasear.
She was really cranky, so he took her out.
Es mi culpa? Hice algo mal? He's asking if it's his fault.
If he did something wrong.
GREENE: 'Cat scans show signs' of hypoattenuation in the distribution of the MCA.
I'm not a doctor.
Can you explain that? Your son had a stroke.
What?! Howw-w-why would he have that? I can't explain that yet.
HALEH: He's Bradying down.
You need to give thrombolytics.
Not without a CBC.
All right, 0.
2 of epi and prep some atropine.
Let's keep neurosurge in the loop.
You said he you said this was a fever.
You said he didn't need anything.
Stop talking like a doctor.
That's our son, damn it! HALEH: Heart rate's down to 40.
No pulse.
Starting compressions.
Is there any sickle cell in your family? Thalassemia? No! Can you think of any reason why your son had a stroke? No.
Start atropine.
Mark.
They're waiting for you upstairs.
I'm a little busy here.
Yeah, I can take over.
It looks like you need a break.
Any meds? No, he's healthy.
He doesn't take anything.
(SOTTO VOCE): I'll see if they can hold your chemo.
Is it possible that he ingested something? Something from your medicine cabinet? Maybe it's an ingestion.
She's up to 94 now.
What medicines are in the house? MORRIS: Clear! SANDRA: Nothing, just aspirin.
Anything else? Prescription meds, over-the-counter? Still V-fib.
Sandra, mi medicina.
What? What does he take? Pills for blood pressure, carda-something.
Is there any way Valecia could've gotten into them? No.
It has a child-proof cap Esta abierta.
Diltiazem.
Diltiazem! Very toxic in kids.
Blanca, half a gram of calcium.
IV push.
I'll check trauma one.
Lab says that specimen's hemolyzed.
It's probably because they just let it sit around for an hour.
Not the first time.
It's all right.
I always draw an extra red top.
Whoa, let me look at that.
What? What is it? The buffy coat.
You can't diagnose anything from Look at the ratio of whites to reds.
Haleh, call oncology.
Have them get that leukapheresis machine down here now.
Oncology? You're going to do that without a confirmed diagnosis? The seizure, the stroke, it's sludging.
It all fits.
Oh, God.
Jerry, I want you to drag a hematologist to a microscope and make him look at this boy's smear.
JERRY: Right away, Dr Greene.
Is someone going to tell me what is happening here? Leukemia.
Daryl's got leukemia.
LUIS: Sana, sana colita de rana What's he doing? "Little frog tail," it's a nursery rhyme.
Si no sanas ahora "If you don't heal today" .
.
sanaras manana.
"You'll heal tomorrow.
" Sana, sana colita Another round of epi.
Toxicology's on their way.
All right, Dr Martin, make those compressions count.
ALVARADO: Calcium's on board.
Sana, sana colita de rana Pushing epi.
Epi's in.
Infusion's on the way.
Is this the leukapheresis case? We almost have access.
Switch with me.
Platelets are up.
BANFIELD: Platelets? We don't even know if he's thrombocytopenic.
He's oozing around his IVs, there's no way he's not.
Platelets could worsen the viscosity.
He needs a femoral line.
I can't place it if he can't clot.
We have no choice.
He could stroke out! Listen to me - we have no choice.
Calcium's back, 4.
2.
Going in the right direction.
Not fast enough.
Push another half gram.
Got it.
Repeat the level with calce, phos, sodium.
Potassium, BUN, creatinine, LDH.
It's been over ten minutes.
Is-is this going to help? This machine improves blood flow.
It'll give his heart a chance to rebound.
When will we know it's working? It takes a little time.
MORRIS: It's been 30 minutes.
Clear.
No change.
Come on.
Come on, now.
Clear! GREENE: 'V-tach.
' Could be hyperkalemic from tumour lysis.
Five of insulin with an amp of d50.
Clear! Still V-tach.
Going again.
Clear! Dr Greene.
Mix 20 of kayexalate.
Labs are back.
White count, 167,000.
Large myeloblasts.
No.
No.
No.
No, no, no.
Yes! Yes, sinus rhythm! Clear! TRACY: Oh, my God.
We got a pulse.
He's been down for almost an hour.
SANDRA: Is she back? You got her back? His brain's been deprived of oxygen.
Call surgery.
We need to get her upstairs so they can close the chest.
I'm going to stop now.
LUIS: Sana, sana colita de rana.
Si no sanas ahora, sanaras manana SANDRA: You saved her.
You saved her! Sana, sana colita de rana.
Si no sanas ahora, sanaras manana.
(QUIETLY): Sana, sana colita de rana.
(SOBBING) (SOBBING): No (LUIS CONTINUES QUIETLY) 'Sana, sana colita de rana.
'Si no sanas ahora, sanaras manana.
(HUSHED): 'Sana, sana colita de rana.
'Si no sanas ahora, sanaras manana.
' No 'Sana, sana colita de rana.
'Si no sanas ahora, sanaras manana.
'Sana, sana colita de rana.
'Si no sanas ahora, sanaras manana.
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I know you're still mad at me for taking the job, but it was my dream job.
Yes, Adam.
You seem to think everything is just gonna carry on like before.
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SANDRA: We can go with her? Yo los llevare a la sala de espera.
Have them recheck the calcium.
I want to thank you.
It's what we do, when it goes right.
There was a minute there It was like I was losing everything.
You can't imagine I'm glad it all worked out for you.
She's a beautiful child.
We're still waiting on the coroner.
Something else you need? I want to clean him up.
Probably have some gauze.
I want the tube out.
Normal procedure is we have to wait for the coroner before I'm familiar with procedure.
Where's your husband? He's calling our families.
I know, uh, nothing I can say will probably mean much to you right now.
But I've I've seen enough grief in my life to know how devastating it can be (QUIETLY): .
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and, uh how hard it can be to find the resilience.
I just hope you and your husband find DOOR OPENS ROMANO: Greene? A minute in the hall? Excuse me.
So, Oncology is mad at me.
Why do you suppose that is? I've had my hands full, Robert.
Yeah, well, I just used all my pull and influence to persuade them to keep the chemo suite open for one more hour.
So get your ass up there or I'm going to sell your Vincristine on the black market for its street value.
I'm still Stop complaining! Nobody told you to go and get cancer.
I have to go.
I'll be back as soon as I can.
You never answered my question.
I can't let you extubate him.
You know that.
You're free to cut the tube.
(BREATHES DEEPLY) (SIGHS) Those are the ones you never forget.
You shouldn't be doing that.
I keep a secret stash in the back of the fridge.
Crack one open when something really amazing happens.
In five years here, this is like the third one I've drunk.
One beer every 20 months, I can overlook.
So forgive me for noticing, but what happened in there? Something changed.
The situation evolved.
It was a kid, right? We all have one.
Some case you blew or patient you should've saved.
Yours was a kid? (SIGHS) Yeah.
How old? He was five years old.
Those are the worst.
He was my son.
He died here.
In trauma one.
Your sondied in this ER? And you're working here? I'm not sure why I've done anything I've done since that day.
Why did I not leave my apartment for almost two years? Then I see the news about the tsunami and I fly to a place Why'd I do that? Why'd I come back? Why did my son have leukemia? I never understood any of it.
I'm-I'm sorry for your, for your loss.
II don't really know what to say.
When your parents are gone, you're an orphan.
A spouse dies, you're a widow or widower.
But when you lose your baby there's no word for that.
See to it she gets this before you go.
BOAT HORN Hey.
Listen, I would really like to see you.
I-I miss you, Elizabeth.
Please, please don't don'tdon't cry.
Yeah tonight.
Yeah, yeah.
I'll-I'll come over.
I'll see you then.
I'm sorry I wasn't there when they came for Daryl.
But I, uh, I had to be somewhere, so, um It was an atypical presentation.
Nobody could've picked it up.
If I had just brought him in earlier He had acute leukemia, that's why he died.
It might've given me another day, a little more time.
They said we can go now.
I-I appreciate your effort, Dr Greene.
Take care.
Both of you.
Good luck.
BANFIELD: Baby? Where are you? (SIGHS) You never cried at the hospital, at the funeral.
I've been I've been really angry about that.
You never cried about anything since that day.
Maybe we've been fooling ourselves.
Maybe we've been done for a long time, but never figured it out.
I never blamed you.
Never.
I used to think every day that if God told me I could die and go to Heaven and be with Daryl, I would do it.
I wondered if that made me an awful person, that I'd give up my life with you, give up everything we could still have in the future.
I neverreally got away from the feeling like I need to be with him.
Dreaming of him.
I never got away from the idea that somehow I'd be able to hold him again.
(DARYL AND BANFIELD LAUGHING) I've been afraid for so long.
I don't want to be afraidany more.
(SOBBING QUIETLY)